#Btw I wasn't sure which translation to read but in the end I went for the fantranslation because it's the one-

[kyouka-supremacy]

SCREAMING. BITING BITING BITING SCREAMING.

[miroslavcloset]

Even now, you remain my light [Neuller +18 Fic] Chapter 2

~Manu used to be in Thomas' presence almost 24/7, between being at home with him and training with Bayern, is rare to not have his comforting aura around him, but with an injury, their routines have to be separated. Today Thomas will be home a little earlier than usual and Manu is feeling a little clingier than usual, so his boyfriend will make sure to take care of him and make him feel as loved as possible.~

A/N: So, yesterday we almost lost against Leipzig, and to get my anger out I wrote smut and felt better. Btw first time writing (and actually publishing) smut. I tend to first write everything in my native language and then manually translate everything, here I had to write everything straight in English bc I was having a crisis finding words that didn't sound like shit. Anyways, enjoy c: I'm a hoe for this two dorks in love.

Warning: Smut under the cut, read at your own risk.

Somehow, the bathroom was the coldest room in the house, but this time it wasn't the reason why Manuel's skin was standing on end. With Thomas' help, he sat on the chair that served as support for him in the shower. Suddenly he felt Thomas's hands going up his back under his shirt, startled, he turned and tried unsuccessfully to grab his lover's wrists. -What are you doing…?- Asked shyly. -Well, we'll take a shower, honey. I hope you don't plan to do it with our clothes on.- He said in a comical tone, then leaned towards Manuel until he barely touched his ear with his lips and whispered, -Also, remember that I came here to take care of you… - Without waiting for any reply, he continued with the upward movement of his hands on Manuel's back, while he brought his mouth closer and gently bit his ear, proceeding to go down and plant a wet kiss on his neck. He traced a short line with the tip of his tongue to the back of his neck where he moved away for a moment to remove Manuel's shirt altogether, placed it on the bathroom floor without paying too much attention, and went to stand in front of his partner. Careful not to move the place of the injury, he took a spot between Manuel's legs, knelt there, and placed a hand on each of the knees in front of him, spreading them further apart with a delicate push. He stopped for a moment without removing his hands and looked up until his blue-green met Manuel's deep blue, he observed how his boyfriend's breathing was more accelerated and the blush on his cheeks did not give any sign of disappearing anytime soon. That was enough to remember why he had fallen in love with that exceptional person in front of him. He put his thumbs inside the corner of both Manuel's pants and boxers and began to pull them down. Supporting his hands on the armrests of the chair, he raised his hips enough for Thomas to remove both items of clothing from him in a single movement and discard them, placing them on the floor behind him. With one hand Manuel caressed Thomas's cheek, brushing his thumb over his lips, touching them from one side to the other, prompting him to open his mouth, Thomas licked it just as he knew he wanted and took it into his mouth, closing his lips around them.

He never took his eyes off Manuel's, delighting in every reaction that this simple action was generating in him and now that there was no cloth to hide it, he could trust the honesty of Manuel's naked body. After releasing the digits, Thomas put a hand under Manuel's left knee, lifting it up and exposing him further, then guided his leg onto one of the chair's armrests and moved closer until Manuel could feel Thomas's breath on his half-hard dick, which only made his blush deepen. -Just look at you, Manu, I wish you could see yourself as I do, you're so beautiful.- He stuck out his tongue and passed it under the erection in front of him, obtaining a sweet moan from Manuel. He began to lick it, drawing broad strokes with his tongue over his skin and occasionally licking up the drops that formed on the tip of it. He caressed Manuel's abdomen with his hands, using his nails to lightly scratch his hips.

When he felt that Manu was already hard enough, he moved away and in a quick movement stood up, took off his shirt pulling it over his head, lowered his pants, and discarded the clothes along with the others behind him, leaving himself only in his underwear. He looked at Manu with lust in his eyes, appreciating his work, Manuel sitting in front of him with a deep blush and rapid breathing, his legs open and a drop slipping down Manuel's penis. His mouth was watering and he felt that the eroticism of that sight made his own member react instantly; he made a conscious effort to retain this image in his mind as long as possible… Manuel was too beautiful for his own good. He approached Manu and gently held his chin upwards, placing his index and middle fingers on his lips. -Lick them for me, love…- Breathed Thomas. Manuel obeyed and opened his mouth, letting him introduce the digits. He began to circle each other with his tongue, staring at Thomas at all times and the reaction he caused in him, delighting himself in how Thomas saw him with lust and a mischievous smile. Manuel put his hand in front of his partner's boxers, feeling how his penis reacted instantly, he caressed it with the palm of his hand as he continued with the requested task, then, wanting more contact, he began to insert his hand into the last remaining piece of fabric, finally touching the warm skin of Thomas' dick.

Thomas sighed and with ragged breaths he made an effort not to get carried away by the delicious touch, he took his fingers out of Manuel's mouth slowly and knelt down again, not even leaving Manu time to react, he took the goalkeeper's wet member with one hand and this time he fully put it into his mouth, feeling the tip touch the back of his throat. Manuel let out a moan that sent vibrations directly to Thomas's penis, who felt the fabric of his boxers tightening more and more around his growing erection. He began to move his head up and down, at first in a slow rhythm, making sure that his tongue went through all the areas that he knew would turn on Manuel even more. At this point, Manuel tried to hide the sounds that this pleasure generated in him by covering his mouth with the back of his hand, but the more Thomas licked, the more difficult the task became for him. With his other hand, he caressed Thomas's face, running his fingers over his cheeks and finally threading his fingers through his blond hair. Involuntarily his hips began to move, half-fucking his face looking for more friction from his partner's mouth. He tried to control himself since he did not want to hurt him in any way, but Thomas knew exactly how to move his mouth, moving and circling his tongue at the tip. He could feel his breath on his skin, the hot air over his lower abdomen only adding to the stimulation.

Taking advantage of how immersed Manu was in the movements of his mouth on him, he brought his index finger still wet with saliva and introduced it into Manu's entrance. The entrance of the slightly cold digit made him let out a gasp, holding Thomas' hair even tighter. He was always so careful with him, starting with only a finger and caressing his insides in soft but constant motions just enough for Manu to get used to it.

When he felt him loose, he added a second digit, twisting his hand and curling his fingers to try and find exactly that place he knew would make him climax in no time. Manu was moving alongside his erratic breaths and Thomas had to hold his left leg in place to keep him open. He felt how an almost melodic moan left Manu's mouth effortlessly and suddenly his fingers were being held inside even tighter. Found it.

