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It’s so hard being an Adrien stan in this fandom. People are constantly nitpicking every little thing he does. He can never do right by them. It’s so frustrating. And that’s not even mentioning how he was treated in canon
I feel you anon. I wasn't actively posting for the fandom during the major salt periods, like right after the airing of Syren and then Chameleon, but I was around to see the ridiculous salt fests that would go on. People love to pick on Adrien for every single little thing that involves him making a decision that doesn't cater perfectly to Marinette's whims and needs, but woe be upon you if you say anything about Marinette that isn't praising her. It's not even like I have a problem with Marinette as a character. Some of her writing in Season 4 and 5? Yes. But in Seasons 1-3, I really loved her. She was such a breath of fresh air for me as a character. She was so full of charm and life and energy. But she got ruined for me by her stans who jumped to salt on every other character for not exactly agreeing with her every decision and for having minds of their own and having desires that weren't about her.
And another annoying part is their insistence that Marinette is treated oh so cruelly by the narrative and poor Marinette is always suffering and everyone is treating her so cruelly and she deserves better than people who aren't willing to be her faithful slaves. Then Seasons 4 and 5 brought this into canon, and then you saw people who were salting on Adrien for being upset about being neglected by his partner, and they were blaming him for "feeling entitled to her" despite never calling her out for her treatment of him. Lemme tell you, the chimney discourse was wild. And all that bullshit ass "discourse" about him harassing Ladybug, while ignoring all the stalking Marinette did and pretending it was nothing. I generally ignore anyone who says either of these things because they are clearly meant to be jokes, and I think calling Adrien a harasser is just as ludicrous as calling Marinette a stalker, but the double standard of taking the joke seriously for Adrien but not for Marinette is annoying, to say the least.
And ultimately they just want Adrien and everyone else to be Marinette's sidekicks/yes-men who will never disagree with her and will always do whatever she wants and will never think for themselves. And you unfortunately can see this attitude seeping into canon too, with how Adrien isn't allowed to have independent thoughts outside of how he can be of service to Marinette. Nothing matters for him, the only thing that matters is her and what he can do for her. She's allowed to yell at him and throw him into trashcans, but fuck him if he disagrees with her on something and isn't happy to just sit by and accept being replaced and ignored. And canon Adrienette is such a good example of this phenomenon.
But the salters will whine and rage about how Marinette is such a victim of the narrative and how she suffers so much that we should all excuse her less than perfect actions, while also raging at Adrien for any small slight and denying that he also suffers. I guess Marinette can be excused for being traumatized and stressed, but being a victim of horrific abuse is too less of a reason for Adrien to be excused, and I guess it means he isn't suffering. To them, only Marinette's feelings and suffering matters. And this has also become true for the show, because Adrien's feelings don't matter, only Marinette's feelings about him matter.
And the worst fucking thing I've seen from this fandom is the occasional post about how Adrien is "spineless" and "cowardly" and "doesn't have a backbone" because he is non-confrontational and doesn't get up in arms about everything. And, aside from the fact that there is absolutely nothing wrong with not flying into a righteous rage about everything, this is some fucking heavy victim blaming bullshit. Like, y'all know that Adrien is like that because he's a victim of abuse, right? That his actions are a trauma response, right? It's called fawning. How awful of Adrien to have been conditioned into being non-confrontational by an abusive father who wants him to be subservient to his every whim! How useless is he for being traumatized because of the abuse he suffers! What a loser!
Honestly, the deranged Marinette stans are the worst. If someone says that shit about Adrien, they can go fuck themselves honestly. The gall to accuse a character who is an abuse victim of being "a spineless worm who can't grow a backbone" (someone legit wrote this word for word). Acting like he's the scum of the earth for not agreeing with Marinette 24/7 and victim blaming him for not rising swords drawn the moment someone does something mean to her.
So yeah, I understand you anon. It's really annoying to see all these "hot takes" going around. But there are still many Marinette fans who are nice and don't say all this goofy shit about Adrien, and there are plenty of Adrien stans who love and defend our boy. My advice is to block the salt tags, follow the right blogs and curate your experience the best you can. Trust me, it took a while for me to learn to stop putting myself through the agony of looking through these salt posts and to start blocking tags and salters' blogs. But I'm better off for it now. It won't stop some of these posts from popping up here and there, but it'll massively improve your fandom experience.
Thank you for your ask!
#ML Salt#Marinette Salt#ML Fandom Salt#Meta#My meta#Asks#Also how could I forget the fucking Maribat fics lmaoo#Anyway it was nice to get an opportunity to vent about this#So thank you anon
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Hii!! Can you write a Joost x Reader where reader goes with him on tour, but they made a mistake with the hotel rooms and reader has to share a room / bed with Joost? 👀
here you goooooooo
to be desired ~ joost klein friends to lovers one shot
My masterlist here ✨💌
Pairing: Joost Klein x female!reader
Description: A hotel room mix-up not only forces you to share a bed with your friend Joost but also some feelings you had tried to hide away for too long.
Word Count: 1.6k
A/N: I hope you like it, if you do pls show your support by reblogging ❣️❣️ send in requests i'm having fun with this! 💌
Warnings: not proofread
"Alright, I'm gonna head out early tonight," you let Adam know. You were backstage at one of Joost's shows, only the last few songs were yet to be performed.
"Already?" Adam asked as he looked up from whatever he was working on.
"Yeah, can you let Joost know later?" you asked although you had already told your friend earlier tonight that you probably wouldn't last long tonight.
"Will do. Keycard's on the desk," he informed you, pointing to the desk by the door where you were standing. Adam was Joost's tour manager and one of his duties taking care of everyone's accommodation which usually included him checking in for everyone and distributing the hotel key cards backstage. You snatched the keycard and waved goodbye to Adam as you headed out.
During the short walk to the hotel you looked around the streets of this city you had never been in before. You were so grateful that Joost had suggested you join him for tour three months ago. The offer came about after you had spent an evening smoking on Joost's balcony, venting to him about feeling uninspired, directionless and stuck in your routine and environment.
"Like, I just wanna be everywhere all the time and instead I'm just in my flat all day every day," you complained to him and he nodded.
"Why don't you come with me on tour?" he had just asked bluntly and your first instinct was to decline. But then you wondered, why not? What's stopping you? You could do your work remotely from anywhere anyway and you loved to travel. Getting out of your usual environment and routine was exactly what you needed and Joost offered you the solution on a silver platter.
"Alright, why not?" you shrugged. Joost got up from his seat to hug you in excitement.
"My best friend is coming on tour with me," he said and you laughed as you hugged him back. What he didn't know is that you longed to be so much more than his best friend, but you declared that a problem for another day.
"Oh nice," you said to yourself as you opened the door to your hotel room and noticed it was much nicer than usual. It was definitely more spacious and the bed was a queen-sized one instead of a single. You took the opportunity of the early night to take a long shower in peace and do an extensive skincare routine before you plopped down on the bed in your pyjamas. You got comfortable under the covers and pulled up your phone to watch some TikToks before you slowly dozed off.
You were awoken when you heard a beep coming from the door as it was being unlocked. Your eyes shot wide open as you realise that someone was getting into your hotel room as you saw the door slowly open.
"What the fuck! Get out!" you yelled towards the door and you quickly turned on the lamp on the nightstand.
"I'm so sorry," you heard the person at the door say apologetically as they quickly closed the door again. Before the door fell into the lock the person stopped in their tracks. "(Y/N)?" a familiar voice uncertainly asked.
"Joost?" you asked in confusion. The door slowly opened again to reveal Joost standing in the door frame looking just as dumbfounded as you. "Wha-?" you furrowed your brows.
"You're in my room," Joost laughed.
"No, I think you're in my room," you insisted.
"I don't think so," Joost said and held up his keycard as if it would explain anything.
"Yeah, how do you think I got inside?" you asked.
"Adam messed up," Joost stated and you nodded as you laughed nervously. "I'm gonna call him," Joost said as he pulled out his phone. You looked down at your phone to see that the time was almost 2 am. You were not so sure that Joost would be able to reach Adam at this time and your suspicion was confirmed when Joost turned back to you. "He's not answering," he said and scratched his head. "The reception desk is also closed already."
You rubbed your eyes sleepily as you watched Joost cluelessly stand by the door, his bags in hand. "I'm sorry I woke you up," he said after a pause. "I'll check if I can crash in Stuntje's bed or something."
"Isn't he gonna be asleep already as well?" you asked.
"Probably," Joost shrugged.
"And his room only has a single bed," you stated.
"Probably," Joost confirmed.
"Honestly, if you don't mind, I don't mind," you said gesturing to the empty side of the bed. "It's a big bed."
"If you don't mind snoring," Joost laughed.
"I'll manage," you assured him.
"Alright," Joost said and put down his bags. "I'll be quick," he said as he gestured to the bathroom.
"Take your time," you smiled.
It was only a few minutes before you could feel the mattress dip on the other side of the bed and Joost slipped in beneath the covers.
"I missed you at the end of the show tonight," Joost said. You turned to face him.
"I know, I'm sorry, I was just very tired," you said. There was about a metre between your faces as you lay there comfortably.
"When I invited you to tour I was under the impression that my advantage would be that I would get more of you," Joost joked.
"Haven't you had enough of me?" you asked.
Joost shook his head. "Never."
"Well, tonight you're getting a whole lot of me," you said and immediately blushed when you realised how Joost could take your words in the wrong way. "I mean-" you started but Joost just laughed. "Nevermind," you said trying to play it cool.
"This is fun," Joost said. "It's like a sleepover."
"Oh, I've got some bad memories from a sleepover," you said and Joost furrowed his brows.
"How come?" he asked concerned.
