#BUT IM GOING THROUGH JT OKAY </3

[meggie-moo]

guys…be honest do you also sometimes forget that i’m an art account

[lact101]

God thinking about the dlc, it was so good but I've got so many unanswered questions

[moldy-flowers]

Here's my Naruto character tier list... please don't kill me.

LOOK I KNOW I GET JT BYT THEY JUST DONT SPEAK TO ME

going through all my reasons:

My boy: I cannot physically fucking breathe if I am not thinking about him at all times sometimes its genuinely painful how much I love him I love sasuke so FUCKING much

Would kill myself for them to even spare a glance in my direction: Sakura, im gonna be honest I have a pink bias... and also girlboss she's so amazing we love a saviour complex. Hinata, I put here there for more for the nostalgia, when I watched the show at 7 she was always my favourite and i would rant to my friends about her. Sighh what I would do just for a hug :(

They'll always have a place in my heart: what can I say? They're silly little guys :3 I don't think this one is too controversial (uhmm they werent in the tier list I used but Mikoto and Fugaku are here too)

Goofygoober :): put this here last minute cause I liked these ones more than the others but I didn't like them to always keep them in my heart. Karin so high is probably gonna set some people annoyed but eh she's a gal :3 how can you hate a gal :3

Sillys: they're silly. I like the sillys

What an idiot (affectionate): theyre idiots. And i like them. Okay, I know. Kakshi is very low. I just... idk I've never felt that love for him. He's a guy and i like him, but uhm. I think that's it. I've genuinely tried to love him but i just like him.

Someone from naruto (probably): Naruto characters that I just do not care about. IM SORRY IM SORRY I JUST DONT CARE, KUSHINA, MINATO, GAI, MEI, KONAN, YAMATO, TOBIRAMA UH UH THE OTHER ONES I JUST REALLY DO NOT FEEL ANYTHING TOWARDS THEM, THEYRE COOL, PROBABLY I DONT KNOW.

What an idiot (derogatory): they're idiots. And I don't like them. No strong feelings about them really, wouldn't turn my nose away if someone drew some good fanart of them or if they were in the main plot of a fic. I'm still traumatized from that one comic where hashirama killed tobirama for madara idk I just can think of him the same way again...

Ermm...: what the freak :/... (I'm sorry)

I know what you are: I'm running out of things to say I just feel anger towards them idk.

Get AWAY: I don't think this is to disagreeable.

Get the actual fuck away from my boy: I DONT FUCKING CARE, I HATE ITACHI I HATE HIM I HATE HIM, HES A PSYCHOPATH WHO WAS FORCED INTO INSANITY AND MURDERED A SHIT TON OF PEOPLE I FUCKING DESPISE HIM HE HURT SASUKE SO MUCH AND RUINED HIS LIFE FOR NO FUCKING REASON SASUKE WAS JUST A TOOL FOR HIS SUICUDE I DONT CARE I DONT CARE GET HIM THE FUCK AWAY FROM MY BOY AND ANYONE ELSE EVERY PUT HIM IN A FUCKING TSUKOYOMI FOR FUCKING EVER I HATE HIM SO GODDAM MUCH RRRGHSHSJSJHS

Im prepared to get burned at the stake I don't care i stand by this tierlist

[cofay]

다 ���현하지 않아도

♡ CUPIDS ARROW ⤑

Part 1…Part 2…Part 3…

As you walked the dark streets you sighed softly looking down..Well until you had an idea.

What if you had no responsibilities at all? What if you were a mortal? What if you weren’t in this position at all? You could have a normal life.

You could even have a shot with Izuku I mean what could go wrong?

It was late spring things were just getting warm and summer was right around the corner. You did all that you could walking down the road later that night.

You could smell the sweet flowers..feel the soft breeze, hear the thick sound of thunder and felt the soft touches of rain it was almost perfect the moonlight softly shining over you and down onto the flower field.

You looked up into the sky lifting your hands up to your shirt and unbuttoning it slowly. Then goes your pants…it may have seem crazy or strange but this was you stripping yourself of your responsibilities of making people fall in love.

Of building marriages, of making and creating families,friendships and more, you were finally

Free

Free of the aches free from the stress, the pressure the pain you’re finally free..you lift your head back letting the rain droplets hit your face and run through your hair you closed your eyes smiling as you shed your old self. As you shed your position of control and love.

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A week later you ended up finding some nice more suitable clothes for your new found interest. You also gained the courage to show up to Izuku’s penthouse. You walked up the stairs slowly every bone inside of you basically felt like it was sat on fire.

You were scared, giddy, sad, and excited all at the same time you couldn’t help but smile as you inch closer and closer to his front door.

*Knock*

*Knock*

*Knock*

You waited a second before the door slowly opened revealing the green haired boy. He tilted his head to the side confused clearly by you showing up, but you on the other hand couldn’t help but smile as you basically jumped up and down at the sight of him.

He can finally see you finally..it’s been so long

“Who are you?”

“Y/n!…I-im sorry you probably are confused right now because I’m here unexpectedly…but uh..I-i got something!”

You pulled out a small bag from behind your bag handing jt towards him. Slowly and maybe cautiously he opened it revealing a small bracelet with non-other than a cupids bow and arrow along with a four leaf clover. “It’s for you…”

You looked at his face watching his expressions just hoping..hoping that he would accept it and maybe let you get some more words out..and then maybe you could be friends or more..maybe.. as you scanned his face you watched as his confusion slowly turned into something else. A sweet bright smile from him.

You felt like you were in a dream that you didn’t ever want to wake up from.

“Thanks—oh shit..I’m sorry do you want to come inside?”

“Uh-sure!”

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And basically after that you guys hit it off started off by meeting up at parks to going to small carnivals to huge amusement parks then to him asking you out and then it turned into small dinner dates and now to this. You sleeping in bed with him resting his head on your chest.

It was all you ever wanted to love and be loved at the same time. You just wanted to live this little life that you had acquired. Even if it could all go to hell at any moment..you just wanted at least a minute with Izuku to yourself and you would be fine.

Well if only those Erotes would stop showing up to just watch you. Even though you’ve basically became a mortal you could still see them you didn’t understand it. You’re a full mortal right? Something’s wrong.. really wrong.

You watched them from the comfort of Izuku’s bed staring at them from outside the window until they left abruptly..a shiver was sent down your spine and you shifted a bit causing Izuku to move also and mutter something.

“Y/n?”

“It’s okay..I’m still here just needed to sit up..it’s fine go back to sleep..”

You say running your fingers through his hair and rubbing circles around his back with your other hand. Even then while you were sleeping you istg couldn’t help but shake the feeling that something was wrong..you needed to do something about it quick.

But not to quick you don’t want to alarm anybody or make a wrong move you can’t risk ruining everything now..no no..not now not when things are perfect.

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[judebilation]

none of my friends listen to me when i talk about malevolent, which is the true tragedy. anyways episode 31 was a thing that happened.

arthur why do you make noises when you wake up.

omg kellin throwback. why the FUCK IS HE HERE.

WHERE IS MY BOY

was the sister always called samantha

we love john in the background trying to wake arthur up

what did we expect from an episode called ‘the nightmare’

ooo are we going to see the butcher again ??? thatd be cool

arthur wdym did you kill your wife. do we get bella lore.

“i cant SEE anything”

oh dear. i could write a full essay on faroe and her role in the development of arthur’s character

graveyards are Not Fun when your wife, your best friend and your child are all dead and 2/3 you had a direct hand in.

mr scratch?? damn okay.

even in dreams, john disapproves of arthurs choices

are we going through all of the trauma this man has. if so, im surprised this episode isnt three times the length.

for antagonists this season we have the butcher, whatever the fuck marie has in her house, larson indirectly and now mr scratch. how fun

i know its still harlan, but harlan-as-john and harlan-as-kellin are so different

we love arthur and all of his self denying internal monologues

the entire episdoe is just arthur’s guilty conscience.

anna stanzyck again? ooooo

AHA FUCK. WE GET BELLA LORE BUT AT WHAT COST. shit. that makes faroes death even worse tbh.

will i relisten to this entire podcast to find more connections?? yes.

i fucking knew that baby would be important.

what do you mean you knew what he looked like. you are blind.

is this some weird form of catharsis?

fucking GOD. literally everyone in this guys life is dead. his parents?? fucking hell.

arthur lester do not make me cry on the 8:47 bus.

:((( dont make me feel sad about kellin again.

AHA ITS THE FUNKY MERCENARY GUY AND HIS LITTLE ACCENT

awwwh they care about each other <3333 they are friends!

if arthur and john get separated again i am going to riot.

there was a poll about this and why arthur and bella were married. ig this is canon

AHA. aromantic headcanon more confirmed by the day.

I CANR LIVE FOR SOMEONE ELSE BUT WHAT ARE YOU DOING RIGHT NOW??? LIVING FOR JOHN???

do we actually know james or did i just forget him

so this is why he feels guilty over bella’s death.

shit shit shit shit shit

god FUCKING damnit harlan why must you hurt us so.

parallels between arthur not knowing about faroe at first when she was born, and then not knowing where she was when she died. i may make a post on this.

okay i want to see how scratch ties into marie.

i hate larsons srupid fucking accent

do i have to make fanart of arthur and faroe at the park now. it feels obligatory.

those were the happiest days of your life and then she died and it was your fault and after that you wanted to kill yourself and oh my god im sobbing

yeah fuck you, scratch.

its so disconcerting that scratch sounds like john

the eldritch figure will in fact, stab you.

i think jts funny that the voices in arthurs head always narrate when arthur gets stabbed. like. i think he may realise that he has been stabbed.

WAIT SHIT I SWEAR IF THIS RELATES TO THE GUY ARTHUR KILLED AND ATE IN THE PITS

aha this is Not Good. Not Good At All.

she is free?? who is she??? wha

OMG BOY!!! :DDD

AHA SHIT FUCK GODDAMN IT THIS CANNOT BE GOOD.

