#Annabel I did bc you never know what you’re gonna get with her

[coconut530]

Bump in the Night & Nevertober & Sleeptober Day 31: One Last Chance to Escape & Trick or Treat & Dark Signs

PHEW! Got these in, albeit late hahaha. But you can see why it took a while, bc I animated! Turned out really good, I think.

And with that, I’ve finished my art challenges for October. Thank you Hiwi for Nevertober, @thepromptfoundry for Bump in the Night, and @whitejawz for Sleeptober! Such a fun experience working with these prompts. They all challenged me creatively and made me create things I am really proud of. I created 57 pieces in all, which is insane!! Although I’m probably gonna stick to one art a day next year, bc keeping track of all three was a little much sometimes 😂. Hoped you all liked them, and I hope you stick around to see more of my stuff!!

See you next March for mARTch 2025 by bweird!!

[evalieena]

35 Questions for Fanfiction Writers

well since dearest @bachint​ asked, here goes nothing!

1. From one to five stars, how would you rate your writing? (No downplaying yourself!)

well if no downplaying’s allowed i guess i’d give it a 3/5? some mistakes since i’m not a native plus i”m still working on getting my english style better! i like what i come up with all the same, i’ve improved a lot these past two years, and my grammar isn’t that bad i guess?

2. Why do you write fanfiction?

to do what developers didn’t do in the first place to make good use of my imagination, to cope with the fact that some characters don’t exist and i will never follow another one of their adventures, to forget about a boring real life...

3. What do you think makes your writing stand out from other works?

my writing doesn’t stand out lmaooo but i guess i’m always trying to focus on the character’s psychology, struggles and all that, so if someone likes my work, it’s ‘original’ bc it’s usually quite different from the usual stories where there are a lot of dialogues and interactions.

4. Are there any writers that inspire you?

i’ve been inspired a lot by @welcometogressenheller​ (i wish i could do as well as she does.....), @aceklaviergavin​ (kudos to you even if you never see that post and you probably don’t know who i am), and some others whose name i forgot (sorry!)

5. What’s the fic you’re most proud of?

i didn’t write much but i guess that my latest fics are really nice (There’s No Light In You Anymore, and the whole Faith series on AO3). also my big project “Now That You’re Gone”, i’m glad i’ve been able to write that much for it and i intend on continuing as soon as i find the motivation!

6. What element of writing do you find comes easily?

pain, struggles and all that comes with it as long as it’s in the character’s mind, because beware here you step in a dark space

7. What element of writing do you struggle with most?

ordinary scenes of life? i always find my writing lacking as soon as i step out of my comfort zone, i’m all for rambling and never-ending pain

8. Which character(s) do you find easiest to write?

desmond/descole surely

9. Which character(s) do you find most difficult to write?

all the good guys (and dimitri allen because i’d love writing about him but i’m? just unable to?)

10. What’s your favorite genre to write for?

that may come as a surprise! angst!

11. Who or what do you find yourself writing about most?

a mix of question 8 and 10 and you’ve got your answer

12. Tell us about a WIP you’re excited about.

professor layton and the shattering secrets!!! i’m so happy of what this AU will look like when i’ll be done writing the following chapters, at first it probably looks annoying but heck i wanna promise anyone who’s reading it that the plot twists are gonna be worth it even though the overall background isn’t that original because i’ve mixed up different elements from other games (aaaand we’re back in our oh-so-amazing comfort zone that covers up a massive lack of imagination)

13. First fandom you ever wrote for?

ummm? the vampire diaries maybe? back when i was 10 or 11 lol

14. What’s your favorite fandom to write for?

hands up... pROFESsoR LayTON

15. What’s the weirdest fandom you’ve ever written for?

i didn’t write for many fandoms but back in my younger days i used to do self-insert fics with the vampire diaries cast and it was so odd and i wish i hadn’t just confessed that on my tumblr blog

16. Any guilty pleasure trope(s)?

nothing that comes to mind

17. A trope you’ll never, ever write for.

dunno either

18. Wildest fic you’ve ever written?

PL and the shattering secrets! huge canon divergence and one heck of an AU (also its original version is much worse, my mind was going crazy when i was 15)

19. Do you prefer canon-compliant, AUs, or something in-between?

i love reading AUs, writing some requires solid imagination which i have not, but honestly i don’t really mind

20. Gen fic or shippy stuff?

gen

21. Favorite pairing to write for? (platonic or romantic!)

desmond sycamore x his wife / randall ascot x hershel layton (be it romantic or platonic) / randall ascot x basically anyone from the MM i guess though i didn’t write anything about that yet (it’s about to change guys)

22. Do you listen to anything while you write?

yea i can’t write without listening to music - any playlist does the trick as long as i like what i’m listening to but usually i listen to sad soundtracks, or i’m inspired by some random lyrics

23. Do you prefer prompts and challenges, or completely independent ideas?

i’d go with challenges bc my horrible ass has very few ideas but i usually come up with independent ideas

24. One-shots or multi-chaptered works?

one shots!

25. Have you ever daydreamed about side adventures/spin-offs from your fic? Tell us about them!

i don’t remember ;_;

26. Is there anything you’ve wanted to write, but you’ve been too scared to try?

i’ve got one OS in mind with randall/layton but i don’t want to be the talk of the town because it’s probably going to be awful? also any other fic including the PL3 crew

27. What’s the nicest comment you’ve ever received?

@welcometogressenheller telling me she believed i was a native!!! i struggle so much trying to improve my writing style in english and i have a lot of insecurities so it was so heartwarming and incredible to read...

also basically any other comment where people tell me they like what i write. i love that writers feel the need to take some time reviewing my works bc i need constant validation

28. How well do you handle criticism when it comes to your writing?

well i’ve never really received ‘harsh’ criticism or anything, save for some very rare remarks on my grammar so i guess i don’t know? at first it’s always sad to see that what i’ve done isn’t perfect but i guess it’s impossible to be perfect so i’m really happy that people take some time to underline what looks wrong to them

29. Have you ever gone outside of your comfort zone for a fic? How did it turn out?

currently trying to with shattering secrets and it’s actually a great way to improve!

30. Tooth-rotting fluff or merciless angst?

MERCILESS ANGST

31. Do you have any OCs? Tell us about them!

i wish i could but it would perhaps be a huge spoiler so i don’t wanna say much about them...

i have 1) annabell sycamore, des’s wife, whose personality fits very much mine. she’s a playwright, spends lot of her time writing and acting in front of des AND WITH des. also she’s a very realistic person and some people usually tell her that she’s being too pessimistic 

2) aurelia from the shattering secrets and on her i really cannot say much... if anyone’s read this far it would be so nice if you could give SS a shot by the way!! 

32. Summarize a random fic of yours in 10 words or less.

desmond sometimes finds happiness but it’s always taken from him

(isn’t that a summary for everything i’ve ever written?)

33. Is there anything you wish your audience knew about your writing or writing process?

i don’t translate my works from my original language to english, i write straight in english. i spend a lot of time making sure i haven’t done any grammatical mistakes, checking the definition and the use of some words i’m not sure about, and sometimes it’s quite a pain and it can be also very discouraging bc i end up believing what i write comes from a random internet dictionary while deep down i know it’s not true but hey what can i say. huge insecurities laid bare here.

(if any reader of mine’s reading this, i apologize)

34. Copy and paste an excerpt you’re particularly fond of.

(beware: spoilers for the whole prequel trilogy!!!)

“Hershel Layton was puzzled. A funny emotion to feel for someone who loved puzzles that much, but nothing could ever describe better the way he’d felt for hours now, hours that seemed like ages.So much did happen in the span of a few hours.

First he’d learned his parents could be targeted by Targent, then Aurora had made it clear that she didn’t want to live anymore, all so she could protect them. Then Desmond—no, Descole—had taken the key from her hands, and revealed himself as the dangerous scientist Layton knew him to be.

Then they’d fought. Despair was filling the air, though Hershel didn’t understand what Descole meant when he cried that the Azran legacy was all he had to live for.

And as if there hadn’t been enough betrayals as it was, Emmy was soon to follow. Luke had been abducted. He’d had no other choice than siding with Descole to prevent Bronev from unleashing doom on Earth. Misery didn’t seem to end.

Just when he’d thought he’d finally be able to change things, Descole had been ready to sacrifice himself to save Luke. And then…

Then everything just collapsed.

He held his agonizing brother in his arms; the one who’d wanted so hard to take him down only a few hours back was now confessing, fearing death was on the way.“

[...]

from ‘Six Times Hershel Layton Remembered, Plus The One Time He Didn’t’

35. Ramble about any fic-related thing you want!

oops i haven’t got anything more to say but thank you for reading? perhaps?

