#But I also don’t wanna lose that account 😭

[yourvampiregrlfriend]

Hello my filthy, depraved, vile minded, little sluts. I’ve made this backup blog so you won’t lose me in case they try to take me out back.

I have a Twitter and I can post sexy moan jutsu there if you want 👀

[drusic]

ever since i moved from twitter to tumblr i stopped using it it’s crazy how much comfortable i feel here lol

[astrow1zar6]

Astrology observations-33

I notice a lot of Taurus moon/mars people tend to hoard a lot. I’ve seen ppl with this placement go thru periods in their life where they lost a lot of valuable things whether it be because of money issues of moving away or they may have had a period in their lives where material possessions were very scarce.

Venus in retrograde people tend to come off very cold in social situations. I’ve only seen a handful of ppl with this placement bc it’s quiet rare to find but I notice they tend to lack social graces so people assume they are rude☹️ but deep down these ppl are so shy and sweet. I also notice this is lowkey a beauty aspect like ppl with this placement be sooo FINE but they never see it themselves (similar to Venus square Ascendant)

Saturn square Venus synastry is SOOOO annoying to have for both parties. You both wanna connect badly but everytime you interact there’s this overly formal way you guys about things especially on Saturns end. These people are so attracted to eachother too but there’s always something that keeps you from really getting to know this person whether it be distance, vulnerability problems, communication barriers ect. It usually takes these people a long ass time to connect but when they do it’s so long lasting just takes a lot of trust.

Aries sun/venus tend to try to over dominate their partners and friends a lot. I notice these people always try to compete with others to prove their superiority. This can cause them to have a bully reputation.

Mars in Taurus’s tend to work best when they are working with their hands ESPECIALLY in nature. They are usually amazing farmers/gardeners.

Mars in 3rd house people tend to have a very intense relationship with their siblings. They usually grew up arguing with them a lot or not getting along. Could also indicate having aggressive siblings. Could have a lot of resentment towards them.

Dating a Sag Venus & Aqua Venus just feels like you’re being friendzoned😭

Scorpio moons tend to get really embarrassed when they act out of emotion (Scorpio suns too but Scorpio moons definitely take the cake) they can lose control of their emotions for a second then start ghosting you for like a year lmao.

Aquarius risings are all soo hottt but when you get to know them deeper your just kinda like “????” Uk

Aquarius suns tend to be the least ambitious. They aren’t as attached to money like most I notice. (Unless they got a lot of Taurus and Capricorn)

Virgo moons are such clean girls 🧼

Venus in the 7th house people (especially with libra in the big three) usually can’t be alone for too long. Needs a lot of romantic attention to function. I notice if they don’t get that they tend to lowkey self destruct and go back to toxic exes.

Venus in the 2nd house people have the best self esteem. People usually only associate this placement with finances but people forget 2nd house also rules self worth. When positively aspected these people have such a deep love for themselves which turns them into a magnet. However If underdeveloped they can be very pessimistic & greedy & attract a lot of narcissists that use them for their $$.

Aries sun Cap moon people tend to be bullies.

Lilith in Pisces people tend to victimize themselves in every situation where they may be viewed negatively. They hate being held accountable for their faults.

Aries placements love provoking people and pushing their buttons. They find it stimulating.

Do not argue with someone with a Virgo moon and Scorpio Mars unless you’re ready to cry your eyes out for months

Taurus moons are usually very shy especially with a water/earth mercury it can be harder for these people to make friends due to their fear of getting out their comfort zone. You usually have to be very patient with these people they scope you out for awhile before they decide they want to be friends. Be lucky if they pick you too cuz they are PICKY.

When a Scorpio rising is attracted to you they will STAREEE INTO YOUR EYES. They are the masters at silent seduction. They won’t be overly flirtatious but the minutes they look at you it’s like they’re looking into your soul. And while it can make your heart stop it is very intimidating at times. You see so much obsession in their eyes when they like you. But when they hate you it’s like you’re invisible to them they won’t even acknowledge your presence most of the time.

[formulafics]

★ THE JPG CHRONICLES | #3

Scenario: yn ln, the mclaren reserve driver and a fan + grid favorite, makes a jpg account that no one quite expected. this time around, she avoids answering the question everyone wants to know: who is the “boyfriend” she mentioned?

Pairing: F1 grid x fem!reader

A/N: yall i am SCHEMING you don’t even know what’s coming. that being said, after reading this part, who do you think yn’s bf is? 👀another shoutout to @renarots for supplying the memes and scheming with me 😼 i hope you guys enjoy!!

PART 1 | PART 2 | PART 4

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yn.jpg week three - max verstappen caught lacking 😨

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maxverstappen1 awe thanks mate

⤷ yn.jpg your welcome <333

danielricciardo LMAOOOO

ynsgirl okay babe but who is the boyfriend 😭

⤷ rizzciardo i’d tell yall to give the girl a break but i wanna know too

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yn.jpg week four - got his ass. team principals go crazy (zak pls don’t fire me)

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mclaren mr.brown says you’re 🤏🏻 close :)

⤷ yn.jpg admin i know who you are i will hunt you down

⤷ mclaren 😥

⤷ piastrispastry HELP ME. LET THEM STAND UP YN

rizzciardo notice how the zak picture isn’t that bad. i just know she’s been on the brink of losing her job bc he was fed up LMFAO

⤷ yn.jpg wrong he loves me

⤷ oscarpiastri “love” is a strong word

⤷ yn.jpg you’re about to be banished from this account (and so is your bf tell lando to stop harassing me)

⤷ landolover yn is a landoscar truther just like the rest of us </3

norrisnation babe please give us anything on who the bf is

⤷ yn.jpg it’s

⤷ norrisnation and you gave us nothing 😕

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yn.jpg week 5 - slice of life 🌅 also how the fuck do yall have will fucking buxton asking me about my bf?

