#BRB CRYING OVER MY FAMILY /POS

[cosmic-ships]

It's canon now.. Mills gives Kaden piggyback rides when they're too tired to walk. It's always a struggle for Mills (and Koa at times) to get me to agree with it though because I get embarrassed when I get picked up.

but also also,say I get a piggyback from Mills but then once I get let down Koa feels tired. Then I would absolutely piggy back Koa around!

GASP I'd make her give me a look of =_= because I'd all her my KOA-la bear! bwahahaha!!! >: D

[boxwinebaddie]

Hi Uncle Neen! HYH! It sucks to see you struggling cuz you are a big inspiration of mine :( but you said you did your makeup the other day. Can we seeeeeeeeee maybe?

d'awwww ksahdlkdss, you are so sweet, nonnie! thank you so so soooo much, baby! xx i really needed this. i hope i heal ( i will...i have to, i am too much of an asshole to let god win, fuck him ) and i hope you heal from whatever harms you as well! you can do it! mWAH!~

-- also brb crying ;-; <3333 whenever y'all tell me i inspire you, it seriously makes me want to cry; you mean SO much to me, so to mean so much to you; it's Everything to me, my love. thank you for believing in me, know i believe infinitely in YOU and will keep fighting the good fight, living authentically and modelling pos behavior on this blog bc i take being a role model very seriously. :')

BUT ANYWAYS! sakhdlasd oh my god aaAaaAAAaa please!!! YOU ARE SO CUTE, THIS IS SO CUTE OF YOU, hELP AAAAA!!!!!! but yes, of course, of course. considering i am super bacteria nina right now and had to resign from my ( admittedly ) trash job and am no longer, at this moment, an education girlie ( besides on here, ofc, educating you on my two gay sons in love ), i can freely exist and post pictures of myself again! thank you for for giving me a safe place to do that. <3

i'll elaborate on what 'safe' means to me down below, but just for context i took this...sigh...last week, when i was told i would 'all better', just trying to feel like myself again after a month of being unmadeup and unfitted and ugly and troll-like and on death fucking row and fucking miserable as hell, i had my new hair appointment lined up, was about ready to take life by the balls again...and that shit BLUE BALLED ME SO HARD AND SAID *ravenstan vc* JK, BABY!

okay, sorry i have some really bad scarring and wounding up there by my neck so i had to cover her up but...there she is! the she beast!

as for posting pictures of myself just...please...PLEASE BE KIND. and i wish i meant that as a joke, i mean it very, VERY seriously. i am at a point right now, where i look my very fucking worst, i am weaker than i have ever been in my life, there are abrasions all over my body, which per the results of my culture ( i was right...several fucking times and no one would listen to me ) my body is trying to kill me and right now...it is Winning. ( i'm not gonna lose tho, dw, i am a nasty bitch from hell and i refuse to die this ugly, i fucking won't; choke )

tldr; I AM VERY VERY VERY SENSITIVE ABOUT HOW I LOOK. I DO NOT FEEL PRETTY, I AM LIKE ONE BAD COMMENT AWAY FROM TEARING THE SKIN OFF MY FACE AND I AM TELLING YOU GUYS I CANNOT DO THAT, I CANT CREATE ANY TEARING ON MY BODY OR THE BACTERIA WILL TUNNEL AND ITS HARD ENOUGH AS A BITCH WITH DERMATILOMANIA.

PLEASE BE NICE TO ME.

i know we shoot the shit on here and are funny and clown eachother, you guys are my family; it's what families do, but my boundary is that you can say i am pretty and be objectively kind or Please do not send me anything At ALL about how i look; i CANNOT take it rn. i know were just joking, but please, please, PLEASE Do NOT compare me to any ugly creatures, make me feel weird about any part of my face, tell me i look blurry, say anything is too big or too small…

please don’t meme on me abt my appearance...Ever.

it’s a very sensitive spot for me and makes me v anxious.

all this to say, i love you; thank you for being my home.

HYH.

-uncle nina, single ravesey mother and human petri dish

[here-lies-golden-kamuy]

Regarding your words from the previous reblog, I do have some Nikaidou headcanons!

Since it's mentioned the twins are from a Japanese prefecture Shizuoka, the Nikaidou family works in a fishery.

