#Black Cat Draws' goobers!!!
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Okayyy I give up,,,
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The sillies from @blackkatdraws
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lozenga-arts · 7 months ago
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A recent sketch page with ideas from my friends
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kiame-sama · 4 months ago
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wait, you already said what you think the twst cast is as monsters, but what do they look like?
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Warnings: my twst monster au, almost all characters with names (other than Yuu and Grim) in monster forms, mythical creatures, deer rack point system, measurements given in ft and cm, animal traits, various animal and plant species mentioned, usually I would say to use your imagination to think it up but I have thought about this way too much myself so I may as well share ideas of what they would look like, feel free to draw these monster men and if you do please share with me because I want to see these goobers drawn, some spoilers for Rollo's backstory,
Divus is a Harp Seal Selkie;
- Divus has a black and white fur coat of a Harp Seal with slight spotting pattern similar to Leopard Seals. His coat is always shiny, clean, and wrapped around his shoulders. Divus appears fairly humanoid and close to his canon appearance other than the sharper than normal canines that are closer to the cone teeth of seals. Selkies do not part with their coats lightly so it is very rare to see one without their pelts on their shoulders. His coat is more natural Harp Seal patterning than the clear black and white lines he has in canon.
Sam is a Shadow man;
- White skull markings along his face with burning purple eyes. He has several black tattoos on his skin that move and can even detach into actual shadow to ensnare his prey. There is constantly a darkness around him that seemed to repulse light, making him appear to be surrounded in constant shadow.
Vargas is a Texas-Longhorn Minotaur;
He has very long and large bull horns with the minotaur expression on his lower half making his upper body appear human other than his horns. His lower half is the same shade as his hair with white speckling on the left leg. His tail is often lazily swinging back and forth as he talks.
Trein is a Mountain Lion Sphinx;
- Lower-half is the body of a Mountain Lion with wings, upper half is Trein's usual upper body. He does have a lot of grey and white furs/feathers due to his age in his coat and it is clear he favors his right back leg as it usually sits at an angle. He can often be seen lounging with Lucius in a sunny spot in his classroom when not teaching.
Crowley is a Crow Fae;
- Similar to his appearance in canon TWST, but his large black wings are more prominent as are the iridescent colors in them and his hair. He actually has talons on his hands and not just the golden talons. He does wear golden caps on his talons however and has a medium length train of black tail-feathers.
Ace is a Saanen Satyr;
- He has short twisted horns and his orange hair is also the same color on his goat half- just a bit darker shade. His hooves are an off-white ivory. He does have the little billy-goat scruff of a goatee due to his Satyr heritage.
Deuce is a Rocky Mountain Faun;
- Deuce has large spiral horns and his blue hair is the same color on his goat half- just a shade darker as well with white speckles around his hooves and tail. His hooves are black. Deuce does not have the goatee often seen on Satyrs and Fauns.
Note; it is part of my AU that Satyrs usually have shorter horns and are closer to farm goats in their animal halves. Fauns are closer to mountain goats and therefore have longer more curved horns often seen on rocky mountain rams. Females of both Fauns and Satyrs grow the same large horns, but their horns are often thinner around than the males of their species.
Cater is a Lake Water Nymph;
- Cater is considered unusual among Water Nymphs because of his hair's coloration being a bright red instead of a more blue or green which is more common for Water Nymphs. Cater's hair is closer in color to a red Ludwigia as he is a lake Water Nymph and the flora of lakes tend to have a fair variation of green to red color hues. Cater's bright green eyes are closer to the usual colors of Water Nymphs and he accredits this to his mother who is a river Water Nymph. In the water Cater gets fins more adapted to lake swimming so he is not as strong in currents.
Che'nya is a Bakeneko;
- He is similar to his canon appearance, but the purple and pink of his hair is also visible on the skin of his arms, legs, and back. He also now has a two pronged fluffy tail similarly striped that is often seen waving mischievously behind him.
Trey is a Kelpie Centaur;
- When out of the water, Trey's Centaur half is that of a white horse with a long tail of the same green hair that Trey's human half has. His horse half is closer muscular build to Scottish Draft horses. When in the water, the white fur of his horse half becomes a lake green with fading blue hues. His tail hair becomes more stringy like lake reeds and his fur takes a more prickly quality. His back legs become a large fin when he is submerged completely in deep water, making him more of a Hippocampus in physiology while swimming.
Riddle is a Unicorn Centaur;
- His horse half has a pure white coat with a long tail closer to that of a lion than a horse, but long bright red hair for his tail. Riddle's hooves are a rather lovely golden color that shine like metal, same with the tight spiral horn that sits in the center of his forehead. There is a faded blue star shape at the base of his horn that seems to tattoo his fair skin, he often covers this up with his bangs. His horse half is similar in musculature to that of an Arabian Horse making him appear more dainty than Trey.
Note; Cater is often seen lounging on Trey's back while Trey swims in the Heartslabyul lake with Riddle laying in the grass on the shore. They often spend their afternoons doing this and Cater will frequently try to get Riddle to swim. Thus far, he has been unsuccessful.
Jack is a Gray Wolf Werewolf;
- Unlike his canon appearance, Jack constantly has that wolf-head and white fur all over his body. He can shift between being bipedal or a quadruped with little issue between the two forms of locomotion, meaning his limbs are closer in length than human limbs. He has fur similar in length to wolves and even has paw-like hands. His tail is frequently wagging whenever he is with friends or those he is fond of.
Ruggie is a Spotted Hyena Gnoll;
- Similar to Jack, Ruggie now has a Hyena head and pelt instead of just the ears and tail. He is still somewhat humanoid, but he is still shorter than Leona or Jack. His back legs are more like a Hyena and he has that same muscular ridge on his shoulders that Hyenas do. He still has his bright blue eyes despite how odd it is for Gnolls, but his coat is the same sandy light-brown as his hair usually is with dark brown spots.
Leona is a Nemean Lion;
- Nemean Lions are golden furred beasts much larger and stronger than any regular lion on top of being impervious to damage from mortal weapons. This translates into Leona's skin having a more golden sheen to it, always seeming to look like he has been dusted with fine powder gold sparkles. His dark hair has several bright gold strands woven in that makes it shiny as well. The fur on Leona's tail and ears is also that glittering golden color which only makes the tuft of fur at the end of his tail look darker. He is a little taller than in cannon and slightly more defined in musculature due to the natural strength of Nemean lions.
Azul is a Coconut Octopus Cecaelia;
- He is very similar to how he appears in canon, but now he has several black marks along his arms and body similar to how he looks in his merman form. Even in a human form, it is clear Azul is still not human due to these dark markings that wrap around his body. A few of these black tendrils frame his cheekbones and make those brightly colored eyes of his only seem brighter.
Jade and Floyd are Moray Eel Mermen;
- Similar to Azul, Floyd and Jade look similar to how they do in cannon, but their merman features are more visible even in their human forms. The fins they have alongside their faces are now present in their human forms as are the colorations of their merman forms on their shoulders and faintly around their faces. Their gills are still visible in their human forms.
Kalim is a Genie;
- Kalim is the closest out of everyone to his canon appearance as his identity as a Genie changes very little. He will likely wear clothes akin to his dorm clothes appearance but have the addition of golden bands around his wrists and ankles. He can form legs to walk on, but often chooses to fly instead, where his legs become more smoke-like in the typical Genie 'tail' that many Genies are often seen with. Kalim now has a golden aura around him that makes him glow slightly with a golden color due to his high-magic Genie nature.
Note; Kalim sleeps in his lamp and keeps many of his treasures in his lamp as his magic allows the lamp to be more like a hotel suite than a prison cell despite the size on the outside. Only Kalim and those he invites into his lamp can enter.
Jamil is a Sand Viper Naga;
- Jamil's upper half is similar to how it is in canon, but his lower half is that of a rather large snake. His shake half is 22ft (670cm) comprised of black and maroon scales. His maroon scales are closer to the color of dried blood and often get dark enough shades that they mix with the black diamond and striping patterns his black scales make. The scales on the stomach side of his snake body are a slightly more red tone than his skin tone. He does have golden scales that line his stomach scales and are in the center of the diamond patterns on his back.
Note; Jamil often sleeps with Kalim's lamp in the coils of his Naga tail. Having come from a long line of Naga that are usually the guards and guardians of the wealth and well-being Kalim's Genie family has amassed through the years. Wherever a Genie from Kalim's family lives, so too lives a Sand Viper Naga from Jamil's family to guard them.
Vil is a Peacock Harpy;
- Vil still has his flawless skin and purple ombre hair even as a peacock harpy, but he does have hair-like cobalt blue and emerald green feathers that often get woven into braids. He also has seven pristine head feathers that are the same 'eye' patterns as his tial feathers that often lay back against his hair unless he is feeling particularly proud, in which his crest will rise up like a crown atop his head. Vill has feathering along his shoulders, upper back and neck that are the bright cobalt blue of male Indian peacocks. Along his shoulder blades are his wings which have a full span of 8ft (244cm) but are often tucked neatly against his back and folded so the flight feathers don't drag when he walks. Vil has the full peacock train of tail-feathers and spends quite a bit of time preening and grooming them to maximum shine. He will only fully display his tail-feathers when being prideful or showing off to a prospective mate.
Rook is an Australian Golden Huntsman-Spider Drider;
- Rook's legs are a long spindly gold that are many times the length of his thorax and abdomen. The thorax of his spider body is larger than the abdomen of the body due to the typical shape of Huntsman-Spiders. The thorax area on Rook's spider body has a large black mark among the back hairs trailing down to where the abdomen part of his body is more narrow and the marks become black lines making their way down. His human half is attached at the top of the thorax where the spider's eyes are usually located. His spider legs are as thick as a Human's legs, his mandibles and pedipalps being similar in thickness. His fangs are to scale and are extremely long as well as being like blacked curved knives, he often keeps them tucked away to not unsettle others.
Note; Rook and Vil have a very mutually beneficial relationship just as they do in regular TWST. Rook helps Vil preen and take care of his feathers, often being the one getting the pin feathers Vil can't reach on his back and shoulders. Rook uses the silk he creates as a Drider to make fabrics for Vil as they are of high quality, and even higher thread count. Both are content to be the others boon companion and will often be seen working together outside of class as well.
Neige is a Mourning Dove Harpy;
- Neige has the same dark black hair and big brown doe eyes he does in cannon but he also has grey-brown feathers throughout his black hair. His cheeks, neck, shoulders, and upper back have the same gray-brown feathers with speckles of dark brown, white, black, and gray feathers throughout giving a light speckling pattern. His wings are that same gray brown color and are 6.5ft (200cm) in length. The ends of his flight feathers are often trailing over the ground beneath him when he is relaxed and he rarely opens his wings fully. Like most mourning doves, he has a lovely soothing voice and his unassuming species of Harpy makes him all the more charming.
Note: I was going to make Neige a Willow Grouse Harpy due to the coloration match with Neige and his RSA uniform, but I have a childhood fondness for the call of a mourning dove and Neige is supposed to have a beautiful voice, so I figured sweet Neige can be a mourning dove and not the goofy sounding Willow Grouse.
Epel is a Beliy Naliv Apple Wood Nymph;
- Epel has white tree bark as skin, occasionally having the slight dark mark or blemish where Epel had gotten into fights despite being a more peaceful species of Wood Nymph. His hair is made up of pale green leaves that are often covered in powder lavender blooms that are the same color as his canon hair color. Epel has the same large blue eyes as he does in canon. Occasionally the blooms on his head will grow into small apples that are white due to his species of Wood Nymph being the White Cloud Apple. His skin is rougher in texture and closer to the texture of bark.