-T…Thomas, Thommy, please… Wait, wait.- He moaned in a desperate tone. But he felt Thomas did quite the opposite, touching and pressing the sensitive spot even more, this alongside the tongue in his dick was about to make him finish there, inside his lover's mouth.

-Babe… Stop, please, I'm gonna…- Manuel kept begging, being more vocal than he usually was, turning Thomas on even more, his boyfriend haven't even laid a finger on him, and just pleasuring him and hearing those delightful mewls got him hard enough to enter Manuel right away if he wanted to. But for now, that wasn't on his plans, at least not right here. There was a slight chance he might hurt Manu, taking on count he was just recovering from an injury that got him out of the whole season and the last thing he wanted was to put the person he loved the most in even more physical pain.

Instead, he made sure Manu's leg was in a safe position over the armrest and lowered his hand to touch himself, matching the rhythm of moving his hand up and down his dick with the pace at which he was stimulating his lover. Manuel curved his back and hold Thomas' head if possible even closer to his hips and this accompanied by short-breathed pleads were the right warnings Thomas had before feeling the taste of the hot liquid spread into his mouth. The feeling made him fasten the pace at which he was masturbating wanting to cum at the sensation of Manu's orgasm. The taste of Manuel was addictive, and without thinking twice he swallowed everything… He waited until the last squirt of semen left Manu to slowly slide his lips from the base to the tip, releasing him. -Sorry, baby I'm so sorry.- Manuel purred, his voice softened with the intensity of the afterglow. Thomas looked up at hearing those words, and the view before him was enough to make him cum on the spot. Manuel Neuer completely naked, delicate drops of sweat distributed over his frame, spread open, with an adorable blush from ears to neck and whining after cumming, everything for him and him only. Thomas clenched his teeth feeling the wave of his own climax taking over his body, soon after the hot drops of his cum escaped his fingers, most of the liquid falling onto the shower's floor. He sighed deeply at the feeling and finally gave Manu a delicate kiss on his inner thigh. Manuel's breaths became steadier, finally opening his eyes to see Thomas giving him a loving look. -Thomas?- -Yes, love?- He doubted before giving up, -Will you just…hold me? Please?- Thomas smiled softly at the request, feeling a warmth in his chest. -I’m not going anywhere, baby.- He got up and placed himself behind Manuel, placing a kiss on the top of his head and another on his cheek. -I love you.- -But I love you even more.- He heard the sound of the shower faucet followed by the pleasant sensation of hot water falling on his back, accompanied by Thomas' caresses relaxed his muscles giving him comfort that lately with his injury was quite difficult to find. -Nope, this time it's my turn.- Manuel laughed at the answer. -So when will it be my turn?- He played along. -Let me think about it, I'll try to give you an answer one of these days. Maybe.- It was the first time that Manuel had taken a shower with Thomas. He had always had a somewhat reserved attitude about it, insisting that he would be fine on his own. This time, having missed his boyfriend made him lower his defenses, allowing himself to be vulnerable and share this moment with him. He had to admit that he felt a little embarrassed about it, but after a while, it was even comfortable being able to trust him even with things like this.

The casual intimacy of taking a bath together and the little gestures that made him feel like he would melt at any moment, like when Thomas put a hand on his forehead as he washed his hair to keep any drops of shampoo from getting into his eyes. Manu smiled to himself, wanting to take Thomas by the arm and throw him over himself to kiss him until he expressed without words the gratitude he felt for having him by his side. He made a mental note to do it later when there was no risk of slipping and falling as they were both wet now, giving himself the task of explaining the whole situation to his doctor afterward and obviously not going into details like 'I wanted to kiss to Thomas Muller while we were showering together'. When he finished, Thomas turned off the shower and reached for the towels hanging on the side, drying himself with quick movements and tying it around his waist, then with the remaining towel he proceeded to dry Manu, who tried to help him do it by putting his hands on top of his. He finally helped him to his feet and tied the towel the same way around his partner's body. As he walked out of the bathroom, leaning on Thomas's shoulder, night had fallen over the city, leaving the room with nothing but the light of a bedside lamp that gave the place an air of rest and privacy. It wasn't the first time that Thomas helped him get dressed, so they didn't take further time in it, and giving a natural course to the night, they raised the covers on the bed and let the night cover them while, as close as they were able to hug each other, they let the feeling of sleep and comfort of being together take over them.

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

so... this is what the email looked like

just reading that my username was 'idhunita' plus the fact that it was a quiz taking website just made my heart race so much. i knew what it was from the start.

so, for the few of you who don't already know, when i was a kid i was obsessed with this fantasy series called memorias de idhún (it was translated to english but i don't know the name). anyways, it became my whole personality, i was that one annoying kid who wouldn't shut up about one specific thing. anyways, among my frenzy, i logged onto the internet (i didn't have full access to it by then, i could only do it either in computers class or in my grandpa's computer) and made quizzes about memorias de idhún (there wasn't much else to do tbh). i remember making some myself, but i could never go back to them cause i forgot the websites' names. UNTIL TODAY.

i was 10 (9 days before turning 11!) when i made this test; if i am not mixing grades up, i believe this was before starting 6th grade? which is verery interesting cause i became obsessed with the books in the summer camp i went to in my school that same summer, i think i finished the third and final book there and started my delusion. that means, i was in full frenzy mode here.

anyways, it only has six questions, here they are (btw i took this test while taking the screenshots and i got 5 out of 6 correct <3)

the funniest one is that last one lol. i was such a little hater:

anyways, i'm gonna leave the english translations below just in case, and also you can see the test here if you want to take it for shits and giggles.

question 1. what is jack?

() a shek

(x) a dragon

question 2. what whas the name of the human mother of christian?

[this was the only question i got wrong. i literally couldn't tell you. apparently it's maula???]

question 3. who does shail love?

