#BASICALLY I HAVE A LOT TO SAY i’ll shut up now 💗

[wayward-sherlock]

do you have any fic recs? thank you!

HELLO ANON I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO ANSWERING THIS ASK SINCE I GOT IT (im going to assume you mean byler fics since that is my most recent specialty🫶):

a cruel summer with you by the amazing @campbyler is by FAR one of my all time favorite fics. never in my entire four year fic reading career have i read something that obviously has so much love (and lore) put into it. if you haven’t read it already (or interacted with their blog, which i highly suggest!) this would be one of my first picks! (anything by suni or thea or andi is guaranteed to strike you speechless, though, so definitely check them out as authors, too!)

take a little moment (find the right words) by my lovely friend @astrobei is definitely also in my top all time bc i am SUCH a sucker for college aus it’s not even FUNNY. anything by suni is a banger, honestly, but this one specifically nails the miscommunication/idiots in love trope AND has rotund ducks. what is not to love.

a body in motion (also by @astrobei) is one of the best and most visceral mike character studies i have ever read. i’ve read it twice and the playlist has a permanent place in my spotify library. i don’t think i need to say any more.

sleeping with the lights on by singingseok is another mike character study that tore my heart from my chest and made me watch as it picked it apart and sewed it back together. okay. it’s SO good i highly recommend it for sure!

literally anything by @parkitaco is going to be fantastic, but three of my personal faves are the gaps and the silence, the windows of this love, and you were bigger than the whole sky because apparently i love sobbing into my pillow in the middle of the night. it’s healthy sometimes.

the strawberries are dying by my favorite doopel @lighthouseas is PERFECT if you’re looking for a unique take on byler with a historical spin <3 im a SUCKER for historical aus as well so this great depression fic was so incredibly perfect hehe

landslide by chamb3rs is. it’s so good i don’t even have words. it captures the spirit of senior year of high school so well, especially now that i’m in it lol. anyway, i’ve read this one twice and will continue to read it again for the rest of forever <3

and lastly, if you’re looking for spiderman aus (which i LOVE), look before you leap by lumism, the higher i climb, the farther i fall by @andiwriteordie, and mike wheeler’s guide to falling in love with a superhero by @smoosnoom are all wonderful perfect places to start 💗

i hope this gives you a good place to start anon :3 and also that im not overwhelming you. lol. but feel free to check out my bookmark page here for a more complete list of fics i’ve read!

[mvltisstuff]

911 fic - A fic of y/n begins like buck/Eddie begins please, but the reader is eddie’s sister 💗

angst, heartbreak, grief, fluff too if possible pls 🫶

thank you ❤️‍🩹

mr. rager - e.d

summary: request

eddie diaz x sister!reader

gif from @tawaifeddiediaz

a/n: i hope i included all the things you wanted in there, apologies if i missed anything 🩶 can we also appreciate kid cudi for a few mins thanks

ever since middle school, y/n was told about how much of a dream life she had. she had good friends, good style, she was pretty. she spent a lot of her time occupied with friends and out of the house to avoid the chaos and criticism.

she’d been the youngest of the diaz family, with two older sisters, adriana and sophia, and her older brother eddie. at home, she was just the little sister who was forced to live up to her siblings. when she wasn’t home, she was y/n and only y/n.

for as long as she could remember, it was her and eddie. when they were kids, they ran around the yard and had slumber parties in the basement. her sisters would be out with their own friends, sharing their time together. as time went on, eddie grew older. it’s natural, y/n knew. she dreaded the day that eddie would want to move on and stop hanging out with her.

then, eddie enlisted. y/n was immensely proud of him, but she then realized that she would be alone. her sisters wanted nothing to do with her, and her parents just put her to the side. y/n almost felt selfish for wanting eddie to come home, despite knowing all the good he had been doing.

eddie had been in the army for a few years, and that’s just how long it took y/n to adjust to life without him there. she didn’t know what to do with herself. she had no one at home who truly supported her. eddie came to all of her sports games, all of her award nights, every single thing that y/n was a part of, he was there. she prayed that her parents would come, to be proud of her and to cheer her on, but it seemed that everything she did was useless to them. it was impossible to form bonds with them. her sisters basically said they wouldn’t waste their time on her, and her parents didn’t have time for her.

the sneaking out started freshman year. the drinking with her friends and getting wasted pretty much every weekend continued for a while. her parents rarely even noticed her, so she didn’t think they’d care about any of that.

it wasn’t until her sister-in-law, shannon, got pregnant and had christopher that eddie came back. he instantly noticed y/n’s change. her style, personality, and she became a stranger. she held a lot of anger for him, somehow. he was the one person to look out for her, and then he just left again.

eddie was in the living room of their house, christopher and shannon sleeping in the other room. he had a bottle of beer and was watching a spanish show on the TV. he heard the footsteps that came from behind him, but y/n didn’t care if he heard. he wouldn’t say anything, he’s done enough by leaving her in hell already. it wasn’t his fault. she knows that, but some part of her broken self cannot realize that yet.