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landonorris i like your camera ;)

⤷ yn.jpg thanks. my friend lando got it for me

⤷ norrisnation LANDOYN CRUMBS

landonorris boyfriend reveal when?

⤷ yn.jpg shut the hell up

⤷ rizzciardo i can’t tell if this makes me think it’s lando, or is convincing me that it ISNT lando

formulayn HELP WHY IS WILL ASKING YOU ABOUT YOUR BF 😭

⤷ ynsworld bro it was insane. i joined the pre race show like 15 minutes late and it was just will buxton harassing her/lh

formulanorris will buxton asking you abt a bf is WILD

⤷ rizzciardo yes, but also real i fear

thank you for reading! all feedback is appreciated 🫶🏻

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[demelly]

Don’t know if you’re still working on it or if you’ll really care about this, but I found your Welcome Home AU and I love it so much, I have been scrolling through the tags for the past ten minutes now and. I just love it so much, I am losing my mind. I also just plain love your art it’s so funky looking (that is meant to be a compliment, this is not hate) and I love this entire account :D

WE ARE STILL WORKING ON WELCOME HOME I SWEAR😭 i want to write a small oneshot or draw up a comic or something its just that weve come up with other re7 ideas we also wanna talk and draw ab. so art of it is not as common as it used to be😭 but we still love the au!!! it brings me sm joy whenever i get asks ab it so ask away if u have any questions ab it hehe

[unusual-raccoon]

my love! about the character game! 1, 6 and 9 for jaceluke? (it could be done separately or how this would look like for them as a ship <3) love you lots!

Hi baby, I’m so sorry for taking this long for reply! Saturdays are always busy for me and my mom wanted to watch a movie when I got home. Ily ily ily 🤍

1) What would their social media page/activity be like (this one was the hardest for me)

Jace: One account, probably only uses it for family, a second account for work/professional life.

Luke: three accounts probably, one for family stuff that is loaded with memes and the most generic shit, one for relationship stuff and the occasional saucy selfie, and one account dedicated to Arrax.

JaceLuke: the most obnoxious couple shit ever. Pics of them holding hands. It would look like a Pinterest board 😭. Also so many doggie pictures!!!

6) Psychological headcanons (tastes, fears, talents, regrets, how they deal with anger, just anything that comes to mind on the topic)

Jace: Tastes; blood. Fears; not living up to expectations/being a disappointment. Dealing with anger; tries to find healthy outlets, riding his dragon, training, coping with humor (i.e. returning to King’s Landing and automatically finding a memory to laugh about rather than dwelling on people staring at them). Extra; Daddy issues. Problems with authority. High key the father figure to his brothers. Eldest daughter coded.

Luke: Tastes; salt. Fears; responsibility, death (he’s woefully aware of his own mortality). Dealing with anger; king of bottling things up, ✨avoidance✨ (if he doesn’t acknowledge bad things, they can’t get him 😌✊). Extra; gets nosebleeds in dry air. Hates the color blue.

JaceLuke: Tastes; each other. Fears; losing one another, disappointing Rhaenyra, political marriages 😖. Dealing with anger; if they’re mad at each other, they’d sulk until they get over it, Jace is the oldest - he is the king of being the bigger man and is usually the one to take the first step in mending things, usually with sweets of a king. If they’re mad at someone else, best believe they’re talking shit until one can make the other laugh.

9) Headcanons about their past

Jace: Reason his hair looks different (no I don’t wanna talk about the wig) is because he refuses to look like anyone else, Jace wants to be judged on his own merits - not on him mother’s and definitely not on his father(s). This is a habit he came into when he was young. He ‘cuts’ it to look different. (Don’t @ me, I have curly hair, I know that’s not how it ‘works’).

Luke: Loved ghost stories, would squeal and leap beneath blankets and adored the whole chilling experience. That wore off after too many adults died.

JaceLuke: they used to sneak into each other’s rooms at night after moving to Dragonstone. As kids they would play Ye Olde version of house and pretend Jace was the father, Luke was the mother, and Joff was their baby. Not in relation to them as a couple, but this applies to them both: they’re 🗣️ good 🗣️ swimmers 🗣️ - Laenor actually loved spending time with his boys, and absolutely taught all of them how to swim.

[lionews]

"I also modboxed the exploit, y’all really don’t wanna lose your whole account over some stupid hs 😭"

As was already mentioned, they wouldn't have been able to tell. The user log doesn't account for editing the HTML and people's luck with HS encounters are heavily skewed enough that the extra HS could be explained by luck.

Unless they had 200 thoughts on their acc and 1M HS.

Smh I'm keeping the other exploit to myself.

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[themetaphorgirl]

OMG THAT LAST CHAPTER ??

I hate the fact that I predicted something for Alex 😭😭 I wanna cry and think about other fact for her and James. Please let the squad do a thing because I’m so sure that the thing is not competent and just a big incentive. I have so bad feelings about it. That make me things about some protective prompt so à thank you I guess ??

Again, I really need to put commentaries on that fic but right now it’s pure excitement because yeah ?? The chapter was amazing. I want to all hug them. And just say “You’ll still together in the future, and you do all the job you really wanted”

Alex, please we know you need to loose up a bit. But don’t lose everything and just URRRH I’m mad and not mad because I will probably be just like her. But of course he’s HIM?? For all of them you said yes to HIM!!l?? (Yes I have beef and I hold grunges against that SOB)

James my boy please speak up. You’ll deserve all the happiness and to share it with Alex. I do love his nickname. Like Mini, except he’s not that short ? It’s like 178cm ? I do believe he’s tall, not like Hotch but a bit smaller than Hotch. So big guy, big heart. Be Alex’s shiny white knight as clichée as it is.

