#And this is my first time in years having any social interactions publicly

[thecoolercoincat]

bro why are fire and earth runestones so expensive

Like all the others are like 7kt but these things are like 500kt+😭

Are they rarer or something?????

[sashasspace]

Love Language mod v1- the intro ♡

I can’t believe my first ever mod is finally out! I wrote it out in July 2021 hoping the day it could be a mod and the fact it is out now feels so surreal. The five love language mod in the sims! Yes, our sims can now have a love language as a trait. You can buy the trait from the rewards store and it costs 12 points. Once your sim has the trait, you can see it in the simology panel and then your sims will have wants surrounding their trait. I used ALL the packs to create this mod.

What are the wants we will see in game?

Most of the instructions are already in the game on how to complete the wants

Words of affirmation

For words of affirmation, your sim’s charisma skill is an important factor when it comes to their social interactions

Compliment outfit *skill 2 charisma*

Compliment appearance

Brighten day *skill 2 charisma*

Flatter *skill 3 charisma*

Ask about day

Express admiration 

Whisper (any whisper social)

Profess undying love

Pickup line *for couples with high relationship, just have your couple flirt*

Sweet talk *skill 6 charsima*

Flirt

Declare love publicly 

Get to know

Discuss interest

Deep conversation

Tell story (any story social)

Tell dirty joke *skill 4 comedy and also flirty*

Ask a risqué question

Write love email *skill 4 writing/ flirty mood*

Flirty text *could be regular text too*

Heartfelt compliment *happy mood*

Say affirmations

Write affirmations

Quality time

 Ask about day

Watch movie alone or with someone

Play Console / PC alone or with someone *skill 4 video gaming*

Call someone

Chat on computer

Cook meal alone or with someone (any meals from all packs)

Picnic *spring/summer season*

Prepare drinks (any drinks from all packs)

Travel

Join in cooking

Workout *skill 6 fitness*

Dance together *skill 3 dance*

Pillow fight

Teach to knit *skill 10 knitting*

Play with sparkler *must be summer/fireworks must be on property for the want to appear*

Video call

Watch TV show

Take a bath *any bath*

Play board games *all table games included* 

Gifts  

Give gift *friendly, mean, funny or romantic*

Give simoleons 

Treat yourself or any animal

Receive gift *open presents from seasons*

Buy something *retail, phone, computer purchase...etc.*

Offer rose *gift rose or flower arrangement in inventory/ buy from the flower stall*

Donate to charity *skill 3 charisma*

Give jewelry gift *gemology table*

Give a collectable as a gift *dig to find something or buy simmi capsule*

Acts of service 

Call to meal

Be called to a meal

Make drinks for *use bar*

Prepare drinks (any drink from any pack)

Order drinks together / solo

Cheers *toast from seasons/ my wedding stories*

Order food from stall

Clean up

Repair

Give or receive massage *romantic base game social or spa day*

Cook (any meal)

Donate to charity *skill 3 charisma*

Order delivery 

Serve tea/ be served tea *object from my wedding stories*

Hire a service  (any service)

Volunteer *parenthood pack*

Physical touch

These wants need sims to have a first kiss to appear. For sims created in CAS as married or premades, they have to woohoo first for the want to appear.

Kiss

Kiss lover's cheek / family kiss *all sims are included in this interaction*

Hug / Embrace *all sims are included in this interaction*

Caress cheek

Snuggle your lover

Give / receive Massage 

Look deeply into eyes

Feed a bite

Slow dance / sweetheart dance *My wedding stories/ High school years*

Cozy up by the fire

Woohoo (any location)

Cuddle while watching movie

Make out 

Tickle

Credits 💕

Thank you Tee (danitysimmer) for helping me and teaching me all about modding. You are so patient with me and so understanding.. I’ll never forget your kindness. I pray you receive so many blessings in life

Jordy, thank you for motivating me to go back and cheering me on when I sent updates

My family and friends who cheered me on when I sent updates

Zerbu’s mod constructor v5 / Lot51 tuning builder

Sims 4 studio / Scumbumbo’s xml injector

Cinnasims for the pose I used / pose player mod

"The Five Love Languages" by Gary Chapman

Twistedmexi better exceptions

My amazing friends who tested this mod out thank you so much!

XML INJECTOR IS REQUIRED!!!!

Optional downloads ♥

UI Cheats Extension v1.41 | Patreon

MiniMod: Re-Roll Wants | Patreon

Video tutorial

CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD THE MOD Alternate Download

Brazilian Portuguese love language mod

French love language mod

Polish love language mod

Ukrainian love language mod

Spanish love language mod

FAQs ღ

Why is the mod not appearing for me? You don't have XML injector mod 💜

There will be future updates such as moodlets/buffs and love languages for children. If you have any issues, please contact me. I will try my best to figure it out. Tag me if you use the mod, I would love to see it in your game. Thanks for downloading and being patient with me. I wish you a lovely day!

Take care 🌙

🚨 For any modder who wants to translate any of my mods, I don't mind if you upload it on your patreon, or even any other website that monetizes, BUT I do not want you to post it on CurseForge. I would also like if you keep the mods publicly for download no early access.

[eetherealgoddess]

TR: ꨄYANDERE HEADCANONSꨄ

Sano Manjiro, Hanemiya Kazutora, & Sanzu Haruchiyo x Reader

Characters are 18+

❦We already know that these mfs have a crazy streak to them. That’s why we love them :) ❦

❣︎A lil gift for my unpredictability. Hopefully I’ll get to some of the pending requests soon. If not, just know that i love youuuu <3

Not fully proofread

MY TR FANDOM WORKS ARE ONLY ON TUMBLR & AO3 UNDER EETHEREALGODDESS! REPORT IF YOU SEE IT POSTED UNDER ANYONE ELSE BUT ME!!!

Notice:

✩Y/n is 18+. I picture her as a black female but you can see her however.

✩Some parts of the story may not be realistic or factual. After all, this is a work of fiction.

✩Although it's a dark 'romance,' I do not condone any of the behavior displayed.

✩Dark content such as: gore, violence, triggering topics, graphic scenes, vulgar language, explicit sexual content, etc.

✩There may be scenes that involve non con and/ or dubcon so don’t read if that makes you uncomfortable

✩That being said, this story is for 18+ only.

Enjoy!

Mikey: Manjiro Sano, publicly known as Mikey, has been your favorite, famous racer since you found him unexpectedly on social media a couple years ago. You’ve never really been into the motorcycle scene until you saw the attractive blonde when swiping through your for you page.

You’ve even gone out of your way to visit him at the different raceways and arenas he’s raced at, cheering him on from afar along with the crowd’s roars. Although your passion for him was strong, you knew that you were nothing but a mere fan out of numerous supporters. An extra in his show.

What you failed to notice is that for the first time he noticed you was during the end of the first race you attended as he slowly paused in front of the crowd who cheered his name. As he observed with a genuine smile, you seemed to have caught his attention. As he eyed you, the energy you radiated as you applauded the short man caused him to envision his deceased older brother, along with the rest of his family who stood beside the visualization of Shinichiro.

During this time, you could’ve sworn you made eye contact before he swiftly turned away, slightly giddy at the smile you might have received.

Unknown to you Mikey’s fixation on you continues to intensify, his behavior towards you becoming incredibly invasive as well as a distant attachment forming to the idea of you. He begins to monitor your every move on social media, watching your every update and interaction with others. As his attraction deepens, he becomes determined to keep you close and under his control, going to great lengths to ensure you remain in his presence.

You were excited when you received a private message of your favorite racer wanting to meet you. You thought it was fake when you first noticed it until you saw the blue check mark and viewed the profile. Despite a slight uneasiness, you proceed with conversation and attend his races. The support becomes more personal as you become closer, his clinginess prominent though you can’t seem to find a care. Who wouldn’t want THE Manjiro Sano to link to them?

Time passes and you begin to realize how fast the relationship between you two is going. Before you know it, he’s basically moved you into his home as he requests your presence almost every single moment of the day. There were times when he even showed up to your job to get you off work so you could hang out. Luckily for you, your manager is a huge fan of the racer, but you were starting to become very uncomfortable with the off - putting behavior.

After more weird actions you made an attempt to distance yourself, only for him to question your loyalty and gaslight you into feeling guilty for trying to leave him, especially when you’re the closest person to him. Regardless, you held your ground, ready to live for yourself and to stop accommodating to the one you used to be a fan of.

“Let me show you how to ride a motorcycle.”

An eyebrow rose as you contemplated his ‘request.’ Shrugging you decided to allow it considering after this session you will continue distancing yourself from the needy man. Taking you to the nearest arena to practice, he showed you the basics and even displayed it on his own bike before handing it off to you.

Feeling nervous and yet the adrenaline boost causing excitement, you began on your own way around the arena, gaining momentum as you pressed the gas pedal, helmet tight on your head.

A few minutes pass when you decide to slow down, though when you hit the brake pedal, it doesn't show any signs of halting. A rush of anxiety and pure fear shoots through your chest as you desperately attempt to slow down. You attempt to scream for Mikey, turning your head to meet his gaze only to catch a quick glimpse of his stoic facial expression.

“Oh my God!”

Realizing the motorcycle was only speeding up to no end, you forcefully push yourself off the bike, landing harshly on the ground as the motorcycle falls off the trail and slams into a nearby wall, pieces flying everywhere. The pain in your body numbs out before engulfing your nerves as you groan before falling into a deep slumber.

Two months have passed since the devastating incident and your whole world has changed. You sit in your wheelchair in your former favorite’s home while he sits in between your paralyzed legs on a small stool. Your fingers trace through his blonde locks to pull half of it into a ponytail. He couldn’t help but sit with a smile, knowing that you’ll be tied to him for a while. At least for your recovery.

Unfortunately for you, the feeling of a grin was long forgotten as your whole reality became sucked into his, and you couldn’t do anything about it.

Kazutora: The arcade had always been a place that held fond memories from your childhood. While it was open, you’d visit almost daily after school was released. You remember getting scolded everytime you would skip out on your homework or give minimum effort just to play on the machines and hang out with your friends. You always thought the building would be your preferred spot, even in your adulthood.

It never crossed your mind that one day, the business would shut down, the owners eventually abandoning the nostalgic structure and leaving the walls to rot. You also never thought you’d be sitting with your arms wrapped tightly around your knees as you lay your head down in an attempt to block your vision from what is playing out in front of you within the walls of the old arcade that used to be your comfort zone.

Unfortunately, your hearing exposed you to the disturbing impact of skin against bloody, torn flesh as fists make contact with the unconscious victim lying on the grimy cement. Your eyelids are shut tight as your hidden expression holds a grimace. Your teeth gnaw on your bottom lip, drawing a drop of blood as the metallic taste reaches your tongue.

You ignore the blood thirsty men who cheer on the violent endeavor. Their voices echo throughout the room, making it harder for you to tune out the situation. You had only heard of Valhalla before you were forced to meet them. Your certified ‘boyfriend’ made sure to show you off once he had a hold of you, almost like a prized possession he claimed. You never even agreed to the title, but you knew not to test the unstable man.

“Kazutora.” Although your voice is muffled, he’d never miss it no matter how quiet you are. Even in a room full of intimidating men. The sound of skin connecting halts as the room goes quiet. Your grip tightens around your limbs as you hear steady footsteps come towards you. Ignoring the whistling and whispers from the males watching the display, the footsteps stop in front of you before a hand gently grips the back of your head. You could feel the moisture of the red substance seeping to your scalp, causing a shiver up your spine. The golden eyed male guides your head up, forcing you to make eye contact as you give him a distressed gaze.

“H-he only greeted me. Stop… please.” You demand, your fingers fidgeting with the tight skin against your legs as you eye him crouching in your line of vision. He gives you a blank stare, the orbs wide with an unreadable expression that causes a prominent discomfort. He removes his hand from your head as he rests his arms against his bent legs.

“You’re taking his side now? That kinda hurts my feelings, Y/n.” His head tilts as he gives a sheepish smile with his eyes closed, scratching the back of his streaked locks.

“I-I’m not!” You shriek, eager to prove him wrong so as to not rile him up more. The poor male lying on the ground got caught in the crossfire of this psychopath’s wrath all because he greeted you. You were tired of others getting hurt in the process of even being near you. He’s an innocent bystander and it isn’t fair.

