#But then I remember the Atrocities and idk anymore

[nattvingen]

I hope Meryl replaces Kalec on the Council of Six, and not Aethas. After all this time Blizzard is still fucking itself into an ever deeper hole re: Purge of Dalaran a.k.a. "the worst plotline Blizz ever conceived also it smacks of antisemitism and culminates in what is little more than sick Kristallnacht fanfic and thinking about it makes me want to scream (at Jaina (but actually at everyone involved in greenlighting it))"

[utdrmv-confession-box]

Transcript: I imagine gaster was around during when chara was in the underground. And if you take the idea of them possessing Frisk for the No Mercy run(chill out, I don’t mean the stereotypical 2018 portrayal. I was thinking more along the lines of hopelessness/feeling of betrayal after their plan failed. Along the lines of the newsletter themes of hurting others to lessen their own ability to be hurt anymore, that kinda thing), I like to imagine they’d randomly remember him/be reminded of him when killing papyrus/sans. Idk just a cool thing that came to mind when I was listening to the instrumental of Drawn to the Bitter while answering a completely unrelated uquiz question

No but seriously the newsletter has given me so much angst ideas for the goob. Like. What if after their plan failed they lost hope in both Humans AND monsters so they just kinda went fuck it I’ll be the destroyer of everything. If I can numb myself and enough with the atrocity of my actions I won’t care anymore. I’ll be able to just unleash and let run wild the animalistic fury within me. If I self-villainise enough, I’ll feel like a villain, and villains don’t feel remorse or pain

[luvksj]

Yandere!Usos: Standing Up For Myself

author’s pov: hey, long time no see huh? sorry for being so MIA, i’ve been drained of any creative flow and have also been relaxing after a stressful year in 2022! anyway, who enjoyed Royal Rumble 2023 - i definitely did, 100%. 

i’ve been loving the development of the storyline between Sami Zayn and the Bloodline. i’m over the moon Sami finally turned on Roman and has had enough of his bullshit. but i didn’t expect Jey to walk out like that - things have gotten so much more interesting. 

i hope Sami and Jey get their well-deserved main event moments. i know the rumored plan is for Sami to face Roman at Elimination Chamber and then for Sami and Kevin to go after the tag titles but with the new angle regarding Jey - idk what’ll happen. 

but i’m very excited to see how it evolves following the Royal Rumble situation. the entire crowd cheered when Sami hit Roman with the chair intended for Kevin. but this could be the possible downfall of the Bloodline with Roman reaping what he sows. 

also congratulations to Cody Rhodes and Rhea Ripley for winning the rumble. i very much expected this, i can’t wait for Wrestlemania - i’ve honestly never been so excited for a Wrestlemania before. 

anyway, enough blabber from me. enjoy the fic!

pov: you’ve had enough and decided to take a stand. you just didn’t know the consequences that’ll come with your change of heart.

You couldn’t go on like this anymore.

The final straw was watching helplessly as they mercilessly beat up Sami and Kevin. No matter how hard you tried to suppress the tears, they still ran down your face. 

Scrunching your hands into fists, you turn around so you didn’t have to witness the atrocity happening. You’d wince every time Roman hit Sami with the chair intended for Kevin, a fresh batch of tears forming each time. 

After everything he endured, Sami finally had enough. He was fed up with Roman using him and decided to take a much-needed stand against Roman. It was satisfying to watch Sami hit Roman with the chair intended for Kevin. You were beyond proud of Sami.

Roman had become a tyrant, corrupted by power. The greed to have more has changed him into an actual monster and he forced his own family to join his reign of terror — forcing them to “acknowledge” him as the Tribal Chief.

Well, you were officially done “acknowledging him”. 

You were done acknowledging all of them including your boyfriends, the Undisputed WWE tag team champions, the Usos. 

Ever since they joined the Bloodline, they’ve been treating you differently. Treating you as if you’re a ghost, a shadow — neglecting you, pushing you to the sidelines so they can tend to the Tribal Chief’s every command. If this was a short-term thing, it wouldn’t bug you but it’s been happening since 2021 and you were done.

Sami was the only one who truly felt like family in that group and supported you no matter what. He was the only one who remembered your birthday and brought you a gift when no one else did (from the Bloodline, that is). 

You were done with everything regarding the Bloodline. It was time to get some well-deserved payback on them for yourself and everyone whose been a victim of their reign of terror.

Following Royal Rumble, you distanced yourself from the Bloodline. You treated them like they treated you— like a ghost. You were still a part of the Bloodline but fans suspected that you’d leave soon knowing your close friendship with Sami.

You had a plan. A plan to make Wrestlemania greater than ever and you were working discreetly with Sami Zayn and Kevin Owens to pull it off. 

At Wrestlemania, Sami and Kevin will battle the Usos for the tag titles while Cody will fight Roman for the undisputed WWE universal championship.

On the day of Wrestlemania, you put the plan you have been working on ever since Royal Rumble with Sami and Kevin into action. You have been absent ever since Elimination Chamber nursing an injury from the Elimination Chamber match you competed in.

Slipping in undetected, you quickly made your way to Sami and Kevin’s shared trailer. You greeted them and got ready, concealing yourself with black clothing. You hid every detail of yourself making yourself look like the outcast the Bloodline made you feel.

Sami and Kevin were called for their match. You wished them luck, giving them a warm hug, “Go kick my boyfriends’ butts.” you muttered making them chuckle, “Don’t worry, we will. Especially with you on our side.” Kevin responded. 

During the match, you got into position and waited. Before the Usos could hit their finisher, you came running out and slid into the ring. Catching them with a punch, you mustered up all your strength and suplexed Jey from the top turnbuckle.

Turning your attention to Jimmy, he attempted an Uso splash but you caught him with a superkick. The fans went insane, cheering loudly as you assaulted them. The referee was down, accidentally hit with a superkick meant for Sami.

So, this was all perfectly legal as long as the referee didn’t see anything.

Pulling Jimmy up, you hoisted him onto your shoulders and did the Samoan drop, planting him on top of Jey. Noticing the opportunity, you climbed up to the top turnbuckle and executed an imploding 450° splash on both of them.

Positioning them so Sami and Kevin were laying on top of a Uso, you dragged the referee back into the ring. He slowly did the count, the fans counting along, “1! 2! 3!” The bell rings as the fans erupt into cheers while the referee rolled out of the ring.

“And the NEW WWE undisputed tag-team champions, Sami Zayn and Kevin Owens!”

Sami and Kevin rolled off the Usos, not understanding what just happened. You took the titles and handed it to them — that’s when it hit them. It worked, the plan worked. They stared at it with teary eyes and hugged each other before hugging you.

Standing over the Usos, you pull off the mask revealing yourself and the cheering just got 10x louder. It almost knocked you off your feet, “Oh my gosh, it’s Y/N — the Usos’ girlfriend! She just cost her boyfriends the titles!” commentary was going crazy. 

The Usos were slowly regaining consciousness and you crouched down to meet their eyes, needless to say they were surprised. You grinned at their shocked expressions, “Why are you so surprise? You should’ve seen this coming — it’s only been months in the making.”

Walking off, you all stood at the top of the ramp and raised your hands up proudly to the cheers of fans, the Usos just stared at you in total disbelief which made you smirk. 

You all then headed backstage to prepare for phase 2.

Yes, that was phase one of the plan. 

Phase two was Roman’s match against Cody for the undisputed WWE universal championship. That was going to be the cherry on top. 

Before Roman could spear an oblivious Cody, you all ran into the ring and unleashed hell. Raining punches and kicks on him, you were all getting the long-awaited payback on him.

Roman fell limp and you all offered him to Cody, the same way Sami offered Kevin to Roman during their Wargames match at Survivor Series 2022. Everything was coming back to haunt him cause what goes around comes right back around.

Cody hits his finisher and pinned Roman for the win.

The fans once again erupted, overjoyed that Cody had finally achieved his American Dream and became a world champion. You were also happy for him, this was long overdue. He quickly left the ring so you guys could continue the assault on Roman.

He was now your personal punching bag and no one could stop you guys.

Hauling his limp body out of the ring, you all share a knowing look. Kevin sent him into the steel stairs, Sami drove him into the ring post and you pushed him into the barricade. Roman collapsed on the floor, recoiling in pain.

While Kevin and Sami dragged Roman back inside the ring, handcuffing him to the ropes, you got steel chairs from underneath the ring. Handing the boys a chair each, you surrounded Roman like dogs surrounding their prey.

Paul Heyman had been dealt with and was unconscious. Staring at each other, you look at Roman and grin at his state – he looks like Kevin and Sami when they were in his position. Without hesitating, you three unload on Roman and no-one hold back giving him exactly what he deserves. The cheering fans motivated you, increasing the strength and impact of your hits.  

After a while, you toss your chair aside and crouch down to meet his bloody face. He was barely conscious and gripped his chin, forcing him to look at you. You couldn’t help but smirk, it was a truly satisfying sight to see him like this.

You uttered the words you’ve been wanting to say for the longest time, “I’m done acknowledging you and the Bloodline. I’m done with everything regarding the Bloodline including the people who form it. I don’t need you to be the best, you’ve only been holding me back and now I’m free. So, you can take this ‘Head of the Table’ shit and go shove it cause I’m done acknowledging you.”

Standing tall over Roman’s unconscious body, you revel in the fans cheering. The Underdogs have dethroned the champs and come out on top despite the constant ridicule you guys endured from them. You guys headed backstage and celebrate your well-earned victory, taking one last glance at Roman who was being helped out of the ring by officials and rushed to the hospital.

On the RAW after Wrestlemania, you held a celebration for Sami and Kevin becoming the new tag team champions.

During the celebration, you confessed all your sins. “I had been working on that plan ever since Royal Rumble. I got sick and tired of being treated like a ghost. The final straw was them attacking the people who have felt my family since I lost mine to the pursuit of power.”

