#Atsushi suffered more than Jesus

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In his STORMBRINGER arc

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Let’s Read & Suffer: Tsukumojuku by Maijō Ōtarō [part 22]

Today`s recap: In which Inugami Yasha attempts to explain the case of the Cross House, people switch places with Jesus Christ a lot, and Tsukumojuku has a headache. [tw: brief eye horror]

STORY 7 PART 2

Tsukumojuku couldn't understand, and he cursed God. He cursed God for killing Tsutomu. In wrath, in grief, in despair, he pulled out his eyes, threw them on the ground, and crushed them under his shoe. Now he didn’t have to see that anymore, anything, ever again...

But he could still see everything. (Why? Why could he still see...?)

“Gajobun?”

He turned around. His dear Seshiru and Serika were standing there, both grown up, now a beautiful man and a woman. Glittering, almost. Dazzling. They were already pretty as kids, but now it was as if all that was beautiful that once hid deep inside them was now visible outside.

And Tsutomu--- with Tsutomu's head busted open like this, face in an unrecognizable shape, Tsukumojuku couldn't know if he had grown up to be beautiful, too...

“So you really are alive?” Seshiru said. “He knew that you were, and solved the case. ...Let���s go.”

- - -

In the mountains behind Himago-tani, even further than the small hut where Junko's body had once been found, there's a part where cars can't go any further. Going up the mountain way from there, you'd find yourself at the feet of a transmission tower. If you then entered the northern forest, and climbed a small hill, you'd arrive at a giant cross-shaped house with “CROSS HOUSE” written over the entrance.

The southern end of the vertical bar of the “cross” was near a cliff, from which you could see the dense cedar forest beneath. Walking inside the house put you in a winding hall surrounding 24 rooms. The hall and the rooms were made of worn out wood. Apparently, somebody had been secretly here, managed to climb the mountain unnoticed and maintain the house. The mysterious carer tidied the place up, changed the mattresses, even cleaned the bathrooms.

Each of the 24 rooms contained a bed, a bookcase, a desk set, and a closet. The bathrooms and the dining room were in another, smaller building northwest of the Cross House.

At the northern end of the cross, there was a small chapel, with fourteen pews in two rows, a pulpit for sermons and an altar. Behind the altar there was a cross, but without a figure of Christ.

- - -

On 9th September, around 11 AM, Kato Takashi had come to check on the state of the Cross House, as some guests were living there for the previous two weeks -- members of a video production group from Shibuya, the Angel Bunnies. Abe Atsushi, who was one of them, had asked Mr. Takashi if they could do some filming there. Their movie was based on the original work of Ayatsuji Yukito [an actual Kodansha writer] called The Cross House Murders [十字館の殺人 -- a pun on Ayatsuji’s real novel's title, The Decagon House Murders, 十角館の殺人. ]

When Mr. Takashi came to the Cross House that day, he found the dead body of “Tsukumojuku” in the hall in front of the chapel’s open door. Surrounding the corpse were seven candles, their flames illuminating his naked body and the arrow in his chest.

- - -

When everyone from the Cross House gathered in the chapel, Seshiru [who’s going by Inugami Yasha, as the twins are still wanted for murder] said, “As a last thing in this investigation, I'd like once more to review everyone’s alibi for the time of the murder, 11 AM.” He drew a map of the Cross House on the whiteboard, numbered the rooms 1-24 clockwise and wrote down all their alibi.

1: Hongou Takeshi – sleeping.

2: Tanaka Masatsugu – checking the script. A few times went out to knock on his neighbour Hongou's door to try and consult some parts with him, but it seems Hongou was sleeping all this time. Moved only between their rooms.

3: Kumono Takuya – working on their Internet page.

4: Yoshida Yukino – woke up around 10:30, changed clothes, at 10:45 went out of the room, then through the eastern entrance and walked around the chapel to reach the big washroom, met Mizoroki there, at about 11:00 went back to her room the same way.

5: Hoshino Masato – sleeping.

6: Aoyama Gen – sleeping.

7: Mizoroki Fumie – like 4's Yoshida, went to the washroom and then returned the same way.

8: Kajiwara Ayako – sleeping.

9: Nomura Rie – sleeping.