Idia is a Shinigami;
- He still has his blue flaming hair and blue tinted lips and gold eyes. His skin is closer to a light gray in tone now, his nails a natural black. He now has these scraggly black wings that are kind of like bird wings but more haggard in appearance. The feathers are more slick and almost oily in texture and have some traces of blues in them similar to Idia's hair. He can use them to fly, but they make a very loud wooshing sound that he isn't overly fond of so he doesn't often use them. His limbs are just a bit longer than they are in canon giving him a more skeletal and gaunt appearance.
Ortho is also a Shinigami;
- Similar to Idia, Ortho still has his blue flaming hair and golden eyes. He will have the same light gray skin tone Idia does, but his wings are now cybernetic due to an unfortunate accident when Ortho was much younger that caused him to lose his Shinigami wings. Ortho also has several cybernetic limbs as a result of that same accident, making monster AU ortho closer in appearance to canon Ortho, but still able to eat/sleep/behave like a living being. Ortho is not AI but does have several augments to allow his brain to function with the aid of AI due to his unfortunate incident when he was younger.
Silver is a Reindeer Cervitaur;
- Silver is a leucistic deer cervitaur. This means his deer half has white fur as well with light gray spots along his back similar to the spots fawns have for camouflage purposes. His antlers are also an ivory white, and only have three points. From burr to tip of the beam, Silver has two points at the end of the beam and one point near the burr of his antlers. Lilia throws a party any time Silver gets another point on his antlers. Silver's deer half has the musculature type closer to reindeer than whitetail deer.
Lilia is a Vampire Bat Fae;
- Similar to his canon appearance, Lilia looks almost the same in his monster AU form, but his monster AU form has bat wings and a little tail. Most bats have tails and delicate wings, so I decided Lilia should also have bat wings and a little tail. His wings are sturdier than most bats and have several holes in them from past battles he has endured. He is still the Fae variation so he has the same pointed ears, sharp teeth, and slit pupils other Fae type have. His wings are black with Light pink highlights near the tips just like his hair.
Note; Lilia likes to sleep upsidedown in this AU and will often settle himself in the cafeteria chandeliers or even the rafters of various buildings to take naps throughout the downtimes of the day. Lilia is more nocturnal in this AU as well with increased sensitivity to sounds/lights.
Malleus is Dragon Fae.
- Malleus in the monster AU is similar to his canon appearance but has his dragon wings, tail, and various clusters of black scales along his body. His nails are decent length black talons and he has black scales along the backs of his hands and up his arms. His neck and upper back/shoulders have more black scales. His wings are the same deep black with a slight purple tint to them anywhere the skin is exposed. His tail is about as thick as a leg and tapers off to a wickedly sharp point that Malleus could use to impale someone if he wanted to. Black scales frame his eyes like their own kind of makeup and are more colorful around the eyes in purples and green sheens that highlight the obsidian base color of the scales.
Note; Malleus is more in touch with his dragon instincts in this AU due to being more outwardly dragon. He does make a nest out of his bed and is much more inclined to hoard things he is fond of, including but not limited to Gargoyles, unusual stones, and various creatures he takes interest in. Once he considers someone to be part of his hoard, he will be possessive of them and fiercely protective. Only creatures part of his hoard are allowed to enter his nest. Lilia, Silver, and Sebek are three of his living hoard.
Sebek is a Raiju Fae;
- His hair is a bit more wild and fur-like compared to his canon appearance with yellows mixed in to the sage green color. His teeth are much sharper and he actually has more dog-like qualities similar to Jack's canon appearance. Raiju are lightning dog mythical creatures, so Sebek's appearance will be similarly dog-like with the beastman ears and spiky furred tail that has a rougher texture compared to most fur. His tail and ear positioning will often be a dead giveaway for what emotions Sebek is feeling at the time.
Rollo is an Inferno Fire Nymph.
- Rollo's eyes are an ashen gray as is his skin and hair when he is not in his active inferno flame form. Much like a burned log, his flesh will bare the same ashen faded look to it. Rollo is usually in this form as he is not overly fond of the fire he creates and he can keep himself mostly calm despite the constant annoyance of others around him. When in his active inferno fire form, his ashen hair will ignite into flames, his gray eyes turning a bright fire red. Similarly, his skin will take a redder tone and embers will float off of his hair.
Note: Rollo's fire can burn others, but he can also consciously change the temperature of his flames to only warm and not harm if he felt so inclined. He would only willingly do this for someone he deeply loved and cared for as his full flame form reminds him far too much of his deceased brother, hence why he uses it sparingly. There are many types of Fire Nymphs, but Inferno Fire Nymphs are considered the most deadly as their flames get the hotest. Young Fire Nymphs cannot control their fire and can burn themselves out if they get too hot internally.
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dunktape · 7 months ago
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can I requestttt a black cat being a silly little goober
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i was gonna make an animated emote of a cat hitting someone too but unfortunately i haven't been able to figure out how to draw that ,, anatomy is hard !!! i'll figure it out sometime soon though no worries anon ,,, hopefully these are silly enough !!! i'll make more soon i promise — i'm just trying to do a little bit of everyone's requests aaa
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( im genuinely surprised ive never seen cat stretching emotes ,,, maybe i'm just not looking in the right places )
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8thekat · 1 month ago
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What made you decide to make your online persona, avatar or whatever it’s called a cat? Was there a reason, or is it just because cats are adorable? Just curious.
WELL to be honest it started with some friends I had that INSISTED I make a [cough cough] fursona [cough]
Now I don't consider myself a part of the furry community in the slightest and never had any "anthropomorphic" characters before - so when they asked I just came up with this goober on the fly. She actually USED to be a fully fledged black cat before I void-ified her 😂
Here's what she used to look like!
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But I eventually simplified her design more and decided to start calling her a "Void Cat" :3 I knew I wanted to go with a cat because my irl name is actually "Kathleen" (Kat for short!) and I love black cats sooooo it only seemed fitting 😼
Plus making her more simple-looking fit more with her/my personality. Which is just being kind of a dumb little menace sometimes 😂
(plus it's a lot more fun to draw goofy expressions on her design now heheheh)
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marclef · 7 months ago
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Hi, I saw u drawing other users hugging the silly goober that is FP (Fake Peppino) and I was wondering if u could pls do that for me also? Here's a reference pic of my persona btw. The purple cat ears are a headband and my hair is brown with bluish-green highlights, and my skirt is suspended and goes down to my knees- and u can include the blush marks on my cheeks if u want, it's just a personal touch I use on almost every character I draw in my style. Also, the black dots on the skirt are supposed to be buttons. And lastly for sizing reference: idk how tall u think the forg is but I'm sure he's fairly taller than me (I'm like exactly 5 ft so I'm short lol)
the Fake Peppino Hug Train arrives at another destination 🚂✨
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he hopes that you find this hug adequate (and that you're not being squished too much.)
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idgo-incarnate · 1 year ago
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Silly goobers :3
Some fun drawings of black cats I did over the course of several days. I love how my ability to draw smaller details have gotten better. Obviously its not a one to one exact copy, but it looks great. I want to do some human faces again but I don't feel ready yet. I also wanted to record this as a timelapse but I didn't think it through and started drawing without realizing I could've. Hopefully I get to it soon as I want to start a YT channel. But hey, its not a race, its a marathon when making art, I don't need to worry about making my first video.
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persy-r-bozo · 10 months ago
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My friends noticed i draw cats a certain way. and asked me to draw warrior cats in my weird cat style. and i never truly did it.
TILL NOW.
i only read the first arch and half the second and a lot of super editions. ( left after my pookie tallstar died) but i used a randomizer wheel and the wiki and what people in the fandom do.!
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I saw folks draw him with different eyes, i like that!. i noticed a lot of lightning visuals and issues with this fella so his patterns are cracks / sparks.
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THE guy! THE neighbor fello. I didn't have much ideas for him, i just made his eyes and collar opposites from fire stars. and his mark is indeed a fingerprint smudge.
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Stormy fluffy guy. Hair over eyes = Peak. You cant tell but hes smiling like a goofy goober.
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MY BOY! Yea hes tall thats about it.
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you know when cartoon characters have fire blown in their face or a bomb blown up. and their face is fuzzy and they just blink there. that's just ashfur all the time here. also his tail looks like a fuse, because his is short.
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Just a normal holly, But i added some color, the colors are indeed other colors holly berries come in. and gave her her aunties paw.
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shes just tired.
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i knew about the eye drama and i still think its funny when folks give her rainbow eyes. she has her grandpas body type, fluffy. also you know those cats that just stare at you and never ever blink. yea that's her here.
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i love her book, shes so complex, evil get sympathetic. we love girl failures here. gaslight gatekeep girlboss bae. anyways i made her black calico patterns look like black water or oil. yall know why.
and that's it!
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radioisntdead · 8 months ago
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I hope you do not mind but I drew something based on your headcanons ❤️
this design of Gremlin Reader is based on the old black and white 1930s Felix the cat cartoons as well as ferrets being lil goobers. I propose that not only does the gremlin reader function on ferret logic but also toony physics.
(Rosie probably forces them to wear those trousers ngl)
-oldie🧵🧶
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GOOD EVENING DEAR OLDIE 🧵🧶 MY GOLLY THAT LOOKS AWESOME AND I DON'T MIND ANY DRAWINGS OF THE READER IN ANY OF MY WRITINGS I WELCOME EM' WITH OPEN ARMS I LOVE EM' AND I LOVE SEEING EM'
WHENEVER I WRITE FOR HAT GREMLIN READER AGAIN THIS IS WHAT I WILL BE IMAGINING I LOVE THE DESIGN I WANT A PLUSHIE OF IT ALSO THE LITTLE BOWTIE IS JUST DARLING I LOVE IT
Also Rosie would 100% put pants on the reader just because they look like a cuddly lil' guy does not mean they can't be dapper! Hat gremlin reader functioning on the combined forces of ferret and toon makes perfect sense and I love it
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majestydeerakuma · 9 months ago
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Headcanons on Cookie Masterson because he’s a silly goober
1) He’s 5’7ft, Bisexual and has autism (well, the bisexual part is canon but still thought to mention it)
2) He loves cats so much! He will stop hosting just to be with the cat if it walked in
3) His nails are painted black and he has small silver earrings on him but they go unseen due to how I draw
4) He is the younger twin brother to Cinnamon, the Champ’d UP host
5) He eats almost anything
6) He thinks cat videos are peak humor (then again, he gets a lot of cuteness aggression when he sees cats)
7) He has a cat plushie named Mr. Meow Meow that he won at an amusement park when he was little
8) He’s genderfluid and uses any pronouns
9) He has so many hyperfixations, he’s the only one who even keeps track of them
10) He doesn’t mind cosplaying or crossdressing
Okie, those are some of my Cookie headcanons. I’ll probably do other posts like this with other hosts (or you can just ask me to do headcanons on another host, I don’t mind, lol, or you can ask about my Creepy/Horror AU because I have some info on the YDKJ hosts on that AU, lol)
Also feel free to tell me your own Cookie headcanons toooooo :D
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windtooth-plane · 11 months ago
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Anyone/everyone, what would you dress up as for Halloween?
