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My comic is so pretty...
The hiatus is letting me take a little extra time on these episodes, and I'm definitely putting it to good use!!!
#almost done with my 8th episode... which will give me. two weeks. of buffer...#id really like at LEAST a month... but to be more comfortable id like two#which means 2-6 more episodes before I come back!#I've got about 7 weeks so its possible. but i do still have to finish book 4#so much to do ..........#I decided for my next comic im doing 3 updates a month.#having 10 days instead of 7 to make an episode is such a huge huge huge difference...#difference in quality and in my health!#anyways the comic is really pretty im really happy with the work im doing rn#the environments especially. im getting to spend a nice amount of time on them and theyre turning out so nicely#its nice to be able to write with a lot of different environments and not have to redo panels when I get to them cause of time#cause every time theres a wild angle? you need a new background...#so sometimes. often actually. there just isnt the time to make the backgrounds for those and i have to make them more flat...#which is fine. it doesnt really affect anything narratively. but. idk. it's kinda sad right?#anyways yeah! 10 days will be much better.#36 episodes a year is about what ive been uploading with my hiatuses on the weekly schedule anyways!#so might as well cut out that super stressful middleman and just commit to that#52 a year is just such a huge difference and i have to accept its not possible to me#i will hurt myself trying to do that. and i want to make comics my whole life!#so i cant push myself that hard now and sacrifice my future. we're gonna go slower after this...#anyways yeah cant wait to come back but also time. if I could get an extra week like a secret one just for me#where theres no chores no nothin just me and my work#thatd be great! so go ahead and do what you gotta do to give me a little pocket dimension#me: ugh i want to return right now...#the more logical me: NO we need the time to finish everything!!!!!! NOT right now!!!!#time and time again#ttawebcomic#comic panels#hiatus stuff#adam and steve
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Just curious what the average level of personal investment in these sorts of things is. Like, how much do people usually get into silly stuff like this their friends ask of them? etc. etc. Which I know, only surveying a small sample on a very specific website means I'm not getting an exact average idea lol, but.. curious nonetheless .. Maybe reblog for bigger sample size but also this is not very serious at all/not worth a call to action gbhjbhjb
#which I know this could be context dependent like.. maybe you'd normally dress up but on a week that#you feel sick you wouldn't or etc. etc. - but I mean.. GENERALLY. in the most general average scenario#where you have the average amount of health and free time that you always do. etc. just based on your personality#and level of investment in these things - what on AVERAGE are you most inclined to do#also of course assume they communicate with you ahead of time and are not like planning a part last minute#like 'throw together costume in 5 hours and show up tonight randomly' or etc. I would hope that if we're going with the#AVERAGE of things - most people's friends have better communication skills than springing entire parties#on people last minute lol#assume you have like.. a few days-a week or so to prepare. however ealrly people usually start talking about#birthdays. In my experience it's usually one or two weeks ahead of time. Like 'oh next weekend' or 'oh two weeks from now' etc.#ANYWAY.. feeling a little Sick again of course but still trying to get some photos or something posted#AGAIN i promise I am not going to exlcusively post polls and ntohing else forever hgkjgnekj#I just really really love the ability to post polls and have always my whole life been obsessed with surveying people#I used to think I wanted to do that as a career somehow like.. be one of the people that does psychological interviews#or produce interview asessments for a company or etc. etc. I am always the one friend in the group thats giving out custom made#surveys or asking for other simialr stuff (did you ever take an mbti quiz? how about enneagra#m?? oh yeah I know they're not really scientifically valid or antyhing but like... DID you take them?? huh?? did you??please?? ghjj)#I simply cannot resist.. posting a little poll every once in a while.. as a treat#whilst I still fall behind on like actual content and costumes and stuff gbjhbjh#New poll adventure should be not as much of a wait as the last one was though since I already have the writing#for it really. I just have to do the ms paint sketch. hopefully no unexpected other health issues will get in the way#*** *** ***#< (anytime I do these three star patterns it is an ocd compulsion not me bleeping out words or something just ignore it lol)#(it means something secret in my evil brain just pretend you do not see it. significant only to me)#BUT YEAH.. ... poll... what type of costume party atendee are you?#:0c