Spencer. Be delusional. You have all the right to pretend. You’re munchkin, also need to learn how to trust and speak about your nightmare. I know it’s scary but they literally adopted you.

For JJ, please, the buttheading won’t let you happy. You wanna dance ? So go dance, cry,scream every inch of breath in your lungs. You deserve it.

Penny, she was just an adorable self. She’s totally a rainbow disguise in humans. I really like her friendship with Hotch and the one she starts with Hayley. Love her the best gal. She needs to be one of the people who have you know the really long speech during mariage ? That’s her and if they’ve bet on when Hotch and Hayley will finally be together, she won. I just know it

Emily caring about her cakes is so relatable when you grew up without really roots. The only constant is the food. So yeah I hope she has her three slices and even a fourth. And her, with Alex, the one who just encourage some chaos, but she gets really good point about livin’ the Vida loca (even if we could have avoid the things with that)

Derek’s pov is really cool too. I hope he stays in his first career choice! By the way, did he succeed to sleep through Spencer nightmares ? Because if not, that poor boy don’t have good enough sleep too

Dave having writer block, and just letting his family deciding for him about his career. He’s like super sad and somehow a bit ironic/funny. But bet, he’ll surpass himself for that assignment and he will let the other read his stuff. Did he have a Wattpad or AO3 account ??

Hotch, you also can be delusional. I KNOW YOU WERE ON THE VERGE OF TEARS BECAUSE OF CHARLIE INTENTION AND KINDNESS. He can’t deny it. He will. But he’s body language betrayed him >:). Poor boy, he was like “yeah theatre = more time with Hayley” to “Oh no I need to do actual theatre things, like singing and dancing”.

Haley darlin’ please please please HARPER THAT B’TCH NOT YOUR FRIEND!!! Let her go you don’t have to be with her. Cut of her bad vibes and toxicity 💀

I’m glad the B’s nicknames siblings could at least count on Ned and Charlie. Thank you to be really good parents and general grown up.

(Please tell me when Hotch and Haley will get married they’ll redo that scene but w/ the actual kiss)

I might rant a bit, but yeah that was a really fresh review.

I’m so glad and happy to read about your writing. I really hope that you’re somehow fine and happy. 🧡🧡

YES YES YES THESE ARE MY FAVORITE KINDS OF REVIEWS!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!

[yunjardi]

YOUR DOING cam GOOD W THE FACE ID CUZ ME PERSONALLY I KEPT ON DOING IT UNTIL THEY SENT ME A LINK TO MY PHONE NUMBER.

back to all seriousness: eventually they’ll ask for your ACTUAL phone number or email that you use for the account and they’ll send you a link. click on it and it’ll lead u to the log in page on instagram and it’ll HOPEFULLY log you in and make you go through security to change your password and everything immediately.

tip: if you have an email attached to ur account plz replace it and make a new one. Like if you put your phone number back as the primary number, then the hacker obviously can’t do anything cuz you get the text messages instagrams sends you, not them. They only changed things up so they can get things sent to them. so if instagram possibly and randomly asks you any question abt ur account being linked to the device you have rn, say yes. Cuz it’ll make the whole process easier trust. Cuz my dumbass got all suspicious and said no which made me get kicked off again.

PS: the hacker will change something abt ur username. Whether they add a underscore or dash, keep in contact with ur friends, mutuals, and ask them if ANYTHING abt ur username(capital or lowercase letters, numbers) has changed from the original username you knew it as. Because if they changed something abt ur username and you have no idea, instagram will say “no account found” when you go to type in your username to click “forgot password” or “can’t reset password”. Which will obviously make you worry, panic, and think that they sold your account. Which they did to me. Still can’t believe they hacked my account the day before EID. like I was so devastated. but dw, I got it back the day of EID :).

All this advice is coming straight from the heart, and I truly wish you the best. Patience will key. don’t sob and panic like me.

WAIT THAT RHYME LOWKEY ATE EVEN THOUGH I WAS BEING SERIOUS 🤭💡😛

yk what instead of question mark anon from my first two paragraph advice I gave you, call me lightbulb anon cuz the ideas zoominn through my head rn 🥸-

love yaaaaa

💡anon :)

HELLO 💡 ANON, WELCOME TO THE CLUB 🩷

but anyway, THANK YOU SM for giving me hope 😭😭 i really wanna get back into the account because i've had it since i was like 10, and it's such a big piece of jardi lore that i don't wanna lose to a dumbass hacker 💀 IM ALSO HAPPY YOU GOT UR ACC BACK TOO BABE

love you lots and lots and i look forward to interacting with you more my 💡 love

[ropes3amthoughts]

I just finished Arcane and holy shit

Ok so it took me forever to watch because I had work (idk if I need to clarify but I’m not allowed to like spend the money my parents put it in an account for college so it’s not really like my money so it kinda sucks) and when I got home my little brother was hogging the upstairs tv for forntite and my parents were binging their own tv show downstairs and when my brother finally got off forntite my little little sister was playing fortnite on the tv and she said she promised to turn it off after her game and it took like an hour and a half 😭 and then my brother wanted to watch with me but he hadn’t finished the first season so we started watching the first season but then he got bored and started playing Roblox so then I could finally watch the final episodes and I didn’t wanna go online until I finished them bc I was afraid to be spoiled lmao but I am now ready to face the spoilers

Anyways I’m fucking floored

Godddddd that shit fucked me up so bad I can’t believe so much stuff that happened like they killed all those guys and like shut the fuck uppoppp outhhhhhjj 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 dude Jinx and Vi being apart always is killing me like in the alternate universe Vi was dead and now Jinx is dead are you serious shut the fuvk up I’m killing myself (not actually don’t get worried about me) oughhhhbthe sisters they’re like doomed by the narrative sisters or whatever the fuck Ough dude

