#Because top surgery tattoos are SICK

[drawbudd]

me: eh I've never really actively wanted a tattoo

Also me, looking at tattoos that people got on their top surgery scars:

[king-spite]

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[zincbot]

idk why but my top surgery experience was supremely chill compared to literally everything i've read

[meowmeowriley]

bun!ghost queries:

so I was wondering if ghost's bun ears are notched n scarred or if they're Perfectly velveteen and then that made me wonder if scars/damage transfers between forms and that led me to--

if ghost has had top surgery and if so would he still have the massive dewlap im pretty sure I saw previously mentioned at some point? I love ghost's tips regardless ofc but im curious

Yesssssss this is great! I honestly hadn't thought about the implications of his scars transferring, but there's no reason why they shouldn't... and now my mind is working...

So while Ghost is a heavily scarred man, his rabbit form looks relatively unscathed. It's deceiving, however.

He's got scars, but his fur is so thick you'd only see them if you went looking. His ears are the one place you can see them. White scars mar the pink skin and disrupt the thin covering of gray fur on the outer ear. There's notches and nicks, but they're not the most heinous things in the world. His ears are still lovely and velvety soft.

There's one thing he hates about his ears, however. A faded bluish-gray tattoo on the inside of his right ear. An identification number. A sick joke on the part of Roba. He's covered in tattoos, you'd think he'd be fine just getting it covered up. But... the thought alone of someone holding his ear in their hands makes him squirrely. (Or rabbity) He can't do it. It's faded enough, wasn't done properly to begin with, nobody really picks up on it. But he knows its there.

Thank you, for more angst ideas for this bunny boy 😈

After finding out that Ghost is a rabbit, Soap will notice how lean the man is, and how unhealthy his rabbit form looks. Barely any dewlap, little to no body fat. He makes it his mission to fix the other man's diet and fatten him up to a much healthier weight. There will be visible differences in all his forms, because of Soap's efforts. 😁

As far as top surgery, this version of Ghost didn't have top surgery. He was pretty flat chested before, he's really lean, he never felt like he needed it. Not like he needed his bottom surgery. So he worked out a ton, and no one is the wiser. Though once Soap forces a proper diet on him, he does find his tits a bit more prominent than he's used to. (Plus it's worth noting, that while I and Soap will refer to his dewlap as his tits, it's really just a fatty pouch on his neck, and has nothing to do with his teats, which he does have and are totally untouched.)

His bottom surgery doesn't change anything about his rabbit form, other than a patch on his inner thigh that took forever to grow fur again. He still looks like a completely normal female rabbit. With his unhealthy lifestyle leading to a lack of dewlap, it's not quite that obvious. In fact, it lends itself to him being male. Female rabbits tend to be larger and thicker, and the dewlap is a dead giveaway, while males tend to be stockier and more muscular. Do I smell body dismorphia in his future? Possibly...

This was a wonderful ask, and had added to the overall length of the fic lol, whoopsie!

[capegloam]

I used to be a close transmasc friend of yours but you have genuinely made me (and others) sick with your fake top surgery tattoos. It's disrespectful, it makes fun of and trivialises a symbol of progress/pride that relates nothing to you. Binding is damaging and painful, you have no idea the pain actually transmasc people go through daily, hourly, by the minute or second to bind. You have no idea the pain of personally growing up transmasc. It's layered and it's complicated and it is Not yours. It will never be yours. You are appropriating our pain. Its disgusting. You are going to lose many friends and make many enemies for this. Hope you have fun faking being transmasc, I see half of Twitter already believes you. I don't want drama with you, or want you to publicly share this or talk to me. I'm just sharing this with you because it has made me sick to my stomach ever since I saw it. And this is an action you need to seriously rethink. You need to publicly come clean on those posts that you are not transmasc. I can tell you've worded it so it's hard for people to tell. You are lucky I haven't publicly made a statement.

woke up today to all of these anons. unsure if they are all the same person but I'm going to treat them as such.

the fact of the matter is, my gender identity is more complicated than "i want to be transmasc". twitter is a horrible place to explain myself because of the character limit, and because i don't like justifying myself to people i don't know. Seeing as i've now been kicked/banned from a specific discord server i used to be in, i know exactly who this is, and i finally feel comfortable explaining myself fully. i know you, i care for you, and we're here on tumblr where i can actually sit down and write a proper essay. Thank you.

i'll break down my responses specifically to what you said, because I want this to be a good conversation.