FUCKING HELL. WHAT THE FUCK.

shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit

FUCKING HELL

this is very very bad.

yeah well. mans can never get a break. ever. what did we expect.

is this the song kellin was singing. maybe.

[mannequinreligi0n]

hi my loves !! i am BACK (yippeeeee) and will being trying to post a new fic at least once a week for the foreseeable future. but first - some housekeeping and general thoughts:

apologies for the inactivity; i’ve been both busy and uninspired, as of late. i went on vacation last month and then planned to write when i returned, but got hit with a fat depression shaped brick over my head and couldn’t find the will or want to write.

im in a terrible chris redfield shaped hole rn (don’t ask), so im going to start taking requests for him and other resident evil characters, if you feel so inclined to leave a request <3 pls read my pinned post if you’re unsure what i will/won’t write.

i’ve been getting mainly requests for reboot dante, which is okay (and tysm for the asks!!), but he is not someone i really wish to write for, since im not particularly a fan of the reboot. the oneshot i did for him was a request from an ex-friend and though i’m glad people like jt, he’s not someone i feel comfortable writing often. idk it feels disingenuous of me to write something for a character i have no attachment to or real knowledge of (esp when OG dante means so much to me). that being said, i will sift through the asks and write something for him in the future bc i don’t want to leave anyone hanging !! pls be patient w me :’)

i am working on a long-awaited second part to ‘forgiveness’ ! it’ll probably be the first thing i post next as to appease the masses.

finally, THANK YOUUUUUUUUU <3 seeing this blog grow so much and get immense love during my absence has filled me w joy and im happy to start writing for y’all again :D

yours always,

obscura

[happer08]

player interactions 22-23

ill be adding to them through the season!

Devon Toews- this man is a whole comedian. He's also so sleepy like 90% of the time which I think is super funny. He was signing for me and a few others and he was wearing the brand “NO Bull” shoes and i made a joke about nate (who is sponsored by them) bringing shoes to everyone and he looks at me and goes “Hey don't start that rumor i’ve been wearing these a lot longer” Gabe Landeskog- this is the prettiest man i have ever seen up close. He is so nice and so soft spoken. He will call you a pet name if you're nice and is also massive. He called me honey and sweetheart the two times I've met him. He has basically no accent and is very warm. He's literally gorgeous and surprisingly not intimidating at all. He's so kind and soft with great dad energy. 

Logan O’Connor- so last year Logan and I had a few awkward moments of me embarrassing myself and calling him boyfriend shaped, not thinking it was loud enough for him to hear, turns out it was and now everytime he sees me he brings it up. Including twice last year and so far twice this year. He also remembered my name and when he signed the card I handed him he made it out to me without asking, which was so sweet.

J.T. Compher- okay so he's a little shit. 

It was over a span of two days that he walked out with alex back to back and the first day alex tried to get him to come sign and take pictures and he goes “Nope i'm going to take a nap”

Which is fair. 

And then day two Alex basically forced him to come take pictures and sign and jt asked if he could get in his car first and Alex death glared at him and crossed his arms watching until jt took pictures and signed for everyone. And jt checked in with Alex before leaving to make sure he was free to go. A whole group of comedians at this point. Bowen Byram- this man looks at me like he's in love and i cant handle it. He listens so intently, he's a lot like ej in a lot of ways. And he tends to walk around with no shoes on and then magically have shoes on. He also is very big, surprisingly large. Mikko Rantanen- he is huge and so funny. He and I were standing next to each other and I asked for a picture and he leaned down and went. 

“Let me make sure we both fit in this picture” 

Mind you hes 6’4 and im 5’2 or 3 with shoes on. 

Arturri Lehkonen- hes just a little guy. He stands like the emoji and his voice is so deep and even deeper in person. He had this sleepy little tuft of hair when I saw him sticking straight out and he blushed when we thanked him for stopping. 

Small things 

Andrew cogliano offered to adopt me 

Kurtis macdermid remembered my birthday

Nate is very quiet when hes sleepy 

i met cale in chipotle on my birthday  

[curedeity]

omg deity wait okay❔and 📝 please

Okay i think these are choose a random wip and talk about it and share a snippet of an unposted wip

Random wip and discuss it)

Ill choose two for this, a beyblade one and a nonbeyblade one. I actually dont do many multichapters for beyblade but try to do them more for other fandoms.

One of my newer but favorite wips is a madokaru shogun steel fic. Ive talked a bit about it on discord, but it basically is me trying to merge my headcanons with shogun steel canon and ask what happens then. That means that it tries to explain where hikaru was during shogun steel if she wasnt a member of the wbba. Its a love story between them, skipping around in time to canon/early postcanon with them getting closer, and then hikarus return post shogun steel. Its a pretty chill fic idea actually, but lets me talk about these characters still growing and trying new things and falling in love even after falling apart. Also blader hikaru!!! Some ideas from this fic are impacting how i think about my visual novel too

And then for other wip... god i have so many. I'll go with my 4+1 Olruggio bonding with his kids for Witch Hat Atelier. Recently got really into the series (jts so good guys literally a perfect series) and I wanted to highlight some moments between Olruggio and the apprentices. The first chapter is posted and theyre all... really long chapters. But i know what i want to do for each! The problem with this fic is just keeping it from getting too technical or boring. I tend to not plan before i write, just going in with a vague idea. It works for me, but sometimes i spend too much time on a scene that means nothing, and i have to remember to cut it out to preserve the pacing. But right now i have Tetias chapter finished, which actually was surprisingly easy to write. I feel like shed take after Olruggio a lot and love making contraptions, and i hope that shown through in the chapter. Now im on Agotts chapter, and Im trying to make it a bit more angsty to fit Agott while still just including some good bonding. Biggest struggle will 100% be cocos chapter. Ill let you know Agotts chapter takes place in... volume 3? Richehs in volume 5? And Olruggios chapter deals with a very special chapter

NOW FOR AN EXCERPT!

""I am the guardian of love and justice." Minako heard all the echoes of those words. "I am the pretty sailor-suited soldier." Minako remembered transforming for the first time, and feeling duty settle into her bones. "Sailor Moon!"" From a sailor moon fanfic im working on, featuring usagi/minako because ofc it does, its me

Also "Mari stepped off her blanket, shivering a bit as the cold, dewy grass touched her bare feet. Were they bare? They were certainly too raw for this world. She couldn't see her skin, not in the dim light." From an omori fic about headspace Mari

[khitty]

I just wanna fucking die. My mom's been horrible to me for the past few weeks. My friends hung out without me. Then the one fucking day i get to hang out with them they fucking have an argument. Now we cant hang out. I haven't seen them in months. And it was supposed to be my birthday hangout. And on my actual birthday theyre all fucking deciding to do other things. I know its fucking selfish but im always doing shit for them. I put aside my stuff for them. I just wanted to be with them on my birthday. Because they are the people that made me not want to kill myself especially on that day. They made me throw out my fucking razor blades too so i cant fucking relapse. Im what? Like 10 months clean? And its fucking awful. That was the only fucking coping mechanism that worked. Yeah is it incredibly dangerous and i could die? Duh. But i felt better. But instead i have to fucking sit in my feelings and feel like shit for a whole week over a tiny bullshit thing. And im fucking crying again. Jesus fucking christ all my friends choose their relationships over our friendship. Do i mean fucking nothing to you? I guess you fucking hate my guts, you dont wanna hang out with me. The one single thing i asked for my birthday was to be with you guys, to get away from my abusive household. But that couldn't fucking happen. I have to be the one to settle arguments. Just one fucking day. Just one day to feel okay. Not even fucking good, honestly not even okay. Fucking tolerating it. Because they wanna swim despite knowing that my dysphoria is crippling. That i can hardly function because of it. And j was fucking willing to shove it aside to make them happy. To force myself to be incredibly uncomfortable for them. Knowing that I'd cry immediately after when im alone just so they can have fun. But no. I guess thats not enough for them. I guess they cant appreciate shit and they have to lie and hang out with their partners because they dont care for the shit ive done for them. Im always the fucking mediator. I have to settle issues out between them. Almost never do I even share my emotions with them. Because i cant fucking burden them like that. And NEVER have i told them them that they've hurt me greatly. When they do so honestly quite a bit. I cant fucking breathe right noe. Im fucking crying so hard i wanna die. I should take my scissors and cut down to my fucking arteries and bleed out. I dont wanna write a suicide note anymore. They dont need to know, its not like they ever hear me anyway. I gave them my phone password. If i kill myself i honestly hope they go onto my phone to see how much I've suffered in silence. I love them so fucking much. And they hurt me so fucking much. I wrote in my notes app a huge speech about how they made my life so much better. I remember crying so hard while writing jt because i love them so much. And it feels like a fucking waste now. God fucking help me. Stop my suffering soon. And if its through death then so fucking be it. Because if life with what i thought were the only three people that would ever fucking understand me is like this, then its just all shit. I only had 3 people in my fucking life. And it might be fucking zero at this point. Im so fucking tired.

[umeqii]

haaiaii moot i am back I HOPE IK YOIR FIRDT REQUEST ^_^

do ive had this brainrot for the past week about this one scenario but if u dont feel comfortable doing this JUST DELETE THIS

so theres been this thing on tiktok for couples abiut the girl of the relationship taking a bra strap out of an old bra and gifting jt to their s/o as a bracelet which i think is reallt cute

could yoi maybe do that but with akito and an (separate like x reader) id love to see their reactions

ok im done yapping YIP YIP YIPPIE

JEJSJEJ FLIPPING EXPLODES YES YOU ARE MY FIRST REQUEST AND OMG DW I'LL MAKW YOURR REQUEST ^_^ !!!!

-⠀⠀⠀⠀OH WELL , IT'S ⠀⠀⠀. . . ⠀⠀⠀something alright !