(x) zaisei

() kimara

() victoria

() gerde

[my two favourite characters as of today <3. also like technically he also loves victoria, but i'm sure i was referring to romantic love only]

question 4. who loves who?

you had to match the two columns!

shail no one

christian victoria

alsan zaisei

jack

[the answers are shail - zaisei; christian and jack - victoria; and alsan - no one. again only romantic love. you can tell i had a crush at that time lol, it was a girl from my class i went to the summer camp with.]

question 5. match every race with its god

celestians kevanion

shizs wina

humans neliam

fae irial

giants aldun

varus yohavir

yan the seventh

[the answers are celestians - yohavir, shizs - the seventh, humans - irial, fae - wina, giants - kevanion, varus - neliam, and yan - aldun. the way i still remember all of this by heart after more than a decade is a bit troubling ngl.]

question 6. who should victoria have ended up with?

this is a trick question cause she chooses both jack and christian but i was a scummy little rat and only had jack as the correct answer <3

i can't believe the email i just opened

[selfcareparker]

(lovely anon) i'm so happy to finally be answering this oh my goodness hi gorgeous human being i feel that it has been too long 🥲 SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED SINCE THE LAST TIME I'VE WRITTEN ONE OF THESE HOW HAVE YOU BEEN

to answer the things you have said most recently- i'm so mad that spring break is over bc now i have to go back to life??? like dancing and school and shit that feels so unnessacry 😭 and like i can't just do nothing anymore? i was so used to it and now...... ugh. i STILL haven't played sims (i think it's because ✨depression✨ be hitting sometimes) lol but MWAHAH IM SO HAPPY FOR YOUR NEIGHBOR!AU AND THAT THEY HAD LITTLE BABY LEO!! i feel the name thing.. i just come up with something that sounds nice? i think leo is a nice name, it makes me think about lea michele and the fact that her son's name is Ever Leo but anyway. i don't name my sims after what i want to name my children irl either... idk why though. (i don't know why i'm telling you this but for boy names i love Liam🥰 and if i had twin boys i think i would do Liam and Peter though i am not married to the name Peter.... anywho)

LMAOOO the therpaist coming made me laugh thank you :)) i hope it's helpful? this may be tmi but i've only really had negative thoughts recently and not many healthy outlets so i'm hoping crossing one thing off this sad list will make me feel better :') i think during spring break my anxiety and my depression really spiked? idk, it comes in episodes but yeah THIS GOT REALLY SAD

i think a lot of things when i read your posts but i never say them hahaha so imma say it now: i googled what bon appetit meant ( i also just had to google how to spell it ) but ur right, i feel like bone apple tea makes more sense than bone apple teeth.. the "th" is throwing me off bc how i say it bone appa (like app-a) teet (like you're saying tit but teet lol) so bone apple tea makes more sense to me lol

i never know really know the time difference for anything lmao but est to germany (that's not gmt is it?) is like 6 hours wOAH so it's like 9pm while it’s 3pm here? wowee

i feel mega weird after watching this show called hollywood (darren criss is in it, so is laura harrier and a bunch of other people) but i don't like it💀 i feel really icky rn and idk why but reading your last response to my ask (?) always makes me feel better :')

i am doing what you said btw, i'm typing this on my computer first then gonna transfer it to my phone's tumblr lol but when you said a digital detox, it's interesting cuz i feel like i've been having one since tom's new project was announced? gOD i don't wanna get into it bc i get so triggered but i've been off of instagram since then bc instagram stans literally stand by tom through whatever even when something ain't right- i’m just gonna leave it there bc i’ll continue the rant, but yeah so i took a break lol

also heard abt your driving lesson thing (?) was it that bad? i can't find the old post but someone asked if you hooked up with your lesson person and i was sOOO CONFUSED LMAOO LIKE OK ARIA GET SOME BUT UHH HUH?

now to address the actual response HAHA the way you touch my heart :') by :') bringing :') up :') halle :') being ariel :') (i honest to God don't remember if i brought this up first, forgive me if i did, it's been a minute lmao) i'm always talking about it and i'm pretty sure my family is so tired of me talking about it lmao, but YEAH when i found out they weren't twins i was so surprised but idk why i always thought they were twins? but YOU ARE SPEAKING MY LANGUAGE WITH THE DISNEY TALK- everyone is always like "tiana is my favorite princess" and yea she's strong and stuff but...... she was a frog. for almost the whole time. it's about time we got another one!! i do agree with some people on the fact that disney should just make another black princess but halle is adorable and i was ariel on stage so it's already really special to me :')

yeah lol there are good times with my brothers but they make me mad for a good portion of the time (there's the 12yo vincent and the 7yo daniel but vincent??? psshhh he is a piece of work and i'm not sure how much longer i can put up with him HAJAH AND YES VINCENT IS THE ONE WHO WAS 👁👄👁WHEN I CRIED AND THE ONE WHO DOESN'T LISTEN TO MUSIC- writing this now makes it sound like vincent is awful. which he isn't... we're working on him ig. not to add to the awfulness but no, he listens to obnoxious loud VIDEO GAME MUSIC and won't stop when we ask him to stop... he gets beat up a lot) anyway i imagine being an only child is really calming.. like you have time to yourself and its just you and your parents 😌

yeah let me know if you end up watching it (wandavision)! i think it's great but if you like it lmk!! tfatws is sooo good like PHEW i am honestly loving it. sidenote: j*hn w*lker makes me wanna jump through the screen and choke him to the ground. i was thinking right, and the falcon and the winter soldier (THATS SO MUCH EASIER FAJHKDAH) would techinally be like a 10 hour movie right? because every episode is an hour long and there'll be 10 episodes? like wow. i get what you mean though, abt the racism in the show etc, like looking forward to it but not like..... no i get what you mean i will not try and give another example lol but you make me wanna learn more languages like really badly (bc of what you said about the german to american translation) & if you end up watching hamilton PLEASE LMK ABT THAT TOO HAHAHA i love it so much, same thing with lion king lmaoo

speaking of germany, i was at lunch on saturday with my mom and her friend and we were talking about my schooling and like-- she planted this idea in my head lol like what if i just got my GED and went around the world (to england probably) to get a theatre experience??? and i think it sounds so cool but no where near practical lol, it's just..... the dream haha and i would then try and learn a language 😉

uh yes we absolutely should order basically a resturant meal at a cinema, how about burgers, chips (fries), and a large drink? any time next week works for me, should i pick you up?

also about cherry (which i still haven't watched yet lol) i got the timestamps from tumblr😌 i couldn't find them anywhere else, but i agree, i probably wouldn't even look twice at cherry if tom wasn't in it? like i liked tdatt a lot, but it's not a movie i would be itching to see ya know?

