#Best Marriage Dates For Your 2023 Wedding

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Seventeen Fic Rec's

(CONTAINS SMUT AND MATURE SUBJECT MATTER)

(Bold title means favorite)

(UPDATED: December 4th, 2023)

OT13

In Pursuit of Wedded Bliss (Updated Masterlist) (A Seventeen Regency!AU Series) @fantasyescapes17

seventeen fic recommendations

Kim Mingyu

In Soft Hands | Part 2 (Mingyu) @beahae (SingleDad!Mingyu x DaycareTeacher!Reader(f))

what’s your number?; kmg @nevernonline (synposis: after finding an online article about the number of sexual partners a woman should have, your day with your neighbor turns into him being lucky number eighteen. paring/s: model! mingyu x afab! reader, ft. little brother! chan.)

again and again ⟢(exes, fake dating, mutual pining, idol!gyu, vet!reader, mild angst, fluff, smut) @lovelyhan

creep (Halloween, ghost!mingyu, serial killer!mingyu, etc…) @smileysuh

Aphrodite (smut, friends to lovers, established relationship, fluff at the beginning) @highvern

Covert Desires (spy!mingyu x assasin!reader (fem!reader themes: spy au, mafia, enemies to lovers, fake marriage, mutual pining, spies, angst, fluff, killing) @etherealyoungk

Slowly; All At Once (fluff, best friends to lovers with Mingyu, boyfriend material!Mingyu, slight angst.) @gyuwoncheol

Hits Different (...'cause it's you) (1) (brother's best friend!au, brother!seokmin, fluff, angst, smut) @gyuswhore

His Smile(smut, fluff, slowburn, fake dating!au) @angelwonie

Parties, Yachts and Wishful Thinking (enemies to lovers, reader and Mingyu are rich, Mingyu is kind of an asshole but so is reader, parties, mentions of reader crushing on Wonwoo, drinking, cursing, tennis, yachts and pure filth) @ithinkilikeit-reactions

Other Mingyu recs @novalpha

we don’t usually hold hands (m) || kmg & reader (angst, fluff, smut, friends with benefits, idiots to lovers, sort-of-mean!oc, nice guy!mingyu, emotionally constipated!oc honestly) @gyukult

kim mingyu’s (unhelpful) guide to losing your virginity (smut, fluff, humor, college au, best friends to lovers au, friends with benefits au) @shuaflix

the very first night. (exes to lovers, roommates!au | romance, angst, smut) Link works on pc and through my reblog i think

OVER MY HEAD (brother'sbestfriend!mingyu, fratboy!mingyu, pining, friends to lovers, angst (only a little), reader's a chronic overthinker, slow burn, smut, f reader, oral (f receiving), penetrative sex, wonwoo's kinda absent </3, crying (blame mingyu), etc.) @hannieehaee

it’s all fun and games (mingyu x female reader ) @dontflailmenow

Hong Joshua (Jisoo)

Loverboy (regency era romance, historical, drama, slow burn, angst.) @starlightxsvt

cranberry concoctions (bartender!joshua x f!reader) @onlyhuis

Mr (not) so perfectly fine (Joshua Hong x Fem! Reader, not super relevant to the plot but, this is a Non-Idol AU, exes to exes with benefits, elements of angst) @hwanghyunjinenthusiast

the devil wears baby blue (mut (minors PLS dni!), strangers to fucking lol) @onlyseokmins

Virgin Killer (cheerleader!reader, nerd!shua, virgin!shua, he’s kinda cold in this but is lowkey still a soft boi, drinking, teasing, jealousy, reader has a little bit of a corruption kink, loss of virginity, oral sex (f and m receiving), unprotected sex, riding, multiple creampies, overstimulation) @wonusite

isohel (all time joshua fav) (slowburn, modern royalty au, angst, fluff) @toruro

mr. nice guy (, neighbor!joshua, joshua's muscles deserve their own tag tbh, oral (f receiving), alcohol consumption (NOT drunk sex), petnames (sweetheart mostly :pp), biting, spit kink, unedited as alway) @toruro

eyes meeting, hearts apart ⟢ (; bartender!reader, requited unrequited love, immense pining, angst, flowers, slow burn, smut (MINORS DNI)) @lovelyhan

Jeon Wonwoo

Jeon’s Anatomy - Cast (surgeon au) @hansols-yoda-boxers

Blown up love (gaming is all fun and... well, games, until you start crushing on the only person that takes pity on you and saves you from mobs.) @starsstuddedsky

I found love in your smile (doctor!wonwoo x lawyer!female oc) @wonlouvre

wonwoo reading list / fic recs part 3 ! @jeonride

meet cute of the century (meet cute, strangers to lovers, pining, discourse abt being an idol as a career, mild angst, smut) @lovelyhan

Licentious (babysitter au, cheating au, smut) @wonusite

to build a home (idol!husband! jeon wonwoo x actress!afab!reader) @tomodachiii

X + Y = YOU AND I ||( jeon wonwoo academic rival!wonwoo x fem!reader) @angelwonie

yoon jeonghan

just one day (fluff // angst // nonidol!au // brother's best friend // fake dating!au // they're idiots lmao // not edited nor proofread so pls bear w me lol // cursing and. two? kissing scenes.) @wonwoonlightligh

to live again (ime travel!au, childhood friends to lovers!au, slow burn, angst, some fluff, some humor) @viastro I WAS CRYING PLS READ

Pathetic Series @leejihoonownsmyhearthoonownsmyheart

Jeonghan’s Guide to Insurance Fraud (And Falling in Love) (fluff, angst, non-idol au, elementary school teacher!jeonghan, f2L, fake relationship) @starsstuddedsky

xu minghao

✧ the letter (slowburn, fluff, angst, childhood f2l) @toruro

✧ flight of the stars (mut (18+ / mdni), f1 au, brief high school au, angst, fluff) @toruro

✧ oh my! @toruro

fixer upper (s2f2l. “beg” minghao. LOTS OF PLOT with eventual smut. slow and i mean SLOW burn. some member slander(affectionate),) @seungkwansphd

Glacial Pace (fake dating au, friends to lovers, fluff, smut) @wonusite

To Keep You Warm @idyllic-ghost

Kwon Soon-young

My Best Friend's Mother (is the One For Me) — ksy (milf chaser!soonyoung, milf!reader) @rubyreduji

driving lessons for dummies (fluff, humor, smut, strangers to lovers au, college au) @shuaflix FAV ATM XD

be sweet (prince!hoshi x princess!reader) @heartkyeom

charity f*ck (virgin guy who lives with his parents!soonyoung, he’s not shy but he is very clumsy, a lot of texting so be prepared for that format for a lil bit (THIS IS NOT A SOCIAL MEDIA AU), facetime-sex, real life sex) @ncteez

[wen-kexing-apologist]

Top 5 platonic friendship moments

Thank you SO much for asking me this, I love friendship!!!!

Nick and Sand Kissing in Only Friends, Ep. 9

gif by @aprilblossomgirl

I know you have your thoughts on Only Friends at this point because of how it ended, but there were a lot of things I do think Only Friends got right, one of my favorites being the platonic make out session between Nick and Sand. I mean, we talked about this before. It felt so queer, and it also did a really great job showing the difference between platonic and romantic feelings, because the kiss gave us nothing, and did the same for Team Second Option. I will forever love the fact that they made out, giggled, cuddled, and then giggled some more about it because it was kinda awkward and a little embarrassing, but they love each other as friends and that kiss changed literally nothing about their dynamic.

Porjai giving Mhok a Massage in Last Twilight, Ep 6

gif by @khaopybara

I like that some of the shows this year are starting to get in to the relationship dynamics of exes who stayed friends after. Like, listen, I've never been in a relationship before, and I know why it does happen where exes never really speak again, but it never made sense to me why 99% of the ex-partner relationship dynamics I've ever seen are bad. Like, this is a person who matter so much to you, and then you're just never going to see them or talk to them again? I love this massage moment that Porjai has with Mhok especially because it feels familial and familiar and friendly, and it is the scene that made me be like "man I can't believe they used to date" in exactly the same way that Porjai was confused when Day called Mhok her boyfriend.

Wataru Being a Little Shit on Shiro's Birthday in What Did You Eat Yesterday? Season 2, Ep. 7

Wataru is such a little shit, and I love him desperately, and his whole relationship with Shiro and Kenji is so strange. He's such a complainer, and while it can feel like the four gay men in this show hang out and are friends because they are the only gay people they know, it is moments like these that sell their actual friendship for me. Sending your friend a bouquet with a MASSIVE 50 balloon in it because you know it'll piss them off is pique best friend behavior.

Gay Boy Cuddle Pile in A Boss and a Babe, Ep. 9

gif by @paisky

I am not immune to a gay boy cuddle pile. I will never be immune to a gay boy cuddle pile.

Having had multiple conversations with a straight male friend about how much cis men lack platonic, physical touch from friends I now get emo about when boys hug, cuddle, kiss cheeks, hold hands with each other especially if they are not dating or hoping to date.

Rose Trying to Steal Charn's Phone in Laws of Attraction, Ep. 4

gif by @panncakes

It's such sibling energy, and I love it so much. As an immature adult, I love when adultier adults than me are shown being childish/immature themselves. No one should be expected to be put together all the time, and I moments like these show such a beautiful form of love.

and cause Laws of Attraction is technically a lakorn...

Sailom and Yiwa in the entirety of Wedding Plan

They love each other so much they were going to enter a Lavendar Marriage just so that Yiwa especially could be free. I can't say much about them because if I start talking about them I won't stop. But it is by far the most sacred form of platonic love we've had all year.