“Oh, Y/n. How could you be so insensitive to your lover’s concerns?” Hanma, a guy you’ve never liked, adds fuel to the flame as he sits with his legs crossed in a chair, leaning on the palm of his hand with a sly smile. “It seems she hasn’t learned her lesson. I’d give him a few more rounds for good measure. He can take it.” He shrugs with a smug expression.

You glare at him while the rest of the men agree and add their own two cents before facing Kazutora, who only stares back at you with an intense gaze that makes you shift uncomfortably.

“No, I’ve learned my lesson. I won’t talk to him again. Please just stop the violence.” You notice the blood running down his arms from his hands as it stains his pants. Your eyebrows furrow at the sight and strong smell which only grew as he placed both palms on your cheeks while kneeling. Both of your foreheads connect gently as he breathes your scent in.

“You’re mine, you know that right? You won’t ever betray me like that again?” He questions with his eyes closed. You feel his thumbs caress your skin as the blood smears, nodding your head to answer his questions.

“You promise?”

“Yes, I promise.”

Sanzu: You couldn’t help but feel like someone is playing a cruel psychological prank on you. The nagging feeling of being watched no matter where you go, even in your own home. The glimpses of a shadow figure in the corner of your eye, only for you to turn your head to see nothing. You ignored it at first, continuing your days as if everything was normal.

It wasn’t until a corpse was found in your bathroom, awaiting your arrival to view the disturbing display of a decaying body. You screeched until your throat couldn’t release sound anymore. After calling the police you sat in your living room. Once the authorities reached the scene, there was no sight of any dead body.

A few weeks pass and you just got off from work, ready to shower and throw yourself on your bed. You allowed the heat of the water to relax your muscles as you rubbed along your dermis with the soapy cloth. Once you were finished, you stepped out of the bathroom in your towel before heading to your bedroom.

Once you were dressed, you hopped into bed and switched your lamp off, the moonlight shining through the cracked curtains.

Although your eyelids were closed, you were interrupted from drifting off to sleep when a palm covered your mouth as a weight held you down. Your eyes shoot open, an icy blue glaring down at you through the darkness, as well as pink strands draping over the male’s shoulders. The lump in your throat burns as the tears threaten to fall out of your eyes as you stare in fear at the growing, scarred smile.

You watch as his free hand comes towards his mouth, his index finger pointed upwards and landing against his lips.

“Shh…” He motions for you to stay quiet as he feels the vibration of your whimpers against his skin. The free hand moves behind him before a shiny object is pulled out and pressed against your neck. Your eyes squint as the tears fall down your cheeks, body trembling as you feel the cold surface make contact with your skin.

“Did ya recognize him?” He questioned in amusement, just above a whisper. Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion as you searched your brain for what he could mean.

“Why would you let a scum near my pussy?” You almost jerked back at the chuckling crazy guy. You have no clue who he even is nor who he’s talking about. That is… until it hits you.

The memory of the corpse you found in the bathroom plays out in your head. At the time you weren’t really focused on the identity because of how distraught you were to find the dead body. Now that you remember, the familiarity of the male’s face wasn’t hard to depict. He had been your most recent booty call, a friend of a friend who became your temporary close friend.

How you couldn’t recognize him was because you rarely ever called each other so it was only a couple of times you hooked up. Why the hell did this guy kill him and why is he referring to your vagina as ‘his pussy?’

You take a really good look at the man in front of you to try and figure out his thinking process, when it finally clicked.

That face… those eyes… those scars.

“Haru?!” Your voice is muffled against his hand, the male you happened to meet when he was blonde and masked. The boy you went to middle school with. The quiet boy you sat with at lunch, conversing even when he didn’t respond. The boy you created a close and yet distant friendship with. The boy who slightly broke your heart when he disappeared and was never heard from again. What the hell happened to him? Was he always this psychotic?

He observed you as realization hit, the crazed grin seeming to stretch wider than before. The glint in his eyes seemed to shimmer as he leaned closer to you.

“This time, you’re coming with me.”

[freckliedan]

wait can you talk more about christmas 2018?

Anonymous asked: Just what you said in your post! "the first christmas where they publicly spent that much time together" did they usually keep quiet about where they were?

i can't speak to the 2014-16 era because i fell out of touch with the fandom at that time, but i was absolutely around during 2017 & 18. both of those years marked HUGE shifts, and both of those huge shifts came at the tail end of gamingmas/dilmas. you can check out my original frog theory post and my frog theory tag for elaboration on the function of gamingmas irt all of this. as just like. prerequisite framework reading.

ANYWAYS. the thing that was such a big deal was that dan was openly visiting the lesters with phil. yes, you can visit friends' families during the holidays. but it's much more frequently something you do with a significant other. so the ruckus was because dan and phil knew the conclusions people would jump to if we knew dan visited the lesters at christmas, and they still let us know that it happened.

(this got disgustingly long, so i'm putting the rest of this post under the cut.)

part of what made that such a big deal was having that happen after the no homo/closet era, the "we're not together we're not even that close of friends we're just roommates" era. the significance of their trust & openness was MUCH more tangibly felt. a way larger percent of the fandom at that time had been present when the vday video leaked/had joined shortly afterwards when that was one of the biggest things impacting both phandom culture and our relationship with dnp.

so in 2017 when we got a glimpse of dan up north at the lesters' in a couple of cornelia's instagram stories? we lost our fucking minds about it. it was only 2 (i think) background cameos, but it was quite literally unprecedented. it's not something that qualifies as openly spending time together at the holidays because of the method throug which we found out about it, but like. there's no way they didn't know that cornelia was posting those, and no way that they didn't know we'd know about it.

when i say we, i mean dedicated phannies. people who could possibly be reading this post, not casual subscribers to the gaming channel. because when it comes to casual viewers, or even people who aren't a part of dan and phil's usual audience at all? there's a lot of methods of communication that they just plain aren't paying attention to and won't be aware of.

the most direct, permanent methods dan and phil have for communicating are videos on either of their individual channels or on dan and phil games, and after that is instagram grid posts or tweets, as well as videos on their side channels. twitter replies, insta stories, livestreams, and their public likes on any social media platform? those are for a more private audience. their appearances in other people's posts reaches a similarly small audience.

knowing that they were starting to be more and more open through the communication channels only open between them and dedicated fans, and that it was a trend - december 2017 is also when phil, in a liveshow, read out someone's "you and dan are so married" comment and just.. laughingly said "it-it's a useful thing". (link to gifs of that). it wasn't a one-off. it was a trend.

and compared to 2018, it was dust. they spent the whole year becoming increasingly open with us, through increasingly direct methods. it was a whirlwind. even for people who've watched all the videos and liveshows, you don't have the whole picture. the onslaught was coming at us from every angle at all moments. you'd have to also explore the full archives of social media posts, insta stories, meet and greets , social media likes, and like.. the archived recordings of every interactive introverts tour date. it was batshit.

it was genuinely one of the most insane years of my life. i was having physical symptoms. we all knew what was coming, we all could tell they were working up towards coming out, but nobody wanted to trust that we were right about that. my dashboard was regularly at a fever pitch.

and december 2018 was the culmination of everything. and then they were talking directly to us in a liveshow and being. insanely open. they told us that dan was going with phil to visit the lesters. and they told us that pinof was ending. and then dilmas started dropping, aggressively cementing the fact that dab and evan were sim-universe proxies for dnp, while dan and phil posted instagram grid and story updates about visiting the lesters. and then dab and evan came home to the howlter house for the holidays. and got engaged.

and then they went on hiatus, and we pretty much did not hear from dan until he came out.

the point is. we knew there was a fucking insane energy. we KNEW something big was coming. we fucking knew. it was a two year build up to dan and phil being the most publicly gay they'd ever been on the gaming channel and every single other platform - and part of that insanity was them being open about dan visiting the lesters, which coincided with them having their proxy sims get gay engaged while visiting family.

"did they usually keep quiet about where they were?" anon, the last time before all this that they had openly acknowledged dan visiting the lesters during the holidays was 2009.

the way they were acting over christmas of 2018 had me experiencing shrimp emotions to such an intense degree i was having verifiable psychic visions.

[butwhatifidothis]

Harassment is horrible, it's terrible mods in this Discord aren't doing anything.

But on the other hand, what about you? You harassed a person over *fanfiction* ( to the point it's the 4th tag who shows up on your blog ). Yet, all your harassment is still there out of the open. You haven't really seriously apologized, especially to them. You're still quite active on fe3h discourse while he had to remove himself from many public online space.

How is this fair?

You're rightfully upset about harassment towards members of your community, there should be *serious* amends made... But how can you hold double standards like that?

I haven't followed the discourse closely because it's so awful, why are you all so hateful? Because you just seems like one of the "bad guy" in this story along with Raxis and the other. I'm not saying you're the same, but you're not really better than those you criticize either, and the same apply for the other blog who participed in your harassment... It's just horrible all around. You're all drowning in a cesspool of toxicity and it's making you all worst people than you actually are.

I hope you, and people around you, will at least receive amend over the harm caused to them. I hope you stop receiving troll, death threat and any other type of hate message you probably still receive. But I hope you'll sincerely recognize your faults and fully amend to them too.

Look, I know you probably mean some kind of well and that you likely spent a long time thinking over this message, so I'm going to lay it out as simply as I can:

I have never once interacted with Cap'n himself, and I have repeatedly told anyone reading my posts to do the same. This is unlike the people who have harassed me and others, who went out of their way to make sure we saw what they were saying about us. This includes publicly admitting to using alts to go around our blocks of them so that they can keep interacting with us directly

Very quickly into critiquing Cap'n's work, a primary focus became pointing out the problematic rhetoric he was spreading with his incredibly influential, incredibly popular fanfic. This includes the justification of holding racist rhetoric, the anti-miscegenation rhetoric, the infantilization of women, the demonization of men, the justification of imperialism, and more, all which appear very quickly into the story and stay prominent throughout the story. The people who have harassed me and others, meanwhile, either deny this rhetoric exists in their circles or outright hold this rhetoric themselves. This includes the use and defense of genocide apologetics.

This post is the first time I have talked about Cap'n in over a year, and the last time I posted any notes on his fic was over a year and a half ago. This is unlike the people who have harassed me and others, who have engaged in harassing behaviors as recently as this week (as of Aug 18 2024).

It has been explicitly said by those close to Cap'n that my notes, while upsetting him, had no part in him leaning away from social media more, unlike what you say here. This is unlike the people who have harassed me and others, who have driven off multiple people from social media and have openly patted themselves on the back for doing so, justifying their harassment by saying the people they've harassed off social media deserved it.

I have kept my critiques strictly on this Tumblr, as have most of the people who have talked about Cap'n's fic. This is unlike the people who have harassed me and others, who have spread their harassment on places such as Twitter, Reddit, and TVTropes.

I have refrained from ever accusing Cap'n of ever holding any bigoted views himself, and have made it a repeated point to say that his problematic writing is far more likely due to ignorance of the subjects involved rather than outright malice. This is unlike the people who have harassed me and others, who have accused many of us as people of being sexist, racist, homophobic, etc. based off of nothing. This includes accusing at least one of us of actual crimes against actual people with no proof and on multiple sites such as the popular and public Edelgard Discord and on Reddit.

People who said they were in contact with Cap'n (as in, mods of the Discord server that Cap'n was once in, the same server that has the mod that uses genocide apologetics) have been told that I was willing to remove parts of my notes that he found too attacking or harsh, and they've been told that I would outright remove all of my posts regarding Cap'n period if he would talk to me directly and we could discuss the implications and rhetoric he had accidentally written into his story. While I do understand him not wanting to do the latter (as it involves directly talking to me), he hadn't even done the former (which does not involve directly talking to me and only involves relaying messages through his friends). And with all of the above on top of that, it gives me the impression that he feels less like "this person is harassing me and that is giving my anxiety" and more "this person is critiquing me and I don't like that." While he has every right to feel the latter, we aren't going to sit here and say that's the same as the former.