You released all your bottled-up emotions and thoughts. “It felt wonderful unleashing that beating Roman and apparently everyone else thought so because it trended worldwide on social media. I guess people have gotten sick of the Bloodline as well?” You were met with cheers making you grin.

Sami and Kevin conveyed similar words. You all cheers to a successful plan and new beginnings, not forgetting to leave a message for the Bloodline who were in the hospital.

“I don’t regret a single thing. I should have done it ages ago. To my boyfriends who have been neglecting me ever since joining the Bloodline, I’m not a ghost or a shadow you can cast aside. You have messed with the wrong girl, all of you have! What happened at Wrestlemania is a taste of what I can do. Besides didn’t anyone tell you that the underdogs always come out on top in the end?”

. . . ⇢ ˗ˏˋ [TIMESKIP] ࿐ྂ

You, Sami and Kevin focused on your respective storylines but you had formed an alliance with each other. You guys always had each other’s back no matter what.

During the Bloodline’s hiatus, you had become the Smackdown Women’s champion dethroning Charlotte Flair in a high stakes match at Summerslam, achieving one of your biggest dreams. You proudly held up the title, tears running down your cheeks as reality had set in.

But you did wish that the Usos were here to witness it and celebrate with you. Sami and Kevin had run out to celebrate with you, filling that void. “Congrats Y/N, you deserve this.” They said, hugging you tightly. You smile and return the affection, “Thank you truly.”

Sami and Kevin successfully defended their tag-team titles. You returned the favour, running out to celebrate their victory with them. All of you were now champions and stood proudly together in the ring, holding up your titles as the fans cheered, the biggest babyfaces in WWE were all champions.

Guess it’s true, you really didn’t need them after all.

Looking at Sami and Kevin, you couldn’t help but smile fondly. They had become your second family after you lost your one. The sweet moment was ruined by the sound of oh-so familiar music blaring. Ignoring the sinking feeling in your stomach, you guys turn around to see the Bloodline and their eyes were locked on you three.

Marching to the ring, they never broke eye contact and fans enjoyed the tension. You smirked at the scars left on their bodies reminding them of their downfall as the ‘top fraction in WWE’. “Hey Roman,” Sami began, you and Kevin smirked at each other knowing exactly what’s coming.

“Acknowledge us.” You three held up your titles, taunting the now title-less Bloodline. They growl and a brawl ensued. It was Roman vs Sami, Solo vs Kevin and you vs the Usos. The fans cheered as it spilled out into the crowd.

You dodge a punch from Jey and connect with a knee to the abdomen. Jimmy tried to sneak attack but you avoid that and hit him with a Poison Rana. Noticing an opportunity, you lay the Usos on the announcer’s table and climb onto the nearest top turnbuckle. Running across the top rope, you jump and execute an Uso splash on them, sending the Usos through the announcer’s table.

Rolling off them, you lay beside them and catch your breath. Wow, that was exhilarating. It ended once again with you three standing tall amongst the chaos and you guys headed backstage – needless to say that was one of the most successful Summerslams in WWE history.

Unfortunately, it didn’t end there for you. They were determined to get their revenge however that looked a bit different for you compared to Sami and Kevin. Sami and Kevin were competing in a tag team match and you decided to accompany them, watching from ringside, when the Bloodline appeared out of nowhere and attacked.

Well, Roman and Solo were assaulting Sami and Kevin. The Usos had you cornered but they weren’t attacking you. Jimmy had handcuffed your wrists while Jey gagged you, tying a bandana around your mouth. Weaving a hand through your H/C locks, Jey harshly tugs it forcing you to make eye contact with him – his wicked grin tells you something horrible is about to happen.

“I think someone has forgotten whose in charge uce. I think she needs a reminder of what happens when you disobey your master.” Jey taunts, his grip on your hair getting tighter. Jimmy hums, staring at your helpless figure, “I think you’re right uce, I think someone has forgotten whose in charge here. I guess she needs to be reminded.” He responded.

Leaning into your ear, Jey whispers, “You’ve been a brat lately and brats like you get punished. You need to remember whose in charge here.” Unable to make a snarky response, the Usos drag you out of the arena and shove you inside the car, they had gotten your belongings before.

Heading back to the hotel, you endured the harshest punishment ever. You were grateful no one was here to hear your screams. Laying lifeless on the bed, the Usos stare at your state and smirk, “Who’s the boss here?” Jimmy asks rhetorically.

Lifting your head up, you tiredly grin, “Me. I’m the boss of myself and of the Smackdown Women’s division.” Clearly that wasn’t the answer because Jimmy tugs your chin, forcing eye contact, “You clearly haven’t learnt your lesson yet.” He growls.

You endure three more punishments of an equal calibre. Your body was covered in red marks, bruises and cuts – it left you breathless. But every time they asked the question, you gave them the same response, “I’ll never stop being a brat. You don’t own me and besides… it’s fun to get you guys riled you.” You declare, grinning teasingly at them.

Your cockiness costed you severely but you didn’t care, it was fun to rile them up especially on live TV in front of millions of people. 

[wawamouse]

⭐, please !!!!! (if it suits you)

Dealer's choice, ei? I guess I will talk about "Life Gets Tedious Enough"/Something Deranged, my very first Oz fic(s). :) Immediate thoughts: horrible title. Doesn't match the theme I created with the rest of the series. The series also has a horrible name—"Something Deranged". Bit of a misnomer. The series is pretty tame. Fic #1 and the series title are both song lyric titles, that's why they don't match the theme. I honestly want to change both but idk what to so eh.

But yes, let's take a walk back to August 30, 2023. I will set the scene and first admit that the I had originally watched Oz in 2018 bc my college had HBO Go lol, but I had not watched it in its entirety (so Rewatch 3 is more like Rewatch 2 if we're honest…). I had read a lot of fanfic back then (mostly Miguel/Ryan) for obvious reasons (abundance) (Keller/Beecher didn't interest me that much) (I actually didn't ship anyone when I originally watched Oz — kind of amazing in retrospect). I download fanfic rather than bookmark it, so a partial Fringe rewatch in 2023 had led me to remember Charlie (Kirk Acevedo) was also in Oz, which led me to remember my treasure trove of Oz fic. I had actually used Miguel's character as the basis of an OC for a story I was writing back in 2018, about these two guys stuck at a cabin in the middle of nowhere, having to pull a lever everyday to prevent the sky from collapsing or whatever (as bad as it sounds), and I was like "hm" maybe I should reread some Oz fanfic to be re-inspired! (Note: I never did end up revisiting the story) Cue me rereading all the fic I had saved. Cue me rewatching parts of the actual show to contextualize the fanfic and Remember. Cue me being like "Hold on a sec, this Chico guy…"

Again, I didn't really ship anyone with anyone, but I thought Guerra was kind of funny for the atrocities (also and perhaps mostly because he was hot) (his pretty privilege...) (But also: him being a character that basically only exists to support Miguel's storyline = very funny. Very gay). In my Oz revisitation of '23, I was like "Wait, d'oh! enemies to lovers! Claaaassic! I'm sure this has been done!" Well, no spoilers there, it had been done. About 5 times, with only @/merelyafigment's wonderful "Dose" existing at the time I would've initially been crawling through the fanfiction archives. WOEEEEE!!! <My bafflement and disappointment.

Here was a dynamic that spanned nearly the entire show that seemed primed for the fanfic girlies (and me lol) to read into. Only 5 fics?? (I will say it was pretty serendipitous that 2 of them were Chinese, which I had taught myself to actually read starting basically just 3 years prior 🫡 物以类聚 人以群分 😆) That said, I think it was perfect that I got back into Oz when I did, though, because I didn't have much confidence in my fic writing ability before 2020 when I lost my mind and wrote 59 fics for a TV show I watched in April a month after most lockdowns began LOL. That experience was literally the only thing that made me go (SIGHHHH) "I guess I will have to be the change I wish to see in the world". And then I wrote "Life Gets Tedious Enough".

Ah, and now the commentary of the actual fic itself begins.

It's kind of funny to read it back and see where some of the characterisations and dialogue quirks I wrote into that fic, and that series in general, differ on how I would approach Miguel and Chico's characterisations now. Firstly, I used "hermano" a lot in that series, something I picked up from reading other fanfic which I don't use at all in my fic anymore, as I realised in subsequent rewatches that it's not really used in the show by anyone except by Ryan, mockingly.

I like the Chico hallucination choice I used in this series, though:

A part of him thinks nah, no way, remembering the fucking shadows—pointing at him, sending him away, back to Oz, that place he’d never left—remembering all those hands grabbing him, ghosts jumping on his back, sliding a garrote around his neck. But the green tab sliding out onto Alvarez’s finger brings to mind other memories, too—music pulsing through him, colors of the world warping to the beat, the world spinning, Alvarez seeming to glow in front of him— The little pill of Destiny sits pretty against the color of Alvarez’s skin, and Chico—Chico starts to lean forward.

And I see my penchant for writing Chico winding up Miguel until they straight up fight about it began here. There is a sensitivity and uncertainty I gave to Chico's characterisation in this series which began at the end of "Life Gets Tedious Enough" that carries into "Holding Up the Sky". I still flip flop on in terms of whether or not I think it's a stupid choice and random characterisation. There's definitely a lot in this series that I think I missed the mark on/feel self conscious about, but I was pretty satisfied with how "Life Gets Tedious Enough" turned out at the time that I wrote it, and I still think it's one of the better fics in the "Something Deranged" series. Idk. It's kind of a whatever series in general imo so I'm a little 🥴 that it's more or less got the most eyes on it out of all my Oz fanfics. It's okay, though. I was trying stuff out. I wish I had made "Thicker Than Water" a little more stand alone, though. It's highly referential to "Holding up the Sky", which is a bit of a weakness maybe... Although it was fun to rework certain moments into Chico's POV and change the emphasis of the scene or tweak the vibe, something I revisited in the alternating POVs with "Third Day of Spring". Worse fics in the series gotta be "Ripples in the Night" or "Aftershock", just because they are forgettable, I guess? Like among all the Oz fics I've written, those two ping the least in my brain and memory 😂. My favorite moments in the "Something Deranged" series gotta be when Chico no-nonsensely holds Miguel's hand in "Rolling On" and also in "Sun Dog" when they're standing in that patch of sun in the private hospital room, and Chico's leaning against Miguel :)

Okay, I've rambled way too much so I will leave things off here.