10: Obata Aki – at around 10:50 woke up, knocked on the door to room 11 (Nonaka's) but there was no answer, so she returned to her room and finished changing. At around 11:00 knocked on Nonaka's door again with the same result. Then she knocked on the door of rooms 9 (Nomura) and 8 (Kajiwara), but they were also still sleeping, so she decided to go to the washrooms alone through the eastern door. Returned to her room the same way at around 11:30.

11: Nonaka Mami – sleeping.

12: Kawai Kazuhiro – sleeping.

13: Fukushima Manabu – sleeping.

14: Abe Atsushi – woke up at 10:30, took three roundtrips to knock on the door of room 16 (Iwai) to go with her to the washrooms, but because of lack of an answer gave up after the third time and went back to sleep.

15: Furutaka Masayuki – sleeping.

16: Iwai Yumi – sleeping.

17: Nakai Sayaka – morning exercise routine.

18: Kawabe Keisuke – storyboarding.

19: Higashimoto Mika – sleeping.

20: Satou Kazuhiro – surfing the net, writing an entry on the Heaven's Voice boards.

21: Taniguchi Touru – doing pushups.

22: Hanada Sawako – calling dad in Fukuoka (recording as proof).

23: Hiraki Takako – sleeping

24: Room for luggage.

- - -

Seshiru wrote down all of this, then asked if anything strange happened back then. (Tsukumojuku noticed that Seshiru didn't write down any alibi for himself.) Nobody really said anything, so Seshiru hinted, “Well, if you still don't understand, then maybe you should try... asking God.”

As he said this, Serika showed everyone a large crucifix with a Jesus figure attached to it.

“This,” Seshiru continued, “is the figure of Christ that had been made for this movie. It's really well done. And speaking of everyone's alibi... well, if you look carefully at the whiteboard, you’ll see that... nah, you know what?” he casually put the whiteboard away, “let's just stop with this. It's quite bothersome.”

Everyone was pretty confused, until they realized that while Seshiru was directing their attention away with the whiteboard, Serika had managed to replace the Christ on the crucifix with a full-size, realistic-looking doll. Pale skin, long hair, a crown of thorns, stigmata, a bleeding spear wound on the chest. The doll also happened to look exactly like one of the Angel Bunnies, Aoyama Gen.

“That figure of Christ you’ve made was only put on the cross in the chapel during the shooting. It was originally prepared as the background prop for the scene in which Mr. Aoyama would play a victim. Now, this doll here sure resembles both Mr. Aoyama and Christ a lot.” He removed the long wig from the figure. “...Although the hairstyle is quite different from God’s.”

(listening to him – to that “different from God’s” phrase – Tsukumojuku remembered for some reason: God is different, if something's different from God then it cannot be God...)

“The culprit secretly put this Aoyama doll on the cross. Then, the supervisor of the movie saw the doll, thought it was a threat, and without telling the crew summoned a great detective called Tsukumojuku to investigate the situation.”

...That other “Tsukumojuku”. Who was he? What was he doing here? Tsukumojuku didn’t know anything.

If you don't know something, think about it deeply, Yuuki had said, and--

Yuuki?...

Right. Morimoto Yuuki [森本 有紀], from the Sixth Story...

His head was hurting a lot. As if that plant from Little Shop of Horrors was about to burst out of it and start singing about eating people, or something. [Yes, the narrator actually says that. What a nerd.] It really hurt. “Eating people”... Like the urban legend about Seshiru and Serika, like the man-eating Detective God... Why all this eating people stuff? What the fuck did that mean? He didn't know, he didn't understand. He had to really think about it, probably. He only got this far by thinking about things he didn't understand.

If you don't understand something, please think about it carefully, Yuuki had said. Yuuki? But why was he thinking about Yuuki...? He had no clue what was going on. There were so many things he didn't know or understand...

- - -

Seshiru continued, “And so, while the Great Detective Tsukumojuku was being given a tour around the place, nobody noticed that the Aoyama doll was replaced – this time with the culprit himself. He waited up there until Tsukumojuku came by to investigate the chapel by himself later, then shot him dead using a modern crossbow. Then he arranged the scene with the seven candles to confound the police.”

“So it was Aoyama?!” Kawabe asked.

“No. But since his doll was used, the culprit probably hoped it'd cast a suspicion on Mr. Aoyama. However, he's not the only person here who resembles Jesus Christ and thus could be mistaken for the figure – in the movie, Mr. Aoyama’s character has a fraternal twin, even... And you, Satou Kazuhiro, are the one playing him. Your alibi wouldn't hold in court, too. However… everyone here is sure you’re not the kind of person to commit murder.” Everyone nodded in agreement. “If so, then who prepared this stunt?”