(under the cut because its long, lol)

"it's disrespectful, it makes fun of and trivializes a symbol of progress/pride that relates nothing to you" — I derive no comedy from the tattoo. I didn't decide I wanted it lightly. saying that it "makes fun of" that symbol is categorically a misinterpretation of my earnest & sincere intent. I wear my heart on my sleeve, always.

saying that my experience "relates nothing" to the transmasc experience is a true statement. I started with a body I should've been comfortable in. The truth is—I was not—I am not comfortable with my body. I don't want a binary body. But my transition experience? was not anything like the transmasc one. I grew out my hair. I bought skirts and dresses. I began collecting earrings, all of them gifts from friends who love me. But when I approached HRT, I realized I wasn't happy with being a woman. I didn't want to get closer to a newer, different binary body. I wanted to be both, trans man and trans woman, simultaneously. I am bigender and nonbinary. to boil me down to "just wants to be transmasc" completely ignores the other half of me that wants breasts, that wants a feminine chest. my next step with my transition is, honestly, purchasing a breast form.

the issue now becomes, why get the tattoo if thats how i feel? if I still want a chest in some form or another?

because, I don't want my bare chest to be a source of dysphoria for that part of me. Remember, at the same time that I want breasts, i also don't want them. at the same time that I want long hair, i want short hair. at the same time I want masculine clothes, i want skirts. I am all of these things and MY PAIN is not being able to be everything combined all at once. It is, frankly, an impossible transition goal.

The scars take my natural chest and they turn it into something new that acknowledges my hypocrisy, that its not just the body of a man, that there is room for more, here. Just because it looks flat doesn't mean thats all it could be, or thats all it was. I want that symbol of transformation because I wish I got to transform. What is more "trans" than wanting to transform?

I will never be transmasc. That just doesn't properly describe my experiences, and it doesn't even fit my feelings about myself. But, at the end of the day, top scars don't belong just to transmasc people, they belong to nonbinary people too. AFAB people who don't seek being gendered one way or the other get top surgery, too. That's the group I feel closest aligned with, (except I want to be gendered both ways, simultaneously, rather than not being gendered at all).

ANYWAYS. thats the deep and thorough explanation of my gender i've been holding back from sharing on twitter. I don't even want to begin to imagine how many tweets long that thread would be LMAO.

back to breaking down your responses, sorry for the tangent. I felt that it was pertinent to illustrate how this tattoo is still a symbol of progress and pride to me, and how I relate to it through my experiences, so you can understand me. I still care about you. you will always be a friend in my mind, so you deserve it.

"Binding is damaging and painful, you have no idea the pain transmasc people go through" — I am well aware of the side effects of binding. They are the reason I didn't pursue HRT to obtain a chest, with binding as a solution for me still wanting a flat chest simultaneously.

That being said, I am living with the consequences of binding. My partner cannot breathe normally, and I constantly feel concern for his wellbeing whenever we need to do something physical (move furniture, walk uphill, etc.) BECAUSE of his history of binding. I know the damage it does.

"You have no idea the pain of growing up transmasc. It is not yours, it will never be yours" — this is true, though I could similarly say that you have no idea the pain of my strange feelings either. Just because we don't experience each other's exact pain doesn't stop us from feeling empathy for each other, for wanting better for each other.