QUICK A/N - might be SLIGHTLY suggestive in akito's like idk and also i wear sport bras so i have like no idea what genuien bra straps are like so sorry for my bad description (ू˃̣̣̣̣̣̣︿˂̣̣̣̣̣̣ ू)

fandom ; project sekai

character(s) ; an shiraishi + akito shinonome

creator ; umeqii

gender ; afab reader :33

─── AN !!

well i mean, an is already quite the expressive girl, and since having you as her as her amazing s/o, she feels even happier and brags about you ALOT !!

other people might see this as a silly gift idea, but at first you were quite hesitant on giving it to her, but you thought, "screw that" and gifted it to her.

you guys were walking home one day after school had ended and as you guys were talking about how what food would sound good for when you next hang out, you remembered you had a gift!!

that gift being a blue strap bracelet, from your old bra :DD!!

you had decorated it slightly, adding some cute pearls and blue charms that your thought would match an and you thought you did a great job !! (you did btw :33)

at first, you thought she didn't like it from the way she stared at and flipped the beads around and kept quiet; due to how you knew she struggles with expressing critism >_<

but then you saw a cute and loving smile growing on her pretty face, as her pale cheeks grew pinker each second before she looked up at you

" this is from your bra, right? "

" WAIT HOW DID YOU KNOW, I WAS GONNA TELL YOU BUT STILL?? "

" i'm wearing the exact one right now, babe! "

" oh "

que an giggling and embracing you in a cutie patootie hug and kissing your face and saying how much she loves it (SHE DID DON'T WORRY <33)

now she's planning on how to make you one aswell !

─── AKITO !!

okay so, you were doing this annual l/n (last name :3) family clean out, and you were going through your drawers to find clothes you didn't need anymore until you said your deep orange bra from two years ago (ﾟдﾟ三ﾟдﾟ) !!

as you were putting it into the recycling bin that you were going to give to your guardian so they could give it to the clothing shop thing, you remembered something you saw on your fyp and thought of how you could try it out !!

it was making a bracelet for your amazing and handsome and talented boyfriend akito °\>3

the colour did remind you of him, which you smiled about aswell as the thought of him wearing it around :33

so you put your amazing art n crafts skills to the test and decided to make a bracelet for him

good thing to say that it worked !!

you even added a dark purple bow at the end aswell as orange and clear crystals :DD

you gave it to him when you visited his house one time when he seemed kinda of tenser than usual  (｡•́︿•̀｡) 

you actually made it ages ago but ended up forgetting and then remembered in the moment because of how you thought akito seemed upset and wanted to cheer him up.

" oh? it's a...bracelet? thanks, it looks cool- wait what's the base you used for it? it feels like a buckle or whatever it's called? "

oh yeah, your bra :D

" oh yeah, i made it from my bra ≥∇≤ !! "

" sorry what "

let me tell you, akito isn't as slick as he thinks he is :PP

he turned into a huge shade of red, maybe it was just of the thought that it was made out of a bra that you had worn multiple times and it even touched your skin but naaahhh!!

you explained to him about the trend on tiktok as his eyes went ever so slightly wide and he made an, "ohh" typa sound

his cheeks were still lowkey red but he didn't know that :P

he just cleared his throat and then placed it into his lap as he ran his hand through his hair and said :

" uh...thanks for the..bracelet though. h-hey, i never said i didn't like it idiot, let me finish!! anyways...you did good with the charms.."

you started smiling like an idiot btw ∩∇∩

now he wants to make you one. but maybe with genuine materials for bracelet making.

RAAAAAAAHHHH FLIPPING EXPLODES OMG I DID IT AND OMG IM SO SORRY IF ITS OOC ANYWAY BECAUSE I DONT ACTUALLU PLAY PJSK, IM JUST IN THE FANDOM AND I DONT LOOK INTO AN'S CHARACTER THAT MUXH BUT I HOPR YIU ENJOYED?!?@?@?!?!

~ mari / umeqii ˃ᴗ˂

[runelocked]

drop your top 10 fnaf songs now pls

didn’t know if you meant actual fan songs or songs i associate with fnaf so i did five of each!! i could speak about all of these songs for hours so i WON’T but if you’re curious pls ask ^_^

1. I CAN’T FIX YOU / THE LIVING TOMBSTONE

OKAY THIS SONG GETS ME. You’ve been mourning your loss here and that’s grinding my gears, how can a human lose their self control? There’s nothing left to make you whole GETS ME. I LOVE Circus Baby & her story and everything about her so this song drives me wild already (unless i’ve interpreted it wrong and it’s not about baby in which case. oops!). the fact she’s speaking to william here and how frustrating it is for her that he’s MOURNING while his hands are covered in blood (her blood). this is such a bitter sad song and it makes me crazy so have some more lyrics that make me insane!

You oversaturate your world with nothing but machines. You might make everyone happy, but you’re dead inside, just like me. And now we’re here at a standstill — I wonder if you feel the kind of pain that puts your insides out (that’s something I know all about).

2. AFTON FAMILY / APANGRYPIGGY

i mean you KNOW my obsession with the afton family. you KNOW how bad it is. switching between each of the afton children and william (WHERE IS MRS AFTON. WHERE IS SHE. WHERE’S THE LOML) is such an interesting take on the song and you already know that the family is my main point of interest in the lore !!! also the chorus just SLAPS: all stay strong, we live eternally! all is well in the afton family vs lives, they fell to pure insanity! all is hell in the afton family is good ok. like i am a simple person with simple pleasures. a good bit of lyrical contrast is one of them ^_^

3. DRAWN TO THE BITTER / DHEUSTA

HENRY AND WILLIAM SONG. HENRY AND WILLIAM SONG. WHAT’S NOT TO BE OBSESSED WITH. if those other two songs weren’t so good then this would be ranked higher tbh!!! i am a SUCKER for this song and also for the pre to post diner era. to me it sounds like it’s from william’s perspective too as he reminisces on the past (a loss of precious life, a part of me died inside that night) and that makes it so much better for me…. the tragedy unfolding through the verses while the chorus drills home how inevitable the events were always going to be … tragedy is drawn to the bitter and william is the most bitter one out there :’)

4. FIVE MORE NIGHTS / JT MUSIC

fun fact!!! i heard this song before five long nights and i love them both. this one slips by into being in my favorite five list though. just a good old fashioned low lore song and it makes me so damn hyped and reminds me of the core of the franchise. the edits i see to this part of the song — did you listen to the vision you saw? as the clock keeps ticking we’ll be giving you more — do you remember the original four? take a look at us now, ‘cause our condition is poor! we were left to decay in this dark troubled place… — fucking rock ok. like all of them. this song is a bop idc

5. BELOW THE SURFACE / GRIFFINILLA

first fnaf song i ever heard so it holds a special place in my heart :3 also because sl is one of my fav games (that im gonna be playing on stream later most likely YAYY)!! his voice means to deceive you, my voice just wants to lead you. i used to squint a little at the line built without purpose because well . they WERE built with purpose. but in my understanding of the lore, these ones were the first to be built for purposes OTHER than fun/family etc, so they lack an innocent purpose so i get that part of the song now agdkhd. also who can resist exotic butters as the outro huh. c good song, v catchy, it’s gonna be stuck in my head all day now !

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1. NO SURPRISES / RADIOHEAD

another afton family insp. song, by which i mean i loop this while writing anything remotely sad about the franchise and cry endlessly over them!!! I’m probably gonna do an ACTUAL line by line analysis of this and how it relates to my will & mike writing, but have a few for now: a job that slowly kills you (both mike & will), you look so tired and unhappy (the job destroying who william once was), i’ll take a quiet life, a handshake of carbon monoxide, no alarms and no surprises (see last bits of analysis), this is my final fate (both of them, father and son, facing painful ends at the hands of animatronics). and then of course we have such a pretty house and such a pretty garden no alarms and no surprises (get me out of here) because so MUCH of the toxicity in the household was so insidious. a carbon monoxide death. william’s effect on the rest of the family poisoned them slowly and michael was resigned to it for so much of his life (no alarms and no surprises) but inwardly wanted out so BAD (get me out of here). this song fucking destroys me!

2. THE MIND ELECTRIC / CHONNY JASH

a cassidy song in my mind. especially this version! really does well at highlighting the bitterness and hatred she feels for william. “this creature hardly resembles a man, my logic is the absolute, his pity parties simply harm these chances at an apt repute esteemed regard in place of mockery” like YES!!! read him!!! have more that’s just SO fitting for the dynamic of these two:

3. KISS ME, SON OF GOD / THEY MIGHT BE GIANTS

4. SICK ON SEVENTH STREET / SARAH & THE SAFE WORD

5. THE DEAD COME TALKING / ROE KAPARA

[storytelling-timelord]

MASTERLIST

REQUESTS CLOSED!!!

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The Ninth Doctor

One-shots:

Ballerina

Request from 🩰 anon: Hi! Could you please maybe write a story with the 9th Doctor and him finding out that before he found the reader, the reader used to study dance (contemporary ballet and pointe ballet) for a long time and maybe the reader shows off for him a little bit! Thanks so much!

Blurbs:

#1

Prompts: “No, No, It’s my treat.” “What do you want to watch?” “I’ll do it for you.”

#2

Prompts: “I thought you didn’t love me like that.” “Yeah, well I lied.”

The Tenth Doctor

Series:

Living Nightmare (Ongoing)

One-Shots:

Into the Darkness

Summary: You hate dark hallways and the Doctor thinks you’re brilliant.

Bedhead

Request: Hiii! Can I request a 10/reader where the doctor sees the readers bedhead for the first time, and something so domestic makes him realize he's in love w her. I really love your writing, into the darkness was 10/10

It’s not Stress

Request: I love ur writing so far!!! Cant wait till you blow up (my main goal….is to) on here !! Could i get a 👉👈 ten x reader where theyre great friends and y/n gives him a run for his money in taking charge…

Stay with Me

Request: Hiiii!!! I really love all your stories!! You are an amazing writer!!! If it’s not too much trouble could you write a fluffy story with the Tenth Doctor. The reader and the Doctor have known each other for a very long time, from previous regenerations. It could only be the ninth or maybe even previous but you don’t have to write about the readers interactions with other doctors. They could be in an established relationship or not but have feelings for each other. The main focus could be how much they love each other and how grateful the Doctor is for the reader. It can be gender neutral. Thank you!!!

