#Are you SURE whose hand is in yours?
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I love how you display creepy stuff. With uncanny expressions, body horror, and even setting. The ship the survivors on must be so chilly and old, you could hear footsteps from one end of the ship and night terrors of your neighbor. Properly delightful.
thank u I try very hard! I think horror is one of those things that are insanely hard to nail so I'm super duper glad
#Me when people feel dread from anything I do or say: do you prommy 🥺#Horror is so special to me. If I can do it justice I'm happy#not an art#The ship is cold and damp and out in the middle of nowhere where it's safest... no lights but the stars and moon sometimes#Maybe they need to occasionally black out all electronics to escape detection. And it's just pitch black.#Everyone bunks up with their roomies to wait ut out but the rooms dont have bathrooms or kitchens.#You need to go out so you wake u9 your roomie and you go out into the absolute pitch hand in hand#Maybe a glow stick between you something that can't be seen by other vessels.#A third pair of footsteps joins you. You dont see anything and you cant turn on the lights so you just hold tighter and keep moving.#Is the ship lurching or are you experiencing some sort of vertigo? Is the groaning and creaking just the framework?#Are you SURE whose hand is in yours?#To quote the haunting of hill house: god; god; whose hand was I holding?
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Artfight mods consider my profile picture to be the height of body horror :/ (has 7 eyes. apparently 6 is the maximum of eyes they allow. let's not talk about how the random character function is almost unusable because you will land into extreme untagged fetish characters every other roll, but hey, priorities)
#like i feel it's a running gag how you can't easily interact with people outside of your artfight circle bc you will find very weird stuff#i do think people are allowed to draw weird stuff mind you but filters don't get used for most of it#i landed on a character whose t*ts were bigger than the rest of the character itself#everyone knows about that person who makes everyone's hands and feet massive bc they have a thing for it#none of that is filtered#now#however#seven eyes???????? SEVEN eyes??? sorry sir only seven vagáinas#also the body horror rules are sure fun when last year they had vampires as a theme and everyone had gore and blood aaaaall over the place#i don't know greg a seventh eye may be less triggering than cannibalism and y'all didn't mind people drawing vampires eating people
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blame @seeking-elsewhither for this one. it's echo time and i'm having thoughts (tm)
#yeah it's more hfsw bad batcher time. this means suffering on the part of echo#...whose armor design i kind of hate but at the moment i haven't had time to give him a definitive design so we're stuck with this for now#star wars#margin doodles#hfsw#look at my guys#handprinted#okay but i am not going to lie. i have so many thoughts about echo. ESPECIALLY in hfsw#like. you were supposed to die. but you didn't. you were brought back and it was the most painful thing you've ever experienced#and you have to endure months on end of torture practicing the very black arts you were born to fight against#so that the monsters who saved your life can use your knowledge to kill your brothers#and the only thing keeping you from completely giving up is the memory of a supernova smile that grows fainter every day#and then you're finally rescued after an eternity of torment but something is wrong because the person who was supposed to rescue you...#isn't there#and he never will be again#and you'll never see his smile again#(but you could. you could you know. you have that power now. you could bring him back. if you really wanted.#but you could never. you would never forgive yourself for dredging him back up from his well-deserved rest for such a selfish reason.#you'd never forgive yourself for putting him through that pain and white-hot agony just because you miss him. so you don't.)#and you love your new brothers. really you do. and you love your little sister; you love her so much that your wrongly-beating heart aches#and you love what you do; even if it's terrifying and dangerous saving your brothers from a fate worse than death (and you would know)#but... there's a sour knot that throbs in your gut every time your vision snags on your skeleton hand or bony feet#and every time you look in the mirror and see the unnaturally glowing green crackles in your irises#you're not of this world anymore. and you're not sure you'll ever be okay with that.
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something something upper/middle class settler queers something something weaponized victim complex something something............................................................................