HAHAHAHA THE 24 HOUR NOTIFICATION- i think i have around 1030 hours on sims? but i've had it since 2019 lmao (reading the screenshots, yes u are 100% a genuis, i take screenshots too but on anon you can't upload them so i just read them and retype what i wrote lmao) i think the university experience in the game is fun, but time consuming and it's all work imo. idk why i do it so often tho 😭😭😭

and agreed!! when you're making good money in the game you have to find other ways to make it interesting. my cousins who play it just continously do "motherlode" and i'm like.... then what do you do in your game?? it just sounds boring to me... my current sims household, i had a famous comedian sim, her name was dylan, aND SORRY IM LAUGHING SO HARD WHILE WRITING THIS BC ITS A GREAT EXAMPLE OF THE UNI THING UNLESS IM JUST DUMB, she went to college for communications when i wanted her to be a comedian and when she graduated i realized that degree did nothing for the career 🥲 so yeah, i think i'm just dumb. but she had a kid in college, guy didn't stick around and she was pretty broke HA but then she got married to this (great) guy named steve, made good bank, had 5 more kids (two sets of twins and one more lol) but then she passed. uhm... yeah that's still an open wound . lol i'm kidding, but when you get rich like that, you have to find a way to make the game interesting and i chose a million kids.

(this was one giant paragraph until i broke it up uhh yeah) i seriously don't pay attention to the sims prices and just end up spending way too much money and not being able to finish the rest of the house😭 but then again, i'm so used to having sims live in apartments... if i end up building a house FIRST OF ALL it'll look like what you explained before lmao but i'll tell you if i actually end up building a house HAHA & planning out your sims game is so fun to me lol, did enisa and michael take in his daughter yet? i may be thinking too far ahead lol and i love that they fucked woohooed (i say woo woo lol) in celebration HAHA but when i was playing with this one couple i had them woo woo every night hoping the dude would have horrible pull out game and they would concieve, but one night they were too tired and i was like why? get back in there man. if i was in college and lived with my partner we would be fucking every night homie. be grateful. i have been talking a lot about sims, and like you said: enough 💀 i just love this game a lot 😭😭

SORRY LAST THING i think the sims romantic and sexual stuff is so nice bc its what i want?? LMAO IDK like the whole hot tub thing you're talking about- puh lease ITS JUST NICE TO SEE OKAY

i'm reading the german section over again and i said aloud "my german friend is so cool" lol (i was saying that to my brothers & i know they don't care LMAO) (& i'm glad the uni zoom call went well!!) so on a form, in german, it could possibily say Einführungsveranstaltungsteilnehmer because you would be a participant to an introductory event? i swear german sounds so cool 😌 but i love reading your german lessons!! it's really interesting, most of the time my brain can't comprehend it tho?? like that word makes sense to you, but i need a translation. like to be able to look at that and know what it says.... its just appealing and seems so cool lol i kinda wanna write something out in german but i feel that google translate will fail me. während googeln "google übersetzen" mein Computer war so verdammt langsam und es fühlte sich einfach wie etwas Gutes auf Deutsch zu sagen. ich bin nicht sicher, welches Wort ist "fucking", aber ich mag es lmao (did it fail me like i thought it would??)

LMAOOO THANK YOU FOR BRINGING UP JUSTIN BC WHILE AT THE RESTURANT THEY PLAYED A JUSTIN SONG AND I IMMEDIATELY THOUGHT OF YOU AND THIS STORY😭 lol i was thinking it's depending on your age but not even that either... i really don't know.... but tom's fans are hollanders💀 i would consider myself one? he's the only person i'm really into like that (like a lot lol) so idk lmao (directioners 💔💔the pain is real)

LMAOOO (both of these paragraphs started off with “lmaooo” smh) "i like my men when they look like they are on the brink of death" PLEASE, i don't like pete's blonde hair... i just don't. i'm not sure if i wasn't watching the most recent snls but yea. my mom thinks he looks like trash, but i think he's okay? like he said staten island people just look like trash LMAO and I STILL HAVEN'T SEEN KING OF STATEN ISLAND GIRL I ALMOST FORGOT ABOUT THAT!! now i'm gonna make plans to watch it lmao, & yes agreed i find pete hot, don't ask why i really couldn't explain it to someone he's just .

my favorite songs from rex are from pony oh my goodness 🥺 anywho i'm gonna go eat cereal (i ended up eating bun and cheese instead) and listen to the Stormzy songs you recommended... aria. aria aria aria. i would like to thank you for introducing me to stormzy i- i don't have any words or any emojis to express HOW GOOD STORMZY IS. i hope he's popular in germany/the uk because i haven't heard of him but GURLLLL

one second - delicious i love it. it's really good. it’s not my favorite from the album, but its great.

superheroes - at first i played the non-explicit one (on accident) and wondered why the words weren't playing but i was reading them in the lyrics??? THIS ONE THOUGH??? IS THE BEST SONG I THINK I'VE EVER HEARD. i am so SO SO into black people empowering songs (like brown skin girl by beyonce) and this song???? PHEW I CRYYYYY ITS SO GOOD.... i was gonna quote some lyrics BUT THERS TOO MANY I LOVE, "i am young, black, beautiful, and brave" "black queen, you're immaculate, it's coming at the world, they ain't ready for your magic yet, and that was never your fault" THAT WAS NEVER YOUR FAULT- I ALMOST CRIED THIS SONG IS SO BEAUTIFUL (i played it twice lol)

lessons is another beautiful one, like its slow and it feels intimate and nurturing and just OO chefs kiss, beautiful . like you can feel the apology and the regret... it’s so good

own it - OWN IT OWN IT OWN IT IS AMAZING!! swear you would catch me dancing to this song, this song is so fucking good i cannot comprehend like this one might be my favorite for real... "it's the way you wind up your waist, i'm so in awe, you never have to worry abt nothing, you know its yours, you know you own it" 🥲 i played it two or three times honestly

rachael's little brother - YES I DID LISTEN TO IT LMAO AND YES I LIKE IT, its a very complex song and it's very layered in terms of emotions i think and i really like that about it. i probably won't listen to it that often, but its really good. i would recommend this song to my "older brother" bc he would just absolutely love this

shut up - i was taking this song seriously (also very good) until i heard him say shu-T up LMAO, this one is good, i probably wouldn't listen to it 24/7 like rachael's little brother but honestly its still fire

before listening to blinded by your grace and vossi bop, i know you brought up the religion bit, i definitely don't mind that, especially because i'm Christian lol and i actually liked that he brought up God in some of his songs like idk i just like it🥰🥰

(i then went to bed after that lol but first thing in the morning i listened to superheroes and... that song is probably my favorite tbh, i was gonna write MORE quotes that i loved from it but, yeah no there's too many. if you want i'll tell you lmao but this is already so long i would just be quoting the whole friggin song)