ASK ME MY TOP 5 OF ANYTHING BL 2023

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Hi! I recently found your blog, and your writing is really good ♡

So, if possible, can I request some headcannons on marrying Jing Yuan? Like how much time do you spend together? do you cook for him? do you go on dates? how has your relationship changed since?

Thanks, and I hope you're having a great day!

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͙✧˖*°࿐ Pairings: Jing yuan x fem!wife!reader (no pronouns used, implied fem)

┊͙ Summary: husband jing yuan

┊͙ warnings: none

┊͙ A/n: Helloo! ur so sweet n I’m so sorry for the long wait😭

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He would propose later into the relationship, he loves you and is definitely committed if you are, but jing yuan thinks it’s better to take it slower when getting engaged

He’d probably propose 2-3 years into the marriage, 4 maximum.

When he first proposed, he’d make it (obviously) the most memorable thing ever. And the wedding? Man’s probably told you to get the best dress out there.

Something about the ring feels so perfect. It symbolizes the both of you, everything you’ve done together—even though it’s just a ring.

Honestly, your relationship wouldn’t change that much, other then the fact he loved you so so much more :)

Since he’s still the general, he doesn’t have much time to spend time with you, But when he does, he’ll spend every second of it with you.

He’d definitely still take you on dates, and each time, his love for you just grows little by little.

He’d probably take you out Atleast 2-3 times a month, before and after marriage, it could be just strolling through the city, or even eating at a restaurant.

He strikes me as the type of guy who’d get you gifts, so he will probably get you flowers on the most random days. He saw a flower that reminded him of you. Or he just wants to show you how much he loves you.

Adding on to the last one, he’d also get you gifts—and let me tell you, they are wrapped like it’s Christmas Day. The wrapping will be so fancy, it’s probably got bubble wrap in it, even if it’s not fragile.

For anniversaries, he’d set up the most romantic (and expensive) thing ever.

When he comes home, he’s basically clings on to you. While your cooking, he wraps his arms around your waist. Or while on your phone he plays with your hair and vice versa

If your working and he somehow comes home before you, he’ll cook for you, maybe even clean the house like a male wife.

10/10 husband, would recommend marrying him.

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[shiroikabocha]

I have new followers so here are some answers to FAQ about the Homestuck wedding:

the homestuck wedding is a gay wedding. wife 1 (me) is she/her, wife A (the one that’s not me) is she/they

We are technically already married! We originally planned to wed on 4/13/2024, but a member of our state legislature flipped parties in April 2023, and suddenly Republicans had a veto-proof majority in both houses of a state whose citizens had already voted to ban our marriage once before. In a fit of minor panic, we grabbed our immediate family and took a trip to the courthouse for a Surprise Emergency Wedding on 4/13/2023. The “wedding” we’re planning is actually a first anniversary party!

I’m not live-streaming/live-blogging/live-anything the event. I’m going to be pretty busy that day

it’s flattering that so many of you want to attend the Homestuck Wedding but please don’t, I don’t have that kind of catering budget

I’ll share pictures here, no need to track down my dad’s facebook page

The wedding website encourages guests to wear “anything that makes you feel comfortable and fancy,” plus an additional “pop of color” based on this curiously specific list of 12 colors assigned to 12 different ranges of birthdates haha it’s not mandatory don’t worry about it

(I don’t know what’s worse: guests reading the suggested dress code and thinking I’m into Homestuck, or guests reading the suggested dress code and thinking I’m into astrology)

(that’s a lie, it would be so much worse if they thought I was into astrology)

The guests, for the most part, do not know homestuck. I intend to keep it that way. I do NOT want my aunts and uncles googling “homestuck,” christ

My brother knows. When we told the family our planned wedding date, he said nothing, but gave me one of those I Know What You Are stares and all I can say is well buddy this is your fault, if you didn’t want to be the best man at the Gay Homestuck Wedding then you shouldn’t have showed your sister “this neat webcomic I found” all those years ago! Reap what you sow, bro!!

We’re not having children, but during a joke discussion of what would happen if my wife’s sister went into labor at our wedding, we said she’d have to name the baby Casey or Billious Slick or Rosemary or Davekat or something… which is how “Rosemary” ended up on my in-laws baby name shortlist

I know I will not see the gates of heaven, it’s fine, I’ve made peace with the consequences of my actions

[rosemarymonths]

Introducing Rosemary Month 2023, all throughout October!

You can submit art, fanfics, music, cosplays, meta analysis, shitposts, etc, for the prompts!! I’ll be keeping track of the tags: #rosemary and #rosemary month2023 for submissions!! Or you can simply just @ this acc so I don’t skip over yours by accident!

Prompts:

Day 1: From The Start

Imagine rosemary at their very beginning of their dynamic or at the first step of their romantic relationship!

Day 2: Turtle Consorts

Rose and Kanaya hanging around Rose’s consorts would’ve been pretty cute!

Day 3: Meteorstuck

Imagine any Meteorstuck shenanigans Rose and Kanaya got into together!

Day 4: Hurt/Comfort

Obligatory sadstuck day, but with added comfort for safety measure!

Day 5: First Kiss

Either imagine Pre-Retcon Rose and Kanaya’s first kiss, or the unseen post-retcon kiss! Or maybe you want to explore a different way they could’ve had their first kiss?

Day 6: Quadrants

Time for some rosemary quadrant smearing!

Day 7: Birthdays

How neat would it be to see Rose and Kanaya celebrating each other’s birthdays?

Day 8: Cats

Imagine Rose and Kanaya playing with a bunch of cats!

Day 9: Rain

Rose and Kanaya going through rainy weather, or just explore anything you want to do with rain.

Day 10: Rays

After the rain, Kanaya and Rose finally get some sunshine.

Day 11: Game Over

Explore the absolute heartbreak that is Rose and Kanaya’s deaths, either during the catastrophe or the aftermath within the dreambubbles.

Day 12: AUs

Any AU you want!! Been thinking about a MLP AU lately? A Little Prince AU?

Day 13: Family

Explore either Rose and Kanaya with their own little family, or just them with the other Strilondes/Maryams! Or both!!

Day 14: Alpha Timeline

Imagine either Alpha Rose x Beforus Kanaya, or post-retcon rosemary! Whichever one you like best!

Day 15: Tropes

Explore your favorite rosemary tropes!! Or a trope you’d love to see with rosemary!

Day 16: Scars

Rose and Kanaya bonding over their shared scars, either literal or metaphorical.

Day 17: Flowers

Either Kanaya simply infodumping about her botanic skills to Rose, or just pretty flower art, you decide whatever!

Day 18: Stars

Perhaps Rose and Kanaya stargazing, or aesthetic pieces! Go crazy!

Day 19: Date Night

Imagine Rose and Kanaya finally going on a somewhat decent date this time around.

Day 20: Robots

Assigned meat rosemary day, or just do whatever you wish with robots and rosemary!

Day 21: Double Date

Imagine rosemary going on a double date with another ship you like!

Day 22: Dreambubbles

Either Rose and Kanaya having dreambubble fun times, or perhaps more Game Over angst?

Day 23: Domestic

Explore Rose and Kanaya’s sweet domestic life, as they deserve!

Day 24: Strider Third Wheeler

It wouldn’t be Rosemary without Dave trying to tag along like he’s their five year old son, right?

Day 25: Proposal

Who do you think proposed? Rose or Kanaya?

Day 26: Wedding Anniversary

Rose and Kanaya celebrating their marriage!!

Day 27: Snow

Imagine Rose and Kanaya undergoing snowy weather!

Day 28: Fnaf Day

Exactly what it says. Happy Fnaf Movie month

Day 29: Beach Episode

Imagine Rose and Kanaya just having some beach summer fun times

Day 30: Clothes/Style Swap

A good ol’ fashioned clothing/style swap between Rose and Kanaya!

Day 31: Halloween

Happy Halloween!! Are Rose and Kanaya trick or treating? Passing out candy? Going to a party?Scaring little kids to death maybe?? Do whatever halloween fun you want with these two!

[jisungsdaydreamer]

Anti-Romantic | TEASER | CHAPTER 3 OUT NOW!!

«GENERAL M.LIST» · «NAVIGATION» · «TALK TO ME» · «SERIES MASTERLIST»

Pairing: Hyunjin x Fem!reader Genre: non idol au, fluff, smut, romcom, drama, opposites attract Warnings: swearing, explicit sexual content, dysfunctional relationships, taboo couples/relationship therapist and patient dynamic

P.S. ♡ If you like my work, please consider giving me feedback in the form of reblogs, comments, and asks! ♡

As the most beloved dating coach in the sunny state of California, Hyunjin has dealt with all kinds of nightmares— from real desperate housewives and their indifferent husbands to toxic shotgun marriages doomed to fail— and he’s fixed them all. Dubbed the “Love Doctor,” Hyunjin has a PhD in both sociology and broken hearts. Every single day for Hyunjin ends the same: yet another flashy career success and to celebrate, sliding on his rose-tinted glasses and sipping on pink champagne, his perpetual poison.

That was all before you, of course.

For your entire life, you’ve been unlucky in love. From your endless unrequited high school crushes to your situationship who turned out to be gay, love has just never been in the cards for you. It’s all changed you from a hopeless romantic into a pessimist who doesn’t believe in true love. You now make fun of every couple you see, religiously watch wedding fails on Youtube, and absolutely hate romantic comedies. 

