#BOTH OF THEM DEFINED LIKE THAT AND SAID LIKE LMAOOO

[carmenized-onions]

and i’m back with another yap session🤭okay okay, there were some parts that i forgot to mention last time so hopefully i can hit them this time and feel less insane😀

1. SYD AND TONY!!! i’ve been wanting to touch on them for a while but i never know how to do in a way that makes sense?? BUT THE FRIENDSHIP IS SO PRECIOUS, I CAN’T. they remind of the tiktok sound that’s like “we were girls together” and i literally can’t get that outta my head with them🥺 i think i just love reading about tony and the rest of the gang?? like i love seeing how they fit into the chaotic puzzle that was the beef– ESPECIALLY with all the new changes happening!! plus carmy’s reactions to tony’s dynamic with everyone is actually hilarious😭 like when he was so pressed that ppl have their own nicknames for her. like carmy, please remember to breathe LMAOOO

2. also the current chapters are still making me wanna run up my WALLS😭i don’t think i ever know peace anymore… WHAT DO MEAN THE WORSE DAY IF THEIR LIVES IS COMING?? SAVE ME?? IM SCARED??

3. and carmy’s so sick and twisted but like me too so it’s cool😎 but in all seriousness, it reminds me of that feeling of being in a 3 person friend group but knowing there’s a duo and you’re not apart of it (am i articulating this properly?? idk??) it’s such an odd feeling to be jealous of something that you know you probably shouldn’t be. like just because they’re besties, doesn’t mean that they care for you any less. but i also get his desire to wanting to be her person and not just the little brother full in but then again, you can’t even blame him for feeling like that cause WHO WOULDN’T??

AHHH THERES SO MUCH MORE I WANNA SAY but this is getting kinda long so i will hold off‼️again, just wanna reiterate how much your writing makes me wanna ascend into the divine plane; it literally so amazingggg😫 tysm for reading this certified long ass yap session🫶🏾

Cannot define enough how much I love these yap sessions, literally always feel free to send me any and all fleeting thoughts in the brain box.

aside: new chapter uhhhh Sunday probably? Maybe tomorrow possibly? Pending how fast I am. I'm trying to get the next two chapters drafts done together so I can refine the first one with the knowledge of what's gonna happen in the second. Cause n Effect, All That.

ANYWAYS, you can be incoherent-- Just so you know-- It's my job to make sense of what's in my inbox, u don't have to work on that. BUT YES I LOVE WRITIN EM, I am slowly more and more just writing bits and pieces of my own friendships and isms into them. So, they're a delight of memories, to write about. AND VERY MUCH SO WE WERE GIRLS TOGETHER. I think that's literally a line, in delivery fees, something like 'you become girls, together' cause it's just ! regress! in a good way hehe.

I love writing Tony with the idea of a season 3 Bear-- Because it's this weird thing where she is simultaneously new and old-- And everything to her is also new and old. It's this weird fucking neo-nostalgia that's really fun to chew on. AND YES HE'S SO CREASED.

I try to put myself in the perspective of the perspective I'm writing for, with whatever, and when I was writing Carmen's chapter I was like this stupid motherfucker Richie got to do all this shit and hae all these stupid nicknames why the FUCK DO YOU WANT TO SAY HI TO HIM?? RICHIE!!!!?!?!??!?! And then reading it back now, a week or so later, I was like Wow. Kind of a lot, bro. Lets both take a step back.

2. Your fears are valid. Well. Is that what I'm supposed to say here? Hm. Here's what I'll say, I haven't gotten to the bad bad part, yet. So like, it could end up being not that bad, to you guys. To me it's bad. It's really bad. But like, maybe you're fine. ALSO 3RD OR 4TH WORST DAY I SAID-- JUST THE WORST FRIDAY. Because I had to give them Top something, I just needed to get specific.

3. As the littlest sibling, 100%. I can't see myself being friends with any of my older brothers' friends, so the idea of becoming one of their friends and posthumously finding out they were best friends with my brother? WHAT? WHAT? WHAT? DID THEY TELL YOU ABOUT ME? DO YOU THINK I'M LITTLE BABY LITTLE STUPID? And it's also like, just being friends with All of The Beef is like ohhhhh, I remember it took me a long time to warm up and make my way with them, but for you it was probably so easy cause you're just like that, which is why I like you so why do I feel angry about that !!!

AND ONCE AGAIN, THANK YOU THANK YOU, FEEL FREE TO YELL IN MY INBOX WHENEVER. P.s if anyone made it this far, u got me. I'm makin' a taglist. Reply/DM/Ask to be added!

But if you wanna be added,,,, you gotta send an essay in with it baby, or I simply won't it's the RULES!

p.s i really do love u so dearly for sending in your thoughts thank u thank u angel <3

[literaphobe]

Also what you said in your tags about older fanfics — so true that sometimes it’s hard to figure out if something's “popular” (defining as high kudos/comments count) because it is from Ye Olden Fandom days and/or continuously got new chapters (and thus, comments) over time or if it's really. a fandom classic. Either way the MLB fandom has a bunch of amazing and talented writers and we're lucky to have so much (diverse in genre and style) material in both canon and especially fandom! And I hope you can publish your WIP(s?) soon, I loved the snippets you posted!!!

(And btw this is absolutely not meant to shit on popular fics!!! To me personally it’s sometimes hard to enjoy a story that’s set in canonverse but at this point in time diverges so much from canon, because canon has, logically, expanded since 2016; but like I said one of the upsides of a large fandom is that there's something for everyone)

(and can someone PLEASE explain the Bat Family Crossovers there's just so MANY)

Anyways sorry for spamming your inbox but!! Happy 8th anniversary to all fellow “new” fans I hope we only get more passionate and annoying over time <3 (2/2)

omg no i totally get what you mean!! and even if something that’s popular is good not everything is for everyone!!!! you can dislike things that other people like and its all perfectly fine as long as we are all somewhat kind to each other ^_^

i also agree that its awesome having such a talented fandom!! big too for the most part so HEHE!! ive read some life changing things and also know theres so much out there that i havent read that id LOVE if i read!!!!

i also hope i can publish my WIP soon i have been working on it since um. late december last year/january this year KFKSKDKDJ ITS UM. its been a while. But i promise i am speeding it up and will be somewhat hopefully done soon!!!!! its gonna be like 12 chapters, i just started ch9, and um currently i have over 90k words written??? GET READY TO BE STUFFED LMAOOO im shoving these words down ur throats and i hope u guys like it…. First fic for a fandom is always so unnerving u never know how something’s gonna be perceived BUT IM GLAD U R INTERESTED ANON MWAH MWAH

bat family thing um. well. marinette is based on spiderman. so um. uh. superheroes…? (i have Not read any of them)

HAPPY 8TH ANNIVERSARY TO US NEW FANS FR WHO HAVE NOT SUFFERED IN THE SAME WAY AS MOST FANS. also anon u r not spamming me i LIVE to answer asks

[m1ckeyb3rry]

PAUSE DO I SPOT A YONA PFP??? If I’m wrong don’t say anything because that’d be embarrassing oops I’m like squinting try to zoom in on the icon shshshsh

Yeah of all things I was really not expecting blue for kiyora…definitely was giving me some warm tone vibes but oh well ig??? Barou’s red and black color combo >>>

Stop I definitely played the star wars one at some point too LMAOO I’m about the crack open the Rio angry birds for old times sake atp

Fanon interpretations are just the bane of all characters’ existence…which is why I usually stay clear from a majority of the fandom LOL I’m ngl I said I’d watch and did not even start ep 1 but I’m going now!! Will update you on thoughts fs LOL

REAL he may not be throwing hands but that doesn’t stop him from throwing shade!!!

LMAOAO you really said “nuh uh that’s Tullia’s man” I have no complaints about lack of Isagi content he’s the protag he’s got enough out there

No if they made Barou look good from the start he’d 100% have more fans…I know we’ve mentioned this at some point but kaneshiro trying to make Barou be the handsome gorilla like villain kills me a little like wdym?? Maybe that’s why he looks so crunchy in the beginning too

Honestly it’s not even the horror aura or anything the whole tongue out Rin is just uh…not my thing LMAO can’t wait to see what happens next tho (Karasu moment soon pls)!!