"Well," you let out a breath. "For the longest time, I was never invited to them. And then in 7th grade, I was finally invited to one and when we played spin the bottle the bottle landed on me and my crush at the time which meant that we had to kiss - which would've been my first kiss by the way - but he refused to kiss me," you shrugged trying to play it cool. "Everyone else did and he pretended as if kissing me would be the worst thing in the world," you could feel your throat getting tighter as you recalled the memory and what it made you feel. Joost grabbed your hand in yours to comfort you.
"What an asshole," he said. "Who wouldn't want to kiss you?"
"Well," you shrugged. "I don't know anybody," you joked. "I think that moment fucked me up, like still to today."
"How come?" Joost inquired as he used his thumb to softly stroke the back of your hand.
"I talked about this in therapy but I think that this experience and a few others led me to believe that nobody could ever be seriously interested in me, that there was never anybody that desired me," you explained looking around the room to avoid Joost's gaze who was looking at you as he listened intently. "Like I don't think I've ever had anyone try to pick me up or like flirt with me or something."
"That's not true," Joost said with a frown on his face which you discovered as you looked at him for the first time again. "People have definitely flirted with you."
"Sorry, but how would you know?" you laughed.
"Because I flirted with you when we first met," Joost said and your heart skipped a beat.
"No, you didn't," you said.
"Yes, I did," Joost insisted. "I made Appie introduce me to you because I thought you were cute." Your heart started beating faster at the revelation.
"What? I swear I was oblivious," you said.
"Well, I just assumed you weren't interested in me in that way," Joost shrugged and you kicked your past self for missing such an opportunity.
"So, you're telling me I fumbled the bag with you?" you asked, your heart beating almost out of your chest. Joost nodded grinning. "This-" you gestured between the two of you, "could've been something entirely different?"
"Yes," Joost said and paused. "Still can be," he added timidly. You held onto Joost's hand like a lifeline, squeezing his hand tightly. "I think you need to breathe," Joost reminded you as he noticed you holding your breath. "Are you alright?" he finally asked after your silence persisted.
"I want you to kiss me," you finally dared to say.
Joost softly grabbed your face and moved closer to you. Your hands found the back of Joost's head and his lips crashed into yours as if it was the most natural thing in the world. Joost was leaning over you, his hand sneaking down to your waist where a sliver of your skin was exposed by your pyjama set. Your lips moved in sync against each other, tasting every bit of the other. Joost softly put your hair behind your ear after you broke the kiss and watched your face fondly.
"Next time you can tell me sooner because I would've done anything you would've told me to," he said and planted a quick peck on your nose.
"Well, I want you to cuddle me," you smiled.
"That can be arranged," Joost said as he spooned you from behind, pressing a kiss to your shoulder blade. "Maybe we should thank Adam for the mix-up."
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“Are You Confident?”
fwb!Jungkook x Plus Size Reader
Summary: The one where you get fed up with Jungkook’s teasing and decide to take him up on his offer.
Word Count: just under 1.7k
Warnings: +18 mdni, smut. oral(m. receiving), swearing, Jk starts out fuckboy-ish but turns subby, slight dom reader, reader’s referred to as Noona, not proofread
A/N: This idea has been sitting in my drafts since early December, but I finally managed to finish part one! This is sort of a prequel to this drabble, so if you can read it too if you liked this one. I’ll also be posting part two and a masterlist(hopefully)later this week, so lmk what you think!
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If you had to choose a favorite place in the whole world, you would choose Jungkook’s apartment without a thought. Not your own apartment, not you favorite shop, not even the dream vacation you’d been planning and saving up for forever, just being tucked into the corner of Jungkook’s couch, Bam curled up next to you, his massive head resting in your lap, subtly begging for pets as you vented to his owner about your most recent dating fiasco.
The guy one of your friends had set you up with had seemed nice enough at first, but as dinner progressed, things had progressively gone downhill.
“Did he least pay for dinner?” Jungkook asked, sprawled on the opposite end of the couch.
“I’d assume so, I walked out before the bill even came.” You replied, taking a long drink from your glass.
“Why do you even bother with dating anyway? You said before you hated it.” He asked.
“I’ve told you, I’m… lonely.” You said pointedly, avoiding his eyes.
He squinted at you, understanding suddenly flashing across his face.
“Ah, so you just need to get laid?” He asked, sitting back with a smirk as your face flushed with color. “Why didn’t you just say so? I could help you with that.”
“Ugh, shut up.” You groaned, getting up and heading to the kitchen.
“I’m serious.” He said, following you. “It’s better than fucking some random asshole.”
This type of conversation was a recurring thing in your friendship. Jungkook loved to tease you, and with a relationship that had grown as close as yours had, he had plenty of opportunities.
Your friends often joked that the two of you should just date already with the way you acted with each other, often toeing the line between what was typically considered okay for ‘just friends’. You’d slept in the same bed more times than you could count(a fact that had made Taehyung nearly choke on his drink when he’d found out), you’d even kissed at his friend's New Years Eve party after a few too many drinks and a similar conversation to the one you were currently having, lamenting about not having someone to kiss at midnight.
You didn’t know what had possessed you to do it, all you could remember was hearing the countdown and leaning in, connecting your lips with his for the briefest moment, only for him to quickly chase after yours when you had started to pull away.
Neither of you had brought it up afterwards, but the memory of it was permanently seared into your mind; the feel of his lips moving against yours, the way his hands had gently gripped your waist-
You shook your head, redirecting your attention back to the current moment, trying to ignore Jungkook as he leaned against the counter next to you.
“Look, if you don’t want to, that’s totally fine, I’m just offering a possible solution to your problem,” He said, shrugging as he grinned at you. “You know, if you’re really desperate.”
You scoffed. “You’re one to talk. When's the last time you even went on a date again?”
Your words had the desired effect on him, turning his expression sour.
“That’s different, I’ve been… busy.” He said grudgingly.
“Uh-huh, sure.” You grinned triumphantly.
“I mean it though,” He said. “If that’s really all you’re after, I’d be glad to help.”
You blinked at him in disbelief. “Seriously?”
“Yeah,” He shrugged. “I mean, like you said, it’s not like I've got anything going either. It doesn’t have to be a big deal, just two friends helping each other out.”
“That is, if you think you can handle me.” He added with a smirk.
You rolled your eyes, letting out an irritated laugh. “Please, I could handle you.”
“Are you confident?” He asked, quirking a brow at you.
“Yes.” You answered immediately, catching both him and yourself off guard as you stared him down.
Your words weren’t entirely true, you weren’t all that confident when it came to things like this, but Jungkook had a way of triggering your stubborn streak, whether it was with that cocky smile he always threw your way or the domineering tone he like to tease you with, something about him made you suddenly brave and willing to challenge anything he said.
Normally, that was part of what made your friendship fun, the two of you constantly bickering and at odds with each other, but this was much different than arguing over where to get dinner or what to watch on tv.
You were chest to chest now, able to feel his heart pounding surprisingly fast as he stared down at you.
“Prove it.” He said, his tone having lost its teasing edge as his gaze flickered between your eyes and your mouth.
That was all it took to make you break.
You closed the gap between the two of you, pushing him back against the wall as your lips clashed.
This wasn’t at all like the first time you’d kissed, there was no hesitancy or tender playfulness, it was hot and rushed and needy, full of tongue and teeth.
You were aware of a voice in the back of your head frantically screaming at you, something about how this was terrible idea and could ruin things between you and Jungkook completely, but you really couldn’t bring yourself to care as his warm hands found your waist, pulling you flush against him as his tongue fought with yours for dominance. He tasted sharp and sweet like the wine you had brought, his skin hot under your fingertips as your hands slipped from his shoulders to tangle in his hair, tugging lightly at the strands and earning a low grunt from him.
His grip on your hips tightened before sliding down to grope your ass, grinding you against the growing bulge in his pants.
A surprised squeak left you, making him chuckle against your lips as you mentally cursed yourself. You were not about to let him have the upper hand, not this quickly.
You slipped a hand down between you to palm him over his pants, squeezing just enough to cause what sounded very much like a moan to you to release from his throat, though you knew he’d tried to deny it.
Just as suddenly as you’d begun, you pulled away, making his eyes snap open in confusion.
“What are you-?” He panted, stopping in shock as you dropped to your knees in front of him.
“I’m helping you out.” You said simply, undoing his belt as you looked up at him with doe eyes. “Is that okay?”
He nodded, breathing unsteadily.
“I need words, Sweetie.” You said, making him flush at the petname as you fiddled with his zipper. “I can’t give you what you want if you don’t tell me.”
“I want it,” He quickly blurted, giving up control with surprising ease as he stared down at you, eyes black with need. “I-I want your mouth, please.”
“Good boy.” You tugged his jeans down, revealing the prominent tent in his boxers, a small wet patch on the material showing just how eager he was.
“These are cute.” You commented, toying with the waistband before letting it snap back against his skin, making him jump slightly. “Purple looks good on you.”
“Noona, please.” He whined in frustration, his head falling back against the wall as his hips twitched forward involuntarily.
“Fine, since you’re asking so politely.” You pulled his boxers down, letting his cock spring free, hanging heavy in front of your face.
He was slightly bigger than you expected, the tip flushed deep red and leaking precum as you took him in your hand, making him shudder.
“Mm, should’ve known, even your cock’s pretty.” You mused, leaning in to give it a cursory lick, sucking the tip into your mouth for a moment before pulling back, leaving a few kisses along the underside of his length as you glanced up at him to gauge his reaction.
He was staring down at you slack-jawed, his breaths coming out in uneven pants as you pumped him with your hand.
He already looked slightly fucked out and you’d barely done anything to him yet, giving you a massive surge of confidence as you held eye contact with him, gathering as much spit as you could in your mouth before letting it dribble down over his twitching length.