[dathen]

OKAY SO, each season has one of the entities as the main enemy and while s5 is the eye on the surface (imo) I think towards the end of the season the web is gonna bust out to reveal how it has been the main enemy throughout the whole series. I know that peter said back in 134 that he thought the web doesn’t want to do a ritual BUT; I feel like 167 suggests—in context with a lot of other stuff—that the web was attempting to learn HOW to do a ritual that would actually work by using emma 1/?

experimenting on her fellow assistants. The web has seen other rituals fail dozens of times now and NO ONE can ever remember the web attempting a ritual before? I don’t think so. Peter claims the web likes the world as is bc everyone is already manipulating each other already, but what better way to manipulate the other powers than to make them assume you don’t WANT to do a ritual. Plus, that way the web was free to pull it’s strings and test what would actually work. 2/?

I think the web figured out that for a ritual to work they would need someone who had been marked by each fear to go through with a ritual. I think the web tested all of this with emma, and after they got what they wanted the pulled the strings to get rid of her and later, gertrude. I know jon is the archive, and the beholding’s avatar, but I can’t help but wonder if being marked by the web before being taken by the eye is gonna come into play towards the end? 3/?

(if you sent any more after the third one they didn’t come through!)

BUT YEAH. VERY INTERESTING.  TMA 167 showed us some purposeful manipulation from the Web when normally we just get an isolated action, or a maybe-action, and have to figure out from the results of those what it meant all along.  

For one, I see Peter’s comment in TMA 134 taken as fact that We Know the Web Didn’t Want the Apocalypse, but I feel you’re absolutely right in questioning that.  For one, Peter Lukas is not the most....reliable source.  The danger of the Extinction wasn’t even that much of a thing.  He got duped by every main character he interacted with.  He made many assumptions, and so many of them turned out to be false or shaky.  But in TMA 134, he didn’t even try to frame it as a fact, just as an educated guess:

There are two powers that, to my knowledge, have never attempted to fully manifest. Never had followers set them up for a ritual. Mother of Puppets, and Terminus. The Web and the End. 

The Web, I’ve never really been sure about. If I were to guess, I would say it actually prefers the world as is: playing everyone against each other. And so on.

Taking this as a done deal because Peter Lukas guessed it is a HUGE jump to conclusions.  My theory?  The Web never attempted a ritual because the Web knew they wouldn’t work.  The Web is about connections, the Web uses and manipulates the other fears.  If any forces knew the truth of how to draw itself into the world, it would be the Web.  I am 100% with you on “I think the web figured out that for a ritual to work they would need someone who had been marked by each fear to go through with a ritual.”

(this got long oh no, more below!)

I’m not entirely sure if the Web was still figuring this out during Gertrude’s time, or if it was trying to get Jonah to figure it out.  If we assume the Web knew the secrets of how to end the world using the Apocalypse, it would still need the participation of an Archivist.  Gertrude herself was tricked into receiving what was arguably a simultaneous Web and Desolation mark when she was a brand new, 25-year-old Archivist:

Of course, what I thought was a banishment ritual turned out not to be. The circle I constructed was more of a - (exhale) - an invitation.

It let the Mother of Puppets bind me to Agnes, interweave our existences at some… metaphysical level, as it had with Fielding and the house.

It was the most painful experience of my life. I mean, I’m sure it’s nothing to you, but I’ve never had my lungs try to burn me alive from the inside out before.

Jonah said the Web mark would have been the most difficult to arrange, but here it reeled Gertrude into one right from the start.

...But after that, we don’t have any evidence of her collecting more marks.  She grew cautious.  There were probably a few, sure, but her strategy involved distance, whether sacrificing others or setting up C-4.  

After binding Gertrude and Agnes, the next thing we know the Web interfered in was with Emma.  She became a scar-distributing machine.  If Gertrude wasn’t going to collect the scars, now the Web had someone who would make sure someone else was.  And if that someone else died or was lost, Emma would start again with someone else.

But what was the use of all this without Jonah knowing?  That’s where the Web’s next move comes in: 

And all through it Gertrude could not see what was happening. And certainly the Spider smoothed things, elided questions, wiped away evidence, but it barely had to. Far better to feed Gertrude a steady string of plans to foil and rituals to derail.

The parade of rituals didn’t stop after Emma’s death, so I think the motive behind this was more than just distracting her from what Emma was doing.  My bet is that by overwhelming Gertrude with rituals to stop, one would eventually slip through the cracks.  And one did--the Dark’s, which taught Jonah the last of what he needed to know to complete his own ritual.

...Or should I say, the Web’s?

Things got thrown out of whack by Gertrude and Agnes’s interference.  Gertrude was too good at actually stopping rituals, so it took much too long for Jonah to learn that a ritual cannot succeed with a single entity.  Also, Emma the scar-machine was discovered and killed, which got rid of the most efficient way to set up a potential pre-scarred Archivist.  How far along on the path was Sarah when she died?

Now all of this theorizing just stops at the end of the season 4 timeline, of course.  I think the Web very very much wanted the apocalypse, and everything from the Not!Them’s table delivery to sending Oliver to wake Jon was for the goal of collecting his scars.  It still wants something now, though, and whatever it is can’t be good, but my bet is that it already accomplished what it collected Jon’s scars for.  

I think what it wants now is Martin.  That sudden urge Jon had to leave the cabin and kill Elias?  Annabelle’s repeated attempts to get in touch with Martin after?  I can’t even begin to guess what her goal is (other than she does not already have Martin on her side, otherwise the calls make no sense at all), so I’m just going to angrily hiss in her direction for the time being.  

[princess-peregrine]

Long post, just keep scrolling

ok watching booksmart, this post is tracking me watching it

Okay movie is open

word doc is open

not going for tabs here I guess

so anyway

was on a site, found this movie called book smart and the cover caught my eye, so now i'm watching it. Also I googled if it was gay and it is so that's the main reason

okay first scene is odd

lol fuck them

omfg I love her already

THEIR DANCING IS THE WORST BEST THING YET

hehehe, ass president

fuck samantha

so the principle is very smart and doesn't like any of them

omfg teacher crush girl I love you

everyone loves this teacher! And so do I!

Jared you are nice, but why

rood, her outfit is a solid six out of ten

OMG the head tilt! She leaned on her and and gazed!

When does the super duper gay happen

omfg

skateboard girl

SHE WAS A SKATER GIRL

oh that was a guy? I really can't tell, the adrogony is strong on this one

ryan is a girl so yes the lesbian

ryan's nickname is avril lavigne

“well with her there'd be more, vagina involved.”

omg the way the music cuts out is so odd

I love her car

I want that car, it has flame paint

I am the girl with the scarf, she is me, like for real, that is me

is she in the wrong, yes she is

this bathroom scene is the kind of conversations I would sit in the middle of and not talk like for real it is so nostalgic

their dick drawings are terrible

I love the hippie, he's nice, he's understandable, fuck the government man

omg shit got darker and more grainy

I love the side character hope

she is just upset other people that care less are smart wtf

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa HALL PARTY!!!!

ok I think I see where this movie is going

i'm gonna guess, their gonna have a day to make up for being, stiff, and unloose

yeah that's where it's going

“Who's they?” same

omg the clothes change scene, they are so cute

“THE PANDA” OMFG I LOVE THEM

“i wish, that wouldv'e been a secret, but, you said it anyway”

the parents omg do not deny the mushrooms omg the parents faces

omg the car

“absofruitly” omfg

THE LISCENSE PLATE WHAT TF

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA MEEEETH

what, vitamins, the meth was just vitamins

“I BROUGHT YOU TO THE BEST PARTY, MY PARTY”

no one is there, wh, how doe, whe, how could, how tf did he do this

the party girl I love

she was the one on the car earlier

she is high

for sure but I love her what the hell is doing on

oh yeah she admitted, ln drugs

he's wearing a scuba helmet like a daft punk

omg no pls stop

he was so consent talk earlier and now he's nice guy

she lost her virginity in a graveyard and she said her eggs are haunted, I love it

I love her

who is lu an

jump off the boat

oh shit

oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit is she ok

pls lovely haunted rich girl be ok pls

“please don't do your lecture voice”

they got the address

i'm calling malala

she only gets one malala a year omfg I love them

the principle is the uber driver omg

i'm smiling so hard and it hurts bc my cheeks and gums aren't healed and I am in such pain, that a good thing

wtf that book idea sucks

so awkward

“neck deep in ryan” “neck deep, in, what direction?”

omg she's never watched porn

omg sharing earbuds while watching porn for educational purposes

omg omg omg omg the aux porn noises

“is that cardi B” OMASL;KDFADHLKAJSH

they got the wrong address again

how did she get here

gigi I love you

I finally learned her name it's gigi, I love gigi

gigi why are you not at nicks party

the strawberries hit by now?