So, nonnie, to answer why I am "hateful," as you put it: I don't like stories that unironically say being two races mean you don't belong to either race being influential in a fandom, as a mixed-race woman. I don't like stories that have characters of color only be used as props for the author's favorite little white girl to be influential in fandom, as a person of color. I don't like stories saying that women just want to go back to being innocent pure little girls and not be the wilted tainted flowers they are now to be influential in a fandom, as a woman. I don't like stories that lay the blame of all the world's suffering on the shoulders of a race of people who've barely survived a genocide to be influential in a fandom, as a person with a modicum of knowledge on where that rhetoric inevitably leads to. I don't like stories saying that men who don't bow down to women will almost certainly become rapist pigs or otherwise terrorizing monsters to be influential in a fandom, as someone who rejects sexism of all forms. I don't like stories that liken the violent conquests of imperialism to the blooming of flowers, or that say that imperialism is the only way for the "good" culture to help everyone - actual, genuine rhetoric used to justify actual, genuine imperialism - to be influential in a fandom, as someone who has read any history book ever.

And I don't like how all of this and more have clearly been normalized in big 3H fandom circles and how this has led to multiple people getting harassed, in no small part due to Cap'n's influence on the fandom at large.

I'm sorry if Cap'n doesn't like me pointing out the bigotry he had engraved throughout his story, and I'm sorry if I'm not going to be convinced that me doing that is the same as people's deliberate and long-standing attempts to chase people out of the fandom for saying they don't like Edelgard in the one way they allow anyone to like her, and I'm sorry that me calling out the racism people are engaging in and are hiding behind the shield of "discourse" seems to bother you so much, but I think I've explained why I'm not exactly that sorry well enough. Hope this answers your question <3

[icyy-hoon]

hi! im one of tama's friends and i saw that you "addresed" the thing about her being a minor and you hinted that she may have a bad influence at school or at home which i find kinda rude tbh and making a topic well known where a minor is included its kinda hypocrite too bc she already said that some people have attacked her in her inbox (which i have proof) and even emi (emisloves) herself has insulted her publicly by calling her slurs. i would be so grateful if you and the other people in enhablr that are interesed in the topic let it go for once.

not trying to be rude to you bc youre actually vv sweet but, how would you feel if people were in your inbox constantly asking your age (which they alr know) and leaving passive-aggressive asks?

all those people who find it weird enough to see a 15yo reading/writing smut should start taking a walk every morning or in their free time. yall do not know tama at all and how shes doing to be assuming she has some problems to be interacting with written smut, what yall should focus on should be on how not to expose a minor knowing damn well any kind of people are going to end in her blog and anything can happen.

hi there!

first of all, i apologize for saying she had a bad influence at school or at home; nevertheless i did not state that she does. I said maybe, and i'm simply assuming it because ppl are frequently impacted by what we can consider to be terrible things maybe at school, at home, or on social media.

secondly, abt the hypocrisy, i am just doing my job by addressing this matter as best as i can. As for those ppl, i can't stop them from doing that. If I really do take down the post related to this matter, some people would still come into her inbox, and send hate messages. I can say, that by taking down the post, it will reduce the number of hate messages she recieves, but what about emi's post? i believe emi has a lot of fans who will always check her acc and eventually, will see the posts related to tama there.

thirdly, i actually don't find it completely odd. maybe in 50% ? because i thought abt this : if they are 15 years old, and they interacted with nsfw stuffs, what's different when they're 18 years old later? Is it wrong if a 15 years old does it? and i observed a lot of opinions stating that's not good because they can't think clearly, or it can affects their lives. And i believe, they are overly concerned about the possibility of them falling into something unsuitable for their age such as s*x, is high.

fourthly, i'd like to apologize for anything i said, that may have affected some people, upset some people, or made some people think i was impolite. I'm really sorry; if i don't remove this post, people will send you negative and harsh messages, tama. I definitely need some time to think. But i believe tama is a strong girl, a strong person, and has changed. So, everyone out there, please stop sending her hate message since she' has quit writing smuts for now.

let me know what your opinions! should i remove the post? or keep it?

tagging some moots to help me decide :

@dollyhoon @amorek1m @yuvany @eunimaybe @regularsuh

@ikeuberri @chaconnenha @haerni @cupidriki @flwrstqr

@mioons @heeblurs @wonsprincess @kairoot @miumura

@sunrenity @kissofhoon @dollyrin @enhas-lvr

[thegodthief]

THIRTEEN YEARS AGO... bloody hell... I've been on this hellsite for thirteen years?!

(Fucking metal, eh.)

Anyways, thirteen years ago, I got on Tumblr because some folks in witchblr had gotten ahold of a shitpost on my personal blog, took it seriously, and was passing it around like it was The Rules of Witchdom™. Some of the folks I contacted were surprised to find that what their bestie had posted as absolute truth was in fact, a poorly written parody. Some of the folks were angry with me and demanded that I apologize for tricking them. And a few folks even tried to say that my shit post was copying them because they were true witches and a true witch never shitposts.

But quite a few more had fun with the shitpost and added to it in the same jovial spirit that it started with. And that was how my conversations with other Tumblrites started.

If I was only now coming to Tumblr, I don't think my entrance would be that open. I don't think I could even get a toehold. Too many folk are gone. Too many folk have passed. Too many folk have pulled away from open social media because too many folk have carved out territories and kingdoms and by the power of ego, exposure to other opinions and worldviews will not be tolerated.

It feels like before I can step into any outer court, I have to make penance and apologize for coming from the wrong demographic and level of ignorance. Like there is no such thing as a honest seeker trying to learn about the world. For a long time, I thought I was extending my childhood traumas into the present, but no, it's not just me.

I realize this has me defensive of any "surprise" interaction. I catch myself being just as suspicious of something new as the people that I'm bitching about. I sit and wonder if the contact is benign or if I'm being set up to be the butt of someone else's jokes. I still catch myself apologizing for being sucked into a personality cult for a few years, even though no one is publicly calling me out for it anymore. I keep wondering if I'm blacklisted, still blacklisted, or only discarded.

My life has changed since I first got on Tumblr. The world has changed since I first got on Tumblr. I'm trying to learn how the two will interact.

[scribe-of-stories]

Get to Know Your Moots Writeblr Interview

Was poked by the wonderful co-writers of Sunset @sunset-a-story and @touloserlautrec. Go read their posts here and here!

On the Tumblr Writing Community

How long have you had your writing Tumblr/Writeblr? A short eternity (first post is mid 2022)

What led you to create it? Was very bored at work and wanted to share some recent stories. Also I had never tried social media before, it this looked like the most interesting place to try it.

What’s your favorite thing about the Writeblr community? Getting to see other people's imagination unfiltered. I've read plenty of great works before, but it was definitely an entertaining first to see the author later publicly say "this is my favorite little guy, can't wait till the next time he suffers."

What’s one thing you’d like your mutuals to know about you? I constantly feel like I'm bothering people and or feel self conscious when talking about me/my stuff, so bare with me hah.

Is there anything you’d like to see more of on your dash? Just some really unhinged stuff about y'alls stories. I want to open my phone and see someone discussing the seven major heresies dictated by some cabal of priests only to later realize "oh, this is someone's fever dream, not a history lesson".

What tips/advice do you have for someone who made a Writeblr today? Interact more, take up the offer of "open tags" on other people's posts. Also throw your ideas onto the table for other's to look at, we all seem to love just watching someone go off about something they love.

WIP it Good

Which Works-in-Progress (WIPs) or writing projects are you noodling about, lately? Been in a bit of a writing drought. Lexical is always getting worked on, more so the TTRPG stuff than any story right now though. I've had a few projects pop into my mind and leave over the past while. Have a cluster of characters I can't get out of my head, but no narrative or setting to properly put them into. A god of violence and the man that cut her out of himself, a cultish vampire philosopher and his favorite little guy (little guy has a knife). Surely something will come of this, or they'll continue to just exist in one-off stories in my own head. Amber Hill, specifically The Lawman, is still somewhere in here but it's been struggling to come out for a while. Been trying to find Lars' voice as a POV character.

How long have you been working on them? I've been working on something based in Lexical since mid 2022 (huh, exactly around I first posted here); the other guys are new and only a few months old at most.

Do you remember what inspired them/what got you started? Lexical is a can of worms. The short answer is that my irl DnD group wanted to play something more free form and creative leaning than what our 5e campaign was allowing, so I said fuck it and started homebrewing a system based in a world I have vague ideas about. The long answer is that Lexical is a sequel to a Pathfinder campaign titled "Demis", which was about fantasy super heroes. It was heavily inspired by My Hero, Worm, and inescapably Homestuck. So when it came time to make a whole new system for these same players I took some concepts that worked in Demis, applied some occult-adjacent philosophy I was/am into, and ended up with my years long passion project. Atem and Sadaf were born out of my growing need to explore violence as a concept, philosophy, and inescapable existential crisis. The Vampire and his thrall Ish spawned out of a desire to have a toxic romance to think about. And AmberHill was inspired by a desire to create something cozy and occulty. Ended up being SCP adjacent but maintained the idea of a small community that cares about itself.

How much time, in your best estimation, do you spend thinking about them? Lexical- not enough, I'm lucky I have at least some productive thoughts throughout the day. Atem- too much, his tired ass sat down in my head and I've been too polite to ask him to leave.

When someone asks the dreaded, “What do you write about,” question, what do you usually say? "Urban Fantasy with science fiction elements"

What do you want to say (if it’s different from what you do say)? "My dissertation on the semi-real building blocks of both physical and social reality, also wizards punching people."

Let’s Rotate Blorbos

Name any characters you created. We've got the original Lexical boy Samuel Smith, Atem and Sadaf who you've already heard of, Lars DuPont from Amberhill.

Who’s the most unhinged? Sadaf.

Who comes the most naturally for you to write? For whatever reason Samuel's self-loathing PI perspective just comes very natural and is maybe someone I should write more about.

Do you ever cringe at them? Nah

How much control do you feel you have over your characters? Depends, my mind does not wonder so much that I don't feel like I am ever not in control. But who I am able to focus on tends to be a matter of debate.

Do you enjoy people asking questions about your characters? Yes absolutely. Characters, worlds, magic systems; I'll rant about any of them given the chance.

On Writeblr Engagement

What makes you want to follow another Writeblr account? A combination of preferred genre (urban fantasy), shared interest (books/games/table top). Also if they have Scribe as part of their name it's just an auto follow.

Do your mutuals’ characters occupy space in your noodle? There's a few. The telepaths from Sunset and their many ways of being terrifying are the first that come to mind. Since I already mentioned the scribes I'll go ahead and tag @scribe-cas , @covenscribe and leave the rest of the tag open. Here is an empty template

[lean-mean-demon-genevieve]

Who’s this Anson character? I took a step back from tumblr and now I feel like I need a book to figure out what I missed lol.

With him yet again leeching off of appearing with Jared this weekend, now seems as good a time as any to circle back to this ask because I too have been perplexed by Jared’s supposed friendship with this guy for some time. And as per usual, I brought receipts.

Anson Gordon seems to first be publicly linked to the Pads in Sandy Molinare’s Instagram in 2016. This looks like he has been a part of the wealthy, and fairly conservative circle that both the Pads and the Ackles use to run with at that time.

He clout-chased a few times in 2018 in his IG story and wanted to let the world know he has famous friends, with Jared and Danneel (in the background of a video) making appearances. He then started more regularly sharing pics of himself attending UFC fights with Jared in January 2020. And since then, his presence has only grown to include other Austin goings-on, more testosterone fueled events, some weapons safety and/or stuntman gig on Walker that included some brief screen time, meeting up with the Pads on their 2021 Italy trip, Jared’s car accident last year in which he and his son were passengers, and a spot on the Pads Family Feud team earlier this year. He is seen, and confused for Jensen somehow in the comments, in this IG post of Jared’s, sliding down a slide like best buds. He is regularly seen showcasing himself on socials interacting with Pads errand boy, Charlie Capen (you won’t convince me he didn’t record that slide video), as well as Clif and various Walker actors.