So Very Clever

Request: Hey, I absolutely LOVE your writing!! Can I request a tenth doctor x reader where she's struggling with insecurities about herself and he comforts her :) Thank you so much!

Plenty of Chances

Request: Hey bestie. Can I request a 10/reader where the reader catches 10 checking her out. Instead of getting embarrassed of being caught, 10 gets super flirty

Red Crystalline Caves

Request: Hey bestie. Can I request a 10/reader but this time it's the doctor who gets jealous when guys flirt w the reader? They're not dating so she's confused as to why he's upset and they argue until he admits his feelings and jt ends w fluff

Runaway

Request: Hey can I ask for a tenth doctor request but with the reader as his half human half gallifreyan daughter? I was hoping you might do another one about insecurities, but have it be more focused on feeling like the reader's presence matters, like as if the reader feels like they aren't wanted or valued as a human or timelord around others. I'm feeling like everyone just tolerates me, doesn't actually want to be around me, and that I'm a burden/clingy rn :')

Blurbs:

#1

Prompts: “Take my jacket, it’s cold outside.” “It looks good on you.” “Can I kiss you?”

#2

Prompts: “It’s okay. I couldn’t sleep anyway.” “Here, drink this. You’ll feel better.” “Don’t worry about me.”

#3

Prompts: “Hold my hand.” ��It’s covered in alien goo.” “Is that a no?” “Are you trying to flirt with me?” “No! No… I don’t know what would um, what would make you think… that?”

#4

Prompts: “I thought you said you didn’t love me like that.” “Yeah, well I lied.” “You’d give up everything for them.” “They’re already everything.”

#5

Prompts: *walks in covered with blood* “It’s not mine.” “Something about that should reassure me, but it doesn’t.”

#6

Request: Okay I'm the same anon spamming you but what about a blurb where 10th doctor finds reader snuggled in his jacket asleep with a book?? :)

Part 2

Request: Blurb request! 10th doctor getting caught reading readers favorite book and getting flustered when reader teases him? Maybe a flirty not yet established relationship? Thanks :)

#7

Request: Blurb with 10 where reader has long hair and cuts it to her shoulders and doctor LOVES it?? Thanks if you do!! :)

#8

Request: I'm unsure if you're taking blurb requests but I have an idea and you're talented and I trust you- could you maybe write something with 10 being really sleepy and leaning and laying on reader and while reader acts completely normal, patting his head and rubbing his back, Donna is freaking out at the sight of doctor being soft? I'm sorry if that's confusing, English is not my first language. Thank you so much!! 💓

#9

Request: I saw you had some blurbs recently so I thought I'd give you another one! Could you do a secret relationship with the 10th doctor and reader, where they go to a planet with aliens who can read minds or auras and let their secret out to jack? With fun teasing from jack please ? Thank you in advance!!

#10

Request: hello, it’s the rereading anon back again (idk that’s a weird title but oh well) and ah i know you said you were struggling with writing so feel free to ignore this but i had a drabble idea! i was just thinking about ten telling reader it’s her turn to pick where they go and reader wants to go to a blockbuster just for the nostalgia (i really want to go back and smell a blockbuster and go through the clearance bins and wonder around maybe get a keychain blockbuster card) he thinks it’s a strange pick especially cause she has no intention of renting a movie but reader is just so excited about it he can’t say no

#11

Request: Ooh blurb request of 24 and 31 from the touch thing you reblogged? With 10 please :) maybe not yet established but flirty relationship? Thank you

#12

Request: So I don't have a "particular" idea in mind but something cute with the 10th doctor showing the reader his psychic paper |so with the fact that it shows whatever he wants, kinda like season 1 episode 9 but something better than "I'm single and I work out" please 😭 And yeah that's it just a little fluff please :D

#13

Prompt: A kiss on a place of insecurity

#14

Prompt: A kiss to shut them up

#15

Prompt: A kiss where it hurts

#16

Request: Hey Idk if ur still taking requests or not but could u do one with 10 where you and him are arguing about how he is being too reckless. You’re both arguing and he lifts his hand but u flinch (due to past). U run out of the TARDIS before he can say a word into the lashing of rain and get lost but he finds u and confesses his feelings.

The Eleventh Doctor

One-shots:

Artist behind the Artwork

Request: Might I request some platonic 11th doctor with a reader who always has a sketchbook and pencil on them¿ like, at all times, no exceptions? Almost always drawing except when it's important, and so the Tardis walls are covered in various drawings

Act Normal

Request: Can you do something with the {11th}Doctor where you get injured badly, but can't let him find out because you're both busy saving a planet and don't want him to get distracted please? Totally okay if you don't want to, I know it's a big ask. If you can, thanks! : )

In Every Life

Request: Hello darling, could you write a fic with the 11th Doctor where the reader was in an established relationship with the 10th Doctor and after his regeneration is having a tough time accepting the new Doctor. Make it angsty but end it with fluff. Thank you!!

Paradoxes and All That

Request: Your stories are awesome do u think I could request something like all the doctors meeting up and u had been traveling since nine and started dating with like ten and the old doctors just being really happy that they found someone to love if u could thanks.

Curse of the Timelords

Request: Hello darling! How’re you doing?! I have a really fluffy but also angsty request if you’re up for it. You can write it with either the 10th or the 11th Doctor. Where the Doctor and the reader travel together for quite a while but when the reader starts getting old, the Doctor decides to settle down with her. You can decide if they have children or not but they could get married and spend the rest of the readers life together. The Doctor obviously doesn’t grow old but the reader is human and dies at the end. The Doctor is so very sad but glad he was able to give the reader a good life. You can make it all angsty or fluffy + angst. Thank you!!!

Special

Summary: Following a distress signal takes a turn for the worse for the Doctor and you when he loses sight of you.

Flight Risk

Summary: Based off the song ‘Flight Risk’ by Tommy Lefroy

Blurbs:

#1

Request: What about an 11 x reader where they're running away from a threat but reader's just crackin jokes? Doctor or someone else gets mad at them and reader's like "If i dont distract myself i will cry :)" (its lighthearted and all in good fun)

#2

Request: 11 (platonic) x reader where reader's jist enjoying hamilton, singing along and dancing to it and the doctors like 'you know thats not accurate right' and reader goes 'ittts a musical tho its merely for fun' and maybe after awhile the doctor gets into the groove and starts jamming along with reader

#3

Request: Okay okay okay okay. Could I have a fluffy 11/Reader (they/them) blurb based around 11 always giving forehead kisses, like "What what is it with you and forehead kisses?", pretty please?

#4

Request: “Can you stay a little longer?” For a blurb, pretty please. Fluffy, established 11/reader (they/them if it comes up). Like maybe the reader is having trouble sleeping cause of a nightmare and wants the Doctor to stay until they fall asleep

#5

Request: *reader walks in covered with blood* “It’s not mine.” “Something about that should reassure me, but it doesn’t.”

#6

Request: “Don’t make me count to ten!” “You’d be lucky if you could count to three!” For a funny/cute/fluffy blurb, pretty please. Established 11/reader (they/them if it comes up). Could include Amy and Rory or Clara or River, if you're in the mood

#7

Request: This blurb request is a bit weirder, I guess. I totally understand if you don't feel like writing it. Could I please have a domestic established 11/River/Reader (they/them if it comes up) where they have a baby who's been crying a lot? And the Doctor speaks baby so he can ask the baby what's wrong? Like maybe the baby's teething? Please? Again, it's totally fine if you don't wanna write it. Alternatively, it could be tooth rotting fluff with 11/River/Reader

#8

Request: Hey, hey, guess what? I've got a blurb request lol. I would like an established Doctor/Reader (they/them if it comes up) but with the Doctor of your choice. Something funny, please. “I’ve been thinking-” “That can’t be good.”

#9

Request: Could I please have a blurb with established 11/River/Reader (they/them if it comes up) that's based on this? Maybe set in a party at the Ponds' house? Pretty please? You can decide who says it “I’ll probably end up standing uncomfortably in the corner with a plate of food and hope that nobody talks to me.”

#10

Prompt: A kiss as a ‘yes’

#11

Prompt: A kiss in secrecy

#12

Request: Could I have a soft Doctor/Reader (they/them) blurb to help me stop hyperfixating on all the bad things, please? Maybe with River too.

#13

Request: Still Into You by Paramore. I'd like it to be Doctor/Reader (they/them) and ideally without angst. Oh and you can pick which Doctor it is!

The Twelfth Doctor (platonic)

One-shots:

N/A

Blurbs:

N/A

The Thirteenth Doctor

One-shots:

N/A

Blurbs:

#1

Request: “You know you sound pretty wise for someone wrapped up in a burrito blanket”. Also, you can put this with whatever Doctor you choose. Do with this what you will.

River Song

One-shots:

Delusional

Summary: When you follow River off a building, you meet a new, old friend.

[grannygerd]

I’m Lynn from PVRIS! AMA

I’m Lynn from PVRIS. We just put out our new album Use Me which you can listen to HERE. This Saturday, we’re going to be playing our first album White Noise front to back in its entirety for the first time ever. You can get tickets for the live stream HERE.

Proof: https://imgur.com/9K4IgJf

DieDunkleFritte: Hey Lynn, would you rather have really small hands or really small feet? Best regards from germany :D pvrisofficial: Feet!!! Need normal sized hands to play instruments! haha

Nikkiestables: Lynn!!! I was in the US for my exchange and was going to FINALLY see you in person but I couldn’t:( do you think in the future you would tour Asia? Which parts would you like to explore? (Please say Hong Kong) pvrisofficial: We'd love to tour Asia more! We've loved the places we've been in Japan, Singapore, & South Korea so far! Would love to add Hong Kong!