THE STRAWBERRIES WERE LACED?!!?!?!? SWEEEEEET

one time I threw up in my moms hand and she caught it because she loves me

omg omg omg omg barbie scene

they're dolls I love this movie

“where is my chub” I feel the same

what is the real life equivilant of this

they're naked

“uh molly I have no genitals”

omg is there going to be barbie porn, spread eagle

gigi is amazing I love her

gigi you are wrong on this, and I still love you

omg just say you're bi

“i can't like him because he's a jock” same

slaps molly “how dare you say that about my best friend” so relatable

library studying to find the party omg

the pizza delivery that's how they'll find the party

stowaways

omg kidnapper pizza delivery movie now pls?

“that's your private information” I love this pizza delivery guy

“don't trust people oh my god” he's great

she left her phone omg

“why is my battery so low?” “The porn, we streamed a lot of porn.”

who is it

THE TEACHER I LOVE HER

OMG BEST TEACHER EVER EVER EVER FOREVER THIS IS AMAZING I LOVE THIS MOVIE NOW

Sentinel if you read this the teacher reminds me of you, she's banned from juice

“lucky for you two, i'm a single woman living in los angeles”

they are so great to eachother

ok they're here but there is still half of the movie left, so, what's gonna happen now

oh I know, romance drama hopefully

crush vision

oh pls no, crush vision has made everyone dissappear pls no, don't

THIS BITCH, GET THE HELL OUT WITH YOUR SINGING IN THE RAIL BE BOP DANCE

it's done

still love the hippie

gigi how the fuck

gigi you are perfect and I love you

the teacher is here? For real? Is, that really what's happening?

Ryan is not who I would have had a crush on but I seriously love her rn

everything is going too well

how tf did he get from the murdermystery to there

probably the same way gigi did

he deepthroated the microphone and that is not ok

the hippie is going to try to seduce the teach

he called her mrs. fine. Also his name is theo

AND I'M HERE, TO REMIND YOU, OF THE MESS YOU MADE WHEN YOU WENT AWAY!

Alan?

I don't think he's 20

uh oh kareoke pls don't

i'm afraid

this is causing me stress

what Is going to come of this

hugs

ok that was a stress fake out

this is going too well for too long what the hell is going on here

oh I know this song

swimming in the pool

um, so ryan is jacked

oh so ryan is either bi or straight but this does not bode well

oh shit doesn't bode well for either of them

she's using malala and you just say no bitch

molly you're being a bitch

omg yelling during a party and now everyone's staring

molly you are kind of a bitch now I like you less

molly was totally in the wrong

I love the cowgirl

omg cowgirl is a bitch too wtf

is everyone a bitch

kiss, which I saw coming but, still, get it

so rich kid is there too

gigi I love you

he wants to do airplanes I love him

ok so virginity loss first time scene

black bra

I forget what movie but there was a scene that they said “no one has a black bra if they don't want someone to see” and i'm like bitch black is my fav colour

WRONG HOLE!!!

OH SHIT, she puked, oh crap oh no oh pls god no, this is awful oh poor amy

oh no oh shit oh no oh crud I wanna cry I feel so bad for her she puked oh goodness I feel so bad for her why

oh that's what the scene earlier about her mom catching her puke meant

they didn't hear the clap?

Gigi I love you, also why do you take airplane kids car if you have your own

gigi's real name is annabelle

“Wait where the fuck do you live” omg

twenty minutes still left, what is happening here

but did the teach bang the kid

omg she rolled her r at a kid

she did bang him

teach what the fuck

gigi is at the piano the talented bitch

i'm gonna bet they'll still be late

THEY MADE IT, broke the fence, BUT THEY MADE IT, also his car is f'ed up

omg why is everyone cheering was everyone at the party?

Maybe cause they just crashed a car through

ok so molly was not gay

this kiss was terrible and they should do a reshoot until they take a not ugly kiss

neat speech

her mom is kissing the jilling bear

oh no

oh pls thank god molly

they were kissing the sex panda oh god

omg omg omg omg

cowgirl you are valid

she has stripped sleeves I love

she has a volvo and that adds like, plus twenty aesthetic

gone forever now

not forever, just a year

harmonizing for the ending song, good choice I guess

oh no, now it's sad

fuck

jumpscare

pancakes

omg I love the ending

the ending wow

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm nice shit

[vandermatthews]

fic about how Bessie fits into Dutch/Hosea? Is Hosea bisexual, internalized homophobia and he wanted to try being "normal", beards for each other, etc?

real talk i just forget about bessie and annabelle a solid 90% of the time and just bc u brought it up im gonna make this as sad as i can

tw for implied homophobia ig? idk hoseas more interested in protecting dutch than making ppl think hes straight

“I’m gonna ask Bessie to marry me.”

The way Dutch reacted, one would have been forgiven for thinking Hosea told him he’d shot his parents. He didn’t expect him to take it well- Dutch rarely took things well, even positive things- but he certainly didn’t expect him to lash out at him the way he did.

“You what?!” Dutch had snapped, pushing Hosea away. He’d tried to break the news gently. In retrospect, telling Dutch he was going to marry someone else while holding him and whispering how much he loved him probably wasn’t a good idea. “I… I thought…”

“Dutch,” Hosea whispered, grabbing Dutch’s hand in a moment of panic, “Dutch, listen to me. I love you. You know I love you. I just… what we’re doing… I don’t want you to get hurt on my account. Nothing that feels so right can be wrong, but… not everyone sees it that way.”

Dutch ripped his hand from Hosea’s and took a deep, trembling breath. “Stop saying you love me,” he breathed, his voice breaking, “You don’t. You fucking don’t, or you wouldn’t be-”

“Dutch, I swear, I-”

“Shut your goddamn mouth!” Dutch sobbed. Silence fell, and Hosea recoiled a bit. He had never seen Dutch cry. Tears streamed down Dutch’s face, and in that second, Hosea realized how wrong he had been.

The only person who had hurt Dutch was Hosea.

“… Dutch…” he whispered, reaching for him again, desperate to undo the hurt he’d caused. “Dutch, please, don’t… don’t cry, I-”

“Get away from me.” Dutch stepped back, sniffling quietly. “Don’t… don’t touch me. You wanna be with her so bad? Go be with her.” He took a couple more steps backward. “Don’t… don’t ever come near me. Not again.”

—

“Hosea?” Bessie wound an arm over his chest and rested her head on his shoulder. The same way Dutch used to. “Are you okay? You… you’re awful quiet.”

“I’m fine, darling. I’m just… thinking.”

A brief pause. “It’s about Dutch, isn’t it?”

“… Yeah.” Hosea sighed. “I… Bessie, I-”

“I know. You love him. I’ve always known, Hosea. I’m okay with it, just… being here as a backup, if you want. You didn’t have to leave him.”

“I didn’t want to.” Hosea stared up at the ceiling for a second. “… Bessie, I love you. I swear, I do.”

“I know… but Dutch was here first.” She let a hand linger over his heartbeat for a moment. “I… if you want to track him down… I’ll go with you.”

“I don’t know if that’s a good idea.”

“You can’t exactly get married to me and go runnin’ into the sunset a week later. I swear, Hosea, I don’t mind. I knew from day one that you loved him first.”

“… You’re too good for me, Bessie.”

—

“… What are you doing here?”

“Coming back for you.” Hosea dropped the bag of his earthly possessions on the ground and stepped closer to Dutch, who drew back into himself and stepped away, eyes firmly locked on Bessie, still seated on her horse with a sympathetic expression on her face. “Dutch, listen,” Hosea whispered, “Please.”

“… You brought her.”

“I can’t run off a week after marrying her and not take her with me. Dutch… she knew about us. She always did.”

“You’re lying to me, Hosea.”

“He ain’t,” Bessie interjected, dismounting her big blue roan stallion and patting him on the neck. “Dutch, Hosea loved you first. I knew that from day one. I knew I was a front, and I don’t care.” She giggled as the horse nuzzled her. “I’m fine with being cover, if you’ll just let me stay. I can shoot like any man, if need be. I feel like it’s a fair trade.”