But no amount of lackluster girls’ nights or hours thrown into your crappy job can fill the hole in your heart. You’re absolutely lonely. In one last attempt to give love a chance, you ditch your Tinder dates and decide to turn to L.A.’s famous “Love Doctor,” this hotshot relationship therapist all of your friends rave about. 

Barrelling into Dr. Hwang’s office like a cyclone, you bring along your signature stormy attitude and want a remedy to your emotional dry spell, even though you still believe in your heart that counseling won’t work for you. You don’t expect, however, your new intimacy expert to be hotter than hell, definitely not a middle-aged woman ready to lecture you about putting out.

No, Dr. Hwang is more like the Grandmaster of love, the amorous warlock of the West Coast, and with the way he silently strips you with his bedroom eyes the moment you walk in, perhaps even the sex scholar of the Valley. As he slowly disarms your defenses, you do your best not to let him know of your inappropriate fantasies about him. But even worse than your impossibly vivid wet dreams, you’re falling in love with your fucking therapist. Or Hyunjin, as he so charmingly commands you to call him. 

And you try to keep your feelings for him at bay, you really do. But Hyunjin just doesn’t give up, relentlessly tugging at your mind and heart and taking up every quantum of your life. Because after all, the Love Doctor loves a good challenge.

«GENERAL M.LIST» · «NAVIGATION» · «TALK TO ME»

TAGLIST @army-stay-noel, @hwangjuhong, @chizumiyoshi

📢 ©jisungsdaydreamer 2023 | All rights reserved. I do not condone translations or transfers of my work onto other platforms such as Wattpad, AO3, etc. Tumblr is my only platform. Acts of plagiarism are strictly prohibited.

[starsinkpop]

ATEEZ Tarot Reading - MTL to get married first

Disclaimer: I do tarot readings for fun, so please read them with a grain of salt. Don’t take my words too seriously and just keep an open mind. Tarot is a divination tool that can’t predict the future, as every single individual has their own will and makes their own decisions. Tarot should be seen as a guidance and a good friend that just has your best interest and gives you advice when needed. I’m not putting anyone in my readings on a pedestal nor am I trying to harm anyone. One last side note, I’m not a native speaker, so please excuse any wrong spellings or poor grammar.

Date of Reading: October 12th 2023

Deck: Ethereal Visions Tarot

Most

Seonghwa/San/Wooyoung

Yunho/Yeosang

Mingi/Jongho

Hongjoong

Least

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Hongjoong - Six of Wands (R), Seven of Cups, XVI The Tower

Marriage doesn’t seem to be something that he has ever really thought of. Seems like he’s doubting he’ll ever get married honestly. Marriage isn’t something he would go for as of now. It’s a concept that doesn’t align with his beliefs and principles.

Seonghwa - Six of Wands, X The Wheel of Fortune, XXI The World

Marriage is something that Seonghwa really desires in his life. He wants that long-term commitment marriage comes with. It would complete and fulfill him. He really can’t wait for a strong connection like a marriage. I also see him being especially excited about the wedding itself. Would definitely be one of the first members to get married.

Yunho - VIII Strength, Seven of Pentacles, XVI The Tower (R)

Yunho wants stability and security in his life. A marriage would bring in more financial stability and he’s a pretty romantic guy who also wants this long-term commitment. So he really needs a deep connection first. He wants to take care of his spouse but also be very well taken care off. Yunho loves the romance behind marriages, especially the “through sickness and health” part. I don’t think he’ll be one of the first ones to get married tho

Yeosang - XIV Temperance, IV The Emperor, XII The Hanged Man

Yeosang also wants to get married but he as well needs a bit of time as there’s some uncertainty about the future. He’s craving this emotional fulfillment and he wants that attachment. He as well wants the stability and security a marriage can bring, but he needs to find a reliable and loyal partner first. So he will also take his time before marriage.

San - Knight of Swords, Knight of Cups, Four of Pentacles, Two of Pentacles

I see San quickly getting married, as he goes for whatever he wants. He wants to find true love and he’s hoping for a passionate relationship. He loves to love and he loves the warmth a marriage can bring. He’s also someone who’s going for long-term commitments and a marriage could bring him the support he needs. However, I think he maybe gets married for the money. Two incomes are better than one and I feel like he would throw the romance over board if he could marry someone who has a lot of financial wealth. He will also be one of the first members to get married.

Mingi - Five of Pentacles (R), XVII The Star, Six of Cups

Mingi is definitely liking the thought of a marriage. He feels like, a good marriage could overcome any issues and it would be positive change in his life. He really wishes for a marriage tbh as it brings in another level of intimacy and strengthen the bond between two loving souls. He also enjoys the financial improvement it could bring. But Mingi needs a lot of time to trust others and he only wants to marry someone he really knows well. So I see him getting married later in life, after many years in the relationship.

Wooyoung - Knight of Wands, Knight of Swords, VI The Lovers, III The Empress

Just like Seonghwa and San, Wooyoung would also be one of the first members to get married. Wooyoung loves relationships, the deeper the better. He wants true and passionate love and what’s better to celebrate that love by getting married. He really wants that love bonding for life, he wants a family and deep emotional connection. A marriage would be such a blissful change in his life and bring his relationship on an even more intimate level which he would absolutely enjoy. He goes for what he wants as well, so as soon as he found the right one, he won’t wait for long to put the ring on it.

Jongho - II The High Priestess, Two Of Cups, XVI The Tower

Jongho wants to get married for sure. Similar to the others, the intimacy and passion it would kindle is something he really wants to experience. He needs a strong soul bond first though and really needs to get to know his partner well. He doesn’t only want a physical connection but especially an emotional connection that would strengthen him. There’s some deeply routed fear of getting divorced tho, which is why I put I’m lower on the list. I think he needs a long time to fully commit to a marriage with his partner.

Love,

~Nicky 🫧

Masterlist

[sunflowervoltwentyeight]

Happy 28th! Here's my June 2023 fic rec, organized in the order I read them. Enjoy!

Sun Means The Sky'll Be Blue by pearlydewdrops / @moonhusbands (91k)

As the only singleton under thirty attending his cousin's five-day wedding, Harry is desperate to find a date, or at least a reason to get people's questions about his love life off his back. So when Louis, Harry's old uni roommate and fellow wedding attendee waltzes back into his life, Harry seizes the opportunity, pretending Louis is his ex-boyfriend and that it's a sore subject not to be mentioned.

If it's a little bit closer to the truth than Harry would like, well, he's a master at living in denial.

So cue a mess of trudged-up feelings, past misunderstandings, a rekindled summer romance and a whole lot of sexually-charged bickering.

Becoming Us by sweariwouldnt (59k)

Married at First Sight is a television show in which hopefuls looking for The One are matched by experts deeming them to be the perfect match. The twist? They meet each other for the first time at the altar. When they exchange their 'I do's'. And get married for real.

One Harry and Louis find each other at the altar. They have five weeks to make or break the set-up marriage.

Say You'll Remember by whisperdlullaby (93k)

au. louis and harry are best mates that are only half aware that they're also soulmates. alternatively, louis goes to university and harry travels the world, and they always manage to find their way back to each other.

takes place over nine years, in which they love and hurt, make mistakes and learn, and above all, grow.

Heading For Limbo by kingsofeverything / @kingsofeverything (100k)

Childhood best friends who’ve fallen in and out of touch with each other since Louis’ family moved away when they were thirteen, Harry and Louis find their paths crossing again and again. Each time, no matter how many miles apart or how many years it’s been, it’s as if no time has passed. They fall back into their easy friendship, until life intervenes and sends them on their separate ways once more.

When Harry discovers some life-changing things about himself, Louis is there for him, however he needs. But it’s all temporary because Louis has plans that will move his life from New York all the way to L.A. and the distance isn’t the only thing between them.

The pieces of their twice broken hearts are scattered from the Atlantic to the Pacific.

Flash Forward to Forever by akatomlinson / @mason-conaway (73k)

Louis narrows his eyes, wanting more than anything to tell Liam to go fuck himself, but he can’t be sure, is the thing. As much as he knows for a fact that he would never date someone like Harry Styles, he has months missing from his memory. And it’s scary to think that, in that time, everything he’s come to know about himself could have changed so drastically.

Or the one where Louis loses his memory and Harry just about loses his mind trying to win him back (or something)

Sent by the Sun by etherealbliss / @givesuethemoon (53k)

“I know,” Louis mutters, ghosting his mouth over Harry’s pulse point, “that if you’d stop wasting your time with him, if you’d just let me… I could show you so many things. I could change everything for you. There are ways in which you could be seduced that you haven’t even dreamed of, angel.”

At that, Harry breaks.

 In 1970s Los Angeles, Harry is a groupie who aches to feel alive. Louis is the lead singer of a rock band who aches to know him.

Halfway Home by itsmotivatingcara / @itsmotivatingcara (103k)

Harry Styles and Louis Tomlinson were improbable childhood friends, much to Harry's dismay. They were thrown together each summer when Harry was forced to visit Louis' grandfathers' ranch in Black Hills, South Dakota. With each passing year their friendship blossomed into something more. When trail rides turned to stolen kisses, and tragedies turned to confessions, until they could no longer deny the inevitable draw they felt for one another.

Though life and their future plans soon set them on different paths.

Ten years later, Louis is the proud owner of Halfway Home Wildlife Refuge. Harry returns to the ranch to escape the perils of his past in London, and though their memories still haunt Louis, he won't let that deter him from his goals. However, someone has been keeping a close eye on the refuge, and possibly Louis specifically, and Harry's return may have unleashed more that just old passions. There's a hunter lurking in the Hills, someone who's decided they've bided their time long enough.