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Me to Atom when he sat beside the trash can instead of getting in it
#my love mix up th#my love mix up thailand#this must be so confusing for people that didn't see the original#listen i love atom but i need the chaos energy of aoki back in my life#SPOILERS AHEAD IN THE TAGS FOR THE JAPANESE VERSION IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY WATCHED. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK#he does not need to stay in the trash#but saying he might as well get in the trash has less of an impact than actually physically crawling into the trash#we need mudmee's anger to match hashimoto's but it won't have the proper justification if atom is just...sad by the trash#aoki threw himself in the trash then told her he was going to the mountains and she had no idea what was going on#she only knew that her friend was in such distress that he physically made himself trash#and mudmee knows atom is sad and she doesn't want him to be but it is not the same#oh how i was so hoping they would properly handle this one moment but alas#they were close but they took out too much of the chaos. too much is gone#it's still cute and wholesome and wonderful#but atom is now a disaster bi and that's kind of the best part of aoki's whole character#and part of why ida fell in love in the first place
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"bad decisions, that's alright; look, i'm still alive"
#&juliet#if you saw the old version of this... no you didn't#anyway. &j posting now... made this into what i like to call a public transport wip#in which painting on phone with fingers commences! usually it happens to doodles that get coloured and i want to clean up#idk about the colours here though... that said it's a livable error#smth smth reminders to not feel so scared... many many paths.#be less afraid of messing up? just live life? many many paths#one of my key takeaways from this show was along those lines#sobs.. if that isn't the premise of the musical huh? juliet is so young and has her whole life ahead to live...#still so much ahead of her- so what if she Didn't kill herself?#<holds tightly> many routes. many routes. i am young and have my life yet to be lived.#also this comes from the joint bit near the end where angelique sings to juliet#!! also just realised that the nurse and juliet's hairstyles parallel each other... such a cute detail..#// sometimes the stuff i make is really just because the themes resonate at this specific point in life..#i think it's getting more self-specific! tbh every time i catch myself creating for Myself specifically i go <333
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“If you just do everything you’re supposed to do you’ll eventually end up where you need to be.” Infinity train book 4 you fuck me up so bad still. “You can mess up even if you stand still…” MIN-GI PARK…..
#ITS SOOOOO GOOD…#he’s fucking. just like me for real#GOD. relationships with family and friends and like. I DONT HAVE THE WORDS FOR IT RIGHT NOW#and how like personal problems and biases can effect your relationships#and how little things about someone can build up and bottle up and it’s like you love them and hate them at the same time#and about standing still versus rushing ahead#the weight of expectations. one trying to run away one just trying to do as he’s told#and they both think they knows what’s best. for themselves for each other#rymin is so much more than a ship to me. it’s about complexities and best friendship and knowing someone your whole life#and how extremely fucked up that can be#head in my hands punches the wall explodes#infinity train#book 4#rymin#sunnfish.txt#min gi park is like if hanzawa masato was a lot less eccentric and a lot more angry. same core though#sorry also just like. what a justified anger it is#min gi has molded himself to what his parents want him to be his whole life#he tries and wants to be with Ryan. but it’s so fucking terrifying to him#that amount of change and freedom.#sorry. sorry#okay. I’m going#WAIT. also thinking about the whole. abandonment issues. aaaaauuuuu#rewatching rn and#not even at the art gallery car episode yet but I’m thinking about it. you LEFT me.
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kind of astounding how innocuous conversations with my younger siblings can make me feel like dogshit... what are the good things about being the oldest kid supposed to be again??