Also HAHAH GL LOCKING IN!!! You got this we trust you to cook and serve o7

- Karasu anon

YESS it is a yona pfp!! it’s her in an official art w hak although ofc hak is cropped out…hakyona is so tabimira coded LMAOAOAO plus i love yotd sm so i had to go back to the yona pfp (i had this pfp a while ago LOL) and it only helps that it fits my theme so well w the flowers matching the gold!!

they could’ve given him purple like reo is literally the only character w any shade of purple but like imagine even a lavender or smth for kiyora?? maybe i’m just a fiend for the purple eyes + black hair combo LMAOO praying we’ll get a character w that at some point since both karasu and kiyora were busts 😩 barou never disappoints though his colors are so good (i think my other favs are hiori’s because the shade of blue is sooo pretty, yukimiya’s because the brown + orangey gold is surprisingly rlly pleasing?? and nagi because i like the contrast of the pale haired character having the black skulls and death aura LMAO)

angry birds is just one of those defining games LMAO like it truly is so characteristic of that era (alongside candy crush bruh that’s such a classic that even though nagi canonically mostly plays first person shooter games i always make him a candy crush + subway surfers enjoyer i just think it’s sm funnier)

LMAOOO can’t name a single character that was improved by their fanon characterization…i wonder if people hate on any of my characterizations 🤔 like “omg why did she make karasu a loser…why is rin an emotionally unintelligent emo…why is kaiser repressed…why is nagi roasting everyone” HAHAHA oh well though they can feel free to scroll if so 😒 and yes keep me updated w thoughts for sure ☝🏻

NO FR like he (and kunigami for that matter) are so tullia love interest coded that idt i could write for them…only if someone requested ig 🤔 and LMAO yes the itoshis aiku and isagi are not suffering by me not writing for them there’s plenty of others to fill those tags up 😭

maybe it’s just a cultural thing where kaneshiro was going for handsome gorilla in comparison to what japanese people tend to be built like but all that i see with barou is fine handsome amazing huge husband KFNFSJSJ like if i squint ig i can see it but just barely 😩 bruh i need to write for barou or smth i feel like we always hype him up in our convos but there’s zero content of him in the miraverse (besides fwtkac bestie having a crush on him ig?? she’s so real for that though…girlie wanted nagi reo AND barou she has taste…ended up in an enemies to lovers arc w otoya though 😓💔 it’s her punishment for also wanting isagi ig)

yeah i get the narrative reasons for tongue out rin and admittedly it is a creative way to show him releasing his inhibitions however i’m very very grossed out by saliva and mucus and snot and stuff like that so it’s not my fav visual for sure 😭 PRAYING FOR A KARASU MOMENT SOON THOUGH he’s had a line or two in like every bm vs pxg chapter so there’s no way he’s not going to do smth soon i hope…also wait just remembered that aryu is ranked higher than him in terms of bids rn BRUH if fucking ARYU makes it and karasu doesn’t i’m crashing out 😰

YES LOCKING IN i’m hoping to get one of the reqs done like tn/tmrw night so look forward to it!! it’s one that i think people will rlly enjoy ���� (at least the idea…we’ll see abt the execution LMAO)

[wordiestwyrm]

random fuckin' musings of a mildly deranged collection of lil guys

i feel like most people need to,,, become okay, a lot more okay than we are (including myself in that. tho tbh we have somewhat gotten good at this) with being kind of shit at being a social person.

and i don't mean just- okay at being awkward, or okay with being anxious, or kinda weird. i mean, okay at being harmful. okay with the fact their actions, on a long enough timescale, WILL probably upset someone for Legitamate Reasons. okay with being kind of an ass sometimes.

and i know. doesn't that- sound like a pass to just be a piece of shit, to you?

not really. in fact, i would say this is what could help a lot of people correct and learn from the shitty behaviour they're already doing. to recognise 'shitty/harmful behaviour' is not just a Thing isolated to any class of person, not a thing that pegs you as uniquely Evil or leaves a permanent moral mark.

'cause like,,, to my mind, a lot of people are so Focused on not being The Bad Thing, they refuse to listen when they participate in The Bad Actions- because i'm not a racist, because i'm not ableist, because i'm not queerphobic, because i'm not intersexist- we're all, just, constantly, consistently, in a worldwide competition to be the least problematic bitch in town.

and that's just the broad, societal shits, that don't necessarily mean much on a personal scale for many of the people being bitches about them.

(venty rant starts under the cut lmaooo we were trying to make a broad statement about all people and then realised. oop babes this is just your own miserable life)

and sure! sure, the main example of people who proclaim their various misdeeds are people who don't think of them as misdeeds at all, and that must be a scary thought- to turn into someone like that. but,,, from my observation, including in my personal life, the people who Refuse to see any action they have taken as Bad, the people who start to go off about their good intentions or are too focused on being good, on doing good and being a good person and so on and so forth, are typically the most insufferable when they harm me.

and i feel kind of insane, in my personal life, because by GOD do i feel harmed, and it's so confusing when the person who harmed you starts to either go off about how hard they have been trying (with a subtle flavour of 'you're not being grateful enough' running as constant aftertaste), or start to get insanely self-depricating, to imply they just can't do better,,, or both.

where 'goodness' is the only resource that matters, where it is only valuable when it is 'pure', no fucking progress can be done, is my point. and we've been untangling all this for years, and i think i know why, every time we meet a new person as of late, with a bit of due time, we get disappointed that they aren't really like us beyond surface level.

because anecdotally, in our lives, no one takes the time to dig through their own brain cupboards to check for red flags.

And it's exhausting, constantly rummaging the chests and barrels of our psyche to find how things we do could be harmful- yes, to a maladaptive degree, i never said we were a paragon of mental health. It is exhausting, when that effort isn't met with barebones reciprocation. It makes me go balls to wall banana pudding, when I make an effort, again and again, to say 'this doesn't define you, you can change, I won't hold it against you' to every last person who hurts me, who says my pain isn't real, who pushes me, who doesn't seem to see me as an individual, when I bring up harmful things we have done, over and over and over, when I constantly have to be the one apologising and catching mistakes and noticing shitty patterns, and the people around me won't even help me break them.

(like bitch, i get ur drowning in ur own guilt, but please, for the love of god, assert urself when we get caught in a loop of angry ramblin' for the thousandth time this week??? i keep sayin', we have hairthin triggers, we really struggle to shut up once we start goin' off, bein' told to stop will make us stop, we learned that lesson, fucks sake why do i have to do everythin' around here-)

and- and it's our fault, innit. it's our fuckin fault for not bein able to essplain well enough, for not bein over it enough, for reinforcin these patterns with our fuckin, therapist-friend mode, for thinkin sooo highly of ourselves, for puttin ourselves repeatedly in positions of power over others, but FUCK, when we try to treat ppl like equals we always go too fast an haveta Catch It, when we treat 'em like an authority we real quick go into Programmed Inferior space, an yes, we are traumatised, we are toxic as fuck, we have no experience with bein equal to no one-

ough. well, maybe we used to. ideologically, we dont think we are Inherently Better or Inherently Worse than anyone else, as much as we can keep that balance. we do feel, deeply, like we are prolly a worse person socially speakin than many of the people that hurt us, cause we often cannot be polite an genuine at the same time, 'cause we,,, fuck

truth is, it does feel like trauma gave us superpowers. all our close friends have, for almost a year now, been tellin' us we're scary perceptive. tellin' us, we always know what to say to make it better, directly an indirectly.

truth is, hearin 'always try to do ur best' sounds like a fuckin order to skin ourselves alive no matter the 'depending on where you are physically and mentally :3' stipulations, 'cause i bet if there was good enough cause, we physically could.

truth is, it feels like we are a mile ahead in trauma recovery, an we are drownin in a lake no one else has gotten to yet.

truth is, i keep wishin this wasn't true, that we could get help, that it was easy, to find someone who will be more- or at least around- as perceptive as us, who will care, who will be genuinely interested in the thins we do an impressed by the thins we make, who will love us an guide us an, just, be good instead of actively harmful. truth is, such a person would likely have to be a famed trauma therapist who takes a million for a session, or else a find so lucky i frankly dont think 'needle in a haystack' covers it.

truth is, it aint that i cant imagine ever bein happy, if we were friends with someone too much like us.

its that, when i try, the pain of the impossible becomes too much to bear too fuckin quickly, an the guilt of seein myself as so fuckin above everyone else smothers any leftover comfort.

this is why, of late, our go-to phrases became 'don't let perfect being the enemy of good' and 'i hope someone kills me with rocks.' if you even care

[wutheringmights]

...Okay you joke about aroace Wind being horribly confused by the neck scene in Engineers journal, but not gonna lie, I'm aroace and that was literally my reaction to it. I was like "...ookay, I see why grabbing someones neck while they're unconscious is a bit much, but why is that being treated like a breaking point, nothing even happened, its just a neck." Had to be filled in by the comments section lmaooo

Huh, I guess it's time to talk about the neck scene.