{So, uh. Message from the moderator. I was going to draw this, but I am working on a thang for another ask on here. And also I've been busy. Drawing everyone in a costume would take so fucking long, there's too many of them istg}
{So anyways, I'll just answer in text} {As I talked to the other people apart of this blog, we decided who would wear what!
{Witch would.. go as a witch. How surprising.} {Mountains would wear a fully black suit to hide in the shadows. Even though her visor gives her position away >:/} {Niche would dress up as Maleficent. She would so fucking do that.} {Angel would SOOO dress up as Cinderella. She's already so whimsical and kind she would love to dress up as a disney princess} {Koi would dress up as an astronaut since she loves the stars. Even though she's stuck under da sea, she likes astrology!} {Two Rocks Eroding would go as sexy nun. How this came to be? I have no clue. It was just decided.} {Clock would dress up as a black cat. Hmmmmmm unlucky??? Lore related?? Or just she likes gato's} {Chime would absolutely dress up as a mad scientist. He's a fucking goober.} {As for the others (Winds, Pines and Islands) the owners of the characters REFUSE TO TELL ME >:( So now I get to decide because fuck that :3}
{Winds and Pines would dress up as eachother and then do crimes to get the other in trouble. Change my mind.} {Islands?} {Um.} {I think you can pretty much guess.}
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verdanturfwind · 1 year ago
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This is the foob goober. He originally was drawn on a whiteboard about what you do for self care, and got an outpouring amount of love from students.
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[ID: a downturned photo of a whiteboard. There's a small, baby-like creature with circles for hands and feet. He is holding a pizza slice from the crust down in his mouth. He has large text that says "foob" above it. There are multiple comments, each with an arrow pointing to him. They read: "goober (heart)," "I love him," and (presumably by the original artist) "he loves you too" accompanied by a calm looking smiley face. /end ID]
I thought this creature would be a one-off, but every year the school hosts a mental health fair where people are allowed to draw on papers hung up on the walls. As I was walking by the walls today, I found the foob goober again!
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[ID: A drawing of the same creature from before, but without the pizza and with a little curl of hair on his head. He is next to a drawing of a googly eyed black cat. /end ID]
If you are the artist for any of the foob goobers, please reply! I want to credit you. If you want this post deleted I will delete it too. I just find so much joy in this little guy :]
I think my college came up with its own tbh creature styled beastie
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tobebugjewce · 3 years ago
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THE WALTEN FILES: my jumbled notes on my blind run-in with this web series
first off this is gonna be long and unorganized, also this is my second time writing this as i had lost literally half of my progress and im This (imagine two fingers almost touching with a 0.0000000001mm distance between them) close to ripping all of the fucking hair out of my goddamn head. but now this will be extra long and yes, i will lose some accuracy to my first writing but thats okay ill probably edit this a kajillion times over
which brings me to my next tangent; im literally braindumping here. so to have a smidge of organization all afterthoughts, edits and corrections will be boldened, i forgot what im gonna do with italicized text but ill probably bolden it here yeah im pretty sure its for side tangents, separate from Corrections, which are in bold. also theyre for emphasis too.
so in general, this post right here is all of my notes i wrote down on my grid-patterned sticky notes (which i used WAYYYY too much of) about the first 3 uploaded walten files youtube videos transferred onto my handy dandy digital notebook, this b(l)og. yeppers peppers. you know im serious about this shit when i typed probably over like a thousand fucking words including boldened shit, italicized shit and motherfucking links, lost it ALL, and im sitting here re-typing it again.
i feel bad about this but im not gonna trigger warn right here, but this is technically a warning. if you want a list of triggers as to what this post (and the walten files in general) i will link a little list to that here
without further a doo doo, (mama mia) here the fucking fuck we go again.
THE WALTEN FILES - VIDEO #1
clarifying this now, im gonna put some useless shit which i thought was code onto this because even though it was useless it was part of my notes and im physically going to combust if i dont put down every single thing i wrote on my papers. so what i thought was code was in the closed captions, i started writing it down when i got to the second video but came back to my first videos notes to include them. i wrote down the first letter to every word that was capitalized in the closed captions, which i had on as a default because number one i knew going into this id need them because most web horror things like args and cryptic shit like that has some of the most crucial shits in the closed captions. number two i am autistic and have auditory processing issues and have most closed captioning on as a default if theyre available.
firstly jotted, i wrote down the closed captions “code” so im gonna put the rest here too: HYWITB(BSI)Y A(BSI)BJWFKWITW ILHHFSBBSBTLBWI USOISTBNBSFIRBCAWHSHCBWHTAIGRNB*C*BTWLTSFA(20)MCFP ILITIIACPH(1978, 1979)SA(4)YTSCH*C*OGSSU SFTGRPATDBBUTFBNLLCHMIHLBRALLCLAYTUKB*LC*WHATWASTHATTHING 
the numbers in parenthesis are there because i wasnt sure they should be included in the “code” or not. i also thought of this with the BSI - bunny smiles incorporated and also the years 1978 and 1979. the shits in asterisks are coughs and light coughs, which were capitalized in the closed captions so i included them too just in case
i then jotted, in parenthesis of course, the names of the animatronics when they were listed in the animation section of the video; bon aka the blue bunny, sha aka the sheep one, boozoo aka the clown<3 honk<33, and banny aka the purpled eyelashed up one who is also a bunny btw. also i got boozoo the clown and boozoo the mustache guy confused because apparently the clowns name is billy???? but they named “boozoo” in bons sleepover and showed the clown? idk maybe im an idiot and theyre the same or just an idiot and theyre different or a super mega (matt and ryan?!?!??) idiot in general which is probably the case
i started drawing little stars to write down things i thought would be super important or to 100% look at again. the first subject of this pointy torture was the part of the video where at 3:00, i marked it down to make sure to reverse the audio as it was most definitely a weird audio that has that signature warp-y effect that makes sure you KNOW its in reverse. i then listened back to it Very carefully (still got it wrong) and got this: “you finally start to remember. that old doll. they will look out for you soon” im also pretty sure i heard “sophie” at the end of that audio but im not entirely sure and dont remember and i dont wanna go back to check lmfao but anyways it didnt matter because i was wrong anyway. after i had finished all 3 walten files i watched the film theory video on the walten files (which didnt cover all 3 but was dece.) out of curiosity and to hear matpats signature silly little voice explain some stuff i already knew, and click some shit in my brain that i couldve thought up of if i was a bit more... i dont know honestly. anyways yeah so the actual audio is “you finally start to remember. that old day. they will look out for you soon.” so yeah. day, not doll.
i then wrote down “sarah evelyn”, the name on the bons sleepover animation (i dont remember if she created it or animated it or whatnot) and scribbled will she matter? under her name. turns out no, as i didnt see her name in the rest of the series, let alone the first video. this is also a great time to mention how matpat theory helped me realize that the walten files are collections of videos, uploaded onto youtube by anthony. (i already knew about anthony as he signed his name in the descriptions of the youtube videos, making me categorize this overall web series more into an arg type genre.) but yes, the tapes, recorded “irl” footage, animated clips, vhs tape recordings and other audio-visual content is all collected and labeled the walten files, as i had mistaken each video to be a tape. stupid me. alrighty, onward!
i starred this one, good for me; MISSING: Jack Walten LAST SEEN: 06/11/1974
i jotted down with an arrow that; sophie was a nightguard? she was wearing the uniform explained in tape 2 i dont know why but i went back into my video 1 notes after i had watched video 2. organization purposes. i guess.?? 
i then paused the video when the screen flickered a date, the beginning of video footage dated 10/10/1982 (Brian Stells?) god my little genius ass assuming the videographer was brian stells, based on the id card i saw earlier.
i then wrote down what text i saw on the dead, mangled, bloody body in the purple security suit; “i cant feel anything” “he thought i was her” then drew a little arrow pointing to; thought brian was sophie? or ashley? i also starred the name Brian Stells this is totally out of order LMFAOOOOOOOO also i wrote down ashley because, again, my little pea brain went back on my video 1 notes after watching video 2. but yep thats all i wrote for The Walten Files 1 - Company Introductory Tape
THE WALTEN FILES - VIDEO #2 
Tape #1 - created 07/02/1978
awesome how thats first and foremost in the captions. god. so sexy of you martin walls. /j /nsx
this pack of notes is chunkier because again, like i have mentioned before i am an absolute goober and thought the capitalized letters of the words would actually mean something. I MEAN MAYBE THEY DO AND IM JUST DOING IT WRONG but i stopped doing it after this video because holy shit it was exhausting and my stupid little fingers couldnt take the writing anymore becasue i am WEAK. 
so write off the bat (squeak) i wrote down 197[] the blacked out rectangle over the last digit of that year and everything im also now assuming its probably 1978 or 1974 because lore reasons but whos to say but yeah i also wrote down this;
Tape #2 - created 08/13/1978
then, straight up in the beginning of the video i caught it, the flash of text, as i had by now realized i gotta be SUPER stupid focused on the screen in case i miss anything, i wanted to be crazy precise on my theorizing and mental notes, among other things. but yes i saw it, the first half of a youtube link;  “https://youtu” 
claps hands together and rubs them evilly. oh yeah baby. thats the hot lunch. this shit right here? the cats pajamas. lets fucking go.
i wrote down this goofy shit i pasued to inspect when i saw bon sorting through a file cabinet and naturally scribbled down the labels and other written things i could see on the files; 
relocate X/X/75 felix
storage K-9 07/23/1975 felix k(ranken)
Bons Burgers 06/28/1974 Jack Walten
Shipping Service 1975
New Location -> 1982
i also wrote down more goofy shit, like when banny was created for some reason; in 1974
starred, i noted to go back and reverse the audio at 5:09, when played back, i didnt write it down so i dont remember. lmao.
i also marked to screenshot and brighten the darkened image i saw at 5:20, i was going to do it on my phone then realized i can just do it on my computer so i quickly took a screenshot, brightened it and wrote down what i saw; a missing person poster that read MISSING: SUSAN WOODINGS(?) Last seen: 1974 i was very unsure of the spelling of her last name because the image was so goddamn low quality and grainy but its what i saw. this is where tape #3 gets thrown in, which im gonna type again because i like how the formatting looks;
Tape #3 - created 07/09/1978 (BEFORE tape 2?!//1/1??? its more likely than you think)
i wrote down more dates, any dates i saw, i jotted down. i wrote; 
Technical Support 1978 
then, 
Brian Stells (for some reason i dont remember right now)
alrighty this is where the stupid capitalized letters come in, but before it looks like i vomit a keysmash time infinity on this, ill put down the little inbetween things i wrote in the midst of the caps lockalypse like timestamps and stuff, so here you go;
- Reverse at 8:16 which i did but of course didnt write down what i heard. i think it was too warbled to hear anything clear out of it, or it was just the good ol auditory processing issues fucking me over yet again. WAIT yep yes i did here it is: “rosemary would go to the restaurant every night hoping that [her] beloved husband would reappear after being missing for weeks but no response until one day [s]he heard a voice [saying] ‘i know where he is rosie’ coming from the back stage” the bracketed stuff is the corrections, i misheard the audio and thought the audio said “his”, “he” and “singing” like a nimrod
- Brighten at 10:14 which was another missing person poster, but i dont think it had any information on it because i didnt write it down, just;
- Sophie again (pic at 9:08?) (dismemberd and put in Sha) i was stupid and wrong haha idiot it was rosemary who was put in sha but anywho
i starred and underlined a huge thing i discovered which was;
- Walten had 3 kids which i dont remember how i found out but it doesnt matter, its good important info i uncovered.