#N posts stuff#two of my siblings are currently in college and they both talk about it in ways that. hm.#my sister did an accelerated program to graduate high school and go to college Early so she's got kind of an...#'i am the most put together teenager on the planet' attitude a lot at the moment. so. she talks shit about her peers like#'if she'd stop spending money on Product and just Grow UP nd get an apartment and move out of her parents' house already'#and she's like. ragging on a kid who's only Maybe 20 years old and i'm sitting at the table at almost 30 still here like '......'#and my brother has been picking my brain lately about the shit i did in college and how the classes benefitted me and all#bc i went to art school for illustration and he's getting a music degree so it makes sense#but he's like 'was college challenging for you?' and i'm like. trying to figure out how to talk around the fact that i didn't necessarily#have trouble with the Classes but was trying really hard to juggle like. being in so much pain i couldn't walk or like..#trying to do homework while in the midst of a psychotic break or having meltdowns in public restaurants like. that kind of stuff#i don't really like talking about that stuff explicitly bc. idk. it doesn't really go anywhere good. not Bad necessarily#or no worse than overhearing my mom talking to them about the validity of my autism DX behind my back at least.#but i don't talk about it. no one really takes me seriously already so. no need to exacerbate that.#i might crack jokes about it in passing but i don't Talk About It. idk what any of them think about like. any of it. or about Me i guess#idk it's weird. it's Weird bc like.. in a very general sense i feel liek i'm Doing Good. not Fantastic but better than i used to.#and like. OK w the day to day of my life; like i could Keep doing it and have A Future even if i still can't figure out what it'd BE exactl#but then idk. sometimes i hear them talk and it feels like it's just. highlighting everything that i Can't do and it just. feels ugly.#like idk where to put it. idk how to reconcile feeling stupid and small for how i live my life with the fact i otherwise feel like#generally pretty Good about my life. i spent my whole life from elementary school to like. 24 thinking i'd be dead by 18.#and it's like Just Recently i'm like 'oh i actually have a Whole Life ahead of me and thats a Good Thing' but.#like idk how to phrase it. i don't feel Bad about it but it's like i guess i'm stuck wondering if i Should be. is it Bad that i'm content?#like i can't ask the question 'is there something wrong with me' in earnest bc Yes there is but. idk#it all feels like puzzle pieces that don't fit together. 'lets see you take a crack at it wise guy' idk what i'm doing or feeling rn lmao
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I saw some old friends earlier in the week. we haven't caught up in person in a while and what really struck me is. when we stopped living in the same country 15 years ago my friend was going back for his MBA at the age of 40 because he wasn't satisfied with his career and his life path. and now it's 15 years later and he's happy and successful and it's so true that you never get too old to make a life change.
#random text post silliness#so many peiole treat 40 like it's ancient but you still have a whole life ahead
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Man, I'd missed DnD. My flatmate got a group together and we had our fourth session tonight and it feels like we're really properly getting into the swing of it and it's So much fun.
My character, Benjamin Larkwright, is a war wizard who was a magically-trained soldier as a young man and then a watchman for about a decade before quitting to take up his magic again and become an adventurer, and playing a mystery adventure as an ex-cop who keeps forgetting about his magic and solving problems like a detective is Really fun. I'm getting to mess around with all the crime drama tropes that I love while Also being a wizard, it's Great.
A couple of stand-out moments from this last session included getting to do the Hot Fuzz fence jumping thing, where the loxodon paladin just walked through the garden wall and Benjamin, on principle, vaulted a bit of still-intact wall aaand managed to roll an 8, land badly on his bad ankle and nearly faceplant in the street. The other wizard who, despite being a nerd and unathletic, is also 17 and limber managed to get over the wall with no trouble and got waved off from helping him up with a cranky "I've got a bad ankle, it's fine, I'm old, leave me alone." (He's like 45ish.)
We'd also earlier been to talk to the local sheriff about the epidemic of missing people we'd been hired to investigate (by his sister, it turned out, who thought he wasn't doing enough about it), and I got to play Benjamin going from marching in all judgemental and dragging this guy's curtains open in the face of his dreadful hangover and pointedly shifting the bottles off his desk to put down the list of missings we got from his sister, to leaving with a gentle word about hangover cures and all his missing person files and a promise to deal with whatever hold the villain has over him that he couldn't tell us about but had clearly caused an extended breakdown and is preventing him from investigating properly himself. (Kidnapped wife and son, we later worked out, who are among the people going missing around this Highly Suspicious Casino that appeared in town six months ago.)
