#And then feel extremly guilt after that

[hanaaria]

ALL I KNOW IS MARBLE AND STONE EYES THAT DONT LEAVE WATCHING OVER ME WHISPERS OF AVE MARIAS AND GRANT US PEACE DONA NOBIS PACEM MISERERE NOBIS GOD HAVE MERCY ON THEM GOD HAVE MERCY ON ME

[redcherrykook]

── ˙✧°📷 𝙥𝙞𝙘𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙚! 3 (𝙏𝙥𝙖𝙛𝙡 𝙙𝙧𝙖𝙗𝙗𝙡𝙚)

Drabble three! of Torn pictures and frozen lenses couple!

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content: fluff, comfort, period pain, crying, cuddles, Jungkook being a softie

note from cherry: i'm obsessed with this couple rn and i got my period today soo thats the inspo.

I need to be held by koo so bad :,(

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8 full hours of Jungkook working go by extremly slow on days he wouldn't be seeing you in the hallways,

This morning you'd stayed in bed due to feeling sick and dizzy, he let you sleep with a kiss to your forhead

The drive back home, all he was looking forward to after a long exhausting day was seeing you, quietly winding down together

Instead, he'd open the door to you curled up on the couch, stuffed hello kitty clutched in your arms,

"Baby?" He sighs, swiftly taking off his shoes and coat, crouching down in front of the couch

Upon further inspection on your bundled up form, you laid there in his hoodie, tears streaming down your pretty, sleepy face

"hey kook" you sniffle, wiping your tears with a small smile,

He knew exactly what was wrong, all the signs pointing towards it,

"Come here..my poor little lady, your period came right?" he speaks into your hair softly once managing to get on to the couch, pulling you into his lap,

His head nuzzles into your hair, big palms stroking your back, pressing you against his chest

You nod, completely burned out from the pain of your cramps, reaching all the way to your lower back, the pouding headache you have only worsening from having cried so much

"Its alright, come on i'll hold you"

"i missed you" you sniffle again, pressing your head into his chest and inhaling his sweet masculine scent

He humms, "i missed you too, its so boring without my favorite bad student" joking at that, he knew full well how much you improved, having spent hours together

He did miss you though, a lot

However, from the sound of your increased sniffling he could tell that this wasn't the right time,

Not at all

"you think im so stupid don't you?" you cry softly into his chest, feeling so overcome by anger and sadness,

His heart clenches a little; guilt quickly catching up to him

His hand moves to the back of your head, caressing your head so carefully,

The other one lifts you by your chin, making you look at him through sad teary eyes

"Shh i´m sorry baby i´m sorry.. i didn´t mean it, i was just joking. You're so smart baby.. i´m sorry" his gentle voice is accompanied by the many kisses he places all over your face

A small but sincere smile creeping up to your face immediately

"Hmm okay" you giggle and he smiles too, squeezing your cheeks between his thumb and index finger

The rapid change of emotions almost making him giggle aswell,

What a cute mess he has got.

"Come on, let me get this pretty girl into bed"

quickly you're clinging on to him like your life depens on it, with a kiss to your temple he lays you down into the comfy, pillowy sheets,

Wrapping his arms around you from behind to sneak his hands on your lower tummy, pressing and caressing there to sooth the pain with pressure,

"Thank you kook" you say, stoking his arm,

He responds by placing a kiss to your hair, then moving his head down to rest on your shoulder,

"Did you eat? Want me to make you a nice sweet treat?" his suggestion sounds so good, not haven eaten all day because of feeling genuinely sick, too dizzy to even do anything other than to lay down,

"Couldn't yet.. but, please do.. that would be so nice" you hum, turning your head to kiss him lovingly,

He takes the kiss, smiling into it while continuing to massage your lower tummy,

"let me take care of you pretty, just lay here and look cute while you wait" he winks, hugging you tight and pressing a last, long kiss to your lips before standing up from the bed

[afsalovesnikolai]

May I please ask for a Yandere chuuya please

Been far too long, lemme spoil yall mwah (gn reader)

Obsessive Loyalty! : Chuuya is VERY protective of his partner, going to extreme lengths to keep them safe from any threats he perceives as dangerous! Whether real or imagined by him, himself.

Jealousy: He experiences intense jealousy, often getting really worked up over any interaction his partner has with others, leading to confrontational moments where he confronts you or sometimes just gives you silent treatment.

(cue him being drunk and grumpy and staring at you for helping out some guy with directions, so cliche.)

His possessive ass affection: Chuuya shows his love through possessive gestures, like holding onto you tightly at all times and making it extremly obvious everyone knows they're his. We all know this man is rich asf so don't forget about the expensive gifts. He'll probably do it so casually too.

"Bae is this another new car?" "Yes." "...I don't need it though?" "Too bad."

Dark Humor: Contreversial (or is it js me??) but this man has dark humor, his sense of humor can turn dark when he talks about his feelings, often making light of violent scenarios involving anyone he sees as a rival.