The difference between us is—when I see someone in pain, i want them to do whatever they need to do to relieve that pain. when YOU see someone in pain—with MY pain, my strange pain that you don't understand (that you THINK you understand, but you don't)—your instinct is to use YOUR pain as a justification for hurting others. The fact that you're hurting is an awful one, and I am sorry I can't help you relieve it. But when you see another person happy because they've found a way to relieve some of THEIR OWN pain, it makes you angry. It doesn't make you happy that I found a way to transform my painful, dysphoric relationship with my body into a euphoric one.

as a community, we should rejoice and be happy when other trans people successfully make steps towards defeating their personal struggles with their body. We should be empathetic to each other's experiences. I understand your anger, but its not justified.

"You are going to lose many friends and make many enemies for this" — so far the only friend I've lost is you. all of my irl friends have been supportive, my partners are supportive, my online friends are supportive. Do all of them understand my complicated gender identity? No. I think maybe a lot of them think its a little stupid, honestly. But they're still happy for me. I'm very lucky to have friends who love me. I love them a lot, too, and they know it.

The enemies I've made from this don't know me, and I don't know them. They're not worth my time. You're different—YOU, anon, are worth my time. I know you. I care for you. Long after you have buried me in the ground for being a horrible person (in your eyes), i will still be thinking positively of you. I will still be rooting for you. That will never change.

"I don't want... you to publicly share this" — I'm sorry but you can't control what I do. If you wanted this to be private we should've had a private conversation about it. I was waiting for you to DM me and you never did. I wanted to have this conversation, and this is the place we have to do it, now that you've sent me these anons.

"I can tell you've worded it so its [hard to tell that you're not transmasc]" — This is true. I don't feel like spending 2 hours typing heartfelt responses to people I don't know on x dot com. (Thats how long its been, btw. I've been writing this for 2 hours now. Hopefully that stands for something—to help you understand how much I believe you deserve this explanation. I believe you deserve a lot more than what i've given you.)

I did not obscure my AGAB on purpose. I just think it doesn't matter and is not important enough to disclose. I'm nonbinary and I want a nonbinary body. That should be the end of the story, as far as the greater trans community should be concerned.

"You need to publicly come clean that you aren't transmasc"

quite frankly, its a little uncomfortable for you to assert that I should have to "come clean" about my AGAB. An interest in the genitals of trans people is something transphobes are particularly keen on. I think you should consider the parallels between your arguments and theirs. You still have some internalized transphobia to unpack.

I was there once too. I've already forgiven you.

Anon 2

I feel like I've already addressed your arguments here. I don't care what people who don't know me have to say about me. They don't know me.

You should consider your status as a popular furry artist, anon. Its not unreasonable to assume that people agreed with you purely because of your following. I've received supportive messages from several people I met in your discord server about my tattoo, so I can assure you that not everyone in your circle feels the same way you do.

Anon 3

I'm not lying about being transgender. Nonbinary is a transgender identity. Your interest in my AGAB, asserting that I need to come clean about it, is a transphobic assertion. Attacking a nonbinary person because you feel that they aren't being trans the right way is textbook nonbinaryphobia.

Anon 4 — "My binder made me sick today, i couldn't eat i felt faint and ill" — i'm genuinely sorry to hear that. No one deserves to have to endure that kind of pain for so long. You deserve better. You deserve to look at your body and feel happy. Everyone does.

"I felt sick remembering what you did. That you don't take transmasc pain seriously, or respect us" — I do take your pain seriously, and I respect you as a person. This long thoughtful post is evidence of that.

I understand the disgust you feel at the thought that someone would want to feel the pain you feel. But thats never what I wanted. Thats what you believe I wanted.

The truth is I have my own pain too. my own, personal, complex pain, which i've attempted to explain above. I shouldn't have to be burdened with explaining it to everyone who asks. I don't owe them my soul. I owe my soul to my friends and my partners, and I give it freely when asked by them. You asked. on tumblr dot com, my friend.