ShadeOfNothing: Hey Lynn! I’ve been a PVRIS fan Since White Noise and I’ve loved seeing the band’s sound evolve through the years. I know you’re a huge believer in astrology, past lives, and the paranormal, so I was wondering if there were any crazy experiences you had witnessed or drew inspiration from while writing/producing Use Me. Thanks so much! pvrisofficial: yessssssss I am a nut. I didnt make Use Me in a haunted church this time but i DO think I stayed at a haunted airbnb. Food kept disappearing and then one night a giant ghostly handprint was left on my guitar case and my hand was way too small to have created it.

hinterscape: Hi Lynn! I've been following you guys since ~2014, you're awesome and I look up to you. Do you see yourself making music forever or how long do you see it if not? pvrisofficial: FOR-E-VER! It might take different forms and go through different stages but i think i will always be creating music!

imaliveunfortunately: Hi Lynn! First of all I love you and the style of music you've put out recently. I saw you at Reading last year, and in Manchester in 2017 so I'm really happy to seeing PVRIS get the exposure it deserves :) So it's gotta be asked, I understand there's issues with the label, but what are the chances of Mvdonna and Blood On My Hands being released? Whether it be as singles, on a new EP, the next album, etc? They're just damn good tracks pvrisofficial: I want them to come out SO BAD too haha. I want to make sure the production is perfect so its now a matter of finding the right collaborator for them.

CookThePasta: Do you believe in life after love? pvrisofficial: yes

OldManMalekith: Hi Lynn! How did working with JT on Use Me differ from your previous experiences with producers? Everyone that I've seen or heard work with him puts it as a really positive experience, and he helps make great stuff! pvrisofficial: He is the BEST. He was very similar to Blake in the sense that he was incredibly nurturing and encouraging, dedicated to making sure it was 100% everything I wanted and always stood up for me if the label ever tried to change it. His production style is definitely different but its extremely diverse. It's a lot punchier and crisper and a bit more minimal than in the past but i think it almost makes things more impactful that way!

villanelleinsuits: Hi Lynn! You’re a creative genius, thanks for existing. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be and why?? pvrisofficial: I would love to live in the UK countryside!!! Maybe Bath or something.

Queenio01: How are you feeling today? pvrisofficial: Sleepy but EXCITED to rehearse!

dancorcoran: How often do you get recognised by fans in day to day life? pvrisofficial: Not too often! I usually get recognized at coffee shops and starbucks though? and Lush hahaha

jessica_pasta: Hi Lynn!!! Was wondering how do you make your synth patches? What synth sounds are your favorites? Thanks so much! Love PVRIS and all that you do ❤️❤️❤️❤️ pvrisofficial: I use Zebra a lot and also use a Prophet Rev2. One of my favorite things is to throw synths through different effects to get an entirely new sound!

ImadaPC: Hi Lynn, I got a question. What inspires you to make music and why? pvrisofficial: What inspires me is wanting to hear something I havent heard! I want to hear all my favorite artists and influences into one thing so that's usually how PVRIS stuff is inspired haha.

staceelogreen: What are your stand out albums of this year!:) pvrisofficial: Great Q! 070 Shake - Modus Vivendi Tinashe - Songs For You (technically 2019 but I've been jamming it all year) They. - The Amanda Tape KAYTRANADA - Bubba (2019 but it came out late 2019 so it counts as 2020 for me!) Howling - Colure

DH00338: What are you most excited about in terms of this new era of PVRIS? pvrisofficial: More writing!! and more collaborations!

creewitch: Hiya Lynn! I hope your morning is going well. When have you felt the proudest of yourself and why? ☺️ pvrisofficial: Oooo good Q! I always think there's room for improvement so it's hard to feel pride, but I am definitely grateful for my resilience through the crazy shit haha.

liky_gecko: Because you’re from the Boston area, what are your favorite spots to eat/hang out there? I may be going to school there pvrisofficial: Do itttt! My fav spots are a little outside of the city.... the Crane Estate, Mt. Auburn Cemetery in Cambridge, Maudslay State Park in Newburyport, Portsmouth NH, Shedd Park Cemetery in Lowell.

goszkv: Hi Lynn! Was wondering if you'll ever consider coming to Poland :( ofc post corona pvrisofficial: yes!

cecy_db_11: Hi Lynn! Can't wait to see you guys this Saturday. How do you feel once the songs you write (your personal feelings and thoughts) are available for the world to listen? Do you get used to that over time? pvrisofficial: Still getting used to that to be honest. Once songs are out, I weirdly stop listening to them. Prior to that I listen in the car a lot and drive around testing songs out haha.

musicfan1976: Do you think the spring 2020 shows will still happen or be rescheduled again due to Covid? Stay healthy and take care. pvrisofficial: I truly have no idea.... :( you take care too! <3

yikesmiles: Hey Lynn! I hope you’re well! I’ve always been curious, what was it that inspired you to make music? pvrisofficial: Good Q! WHen I write, I try to write music that I want to hear that hasn't crossed my path yet.

LeahLNurse: Is there any unreleased songs you wish made it onto White Noise? pvrisofficial: Nope!

JRuiz1775: Hey Lynn! I remember the first time I saw and heard you guys was when you opened for Pierce the Veil and Sleeping with Sirens. I was hooked and have tried to see you guys anytime you are in my area. My question for you is what is your favourite tour experience? What is your dream tour to be on? pvrisofficial: There's SO many favorite tour experiences. I love touring the UK and Europe a lot, exploring before shows is my favorite thing and has some of my favorite memories. Our UK/EU tour with BMTH was one of my favorites.

ac-36: hi lynn! i love your music so much, it means a lot to me. if you were to remake your past music now, how do you think it would be different, and what do you think the future direction of the band will be? pvrisofficial: I would definitely approach the drum production a bit different but keep it pretty similar with the other textures/instruments! Future direction can go anywhere! Definitely want to keep taking risks and trying new things, but still keeping it dark!

staceelogreen: If you could go back in time to give yourself advice, what would you say to your past self? pvrisofficial: Take it easy on yourself.

NouveauJacques: Hi Lynn, huge fan and I love the power behind your music. Do you ever write songs that are too emotional and feel conflicted about putting into an album? pvrisofficial: usually if they feel too emotional or heavy, I know they need to be released haha

Defiant-Strawberry37: Hi Lynn, hope everything's okay with you and the band. I'd like to ask you what PVRIS' era you think is the best and why? Hope I can see you guys someday soon acting in Portugal. Love you all! PS: why so Lynnda? *portuguese pun intended, beautiful = linda in portuguese* ly! pvrisofficial: Thanks! I love every era tbh but I'm definitely always the most excited on the present moment!

pvrisbae: youre the cutest little soul ily. whats ur fav song at the moment? pvrisofficial: Brian showed it to me! It's "Too Late" by Washed Out.

agnespvris: Hi Lynn!! Have you had any good laughter when you've been looking through the #pvrismemes ?? pvrisofficial: oh you betcha.

whothefuckisrvmi: ok so im not understanding shit about this app but im here for you pvrisofficial: thank u

vioIentbounce: hi lynn! what do you think will be your favorite song from use me to play live? pvrisofficial: I think.... Good To Be Alive or Gimme A Min

jaydenc30: hi lynn I just wanted to say how much I appreciate you and everything you do! I hope you are doing well, what was the first song you wrote for use me? What’s does PVRIS’s future look like to you? pvrisofficial: First song for Use Me was Old Wounds! I wrote it before the second album even came out haha

IrlandaBDelao: Hi lynn, would you be down to open commisions for tattoos? If so, how much would you charge for a drawing? pvrisofficial: I wish! I do not have time to at the moment :( but if I have time in the future, you will be first to know so you can get first dibs!

CookThePasta: are you really looking at all of our memes?? pvrisofficial: trying OUR BEST!!

nonoplznowhy: why did your parents name you Lynn? pvrisofficial: Lyndsey* but they always call me Lynn or Lynds. I was named after my mom's childhood bestfriend named Lynn, she passed away when my mom was pretty young :(

golrip: What is your favourite song on awknohawnoh and why? That album literally changed my life and shaped me into the person I am today so I would really love knowing your opinion. also: what's your favourite the weeknd song/album? pvrisofficial: NOLA 1! It was my favorite to write and the memory around that time is magical. We wrote it in New Orleans and it's my favorite city.

bnizz95: Hey Lynn!! I saw you guys perform for the first time live in Cambridge last September and im so excited about the stream. I was wondering what your favorite song/songs off this album are? Also, do you still steal rosemary from your neighbors? Hahaha pvrisofficial: hahaha I have a little rosemary plant that I use now :)

vioIentbounce: are you still making collages? if not, have you taken up any new artistic hobbies lately?❤️ pvrisofficial: Little collaging here and there :) I've been researching a lot of interior design and fashion design lately!

fee-lixdawkins: Hey Lynn! Excited for the livestream! I know you’re an AFI fan. What is your favorite album and song(s) by them? Would you ever want to tour with them? I’d kill to see that happen! Take care! pvrisofficial: Brian is the bigger AFI fan! I cant pick a fave Im scared

ivykrvft: How does it feel to (kinda) be performing again as an entire band after all these months? pvrisofficial: Really good!! Definitely going to be weird without you guys in front of us!!