“Fuck.” He muttered under his breath, squiming slightly.
Still holding his gaze, you took him fully into your mouth, sinking down as far as you could go.
“Fuck!” He gasped, his head falling back against the wall with a thump as you pulled back, swirling your tongue around him teasingly before sinking down again, letting him hit the back of your throat and holding him there for a moment before pulling off.
You quickly found your rhythm, bobbing your head up and down on him and using your hands on what wouldn’t fit in your mouth.
He let out a low whine, fists clenched so tight against his thighs his knuckles had gone white.
Noticing this, you used your free hand to guide his to your head, letting him tangle his fingers in your hair and giving him something to ground himself with.
All too soon, you felt him beginning to tense, his grip on your head tightening as his thighs started to shake.
“Fuck, ‘m gonna cum.” He whimpered. “Where do you want me to-?”
You only answer to him taking him and deeper and swallowing around him, making him cry out as his hip bucked forward, fucking your face as he chased his release.
“Shit, Y/n, I-” His words were choked off with a groan as he came, cumming down your throat in hot spurts.
He slumped back against the wall, breathing hard as you slowly pulled off of him, making a point to meet his eyes again as you swallowed.
“Shit, Y/n,” He said weakly as you stood back up. “That was-”
You cut him off with another kiss, feeling him twitch against your leg as he tasted himself on your tongue.
“I’m not done with you yet.”
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the "robe curls" or "heatless curls" headband doohicky is alright for some hair types but my hair will NOT dry overnight in that thing, or with a dryer hood, highly porous, fine but medium-high density in 3B curl type. plus i need actual tension to get any kind of blowout effect because of the texture.
so ive been wondering why no one has made one of those halo roller bands out of some kind of flexible ducting and you attach one end to a blow dryer and just blowdry it out all at once. should be 2-3" diameter hose made of either vented ducting material or some sort of mesh/foam similar to garden hose drip-watering material (could be silicon to give it heat resistance). and maybe in the case of mesh some sort of brush roller center insertion with bristles to hold the wrapped hair, or velcro at minimum. with blow dryer attachment it would give the blowout effect within about 15-45 minutes imo
this kind of setup is, i think, either using electric heat or hot air (i think the former) to set an old-fashioned perm. what i'm suggesting is just attached a hose to a home hair dryer using this sort of attachment:
but then the hot air hose itself is used as the hair roller tube in this fashion:
yes i have one of those dryer-attachment fabric hoods and they do not work well for me on top of a roller set or robe curls or anything else. something is wrong with the air circulation, my hair doesn't dry in a reasonable amount of time. that's why I'm mulling over turning the hose into the tube the hair goes around. the hose itself is vented with individual holes and does not vent through all the fabric. it would need a layer of air-permeable material (open mesh, velcro, bristles of some kind, low-density fiber foam, some sort of heat-resistant polyfill fiber quilting?) between the hose vent holes and the hair surface.
im happy for my fellow white women with untextured hair who are getting nice blowout waves with this satin roller tube thing but the diameter is so small my hair will just shrink back up to frizzy 3B instantly when i take it out. yes i know about hair products, all of them, humidity products and cuirl creme and gel and heat protectant and mouse and blah blah, ALL OF THEM. i have tried it, dont tell me about them
anyway shark tank thats my proposal thanks for the opportunity today also do you guys have a trashcan i have some old gum ive been chewing and. what you mean just hand it to you? like in your hand? ok
#blog#long post#hair#god please do not reply to this post unless you know about either hair styling or heated air ducting in a professional capacity#or at least semi-professional#dont make me answer a bunch of ground floor questions please this topic is so complex#and involves so much hands-on learning#hair is really complicated
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28/7/14 [draft from yesterday]
woke up at 11:47 to my parents in my doorway. mum started putting stuff on my bed but i though it was just stuff of mine that id left around the house but it turned out she’d bought me some stuff which is really nice. she got me socks [because i only have one non-fluffy pair], slippers [because our dogs hair is everywhere and my pyjamas end up getting the hair all over the house, even after the place has been hoovered], and purple trainers [because beforehand i only had my converse + knee high converse, and they were both getting muddy and causing me blisters when i go on walks.] i feel extra bad about the argument we had last night now.
i was super tired and my eyes still felt like they were glued shut but i decided not to go back to sleep. i got a little anxious when i saw my ex bestfriend was sad so i sent him a message telling him that i’m here for him and stuff. i still care about him so much, even if we don’t talk anymore. i watched a mikey way complication and listened to a podcast with the way brothers on up until 1:20 when i had a nap [im lazy, i know]
i should mention, i had the weirdest dream. so excuse how bad this explanation is going to be. me and kellin [quinn] were both teens and we were at a restaurant. he had tacky plastic skates on and started doing backflips in them? and running on the spot and joking about being chased? it was such a strange dream to have, especially because i haven’t had one in ages. also, my dad was there for some reason lmaoo
i woke up at around 2 and stayed with boris until 3:20 before i had something to eat and started researching a few crime cases. id been thinking about reading a bit of my sylvia plath book but i got in another argument with my parents [not really with my dad] and practically went into sensory overload so i went in my room and scrolled through ed related things on reddit. although i just wanted to have a conversation with them.
my dad lets things go easier, but mum tends to start saying ‘maybe you’d be happy if i’m not here’ and stuff like that, which i have never and would never imply to her. it just makes me feel like shit, she acts like i’m not allowed to be mad. and i feel absolutely terrible writing this, especially because of the whole gift thing from earlier, and i know shes probably just stressed, and i love her, but nobody acknowledges that i am too. they never do, whatever i do seems to anger my mum. anyway, i spiralled writing this and i don’t wanna turn it into a complete vent post, so let’s carry on.
i carried on scrolling through reddit until like 8 where i went on a walk with all of my family [which we haven’t done in at least a year]. didn’t get off to a good start because the second i walked outside my sister dropped her phone on our rock driveway and smashed her phone to pieces.
she was arguing about paying for the damage up until we got to the park when she went back home with my dad. me and my mum carried on walking while we did would you rather because anything else was starting an argument. we ended up doing so right before we got home but at least i walked for an hour today, i wish it’d been more though. also at one point she asked me if i was questioning my gender like WHAT?? why didn’t i take the opportunity to tell her ffs.. when i got home i obviously said hi to boris and then scrolled on twitter for a bit.
one of my acquaintance’s [i call anyone my age that i know that, because i know people, but they’re not nice to me whatsoever, we don’t hang out, they bully me, i don’t consider them a friend etc] was being their usual self again. i try everything i can to politely escape them/avoid them but i just don’t know how. id feel bad cutting contact with no explanation but if i told them all the disgusting things they do they’d deny it. but i know i have to at some point, they’re such a bad person and i’m tired of putting up with them.
anyway, i feel like i seem like a bitch for not liking them, and the problem in every scenario i’ve written about today so let me know if anyone actually reads this and wants to know what makes her such a bad person. after seeing that i listened to some evanescence and i was just about to put on my fight club dvd i got from a bootsale a while ago when my dad said he was ready for me to ask questions about boris soon so i went up to their room.
we actually didn’t argue tonight because i was able to get on with it quite quickly so i did my teeth and said goodnight to boris around 3. he again started purring before id even started stroking him, he’s so precious. also went over my cals by like 60 today so that sucks
have a good day/night -_<
#live journal#online journal#online diary#diaryblr#journalblr#emo#scenemo#scemo#2000s emo#mcr#fob#sws#ptv#alternative#alt#fight club#evanescence#mikey way#gerard way#the way brothers#my chemical romance#mcr5#mcr fanart#kellin quinn#sleeping with sirens#sylvia plath#frank iero#ray toro#fall out boy#escape the fate
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I’m not going to request anything this time, I just want to know your honest opinion about “LawLight”.
I have never seen as much yaoi content in an anime as in Death Note in my 30 years… I’m sooo old, and maybe that’s why I’m so sick of Tumblr suggesting me these kinds of posts and it has revived my hatred for this “ship”.
I mean, I’m not even sure if those people have watched the same anime as me…
Cartoons are fictional to start with, so buying into this is like double-dipping in make-believe, I don’t know if I’m making myself clear, lol. I know some people might say… We read ‘x reader’ stories, okay, but we reaaaally know that this is not real, instead of affirming something that doesn’t exist…?
Anyway, I just wanted to vent, hope I didn’t bother you, and that you understood my limited English.
Greetings from China!
I love Lawlight because I hate Light Yagami and I think he would hate Lawlight irl and any enemy of my enemy is a friend. That said I personally do not know how feasible it is as a ship. Im not anti Lawlight or anything— the fan content for this ship is great— but I do not know that the characters are all that compatible. I would normally leave it at that, but this is a prime opportunity to shit talk Light so I’m taking it. Here are my top ten implied realities of Lawlight which sink the ship in my opinion.
1. It implies that L would date a man he doesn’t even trust enough to believe isn’t a serial killer, which is ridiculous.
2. It implies that Light as Kira would not be so stubborn as to just refuse to be vulnerable with L out of spite.
3. It implies Light Yagami is capable of love.
4. It implies that neither of them wouldn’t view physical intimacy solely as an in to gain information from the other person.
5. It implies that either party would be content with just leaving well enough alone and not trying to destroy each other.
6. It implies that Light would deny his repressed (if you want to be nice) homophobia (which I cannot prove he has but believe he does with my whole entire heart) long enough to allow himself to get with L.