The best moment, though was when I finally got to catch the other wizard out on the gems she stole from a bag in the mail car when we were searching the train to the town for Weird Shit. She'd managed to do it while the rest of the party were all out on the platform tidying up the mess from our fight with a gargoyle that had also been sent in the post via the train, so none of us had any reason to even suspect she'd nicked them. But then we were investigating a weird magical effect outside the temple we were in, and Abigail goes and pulls out these gems right in front of Benjamin's nose to see if they react to the magical field. He recognises them from before, asks her where she got them from, and she lies to his face that they were something she inherited from his wizard grandfather. So, two sessions after the theft, I finally get to insight check her, with my +5 insight vs her +0 deception, and I roll a 21. Which, upon realising that there's nothing she can roll to beat that, causes me, out of character, delighted, to exclaim "ha! Get insighted, crime child!"
Which was apparently the highlight of the session to the DM and everyone else and got me an inspiration as the culmination of a bunch of good ex-policeman roleplaying, which was delightful. (Got a good grade in DnD, which is both normal to want and possible to achieve.) The player of the other wizard now desperately wants me to draw a very pleased-with-himself Benjamin looming over a cowering Abigail pointing and exclaiming "Get insighted, Crime Child!", he was that amused by it, and honestly I might later when I'm less busy.
In-universe, Benjamin just gave her The Look, though, and said "alright, I'll believe you", with them both knowing Full Well that he doesn't. It was then followed up by him dashing (so Detect Magic didn't run out) over to the temple down the street to check if the magic field effect was also unable to penetrate the inside of that temple, and passing Abigail who tried to follow him on the way back, much slower on her "weak nerd legs" and pestering her into jogging the whole way back again while Benjamin made it very clear without outright saying that the jogging was her penance for the petty crime. (He's not a watchman anymore and he's not her dad so he's just going to mess with the kid in the hope that it makes her think twice the next time she gets the urge to be sticky-fingered with potentially dangerous magical items. And also for his own amusement, tbh.)
It was all very funny, I'm having a great time being the (metaphorical, he's aroace) straight guy to the rest of the party's hijinks and also occasionally indulging in my own. We ended the session thoroughly convinced that all roads lead to the Suspect Casino, having tugged on every investigative thread to Benjamin's satisfaction (and everyone else's), and he snapped his suspiciously-police-looking notebook shut and said "On that, Droozh, we are in complete agreement." to the loxodon paladin's declaration that he thinks now is Definitely the time to march into the casino and demand to know what the hell is going on. And yes, Droozh has wanted to do that since we arrived in town and the place seemed a bit sus from the whole 'got sent a gargoyle in the post' thing, but now we can march in and start cracking skulls in an Informed and Well Considered manner, having a better idea of what we're up against.
I love DnD, I've missed it.
#yes yes i know playing a policeman...#but i like investigator characters and it's part of a whole commentary thing with his character#on dehumanising jobs and how you Actually go about helping people#when you have power that they don't#being a watchman was a holding pattern job for benjamin after his whole life was destroyed by war#a continuation of the 'being a soldier is how you serve your country' thing his parents believed in#and choosing to quit and take up his magic again was the first positive choice he'd made in twenty years#but also he's a trained watchman who still cared about being good at his job#even though he was miserable the whole time and not admitting it to himself#so he still solves his problems as a policeman#if the campaign lasts long enough maybe he'll start learning how to be a wizard#but in the meantime i've watched too many crime dramas and i'm making that the dm's problem#by playing an extremely nosy bugger who writes everything down#(she knew i would be it's all good)#i didn't decide benjamin was a notebook guy ahead of time but he sure is now#cue a great many hot fuzz jokes which we're all leaning into#and i definitely have to draw something about eventually#dungeons and dragons#benjamin larkwright#personal stuff
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Romcoms are just sad after you hit a certain age.