First off, please note that this post is not tagged with anything fandom for a reason and I have made this post unreblog-able. This is meant for CTB people only, as you guys have the full context of the story and understand what my vision is (even if my execution is questionable).

Got it?

Ok, good.

Back in the chapter's commentary, I said I was going to talk at length about the neck thing and some of my decisions surrounding that plot point. Now is the time to do it, so let's go.

The idea behind this plot point is that I wanted Link to ruin the brotherhood in his pursuit to exert control over the engineer. I had the idea for this scene since the conception of this fic (and I will dig more into that in a moment), but I obviously did not want to risk being misinterpreted.

I tried to think of another way to destroy the brotherhood, but two significant character details severely restricted my options: a) Link could not stop "caring" about the engineer, and b) the engineer's limits for being able to call Link his brother have to be something that somehow surpasses extreme violence.

Having Link toss out the platonic relationship for a failed attempt at something more was the only way I could maintain both character details. Link gets to continue "caring" about the engineer while violating the engineer's clearly defined boundaries.

This also plays a lot into how both of them treat relationships, with Link looking to exert control over others (and himself) while the engineer is searching for relief. This conflict as been building up for many chapters now, so here was the time for it to clash, with the engineer being the decided victor.

Which takes us to why the neck? Well, I wanted some way for Link to express a non-platonic feeling without him needed to touch the bathing suit area. Touching the thigh was too sultry, but the neck was the right mixture of innocuous and creepy.

It's important to note that this is in part influence by my perspective. A while back, a friend of mine started to touch the back of my neck when he developed feelings for me, which is in part of why I view neck-touching as strangely intimate. The neck in general is just a very vulnerable spot that, when you think about it, a lot of people do not like to be touched at. I also just think vampires are hot, ergo neck-touching is kinda sexy.

I was hoping that even if people are not informed by the same experiences as I am, Link's inner musings accompanying the neck touching would help clue the reader into how they should feel about it. In retrospect, I can definitely see how readers can be kinda confused by what's so significant about it.

So, yeah. I played it a little bit dangerously here and really tempted fate in order to achieve this one plot point, especially when I really wanted to make sure that nothing happened in it that could be considered shipping.

To make it explicitly clear:

I am not shipping Warriors and Spirit

The narrative is not shipping Warriors and Spirit

Do not yell at me

"But Frankie, what did you mean that you had this idea since the beginning of this fic?"

Well, okay. Let's talk about deleted content. This is a plotline that never made it to the final product, so please do not consider this canon material the way other deleted ideas have been treated.

I talked a while ago about how even when I decided to commit to the toxic relationship angle for Link and the engineer, I had to pull back on a lot of my ideas in order to make it palatable. One of those ideas was a version of Link and the engineer's relationship that toed that no-shipping line by a lot.

Here's the basics: at the start of the story, the engineer was not going to know that he was bisexual. But after meeting Link, an objectively handsome guy around his age who seemed to care about him a lot, he had his bi-awakening. However, he really struggled with this awakening as he was already in a relationship and felt like he was betraying his Zelda. His goal was to not let anyone know about his crush and to get over it as soon as possible.

Meanwhile, Link realized early on why the engineer was both clingy and distant with him and started teasing him for it. The teasing was fairly mean as he just liked to see the engineer get flustered and frustrated without realizing that he was being toyed with. Link was going to be an expert at appearing innocuous whenever he teased the engineer to make the engineer think that it was all in his head.

But as the engineer got more comfortable in his role in the war, his crush went away and he affirmed his appreciation for Link's emotional support and the family unit he built with him by calling him his brother, which Link accepts.

That is, until Link starts cheating on Lana.

Remember that scene where Link got drunk and had to be hauled back to camp by the engineer? Originally, Link pissed the engineer off not only by telling him to cheat on Zelda, but by taking his teasing way too far by propositioning him (as a drunken joke). That's when the engineer realized that he had been toyed with for almost a year now. That would spark a fight between them.

However, the engineer would come to forgive Link, in part because Link convinced him he was actually sorry, and because the engineer did not want to disrupt the family dynamic he had built with Link.

From there, the relationship would continue as it has been in the final story. But with the added context and relationship history, Link's neck touching scene would be an even bigger "fuck you" to the engineer.

This entire subplot was based on the idea of the homoerotic nature of a soldier's bond. I wrote a thesis part about this in college, but basically wars can offer a way for men to develop close bonds with other men that could not exist in a heteronormative society.

This subplot took a very literal interpretation of it, but even then, it's obvious by the summary that even with a confirmed crush involved, this was not meant to be shipping content. This was meant to offer another look at Link's paradoxical cruelty and love.

But even I can admit that it skirts way too close to the idea of shipping. That's why I took it out of the final story. I just did not have the energy back then to argue with people about what counted as shipping.

Actually, I still do not have this energy, which begs the question as to why I would go include any form of this plot.

See here, I am an idiot.

[wellthatwasaletdown]

some tea from the gossip blog ( with the graint of salt obviously but i tend to believe them because they kinda have a credibility plus it’s funny how everything was discussed on this blog already.like…wbk lmaooo). This part is about Holivia and the next part I will send is about dwd drama.

One thing I am unclear on is how to define their relationship because it’s not something they defined behind the scenes either. I mean Olivia was 100% committed to Harry, but Harry was reportedly seeing other people behind the scenes while publicly being with Olivia.

Their relationship was like an open relationship fueled by them both being attention-seeking.

“Olivia was into Harry when they first met and Harry liked her back because he’s a natural flirt. He often flirts with older women, but never commits to them,” my source said.

“That’s when they started linking up; when they were initially filming the movie, but if you realized they weren’t seen together for a while after the manager’s wedding. Last March, Olivia was making the pap strolls without Harry. For him, it was fun. For her, she wanted to lock him down and essentially wanted to say goodbye to her old life.”

“I don’t remember a contract being written up, I think it was more casual. Olivia wanted it more than Harry and she used him in her revenge battle with her ex which is why he was so hell bent on humiliating her by serving the custody papers in public,” my source says.

“Jason wanted Olivia back, but Olivia was enjoying the newfound fame with Harry.”

“And Harry? He liked his public image being controlled so he was free to do whatever he wanted to do when the cameras weren’t watching. I believe Olivia knew he wasn’t serious about her which is why she was the one releasing fake stories in the press about how he’s bonding with the kids.”

They weren’t serious, but their publicity teams were going out of their way to push these engagement and pregnancy rumors. They both benefited from it.

Olivia is someone who isn’t quiet about anything and if Harry was interested in an engagement stint together, she would have even bought the ring herself. I’m surprised she didn’t go around with an engagement ring to rile up the rumors. (💀💀💀 at this considering there were rumors about O buying a ring lmfao)

Grain of salt

[wherethehellismysupersuit]

EP - 13 review

Right. Let’s get it all out of our systems.

ASDFGHJKLSKJHGFADSDFGAHJKLD-

Now that we’re satiated, i would like to bonk Yijin on the head for being so shifty and weird. Like damn, ik you’re struggling with your own crush and moral compass at war with each other but then again, i’m solely on Team Heedo.

Minchae being rightfully angry and chewing out Yijin’s and comforting Heedo’s imaginary form on the present wintry night is so cute. I can’t even begin to think what Jaekyung would’ve said to see her granddaughter screaming at the empty gate on a cold night lmao-

Jiwoong’s parking lot shenanigans had me rolling on the floor. That signature hair pose he does always makes me giggle, and the way all of them silently judge Heedo after confiding in the kiss is comedy gold.