I will be 100% transparent here about my political leanings that run deeper than fandom. I don’t like this guy because I feel like he is the very conservative, aging frat boy of my nightmares. I don’t care that he’s rubbed elbows with other rich people at the Out Youth Gala, he is a salesman at the end of the day. I feel like he and I would strongly disagree on a lot of important (to me) issues/values, and the transference I feel when I look at him is strong. (That means he reminds me of people I know in real life.) He appears quite motivated to flex next to Jared at any opportunity and draw attention to himself. (Jared doesn’t showcase him nearly as often. The slide post kinda surprised me. Again, who’s a good boy? Charlie is!)

To me, Anson comes off as caustic, shallow, arrogant, and chauvinistic. Here’s the story of how I got bored and nosy during the pandemic and came to these opinions:

This post from February 2021 was deleted months later as Anson posted more and more with Jared and Walker actors and gained followers/eyes on him. Now why in early 2021, would some folks from Texas even joke about secession?? The most obvious answer: the growing uproar over covid, mask mandates, vaccines, general pandemic limitations on their gentrifier (sorry/not sorry, wealthy Austinites) rich-kid fun. Look out y’all this privileged white male is “startin trouble.” Somebody ask this guy where he was on January 6th.

Exhibit B is less damning, but it irritates me so imma include it:

A smug face and pose like this with a firearm captioned “virtue signaling” sure feels like a jab at the sNoWfLaKeS, given the rest of the context. No, shooting guns isn’t a crime, and in fact it’s this guys livelihood, but why add the snark if you’re not an ass and hoping to instigate? It feels like a safe bet that gun laws were also up there on the list of reasons for Texas secession dreams.

Exhibit C, posted to his story in August ‘21 just prior to his IG account going private for a few months and right about the same time the Pads themselves got Covid:

I would love to know how Jared responded to being tagged in this mess. No I’m not suggesting he gave the Pads Covid, but I do think someone from the Pads or Walker team told ole boy to cool it with the anti-mask rhetoric so as not to reflect negatively on Jared, hence the private account. However you may feel about mask mandates at this point, remember that this was late summer/fall of 2021. Covid was obviously still rampant as the Pads and Anson himself would soon learn after returning home from Italy. How dare the Uber peasant ask that he respect his safety as he provides a service. Fuck that guy, right?!

It was after this in November 2021 that Anson first seemed to try to redeem himself by attending the Out Youth Gala with the Pads and also with his favorite accessory, his wife, in tow. What I won’t include here are the gross IG story video highlights from a different event that this tool has conveniently saved in which he documents his seemingly intoxicated wife’s side-boob for an uncomfortable amount of time. Guys can dig their wife’s bodies, and even do so on their own social media, but you gotta trust me that the ick factor is palpable. Bodily autonomy being what it is, maybe she’s ok with the multiple posts of this type, and I can respect that…and he’s shared quite a few.

But for me the final straw was when, not 24 hours after the horrific Robb Elementary school shooting in Uvalde, Texas on 5/24/22, Anson’s IG story was plugging his firearm silencer business and hyping the launch of new products at the NRA convention that coming weekend in Houston.

If you followed the link early on when I called him a salesman, you may have already figured out that this man has made a sizable fortune off of engineering top of the line silencers for assault rifles. The IG account tells me that they sell for about $700-$750 each. None of this is a crime, but he’s not exactly reading the room in this moment. In comparison, Gen was sharing post after post to her IG story during this time about the need for reform around gun laws and sympathy for the victims. But this guy knew a big convention was approaching and he needed to capitalize. Then he went golfing.

Are you still with me?

So this is why I cringe whenever I see this Wish version of Jensen snuggling up to Jared.

He’s not deserving of the positive assumptions that some fans/Jared stans have made about him based solely on his proximity to Jared. And let’s be honest, with the great big fandom divide these days, a lot of Jared fans are just all too eager to root for anyone that isn’t Jensen. But, in my opinion, you don’t get to show up at an LGBTQ fundraiser claiming to be an ally when you have no doubt voted to protect your own interests (guns, money) and cast ballots for people who also support drag bans and an end to gender affirming care. It doesn’t work like that, especially not in Texas. He’s invested in Texas staying red, and if you recall or scroll up, there was a time when it wasn’t red enough for him. He’s certainly not voting for LGBTQ+ human rights, but he will write them a check for damage control in the aftermath. What a guy.

To clarify, this is NOT an anti-Jared post, although some may see it as such. There’s no suggested call-to-action for the fandom coming from me. Jared is not Anson’s keeper. But at the same time, to an extent, we are who we associate with and with whom we spend precious time. And Jared spends a fair amount of public time with this clown and allows Anson to attach himself to him and profit off of him. Leeching onto Jared is the best thing this guy did to get his face and his veneers seen by a larger audience. So Jared, I love ya, but it’s not a good look. This guy had no qualms showing people who he was when fewer people were looking, but deleting posts doesn’t delete screenshots. And I’ve got those, as you can see.

[pinchinschlimbah]

My current thoughts on the whole RB situation as it pertains to Noel based on the information we have right now (obviously subject to change as things progress):

[general TW for mentions of SA and abuse]

Ok so first of all I absolutely believe the allegations against Russell, he’s utter trash and should be locked up and left to rot. End of story.

However, I’m very nervous with the amount of people I’m seeing immediately jumping to assuming, with no other evidence than because the two of them were friendly during that period, that Noel was complicit in what was taking place or worse a predator himself.

I understand where these concerns initially stem from, with the allegations discussing Russell’s behavior on the sets of tv shows and gigs and at parties with friends, and knowing that Noel was likely present to some extent given what we publicly know about their interactions, but I think it’s important to remember that we don’t actually know how much time the two of them were spending together off screen, how much Noel actually knew about what was going on, and how much of a position he was in at the time to do anything about it if so.

Guilty by association is a very slippery slope and very often does more harm than good.

A little personal story for y’all- once upon a time, I was friendly with members of a specific social group within a close knit community. The person who was at the center of this group was then accused of rape and emotional abuse by their ex (who was part of a different subcircle within the same community), and the community exploded. Immediately, anyone who was still associating with the accused at the time these third-party spectators heard the news was branded a rape/abuse apologist, unfriended, blocked, and shunned from the community, which in many cases happened before the people in question knew what was going on- since the accused didn’t interpret what happened with their ex to be rape, they hadn’t told anyone about what had happened so their close friends were finding out this information at the same time or later than the people trying to remove them from the community, and the circle spreading the allegations wasn’t talking to anyone associated with the accused but instead transmitting the news via DMs or friends-only vagueposts. What this didn’t take into account was that these people who were given no warning or support for navigating the fact that the person they were associating with was dangerous and instead demonized and shunned for being close with them before knowing the reasons why, were the people who were most at risk for further manipulation and abuse from this person. It’s been years since the initial news came out but most of the people associated with the accused, who have since realized how toxic their relationship was with that person and distanced from them, have still found it difficult to reconnect with others in the community because the vague branding of “apologist” still follows them despite them ultimately being additional victims of the accused’s manipulation and abusive behavior. The only thing this kind of extended assumptive accusatory action did is make the third-party spectators feel better about themselves and the work they’ve done to “keep the community safe” by pushing out anyone they deemed guilty by association, when in reality they led to more harm being done to people who were already in a vulnerable position with the accused and were now cut off from all other surrounding support. Since then I’ve been much more cautious about assuming who knows what’s going on and how they feel about it before pointing fingers.

That’s not to say with any confidence that Noel is a victim of Russell’s (although have you taken a good look at most of the photos of them together? I’m not here to weave new conspiracy theories so I won’t speculate further but in a lot of their images the vibes of their body language are objectively rancid as hell and show a clear physical assertion of power from Russell, examples 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7) BUT I do think it’s incredibly dangerous to assume that just because they were in each others’ lives means that Noel is also complicit or guilty in all of this.

Also important to note that something that kept coming up over and over in the allegations was people, both victims and witnesses, expressing that they were terrified to speak up because they thought either Russell had enough power of his own to ruin their careers, or that association with him if this info was made public would ruin their careers. Assuming Noel did know what was going on (which again, we do NOT know to be the case) and knowing that Noel already had his own reputation for being a slut around town, rumored by the tabloids to be engaging in some questionable behaviors himself (while both he and Pixie have denied those rumors and there’s been no real substantial evidence or firsthand testimony to suggest that it was real, the rumors have remained pervasive and damaging), and during this period was at the height of his substance abuse that may have affected his ability to accurately perceive and confidently recall how events played out as well as his assumed credibility to others, you can maybe start to see why he might not have wanted to be the one to take that info public.

And again, we have no idea what may or may not have happened behind the scenes.

We do know that Noel seems to have distanced himself from Russell in recent years. I think it’s safe to assume that whether it’s this or the conspiracy bullshit or whatever else, there’s a good fucking reason they’re no longer close like they were back then.

I saw this interview mentioned recently elsewhere, where the bassist of the Lostprophets discusses how when their lead singer Ian was exposed to be the worst kind of sex offender, people started blaming the rest of the band for it when they had absolutely no idea it was happening and were learning what was going on and reacting to it in real time the same as everyone else. He talks about how while the rest of the band immediately cut ties with Ian upon hearing the news, they still ended up permanently losing a lot of friendships and supporters because people refused to believe that there wasn’t more the rest of the band could have done even though behind the scenes they were barely friends with Ian, let alone close confidants and were completely in the dark about that side of him. So I think it’s very dangerous to assume with the info we currently have that there’s no way Noel could have not known.

Additionally, I think it’s very important to remember that abusive and manipulative people are masters at being able to mask that side of themself when needed and can be monsters to their victims while being the most charming person in the world to people who they want to keep on their good side, so what may seem obvious in hindsight knowing how bad things actually were, may not have been as apparent in the moment to the people involved. For example, in the documentary Russell’s personal assistant and radio cohost both go on record as saying while they knew him to be highly promiscuous and overly sexual, they assumed that was the whole of it because of how many people they saw willingly clamoring to hook up with him and had no idea things were veering into nonconsensual territory. Russell’s version of the story is that all of the relations in question were consensual, so I highly doubt he’d be casually admitting to the people around him that actually he’d on multiple occasions committed terrible crimes although I do believe the theory that he’s spent the past several years surrounding himself with media-critical conspiracy theorists who would question and fight anything published about him in the mainstream, knowing this shoe would drop eventually.

None of this is to say I unwaveringly believe Noel is fully innocent and can do no wrong, just that we don’t currently have enough information to justifiably condemn him as guilty and I urge everyone to use caution and wait for more conclusive information before pulling out the pitchforks on someone who could very well be entirely uninvolved and just as horrified as we are. So for now, I’m still here.

On the other hand, it may be the case that further details emerge which more directly implicate him in these horrors or god forbid he steps up in support of Russell, in which case I’m outta here no further questions asked. We’ll just have to wait and see.

[edit: more thoughts here]

[circulars-reasoning]

The Final Post About This Shit

God, it's been like a month since my last huge post, could y'all let me chill? This took me 2 fucking days to write, let me rest.

This is going to be far more disorganized than my usual debunkings/long posts in that I have Covid, many blogs have been deleted in this drama, and I am also not actually wanting to make this post. The only reason I am is because many individuals refuse to stop going, and it's causing more and more drama, and my friend is at his fucking wits end with your shit. So here - here's the definitive post on the Wesk VS JAS VS Aith VS lostagainandfoundanew bullshit that's been going on all month.

This shit has led to my friend, one of the people I love most in this world, completely breaking down in front of me due to the harassment they're facing right now. I hope that everyone involved in this situation feels sick when they read everything that's happened, and that you can comprehend the downward spiral you have sent multiple horrifically traumatized individuals with dissociative disorders. I'm not going to stoop to the lows of the likes of which are contained in this long post, but do not think for an instant that I care about any one of you anymore. I hope you all delete your fucking social medias and touch grass, and never, ever fucking interact with me or my people ever again.

TW for discussions of suicide, harassment, misinformation.

The Beginning - Aitherias Tower.

This all started over on Aitheria's-Tower's blog. Aitheria posted a blocklist which included many individuals. Here's the second form of the blocklist:

As a reminder, this is the second form of the blocklist. The original also included the user chaos-in-one with the following:

"chaos-in-one - As far as we know, still friends with DIa. Allowed for mocking of specific system member quirks, xenogenders, and more in their server solely because of who it was speaking about or creating them."