“hey, you’re up late,” eddie speaks first.

“so are you.”

“it’s midnight, where are you going?”

“out, edmundo.” the backpack on her shoulders was clanking, signaling that she very noticeably had stuff in there.

“why do you have all that? what the hell has gotten into you? sneaking out and drinking, wearing that?”

“this isn’t a new thing. besides, i’m like a ghost here anyway. with my friends, at least i get some type of attention. i’ll see you later,” she argues, trying to end the conversation.

“no, i cant let you go out now, y/n,” eddie replies, standing up and speaking louder.

“can you be quiet? it’s not like anyone would notice anyway.”

“y/n, this is so stupid, c’mon-“ he’s cut off by the sharp cries of christopher, sighing when he hears them.

“why don’t you go take care of your kid before you disappear again?” she asks, and turns around, quietly shutting the door and running to her friends car. her words secretly sting eddie. he had to support his family, and he had to finish his tour in afghanistan. he didn’t know leaving would cause so much tension between him and his baby sister, but it did and he didn’t know how to reverse it. eddie went back to the room, picking christopher up into his arms and looking at shannon, who was beginning to roll awake.

“is he ok?”

“yeah, yeah he’s alright.”

“are you ok?” she asks him, not taking her eyes off him.

“i don’t- i don’t know what happened to y/n. she’s changed so much and i missed all of it. and i don’t think it’s for the better.”

y/n arrives home from her friends house the next night to be confronted with her family at the table. “y/n, sit,” her father breaks the silence.

“papí, i have so much homework i need to get done-“

“maybe you could’ve done that instead of sneaking out,” he cuts through her sentence, ending it. y/n’s eyes immediately dart to eddie’s, not breaking the contact between them. “i don’t know what to do with you, y/n. what happened to the girl i knew?”

“what girl you knew? none of you ever attempted to spend time with me, so i found people who will. and you’re kissing up to someone who’s leaving tomorrow!”

“y/n, stop this now! your brother has to work,” her mom says.

“yeah, i know. i’m happier than i’ve been in months, months! no thanks to you guys, i might as well be invisible here!”

“what do you want us to do?” adriana remarks. “you’re not the center of the universe, y/n.”

“yeah, like grow up,” sophia comments, in her sisters footsteps. y/n forced back any tears of frustration she had, not letting them see her cry like a child. they missed everything important to her, they didn’t care.

it was finally graduation day. y/n was free of everything, and it was the marking of her adulthood. her family sat in the audience, and she looked at christopher who attempted his own sign. the words were unreadable, but y/n didn’t care. she had a plan and saved up a ton of money for school, and maybe even an apartment, eventually. she stayed for the summer, but left for los angeles in the fall.

she attended university of california in berkley, finally wishing to settle her life out of el paso. meanwhile, eddie had been having an internal battle with himself. shannon had left for her mother, leaving him with christopher. his parents begged him to give them chris, but he refused. the boy needs his father, and eddie would never, ever leave him again. he decided to go to los angeles for a job as a firefighter/paramedic. he knew y/n was there, and maybe he could find shannon too.

eddie and y/n had become strangers, almost. she moved away after school and barely spoke to her family. a direct cause of their treatment toward her. he missed her dearly, longing for the bond they had as children that had faded away. y/n wanted to see him again, but figured he was still disappointed in the person she was without him. she forgets that she was just a teenager. their brains are all hormonal and such, but the true reason was the abandonment she felt. she hadn’t been back to texas in years, content with her new life and friends she formed in california. it was completely different. she was in control of her life, not having to be under the spotlight of judgement every day.

after his shift one day, eddie was brought up by his motivation. he knew if he didn’t fix his relationship with his sister now, they never would be the same again. it’s such a fragile concept. one obstacle in a family can have a domino effect over everyone. so, he picked up his phone and pressed on her number, even if it was late. it rang for an uncomfortable amount of time, before her memorable voice came through again. he’d been stuck watching videos and tapes of the family out of fear to push her away even more, but he was relieved to her her voice live.

y/n sat in eddie’s kitchen on his day off with a cup of coffee in her hand. christopher had been out with buck for a while, so they could have a little bit of time alone. eddie sat down soon after across from her. he sighed, disappointed that he didn’t know where to begin. “so, what have you been up to? work, you know.”