#usamericans who want to move currently comparing themselves to refugees fleeing literal warzones is really offensive actually#whipping yourselves into hysterics over the possibility of a sliver of the policy we export coming home instead of staying calm & taking#stock of what is actually happening & what is to be done and how you can actually be useful instead of throwing your hands up and accepting#christofascism. there have been camps this whole democratic presidency at the border maybe care about the ones that exist before the ones#in your head 🤷♂️ the marginalized communities whose struggles dems have been ignored this whole time have a lot you could learn from!#if cops start doorknocking to round up people are you just going to let them in because thats the law now? wowza sure says a lot about you!#deafening cacophony of moral apathy chauvinism cowardice and self-centeredness & i WILL call my fellow white queers out when i see it#look i was there with you in 2016 but if you have the same devastation this election idk what to tell you bc youve not been paying attentio#every 'i hope you enjoy being deported' person actually should go to a camp not because youre gay or trans but bc youre a hitlerite <3
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crazy idea but what if products for trans people actually worked
#vent#not looking for advice!#every time I try to use trans tape I look up tips on how to prevent blisters#because the last time I actually applied it the tape started tearing my skin open while it was still on -- not while I was removing it!!#every guide online is like “make sure you don't have wrinkles” and “don't stretch it too far” and “don't raise your arms”#but how the fuck do you do all that at once with only two hands#I don't even have that big of a chest#I guess this product just doesn't work for people whose chests aren't proportioned correctly#so it's either sports bra & dysphoria 40 hours a week or binding at my job that already fucks with my back#this is all AFTER I got earth shattering family news last night. anyway
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CAN I JUST SAY
I fucking hate nessarose
#wicked#like oh#nessarose thropp#nessarose HATE#'WOE IS ME IM IN A WHEELCHAIR MY LIFE IS TERRIBLE'#bitch get out of my fucking face#your a spoiled entitled rich brat whose father DOTES on you and LOVES YOU#and you have a sister who WAITS ON YOU HAND AND FOOT AND LOVES YOU#HOW IS YOUR LIFE BAD???#you have everything you could ever want!!!!#and girl if you want a man so bad im sure there are a MILLION who'd kill to be with you!! you're hot!!!!#it just seems like the only 'bad' part of her life is being in a wheelchair which....so are a lot of people it's not a big deal
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among the boundless billions zaniness like laugh track as it definitely has that moment of expressing "rolling my eyes as The Left makes a kerfuffle of Acting like they have a stance as a veneer over the true belief that [xyz] is cool & chill actually" like what, approximate 0.000% chance wendy isn't, as usual, given the Objective Stance of "yeah yeah ohh we are cancelling involved parties talking about how we Don't watch this But. we all love this damn epic movie & already have it memorized so shut the fuck up, kids today" like. don't wanna really delve into how much billions thinks taylor or anyone is "really" trans / nonbinary like not too much benefit of the doubt in this material including what does provide info abt that specifically
& the general like [head in hands. what do you think any of this could possibly be about (you're the one that made your show at all about Power)] of "yes, it's bad/wrong to be someone that someone has done something to / victim of something" like that to be anti misogyny All Women Must Be Epic Winners b/c there's something to be proved: that they don't Deserve to be victims (of misogyny), not taken as a Given. while when we see some epic winner men stepping on other men (who need not all be guaranteed Winners so as to say misogyny is wrong), that's often Good, well beyond any assumption that various forms of basic disrespect / violation / patterns of emergent/entrenched power difference as Bad (for being things done to people, not for there being people they're being done to), & generally billions has to take an extra step when ppl get shitted on & tell us the Specific Cases when it was undeserved actually & someone was being mean to a specific person who didn't deserve that. & the specific cases when hey guess it wasn't that bad(tm) or when hey It's Okay that you're someone something was done to, in this case. & tell us what we were supposed to know all along like when someone who something was being done to (wrong Of Them, whether b/c they inherently deserve it no matter what, &/or b/c they failed to be someone who could make it Impossible to do anything to them, which, how do you do that besides being The Authority / Superior yourself, exactly? nonrhetorically? what if the in group vs out group / fascism / authoritarianism protected Me?) was actually being treated Too Well b/c ah well the abuse meant you were getting any attention, maybe it meant you were claimed as any superior's property, maybe it meant you weren't Already disposed of, as all Losers were in the end, You're Welcome.