Dutch fell quiet, looking from Bessie to Hosea’s hand on his shoulder. “… She mean that, Hosea?” he asked, voice shaky. Hosea almost cried himself, to see Dutch on the verge of tears again. “If she means that…”

“I mean it.” Bessie barely had time to finish her sentence before Dutch was nuzzling into the crook of Hosea’s neck, holding back tears and clinging to him. They made a handsome couple, she had to admit. “Any idea where Arthur is?” she asked, mounting her horse again and slinging a rifle across her back. “Guard duty?” A tense nod from Dutch, who didn’t seem interested in prying himself away from Hosea anytime soon. “Alright.” And with that she rode away, ostensibly to give Arthur some help on guard duty, but more genuinely to afford Dutch and Hosea a little privacy.

The second she was out of earsight, Dutch wept openly, clinging tight to Hosea and clutching at his shirt, sobbing into his neck. “Never again,” he whispered, through his tears, attempting to get himself together however he could. “Never again.”

“Shhhh.” Hosea stroked Dutch’s hair, kissed his temple, rubbed his back gently. “Shhhh, dearest. Never again. I promise.”

[azrielsiphons]

LORD OF SHADOWS REACTION POST

I didn’t want to make an entire reading thread like I did with Lady Midnight (which was kind of popular for my typical stuff, I still don’t know why, it was just a lot of flailing) because LoS is still so fresh and I’m afraid to spoil anyone who might not have the tags blacklisted. So under the cut, IN ORDER AS I READ, is my genuine LoS reactions. Enjoy my flailing.

Kit you precious little bean don’t steal daggers you should know better

JACE IS HERE SHIT SHIT SHIT 

He just had to go and name drop Will in like the first five pages I am C R Y I N G 

Oh Julian is being ‘scrupulously polite and kind’ over you and Mark’s “relationship”? IS HE EMMA? IS HE REALLY?

Ew Mark kissing Emma’s cheek made me want to throw up blood too, Julian 

“Did he just kill Magnus?” I HOPE AND PRAY I NEVER SEE ANY VARIATION OF THAT SENTENCE EVER AGAIN  

Take a shot every time I think to myself “ugh, Perfect Diego”

FUCKING HELL PERFECT DIEGO AND CRISTINA ARE BACK TOGETHER DAMMIT CRISTINA

Awwwww Ty my precious son you’re so concerned for Kit

I love Mark so much my sweet faerie child 

UGH EMMA AND MARK KISSING GROSS MAKE IT STOP 

CLARY TURNED DOWN JACE’S PROPOSAL HAHAHAHA WHY AM I LAUGHING 

Cassandra Clare let me make something clear if you ever kill my daughter Clary Fray I will SET THIS WORLD ON FIRE 

so clary is having dreams of her and emma and cortana and she knows she’s gonna die uMMMMMMMM????? WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK???? IF MY GIRL EMMA HAS TO KILL CLARY FOR WHATEVER REASON YALL CAN CATCH ME 6 FEET UNDER THE GROUND 

THAT’S RIGHT KIT YOU DEFEND TY BLACKTHORN 

Mark and Cristina Mark and Cristina Mark and Cristina MARK AND CRISTINA 

God bless America I forgot how much I adore Jace Herondale but then at the same time he makes me miss Will and when I miss Will I want to DIEEEEEEE

take a shot everytime someone says something to the effect of “we can’t involve the Clave”

lol jace “i’m just going to haul clary off to *wink wink* get chinese food *wink wink* be back in 20 *wink wink*” 

oh wait they actually just got chinese food wtf i need me a man like that 

MAGNUS AND ALEC ADOPTED A SECOND CHILD NAMED RAFAEL DONT MIND ME ILL JUST BE SOBBING INTO MY BEER FOR THE NEXT HOUR 

More of Ty and Livvy’s relationship pls i love sibling bonds 

WTF ZARA???? PERFECT DIEGO IS CANCELLED YET. AGAIN. 

“Smug bastard. Hair’s too good. I don’t trust people with hair that good.” KIT MY SON IM ADOPTING YOU IMMEDIATELY 

Julian slamming the door in Emma’s face made me slam MY face into a door

“She refused to hurry her steps — not for anyone.” Note to self: be more like Cristina 

okay real quick these centurions talking shit about my father magnus bane are about to find my six inch stilettos up their tight assholes bYE 

okay these nazi centurions are CANCELLED 

oh my gosh my smol son ty smiling at kit kill me NOW 

DONT WORRY JULIAN IM RUINED TOO LAFJLKAFJ;L; THAT KISS SCENE MY GODDDDDDD

wow who would have thought i would like gwyn damn (also gwyn x diana??? im??? here for it???)

THEY’RE GOING TO THE FAERIE COURT FUCK ME UPPPPPP

NO FUCK OFF ZARA YOU CAN FUCK RIGHT OFF 

wait but… but kit and ty… but he just kissed livvy and they’re cute too… gdi 

i hope emma and/or cristina rips zara’s head right from her shoulders 

JULIAN AND EMMA ARE KISSING AGAINNNNN

FUCK IT WASN’T REALLY HER

FUCK 

what 

w h a t

W H A T 

HER FATHER OH TKLEJFLMY GDO EM AM AY IT S YOUR DAD WFFJTF

jk it wasn’t her dad gdi 

Diana is my mother now since she just SHUT ZARA TF DOWN

MALCOLM???????????????

oh shit yall it’s the ‘oh no we have to share a bed’ trope and i am LIVING 

julian hiding his boner is my aesthetic 

emma you can’t just casually mention my father luke garroway wtf 

I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW ITTTT ANNABEL KILLED MALCOLM

what’s wrong with Cristina’s arm… wHAT’S WRONG WITH CRISTINA’S ARM LEAVE MY DAUGHTER ALONE 

Julian just snapped at Emma and I have never been more uncomfortable please stop fighting mom and dad 

“neither julian nor emma slept well that night, though each of them thought they were the only one troubled, and the other one was probably resting just fine” real quick i just need to go drink a gallon of bleach to get over this 

all these references to will and jem are really fucking me up 

GDI JESSAMINE 

WILL AND JEM’S HEIGHT MEASURING WALL IM SOBBING JUST LEAVE ME TO DIE

“Tessa used to come and ask me too. She wanted to know where Will was.” WHAT THE FUCK A LOT OF PAINFUL THINGS ARE HAPPENING ALL VERY QUICKLY 

“I want you to be proud of me.” SHIT FUCK HELL DAMN FUCK 

MARK AND THE GNOME IM CHOKING 

Real quick Bridget imma need you to stop alluding to jem and will and also tell me how TF YOU’RE ALIVE 

oooOOOOoooo a compartment to themselves??? HMMMMMM 

Mark x Kieran x Cristina did you mean Lito x Hernando x Daniella? 

ANNABEL GET AWAY FROM MY SON JULIAN 

KLDKFLAJFK;AFALKL MAGNUS SAVING MY CHILDREN AT THE SHADOW MARKET IM SO FUCKING ALIVE 

I love my father Magnus Bane 

I LOVE MY FATHER ALEC LIGHTWOOD 

Alec talking about Jace you bet your sweet ass I’m crying 

On a serious note — props to CC for this representation of autism through Ty, and how Kit treats him so damn well. Very, very cool.

GWYN AND DIANA ARE ADORABLE FIGHT ME I LOVE THEM 

My domestic fathers Magnus and Alec are saving my life 

BRIDGET WANTS THAT LIGHTWOOD DICK EVEN STILL 

All Magnus wants to do is adopt every sad downworlder alive and I LOVE HIM ALL THE MORE FOR IT 

EMMA AND JULIAN HOLDING EACH OTHER IN THEIR SLEEP BYE FOREVER 

Don’t worry Emma I too live on the Sexy Thoughts River and the Sea of Perversion 

EMMA WANTS A SELFIE WITH A PISKIE IM CHOKING I LOVE HER 

FUCK SHIT IT’S JAIME NO DRU RUN 

Mark just had a sex dream about Kieran in the library I’m laughing so hard 

OH KIERAN GAVE HIM THE SEX DREAM WOW KINKY I NEED ME A FREAK LIKE THAT 

Actually wait I change my mind fuck you Kieran that wasn’t cool of you 

THE PLATE OF SCONES IM CRYING I MISS YOU SOPHIE AND GIDEON 

NO SIR JAIME YOU STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM MY DAUGHTER DRU YOU INSOLENT FUCKBOY 

DAMN can CC write so freaking well holy shit 

but are Cristina and Mark kissing because they love each other??? or because of the binding spell?????? will the world EVER KNOW????