If thats not respect, then I don't know what is. Respect is a willingness to meet another person where they're at. I know that when you're hurting its hard to see the hurt you're inflicting onto others. Please trust me when I say I've been there, too. I've hurt. I've hurt others because my pain said that it was justified. I'm healing from it, from the guilt and the shame. I'm finally stopping the cycle of pain and self-hatred within myself. I hope you can get here with me someday, too.

I meant it when I said you'll always be a friend to me. I hope you take my words to heart.

have a nice day, thanks for reading 💛

[crimeronan]

Would love so so much for you to elaborate on the happiest looks for the oc quartet and what took you by surprise about them and what you think each of them conveys/implies. Sol I'm seeing longer hair and more comfortable less exposing clothing, etc, but can you talk a little about what each of their happiest option looks means and how it took you by surprise and how it contrasts with the reality and why it would be them at their best? thank you!! if you do

oh this is so sweet 🥺 thank u for permission to infodump about my guys.....

reference images here!

i often joke that devin and i have the same gender feelings in opposite directions, which basically boil down to, "i know i'd be a lot happier with my body on prescription hormones, but i am Way too sick right now to give a fuck."

so like. a happier devin is one who's been on E for years and grown her hair out for just as long. i was taken by surprise by Just How Femme she was (...similar to me having some weird masc revelations doing the same exercise for my idealized self).

also was mildly surprised that her clothing remained exactly the same as in the main verse. i played around with all the other clothing options, but a black tank top + ratty pants + bare feet are all Quintessential Devin Items.

the very visible scarring is bc she's never cared if people see that her body is fucked up & i want that to be true in the happy timeline too.

ruby's surprised me in that i didn't have to change much at all to get her Idealized External Self. she's already pretty true to what brings her joy. in professional environments, her clothes are much more muted, but everything she's wearing could come out of her non-work wardrobe.

her hair is worn fluffy instead of in box braids because she would Love to dye her natural hair like this. however she does Not love the need to carve out time and motivation to maintain it every damn day for the rest of fucking eternity, so. box braids it is!

also important is that ruby isn't wearing anything practical. those sandals aren't safe for difficult hikes/on-your-feet labor. that skirt is a massive mound of fabric. that jewelry gets in the way, that shirt has no armoring or support, she hasn't prioritized pockets or a practical bag or hidden defense weapons or anything. this ruby is free of basically all of the responsibility and weight dragging her main timeline self down

sol's long hair surprised me -- she had long hair when she was much younger & she has not wanted to grow it out again for trauma reasons. but she likes it better long. so a long-haired sol is one who's overcome at least some of her trauma. her hair has been silver since birth but the white streaks signify that she's aging gracefully & older than she ever expected to become

as for her clothes, it's comfy athletic wear that she's wearing for the sake of mobility and comfort. (with the red-and-black shoes to sneak in a little of her murder aesthetic.) in the main timeline, she'd SAY that she dresses for herself, but the amount of sharp & tailored & restrictive clothing she wears is.... Definitely for other people. or at least, it's for preserving her own image toward other people.

and then transmasc butch nova. LMAO. GOD.

main timeline nova puts an insane amount of effort into "i'm a pretty barbie girl <333" and has sunk So Much of her self-worth into being blonde and blue-eyed and glowing and gorgeous. she also has watercolor sleeve tattoos, but when i did her full-body picrew tats, black ink felt..... more correct. like. what would your tats look like if you weren't a Rainbow Goddess of Light

and then the rest of it is also very. what would you be if you weren't a Rainbow Goddess of Light. if you take away all the Rainbow Goddess of Light features, nova is.... desperately unhappy. and desperately compensating for something. and i think having top surgery and working as a butch car mechanic somewhere would fix her.

as for the pink shoes and hot topic jewelry, that's just bc i think nova would find it fun to do gnc nonsense. nova-without-divinity isn't A Man or fully married to doing Man Things... i feel like it would be wrong for her to just go as gung-ho for performative masculinity as her main timeline self does for performative femininity. nova-without-divinity is wearing whatever she wants and looking however she wants and being hilarious and delightful while she does it <3 god bless.