VOSSI BOP IS A BOP (lol) I CANT EVEN LIE, i love a song that hypes up a dude's girl so the line- i love that my phone decided to fail to load the lyrics, lemme google it, okay the lyric "looking at my girl like what a goddess" i was like AYEEE its honestly just really good. and no one in america says "sauce" like "i've got the sauce" but now i do (thanks to love island and Nas from last season) and now stormzy so (also im gonna watch the music video for superheroes bc it looks great so 😛)

(because this is already so long i feel like i shouldn't finish the rest but . no i'm gonna do it)

now for blinded by your grace pt2 idk why i’m nervous lmaoo PAUSE I'M NOT EVEN DONE WITH THE SONG GIRL THIS SONG IS *chefs kiss* no words, speechless PHEW y'all gon make me start jumping around. why did i not know about stormzy before, he is amazing i- ok yeah i finished the song, all i have to say is that Stormzy is immaclucate. period. i am literally sending his music to all my friends he is..... amazing

you want my song recommendations 🥺🥺 hmm uh okay lol i listen to a lot of old music, whitney houston, marvin gaye, queen, celine dion, i love "more than words" by extreme uhmm okay, but for actual music i listen to on the daily? (this is a lot of different music like.... they do not go together lmao so be prepared) a song about being sad by rex orange county, betty by taylor swift and lover by taylor swift and... most of that album lol, treasure by bruno mars lmao, OOOO and versace on the floor by bruno as well, lazybaby by dove cameron, creep by tlc has been on repeat lol, deja vu by olivia rodrigo (i saw what you said about drivers license and AGREED LMAO but i like deja vu a lot more haha) and two albums that i listen to in general, rare by selena gomez and ungodly hour by chloe x halle 🥰 you don't have to listen to all of them or any of them lol but that's a sense of what i'm into :) so basically everything haha, i'm into literally every single kind of music really so i wasn't too surprised that i enjoyed stormzy :’)

HAHASBSJHAHA your h20 story cracked me up,, like "wow these actors are so dedicated, learning german just for us" 😭 the beauty of overdubbing

once again, math and maths, in my mind maths makes sense because its mathmatics, but saying maths doesn't feel right to me lol, like if i said maths i feel like everyone would look at me like ??? and yea i was taught it as math so its just more natural for me. but yes math/maths is disgusting, easily one of my least favorite subjects so .

mkay. i- the first time i read this i could not contain my laughter when you said the only pollen you know is sex pollen LMAOKOOSHBABJFAJF STOPPP I'M EVEN LAUGHING WRITING THIS,, anyway. wow! that's interesting, my dad (<<< mostly anything else) gets migraines from the sun and the heat and stuff, yesterday (sunday, i was outside for like hours watching my brothers play football, the american kind lol) i was in the sun for like ever and i got a headache😔

summer clothes🥲 i need to go shopping fr fr. for my birthday my mom and dad got me a giftcard like dedicated to a shopping spree and we've yet to go so..... i should bring it up to my mom lol, but!! i went bra shopping (ended up returning literally all of them cuz they honestly didn't work for day to day work? its a long story) and if i could i would walk around in this new "summer bra" i got, i would. it's so fricking cute and its really light fabric (which isn't perfect for my nipples but still) so i don't get hot in it, but that bra and some shorts would be perfect. its the closest thing to being naked so

IS THE BIRD STILL BOTHERING U ARIA, TELL ME NOW ISTG, i laughed really hard that the bird isn't stupid and is really trying to torture you LMAOO like i was rolling, it wants you to suffer, badly

when you said "mensus" it was still close to mens!!! latin speaking queen 😌😌

okay STORYTIME i was reading back your response and started (fake) crying bc i love you lol and my youngest brother (daniel) gon say "oh man, catherine's crying about something we don't care about, again" I--- i swear when i tell you about them they sound awful, but they aren't that bad, just the stuff i say about them is sounds really mean LMAO

but the thing you said about being kind, same, what i always say is: don't be the person that makes people say "i hate people" ya know? like there's no reason to be a jerk or anything.... but its true 🥺🥺🥺🥺 you are really kind and every time i talk to you i would like to personally fly to germany and give you a hug 💖💕💞💗💓💝💖💘

& i'm gonna show my stretch marks some love bc of you 🥺😭 i really hate how men have basically everyone conditioned that you can't love your own body </3 fuck them, y'all beautiful :')

also thanks for what you said :')) you literally are the kindest, sweetest person i think i've ever spoken to and i love you 🥰🥺🥲💓💗

READING YOUR TAGS HAHAHHAHA the spelling errors makes everything so much funnier. once again, i like your german lessons & yea!! i'm gonna play sims after writing this hahah

#catherine's tags are back #i don't think i've told you my name before?? #anyway it's catherine🥰🥰🥰 #i'm typing this on my computer (without emojis) and if i didn't edit this you would be reading shit shite like #heartface and pout and cry LMAO #yeah abt the tattoos #some stuff with my parents i'm like deal with it??? lol #my mom tells me "if there's something you enjoy or you like but i don't have the same opinion on it... why would my (my mom's) opinion matter? #and i love that #like i'm not gonna go and do whatever i want #but if my mom doesn't like that i swear (which isn't true just an example) #its like okay.... #but whatever #and your tattoo ideas sound really cute!! #and yeah @ your parents, i mean you aren't getting something wild #and the tattoo album>>> #i'm gonna look up ariana's butterfly tattoos just so i know what you mean lol #but i'm guessing you don't want something so incredibily simple, but not super like over the top? #correct me if i'm wrong lol #LMAO the tags were in order don't worry ! #and yeah lol ily2 <33 #and once again, again, sorry for this post JSHJS ITS A MESS AND LONG AS HELL #and you don't need to go in order of my post its literally longer than your german compound words #u're fine #also !!! while writing this the birds were chirping outside and i was like 😳 #and one of your fics (i’ve read all of them, i don’t remember lol) that valentine’s day one where y/n had lingerie on (the pancake one lol) #inspired me to buy lingerie #like when i look back on me “growing up” #that fic & basically you lol really helped with that #that made no sense and i don’t know how to make it make sense... but... yeah. like ily

hiiiiiiiiiii <3333

Dear catherine, 😌

(you have said your name before, but it wasn‘t like an introduction or anything i think you were talking about .... was it possibly the incident at the cinema??? And you said something like ‘calm down catherine‘ like you were telling yourself to calm down idkd dkdkkdkd anyway i didn‘t mention it cause i wasn‘t sure if it was an accident or not dkdjd but now i know 😌❤️ Catherine is such a cute and lovely name btw omg and so are your brothers‘s names 🥰