Ariana_0918: hi lynn <3 i wanted to know when you saw florence in concert what was your favorite song she performed live? pvrisofficial: Cosmic Love. She played it first and it was acoustic, I instantly cried hahahaha

TheSinger_Z: Hey Lynn! How old were you when you first started writing songs? What is the most memorable prank/joke that you have pulled or has been pulled on you while on tour? How many instruments do you play and what’s your favourite? I just want to say thank you, you’re my biggest inspiration when it comes to music (I sing and I’m learning to play guitar and hope to do it professionally when I’m older as I’m only 14 😬), and I’m really thankful for you guys. I got meet and greet tickets for November 30th for the White Noise stream, so see you then! pvrisofficial: i was in the 3rd grade. the songs were horrible. Its not really a prank but we love having our in ear monitor tech do the worm on stage sometimes. Extra points when he does it in costume. I can play 7 instruments! Looking to add more to the arsenal over time. I love piano a lot and drums. Keep it up, can't wait to see you be a star!!! ALso the livestream is the 21st! DOnt want you to miss it :)

CheezeGrenade: I missed out on a lot of concerts growing up and I couldn't make it to a concert out of state that I bought tickets to about a year ago. Will you guys play through Awkohawnoh again in anyway? Such as Half/Winter/No Mercy/Walk Alone. Litterally that album and the one before got me through alot of depressive phases in my life and Awk has really inspired alot of my writing for a series I want to create someday. pvrisofficial: I cant wait for you to start writing it! You got this! We will be playing through AWKOHAWNOH but the date is not announced yet :)

srankie: Are y'all Pats fans? Red Sox? Bruins? Cause if not the Eagles family will accept you with open arms pvrisofficial: NEW ENGLAND/BOSTON ALL DAY BABY!

macauley7: Could u please ask harry styles if u could tour with him? I need a pvris x harry watermelon sugar vibes thanks pvrisofficial: I'll call him right now.

brisbubbles: Hey, Lynn! Can’t wait for Saturday! I was wondering, how do you feel about singing old tracks from WN since you relearned how to sing? What has that experience been like? Wishing you and Brian the best! xzlinx: I am wondering about this as well. Maybe I am just nosey but I wonder about the process of retraining your voice and what exactlt happened. It must have been insanely difficult on her mental health but goddamn what a trooper bc Use Me is unbelievable! pvrisofficial: Great questions!!! Singing WN is definitely a little challenging to begin with because I'm older and my tone isn't the tone of 19 year old me anymore haha. A big thing was anxiety which caused me to choke up a lot and tense my chords. Then when i was being coached, out of fear of damaging something we had to rebuild and start small and light which we think caused the chords/muscles to atrophy, which set it back further haha. I eventually went to another coach who then was able to take my "retrained" voice and then strengthen it up and rebuild it back to where it was before!

ImOnlyHalfAlive: Hey Lynn! First, I can't express just how much PVRIS has meant to me over the last couple of years. Your music has helped me through so much, and I will forever be grateful. My question is: What's a life mantra you've always lived by? pvrisofficial: Life mantra (theres a lot but this one I always connect to when it comes to career): Patience and persistence is key.

Okosano: Hi Lynn and greeting from Germany! The one and only important question here : Whats your favorite comfort food? pvrisofficial: Favorite comfort food...... Indian food! My absolute favorite.

Ok-Personality1480: What’s your favorite tea pls 🤠 pvrisofficial: Throat coat for singing, housemade chai for joy.

CookThePasta: Do you know the muffin man? pvrisofficial: yes

LynnGvnnFvn: What were the creative differences between writing an album like White Noise or AWKOHAWNOH and Use Me? pvrisofficial: Age, time, locations, different producers and collaborators!

unit525: How are the submissions for the meme competition looking? Any front runners emerging? pvrisofficial: It's a CLOSE call for a lot of them...

LynXiger: Which song from your discography is your least favourite and why? pvrisofficial: I wont say incase it is anyone's favorite!! hahaha

lgbtiffany: do you have a tendency to incorporate spirituality into your creative processes? love the album and can’t wait for the stream ✨❤️ pvrisofficial: I think creating is spiritual in itself! You're channeling sound and melody and MAGICCC! So yes!

vessed1: hiii. I’d love to know who found the White Noise mirror ☺️ pvrisofficial: Me too

LynXiger: What is your favourite genre to listen to? And how has this changed over time? pvrisofficial: I'm a big sucker for hip hop and pop... really anything that's catchy and hits hard and has cool production!

nicthehic: Hey Lynn! Been a huge fan for a long long time and took up doing music professionally because I was inspired by you and the rest of Pvris’ rise and work ethic. I was wondering if there was anything you would do differently while recording your first album and any advice to new ish band working on their first professional project (in the midst of covid no less) and any tips to make our first album just as great and timeless as white noise Thank you! pvrisofficial: Awww this is awesome! I'm sure you're gonna crush it! I definitely would have wanted to make the production a little different but keep a lot of the same fundamental aspects/textures. Do what YOU feel you want to create and dont feel any outside pressures. Crush it! Cant wait for you to record!

minidudette106: Hey Lynn, Do you ever think its crazy that people get tattoos of your lyrics & ones inspired by your music? also wondering what your thoughts are on pineapple on pizza? lol pvrisofficial: I used to get freaked out bc I didnt think my lyrics were great but now I think its so cool! haha.

Hot-Lime3627: Hi Lynn, how is Opal and the other cat whom you took care of during quarantaine doing ? pvrisofficial: They are back with their owner! I truly miss them every single day... they were my little fluffy pals.

kelcea244: How do you keep your creative muscle flexed so you’re ready to create? And do you create every day? EDIT: Also really sad you guys weren’t able to make it over to the UK this month! We’ll be so psyched for you when you do come! pvrisofficial: We are sad too!!! We can't wait to get back whenever it is safe to play shows there. I miss it every day! I try to create every day even if it's just 5-10 minutes, always good to keep those muscles flexed!

socksgrowonbushes: first of all i just want to say how much i admire you, you’re amazing :) my question is what is your favourite song you have ever written? is it one that’s on an album? one that hasn’t even been released? i’m curious pvrisofficial: Use Me!

LadyEpicenter25: What the significance of playing in Arizona?! pvrisofficial: Resources to make the stream happen and rehearsals happen :)

bitchesonthephone: I have one question and one question only: When will we get Let’s Go Vertigo? pvrisofficial: NEVERRRRRR

Antique_Performer_45: Hi Lynn! I’ve been a big fan of PVRIS for a few years now. Which song from Use Me was your favorite to write? I love you guys! pvrisofficial: Use Me! or Good To Be Alive!

JadeAdelaideee: Hello!!! You’ve been a huge help with me realising I was gay, is there anyone who you would look up to when you were younger who sort of helped ease that journey? 💕✨ pvrisofficial: tbh i didnt have many. It was the scattered bits of magical gay representation on teen tv shows like Degrassi/Skins etc. haha

brandonjback: what song are you most proud of from AWKOHAWNOH? pvrisofficial: Anyone Else and NOLA 1!

DixieF: A question I've been waiting ages to ask. Why are you guys so awesome? pvrisofficial: We got awesome parents!!!

Emmahumphrees: Out of all yours songs what is your favourite lyric?? pvrisofficial: "On the porch the ceiling's painted baby blue dressed to the nines just like the sky in early afternoon 'cause it's midnight and the ghosts might be coming soon" Its a reference to a New Orleans superstition that the baby blue porch ceiling would ward off spirits in the night to trick them that it was the daytime sky.

lgbtiffany: what was the most difficult part of trying to regain your voice when you were having troubles with it? pvrisofficial: Definitely just getting on stage every night knowing it wasn't working and having to pretend it was... haha. Super embarrassing.

cnnrtower: Hi Lynn! MA fan here who first saw PVRIS open for A Skylit Drive at the Palladium in 2013. Super incredible to watch the journey for the band / yourself as an artist! What was the first gig/experience that made you stop and realize that PVRIS was going places? pvrisofficial: one of our first headline shows in CT back in 2015. Show was crazy!!

KimLC24: I was just wondering how you get your inspiration to do your art and music? because it can sometimes be hard to even get motivated let alone create pvrisofficial: Totally relate and understand! I won’t lie, the older I get, the more I need to hype myself up and set a tone to create, especially when there’s so much music swirling around us at all times (the internet/streaming/etc). I almost always have a moody or dreamy movie/show playing on my ipad next to me while I work so that way there’s an inspiring visual going.

deadweighttttt: Hi Lynn!!! What’s your all time favourite lyric from the album?! pvrisofficial: HII!! "Do you even notice how easy you've got this? Taking wings off a goddess if I'm being honest"

Pvffreis: Hi Lynn, I have no idea how to use this/reddit but great to see you here! Hope you're doing good? <3 Update: I figured out how to edit comments ayyy I just signed up to ask you this very important question: Red or green apples? pvrisofficial: Idk how either but I think I got it!! Red apples! W PB

dancingonslowsand: Hi Lynn!! Been following PVRIS for a while and I’ve loved seeing how your sound has evolved over the years. Do you have any idea of what direction you want the band to go in the future? Or are you just riding the wave and seeing what happens? Also what’s your fav bird pvrisofficial: Thanks so much! I definitely plan to just keep riding the wave… I feel like every album leaves some room for the direction to go anywhere so the next chapter never feels too restricted. I have been feeling pretty hyped and high energy lately so I feel like it may reflect that a bit! Fav bird is… PENGUINS (even though people debate that they are mammals.)

pvrisofficial: Okay my friends, I gotta head out and get to rehearsals! This was so much fun, sorry I couldn't get to every Q. Love yall! See you guys so soon! <3

November 18th, 2020

[mitcheemarns]

THANKS FOR THE PROMPTS BUT IM GOING TO IGNORE THEM AND TALK ABOUT MY LIBERO FEELINGS BY BRINGING BACK LIBERO MITCH AGAIN!

(btw this got long-ish)

Auston first notices Mitch acting a bit odd during November. Auston sees a peculiar tightness in his smile, something glazed over his eyes. It only happens on the court, during their team huddles after a point. It’s also quick -- gone before Auston really gets to categorize what emotion Mitch is feeling. It doesn’t seem to affect Mitch’s volleyball or his life outside the sport, so Auston lets it go. He chalks it up to fatigue. 

The next time Auston feels worried about Mitch is during January. The last game they played had been a pretty bad loss, losing 3-0 to a team that they really should’ve beat. They probably would have won if their defense had been half as extensive as it usually was. They’re out in some random bar celebrating the New Year when Mitch shuts down. Auston’s confused; they haven’t been out for very long and they’re only with their teammates. Mitch only usually crashes after several hours with people they might be unfamiliar with.

“You okay?” Auston asks, taking the sweating bottle of beer out of Mitch’s hands. 