Let's take a brief pause and address some misinfo, as it makes me uncomfortable to not do so:

[Redacted Name]: I won't touch the first bullet point out of respect for my health.

SysmedsareSexist and JustAnotherSyscourse: This is actually completely accurate and was never questioned. It's valid to dislike this.

UltrabrightFlashlight: This point is going to be incredibly important going forward, as I have a few theories kicking around in my head. But anyways - Ultrabright was deleted, because the block evasion was false. Here's the clearing up of that misunderstanding.

(Remember the name Mythica-Plurality, as that is going to be very important later.)

monogrxm: Only just one of Dia's many blogs, this has all already been addressed by Dia, apologized for, explained, or written off as misinformation. You can check Dia's blog yourself.

QueerAutism: While it is anti-psych, it absolutely did not almost kill a follower with misinfo, and this is a bold faced lie that was started to discredit QuA. It actually helped the user in question in finding emergency medication, and Queer-ADHD helped the user with understanding how to care for their seizures. I debunked all of this over at @memoriesofthecircularroom when it happened.

Eroticcannibal: Oh no, this one is actually fully accurate.

Chaos-In-One: This link shows all of that drama being explained. The fact of the matter is, that was I believe around a year ago at this point, was apologized for numerous times, the individual in question stepped away, and deleted the problematic server. Notably, Chaos-in-One was only alerted to this by an asker, who sent the ask 20 minutes after the post had been made, on a blog with very few notes and maybe 2 original posts that weren't reblogs, and the blocklist itself had no notes. This is a little shady, but obviously not proof of anything. Regardless, this all begs the question...

Why the fuck was this blocklist posted publicly anyways? What was the point? Blocklists do nothing but stir up drama (as seen with this past month, Chaos-In-One's immediate ask about the situation, or idk, every single example of a blocklist prior to this one).

Well, JAS saw fit to call this out through the use of memes.

While I do not personally agree with reblogging directly from Aith here (for my own reasons), I do agree with JAS for calling out blocklist behavior in a community that has been absolutely torn apart by blocklist drama. (Lest we forget the "Pro Endo Callout" Dia had been making before the doxxings began, last time this shit happened.)

On my side of this discourse, I watched as Aith grew more and more angry at JAS for "block evasion" (you didn't have him blocked) and people losing their minds about it (more on this in part 2). This triggered my own anger, as I had recently been dealing with [Redacted Individual] interacting with me in Syscourse, who I did not realize had me blocked, who had never blocked me before now, and was now claiming block evasion. I was also reminded of the past 5 years I've spent in syscourse, wherein people repeatedly whined about block evasion without ever actually having blocked them. You would think, sometime, in those 5 goddamn years, someone would have thought to google how to block from sideblogs even once.

So, in my frustration, I made a quick post. "Learn to block bitches." I made it meme-style, I made it fast, and I wanted to just be done with it. I didn't even tag it as syscourse - it was just a fast quick post on my vent blog.

Aith then added me to the blocklist, disgusted by how I supported block evasion, and how I defended JAS's behavior. =_= I, unfortunately, do not have a screenshot of this one. However, I very calmly and politely explained my situation to Aith in DMs, in private, and settled the matter. I was then removed from the blocklist, and blocked by Aith.

Only for two anon askers to immediately try to start shit with me over my friendship with JAS. One of which, I deleted, as it mentioned [Redacted Name] who I will not ever be mentioning on this blog again through my own volition.

I received these asks while driving. Due to the unhealthy obsession with Syscourse I have, which I Have been very open about this addiction, I checked them while driving. I then checked Aith's blog to see what had sparked this ask to my blog. I then saw an untagged suicide threat directed at JAS in a way to blame him for it. I then nearly drove my car off the road in a dissociative fugue.

What a delightful way to start my work day.

I've been incredibly open about how syscourse makes me suicidal. It's why I'm working on coping skills with my therapist, in a way to combat this psychological need I have to participate in it. So seeing someone's untagged suicide threats (which this user posted, twice) in order to stay updated on the harassment my friend was receiving was triggering, to say the least.

Despite that, I tried to write two very long, very rambly drafts about my feelings. One was clearly written out of a trauma response, and got scrapped (though I still have the screenshots). The second was similar to this post - long, rambly, with screenshots, and a full in depth explanation of every single ounce of nuance the situation held.

And then I took a step back, like my therapist has been suggesting, and said "is this productive for me?" And the answer was no. The answer was "I am doing this out of a need to be validated, and a need to be understood. I can find the validation and understanding I need in other places." I also checked the blogs involved again, and I saw just... how much everyone wanted the drama to die. So I wanted it to die too. So I did my best to kill it - with a meme and stupidity, tagging it as venting and not syscourse as I wanted the discussion to die. Mind you, this took me a literal entire day to post, because I was that caught up in what the "right" choice was. I felt that AT and others involved would appreciate me not continuing the bullshit, and trying to just get people to stop, while also keeping things light.

Only for AT to once again add me to the blocklist for being a despicable person on par with the others on that list.

"Circular-bircular and related blogs - Taking the genuine harassment I have received from JASC completely unseriously, responding to genuine questions on the matter with childish non-serious responses and refusing to take accountability when JASC is using their name in excuse for the harassment."

I'm very sorry that I tried to avoid damaging my own health by choosing to not continue drama in such a way that I thought you wanted. I'm so very sorry that I have been incredibly open about blocklists and callouts being an intense trigger for me, to the point that I quite literally have an alter who handles callouts and blocklists, all because of my experiences with them in the past. I'm so terribly sorry that I did not take accountability for someone else, my friend, who knew I nearly crashed my car over your suicidal ideations, chose to defend me from your immediate cut-throat nature deciding that any post about blocking people was somehow a callout on your shitty behavior.

Sorry - am I getting too heated? /pa

I think I'm allowed to be a little angry, at this point. This has been a long, long, stupid drama, with everyone involved getting irrevocably fucked up in the process. And the fact of the matter is, I shouldn't have to explain I nearly crashed my car. I shouldn't have to explain my triggers. I shouldn't have to reveal any of this. I should be able to simply ignore an ask - but I couldn't even just delete it, because when I do shit like that, I get called out. I have in the past. If I don't acknowledge every ounce of drama, I am suddenly somehow evil. So I acknowledged the asks in a silly way, in such a way as to dismiss them, so I didn't fucking kill myself. And I'm not blaming you for my suicidal ideation - I'm pissed that it wasn't properly tagged, but I understand you were in a horrible place. What I'm angry about is the fact that I had to see it because an asker wouldn't let me stay out of the drama that I Had already expressed wanting out of.

And here we are again, with a novel length post and more drama. Because god forbid anyone lets me take a damn break.

Continuing on: Finally, Aith blocks everyone, deletes the initial blocklist and almost all of the drama, and stops interacting with everyone. JAS does not interact further, I do not interact further, and this is the way it should've been from the start. It should've honestly stopped there.

So what does this have to do with Wesk?

The Middle - Weskcourse and Harassment

You're going to have to forgive me, because since Wesk deleted, it is incredibly hard to find all of the evidence needed for this part.

Wesk came onto the scene with a very new-seeming blog, and commented on the discourse going on.

Wait-

"As the person Ultrabright did this to"?

As in, you're mythica-plurality (told you they'd be relevant again)?

AKA, mythica-syscourse, Jakecourse-Of-Violence, AKA, Wall-of-Fleshcourse, AKA, the person who repeatedly told multiple anti-endos to kill themselves, who harassed multiple individuals (past blocks), and who I personally had multiple conversations with in an effort to help you? You mean that mythica-plurality? (This was confirmed by a pro-endo who helps moderate an inclusive server I am in).

I suppose it's not very surprising to see, given that you repeatedly suiabited people on your own blog, such as telling someone who suggested Aith get off tumblr to "kill yourself like a good little leech instead of giving me shit for the actions of someone that I barely even know." Which is odd, given that I could have sworn you claimed to be Aith's friend at one point... Though, given that I can't find evidence of that now, I'm going to retract that point.

However. I am not going to retract the point that I am about 99% positive that mythica-plurality is the two eddies, eddiesramblings. You know. The people that Aith were so against in the first place. The people that Aith fucking despised from Chaos-In-One's Server.

Sadly, I am struggling to find proof, as a shit ton of these blogs have been deleted, but I did manage to find this ask mentioning Mythica is the Eddies, which was never refuted by anyone, and I personally recall talking to the eddies myself on the tumblr messenger, to help them in their struggles. So... The Eddies (quite possibly) are defending someone who hates them???

God I need a conspiracy board.

Alright. So, Weskcourse, who we now know has often created new blogs for the express purpose of harassment, is seen interacting with numerous other users. The screenshot above was the first interaction, where Wesk was upset at JAS for interacting with Aith. To put it in perspective, the "why are you so insistent on interacting" was from where JAS chose to apologize to Aith in case it was a misunderstanding, and directly address the fact that Aith was still spreading misinformation about people. Wesk obviously didn't seem to care about the misinformation as much as the fact that Ultrabright had personally harassed them (which goes on to be unproven).

Wesk continued to go after everything JAS said, including this post about how JAS was harassing people (this is not harassment), this post where they are angry that JAS said people shouldn't use their suicide as manipulation (like Aith did), and finally, the post that started the latest rounds of syscourse, this post, where Wesk suddenly revealed that JAS had somehow endagered their life (what happened to Ultrabright???).

JAS, rightfully, was confused by this claim, and tried to ask what on earth had happened. In that, SAS (an alt of JAS) was sent this ask:

Which, upon investigation, was referring to Oops-All-Syscourse (not to be confused with oopsallsyscourse).

Wesk claimed that SAS had posted a screenshot of their DNI, which led to people harassing them, which led to people doxxing them IRL. They also claimed they asked SAS to take down the post, to which SAS blocked them.

One: This is the post SAS made. There is no identifying information other than what is publicly available for literally anyone to see, as it was a publicly made post. Furthermore, SAS is raising an important question. The DNI isn't being mocked - they are questioning "what KIND of diabilities" as many individuals claim they experience disabilities they do not actually have. Lastly, this was a year ago, which is not the 3 years Wesk originally stated, and is vastly different from their current DNI.

Two: This is what the anon in this screenshot is actually referring to. Not SAS - but Oops-All-Syscourse.

JAS, rightfully, says "this is not my drama to interact with" and doesn't reply beyond letting Wesk know they would own it if they posted that (which all they posted was the DNI, which they owned up to, and it literally was public). Wesk, not content to let that lie, then started vagueposting JAS, telling people repeatedly to kill themselves, and insisting that JAS was ignoring the entire situation without owning up to it, which JAS of course responded to.

To his credit, JAS did his very best to avoid the drama. However, directly after this came...

The Middle Part 2: Yandere Simulator

Things died down for all of about 5 minutes, with JAS stepped back while receiving suibait asks, and Wesk telling people to kill themselves regularly, until a new blog showed up called lostagainandfoundanew. Here's what we know about the situation:

On the 11th, a "new" blog called lostagainandfoundanew (henceforth called Lost) "threatened" Wesk with an IP address and a statement to "leave JAS alone."

About 10 minutes later, Lost then doxxed the individual (I will not be posting the address here, in case the doxx is legitimate). Wesk immediately confirmed the doxx was real on their very public tumblr blog.

At 4pm on the 11th, JAS received an ask, directly from the blog (meaning it was a main account of its own), in a yandere style "are you proud of me senpai" way. He was incredibly unnerved and did not respond. Notably, this completely obsessed yandere blog does not and never had followed JAS.

Upon digging into the blog, we found two posts, both around the same point as the original "harassment" from JAS, where Lost denounced the anti-endo community, and stated they didn't condone any harassment. Odd that an ex-anti-endo is suddenly riding JAS's dick hard enough to break it, but here we are???

The last time the blog had been active was early in 2021, and it is nearly 2023. Why is this random blog suddenly popping up, out of the blue, to harass this random user?

Oh don't worry, that got answered: Wesk later admitted that this was the person who doxxed them to their abusive ex last time, to support JAS. Only... that really does not line up at all with the posts we see here? And none of this was brought up in 2021 when it supposedly happened?

Let's take a pause from the bullet points to breathe, because that's a lot. Let's review some of that information.