- Tape #4 - Unkown Date
- recorded 07/12-07/14 1978 
- Hilary B, Ashley P & Kevin W i made sure to get these names down as soon as i saw them on screen but then realized shortly after i wouldnt really need to have it as the closed captions made sure i knew which person was talking by using their first initial (capitalized of course) before each line of text. this is the perfect time to announce the arrival of the clusterfuck of capital letters, which is going to include colons which will indicate that the letter before it is the initial of the person talking. without further aedue, here comes another chinese earthquake;
TCWTSTATO(K-9)TBSSFWFCNEHAWBSUBIUC(BSIIDC)OWHISF INBIJTILNSPL(K-9)LCSCKCCCWTTLTLITTTYROTFAJAMHPYYSTCSPMBBWSBIB H:NTPPCCK:DA:HH:YCPRPMWTCBCRAWK:JH:SYYTCPBACPSTBAWCA:TK(?):FMTTCMK:TCPNOA:DTOFK:ITNPPRA:YBUTIRRFH:HKIBESRAIA:TCK:WA:WPCCFTRRIDPEH:GGK:GPA:LKK:WA:HNCGTKMK:YH:IGKA:ESK:MFH:RK:HILRLBNTRPPUWHITRRTPEIFEPH:YWBEBPK:MAHPBTRPTRPEL(LN)HTACPKLIKHPFITSKLTKLB(LB?)ISIBSUBIPRW AEBATHSPUAICTPURTWBBRPHTRTIIIILTCITCUCCP S(bpe, be)WA”IDCPBPSIB
holy shit its finally over okay now onto some MORE of what i wrote down in between and also after that keysmash attack;
12 doors? (backrooms) 27? 26? i was unsure because ashley was unsure too lmfao
found cassette (6/11/78) <- says “discard”? yeah it did
Tape in clown audio, speaking voice; jack, susan, charles(?), rosemary, sophie, last word sounds like “walrus” it was walten lmfao
Ashley died? yeah she did lmfao OR AT LEAST I THINK SO??
starred this one, Reverse @ 17:06, then got this;
“they left the next day, they thought ashley left early, but she was in the backdoors, screaming as much as she could, but no one heard the screams, the following days the caretakers would complain about an awful smell coming from the backdoors, company decided to shut down facility until new advice, the relocate project was unsuccessful. ashley is still there, but she is not screaming anymore, she saw something she wasnt supposed to see and now shes beautiful” the phrase “shes beautiful” was repeating like a bajillion times in that wall of text. then, god motherfuckng bless: 
at 17:23 i found the other half of the youtube link, “.be/k07QqEDOfQ” i pieced that bad boy together as instant as i think any form of ramen could never be, but remained ever patient. because i made sure to jot down this before moving onto my next segment;
@ end of vid 2, “shadow man sees* me when lights go off” im an idiot *it was actually “feeds” not “sees”, which AGAIN, i only found out after watching the stupid little film theory video *begins snarling and foaming at the mouth*
okay im not proud to admit im editing this to post it and realized ive lost my notes. well. 
might as well post what ive got! if i find my shit ill add onto this, i suppose.
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paladinwife · 4 years ago
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ya didnt have to call me out like that man- GSHSGSJKJGJ but uh all 50 for goober :> (beatrice-santello)
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@beatrice-santello​ @of-saints-and-demons​ oh god here comes Goober
1. Does your F/O have a birthmark? (or any type of freckles or beauty marks?)
None that are visible! She might have some on her body under the clothes, but none that we know about in canon. I headcanon that she has a couple of moles on her torso.
2. Is your F/O the type to volunteer to their community? 
Judging by her past, which she spent fighting to protect her community, she does in her own way. She’d probably keep doing it as well, were she not trapped as an AI in the Corporation.
3. Does your F/O the type to be giving or to take?
Ignoring what I thought this question meant as first she’s more selfless than you’d think. There’s a reason she’s kind of a hero figure in the Back Streets. Even now, her anger is over the dangerousness of the anomalies and her inability to protect people. I’d say she’s more of a giving person.
4. Does your F/O have any battle scars?
There’s a couple very visible on her face. Most likely there’s some on her body as well that you just can’t see because of the bodysuit.
5. Does your F/O wear make up? (Do you think they would be open to wearing makeup if they don’t wear it daily?) 
I don’t think she does, mostly because she sees it as a waste of time. The fact that she’d look great is beside the point.
6. Has your F/O ever dye their hair or worn a wig?
She hasn’t. She probably sees that as a waste of time too, but her natural hair is gorgeous either way.
7. What is your F/O fashion taste?
Sleek and maybe a bit edgy, with lots of black and red. Especially considering her signature longcoat.
8. How tall is your F/O?
Taaaall. She’s taller than every other sephirah in the game. If she’s not six feet tall, she’s pretty close.
9. What is your F/O’s blood type?
In her present form, she doesn’t have blood. Which is a really ominous statement out of context. Even when she did, I have no idea what her blood type would be.
10. When is your F/O birthday?
She doesn’t have a canon birthday, but I think sometime in late October to early November. She’s probably a Scorpio.
11. Does your F/O know how to cook? If so are they good at it?
She’s an okay cook, I think. She’s not amazing at it, but she can get by.
12. What is your F/O favorite flavor?  (sweet, sour, bitter, salty and umami (savory))
It isn’t listed here, but she probably prefers spicy food over anything else, and I mean very spicy. If she’s not in actual pain, it’s not enough.
13. If your F/O could be a fan of any video game what do you think it would be?
For some reason I like the idea of her just being unfairly good at Smash. She can and will crush you. Her main is probably Ganon or something similar, heavy on offense.
14. What type of aesthetic does you F/O have?
Reeeeed. She has a clear theming color, and I feel like her aesthetic involves it a lot. Red and slightly edgy.
15. What color is your F/O eyes?
They’re a golden color. Sometimes in fanart she’s portrayed as heterochromatic because of her damaged eye.
16. Does your F/O have any tattoos? If not do they like or hate the concept of tattoos? 
She doesn’t have any in canon, but I feel like she could get behind the idea. She’d probably get something in memory of her fallen comrades, as a reminder of what she’s here for and what’s at stake.
17. If you could matching tattoos what would it be?
Hmm, some kind of matching symbol to remind of us everything we’ve been through. Potentially one another’s weapons?
18. Does your F/O have any piercings?
I don’t think she does. She doesn’t hate the aesthetic, but depending on where they are they might be risky in battle, so she might not get any.
19. Is your F/O a cake or pie person?
Oooh, hard. I don’t think she’s crazy about sweets, but she’d prefer pie.
20. Is your F/O a morning or night person?
More of a night owl, I’d say. She’s just used to getting most of her work done at night, and it’s a hard habit to break.
21. Is your F/O a coffee or tea person?
Definitely a coffee person. It’s more readily available at the Corporation, and she prefers the taste. She takes hers black.
22. Is your F/O half empty or half full type of person?
She’s more of a pessimist and can maybe be a bit bitter at times. Hard to blame her, considering everything she’s gone through.
23. Does your F/O have a pet? If not in canon what do you think they would have if given the chance? 
I don’t think she has one in canon, due to the peculiarities of working for the Corporation. In a AU I could see her going for a big dog, or maybe a cat.
24. Is your F/O the type to want to live in the city or live out in the country? 
She’s lived in the city all her life and is used to it, but I don’t think she’d mind the space when it comes to living in the country.
25. Does your F/O like to swim?
I’m not sure she ever has, but (assuming she’s not in robot form) I could see her enjoying it. Helps keep her strong and all.
26. What harry potter house would your F/O be in? (Gryffindor, Hufflepuff, Ravenclaw and Slytherin)
She’s a pretty clear shoe in for Gryffindor, especially considering her past.
27. If your F/O was in “avatar: the last air bender” what type of bender would they be? (air, water, earth, and fire) 
Honestly if her design didn’t already scream firebender, the fiery personality sure does.
28. Is your F/O LGBT+? 
It seems to be a pretty popular idea in the fandom that she’s some kind of wlw. I personally like to see her as bi like me.
29. Does your F/O have any artistic hobbies? (Knitting, drawing, painting, etc)
I don’t think she’s ever tried any, and she’d probably say something about just not being meant for that. Still, I wonder if she’d enjoy it if she ever did get the chance to try. Maybe just as stress relief.
30. What’s a piece of clothing your F/O is never seen without? (glasses, a necklace, hat, etc)
Her design changed as a sephirah, but that long coat she wore before was so iconic. When it comes to accessories though, she tends to keep things light.
31. What type of scent does your F/O remind you of?
Maybe some kind of warm, smokey scent. I mean I know she’s portrayed smoking a lot but maybe some kind of nice bonfire smell?
32. What’s something you see often that has little to no relation to your F/O but always reminds you of them?
She’s never used one in canon, but I could see her appreciating a good knife. Just like swords, which I absolutely do associate with her.
33. Do you have any silly nicknames or pet names for your F/O?
Goober. She probably hates that one. I’m also pretty generous with pet names, which embarrass her if they’re done in front of others, but she kinda likes them when it’s just us.
34. What does your F/O house/apartment look like? (or what do you think it looks like)
I think she’s just fine with a smaller space, just a small apartment is fine. She keeps it pretty organized, not minimalist by any means but she keeps it nice and clean.
35. What season reminds you of your F/O? (winter, spring, summer, fall)
Honestly, fall. Not just because of the colors, but I could see her liking it best.
36. Have you ever had a dream with your F/O in it?
Recently she has started appearing in my dreams. Confusingly Binah (who I’m not considering at all) was also there?
37. Does your F/O play any musical instruments?
I honestly doubt she’s ever had the chance to try, so she has no idea how. Her learning to play a saxophone though, hmm...
38. What’s a song that reminds you of your F/O when you hear?
For her as a character and not in a romantic way, Firestarter by the Prodigy. It definitely has the right heavy feel, and the fire imagery is always good for her.
Also, low key, Together Again by Janet Jackson came on earlier today, and it had me thinking about my ship with her.
39. What is your relationship like with your F/O?
Actually, really close. I’m one of the few people she feels like she can trust, and really she needs me around. I’m the only one she can lean on, and while she knows sometimes she doesn’t know how to handle emotional things, she’ll repay the debt by doing everything she can to protect me.
40. How long have you been with your F/O? (or at least been interested in them?)
I only just added her to the list in the past few days, but I’ve been thinking about her for slightly longer. Still, it hasn’t been very long.
41. Where is your F/O from? (as in born)
She’s from the Back Streets, which is a slum kind of area which is apparently pretty dangerous to live in. I’m also not sure what the city from Lobotomy Corporation is called, but it’s some kind of metropolitan area. 
42. Is your F/O the type to read reviews, or just go with their gut
She definitely goes with her gut, just as a general rule. After all, her gut is all she has.
43. What does your F/O’s Saturdays usually look like?
God, a much needed break. Get some coffee, maybe get a workout in, not have to deal with the bullshit from the Corporation. Maybe have some time with me. (This is, of course, unless she just has to work on Saturdays anyway, but god I want her to have a break.)
44. What is your F/O’s most valuable possession?
It’s probably a memento from her time in the Back Streets. Something small, but she’s still pretty fiercely protective of it. In some ways, it’s a reminder of what she’s lost.