The silence was deafening.

“Mr. Furutaka.” Seshiru turned to him.

Mr. Furutaka just grinned at him.

“Everyone, you may notice that Mr. Furutaka resembles both Mr. Aoyama and Jesus Christ a little. He'd need both of their inanimate counterparts that morning. The Aoyama doll to put on the cross, and the Christ figure to put in bed and pretend it’s him, asleep. Since it's pretty dark in the rooms, nobody would notice the difference. Here,” Seshiru showed everybody two polaroids, “are photos I've taken of this Christ figure when I found it hidden under Mr Furutaka's bed. As you can see, whoever would glance inside the room wouldn't notice it at this angle.” Two more photos. “And here's the doll of Mr. Aoyama, found under the bed of Mr. Aoyama himself. Same situation.”

“Wait, wait!” Mr. Aoyama shouted, “I didn't know that was there!”

“Of course you didn't. Mr. Furutaka put it under your bed while you were asleep. Whether he'd put it under yours or Satou's bed, it didn't really matter, either one would be suspected when the doll was found. He couldn’t hide it back in his own room -- the morning when Tsukumojuku was killed, Abe Atsushi made a few round trips to Mrs. Iwai's room, which involves passing by Mr. Furutaka's door, so he’d be noticed. The time before somebody noticed the body was running out, so in panic he hid the doll under Mr. Aoyama’s bed. Then in confusion over the murder he sneaked back to his room and quickly put the Christ figure under his bed. And that's how I had the chance to find Jesus.”

Furutaka kept on smiling.

“But here's the question, Mr. Furutaka. When you used this,” Seshiru showed everyone a modern crossbow, “whose heart did you pierce with the arrow? Because that wasn't Tsukumojuku. Tsukumojuku's sitting right there, perfectly alive.” He pointed at him. “Then who is the victim, Mr. Furutaka?”

“I don't have a damn clue, you idiot,” Furutaka answered, “'cause it wasn't me who killed the dude.”

“Then why was the Christ figure found in your room?”

“That's the only thing you have on me, huh? Then I'm gonna tell ya this had nothing to do with it. That ass cloth the figure has, remove it.”

Seshiru was confused but did so, and discovered there was a cylindrical hole drilled in the figure.

“See that?” Mr. Furutaka grinned. “That's where I put my--”

While everyone was shouting in outrage, Furutaka fled the scene, a few men chasing after him. Seshiru was just standing there stunned.

(Seshiru, you oaf. You were always an idiot. You still are one.)

“Seshiru,” Tsukumojuku quietly called his real name to get his attention.

In the Fourth Story, there was an imposter Christ, Seiryoin, and that event had to be a prediction about the progress of the current case. In the Fourth Story also, the Detective God called Tsukumojuku a Beast... and now it seemed like it was correct. To kill “God”, he'd now speak the words “God” wanted...

He looked pointedly at the ceiling in the middle of the chapel, and said, “How long, Sovereign Lord, holy and true, until you judge the inhabitants of the earth and avenge our blood?” [Revelation 6] He stood up and approached Seshiru. “Seshiru... we were told to wait a little longer, until the full number of our fellow servants, our brothers and sisters, were killed just as we had been.”

The Fifth Seal had been opened. Finally, he understood everything.

Everything had meaning.

- - -

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IMPRESSIONS

I’m not sure how much of Seshiru and Serika’s new “beauty” is there because of them growing up into better people (or whatever is it that is implied here?), and how much of it is just the result of Tsukumojuku looking at them through rose-tinted glasses caused by emotions after losing Tsutomu.

The “everything has meaning” ( (全てに意味がある) phrase Tsukumojuku uses here, and that’ll get used a few times more in this book, is the very same phrase that Japanese Jorge frequently uses in Jorge Joestar.

The Arrow Cross House in Jorge Joestar also happens to have 24 rooms, if we don’t count the four little hallways, or the study (=Cube House).

“My head hurt as if that plant from Little shop of Horrors was about to burst out of it and start singing about eating people” is not a phrase I expected to read, but one I whole-heartedly welcome.

>>>>NEXT PART>>>>

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Current Bungou Stray Dogs feelings? (and Theories)

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Oh the same as always my friends! Except for one slight change:

      I’M SORRY BUT WHAT FRESH HELL IS ALL THIS????