An Ex-Anti Endo who hasn't been active in over a year is suddenly doxxing a Small Pro Endo (supposedly for the second time, with no evidence given for the first time) in the name of a Big Anti Endo, who they're supposedly seeking the attention of in a flirty yandere way.

Can anyone else see how batshit insane this is? Is it just me???

The worst part is, the IP address is complete bullshit, and the actual address leads closest to a coffee shop, but is genuinely just an empty street with a few businesses nearby. The address itself has no postal code, meaning it is not a legit address. Not a house, which is what Wesk first claimed.

If they do this every time you get into it with JAS (who, mind you, had no idea you were Mythica/Fleshcourse/Jakecourse/Etc until I started writing this post, you gave no clarification of this point, and people genuinely have not interacted with you in so long that even I forgot you existed) then why the fuck do you keep getting into it with JAS? If any of this is fully, totally, 100% legit, and that's a strong IF at this point with how much sketchy shit is happening, then why are you still getting into it? If this is legit, a genuinely unstable individual is doxxing you for their yandere love. STOP FUCKING INTERACTING IF THAT'S THE CASE OH MY GOD?

Jesus Christ.

Let's keep going.

Everyone reports Lost to get the blog taken down, because if the doxx is legit, we don't want it hanging around. Wesk thanked everyone, and things honestly died down in public for like two days.

In the meantime, JAS was being spammed stalker messages from the yandere, suicide threats, and dealing with shit in his personal life. And yet, no, JAS Is the big scary one to blame here, not the clearly fucked up asker.

An unrelated blog who I personally know, to whom I was venting about the entire situation, made a post about this: oopsallsyscourse (not to be confused with Oops-All-Syscourse). They made a post about how the doxxing had been faked, and how nobody was saying anything about it, and how that was fucked up.

They received "proof" that the doxx was real.

This is not proof that the doxx was real - it is simply proof that there is a discord account for the Lost individual. The account has existed since 2020, and they joined an Emoji server 3 days after creation.

Any investigation I've made into the "Starlight sys" has drawn a blank, particularly because galaxy themed system names are a dime a dozen, so it's hard to narrow down. (More on this at the end of the post).

This proof was left to sit for a bit, as it's not actually proof of anything, and is genuinely pretty flimsy at best. Anyone could've made this account. It's not indicative of a real person.

Sadly, said person, on December 16th, tried to join the Survivor’s Network, the server that Dude and I both moderate for. This was intensely triggering, and they were banned immediately.

This leads us to...

The Current Bullshit: Satoriships, Deletion of Evidence, and the Return of Aith

Satoriships. They're a new blog, having posted for the first time 6 days ago from today. Keep in mind that this means the blog came into being during the very brief pause in this syscourse drama, when nothing was happening other than JAS receiving harassment, during drama that involves (let me remind you) someone who has frequently created numerous blogs which are known for harassment and death threats.. They began to follow numerous anti-endo blogs, many of whom had them on their DNI. It got to the point that sysboxes made a very gentle post, made for anti-endo anti-ship individuals, to ensure they were checking who followed. Satori was not pleased about this post and bitched about how they don't check DNIs. (Wasn't breaking DNIs the reason why Wesk and Aith had issues with JAS? So it's fine for you to break them, but not for JAS?)

Satori, 2 days ago, then decided that they were going to defend Wesk. Why? According to Satori, Wesk and them have been RP buddies for 5 years. Satori states the doxxing was very real.

Let's look at all of the evidence Satori provides.

Evidence One that the doxxing is real: "First, from a close friend of the system running Weskcourse."

Uh. Hold on a minute, let me just -

(Shout out to my singlet friend who knows literally nothing about syscourse for helping me with this!)

So... This screenshot effectively proves nothing. People sometimes go on the internet and lie, and genuinely, I don't think you CAN prove the doxx is real without giving some deeply personal information. I think it might be more important to, idk, stop trying to interact with those who don't believe you and maybe take a break for your own health? That sounds like a much better idea.

Let's see what other proof is there...

Another discord DM conversation with Weskcourse, who we know is going to say the doxx is real because they already have said it is (whose username is Lord Mythicum, btw, which is further evidence of being Mythica-Plurality if the name is anything to go by, and will be important information later).

Another discord DM conversation with a "close IRL friend of Weskcourse"

Another discord DM conversation with "Weskcourse's IRL cousin"

There is no proof that any of these people are who they claim to be beyond their own testimony

All of these follow the same script, which easily could've been handed out before hand, as I demonstrated with my singlet friend above

Each of the conversations provided happened minutes between each other. Conversation 1: 7:34pm to 7:39pm. Conversation 2: 7:40pm to 7:42pm. Conversation 3: 7:45pm to 7:47pm. Conversation 4: 7:52pm to 8pm. I don't know about you, but for me, coordinating 4 completely different people to talk with me in the span of a single half hour would be a feat of Godlike proportions - and you managed to do it with no edited messages, no interruptions in the conversations, no mistakes whatsoever.

I think people are well within their rights to call out the sketchiness of this.

Oh but the "proof" that the "doxxing" is "real" does not stop there!

We have the new Lostagainandfoundanew blog! (Which is password protected, but don't worry, another unknown user named the Asylum System totally knew the password was "boobie"). Let's check it ou-

Oh. Hmm. Let me try mobile?

Don't worry guys - my singlet blog to the rescue. Let me log into my other account on tumblr, the likes of which nobody actually knows abou-

It's the same shit. You've gotta be fucking kidding me. Hey, buddy, if you wanna use someone's blog as evidence, it needs to be accessible. You couldn't have taken some screenshots of the blog or smth? "More evidence is coming" Oh boy, I can't wait for this drama to continue after everyone involved has literally stated, out loud, that they want the drama to end, and the only reason I'm making the post is cause people won't just stop interacting with everyone else. FFS guys.

Evidence Number Whatever The Fuck:

"This feels real" is not the evidence you think it is. This isn't even evidence! It's personal testimony again! It's also FURTHER FUCKING SUIBAIT. CAN Y'ALL STOP FUCKING RESORTING TO TELLING PEOPLE TO KILL THEMSELVES???? Jesus christ I'm getting triggered all over again. Fucking hell.

The last piece of evidence is the "horrifying" discord about of LostAgainAndFoundAnew, which was posted above, and messages from Emoji Hell, the server where this person is evidently writing about how much they wanna be noticed by JAS-Senpai.

Just gonna cover this one now - Satori has an extension that allows for their cursor to be placed on existing text to help them follow along, which evidently shows up in screenshots. I was suspicious about this fact too, as cursors typically show up when you are typing something yourself, but I'll accept this as truth.

People obviously called this shit out.

Here's system-stings, calling out the inconsistencies brought up about the blogs being brand new or almost brand new, which seems to indicate they are created specifically for this drama.

Here's Satori's response:

I'm going to actually come back to the DiscordUsername thing at the end, don't worry Satori <3

You stated the password came from someone who has legitimately never even been a part of this entire saga. Bro.

You were antiship and became proship? Just like weskcourse, the person people are now suggesting you might be?

You mean you have a sideblog, just like Weskcourse has been known to have 50 Million+ of?

None of this actually answers how fucking shady this entire situation is. I think people are well in their rights to call out how shady this is.

Here's SAS calling out the time inconsistencies, the fact that only these random ass start-up blogs are the ones continuing the drama, and calling out (yet again) that these discord usernames are uncensored, and the cursor being shown.

Satori's response:

(Does not address the time inconsistencies, the fact that they're a brand new blog - though I suppose they did that with Stings a moment ago - or the usernames). But don't worry guys, there are apparently 5 more people still waiting to continue the drama! Boy howdy I can't fucking wait for this bullshit to continue!!! /s

In the meantime, JAS posted the following:

And right afterward, Weskcourse deleted their blog. This was later revealed to be due to mental health reasons, but it is, once again, particularly odd timing. Which was then called out.

Enter Aith, back into the drama once more, to "defend a fellow pro-endo." (As a reminder, Wesk is Mythica-Plurality, aka, the Two Eddies, aka, someone Aith went on record saying was part of the reason Chaos-In-One was on the blocklist that started this whole drama).

SAS made a post detailing the entire drama. Here's aith's response.

If you say you aren't interacting with someone anymore, if you have them on a public blocklist (which you then deleted, but it is assumed you still believe the same thing you said about a week and a half ago), if you say you shouldn't interact for your mental health - fucking stop looking and hold true to your block. You blocked SAS for a reason. So stop interacting, stop prolonging something that you yourself have indicated was unhealthy for you.

But nope, you continued to participate (while admitting you didn't want to) by making claims (what you yourself admitted was just you being petty) about oopsallsyscourse and JAS being the same person (later claiming they "type the same" which... I have never seen oopsallsyscourse write the novel length posts seen from JAS, nor with the amount of screenshots and sources provided.)

I think this post someone made sums up the drama very very well.

Hmm.

oopsallsyscourse has personally said, in conversation, in public servers, why they're so invested in this drama.

oopsallsyscourse also chimed in on Aith's post about the claim I had made at one point that they were friends (which we now know is definitely false, I wish I could see Wesk's blog to see if I'm misremembering). Here's the full conversation, which had its last update that I can see 21 hours ago. Let's look at this:

So... you follow people in the pro-endo community, strictly because they are pro-endo, despite breaking their DNIs? So... You do. Exactly the same shit you put people on a blocklist for in the first place.

WHY THE FUCK DO YOU FOLLOW THEM? My fucking god can people start making sense for 5 goddamn seconds. Chalk this up to another inconsistency.

And oopsallsyscourse's response to the petty bullshit conspiracy post:

"But sick men should rest" aww thanks bby I do appreciate the kindness. Sadly, I think you're absolutely right that these people won't believe this post I've finally been dragged into - they'll just argue that I"m biased (you know, the Most Centrist Syscourser Ever who has been INCREDIBLY vocal this ENTIRE time about disagreeing with the actions of like everyone fucking involved in this bullshit, but whatever, public discord screenshots be damned I guess).

And now...

The True End: I Fucking Hate This Shit

Let's do this, shall we? The part I didn't share publicly yet: I'm going deep into this deep dive.

Well, Satori did invite anyone who wanted to join: "the server name is Emoji Hell if you can find it." Let's see what we can about this server:

The rules for the server, written by CorpseHusband, the username of the admin, were written in October of 2020. Many channels on the server are completely empty, and many users have not been active in literal years - which is an accomplishment given that there are only 9 members.

Right off the bat, we see that Lost has some beef with a new user when they join in October 2020 - very soon after the server was created.

Oddly enough, Lost is not the Starlet System. They are the Millennia System, and Starlet System is actually one of the blanked out users above - and is actually the server owner. I won't share the personal details of their pluralkit or tupperbox entires in the introductions channels, but here's some evidence of this:

So it's very odd to see their about profess they are the starlet system in their bio. I'm reaching out the the Starlet System now for more information, but as they have not been active since, as far as I can tell, October 6th of 2020, this may be a bit difficult.

Making it even more difficult is the fact that the proxies for the Millennia System do not exist in any of the bots I've checked. PluralKit has no record of the system code, and Tupperbox has no record either. I tried my best, but it seems that whoever posted the 2020 system members in that server has since deleted those proxies, which is concerning, given that Lost Again And Found Anew is still active in the server. It seems odd that they're still active with no information about them beyond the yandere style messages and bio...

Further shadiness comes in the lack of activity in the server. This user was last active (before the drama) on 05/08/2021, when they boosted the server twice. There was almost no chatter between then and now (none of which is from them), in which the most that really happened were people leaving and joining the server.

At least, until Weskcourse joined the server. Remember how I said that discord username thing would come back, Satori?

Now, we do have confirmation that this is Weskcourse, based on the SatoriShips screenshots. If I wanted to, I could actually DM Weskcourse right now, furthering the harassment. Thankfully, I'm not a fucking asshole, and I can actually not interact with people who I've said I won't interact with. Remarkable!