7. It implies that Light (and possibly L) would be cool with Ryuk watching them do couple things, sexual or otherwise.
8. It implies that Misa Amane would not beat the shit out of L for encroaching on her man.
9. It implies that Light would either top or not view bottoming as losing.
10. It implies that Light has the ability satisfy a partner in any way.
That said, their messy hypothetical relationship is undeniably fun to speculate about. Loads of fun fan works have come from the ship, and Light would despise the ship in real life, so who am I to knock it?
#death note#l lawliet#death note lawliet#dn lawliet#light yagameme#light dn#light death note#light yagami#light slander#hate that guy#but seriously none of this matters even a little#there’s backing because light is Like That#it’s just that Light is incapable of serious emotional connection#or open communication#he got real lucky is all#he is otherwise useless#I do not believe in Lawlight because Light is a goober is what I’m getting at if that wasn’t clear#and I stand by that shit#but the fandom work is great so y’all rock on
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tell me about your oc i need to absorb all the knowledge
WAUGAHH yayy yay thank u okay so
Surja Maharaja (not his real name. btw. he named himself "Sun Great King" rough translation lmaoo) is a wandering merchant (*cough* scammer *cough*) who is currently in Melini because he's heard that the rising golden kingdom is full of economic opportunities,,, has a low unemployment rate, and is generally very prosperous and ruled by a passionate king who loves food... and how Melini is mysteriously protected from monsters coming into the border ...
And he decides to research everything he can about the court and introduces himself to the King Of Melini™ as a foreign dignitary from a port city south of the eastern continent (sooo around the eastern archipelago i guess?? map for reference...)
Anyway, he proposes a diplomatic arrangement where the port city's government would help with export of marine goods as well as open up restaurant chains !!! that serve monster food, so . monster food golden opportunity high long term investment business!!! and Laios is ecstatic !
Kabru is not. Lmao. Kabru is instantly suspicious of this "charismatic" "mysterious" "foreign dignitary" that just strolled into the castle ... but he's gotta confirm his suspicions first . So he decides to not tell Laios that he distrusts this guy and decided to uhhh stalk him a bit
anyway Laios lets Surja stay in the castle because like yay alliances diplomacy !! yayy monster food !!! (like ... Laios cant rlly eat monster anymore but ... spreading monster cuisine to other continents??? spreading the joy of food??? hes all in baby!!!) and Surja quickly befriends basically everyone or at least everyone whos currently there (like senshi is visiting but chilchuck is like sometimes there sometimes not cuz like lol he got a shop to run!!!) and Izutsumi is currently there too. Anyway. yea Surja's rlly friendly n stuff ^_^ and it only makes Kabru even more suspicious as to what exactly this guy is hiding
Anyway, more under the cut cuz it might get wayyy too longv amdhskhdjs
Kabru decides the best course of action is to interrogate Surja directly after a few days (maybe the 6th day ? Surja stay in the castle? but Kabru's been watching him and asking the royal guards to keep an eye on him too) ok anyway Kabru invites him to his office (idk if he has one of those but like . whatever. his work quarters .) (they're like on a break btw . ig . so laios is like chilling and not sitting on the throne rn hes just taking a walk with falin and marcille or smth) right anyway Kabru mr. Nice Guy Kabru is like "ok we need to discuss something ... "dignitary"" and Surja is like ooo-kay?
Btw i havent mentioned but even b4 this , Surja kind of has a crush on Kabru already (hes infatuated... hes obsessed... down bad down horrendous and he hasnt even talked with Kabru all that much) so hes like the nervouser (lol. silly) hehe haha... anyway
Kabru tells him to state his true intentions with the king. Surja goes, "huh? what do you mean Sir? I'm just here to propose a trade alliance and business vent--"
Kabru goes, "cut the pleasantries. I've investigated you over the course of these few days and I've sent a letter to the magistrate of the city you claim to represent, and they don't even have you listed as a citizen in their records."
Surja (sweating)
Kabru continues with a simple yet genuine threat, "you do know lying to the king is an offense punishable by death, right?"
Suddenly what Surja thought was going to be a lil diplomatic discussion regarding how the proposal he's drafting up going is ... an interrogation. An uncomfortable confessional where Kabru holds the reins and is playing 5d chess mind games. And Surja takes it as a challenge... and tries to defend himself with the classic diversion of, "I don't know what you're talking about!! Why would I lie about such a thing!!! You must be mistaken!! ahahaha aha
ha.
ha."
Kabru who is unimpressed by the sweaty conman's terrible lying skills starts pushing more on the subject. "How could you lie to the king? what are your plans? I think I know your scheme is to steal from us and our kingdom's treasury, but what else are you hiding? Are you a wanted criminal? A stowaway? " and Surja slams the desk a bit . like "OKAY! OKAY ! I! I did runaway but I've been travelling for ages!!! and I just thought this place sounded amazing !!! this kingdom is a rising one and yet it's already found its foundation and already has a powerful magical defense!!! "
and then Kabru goes... as a test (he doesn't actually believe it) , he asks . if Surja isn't actually human. Maybe he's a monster, a shapeshifter of sorts... a walking corpse perhaps? One that's trying to take refuge in Melini and doesn't even realize that it isn't a real human being... just a monster wearing human skin.
And Surja has a mental breakdown (yay here's the toxic in the toxic yaoii!!!)
Surja on the defensive and Kabru on the offensive, Surja decides to try and bite the bullet and confess that yes hes been lying, yes hes kind of a scammer vagabond, yes okay yes . and then he tries to get some sympathy by spilling his tragic backstory and it catches Kabru off guard
Kabru just wanted to exile or imprison or execute this guy who could have ill intent (and is obviously lying abt a lpt of things) . but when Surja revealed that hes kind of like..
okay. lemme paste this thing I typed . Surjas #traumatic backstory
Just imagine ghis is Surja telling everything to Kabru . so quotation marks . yea this is him Speaking
In the beginning, there was a land shrouded in darkness. And then, there came light.
Where I'm from, what you all called the "dungeon" was the corpse of a dead god, the land we stood upon as well. The dungeon was a temple in my people's eyes... And what you call the "Demon", well. He was our Light. The god that my people worshipped. It's... pathetic, isn't it? We didn't know. We... we couldn't have known.
When I was born... I. I was loved, I think. However I... was never a child. My older brother, he. he had this ailment. He couldn't speak, and he acted like he was possessed by a spirit of sorts, at least, that was my mother's theory. I always thought that he was just different.
I was their light, in a way. I could speak, smile, in an eloquent way as other humans do. They loved me, they did. But I was a sickly child... my brother, physically stronger, mentally weaker, and I? I was their light. The saviour of their reputation.
And that's why... as I grew up I realized that . The ones who took care of me, only saw me as a chalice. And whenever I did something that was... not... in line with their perception of me, they saw a monster.
It was so easy. Claim that I was possessed, sacrifice me, the brighter one, to their god, and their beloved children could be cured of their respective ... deformities.
Ha... well. That's what happened. The demon could grant any wish right? My mo- ... my.... caretaker. Took me to the dungeon one day and said, "Let my child have her dreams come true... in return, give us your blessing of wealth and prosperity! Bring us honor, bring us glory..."
That's why... I'm like this now. I guess I'm a half-beast (you lot call that beast-man here?), a monster (I was always a monster. I think.) I... You're right. I'm not human. I'm just... a walking corpse... a shell of a man...
Now all I have left is my desire for money... and my elder brother... I haven't seen him for ... 15 years now.
so yea he had an awful time . and was effected negatively by a dungeon. Kabru stops. hesitates a bit. Shares a bit about himself and Utaya . to ease Surja from the mental breakdown (it works and Surja bounces back quickly. Surja age reveals that hes not even 20 yet (Surja is 18-19) and that makes Kabru feels like a bully a bit n he feels a bit bad n tried to like apologize and stuff even tho this conman is conmanning (hes not lying abt his age!! just hiding a lot of stuff still!!!) ) ANYWAYYYY like they part ways from tha office (also at some point in the middle a guard came in to try and ask smth from Kabru and the guard nervously asks "is like smth goin on here rn?" and Kabrus like "no its fine" while Surjas like "yea smth goin on rn" anyway the guard just wanted to ask for some instruction so Kabrus just like oh ok just ask Marcille its fine and guy goes on his way)
anyway yeah Kabrus like kinda stressed lookin so Surja goes "hey do u need like some stress relief" n boldly goes up to him anddddd gives him a shoulder massage (Surja flexing his 4 years pro masseur skills) and Kabrus like oh . ojh. uh . okay (is conflicted and doesnt fully trust this man but is now a bit more relaxed and less tense and stuff. unclenched his jaw and shit lolll)
anyway they part ways after this but this is just the beginning of insane toxic co worker yaoi because like uhhh lil bit of a timeskip but Surja becomes like the treasurer... or like secretary assistant in Melini or like . tha economy guy consultanter yippeeee #working in melini
also Surja's a catboy i havent mentioned that yet
kinda hit it off with Izutsumi and Senshi cuz of it yah
A LOT OF THIS IS SELF INDULGENT AND WISH FULFILLMENT BUT I THINK. POST CANON OC . IS FUN . also Labru is canon in this AU theyre basically like married . its set a year after the like last chap of dungeon meshi btw so Kabrus 23 Laios 26 (almost 27 not november yet basically) . etc etc. ANYWHO this is super long already but ty for indulging me and asking abt my oc yaaaay :333 this is a toxic yaoi tragicomedy. this guy is like if Mickbell and Izutsumi got mixed into soup . and was obsessed with Kabrus whole thing 😭😭 its so funny to me theyre funny (doomed by the narrative toxic codependent workplace yaoi)
#rekan karja 🧭🗡���#surja maharaja#sash oc tag#SORRY FOR THE LONG RANT / RAMBLE 🫶🫶‼️🫰🙏#ONCE AGAIN TY FOR ASKING . TY TY ILY FOR . INDULGING MY BRAINWORMS <3 (SILLY)#asks#joe 🐱🦠 !#hes basically a business guy babygirllll heheh. lol#oc x canon#dunmeshi oc
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College Chronicles
Since the deadline to make a decision is nigh, my brother is finally actually touring of some of the schools he's been accepted to.