I need to know who is in charge of writing the female relationships on this show. I sincerely hope both sides of their pillows are cool, and that their food remains steaming hot. I really don’t mind that all fem friendships have a lesbian undertone to them, even with Coach Yang and Jaekyung. You can’t tell me that strangers-to-friends-to-bffs-to-enemies-grudging friends isn’t a trope that slaps. Maybe this my lonely ass projecting but idc.

I saw a post saying that this ep is one of Yijin continuously bonking himself on the head and sending himself to horny jail, and i have to agree. His face when he realised he’s spilt his swoonworthy drunken confession of “i want to waver with you” had me giggling hard.

I have to admire Heedo’s persistence. She’s completely right to ask him why she can’t like him back. It was easy enough for him to declare that their friendship/love was like a rainbow, and suddenly when she reciprocates, it’s all, ‘omg is ur toe good? lemme be super awkward around u cuz i’m battling my own feelings and i’m gonna stuff this dumpling into my mouth and give u the wrong impression that i’m repulsed to kiss u aha what is happening in my life’

I wanted to smack him when he clearly didn’t define boundaries. Sir, you gave the impression that her feelings weren’t wanted, and u still won’t define the distance, and you pat her head and call the police so that she gets home safe? (ngl that scene was pretty cute but sad at the same time) sir i respect u but ur going 2 far man-

Can someone tell me who was Junho oppa who made Yijin twist an umbrella off? Well deserved, mate. 

One of my most favorite parts of the series (other than literally everything) is the fencing. I love the passion in their eyes, the whoops and cheers that make me wanna be passionate instead of the jaded human being i currently am.

Moon Jiwoong is one smooth mf. That’s all i can say about that.

And we really started and ended the episode with angst amirite people? Or atleast that was my opinion until Yijin came rushing like the Grim Reaper and kissed the living daylights out of Heedo.

“Fine. Let’s try this kind of love, Heedo. I can, with you. So prepare yourself.”

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH i can’t even imagine if Seungwan or her mother heard that lmaooo-

Although this ep was more angst than fun. I still loved it. Waiting for tomorrow’s ep to lift my spirits up. You can quite literally see my grammar deteriorate when i’m angry in this review, lol.

Signed, 

your resident psychoanalyser.

[sapphicambitions]

Okay so I finished watching black sails a few days ago and I’ve spent the last few days reading other metas and posts and interviews about Flint & Silver to gather my thoughts (thots, if you will) and these are the conclusions I have come to:

John Silver and James Flint have the most interesting and well written dynamic ives ever seen between two characters. I am endlessly fascinated by their relationship. Because it’s so unique and complex and I can’t think of any other relationship between two men on screen that even gets close to being on their level, that level of intimacy and their DIALOGUE????? especially in season four????? there is no daylight between us???? i have made myself transparent to you????? you already know me in all the ways that’s relevant???? fuck me up dude!!!!!

All of that being said, I don’t like… ship them. At least not in the conventional way of shipping. I don’t see them as boyfriends or husbands or even as romantically involved. Like I said I LOVE their dynamic and I am fascinated with the complexities of it, and I really and truly think that they loved each other deeply, but to me the idea of them being like in an explicit, canon relationship sort of... cheapens it?

Especially if we’re talking about seasons 1-3 flint & silver. To me, saying that they were romantically involved during that time period sort of misses the point of their build up. Because they didn’t even really like each other then. They were necessary evils in each other’s stories. ESPECIALLY in seasons 1 & 2, they weren’t friends! They were work place acquaintances who needed each other to survive. And remember Silver’s whole season three arc of “I think flint controls the weather”???? Lmaooo the idea that they were romantically involved at that time, to me, almost does a disservice to their characters and the journey that they took to get to where they were in the fourth season.

Because I don’t think that they truly started to even be friends until that night around the fire. When Silver asked in who’s name they were fighting the war and Flint told the truth about his past. When Flint made himself transparent and vulnerable to Silver, and they openly discussed their partnership. When they came to a mutual understanding of each other, when they felt the possibility of the future together, that is when they really and truly emotionally connected and became more than work place acquaintances, became even more than just casual friends.

But I still don’t think that they were like, together together in season four.

Do I think there were extremely high levels of homoeroticism? also-fucking-lutely. But I don’t think they were romantically involved. For many reasons.

I think that the last two episodes of the series do not work if they did not love each other. The last two episodes are not effective if there is not something deeper there, if there isn’t something to lose when they fall apart. Like when Billy and Silver fall apart? I was like aww they were friends. :( and that’s it. When Silver and Flint fell apart? I sobbed my fucking eyes out. Would I have been as destroyed by Silver’s betrayal if I didn’t truly believe that these two men had a deep and profound relationship, that they needed each other and completed each other? Lmao no! No I wouldn’t have. If Flint didn’t love Silver, he wouldn’t have taught him sword fighting, he wouldn’t have shot Dooley, he wouldn’t have looked so deeply crushed when Silver raised the gun. Because the look on his face? When that happens? That is heartbreak, pure and simple.

BUT. I ALSO think that the last two episodes of the series do not work if that love is explicit and defined. I do not think it works if Silver is fully aware of that love. Because I don’t think he is. I think he has found himself closer and closer to Flint, committing himself to Flint, becoming the other half of Flint, and….. doesn’t quite realize how homoerotic it is lmao. Because he has Madi! And Silver has never really had someone to be close to before, so I honestly don’t believe that Silver was aware how how Homo(TM) the whole thing was with Flint, at least not consciously, at least not out loud. And I say this because there is a very important moment in the finale that doesn’t work if their relationship is defined and official or romantic in any way.

It’s when Flint says “This will all have been for nothing. We will have been for nothing. Defined by their histories. Distorted to fit into their narrative. Until all that is left of us are the monsters in the stories they tell their children,” That is his last card to play. That, to me, is the THESIS of the series, that moment is what they have been building up to for four seasons, that is Flint’s driving force as a person. And Silver says: “I don’t care,��

That moment is reliant on Silver not understanding the queer implications behind what Flint said. That moment is reliant on Silver being a man who has never experienced the life ruining homophobia that Flint has experienced. That moment is reliant on Silver genuinely not caring, it is reliant on the complete disconnect from Flint in that moment, and if the two of them had been in a defined relationship at the moment, I wouldn’t have bought it. And it is heartbreaking and tragic because Silver DOESN’T get it. He doesn’t! He does not know what it means to fear how the world will see you for who you fundamentally are, fear how mothers will tell their children about you, fear how your story will be told, and I do not buy that moment if Silver is aware of his own queerness. Maybe other characters in other stories, I might, but Silver, self serving and self saving Silver, to not care? He has to genuinely NOT care.

I’ve mentioned before in other posts that watching Silver and Flint’s story play out is a lot like watching Romeo and Juliet, that you know that their story will end in tragedy, but you watch it unfold anyway. But there’s another reason I think they parallel the star crossed lovers. And I think the moral of Romeo & Juliet (it’s my favorite play step up and fight me) is not that the young lovers were stupid and reckless, but the moral is that they might have lived if not for the outside forces trying to drive them apart. Romeo and Juliet is about how the toxic and warring world in which they lived wasn’t sustainable for their love, that they were driven to their deaths by parents who didn’t realize the harm they were inflicting upon their children.

I digress but the POINT being that it is outside forces that drove the two of them apart. (Get Wreked, Billy) The toxic and warring world in which they lived wasn’t sustainable for their partnership. You can see it best in 4x09 when the flashbacks of the two of them alone on the beach are funny and tender and vulnerable and open between the two of them, and present day where Silver’s trying to get Flint a little bit KILLED and you can see how much things have changed between them since that day on the beach.