45. What’s a fad you can see your F/O taking part of?
Honestly the thought of her taking part in any fad is really funny. The closest thing I can think of is her trying crossfit or something along those lines (and even then, something tells me she wouldn’t be impressed).
46. does your F/O prefer to work alone or with a team?
You know, I feel like it’s really easy to assume she prefers to work alone, especially with how she acts in game, but I think she misses having a team of people she could really trust. I feel like she likes to work with a team, but it has to be the right team.
47. How well does your F/O know tech? (such as computers, smart phones)
She has some exposure to tech, but mostly in a Corporation setting. So some things she’s pretty used to handling, but others she has no idea what to do with.
48. What’s some advice your F/O would tell you?
My first thought was she would tell me to hold on to what I believe in. I think in many ways she’s ashamed of not being able to protect others and the situation she’s currently in, so that’s what she wants to say the most.
49. What animal reminds you of your F/O?
I know she’s been compared to various kinds of big cats before, but maybe a bear? Like for both the vicious reputation and the protectiveness.
50. What color reminds you of your F/O?
Well, considering how strong the color theming is, it feels wrong to say anything but red.
51. What’s the most interesting fact you know about your F/O?
So we’re limited in how much we know about her in canon, so my fact might be kind of lame. But while she’s usually depicted wielding Mimicry (Nothing There’s weapon), she uses many more than that in her Sephirah Meltdown. They include, from what I remember, weapons from Spider Bud, Burrowing Heaven, Silent Orchestra, Apocalypse Bird, One Sin and Hundreds of Good Deeds, Mountain of Smiling Bodies, King of Greed, and Judgment Bird. In fact, I’m pretty sure she touches on most of the aleph-class weapons. Of those, my favorite one that she wields is Twilight (from Apocalypse Bird).
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baektempo · 5 years ago
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Tiny Victories [2/6]
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Pairing: Byun Baekhyun x Reader 
Summary: The Adventures of Baekhyun, his failing Divination classes, and his broomstick named Peanut.  
Warnings: Language 
Author’s Note: Please tell me what you think of it so far, I would love to talk to you about it :)
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Saturday morning. After two hours of Quidditch practice, Baekhyun is soaked in sweat. He has a fuzzy head and nausea is clenching his insides. Chanyeol did not joke about preparing for their next match with Ravenclaw.
He groans as he flops onto his bed, towel drying his hair. He remembers the roasted chicken. Your lips—your pretty, pretty lips. The kitchens. And—fuck, the donuts. The jam donuts he was supposed to be eating with you at midnight.
He’s ready to throw himself into the Black Lake and get eaten by the Giant Squid or something.
He sits there for a few minutes. Would you still talk to him after he ditched you to sleep? And his class—Professor Sinistra is gonna hang his ass from the Astronomy tower.
A while later, Jongdae comes into their room and gives Baekhyun a funny look. “Did you not see those?”
He points at a paper bag resting on his nightstand, with a note attached to it. Baekhyun sets the towel down and picks up the paper bag.
I figured you’d stood me up when you didn’t come to eat these sugary beautiful donuts. Don’t worry, I saved you two. And don’t forget, you’re gonna buy me all the Cherry Syrup I want from Madam Puddifoot’s. ☺
Your writing is neat and scribbly. He’s unsure of the huge smiley face that you’ve drawn, it seems like a warning. Next time you ditch me, I’ll hex you—something like that.
But still, there’s a grin on his face he re-reads it again. He looks up to see Jongdae with that funny look still on his face. “What?”
“She asked you to meet at the Hogsmeade Station,” Jongdae looks at his wristwatch, “at 10 am.”
“Oh,” Baekhyun says and chews his cheek. “It’s 9:45 am.”
Jongdae shrugs, plopping onto his bed. His cat, Blossom, climbs onto the bed, purring at Jongdae and gives Baekhyun a dirty look. That cat hates him.
He wastes no time as he huffs down the stairs, running through the corridors. He even considers flying to the station with his broomstick. But none of that can do.
He sees you talking to some third years by the time he makes it to the station. Although he’s bundled up in his warmest clothes, he feels almost as a cold sweat breaks out. He just doesn’t want to disappoint you—again.
“Glad to know you could make it on time, Baekhyun,” you tease, a smile gracing your lips.
Baekhyun is caught off guard as he puffs out laughs into the air, still trying to catch his breath. “I’m, I’m so sorry—I fell asleep after practice. I also missed class,”
You didn’t ask for an explanation nor do you look mad, but your lips still quirk up with appreciation as you nod. “Jongdae was complaining about how you and Chanyeol wouldn’t wake up. Let’s get going then, shall we?”
The carriage ride to High Street isn’t anything notable, just a few pubescent boys trying to impress you as Baekhyun tried his best to keep a scowl off of his face. He should be getting all the attention.
However, ten minutes later, his hands are freezing as he’s gathering all the snow he can possibly collect to form the largest snowball he can make.
He aims directly for your face and shoots, and as the best Chaser in the team—he scores.
The snowball catches you off guard, as you yelp and fall on your butt. Baekhyun is chortling, hand on his knee, one hand on his stomach because there’s a cramp from laughing too hard.
You laugh too.
“That was so unfair!” you say, aiming a poorly built snowball at him. It lands three feet away from him.
“Alright,” he chuckles, “Now that we’ve decided on who’s the best snowballer, lets go drink something warm.”
“Hey, I could’ve cast a charm to win but I didn’t,” You sass. “But now I’m freezing, and I forgot to bring my gloves.”
There’s a million spells Baekhyun knows that can warm you up, but at this moment he doesn't need the feel to pick out his wand and cast a charm.  Instead, he takes out his favorite gloves. The color is fading and there are strings hanging loose, but they’re still his favorite. He hands you his gloves.
“But won’t you be cold?” Steam blows as you speak ruefully. Baekhyun starts to see flecks of snow gently falling atop your head.
“I don’t mind the cold.” Liar. He despised the cold.
Maybe you know that he’s lying out of his mouth. But you still put on his gloves, and they’re a little big for you but there’s a huge grin on your face and it makes Baekhyun feels a bit warm on the inside.
By the time the both of you make it to Madam Puddifoot’s, he knows more about you: the socks that scream once Jongdae has worn them too much was a gift you gave to him last year. You would like to become a Curator, but you don't tell anyone about it because they might think that you’re a bit boring. You also hate going to the Forbidden Forest because spiders scare you a lot.
He also traded some secrets: he wants to compete in the Quidditch World Cup one day. He once cast a memory charm to make sure Filch didn’t remember him sneaking out with his friends to drink Firewhisky. He also is terrified of owls.
Madam Puddifoot’s is a dainty little tea shop. He feels out of place as he sits somewhat cramped on the chair.
“I know, the place is super… tacky. But I promise the drinks are really good,” you say hopefully.
“It’s okay, I’ve just never been here before.” He takes a peek at the other customers in the tea shop. They were all cuddled up against each other and… are they—are they making out?
Baekhyun coughs and clears his throat, hoping his ears aren’t red with embarrassment as he focuses his attention on you again. You are fidgeting with the lacy napkins on the tabletop, acting like you didn’t see him witness the snogging couples.
“I guess this place is more popular with couples.” He comments.
“I guess so.” You admit, a shy smile on your face.
“Miss ___, you sneaky girl. I did not know that you had a boyfriend!” Madam Puddifoot greets the both of you.
“He—he’s not my boyfriend!” Your eyes widen, cheeks flooding with warmth. Baekhyun is having way too much fun to see you flail over the accusation.
“Yet,” the older witch winks, taking both of your orders. Baekhyun picks a black coffee and you go with a warm tea.
“God, I’m so sorry. I think we’re better off at The Three Broomsticks.” you snort. He gazes for a moment at the soft expression in your eyes, and nods.
“If you want to.”
“We could meet up tomorrow… if you’re free?” you suggest.
Baekhyun pauses. He picks up the freshly brewed coffee, thinking of how to reject you in the nicest way. “I’m, uh, not gonna be free tomorrow.”
“Oh. Well. There’s always a next time,” There’s no anger or disappointment in your voice. Which is why he has been looking forward to spending more time with you. “There’s an essay I have to complete by Monday, so I’ll just stay back at Hogwarts.”
Baekhyun feels bad. “I, uh, I feel like I’m bringing the team down. So I want to practice more.” He admits.
There's a flash of emotions on your face, but a warm smile wins. He nearly faints as your hand covers his on the table. “I can’t imagine how bad you must be feeling over losing, but I promise you that I always admired your skills.”
His lips part in surprise. “You’ve seen me play?”
“Well, I am in the same house, you… goober. Gotta be supportive and all that.” You say lightly, and draw your hand away from his. He nearly protests at the loss of contact.
“Will you come to cheer me on for the next match this week?” he asks coolly and pauses, “Only if you’re free.”
Your eyes are glinting with a warmth and he feels cozy by it. “I would love to.”
Baekhyun breathes out a massive sigh and blinks his eyes. He can hear the snowstorm outside, and shivers in the dark of his dorm room.
He yanks off his blankets as Jongdae’s cat meows at him. He gives the cat a good glare. What business is the dumb cat upto this late, anyway?
He sucks in a breath, swings his feet onto the hardwood floor and walks downstairs. He blinks at the fireplace, and finds his way onto his favorite armchair when he spots you—laying on the carpet, scribbling away furiously with your quill.
He whispers out your name, and you nearly leap into the fireplace. “Merlin’s beard!” you gasp, “You scared me,”
He snickers and slides down onto the warm, thick rug—right next to you. “Why are you up so late?”
“I could ask you the same thing,” your voice is only a hush in the dim lit common room. The wind scratches against the windows, and Baekhyun sees the snow swirling furiously in the air.
“I couldn’t sleep.” He admits.
You set down the quill, and curl up next to him. An embrace of seeping warmth from your body makes him sigh.
“You’re nervous,” you state. Your eyes are closed. Baekhyun hums, he doesn’t really want to agree with that. Especially to you. He doesn't want to seem… weak.
“Hey, its okay, you know,” your voice is a soothing balm. “I used to think that purebloods were better than me. But honestly, it never mattered. Because at the end of the day, I became a prefect only ‘cause I worked my ass off for it.”
You chuckle. Baekhyun’s throat feels tight.
“What I’m trying to say is that… you work really, really hard. And although you don't think so, I think that you’re the best Chaser in all of Hogwarts. I know that you’ll do your best tomorrow, Baekhyun.”
Baekhyun is quiet for a moment—he is wondering if you’re heaven-sent. He then shifts his body towards you. His lips lift into a loopy smile.
“I really hope we win. I heard that there’s gonna be a scout for the National Quidditch Team tomorrow,” he sighs.
“They better pick you, I’ll make sure they do,” you say. “If not, I’ll protest outside the Ministry or something.”
Baekhyun laughs—it echoes in the open space of the common room. He yawns again, and closes his eyes.
“I know we just became friends but, thank you. For always believing in me.”
Baekhyun’s face is bright red when he enters the Gryffindor common room with his teammates. A cacophony of voices and laughter fill the overcrowded room. Students wearing blue, yellow and green pop out from the dozens of reds.
He feels a bit overwhelmed with everyone’s eyes on him. He tries to hide away in a corner, but Jongdae’s shrill voice thunder across the room.
“Coooongradulaaations!”
“Good lord,” Baekhyun mumbles, and his eyes catches a huge three tiered chocolate cake. It is smothered in chocolate frosting, and there’s a huge CONGRATULATIONS! written on with red frosting. He licks his lips in anticipation.