What we do not have confirmation of is when Wesk left the EmojiHell discord Server, nor why they chose to join the EmojiHell discord server, given that the screenshot of the Yandere Bullshit (which did not include all of the disgusting shit LostAgain was posting) happened on December 16th, long after LostAgain had been active. It's almost like Wesk joined the server, knowing Lost was there, and suddenly the drama continued. It's almost like the LostAgain yandere shit didn't start until after Wesk had already been in contact with JAS, and as of yet, there is absolutely no evidence provided, beyond testimony of someone who has repeatedly harassed anti-endos that LostAgain doxxed them in 2021.

I'm still waiting on the user Starlet to respond to my DMs, but I have very little hopes of this happening. So let's review the entire drama, TL;DR style:

TL;DR: EVERYONE NEEDS TO FUCKING GET OFF TUMBLR

AT makes a very public blocklist, which includes heaps of misinformation, and (as it is a public blocklist) inherently supports drama-hungry individuals causing shit.

Chaos-In-One gets an immediate ask continuing drama. They are removed from the blocklist upon apology.

Ultrabright responds to AT to correct misinformation. AT informs Ultrabright that this was due to the Mythica-Plurality drama from who knows how long ago.

JAS responds to the blocklist with a meme.

AT is upset that JAS interacted, despite having not googled "how to block from a sideblog" once in this entire time.

JAS responds with another meme.

AT continues to interact with JAS, once again being upset.

During this, Ultrabright is removed from the blocklist.

JAS explains why he is still interacting, which involved the misinformation about Ultrabright.

AT learns how to block people after taking a vaguepost of mine about [Redacted User] and other bullshit in syscourse to be a vaguepost about them, and after I took it upon myself to explain to AT how to block from a sideblog (which numerous other users also attempted to do, despite my username and theirs not being "google it")

Weskcourse jumps on the drama declaring that Ultrabright is the person who harassed them (hence confirming they are Mythica-Plurality)

AT posts public suicidal thoughts, untagged, which triggers me and causes JAS to create a post asking people not to manipulate others using untagged fucking suicide bait.

Weckcourse then changes their tune to say that JAS personally harassed them after this post comes out.

AT puts me back on the blocklist after I refuse to engage further with the drama that triggered my suicidal ideation.

AT then deletes the blocklist, proving it was pointless in the first place.

Weskcourse continues to go after JAS, insisting that JAS harassed them, eventually adding that it was on the SAS blog, and that SAS had posted a DNI of theirs 2-3 years ago, which led to harassment.

SAS has to go digging to find the post, from a year ago, which had no identifying information and nothing that was not publicly shared.

It is revealed via anon that the person who popularized the post was Oops-All-Syscourse, who is no longer active in syscourse.

JAS leaves Wesk alone, as this all seems to be a huge misunderstanding.

Wesk continues to go after JAS, and after any anon they receive, suibaiting each of them.

JAS responds to Wesk saying "look, I have no idea what you're talking about," as Wesk is making claims that are not true (such as asking JAS to take down the post, or JAS blocking them).

Wesk is "doxxed" (via a fake IP address and a shady-at-best address) by LostAgain, a user who is (supposedly, though the evidence dates to December 16, 2022, three days ago) obsessed by JAS.

Everyone collectively loses their shit, reports the "Doxxer," and looks into the doxxing, only to discover the shady details.

Nobody calls out how shady it is because everyone involved has professed wanting it to fucking be done with.

Wesk thanks everyone for getting the "doxxer" removed from tumblr.

JAS continues to receive stalker yandere asks that go unpublished, which he does not mention publicly to avoid more drama.

oopsallsyscourse, a close friend of mine who has heard me bitching about how this drama is affecting my friend JAS, takes it upon themselves to post about the shadiness of the doxx.

Wesk throws a fit and insists the doxx was real.

Someone comes to oopsallsyscourse with "proof" the "doxx" was real (said proof being recorded at 12/16/2022, which is well after the doxx at this point).

This same day, the “doxxer” tries to join the Survivor’s Network discord, a discord dedicated to healing from our trauma as people with complex dissociative disorders, and greatly triggers Dude.

SatoriShips chooses to defend Wesk, posting "evidence" that is not only easily faked, but doesn't... actually prove anything, as it is private testimonies and, at best, the "vibes" that Wesk gives off.

Sick and tired of this bullshit, I decide to go straight to the fucking source, and do a deep dive into the Emoji Hell server, discovering that there is no record of LostAgain being obsessed with JAS until after all of this drama unfolded, and no record of LostAgain being the original doxxer whatsoever.

And where has this left us?

Aith, not being touched by anyone but anon messages, who they could shut up by just turning off anon. The blocklist was deleted, so clearly didn't need to be posted publicly in the first place, and they now know how to block people correctly.

Weskcourse, who deleted their blog, whose main is for some fucking reason now trying to syscourse (You ain't the lord of shit, get out of the syscourse tags and let it fucking drop already).

SatoriShips, who has existed for 6 days, suddenly coming in with "evidence" that isn't evidence, prolonging this shit.

oopsallsyscourse, who was trying to deflect the harassment JAS is receiving by taking the drama onto themselves.

Me, sick with Covid, writing an essay long post because none of you will let this fucking go.

And JAS.

Who has been receiving daily harassment, who has dealt with constant shit from you all and others in their fucked up life, who is trying their best not to spiral from all of this. JAS, who is the person who helped me most of all to confront my plurality, who has taught me so many coping mechanisms, and who has supported me daily since I split 4 damn times in the past year. JAS, who is one of the sweetest people I know, who you all only get glimpses of through tumblr screenshots on a goddamn silly syscourse blog that has been doing nothing but posting people's cute pets for the last goddamn week in order to try and stay mentally well.

I have Dude's (that's JAS) express permission to share this next part, and that is the only reason I'm going to. I won't share everything - he shouldn't fucking need to, but I genuinely feel like people need to understand what they're doing.

Dude has been on the receiving end of absolutely god awful fucking horrific childhood trauma. He suffers from OSDD, and suffering is a good word for what I've witnessed tonight. He has worked so hard for years now, around 30 years now, to just survive and thrive as the person he is. He was stabilizing recently, and had not reached out to a therapist in two years.

Tonight, in the course of me making this post, I contacted Dude with the server information, the part I added at the end. And Dude... he spiraled, completely. He has suffered so much in the past, including shit that is incredibly eerily similar to a lot of what's happened in this situation. He immediately went into flashback-mode, and started having a very public crisis in two different servers I share with him. It's ongoing, and he's thankfully reaching back out to his therapist about everything, but it's fucking inexcusable.

For people who claim to be against harassment, how fucking dare you all. How dare you call what Dude did "harassment." How dare you call this situation anything other than what it was: an inconsiderate person starting petty drama, who then could not handle the backlash when people called them out, who then was backed up by a known harasser and a disgusting individual, who is being backed up by some unknown goddamn rando who's friends with them. You all are going after JAS with everything you've got.

But not the actual person you claim is doxxing people. Not the actual person who has my friend in a crisis at the moment, and has me genuinely scared they will hurt themselves, all over you petty bullshit about a blocklist.

I am sickened by everyone involved in this situation, but particularly Aith, Wesk, and Satori. I cannot comprehend how you all thought this was okay. I cannot comprehend how you all still have yet to let the drama go, how you all continue again and again to push buttons that did not need to be pushed. I cannot comprehend how you all haven't learned to block and keep them blocked. I blocked all of you, some of you before this drama started, and I did not go back until I had to make this post to stop the harassment against my friend.

And LostAgain?

I have no respect for you, which is a hard thing to accomplish. Kindly find someplace else to shout into an abyss, and never utter JAS's name again.

Now will all of you please

Shut the ever loving fuck up.

[laf-outloud]

https://www.tumblr.com/laf-outloud/733852081367269376/httpswwwtumblrcomlaf-outloud7338145430521446

I’m confused by people being shocked that J2 might work together again.

I sort of get it if people don’t want to see Jared work with Jensen again (prequelgate and so on), or just specifically don’t want Jensen on Walker (AAs are a nightmare and no one wants them near any show), but I’m pretty surprised that people actually don't expect them to get back on screen together at some point. Or see it as some "that ship has long sailed" situation.

Both Jared and Jensen bring up doing an SPN revival on their own. They don’t just say, "sure" when people ask them about it. I get people thinking this is just fan service, but if a fan doesn’t bring it up first, they certainly don’t have to say something at just about every con. I think they truly do want to do at least a mini series or something. Whether they’ll get the go ahead for it is another story. Also, they've been getting more and move nostalgic lately at cons, and more and more like old-school J2 on stage. I know, cons are for show, but the quality of their interactions over the last few cons just feel more fond than they did (for the most part) last year, for example. They always have good chemistry, but it’s been especially good lately. Yes, they do lots of stuff that is "for show" but there is just a different feel when they seem like they are truly vibing.

As for Jensen on Walker. I’m 50/50 on whether it will happen. But, I certainly won’t be surprised if it does.

Still, Keegan’s photo (which is what has people worried, I guess) was taken during the Nov 5th weekend when hellers were celebrating their embarrassing meme scene and waiting for Jensen to maybe make a mention of it, so the pic of J2 could have been in response to that, just in a delayed post. A little reminder that Supernatural was about the brother (not Destiel). Or, maybe J2 are actually still good friends behind the scenes and Keegan just wanted a pic of them and their long hair. 🤷‍♀️

I just think the fandom in general does a lot of projecting, and I’m certain,y not immune to it either. Jared doesn’t ever want to work with Jensen again, and him saying he does is just fan service, but it’s never going to happen (projection). J2 are vibing exactly like old times and are clearly still besties who already have a whole Season 16 of SPN planned out (projection). Jared has moved on and never plans to look back at supernatural (projection). Jared and Jensen are happiest when working together and they’ll make it happen no matter what (projection). Anyway, my point with these examples is we don’t actually know how Jared (or Jensen) feels about doing an SPN revival or having Jensen on Walker besides them saying they are interested publicly at one point or another, but assuming they don’t/do want these things because we don’t /do want these things, could lead to some unpleasant realities down the line.

Just out of curiosity: Will you still tune in to Walker if Jensen does get a recurring role on it? And would you watch SPN reboot/revival if it happened?

You make a lot of good points! The photo could have been counteracting the Destiel thing... but I also think Keegan being a Sunday con attendee, and having worked with Jensen and Jared together, has only every really seen SPN as the show about brothers, so his caption doesn't surprise me.

And you're right, none of us know what J2's relationship is really like right now... and fans (myself included) certainly throw our preferences around, lol! Personally, I don't think their con behavior is back to what it was post-prequelgate/end of SPN, but we all see things differently.

As for your questions... I would probably still watch Walker if Jensen had a recurring role... but I wouldn't be as excited to live-tweet or reblog gifs/screengrabs from those episodes. In fact, I'd probably avoid social media altogether simply so I wouldn't have to see AAs (and frankly, Jensen) try to make the show all about him, while completely dismissing Jared (and the other cast member's) contributions. They may be delusional, but they have the power to ruin every fandom they enter.

An SPN reboot is a harder question, mostly because it would have to be the exact right set of circumstances (right producers, writers, time-frame, lack of extras, etc.) for me to even consider watching.

I think the only reboot that I'd be glad to watch with both Jensen and Jared would be the one they talked about a while ago... Lonesome Dove. It would be about 10 years down the road... certainly enough time (I would hope) for the SPN fandom to settle down, and would be a chance for J2 to work together again without all of SPN's baggage.

[ingravinoveritas]

u know michael has spoken out against people bashing/speculating about his relationship and anna multiple times right? even blocking some “fans” for doing so

Hello, Anon. I'm guessing this is in response to this Anon, which I answered recently.

I'd first like to clarify one point, which is that I don't consider what I wrote to be "bashing" Michael's relationship. I've noticed that people seem to characterize any commentary that isn't enthusiastic, over-the-top praise as "bashing," which in turn leaves no room for nuanced conversation, which is what I was trying to do with that post, by responding to a question that I felt I could answer.

Second, there are only two instances I am aware of involving Michael speaking out about or blocking people for talking about his relationship with AL. One occurred four years ago and sounds as if he was under tremendous pressure/had no other choice. The other took place three years ago, and what I think often gets overlooked is that this was during lockdown, when Michael was already not in the best frame of mind. It was a time I seem to keep seeing folks on Twitter refer to as "feral Michael" (such as the incident where he had an interaction with a fan over the bees in his house), but that I think is more accurately described as "unhinged."