How might have things changed in another direction if they hadn’t been driven apart? Because like I said earlier, Silver and Flint’s relationship was a JOURNEY, it didn’t happen overnight. And I can’t help but feel like they were only at the beginning of their relationship when they fell apart and that is another tragedy, the what if? of it all. How might their relationship have changed and gotten even deeper if they hadn’t been pushed apart? What hadn’t been explored between them, what was still left unsaid when Silver raised his gun at Flint? So that’s ANOTHER reason I don’t think they were like ~together~ because there is tragedy is losing something you don’t have, that you might have had. Losing something that you don’t know what it could have become and that breaks my heart because it feels like they had only JUST begun and then they were ending in the most heartbreaking and tragic way.

Also to be honest, the main reason that I love Them is because I’m a slut for tragedy, and knowing that something is going to have a sad ending but rooting for them anyway. Romeo and Juliet, the Hunchback of Notre Dame musical, Hadestown, the Song of Achilles, They Both Die at The End, even rewatching Brokeback Mountain, you get it. Tell me that they aren’t going to make it in the end and then let me watch them fall in love anyway. Let me watch them grow to love each other knowing that they’re going to end in tragedy. I should be sobbing on the floor by the end of it, I WANT to be sobbing on the floor by the end of it. That’s my shit. It is literally my favorite type of story. fuck me UP

So those are my Thots (TM) about Flint & Silver. They have one of the most well written relationships I’ve ever seen on screen and I am endlessly fascinated by them. I don’t like romantically ship them because I think it’s too complicated to reduce their relationship to “they’re dating“ when it is their journey from reluctant work place acquaintances to “It’s hard to know where one began and the other ended” that is so incredible. But I do think there is a deep and profound love between them and the finale doesn’t WORK unless they love each other, but it also has to be somewhat unspoken for it to work, too.  Because I don’t think Silver was aware of his own queerness and I think he has to actively not understand the queerness of Flint’s fight in order to do what he does otherwise I wouldn’t buy it. And I think that they were only at the beginning of their partnership, and I wonder where it could have gone if they hadn’t been ripped apart. Theirs is a tragedy of losing someone you love and losing something that isn’t easily defined, losing something that could have been. And their tragedy does not work if they didn’t have something to lose.

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I need to know bc I love the dude myself lmaooo

Q: What are the sexiest things about Charlie Manx?

First, thank you so much for the ask, I don’t get them often! ☺️ 💕

Second, that list is so long, omg 😂

For starters, both book and show Charlie are hot. I know a lot of people would look at book Charlie and be grossed out (it’s obvious for many that show Charlie is better because he’s played by Zachary Quinto of course), but there’s just something oddly cute to his goofiness. When he’s in his young form, he looks like a cuter version of Orlock, as if Orlock had shorter teeth (in the form of an overbite) and hair on his body. Show Charlie is similar to that, but has some additional features (thicker eyebrows, sharp teeth but they don’t stick out, etc). Plus, their outfits and cars! Their physical attributes definately contribute to their sexiness.

I think their complex and complicated insides also contribute. It makes them sad, but you feel empathy and sympathy for them. When I first found Charlie’s backstory, I mulled over if I hated him or not, but eventually, I realized that I really didn’t hate him, and he was just an awesome complicated villain that does make a point about what he does, even if it isn’t 100% the best. He had so much shit happen to him in life (I’m disregarding the show’s version of events because that whole thing was Jami O’Brein’s sad excuse of a public hate boner for him). The way his mother treated him, his dad wasn’t in his life, he was poor, he was growing up in a time where being poor was really tough in particular, what few people his own age at the time made fun of him, he was raped as a child, his wife, whom he thought was the love of his life, abused him and sometimes the kids when times were tough and while they worked their asses off for her... and then, he and the girls become soul-needing vampires beyond his control. Also, for years he remains alone without another woman to truly call his own. But despite all of this, he makes the best of what shitty cards were given to him in life, and that’s something that is extremely attractive and something to look up to. He tries to make the best of his situation that already has some good elements, and when he does that, he can get through life. I know if I were him, I would have a very hard time doing that. So while his backstory isn’t exactly sexy, it definately adds to what makes him attractive and makes one want to help him and explore him.

His dominance... oh yes. We can all agree he’s dominate and takes charge of a situation (he’s a driver afterall!). Some like him to be “mean dominant,” but personally, I like him protective dominant. It’s hot to me how he can make you fall in love with him and then he teasingly has you wrapped around his finger, but he’s not doing it in a sadistic way, rather a soft but firm way. He’s happy that you love him as he loves you, something that hasn’t happened much in his life. He’s the type of dominate man that doesn’t want to hurt you, but instead make you feel super happy while you make him super happy in return. The only time he becomes “mean dominate” is when he’s going to kill someone hurting him, you, or the kids, which is incredibly sexy. Of course, if it were me in that universe, I would’ve just fallen head over heels in love with him the moment I saw him, and he wouldn’t really need to work hard to make me fall any deeper, just be his usual dominant gentleman self.

Speaking of gentleman! Yup, his gentlemanly characteristics. You don’t find a polite and patient gentleman like Charlie anymore, who only wants sexual things to be kept between only the both of you and in the most private of moments. Really, that just makes things hotter. Keeping things between him and you only makes it all the more sacred and special. He takes his time, he doesn’t rush, he just wants to treat you well first and foremost. Plus, all the old fashioned elements to him... it’s fascinating to see all the decades that he’s been through, and quite a few old fashioned men from the 20th century, to me, were very attractive (Gregory Peck comes to mind). And his family oriented mindset... he just wants to take care of a family and be the breadwinner. He wants to have kids with you, he wants to take care of said kids, he wants to treat both you and them unlike how he was treated in life, and he wants to make you all feel proud and good about yourselves (and hopefully, you can make him feel proud and good about himself, even if he thinks he doesn’t deserve it sometimes).

I guess the last thing that comes to mind is his love for allowing one to escape and be themselves. If you like childish things, you can and should! If you’re stuck in a shitty situation, come with him and get lost in his world. If you feel like you’re weird, don’t, because he knows what it’s like to feel like an outsider. In many ways, Charlie is an embodiment of all forms of abuse. If there’s a form of trauma or abuse, he has been though it all, and he can relate to all forms of pain. If you have been through any form of pain, he understands and wants to help you. He will be a protective and dominant gentleman, but you will be his equal companion for all of eternity.

That’s all the points I can think of. Thank you again for the ask, I can’t get enough when it comes to talking about this man!

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the last few mornings i’ve had hanging out with @sailorrmood​ have been absolutely incredible for my self-esteem and energy. thank you always for being ready to hang out to dismantle sexism, ableism, racism, and all the other shenanigans we see on the internet in the name of virtue signaling and performance activism.

i’m attempting to return to tumblr, but one of the things that really grinds my gears is the pseudo-authenticity and one-time performance activism via a reblog of a semi-relatable post. i say semi because while there are good intentions in many of these posts, people often just click like or reblog without considering the lack of intersectionality that was in the main post, or figure “i did my part” and expect everyone else to move on without recognizing that the situation lies beyond your simple text post. just because you moved on from knowing people are being unfairly incarcerated and dying at the hands of actual criminals weaponized by the ‘ justice system ’ doesn’t mean i have, or will.

today i really read someone with their whole chest say “i just learned about racism this week. wow. i’m white and i should do something about things.” and i can’t even imagine what it’s like to live in a world with so much privilege that you can really go 20+ years of living without recognizing the world around you and without noticing inequality or injustice. caucasity is a hell of a thing. meanwhile i’m an afab nb black & native so truly there’s never a time i’m not reminded of all the privileges i don’t have. i get so annoyed seeing people on tumblr say something completely ignorant and then use an excuse.

just two days ago i saw someone say “it’s sexist to ship clerith and not cloti, i’d know, i’m a womanist.” << which is not womanism, this is truly white feminism at its peak. i’ve also seen “this is my opinion and to critique me and my opinion is transphobic because i’m trans and you’re missing my good intentions.” this is both fragility and performativity to overrule an actual discussion, claiming bc of some label they know to be a haute keyword that their opinion is right. if you were truly an ally, you’d be willing to accept that your opinion is lacking the inclusivity you claim to hold. for womanism was birthed from the lack of intersectionality and critical thinking, for those outspoken or overruled or considered inferior by radical “feminists.”