San Jose State (SJSU) is the current front runner. He needs to get a 3 on the AP Calculus exam to be officially in, although the admissions counselor said there was a work-around there if he didn't. I think it's a test they administer through the university? One of his best friends has also committed to SJSU and said if my brother goes he'd like to room with him. My dad is being a total jackass about this. "It's too close to home." OK? Then you shouldn't have allowed him to apply there! And seriously? We're going to punish the kid because he happened to grow up in an area where there are a ton of great opportunities because you've decided he "needs" to go far away? Shut up.
Chico State (CSCU) is out but my brother said if you could move the campus slightly closer to a city he'd definitely consider it seriously. Totally fair. It's a cute, affordable college town but Sacramento is 1.5 hours away on a good day. I'm glad he's weighing the schools and considering he has to live there.
Long Beach is old and rundown and felt depressing, according to him lol. Fullerton had a nice campus and people were smiling and seemed happy but he finds the 97% commuter aspect off-putting. He also liked the campus at Cal Poly Pomona and said the chemical engineering program sounds fantastic but it's basically Chico but further south (remote, not much going on in the area). But, he hasn't officially eliminated it.
SF State is also an option but is even closer to my parents' house than SJSU (my stepmom drives past it on her way to work most days) and so again, my dad is being a pill about it. My brother doesn't seem terribly excited about it, anyway, other than he knows the area and spends time in the city anyway so it's comfortable.
He hasn't visited Sonoma or Northridge. He turned down UC Santa Cruz's waitlist spot. At one point UC Davis was also in the mix (waitlisted) but he didn't love it when he visited and told me he had it at the top of his list because it's a UC and "everyone told me to be into it."
I told him if he wants to talk through his thoughts/concerns I'd be happy to help him make some pro/con lists or figure out his non-negotiables or just listen to him vent and he said he knows and loves me (omg) and he's going to sleep on it and talk to his girlfriend (who also got into SJSU and liked it, FYI) and he may call me to talk later. At this point I may offer to be there when he tells his parents his decision if for no other reason than to whip something at my dad's head if he expresses anything other than enthusiastic support.
@pelicanhypeman and I are pretty sure it's going to be SJSU. My dad thinks I support this because it's 10 minutes from my house and uhhhh... if the kid wanted to go to school in Japan I'd support him! What is there to be gained by shitting on his decision, especially if it's not an inherently harmful one? He'll pull away from us out of hurt, not out of finding independence. I don't want that kind of relationship with him.
Now I need to figure out what to get him as a graduation present (I still owe him a trip from 8ther grade graduation in 2020) and order the bullhorn for the ceremony.
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hello ! how are you ? well if you dont mind, please vil schoenheit x reader (from ramshackle, she always had a crush on him but never tell him being afraid of being rejected), we all know that vil can be mean but we still love him, the reader is very kind and always worried about him ( like she always try her best to make him feel better when he's not okay and feel loved, because he grow up with no mother, like a mother with her son having so much mercy on him), one day she'll looks at him with tears in her eyes, touching his face slowly then cries ( she always loved him and want to be in a relationship with him, but she's afraid of not being happy with him because sometimes he's mean, and arrogant, so she's lost inside not knowing what to do) and you can continue what will happend !! thank you and good luck !! ( the reader can be gender if you want i dont mind, sorry for my bad english >~< !!) 💕💖
heyo! I'm doing well thanks for asking! I'm very much enjoying writing requests. I enjoyed writing this! It's kind of soft moments with the TWST characters (especially one's like Vil) that I love. I was a little unsure of how to end it so sorry if it sounds awkward or Ooc. Anyway I hope I was able to do your request right and thank you so much for the request! <3
it was hard not to like Vil
he's very intelligent, talented, passionate, and hard working
not to mention his beauty
just looking at him is enough to take your breath away
but he had hundreds of fans who also saw this
and they wanted all of his attention
Vil was kind enough to give them plenty
he was always so nice to them
of course you liked Vil
he was always trying to help those around him look their best
Vil wanted to surround himself with people he deemed worthy
and that meant they had to look and act beautifully
he always was correcting others looks, language, and behavior
sure he could be mean about it sometimes and people often saw it as him bossing them around
but you always knew there was more to it than that
you knew that he simply strived for beauty in every aspect of his life and that included those around him
it was hard not to love Vil
very few get the opportunity to be alone with him
you considered yourself very lucky to be one of those people
it was getting late and almost time for the celebrity to rest for the night
he didn't say anything, but you could just feel that something was wrong
but when you asked he simply said nothing was wrong
a lie
you could tell
so even though he didn't tell you what was wrong, you reassured him that he could tell you if something was wrong
he just hummed and told you that you should probably be heading back to Ramshackle and he has to get ready for bed anyway
after all you shouldn't see Vil without his makeup and being less than perfect
he wouldn't want that to happen
but you just smiled at him
"You're already perfect without any of your makeup. Besides, your beauty goes beyond just your looks."
there was silence for a minute before he chuckled
"I suppose you're right. Thank you. You should be heading to bed though. Getting enough sleep will help your skin."
of course you loved Vil
but you would never tell him
you've seen how mean he can be to some people and he can really tear them down under the guise of helping them
Vil would never accept your love anyway
he had so many other fans that loved him, why would he choose you?
Vil had a rough day today, so naturally you were there for him
he had been standing in front of you and venting about all the trouble the first years caused
he was insulting all the first years as he talked
hearing him just absolutely tear into the first years had started something in your brain
would Vil talk about you like this if you did something wrong?
you love Vil, you truly do
but would you be able to take his insults day after day of being with him?
could you even be happy like that? being with the one you love but he treats you like that?
at some point Vil had stopped talking and was now fully facing you
he never liked being worried or stressed because it can cause wrinkles and acne, but there he was with a worried expression
you heard him ask why you were crying
you were crying? since when?
had your thoughts really driven you so far that you were crying in front of him?
he probably thinks of crying as an ugly thing right?
would he start insulting you here and now for doing something so ugly?
slowly, you reached out to cup his cheek
though you're not sure why you did so
he didn't push you away or try to stop you at all
he even leaned into your touch and sighed
"If you felt that strongly about the first years, you could have told me."
shaking your head you mumbled, "It's not that. I just..."
"You're tired of hearing me talk like this."
hesitantly you nodded
that may have been part of it, but he doesn't need to know the rest
he hummed, "I suppose I haven't been to kind lately. How horrible of me. You're too kind to me and I just stand here insulting everyone else."
gently, he set his hand atop yours and removed it from his face
his fingers intertwined with yours and he used his other hand to wipe the tears off your face
"This would be so much easier if you just confessed your feelings already."
w h a t
no really, what?
he knows????
how does he know?
was it obvious?
Vil seemed to sense your internal panic and chuckled
"I've had people fall in love with me before Darling. It's easy to recognize. I'm more surprised you haven't said anything. If you did then I'm sure all of this would be easier for you to talk about. So tell me, why haven't you?"
there was a moment of silence as you processed everything
once your brain had a moment to catch up, you told him
"I'm just a bit worried. You can be really mean sometimes, and I just...I don't know if I can handle that."
for a split second, he looked offended before sighing again
"I would never want to be mean or insult you, ever. You are the one person who doesn't need me to help with their appearance. Even I can't improve what's already perfect."
Of course, Vil loved you too
#twisted wonderland#twst#twst x reader#twisted wonderland x reader#twst vil#vil schoenheit#vil x reader#vil shoenheit x reader#twst vil x reader
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He doesn't even process that "I never loved Taiga" could have been the problematic part of the statement. Because Taiga knows better. As though he would be able to get away with the shit he does if he wasn't loved. As though Romeo would put up with his bullshit and take on his world of responsibilities if he didn't love him.
As if Romeo would have come to some magic rock in the middle of Tokyo Bay with him if he didn't love him.
That part didn't even occur to him as an issue. Taiga had to know that already. There's no way Taiga would have forgotten that. If this was a Taiga who thought his Lulu didn't love him he would hate to see what Taiga would get up to when he knew how important he was.
No, the other parts must have been the problem. Thinking he was a pawn(nonsense even if he hadn't told him otherwise to his face--since when did Taiga do anything he said? Since when did he give Taiga orders?) or thinking he should have died(again, he'd come here with him, even if Taiga's death would give him the opportunity to leave he wouldn't want him dead. The only things allowed to kill Taiga were old age or Romeo himself. Surely he'd told him that ago some point?)
. . .it was just a story. He'd reminded Taiga of that already.
And Taiga would forget all about it. He probably already had forgotten it! Right? He didn't need to do damage control for Taiga. As much as he resented the way his memory was failing him it was good for things like this. Taiga just erased most of the memories he made these days, good or bad. As long as he wasn't reminded it wouldn't be a problem.
Right the only damage control he had to do was for his own anger. And as much as he would feel much, much better if he went over to Obscuary and shot Ed in the head(it's not like it would kill him!) it would be more trouble than it was worth in the long run.
. . .however because Ed was there that also meant that going to Obscuary to drink until he wasn't as pissed off wasn't an option either. They had real booze on the ship, both in the kitchen and the bar. But he would just feel like he was surrounded by work and drinking supplies for the casino bar.
The idea of going for a walk was nice until he felt a little twitch from his leg. Last time he tried to take a walk when he was pissed off it hurt. And that would just make him more angry.