[ananinidraws]

Fuck it, Super Mario pride HCs

Mario is that one cis guy who at first is a straight ally and thinks he's hetero but then realizes "oh actually guys are kinda cool too". Bisexual with a preference for women, but open to all

Weegee is soooo queer. Always has been, and has an incredibly suportive brother too. Doesn't have a prefered gender romantically, def not cis and on the aroace spectrum, so polysexual, genderqueer and demiaroace. And yes, those were picked specifically cuz all the flags have green in them

Bowser is very confident about his transmasc-ness and displays it proudly. For those of you who said in tags of my previous posts that the scars are painted on, correct, except they're more akin to tattoos, cuz he thought top surgery scars looked sick as hell. He's still questioning orientation wise though. Like Mario, he's always thought he was straight, but unlike him, he's finding it more dificult to nail down what exactly he is

Trans aroace Peach! Trans i will elaborate further on a diferent post (i have some theories that tie into that, but i'll post about that soon), but i see Peach as that one aroace friend who looooves being affectionate with her closest friends. Hearts and love motif characters being aroace and the love being their platonic love my beloveds

Bisexual QUEEN, with no strong preferences. Also Daisy got top surgery cuz she could and cuz she wanted to

Your honour, she loves women. And is also ace, cuz Rosa just gives off ace-spec vibes, to me at least

Pansexual, slight preference for women. After she and Mario broke up they'd go "my goodness i love girls" "me too"

I. I really don't think i need to explain this one. The Bean Kingdom's fruitiest man

Shoutout to @nartblartmallcop not only cuz they inspired me to do the pride hcs in the first place, but also because the hc of Wario and Waluigi being ALL or NOTHING really made me open my eyes to that hc cuz it's AMAZING (these two posts, if you're curious)

And lastly Wapeach, cuz i love her, her gender is No

[the-autistic-digital-circus]

saw a comment today about how people should stop drawing transmascs with massive top surgery scars because it's an "ugly stereotype" and as a transmasc i don't think I'll be doing that thanks. i'll be giving them sick as hell patterns and hot tattoos even. sorry you think they're ugly but i'm built different

[kermit-coded]

DUDE we need an all of the above on that poll! Though I think as cute as getting something for Shatterstar is, they break up WAY too much for a tattoo to be a good idea, and I think they'd both understand that.

Something I would really like if we live in the Sucky world I think of in my head where since Rictor was brought back on krakoa, it would be without his scars, is maybe to get some kind of commemorative tattoos going up his arms or something. Maybe it's the Aaron Fischer bias in me because I LOVE how his forarms look, but it would be sick if Rictor maybe had vines curling up his? It would be a cool expression of his power growth (ha) too.

I also love fault lines, and I think those would be great for the chest / back area. Especially if it's on a trans rictor since it would be a fun top surgery scar cover. I definitely have more thoughts I just gotta go SO! Bye!

dude you will NEVER guess who i'm drawing atm!

i think i'll put a vines tattoo on his right forearm bc i'm drawing my scarred up design and his left arm has heavier scarring from that explosion (he has scars on his face too but i haven't drawn them yet smh). one of my mutuals suggested mushrooms and i kinda dig that too.

[our-transmasculine-experience]

My transmasc experience is... I don't really know?

I mainly identify as nonbinary, and if I had to choose a binary gender, I'd choose male.

Growing up I never fit in with the girls. I always fit in more with the boys, and I never understood why I was treated differently from the boys.

I'm on HRT, but not like.... for gender reasons. I'm on progesterone, because my body's natural hormones SEVERALLY negatively impact my mental illnesses. I don't really have interest in going on testosterone, unless I absolutely HAVE to for bottom surgery.

But oh boy BOTTOM SURGERY? Now THATS what I call gender euphoria.