“it’s been good, i’m working with some of the best in the field right now. i got promoted.”

“that’s great! you like it there?”

“i love it, i’m happier than ever right now,” she smiles and looks down.

“it’s been so long, i feel like we have too much to talk about.”

“i know, eddie,” she says. “but, how’s everyone at home?”

“they’re good, have you spoke to them?”

“not too much. just for the big milestones like weddings and babies.”

eddie pauses, thinking about whether or not he wants to mention the elephant in the room. “i never meant to put you in the dark, y/n.”

“eddie, it’s fine-“

“no, it’s not fine. i thought that they would care about you when i wasn’t there, but i didn’t realize how bad things were until i got back. i don’t know why they didn’t notice when you’d get back hungover as hell.”

“it sucked but-“

“i just think-“

“dude,” y/n speaks up, interrupting him while grinning. “you have to let me speak.”

“sorry, go on,” eddie laughs.

“it was awful not having you there. you’re the only one who gave a shit about me. i never got a ‘how are you doing’ or a real appreciation. and i tried so hard to get their affection and i don’t know what i did.”

“so you came here?”

“yeah. and i found what i needed. i get told thank you and get appreciated by people who’ve known me for a minute now. it took 18 years for me to get that from everyone else. i was crushed when you decided to leave, but i’m just proud of you now. and i was too blind to say that years ago,” y/n spills out about her life, and portrays everything to him to lay it out. it’s off her shoulders now, and eddie’s here. she can forget about it.

“i’m sorry, y/n. i’m never leaving again, and i never wanted anything more than to see you living the life you’ve always wanted.”

“stop,” y/n speaks abruptly.

“what?”

“you’re gonna make me cry, stop it!” she replies, trying to hide her watery eyes, but eddie’s smile is clear. it’s mocking, but in a beautiful way. “where’s my little guy?”

“he’s out with my best friend, buck. figured it would give us some time to talk,” eddie informs. “they’ll be back soon, if you wanna meet him.”

“i already know christopher, eddie. i haven’t been away that long.”

“no, buck,” eddie tells. “you’d get along, just a hello.” before eddie can keep ranting about buck and how he’s trying to set her up, the door swings open to reveal the brightest smile from christopher and the man behind him. christopher has always remembered y/n. no matter what she went through, she was there for him and he adored her. y/n decides to surprise him, moving into the doorway and hiding behind a wall.

“hi, dad!” christopher says, walking over to him.

“hey, buddy! i’ve got a surprise for you.”

“i love surprises,” christopher awaits what could be shown to him.

“your tía is here,” eddie says, in a singsongy voice as y/n steps out into the door.

“y/n!” christopher says, trying his best to move as fast as he can over to her. she bends down to his level and pulls him into a hug. “i missed you.”

“i know, kid. it’s been too long, but i’m here now. i’m here with you and my brother.”

[parfaitblogs]

Hey girl I’ve been wanting to tell you my thoughts on your new fic ( ate it all the way up btw- best bed time story ever) but I’ve been so busy!! I’ll get to it eventually but for now I have a question. I’m so so so sorry if this is super intrusive but this is not coming from a place of malice whatsoever just pure curiosity- can you explain a little about your asexuality cause from your blog like your little posts that aren’t fics it seems like you are sexually attracted to Spencer/ mgg and I know it can be a spectrum but I guess I’m just a little curious about your personal experience? because I think I also remember you saying you’re bi. Again super sorry if this is overstepping it I just want to gain a better understanding of these things cause i believe it’s important to be educated and avoid harmful or inaccurate rhetoric or preconceived notions - I think that a lot of the hate towards the LGBTQ+ community comes from misplaced fear that stems from misunderstanding and lack of appropriate education (that and religious ideals deeply ingrained in our society) - 💌 missed talking to you

hello my lover!! so sorry this took me so long to answer you sent it right before my classes for the day started 💔 and don’t worry take your time i’ll be excited to read your thoughts whenever you get around to it 🫂