[robinsnest2111]

I wanted to let you know I'm perfectly okay with you posting your response to my other ask - and this one - publicly.

Also, the German Guilt™ is bullshit and needs to go. I feel so bad for everyone over there; y'all rarely show much national pride anymore unless it's for a sporting event. Germans have just as much right to feel proud of their heritage as anybody else. (Heaven knows we Americans show plenty of it😂) I'd venture to say the majority of people understand the regime was one of those things that takes special circumstances to even happen. One of those 'the planets have to align just so' type events. It was a different era; a different political climate altogether. Those who still throw slurs are uneducated idiots. Ignore 'em, call 'em a dummkopf...whatever floats your boat.😄 Same applies to any other Germans who might be reading this.

But yeah, the war ended 78 years ago, our countries have been close allies for decades, etc. It's time to let the past go. Remembering it in order to prevent atrocities from happening again is fine. Continuously feeling guilty over the actions of people who are long dead, however, is not. If y'all could survive the absolute chaos that was the Weimar Republic, you guys can handle this too.🇺🇲💜🇩🇪

(I would have sent all of this to you in a message, but you only allow messages from Tumblrs you follow.)

thank you for your kind and encouraging words

idk about my fellow Germans, but for me national pride is a very difficult subject. the war may be long over and the regime smashed, but if you look closely, its ghost is still present in many parts of daily life, society, and power structures here. Still so much to change and improve.

The ones yelling the loudest for a comeback of traditions, culture and national pride are very obviously aligned with far right conservative ideology, purity of the German people and other such harmful nonsense and paint a very narrow-minded and hate-filled picture of what they consider German culture, traditions and values. All while stealing and misusing other cultures' symbols and traditions for their goals.

Personally, I've never been shown or taught much of anything about regional (and national) history, traditions and culture apart from the shameful role we played in the 30s and 40s. There's not much to be proud of from my current point of view.

[All of this makes enjoying or being interested in any media that involves this era, no matter if the nazis are painted as fools and losers in a comedic light or as evil Bad Guys in a more serious way, even objective deep dive documentaries, feel dangerous and forbidden. Other Germans don't shy away from occasionally making fun of Hitler and the Nazis, idk why it is so difficult for me. Maybe because the lines between humour, education and glorification are so damn blurry, can turn into a slippery slope so fast, you cannot look into other people's brains and know the true motivations behind their actions, and I've never been good at navigating all this.]

Anyway, maybe I need to dig deep into local archives and do some research myself. Find some pieces of light (local folklore, everyday history, smaller lesser known traditions, etc.) underneath the dark heavy blanket of Germany's national past. Try to differentiate and balance it out in my brain. Find nuance. To quiet the part of my mind that keeps shouting "IT'S ALL CONNECTED AAAHHHH!" whenever I think about German history and culture, cause and effect, etc.

As always, this is only how I personally feel and think about this in this moment, I'm obviously NOT speaking for all of the German people!

[chocodee]

I'm gonna get a Lil rambly. Lil weepy. Lil...iunno.

Content warning for mental health issues, bad thoughts, and general sad vibes atm.

Mostly a vent post.

Gonna go straight out the gate and say I don't know what I wanna do with my life. Hell, I don't even know how to know what to do with my life. I spent so long looking for the things I'd think would complete me, marching to the beat of a drum I feel like my family had been beating for me that at points I kinda don't know who I am.

I know I love art and writing. I love my wife. I love my friends. I just don't love myself. I don't really know how to. For decades now there's been this mindset of self sacrifice that, when looking back at it, was more of a grandiose "look at me" sort of business than actually helping people.

Hell I used to think some terrible things about other people. When I broke away from my family I ended up hitting a low point that I feel like I'm still suffering from.

Some days it feels like hornets spinning around in my head telling me to hate. Hate. Hate. Hate my family whom I left, hate my coworkers that I stand at political odds with, hate myself because I'm awful.

Those poisonous thoughts that lead me to plunge deeper into a darkness that I wish I could escape...

It's not all bad. I have my life and i am learning to enjoy it again, but healing and moving and dealing with my own addictions while trying to work up the joy to pursue my passions again.

It's painful. And I get so lost in my own head that I forget reality is a cruel and uncaring mistress. A friend of mine is facing being homeless, violent atrocities are being committed and excused. Hell people I'm next to who call themselves the most hard-core Christians are ready at a moments notice to break every commandment that's supposedly been set before them just to show how much they hate their neighbor.

I'm trying to regain my faith that I once had. In the world, in humanity, hell I've been trying to regain my faith in my religion (and turning in a way that my own family would find abhorrent but that's another rant altogether)

I don't know what i want to do but I don't want to die, but somedays it just gets so hard to go to bed because sleep brings tomorrow faster.

And I'm still trying to have hope. Because it's worth it and I want to have children but I refuse to have them when the world is about to collapse. This is a problem that I want to get through so I can make a place where i can be a father to raise a child that will be their own person.

I want to have hope again and want to feel like I'm living with purpose. Idk what it's gonna look like but, I guess at the end of the day I'll be happy when I won't have to worry about it anymore.

Till then I'm gonna be here and grumpy as fuck.

I don't know how to end this sorry for the rant. Needed to get thoughts out of my head.

Happy holidays. Remember, we're all we've got somedays.

[parviocula]

A lot of pro-Palestine people are doing huge damage to their own cause like I was far more sympathetic to the Palestinian political cause (still am sympathetic to them as human lives undergoing atrocities) before tumblr popped off with a 24/7 hour stream of THE most vile, antisemitic shit I've seen in my life. Now I almost have to remind myself that the Palestinians are still in dire straits and need immediate help and that their lives aren't invalidated just because their supporters are fucking evil. Just don't talk to me about the one/two-state side of things.

Usually I don't have that much trouble fighting off black-and-white 'us versus them' thinking but seeing the shit around here lately makes me want to myself on whatever side opposes them.

Yeah I understand where you're coming from! When this first started because of that Hamas terrorist group murdering all those music fest people I remember being shocked but also like not? Now it's sprouted into this bs of "GAS JEWS!!!" "FUCK THE JEWS" shit and I am like oh here we go.

Everyone's been waiting to go full AntiSemetic & it is SHOWING. I had friends who were "Pro-Palestine" and retweeting/blogging this shit and I'm like noooo you're not pro anybody, you're an antisemetic! Say what you are! c:

I think I came a cross more harsh in my tags over Palestine because there's not been an instance where I checked one out and they were almost all AntiSemetics. And seeing the fucking airport shit? Fuck Me Idk what to think or do anymore at this point.

I get nervous for my Synagogue and myself now. They're such good people who would help anyone. To think there's somebody out there who wants them dead fucking SUCKS.

Anyways I appreciate your message! I really do.

I hope you're doing alright.

[mettasing]

so i have brainworms, and even though i'm unsure of their quality, i'm gonna let them outtt. i may repeat or rephrase some of your points, op, i'm sorry :( p.s. and i'm sorry for barging in

basically, every character in ffvi who can be present in final confrontation has a traumatic experience and some response to it. i really like the narrative role of WoR, i wanna scratch myself and make unintelligible noises. and i also like that WoR serves the same role for kefka. not only he can't move on, but he also still wants to blame others for his suffering (which may or may be not be self-inflicted, we don't know shit about him because it probably shouldn't matter, as for every pc there was a chance to become someone like him). like, you have a person beyond helping, let alone saving. although who wants to do it all after his atrocities; at this point it's just human mind refusing to believe in someone's immorality AND lack of common sense. and on top of that they're actively and CONSCIOUSLY refusing help – even tho i believe that his question about the meaning of life was genuine, as he definitely had no problem killing ppl without listening to them, he could do the same with the returners (also, THE NAME........); he just didn't like their answers as they "did not apply" to his situation (bruh, not every third person is a fucking war criminal after a magic lobotomy. you needed a different kind of doctor all those years ago).

but also i think there's something machine-like about him, and that, i believe, is his true tragedy. maybe he was a human, but can we consider him as such in ffvi? inhumanity as in immorality and cruelty aside, he's probably more esper-like for infusing himself with magic beyond the initial experiment. and there's more to it. i remember a line from ihnmaims the game, that goes something like this: i was built to hurt you. i know, i may be giving kefka too much credit, but his tragedy and am's are similar in my mind. he has one purpose, he is a war machine, created by the empire. in dffoo it's stated that vector "created" him. he's not a human, he can't be reasoned with not just because he chooses to ignore you, but because he isn't capable to understand you anymore. and, depends on how you interpret his finale and non-canon appearances, he's self-aware and enraged. "i was the one broken" is one of his lines in dff, as if because of that he can do what he pleases. uematsu made a reference to tarkus in dancing mad's 4th movement, and, as much as i'm afraid to go "too deep", i still want to tap this fact and say that it's intentional. and in the end tarkus, a mechanical armadillo made for war who killed anyone who tried to best it with weapons, is finally beaten by manticore who used nothing but their venomous tail.

his mindset of someone eternally humiliated and in need of reassurance of self comes through really early. idk where did these "chaotic" portrayals (beside his general obscenity) came from, he's literally a stickler. he's obsessed with hierarchy and subordination and putting people in their place, the latter meaning humiliating others with sadistic glee. well, it only helps his self-actualisation that everyone and their mom hates his ass, so these sentiments give him an excuse – but when did someone like him cared for excuses?

i like him for being so awfully human, and that's the point – not in him being an overpowered super-villain-bad-guy (btw i'm not a fan of ppl using words like "good guys" and "bad guys" when discussing narratives, jokingly or not, like please stop immediately), but in him staying pathetic from start to finish while being very much a threat. AND he's also not a human, he's a machine, a weapon, a tarkus made for war and pain and torture. there are no gods of magic or ubermensch esp soldiers in our world, but there are opportunists, bootlickers, fascists and those who refuse to grow and take their lives in their own hands and instead choose to hurt others. and they aren't born like this.