POLYAMORY???? WHAT??????

Kit and Ty are … the … most adorable thing… in the whole world… 

“It's a burden being sarcastic” I’M CHOK ING TO DEATH 

FUCK YOU EREC FIRST YOU COME AFTER MY DAUGHTER CRISTINA NOW I FIND OUT YOU TORTURED MY SON KIERAN???

Jaime is evil I can smell it 

MOM AND DAD ARE FIGHTING MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOPPPPP 
Julian appearing out of nowhere sitting on a boulder in the pouring rain completely Unbothered™ like name a more iconic entrance 

DADDY JULIAN HAS EMERGED HOT DAMN SHOVE HER AGAINST THAT WALL DADDY FUCK HER REAL GOOD I need to chill i'm sorry 

BREAK MY HEART BREAK IT IN PIECES

Gdi Dru 

SLAP HIM CRISTINA YES MY QUEEN 

Wait... shit is Jaime actually a good guy? DAMMIT 

MAGNUS CAUGHT THEM LOLOLOL he isn't even concerned though bc he knows parabatai love each other extra hard bc he witnessed Will and Jem's love firsthand lol BYE 

Who tf is Ash? I mean he's Dru's age and they just had a "coincidental meeting" so CLEARLY he's a love interest but 

NO FUCK YOU JAIME I STILL DONT TRUST YOU 

DIANA IS TRANS WHAT IM SO HERE FOR THIS MY STRONG WARRIOR QUEEN 

Gwyn is the actual love of my life 

"Pyromania interests me" Ty, my son, I love you

Dad!Julian makes me WEEP

Coincidentally, Dad!Alec ALSO MAKES ME WEEP 

PRETENTIOUS HAIR PRINCE JENXKAOOAJW EMMA I FUCKING ADORE YOU 

MAGNUS NAME DROPPED MY MOTHER MAIA OMG 

Emma referring to implied polyamory as a sexy weirdness is ME 

Pffffffft Kieran calling Diego the "very handsome stupid one" is ALSO MEEEEEEE 

"The bad things can't matter more than the good things" Cristina....... my daughter........ 

Ty's letter GOODBYE ALL IM DONE 

HELEN OMGGGGGGGG

Kieran ain't got time for your SHIT Robert 

MAGNUS NOOOOOOOOOO

Sassy!Alec defending his man and not dealing with Bigot!Zara's bullshit I’m so wet 

OH MY GOD ROBERT 

NANSIZOANWPZOAPALWK THE MORTAL SWORD OMG 

what

what

what 

what 

what 

what. 

Livvy isn't dead

No 

No livvy isnt dead 

No no 

Wait what the FUCK 

THATS THE E N D ????

W H A T T H E F U C K 

BYE. 

BYE forever I'm going to go live in a world where Livvy is alive and well because fuck all this BYEEEEEEEEEE

so like 2019…. where u at

[survivormarmoreal]

Episode #13: "im so EMO (TION)" - Bryce

I cant believe that im still here. And we have majority. 3 vs 2. Matt is coming to me know saying that he wants to work with me but like. Bruh. But that could be good tho having him. I have to see what happens with immunity first.

OKOKOKOK CAN WE JUST DISCUSS HOW AM I A FUCKING GOAT. FIRST OF ALL Jock destroyers was a pretty dominant alliance i played a SNITCH RAT GAME with exposing plans and i was lied to but like can i get some credit here like first of all it was my fucking ideal to even force a tie, bryce wanted sharky out he didn't want rocks i wanted rocks when my ass was literally on the line here and i was still willing to go to rocks because i don't want to be a fucking goat and do what bryce or sharky wants this is the only way i could get brian SHARKYS #1 ALLY out of the game so that you know who sharky's #1 ALLY IS NOW FUCKING ME. so you know what yeah i'm a goat, greatest of all time actually and i at least deserve some level of credit or respect here to pull some shit off like this. only person on the fucking tribe with the balls to do this shit and i don't even have balls. OK BYE.

i literally dont have words. i keep having meltdowns and like its so not like me i usually just treat games as fun but im just so upset bc brian went home when we could have prevented it and now im in a spot where annabelle and sharky control things and im basically going to get 5th. i really thought i was doing something and life came at me real quick and said learn ur place KJFSHKJDFHSKJ. like the play anna made was smart so go her i just hate that i got played and that brian left with the vote steal and that my game is ruined and i came so far and i thought i was playing alright also i hate how everyone and their mother keeps calling me out for playing the middle KJSFHFKS like grow up and shade me in ur confessionals not to my face im SENSITIVE AUBRY. basically the point is: https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/506665419092918273/541697763788980225/image0.jpg

I'm SHOCKED. I swore to Annabelle I wouldn't right her name down. And yet she writes my name down! And just as I was thinking I could trust Bryce HE RALLIES VOTES AGAINST ME! I'm so pissed off, and scared, and hurt, and now I have to scramble to figure something out.

Okay let recap everything that has gone down in this 24 hours since I was betrayed. So I talked to Annabelle A LOT. Basically we've talked to each other a ton. I discover that Anna made the plan for the tie and then Bryce was only willing to flip if the vote was for me. SHADY. I knew I should have never trusted him. So basically either I convince Annabelle to save me, everyone goes to rocks, or Matt and Brian flip on me and I go home. I would have said the last one was super unlikely. So I start busting my ass to sway Annabelle. We have really opened up to each other about our games, she is feeling like she has to make a big move. I talked to her about how I feel hurt because I've busted my ass all game to save Anna and Matt and now they both seem unwilling to save me. I tell the guys we just have to be nice but imply to her she stands no shot of making the end without me and how Bryce is going to win. She has no idea we have the vote steal so Brian/Matt would definitely get Bryce out next. So I go to sleep thinking we are making progress. I wake up an Anna is like "Matt was rude to me so I'm definitely not flipping" so I'm starting to feel really hopeless. And then Matt and Brian both started to dodge the idea of rocks. And Anna is telling me Bryce thinks Matt is probably going to flip. So i'm thinking it's over. And in the FB Bois chat Matt and Brian both keep being like "I'm so conflicted" "we'd be guaranteed f4" "blah blah blah" So now I'm realizing these two aren't willing to go to rocks for me. I've spent this whole season trying to save our alliance at any cost. And now that I'm the one in danger...they aren't willing to take the risk. SO now I get it. I've been too nice. If they are going to put their games above mine and aren't willing to risk it so all 3 of us can make F5...I'm going to have to make sure we take that risk because it's my only shot. So I pitch to Anna a way she can get her rocks and I can be safe. We tell them that Anna agrees to save me. That way they think were set and it'll all work out and then it'll go to rocks and I'll be safe. It's super risky and I'm putting all my faith in Annabelle and I feel so scared and guilty and idk but this is the only way I survive and there is a chance Anna goes and it all works out. But...it's also not lost on me that Anna is willing to risk her own game to save me...but my own alliance isn't. I'm feeling...weird.

Brian went home. I...honestly am just feeling horrible. And he was so mad at me. Like mad to the point that I'm worried I ruined a real life friendship over this game. And Matt is furious too and he's going off on me in our group chat which fucking sucks. Like that was the worst case scenario for me. And it sucks. But I shouldn't have to feel bad about this. Like both Brian and Matt were willing to vote me out so they didn't have to go to rocks. They put their game first so why am I a villain for doing the same thing? And they want to be like "we were up front with you about not being sure" like that's supposed to make me feel better. Yeah of course you were honest you weren't the ones in danger. It's easy for y'all to be honest when you're just going to vote me out. I couldn't have been honest with them or they would have flipped and I would have gone home. How do they not see that? Was I supposed to just give up? How is that fair? And how is it that they can vote me out and I just have to accept that but they can't accept that I saved myself. I'm feeling super alone, like I can't trust anybody, and like my best friends won't even take a second to look at it from my point of view. Of course I feel terrible. I just hope this doesn't come between genuine friendships.