Sorry that I‘m answering this so late, it‘s been an emotional rollercoaster for me since last week but i‘ll get to that in a second lol

Sksklssk girl i haven‘t played sims in like 2 weeks now ekejdkdlldld ok that‘s not that long at all actually but i keep wanting to play but then i end up not playing for whatever reason, so no news about my sims game 😔 but i love the names Liam and Peter and for twins!!! That sounds really nice actually

okay i‘m trying to answer your ask in chronological answer even though i wanted to wait for the depressing stuff and write it at the end or something OKAY so. i thought that i‘d feel so good when i start uni and that i‘ll like... have a purpose in life again and just be happy (cause in the last year i didn‘t do much and i was depressed like half of the time lol).... anyway i kind of feel even worse now? 😭 i think it‘s because in my brain it‘s like: university!!! that means your life will change and it‘ll all be so exciting. and don‘t get me wrong it is exciting butttt..... idk the online thing is so weird cause you‘re not meeting any new people (i‘m introverted anyway but still lol) and it doesn‘t feel like you‘re listening to/talking to actual people cause it feels the same as just watching a video?

also i thought i‘d be busy again but i only have one lecture (90mins) a day and theres one day where i dont have any lectures at all and just one day where i have 3 hours but.... idk i mean i shouldn‘t complain about having so much free time but i just don‘t know what to do all day and in a pandemic there really is nothing to do but i also can‘t relax bc it‘s like during the week and i know i have uni the next day and .... yeah.

There‘s also this one assignment i had to do that took me AT LEAST SIX HOURS AND IM NOT EVEN EXAGGERATING????? so that was the only thing i‘ve been doing besides “going to“ lectures. for this one course we have to read two (really really long) texts (like it literally took me 3 hours to read them) and we‘re supposed to post it on this website that all the professors in our uni use. So after 5 days of anxiety (✌🏼) i posted mine this morning bc last night i realised that i didn‘t even know why i was having anxiety so i just posted mine today. The deadline is tomorrow at 12 and no one except me has posted theirs yet........ so i have anxiety again 🥰 cause idk if i‘m the only one who did it or if i even did it correctly

Edit while i‘m rereading this: my anxiety about uni is a lot better and i‘m not as d*pressed anymore maybe it was just hormones? idk but i‘m better so that‘s good

(I started writing this like 5 hours ago and then i randomly completely forgot lol)

I‘m in a better mood now though so let‘s move on from that (oh wait also, i think i‘m gonna see if i can find a psychiatrist bc with my anxiety symptoms (long story) i need to go to a psychiatrist, and so far i‘ve only gone to like psycholgists and it didn‘t help but i think that‘s just bc i was meant to go to a psychiatrist and not a psychologist so dldjdjsj

n e ways but yes you‘re not alone, ily, things will get better and yes i love you (i‘m not good at this type of thing🥲 but i‘d hug you right now if i could <3)

Yess i think the time difference between est and me is 6hours but gmt is uk time i believe? i think mine is called.... cet? For central european time? I could be completely wrong though lmao

Oof i completely forgot about hollywood, i remember when laura kept posting about it on instagram but i never actually watched it and i definitely won‘t now lmaodkdksjsn

Okay my driving lesson LEBDJDKDK I DID NOT HOOK UP WITH ANYONE AKSJSKSMMLM especially not my 40 or 50 year old driving instructor lol i like her but NOT LIKE THAT, the lesson was really really really good actually and i think i‘ll have my driving test soon, but i don‘t even remember why the anon would have thought that??? Oh wait now i remember okay KEKSKDLDL so during the lesson my instructor was like do you mind if i turn on some music? AND THIS WOMAN TURNED ON ONE DIRECTION I LOVE HER so i made a post about it and i said something about the song up all night and i guess i phrased it in a .... idk in a dumb way 💀 so the anon made a joke that i stayed up with my driving instructor all night and NO. No.

Wait did i read that right? YOU WERE ARIEL ON STAGE? SIALDBDJDKSLMSBDKDMDMDKDJSLSMDJFJJEDMBFEKLEFBJDLDVSIDLESKSKWKDKDJDOWNYUEKWNDUWLNSUFLWVSUDLEHDOENSIDBEISBEHENJELBSIEMWUDNRIW KB WOBE JO ON SBEUU HIII S HWS LV W ICH US KB okay this keyboard smash is getting out of hand but uh please do elaborate on that 💘😌???? Like you can‘t just drop that information and not say more??? I forgot if you‘re in like your school‘s drama group (is that a thing? lol idk anything about acting) or in an independent group? Either way - ARIEL that is so fucking cool

Your brothers loooooool, no i get it though obviously you love them and stuff but esp at their age children are so annoying so good luck with them 😭😭😭lmao

Yeah “anyway i imagine being an only child is really calming.. like you have time to yourself and its just you and your parents 😌“ yeah just me and my parents who constantly fight 🥰 lmao no i like being an only child, like i cannot imagine having siblings but i feel like if i had siblings i would be saying that i can‘t imagine being an only child so? but i do think it‘s quite different like i‘m trying to imagine having siblings and WHAT that‘s just so different omg i‘ve never really thought about it like properly ???

I saw a tik tok the other day that was like “sometimes i forget that my siblings have a life of their own. like i see them as side characters in my life“ and even though i can‘t relate obviously i felt that. lol, like i can really imagine how it feels idk what i‘m talking about like shut the fuck up, daria

(also my actual name is daria not aria but i dont like it, and also i wanted to be more anonymous on tumblr so now i‘m aria lmao. pls don‘t mention it though cause no one knows except for you and mel (peterbenjiparker) dkdkdkdnkdnd. but i‘m starting to identify with the name cause everyone keeps calling me that looool😭😭😭 (but i like the name, more than daria anyway? well it also depends on the accent, cause the way germans say daria is okay. the was Americans say it is also okay, but some of my family in England are from the north of england and i don‘t like how they say my name 💀 no offence to them(?) but yeah pls don‘t mention the name in your ask cause the chance of people seeing it is higher then (or if you want to say something about it just send a separate ask and i just won‘t post it (IDK what you‘d want to say about my name but yeah just in case slsldlldmsndnsns)

I‘m loving falcon and winter soldier so much but when i was watching an episode the week before last week (?) my laptop broke😭😭😭😭 during the scene where the dora milaje came at the end my laptop just shut down? And it had these lines all over the screen and i had to bring it to the shop where i bought it and they said it‘ll take 6-8 weeks to repair 💔💔💔 but at least it‘ll be for free, cause if i brought it back to apple it would cost like 400€ (i think that‘s nearly 500$) so yeah. but it sucks cause now i‘m “going to uni“ on a really old rusty laptop and on my phone which kinda sucks. oh yeah and also i can‘t watch anything on there 😭 i definitely want to watch wandavision but it‘ll have to wait🤧

Yessss you should def get your GED! I googled and I‘m still not entirely sure what it is dldks but from how you described it- YES!!!!!!