You rn : ಠ . ಠ

Manipulative Tactics: He can be manipulative, using guilt or emotional pressure to ensure his partner stays close and doesn’t stray (dogs, so funny.) too far.

Stalker Tendencies: your man's is crazy bae, he stalks u so much *twirls hair and kicks feet*. Has a tendency to keep tabs on his partner, knowing their schedule and who they spend time with, sometimes following them discreetly. Or just hiring people to stalk you. Don't forget about cameras <3

Extreme Reactions: He has a difficult complex, he can be gentle with you or just pissed (prob not at you unless it is you *shrug* ) If he feels threatened, his reactions can be unpredictable, ranging from heated arguments to explosive outbursts. But dw he apologizes soon after, he loves you too much.

Isolation Attempts: Chuuya may try to isolate his partner from friends or family, convincing them that he’s the only one who truly cares for them.

"Chuu, maybe they didn't mean it!" "They did." "Says who?" "Me." Mutual staring continues.

Romantic Gestures: Despite his tough exterior, he’ll leave thoughtful gifts (or not, bitch prob buys you everything he sees. What's a want or need? You need all this shit) or small notes that reveal his softer side, showing he’s always thinking of you. (aweee)

EXTRA :

i can see him like deadass having a nightmare ab you and like and then he prob just stares at you for the whole night or just decides to hold you.

[ranbling]

I totally think an Eddie coming out arc in 2-3 episodes is extremly doable and I don't want it to be longer than that

Buck's coming out arc was getting kissed by a dude and then talking to Maddie and Eddie a little, it wasn't something that took up multiple episodes

Eddie has catholic guilt and all of his relationships not working out as things to work through, but I think 2 Eddie centric-episodes could totally solve that. First episode with Frank (or any therapist) working through the catholic guilt and everything and the next one is when he realises his sexuality. I do think Eddie realising his sexuality and realising he's in love with Buck will happen to the same time.

One of the things Eddie has to work through is how he tries to replace Shannon's role with every women he dates with, but always screwing it up when they actually come close to filling in her role. However Eddie's been leaning on Buck to help with fill the different parental roles he can't (especially prominent in s7 when he has Buck to talk to Chris about dating multiple girls and then to try to help to sort out the whole Kim mess) and if he works through his issues the only possible outcome is that he feels safe with Buck and places Buck and Shannonn into the same category (romantic partner and family) which leads to the realisation that he's in love with Buck

We can have 2-3 episodes after that with Eddie pining, maybe going to Hen and Karen for advice (or even to Maddie)

[sleepyphoen1x]

Tired of reading fluffy summer 1898 fics that st the end, the only ssd thing is the 3 way duel and Gellert leaving Albus

Give me summer 1899 fic with extremly unhealthy grindeleldore where Gellert is manupulative piece of shit towards Albus. Being creepy asf, and corrupting him as much as he himself is, making him isolated and making him feel that only Gellert can help him (spoiler: he can't), Ariana being home alone and stressed (due to Albus being with Gellert and Aberforth with his GF) being a danger towards anyone expect Aberforth but slowly loosing her trust in him, almost destroying the whole Dumbledore residence, after the Summer make Gellert delusional and think its all Albus's fault, Albus feeling like a monster and that he doesn't deserve to live, Aberforth being pissed off on Albus but also trying to help him to stay alive when his own mental health, carrying the guilt of his own son and girlfriend might have died. pleasee someone write that and my life if yours

Ps: make Aberforth and Gellert fistfight i beg you

Pps: alot of references to Gellert being like Icarus or fallen angel pls

Ppps: make Albus having religiuse guilt

[kunikidas-lost-glasses]

Any siglai or sigma × fyodor (idk the ship name) hcs?

Thank you for your request anon! I hope you enjoy the hcs!

I choosed to write some Siglai headcanons since I prefer it much more than Sigma x Fyodor and since I don't have many headcanons for the latter.

TWs: Mentions of panic attacks and crying, very slight mention of murders, very very slight mention of breakdowns, slight mention of a Sigma-typical existence crises (It's a large part of his character after all)

I apologize for any grammar or spelling mistakes. English isn't my first language.

Nikolai regulary uses his overcoat to visit Sigma in his office at the casino without any warning or announcement

Due to this, he is also always the first one to notice when Sigma is overworking himself past his limits or if he's panicking in secret again and he will always take care of him then, gently forcing his boyfriend to stop working and to take care of himself for once

Nikolai admires Sigma when he's mad but he's also actually a bit scared of him then. If Sigma lets his anger show for once, it's always intimidaing to be honest

They often bake cookies together or better, Sigma bakes them and Nikolai eats the chocolate chips and the raw dough leftovers which are still in the bowl

They both enjoy baking together though. These moments are one of the few calm and doemestic moments they have in their life

Often Nikolai also turns on some music while they are baking and to which they dance together while they wait for the cookies after they've put them into the oven

Upon seeing Sigma the first time, Nikolai thought he saw some kind of an angelic person instead of a human and he hated him for a good while because of the things he made him feel

The first time he saw him was when Fyodor and him went to the sky casino in order to talk with Sigma about a new plan and there he saw the casino manager, roaming around in the gambling halls, talking kindly with people and giving commands to his employees.