MY AGENCY CHILDREN ARE IN SEVERE DANGER, DAZAI IS IN JAIL, AND FYODOR IS STILL 2 STEPS AHEAD OF EVERYONE.

OK THIS IS NOT GOOD.

NO RON WE CANNOT. WE KNOW DAMN WELL THE AGENCY WILL COME THROUGH.

The only question is...How much more is going to be sacrificed?

First off, hi guys! Lightgirl here and I’M BACK BABY!!! X3

So yeah the world of Bungou Stray Dogs is quite crazy at the moment, and dear GOD I can’t tell you how eager and excited I am whenever a new month rolls around. This arc just keeps getting more intense and suspenseful and I LOVE IT. You know aside from the agency family and their companions suffering, yeah OTHER than that! XDDD;;;

So seeing as so much s**t is going down at this point in time, let us examine said s**t shall we~?

First off I would like to take a moment to gush about a certain pair in chapters-OH SCREW IT YOU ALL KNOW DAMN WELL WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT:

THIS

MOTHER

F**CKING

TEAM UP

OH MY GOD YOU GUYS DON’T UNDERSTAND HOW HAPPY I WAS THESE TWO HAVE SUCH GREAT CHEMISTRY AND BOTH OF THEM MAKE SUCH A GREAT TEAM. PUT TOGETHER THEY ARE A BOWL OF AWESOME AND HILARITY AND THERE WAS NOTHING BUT SMILES ON THIS GIRLS FACE THANK YOU VERY MUCH

I WOULD LIKE TO THANK NOT ONLY GOD BUT ALSO JESUS

Ranpo you have NO room to talk XDDD

Careful Poe your fangirl is showing <B3

I APPROVE

LOL You ok there Ranpo? XDDD

What I really like about this is that Poe is someone that Ranpo shows new sides of himself around. Seriously, I don’t think we’ve ever seen him dumbfounded at least like THIS XDDD;;;

Okay, Poe, sweetie, I get that you don’t get out much and you consider Ranpo to be a rival (For some ODD REASON HE CALLS YOU HIS FRIEND NOW GET WITH THE PROGRAM YOU SILLY RACCOON BOY) but saying things like THIS does not have me believing you think of him as such! I don’t think a person normally calls their rival’s face ‘Precious’ and that it ‘Puts them back in the Black’! >8T

...I ship RanPoe can’t you tell...? <BT;;;

That being said, this isn’t a RanPoe post so moving on. <|D;;;

After said team foiled the plan of Oguri, who in actuality is NOT a cold blooded murder but instead a pure hearted cinnamon roll:

It fine, I didn’t need my heart anyway, in fact it just got back from it’s vacation at MISERYWORLD IN PALM BEACH, FEELS.

*Ahem* Sorry.

Anyway, after the case is solved some MAJOR s**t goes down with a-

UM EXCUSE ME??? I JUST ACCEPTED OGURI AS ONE OF MY OWN CAN WE NOT DO THIS???

YES EXACTLY WHO ARE YOU??? AND WHY ARE YOU SPORTING A LOOK THAT REMINDS ME OF JACKLE FROM “NIGHTS INTO DREAMS”??? YES I KNOW THAT WAS ODDLY SPECIFIC DON’T QUESTION ME.

This ladies and gentlemen, is Nikolai Gogol. Another follower of Fyodor’s and dear God, I freaking-

-Love this bastard beyond belief.

I can’t help it! Unlike Fyodor whose amount of expressions equal that of a freaking ROCK (Come on guys, you can’t deny he rarely shows ANY emotion. Yeah he occasionally gives a smile, but how many has he given again? Seriously how many, I can’t even recall...<|T;;;;) Gogol is expressive as all hell. Dammit, from his outfit to his personality I LOVE THIS DORKY PSYCHO. And his ability? Dear GOD its awesome but more on that later!Pretty much to sum up, the ADA is put in a VERY dicey situation where it’s basically seeming like a losing battle, and like I said we know our Agency and Mafia children will come out victorious. But I highly doubt we’re gonna leaving this chapter unscathed.Because well, THIS happened:

So yeah. I mean I REALLY HOPE he’s not dead, but this is probably wishful thinking. Because ultimately, this is WAR, and if there is something we’ve all sadly learned, not everyone comes home alive. But who do I think is at the most risk? Any of the Agency? The Mafia?

Actually neither.

It’s Edgar Allen Poe.