The chocolate cake is placed on a small table and Baekhyun wonders how it’s holding up as he shuffles closer to Chanyeol. His teammates blows the candles—and he’s worried for a second that Professor Dumbledore is gonna get annoyed for such a huge ruckus being caused at the common room.
Baekhyun can't help but snicker as he sees Sehun, a close friend from Slytherin getting tangled in a streamer.
Jongin shoves a plate with a massive slice of chocolate cake towards Baekhyun. He digs into it with a fork, and takes a bite. He swallows, and almost cries from how amazing it tastes.
“Isn’t it good? Me, Jongdae, Minseok and ____ went to the Kitchens last night to help the elves bake the cake,” Jongin says. He has been a friend of Baekhyun ever since they were in the same train compartment on his first year at Hogwarts.
Baekhyun speaks with his mouth full. “It’s really good.” Jongin cringes at him.
He finds Jongdae tucked away in a corner, laughing as he speaks with Minseok. He hears Minseok complaining about an owl biting his finger. He shudders at the thought.
“Hey, Baekhyun! I almost fell out of the tower from screaming out your name so loud,” Minseok jokes and slaps his back. “You were truly the star of the match.”
“Thanks, hyung.”
There’s a proud smile on Jongdae’s face.  Minseok tells them he’s going to the Ravenclaw common room to grieve over their loss.
“When did you have the time to bake a cake?” Baekhyun blurts as soon as Minseok leaves. “You were dead asleep last night!”
“You were asleep next to ____ when I woke up to my alarm,” Jongdae says impishly as he grins back at Baekhyun and wiggles his eyebrows.
Baekhyun clears his throat.
“This is so good,” he says loudly to Jongdae over the scuffle, shoving another forkful of chocolate cake into his mouth. Jongdae does not tease him about it afterwards.
The cake is nearly gone by the time everyone gravitates to other places. Baekhyun waves to Sehun and Kyungsoo as they leave. Chanyeol is arm-wrestling with Yixing. Their voices hit the ceiling. Junmyeon couldn’t make it to the party, considering that he was the Head Boy—and had to soothe his Housemates over their loss.
That was okay, he can meet up with the boys next Saturday.
Baekhyun watches you play rock, paper, scissors with a 4th year, and grins as you snatch the plate of cake away after winning. You’re smiling as you catch his eyes, heading to sit on the same couch as him.
“You did so great,” you say lightly.
“Thanks,” Baekhyun replies, smiling a little. “You didn’t have to do this.”
He gestures at the floating balloons, pieces of paper scattered from the party poppers and what is left of the cake.
“Okay? But we did it anyway,” you shrug.
He scowls, and nudges you with his elbow. There’s a gleeful laugh, and you set the empty plate on a table top and collapse next to him.
Baekhyun shifts closer to you as you find the perfect spot to rest—using his chest to rest your head on.
His insides feel funny—and it's not from the cake.
“So, did you sneak into the kitchens without me?” Baekhyun says, pretending to be hurt.
“What makes you think I’d make you decorate a cake that’s meant for you?” you quip lazily.
“Fine. I liked it. And I like you a lot better now,” Baekhyun mumbles.
“Well, I like you enough to make a cake.” you clarify. “I’m so proud of you, Baek.”
“I haven’t felt this happy for the longest time. Maybe I was in a slump,” Baekhyun breathes in your familiar, warm scent.
“I’m glad you feel better now,” you squeeze his hand. Baekhyun feels his heart almost lurch out of his chest.
Baekhyun pulls you in closer with a fond smile.
“Wonder what’s for dinner tonight.”
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littlecrookedheart · 6 years ago
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Shadows
Pairing : Clove and Elliot | Tom x Clove
Rating : Fluff, M for language
Word Count : 6,080
Author’s Note : Please take caution reading this if you are sensitive to sexual harassment (in the family of cat calling / staring.) Please take caution reading if you struggle with grief / death discussion.
Disclaimer : I do not own these characters. I’ve added a bit of a flare to them for the sake of this piece, but they do not belong to me.
Clove grabbed her phone from the bedside table, jumping up as she saw the time and Elliot’s missed messages, quickly typing back a reply. She swiped a sweater and black jeggings from her bag, running her fingers through her hair like a comb and leaving Tom with a note and a kiss on the cheek.
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She pulled up to the driveway, sending her text before seeing Elliot already running up to the car, a wide smile on his face.
“You look sunny today.”
“I've been up for awhile.”
“Nope, Scooter, not what I meant. You look happy.”
Elliot shyly grinned, playing with his sleeves as she drove off down the road.
“I um...I may have asked Robbie to a dance.”
“Whaaat!”
“I know I'm not going to school with him this year but he should still go, right?”
“For sure. How'd you do it?”
“It was so dumb. I wrote it on the inside of a box of breadsticks.”
“Carbs are never dumb, first of all. Second, that's really cute!”
“You think? They're his favorite, you know the ones from that pizza place that has the best bread?”
“Yeah, the one by the spice market?”
“Yep.”
“Okay, critical question. Does he dip them in ranch, garlic sauce, or marinara?”
“How is that a critical question?”
“He's practically my brother in law-”
“Clove!”
“It matters!”
Elliot rolled his eyes and mumbled, “Garlic.”
“Ah, see? That wasn't so hard. And now he has an extra stamp of approval from your favorite me!”
“You're my least favorite you.”
“Elliot, you know how much I love you, but I will dump you out of this car.”
“Right here? Nah. We’re by that diaper place.”
“You lost me.”
“This whole area smells like a diaper.”
“No way?” Clove rolled her window down, immediately making a face and closing it. “Wow. It really does smell like a diaper.”
He chuckled, turning away to stifle the sound, “Like massive diaper.”
“I've considered it and I think that this would be the perfect Elliot dumping zone.”
-
“Welcome! Just the two of you?” The hostess perked, smiling from behind a couple of menus. Before either of them could reply, she gestured for them to follow her, leaving the menus at the table. “Your server will be over in just a moment.”
“Sit next to me, Scoot. Miss you.”
Elliot rolled his eyes and slid in the booth next to her, immediately flipping to a place in the menu full of waffles and pancakes.
A few moments later, a server came to take their order quickly dropping off drinks and a basket of toast.
“This is what I live for.”
“Toast in a basket?”
“Carbs!” Clove spread butter and jam on two pieces of toast, stacking them before taking a big bite. “I could literally just have this and I'd be content.”
“What are you gonna get?”
“I don't know! What do you think I should?”
“We've been sitting here for like ten minutes and you haven't decided what you want? I'm getting the supreme pancake thing.”
“Oh! Do they still have those birthday cake pancakes?”
“We have the birthday cake waffles,” the server said as he reappeared, pulling out his notepad. “Your birthday?”
“Nah, they just taste like dessert and I like dessert.”
“I haven't tried them but they do look delicious…” He gave her a long, full bodied once over, “Those cakes.”
Elliot looked to her with a scowl, confused.
“Not even trying to hide it, huh?”
The server moved his eyes along her curves, obviously staring at her chest. She pretended not to be bothered, zipping her jacket up higher.
“I need a sec. Scoot, go first.”
“Um...okay...I want the pancake supreme breakfast.”
“Sausage or bacon?”
“Both?”
“Okay. And for you, sweetcheeks?”
Clove started cracking up, holding a finger up to signify that she needed a moment. She stood up, facing him straight on.
“You think I'm hot, right? Do you always creepy stare at hot girls?”
“I'm not supposed to flirt on the job, sweetie-”
“'Sweetie,' my foot in your ass. I hope you like the unemployment line.”
She marched up to the front desk, pounding her fist on the wooden counter. The server quickly followed over, murmuring under his breath.
“Hi! I'd really like to see the manager. Like, head honcho. Who is in charge?”
“Ma’am, if you'll please-”
“I'm ma'am now? Twenty seconds ago I was, ‘sweet cheeks.’”
Elliot grabbed his phone to record her, a man with a large beard approaching her at the counter.
“Hello, I'm Peter. I'm the manager, what can I help you with?”
“I came here for a breakfast with my kid brother. He's right over there,” she nodded toward him, “Instead, I'm being sexually harassed by the guy that's meant to be my server.”
“Are we sure this wasn't a misunderstanding?”
“Right, I suppose I misunderstood him staring at my tits and making a comment about my ‘cakes,’ along with calling me, ‘sweet cheeks.’”
Peter's face turned a deep shade of red as he whipped around to face the server, who stood with his hands up in surrender.
“Didn't mean anything by it! If she didn't have those things out in the open like that-”
“I'm wearing a sweater, asshole. I could walk in here completely naked and you being a creep would still not be okay!” She used her hands to talk, keeping her volume cool and collected despite the rage in her eyes, “Clothes don't determine consent! Having breasts does not mean I'm dying for you to talk to me like that! You need to take a few lessons on common fucking courtesy, because my dude, you are lacking.”
“My office, Clancy. Now.”
Peter turned back to face her, shaking his head, “I am so sorry. He will be dealt with and your meal today will be free of charge.”
“Thanks, but listen, Peter. First of all, don't doubt someone when they say they're being sexually harassed. Second, he doesn't need to be, ‘dealt with,’ he needs to be fired. Keeping him employed here poses a risk to every single female patron that walks through that door with your seal of approval. That isn't an establishment most people want to support.”
As she turned away, Elliot began to clap, attracting the attention of a few other customers who joined in. She did a little twirl and bow, elbowing him as she got back in the booth.
“Tom thinks you're a badass.”
“Did you record me?”
“Yeah, because you're a badass. So I sent it to Tom.”
“Don't ever be like that guy, Scoot. You're so much better than that.”
“I'm not gonna objectify someone's body. I know how bad that is.”
“You're right. And you're smart for remembering.”
-
“You sure you're okay? That guy was a creep.”
“I'm fine! No scratches. Plus, I felt pretty brave doing what I did.”
“Yeah..you were.”
She wiped her mouth, grinning at him, “So...why do you think that area smells like diaper?”
“Dunno,” he shoved a huge bite of pancakes in his mouth, “But it didn't smell like that until after the flood.”
“Something wicked in those waters.”
Elliot glared at her, pouring more syrup over his food.
“Sorry, jeez. Something more wicked. Like poop.”
He snorted, covering his nose and mouth, “Goober, don't say, ‘poop,’ at the table.”
“Okay, dad. I forgot we can't say any of the gross words.”
Elliot’s face went slack, a weak smile slowly curling on his lips. “Dad hated that.”
“He did! He was the only one who was allowed to talk about poop while we ate.”
“I don't know why that made me really sad.”
“It’s okay, Scooter. We’re allowed to miss them.”
At the front of the restaurant, a small girl sat beside her mother, looking up as she watched her reapply her lipstick after their meal. Elliot’s gaze locked on them, his fake smile beginning to become genuine. Clove turned her head and watched them for a moment before saying, “That’s adorable.”
“I remember you used to do that with mom.”
“You do?”
“I remember when we were younger and you’d sit on the hamper in the bathroom and watch mom do her makeup. She always said, ‘Clove, draw your eyebrows as high as your hopes will take you-’”
“And when you dream, aim higher,” she joined him in unison, putting her arm around him. “I miss her.”
“Me too.”
“Remember when she’d sing to you when you were little? You’d hum along but never sing. She told you that your lungs were made to belt it out and you were doing the world and injustice by keeping it in.”
“I really can’t sing, either. She was the one doing the world and injustice by wanting me to belt it out.”