#when i was younger i used to love to watch romcoms#they were everything to me#they made me feel truly happy#i guess i dreamt of being the main character when i grew up#i assumed it was something that came naturally to everyone#you grow up you find people you connect with and it just...happens#i had my whole entire life ahead of me#i had all the time in the world#anything could happen#even when i didnt actually have anything in common with the girls in the movies i liked to think i were them already or would be#now I'm in my twenties and as much as i still like to watch romcoms#im left with nothing but a gaping hole in my chest after im done#mourning the future i dreamt i had#early twenties#mid twenties#text#txt post#mine#text post#txt#real#whatever i sound stupid#fuck that#rom com#romcoms#10 things i hate about you#how to lose a guy in 10 days
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On a less depressing note, the cast and crew's various behind the scene stuff makes Owen look like a cryptic that they sometimes manage to catch on film?? Half of those are like "oh look, Tom is attracting his attention. Quick, snap a shot!" and half is like "we took a group photo and this blurry smiling shape in the background proves that Owen Wilson is real".
Anon bless you for giving me anything at all to think about besides the Shakespearean tragedy that is the Lokius romance during this trying time 😂💖
Honestly you might have some powers of your own since normally you'd be spot on about Owen lowkey being a beautiful fever dream of talent that bikes onto set to enhance everything and everyone in his path but that behind the scenes pic Ke Huy Quan dropped today is possibly the cutest and most importantly clearest proof we have that OCW's oh so very real lmao, talk about timing 🥰
#reminds me of a fav owen bts moment when he was filming haunted mansion and the cast couldn't find him between takes#because he'd wandered off to look at a baby deer 🥺🥺#honestly a legend living his best life you love to see it!!#never gonna be another like him and i'm just happy to be along for the ride 💖#and thank you again for taking the time to send an ask that genuinely brightened my whole day bc what a treasure he is#hope you're well and have an amazing week ahead 💕#p.s. out of town and once again still trying to catch up with asks so hang in there with me y'all! lots of love <333#ask
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just remembered neopets & oh the nostalgia. it hurts
#‘you can still play it’ i can never play it as a child again is the thing#that’s the kicker you know#i’m actually soo sick i used to love that so much#i miss computer time and fun games and having my whole life ahead of me#ickyspeaks
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seeing a Donnie Darko gifset and remembering this huge argument i had with my film professor a couple of years ago where she was constantly saying that she didn't understand what was going but how that didn't take away from being able to analyze a scene from a technical standpoint.
that was the first time i had ever watched the movie and i instantly fell in love because it has so much of what i love in it, so much so that i decided to write my term paper on it (alongside A Cure for Wellness). this meant that i ended up watching the movie a good ten times over the course of two months, and by the end of it i had a pretty good grasp over the story and the themes and its continuity.
and she got so mad at me for "trying to make sense of it".
my paper ended up being me trying to defend myself by stating that, yeah, while an understanding of the narrative isn't necessary to be able to dissect a project, it sure does help add a layer of why certain artistic choices were made, deepening whatever cognitive response they trigger in a viewer.
she begrudgingly gave me a 98/100 because i forgot to add the timestamps to my screenshots, but she also sent me an email saying i shouldn't be a tryhard because i was ruining it for everyone (ie trying to make sense of a story rather than just sitting there and admiring the pretty scenes).
anyway. college was sure a time for me.
#texts.#sorry my job is over-analyzing narratives. like i will die if i don't do it.#she did say she appreciated how i just decided to write my paper in script form rather than use an academic tone.#like no ma'am i've been in academia long enough to know how to write an academic paper#you just told us to 'get creative' so i wrote it in the tone of an 'internet analyst'.#my whole life is me doing as i'm told and then having authority figures get mad at me because i did just that????#same energy as 'no we skipped you for nomination because your skill set is leaps and bounds ahead of the rest and that's not fair'.#like. thanks. i sure love sitting at the intersection of 'you have to be flawless and pour 110% effort into everything you do#in order to be recognized among your white male cishet counterparts' only to still get my hand swatted for 'trying too hard'.#shout-out to my theater professor for being the only person ever to have my back during those hellish six years.
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I bring a sort of “growing up feeding me was an unwelcome chore to be dealt with as quickly as possible” vibe to cooking as an adult that my digestive system dont really like
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Do you think that Holly thought Jotaro was gay because he didn't have a gf soon?