Not That Gone Series by abrighteryellow / @a-brighter-yellow

Hello My Name is Harry (2k) Louis’s 20-year high school reunion takes a turn when a celebrity classmate – who also happens to be Louis’s long unrequited crush – unexpectedly shows up. A famous/not-famous AU inspired by Chris Evans.

Not That Gone (60k)

Around four in the afternoon on day two, Harry was dropping kisses on Louis' chest and heading downwards when he abruptly stopped. “I can move back here,” he said, propping himself up on the mattress with his hands. Louis' eyes popped open and he looked up at him, totally lost. “What?” “For a while,” Harry continued, the idea taking hold. “Hang out with my mom. Work on my script. Be with you.” Louis had already resigned himself to the fact that this weekend was a crack in the space-time continuum that would soon close, sending him and Harry back to their respective, very different lives. It would be a memory that would keep him warm when he was an old, old man – that time one of People’s 50 Most Beautiful had kept him on his hands and knees for two days straight. He wasn’t so stupid as to hope for more. “You’re crazy,” Louis scoffed. Harry’s eyes shone. “Am I?” A few weeks after Louis and Harry, *ahem*, reconnect at their high school reunion, Harry temporarily moves back home. Louis isn't sure he has the emotional fortitude for a prolonged fling with the man of the dreams. For Ten Minutes Straight (1k) Louis has a ritual for when Harry's away – and a good reason for keeping it private.

[pandoraimperatrix]

In the white of her palm is your heart

NejiHina Week 2023 

Day 3:  Dating 

READ ON AO3

The Hyuuga do things the old way, so, they didn’t date. 

Dating were for modern girls, for the daughters of civilians, and the new growing class of merchants, Hinata, being born daughter of the oldest shinobi clan of what came to be Konoha, would never be allowed such freedom.  

In truth, from the moment it was made obvious that her mother had given her father a daughter, her destiny was already sealed. She would marry Neji, the would-have-been perfect heir, and produce the purest of byakugan blessed children. And when it became clear that her temperament too soft for the ruthlessness of shinobi life, it reinforced the council's opinion that Hinata’s only utility was to bear the son that would take over after her father stepped down and fix the line of succession. 

There was nothing romantic about this plan, the trouble was that, despite the old geezers of the Hyuuga Council believing themselves as their masters, they never counted on Hinata’s newly wedded husband being a rebel. Had always been a rebel and would not be playing his part as planned by the same people that robbed him of his father and his freedom. 

He had tried rejecting Hinata, once upon a time, it didn’t work, and it didn’t last. Some things are more powerful than fate, stronger than hate and more persistent than any wish of rebellion. 

And instead of hating her of trying to reject her further, of persisting in the misery, Neji rebelled in a different way, he loved his wife, instead of letting himself to be used by the very same powers that hurt both of them so much by simply using their union to procreation, he tried his best to make her happy instead. And if the heavens one day blessed them with children, unlike their parents, their sons and daughters would never doubt their worth to their parent’s eyes.  

Neji, when he decided – because it was his decision, not obedience – to marry Hinata, he also decided that he would give her what being born the Byakugan no Hime stole from her options in life. A warm home life. The normalcy of a date nights, kisses under the moon, flowers, chocolates and teddy bears. 

Trouble was, she didn’t quite care for any of that. She knew she should, but she didn’t. But Hinata wouldn’t tell him that and break his covert romantic soul. 

The man adored her, she owed him at least that. 

So, she played along, she indulged him, playing the part of the blushing bride, because she knew he liked it so much. And she’d make eyes to him in the semi-public space of a fancy restaurant with moody candlelight, and she would let her fingers touch his when serving him tea, always so very proper, so very chaste.  

It wasn’t a task, and she wasn’t pretending, she was indeed a private person, and although their relationship had never been, at least on her part, akin to the suffocating infatuation that rendered her speechless and a fainting mess (looking back, being able to tell to his face all her thoughts about him, even those not too pleasant, when she used to be a depressed, timid little genin might have been a sign).  

After a month of marriage, she knew that the easiest way to drive her cold, austere Hyuuga husband absolutely mad with desire was to act like her meek authentic self. 

After all, he never wanted anything or anyone but her, he had told her so. 

But when they were back home, when it was only the two of them... Well... 

She giggled when he pulled her up as soon as the shoji doors slid shut behind them. 

“Anata, they’ll hear us,” she warned him, her ears ringing as she tried to not slip from his grip as he swiftly hooked her legs on his shoulders. 

“You are the one being loud, Hinata-sama,” and then he stopped, and looked up, eyebrows rising and mouth watering, “tsuma...” oh, it was absurd how hearing him call her that made her feel, mostly because it was so rare “you are not wearing your bottom hadagi.” 

“I-I was feeling too warm,” she didn’t lie, but feeling warm in the middle of the winter had little to do with the weather. It was him. Just him. Neji licked his lips and somehow pulled her even closer in a rough move, making Hinata huff, already panting, and he haven’t even really touched her. 

“And why is Hinata-sama feeling warm when it’s snowing outside?” He teased her first with words and then with actions, one of the hands that had been supporting her lower back slid across her butt cheek to the top of her thigh, softly pulling the lonely fabric of her kimono, as if he was unwrapping a present. “Does she have a fever?” 

Hinata wanted to rub her thighs together to relieve the ache between them, and Neji must have felt the pressure of her muscles squeezing his neck, because he pushed the last bit of silk off, exposing her lovekissed inner thigh and her expecting weeping core. 

His breath hitched, and she could see the tip of his tongue between his teeth as he looked at her pussy as if it was the most fascinating thing he had ever seen. 

“Anata” she breathed, “please...” 

Without looking at her, his hand slid inwards from where it was resting on her top of her naked thigh, carefully, with his thumb, Neji separated her labia and Hinata trembled, goosebumps spreading across her skin as his grip from her lower back moved to hold her hip in place as he continued his exploration, spreading her moisture down to her opening, an up around her pulsing bundling of nerves. 

“Oh, no, no, don’t t-tea-” she protested as he continued to massage her but refused to touch her where she needed him the most, “ ah Neji...” 

“What?” he asked, finally looking at her and revelling to Hinata with his tortured expression how teasing her was taking the toll on him too, she wanted to reach down and discover for herself how much. She loved how dominating he could be, but it could also be frustrating when he got in one of those moods.  

Neji sighed and pillowed his head on her thigh, threads of chestnut hair falling on his eyes, clearly amused by her flushed cheeks and obvious impatience “do you want something, Hinata-sama?” 

And then, holding her gaze and with a small smile playing in his lips, he flicked her clit for the first time, finally. 

How Hinata didn’t come instantly was a mystery to her. 

She squeezed her eyes shut, enduring the violent waves of pleasure as he kept moving his finger in the pattern he found out wouldn’t get her there too fast, but would rend her completely defenceless against his power over her. 

“Ahhh” she panted, that was torture, absolute torture, she wanted to cry she wanted to push him to the floor and ride him all night, she wanted- 

Suddenly, Hinata found herself pressed against a wall, her husband using his free hand to push the silk away from her other thigh as he opened her legs wider and kissed her feverish skin of her inner thigh. She threaded her hands in his hair, pulling off his headband, uncovering the birdcage seal, something that caused so much pain, for so many years, she never thought that seeing it up-close would one day take such an erotic meaning. 

She wanted to kiss it, to kiss him, desperately, but he did it first. 

Hinata cried out as he sucked her clit into his mouth, his thumb intruding into her opening in tandem and curling up, it was overkill and she trashed on his shoulders, spilling wetness down his chin and neck, but he didn’t stop. He took his thumb out with a little struggle to not hurt her as her walls spasmed and when she was starting to calm the contractions, he fucked her with his tongue instead. Hinata choked, her legs shaking uncontrollably, heels hitting his back making Neji chuckle against her folds. 

When she managed to open her eyes again, he was waiting for her, lower face moist with her juices, hair mussed, cheeks dusted with red ardour and an arrogant self-satisfied look on his bright white eyes. Hinata sighed lowered one hand from his hair, touching his face softly, he moved his face, eyelids fluttering, following her caress like a kitten, and when her fingers touched his lips, he sucked them in. 

Not in a million years Hinata could have guessed that being married to Hyuuga Neji would be like this. 

“Bed,” she managed to say finally, “our bed, I... I...” 

“Are you sure?” his voice was so smooth, Hinata shivered, her legs squeezing him again, “because I’m still hungry, Hinata-sama, and I could make you come with my tongue again, and again, and again...” He punctuated every ‘again’ with a lick on her still pulsing core and Hinata fussed, desperate. 

“No, no, please I want to touch you too, please” she all but sobbed. 

He gave her a last lick before wordlessly helping her down, pushing her legs from his shoulders, and sliding her body to the floor where she stood on weak legs and, as usual, almost a head and a half smaller than him. 

Hinata grabbed he lapels of his haori and pulled him down for a searing kiss. She could feel now, through his hakama, how hard he was, and was very pleased with herself even thought, to be fair, she didn’t do a lot yet. 

She pulled back before he got too much control back, and pulled him by his hand to their canopy wedding bed. Hinata released his hand to climb on the soft beddings, and Neji just followed her, sitting at the edge, waiting. Eyes locked to his, she sat on her calves, oh so properly for a woman who had ruined an heirloom silk kimono by refusing to use underclothes soiling it with cum just to tease her already besotted husband. Hinata took her hands to her obijime, but her husband shook his head. 