“Nah, Scoot. She just loves you.”
“Do…you believe in heaven?”
“I’ve seen enough of it to know it’s out there.”
“I don’t know if I do…but if it’s real, mom’s there. Dad too, but…mom is like the queen of the angels.”
“You know something? It might sound crazy, but-”
“Can you feel her, too?”
“Yeah. Right now, sitting across the table,” she pointed her fork to the empty spot, “Telling you that this hair looks so nice since it’s grown out.”
“She’d like Tom, I think.”
Clove’s eyes welled with tears, picturing a world in which her mother may have known him.
“I didn’t mean to make you cry.”
“No, it’s okay. It’s just bittersweet.”
She wrapped her arms around him, feeling him sniffle against her.
“Mom would love Robbie. God, Scooter. She’d be so proud of you. I know she is, wherever she is. They both are.”
“Do you think..” Elliot poked at his breakfast, choosing his words. “Do you think they’d care? Y’know…about me…liking guys?”
“I don’t have to think, I know they’d be happy to know that you were being true to yourself. I know they’d care, but only about your happiness. They’d never treat you differently.”
“Yeah…but how can you know that? It’s not like I ever got close to saying anything.”
“Because I know they didn’t mind. You know, one time I told mom that I liked girls.”
“You like girls?”
Clove shrugged, finishing off her drink, “Yeah. Not super often, but if I met a girl and I got feelings for her, I wouldn’t think any differently. One time when I was younger than you, though? I had a crush on our old neighbor. Remember Mia?”
“The girl with short hair? She was so much older than you!”
“Yeah, but I didn’t care. It was just a harmless crush, anyway. I told mom, ‘I think Mia is really hot.’ and she just laughed and said, ‘I don’t blame you.’”
“She really said that?”
“Why would I make that up?”
“I don’t know. I didn’t mean it like that.”
“I feel bad that we’ve mostly talked about mom.”
“Dad was great, but Scooter, me and you were always glued to mom’s hip. Of course we’re gonna have these times where we just talk about her, but we will have those times about dad, too.”
“My favorite thing about dad was his Saturday morning speech.”
“Oh, God. Kill me now.”
Elliot cleared his throat and began to do an impression. “Today is Saturday and I am going to sit right here-”
“In my pj’s-”
“And no kid or wife-”
“Is going to make me put on real pants!”
“-So if you need anything today…”
“Ask your mother or call a delivery service.”
They both stared at one another for a moment before doubling over in laughter.
“There is no question where we get our humor from.”
“Hey, Clove? I know we can’t visit their gravestones…not today, at least. But could we do something for them?”
“Whatcha have in mind?”
“Maybe we could write notes and burn them or something.”
“Huh. Okay. You ready to go?”
“Yeah.”
Clove pulled her jacket on, slipping a twenty dollar bill to Elliot.
“What’s that for?”
“Being you. But can you run up and get grandpa’s to go? It’s free like the rest of this meal, thanks to Clancy.“
He made his way to the counter to grab the order while Clove pulled out her phone, swiping through a photo album she had complied of she and Elliot with their parents through the years. He met her back at the table and slid the change under his glass for a tip, looking over her shoulder.
“Come on, Goob. Let’s go.”
-
“Just up that hill.”
Elliot pointed ahead to a pathway of trees, dead and barren from Winter’s wrath, the surrounding woods plush with evergreens. Atop the hill sat a dead patch of grass, remnants of a bonfire still smoking at a makeshift fire pit.
“Someone had fun here last night,” Clove smiled, “I love bonfires.”
“Actually…that was me. I came up here to think.”
A look of concern crossed her face as she sat on the ground next to him, bumping his knee with her own.
“You’re not just playing with fire…right?”
“No, I swear. I just got the idea from the fire last night. Watching the branches and sticks curl up and basically just become ash? It..it was like..why can’t bad memories do that, too?”
“Because memories are a part of us.”
“I wish not all of them were.”
“Tom told me something once that helped me a lot. Can I share it with you?”
Elliot nodded, pulling his beanie off. He stretched it in his hands, looking into the distance.
“We are the people we are. Our grandpa is the guy who was involved with the cult. Our parents..were murdered by that cult. We can’t run from it, but we have to remember that it doesn’t define us.”
“I don’t know if I know what you mean.”
“When you look at me, do you see any of that?”
“No.”
“What do you see?”
“My sister. That’s it.”
“Exactly, Scooter. Because we aren’t our past. Nobody should ever look at you and see those things, especially yourself. You were amazing before, during, and now, after all of that. You aren’t, ‘Elliot, kid who almost died however many times.’ You’re Elliot, my baby brother. You’re smart, you’ve got a great head on your shoulders. You’re a big sweetie-”
“Don’t push it.”
“…Even though you don’t believe it.”
“Thanks, Clove. I guess you’re right. I don’t think Robbie is anything like his dad or something..that’s kind of similar, right?”
“Yeah, it’s similar.”
Elliot laid back, folding his arms under his head. Clove joined him, watching the overcast sky as the clouds drifted along. She thought of the moments in between the sadness, taking her brother’s hand in her own.
“We made it.”
“Yeah, we did, didn’t we?”
“And we’re gonna keep on making it. Somewhere up there in all of those clouds, mom and dad are there. They’re looking at us now and they’re proud, I can feel it in my heart.” She placed a hand to her chest, choking back tears, “One day in a couple years, you’re gonna graduate high school, and you’re gonna look in the seats and wish they were there. It’s gonna feel like acid in your heart, but I need you to know something.”
She turned to him, wiping her eyes with her other hand, “I swear to you, no matter what you feel, they will be there. I will be there. You still have a family, okay?”
Elliot dove forward, embracing her tightly.
“Why did they have to leave, Clove?”
She squeezed her eyes, desperate to hold back her emotions as he sobbed in her arms. Be strong. Be strong.
“I don’t know, Scooter. They are right here with us, right now,” she wiped his tears, pressing her hand over his, aligning it at his heart, “You can’t tell me you don’t feel that.”
“I’m so scared..I-” he buried his face in his hands, “It’s been this long and I’m still so scared to lose you, too.”
“I’m not going anywhere. You hear me? I’m not leaving.” Clove’s arms wrapped around him, rocking back and forth as she began to hum, her touch maternal against his heartache. “We’re okay, Elliot. Breathe with me,” she said, her voice soft. She inhaled deeply, waiting for him to mirror her, slowing down his sobs one breath at a time.
Once he’d gone quiet, her humming the only sound against the blowing wind, she kissed the crown of his head and tightened her embrace.
“You okay?”
“Yeah.” He sat up, using his sleeves to wipe his face.
“Still wanna burn a note?”
“Yeah.”
She dug through her purse, taking out a miniature journal and a pen. She scribbled something of her own and handed him the items, digging a book of matches from her things.
“Do you want me to read it?” Elliot asked, pulling his hat back on.
“Only if you want to. I didn’t think you would.”
“Um…Doctor Ripley…wants me to be more open with you.”
Their therapist, a kind, plump man with thinning hair and very large, square glasses, had been working with Elliot twice weekly over the past year and a half. Clove joined him in seeing a therapist, sometimes the same, sometimes a tall woman with a harsh smokers rasp and eyes like a river. Always helpful, regardless - and she was delighted to see that Elliot, too, was having a good experience.
“Okay.”
He took a shaky breath and cleared his throat before starting, “Mom and Dad…I’m not mad anymore. I’m sorry that I was. I didn’t know how to..how to think about you actually not being here anymore. I kept..thinking about you, hoping we could go home again. I think it took me this long to let you go..and I just want to. I want to let you go. I love you so much…but you deserve to be free.”
Clove swiped the matchstick along the panel, placing the flame along the edge of his note. He dropped it, watching as it blew to the blackened pile of sticks. Once it dissipated, it was nothing but a clipping the size of a snowflake, and it floated off with the breeze.
“I’ll go now.”
She dug the tip of her boot into the dirt, doing her best to keep her eyes from flooding.
“Mom…Dad..”
Elliot placed a hand on her shoulder, feeling her body tremble beneath his touch. “You don’t have to, Goob.”
“It’s okay. Mom, Dad…you taught me love for so long I never actually realized that one day, I wouldn’t feel yours anymore. I just want to say thank you for Elliot…”
He looked to her, his brows bent in confusion.
“Thank you for Elliot because when I look at him, your love is everywhere. All around me. And I don’t think I could live without him for one second.”
She lit a new match, placing her note on the embers.
“I didn’t write this..but I want to add something. Grandma Josephine…wherever you are, thank you for my mom. Because she has always been an angel, and me and Elliot miss her so much. I wish I could have met you before you were hurt. But all of you…Elliot’s right. We have to let you go. You have to be free.” Clove reached for her brother’s hand, looking to the sky. “We’ll always love you.”
“Always.”
Their hands linked as they looked to the sky, taking in the crisp air. Elliot reached to hug her again, his eyes going wide as he broke away, “Grandpa’s breakfast!”
“Oh, shit! Okay, ready? I’m ready.”
-
She waved goodbye as Elliot ran inside, dodging many beginning drops of rain. She pulled up Tom’s contact and called him, leaning her head back against the seat rest.
“Hello, beautiful.”
“Hey. You busy?”
“Nope. Did Elliot tell you he sent me a video of you absolutely slaying that-”
“Tommy?”
Her voice was breaking, chest riddled in emotion and a heavy sound of tears.
“What’s wrong, angel?”
“I just really need you right now.”
“Okay, I’m here. Want me to meet you anywhere?”
“Are you home?”
“Yeah. Come over.”
“I’m gonna take a minute to myself and I’ll be on my way.”
“I’ll come pick you up if you need me to. Can you drive?”
“Yeah, I think so.”
“It’s gonna be okay, my love. See you when you get here.”
-
Tom hung up the phone, scrubbing his face with his palm before sending Elliot a text.
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He grabbed his keys and ran outside, speeding to the farmers market down the street before Clove arrived. Nearly slipping on the slick sidewalk, he pummeled through the door, running into an elderly woman who was sweeping the floor. The air smelled of fresh produce and rain, his eyes scanning around for plants and flowers.
“You okay there, son?”
“Yeah! Sorry, I slipped.”
“You’re in a real hurry.”
“The love of my life is on her way over and she’s bawling her eyes out. I need flowers. Can you point me-”
“What kind?”
Tom pulled his phone out to verify the texts from Elliot.
“Red carnations and white daisies.”
“You want the mini carnations?”
“What looks better?”
“The mini ones.”
“Yeah, that’s fine.”
The woman gathered a bundle of flowers and wrapped them in newspaper, tying a ribbon around the base.
“Wait, what are those tiny tiny white little things that come with flowers? On green branches?”
“Baby’s breath. I’ll add some.”
“Thank you!” He pulled out his wallet, but she shooed him away.
“You came in here and nearly bowled me over. I asked if you were okay and you didn’t say, ‘a girl I like,’ or, ‘my girlfriend,’ you said the love of your life.”
“Yeah?”
“Young people finding that is something special. On the house.”
“Thank you! Thank you so much!”
“Yeah, yeah, now you go on.”
Tom smiled and ran out the door, jumping in the car.
When he pulled up to his apartment, sheets of rain blanketed the sky, Clove’s car nowhere to be seen. Safe, he thought, darting from the car to the front door, pushing it open to see her already sitting on the couch, her hair and sweater soaking wet.