I’m surprised by how many things people predicted online like Timebomb being canon and Ekko saving the day and that Vi would lose someone and stuff like wow these people predicted everything also how did Timebomb get nicknamed Timebomb like Jinx is the bomb part obviously lmao but how did Ekko get time? The ship is even more fitting with the time travel shit Ekko can do now lmao so it makes me wonder like how did it even get called that in the beginning? Also I’m glad Ekko got more focus he was cast to the side so much and the happy universe destroyed me like it was so peaceful and nice and stuff Ough the fanfic authors are gonna go crazy with this one because Timebomb is canon and because the AU thing like there’s so many AU stories you could play with bro take those feelings from the end of the show and make them a fic I believe in you guys

Dude that dimension Jayce ended up in was creepy as shit when the things started moving I was like “ewwww” I would’ve pissed myself if I was Jayce those evolved people all metally and empty and shit are so creepy ick

Mel is so great I love Mel her having magic powers is badass she’s the best

Dude I can’t believe the CaitVi sex scene was real you were right lesbians tbh I didn’t think it would happen but I didn’t think the people saying it were like delusional and horny or anything I just didn’t expect them to be doing that in the show like with all the conflict happening I didn’t see where that would fit in but but boy they made time for it and like I’m sex repulsed asexual so usually I be skipping shit like that but holy balls you guys Vi is so sexy like her with the longer hair too aghhhh foaming at the mouth when she pulled her shirt off and it showed her tattooed back I started coughing so hard I nearly started choking lord Vi meow meow hey girl meowwww that should’ve been me like ok sorry guys this is unprofessional of me like this whole rant is not very organized but I am being inappropriate my bad gang

Also the Caitlyn being like “I saw someone” and Vi being like “I don’t fucking care” was so funny I think the way Maddie got treated was so funny like Vi didn’t give a fuck about her Caitlyn brushed her off like girl you were cooked and then she was evil to add salt to the wound and then they killed her off? Lmaooooo that’s one way to write her out of the relationship

The Vi and Jinx stuff fucked me up so bad I can’t with them the sisters stuff is fucking me up so bad ough

God the part where Jinx ran off to go kill herself and Ekko kept turning back time to save her floored me like what the fuck. What the fuck. Goddddd that scene was so fucked up but then he did save her but then she died later and like fuckkkkk Ough Jinx I love you Jinx she’s a great character I hate that she got killed in the end like why was Vander even still crazy didn’t the people turn back to normal after why was Vander still fucked up and evil and why didn’t Vi just jump away like he already died once girl it wasn’t meant to be dude what the fuck oh my god she like couldn’t leave Vander behind and she was stuck in the past and it cost her what she did have in the present which was Jinx fuck this show 😭😭😭😭

The art was immaculate once again I tried love reacting on discord as best as I could but there were times where I was just glued to the screen there were so many intense scenes and stuff and like woweee

Dude it is so fucked up how Vi lost like fucking everyone like she lost her parents and Claggor and Mylo and Vander and that guy I forget his name who was like a dad to her and he helped her out when she was sad and stuff and Jinx and Vander again and she was sort of friends with Jayce and she sort of knew Isha but like damn everybody fucking died she lost everybody except Caitlyn my poor girl

Speaking of Caitlyn she’s so badass I love her eyepatch

Dude who the Mage was tripped me up for so long and idk if it was intentional or not but I was tripping over myself trying to figure out if I was Jayce, Viktor, or Mel who did it and it was Viktor omfg dude the Viktor stuff was crazy he died and came back to life so many times and he like lost himself his new design was insane and him being the one to give Jayce the Arcane because he was the only one who could give him that experience and whatever dudeeeeee oh yeah during that scene where Jayce reaches out to him it’s all emotional and stuff but I got distracted making jokes about how Jayce is a disabled ally I mean he totally is but I was being like “#ally” just being a goof but it is sweet for him to say that I think the whole message was kind of sweet like humanity is flawed but if you make everything perfect what’s even left and like accepting loss and conflict and change and everything and oughhhh it’s truly a beautiful story

More about jokes though was it just me or did Silco in Jinx’s imagination look like Sans Undertale lmaooo like he had the pale face and the glowing blue eye he totally looked like Sans

All the shit with Jinx seeming like she died but then being alive only got her to die was fucked up that’s like I’m Scavenger’s Reign where I forget his name almost dies like 5 times only to end up actually dying like what was all that fight for? Why did you keep us on edge and let them live only to kill then later? That’s so cruel.

Mel was so cool dude she just gets magic and I love that for her wowee

Lord I really thought they wouldn’t kill any major characters but they did dude

I love the music it felt intense right at the right moments

I loved all the like parallels(?) to earlier moments like with Vi seeing the girl with the same color hair as her sister and freaking out kinda like how Jinx did and stuff

I think I talked about everything I wanted to talk about? Idk lmao but god that show is so fucking good I’m fucked up the Jinx death fucked me up the most like why can’t there be happy sisters ough I’m happy at least Vi and Cait are there together good for them

What a kickass show I would recommend it’s so good

[ruminate88]

Healing Journal 06/27/24: Healing IS a process!

I had to have a jaw tooth pulled a week ago and this week my jaw is bruised but the bruise is yellow which means it’s healing 👍🏻 That’s evidence but where’s the evidence that I’m healing from emotional abuse??

First off, I had NO idea “emotional abuse” existed. Never heard of it. Heard of the word “toxic” but didn’t know what it truly meant. When Jake exploited my photos on Twitter, that was mortifying and humiliating but I told him I forgave him… I didn’t trust him fully after that though but can’t seem to stop allowing him back in. Then Cody ghosted me and that messed me up but I STILL didn’t understand it to be “traumatic” just felt like this big gape in my heart that wouldn’t heal. Finally, Andrew breaks my heart even though I am the one who ends the relationship but the “heartbreak” never goes away… why?