Mitch looks up at him dazedly, as if he was in a trance. He’s frowning. He says over Travis’s cackle, “yeah. I’m awesome.” Then he turns to his right to strike up a conversation with Mo. 

Auston lets him be and makes sure to hold him extra tight when they go to bed later that night.

It all comes to a head during a game in March. 

Mitch has been playing his best volleyball, averaging around 2.5 digs a set. Coach has been quite proud, but he doesn’t mention it in words. It’s all dealt in quick smiles and excited high-fives. Despite Mitch soaring in his defensive game, Auston has seen a decline in everything else. And it’s not like he was the only one to notice; Mo and Travis and JT and Jake and Fred and everyone else on the team has asked him about Mitch’s dark under-eyes and the down-turned corners of his lips. Auston hasn’t been able to give them an answer. 

The game they play goes kind of bad, too. They’re still in the first set, which means they have lots of time to win the match, but they’re down 16-5. It doesn’t look good. One of their tougher servers launches one directly at Mitch. It wipes off Mitch’s arms and heads directly out of court. They’re now down 17-5. Coach calls a timeout. Auston catches a glimpse of Mitch’s face as they head to the sidelines. Mitch’s eyes glisten under the bright lights, his face flushed pink and eyes rimmed red. Auston shares a look with Mo, and decides to stage an intervention afterwards. 

Later, when they’re changed after their loss, Auston waits for everyone to trickle out of the changing room. He sits at his sparse stall and looks at Mitch, who’s stuffing all his finger tape and compression sleeves into his bag. Mitch turns around to Auston. 

“You ready to go? Everyone else is gone,” Mitch says. His voice is rough. His eyes droop down. 

“Yeah, sure,” Auston hums. He stays in his stall with both arms behind his head. Mitch zips up his bag and slings it over a shoulder. “You know what? Come here for a sec.”

Mitch looks at him with confusion. It would be adorable, but the tiredness and hurt in his face makes Auston very, very sad. Mitch walks to him slowly, dropping his bag on the ground when he makes it there. Auston sits up properly and motions Mitch to come closer. 

“Come sit on my lap. Gotta talk to you,” Auston says and pats his thighs. Mitch frowns but complies, sitting down so he’s facing away from Auston. 

“What now?” 

Auston nudges his nose into the crook of Mitch’s neck and shoulder. He inhales. 

“What’s wrong, Mitchy?” 

Mitch shivers. “Nothing. What are you talking about?” 

Auston’s hands wrap tighter around Mitch’s waist. He’s starting to squirm. 

“Don’t lie. What’s with all the not-sleeping and not-socializing? Everyone’s pretty worried, including me.” He presses a kiss to Mitch’s neck. 

“Nothing, man. Just wanted to focus on volleyball.” 

Auston stops. “Volleyball? You’ve been playing fucking ace these past few months. I think you’re good, Mitchy Mouse.”

Mitch stiffens, and Auston knows he’s about to bolt. He makes sure to wrap his arms around Mitch’s entire torso so he has nowhere to go. 

“I haven’t been playing well. If I played better, we wouldn’t have lost today.”

“What the fuck are you talking about? You were the reason we didn’t lose even more horrifically.” 

“Yeah, but, there were so many saves I could’ve made. It’s all my fault!” 

Mitch sniffles. Auston’s heart drops into his stomach. 

“Mitch--baby, don’t you ever think it’s your fault that we lost. Volleyball’s a sport with six people on the court. It depends on the whole team. No one thinks it’s your fault. You make saves all the fucking time, maybe it’s our turn to pay you back and value them more.” 

Mitch doesn’t say anything.

“Hey,” Auston says softly. “Are you crying?” 

“No,” Mitch says through a blocked nose. 

“Okay.” 

They stay like that until Auston’s ass goes numb sitting on the wooden bench, Mitch in Auston’s lap. It takes ten more minutes for Mitch to shift so he’s facing Auston. He can see the faint track from Mitch’s tears. He kisses both of Mitch’s cheeks. 

“Let’s go home,” Mitch says. He’s been clutching onto Auston. He sounds a bit better. 

“Okay,” Auston smiles. 

They go home.

[thoughtslikeocean]

New Orleans

June 23

-This was Rhyann’s last day with me. His flight left Phoenix at 1 PM. We spent the morning together and then I brought him to the airport. I came back home, packed, cleaned up a bit and then head out to catch my flight. Traveling was long. My flight was delayed and also I had a lay over in Las Vegas. Which feel very senseless when you’re traveling to New Orleans. Anyway, I arrive in New Orleans around midnight. Britt picks me up from the airport. Traveling is smooth because I decided I didn’t need to check a bag. I packed two and a half outfits and went on about my way.

June 24

-Britt woke up this morning to go to brunch with her friends. She invited me but I was way to exhausted to go so she let me sleep in for a little while longer. Our plan was to hangout and then meet Jarvis later which is pretty much what happened. Brittany had to bring her friend’s dog to the boarding place which was an entire event honestly. Anyway , we picked up some crawfish and po boys and then head to Jarvis new apartment. It’s super cute and in a great location. He’s spending hella money for it but its a cute little bachelor pad though. It’s nice for the season he’s in. Later on Jarvis’s friend Chad comes to join us. I’ve heard about Chad numerous and times and has talked to him over the phone but this is my first time meeting him. This dude is 45 and looks 25. Legit get like Pharell. It was astonishing to see. We all drank wine and chat for a bit before deciding to head to the roof top. There is when I noticed there was a full moon. I immediately sat down and started to pray and manifest that I have a weekend filled with divine meetings and appointments. I didn’t necessarily have a frame work of what thats supposed to look like but I knew I wanted everything to be intentional this weekend. After that, we all attempted to find a spot to eat but that fell through so Britt Jarvis and I ended up picking up insomnia and then Britt and I headed back to her place.

June 25

-For this morning the plan was to meet Jarvis, Chad and Shay for brunch. We got a bit of a late start but we ended up making it happen. We ate a spot in the French quarter called Stanley’s. Their food was pretty good and it was a cute atmosphere. Shay and the kids dipped once they were done eating and Britt needed to make it back home os she could hang out with her friends later. Me, Chad and Jarvis were left so we went somewhere else to grab a drink This is when Chad and I start hitting it off and I realize this is someone who is going to be very helpful in making sure than I am successful if I decide to set up a practice in New Orleans. It literally felt like a divine appointment. It was solicited when he asked me if I knew Dr. Turshá! I was like uhhhh yeaaaaa duhhhh!!! Apparently they went to high school together! All in all, it was an unspoken agreement that we were meant to meet at exactly this moment in time for a reason. Chad had to leave for work so I asked Jarvis to bring me by my grandparents house so I can spend a little time with them. Jarvis had a therapy appointment so I he did that while I was on Belfast and came back when it was over. Grandpa really just wanted to talk about Lazarus and all the BS but I wasn’t about to do that. I had a little liquor courage of course and I was able to just speak candidly on how I felt about the situation. I wasn’t disrespectful at all but I was really tired of him stressing over this Lazarus situation when this boy is gone be just fine. He just wants other people to stress out with him. Anyway so we leave there and head over to this place called “The Wrong Iron” to meet Greg and his friends. We get there and its such a cute backyard ducked off spot. Nice drinks and cool people. I met Kevin, Gabriel and Justin. All seemingly good people. I order a drink called Strawberry Frozé not realizing that it’s made with Rosé. I Got halfway though the glass and my stomach was hurting so bad. So we all made the move to get wings from a place that I cant figure out the name. But the wings were really good. While we were in there waiting for our food, I caught a timely video of Greg falling through a door but picking himself back up mid air. It was classic. Literally just happened to be recording at exactly the right time. We left there and Jarvis drops me off at Greg’s place. Me, Greg and Justin chill for a minute, take shots, listen to music, smoke a bit before heading back out. Arial worked today but said she would come to NO so we can hang out. So by this time she’s here and I figured I would run into her at some point. Of course once we parked and walked not even two blocks, we happen to be right around the corner from where she was already sitting down having drinks. She came with her girlfriend Payton and friend John (JT). We ate another cute outdoor place called The Yard. Took a few shots, danced and ate fried pickles. We then walk over to a place called Dragon’s Den. It was cool but it was still early in the night os still a bit slow. We left after about 10 minutes and drive to this place that we saw on the way there. It was also outside but a little more (lot more) hood. It looked like it was jumping though. So we get out and somehow just walk in without standing in the line. This tends to happen very often when I’m out with Arial lol So we waltz on in. Music is BLASTING. They playing good stuff though. We head to the bar to grab shots. Arial decides she’s gonna find some weed. Greg goes “no way you’ll be able to do that in here”. Of course she comes back within 10 minutes with weed lol Again, not surprised…it’s Arial. They smoke a bit and I dance a lot. Having a great time! We leave there after maybe an hour and decide to drive back to Dragon’s Den. A parking spot opened up for us in the strangest way. Which you know tryna park in the streets of New Orleans can be real difficult. But we didnt have any problems tonight. Everything worked out just fine. Side Note: We were freestyling in the car which is something I only ever do when im at camp with kids. I forgot how much joy

that brings hahah

So anyway we make out way back into Dragon’s Den, which is popping at this point. Good music, got some drinks in our system. Its all well. I even see Terri and a couple other people form XU in there. Arial and Payton end up dipping out at some point during that time. Eventually Greg, JT, Justin and I dip as well. We bring JT to his car and then the three off us decide we’re hungry again! We hit a place that has good fish, shrimp and grits. We were the only ones in there. It was freakin delicious. Two funny moments happened in there. 1. We were so thirsty so we asked if we could all get water. We’d been drinking all night so thats definitely what we needed. I guess the man was trying to be nice ad gave us all free sprites. You want to be grateful but at the same time we def dont need sprites. We laughed about that for like 30 minutes. Cause of course we never went back and asked for the water. 2. Three young white boys walk in. By young, I mean no more then 14 years old trying so hard to act cool. Young dude walk up to our table to tell her, unprovoked, that hes been smoking since he was 12 and some other BS that none us cared about. All three of those kids were weird. Also it was like 4 AM so who’s idea it was to take mom’s car and head out in the middle of the night I have no clue.