“Let me,” and he reached forward, Hinata smiled and took her delicate fingers off her obi, choosing to rest her hands around Neji’s neck even if she knew, that he would take forever to unwarp her, that it would be absolute torture, that an entire ocean would be waiting between her legs when he finally slipped the last strip of silk from her body as if he wasn’t desperate to drown again. 

Frustrating as it was, because she needed him desperately, it never got old, how reverential he was at each inch of skin revealed, as if he had never seen her before, as if he had never had her before, as if he wouldn’t have her forever. 

She shivered when he finally pushed the kimono off her shoulders, covering the absence of fabric with bruising kisses and tried to make her lie down, but Hinata stopped him with one hand on his chest. 

“Anata, you’re still dressed,” she reminded him, and he truly seemed surprised when his clouded eyes glanced down, eyebrows knitting as if his genial brain couldn’t fathom the mysterious presence of his three-piece kimono. Hinata giggled and slapped his hands away when he went straight to the front knot of his hakama. “Your haori first, love, I’ll take care of the rest.” 

Obediently, he undressed from his upper garment as his wife fumbled roughly with his trousers. Each pull made him harder and when she all but hugged him to reach behind to undo his obi, burying her soft face on the crook of his neck and breathing him in, Neji’s dick twitched, begging for attention. 

Tired of waiting, Neji cupped her tight rump and pushed Hinata on the bed, pushing the nagagi off his shoulders himself as she lay there, with a too sweet smile, creamy white skin framed by the endless waves of her midnight hair. 

And she was his. Only his. 

He had planned to take his time with her, to make her beg, to make her taste at least a little of the insanity she put him through ever since they were barely people. How many nights had he spent as a teenager, trying to go back to hating her, because it hurt less than seeing her bloom into a beautiful woman that would never be his despite been promised to him at birth, all because of a mistake made by other people, mistake that drove him to resent her and push her away dangerously close of vacating the place in her heart that he had always been entitled to. 

But he had been wrong. 

He didn’t lose her after all. 

She would explain to him that too, on their wedding day, he was frightened, and she was so serene, she was so wise, his wife, his Hinata-sama. And she explained to him that his place in her heart would always be his, that she would always be his, they were destined to be one and nothing would ever change that. 

So, what was the use of trying to stall the inevitable? 

He plunged into her with a guttural moan, she was so wet that no matter how incredibly tight she was, he slid in with ease. 

Hinata’s mouth opened agape in a perfect ‘o’, and she spread her legs wider as Neji pulled back and entered her again, now deeper. 

“Oh Hinata-sama,” he said like a prayer, head lowering to suck a path of fire down her throat, his hips starting a punishing pace, one hand holding his upper body up while the other grabbed her hand, threading his fingers with hers over her head. His lips sucked under her bouncing breast and then he bit on it, she cried out. 

Her free hand grabbed a handful of chestnut hair, pulling hard and Neji moaned in protest, in pleasure too, before dragging his lips to her waiting mouth, letting her suck his tongue like her pussy sucked his throbbing cock viciously. He could feel she was close and he let go of her hand to reach down and flick her clit rendering Hinata into a sobbing mess as her arms flapped around with the aftershocks of her powerful orgasm. 

Neji stopped moving, but remained inside of her and her body stopped shaking to become limp and putty under his. He kissed her temple and her eyes, easing her to come back to earth, to come back to him. And then he bit softly at the cartilage of her ear. 

“I’m not done with you yet, Hinata-sama.” 

She sniffled and blinked her half-moon eyes open to him. Her lips were swollen with kisses, cheeks blotchy, perspiration covered her face, absolutely gorgeous. 

“What you need?” She asked in a breathy voice. 

“Turn around.” 

She swallowed hard, nodding and obeyed. Neji hissed when their movements made his cock slip out of her. 

“Not all the way,” he said holding her hip in place. “There,” Neji pulled her hair out of the way and kissed her sweaty temple, “perfect,” he put his tip against her folds and started pushing in again, Hinata squeezed her eyes and he stopped. Neji slid one arm under her head, making it serve both the purpose of pillow and also to force the face to be turned to his. “No, look at me.” 

She bit her lower lip but did as told, he pulled her leg up, hooking it backwards around his hip and then, with her eyes locked to his and one of her breasts in his hand, he fucked her, hard. 

“Ah ah ahhh” she made as he hammered inside her shaking the entire bed, her juices coating both of them and the sheets as his hips hit hard against her ass, Hinata could feel a new orgasm building up in tiding waves again, the urge to close her eyes and just let the feeling drown her was big, but he told her to look at him so who was she to deny the man that did nothing but love her, protect her, pleasure her? 

“Nej-j-j-jiii ahhhhhh,” she barely noticed his husky chuckle as she shook again in a fit of orgasmic spasms, but this time he didn’t stop, as endeared as he was always were at her body’s adorable reactions, he was close too, and as Hinata was forced through a second orgasm, he came spilling inside her with a groan against her ear. Neji held her tightly for a few more moments before his body relaxed and he rolled onto his back. 

Hinata took a couple of deep breaths and then turned to cuddle with him. 

“Anata?” 

“Hn,” he made, his chest heaving. 

“Thank you for the date night.” 

He responded only with dry chuckle. Hinata smiled satisfied and kissed his jaw before letting her eyes fall shut and following him into slumber. 

--- 

I don’t remember if I wrote NejiHina smut before. Mostly because I used to not write porn at all lmao. And now Lene (Cyanis for you) has me bugging her to do a NejiHina smut week, I’ve became a depraved old woman, shame on me! 

[jenrecs]

⊹ hello loves! it’s a new month, and a new reading list! below are all my favorite reads from January 2023. some of these do contain mature content, so minors dni.

⊹ check out these awesome fics and give the authors some love by reblogging and/or leaving feedback for them! (.❛ ᴗ ❛.)

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⌜ SEOKJIN ⌟

✦ kept me waiting by @yoongiphoria​

↳ established relationship, idol au, smut

it’s not your fault that seokjin looks so good in a suit at namjoon’s wedding…

✦ la douleur exquise by @junqkook​

↳ ft. yoongi, soulmate au, angst, smut

la douleur exquise; the heart wrenching pain of wanting someone you can’t have.

⌜ YOONGI ⌟

✦ late night studio by @yoongiphoria​

↳ producer au, established relationship, smut

yoongi’s working far too hard in the studio, so you decide to distract him.

✦ la douleur exquise by @junqkook​

↳ ft. seokjin, soulmate au, angst, smut

la douleur exquise; the heart wrenching pain of wanting someone you can’t have.

✦ 23:48 by @indgio​​

↳ established relationship, idol au, fluff

✦ damn the charcuterie board by @bratkook​​

↳ ft. jimin, smut

a simple night of relaxing with your friends takes a turn when you admit to having to watch a threesome video after a failed date.

✦ your universe by @muniimyg​​

↳ friends to lovers, college au, social media au, fluff, crack, smut

in which min yoongi refuses to lose you.

⌜ HOSEOK ⌟

✦ i wish it was easy to hate you by @taleasnewastime​

↳ fluff

stuck with the guy you wish you could hate, hoseok.

✦ invisible string by @ughcore​

↳ ex-friends to ?, fluff, angst

⌜ NAMJOON ⌟

✦ my feet to follow, and my heart to hold by @daechwitatamic​​

↳ strangers to lovers, roommate au, college au, fluff, angst, smut

you know a lot about the many types of love thanks to kim taehyung. you love him as the only person you see as “family”, you love him as your very best friend, and you love him as the beautiful, funny man he’s become. but when a twist of fate during your senior year has you rooming with his good friend kim namjoon, you just might find that you have plenty left to learn about love.

lesson one: there are such things as a right way and a wrong way to love and to be loved.

⌜ JIMIN ⌟

✦ maybe by @cupofteaguk​

↳ fwb au, smut

things you said with too many miles between us.

✦ the one where jimin is not supposed to freak out but he freaks out anyway by @indgio​

↳ established relationship, idol au, fluff, mild angst

jimin does not enjoy getting calls that let him know you’re in hospital, even if they give you chocolate pudding.

✦ flirt buddies by @jimilter​

↳ frenemies (?) to lovers, college au, fluff

a mean girl pestering you is what it takes for you and jimin to move further with the flirting going on between you two for months now. who would’ve thunk?

✦ damn the charcuterie board by @bratkook​​

↳ ft. yoongi, smut

a simple night of relaxing with your friends takes a turn when you admit to having to watch a threesome video after a failed date.

⌜ JUNGKOOK ⌟

✦ cold gun by @borathae​​

↳ established relationship, arranged marriage au, gangster au, smut

“this is the first night where the sex feels real and not like a marital duty.”

✦ the one where jungkook will always protect you, even from the fictional by @indgio​​

↳ established relationship, fluff

horror movies may scare you, but you have a jungkook-shaped anchor to cling to.

✦ fresh by @idekhowtodothis​​

↳ established relationship, smut

the sight of jungkook fresh out of the shower is unlike anything else. you can't help the way you begin to grow warm, your body aching for him. it doesn't take long for him to notice your stare, and when he does, you're a goner.

✦ defense mechanism by @yoongiphoria​

↳ established relationship, fluff

your love language is not words of affirmation, but that’s not going to stop jeongguk.