obviously referring to winston where it's spelled out all the abuse towards him was deserved, & More than he deserved in the case of rian having more access & taking advantage of that, all for billions' enjoying its own sendoff there of, again, maximizing violation & violence short of [real violence is physical & leaves bruises / draws blood / Literally kills] which would be distasteful in general But doesn't it make wags look like the winner & winston the loser is that the former's completely unrelated completely impersonal ego blow gets way amplified taken out on winston, the most vulnerable recurring character when spyros as [first & ultimate Everyone Hates Him role] is more entrenched in there & billions still magnanimously pities tuk, as it does winston too, just not quite as much. again that like completely surface level realized power fantasy of forcing the mirror up to the Inferior so they're like nooo my inferiorityyyy & in doing so like, the projection in that lmao, we get it re: the valuing of & need(tm) for such Power Tripping & Reaffirming My Superiority & My Ego Restored; Everyone Claps like good god. & then for all ben & tuk are the slightly softer Two Too Nice Boys duo to the rian & winston quant duo, also like too nice i guess but not as much, ben is in charge of tuk but Any instance of rian being in charge of winston outstrips them in that "yay interpersonal abuse" dynamic, like then in the end billions may be like "yeah it's possible to be mean to them unlike how being mean to winston is actually Nice b/c he deserves everything he gets, we only vicariously enjoy it vs Feeling Bad for tuk & ben sometimes (still magnanimously & it's Not That Bad / just goofin)" like ben & tuk still Fail by not being people it's impossible to do anything to. & not Exceptions who anyone is really being Too Mean to. like if they were women, in which case, no problem surely with a "positive" kind of victim blaming where there is something Inherent that Will be victimized so hey how about to cancel that out there's this special Paternal Protection you Need always, Or Else? :) but instead they are men who are asian & is ben gay & w/tuk & winston nobody mentions glasses or fatness but billions doesn't really do much or very in depth textual mentioning of Anything, even w/nonzero mention that there may be gender & race in this world. a gay man, once. no disability. we just Know who are the inferiors who deserve it when they're treated inferiorly, or if they don't, they start deserving it when they fail to stop/avoid it, but if you start mentioning the factors behind who we all totally agree is inferior like whoa nobody was Saying any of that? being the real agent of oppression on the basis of the factors only You spelled out, much? nonbinary? i never say anything about the Gender Binary when i'm subscribing to it, sounds like You've created & enforced it. obfuscation & deflection onto [so Just Normal nobody has to label, explain, or argue it] couldn't serve a purpose & protect the existing power differences as they are. maybe You're the problem? perhaps you brought it upon yourself & now you're causing too much trouble standing up for yourself while everyone else's criticism is laser focused on you as the prior & continuing negative actions done to you are taken as a given / unquestioned / covertly protected to overtly encouraged?
anyway so wild if the Completely Normal(tm) Victim Blaming is uncritically recreated & oft embraced for "if you're watching this & don't wish you were axe / find him appealing" [billions as a sequence of vicarious power trips] purposes in this series....but a bit wild considering like this is your multiseason show that wasn't just purporting to be those power trips for [enough demographic & apparently specific personal tastes overlap w/creators] & was at all purporting to question the matters of power at play in the material, or yknow, at least to not be completely superficial material while said material is textually & thematically all about power difference being leveraged, how, the consequences, & so on. thus i will have to intermittently talk about it forever like this like lord unbelievable. & the funny little & sometimes less funny less little characters it has trapped in there so that those of us who were never meant to be in the audience can be cursed with this knowledge. like i have some feedback. "imagine not victim blaming" & "imagine adjusting your perspective can go beyond superficial layers added to politely defer to some other ppl while they're present but really like cmon do they deserve that. am i not just saying what we're allll thinking"
#another random night another Verbal Effusion of [forehead to hand]#winston billions#who needs actual questions about power or the consequences of getting to consider others Lessers & acting accordingly#when we can last minute be like uh wendy is god actually. take it away wendy (wait she just does whole other shit half the season)#okay Now take it away wendy i guess b/c the series is dead set on you being the Moral Center#if mostly b/c gosh everyone either loves owning you as pseudo wife or correctly recognizes & defers to your superiority#the scene i couldn't bear to sit through at the start of s7 way too long sequence of wendy Going To Work to the ''cuz im awesome'' song#i was like. lol. i was like okay that is wendy's mood / perspective then. Wrong. it was billions conveying Fact to the audience. rip#abt as great setup for ''the only other shoe that finally dropped was that of Yeah It's This Completely Surface Level'' as possible (:#prince has exactly the same attitudes & actions as wendy does? uh well you see. it's just bad when he does it#if only more wendys were in charge. if only we go ''well even if it's bad if wendy does it? or axe or whoever? Could Be Worse''#nothing to analyze in the [but at least it's