When I think of anything I could do transition wise, from clothing and hair cuts to hormones to surgeries, bottom surgery gives me the most euphoria. Thinking about how I could have surgery to have the body I've pictured in my head since I learned there were bodily differences between people, THAT gives me euphoria. I don't even care that I would have a scar on my arm from it. I'd probably just get a sick ass tattoo on it!

I wish people talked about bottom surgery more. I feel..... I don't know. Like the odd one out in the Trans community. I always hear about top surgery, but never bottom surgery. Maybe I'm just looking in the wrong places, but I really wish I could read more stories of peoples experiences with getting bottom surgery so I know what to expect and so I don't feel so alone in my dysphoria/euphoria. Maybe it's taboo, and if it is taboo, I wish it wasn't and don't feel like it should be.

I dunno.

bottom surgery is less common because of two main reasons:

bottom surgery is mainly for personal dysphoria and does not help with passing in day-to-day life

it has much higher complication rates than top surgery (phalloplasty especially has high complication rates)

but yeah, when i first got really into the community, i was also upset that i could barely find any bottom surgery content but loads of top surgery content.

depending on what type of bottom surgery you’re looking into, i can provide a list of resources for research.

good luck!

[hesitantvampirealien]

since i started talking about jet, i think i should give some space for the others too

I like to imagine fun ghoul a bit shorter, i think he's 1,50 and shameless about it because we need more short confident guys.

I think sometimes they use crutches or a walker, when he's fatiqued, sick or any other reason causing them to have less body strenght he uses a wheelchair (but he's still a menace even if he gets sick okay) and chronic body pains, specially in the joints and migraines

i like to think they're that friend that keeps throwing fire crackers, fireworks, holds bugs, lizards, frogs, etc in their hand and puts it close to you while you're like "GET AWAY FROM ME DROP THAT FUCJKINH ROACH"

he has top surgery and tattooed on his top surgery scars (not sure what the tattoo would look like yet but feel free to imagine it in any way you like), he chose not to take hormones, he just didn't feel like he needed them and he doesn't feel much dysphoria other than chest dysphoria before top surgery

he's a little devil but he can be serious and responsible when he can, he's also a bit superstitious. I think he likes incense sticks and whenever you have issues he lights up an incense stick to bless you

i also think he has vision problems but hates wearing glasses (which i think must also make migraines worse? x_x) because he thinks he looks like this with glasses lol

i like to think they're italian and sometimes speaks italian. Sometimes they get distracted and end up speaking italian instead of english

and well, in contrast to them being a menace ゴゴゴゴ they're also responsible and careful and always checks on everyone to make sure everyone's alright.

and I think he's silly

[lemon-sugarcoats-nothing]

Now draw them as a weeping angel!

how about a non-pony universe weeping fallen angel oc?

His name is Autumn, he's my newest OC. He's trans and got that sick ass tattoo over top of his top surgery scars (inspired by one of @ecstasysuccubus's ocs top surgery scars designed to look like hearts.) [DISCLAIMER: That blog is NSFW, do not go to that blog if you're a minor or unprepared to see horny shit.]

Autumn is a fallen angel, who has a complicated backstory, but as he stands now he's a confident and playful man. He's done a lot of maturing and found stability and comfort in his connections and friendships with succubi. He doesn't mind they or it pronouns, but the pronouns he claims are He/Him. He has two partners (a trans femboy by Mocha from @cinnavanillamelody who's super loving but damaged and a crusty dusty punk man who's come a long way in terms of unlearning bigotry passed down through generations and also damaged from me, Mod Bee)

Autumn isnt always shirtless but i wanted to show off his tattooed and nipple-less pecs so... you get mostly shirtless Autumn today. I gave him a lot of piercings because he just chill like that, but i want to point out that i gave him Angel bites and snake bites. I just thought that religious nod was funny, and i want everyone to understand it, have a nice day.

I may or may not post art of him again in the future, but because this isnt pony related i dont think i will.