Kouhei and Youhei lived normal lives. The two were menaces to kids their age, playing (mostly) harmless pranks on them, the most obvious one is lying each others identities or guess who is who.

Their hometown is always a warm climate, so when the twins joined the army, they hate the cold. To keep each other warm, the brothers embraced each other.

Their parents are still alive until the present events of GK. This is why Kouhei was desperate of wanting to go home, but slowly loose parts of himself due to blind vengeance.

(These headcanon only exist if Youhei is still alive)

After Youhei gotten a tooth gap from Sugimoto, Kouhei (eventually other people) would put put random objects inside the hole of the tooth.

When asleep, Youhei would 'whistle' due to to the air passing through the gap and this cause Kouhei to irritated by it thus leading to him putting small folded papers or anything to stop the whistling.

Well, that's all the headcanons I have so far. Hope you like it~

@moonbirdflies OMG I LOVE YOUR HEADCANONS, I WANT THEM TO BE CANON STAT!!!! RIGHT NOW!!!! WRITING TO NODA-SENSEI RIGHT NOW /J

AAAAAAH your childhood headcanons for them are so good I'm weepy thinking of them as little kids 🥹 If I remember correctly, the twins were born in November, which makes them Autumn children! I can totally see them hating the cold; maybe they have a thing like Goldilocks where they want things just right? Hence Autumn is their favorite season because it's cool but not oppressively cold, and they can play under the falling leaves too! Also, them embracing themselves in cold, harsh Russian winters? My god you're a genius.

Your idea of them being little pranksters is SOOO CUTE!!!! Maybe that's an identical twin thing to do - messing with other people when it comes to their identity! I can see them being partners in crime since they were children and bonding over pranks and jokes as they grow up! Kouhei already has an adorable laugh, so I'd love to think that their early years were filled with so much joy and laughter!

Wanting to go home? BRB CRYING IN THE CLUB 😭 /J THE NIKAIDOUS ARE DUTIFUL SONS!!!! I WON'T TAKE ANYTHING LESS!!!!

LASTLY, THE TOOTH GAP AND PUTTING OBJECTS IN BETWEEN THE TEETH ARE SO....NIKAIDOUCORE I LITERALLY LAUGHED MY ASS OFF WHEN IMAGINING IT!!!! /POS Yes, that's the type of shit that the twins would do.....Youhei wanting to return the favor to Sugimoto and make him have a tooth gap too. I dunno why that's my favorite hc - maybe because it's so on brand with GK humor, and maybe because it's still a sign of their intense brotherly love <3

I love how you're converting me into becoming a harder Nikaidou stan and I'm living for it!!!! Thank you once again for sharing these with me! I'd love to hear more (or help make more if you want!) in the future, love!

[shifting-haven]

Dream

TL;DR: Dreamt I was on a cruise ship, saw/met some DR friends, saw two numbers (240 and 241) that felt important and it turns out they basically represent success and that I should trust my intuition.

AGDIUGIUADGIUSI 

y’all. 

I just had a very vivid dream related to my DR and it had a couple of numbers in it that felt significant in it and I just agagduhshdh it was a lot.

I wasn’t going to talk about this, because I didn’t want anyone to think I was cringey, but I don’t give a shit anymore because I’m just so excited!! I feel really close to my DR and I feel like I really am close to shifting! However, I will be keeping specific names out of this (unless someone asks me to put them in or somethin, idk) because I don’t wanna be called cringey so-

why is it everyone else can do something but I can’t?? everyone else can talk about their DR’s and people from them but I can’t bc of my dumb brain :(

Okey dokey. So. Basically.

In this dream, my CR fam and I (I’m unsure if I was in my CR body or not?? I remember thinking I was but I also remember having a body type similar to my DR self so I’m unsure) decided to go on a cruise!

Fun!!! Nothing could go wrong, right???

w r o n g. :)

The room numbers on the ship were all completely out of order.

I mean it when I say that it was a nightmare. Instead of being arranged according to number, like they’re supposed to be, these numbers seemed to have been decided by the mere whim of whatever chaotic being was behind this merging of dimensions. I passed room 5, 13, 27, 35, 4, 1, 278, etc., with no hope of finding mine nor my family’s room anytime soon.