At any rate, we leave there and head home. It was 5 am by the time I showered and laid down. WHAT A NIGHT!

June 26

-At some point throughout the night we’d decided to do brunch this morning. I knew Justin wasn’t going to be able to make it because he said he had a funeral to attend. We woke up, sat on the porch and smoked a bit before getting dressed. It was a beautiful morning. We got dressed to a little praise through the speakers and decided on Ruby Slipper. Arial made it there first and called to let us know that the wait was 3 hours so of course thats a no. She then tells us to head to a place called Bear Cat. We didnt realize that there were two different Bear Cats so we ended up at two opposite ones. We decided that it wasn’t going to work. We missed the window of opportunity. So Greg and I put our names on the waiting list for the Bear cat we’re at and there’s a 90 minute wait. While we’re waiting we decide to kill time at this near by restaurant and get some drinks. Once we sit down there and look at the menu, we decided to order food. I ordered shrimp and grits and he chicken and waffles. Before we got our food, out waiter comes to tell us that its restaurant week and that our food is going to be 20 dollars. LIKE WHATTTTT?!?!? We ate, drank, vibes to the music and then stopped by my grandfather afterwards to say hello. Then we back to the house to chill for a minute. Jarvis came back cause I left my card with him and Justin cam back as well. We started nerding out on space/history/physics before heading out to get snowballs and zoom to the airport. I got a cotton candle snowball from plum st. Made it to the airport 30 minutes before the plan was to take off and still got a great seat. I sat next to two women who were on their way to Vegas for a girls trip. One of them had never flown before. She actually did pretty well. A few jumps and yelps but for the most part she did okay. The last sitting right next to me was very nice and passed on some words of wisdom on staying prayerful and focused. Alex picked me up from the airport and I came home only to be craving crab legs. I picked those up, came home and talk to bae while I ate them. He went to bed and I went soon after him.

[lexiloann95]

Our story Ch.3

She knew choosing to be with Simon meant he didn’t want kids or to be married, and thats what she always wanted as a little girl, and now knew that would never happen, but she was willing to accept the reality when she chose to be with him. As Paula was watching the children, Simon noticed “Are you okay darling?” Simon asked “Hm? Oh yeah, I was just thinking..” Paula answered. “Are you sure? We can go back to the hotel if you don’t feel good” Paula gave a quick smile, “It’s just my back, from walking all day, are you sure you don’t mind if we go back” she asked. “Of course not” he said as he put his arm around her back and leaned over to kiss the top of her head.

-At the hotel-

They walk into the room and Paula takes off her shoes and goes to sit down, and Simon meets her. As he walked over to the couch, he saw her hand on her lower back and her face was winced in pain. He genuinely felt bad that she had to deal with something that hurt her like this, and his first instinct was to comfort her. He went over, and sat next to her and rubbed her back with his hand. “Do you want to go to lay down?”He asked. “Yes, it helps most of the time ” she said, then he helped her up and over to the bed. “Do you want me to get you anything” he asked. “No, I’ll be fine.” Paula said as she found a comfortable spot on the bed. Simon noticed the scars she had, because of the halter top she was wearing, and he traced one with his hand . Are these from your surgeries?” He asked quietly “Yeah, I’ve had 12 of them to try to help, but its only made it worse” she said “My god...I had no idea” Simon started. “It’s okay, some days are better than others” she said. Simon looked at all the scars on her and felt bad he had never talked to her about her pain before. He moved to her lower back, and heard her let out a small moan. He then leaned down and kissed one of her more prominent scars, slowly making his way to her neck and Paula slowly turned over, shifting herself under Simon. He continued kissing her neck, while Paula ran her hand through his hair,taking the moment in, and Simon placed a trail of kisses to her lips. “You’re so beautiful” he said through the kiss. “Simon...” Paula said as he moved back to her neck, but was too quiet for Simon to hear. A tear began to run down her cheek as she had a flashback to Jt. “Simon..” she said, trying not to sound scared. Simon heard her, and pulled away. “Darling.. Are you alright? ” He asked as he saw the tear on her cheek, as he sat up. . “I’m sorry I...I cant” She said as she fought back the tears she already felt. “I’m sorry...I didn’t mean to..Are you all right?” He asked as he took her hand in his . “No it wasn’t you..Its just I haven’t..been with anyone since Jt” She said once she caught her voice. “Are you sure? I feel absolutely horrible.” He said. She nodded her head. “It’s okay,I know” she said . “I just..I could never do...what he did.” Simon said. Paula kissed his cheek “Its okay I know. It wasn’t you, you don’t have to apologize Simon...” She asked. “Is there anything I can do?” He asked “just hold me” “come to simey” He said as he patted his knee and held his arm up for her. Paula went on his lap as she buried her face in his chest. Simon wrapped his arms around her and kissed the side of her head.

- A month later

It was early in the morning, and Paula was downstairs making coffee. Simon was up stairs getting ready for a meeting he had to go to for American Idol, and Paula was about to leave for a meeting she had for a dance company she was going to buy. Simon had moved into Paula’s house about a week after they came back from Hawaii, and everyone knew they were dating. Paula’s and Simon’s mothers were both very excited they were finally together, and always wanted them to get married. Simons mother was always very fond of Paula, and saw her as the daughter she never had. Paula’s mother saw how different she was around him, and could tell she had never been happier. She noticed the way Simon would look at her, how he talked about her, and how he would hold her, and she had never seen anyone treat her as well as Simon did. Paula was just poring Simons coffee for him as he walked into the kitchen. He hugged her from behind and gave her a kiss on her cheek. “You look beautiful in that suit darling” he said as Paula turned around. “Thank you, and you look handsome in that color” she said as she reached up to fix his collar. “Mmm, you smell good too. Im going to be late,but I made your coffee for you, and don’t forget we have the realator coming over at 2 today. I should be home by then” Paula said as she reached up to give him a kiss. “Is that today? I’ll call you when I’m done. I love you” he said as Paula walked away. She smiled “I love you too” she answered as she reached the door. “Paula, wait. Have you seen my keys?” He asked “Yeah, they’re on the table by the front door.” She said.

- A few hours later

Paula was on her way to her sisters house,to have lunch when her phone rang while she was sitting in traffic. She reached for her purse and dug her phone out, thinking it was Simon. “Hello?” She answered “Hello, Im looking for Paula Abdul” a friendly female voice answered. “Hi, yes, this is her” Paula answered. “Yes, my name is Lisa. I’m a nurse at Cedar Sinai hospitals’ emergency room department. We have a patient here by the name of Simon Cowell. There has been an accident, and we need you to come in as soon as possible. You can ask for me when you reach the third floor.” The woman replied. “What? Yes that’s my boyfriend. Is he okay? What happened?” Paula said as she felt tears begin to form. “I’m sorry ma’am but we aren’t able to release that information. We just need you to come in right away. Does he have any other family I can call?” She asked. “No, they all live in England. Im on my way, I’ll be there in 15 minutes” Paula said. She arrived at the hospital about 20 minutes later, because of traffic. She rushed up to the third floor and went to the nurses station she saw. “Hi, I’m looking for a nurse named Lisa from your Emergency Room department. she called me about my boyfriend, Simon. Is he okay?” She asked. The nurse at the desk typed something in the computer. “Yes, Paula? I’ll page her for you” she smiled.

About a minute later a nurse walked up to her. “Hi, Paula? I’m Lisa” she reached out to shake her hand. “Hi, so how is he? What happened?” Paula asked. “Your boyfriend was in a serious motor vehicle accident. A truck hit the front of his car head on. The driver didn’t make it, but Simon is in the ICU. He has a concussion, two broken ribs, and a lot of torn ligaments in his right shoulder, and he is pretty bruised, but he is going to be okay. I’ll get the doctor for you, and he can let you know more. He will need surgery for his shoulder” the nurse told her. Paula felt the tears run down her face “Is..is he awake? Can I see him, please” Paula said through tears. “Yes, he has to stay awake because of the concussion. Follow me, I’ll take you to his room.” The nurse put her arm around Paula and led her to a door and stopped. “Here he is, go ahead, talk to him, he’s been asking for you” the nurse said, and walked away. Paula slowly opened the door and walked up to his bed. He was barely awake because of the pain meds he was on. She sat down beside him, and held his hand, as the tears ran down her face. She tried to wipe them away but they kept streaming down her face. “Simon, it’s me..I’m right here..its going to be okay honey. If you can hear me..I love you” she wiped her tears away again, as Simon slowly opened his eyes. “Paula..I’m sorry..” he said as he tried to breath through the pain. “No, honey, it wasn’t your fault. Someone hit your car. It’s going to be okay, I’m here” she said as she wiped the tears away, then held his hand to her cheek, then kissed it. “Don’t cry darling. I’m okay. I love you” He said as he held her hand.”I love you too”. She said as she leaned down and kissed his forehead.

-3 days later

Simon was in surgery, and Paula was waiting in the waiting room for the doctor to come out. She had stayed by Simons side and hadn’t left the whole time she was there. She was drinking her third cup of coffee that morning to stay awake. She had barely slept or ate the three days she was there despite the wonderful nurses bringing her food and insisting she get some rest. Just then the doctor walked in and walked up to her and smiled “Good news, the surgery went good, he did great. He’s still in recovery, and recovery shouldn’t be to bad, he should be himself with in a few weeks, but he will be sore” The doctor said. “Thank you! Doctor you have been amazing. Can I see him?” She asked. “He will still be a while.I know you haven’t left him since he came in. You should go home, take a shower, eat...sleep. He will be in good hands, he needs you to take care of yourself too. I’ll let him know you’ll be back” The doctor said. Paula hesitated. “I just don’t want anything to happen to him. I don’t..” Paula started. “He would want you to rest, just take a couple of hours for yourself” he said. Paula bit her lip. “I guess a quick shower wouldn’t hurt....thank you doctor” she shook his hand and he gave her a hug.