-Mod Bee 🐝

[loverboy-havocboy]

I hope it's okay to ask, but how did you go about designing/choosing the tattoos for Boost, Sinker and Comet for Aliit?

of course it is, i love talking about my boys!! thank you for asking!! for those who are curious, you can take a look at their tattoos here and an explanation post where i talk about some meanings here

the disclaimer here is that the only ones i designed were comet's top surgery tattoo, the honeycomb testosterone, the phoenix (which was still edited from a design i found), the darasuums, and sinker's sun and moon moths (which are frankensteined from designs i found). all the others were things i found on pinterest, and they're collected in a board here

the rest is going under a cut to save everyone's dash 😅

the matching sun, moon, and stars on their wrists were written in before i had a picture of them in my mind. that little dynamic (that could be it's own post probably lol) for sinker, boost, and comet respectively carried over from the sick au.

the second was comet's phoenix, and i love talking about this tattoo 😂 idk if you've read aliit or not anon, so i'll preface by saying that it covers up a tattoo comet got for his abusive ex, and he got it in the fic "out of the ashes". i cycled through several coverup ideas, and by this point i was working on designs, so i was thinking about what would reasonably cover it, what comet would like, and what boost might choose for him. i was getting kind of fed up 😅 when i came across a throwaway line i'd written about rising from the ashes of that relationship. i thought "oh hm like a phoenix" and then just 💡🤯 because @brokenphoenix99 had been commenting on my stuff since i started writing and i never would've made it to writing aliit without that. so stumbling upon the phoenix idea became a way to honor her place in aliit's creation 🥺💖😭

once i started working on the designs, there were a few more that i knew i wanted them to have, like boost and sinker's "darasuum" over their hearts in each other's handwriting, gregor's tally marks, and comet's trans symbol on his stomach. so those were easy.

there were others that i knew they would have because of who they are and what important to them, but only had a vague idea of design wise. most of them have to do with the theme and title of the series, now that i think about it - family. comet and thorn's matching one (honeycomb testosterone), because their relationship played a big part in shaping who comet is and it's very important to him. gregor's matching one with foxtrot, because they're his family. boost's in memory of his parents who passed (lighter and flowers) and his sun and moon for him and sinker. i knew sinker would have at least one celestial tattoo for the pack, and he ended up with several, but the snake is a combination of that and the fact that i knew i wanted him to have a snake. he just seems like a snake guy to me.

the rest were chosen painstakingly through hours of scrolling through tattoos 😂 gregor was easy, but i knew each of the pack would have at least a dozen, since boost's been tattooing them since they were in high school. i'm not sure i'm completely happy with what i chose, but the tattoos were the only thing holding up a 7 months long project, so to be honest i was slapping them on at the end

thanks again for asking <3

[warden-melli]

Not pokemon related but fuck these last few years have been tough. Been trying to distract myself all night but I think I need to vent for a sec

Trigger warning after the cut

I don’t want to get into details, but my uncle killed himself this morning. I knew something was wrong straight away when my mother randomly turned up with that look on her face. My grandmother was diagnosed with dementia last year, and my grandfather is in kidney failure, so at first I thought something bad and happened to them, but no. It was my uncle.

I spent a lot of today with my dad. My uncle was his little brother, and quite frankly as sad as I am for what happened to my uncle, I’m most worried about my dad right now. Not only did he lose both his father and older sister within the last year or so, but he’s been in pretty poor health himself. He was involved in an accident at work earlier this year involving a chainsaw, and honestly he’s lucky to be alive. PPE did it’s job, but even so he still ended up losing a tooth, and he’s had to have dental/implant surgeries to repair the damage. The last few weeks he’s also been extremely ill having caught Ross River fever from a job site. I have never seen him this sick in my entire life, and it has been extremely distressing seeing him in so much pain. He’s recovering from being sick, but he’s had an absolutely terrible run of luck, and that’s not even all of it. His best friend/brother in law has lung cancer, his sister just had a heart attack after contracting covid, and another of his sisters was just in a major car accident (he’s one of 10 kids btw). Also his pet budgie died last week. I feel horrible for him and I wish I could do something to make it better.