After a lot of walking around and knocking on the wrong doors, we finally arrived at our rooms. Now, what was weird about this was: A, our rooms were consecutive numbers, 240 and 241, and B, instead of following dream logic, they were right beside one another.

Since these numbers didn’t follow dream logic, and seemed pretty important, I decided to google them, in case they were angel numbers.

241:

Angel number 241 is a message that affirms success in your current endeavors if you remain disciplined and avoid acting impulsively. ... Angel number 241 is also a reminder that you should foster genuine relationships with people through love and patience, as this will inevitably bring you closer to your spiritual destiny.

240:

Angel Number 240 is a message to listen to your intuition and inner-wisdom and trust that the angels are ensuring that your needs are met as you toil towards success and achievement. Have faith and trust in your angels and surrender your worries and fears to them for transmutation and healing.

Aight, brb. Going to go screech. /j

Anyways, anyways. So while we were unpacking, I noticed a fun little fact about my room (my room number was number 241).

My closet was connected to the room beside me. Meaning that the rooms shared a closet.

I could literally just open up my closet door, go inside, then go through the other closet door and just stroll into that room. 

Also, weirdly enough, no one seemed to live there? Like, every time I went through the door, the lights would be on, but no one would be inside.

(I totally didn’t take this as another symbolic thing that represented shifting. No sir, not me. /s /lh)

So after that fiasco, my family decided ‘hey! Let’s go to the pool :D’ and since I adore swimming, I immediately went ‘hell yeah’ (but not literally because if I cursed in front of my family they would kill me lmao).

So we went down to the pool and I, clad in a white t-shirt and black shorts (which I’m excited about because that’s what I’ve scripted myself to be wearing when I first shift ahdusuhds), stand on this weird elevated platform thing, surveying the crowds, trying to find a secluded spot because I’m shy af.

The way the pools were set up is weird. Basically there were three platforms, one that led out to the pools, another which held four smaller pools (kinda like hot tubs), and a third which led out to a giant one with waterslides and stuff. It was really neat, and there was even an area with sand in it for kids to play.

So. I was standing there, looking around kind of shyly, wondering where I could go where I didn’t have to greet people.

and that’s when my eyes widen and I’m severely tempted to toss my social anxiety to the side and jump headfirst into one of the pools before me.

There’s people from my DR there. They’re mixed in with the crowds, but it’s easy for me to find them. I start to get excited, swiveling my head around as I start to recognize all of my friends.

Of course I immediately whip around to my parents.

“Can I get in??” I ask desperately, probably looking like I’m about to implode.

“Sure!” But I am already gone.

As soon as one of the more irritable ones has left the area (I knew that none of them would really know me, not in this reality, so I wanted to play it safe), I bound over to them and sit in the pool they’re in. At this point, I’m practically shaking in excitement and glee.

They were there. Right in front of me. With me.

hfhdhdfih i think imma cry honestly /pos

One of them lifts his head out of the water (he was lying down underwater for.. some reason, honestly wtf bro) and talks to me, but I forgot about what. I think I said some dream logic type of thing but idk anymore. I do remember asking about the irritable friend, asking how his hair never got slicked down from being wet. The one who had been under the water said that he didn’t know, but he saw him putting something in his hair earlier.

I may or may not have snickered at that (I did, which makes me even more grateful that he had left because knowing him, he probably would’ve yeeted me out of the pool).

So I was chilling, talking to two of the people from my DR (AHDUHSHDH), when one of them (a girl) turns to me, eagerly asking if we can be friends.

I said yes, of course. I also told them about my weird closet.

The girl immediately grabs my shoulders, shakes me a little, then begs me to let her come over and see it (she’s very excitable in my DR lmao). I say yes.

anyways after that I don’t remember much. The friend did come over (along with underwater dude lmao) and was really excited about the closet (idk why, but I, once again, took that as symbolism).

After that a lot of weird, dream logic type stuff happened that I’m disregarding, except for one part where the girl from before and I were talking.

The girl: “I’m sorry he turned you down.”

Me: “It’s okay.”

The girl: “Well.. If it makes you feel better, he said he was just looking for a friend right now.”

anyways it freaked me out because of the second part of the meaning of 241. Something tells me that probably was a warning to be patient.

Anyways ahduhshdihshssihd I’m shifting tonight I can feel it. I know I’m close!