He had hoped oh so bad that this person wouldn't be the person with who they needed to talk but it was and from there on his emotional struggles began and they lasted for months

Nikolai loves to braid Sigmas' long hair and Sigma also loves to braid Nikolais'

They play poker and other card games together extremly often in the evening

Sigma often wins but Nikolai isn't bad at gambling and playing himself. Both are actually fairly good at card games.

Besides this, Nikolai also often cheats

Nikolai loves to leave small presents for Sigma on the latters desk

Sigma on the other hand always leaves small sticky notes for Nikolai on his nightstand which greet him good morning and which tell him that he loves him when he leaves for work at his casino

Nikolai introduces Sigma to a lot of things and has made it his mission to show Sigma as much fun things to do as he could

There was a lot of bickering and fighting until they sorted everything out and became a couple and by now they still bicker a lot given how irritating Nikolai can sometimes be but despite this, they actually work extremly well

Nikolai helps Sigma through each panic attack, no matter how messy they are and no matter how hysteric he gets and Sigma always helps Nikolai and is there for him when he is breaking down or when he is struggling with guilt after murders or when he's struggling with his need for freedom once again.

Nikolai loves to call Sigma pet names in Ukrainian and loves it even more when Sigma keeps trying to find out what he just called him

Eventually Sigma tries to learn Ukrainian and surprised Nikolai once after he replied to him in Ukrainian.

They went stargazing together once on the rooftop of the casino. Sigma has never felt more closer to the stars and since he loved heights it was even better. Nikolai showed him all the constallations he knew and admired Sigma while the other looked in awe at the stars over them

He thought that Sigmas' eyes sparkled just as much as the stars that night and he loved that sight

When Sigma is sitting on the floor of his office, making himself as small as possible, crying and feeling scared, Nikolai often sits down next to him, holds him close and wraps his overcoats over both of them which always gives Sigma a feeling of security and safety

Sigma helping Nikolai to wash off the blood after another mission while the clown is sitting on the edge of their bathtub, staring holes in the air with empty eyes is a thing

Having a car chase with the police while Nikolai is driving, laughing cheefully and driving like a madman while Sigma is screeching at him to drive faster and aiming at the wheels of the police cars with his gun is a thing too

Nikolai thaught Sigma how to dance and by now they sometimes slow dance together in their kitchen or their living room, Sigma lying his head against Nikolais' shoulder and letting him lead or them leaning their forehead against the others', looking each other in their eyes, drowning in them and just silentley enjoying each others presence, occacionally quietly telling each other sweet nothings.

Sigma often struggles with who he is, his humanity and with his existence, not knowing for what he was born after all and while Nikolai knows that he can't do anything to make his boyfriend feel better, he is still always there for him and calms him down

Sigma once nearly went to work with Nikolai's black lipstick smudged on his lips but luckily one of his co workers informed him kindly about it before he went out to his costumers, saving him from an embrassing situation.

Sigma came home that evening, wanting to strangle Nikolai for not telling him and while Sigma was scolding him Nikolai just laughed which made Sigma even more embaressed and angry so he ended up tackeling Nikolai to the couch, pining him down on his shoulders, straddling his waist and telling him that he's gonna throw him of the sky casino if he does something like that again. Nikolai tried to stay serious while promising him to never do something like that again but failed miserably so he lied on the couch giggling causing Sigma to stand up in defeat but Nikolai quickly stood up too, hugging him from behind, burying his head in the crook of Sigmas' neck and apoligized, asking him not to be angry with him

Of course Sigma couldn't be angry at him for long

Nikolai has a lot of nicknames/ pet names which he loves to call Sigma. Some of them are "birdie", "dove", "doll", "my love", "cookie", "Sig" and multipile bird species which he finds cute.

Dove is his favorite nickname for Sigma

Sigma hogs all of their blankets at night

Nikolai thought Sigma how to braid hair

They love to cuddle with each other

The go bird watching together and feed the birds sometimes

Sigma was deep in denial about his feelings at first and got extremly irritated and angry with Nikolai in that time

Sigma is the only one besides Fyodor who knows that Nikolais' right eye is actually blind

Nikolai feels comfortable enough around Sigma that he often puts off his overcoat and lies it on the couch when he's staying at Sigmas' office for a whole night once again, keeping his boyfriend company while he's working though his paperwork. It's a huge sign of trust

Even if they are in a relationship now, the clown still loves to play pranks on his dove

Nikolai admires Sigma so extremly much and Sigma admires Nikolai too. He would just never admit it out loud.

They sometimes drink tea together and eat cookies while chatting about their day

If anyone of the the casino costumers dares to make Sigma uncomfortable, to make him feel bad or if they would even start to harass him and if Nikolai finds out about it, he will find this person and deal with them in his very own way depening on what they did.