Some other options to vent came to mind. His mind briefly flashed to Yuri's text about Taiga's search for narcotics. Very briefly. He doesn't touch his own product. Even if it wasn't his he wouldn't. There were people he could see. Friends. He could go see Leo or Haru. Towa would probably be amused by his upset and lovesick rambling.
He could talk to Taiga.
But Taiga wouldn't care. And that would just make him more angry. And upset. He puts so much effort and care into all of this and Taiga just didn't care, did he.
. . .did he? He got upset by some stupid story just because it used their names.
Well, Romeo got upset too.
Mostly because Taiga was upset.
. . .was. He wouldn't remember by now. He wouldn't still be upset.
So it was just Romeo's own feelings to stew over. He didn't even care that much about how poorly he had been portrayed. More that Ed had written something that had, incidentally, upset Taiga.
His guards jumped when he slammed his fist on the table. It made him feel a little better but if he kept it up he'd have to replace the table. Or fix the wall. Or something.
He glared at his phone. What if he just. Texted Taiga anyway. What would he even say to him when he can't remember what the problem is. That BTH would just. Laugh at his anger or something. Why are you so upset? I don't even remember what we're talking about! You're gonna get wrinkles if you keep making angry faces. Infuriating bullshit like that.
. . .but that was normal, to some degree. If they both just had a normal interaction. . .maybe that would feel better. Taiga would see, because of the way they communicated, that he wasn't a pawn. Romeo texting first would mean he wouldn't want him dead, too. Right? And Taiga would make him so angry he would forget all about it and then he'd get over his anger because Taiga-based anger rarely lasted that long. And Taiga would forget. And they'd move on.
He could just. . .text Taiga.
Right? He could do that.
It might even be nostalgic. They rarely had exchanges that weren't somehow driven by work.
#life in darkwick: romeo#dashboard commentary#((i considered several courses of action and. somehow wound up at 'just talk to him' lmao))
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A vent post about my love life for y’all who’re interested:
So I have talked about a girl I’ve been seeing, right? We have hooked up a few times and we’ve been talking to each other/seeing each other since July/August. She’s like 5 years older than me and she’s been nothing but nice and gentle. However, about a month ago she started being a little distant, and when I asked her about it she was honest with me and told me a lot of things were going on in her life:
1) her ex wanted to get back with her (important to point out they were together for about 6 years and from what she told me it got to a point that she would either marry him or break up with him, so she broke up with him because she felt like she was missing some experiences, aka being with women)
2) her mom has lupus and was going through some health issues that worried her.
3) she was having a sexuality crisis (thinking she could actually be a lesbian, but at the same time reflecting on going back to her ex)
4) and she was also going through some mental health issues + having a lot of work.
Understanding all this we basically decided to distance ourselves a little bit, to stop literally seeing each other. I also gave her some space and we ended up messaging each other way less than what we used to.
My birthday was coming and even though all of this was going on I invited her anyway. She immediately said yes, but I still felt unsure of her presence at my birthday party while being in this situation with her. So I was honest and opened up to her about not being comfortable with the current situation we were in. Which led her to tell me she reflected a lot about some things and she came to some conclusions:
1) She wasn’t really having a sexuality crisis, she was just unsure if she wanted to be in a relationship at the moment or not.
2) She thinks her mom struggling with her health + the fact her parents recently retired will mean she is gonna need to provide for them for a while, which means she will need to work more.
3) She didn’t want to make me any promises and actually wanted for us to be able to do some things like travel and stuff like that, but with her providing for her parents and all that she would be unable to do this.
So what we basically agreed to was to not make any promises to each other, to basically have something casual (though that’s not what I really want), but I like her so I agreed anyway.
I’d also like to add when my birthday came she asked for my address so she could send me a present 😭 she had bought me a book. At my party (which was in a bar) she made sure to buy me a non-alcoholic drink knowing because of some health issues I cannot drink alcohol rn.
But this week I also had the opportunity to talk with one of my exes after 2 years of not speaking to each other. I apologized for some things and she was so nice about everything. We’ve been talking and we’ve agreed to some time go out together whenever she’s more available.
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Lunch In Space (Part 4)
There is an old Human tradition. We keep it alive to this day. When things are Very Bad(tm), for example, your shuttle is about to perform a high-velocity Lithobraking Manouver, you invoke the Ancient Words of the Ancestors. Usually "Oh, sh*t".
I, as I'm sure you're now aware, am culturally sensitive, and cultured, so when chunks of Oscar started becoming Free Range and my life support lit up red, and Oscar's little Atrix-face started doing some very worried little colour combos, I took solace in this hallowed and time-honoured tradition and went with "Ru-ROH".
Now you may be thinking, gee, having your life support blow out while flying around the backside of a planet while everyone is too busy to come to pick you up is bad.
I mean, sure. It literally is.
But what doesn't kill you instantly gives you the opportunity for a really slow, horrible death so you can appreciate it so much more.
I took the life support unit off.
Counter-intuitive, but there you go. I jsut clipped one of my lanyards to the bottom attach point and released all the clips.
All the connectors that move all my various essential fluids and gasses are on failsafe connectors. They close automatically because it'd be super dumb if they didn't.
So now I'm just using passive insulation and things are going to get very hot very soon.
I turned the Life Support unit over and found a... Space Squid.
I mean that's what it looked like. This conical, bullet-shaped shell, with tiny little thruster vents, and then on the bottom of the cone, a bunch of little tentacles, sensor windows and what looks like miniature tools.
At first, all I saw was the shell so I grabbed it and yanked it out. I screamed jsut the tiniest amount when it wiggled its tentacles at me, but then it folded up and glared at me, and tried to puff away.
My mighty human fingers of course were more than a match for this.
My mighty human Brain took a few more seconds to catch up because Oscar wasn't loaded with enough coffee for peak human cognition and I did a comical flail and found two more of the little suckers trying to eat through Oscar's skin.
"I Yeet Thee!" I told them and yanked them off and threw them in the direction of away.
The first little guy was with me but still sulking. I think it was out of gas, to be honest.
So that leaves me inside Oscar, who's rapidly becoming a sauna.
Luckily, I am just covered in tools, patches, and other Fix-things stuff so I started checking the life support pack.
Not good. Squiddy had already chewed some quite important stuff - the valves all closed, but now there's no way to re-circulate a lot of the air supply.
A bit about life support. It's not just a couple of bottles of air mix.
There are coolants, thruster gasses that you just top up while you work, water, which is circulated through Oscar's inner lining, the uh, Yellow and Brown lines, and then the Scrubber which is kind of a back-up and also means you can go longer without an umbilical, or without large air tanks. It also prevents the inside of Oscar from filling up with condensation.
So anyway, the thruster tank and the air tank were basically there but unusable.
Two of four of the batteries were cracked. They got isolated by the technical process of just pulling them out. They're not supposed to be dangerous, but why take the risk?
Oscar was a nice toasty 40ºc by the time I got the life support back on and I almost cried when the cooling started to pull out all that heat.
And then I almost sobbed because Oscar told me I had three and a half hours until station rendezvous and approximately two hours and twenty minutes of life support.
So I shut almost everything down. Inspection lights, most of the computing, interior displays, and after one last use, the uh waste processing.
That got me an extra 40 minutes of power. What else?
Well duh.
My power tools have bi-directional charging. I plugged them into my utility ports and hey OK, now I was only 5 minutes shy. OK.
So what else?
The Scrubber - It's running out of... scrub-ability.
There's a thing you can do that you should never, ever do, because it's suicidally stupid and bad. Honestly, I've always wanted to try it.
I turned the temp down past freezing and told the auto-doc to go to Oetzie mode.
Now, this isn't an official process. It's one of the macros I've developed in bored moments - I submitted it to a couple of trade journals, both of whom told me I was a dangerous lunatic.
So I asked the Most Dangerous Human.
Miranda is a mutant. She burns 4000Kcal a day sitting still. Her IQ is supposedly about double or more than a normal Genius. She hates her life. Literally everyone in her species is kind of sad and bumbling and unable to grasp concepts she finds simple.
She lacks intellectual stimulation, and just craves novelty or anything that might make her feel for a moment, that she can be part of normal life.
When I met her she was running a comic book store.
She's considered the most dangerous living human because nobody can figure out if she's going to take a nap, then re-write the rules of linguistics, develop an AI that will take over the Human race or stub her toes and decide to eradicate all living things in a Light Millenium.
As someone who's spent an afternoon shovelling food into her and listening to her do the most hilarious routine on why Comic Books should be weaponised, I can tell you that she has no more ill will toward anyone who doesn't write Justice Interplanetary than the common dog owner has for their pupper.
But Stever Aronnomis and Gixy Lurraine? Your days are numbered. Especially after Issue 17.
Anyway, Mir-Mir took about eight hours and re-wrote the Oetzie protocol, and got published in about 19 interdisciplinary publications. She was nice enough to credit me with the original work, and that got me a job and a weekly visit from the People In Black to check that I'm not also a supervillain or plotting to steal people's essential fluids to make Tsin sports drinks.
Anyway.
Oetzie mode gives you near-fatal hypothermia. It's not quite suspended animation but it's close as you can get while maintaining a really good chance of waking back up.
All I had to do was program a really simple little macro that would ping for immediate assistance and flag the file with re-animation instructions.
Already I was getting chilled. My teeth were chattering and I was trying to relax and jsut lket it happen. My littel budd the spac squid was stuill floting her. gabe it one o th deb bat klklklkkkkkkkkkk
Ow.
Seriously. I was feeling very disoriented. Everything was too bright and I felt very woozy and my jaw ached, but apart from that, the pins and needles, the way all my clothes felt like broken glass and the uncontrollable shivering, I felt surprisingly not dead.