( if someone were truly womanist, for example, both aerith and tifa would both be validated as women, because they both have worth inherently because they were born, and it cannot be invalidated based on a perceived gender role that they may or may not fall into. they inherently have the right to comfortable in the position that suits them best and that they have chosen of their own accord. to consider aerith inferior because she is ‘feminine’ or tifa inferior because she is ‘masculine’ or any other adjectives which could stereotypically fall into either of those categories is an explicit rejection of the acceptance ‘feminism’ claims to advocate for. )

and being trans is a valid identity but it is not a suitable response if you use that as a way to silence others or invalidate any other person’s experiences.

i recognize june is considered pride month, but it’s also juneteenth... ironic, given that this month is supposed to be celebrating the  proclamation the emanicaption of slavery to the remainder of those who were still held in captivity six months after the declaration had been legally issued... and yet here we are, 150+ years after the fact and still fighting for the right to live under the same oppressors by a system created to capture the slaves freed by the emancipation proclamation.... but y’all aren’t ready to see the big picture. but you need to be. black people have been. and that’s why they’re fighting for their lives now.

we all still have plenty of work to do, myself included, with dismantling biases taught to us by society and the social spheres we interact in. there should never be a time where you think “ah, i’ve learned enough about this subject” or “i’ve heard enough stories.” even when something is presented to you, you should possess critical thinking skills and learn to take nothing at face-value. raise questions to everything you see, especially presented by the media, and prepare to be made uncomfortable if your assumptions are wrong ( because more than likely, they will be ). who is the person mentioning the subject? what other opinions do they have? are there people presenting counter-arguments? how does their identity influence the way they interact with the information mentioned? to who is their audience? for what purpose are they interacting with said audience? if that seems like too much work... congratulations! you’re quite privileged to acknowledge the inconvenience of having to look at someone’s words and think more than 0.5 seconds about it. and if that’s hard for you to do with one post, imagine someone having to do that with literally every interaction for their entire lives. that’s the reality of black people, and other people of color, and any person that has a label that has defined them as “other.” remember, too, that these labels do not exist independently of one another, that they stack, and that a person can easily have multiple privileges, or on the flip side, things to be persecuted over, multiple injustices to face.

is it hard? yes. scary? certainly. but you should bravely face it head-on, as i am and my ancestors have before me. for those of you who claim to herald truth and freedom and the equality of all humans, who recognize there is no place in a just world for superiority and supremacy, you should invoke your strength as well. use it in times where you may need to be corrected for your decisions. do not hide behind one of your identities to prevent yourself from doing the hard work of re-evaluating yourselves and the information you share. if you’re to claim you’re an ally of anyone, that first and foremost means to listen to other’s stories and to provide them the platform to be heard, to not erase their voices when they are the most affected by it. learn about new perspectives and then dare to journey into a new world with those ideals you claim to hold together.

i have the honor of leading anti-racism workshops this week at my job, but you don’t have to be an anti-oppression coordinator to do this important work. you just need to actually put some real effort into what you’re saying, thinking, believing. remember to be inclusive. remember to listen. and remember to love. and if you can’t do that, you can certainly unfollow me so i can get you the hell off my dash lmaooo. thank you mutual checker!!

so in conclusion... just do better, y’all. i’m tired of seeing fake woke folks. everyone can learn to be a better ally to each other. and most importantly... CLICK THE LINK BELOW.

https://blacklivesmatters.carrd.co/

kay thanks!!!

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That bitch from mass effect who's ass is always taking up hella real estate on the screen when you talk to her (for the character ask game)

How I feel about this character

just gonna preface by saying that i know hardly anything about miranda in the comics!!! so this is me just going off of what i interpret as real to me and my eyes.... that being said i think that mirandas devotion to cerberus stems from TIM manipulating her desire to cut herself off from her father and his “legacy” which i assume happened when she was young like 17-19?? and i really enjoy her growth both in the game in and my head.. like we see her go from cold and distrustful... to kind and loyal,, a huge diff from her dynamic with TIM where he saw her as a very powerful tool,, vs shepard seeing her as a person defined but what she stands for and not just her abilities......ALSO THIS MADE ME DHGSHFHFAHFV you didnt even have to say her NAME we ALL know who’s ass you’re talking about..... miranda is my fave squadmate to bring on missions cos shes a fucking tank with her warp/overload combo... like yess queen rip them to shreds

All the people I ship romantically with this character

women only!!!! miranda/jack is pretty dope.. enemies to lovers..... but fshep/miranda really gets to me... like feral mode..... that damn lazarus scene..... the LOOK........ and the damn fshep/miranda route that got cut from me2... I KNOW that’s Jennifer hale speaking..... BioWare I-

My non-romantic OTP for this character

all the boys jdbfjdbvcsd i’ll assume she and jacob have a pretty steady relationship in the comics but i’ll have to look more into them!!! and i like to think that she and garrus bond a ton becos of how many missions i bring them on togther lmaooo... like they’re beasts out there,,,,

My unpopular opinion about this character

thankfully i joined tumblr lonnnnggg after me3 so i never saw any discourse so i dont really have any?? i think my mass effect mutuals and i pretty much vibe about most things... i do think that me3 miranda looks hotter than me2... like sometimes she looks like a milf and like.... she’s older than shepard by two years so....  this is an edit BUT CAN SHE WEAR NORMAL CLOTHES I HATE THE WRITERS... her outfit isn’t that important to her character ya fucking freaks!!! i dont need to see her coochie out NOR do we need all those ass shots lmfaoobdffbjfba

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

i think we can guess what im thinking,,,,, :’)

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Ash for the ask thing?

My boy Sato...yell heah...

[[Send me a character and I’ll tell you:]]

My otp for them: TRUSTEDPARTNERSHIPPING IN ALL CAPS HELLAAAAA

My brotp for them: Ash has so many good friends man;; all of his traveling companions are good brotps. But the Big Two are Misty and Brock of course! OH AND PIKACHU. DUHHH

Any other ships: DIODESHIPPING, Sunnylemonshipping, Palletshipping, and Advanceshipping are my big faves for Ash!

Their best friend: Clemont Clemont CLEMONT and Misty and Brock and also Gary!

My favorite nickname for them: Sato..........lol

My favorite AU of them: If I said my Soulmate AU would that be cheating

My favorite outfit they wear: I really love his Kalos outfit a lot! Also the one he wears in The Power of Us is ADORABLE. And that cute steampunk one he wears in the Volcanion movie!! Honestly Ash has a lot of cute outfits

Defining color: This is tough actually can I say red and blue? It’s one of those lol

Would I date them: 10 year old me would have screamed yes but now? No he’s baby boy

First impression: Listen I can’t remember what it was I was 7 LOL probably something along the lines of “I like this guy he’s really cool and cute and kind of a dork!”

Current impression: YOU GIANT GOOFBALL I WOULD DIE FOR YOU. You’re so good and wonderful and I hope you achieve all of your dreams

Hogwarts House: Gryffindor and Hufflepuff because tbh he really fits both

Which Pokemon starter they’d be: PIKACHU LMAOOO but he’d also fit a Chespin or a Scorbunny too!

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for the send a character thing - what about erik and jasper from dq11 if youre open to doing two? (if youd rather not then you can pick one)

I WILL DO BOTH. erik first.

general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life 

woah starting off strong here! when i was playing the game for the first time, i was also kind of liveblogging it for a friend of mine -- sending detailed “omg this just happened” updates, phone screencaps, the works. and i got all the way up to part two and erik’s backstory… and realized i had never mentioned him? to her? like in all my rambling about how much i loved everything. maybe i mentioned him in passing, but i remember having to go back and be like “okay so remember that guy from the start  of the game? well i am at his backstory.”

so that… probably says a lot?? to be clear, i do not dislike erik. i just find him really… uninteresting? his role in the first part of the game is to a) act as the hero’s voice and b) kiiiind of be the straight man for the others, and i guess i just never paid attention to him. i did very much enjoy the mia dungeon section of the game, and it’s… yeah. i don’t dislike erik! i just have always found him the least interesting of the cast in terms of character and backstory, and so i just kind of…… shrug… 

hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would bang

in universe he’s apparently really attractive?? but his hair is very distracting lmaooo. like does it naturally grow like that?? does he use a ton of gel?? what happens when it gets wet???

hogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuff

okay going with a possibly controversial choice here: i think our boy is a hufflepuff. 