ANNA REALLY JUST CLOCKS ME AND SHE KNOW SHE CAN BC WHAT ELSE AM I GOING TO DO. me matt maynor better be this f3 matt might win tbh but idc! anna has CROSSED ME and like laughs in my face FKJADSHFKAJ like yes ur iconic yes u did #that but im in this game with u and its a lil rude to flaunt ur success at me FKJADSHFAKJ when i do sth good i would never constantly bring it up (btw i won immunity once and got that cute blue color so everyone is jealous prob...) also im so emo i miss dennis and i miss brian they were the 2 ppl who i felt close to in the game and theyre both gone i literally am so upset i feel like if i wasnt so busy before tribal i could have talked to brian more and convinced him he had to vote sharky bc i KNEW anna was voting sharky but he bought her lies and i was convincing enough so i just feel its my fault i lost my closest ally (and his vote steal) although maybe he would have beat me in the end so this is good thing? nope! like i think i played alright in the middle but ppl prob wont respect it and idk if i would bc clearly im biased and maybe i am just a goat and thats why im still in like i rly tried to do sth this round but didnt i just ugh so demotivated hehe but maybe ill snap or sth insert positive uplifting quote here i just hope that i can turn this around and defeat anna and her pet shark. ALTHOUGH ITS LIKE WHERE THE BIG DOG PULLS ITS OWNER AND WALKS IT INSTEAD OF THE OTHER WAY AROUND. im so EMO (TION)

yesterday i was feeling a LOT of emotions and now that i have distanced myself i realize that my emotions were VALID and i am perfect and had the RIGHT to be upset that everything went wrong. i am speaking my immunity win into existence it WILL happen. i HAVE done the homework and even if i flop it (which i wont) i will still NOT GO HOME bc matt and maynor are hopefully on my side. OK BUT LIKE IM JUST SO JKAFSHKAJDSFHADSKFJA

This immunity is very important. We cant let Matt or Sharky win it. We need to have the opinion for them available to be voted out.

So like.... I am upset and feel very alone now in this game. Brian got rocked out and i was lied to again. I am just like so over it. I feel manipulated when I did have all the power and could've got a big threat out. but NO sharky and anna the fucking dynamic duo they are decided it would be fun to go to rocks! I am just so over it. Im getting fucking 5th place and I am MAD.

OR AM I? I decided to lie last night and say i gave my idol to brian last night. Why? It would paint an even bigger target on my back so i can go idoling. Cause of course I am not dumb enough to go and give my idol away hell naw. Instead, I need to knock sharky out of the immunity comp tonight but then get everyone on my case so they vote me. then boom idol. i know that this should get me to f3. I hope. If sharky goes next, and anna/maynor win FIC. then i know i can get at least maynor with me cause Bryce will then be the clear winner out of us 4. then maybe i will have a shot at the win but eh, need to get there first. I hope to god this can work and if not, final juror here i come!

I woke up feeling TERRIBLE. I feel so bad about the Brian situation. Matt won't respond because he probably hates me. I feel like a trash person. And tbh I'm questioning if I even deserve to be here.

I feel sick. Literally this is the worst case scenario. If anybody else had won everything would be fine. And now Matt has like given up which makes me even sadder. I'm honestly considering asking everybody to vote me out. So that Matt at least has a shot of making FTC. This sucks.

I WON IMMUNITY WOOOH IM SO ICONIC IM LITERALLY A LOSING FINALIST AND EVERYONE WANTS ME OUT I FEEL LIKE ILL LOSE IN THE END BUT THAT WONT STOP THESE PPL FROM GIVING ME 4TH WHEN I LOSE THE NEXT IMMUNITY AJKFDSHKFAJ THEYRE ALL LIKE SO VISIBLY DISAPPOINTED I WON IM SO SAD NNNN I WOULD BE HAPPY FOR THEM! i really hope they vote out sharky now bc its literally the smart move but im willing to bet theyll keep him to spite me annas gonna be like sharky needs to stay we get him out NEXT round and maynor might be convinced or sth idk and matt idk askdjfhdkjf i thought we were good but he ghosted me all day today so hm. club 96 nina and tina really falling apart

Matt is literally shutting down. Like I'm trying to talk with him and mend things and try to rally him so we can figure out how to keep us both safe and honestly he's just not interested. He seems disinterested and honestly he's being kind of a brat. Stop pouting! Sack up and help me fight. Because yes I was selfish last round and that put us in a tough spot but It was never my idea to trust Bryce or my idea to ignore that we had a vote steal to secure our vote at F6. I'm not the only one who made mistakes. So come on and let's freaking recover! Or are we just supposed to lay down and award Bryce the win? UGH

I was really on the brink of asking everybody to vote me out. But Matt is being so useless right now. If he's going to act like that he'll just get picked off at F4. He has no fight. So I'm over it. I really do love him but at this point I'm going to have to just try my best to get Annabelle and Maynor to believe that they stand the best chance at FTC against me, instead of Bryce or Matt. I've already ruined my reputation so I might as well at least try to fight. I feel over everything but I have to get it together.

The vote hopefully is between Matt and Sharky. I know Bryce really wants Sharky gone. Annabelle and I are talking and seeing which route is the best for us to make it to the end.

Like wow. My brain is so big. Im pretending that I threw away my idol to brian at the last second, and that I am leaving this round. Whereas in actually reality I still have my idol and sure as heck im playing it tonight and making final 4 YEET. like woe is me, woe is me, lol no bitch im here to stay. Sharky like, needs to leave as well. I love him but 2 big if a threat and I would quite like to well, win.

Oh and as I write this annabelle needs me huh. Well listen here, you lied to my fucking face and got brian out. Thus, you also need to leave bish. I am fed up of being lied 2 constantly by these fuckers called my tribemates and I am NOT here for it anymore. Time to play the lies and deceit game myself huh

This round is so weird for me. I felt like I was in such a tough place and feeling really defeated. But now Anna is getting paranoid and there is a very slim chance I could get her to to vote Maynor and then Matt and I both make F4. But my issues is I can't trust anybody. Because I don't think anybody trusts me. Like Maynor is being very noncommittal. Anna keeps flip flopping and maybe she'll flip onto me. Matt seems on board but honestly maybe he deeply deeply hates me and is just lying and will vote me out.

There is a little over an hour left before tribal. I'm convinced that it's me going home. Everyone seems to be too easy to agree to vote with me. It's not looking good.

Literally wtf. The Biggest plot twist of the century is occurring. I'M THE SWING VOTE?? Like since when in hell was I going to be the deciding factor. I mean I like it, I have the power for once and I am safe but still omg i LOVE IT! I am bunsen the Berner in this image, deciding between 2 fates: https://pbs.twimg.com/media/DzD8lXwUwAAgTlp?format=jpg&name=900x900

Having a panic attack. Im really nervous. Like i know its between Matt and Sharky. But there is still a chance that somehow me or annabell could still go. I hope it doesnt and its clear cut with Sharky and Matt. Fingers cross. Or imma die.

i had a good talk with anna today and i kind of love her (as long as she votes sharky) i think maynor might go now which is sad bc anna says matt/sharky are doing that but like matt says that he wants me maynor him f3 so who knows! anna like was honest with me about not knowing who to vote and seems to be voting sharky but literally anything can happen so whomst knows.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH okokok i feel so fucking badly about this move like so badly ughhhhhhhhhh but i feel like it has to happen i'm so so soooo sorry sharky like you have no idea i've been torn all day on what i should do and idk i feel like i lose no matter what this fucking blows

Sharky is voted out 4-1. 

[thepdvblog]

FBMH II - Cura and Cure

From the Bottom of My Heart Masterpost

Summary: Annabelle can't focus on class today, and she's fully aware that's not how things usually are, except she can't exactly tell why she's like that. At least, that's until Magda helps her realizing why, and then Christian indirectly helps her to realize exactly why things are that way, by simply encouraging her to make a visit.

Length: 2.4K words

AO3 version

Annabelle is quite out of it today. Usually, she is fascinated by the Ancient French class, comparing it with how French is currently getting spoken around her, how she speaks it, the list of uses goes on. However, her mind cannot find a way to focus on what their teacher is currently speaking about, and she struggles to keep up with it. This does not feel right, and the way Magda and Louise are looking at her from the neighbouring row of chairs and tables make her acutely aware of this.

A piece of paper lands on her table, coming from the left. It must had been Magda, and when she looks at her khâgne godmother, she sees a small smile on her lips, the one she used to give when she doubted herself last year. Her eyes then go back to the class, as Annabelle should be doing. She opens the paper and read what is written on it.

“It’s bcs he not here, no?”

Who is “he”? Magda seems to be oddly vague about the whole ordeal. She still glances at a table at the other side of the classroom, next to the wall and the door, only to notice an empty seat. Oh, so this is the “he” she was referring to earlier… Annabelle can only put this as an explanation of her difficulty to focus on anything today.

She sighs softly to herself, head resting on her hand, as she wonders what could have possibly happened to him. She hopes it’s not much. It’s not his kind to skip class, so something must had happened for him to be stuck outside of their classroom.