Sigma can defend himself, that's out of question, and he can and will ban people from the casino but he usually stays somewhat polite and Nikolai wants to make sure that they will never ever even dare to try to talk to Sigma

Both are pretty protective of the other but Nikolai is the most protective of them

Nikolai sometimes surprises Sigma with a breakfast

Regular kisses on the hand, cheek or neck are a thing

While they bicker extremly often, they are also super affectionate and caring towards each other

[mint-yooxgi]

Hi! How are you? I hope you are doing okay since i last sent an ask

After reading the last pg chapter i thought about the last part and hours later i am here to share an extremly unpopular opinion

Jongho was right, not a hundred percent but he was kinda right when he said OC is in fault because she could have listened to him, she could have taken a moment to think but she didnt. I understand her completly, i know and acknowledge she went through hards times with her sister and she made a promise but still this situation could have been prevented by doing simple things like questioning why the connection wasnt perfect in the first place. Also, jongho could have said his brothers to come and back them up

But i dont think saying "you are at fault" was what he actually meant. I saw your answer to the person who asked about the spell making the person turn their back to the people they love and at first this was my theory too but then again, why would he want her touch if this was the situation. I still think this is somehow related to the spell but not sure how

And all of the chapters you recently shared were chefs kiss, amazing, perfect, breathtaking

That jongho smut was what i needed all this time and i didnt know it until i read it, thank you

Sorry for this extra one, i forgot to add that i think the one who teleported them back home is oc. She has his blood in her system so i think in the moment of she was able to teleport them, and she used it again in the last part but i have no idea where she went or if they will be able to find her because she could be in another realm for all we know lol

Hey! I'm doing okay, been feeling a little off lately, but I think I just caught a bug is all. I've been better the past few days, though! Hope you've been well, too!

I see where you're coming from, but let me ask you this. Did Jongho really blame the OC for what happened? Also, by this logic, it would also stand to reason that in ch 17, it was entirely Seonghwa's fault the OC got hurt while visiting the dragon's nest. He suggested it. Not only that, but then by that logic, shouldn't we also blame OC for getting hurt for protecting the baby dragon? That was also her fault for choosing to jump in front of the arrows.

There's a lot of contributing factors to why things happened the way they did, more than just to move the story forward. This most recent chapter was meant to parallel ch 17, but now with the OC being on the receiving end of that heart wrenching guilt. This is the first time the OC has experienced a situation like this, and believe it or not, the OC is actually a lot more like Seonghwa than people think. They are very specifically two sides of the same coin, and a lot of their reactions are quite similar when high tension stakes arise.

Sometimes you don't think, you just move.

But let's also not forget about the fact that Jongho chose to protect the OC. He specifically jumped in front of that spell so it wouldn't hit her. I feel like putting the blame on OC due to her high strung emotions both negates his deeds in the moment, and also shifts the blame from the aggressor (Dimitri in this situation) onto his victim (both OC and Jongho in this chapter).

Now, that's not to say OC wasn't rash and didn't rush into things. OC definitely did. However, the OC has never experienced a threat like this, unlike the guys. Hell, they all probably would have acted as rashly if the roles had been reversed and this had been OC contacting them because of Miyeon.

When it comes to a person they love, all logic flies out the window. They are all more similar than you think.

OC is definitely a flawed character, but they all are in some way. Let's not forget that if all of the characters were to act rationally all the time, we wouldn't have an engaging or interesting story. Mistakes are bound to happen. After all, the OC still is only human. ;)

As for the blood, well, you might be onto something there ;)))

Thanks so much for reading, and I'm so glad I got to talk about this a little more in dept in my answer to your ask!

[confusedkittensposts]

@vaicomcas and @lerry-hazel thank you for entertaining my ramblings.

"post-canon" gives me sort of a blank canvas.

we don't know Jack did with angels, demons or hevaen and hell. we know he tore down walls. there was a throw away line "Cas helped" which fandom doesn't like to take as an conformation of Cas being out of the empty, because "how dare something about Casnot be about Dean, in this case his rescue."

So, if show could be vague about it, I can bend things the way I want.

I also realised when I menetioned "post-canon", I meant after my own fix-it fic (That I know I should complete, but I lost a lot of my notes and writing and am feeling dejected so the progress of rewriting is very slow.)

The whole thing about Balthazar is so senseless, that I just think it doesn't even deserve to be "resolved" as if it was an organic storyline. I intend to stay in denial, anyway.

As much as I like denial, I also like the angst of Cas having killed someone very close to him and lived with that guilt for years and now that Balthazar is there he doesný know what to do.

@lerry-hazel you are right.

I have been trying to include everything I mentioned in smaller fics set after the fix-it I mentioned and I realised I absolutly am unfair to other characters and extremly baised towards Castiel.

I have them forgive him, without diving into their betrayl and hurt. which I find unfair, but I am not too good of a writer.

But I love the idea of "A way out of the Empty is through the power of Love"

Me and @vaicomcas already HC the Shadow being sympathetic to Cas.