The last few weeks have been really tough. I broke my wisdom tooth, and because I am really bad at telling if/where I’m in pain I kinda tried to live with an exposed nerve for a few weeks before realising that it was serious. I knew something was wrong, but I have tmjd so I just kinda thought it was a chronic pain flare up at first. Like a really bad one, but I tried to ignore it. I had the back of my knee tattooed while dealing with a cracked wisdom tooth oof. After I figured out it wasn’t going to go away I eventually went to the dentist and had it extracted, but that was really hard for me to deal with. I was happy that the sharp pain had gone, but my jaw has been extremely sore since, and I really struggled sensory wise during the healing period. Then I broke my guitar and my fridge broke, so that’s over $1000 on top of the dental bills -_-

Idk life feels really hard lately. Haven’t been able to draw much, and have just been feeling flat in general. And now my uncle has passed and I just feel terrible. I’ll be okay. My sister is due to have a baby within weeks, and I’ve got some good concerts to look forward to, so it’s not all bad. One of my little sisters has been a twenty one pilots fan since she was literally an infant, and she’s finally old enough to see them live and I was able to get her really good tickets. She’s autistic too and has been working on her outfit and making stickers, and every time I see her that’s all she can talk about. I’m so happy for her and that I get to take her. There is good stuff, and good people and as silly as it sounds Melli/Pokemon really helps. He’s so so special to me. I’m glad I have him to focus on

I just needed to get stuff off of my chest, so if you’ve made it this far thanks for listening. Even if no one reads this just typing it out made me feel a bit better. May be a bit less active for a while, might be way more active. Idk how my brain wants to handle this lol

[bundleofboys]

Can we have some secret Damh lore?

Damh (AKA "The Prince" of Club Senaliesse) is a schemer and a fuck. His pretty face is a good cover for his rat boy tendencies. He works for the mob (Zarak is his boss, technically), and he's constantly trying to finesse his way to the top because he's convinced himself that he could run things better and that those around him are incompetent and easily manipulated. He's antagonistic and pisses people (especially Zarak) off on purpose to either get a rise out of them, or an expected reaction that confirms Damh's feelings or presumptions about them. A very confirmation bias heavy kinda guy, but only when that confirmation bias serves in the Prince's favor.

He treats the club like his own little kingdom, and hates when things don't go his way. He especially hates when Casio and Zarak start working together (to make the club better, more successful) without consulting him or including him in their plans.

Damh touts his confidence like a badge of honor, but it's a mask. Deep, DEEP down he has a ton of self loathing that he refuses to acknowledge for even the slightest moment. Nobody hates Damh more than he hates himself.

Aside from that, Damh ends up being Casio's casual hookup whenever he goes into heat because the Prince drops in on him during one of his cycles and both of them desperately need a release (for different reasons). They both become the other's dirty secret, but act completely normal/the same towards each other outside of these sessions, so you can imagine... THE TENSION.

Also this isn't a secret so much as it is a thing I haven't illustrated yet, but Damh's a trans guy (he/they) and has sick tattoos running along their surgery scars.

[sergeifyodorov]

do you plan on getting more tattoos in the future ? if so what are you thinking of getting? :O

MANY. plan on being a guy who is tattooed. most definitive ones are:

- want a pinup girl on the other calf. maybe she'll be a figure skater or something

- want a centipede (i am terrified of centipedes)

- want a large bird on my chest with its wings outstretched. this is a post top surgery plan it's to cover the scars but also bc it would look sick as hell

- 1972 summit series players on my thighs one Canadian and one Soviet. maybe they'll be like 84 Canada cup or something *technically* because the pretty diamond pattern the Soviets put on the waist stripe wasn't on there for the 72 series. but i digress