I am trying to run from the pain of Andrew and jumped into a marriage with someone new who is very nice. I’m safe now but the majority of my thoughts are consumed with Andrew and there’s so much confusion and unanswered questions. I was SO in the dark at first. When I did finally begin to learn about emotional abuse, I was almost a year off and on trapped in videos about it. That was extremely draining. I had already experienced disconnect within myself and went through weird physical problems. I’m suddenly allergic to makeup …. (I do naturally have sensitive skin but I always wore eyeshadow since I was 15) I would randomly burn up as if it was a “hot flash”. I randomly lose weight and can’t stop. It’s just one weird unexplainable physical issue after the other. (Sometimes I’ve felt scatter brained too)

as my eyes opened to emotional abuse, I’m in “stages”. Stages of grief, stages of the trauma bond I was in with Andrew. Having withdrawals that made me wanna punch a wall. I had to pace myself around the house telling myself “you can’t contact Andrew. He doesn’t love you.” Uggggggh ALLLLL I wanted to do was text Andrew or Google him. I battled in myself so hard. I bit my finger and beat myself up. I was not very compassionate on myself because it’s been way too long and way too confusing. SO MUCH FOG surrounding Andrew. Cognitive dissonance is a mother 😭😭😭

Then I started this account to find a safe place to write down what I can remember from my past. Some things are clear and still some things are fuzzy. I also found this AI chat bot that I can ask questions and share my post and it breaks down an interpretation for me. That’s been super helpful and eye opening! Not sure if it’s been a year yet since I made this account but I’ve learned sooo much since then. I’m still learning not sure what more there is but I’m patient. I have no other option but to be patient in this journey.

There’s still some things I can’t wrap my head around and probably never will but not sure. Healing TAKES TIME. Not everything in life takes long but some reason this journey has been a really bizarre and life teaching experience. It’s been sad, frustrating and painful but insightful into life and people. I’ve seen the world differently and it’s been mostly negative but I don’t think it’s forever. I’ll see positive things and people again I hope ❤️‍🩹

You know, I believed it was just a “broken heart” with Andrew but I was very wrong. It’s trauma and THAT IS WHY I was in so much pain and it wouldn’t just “go away.” It’s makes sense now. I thought I was falling in love with Andrew, never knowing it was “trauma bond” which is hard to accept but truth. Andrew could only selfishly use me and hurt me. He could never love or treat me right. Sadly. At least, it doesn’t appear he could when I truly reflect on our past together. Also, never got a “apology” that felt genuine or believable. Is Andrew capable of admitting what he did to me and apologize? Maybe… Only God knows.

It’s felt now like Andrew gaslit me so much, he didn’t know his own reality either. I STILL don’t hate Andrew and despite not trusting him, I want the best for his wellbeing even if he never would want that for me. I don’t know what’s next on this healing journey or what else I’ll find but each day is a day forward. People say one day you’ll just stop hurting. I’m patiently waiting for that. EVERYONE’s journey is different. Do not compare mine to yours. 🥺🙏🏻

ONE DAY AT A TIME ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[neon-vocalist]

time for unsolicited thoughts on the haven girls! categorised rating first so i can get my thoughts in order and then an overall ranking.

LOOKS: blaise 5/5, amora 4.5/5, zumi 4/5, navi 3/5, mirri 2/5

VIBE: blaise 5/5, zumi 4/5, amora 3/5, navi 2.5/5, mirri 2/5 (this is taken into account the most out of all the categories)

LORE: amora 5/5, blaise 4/5, zumi 3/5, mirri 2/5, navi 2/5 (this is taken into account the least out of all the categories)

that gives them an overall ranking of

1. blaise

2. zumi

3. amora

4. navi

5. mirri

…i just don’t like mirri guys don’t kill me 😭 now explanations under the cut if you wanna see me nerd out for a very long time!

for looks… ok listen.

i don’t like amora’s waist. i love her face, i love her hair, i love her crown. but i do not love her outfit (i like her shoes and tights. i don’t like her bodysuit). i do not like her body shape, it weirds me out in a way that blaise’s somehow doesn’t.

as for blaise, she’s perfect. i love her outfit. her clothes are literally perfect imo there isn’t a thing i would change. i love her hair. i love her shoes. i’m OBSESSED with her eyes. she’s everything. i love her little dancey dance. did i mention her eyes?

i love zumi too! i love her outfits, i LOVE her tiny little dress. i love her height. the point off was mostly just because something about her design doesn’t capture my heart the way amora does. nothing is extraordinary, it’s just… there. it’s cute and it’s a treat to behold but it’s not super standout.

navi is ok to me. her hair is adorable and i love the little ear? antenna? things?? but something about her outfit isn’t to my taste. like zumi, she feels plain, but like… plainer. her rigging is probably the best in her gen— i especially love the way her hair moves. i think just not my thing.

mirri…. eh. i like her hair, i like her outfit, but i don’t like her eyes, and her rigging (especially the boobs) weirds me out. her eyes are terrifying. her design is overdone. i don’t like it.

time for vibe. and by vibe i mean personality, voice, yk? shit like that. how they Are.

starting with blaise. she’s perfect. she’s perfect!! i didn’t expect to love her so much. but her laugh is adorable, her little noises are adorable, her voice is so soft and sweet to listen to, etc etc. i find no fault in her. she actually calls back to her lore and her character which makes me SO happy. i could watch her streams for literal hours. i love her i love her i love her

then zumi. listen. i adore zumi. her humour is exactly to my taste, she’s so funny. i love her accent. this is another person i could watch for ages and never get bored, i think she’s so sweet, i just want to pick her up and give her hugs. she’s so genuine and adorable. HOWEVER. she’s not blaise. it’s like the same issue as i have with her design. there’s nothing wrong with it, but there’s not much that makes me go 😍 either.