Cas thinks of himself as unlovable, he feels unloved, he is buried under a lot of shame and guilt.

so the shadow sees his speech to Dean and goes, "nonononono, this isn't how it works"

the shadow guides Cas through his memories and feelings and allthe being he knew and loved.

like everyone is awakw anyway, right?

the show Cas his memories from diffrent POVs, Maybe in their presence.

and they make it very clear that he HAS to work through everything or they will hurt others.

we know shadow can get in the heads of being their domain.

If only I was a good writer...

I think we should talk more about post canon Cas, Meg, Baltazar and Crowley dynamics

Post canon because it's easy to work on the dynamics after everything is said and done.

Both Batlh and Meg are important to Cas and see Crowley as a threat. And I am talking about a scenario where Crowstiel are testing waters with their relationship

For Meg, throughout their saty at the ward and after Cas came back from purgatory, Crowley was trying to kill him. She basically died to keep Crowley away from Cas

She won't have the best relationship with her killer after she comes back.

And when Baltazar died, Cas was working with Crowley and it was one of the biggest problems everyone had.

I think they both would be scared and worried and angry.

I also think Meg would come around quicker.

For a bunch of reasons

Killing baltazar is something that weighs a lot on Cas, he won't just approach Balth except for an apology.

and the way in which Castiel's relationship with heaven worsened. He is likely to confide more in Meg and Crowley and even Rowena.

Like from heaven's and Baltazar'a pov, they will have Cas spending time with demons he is too find of for the angels to be comfortable.

Also Meg would get a long with Rowena, I just know it and they will gang up on Crowley. And Crowley will make rulling Hell, hell by being the master of the Hellhounds.

That's something that would be interesting and funny and has lot of potential

Comming back to angels, they will take a long time to come around each other. There is a lot of pain and hurt and betrayal amongst them.

Also fixing relationships between Cas and angels will start only after Cas deals with the crushing guilt he lives with.

Like there is so much explored of these characters.

I have no idea why SPN writes insisted to making those two flannel clad nightmares the main characters, the only thing that can be done with them is

I lied to my brother-I messed up-my brother is in danger- we broke the world

It gets boring after third round

What you have here all makes sense and I agree, can be interesting to think about.

However I'm not sure it would be "post canon". Canon-wise, Jack brought back those Chuck killed-- but I don't get the sense he brought back "everybody who had ever been killed"? granted, I didn't really watch 5x19 and 5x20, and certainly not the "prequel", so I could be missing some information, but I wouldn't think post finale universe includes resurrected Meg and Balthazar.

The show's storylines for angels is done with such absolute malice and disdain it's pretty much impossible to explore it fairly without going non-compliant with canon. The whole thing about Balthazar is so senseless, that I just think it doesn't even deserve to be "resolved" as if it was an organic storyline. I intend to stay in denial, anyway.

So, you should definitely explore these things as you like, I'd only suggest there is no need to tie it to canon.

[dollmoth-productions]

can i ask for a platonic yandere madrigal family with a little more focus on Pepa and Luisa woth a gn reader whose body produces some kind of pheromones that induces people into a state of absolute calmness and relaxation and it's extremly addictive, but can only be smelled if the reader is being hugged.

(YESSS LUISA I LOVE HEEEEERRRRRR I will be doing Luisa and Pepa

TW OBSESSIVE BEHAVIOR STALKING POSSESSIVE BEHAVIOR STOCKHOLM SYNDROME MANIPULATION ABUSIVE BEHAVIOR

☀️Pepa☀️

💛 you were very useful to Pepper whenever she needs you do calm her down abuela often locks you in the same room as her even though she knows her toxic Behavior because of your chemical being naturally addicting she often can't be anywhere but five feet away from you whenever she's raining you commonly are by her so she stops even without your chemical being produced it's amazing to the town

💛 she's quite touch starved and often you are her favorite child to be around so it's not good you're only seventeen and you're often always around your mother often giving her a rainbow not even your family helps anymore because her toxic traits are practically rubbing off of them

💛 it's very scary whenever you are gone because whenever you're helping the town people with their anxiety she gets very very jealous and I mean when she's dragging You Back by your outfits you know it's bad you won't be severely punished you'll just be punished

💛 you have a scar on your face from her accidentally producing a lightning bolt she has not forgiven herself yet so it's quite quite annoying to say the least she's always saying I'm sorry and pampering you after The Accidental hurting but you know she secretly liked it

💛 to say the least you are very annoyed with your mother's Behavior especially since now your family is acting the exact same as her you can't even get some peace and quiet without them being 5 ft away or watching you

💙Luisa💙

💙 if you stop Peppa was bad with the affection just get ready for her she is commonly what Hold Your Hand which will accidentally get some sent on her she'll smell isn't instantly calm down and then do her chores you'll do your chores around the town to you too or possibly even closer than cousins she practically knows you as a sibling

💙 you will not be alone for long periods of time if you even get alone time it's amazing whenever she's really really upset like practically breaking down abuela thinking rationally will force you to be in the same room as her so you can do your thing