not worse] dead end re: justification of Power Leveraging & minimization of its consequences#tl;dr just the victim blaming embraced everywhere & the idea that everything that Deviates from the Norm Too Ethically Mindedly#is just that veneer slapped on overtop of [haha but truly: the norm] like no but seriously we all know It's Not That Deep(tm)#even for the characters written to exercise this [my Extra Mile Ethics] trait regularly it's expressed as this Polite Addendum#to the [what's Really at play] normal. the And Enbies tacked on; that's that on that & it Is an extra veneer to the norm#prince asking if taylor's changing up their pronouns; no more Meant a red flag than him immediately shitting on winston i'm sure#yet yknow why tf suppose taylor more than anyone else would Change Pronouns. taylor who the series also only ever shows as being#misgendered As A Woman. whose drag / cisguise As A Woman is not treated in the same way a man's would be / is#whose emotive / expressive affect isn't either. billions like [the genders are m/f] to [perhaps also amab/afab] Tacked On#as something politely Extra you do to their face that doesn't actually change (threaten) your idea of what's just Normal & True#like it's normal & true that ugh god don't you hate the autistic people around you? don't you wish you could go sicko mode on them#so that they couldn't be around you anymore & they'd have brought it upon themself & really it was good of you b/c The Group Cohesion#thanks you & b/c you just gave them free ABA? yes yep Surely Unquestionably#problem isn't abuse & concomitant violation in & of itself. it's Bad to be someone that's done to. we will announce Exceptions#rest of you either you brought it upon yourself or you failed to Correct that you're not someone who inherently deserves it#that is: someone who just can & will Stop It if done to them. well so you see winston pushing back is ignored or treated to further#backlash & then he withdraws (expression of his experience / creation of a consequence which tells the other Stop Doing This)#&/or otherwise conveys displeasure / being hurt (same as before. ''uh well push back / express xyz'' ppl did & were steamrolled/ignored)
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I'm alive!!!!
#sometimes I just do other internet things instead of tumblr haha#but I am good!!#it's been busy#also I had my birthday#I am now in EARLY FORTIES#next year it will be MID#what is life#it's just weird how time works#and how you have to spend so much of your life being really bad at it!!!!#it would be nice if we could live longer just so you could have more time to benefit from life lessons you've learned#although probably we would just find new and more inventive ways of screwing things up#as you do#I'm still really addicted to Stardew Valley#it's never lasted this long so I'm not sure if I should be concerned#but I have also been doing a lot of reading#work has slowed down so that's good#also I have been weirdly into watching professional football this fall#not a specific team#just kind of overall#like I have a handful of teams whose fates mildly interest me#I think it's because there is this guy on YouTube who is doing a series called If the NFL Was Scripted#and I am just amazed at how he has created an entire lore#based around events that he actually can't predict or plan#ANYWHO#today I have sooooo much painting to do!!#it's ridiculous#I thought I was past this part of home renovation#but here we are#it's sucky painting too#lots and lots of trim
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This -> | | close to giving up on humanity. Again. Whoop de doo ain't life a lark?
#on the other hand#I'm still stuck with all these people whose mental and emotional states are tethered to mine#So I can't quit so long as they need me#And it feels like the social part of me and the antisocial part of me are trying to “I outsmarted your outsmarting” each other#Not sure who's gonna win#On the other hand again#I finished my most imminent assignments so I'm back I guess#Just not with the side of me you probably want to see
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ever since i got attached to toppats after realizing their family love n other stuff it made me wanna implement the idea on Reg at least that he does not like food being wasted; wanting the best for the clan and caring about the members (at least from what we know from source) I really do like to think he's extremely strict on how to deal with leftover foods and food in general, and very much wants to make sure everyone listens to him when he says to only take how much you'd be able to eat as to waste nothing in breakfast, lunch or dinner.
There could be food shortage days that would wreck Reg bad and immediately put it as a #1 priority to deal with asap so no one ever goes hungry for any longer than needed, but other times where they're good on food he has no limits on how much someone wants to eat but would smack them only if it gets wasted or thrown in the trash when its very much good still lol
i do not think he even lets the clans prisoners get starved but that's just me (one of those "not wish it on my worst enemy" kind of thing, because food's basic survival and it feels gut-wrenching to hear anyone not having enough food even if it's someone you don't like.)
following this he would also absolutely have thorough inspections and checkings done on the food supply he orders in because knowing they're the most infamous clan, the deliveries could be poisoned or tampered with and Reginald wants to make sure he does not slip up in that regard and get the clan killed or starved. Maybe it's never happened before but the paranoia of knowing the many many ways he and his clan could be killed or sabotaged keeps him at his toes and his ever-growing anxiety is the only reason he's still alive to this day zamn!