no you are not overstepping!! i’m very open about my sexuality, and i’m always happy to talk about it! i specify my asexuality with the label demisexual, which some people don’t believe is a thing but! whatever!! think what you will! but that basically means i cant form sexual attraction to somebody unless i have built an emotional connection with them. this means i will romantically be attracted to someone and want to date them, but the thought of having sex with them won’t occur to me until further down the track of the relationship :)

when it comes to mgg/spencer… he isn’t. real (spencer). so my feelings for him are nonexistent LOL. and mgg is unattainable. so, again, nonexistent😭 i don’t know either of them personally nor will i ever, and so all my posts are silly little jokes and (usually) copypastas, or references to internet memes 😄 i am not actually sexually or romantically attracted to either of them in actuality (i do not know them!!) nor is anything i feel for fictional characters/celebrities on a scale where my sexuality needs to be flagged (this is not a jab at you btw baby angel!!!). feelings for real people ≠ attraction to fictional characters/celebrities.

“but lia you write smut!!” so true i do! which was, honestly!! very difficult for me to do, and it still is. it’s why i’ve got the whole “one smut fic a month” thing. it took me like three/four months of writing strictly angst/fluff/comfort for me to even consider writing spencer/reader sexually, because i simply couldn’t see myself doing it. so in a way i kind of built the trust and emotional connection with… my writing?? my version of spencer?? to write him that way😭

idk if this makes any sense whatsoever and i am sorry it is so long!! very long explanation where all i do is talk about me omggg someone tell her to shut up!!!

anyways thank you i love you i also miss talking to you!! 💗💘💘💗💘 i hope uni isn’t stressing you out too much

[notyobabygirl]

💗 heyy thanks for replying to my question earlier! so basically the 2nd part to my question kinda depends on which you have done. i’ve smoked weed/taken edibles probably 10 times over the past 2 years. and every time i either limit myself so i feel fine, but i still don’t love the high i get from it. other times i’ll feel like i’m burning up inside really bad and i regret getting high. i also feel like i’m in major slow motion every single time and i hate it, it feels like my body is in a constant free fall lol. and whenever i try to sleep after getting high on indica strains, my brain like will not shut up and it’s just so weird. idk if this is because my boyfriend always get the best/strongest weed, or if it’s just my body’s reaction because i hardly ever get weed high? idk why but i wish i was one of those people that loved weed lol especially since my boyfriend smokes daily, i could use that to my advantage but i just don’t like it. maybe i need to smoke more often?? anyways, i did molly for the first time a few months ago and i’ve done it 3x total now and i LOVE it. because i don’t really feel “high” and my body doesn’t have a reaction like it does to weed (other than the jaw thing and touching stuff feels crazy sometimes) rolling on molly honestly makes me feel so sexy and happy and i get so vulnerable with the people around me which is rare for me. i’ve been doing some research and i’m considering buying shrooms to microdose on… i’ve heard there’s some amazing benefits and i’ve always wanted to try shrooms but ik a lot of people have scary trips on them and i don’t want to experience that. another thing, literally all of my friends do coke but i’ve never tried it. my boyfriend used to have a lowkey coke addiction and i’m the one who helped him quit it and he refuses to do it now. but i’m such a curious person and when all my friends do it it makes me want to try it. but idk what the high would be like at all. i’ve heard it’s less psychological than molly and shrooms, and you don’t get the body high like on weed? i’ve heard you just get hella energy and a good mood from it? but idk. so i was gonna ask if you have ever done shrooms or coke and how you felt or liked them. and if you had similar highs to me from weed or molly if you’ve done it! :) only if you’re comfortable sharing your experiences and which you’ve done of course. and ik i probably sound like a crazy person wanting to try new drugs lol but i’m just curious and idk if i ever will venture out to anything more. but i had such a positive experience with trying molly, i wouldn’t be surprised if future me says F it and does try something new lol

I have tried weed a couple times and I never have liked it. my ex was a huge smoker and sometimes I would be like I wish I could smoke with him but looking back im so thankful I never got into a smoking faze. if you dont like weed, then dont push it!! I have done Molly and I do like it but It deff has to be the right setting and with the right people. I've done it at festival/concerts and always had a good time on it. but I know people who have had awful come up and come downs so just be careful on it! ive done shroom twice and didnt really feel anything from it but heard good things about it. I would 100% stay away from coke, I know so many people that have overdosed and now so much shit is laced with it. im not toooo experienced when it comes to doing drugs like that but if anyone in the comments is comfortable with giving their opinions please comment!!