𝙳𝚘 𝚞 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚗𝚘𝚗𝚜/𝚋𝚛𝚊𝚒𝚗 𝚍𝚞𝚖𝚙𝚜 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝙺𝚎𝚏𝚔𝚊 (𝙵𝙵𝚅𝙸) ? 𝙸𝚝'𝚜 𝚘𝚔 𝚒𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚘𝚛 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚊𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚖.

𝙸 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚌𝚞𝚛𝚒𝚘𝚞𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚞𝚛 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚗𝚘𝚗𝚜/𝚋𝚛𝚊𝚒𝚗 𝚍𝚞𝚖𝚙𝚜. 𝚃𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎'𝚜 𝚜𝚘 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚍𝚎𝚝𝚊𝚒𝚕 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚖!

𝚂𝚘𝚛𝚛𝚢 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚊𝚜𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 😅

Thanks for reading! And for asking 😌 I love talking FF6 all day, any day ❤️ My lazy ass only does wilful deep thinking about the twins. Ideas about other characters are more of a side-effect of talking this stuff with other enthusiasts 😁 I lean towards a Kefka who is pathetic in mind and body. Being a weakling makes his military career questionable, so he could be of aristocratic origin, with no real combat experience; or like Hitler, just a lackluster guy who got recruited because his country needed all the men they could get. I think he's petty but machiavellian, acting shitty whenever he can get away with it, but disciplined and smart enough to keep a facade that would get him closer to his goals. He has no respect for others, meaning he also has no self-respect, so he's very willing to entirely lose his dignity for the sake of his goals.

A hunger for power stems from deep feelings of disempowerment, so whatever advantages he had were never enough, he could not afford letting others be in charge. Now, EVERYONE and their mom and their cats and their dogs, etc, etc happen to have some sad story, which could very well be the case for him. But I've seen evil surfacing in people who refuse to take ownership of their experience (no matter how hard/unfair or how easy/fair). So for this guy there's always somebody else to blame and to look down on, because in his head, he doesn't suck, it's existence that sucks. And being such a pathetic-looking guy who's not even likeable would cause the people around him to talk shit behind his back, bully him, mock him, etc.

Vector does have a cult of personality, so there must be harsh judgment towards the common folk. Also the empire and other nations under the imperial boot are ridden with misery, inequality and social issues. Kefka comes from an environment where the only worthwhile position is the very top.

That's all I got for now 🙂

[haleigh-sloth]

hi! sorry for the stupid question but like do you think shiggy actually wants to exist in some weird post apocalyptic world as his goal or are we supposed to understand that all he is doing comes 100% from a place of fear/anger/bitterness and he would maybe end up regretting winning in the end? like idk if maybe the author just sees him as a tall child that never had a chance of growing up and having someone save him is really all he needs to become a good person??? btw sorry for the english

Don't apologize for your english! This is not a stupid question and I’m really happy actually because I feel like I never get Shigaraki questions anymore 😭😭.

do you think shiggy actually wants to exist in some weird post apocalyptic world as his goal or are we supposed to understand that all he is doing comes 100% from a place of fear/anger/bitterness and he would maybe end up regretting winning in the end

The answer to this is.....yes and no. Lol. Okay but seriously, yes we are supposed to understand that all of this is a reaction to his trauma and circumstances, and we are supposed to understand that YES it is absolutely not going to bring him any joy whatsoever, it will not heal him in any way whatsoever. He even said so himself:

(I'll touch on the post-apocalyptic part further down).

That's exactly why the notion of being saved by a hero is such an integral part of his plot line.

Not just him though, all of the LOV trio. Being saved by a hero is a big part of their individual arcs.

The LOV are portrayed as protagonists in their own right a lot of the times throughout the story, so there are two reasons as to why they can't and won't win in the end:

They can't just destroy everything and kill everybody. I mean, plain and simple.

Despite them being their own protagonists, if they WERE to destroy everything and succeed, they would still lose. Because it's been shown time and time again that the destruction they're seeking is a reaction, it's revenge, and not a solution. And we're supposed to understand at this point in time that the LOV all have unmet needs, and they cannot heal until those needs are met, and because of that they cannot destroy everything. They would still lose in the end. They would still be miserable and unhappy, bitter and angry, and isolated from the society that rejected them---the society that they still want to be a part of, yes, even now. Being their own protagonists in their own way, they're supposed to "win" at the end also. Just not the way they imagined.

like idk if maybe the author just sees him as a tall child that never had a chance of growing up and having someone save him is really all he needs to become a good person???

I think this is simplifying it a bit, but yes the author portrays him as a kid/really unstable & immature young adult who hasn't stepped into his age yet, yes, even after he seemingly matures during MVA. It's a mask to cover how much he's actually being smothered by AFO's psychological hold on him.

I don't think it's a matter of him becoming a good person after being saved. It's more like, that good person was always in there (see how the LOV, despite him making 0 demands of any of them, despite them all having different ideas for how to live, stick with him anyway). The author showed us what he was like as a little kid in his backstory, kind and caring---and then the author continues reminding us over and over and over again that the little kid Tenko DID exist at one point. It's like saying "Hey, I know this 21 year old is committing some serious atrocities right now, but remember there is more beneath the surface." (Child symbolism explained here).

So the notion that he'll "suddenly become a good person once he's saved" is kind of grazing over the fact that, had he been saved, Tomura Shigaraki wouldn't exist. Because as I said above, a hero saving Tenko is one of the most important aspects of his arc.

A hero not saving him was the beginning:

so a hero saving him has to be his ending:

I wanna touch on this question again:

do you think shiggy actually wants to exist in some weird post apocalyptic world as his goal or--

The thing about Shigaraki is that he doesn't really contemplate the future. I'm gonna bring in the LOV trio for this to explain.

You have Touya, who is stuck in his past:

Toga, who is focused on a future:

And then you have Shigaraki, who is strangled by his past, but has convinced himself that he's free from his past:

Except he's not:

So therefore he's living in the present.

So as for what kind of world he WANTS to live in, I don't think he's thought that far. I don't think he even cares really. There's not really any ideal world he's ever described or evisioned, just a horizon full of destruction. I don't think he wants anything in particular, he just knows that he doesn't want what currently exists.

Basically Shigaraki is functioning on a "we'll cross that bridge when we get there" mentality lol.

But the only thing we for sure know is that, even if it's so deep down, bottom of the unexplored ocean deep down, Shigaraki wants a hero to come for him. He's been waiting for one this whole time. He convinced himself he was done waiting, done hoping. During the war, that was him giving up on heroes entirely, being ready to reject everyone and everything. Butttt we know that he didn't, at least not completely--

[darkfinch]

question: so the sapphire monkey thing. in 2005 this dude calls eliot about a monkey and tells him to get the dagger as a replacement.

but the aimee flashback referencing a monkey had to have happened in the 90s to fit with the when aimee was in his life logic.

so... did it take the guy 5+ years to realize eliot never delivered the monkey? or is that how long it took him to track down eliot to send goons after him re: the missing monkey? or are there 2 monkeys? how. how many missing primates are in this mans life.

a good question. BIG DEEP SIGH okay so here is what we know

using chris kane's age, eliot joins the military at 18 in 1990

he is, at some point during his relationship with aimee, involved in.... Liberating Croatia, I Guess, whose war of independence ended in 1995 according to my friend wikipedia

[Note: Eliot says Aimee married someone else; Hardison asks "what did you do," in response to that, which i initially remembered as being that she left him BECAUSE he liberated croatia...but then when Eliot says that he Liberated Croatia TM, Hardison says, "Oh, I would have just got fat and started up a comic-Book shop". cause and effect switcheroo.

So Eliot liberated croatia After Aimee got married. a post-breakup croatian liberation vacation. some people liberate croatia to cope.]

the last time he sees Aimee is 8 years before 2008/2009 per the two-horse job, so like. 2000/2001, at which point he drops off the face of the earth. this is the monkey thing

this is so long i'm sorry i'm putting this under a readmore

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OKAY so eliot leaves and liberates croatia because aimee got married; aimee hasnt seen him in 8 years and he left because she got married; she got married in 1995; he left after 1995 and also in 2001. it's fine. it's okay. it's fine.

me and keith r a decandido of the zoo job fame (keith my friend keith) both think eliot was working for moreau around 2002/2003;

if eliot's pilot flashback of Belgrade is the same as moreau's poolside reference to Belgrade, then Eliot worked for him until around 2005.

the Rashomon Job (followup call about the monkey) is also in 2005.

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so. the way MY brain is currently putting together the mismatched pile of puzzle pieces that make up the eliot spencer timeline is:

aimee gets married in 1995, but she and eliot keep in touch (maybe he's visiting. maybe he's calling and sending letters. maybe it's messy and awful for everyone involved)

eliot drops off the face of the earth due to the thing with the monkey in 2001; he maybe (in a miserable Post-Trauma Life Re-evaluation) realizes she's not going to leave her husband/he doesnt fit in the space she's left for him in her life anymore and he Stays Gone this time; "i left because you got married" but not as the Immediate result. compromise :)

idk how LONG he was interrogated for re: the sapphire monkey, or what happens during the rest of 2001, but then he meets moreau soon after in 2002

2002-2005 he's working for moreau

so monkey guy probably waited until 2005 to call him about his problems because like...you don't call moreau's chief enforcer/head of security/atrocity generator to complain about a missing monkey. it's not good for your health or your wellbeing. hes busy

but the second Eliot's out on his own again and this guy can conceivably get to him, it's monkey time again :^)

[floxalopex]

I don't know if somebody already did this specifically. But yh the heck let's go.

WARNING 1: THIS IS NOT A POST FOR SENSITIVE PEOPLE AND/OR MINORS. (it contains gore and sexual themes and more).