💙 it's scary to say the least what she can do whenever she's angry which barely happens the most that she's ever done this accidentally broke your hand and her mother's food often fixes she never likes hurting you but your punishments are really bad or necessarily good it's guilt-tripping

💙 you often feel so guilty that you just agree to stay with her more you often can't even do your duties anymore or she'll just have an extreme withdrawal and start having some breakdowns and now you can't even do your work

💙 she was scared of you leaving her or leaving Encanto so she often put something in front of your door so you can't leave and somehow she always gets away back in so you two can hang out it's quite amazing to say the least her persistence

[cant-think-of-anything]

Gideon: If you arent going to talk to me thats fine but for the love of god talk to someone because if youre as bad as me at this youre gonna need it

But exactly

Thomas doesnt see his problems as big as the others ahd his friends have so much going on that they just, checked up once and got caught up so much with their own issues that they just left it there. Not to say they dont love Thomas they just, theres a lot going on and Thomas doesnt want to take away from the support sustem hes offered with his problems. His only other support system is his family and I dont think he wants to take away from there either, specially since it relates to his grieve

Alastair doesnt KNOW what a support system is

Hes just doung things alone again and again

The CLOSEST thing he had to a support system outside of people he was already protecting and placed burdens on him (even if unintentional) was charles (derogatory)

And that proved worthless because turns out Charles wasnt all that concerned for being there for him

Cordelia would be a good choice if he didnt soend 10 years hiding everything so shed be alright

And then when he does start to open up shes the one that closes down because of her own issues she doesnt want to bother people with

Sona (I adore her) not a good option. Because how do you tell your mother "hey that thing you did extremly hurt me and just led me down a path of making horrible desicions that have led me here"

And Thomas-

He could

But again alastair doesnt know what a support system is. He doesnt even want thomas around in case he hurts him. He loves him enough to let him go ao no support system

Hes just alone and it hurts

Thomas even mentions after his sister dies that he "doesn't want to intrude" and he "doesn't want to make his friends sad with his sadness" which is really hard to read because the way he says it is clearly him feeling as if his emotions aren't important and they deserve to be ignored.

Alastair always seems to think that he doesn't deserve support and happiness. Even when Cordelia is like "it must suck to live with Elias again are you okay" he responds with "even though it's selfish I'm glad I can talk to you about it" and that's probably the closest he's had to someone supporting him. And they don't even get to interact that often. Something I've noticed a lot in these books is that characters point out that another is hurting but they don't act on it. For all Cordelia talked about Alastairs invisbale scars and his broken heart she didn't reach out to him. Alastair pushes Thomas away too and honestly I understand. Like I can't imagine the amount of guilt he always feels and it's probably really difficult to be around Thomas when he's a constant reminder of it. It would be different if the story centered more around forgiveness and growth

Imagine Sophie giving advice and Thomas just- dying out of embarrassment. I mean he USES it but he's embarrassed for sure

[flamingtunapictures]

TGAAC - My Top 10 Characters

My list of top 10 characters from The Great Ace Attorney Chronicles. Not like anyone really cares, but I was bored. The characters are my #1 reason for loving the Ace Attorney series as much as I do because you just never know who you’re going to meet! The thrill of seeing what kind of whacky personality you encounter is *chef’s kiss* (#’s 6-10 are in no particular order. #1-5 are in a very particular order). Also goes without saying *SPOILER ALERT*. Now then, without further ado--my unrequested opinion:

#10. Gina Lestrade I have her on this list because I thought her dialogue was immaculately written. Her accent came out strong and clear and she was fun to listen to in my head.

#9. Dr. Courtney Sithe While I find Dr. Sithe’s personality a little predictable and her snake-ish visual cues very on the nose, her design is very eye-catching and wonderfully elegant. Her being on this list has nothing to do with her strong “step-on-me” energy...

#8. William Shamspeare The only reason this lazily-named buffoon is on my list is because he’s EXTREMLY entertaining to watch. I would maybe trade this one out for Herlock Sholmes in terms of humorous quips paired with ridiculous animations (specifically the “DEUCES” moments and when Sholmes falls backwards in shock. good laughs, good times.)

#7. Magnus McGilded Outside of Luke Atmey’s larceny case in Trials and Tribulations (which was one my favorite cases of all the games) we don’t see very much deviation to the typical play-out of a case. They’re usually pretty linear -- murder > false accusation > red herring red herring red herring > PLOT TWIST! > real murderer caught > real murderer admits guilt > NOT GUILTY victory! The fact that they used this case to explore the concept of an ambiguous and sinister victory was a fun change of tone in the series. Also uhhh....Hugh Jackman, anyone? Hullo?

#6. Fish and Chips Who cares about Tobias (He dies anyways. RIP...) I’m just here for his mouth-watering fish and chips. I may or may not have ordered chicken fingers a few times after these buggers graced the scene...