Also not in Oscar.
I was having trouble focusing my eyes, but hearing I could manage.
Two Tsin were discussing eating me.
Voice One: "Well he's dead. I say we just ask. You know Humans - it's either 'no, you can't because we have a whole bunch of traditions and sacred laws that cannot be broken' or 'haha yeah that's what they'd want' and then they ask you if you want some sauce."
Voice Two: "Yeah but... what if the othre humans get upset that we asked? What if they think we killed this one to get the meat?"
Voice one: "They were in an un-powered EVA suit with no air, and the life support running colder than the Caffeteria Freezer. I don't care what stupid plan they had, not even a Human can survive that."
This is it. The moment that I have been living for all these years. You always hope one day you get the chance, and now finally it's my time to shine!
I sat up and said "Do you two mind? I'm trying to get some sleep."
Their horrified screams were like a warm bath. Ahhhh!
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What tips/advice do you have for writing:
Rafael
Sonny
Peter
Mike
Under a readmore for length:
Rafael: I find him to be the hardest, just because he's so smart and quick. Maybe work backwards with him--think of a good quip or a direct line of reasoning that he will follow, then muddy the waters with other, incorrect thoughts from those around him. That way, he seems like the reasonable one that is following a good train of thought.
He's also quick to hide his real feelings on things--he's private and not really a vulnerable man. So, he wouldn't be confessing feelings (whether love or frustration) on the first opportunity to do so. Also, as much as he hates his father, I do think that he's picked up the habit of anger > other emotions. Thought he can be patient, we've also seen him get angry or frustrated quickly over over emotions.
Rafael is a slow burn type of character, I think.
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Sonny: He is a fixer! Yo do not go to Sonny to vent, because he will be giving advice, whether you want it or not. This can be a good thing, or a flaw, and can be written both ways.
He also wears his heart on his sleeve; he's pretty open about emotions. Though, there's definitely times--especially when he's frustrated--where he'll drop a snappy, one-liner that he expects you to ask about so that he can go into his frustrated monologue.
He's also the king of "I don't understand what's happening, but I do understand that you are upset, so I will support you anyways." Like with trans victims, he openly says he doesn't get it, but he never misgenders them and still fights for justice.
Though Sonny is seen as the goofball in early seasons, I do think he's one that will stay up until 3am having deep, philosophical talks and really dive into feelings.
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Peter: He's a little harder, especially if you only watched svu (like me). We don't have him long, so a lot of him is made up. He's definitely more in touch with his feelings than Rafael, but he's not on Sonny's level of openness. I think he's willing to share the good things, but not the bad.
We've seen that he drinks quite often and had a threesome to take his mind off things (of course, if you're planning on having him in a relationship, I do not see him cheating), so he has some trouble with his negative emotions. He doesn't have good coping skills, and he hides himself away rather than opening up to someone.
Peter also came on after Rafael, whom the squad loved. There's a lot of mistrust and trying to figure the new guy out that has the squad disliking him. However, Sonny shadowed underneath him a little, too, so he sees Peter's real side; how he works and how passionate he is behind closed doors.
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Mike: Like Peter, we don't have a whole lot on him. Unlike Peter, we do not have another show this character was on first for more research. As such, we really get to make him up.
His dad was always super strict with the squad, so we can only assume he was even worse to his son(s)--Mike has a brother, remember. And a mom, who is divorced (if I recall correctly).
But even with this and the constant pressure from his dad to follow the latter's dream, Mike is still a team player. He's nice, approachable--his one flaw is that he's trying to be perfect so quickly.
Personally, I think he puts on airs at work--as in, he's puffed up and Work Mike. But at home, he's allowed to relax and be himself. He has no one to impress--even in a relationship, I think he strives to have someone who he doesn't have to be Mike Dodds in front of.
I hope this helps, and good luck writing!
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Rating: G
Pairing: Ichihime, friendship with very slight romance :P
Word Count: 1305
A rewrite Fix-it of chapter 587 in which Orihime is the one to talk to Ichigo about Uryū's betrayal instead of Chad.
*chews this scene and spits it the fuck out*
I hate this. The moment I realized we were getting another Ichigo Sad In The Rain scene I was like "yes this is the perfect opportunity for Orihime to get her chance to show she can be emotionally supportive!!" and then Chad just goes and throws him.
Just once I want someone to actually validate Ichigo's feelings in a gentle way without calling him a pussy lmao. Orihime is the perfect person for that, but Kubo just decided they don't get to develop in a satisfying way :P
I wanted to make something somewhat reminiscent of this scene:
Because I really like it! And I thought it would have made for a nice callback here!
Anyway, this was more of a vent writing for me, but I'm still happy with is nonetheless. I'm still getting the hang of writing Bleach characters after writing about Lego guys mostly lmaoo
#bleach#bleach tybw#ichihime#ichigo kurosaki#orihime inoue#also UHHH i dont really ship ichihime so this will quite possibly be the only ichihime fic you'll get out of me lmaoo#my fics#also hey look at me making characters hold hands AGAIN
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Yo I saw yo post and I just wanna say. I don't think the gods would do that. You're loved. Don't worry. 🩷
Really, truly, Nonny, thank you. It was really nice to open my inbox and see this. I mostly reopened asks, hoping for positive stuff like this, as that post was my way of seeking support. So truly, thank you.
And sorry, just gonna take this opportunity to clarify about something I said in my vent post. I might delete that post because it seems to be causing some confusion and/or potential upset (difficult to read tone online). Not saying that you're upset, Nonny!
I've had a lot of people comment on the thing I said about the gods, and I would like to clarify that it's mostly about self-blame rather than the gods themselves, thinking maybe that I didn't do enough to ask for help or something. I don't blame them for my misfortunes. I'm just upset about what happened, and the anxious part of me is worried that I did something wrong to make them not want to help or something similar. I know they're not like that, but emotions aren't really logical (not saying this in a mean way, just trying to explain myself to others here). But I don't think they caused this. As I said, sometimes shit just happens, but our brains can get the better of us anyway.
But anyway, thank you, Nonny. I really appreciate your kindness. Take care, and have a good day/night. 🧡
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I Left My Heart in San Fransisco
I Left My Heart in San Francisco (Higuruma x Reader)
My love waits there in San Francisco…
~
Hiromi Higuruma considered himself a professional, a man dedicated to his work. That dedication was most likely the cause of his nonexistent social life. Something Shimizu, his associate, felt comfortable enough pointing out to him.
“When’s the last time you went out? Just to see a movie? Have a nice dinner?”
Hiromi just ignored her questioning and took a sip of his coffee.
After a barrage of incessant pestering from Shimizu the two of them took a small break at Takagi’s cafe, which was conveniently empty in the middle of the afternoon.
Takagi was his former coworker from his first job out of law school. The fact that she had to work another job on the side proved that the pay in criminal law was abhorrent.
The words of his law professors at Nagoya University rang true.
Criminal law was for the bleeding hearts who didn’t let money drive them, but the passion for the legal profession.
That was all well and good but Hiromi still would have liked to own a home in his lifetime.
Takagi approached the table with a couple of muffins, on the house for her fellow attorneys.
“Leave him alone Shimizu, this time next week he’ll be smooching his college sweetheart in the City by the Bay,” she mused as she sat down next to her.
“(Name) and I weren’t in a relationship, we were friends.”
“With benefits?”
“Shimizu, you’re embarrassing him,” Takagi scolded.
“What? We’re all adults here. It’s not like we’re talking about holding hands on the playground.”
Hiromi just clenched his jaw. “No. And if we’re just going to waste time prying into my personal life I don't see why we can’t go back to the office and get some work done.”
He reached down to grab his briefcase before his associate stopped him.
“Wait,” Shimizu protested. “I’m sorry. I was just curious. I didn’t mean to step out of line.”
Hiromi relented and picked up his muffin.
“It’s fine.”
“Either way,” Takagi chimed in. “It’ll be good for you to get away and relax.”
“It couldn’t come at a worse time. I have a million things to do at work,” he mumbled. “Maybe I should just cancel.”
“Absolutely not. It’s just a weekend. I can handle our caseload until you get back,” Shimizu assured him.
“But-”
“No buts, you're going and that’s final,” Takagi ordered.
~
Hiromi had met you when he was a student at UC Berkeley. He had been fortunate enough to receive an opportunity to study abroad the last two and a half years of his undergraduate studies.
You had bumped into each other at a mixer for pre law majors.
He admired you.
How you held yourself in class, never backing down from a challenge, always passionately engaged. Hiromi was a bit more reserved, yet the two of you connected like opposite poles.
You were good for him and he was good for you.
You forced him to put the books away and take periodic breaks, frequenting the local 7-Eleven with enough regularity that you were on a first name basis with every employee. He was able to reign you in when you flew off the handle, passion being easily misinterpreted as hot headedness.
On one occasion a spat with a chauvinistic legacy student, during a mock trial, led to you lunging over the bench to give him a black eye. Thankfully Hiromi was able to ensnare his arm around your waist before you got yourself expelled.
“Guys like that just…oof…they make me so…fuck,” you vented over your usual Big Gulp.
He just nodded and snacked on his Snickers Bar.
Hiromi liked you, maybe he liked you more than he let on but he squashed that possibility like a miniscule ant under his thumb.
He didn’t want to ruin his friendship with you by having some brief fling the two of you could grow to regret.
The logistics were a nightmare anyway, there was an entire ocean separating the both of you. He’d eventually have to go back to home and the two of you would further your studies, start practicing law, and continue the never ending cycle of human life.
~
You had invited Hiromi to San Francisco for a weekend. You were tired of being relegated to emails and wanted to have a proper reunion.
‘I’d like to see you in person. It’s been too long, Hiromi.’