[typically-untypical]

The Future We Build Together

AU: Human - Arranged Marriage

CW: None that I know of

WC: 1478

Date: 12/3/2023

It was a warm day in the kingdom, a beautiful summer morning. The sun hadn't risen high enough to cast its heat yet it was high enough to cast a warm glow through the castle window. Patton stood still as his father adjusted his tie for the fourth time. The two of them had barely spoken over the past week, an argument over this marriage turning bitter and vicious. Patton had wept, pleading for his father to understand that he didn't want to get married to a complete stranger. He wasn't even against the idea of an arranged marriage. He knew how advantageous it would be, but Patton didn't want to be tied to someone who would inevitably hurt him. Patton didn't want to be tied to someone he had never met. "This will be good for you Pat. He's a noble who has taken an interest in our business, this marriage will solidify our ties." Neither of them laughed at the unintentional pun as his father's hands lingered on Patton's tie. "With this man's backing, we will finally be able to get your mother help." That was the only argument that had kept Patton rooted to where he stood. His mother had been sick for quite some time and though they weren't peasants by any means, her medicine was still expensive and so was the business that kept all of them a float. "Even if you don't love him he should treat you well and I know he will fall in love with you. Who wouldn't?" His dad gently rested a hand on Patton's face and the younger man did his best to smile though even Patton knew it was weak.

"I know papa, but I wish you would have let me meet him first." Patton had been told plenty about Janus, both from those who served him and from those who worked alongside him. There were so many conflicting accounts. Some people said Janus was kind and compassionate, helping them when they were in their darkest hours. Others said he was cruel and ruthless, and the divide wasn't socioeconomic like one might expect.

"I know Pat, I know, but that was the one stipulation he had." Another thing Patton had heard over and over again. He couldn't meet Janus because he had asked for distance until their wedding day. Patton didn't like that. He didn't like the secrecy around someone who was supposed to become his one and only, his future. 

"You are the strongest boy I know, and I love you." His father commented, giving Patton a gentle hug and Patton wanted to hug back, desperately, but his arms continued to sit limply by his side.

It was hard to hear those words from his father, the man who was giving him away to a stranger, but Patton just nodded. "I love you too," Because he did, despite the tears that threatened to slide past his eyes, he did love his family. 

"Are you ready?" His father asked, holding out a hand to him so the two could head toward the ceremony hall.

"Ready as I'll ever be pop star." His dad gave him a weak smile and Patton did his best to return it, even if it grew harder with each second. Patton tried not to shake as he heard his own footsteps echoing down the hall, the organ music coming into play as soon as they were close enough for the groomsmen to see. The soft tune set the scene of a happy couple and a happy marriage. Patton had heard that song before, hoping one day he could walk down the cobblestone path of his city toward the person of his choosing. That wasn't going to happen now. That wasn't Patton's fate.

His betrothed stood at the altar, hands clasped behind his back, turned so Patton could only see half of him. He was barely taller than Patton yet standing on the steps he felt like such a looming figure. His shoulders were squared and Patton thought he saw a sharpness to the other man's nails. If Patton had seen him on the street, he might have been interested but here, he was gripped with fear. Only his father's strong hold, stopped Patton from running away and by the time his first foot was on the stairs, it was too late. Janus was reaching out to him, helping him up the rest of the way. He was in Janus' clutches now.

"Am I that hideous?" He asked, leaning in closely as he whispered into Patton's ear. It was the first good view he had gotten of Janus, scars like chainmail littering his face. He wasn't hideous, but Patton wasn't expecting his fiancé to be handsome. He had convinced himself that Janus would look cruel. Finally looking up into Janus' mismatched eyes, seeing the quirk in his brow, Patton attempted to respond.

"No, uh, it's not. I promise it's not... I just... you look-"

"I know," Janus whispered, brow softening and lips sliding into a gentle smile. He reached up, gently pushing a tear off of Patton's cheek before he slowly started to pull away. He still held Patton's hand, but no longer stood close enough to share the air between them. 

Something suddenly shifted. Suddenly Janus wasn't a terrifying unknown that Patton didn't know how to speak to. Suddenly, he wasn't a monster. Patton looked at him in awe, watching as the light shifted against him and the sun continued to rise higher. 

"Janus Asterio, do you take Patton Heart to be your lawfully wedded husband?" The officiant asked, pulling Patton out of his day dream and back into the present. Janus gently squeezed Patton's hand, looking him in the eyes.

"I do." His voice was soft and clear, like a secret whispered between just the two of them. Patton's romantic heart melted. For a moment he could imagine a life together, whispered secrets in the dead of night, a soft melody of only their voices. It was brief and it was sudden, but Patton felt as if he would be safe in Janus' arms. His fear hadn't disappeared, it whispered in the back of his mind, but the emotions swept him off his feet. This would be okay, he had to believe that this would be okay.

"Do you, Patton Heart, take Janus Asterio to be your lawfully wedded husband?"

Patton took in a deep breath, returning the reassuring squeeze Janus had so graciously given. "I do." He smiled, more genuine than anything else he had smiled this morning. Their marriage was one of money and power, but that didn't mean it couldn't turn into something beautiful. He just had to have hope. He had to give it all a chance.

"Then I pronounce the two of you married. You may kiss one another."

Patton was hesitant, still caught in the fact that Janus was a stranger. Janus moved in first. It was soft and chaste and stole Patton's breath away. Then Janus stole Patton away, taking his hand and leading him down the aisle, out of the ceremony hall and toward a private room. Nerves built up in Patton's heart as the door closed but Janus didn't make a move. He stood there silently before gently leading Patton to a couch and kneeling in front of him. 

"I'm sure you have a lot of questions, on my appearance, on why, and on everything else of that nature."

Of course he did, but Patton needed time to collect some of his thoughts. Janus might not have understood that because he quirked his eyebrow once again.

"Why me? I'm sure you had other prospects and I don't think you really got anything out of our marriage. So why me?" Patton wasn't sure why that was the first question that came out of his mouth when there were so many other questions, but it was still one that was important to him. Why, out of everyone in the city... in the country... had Janus chosen him?

He had no expectations for the answer, tried not to assume anything at all, yet he was still surprised when Janus started to laugh, barely holding in his chortle.

"Of all the questions, that was your most important?"

Suddenly, Patton's face lit up red and he couldn't help but nod. "Well, yeah," He whispered and Janus just squeezed his hands.

"I will explain it in detail one day, but for now, you should get changed for the reception. The only solace I can give you for the time being, is that I did so, with full knowledge of who I was marrying." That wasn't reassuring, but Patton's mind went a bit fuzzy as Janus kissed his hand. "And I will wait as long as I need to, for you to fall in love with me as well."

Tag List: @simplestoryteller @fantasticfangirl21 @joylessnightsky @glacierruler @tsspromptmonth

[jnnul]

jnnul’s [works in progress]

a/n: this work in progress list is also a work in progress - but everything on here is stuff that ended up surviving the writer’s fallout purge (where i inevitably delete all the documents of fics i no longer have the passion to write). there is a new and updated second version of this masterlist for the newer ideas that i’ve been working on.

ready for love - jeno x fem!reader (ft. tbz’s juyeon) (non-idol au)

sum.: a boy who has never taken a relationship seriously. a girl who is seriously over relationships. when they end up finding each other, will they let their ideas of what a relationship should be like ruin their relationship before it even starts?

word count: 19.5k

release date: tues, nov 21, 2023

tags: slice of life, friends to lovers but also...it’s complicated?, everything is just complicated for no reason in this fic they’re just dramatic af, jaemin and y/n are platonic besties

status: released!

of sword and ink - juyeon x fem!southasian!oc (silla era au)

sum.: where an indian princess is sent to the silla dynasty in order to promote trade through the means of political alliance - marriage. however, the princess soon discovers that the king she is to marry is not like what the stories say he is.

est word count: 30-40k

est release date: may 2024 (or never lol)

tags: dynasty meets the crown meets game of thrones minus the incest, just a lot of politics and a lot of poorly concealed government smacktalk, if i go missing after this one it’s bc i made too many innuendos abt capitalism

status: writing (700 words lmao)

five questions - mark x gn!reader (non-idol au)

sum.: did you know it only takes five questions to find your soulmate?

est word count: 4-5k

release date: wed, june 27, 2023

tags: finance bro mark and y/n, slice of life, mostly fluff, kinda your typical suburban modern day couple, idk they’re just good ppl who experience a slow and sweet romance, oh! and mark sucks at beer pong

status: released!

great teacher y/n - jaehyun x reader (teacher/school au)

sum.: teaching high school kids about physics and mathematics was not your career plan. but turns out the government is serious about collecting their loans and there simply isn’t any way to do that without a job. so when nasa doesn’t work out, you turn to teaching physics at a prestigious academy - copernicus academy. as you navigate between being a good teacher, new friends, and possibly even romance, you realize that sometimes, the unexpected plans are the best ones.

est word count: 11k

est release date: august 2024

tags: still fleshing this one out bois

status: on hiatus

peaches - yang jungwon x reader (neighbor au)

sum.: when you pie your [really-hot] neighbor in the face on accident, you never imagine that you’re gonna have to be wheeling him to the hospital because who the fuck is allergic to peaches? yang jungwon, apparently. but you come to learn that yang jungwon is so much more than his unfortunate allergy to peaches and his pretty face and you’re stuck wondering if falling in love with someone you can’t have is worth it.

word count: 2.9k

release date: june 4, 2024

tags: this one’s sad bois, bullet fic, like ngl, when i was planning this one, i teared up a little bit, sorry in advance tw: major character death, terminal illness, just...not meant for the weak-hearted

status: released!

[im-just-a-br0adway-baby]

Encantober 2023 Day 28: Moon

Nighttime was Julieta and Pepa’s favorite time of the day to have dates with their husbands, mainly because they had the chance to experience the moonlight together. They have not had a date night together in several years because they were so focused on raising their children. Once their children got a little bit older and were able to take care of themselves better, they decided to plan a double date night together with just the four of them, without having to think about the kids.