Idk if you know this? Like no idea if I‘ve told you this already (hmmm wait i feel like we talked about it actually?) anyway i was originally gonna go study in England, but for loads of reasons I ended up staying in Germany and I‘m def happy with my decision, but I definitely want to go to England sometime even if it‘s just for six months or maybe for my masters or something? And (obviously everyone is different) but i think everyone should go abroad and live in a different country once in their life, no matter if it‘s for school or what, and even if it‘s just for a few weeks. But i think that‘s something that you‘d never ever forget! And combining that with your acting/theatre??? You really would be living the dream 💘💘😌

how about burgers, chips (fries), and a large drink? any time next week works for me, should i pick you up?— sounds good see you soon 🥰🥰🥰

i used to be one of the people who‘d just do motherlode motherlode motherlode and just... what did i do? Why did i do that??? But not anymore lol. Like I said i haven‘t played sims in a few weeks but i‘ve been watching a few legacy challenge let‘s plays and usually i play with the aging off. So my sims just don‘t age 💀 but i could (should) turn aging on so that it stays exciting and i have limited time and everything. and once i get bored with my current sims i can just make them have kids and continue playing as their children when they get older- like recently i remembered that i haven‘t played the acting career in ages? and i haven‘t had a shop in ages? and i think you can even become a vet right??? like those are definitely some things i want to do in the next weeks!!! Also yes sksksjs i have a few hundred hours on sims as well (if not thousands 😭) it was just that one household that i‘d been playing with for 24hrs

AND GIRL SSKSKJD THE UNIVERSITY THING HAPPENED TO ME TOO, it was a while ago so i don‘t remember what degree and what job it was about but i made my sim study something for aaaaaages so she‘d get a better job from the beginning (you know what i mean like get in at a higher level)...... and i apparently studied the wrong thing cause i didn‘t get any benefits from studying and still had to start at level 1 and shit 🥴🥲

Oh also (this was like 2 weeks ago) Enisa and Michael did take in Michael‘s daughter and i think Enisa currently even has a higher/better relationship with the daughter than Michael but um💀💀💀 also i was hoping (since michael and enisa married (in their back yard i think lol) that the daughter (i forget what her name is😭) would have enisa as her step mom? Like you know how you can see the relationship and it says daughter or son or sister.. and i was hoping that it would say step mom but it doesn‘t say anything 🥲 but in my mind (and if the sims had proper family relations) she is her step mom😌 also Leo is a teenager now???? I mean I aged him up lol dkdk he was being too annoying as a toddler but i don‘t like children so i aged him up twice in one day and now he‘s a teen, but that means he can look after his half sister when she becomes a toddler which is good (the game recognises them as siblings tho even if they‘re just half siblings? why can‘t they have step family members in the sims🥲) okay i‘ve annoyed you enough with sims ✋🏼

I‘ve been a bit sick these past few days and now i‘m getting a headache so i have to finish this response tomorrow 😭😭😭 </3

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It‘s not tomorrow, it‘s 3 hours later but i‘m better lol

oooff when sims are ungrateful and won‘t woo woo (lol i like that) cause they‘re too tired like?? Be grateful that you‘re not living with your parents anymore 🙄 no okay dkdkdkdl idk if you play with mods (i don‘t) but i know there is a mod (or it‘s part of a mod idk maybe wicked whims?) where you can adjust the percentage of how risky a normal woo woo is, like you still click woo woo (3dksksks okay i‘ll say woohoo again— wait is that what’s it called? 😭) but there‘s like a 25% chance that your sim can still get pregnant just like in real life there‘s always a chance of getting pregnant even if you‘re using protection (just not 25% lmao) but yeah i personally don‘t play with mods sksk and you can always just click try for baby but it would be cool if you could add stuff like risky woohoo to the game without mods (i have no idea how to download mods and i play sims on a really really old laptop and sims is literally tje only thing that works on it anyway so—) i repeat my words from earlier: okay i‘ve annoyed you enough with sims ✋🏼

okay i‘m so sorry i‘m gonna watch fast & furious 1 now cause i need to watch f&f 1-5 until the 30th of april cause they‘re only on netflix til then (i mean i could watch them somewhere else but the quality is never as good) so i will finish this tomorrow after all😭

it is now 1 am, i finished the film, can feel a new obsession coming up again (i always have these f&f obsessions for six months before and after a new film comes out)

THE GOOGLE TRANSLATE wkekdjdj tbh it sounds like someone is speaking with some kind of foreign accent i guess that‘s probably because it just is a direct translation and so anyway slsjsj i don‘t know if you asked me what the word fucking is in german? like idk cause the translation is a bit weird but in case you asked lol sidjsjs theres not really a good translation like we just say fuck for fuck lmao, i don‘t know if you typed in fucking in google translate and it came out as verdammt? cause that means damn (or damned sksjjs) ummm yeah idek if/what you asked so imma move on🤧

I‘m not gonna comment on what you said about every stormzy song cause you already said all the important things but SKSKSJSJSKNSNDBDUDOENWBSLSKKHSULSLSKSBSJSKSK I WAS SMILING SO HARD WHEN I READ YOUR RESPONSE FOR THE FIRST TIME BECAUSE AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH finally i know someone who loves him as much as i do 💘💘💘 also since you brought it up, i‘m pretty sure he‘s considered the most successful UK rapper or if not then at least top 3 so he‘s defffffffffinitely big in the uk, in germany more and more people are listening to uk rap too but not as much stormzy cause theyre dumb apparently 🙄 but anywY i‘m sooooo sooo happy that you like him. i think hith came out end of 2019 (i could be wrong but i think it came out on the 13th of december so (in a european way) you‘d write the date: 13.12 and obviously i don‘t KNOW this but i can definitely imagine that he chose that date because ACAB and yes, Michael. Yes. But he hasn‘t made too much music since then so i hope he‘s working on some new stuff 🤞🏼