~
“Sir?”
A voice woke Hiromi up from his catatonic sleep. He looked up to find a flight attendant standing above him.
“We’ll be arriving soon,” she informed him.
He nodded. “Thank you.”
Had he really slept the whole flight?
What did he expect after pulling so many all nighters? And how did he still feel so tired?
~
Hiromi rolled his suitcase out of the airport at around 6 pm. He followed the directions you gave him to the parking garage and spotted you in the loading zone. You stepped out of a polished BMW, dressed up in a well tailored pants suit. He was slightly taken aback, you looked so…sophisticated. You hurriedly sprinted over to him and practically tackled him to the ground in a bone shattering hug.
“I can’t believe you’re really here,” you exclaimed.
He indulged himself by hugging you back. You were still the same (Name) in some ways.
You pulled away and took his hands in yours.
“How are you Hiromi?” you asked.
“Jetlagged,” he mused. “You look good.”
You smiled. “So do you.”
“Liar,” he playfully retorted.
~
“So where to?” you asked as you sped through the city.
Hiromi gazed out the window at the scenery whizzing past him.
Memories from the occasional day trips the two of you would take here flooding back to him.
He loved the old homes, the hole in the wall restaurants, the water, the breeze that snuck through your clothes, the seagulls and pigeons that pestered you for bread.
“I’d honestly like to relax a little if that’s okay,” he said despite the guilt he held.
He was always working so the idea of not working was a concept he was unfamiliar with. But he wanted to try and ease himself into doing nothing and allow himself to rest.
“So nothing touristy,” you confirmed.
“Definitely not.”
You smirked. “Fight it all you want but before this weekend is over I’m going to get a picture of you in front of the Golden Gate Bridge wearing an ‘I heart SF’ shirt.”
That got a laugh out of him. He felt embarrassed to laugh out loud sometimes but just for the next few days he’d indulge himself.
~
You lived in a small yellow house sandwiched between a Mexican bakery and an ugly gentrified apartment building.
The inside of your home had old creaky wooden floors and mauve walls that complemented the antique furniture. You had decorated with nick knacks and trinkets you had collected through your travels. It was so homely compared to Hiromi’s apartment that still had furniture unassembled in boxes.
“Obviously the floors are a bit annoying and it gets a little cold in the winter, but it’s home.”
Hiromi peered around. “I think it’s wonderful.”
“Are you hungry?” you asked.
A little,” he admitted. “I slept through the in flight meal.”
“Should we order in or are you up for going out?”
He thought it over. “I’d prefer to order in but if you want to go out I could manage it.”
“We’ll stay in,” you decided.
“Okay.”
You went to the kitchen to retrieve the take out menus you had stored away in a drawer.
“Burmese or Italian?” you asked.
~
Over a feast of both Burmese and Italian food you and Hiromi caught up.
“So how did you find this place? Didn’t your parents live by the pier?” he asked.
You nodded. “Yeah but a few years ago their building was bought by this development firm so they had no choice but to relocate to Sacramento.”
“I’m sorry (Name).”
“It’s sad but it’s just a reality of what’s been happening here.”
“The apartment next door?”
You scoffed. “Isn’t it hideous? If you're going to force people out of their homes to build housing for rich people can you at least make it pretty?”
Hiromi nodded in agreement.
“Anyway, to answer your question one of my mother’s friends wanted to move to Oakland to be closer to her son’s family, so they worked out a deal for the rent and I was able to move in. Thank god because I’d never be able to find a place nowadays.”
“And this place is close to the nonprofit you volunteer at?” he asked.
“It’s just down the road, mostly pro bono work for low income families. I’d like to do more but my day job keeps me pretty busy.”
Hiromi finished the last of his beer. “But you like the work?”
You smiled. “I love it.”
He pondered that sentiment trying to apply it to himself.
~
The next day the two of you got up early to make the most of your brief time together. Hiromi secretly wished he could have stayed longer, even if he knew a weekend away from work was already pushing it.
After filling up on coffee, the two of you walked across the street to an old record store tucked away behind a former Blockbuster.
“It’s sad they went out of business,” you sighed. “Many times we rented that same copy of Dumb and Dumber from there.”
“I hated that movie then and I hate it now,” Hiromi mumbled.
You smirked and leaned against a box of old cassettes. “Well we can’t all be as intellectual as Hiromi Higuruma. What was your favorite movie again? The Graduate?”
He smiled despite himself. “Please, I was in my early twenties. That movie is tailor made for people that age.”
Hiromi stopped combing through a stack of old records and ironically pulled out Sounds of Silence.
You gasped. “That’s a sign. You need to buy that.”
“To play on my imaginary record player.”
Despite the record having no practical function in his apartment he bought it with little resistance.
~
After the record store you drove to a cafe to pick up sandwiches and clam chowder. Once you had secured your food you went to the beach to have a picnic. You laid out the old quilt you brought from home and settled down for a feast.
“This is so good,” Hiromi groaned. “I forgot how amazing the food is here.”
“Surely you have your favorite local spots back home?”
He sighed. “I don’t really go out much. I pretty much live off the convenience store on my street.”
“Well I know you told me you like to take on harder cases, but why not give yourself a break?”
“I am,” he argued. “I am, I’m taking a break right now.”
You rolled your eyes. “Hiromi, a weekend with jetlag doesn’t count. You need a real vacation.”
“I don’t know what it is about me. I just get so…obsessed.”
You set your sandwich down. “Okay look. How about we make a deal?”
“What?” he suspiciously asked.
“You can take on one more, excruciating, difficult, sleep depriving case, and then you have to start to cut back.”
“What do I get in return?” he asked between bites.
“A lap dance from me.”
He nearly choked on his sandwich as you broke out into a fit of laughter.
“(Name) are you trying to kill me?” he managed to get out.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry.”
Once you had calmed down you presented him with your real offer.
“We’ll go on a real vacation.”
“Where,” he asked.
“What’s the one place in the world you’ve always wanted to go?”
He thought for a moment. One place he always wanted to go.
“Iceland.”
“Interesting,” you mused. “Why Iceland?”
“I’d like to see the Northern Lights.”
You nodded. “Then that’s where we’ll go.”
“(Name) I can’t just drop everything and-.”
“Don’t get in an argument with me Hiromi, you know who’s going to win.”
He relented and tossed the remaining crust of his sandwich to a nearby seagull.
“Deal.”
~
To celebrate his final day in town you promised Hiromi a home cooked meal.
“We’ll go to the market later, but since it’s still early let’s go to the bakery next door and get some pan dulce.”
While you paid for your order Hiromi looked through a small box of wooden bracelets by the register.
“What are these?” he asked.
“Saint bracelets,” you answered. “It’s a Catholic thing.”
You plucked one out of the box and handed it to the cashier.
“No, I don’t need one,” he argued.
“It’s a souvenir. It’ll go with your new record.”
~
“Is it supposed to be so…crunchy?”
You wrinkled your nose at the final product.
You had planned to have risotto but your combined culinary skills led you to create a big pile of crap.
“I’m sorry,” he sighed. I added way too much salt to it.”
You tried to smother your laughter.
“It was an honest mistake, at least we still have the wine.”
You got an idea.
“I have crackers, let's just get some meat and cheese and make a charcuterie board.”
~
The two of you lounged on the couch. Hiromi’s cab would arrive soon to take him to the airport. By this time tomorrow he’d be back in his small apartment staring at a record he couldn’t listen to and a bracelet from a religion he didn’t practice.
“Do you want a family Hiromi?” you asked.
He thought for a moment. “I don’t think so. I don’t have the time. What about you?”
“I’d like to get married someday, but I don’t want kids. Does that make me a bad person?”
“Of course not.”
“Can you tell my parents that?”
He chuckled.
“I don’t know,” he mumbled. “Sometimes I feel like I’m missing something but then that feeling goes away.”
“We’re getting older, do you think we’re just settling?” you asked.
“No. I think we’re just doing what we want. The thing that gets us out of bed every morning.”
He sighed.
“(Name)?”
You looked at him. “Yes?”
“I really want to go to Iceland with you.”
You smiled. “It’s a deal.”
~
The cabdriver stuffed Hiromi’s suitcase into the trunk of the car and slammed it shut. He stood in front of your house giving it one last look before he left.
“Hiromi?” you asked.
He looked at you, taking note of how you anxiously crossed your arms in front of your chest.
“Yes?”
You bit your lip and looked up to meet his eyes.
“Why…didn’t you ever ask me out back then?”
His breath hitched.
“I…”
“Why not even for a night?”
He swallowed his fear and dared to speak the truth.
“I didn’t want to say goodbye.”
You took a step forward, closing the gap between you.
“Well then don’t say goodbye, say I’ll see you next time.”
He reached up and shakily cupped your face in his hands.
You kissed, your lips meshed perfectly with one another, two lost souls reunited in a single moment.
Hiromi pulled away and wrapped you in his arms.
“I’ll see you next time.”
You surrendered him from your grip and he got in the cab, giving you a final wave.
The cab sped off into the night, he watched you until you got smaller and smaller, and just like that you were gone.
~
(Several months later)
Reykyavík was a beautiful city, but not as beautiful as you.
Hiromi held your naked body tightly against his, unwilling to let you go. You cradled his face trying to etch every little detail into your memory, every line and crevice.
Neither of you wanted to forget a moment of this. You intended to make the most out of your two week stay in Iceland, even if it meant you never left your hotel room.
You sighed in relief as Hiromi’s calloused hand caressed your hip.
“So what should we do today?” you murmured.
He pressed his lips against yours for the umpteenth time that morning.
“This,” he mumbled. “Just this.”
~
My love waits there in San Francisco…
The End.
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