When the night came, they decided to have dinner together and go to the park just to soak in the moonlight. Since there was no one there after ten o’clock at night, they sat on the bench together just to stare in awe at the moon that was shining on them like their wedding rings that they still wore every day, even after twenty-five years of marriage.

“I’m still in awe about how that bright moon reminds me of your bright personality,” Felix pointed out.

Pepa snuggled up to her husband’s shoulder. “I could say the same thing about you, mi vida, but the moon could never compare to you.”

Felix and Pepa snuggled into each other’s shoulders as Julieta and Agustin held each other’s hands. “Do you feel the same way?” Agustin asked.

“Of course I do, mi vida; everything about the moon makes me think of you,” Julieta replied.

The two couples continued admiring the moon together until they each looked at each other's eyes and kissed each other. Even though they have been married for over twenty-five years, every kiss they ever shared felt like their first all over again. They never wanted to let go of each other’s lips, like they did when they were first married, and when they first started dating. Nothing like it ever compared.

Julieta and Pepa looked at each other, and then to their husbands. “Hey, Felix?” Pepa asked after a beat of silence.

“Si, Pepa?” Felix responded.

“Do you remember the last time we all did this together, not that long after we found out we were pregnant with Isabela and Dolores, and we thought it was going to be the last time we would ever do this?”

“I remember that. We thought that after the girls were born, we would not have any time to have another date night because the kids would take up most of our time.”

“I remember that too. I remember specifically when both of you hit your second trimester both of you were starting to feel the symptoms kick in and we agreed that a date night would have to wait until the girls were at least old enough to look after themselves and any of their younger siblings,” Agustin explained.

“Do you remember when we first did this not that long after you turned twenty and you were so nervous about it,” Julieta pointed out.

“I was, and I had to go to Felix’s house just to get myself hyped up.”

“It’s a good thing you did, because the date ended up being amazing for the both of us,” Felix pointed out.

“And us too,” Pepa added.

Both couples laughed about the first time they had their moonlight double date together and they laid on each other’s shoulders again. They never thought they would get to have this opportunity ever again. Now that their eldest children were older and able to look after themselves and the younger children, they felt like it was the best decision they ever made for each other. While everyday was magic being together, getting this alone time without the children hit much differently for all four of them.

“Do you think we could do this again sometime? I miss when we did this more often,” Julieta said.

“I would love to do it again, but wouldn’t Isabela, Dolores, and Luisa wonder why they’re babysitting so often?” Agustin asked.

“I don’t think they would. Besides, the three of them are at the age where they understand love a little bit better and why we’d be out together so often,” Pepa answered.

“Maybe we could plan on doing this once a month so they don’t have to stress out so much about babysitting super often,” Felix pointed out.

“That sounds like a better idea. We can get our date nights like we used to, and still have our time with the kids,” said Julieta.

“It’s starting to get late, do you think we should get going?” Agustin asked.

“I think we should, but we should admire the moon one more time before we go,” Felix responded.

Both couples looked at the moon one more time for another several minutes before getting up from the bench and beginning to walk through the park to get back home. The date brought back so many memories for the both of them of when they had their frequent late night dates. Looking at the moon was a memory in itself from when they were younger and filled with more energy. Now that they planned to do the date nights again, it was time to make more memories with each other and the moonlight.

[ramblinganthropologist]

Writober 2023 10 - Fortune

Summary: Alistair Shepard had to adjust to some weird shit in the hospital after surviving the Citadel. What he didn't expect was his sister and her book of wedding planning. Since when was she a fortune teller?

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You know… he was really starting to get tired of being in a hospital bed.

At least he was being left alone for the moment. Ever since Alistair had come out of his coma, the doctors had been in nearly constantly. Apparently, surviving the Citadel coming down around you amidst the final push against the Reapers interested people.

He couldn’t exactly get out of being in the epicenter, but… they could be a little gentler with the needles.

At least he was free for the moment. His thumb kept rubbing up against the ring Garrus had given him as part of their engagement. The fact it was made of the Normandy was a comfort to him, especially since he wasn’t going back to it ever again.

After all… he was retired now. Papers were in and everything.

“I guess we should start thinking about if we want a wedding or not…” He trailed off. Alistair had done his share of alien studies as part of the Alliance, but those rarely covered marriages among the species for obvious reasons. He was kind of in the dark about what turians did to celebrate their vows, if they had any at all. For all he knew, they just signed some papers and got back to duty.

He wouldn’t mind that – justice of the peace was ok by him.

“Not very romantic,  Al.”

A voice hummed in his ear, though the speaker was nowhere to be seen. Alistair scowled, still not used to the fact he was technically subletting his body to somebody else. Well, not somebody – Love was a spirit. So they had never been a person or anything…

Look, it was confusing, ok? He shared head space with a concept that liked The Bachelor.

“We are technically cleaning up after a galaxy wide war, Love.” He sighed. “Plus I don’t know how turians handle marriages, especially if one of the parties isn’t turian. I guess I could ask Anora…”

He trailed off. While he was sure his sister and her family had survived, this was the kind of thing that as awkward to ask. After all, he didn’t really do a lot of bonding with Anora for obvious reasons.

She might not appreciate the call…

“They have a ceremony, don’t worry.”

A new voice drew Alistair’s attention to the door. Bo was there for her daily visit, a book under her arm. She entered the room and took the only chair, the one that had practically be carved out for her she had sat in it so much.

He envied her to look so at ease – he wanted out of the hospital ASAP.

“Do I want to know why you know that?” He shook his head. “Never mind, what’s with the book?”

Bo cracked it open and spread it out on her knees. “It’s the plans for your wedding. I’ve been keeping it since you met Mandibles.”

Alistair’s jaw all but dropped at that. “You what?”

That was nearly 3 years. How had she even thought to start it when he had literally slammed into the turian on the Citadel back in 2183? He knew she could be committed to a bit… but this was just ridiculous.

Maybe it was hypocritical for the guy who literally came back from the dead with a spirit inside him to be a skeptic, but so be it. He had to draw the line somewhere for his own sanity, or everything went out the window.

Bo flipped the pages as she spoke. “I just got a feeling about it is all, so I started writing stuff down. It’s weird, I wrote about the calendar before it even was a thing.”

He shook his head – oww. “So now you’re a fortune teller for my love life?”

“Just a wedding planner.” She flipped another page. “Oh, good news, looks like I planned for the aisle to be accessible in case you’re still in a wheelchair. Nice going, me.”

Ok, now he was calling bullshit. Alistair did his best to lean over so he could try to make out the details of the book. Much to his surprise, it was dated. The one page he was looking at came from 2184, when he was dead.

Al’s alive. Better get back to planning.

Note to self: clearly mark levo and dextro food. Mandibles’ sister has the bad version of the allergy, don’t need to put her in the hospital.

How… would she know about an allergy that Garrus’ sister had. Hell, he had barely spoken to the woman maybe twice since he had started dating the turian. She certainly hadn’t brought up what happened if she ate the wrong food…

Was it just a good guess? Playing the odds, maybe?

“Right, so, thanks to the bet and my winnings in the ring, I have enough saved. You’re not allowed to say no, it’s my present to you.” Bo was still flipping through her notes like this was the most normal thing in the world. “Oh, nice. When I thought about suits, I didn’t mention a binder. Guess that makes things easier.”

…

Nope, he was not going to think too hard about this. His head hurt enough with his amp having to be removed and replaced after what had happened at the Citadel. Pondering too long on her thoughts was dangerous and exhausting.

Would he accept it? Well… he’d probably just ignore it and think she was perceptive.

“Looks like you thought of everything.” He felt a little guilty there – he probably should’ve been the one to plan his own wedding instead of farming it off on his sister. Besides, what if Garrus just wanted a legal ceremony? Would he be comfortable doing things human style?

Man, they probably should’ve both been there for it.

Sensing his anxiety no doubt, Bo closed the book. “Don’t worry, I already ran it past Mandibles. He was a little confused by the human stuff, but you Catholics are confusing regardless. I didn’t put a mass down or anything, you said you haven’t gone to one since you were like 12.”

Yes, and he hadn’t had confession since his confirmation, so taking the Eucharist was a bit beyond him. Besides, did the make a turian version, or was it considered blasphemous? And was it weird for someone resurrected to take the risen lord?

…

This was why he didn’t go to church anymore. It made his head hurt.

“No mass is fine by me, I don’t know any priests who could do it anyway.” He shook his head again. “How did Garrus react to all this?”

Bo shrugged. “He probably thought I was out of my mind, but it’s hard to argue with the data so he’s going along with it.”

Well, at least that made things easier. Alistair was glad he wasn’t forcing his now fiancé into anything he didn’t want to do.

“By the way, here.” Bo drew a tube of green pixie sticks from her pocket and dropped it into his lap. “I get the feeling you’re about to bottom out.”

True to her word, his omni-tool began to beep its familiar sound of low blood sugar. Alistair resisted the urge to shudder as he tore into the pack with his teeth and swallowed it down. After all, he was in the hospital – maybe it was only natural his sugar would drop.

He… was going to go with that.

“Anyway, once that sinks in, I have some notes on food-“

Since there was no way to avoid it, Alistair just nodded and settled in. After all, if she had taken the time to write all this down, it would be rude to ignore her. Some of her ideas were pretty good too, better than anything he would have thought up.