he’s brave and loyal, but they really aren’t his main traits — erik tends to be just a little bit self serving, he keeps things very close to the chest, and he’s also — while not like, unhelpful, not that into doing side quests and doing heroic stuff, especially early in the game. but what he is is loyal, literally spends the entire game defined only by his friendship with the hero, and beyond that has spent years working hard, not liking it but not complaining, to provide for his sister and later try to atone for her. admittedly he’s not much of a team player, as a true hufflepuff ought, but i really think his brand of -- allowing friendship to drive him, rather than a desire to be heroic or brave, slots him in as one and nothing else.

best quality:

his loyalty? i mean it’s tough to say anything else, it’s basically the only thing he’s ever defined as by the game -- but there’s also something for sure to be said for someone who decides (admittedly for selfish reasons) to stick with the luminary, no questions asked,  through hell or high water or the actual end of the world. he might complain about the other members of the party (COUGH veronica and sylv) here and there, but it’s never serious, and i get the sense from his backstory that even he like, sincerely hated serena’s guts (example chosen for the absurdity), he’d look past it because the Mission and his connection to it was more important. so that’s good!

worst quality: 

that he’s only ever defined by his relationship to a silent “blank” protagonist, therefore not actually giving us a sense of their dynamic or what makes them friends, limiting his character by not giving him anything outside of that role?

gonna go ahead and say his secretive nature? it never ends up being a huge problem, but in a game where The Power of Friendship and the party’s deep bonds ends up being such a point, it is kind of weird that he never once opens up about his past or shows any desire to until part three. sure, it’s rough and he feels guilty about it — but idk. i don’t have a great answer here.

ship them with: 

SYLV no one… he could be cute with serena? i have no strong feelings here. 

brotp them with: 

i do actually really enjoy his dynamic with veronica — they’re constantly bickering, but then you get to erik’s backstory and it’s like “oooh, of course.” she absolutely reminds him of mia, they have almost the same dynamic. and erik was also one of the saddest when veronica died — i feel like they’re always going at it, and then serena is like “tee hee, they’re such good friends, aren’t they?” (if veronica wasn’t six i  might ship it. maybe?)

needs to stay away from:

??? NO STRONG OPINIONS HERE. i wanna say mordegon but that actually kind of worked out for erik, didn’t it? lmaoooooo

misc. thoughts:

as fun as the mia dungeon was, and how cinematic it all was, i forever prefer erik’s part three version of the arc. it really kind of bugs me that the game couldn’t think of anything other than “let’s give him amnesia and make him really out of character and distressed until!!”, and as anti climatic as the part three version was (i was kind of hoping we’d get the dungeon again), erik also made the choice, without weird amnesia, to invite his friends and ask them for help. which, considering he’s kind of standoffish and super secretive, is actually really, really good development for my guy!! you’ve grown up erik!!!

also i don’t care what anyone says, i know what the game devs were going for, his accent is a hot mess.

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Epona and Antony.

General:

Rate the Ship -Awful | Ew | No pics pls | I’m not comfortable | Alright | I like it! | Got Pics? | Let’s do it! | Why is this not getting more attention?! | The OTP to rule all other OTPs

How long will they last? - Forever! Literally, they’re immortal lmao

How quickly did/will they fall in love? - As I said on Discord, they’ll probably go through a lot of shenanigans first, especially regarding the whole Master/Servant relationship but after a while they’ll realize they’re in love with each other and they’ll be confused yet happy

How was their first kiss? - Too lewd yet sweet tbh

Wedding:

Who proposed? - Antony, he’s the man with the huge diamond ring

Who is the best man/men? - Could be one of Antony’s bodyguards, or maybe Andrew since he’s an immortal and a famous actor so it would make sense. Or a horse in a tuxedo LOL

Who is the braid’s maid(s)? - Mares wearing dresses LMAO

Who did the most planning? - I want to think Epona, even though she’s so flustered but also so giddy while planning it.

Who stressed the most? - Antony, his long, long life as the most wanted bachelor are over

How fancy was the ceremony? - Back of a pickup truck | 2 | 3 | 4 | Normal Church Wedding | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Kate and William wish they were this big.

Who was specifically not invited to the wedding? - The Medici family, fuck those guys

Sex:

Who is on top? - They like to switch because they love to dominate each other

Who is the one to instigate things? - Antony, but he becomes putty in her hands when she’s the one who asks for the lewds

How healthy is their sex life? - Barely touch themselves let alone each other | 2 | 3 | 4 | Once a couple weeks, nothing overboard | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | They are humping each other on the couch right now

How kinky are they? - Straight missionary with the lights off | 2 | 3 | 4 | Might try some butt stuff and toys | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Don’t go into the sex dungeon without a horse’s head

How long do they normally last? - Sex time is directly proportional to cuddle time, so they can go for a whole night

Do they make sure each person gets an equal amount of orgasms? - You bet! Antony not only loves to see Epona’s face when she climaxes, he’d also love if she scratches his back

How rough are they in bed? - Softer than a butterfly on the back of a bunny | 2 | 3 | 4 | The bed’s shaking and squeaking every time | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Their dirty talk is so vulgar it’d make Dwayne Johnson blush. Also, the wall’s so weak it could collapse the next time they do it.

How much cuddling/snuggling do they do? - No touching after sex | 2 | 3 | 4 | A little spooning at night, or on the couch, but not in public | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | They snuggle and kiss more often than a teen couple on their fifth date to a pillow factory.

Children:

How many children will they have naturally? - At most two

How many children will they adopt? - 10 horses lmao

Who gets stuck with the most diapers? - Antony, especially when he’s taking a break from the scenario but now has to work as a full-time dad

Who is the stricter parent? - Epona probably, Antony likes to pamper his kids

Who stops the kid(s) from doing dangerous stunts after school? - They probably encourage it actually, their kids are strong

Who remembers to pack the lunch(es)? - Epona, she’s EX-ranked mom

Who is the more loved parent? - I’m sure the kids loves them both equally. The horses still prefer Epona lmao

Who is more likely to attend the PTA meetings? Antony, he wants to have a laugh listening to his children’s antics

Who cried the most at graduation? - Epona, Antony was beaming like the sun itself

Who is more likely to bail the child(ren) out of trouble with the law? - Antony because of his money and influence

Cooking:

Who does the most cooking? - Epona, at least I think she’s a better cook than Antony

Who is the most picky in their food choice? - Maybe Antony, especially he likes Egyptian food the most

Who does the grocery shopping? - Epona, she must pick the best apples and carrots for her horses

How often do they bake desserts? - Epona probably gives it a try once in a while

Are they more of a meat lover or a salad eater? - Antony is okay with both but he prefers meat cause blood. Epona would prefer salad maybe?

Who is more likely to surprise the other(s) with an anniversary dinner? - Antony would buy a whole restaurant just for her tbh

Who is more likely to suggest going out? - Antony cause Epona thinks it’s better to stay at home and enjoy themselves instead of having to deal with paparazzi

Who is more likely to burn the house down accidently while cooking? - Antony, he never cooked once in his life

Chores:

Who cleans the room? - The servants lmaooo

Who is really against chores? - Antony, he’s a Pharaoh, they have servants for that

Who cleans up after the pets? - The horses aren’t pets, they’re their children. Also, they both clean up like good parents

Who is more likely to sweep everything under the rug? - Antony

Who stresses the most when guests are coming over? - Epona, cause she doesn’t want the guests to find Antony’s underwear on the couch

Who found a dollar between the couch cushions while cleaning? - Epona probably

Misc:

Who takes the longer showers/baths? - Their bathtub is a literal pool, so they love to spend at least half an hour in there, cuddling and washing each other 

Who takes the dog out for a walk? - Epona, and she always comes home followed by more doges

How often do they decorate the room/house for the holidays? - They’re not really into holidays cause they’re not part of their beliefs.