- S
honestly? Holly personally strikes me as the kind of person who wouldn't care much about Jotaro having a girlfriend (or boyfriend). Like, he didn't talk about wanting that kind of relationship or have any interests in anyone, so she saw no reason to push. If Jotaro was interested in someone, then he was. And if he wasn't, he wasn't
#I'll admit the whole concept of High School Romantic Relationship has never made sense to me#like. you're still a child there's the rest of your life ahead of you#you don't need to have a high school relationship because honestly most of the time those don't work out anyways#jjba#jojo’s bizarre adventure#stardust crusaders#jjba part 3#jjba holly#holly kujo#jjba jotaro#jotaro kujo#sb answers#s anon
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YOU CAN HIT A TAG LIMIT??? My ramblings in the tags have been conquered and squashed by the 30 tag limit. How silly!
#syncrovoid.txt#delete later#maybe??#ANYWAYS if i continue the story it wouldn't make much sense so i will wrap it up by saying#sleep deprivation isnt actually rhat bad and you really have to work to get bad symptoms#anyways on a totally unrelated note i have to take 2 to 4 times the amount of pain killers or sedatives for the to start impacting me#when my wisdom teeth were removed (rude! they are mine haha!) i was given 3 sedatives and full legal dose laughing gas and i was like.#just there. in the room chilling. they did local anesthetics and i remember that whole thing moreso than the average day!#even though the sedatives were supposedly supposed to make you forget or hazy?#anyways near the end of the surgery my dad is walking in the hallway and opens the door but before he fully came in i was like#“hey dad!!” and waved. but when you are supposed to lay still with your mouth held open by tools and filled with blood you are NOT#supposed to sit up and welcome people in. and because my face was covered it was by the sound of his shoes?#i dont reember that bit as much but my dad told me it after and when i went for the follow up the dentist said he'd never been#jumpscared in such a situation by someone who should've been conked out#after the surgery i got up and the dentist gave me my teeth in a small bag (i kept it as a test to see if my memory would get messed up#since how often does that happen?) and i just walked away. freaked out a bunch of people though and my parents lol#anyways it is a joke for some people i know that i am simply Built Different. i think i am just too silly to contain by mortal rules <-#i joke in a very silly way!! i am soso sleep deprived right now#dhould i be saying any of this? is my typing making sense? my fingers are numb and my brain feels three shades ourple from forest deep teal#time to sleowly pass out and time travel! farewell all ye who read this! i hope ye have wondrous days ahead of you and a lovely life!!!#@:P
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I feel like growing up with parents that are rabid conspiracy theorists about anything and everything affects you like. way way way deeper than most people do (or maybe want to?) acknowledge. and I just wish it was talked about more honestly
#misc.txt#ventish#(<-not too bad just tagging for blocking purposes)#like. this is embarassing to say but my parents were and still are severely anti vax. so at some point I need to go get#proper rounds of vaccines#bc obv I was not fucking allowed to#preferrably uh. fucking soon if I can work out how to do it without them knowing#(and if I can't I guess. I'll have to figure out some health insurance stuff bc I could literally be in danger if they did know.)#(which is a whole can of worms on its own.)#and EVEN THOUGH I fully 100% know that everything they fed me was bullshit#I still have so much deep fear around it bc it was drilled into my head so fucking hard growing up#x will kill you. y will make you sick. z will probably damn you to hell forever but maybe not who knows better to be scared and 'safe.' etc#and it's so hard to even explain it to ppl because they go 'oh so you still believe that stuff' and no!! no I do not!!#Ive just been trained since birth to be afraid of anything n everything!! I've been fed lies for my entire life!! thats hard to shake off!!#I WANT to do good things for myself but my stomach drops on instinct just thinking about it#and I am so so so tired of having to be brave about things I never should have had to be brave about. that's all ig. I'm tired.#like either ppl think you have also inherited their insanity OR they just look at it like 'oh haha funny quirky kooky'#no it's kind of torn my psyche to shreds in ways I'm still uncovering. but w/e go ahead and laugh <3
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