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To lessen the anxiety by just a bit, they could have a food garden in the airship and maybe even make their own fertilizers but even then they do eventually have to go out and get supplies for such a large amount of people and go through all the supplies to see if it's safe to use or not.
#how can you not be stressed 24/7 knowing youre responsible for a whole clan whose sorta like a family to you#whatever they eat/wear/use is all in the hands of reg and his mind is working at full steam whenever supplies come in#mandatory check ups of every consumable item with the science team or whatever to make sure nothing's wrong#mein gott#this is one of the reasons i hc him to not have a good relationship with food lol#absolute overthinker for reasonable things and sometimes forgetting to eat or losing appetite to eat anything#rhm's there to remind him but won't pester him too much so that reg doesn't feel more despised with food#small light lunches would work best for reg but sometimes when his brain needs more fuel is when he really wants a full lunch#those moments are rare but damn does he sleep well after a good dinner#thsc
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man, posts like this make me feel so fucking weird. like, thanks for the shoutout, I guess, but people just Have Tastes, and no amount of moralizing fingerwagging is going to change the fact that much fewer people's tastes will be inclined toward bodies that look like mine. Beauty and appeal are subjective but it's fucking weird to pretend they don't exist. Like, I dunno man, it sucks that I'm not as pretty as other people! It does! But it's still just a thing that is true and that's fine! I want people who give me attention to do so because they actually fucking mean it, not because someone scolded them for not having morally correct enough tastes in women on tumblr dot com
#'it SUCKS to see women whose features are statistically more likely to appeal to others getting the most attention' yep sure does!!!#but like!!! of course they are!!! I don't know what to fucking tell you!!!#I don't actually want anyone's obligatory pity thirst but maybe that's just me lmao!!!!!#like I dunno man it's a complicated thing because broad cultural ideals about beauty are shaped by a lot of different influences#and it's not fair and it's not right and I'm sure it's at least some part of why people who look like me generally aren't seen as beautiful#but man I dunno I don't see how getting mad at the people who have been effected by those overehelming cultural forces helps anything#people are gonna like what they like and mostly it's probably not gonna be a tall fat woman with a flat chest#do you run YOUR libido through a diversity checklist or is it just something you feel instrinsically?#anyway. actually been having a lot of feelings about not being beautiful lately lmao#and 'it's wrong for people who don't think you are to not at least pretend otherwise 😤' isn't like. making me feel better.#no one's looking at your pics rubbing their hands together going 'I think I'm gonna withhold attention to make this fat girl suffer >:)'#SORRY!!! I DON'T WANNA GUILT PEOPLE INTO LOVING ME SORRY!!!!#about me
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rewatched the midnight motorist scene last night and i can’t stop thinking about how, when faced with a locked door, william just decided to go around to the backyard window about it?? he didn’t know the window was going to be smashed what was his PLAN? was he just gonna BANG ON IT?? it was pouring rain how am i supposed to take you seriously when you���re standing out there sopping wet??