And yes, SALT. Lots of salt.

WARNING 2: this has nothing to do with Christianity specifically. Atheism isn't hate towards your god(s) and/or its believers. Although there are many forms of atheism (some of which are so strong and violent they make me furious) think about mine as a general form of indifference. I hate the Church state, yes, but sorry I have that "at home" so please don't blame me. I don't like Abrahamic religions in general, but I've grown up with one.

I'm thankfully not a cult survivor, but I can understand some things.

WARNING 3: living in a very religious contest I have many beloved friends and relatives (starting with my mother) who believe in their god a lot. So if my words are too disrespectful tell me, I really don't want to hurt anybody.

Okay.

So.

I've seen many similarities between the cult Horde Prime put his clones in and your very average, very white, very western idea of Christianity.

1) Theophagy:

First of all, I really don't know much how this thing is lived in other Christian countries, but in mine they put a lot of emphasis on the Eucharist.

As far as I've seen I think it's pretty obvious how much in ancient cultures there's a very carnal and very grounded idea of the spirit. That can result in believing the soul to be the "psyche", so literally "the breath of life", the coordination of your sinapsis togheter (to me a very poetic definition of how our whole being ourselves is just us being our central nervous system) or it can lead to you eating the ashes of your granpa so you get his good qualities (something some cultures still do today). They said that the head of Orpheus was buried in the island of Lesbo and that's why its land was filled with amazing poets like Sappho. There's this very, sorry, brutal idea of the embodyment of the soul, the talents of a person, that even a piece of corpse is considered a magic thingy.

This is no different in the very old, very ancient, very rural Christian religion (at least in the most common version of it, we have many flavours of one truth apperentely).

When I was in High School we studied a lot Bacchus and the Baccanalia, because there are several commedies about it. My teacher, being very religious, was almost ashamed to admit that a lot of acts of those festivities (let's say that the most normal thing was for women to give their milk to animal cubs) were actually not very dissimilar in their rawness to certain habits of the religion.

So, what about Horde Prime? (me *yh, what about it, stupid ADHD?*). I have seen a post in the past explaining that yes, even though spacebats have the dentition of a frugivore bat and not haematophagus bat, the scene of Prime recharging in his throne with all those disgusting cables filled with green liquid referred as "the life force" of his clones...well, it's surely something.

Looks like a sort of sci-fi vampire thing. Which is very cool and I love this headcanon. So again I kept thinking...what is THAT amniotic fluid? I am a student, so correct me if I say something wrong.

Amniotic fluid is a combination of water 99%, proteins, glucids, fats and some salts (...it's even effective for electric conduction...the heck is that pool).

The most similar body fluid is plasma, so blood less cells. Even the serum, so plasma less proteins, is very similar.

Now, stated that Prime is a manipulative jerk, stated that I don't know much about aliens' physiology, stated that that fluid can come from blood potentially, in Church they say this:

*and Jesus said: "This is my body/blood which I offer in sacrifice for you"*

Apart from it being very creepy, there's this idea in the whole religion-thingy: if you are human you are a selfish monster, so monstrous you made our Lord and Savior die for your sins for how messed up you were.

So basically you don't become a sinner, you are concived as one. Humanity is sin itself, it can never lead to something good.

So are the clones. That's why Prime, in his benevolence, feeds them with himself. To make them pure, to protect them from the outside world. To make them remember who their strenght comes from.

If you don't want to read all of this just go for the Futurama soda episode, it's basically the same thing. Bleah.

2) Corpse feticism and more.

Again, don't know you guys, but here we are filled with mummies. I went in a place in Palermo and ...my gosh why did I do that.

We have everything here, hands, heads, feet, teeth so many of them, dead babies, dead virgins, dead popes, dead elders, all of them for half the prize, but only if you call today.

We are. Filled. With these atrocities. At least we don't touch them anymore.

Sometimes I wonder if, apart from the "hygene", people in Middle Ages used to die at the honorable age of 13 also because they kissed those... thingies there.

So, can we please talk about Horde Prime collection of "previous selves"?

This man has a whole room filled with corpses of himself. In the Vatican you can find corpses of dead popes as well, preserved and even dressed in a very good way. In Italy in general we have these, I remember a whole room in a town near my city filled with skeletons of "saints". Personally I find it very disturbing because you are basically not allowing that body to rest and serve its last biological purpose, especially if you consider that most of these "saints" were mentally impared young kids who were killed brutally and died as "martyrs". In ancient Greece the WORST thing you could do to a corpse was to leave it unburied, without dignity.

It's getting darker now.

I like both headcanons for Prime, that of a spoiled (maybe even sexist) royal of a lost culture who wanted to conquer the universe and that of him being a sort of ancient evil spirit, but I personally like to stick with the latter.

Imagine the old bodies of the clones Prime used for himself. Pushed to their limits. Clones dying young is horrific as well, but like these people were forced to go on. Not to die. Not to age as much as possible. And now that they are dead they can't even rest. They are a show off for anyone to see. Their brains preserved and their literal dead flesh still tormented for reading.

One may ask me, then what about corpses in formalin for medical use? Well, one thing is a donor or a dead fetus or a corpse nobody claims. That's the story of the skeleton in my university, a young male who didn't eat much. A very lonely man. Well at least now he is well loved and appreciated, ah if only he knew that.

The point is, we respect them. We are grateful for the informations they give us. Gosh, I know I'm creepy, but I even cuddled one bone once. We know they probably suffered. Like, search for HeLa cells. That lady has my highest respect.

But Prime? Those are. Vessels. Just that.

Anyways, apart for the "respect the deads thing" I found Hordak's behaviour in that room that of high distress. Like, ehm, any normal person? Search for "Convento Dei Cappuccini", that place I was talking about in Palermo. The fact that I heard kids cry and "MEMENTO MORI" everywhere.

Everyone and everything is afraid of death, I just accepted that fear because it's normal. That doesn't mean I want to be reminded of it every week, especially if I'm a 7 yo kid.

Honorable mentions: that horrible art collection.

3) Double standards

When I went to catechism my teacher used a very feather hand on males and an iron fist on us ladies. We weren't allowed to wear trousers, to play football, to raise our voice. We were forced to be very clean, to sit with our legs as closed as possible. I heard it was worse before, at least we could play volleyball and weren't forced to knit.

We were however "encouraged" to sing and bake stupid cakes for Sundays. Mind you, I'm very feminine, but one thing is liking ribbons one thing is being a slave.

The boys...well, they could literally do anything. They broke things, used petards, beat each other. They were NEVER reproached, the teachers would say "oh, they are just boys". Like once I was so engrossed. I remember I had to sit behind a guy with his butt almost uncovered (because the lower you put the helm of your trousers the cooler you were) while I had to stay still with my head high, chest out, belly in and legs closed for 2h. The problem was: I almost pitied him. I was like "poor thing he doesn't know how to behave properly". That's so crazy, I was piting a free soul while I had my hands handcuffed because I truly believed the bullshit they put into my mind.

Now, imagine how did Horde Prime's clones feel about Catra and Glimmer.

They can dress as they please. Eat non amniotic fluid. Catra can even go wherever she wants.

To me, they didn't feel envious. As they should! That's how far an indoctrination can go.

Take Yudi interaction with Catra, he believes everything he is saying.

But I think deep down he knows, they all know, the truth, juding by his bitter reaction after being possesed. He knows he is the slave here, not the free man. But he wants to believe the other way round.

I think that yes, of course Prime kept Glimmer and Catra (and Hordak) because he needed them to conquer Etheria. But that is also a good way to show to the poor clones of how lost people far away from Prime's light can be. Slaves of their bodly needs and slaves of their individuality.

4) Sexual abuse

Do I need to explain this? Plus all those sick touches Prime gives not only to Hordak, but to Glimmer, Catra and Adora as well?

I don't know much about other countries, again, but here the Church is a real cancer. If a priest gets accoused of raping children he just gets put into another Church far away, and generally he keeps being a pedo even there and the game goes on.

I wouldn't exately say that Prime is a pedophile but clones are pretty innocent and neotenic to me so...idk.

Of course, Prime is his own state and his own rules, so yh. Raping all day. That's why I don't like to ship him with anything rather than a 100 m fall. Not even with his clones, sorry I know its kinky maybe but he is a monster.

Also, the way the clones feel like...honored to be raped. That's so sad. Maybe he convinced them this is the only right way they could experience sex and intimacy. I really don't know.

One thing I'm sure of is that Christian religion likes to often put shame on some "impure" acts. That's the name. The most impure of all is masturbation. If you are a male ...mmm well it's okay dear, it's not your fault you are male and so a sex starved animal. But if you are a girl? Ihhh oh dare you bitch.

Mind you, I fall in the ace spectrum but I did too have puberty and needs, and these thoughts in my head made me only conflicted.

Last thing. More of an asking. And more irriverent, so please stay away if you don't want to read.

So basically I understood I was atheist at 5 yo, just because I read two different versions of the birth of the Universe, one in my science book and one in my Bible (MY Bible, I still have it, was a gift of my aunt) and preferred the science version. I still felt conflicted, like once during a religion lesson at School (well...I don't blame Mussolini much in this case, I mean the Vatican wasn't still recognizing country indipendence and we needed a compromise) the teacher told me to stop drawing dinosaurs with Adam and Eve because they never existed. I mean...yes that's anachronistic but still I felt very sad, dinosaurs were cooler than that story. I remember I even made an experiment "if I say I don't believe in god will I get thunderstruck?". It didn't happen so I was like "oh cool, science wins". But then CATECHISM ecc ecc. The fun fact is that they think atheists are those who don't study religion, while I was the most zelous of the class.

So.

I just wonder...my baby boy Hordak is a man of science, what were his thoughts after his separation from Prime. I mean of course he still believed, but also not as much after some time. Entrapta is a support system for him of course, but he accepts her affection quite easily on canon. Which is amazing, still... maybe he was already doubting his devotion?