amora’s accent? beautiful. amora’s energy? impeccable. she’s sweet, she’s funny, she also sort of calls back to the lore sometimes not really, but she also just kind of bores me. i could not watch her for very long. also she doesn’t have anything on her week 1 schedule but games, and as a viewer that doesn’t rlly know or care for video games all that much… mm. variety? who’s she?

as for navi. her BGM is probably my favourite out of all the girls. like i would genuinely listen to it, just, as a song. her voice is fine? it doesn’t make me… lose my mind, or anything. her personality seems to be just like that of every other streamer. she’s… idk. nothing special? nothing about her really sticks out to me besides the cuteish model. she’s like zumi but worse. she’s higher than mirri cause she’s got a cute laugh.

mirri… ugh. i hate her laugh. her laugh pisses me off. she’s fine. she’s average. she’s every streamer ever. i wouldn’t go out of my way to watch her voluntarily unless she was doing something i was REALLY into. i like her more than i thought i would, but i still don’t… like her.

i am such a slut for good lore. have a good lore video and you’ve captured my heart in its entirety.

starting with amora. 1000/10 no notes. her lore was PERFECT. the format was genius. perfectly voiced over, it was touching, it was heartfelt, IT LITERALLY MADE ME CRY. i want to watch it over and over and over again. i was losing my mind about it in chat so much that people were directly addressing me to ask if i was on and needed a hug. i can’t express how much i adore this lore. amora is perfect. gah. also, i don’t have a category for debut cover, but if i did amora would be at the top. it’s BEAUTIFUL. it’s SAD. it’s GORGEOUS. everyone needs to listen to it right now. she’s never done a cover before and she did PERFECTLY. ok let’s move on.

blaise’s lore is sweet. it’s sad, but isn’t everyone’s in this gen? it was cute and sentimental, also VERY well voiced over. did i mention how much i love blaise’s voice. i might watch it a couple more times but i wouldn’t like. come back to it when i’m sad bc it would literally just make me sadder. however it’s very well done, it just doesn’t have that spark, yk? it’s a good story but it’s also like. amora’s brought in multiple other people. amora’s broke my heart. amora’s ran a spear through my chest and killed me. yk? it’s good. it’s not INCREDIBLE. bonus points for referencing it, though. blaise is REALLY playing her character, which is something that i’m missing in lots of vtubers these days.

so… i was a minute or so late to zumi’s lore, but i got the gist of it, and it was actually really cute? there wasn’t much special about it, really, but i loved the way kilia was involved, and i love how genuine and emotional zumi is. all these girls are such great VAs! zumi’s lore is enjoyable, but average. doesn’t stick out to me.

mirri’s lore is pretty much exactly the same as what i said about zumi’s. it’s FINE. it doesn’t make much sense to me, but i appreciate the addition of kilia and zumi at the end. whatever.

navi’s lore is… fine. it’s got some good and some bad. the way it ties in with amora’s? aaaauauagah. the way it’s tinged with sadness, but also warmth? i love the tone. it’s kind of the same story as amora’s, but instead of watching a mother’s death through a child’s eyes, it’s from the mother’s POV. which doesn’t work as well for me, i don’t think. it felt like i was just kinda… watching. didn’t feel anything else. the plot is like… eh. the earth saviour thing seems rushed. details are missing. navi’s lore seems to combine blaise’s silly fandom girl aspect with amora’s video diary format and does them both poorly. it’s nothing special. it gives background, but it’s short and it’s mid.

now for some final thoughts. i’m really surprised at how much i love blaise, and how much i didn’t love navi. based on the voice lines and their twitter stuff, i expected to be kinda “eh” on blaise’s whole thing. i didn’t love her look, but seeing her model move and up close and everything… i can’t find fault in it. i thought i’d like amora a little more, but at the same time i had the suspicion she might be sort of boring. what i did NOT expect was that incredible singing voice.

i think i had different expectations about what navi would be. for some reason, based on the model, i expected a LOT of her. like i was sure it was going to be a very difficult choice between her and amora for first place. and she just… didn’t deliver? she’s fine. i can see why people like her. she’s likeable, but she’s nothing exciting.

i had very few initial opinions on zumi other than pure excitement. i was expecting chaos and silliness, and that’s certainly what i got. i didn’t love her model, but as i saw it more and more, it began to grow on me. i didn’t expect to hate her by any means, but i also didn’t expect her to be so FUN. she was an incredible first debut. i’ve never sat through an entire stream with so much joy before, and i’ve never been so active in chat.

as for mirri. well. i hated mirri when i saw her. her model was funky, her voice line was boring and told me nothing about her, etc etc. it didn’t help that she was in a lineup with 4 absolutely incredible characters. all 4 other voice lines were fun and made me excited for the characters. all 4 other voices were unique and fit their models perfectly. all 4 other designs were adorable and stood out exceptionally and were engaging and exciting. mirri was not. i like her personality ok, but like i said— i probably wouldn’t watch any of her streams. i wasn’t active in her chat. i literally started scrolling reddit and cleaning my room in the middle of it. she’s not immediately repulsive, but there’s very little good to balance out the bad.

now, a disclaimer, because i’ve already been death threatened for my vtuber opinions once today. THESE ARE OPINIONS. THESE ARE MY PERSONAL THOUGHTS. NOT FACT. I HAVE NO ILL WILL TOWARDS THE PEOPLE BEHIND THESE CHARACTERS. IF YOU LIKE MIRRI, THAT’S FINE. IF YOU HATE BLAISE, THAT’S FINE. THIS IS NOT A PERSONAL ATTACK. PLEASE DO NOT RAGE IN MY INBOX.