He set the bouquet down along with his keys and grabbed a towel from the hall closet, pulling the throw blanket off the back of the couch.
Her eyes were rimmed in red, face puffy from her tears. He pulled her into an embrace, holding her tight as she collapsed in his arms, crying with all of her might.
“I’m here, I’m here.”
-
Once her crying slowed, he unfolded the towel, scrunching her curls within it to dry them. Lifting her sweater over her head, he dried her skin, draping the blanket around her shoulders.
“Don’t go anywhere. I’m gonna get you a top.”
She nodded, sniffling, using her sweater to wipe her face.
Tom shuffled through his drawers, finding an oversized t-shirt and a washcloth, stopping by the bathroom to warm up the cloth before heading back to her spot on the couch.
“Okay. Hand me that towel?”
He took it from her, drying the top of her back and spots on her hair he’d missed as he stood behind her, unhooking her bra before handing her the shirt. He smoothed his hands over her shoulders, running his fingers along the imprint of her bra straps, noting the indentation across her back where the band rested.
She pulled the top on, kicking off her jeans as she nestled into the corner of the couch, Tom squeezing his way next to her. He wiped her face with the washcloth and kissed her cheek, pulling her into his embrace.
“You know..when I was little before Elliot was born, sometimes my mom and I would order pizza and have a girls night. She’d bake cookies and play with my hair…”
Tom zoned out for a second, her hair in his hands as she told this story, her voice aching in grief. And back to reality, he took her hand, kissing the top of it.
“…It was just…everything.”
“Missing them extra today?”
“Yeah. Elliot and I talked about them and it was so nice but just..I can’t help but be heartbroken when I think about some things.”
“Do you want to tell me about those things?”
“Graduation. I know it was just a sheet of paper, but I did it, you know? They weren’t there. They won’t be there when I open my store. They…”
She choked on her words, tears spilling from her eyes again. Tom’s own eyes began to water as he wrapped her in his arms even tighter, easing her through the moment.
“If I ever get married, I- I always dreamed of them being there. And I know I have Elliot, I just…it’s not the same. I dreamt of it my whole life, Tommy. They’ll never be there. They won’t see me fall in love with you every single day. They won’t see it if I…what if we have a baby one day? How can I explain to my kids how amazing they were, but ‘sorry, you’ll never meet them?’ It’s just…it’s not fair. And I’m angry!” Her voice grew louder, “I’m so mad and I’m so fucking upset because I deserved them to be there. I deserved them holding my hands as I walked down the aisle. I’m angry and I’m sad and I feel like my chest is caving in.”
Tom rubbed her back, gently holding her to his chest.
“It’s not fair. You’re right. It’s the opposite of fair. But you know what you’re forgetting? They see you, Clove. You know they do.”
“Seeing me from another plane doesn’t make me feel less alone.”
“It’s know, baby. I wish I could mend your heart a million times over. Let me see those eyes.”
She looked to him and gave him a small, sad smile.
“They’re so fucking proud of you. Look at you, you’re a powerhouse. Not only are you a total badass, you’re an amazing artist. You have the best heart. The best head on your shoulders. You’re everything, Clove. And if for one second you ever feel alone, remember that you will always, always have my heart and soul. Plus, you know what? You can be pissed off. Throw something, kick a wall in, punch me in the face! It’s justified. You are allowed to be angry!”
She blinked a few times in a deadpan stare, “Did you just yell at me to punch you in the face?”
“Yes. Punch me, baby. If you feel better after beating the shit out of someone, I’ll volunteer.”
She giggled, his laughter joining hers.
“I’d never hurt you. I just…I’m so..”
“You don’t have to explain. I’m gonna be here every step of the way, even if that means making you laugh at me.”
“Why are you so good to me?”
“Because you’re the love of my life. Oh! Speaking of.”
He hopped up and grabbed the flowers, handing her the bouquet.
“Tommy…”
“Do you like them?”
He kneeled on the floor next to her, stroking her cheek with his thumb.
“They’re perfect. My mom…you..you remembered?”
“Elliot helped me out, but yeah. I remembered the story where she put them in every window on your birthday. You said that’s where you got that from…and if you have kids, you’ll do the same for them.”
She held them to her chest and kissed him, his lips like feathers against her own, the warmth of his love radiating from where he knelt.
“I’m gonna love you forever.”
“I’m gonna love you for even longer. And so do they. Their love for you is limitless, angel. They see you. They’re proud of you. They love you.”
“I’m wish they could have met you.”
“Me too.”
-
Late in the evening, Tom stood in the open doorway, listening to the birds sing after the storm. Clove sat curled up on the couch, streaming YouTube videos on Tom’s laptop as she munched on Doritos.
“Do you mind if I ask Elliot over to stay the night with us? I just really want him here.”
“Absolutely. I’ll text him and pick him up.”
“You don’t have to do that.”
“It’s cool. We can get dinner on the way back.”
He sent the text, stepping inside to put his shoes on.
“Your hair looks nice like that.”
“What, like wild? You just like it down.”
“I do. You can’t blame me, you look like some fancy poet.”
“Now, that’s a compliment I’ll take. Elliot says he’ll be ready in fifteen. I should head over. What do you want food wise?”
“Can I say…junk? I want junk.”
“I can do that. Toppings?”
“You know me so well. Just a bunch of cheese…and some of that garlic bread?”
“Say no more, my lady. I’ll tell him to text when we’re on the way.”
“Tommy?”
“Hm?”
“I love you.”
“I love you too, angel.”
-
After picking up Elliot and a massive order of pizza, Tom pulled into the parking lot of a grocery store, taking the key from the ignition.
“Ice cream?”
“Hell yeah!”
Tom chuckled, raising his eyebrows. “Okay, what kind?”
“Anything chocolate.”
“You…really, really are Clove’s brother.”
“What of it?! Can you get me some tea? I have mone-”
“Shut up, dork. I don’t want your money. Do you also have a weird flavored tea addiction? I’m grabbing raspberry while I’m in here anyway.”
“I might like it.”
“I might dump it on you when I get back then. Put that money away.”
Elliot stuffed the bill back in his pocket, trying not to grin as widely as he was.
At Tom’s return, he grabbed the grocery bags, sifting through them to eye the items inside.
“You’re like, a really good boyfriend.”
“What do you say that for?”
“Clove is lucky to have you. She had a bad day and you went like,” he gestured with his hands, “Massively all out. People don’t usually do that.”
“I’m in love with her. That’s what you do when someone you love is hurting.”
“Thanks for being there for her. I know she loves you like that, too.”
“Can I…Elliot, I really want to tell you something. But it can’t make it back to Clove.”
“Okay?”
“Um..I have been thinking and I just-”
“Watch out!”
Tom slammed on the brake just in time to avoid a loose dog sprinting down the road, owners chasing behind.
“Who does that!”
“This town isn’t ever boring, huh?”
“I feel like I almost shit my heart out.”
“Same.”
They parked in Tom’s parking spot, unhooking their seat belts simultaneously.
“I’ll get the bags if you get the boxes?” Elliot smiled, reaching behind him to grab the few grocery bags they’d gotten.
-
“So wait, your mom was this jack of every trade, and your dad sold cars?”
“He said he’d been selling cars since he was seventeen.” Elliot chimed, slurping what was left of his ice cream.
“It sounds so boring!”
“Mom was the magic, dad was…the stage?”
“Scooter, what does that even mean?”
“Like, mom was all lights and colors, ya know? But dad was just stable. And he always would support her.”
“That…was a great metaphor. I’m sorry I doubted you.”
“You should be.”
“Oh! Another time, mom came in from being out all morning and called a family meeting-”
“Oh my god.”
“You remember, Scoot? Oh yeah. She came in with this old, hideous, weird beaded wedding dress from the thrift shop. She said she needed to work her magic and it would be as good as new.”
“Was it?”
Clove and Elliot looked to each other and said, “No!”
Elliot laughed, “She made it big enough for the neighbors dog. That’s it! Mia, right Clove? Her first girl crush.”
“I’ve heard of Mia.”
“What? You have?”
“He’s my boyfriend, Elliot, what did you expect? He just had no idea?”
“Maaaybe?”
“Nah, she told me about Mia the same day I told her about-”
“Ben Park.”
“The comic guy?”
“Yeah, and Tom’s first guy crush.”
“You like guys?”
“I don’t really have a preference. I’d be into anyone who made the world light up, but I don’t have to worry about that anymore.”
He kissed Clove sweetly, pulling away quickly as not to annoy Elliot.
“Wow. This is actually really cool to know. I guess..I guess more people get it than I thought.”
“You’re never alone, man. Even if it feels like it.”
“You guys are cooler than I give you credit for. Can we do this again sometime? Maybe Robbie could have dinner with us.”
“We can do this any time. My place is open to both of you whenever.”
“Oh…speaking of. Scooter, what do you think about me moving a town over?”
“Why?”
“We’ve just been thinking about finding somewhere-”
“Like you guys living together? That’d be cool. We could do this more. Plus, you could give me my dresser back that you took to your studio.”
“If we can, we’ll get a place big enough for you to have your own room for when you’re over. And close enough to not really make a difference, like less than an hour.”
“Really?” Elliot laid back against the couch, “Cool.”
Tom pulled an array of blankets from the closet, tossing them behind him.
“What are you doing, baby?”
“Fort time.”
“Oh my god! For real? Scooter, when was the last time we built a fort?!”
“Like your birthday that one year?”
“Oh boy. I love forts.”
They spent the next thirty minutes layering blankets over the furniture, tossing them over one another, laughing until their sides hurt. Finally, after many slips and fumbles, the three of them settled in beneath the fort, television streaming old Adam Sandler comedies.
-
“Elliot’s out officially,” Tom whispered, “We had fun tonight, didn’t we?”
“So much fun.”
“It’s kinda funny, when I was talking to him in the car before we got the food, he had much of the same sentiments as you regarding your parents. Like…different experiences, but still saw them the same way.”
He climbed behind her, holding her close.
“Elliot and I wrote them notes and burned them today. But we read them out loud and it…was nice.”
“If I could say one thing to them, I’d thank them for giving the world someone like you.”
“My mom would cry.”
“That’s where you got that from.”
“Hey! You love that about me.”
“I do. I love every piece of you.”
“Thank you for being here for me..for loving me. For loving him,” she nodded to her snoring brother, “He needs people like you in his life.”
“He’s a part of you. Of course I love him. I’ll always be here for him, too.”
“You’re amazing.”
She kissed him, sweet pecks, silently pulling beautiful affections from within him. Tom held her into the night, gently singing to her as she fell asleep. He grabbed his phone, going to her social media and scrolling down to find photos of them that she’d posted.
He felt his chest swell with emotion, blinking away fresh mist. He closed the app and looked toward the ceiling, imagining their faces as happy as they were in the photo. With a voice as low as a whisper, he said, “I’ll never be able to thank you for everything you’ve given me. I want to…I love her more than anything. I want to marry her so badly. I hope that if she says yes…if she says yes, I hope you’d approve. I hope I can make her as happy as she deserves. And I’ll be anything I can to Elliot. I swear to you, he has my heart, too. I’ll help him. I’ll guide him. Whatever I can do. Thank you…from the bottom of my heart…for these two. They’re my family.”
And he dozed away, his cheek resting in a bed of Clove’s hair, their fingers laced together. This night was full of quiet love, happy, happy love - the light of the moon dancing across the walls, much like the slow fade of two lingering silhouettes watching over them.
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