What are their goals for the relationship? - Getting married, having children, conquering the world and become the new patron gods, the usual

Who is most likely to sleep till noon? - Antony

Who plays the most pranks? - Define prank lol, he would simply tease her with words tbh

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Monsta X: Beautiful in San Francisco - Fan Experience

ayooo i was asked to post about the monsta x concert i just went to (and also i want a record of what happened before i forget) so here it is!! under the cut are my pre, during, and post-show experiences/thoughts!!

pre-show

okay so my friend and i planned to get boba from boba guys and fries from super duper for dinner

me being me, i planned for us to meet at 5 so we had enough time to eat and digest for the show

i leave my house around 3:45 bc i was gonna bus over while my friend was gonna get dropped off at boba guys

in the end we ended up getting sharetea and meeting at super duper an hour later than when we were supposed to meet for the following reasons:

i got to the area before my friend

I WALKED THE WHOLE ASS TUNNEL BETWEEN DOWNTOWN AND CHINATOWN FOR NO REASON i was so heated omg

the line for boba guys was out the door and down the block so i was like girl… we gotta yeet

i left to get sharetea but my friend for some reason thought we were still gonna meet at boba guys so she had to walk down to the mall

she ended up getting lost and going to chinatown

meanwhile i was trying to find sharetea bc i didnt even know they had one in the mall

ended up ordering for both of us and agreeing to meet at super duper

also i saw some monbebes in the mall while i was waiting for my drinks hehe i peeped ur shirts

we got to the warfield at 7 when the doors were supposed to open and y’all the line was so long that it like wrapped around the block and the end was right by the entrance

i got gnarly cramps in both of my legs within five minutes of each other and they hurt like a damn bitch let me tell you

i felt really bad bc i like fell to the floor in the middle of the line and some of the people behind us were like omg are you okay and i was like yes pls just go around me i’ll be okay

and then the cramp went away and the people held our spots for us!! such kind people ily if you’re reading this

we got in right at 8 when the show was supposed to start (but they ended up starting later which im just assuming was so that everyone could get in)

during-show

y’all everyone kept screaming even tho the boys weren’t on stage yet and it hella freaked out my friend and i when we left to get water

we literally rushed back and my friend tripped up the stairs but it’s fine we made it back in time

anyway their energy is just off the charts like i was hyped as hell from beginning to end. they really know how to bring a crowd up and their stage presence is amazing. no awkward moments whatsoever and very smooth transitions from one stage to the next i was actually really impressed

and they said the bay had the realest energy and i was ready to NUT

my heart cried when they left a mic stand for hyungwon for ex girl, i really love how thoughtful the boys are when a member is missing. they take ohana to a new level it’s just endearing to see how much they truly care for one another

i would also like to have a moment of appreciation bc they didn’t say san fran at all?? i was lowkey expecting them to but they didn’t :’) (pls never say san fran it’s a big no from me)

wonho lowkey tried to throw chocolate to the upper balcony i saw him aiming a bit higher and i appreciate his effort so much

also as a former tech crew member in high school, a moment of appreciation for all the tech effects, they really added to the whole experience of the show and i thoroughly enjoyed the different effects and the timing of everything

appreciation for the stage hands who brought the bench on stage, i hope y’all heard me cheer for you bc i know what that’s like

also… i really loved seeing all the spike tape on the stage for whatever reason

anyway back to the boys

minhyuk jooheon kihyun and i.m came out and they asked us who was the most romantic (i said kihyun bc that boy was smooth as shit in that one video) and a lot of people said minhyuk so they made him do aegyo and OMFG MINHYUK’S AEGYO HAHAHAHA THAT SHIT WAS SO FUNNY all he said was “san francisco… oh my god” and then he kept repeating oh my god and OMG and he and jooheon were switching off and their voices were getting lower and i.m was like “yo this is not cute this is just weird” i got it on video if anyone wants to see it lmao

and then wonho and shownu came out like “…what kind of weird things were you guys talking about”

speaking of videos, all the videos i have of their songs are shaky af bc i was bopping at the same time but if anyone still wants to see them i can send a google drive link your way hehe

from zero was the cutest shit ever. im still really sad hyungwon couldnt make it but the sub did a great job in his place!!

i needa take a moment to just talk about wonho bc that man can go from cocky daddy to a total sweetie. like… he totally knows he’s a walking sex god (a small moment of silence for when kihyun just like pulled wonho’s jacket down to try to expose his arms during his intro) but then he’ll talk about how he tried to perform extra well to make up for hyungwon not being there and he’s trying to put on a better show and you can really tell how much he cares about us and ugh 

ALSO

WONHO IS SCULPTED BY THE GODS I WAS WAAAAAY UP IN THE UPPER BALCONY AND EVEN I COULD SEE HOW DEFINED HE IS SO PROPS TO HIM

i popped the FUCK off at the 24k magic cover oh my god y’all i love bruno and i got so excited when shownu minhyuk and i.m covered it, and it was so damn lit. like i was a lil bummed when i found out they werent gonna do the second verse bc it’s my fav part of the song but i.m’s rap was AMAZING and fit really well and oh my god don’t even get me started on the dance breaks omfffff

their outfits were cute as shit too

also appreciation for i.m’s voice. i just really like his voice im such a slut for deep voices ok this is why he’s my wrecker

jooheon and kihyun are just something else when they come together, i love what they’re able to offer to each other and able to create as a unit it’s just really cool to see :’)

also i must say… seeing jooheon’s deep ass dimples and kihyun’s nice ass cheekbones are such a blessing

OH AND THEIR AEGYO

THE AIR... POP SHIT BRUH I WAS DED

THE RED OUTFITS ARE SUCH A LOOK UGHHH

i almost cried when broken heart came on, such a beautiful song AND THEY LEFT A SPACE IN THE MIDDLE FOR HYUNGWON UGH MY HEART

blind, trespass, and rush were arguably the most hype songs of the night, like ive never went so hard in my life

also a moment to talk about shownu bc like… idk i’ve noticed he’s a lot more quiet than other leaders of idol groups so i wasn’t really sure what to expect but i gained so much respect for him?? he has great stage presence and is really well-spoken and charismatic damn gemini AND HE’S JUST SO TALENTED

omg there was this one part where wonho said “hyungwon actually made a recovery earlier than expected” and like the way he said it made it seem like hyungwon was gonna make a surprise appearance but nah

but it’s okay bc they all said they wanna come back to the bay asap and y’all can BET i’ll be there

i appreciated their english speaking, like during their intros and goodbyes it was heartwarming to see their efforts to communicate w us

surprisingly they didnt really talk much about how it was their 800 days?? idk i was kinda expecting them to address it but they didnt

omg their bows were adorable, they like held hands and moved across the stage in a line to bow to different parts of the venue it was so cute to watch

post-show

my friend and i waited in the merch line that moved pretty quickly actually?? but there were only stickers left and i thought it was more important for my friend to get something bc it was her first concert and she really wanted something to remember it by so i passed (also stickers were $25 what even)

but it’s cool bc she let me have a hyungwon sticker (and a cute lil logo bc there were two of them)!! theyre probably gonna live in my phone case bc i have a clear one so y’all BET im taking my mans everywhere w me

she really enjoyed herself which i was really happy to see!! being there for someone’s first concert is magical 10/10 would recommend

i also enjoyed myself in case i didnt make that clear lmao. despite the rough pre-concert experience, seeing those boys do their thing made everything worth it and i’m so glad i got to experience their first world tour :’) also ive never let loose to the extent that i did sober tonight so props to monsta x for bringing out my bay area hyphy lmaooo

i just wanna say thank you to monsta x for coming to sf, putting on a good show, and making us feel loved and appreciated. i was hella surprised when an sf show was announced considering most groups usually just go to LA, so thanks for giving the bay a chance and showing us such a fun time!!

and shoutout to the monbebes for being such a cute crowd. i loved seeing everyone waving their light sticks and arms and just having a good time, and cheering so hard for these talented and hardworking men

also seeing everyone come out of hi-touch all happy and smiley and starstruck was the cutest thing, so if you got to experience that i’m so happy for you and i hope you enjoyed seeing those boys up close!! would’ve done it myself but im an unemployed college kid so anything over $100 wasn’t an option for me

((another also, im v sorry to everyone behind me if my aggressive arm waving got in the way of your view i was enjoying myself way too much))

all in all, my first kpop concert was a huge success!! came in not knowing what to expect (it’s a bit different from the other shows/concerts ive been to in the past, but a good different!!), but still had a lit ass night :)