#like yes horrible man but the image is KILLING ME#i know it’s not For Certain whose room it is so i haven’t implemented anything for sure but oh my god#on one hand michael watching tv and with the grey text makes a lot of sense… on the Other he was never shown protecting evan#i’m not saying he couldn’t have but i am saying these games aren’t exactly known for their nuance lmao#AND the smashed window is a very michael thing to do.. i’ve seen both theories floating around idk!#point is it reminds me of those ‘trying not to laugh when your parent does something really stupid while yelling at you’ tiktoks IMDHSKDHF#⁂ ・゚: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc#AND and theres the whole william not being allowed in which doesnt make sense pre atrocities and brings you right back to the#Charlie or Evan first? debate… i hate these fucking games
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been visiting therian spaces lately (kinda vibe) and man when I tell you they have a crediting problem
#moodboards. stimboards. just photo posts.-- so very many. such little citation#best they do a lot of the time is ''pic not mine!'' or ''credit to uploader!'' or whatever. if that.#plenty of the time there's just not a word of whether or not it's theirs. for all you know THEY made it.#except y'know tHEY DIDN'T. IT'S NOT THEIRS.#now it's not always the case. i see a fair share of proper crediting and it always delights me. especially when it's my own content#but on the other hand#seeing nothing or just the ''not mine'' disclaimer is so fucking infuriating. please stop representing the work of others as your own#it's disrespectful. your edit/post/whatever was made possible by another autonomous person's efforts and talents#AND by them being so gracious as to SHARE it. to grant consent to use by others. to put it out there fully knowing risk of theft#including theft by omission of credit#just for you to not even give them so much as a shoutout.#sure. let's back up. maybe i'm being unrealistic. i'm a scientist by trade. in academia this is plagiarism. full stop#even if you say ''this work wasn't mine'' but you fail to say WHOSE you have committed a crime. misrepresentation of due credit#it's still plagiarism even if misrepresentation was mild or accidental. precision matters as much as accuracy#which is why I grant consent for my content's use on the condition that you CREDIT ME VIA SPECIFIC POST LINK#and i get that not everyone even cares if you repost their stuff without credit.#however for your consideration: /I/ want to see where x thing came from. /I/ want to know who made that.#and by ''i'' i mean PEOPLE. not everyone but MANY PEOPLE#like. it's just a basic fucking courtesy to all involved parties -- your audience the creator and you -- for you to AT LEAST NAMEDROP#i'm. gonna stick this in their tags. to be clear i'm not vagueposting anyone in particular#it's just something i see often and it really really bothers me as a long-time content creator and user#therian#therianthropy#theriotype#kin#kin things#kin tag#alterhuman#kinnie#(also. i'm not positive about what all these tags mean but i AM sure i see them together a lot so)
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Thank god returnable coke bottles are coming back, but it speaks volumes how difficult it is to find markets that take part.
#only small markets here and it's the biggest city in the country (brazil)#I unfortunately like the taste of coke so I keep 3 returnable bottles at a time and come in to trade each week#i feel less bad about it but I must never forget it's not my fault or my responsibility.#My 3 bottles/week pales in comparison to the shit the industry does.#but I also consider switching 100% to returnables is Voting With My Money.#companies won't care about the environment unless the consumers show that caring is profitable#so while this fucked up system is at work I will vote with my money for the business model that fucks up the world a little less.#ALSO REMEMBER: This isn't just coke it's every brand under the coca cola group.#you can also be at peace if you make sure you hand deliver PET bottles and Cans get to a recycling plant because those are recyclable.#the issue is getting them there. And as long as you separate your recycling that is the system's fault not yours.#anyway sorry I could talk about this crap at LENGHT.#rant from your neighborhood environmentalist.#know its not your fault and rally against whose fault it really is.#being blamed shouldn't be an excuse for the companies and being blameless shouldn't be an excuse for complacency.
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oblivious!Nanami who cannot fathom that you’d like him back let alone want him so you’re forced to get more and more obvious with your flirting.
oblivious!Nanami who you bring a coffee one morning, his name on the paper sleeve surrounded by little hearts. he doesn't even look at the cup, just gulps down the scalding coffee and thanks you quietly.
"You're very kind. I needed the caffeine."
oblivious!Nanami who drives you home when you miss the train, but politely declines your offer to come up for tea because he knows you have an early shift the next day.
“I couldn’t possibly, but thank you.”
oblivious!Nanami who is way too nice about receiving your “drunk texts”, telling you to forget the whole thing and that there’s nothing to be embarrassed about.
“Ah, I believe you’ve texted the wrong person. I’ll delete these. Have a fun night.”
oblivious!Nanami who agrees to come over to help you paint above your kitchen cabinets because he’s your tallest friend, who blushes at your jokes about him “falling for you” while you hold the ladder steady but doesn’t play along.
“Don’t worry, I have excellent balance.”
oblivious!Nanami who tells himself that it’s perfectly normal for you to take your top off and finish painting in a sports bra, because it’s just so hot in your house.
“Of course, I don’t mind. It is quite warm.”
oblivious!Nanami who goes home and touches himself to the thought of you, to the idea of how close you’d been, how little you’d been wearing.
“She’s so beautiful, so sweet, fuck, fuck…”
oblivious!Nanami who pictures your face when he comes into his fist, who cleans himself up guiltily and avoids you at work for the whole next week in self-imposed punishment.
“Good afternoon. Excuse me. Thank you.”
oblivious!Nanami who bites his tongue to keep from confessing when you ask him if he likes anyone, if he has a type.