The distinction between the two is that "feral Michael" is the Michael who was on the GO press tour making cheeky comments about Aziraphale and Crowley and brazenly flirting with David and basically being the world's biggest Ineffable Husbands shipper. "Unhinged" Michael was the side of him we saw during the pandemic, and the very difficult time we were all having. He was clearly, visibly depressed and struggling (it was especially noticeable during the second season of Staged), and it was frustrating to see everyone ignore that, and seemingly still ignoring it three years later.

That being said, aside from the above mentioned incidents, I'm having a difficult time recalling Michael ever speaking about his relationship with Anna, let alone defending it. He's talked about her during paid interviews, where the interviewer prompts him to do so (such as in the PR pieces that were published in the Australian media ahead of him appearing in Amadeus a few months ago, and this interview promoting LTTC at the end of 2021), but he has not and does not bring her up unprompted. (Again, in sharp contrast to how he constantly brings up David in multiple interviews without the interviewer even saying a word.)

There were also multiple opportunities for Michael to talk about AL publicly on social media over the past few years, and yet he's seemingly chosen not to do that. He didn't promote LTTC with her (and in fact if you look at their tweets promoting the film side-by-side, there is a stark difference). He didn't mention her or their appearance together in that one episode of Sandman, and he didn't at all promote Staged 3, which was released with almost no advanced notice in November of last year and has barely been talked about since.

I have to admit something, Anon: I am disappointed. You could have come in here and said you disagreed with me, and that would've been absolutely fine. I'm always open to hearing other opinions and people who don't agree with me, and we could have had a discussion and shared opinions in a constructive way. But when you come in here without any receipts and make comments that sound a lot like barely veiled threats, I know that your aim is to intimidate and shut me down, because you want me to stop talking.

I believe that Michael is welcome to cultivate his online space, and so are we all. My intention is to keep a respectful dialogue going because I don't believe shutting people down is the answer. I'd love for you to be a part of that, Anon...but if you don't happen to like what I am writing, it costs nothing at all just to block me and move on.

[calumhoodgoss]

Brandy is depressed and has expressed that a lot, and isn’t super huge on having her relationship with Cal super public and all over social media. They could still be together but just not open about it as much because they like to keep things private? Also dunno why this account is literally dedicated to being nosy 😭

ok soooo, to save me from typing this out 100 times over, to see my opinions on their relationship being public/private please see the second half of this post:

ill add that cal has in fact kept the relationship private throughout its entirety, sharing moment with us very sparingly. brandy on the other hand indirected him through tweets, wearing his cloths, etc. CONSTANTLY for the first year (?) - there used to be a great resource blog that documented all of this but they have since deleted :,(

as for them still being together, i mean yeah maybe! if her moving out for the past 3+ months (and a plethora of other things) is a sign of them being together then sure, they certainly could be. after all, no one here knows them personally. we are just speculating on publicly available information about a public relationship

and to answer your last point, again, this is from a previous ask:

'who are you to discredit online relationships and community as if theyre not legitimate forms of connection? ever considered that maybe people arent fortunate enough to gossip with family members? maybe people just need community and escapism in the form of online drama to distract them from what theyre dealing with in the real world? maybe some people are even seeking online drama to focus on so they can avoid being self destructive in their real life relationships?'

gossip has been looked down on and dismissed literally since the beginning of civilisation lmao but we arent naive enough here to overlook its importance in community and connection building. no one here is trying to interact with any of the people this blog is about. we arent trying to hate on anyone. we're just having a goss with eachother about a topic that is too niche to connect with people irl about. if thats not something youre interested in then i encourage you to block my blog! im not trying to ruffle feathers. im just chatting to my friends 🙂

[sugurushimura]

May I ask why you headcanon Midou as a trans woman? I always headcanonned Higuchi as trans out of all the Yotsubas (FtM though, not MtF) and I'd really like to hear your reasoning!

oh man, this is one of those headcanons that i've had for so long that it's kind of just cemented itself in my brain... the idea was actually my boyfriend @teethrotter's first, so what initially sparked it lies in his mind alone. i'm not sure if he even told me anything specifically other than "hey, i think it'd be neat if mido was a trans woman" so we tried it out for a while and it just stuck... i'm not sure when exactly that was, maybe 2016 or 2017? over 5 years for sure.

by this point, it's not even a decision i actively make, i just see mido and she registers immediately as a woman with my brain. seeing her he/him'd in canon feels wrong... although i am obviously not arguing that trans mido is even vaguely implied, she's just such a minor character that headcanoning her as a closeted trans woman doesn't change literally anything.

the headcanon does play into my own interpretation of mido pretty heavily, and it works well with how i perceive her canon personality. imo, mido is someone who is very resigned with her life. she was born into a high-status family that placed a lot of weight on her shoulders wrt being a Good Member Of Society. she went to an elite college, got a law degree, and went on to become a bigwig at the yotsuba group. she clearly excels at her job, but according to htr, she actually hates the division she works in. she's well-liked amongst her colleagues -- better than any of them except ooi, in fact -- but in turn seems to like very few of them. her social skills are quite good, but she seems... disengaged, to say the least, at the model party.

pretty much every facet of mido's life, except her fencing hobby, is spent doing things she hates and interacting with people that she dislikes. and yet she shows absolutely no signs that she's interested in changing it -- hell, she doesn't even bother speaking out against the kira murders, which seem to weigh on her conscience. of course, there's a real threat of death if she does that, but it isn't as if she simply abstains from the meetings; she's an incredibly active participant!

all this plays into the greater feeling that mido is resigned to her own misery even when she really doesn't have to be. i think she developed this tendency mainly because of her family, but eventually it became such a habit that to change now feels to her like she'd have wasted all that pain and effort. sunk-cost fallacy, you know? at times, too, i think she's prone to romanticizing her own pain in a sort of "oh, woe is me, i'm such a dutiful son and such a productive member of society, look at how much i've sacrificed for the sake of the status quo, how tragic am i..."

her gender identity, too, is a reflection of that. gender is such a fundamental part of how we perceive ourselves and others; i think it ties everything together to have mido, who is really and truly a woman, lock it up inside herself and just go along with the way she was raised to present because, even despite the misery it causes her, it would be troublesome to change it all now and would damage the image she's spent so long cultivating. besides, if she changed this now, that would open a lot of doors. what else about her life would she be happier if she changed?

my own experiences with gender are somewhat similar. there was a time when i was younger where i realized that i was a trans man, but thought it would be too much of a hassle to come out and completely change who i am publicly. i had more or less resigned myself to living the rest of my life that way, and it was only thanks to my boyfriend's encouragement that i changed my mind. i'm very glad i did, and it's probably no coincidence that i also imagined myself getting a business degree at that point in my life...

i love mido and i'd like for her to reach self-actualization, at least to some extent. in most lighthearted AUs, i default to writing her as out of the closet and fully transitioned -- albeit still working a job she hates. it's also very important to me that she comes out to shimura after the kira case. after being put through such a stressful situation and realizing that she really could have been killed (...oops), i think she realizes that, at the end of the day, she needs someone else to know. it might as well be shimura, who shows her so readily that he's been wrestling with the horror of their situation more frantically than any of them, who still shows compassion after everything they've done.

also, mido has the trans haircut. you know, the ambiguous "it's just short enough that mom won't say anything" look.

(as an aside, i think i've heard trans man higuchi brought up before! not for several years, though, and only briefly, unless i'm forgetting something. although it personally isn't a headcanon that i share, he's such an envious person and focuses his own identity so intensely on other men that i could see it being written in a very compelling way. the whole "i want him AND i want to be him" thing, however in denial he is about it, is very real... i would love to see that concept explored more! i am probably not the person to do it, though.)

[ignitesthestxrs]

Awww :( I’ve loved your blog for years; it’s so sad that tumblr is such a lonelier place now - are there any fandoms or themes or genres of posts in specific that you miss from the old days?

💗💗 thank u anon! i will say there has definitely been an uptick in interaction and general tumblr use this year as twitter does whatever it's doing, and it has been a genuine delight to see the like,,,social media part of tumblr slowly judder into gear again

there is nothing fandom specific that i miss, i don't think - even though i had some Larger Fandom Buckets back in the day, i did flit about a bunch of different interests and produce a bunch of different content. so it was less about like, oh this particular fandom based off this particular book/show/movie/etc is what i miss and more the mode? of content creation and interaction.

the thing that i really like about tumblr is that there is a degree of thought and time delay that goes into interaction, and also an exchange of spaces. like, i make a post, and i take as long as i want to say the thing i want to say, and then if that gets interacted with, it is as a piece rather than Individual Pieces (like i have done Long Threads on twitter before which have taken off, and so often this results in someone jumping on you in tweet 1 for something you weren't able to articulate until tweet 15)

and then so much of engaging with that content is framed differently. like discussions require you to bring content back from someone else's Space into Your Space, and any observers can then see the like, whole thread of interaction. the context for the discussion is included in the post history. if you want to fly off the handle at someone via replies you can, but there is more control from the poster and less visibility for that kind of immediate interaction - pithy, one off comments aren't incentivised the same way because you don't get the same reach from replying to a post, and anything you reblog will have the historical context of the conversation first, so you are always reading like, the genesis of the conversation first before you get to the thing that the reblogger wanted to say/wanted you to see.

which isn't to say that tumblr has ever been a golden era of tolerance and reading comprehension lol, but the nature of the medium does mean that there us more breathing space for me to uncurl my brain on particular topics and for people to respond to those thoughts rather than a no holds barred cage match

i also REALLY like the ask system, because that is a communication form where you have the choice of like, is this a private interaction or a public one, is it anonymous or are there names attached. the nature of like, short ask wordcount first longform response promotes interactions between followers that are inherently opportunities to like,,,ask questions that you want the answer to LMAO, like u have enough space to ask a thing but not proselytize, you can attach yourf identity to that or not, and then the recipient can choose if they want to respond, how publicly they want to respond, and at what length.

which is a format particularly well suited to the way i used to engage with followers, which was a lot of like, TIme For Hannah's Opinion stuff LOL, either advice requests or meta requests which obviously i love from the pov of i love attention and i love to have an opinion, but also was a dynamic based off the fact that i was already sharing thoughts and advice and meta that resonated with people

which ultimately brings me to the fact that a lot of what i miss about tumblr and my old experience on tumblr is in part my own fault, because i don't produce content in the way that i used to. which like, sounds mercenary when you boil it down, but such is the nature of parasocial relationships, right? followers liked my blog because of the various thoughts and opinions i yeeted out into the world, and in turn they asked me for more of those things, which helped me produce more thoughts and opinions, and that is a workable social media ecosystem

so when there is a combination of userbase decimation that sees the amount of asks and conversations drop precipitously, combined with my own like, personal change in what i was both willing and able to put up on tumblr, and that ecosystem fails from both ends. way less people want to ask anything because they aren't here, and i produce way less content that anyone wants to ask about a) because my braIn died and b) because i'm not sure if there are people out there who are interested in it.

what we are seeing now i think is a regeneration of userbase that means it feels worthwhile for me to write a long post like this in response to an ask, and the ask is more likely to happen to begin with because percentage-wise there are just more people using the website again, so there are more people who are inclind to respond to some tags going 'pay attention to me!' than before

and what is missing i suppose is my own impetus or ability to provided content (aka my ]half of the responsibility of any good parasocial relationship) without being prompted, which is something i have been mulling over a lot as tumblr lurches back to life. like, what do i want to talk about? where did my urge to talk about things all the time even go? what has changed about me and the world over the past few years that has made me not only reticent to dash off a thousand words about my latest obsession, but also seemingly unable to produce the urge like i used to?

and like, most importantly in the context of this ask and my own desire to Engage With People, how do i start saying things that are interesting and that resonate with people again? what do i want to say in 2023, what do i want to share? because i think for a long time i stopped wanting to create and share things, and a part of that was for good, getting my life on track reasons, and a part of it definitely was not. and i am finding myself more and more in a place of wanting to like, thoughtfully cultivate and grow my own knowledge and conversation about the shit that i'm interested in these days, and i have always liked tumblr as a venue for that kind of thing because it's the place i had the most fun doing it previously.