When it finally rings off, Annabelle exits the room. As soon as she spots him in the forum space, she walks up to Christian, a friend of her brother’s, but mostly a friend of Florian. He must know where his comrade is, right? Or at least he has an idea of so. When she tells him hello, Christian is surprised. They never spoke to each other directly yet, only when Florian was there. He still greets her back.

“Let me guess, you want to know why Flo wasn’t in class today?” he asks her, smirking.

“Is it this obvious? Oh my…” she replies, feeling a bit guilty of being such, such an opportunist.

“You weren’t as focused as usual, so I guessed you were worried for him. He hasn’t told us anything yet, but I’m sure he’s just sick and forgot to plug in his phone.”

His smirk turns into a grin. He whistles as his eyes look away.

“I’m sure a little visit wouldn’t hurt him, though… What about you check up on him? I have to attend class at Sorbonne this afternoon.”

Her face lights up with surprise. This offer is too attractive for her to resist the urge to accept, especially since she doesn’t have any class for the day… But is it right for her to do so? She doesn’t even know where Florian lives…

“You look like you’re hesitating, am I wrong?”

“I-it’s not that, but… I don’t know where he lives…”

“It’s just that? Let me send you his address. Don’t forget to bring him some soup!”

Walking down the street, going back to her flat, Annabelle receives a text message from Christian, containing the address he said to give her. The young lady clutches the phone next to her chest, already thinking about what she needs to bring with her.

Soup will take her too much time to make on her own, she’ll buy some at the nearest shop. Maybe he’s running low on medicine, she should make a small trip to the pharmacy and buy some fever reducers and cough drops. Oh, she should bring some tissues with her too. Man, so many things he needs, and so many things she’ll gladly pay for.

Now that she is in front of the door indicated on her phone, the small student feels shy and almost scared. It makes her nervous to knock at his door when he doesn’t know she got her hand on his address. She also doesn’t want to wake him up, if he’s asleep. A sigh escapes her glossed lips as she lays back to the door, looking at the ceiling, her hand firmly holding her small basket.

Her ears twitch when she hears coughing inside. Her hand knocks on the wooden surface before she can think about it. Now facing the door, she anxiously waits for something. Her nose transforms into a leaking air balloon.

The coughing gets louder and louder until the knock starts to shake. Wood gives the spotlight to blue fabric, buttons, body hair, then a familiar face. It’s him, obviously, dressed in a badly ironed pyjama and covered in a blanket.

“…Anna… Annabelle…?” a hoarse voice calls for, a rather strong congestion and sounding like there’s an accent that shouldn’t be in there.

Her heart hurts.

“H-hello…,” it’s as if her voice has dried by the second, “it’s indeed me… Do I disturb you?”

Florian, under the flush of what she can only guess is a fever, makes her a small smirk.

“I’m very happy you came to visit me,” he coughs, “but that’s not the day to do so…”

“You have gotten this wrong!”

A scoff escaped his mouth as his face got covered in a pained amusement.

“You’re kidding me, right…? I look like crap, I sound like crap, my flat is a mess and…”

“You are ill, and when someone is ill, someone else has to take care of them. And I will be the one to do so for you, even if you refuse me.”

Her friend’s eyes looked on the side, his cheeks reddened, and eventually, he just sighed.

“I can’t possibly say not to such solicitude… Please enter… I’m sorry, the place is a mess, I haven’t had the energy to clean lately…”

Annabelle, who has been crossing her fingers behind her back, steps inside the flat. She can see it is indeed pretty disorganized, with books and some other items on the floor of his one-room flat. Meanwhile, Florian just staggers in front of her, only to collapse on his bed, head crashing first while his coughing echoes in the entire room.

“My, my, Florian, you sound like you came down with a terrible illness…” slips out of her mouth as she rushed to him.

“Do I…? Guessed so… Everybody looked at me like I was about to die when I went to the doctor…” he croaks out as he laid properly in bed. “Please forgive my unformal look… I didn’t plan on getting a visit today…”

Annabelle didn’t say anything. Instead, she lowered herself to the bed, took her own temperature with the back of her hand, then laid it on his forehead. After barely touching it, she took it off, shaking her wrist, accompanied by a small hiss.

“You’re running such a fever…!”

“Come on, it’s not that bad… I think it’s around thirty-eight…? I can’t remember when I t-”

Before he could keep on, she had already put a thermometer in his mouth. His eyes, which had tried to be stern until then, just rolled slightly and he simply took it in and let it go.

“Thirty-nine point six… This is pretty high if you ask me…” she muses as she reads the numbers on the small stick.

“Agreed… I just blanked out there…”

“This does not sound like you to say so, Florian. It is almost as if you are… someone else…”

He looks away, bits his lip, scratches his beard.

“To be entirely honest with you, Annabelle… I’m not in the right state of mind to look fancy…”

“Does it mean you’re… usually playing a role…?”

“No, I’m just trying harder than that… If you don’t mind, can we have this talk later…?”

“Sure thing. You look like you need some care and not some deep conversation.”

After a quick blink, the little woman rushed to the tiny bathroom of the flat, grabbed a bucket, filled it with water and fetched the first cloth she had under her hand. She then proceeded to dunk it inside and wipe the sweat off his face.

“Wait, is that… your handkerchief…?” he coughed out.

“It is not a problem, before you ask… Maybe you should change clothes if you feel up to it. You look like you are sweating a lot.”

“You… don’t mind doing all of this…?”

Annabelle blinks before a light-hearted laugh escapes her mouth.

“Of course, I do not, silly! I was worried for you, it makes me feel better to be able to do something… You look like you needed some help and care anyway…”

His face lights up a little, to the point colour may be coming back there to counter the red of fever.

“I don’t know what I did to deserve this… but I’m truly grateful…”

“Do not mention it. I am just doing what I think is right.”

She eventually flats out her handkerchief on his forehead, intrigued by a small piece of paper she noticed when she first entered in his flat. She reads it, notices his healthcare card right next to it, deciphers the cryptic writing.

“Florian,” she asks, “did you get the medicine your doctor told you to get?”

“I didn’t… I fainted before I could grab my credit card…”

A wet, violent coughing fit hurts her so strongly she clutches her own chest, right where her beats are getting out of control.

“You still need it. I am borrowing this,” she says as she shows him his own card, “and the paper. I will be back in a bit.”

Annabelle gathers her coat and purse when she notices her classmate’s hand reaching out for her.

“I’ll go… Let me just… gather myself over there…”

Before he can step more than a foot outside of his bed, she rushed out to him, grab his shoulders and gently puts him down back to bed.

“Are you insane, Florian? You are in no condition to get up at the moment… Let me do this for you, okay?”

“You’re not gonna pay for that… I’m weary about my credit card code…”

“Oh, come on! I can do this for you! And if you want to repay me so badly, you can do so when you’re feeling better, is it right?”

He simply nods back.

“Deal…”

She passes a hand through his hair, kisses the top of his head and waves him a “I will be back soon” look as she grabs the key and closes the door behind her.

As soon as she’s out of view, Annabelle hides her face in her hands, feeling all of her blood reaching out to her head. She can barely believe she just did that without realizing it! It’s something she would do out of sheer affection, to her brother when they were younger, then to her ex-boyfriend… It doesn’t have the platonic resonance it used to anymore, it’s become something else over time.

She can only hope Florian was too dizzy to realize how unpolite and intimate the gesture was. Still, she doesn’t have much time to lose to her clumsiness: she has medicine to buy.

As the pharmacist she usually goes to is maybe the gentlest man she’s met (after Florian, that is), the literature student enters the same pharmacy as before, clutching the paper in her gloved hands, her purse firmly clutched in her armpit. Today is chilly outside, but so, so warm inside.

Her small boots clack and clack to the desk, where the white-coated man smiles at her with his ice blue eyes and his dimple in his left cheek. He’s as lovely as he ever is.

“Hello again…” she says, unable to retain a smile.

“Hello again, Ms Baudelas! What can I do for you this time around?”

“I am here to get my friend’s medicine… Here you go…” She puts the bill on the counter. “Thank you very much, once again.”

“I will take care of it.”

He reads the contents of the small piece of paper with the help of a pair of reading glasses.

“Hmm… One preparation of Tamiflu, three doses per day, for Florian Moinot…” he muses to himself. “Do you have his healthcare card?”

Annabelle gets it from the chest pocket on her overcoat, “here you go.”

He scans it and goes through a door in the back of the shop, whose sign reads “Staff only”.

When he comes back, a couple of minutes later, he has a small plastic bag in his hand, which he then hands to her. A payment with her credit card later, she can’t help but notice her pharmacist seems… puzzled.