Think about it. He had a lot of screen time as of recently, and his interactions with Ranpo seemed more...I don’t know. It looked as if the manga was trying to convey how they just click together and how they great they are as a team. Ranpo considers Poe a friend, and I figure you’d have to be pretty dang close to the detective to consider you a friend; just saying.

Also Poe was pretty detrimental to solving Oguri’s case, his ability basically giving Ranpo the cover he needed to interrogate Oguri privately.

Fyodor is pretty adamant on disposing certain people, and from what I can remember one of those certain people is Chuuya, and where is he right now?

In a book, held in by Poe’s ability.

Now Fyodor is FAR from stupid, so he’s gonna find out where Chuuya is, and let me you all in on a little something.

HE’S NOT SAFE.

Yes he is inside Poe’s book, but did it ever occur to anyone what would happen if Poe were to be so injured that the ability would wear off? Or worse yet, Poe indeed DYING. What happens then? Well, 1 of 2 things: One) What I just stated, and Chuuya being released from the book or Two) Chuuya is stuck inside the book forever. FOR. EVER. And then Fyodor can just burn that book and POOF. Chuuya: Dead. OH GOD DON’T TELL ME RANPO BORROWING KARL WAS FORESHADOWINGASFADSGDFWTRHFKDNS

Guys I’m sorry to burst all your bubbles, but Chuuya isn’t safe. He never was. In fact I’m making one thing perfectly clear right now:

TAKE WHATEVER YOU FEEL MIGHT BE SAFE OR GOOD IN THIS ARC AND THROW IT AWAY.

This arc has and will continue to prove that Fyodor is showing NO MERCY.

Think Dazai will keep the strategies coming? WRONG, HE’S BEEN ARRESTED. Think Ranpo will pull the Agency out of this government laid plan? WRONG, IT’S A DOUBLE EDGE SWORD. Think Chuuya is safe? 

WRONG. WRONG. WRONG.

Fyodor cares about two things and two things only: Himself and his goals, and he will do ANYTHING to achieve them. Everyone and Anyone is a target, it doesn’t matter who you are or what you’ve done, NO ONE is safe.

And that includes our main protagonist!

Yeah, aside from E.A. Poe, I believe Atsushi is a MAJOR target in this arc. Now it’s not death because if he died now I think the story would be cut short, but dig deep into thin minds for a moment and remember an important piece of information Mr.Fitzgerald shared with said Tiger shifter: 

Really Fitz? A ‘Tiger’ pun...? >BT

Ignoring that lame joke, (REALLY FITZ???) look at this page’s dialogue. Fitzgerald tells Atsushi of a book he and Guild are searching for, one that is pretty much invulnerable to pretty much anything. (Did anyone try using scissors? Just wondering cause books CAN be cut up with-Gah I’m going off on a tangent MOVING ON)

Atsushi asks, “What’s that got to do with me?”

Fitzgerald’s answer, “Pretty much everything! 8D”

Because it does! Atsushi is the key to finding this special ‘book’ every foe, aside from the mafia, in this manga have been so obsessed over!

Remember that INSANE bounty Atsushi had placed on him? That was specifically set so certain people could catch him and find said book. Besides, why would he even HAVE one if not for that? It’s not like Atsushi had any reputation aside from...Well being an orphan. =3=;;; And our precious little Genocidal Russian Maniac currently wants said book.

>.>;;;;

Yyyeeaaaah, considering Dazai is imprisoned, the ADA being thrown for a loop, and both Fyodor AND Gogol working together...I’d say Atsushi is in for a liiiiiiittle bit of trouble.

Also he kinda isn’t good at fending off kidnappers, it happened like, what, twice already? <|T;;;;;;

For the next segment I decided to get some input from the amazing @looking-for-stray-dogs​. (SERIOUSLY GUYS GO CHECK THEM OUT THEY ARE AMAZINGLY AWESOME *WAIT DOES THAT EVEN MAKE SENSE?* XDDD)

Like I said, I wanted some input/insight on a certain theory I had, one that inspired me to make this post in the first place: 

That Fyodor is constantly and relentlessly targeting the agency because it'll be easier to get Atsushi.  Whether it'd be easier to kidnap him or just mind games so Atsushi will give himself up, I’m not sure, either one is plausible at this point. And in @looking-for-stray-dogs‘s response, they brought up some really good points as to why it might be plausible too:

“...what Fyodor wants to do is to make the ADA, Mafia, and possibly the government so stripped of power that he will have an easier time finding the book. And Atsushi is most likely included in the category of people he wants to strip of power, though so far Fyodor has not directly attacked him. Fyodor is taking the psychologically damaging route of attempting to destroy what holds the different agencies up (like Fukuzawa and Mori)...”