#5. Maria Gorey First, I keep reading her name as “Mariah” which then my brain auto-fills to “Mariah Carey”... I digress. Goth QUEEN --she makes my top 5 not only because she reminds me of one of my closest friends, but I appreciated how they infused actual competency and moral indifference into her otherwise potentially tropey “death-obsessed-creepy-weirdo” arc. She’s not evil or chaotic even, but she just couldn’t care less about anybody else’s agenda. She does her job, does it well, and doesn’t feel the need to be shady or secretive about anything. On another note, I really like how anticlimactic the reveal of her face was. It was very like “oh, the mask came off. That didn’t need any goading.”

#4. Barok Van Zieks Okay, this one really surprised me. When I first encountered Barok Van Zieks in the courtroom he didn’t really leave any lasting impression on me. I thought he was kind of a generic over-designed, exposition-ly over-pumped prosecutor (how I feel about Simon Blackquill and Franziska etc) with repetitive, over indulgent chalice comments. Needless to say, I was ready to write him off after the first game.  BUT THEN... The second game! Holy cow! they really fleshed out his character in a wonderful “show don’t tell” way. They gave him fantastic depth and believable motivations for his words, opinions, and overall conduct. I felt like I could understand why he was the way he was and I felt for him a little. The thing I found myself admiring most about his character though was how consistently honorable he was. Despite what others suspected of him, he was never afraid to face any accusations because he knew that at the end of the day, his actions were honorable and true. I love how his testimonies, when accused of murder, were written--that he just told the court what happened as he remembered it-- as incriminating as it may have seemed. He didn’t feel the need to leave out details or skew any perceptions of events. He simply said “I didn’t do it” because he didn’t, and trusted whole heartedly that the truth would prevail. Was very fun to see that faith honored.

#3. Adron B. Metermann He’s a freak’n bee. Need I say more? But I will. Adron (and his boss) make my number 3 because of the absolute delight I experienced when I realized his visual pun (and subsequent first-half-of-his name pun). Not only do I love the personality of ace attorney characters, but I have always admired their striking and clever visual presence too. This one captures that cleverness beautifully.

#2. Enoch Drebber Enoch Drebber was weird, a little creepy, and absolutely fascinating to me! He probably had my favorite set of animations in the entire game. The whole time I was hoping to get some glimpse of whether or not half his body was actually mechanical or if he was just choosing to move that way because he was “quirky”. Being an Ace Attorney character the answer could be either, or both. I will admit I was a little disappointed that his breakdown didn’t give us any further clues to that answer. Besides that, I loved his gaunt, elegant, creepy, and sinister design. Very beautiful, and very handsome.

HONORABLE MENTIONS

A couple of honorable mentions before we get to my top favorite character from TGAAC. On the left we have Venus...which I mean...Espella Cantebella? What happened to you? Don’t do drugs kids. (she made the HM list purely for the drug joke...sorry) On the right we have Ryutaro Naruhodo, which for those unfamiliar, is just Susato Mikotoba disguised as a man. I’m not saying gay panic, but I’m also not not saying it.

In general, I loved all the designs of the main cast too, particularly Ryunosuke, Casual clothes Herlock (”oh no, he’s hooot”), Yujin Mikotoba’s British suit ensemble, Judge Jigoku etc etc etc. Basically I thought the presentation of all the characters in this game were some of the best from any Ace Attorney game. 10/10 would recommend.

But now FINALLY! Onto my #1 FAVORITE character from TGAAC!

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#1. Soseki Natsume This man is everything I look forward to in an Ace Attorney game. The whacky, over-the-top, unpredictable character! 

Not only did I find this man’s general disposition rather likeable in a pitiful way, but his animations and emoting were arguably the most enjoyable to encounter. When he first graced the scene I was like “YES! THIS IS THE CHARACTER I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR!” From his ridiculous 4 word pose poetry to intense quaking, I never found myself getting bored with a Soseki interaction. I wish I was smart enough to come up with some clever 4 word conclusion to my thoughts on this man, but alas.

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Alright, thanks for tuning in. Have a nice day.

[angrylittletrashpanda]

Jude x the Ghost headcanons

Here are headcanons for my stupid-ass fic (wip).

1. Mutual reluctance - Jude thinks he’s a haughty jerk, who aways has problems with everything she does and takes pleasure in criticizing her. The Ghost thinks she searches praise for everything she does.

2. Jude never grew to trust him (=Oak’s would-be murderer). So, when Nicasia told her someone whom she trusted had betrayed her, the Ghost is beyond suspicions. Paradoxically.

3. Locke, wanting to see Cardan’s grief (he is also possessive and wants Cardan for himself, so tires to show the King how deceitful women, especially mortals,are) orders the Ghost to seduce Jude. He is not very happy about it, since perceives Jude as disgusting (bitten nails, different body type than female fairies’ etc).

4.The Ghost feels self-disgust, when discovers he’s attracted to Jude:

a/sense of guilt - he realizes Jude does not deserves being sth like Locke’s toy/ wants to respect her chastity;

b/Jude’s just a filthy mortal, he’s too good to lust after such a moose;

c/He is mad at Jude for being such a ‘provocateur’, because it is easier than admitting that she could be appealing.