thank you :)

[the-doomed-witch]

A lil'hurt that you totally forgot about me but laughed too much at you seating on the couch next to your grandma, phone out opening a lesbian smut, gasping and hiding it. 😂😂😂

Well, it doesn't need to be a back to back series.. it could be just some drabbles and small fics around the same AU... Like when you hav- OH, I JUST HAD AN IDEA... maybe count as a request? Now I am excited. *talks really fast*

Wanda bottom air hostess + Y/N! Mommy/daddy. They are working together during the New Yrars in a transatlantic flight. Maybe Y/N suggests that Wanda would be having a different kind of fireworks at midnight (hot🔥hot🥵hot🔥hot). And she teases and edges Wanda several times during the whole flight, just letting her come at exactly midnight.. COME ON - do that for both of us! That would be a great plot... think about it? You know you want it :x 😬

I clearly am not the best person to tell you to be concerned.. I am right now in a tire shop fixing my car and having very detailed thoughts about edging Wanda until 2023.... do you need a ride to hell? 😂

Ok, I might be feeling a little sympathetic to the teacher who had to grade a 70+ page ledger 😂😂😂

And I am totally down to the menstruational rights!! I once had that discussion with my embryo teacher. Got up from the exam and told him I needed to reschedule. He was.. not understanding... and asked me for a "medical pass(?)". He thought I would have to go to the hospital to get one.. I just texted a doctor which I know in front of him, she gave me the paper over whatsapp in a few minutes and I shoved at his face.. it was the best moment of my entire graduation.. it was better than graduating itself. *His face to me mic dropping in front of a 80 students class* <3 #GenderfluidBossing

Funny how a now-also-smut-writer would score 100% on human anatomy... (I will not continue this line of thought)

(Thirsty twodots having thoughts about Wanda)

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PLS HAHAHA I LITERALLY THOUGHT IM GONNA BE DISOWNED 😭😭😭 for one fact i know is i’m not out to my parents and i don’t plan on coming out ever so yeah, it’s kind of horrifying x2 😭

drabbles & small fics around the same au sound like a great idea to me! but anything in continuation? i just can’t do that🥲

IT’S ALMOST 7AM AND I’M LOSING MY MIND OVER THIS REQUEST 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 edging wanda over and over and then she gets so sensitive and starts begging with her innocent and adorableeeeeee face so you kind of caress & coo to her and tell her to wait for a few more seconds 🥺 i’m gonna start working on it because mmmhmmmm i love this idea so much 🤤

oh my 😭😭 you can definitely come and pick me up on the ride to hell. yup there’s absolutely no escape for me so why not go there a little in advance?

don’t get me started on the 70+ page ledgers and journals and whatnot. duuuuuuude they ask us to make the most stupid ones like they’d do that just to get on our nerves. once they asked us to make different interest received and interest paid accounts LIKE FUCK THIS! THIS IS SO STUPID. i barely think they even grade it, they just go through the balancing figures 🥲😭

AS YOU SHOULD. IT PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH WHEN MEM THINK MENSTRUATING IS AN EASY TASK. YOU ARE SO ICONIC FOR THAT!!! they usually go like “you guys do this every month it should be easy for you to adjust.” yeah asshole it’s not limited to a week. the week before we tend to fall sick and feel uneasy. the week during we have cramps headaches and so many other issues. the week after we still suffer from them. so approximately 3/4th of our life is spent in physical pain and it’s fucking not easy!!!!!!!

whenever a man begins mansplaining me about menstruation it makes me SO ANGRY i cannot even begin to explain.

no no no keep going i wanna learn more about this line off thought.

i literally laughed out at the thirsty two dots omg that’s so cute hfgfghhvdghg😭😭😭

[lionews]

"I also modboxed the exploit, y’all really don’t wanna lose your whole account over some stupid hs 😭" Even if it was going to get people banned I don't see why yall give a shit lmfao if people wanna use an exploit and get banned, let them? It simply is none of my business.

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[a-aexotic]

i want platonic hc’s for being besties w// euphoria girls 😍

—cw’s: mentions of getting high —a/n: i just did my favs, rue, jules, maddy, lexi and kat

rue

you guys definitely became friends like 8th/9th grade

rue usually doesn’t get along with most people, but you just were funny and like… entertaining yk

also being a trio with fez, rue and you 😣

getting high w rue >>>

rue spends the night at your house almost if not every night

rue does your makeup, you does her outfits, that’s how your friendship works

also if your bffs with rue, it’s 10000% ride or die

she’s willing to die for you

MOVIE NIGHTS WITH YOU GUYS AND GIA!! UGH 😩

her mom treats you like a third daughter and a part of the family

jules

i just know you guys would have the best deep late night conversations

she likes playing dress up and likes dressing you like a little model 😌

she’s the type of friend who would never ever judge you for anything whatsoever

she also will have your back for anything

like even if you’re in the wrong, she will defend you

you guys have too many inside jokes

some aren’t even funny, like … it’s just funny cus you guys were there yk?