And DAMN all that is scary! (Though Truth be told I wouldn’t mind the government being stripped of power considering there are creepy psychos like that dude of which by the way thank you Gogol for shooting in the leg ANYWAY) As I’ve stated Fyodor is not playing nice so the nicest, fluffiest being in this entire manga going up against the aforementioned bully is pretty much like pitting Kirby against Ardyn from Final Fantasy 15. It’s too brutal and mean spirited. AND AROUND CHRISTMAS. 8C

“...I do not know whether he’s waiting and carrying out a long-term battle so he can eventually kidnap Atsushi (objectively, Atsushi is not at a level of strength yet where he can protect himself from being kidnapped, so technically Fyodor doesn’t have to wait that long if he just wants to make sure Atsushi is within his grasp). It is certainly possible that he wants to manipulate Atsushi into giving himself up to help him find the book...”

As they’ve stated, and also refering back to a statement I made earlier, Atsushi isn’t strong nor capable enough to prevent himself from getting catnapped. Wait a minute... DAMMIT FITZGERALD >8C

Anyway, Atsushi has just recently started training under Kunikida (AGAIN I APPROVE GO TEAM MOM TEACH HIM YOUR WAYS) so he obviously hasn’t learned much.  And let’s go back to his encounter with Gogol which by the way houses one of my favorite Atsushi moments OF ALL TIME:

JUST-ARE YOU SEEING THIS???

NOT ONLY DOES HE BITE THE GUN BUT HE BIT IT AND BROKE IT IN HALF HE BIT THE BULLET, AND NOW HE BIT THE GUN. THIS BOY IS FEIRCE.  I SWARE EVEN GOGOL IS LIKE: 

“...Holy s**t kid what kind of nails do you eat for breakfast?”

GOGOL YOUR RUSSIAN, DIDN’T THEY TELL YOU?

“In Soviet Russia, TIGER KILL GUN!” >8D

*Clears throat* M-My apologies I seemed to lost myself for a moment. Again... <|T;;;  L-Let us move on shall we? During Atsushi’s fight with Gogol didn’t it seem like the jester was...I dunno testing him? With his Portal Gun-I MEAN-Portal Ability which I love. Seriously Gogol stop making me love you MORE...>B///T And I don’t mean normal ‘show me ya moves’ testing ooooooh no, I mean SADISTIC ‘I wonder what this does” TESTING:

NO THAT’S FINE JUST RANDOMLY LAUNCH A PILLAR TO SLAM ATSUSHI INTO OBLIVION WHERE DID YOU EVEN GET THAT THE MATRIX??

EXCUSE ME, GIVE MY SON BACK HIS LEG HE KINDA NEEDS THAT

...

Honestly though, if it really comes to it, I firmly believe Atsushi would and will give himself up to Fyodor should the situation get that bad. It’s no secret he LOVES the members of the Agency. He cares for them as a family and hell, he even thinks as the Mafia as respectable people who love their city. Yeah Akutagawa and him butt heads but they just need their get along shirt and everything is OK! XDDD And of course, he loves the city, it’s his home, and by God he’s gonna do what it takes to protect it. Yes it is a bit of an oxymoron but by this point, Atsushi would consider this a better option so Fyodor would stop hurting the ones he care about; the ones he love.  He’s just that selfless. 

Now would everyone be ok with this? OH HELL NO, OF COURSE NOT! But he wouldn’t even give them a say.  And dammit this kid would just smile. HE WOULD JUST FREAKING SMILE AS HE WALKS OF TO CERTAIN DOOM DAMMIT ATSUSHI

And Dazai...Oh God DAZAI...

I can’t even begin to describe how his interaction with Atsushi would be should this theory come to pass. Can you imagine the look on his face when he hears of this plan this STUPID plan? Can you imagine the thoughts racing through his head? The most prevalent I think being:

“NOT AGAIN.”

Seriously, I pray to God that we will get through this without that happening. Because if I have to sit through another one of THESE scenes:

I think I’ll finally just crack...

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My precious baby 😭😭

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Atsushi suffered more than Jesus 😭