“I, ah, I’m single, yes. I don’t exactly have a type.”
oblivious!Nanami whose heart sinks when you tell him that you have a crush on someone, who has to clench his fists in his pockets when you gush about them.
“I’m sure they’re wonderful. They’re a lucky person.”
oblivious!Nanami who feels the knife twist as you assure him that they are, that they’re handsome and kind and funny and brilliant, but way out of your league.
“I’m sure that’s not true. You’re all that and more.”
oblivious!Nanami who shakes his head in disbelief when you tell him that you don’t think they feel the same way, because you’ve dropped about a million hints and they haven’t ever reciprocated.
“That sounds frustrating. Maybe you should just tell them how you feel. At least then you’d know.”
oblivious!Nanami who thinks he’s dreaming when you lean in and press a soft, sweet kiss to his cheek, when you say that that’s very good advice, when you take his hand.
“It’s you, Kento. It’s always been.”
oblivious!Nanami who can’t hold back from kissing you, pulling you into a breathless embrace, murmuring against your lips.
“It can’t be, so long, I never imagined…”
oblivious!Nanami who lies awake in bed beside you, his mind replaying all the signals he had missed or chosen not to believe.
oblivious!Nanami who promises to make up for lost time, and never lets you doubt his love again.
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Thinking about showing everyone what a whore you are.
Hanging out with friends, everyone is having a good time, you're sitting next to me on the couch. I turn to the group and say, "hey, watch this." I look you in the eyes and tell you to spread.
Obediently, you open your legs for the whole party to see, smiling so prettily at me. Just the way I trained you. Everyone's laughing, but you're so drunk, you don't really understand why.
I reach a hand between your legs, rubbing so sweetly, and say to everyone else, "come on, come feel how wet she is!"
So our friends gather around, chuckling and teasing as they all lean in to feel you for themselves. I rest one hand on top of your head - you're doing so well for me.
Your whole body is suffused with warmth, now. From the booze and weed, sure, but there's another warmth, isn't there, building inside you. You barely even notice as I help you out of your clothes, but you certainly notice when my cock slaps down on your tummy.
"Hey, wait," you laugh, and as your mouth opens fingers find their way inside. They're not mine. You aren't sure whose they are. There's a raw attitude building in the room, and more and more hands are on you every second, more lips, more probing fingers.
With a jolt, you feel me push inside. You've never quite gotten used to my size, and it feels so fucking good as I stretch you out inside, pressing in every direction, and you can't help but moan with my strong, deep strokes.
Another cock is by your mouth, pushing at your lips, then another. Someone grabs your wrist and puts your hand on their cock, and someone is riding your other hand, now. I press down on your tummy as I fuck you, and hands caress your hips, your moans obstructed by the cocks in your mouth. You're such a good girl that you try to focus through the pleasure to stroke what's in your hands. People are laughing, aren't you proud to be the heart of the party?
Abruptly, the cock in your hand spasms, and you feel the hot, sticky cum shoot onto your bare tummy. Your breath catches in your throat, and with three quick, perfect strokes inside you, you cum, cum for me, writhing beneath the hands and attention of all your friends, and as you contract around me I can't help it either. You hear me moan something, indistinct over the noise of the party, over the noise of your exhibition of lust, and you feel it shoot deep inside you, spraying your womb, dripping out as I continue to thrust into you.
I pull out, slapping your aching cunt, watching you flinch. You're begging now, you need more, don't you? I half pull, half carry you over to the coffee table, and push you down on one side.
I lift one leg up, and as I force your tight little ass to spread for my thick, veiny cock, I grab your hair and pull your head back. You feel pressure as someone else, you don't even know who and I won't let you see, slides their cock inside you, my cum still dripping out. Their cock isn't nearly as thick, but it's long, long, long. You gasp as our friend pushes your cervix up into you, fucking you quick and deep as I impale you on my cock.
You start crying, hands covering you again, kisses on your neck, your shoulder blades, your spine, your fingers, and you cum again, intoxicated by the attention, losing yourself in the hedonism of it all...
After you don't know how long, you feel me pull out. You're not even sure if I came or not, but the space is filled soon enough. As you feel the warm wetness of a tongue caress between your legs, you overhear me on the phone.
"Yeah, man, get over here. Bring everyone. Oh, don't bring any condoms. You're not gonna believe this..."
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