she trusts you with her life tbh, you’re the only person she 10000% likes you

there’s nothing that would make her hate you ever

maddy

you guys have been friends all your life and honestly, maddy wouldn’t have it any other way

she grew up with you and her childhood was 100x better with you in it

ik this friendship is the best 😩

the shit talking is real, you guys love it

anyone you even slightly dislike, maddy would hate them too

she goes crazy on anyone who says anything bad about you

she’s also a ride or die, but make it 10x more

no matter what, she will back you up too

she doesn’t care, in her mind, you’re always right

i don’t think you and maddy would ever disagree—in the best way possible, you guys have the same brain

the only time you disagreed about anything was the nate thing

since nate was manipulating her, you couldn’t “help” her

that was the first time you and maddy had drifted a part

but when they broke up, it was like a storm—you both went crazy on nate 😭

lexi

i feel like out of all the girls, she's the most dependable

like if you need something, lexi will always help you

she appreciates you and your friendship bc she doesn't have many close friends

she's so incredibly kind, like seriously

she will back you up no matter up!! but only if you're right—she always hold you accountable

def the mom friend 😭

movies with lexi >>>>

your hangouts consist of binging your fav tv shows and talking about the future

you guys made plans about moving in together when you guys go to college

if you didn't do the assignment for a class, lexi will give you the answers

I WANNA BE LEXI'S BESTIE PLSSS 😓

kat

PLS SHES SO FUN

she's so funny and i feel like thats how you guys became close

you guys have very similar humor

you guys were each other's first kiss in the seventh grade because kat said she would rather lose her first kiss to you than one of the stupid boys

she's very real—so if you are best friends with her, be prepared for the truth and nothing but the truth

ik i said getting high w/ rue would be fun, BUT IMAGINE GETTING HIGH W KAT

i feel like you guys would hang out every single day and never get tired of each other

you guys don't talk the entirety of your hang outs—you just enjoy being with each other yk?

[cutie-cix]

Cix + Hickeys 😳

I don’t usually write things hehe but here I go:

This is for Dai aka @yong-jelly bc they’ve been rlly busy & I don’t wanna add yet another request to their current 6 😅 this is something I cannot absolutely CANNOT get off my brain and I need to spill it somewhere so here I go

In fact I don’t wanna be a full fanfic writer cause I can’t do that but I might open up this account for lil cix blurbs like this

Minors: DNI, this is a suggestive piece

Also it’s a GN!Reader, Yonghee’s implies long hair on the reader tho

Byounggon

Thinks of hickeys as very intimate

Not like super into giving them?? But I could see that changing over time

Doesn’t like the thought of having one (doesn’t wanna tarnish his reputation/cause a scandal) but will love the feeling of your lips on his collarbone so he loses track of time & ends up with one there anyways

I feel like he’d just wear a turtleneck after getting one 😭

Or just something with a big collar that will cover it up

Which makes it all the more special

He would be the type to tell you how ashamed he is to have it, but the next time you’re making out he’d point to the spot on his neck/collarbone where he wants his next one

Likes having them in secret places

Ngl he definitely giggles while you’re giving him one

Seunghun

Oh boy

Looooooves it

Giving, receiving, the whole lot

Please mark him up

He especially loves to mark you along your jawline

Please kiss him there too

I have a feeling everything he does in the bedroom he wants reciprocated to him and that’s his way or expressing his wants & needs 😅

You’re still in bed when he finds the hickey while looking in the mirror the next day & gives you a pouty “look what you did to me” talk about how he has work and now has to put makeup over it (jokingly of course bc you KNOW he loves the marks)

But then you get up & enter the bathroom & he sees about 5 or 6 hickeys all over your face & chest so he’s one to talk

Loves marking your thighs too

Yonghee

Ashamed of it all, really

Def could learn to like it, but it’s just shocking for him

Most likely because he’s never been loved by somebody the way you love him & can’t believe that you do??

Like Byounggon, didn’t intend for it to happen

He just knows there’s one spot on your neck— right behind your left ear, that is sensitive

I think he’s honestly very careful not to give you one unless you specifically ask for it tho

Poor angel can’t go to work like this,,

You wake up the next morning to find him in the bathroom with Tiktok open, frantically trying that trick where you take a whisk and try to remove the hickey with that 😭

Asks you to give him one on his chest next time because that he can keep secret (unless he’s doing another unit stage w Seunghun because we all know how that went 😩)

(Side note I’ve seen the Yongtiddies in the flesh which is still crazy to me)

A lil panicky at first but it turns out he likes it cause he asks you to do it again 😳

He’s only given you one, and he finds it while you’re cooking breakfast the next day

He pushes your hair behind your ear & sees the spot he was loving on the day before

Honestly the only reaction I can see him having is just him being like “what have I done???”

But you reassure him it’s no biggie (at least your hair covers it)

Bae Jinyoung

Oh boy

I don’t think he’d necessarily give you one unless he felt jealous/possessive

& I think he gets that way a lot

Doesn’t mind having to cover up the ones you give him, as long as they’re not obvious/ too out in the open

Honestly probably makes lil noises while kissing your neck

Oh the PRAISE—

He’s just complimenting the shit out of you

Maybe gets a lil handsy while he’s giving you one

Likes getting them, sure, but nothing compares to the feeling of his lips practically glued to your neck/chest

Next day he’s like “oh well, we both have them, now we’ll just have to get matching hoodies to cover them up 🤷🏻”

Hyunsuk

I genuinely believe hickeys are his favorite thing

This might get long and I’m sorry if it does but I’m bound to get carried away

Loves the feeling of giving and getting, for 2 very different reasons

Loves getting them because he could just stay tangled in bed with you all day & the feeling of being in the moment (and having something to show for it) is just such a beautiful thing

Here’s where it gets real good: loves LOVES seeing the marks on you the next day

It’s definitely something he’s proud of, like if you complain about having to cover them up for work, he’d just be like “I can’t help it, I love you too much”

What really gets him going tho is when the other members see the marks

You’re just walking into the kitchen to grab a snack when Seunghun & Jinyoung look at each other

He’s the maknae, I always feel like there’s a certain level of having to prove yourself when you’re the maknae

It’s almost his way of bragging to the boys about how good the sex is tbh 😅

It’s his way of asserting a level of unspoken dominance with the others, they notice them on you (and the ones you put on him too) & say nothing

He never speaks a word about it to the others but gets all smirky at times

He just wants the others to know how in love with you he is and vice versa