[feignedglow]

   ༉‧     𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑟  @ofroseates​  ,     ₊˚Ꮺ

                    prone  to  bouts  of  wistfulness  ,  rhys  sat  in  his  childhood  bedroom  ,  considering  their  decisions  in  life  .  they  had  agreed  to  take  care  of  his  younger  brothers  over  the  weekend  while  their  mother  worked  back  to  back  shifts  at  her  current  minimum  wage  job  ,  so  they  were  back  home  for  a  few  days  .  with  legs  propped  up  ,  he  stared  at  the  ceiling  ,  the  faded  grey  of  glow  in  the  dark  stars  causing  them  to  reflect  &  wonder  if  they  made  the  right  choices  in  adulthood  .  they  were  happy  with  their  career  choice  ,  but  was  it  truly  what  he  should  be  pursuing  if  his  mother  was  still  stuck  living  the  same  life  ?  maybe  dropping  out  had  been  a  rash  idea  .  feeling  trapped  in  a  cycle  of  unsociability  ,  they  occasionally  romanticized  going  back  to  school  .  university  had  been  an  excuse  to  force  him  into  friendships  &  fuddled  attempts  at  romance  ,  both  unfamiliar  territory  to  rhys  ,  who  dealt  with  being  bullied  &  ostracized  in  their  youth  .

                    these  thoughts  ,  lingering  momentarily  ,  eventually  faded  to  thoughts  of  something  —  no  —  someone  else  .  they  wondered  how  he  was  ,  if  he  ever  thought  about  them  too  .  things  were  so  much  easier  around  them  &  rhys  had  been  stupid  enough  to  leave  without  even  asking  for  his  number  .  suddenly  desperate  ,  they  reached  for  their  phone  ,  realizing  the  lone  contact  information  they  had  was  a  school  email  address  .  though  it  was  from  a  couple  years  ago  ,  rhys  surmised  it  was  worth  a  try  .  typical  shyness  overtook  his  system  ,  as  he  typed  ,  lost  in  whatever  emotions  were  conjuring  in  the  pit  of  their  stomach  .

subject  :  hahaha  .  .  .  hey  :-)

idk  if  you  even  use  this  anymore  or  if  you  even  remember  who  i  am  .  i  feel  kinda  stupid  trying  to  get  in  contact  with  you  after  all  this  time  ,  but  i  can’t  get  you  off  my  mind  for  some  reason  LOLLLL  (  this  isn’t  funny  btw  i’m  just  trying  to  laugh  to  cover  up  how  nervous  i  am  .  .  .  )  !  anyway  ,  hi  .  this  is  rhys  .  we  had  ,  like  ,  a  thing  ,  i  guess  ,  i  dunno  LOL  please  don’t  laugh  at  me  ,  if  you  actually  see  this  ,  i  know  i’m  a  disaster  ,  whose  awkwardness  can’t  be  helped  whatsoever  .  but  .  .  .  idk  .  i  miss  you  ???  &  i  miss  going  to  school  ,  i  think  .  dropping  out  felt  like  the  right  thing  to  do  at  the  time  &  now  i’m  not  so  sure  anymore  .  i  have  a  youtube  channel  now  ,  idk  if  you  know  .  .  .  it’s  sorta  popular  .  but  i  still  feel  like  i’m  not  doing  enough  .  &  maybe  i’d  be  making  more  money  if  i  stayed  in  school  .  then  i  feel  dumb  for  even  caring  about  that  .  capitalism  ,  am  i  right  LOL    sry  for  dumping  all  this  on  you  .  .  .  i  kinda  hope  you  don’t  see  this  ,  bcz  it’s  fawking  embarrassing  .  at  the  same  time  ,  i  do  though  ,  just  bcz  i  wish  i  had  asked  for  your  number  before  leaving  school  .  uhhhhhhhhh  .  yea  !  hope  you’re  okay  ,  i  rly  do  .  write  back  ,  if  you  can  .  or  just  delete  this  .  whatever  .  it’s  fine  LOL

xx, rhys

                    unable  to  look  at  the  atrocity  he  had  spilled  onto  the  keyboard  ,  rhys  closed  his  eyes  as  they  hit  the  send  button  ,  hoping  it  would  get  lost  in  the  internet  cosmos  ,  instead  of  embarrassing  themself  by  reaching  its  destination  .  they  had  never  talked  to  anyone  like  that  before  &  the  idea  of  opening  up  in  such  a  way  they  never  had  before  was  unbearable  .  yet  ,  seeing  the  email’s  sent  status  gave  them  a  feeling  of  relief  as  well  ,  chest  feeling  less  heavy  than  it  had  a  few  moments  prior  .

[watchyourbluesturngolden]

my annotations for chappy 11 of ysijwa

this is just for drea and leyla to read so if you're not drea or leyla pls keep scrolling :)

ok this is pretty chaotic and like i said earlier i treated this ike a wattpad comment section so... have fun ig :)

SHERLOCK AND WATSON CINEMATIC UNIVERSE SHUT UPPPPP I LOVE YOU SM DREA

NOT MISS SNAP CRACKLE POP

jealous y/n you say???

now i know why you ignored all my tiktok asks lmao

HELPLESS OH MY GOD

truly madly deeply intended :)

damn he's kind of a narcissist yk? like "I have to be serious my entire family depends on it" shut up mr darcy you're not special

devout in his religion hmmmmmm hopefully we see some more religious trauma content bc me too vampy

awww he wants kids but now he cant have them bc hes... dead :(

AWWW his sister taught him to knit :( if he doesn't knit bloodbag a sweater i swear to god

stuffy moron is correct

"IT'S A FUCKING WONDER HE EVER GOT LAID" OIJRIOJWEIOJIEWOJFIOEJOF

"THE ATROCITY THAT IS BEING ACQUAINTED WITH NIALL AND HIS HORRIBLE AFFINITY FOR CHEAP FLANEL" ORJFOIJFEIOWJ YOURE SUCH A POET

he's so dumb she was with him bc he's hot that much should be obvious to him🙄

FOOLISHLY HOPELESSLY UNMEASURABLY IN LOVE HWAT THE FUCK DREA IM SAD

i love that he remembers the spinal cord dislocation and the dead leaves . like yea im dead rn but the leaves in my hair are really what's bothering me the most

what the fuck is a maw

ok i looked it up i get it now

"attachment is for gullible idiots" yup and youre one of them vampy 😌

"the warmest skin his icy fingers had ever had the good fortune to touch" im so soft rn

oh so now she has "a wholesome beauty about her nature" ? i thought she was just cute enough 🤨

HE THINKS HER SMILE COULD RESTART HIS HEART THATS SO CUTE IM OUHOIJFOEWIJFIOEWJ

"the responsibility of keeping her safe, satisfied, and happy" how 🥺 🥺🥺

"as long as he breathes" i thought he didn't breathe lmao BUT I GET THE SENTIMENT

"always when it comes to her" IM SCREAMING RN THIS IS SO SOFT I CANT

ill never forgive him for being so dense either his brain is basically a rock

HE WANTED TO COMMUNICATE THAT HE BELONGED TO HER IM GONNA HAVE A STROKE

couldnt be me i dont want to be percieved

HE ADDED A FUCKING BUTTERFLY AFTER THE DISCO BALLS IM OIWFJIOEWJFIOEJIOEWNOJIWJ(*H(WUIOFJIOEWJFIOWHVIFUEH)U)($UT

HEY a hamilton obsession is not childish😤

'the only person who was allowed to touch him there was y/n' he's like a little kid who's possessive omggggggg

oh this reminds me i rlly hope everything in that chest was new and had never been used on anyone else owijfowiejfioewj

oh please my irish king can control himself let y/n meet the other vamps🙄

"if they knew all along why did it take so long" yk im wondering the same thing dummy

"every day was a battle to earn her love and affection" wtffff how could she hurt him like that he is just a baby

i think he needs therapy tbh

yes he does deserve to be treated with respect and dignity😤

"supporting and tolerating them despite your differences" exactly unless they're a republican

IM SORRY THAT WAS MEAN OIWFJOIWJFEIOw i said what i said tho

they did everything backwards but it's what baby needed🥺

im literally gonna 🔪 bradley how dare he hurt my favorite ribeye like that

PROPER BOYFRIEND-GIRLFRIEND BONDING PLSSSSS im sure he makes sure to say stuff like "as your boyfriend' or 'since youre my girlfriend' all the time now

"everything that has to do with harry has always and will always make her feel safe and secure" ...who's gonna tell her👀

HE BECOMES CLINGY IVE BEEN WAITIN FOR THIS ONE TURN IT UP

awwww my love language is also quality times bestiesssssss

(this is more serious you might want to change the words to nose kisses or something because esk*mo is a slur)

HE wants to be wrapped in HER arms and get forehead kissies like a little baby🥺🥺

i can tell you wrote this chappy bc leyla would never write about ice cream

IF CHRIST CAN GET A DATE MARKER SO CAN HARRY OIFJOEIWJFIOEWJFWI PLSSSSSSSSSS I LOVE HIM

ALWAYS FOR HER WEJFIOJWEIOFJEWIOFJOIEWJFOIEWJF HES SO IN LOOOOOVE

HE DID IT AND IM SO PROUD OF HIM🥺

omg i have a thot imagine if she got a heart murmur or something and obvi he knows bc he can hear it so now he has to find a way to make her get it checked out out without being suspicious 😭