“Is something wrong, doctor?” she asks, feeling her worry intensify.

“No, I was just wondering about something… When you came to buy some medicine earlier, was it for this man too? If you do not mind telling me, obviously.”

“It was…”

“You are a wonderful friend, Ms Baudelas. I am sure he is very grateful for you.”

When she comes back to his flat, Annabelle finds her classmate sound asleep in bed, an half-opened book on the ground right next to his hanging arm. A soft smile installs itself on her lips as she takes off her shoes, tip-toes to his bed and lays the blanket over him, retrieving his arm under it as well. She also picks up the book and puts it properly on his nightstand, right next to his lamp.

From her purse, Annabelle grabs a piece of paper and writes on the back of it the instruction the pharmacists gave her about the medicine, until her hand slips and she writes down a small word to him.

“Dear Florian,

I wish you a safe and sound recovery. Please take care and do not overdo it, at least not until you are all recovered. The better you take care of yourself, the sooner you will be back in the swift of things. If you ever need help, do not hesitate to send a small message to either me or any of our friends, okay? Do not stress over me having paid for the medicine.

I also left you some homemade soup and an Egyptian fairy tale book in case you are in a dire need to read something easy and lovely.

With love,

Annabelle.”

As she exits the flat, trying to make as little noise as possible, Annabelle feels a lump of warmth and bliss rise in her chest. It never felt so right to take care of someone. Her heart finally beats at a normal speed as she cannot help but realize it.

She never thought she would be back in such feelings so soon.

[survivormarmoreal]

Episode #3: "i told him i loved sicko mode( which i dont)" - bryce

Today no one has been online so our tribe has been quiet. But we have our alliance together so thats good.

John is gone? Good. I don't want to work with anyone who chooses Boston Rob as an avatar. No thank you.

Okay so this challenge is interesting...it really could be anybody's game. Luckily I know Brian is really good with music so I'm hoping that will come in handy for us. Other than that who tf knows. I just hope we stay safe.

This music video challenge is really hard. Hopefully we could pull another win and stay safe again. It would really suck if we would lose this challenge.

so I just woke up. like ~ 6-7 hours after the challenge announcement. AND THESE FREAKS ARE ALREADY DONE. WTF LET ME HELP.

no no. For real. I am so happy, I am not used to a tribe working this well together in challenges. I am SO SO HAPPY

We actually just murdered the challenge. We finished it in like less than 12 hours. We are beasts at these challenges. I just really hope that we got them all right because that gives us a great shot at winning. Even if we lose I'm in a great spot with Four of a Kind and Nicole is an obvious first boot. But I would still love to keep this win streak going for a little while.

I swear, I go offline for one night... I come back and literally EVERY song is done... I mean go on carry me to immunity thats fine.

So the last couple of days has been quiet since we did win immunity again, but I do have some tea to spill in here, and I love spilling tea hehe...

So I got nothing from my trip to Wonderland, but that's OK!  I'd rather get nothing then get something bad for my game.  In addition to that, though, the more juicy ish is that Sharky told me that Maynor is trying to get a group together of the 4 men not including me (or Nicole, obviously).  He probably already succeeded in that, but I do know, based on what Sharky said, that their first target would be Nicole followed up by me.  "It's not that Maynor doesn't like you, because he does, but he just thinks this is the group."  Maynor better hope that I don't swap with him because I do not mind having to flip on his ass and send him home at this point.  I'd love to stick to tribal lines and think I could find comfort in them if we swap, but I also literally don't care if I wasn't included in an alliance.

So while I know I have Sharky with my back and Maynor not with it at all, that still leaves Charlie, Nicole, and Dennis.  Nicole doesn't really talk much to anyone, so I'm kinda just gonna sneak in over the next 24 hours and make sure to solidify something with her so that I could work with her if need be.  Dennis and I talk from time to time, but I think if I can play on the fact that we both play League more, then I can solidify something with him... and Charlie and I talked about something between the two of us already, so I feel good there, but he didn't warn me about the Maynor alliance thing, so I know he doesn't trust me fully yet (which, might I add, just shows how I have to keep him at a distance).  I feel like if we can win this challenge and potentially swap next round, I will so amazing... because I might swap onto a tribe with a bunch of amazing people that will help me kill some of these annoying hoes on my current tribe (I'm looking @ you, Maynor).  My tribe's kinda hard to talk to, so I really need this... I need Marie... Godt... help me tf out because I am DYINNNGGG.....

I worked on videos 2 and 3 last night and almost finished it except like missing 2 songs. When i woke this morning, tribe finished all of video 1 and the 2 that i was missing. I really like our tribe, its really active and they work hard on the challenges. Going to be sad when there is a tribe swap, hopefully i get some of my alliance with me or Brian. Atleast someone i could work with.

Our spreasheets is being locked. I hope that we have the right answers. I really want to win again so hopefully we win immunity again.

Soooo I woke up and the tribe had finished our challenge before I even got to contribute....annoying because now if we lose I’ll be booted for not helping. Still I’m having fun even though I really only talk to Dennis and Charlie.

We won. Again. I wish I had something more interesting to say but I'm in a majority alliance, on a physically dominant tribe, I know who has the idol, and I'm feeling super comfortable. The only thing that worries me is an impending swap. In that situation idk what I would do…

O M G. We won by 1 point. I literally died and came back. Im so happy that we are safe again. Only thing is I’m nervous about us being ‘recommended’ to be online tomorrow. Maybe its nothing and I’m looking into it too much. Lets hope the swap is after one more vote. But who knows cuz it could be swapped into 3 tribes of 5.

okay so i forgot to mention but nathan has vote spy so wooh. also so i found a potion today and instead of being loyal and smart and gifting it to nathan since he hadnt guessed yet. i took it for myself and now have to wait another day to see if i get sth new. maybe itll work out maybe not. but we won tribal so um wooh. i kind of carried but im pretty sure i also put the wrong ellie goulding song so uh give and take NNN. still love nathan, nick is fun when hes on, annabelle talks for like 1 minute at a time but shes busy so hope we connect more, jayden... ignores me also i told him i loved sicko mode( which i dont) but his pfp was astroworld.. close enough. they were talking about rap in the chat so i changed my picture to amine and kevin abstract to try to get their attention but did not succeed KDAJFHKAJD one day ill bond…

YAY WE WON!!! I hate selfie scavenger hunt. Ill get more in depth when there's you know... actual depth to get into... safety is fun but I dont have confessional material right now. Also HAHA KEATON YOU GOT A VOTE TOO (sticks tongue out)

I didn't even do the challenge and I feel like I'm going home because I've been really busy and barely active so I'm really sad. Hopefully I can get people like Matt or BC to save me.

Our tribe are such kings, yet another win!! Despite the happiness of being safe, I am kinda worried. If our entire tribe makes the merge it just makes us targets, and honestly I don't see the point. Nicole isn't really online much and from what I can gather it doesn't seem like anyone is closely allied with her.

Yes, what I'm saying is that we're considering, let's say, "Not putting our best effort" into this challenge. Dennis and I have talked about it already, and I do think it's for the best. You only have to look at the healers in HvHvH to see why it's not a good idea to always win!

I hope it's not a live trivia challenge. Cos I love those and it will suck if I have to not try my best on it.

One point... really? I had to log off because I needed to be up early in the morning. There are two people that did absolutely nothing for the challenge. They had 24 hours to do at least SOMETHING, and then we would have won. But no.

tbh the complete lack of giving a fuck on my tribe has left me super demotivated. I'm sick of staying up until 1am every night for this while others do fuck all. we're voting Marie because she's never around and hasn't contributed significantly to any challenge yet. sorry if you were expecting something more exciting than that.

so we lost the challenge. BY ONE FUCKING POINT. Like what is the point?? i slaved for ages looking for those videos, doing both videos 1 and 2 and some of 3. like hello tribe? please pull your weight? or like? I want you all gone? This vote thankfully should have a straightforward result, like marie is basically non existent and doesn't really try. The transcontinental trio have basically come to that consensus that it'll be Marie, so like it should be because we have a majority. Im praying for a swap HONESTLY.

I was driving home from Maine so I’m super glad the guys pulled through and won this one since I fell on ice and I’m in a stupid amount of pain and I didn’t want to potentially be voted out when I’m hurting this bad so whenever these are released seriously seriously thank you to the 4 of you that got all of it done you’re all amazing

Im a little nervous tonight for the semi-live challenge after tribal tonight but also more nervouse that it isnt a challenge by a possible 3 tribe swap

BC quits.