Also i ordered the stormzy poster😌 also a nicki minaj one bc i decided i‘m gonna have one wall with red-ish posters (i already have two kinda red ones) and one with blue/green-ish posters (already have two) and i can add stormzy to the blue one and nicki to the red one, but i think that‘s it cause if my walls are tooo full it could look cluttered? I‘m not sure how that type of thing works lmao but my room is generally untidy so i don‘t want the walls to look unorganised too so i think that‘s it for now

I really want to finish this now but my brain is getting kinda slow and i need to sleep soon so this will have to wait till later after all 🥺🥴 (not that it makes and difference to you bc you‘ll see this whenever i post it buttttt i wanted you to know that i want to talk to you again but with my slow brain i‘m just taking too long to do it in one day😭😭😭 and i‘m so busy tomorrow hmm but i‘m sure i‘ll have 30 minutes to finish this then <3)

Okay wait I‘m so dumb I didn‘t realise I‘d nearly answered everything i could have posted this yesterday 😭😭

Oooohh that summer bra sounds so nice like if i was confident enough i literally would just wear a top that resembles a bra (or really is a bra lol) cause my tiddies always be looking amazing i‘m just insecure about my stomach sometimes 🙄🙄🙄 but recently i‘ve been loving myself more and more tbh 😌

also i hope you can go shopping for some nice clothes soon ✨😌

I‘ll be honest I haven‘t listened to your song recs YET but only because i wanna take my time with them and i‘ve been so busy and slso AJ tracey‘s album came out last week and I haven‘t listened to that one yet either so ekdkdj (he‘s also a uk rapper like quite popular and successful as well, but i feel like i‘m not gonna like his album cause whenever i‘m looking forward to an album it ends up being really bad and the albums where you weren‘t expecting it turn out to be bangers.... so yeah but i‘ll let you know when i listen to your songs!!!! :)

Omg i keep having to scroll up all the way to see the next thing you said so sorry if I completely miss some of the things you said😭😭

So when you sent this the bird was still bothering me oh my FUCK DKDLDMMDMDMD but now i‘ve been going to bed at like 1-2am so the bird is probably still asleep lool

Okay and for the rest of your ask my response is: 💘💖❣️💚❣️💛❣️💛💕💞❤️💓💟💞💕💕💖💘💝💟💟🧡❤️🧡💞💛💚💓💚💚💚❣️🧡💖💘🧡💝🧡💕💘🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺🥰🥺🥺💘💘💘💘💘 (okay that looked cuter in my head i don‘t really like the green hearts dldkkdksndnd)

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other silly things that happened in russian class because of my shostakovich hyperfixation. I'm aware this is all going to somehow make me look even more uncharismatic than I already am but like. we're all friends here:

gave a presentation on shostakovich's 5th symphony. I do Not like giving presentations, but I was confident enough about knowing the material that I was able to get through it. still, I was a nervous wreck because I was worried I'd start rambling to people who weren't as interested as I was in shostakovich. I was relieved when it was over, but then my professor wanted to me to tell everyone about the story behind the 7th symphony (which is super fucking cool if you don't know it btw look it up). so then I just. went back up in front of the class and gave another whole presentation off the top of my head

memorized a evtushenko poem for a poetry recital contest. my professor was impressed that not only did I know the poem; I was able to learn the whole thing. the poem was set to music in the 4th movement of shostakovich's 13th symphony. which made it way easier for me

I was reading shostakovich's letters and didn't know how to translate a word. I didn't want to disrupt the class, so I figured I'd ask her via email. the next day in class, she told everyone that I'd asked the question and why, and proceeded to translate the word and explain its cultural context. which was very nice of her but like. I wanted these kids to like me

my professor went a semester and a half thinking I was second generation ukrainian because of my russian-speaking accent. I'm not sure if I sound ukrainian or not. but I studied so much for my weird music obsession that she thought I spoke russian at home??

tangentially related thing that happened. I was an english major and had studied italian in the past, so I was familiar with linguistics/grammar stuff. russian has a ton of grammar rules (some of which don't exist in english, but at least italian also has reflexive verbs), and the Only Reason why I was decent at it was because I already had a background with language stuff. I did Not want to be seen as a know it all, so I tried to keep a low profile. unfortunately I wasn't very good at this and people kept asking me to explain grammar stuff. I tried to explain the best way I could, which often meant using linguistics terms because I couldn't find a way around them, but they didn't always understand these, so I just ended up looking more like a nerd

dmitri shostakovich was a young man in the 1920s and 30s. his letters from this era to his friends were filled with innuendos and curse words. this resulted in me learning many words I would have never learned in russian class

I was notorious for showing up to class early all the time. this is because I'd read about shostakovich being Very particular about people being on time, and I didn't know if this was a russian cultural thing or if it was just him (tbf he did some unusual stuff too sometimes, like using the formal address for his students). I know it's not good to make assumptions on an entire culture based on one very neurotic man from the 20th century but in this case it worked

I DIDN'T KNOW SHIT about anything related to russian culture outside of whatever was in my shostakovich/music history bubble. so this whole time my professor would be treating me like some sort of genius and I really wasn't. I was just very very specialized in this one area. I was aware of what was going on in the news (ie. putin shit), but I don't know a ton about pretty much anything with russia outside of music stuff and whatever happened to be related to it. so I was nervous she'd expect me to know about idk. politics or geography or something like that

I DID take soviet history class in college. also to further my shostakovich hyperfixation. that did help contextualize what I was interested in. it did not help me win social points in russian class

not related to russian class. but once I was dating a guy in college and I made him wait because I was reading a book on shostakovich in the library. my shostakovich obsession lasted longer than our relationship

so one thing that is very funny about taking a class for your very specific hyperfixation is that your teachers will think you're some sort of genius, but they don't know that your knowledge only extends to topics surrounding your hyperfixation. so I took russian in college because I was super interested in the composer dmitri shostakovich, and I wanted to be able to read his untranslated letters. I took this VERY seriously. because I was reading a lot about composers and stuff, I was familiar with some other aspects of russian culture, like literature and art, because it showed up sometimes while I was researching composers. I read some russian literature; I wasn't as into it as I was into music, but a lot of famous works showed up enough that I knew what they were and who wrote them.

so once I was in class and my professor asked if any of us were familiar with "dr. zhivago." I have never read "dr. zhivago." I don't know what "dr. zhivago" is about. However. I knew it was written by boris pasternak. so I kinda blurted, "oh yeah; boris pasternak"

my professor was SO impressed. she was gushing about how I was her first student to know who boris pasternak was, and that she'd go home and tell her husband that she had a student who knew about boris pasternak.

I don't think she ever found out I had never read "dr. zhivago." or anything by pasternak