HE ROCKS HER TO CALM HER DOWN WHEN SHES HAVING NIGHTMARES IJFEOWIJFOIWEFJ

“nearly blinds himself for eternity” what a drama queen i love him

maybe learn how to turn your brightness down grandpa

“can women sense emotional distress” why is this so funny oiewfjwieojfioewj

DEHUMANIZING OWEIJOIAJAKLFSDJLKSDJFKLD

not a psychotic episode 😭😭

crippling mommy issues woejfkljdklsjsdf me too king

awwwww he made her a full buffet i would cry

matchy socks im gonna sob

king is a chef 😌

y/n’s head @ harry’s clavicle rn: 💥

“his plush chest” drea its ok you can say titties

“absolutely flawless”? are you sure shes not just cute enough 🤨

he got her oat milk 🥺the sign of true love

hes such a shithead i love him

SPELLING HIS NAM E ON HER TUMMY IM HAVING ANOTHER STROKE

“I DIDNT WANT TO LEAVE YOU ALL ALONE” HES SO WOIFJSJFSDKJKLSDJF

HE DIDNT HAVE TO DO NIALL LIKE THAT 😭😭

RAPUNZEL HAIR OSIDJSKJKLSJF

she traces a tiny heart on him wtfffffffffff im sad

this… is hot

“theres no room on the counter” owifjlksjfslkfjklsj

HE WOULD WALK THROUGH FIRE FOR HER maybe then he’d be a little less cold

im sorry that was wrong of me lisjfskldjfwoiejewiojrei

OH MY GOD OWEIJFKLJSKLFJL SHES SO BOLD “can’t i?” OSIJFKSLJLKJF

oh boy hes gonna kill her

I WONDERED WHEN THE YOURE HOT WHEN YOURE MEAN THING WAS GOING TO COME UP

literally shut the fuck up mr english major

do it bestie kick him in the balls

SPARE BOOBIES MAAM I CNAT BELIEVE YOU aCTUALLY WROTE THAT OWIFEJWIJEKLJFOIEWHOEWIFEHFLKEWJFKLEWJKLJFL

IM WHITE IM ALLERGIC TO SPICE WEJFLKJFKLEJFLKJSKLJKFSJD

“character development at its finest” what a self aware king

y/n stop being mean to him baby just wants to feel close ☹️

“I’m anemic” ok king whatever u say

“ME AND MY CHRONIC ILLNESS IM SENSITIVE” IJFKLSDJFKLJSDKLJ

ahhhhhhh it’s yoga time

“just ask your cervix” jlksdjflksdjflkdsjflk

“if only you knew” ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

yeah y/n isnt like those other girls 🤪 shes different 🤪

yes bestie objectify him

THERE IT IS MY FAVORITE LINE IN THIS ENTRIE BOOK

PERHAPS MY FAVORITE LINE IN ANY BOOK EVER

“He hasn't been this stiff since rigor mortis”

i think about this on a daily basis i truly do

grey shorts? what a slut

“call the lapd im pressing charges” me after walking up the stairs

OH SO THIS IS WHERE THE GREYS ANATOMY CHARACTERS FROM THE SPOILERS WITHOUT CONTEXT COME IN

him using his shirt as a towel im BARKING

“I wasnt jealous” yea ok 😃

AGAIN HIM DRAWING HIS INITIALS ON HER SKIN THATS SO WOIJFSKLDJFLSJ

yeah harold she just wanted a little kiss 😤

yeah 😃 its bc he ran track 😃

no bc thats so fucking cute that she pretended she had never seen the show before bc he was excited to introduce her to it 🥺

I would do the same tbh i feel like it would be fun to wash dishes with harry idk why

“that skank” oisjksldfjklsjfklsdjflkd

YOUR THICK SKULL COULD DAMAGE THE MARBLE LSKFJKLDSJKFLSDJFKLSJFKLSJKLSJLDKFJLSKDJF I WOULD CRY

he gets her a cup of water 🥺

ok but like wouldn't she want to wash her hair after it got all sweaty at yoga

awwwww she got his toothbrush ready for him why am i so soft rn

memory foam mattresses sound nice but actually they kind of suck bc you sink down and feel trapped in them 😃

HE WATCHED THE TIKTOK SHE SENT HIM IM HAVING A THIRD STROKE

niall is probably on the dumbest side of tiktok idek what side but it’s probably annoying and he thinks it’s hilarious

noooo baby youre not a monster🥺 someone give him a hug rn

well actually you are kind of a monster but its ok we still love u bestie

I too run on caffeine and pizza pockets 😌

TONSIL HOCKEY WHAT THE FUCK OIEJFLSDKJFKLSDJFLSJLKFJSDKLFJ

chatsnap hes such an old man 😭

true lmao if you dont have social media i immediately dont trust you

not the i just washed my hands tiktok 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

HE FEELS STRANGELY PERCIEVED RN KJFLSJFLKSDJ IDK WHY THIS IS SO FUNNY TO ME BUT IM LIKE LEGIT LAUGHING

DO IT BESTIE BITE HIM CHOMP CHOMP

“my eyes are stinging” hes such a baby 😭

“MY SIGH”TS ALL FUZZY” SJFKDSLJFLKDSJFLKDSJFLK

“are you all right” “I dont know :(’ i cant handle this my face hurts from smiling lksjflkjafklj

he has a kitchenaid stand mixer omg thats so sexy

ok but has anyone ever gotten salmonella from raw cookie dough bc i think thats just a myth

fuck u for that one vampy

wow he could never deal with my chronically ill ass

WAIT IS IT WAP

NOPE ITS BETTER LSDFJSDKLFJDS

I agree body is absolutely an instrumental masterpiece

I KNEW HE KNOWS SOME TIKTOK DANCES I KNEW IT

“I know youre kinda into that (getting smacked in the face)” SHUT UPPPPPPP SKJFSKDLJFDS

NOT HIM TWERKING SLKFJSDKLFJDSKLFJDSKL

YES YN GET THAT VIDEO AND BLACKMAIL HIM

“I think i popped something” ok old man 😭

why is the word wench so funny lkfjslkfjdslkfjsdlkfj

dont hand it over i want to see him snap

OH SHIT HE JUST JUMPED THE TABLE LSDFJSDKLFJLKDNMNXCMNJKHOIUIOEUR

oooooooooooo

OH MY GOD AGAIN SHE REALLY IS BOLD SLKDFJDSKLFJLSKDJFLKJFS

not guerrilla warfare 😭😭😭😭

do it bestie give him a concussion he deserves it

“no piece of art could ever compare to her” 🥺🥺

“remember that time you told me making out was childish” “no” i hate him 😭

THERE IT IS AGAIN “sex isnt the only way he can feel close to someone anymore” SHUT THE FUCK UP IM SOBBING

this reminds me of the dehydrated intercourse with demonrry

“don’t care, relationships are about sharing’ hes so sdjfksldjfklsjf

DO IT BESTIE KICK HIS KNEECAPS IN

suing disney for false advertisement 😭

THIS SCENE IS KILLING ME LKJFKLSJFLDSJ “just pucker your lips over it” “You have actual brain damage, dont you?” DREA I LOVE YOU KSDJFLDSKJFLKSDJ

how do those bubbles taste babe

ok drea wtf i was so happy and now this??????

“everything’s wrong” NO SHUT UP SHUT UP ITS HAPPY HOURS

not the boob privileges 😭

WAIT THIS IS FROM THE BSE MV ISNT IT “dance is just so hot rn” “depressing shades are just so hot rn”

NOT HIM GETTING ALL STUTTERY WHEN HE ASKS HER IF SHE WANTS A DRAWER 🥺

NO ONE HAS EVER BEEN THIS GENTLE WITH HIM BEFORE WTFFFFFFFF IM CRYING

“youre so fucking cute, my baby” me when i see literally any picture of him

JELLO HAS a STRONGER BACKBONE THAN THIS KSFJSDKLFJDSKLFJ

“betrayed. objectified. taken advantage of. used. “ i hate him sm 😭😭

OH MY GOD IS SHE GONNA SHAVE HIS FACE THATS SO CUTE IM

SHE ISsSSSSS IM SQUEALING

stop him worrying she’ll think it's weird and wont want to do it 🥺

“bold of you to assume id ever be convicted” PLS DREA LAKFJDKSLFJ

“the more you talk, the more appealing manslaughter sounds” I CHOKED DLSKFJDSKLFJDKSJFDSKLJ

HIM WHISTLING TO GET HER ATTENTION WHY IS THAT SO CUTE

Im sorry but its really funny to me how you wrote the sentence “wrong metal, he thinks ironically” … get it ? like IRONically lkfjdslkfj im sorry i’ll show myself out

“this boy?” what a fucking cutie i want to kick him

I forgot what a bop helpless is thanks for reminding me im gonna go listen to the entire soundtrack again-

theyre so fucking cute i hate them

so yea bascally this is the best thing ive ever read and i love you so much and my face hurts from smiling :)))

[kikuism]

hi mariam!! 💕💖💓 are there any manga series or books you've read that you'd want to see adapted into an anime/animated series (or i suppose live action, but we all know animation is superior 😌)

hi jenna!! 💕💕💕 ohhh this is a fun question.

i actually rarely read manga, but lately i've been reading chainsaw man and act-age and they're both incredible. unfortunately act-age got canceled recently, so ... that's out of the works, but i would love to see chainsaw man adapted!! and i have a gut feeling that it is going to be, except i think it might be a netflix release only because of how graphic it is (like with devilman crybaby).

oooh for books, i would love it if the percy jackson series was animated 🌊⭐ i know everyone is hyped for the disney plus series but .... imma keep it real with you, i just can't help but feel anything but weary skepticism. not only am i flashing back to the atrocity that was the lightning thief movie, there are just too many fantastical/supernatural elements in that series for it to translate to live action in a way that isn't jarring or just looks stupid. but since animation is superior and there are no limits with what you can do with it, it wouldn't be a probpem at all and it could look super amazing. plus i feel like percy's personality just translates better to animation?? like he's such a chaotic goofy kid, the animation could really make use of a variety of different facial expressions and quirks to really make his personality shine.

and....okay this one would never happen, but my sister and i are always always talking about a disney adaptation for the song of achilles 😳 like, exactly in the style of hercules complete with songs and everything!! imagine a patroclus and achilles duet about the gentle wonder of first love 🥺 and then later a harrowing song about the horrors of war 😔 and the color palette could shift from bright and soft in the beginning to dark and muted as the story processes from idyllic childhood to the harsh reality of growing up. and all interwoven with the theme of forbidden romance 😔💕😔💕 i've always adored disney's animated movies and am so sad that they just don't do them anymore. there's such a charm and fluidity to their older works that 3D doesn't quite seem to capture ...