Hooray for wedding planning sisters with strange senses of premonition, he guessed. And he was going to leave it at that, or his battered brain was going to overheat.

…

How had she known he would’ve had top surgery by then, though? Nope… he wasn’t going to dwell on it. Focus on the wedding planning and not the growing sense of unease with the unknown he was welcoming into his life.

Love was giving him practice for that, so maybe he would need to thank the spirit later… much later… after he googled if there was host for turians. Curiosity killed the cat and all that.

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Am I wrong? Or is it my Aunt?

First of all, I'm gonna give A LOT of context.

My mom brutally abused me from when I was a baby, all the way until the day she passed away back in 2020. Part of this abuse was by destroying the dreams I had of one day getting married and having a beautiful wedding by telling me that it would be about her and what she'd want... Not me and what I'd want. She also drained my grandparents' retirement fund as well as the small "future fund" they set up for me.

When my aunt's step-son got engaged in 2014, my mom made me pay $100 for his fiancé's wedding dress. Less than a month later, she was knocked up and that money was wasted. That November, at a "shotgun" style wedding in my aunt's living room, less than 5 minutes after saying "I do.", he walked up to me and said "We'd pass you the bouquet since you're technically next to get married, but you're too much of a bitch to get married!". His kid was born the day after Christmas, and the marriage was over less than 3 years later. His ex-wife is now with a woman.

Despite the abuse, I actually love my mom... When she got sick, I did my best to take care of her with the help of my grandmother. When she passed away, I was completely catatonic. To the point that I actively overworked myself, almost to death. It also didn't help that my mom passed away the day before the Pandemic was declared. Despite my best efforts to talk to my aunt and grandmother about my mom and what she did to the family, I was never able to actually grieve.... Because my aunt and her step-son were more focused on his 5 year old daughter who was experiencing her first loss. It literally felt like my mom wasn't my mom, and that she was my little cousin's aunt. My aunt's step-son did not bother ever taking his daughter off of my aunt's hands... He didn't do it the day mom passed, and he lectured me and called me names for being upset all the time within the first year. He didn't start being sympathetic towards me until Christmas 2021, when he brought his latest girlfriend over to meet the family for the first time. Even then, I still couldn't talk about my mom and what she did because his daughter would always run into the room and scream at me for saying "bad things" about "her aunt".

Yes, I am well aware that I need extensive therapy...

So, here's where I get to the main part of the story. On May 5th, 2015, at Avengers: Age of Ultron, I met the love of my life. He was one of my best friend's college friends. We became friends and started dating on April 4th, 2016. This man is an absolute saint. He saw me through the worst times in my life and never judged me. He's never pressured me to do anything I didn't want to do. He's patient with me. We play videogames, watch anime, enjoy comics, talk about the most stupid stuff, love Disney, and have very similar styles. This man is my friend first, and my lover second. We even celebrated our first anniversary by going to the theater to watch the live action remake of Beauty and the Beast. I got us rings that say "His Beauty" and "Her Beast" for that event. On May 5th, 2023, we got engaged after we saw Guardians of the Galaxy Volume 3. The proposal was not a surprise. In fact, I helped him pick out my bridal set, and by that point, we had been planning the wedding for about a year. A few months ago, I told my aunt that, since my mom's passing was made to be about my little cousin, I was afraid my wedding would be made to be about her too. She promised me that she wouldn't do it. For weeks, while I tried talking to my aunt about the wedding related stuff that my mom did to me, and how I'm excited that I get to have my way now, my aunt kept saying "Its your wedding, you have what you want!".

Literally the day after I got engaged, my fiancé and I went over to my aunt's house to announce the engagement. Everyone was delighted, but not surprised. We also announced that we don't want to get married until our 10 year anniversary in 2026, that we want a long engagement so that its less stressful, and that my aunt's step-son is not invited to the event. My aunt then started telling my little cousin "M is gonna make you look so beautiful for her wedding!". After a few minutes of her asking me what I'd like kiddo to wear (we're allowing kids over the age of 5 to the event), I said that I want her to wear something nice, maybe a little bit nerdy. I also asked where the money for kiddo's outfit was going to come from and my aunt said "From your wedding savings!".

I was BAFFLED by this idea. We're not having a Flower Girl. Our Wedding Party consists of my best friend, his best friend, my best friend's boyfriend (our Flower Guy, also a longtime friend of mine), and maybe my fiancé's mom. There will be no children part of the wedding party. My Flower Guy is gonna wear Thug Life glasses, throw rose petals from a Spider-Man fanny pack, and dance down the aisle to "Come and Get Your Love" by Redbone. It will be a VERY nerdy event!

So, we tried to steer the conversation to the idea of having an engagement party. At the time, we were on the fence about it. My aunt kept insisting that my fiancé and I pay to have it at a restaurant. We did not like the idea...Then I tried to talk to my family about helping us pay for the wedding. I told them that I don't expect much, I know what my mom did to my grandmother's finances. I'd just like ANY help. We're actively taking steps to keep expenses low. No booze. Less than 60 people total. Tiny wedding party. No Bachelor/Bachelorette parties. We'd like tacos instead of anything fancy at the reception. I'm even going for a black dress instead of a white one! As of right now, I'm the one who has bought the stuff that we do have for it.2 weeks later, on 05/20/23, at our next visit with my aunt and grandmother, we decided to address the issues. We told my aunt that we don't want an engagement party since my fiancé's grandfather (the one he loves very much and is super important to him) has 2 forms of aggressive cancer and is currently immuno-compromised. So, we don't want to have an engagement party so that we can protect him. My aunt gave us A LOT of attitude for this.

Then we tried to tell them that we don't intend to pay for kiddo's outfit, since she's not part of the wedding party... But, my grandmother then piped up with "Let's dress her up like Belle!". I shot that down, but my aunt said something along the lines of "Not THAT princess."... That's not the first princess idea that I've had to shoot down. My grandmother also suggested something Sailor Moon related for kiddo since I love the anime... And I've had to explain that I'd like to be the only one wearing something from that anime at the event (I already have Neo Queen Serenity's tiara for it).So, to keep my fiancé and me calm, I tried to steer the conversation to my weight loss. I've always been small, but between the fat-shaming that my grandfather did to me as a toddler, the fact that my mom weighed 600lbs when she passed away, and the fact that my grandmother occasionally pokes at my legs and calls me "pudgy", I'd like to lose a little weight for the wedding... Its a miracle that I don't have an eating disorder... But, I'm doing a diet of "no soda or fast food on weekdays", and a small workout regimen of "10 crunches and 2 walking laps around the apartment building a day, to start". My grandmother looked at me and said "I won't notice you've lost any weight until you lose 50lbs!". I almost said "50lbs! From where?!"...Needless to say, we ended up leaving that visit extremely angry. But, we needed to vent our frustration before anything got said. So, I waited until Sunday night to say anything to my aunt. I sent my aunt 2 long text messages. I explained that kiddo is not dressing up like ANY princess for my wedding. That she's not a princess that day. That I'd like her to wear a light, flowy, cute little dress with maybe some pink roses on it, cute flat shoes, simple jewelry, and not have any "bling" in her hair. Basically, since we want a garden wedding, we'd like kiddo to wear something that would be appropriate for it. I went on to explain that my fiancé and I are not obligated to pay for her outfit, as she's not part of the wedding party, and that the only constraint on where the clothes come from is "No Temu". (We've heard awful things about that app.) Then I said that, since those are the definitive parameters on kiddo's outfit, I don't wanna hear about it again. It's not her wedding, its my fiancé's and mine. It's not "kiddo's first wedding". Not an excuse to dress her up like a princess. There is nothing in my wedding planning research that dictates that the bride and groom must cater to the whims of anyone, let alone a child who is just a guest. That it would be a different matter entirely if she was my flower girl, but she's not. I went on to state that I don't want kiddo present for the "Wedding Dress Shopping Trip" and that, for my wedding, kiddo isn't special. I also said that, from here on out, when discussing outfits, I'd like to keep the focus on the rest of us.

Well.... My aunt then sent 2 messages to respond. "I can't answer I'm so [angry emoji] right now so don't push so much" and "I can not come you don't have the right to treat everyone else like shit".

I INSTANTLY started crying. This isn't the first time that my aunt has pulled something like this. In fact, I was expecting her to do something like this, I just hoped that she wouldn't. My fiancé and my best friend both told me "Don't grovel. Call her bluff.". So, I sent a text back saying "Fine. Don't come." and then I texted my grandmother and explained that, until further notice, on the days that my fiancé and I would normally visit her, we're just gonna call her. That we're tired of the gaslighting, not being able to breathe (my family smokes very heavily), not being able to get anything done about any of the matters that need to be taken care of,  and that we need a break.

Since then, my fiancé told his family about the situation and they're all livid with mine. I've told 2 of my cousins and they're upset with my aunt and willing to stand between her and me if she continues to pull stuff like this. However, 3 days later, after not speaking to my aunt since I said "Fine. Don't come.", my aunt texted me with notifications stating that she's sent me $40 for the wedding... Which has left me feeling paranoid that she's going to use that money against me later. Even worse, I'm wondering if my aunt is going to say "That's just how this family is!" when we see her again at the end of July (we wanna wait until after both my fiance's and my birthdays to visit again)....Everyone I've talked to says that, since I'm the bride, I should be allowed to have what I want. That I'm in the right for putting my foot down and that I did it in a civil manor. However, part of me thinks that my little cousin might have gotten ahold of the phone, read the texts, and threw a fit... I'm also wondering if I overreacted, or if I'm overthinking things.... 

Am I the asshole here? Or am I in the right?