oh and!!! carry on by rainbow rowell 🌹🧛‍♂️✨ this series is so much fun!!!!! and it would be such an amazing animated series omg, in the vein of shows like she ra and owl house (haven't seen that one yet but want to!)...it's all about the yearning and the banter and the unlikely friendships and the magic and the tenderness 🥺💗 plus the writing and the dialogue would just translate to nicely to animation. wow i'm so excited just thinking about the potential even though it will never happen 😭

and finally.....six of crows 😳 i know it's already getting a netflix adaptation but....meh. idk man, when i think of the books i like, i never see the characters as actual people, i see them drawn, maybe because i'm just so used to fanart now. i think thats why it's always jarring seeing a live action cast for book characters. anyway, i don't see six of crows in the style of she ra, i see it in the style of something like castlevania. so like, anime style 😳 the world of ketterdam is dark, dirty and gritty and no one is ever up to any good there. plus the whole thing is about pulling off an impossible heist, mixed in with a whole bunch of scheming and sometimes violence. plus the little magic of that world would just look so much better in animation. plus, i saw some complaints when the cast was announced about how some choices didn't suit the characters....but in animation it's an easy fix, and you don't have the dilemma of having to choose between someone who is a skilled actor vs someone who fits the character's description more. i don't mean to rain on the parade of the live action series, i mean, maybe it will be good, who knows, but my expectations are just low right now 😔 and also, years of abysmally disappointing book-to-movie adaptations have just conditioned me into thinking it's going to suck hgfhfh i mean let's face it, most books do not get the hunger games/harry potter/fault in our stars treatment. i remember the hype for the darkest minds movie (i never read the books), and then when it came out, it did so poorly (16% on rotten tomatoes....) hmm....if only animation was considered as an option 🤔

[randomnameless]

I finally thought about something regarding the zombified Dudes in VW’s finale.

Remember how everyone and their grandmothers lost their shit at those fake relics because hey if mole people can create fake relics why needing Nabatean materials or smthg?

Can Agarthans create fake relics with fake crests, or do they use real crests? Is Aymr made of the same ?

So, I checked and actually, the zombified Dudes have the matching crest stone in their relic.

Charon got his brave sword - but then maybe Catherine died (since she isn’t guaranteed to live in VW?) so they could have pilfered the real brave sword? 

Same stuff with Dimitri? Blaiddyd gets the “right” crestone for his relic.

Daphnel too (loser points for Daphnel he was a holy knight)

Riegan’s bootleg bow uses a makeshift crest stone of Riegan, even if Claude is actually using it.

So those crestones are actually fake ones, and it is shown with the bootleg relics themselves, they’re not shiny, the crest stone isn’t shining ominously. Gautier’s lance doesn’t move like Sylvain’s relic. Given how the SOC wasn’t shining until Sothis fused with Billy, I’d say that the crest stone is the key element to make the relic glow.

As pretty as those copies are, they’re not the real stuff. Stat wise though, they have the same weight, might and range (and accuracy). Still, they can’t replicate combat arts - Blaiddyd can’t use Atrocity because his bootleg relic can’t do it. So even if bootleg Failnaught was made with Aubin’s femur, as long as there’s no crest stone in it, the weapon can’t unleash it’s full power.

The crest stones used in the fake relics are just for show.

Now, if we consider how fake relics (without “true” crest stones) can’t unleash special combat arts, it could mean that the relic’s combat arts are tied/triggered/powered up by the crest stones. And given how each relic’s combat art is “effective against dragons”, we get the reason why the mole people are still hunting/looking for nabateans to make “real” weapons.

Agarthans hate dragons, so no matter how powerful a fake relic can be, if it can’t deal effective damage against them, it’s still nothing compared to the original relic who, despite needing someone with the right blood, can kill nabateans more easily. (add weird pokémon type chart, dragon is effective against dragon)

Now, about the fuck that is Aymr...

Aymr glows. Aymr has a combat art effective against dragons. But Aymr can coexist with Blutgang, in a path were the real Maurice is still alive and still has the crest stone.

So Aymr’s crest stone isn’t “fake” like bootleg Failnaught’s. But it stil coexists with another crest stone of the Beast, so what the fig?

Since Aymr is explicitly said to have been created by agarthians and need Agarthium to repair, I’d suppose that it’s the newest generation of fake relics. It can draw its power from “something” that isn’t the fake crest stone, and replicate the “effective against dragons” effect.

Maybe Shambala’s R&D’s department only had funds to make one Aymr and they forgot to give the Dudes an upgraded version of their old ones. Or maybe Aymr works because it is used by Edel and it was tailored for her? Like, idk, it uses the power of her twin crests or some stuff... Game says it grants to anyone having the crest of Seiros the ability to use Raging Storm. So Aymr is supposed to channel Seiros’ magic into Maurice’s crest stone (??) to unleash a combat art?

I’m a bit lost.

But if we follow this “fig it” theory, it could also mean that Nemesis’ D4rk creator Sword follows the same principle. It isn’t tied to the crest of flames (or is it?), is able to use a combat art but Heaven’s fall isn’t effective against dragons! So even if his D4rk Creator sword shines (meaning that Noa and Timotheos’ crest stones inside are the real deal :’( ) it isn’t able to deal “effective against dragons” damage.

So, in order of development :

1) Bootleg Failnaught - it looks like the real deal, it has the same might etc. But it’s not a good copy, because without the crest stone the zombified dudes can’t use the combart art effective against dragons (maybe those are the “weapons similar to hero’s relics” Linhardt is talking about and were used in Loog’s war thx to Pan who wanted to test them?)

2) D4rk Creator Sword : it doesn’t look like a copy anymore (it’s not golden) but with inclusion of two crest stones (that might be true ones :’( ) Zombified!Nemesis is able to use a combart art, but his combat art sucks because it isn’t effective against nabateans :’(

3) Aymr : Shambala’s R&D’s masterpiece : it looks like a real relic, it glows, it can unleash a combart art effective against dragons.

And then we have Vajra-Mushti, a relic that glows (?), each gauntlet has a crest stones of Chevalier (TF?) but its combat art isn’t effective against dragons. Big B knows it was forged after the WoH and yet calls it a “replica”. Well, I’m pretty sure Big B doesn’t know the truth about relics, but from the distinctive lack of “effective against dragons” art and the double crest stones, idk. Maybe they were developed after the D4rk creator Sword but before Aymr.

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What did Kenny mean when he said "what are you? A hero?" Or smth like this + what do you think about Kenny in general

It’s a difficult concept to grasp, for me, because while I understand it in theory and especially with the examples Kenny offered Levi, I still don’t understand if it’s that true in real life. Most of the people I know, myself included, aren’t going on in life because of something they are “drunk on”, we’re just living because we are alive, going through the motions of daily life and trying to find happiness in whatever we can. Or maybe it’s just me, idk. SO, forgive me for rambling.

But anyway, he was saying that everyone has something, subconsciously or consciously, they are living for - and might I add, find relief, joy, and peace of mind in. He then implied Levi is living to save people. I don’t think Levi was aware of it until that point, but he may have pondered on his words later on. 

Isayama said Levi’s strength is what defines him, or something along these lines - he cited the quote “from great powers come great responsibilities”, meaning that Levi, who is the strongest, feels responsible for those weaker than him who died or can’t even fight properly for themselves. I believe it’s always been like this, as shown how he fought for Isabel when she got beaten up. Erwin made him believe he could use this strength on a bigger scale, though, and Levi, who had nothing else left to fight for, grabbed that chance. If he didn’t, he would’ve died/had no reason to live. 

And like any substance, if you take too much of it, it’ll poison you. A too caring mother can become overbearing and anxious, pushing away her kids due to her insufferable behavior. A person drunk on power like Kenny might become obsessed with gaining more and more power, until they can’t and they lose their fighting spirit or they let that power destroy them. A worshipper could end up explaining everything, even the worst atrocities, as god’s will or kill in its name. Etcetera. 

This is true to what we have seen in Levi, in particular recently: he is drunk on the responsibility he feels towards his dead comrades. He feels like he needs to avenge their death or he’s useless, the guilt will be too much and everything would be in vain. Isayama himself said that he has no purpose left in life other than that. I'm using “drunk” as a negative term here, because he increasingly got less about “the greater good of the people” and more focused on some specific individuals linked to making the dead people’s sacrifices worth it. It is not something that’s giving him strength, imo, it’s dragging him down, because it’s become an obsession, rather than a goal/mission. I believe a hero - if one wants to be a comic-book hero - is defined by having those sacrifices give them strength, and this is exactly how Levi’s been introduced to us in the beginning.

Now he’s just this:

I know many disagree, they see no difference in these two reasonings, and I agree that the difference is subtle and I can’t properly explain it myself, it’s more of a feeling. But there is a difference for me. The first image implies continuity into the future. The second one stops at the past and doesn’t go beyond the moment he will kill the one person who he feels is responsible for everything (which is untrue). That’s how obsessions work, I feel. You can’t see past them anymore.

I don’t know how Kenny could pinpoint exactly what was driving Levi forward, but I guess he’s always been a perceptive guy.

Re: Kenny. I don’t know, it’s been so long since his character had any focus. I liked him enough, he was a fun guy to watch moving around the story. Never hated him I think (I honestly don’t remember my feelings for him during Uprising). Kinda pitiful in his own obsessions and self-hatred. I really, really liked that he cared about his squad. And it was so fun seeing him interact with Annie, though Annie was even better.

I have already said that “what do you think about x character” questions throw me off bc they’re not specific enough and I don’t know what to say, sorry.

I’m sure there are more well-written posts about Kenny’s speech, I may have reblogged some of them - but I myself have never understood it well because it never resonated with me personally.