5. Both of them are not the  best people ever.

6. The Ghost finds Jude not especially tallented, yet extremly hardworking and self-determined. 

7. Grows to understand why Jude ‘searches praise’ when he sees how Jude is poisioning herself.  He starts to develop feelings for her: concern, pity, something like admiration.

8. Feels unworthy of her. Although he has human ancestors, he realizes he  lost all traces of humanity he had ever had.

9. When the Ghost starts to show  Jude kindness, she grows to feel safe with him (although she still does not trust him at all), He is, in fact,the only supportive person she has. And can calm her down. 

10. When Jude realizes the Ghost’s attractive for her, she thinks she has found a ‘cure’ for Cardan (fight fire with fire etc).

11. And yet she feels ashamed she is so shameless.

12. Jude is disgusted by the fact that the Ghost, older than Cardan, might have had numerous lovers.

13. She’s a little mad at herself for liking the Ghost too much (his tenderness vs. blind loyalty to Dain)

14. The Ghost tells Jude he loves her literally  a few hours before he gives her up to Queen Orlagh’s people.

More #trash available on my ao3.

[angelicmichael]

hehehe im here with a prompt for michael “Can you feel the blood draining from your body?” Thenk youuuuu- Michaellangdonstanaccount

A/N: thank you for requesting this ♥️♥️ so I did this with Vampire! Michael because I’ve always wanted to write for Vampire Michael and I saw the opportunity w this and took it haha. I feel like this starts out being sexy and fluffy and then it just nosedives into complete angst so.. get ready hehe.

Warnings: Michael drinks readers blood so, if blood freaks you out than please skip this haha. There is a major death in this, I don’t wanna spoil the fic but someone dies 😶 and it’s described heavily so expect major angst!

You’d think having a vampire boyfriend would complicate a relationship but it didn’t really. If anything it made you feel safer than dating any human would, you knew Michael could protect you. Easily.

You and Michael had been together for atleast two years; and you’ve done everything together. You’ve traveled the world together and even moved in but there was one thing that you two hadn’t done.. You hadn’t let him drink him from you.

It wasn’t that you didn’t trust him or love him enough to do this, it’s just that you were nervous. Nervous to try something new and as jarring as to literally put your life in your boyfriends hands. But nevertheless, you finally agreed and caved in.

You weren’t too nervous though, you knew you would be safe with Michael. You always were and would be.

Now you were in your house that you shared with Michael, on the couch. You insisted on doing this in the bathroom just in case things got messy but Michael insisted to do it either in the bedroom or on the couch; somewhere where you would be most comfortable.

Your neck had already been prepped and cleaned.. Now you waited anxiously. The room was kept extremly dim; no lights were turned on. The only light source came from several candles that were scattered around the room. The couch was velvet, and warm against your skin. You lied down while Michael lay next to you, also his idea.

“Are you ready”?

You heard Michaels voice from beside you; it was deep and sultry. It probably would’ve been considered sexy in a normal circumstance where you weren’t about to have your blood sucked from you like a damn caprisun.

You merely nodded and added a quiet, “Yes”.

That’s all it took. You felt like a statue as you felt Michaels lips gently kiss your neck. You felt his lips continue to move; it was almost as if he was trying to leave a hickey.. and then - you felt his teeth.

The puncture of Michael actually biting you was quick. You winced, your fingers curled and dig into the velvet couch below you and you let out a hum - not one of pleasure but one of slight discomfort and a bit of pain.

You felt Michael start to melt into you as he got more comfortable. His head and shoulders relaxed and you felt his soft blonde hair tickle your face and neck; the scent of his shampoo seemed to relax you and distract you of the fleeting pain that was gently throbbing in your neck. His hands gently gripped your arms for support.

However; the feeling of being faint and weak seemed to suddenly hit you like a freight train. The room was quickly growing darker and darker and you were breathing faster and faster. Your body started to feel static and numb from the loss of blood.. At this rate you were going to pass out.

“Michael.. stop”. You weakly croaked out. You felt Michael pull away from your neck; it was the hot breath and the panting that told you he had stopped drinking from you.. You could still feel the blood rushing from your neck though.

“Can you feel the blood draining from your body”? Michael asked. His voice thick.

“Yes! Please.. stop”. Your voice ended as a mere whisper at the end of your sentence. You could only hope that Michael heard you. However; the last thing you felt before you completely lost consciousness was Michaels lips on your neck once again.

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Michael seemed to go into a frenzy the second his lips touched your neck. He first felt confident in himself enough at first to know he wouldn’t hurt you but those feelings immeaditly subsided once he tasted your sweet blood in his mouth. It was sweeter than sugar; sweeter than honey. All rational thought left his mind and he seemed to go completly primal.

Your pleading; you begging him to stop did nothing to Michael. Even when you lost consciousness he kept going; it was only until he felt the fresh sweet taste of your blood start to dull and turn bitter was when he stopped. The weird ‘blackout’ he seemed to be in was over.

His worst nightmare had came true. He hurt you. He fucking killed you. The color of your skin; the fact that your blood was no longer fresh; and the fact that your heart was no longer beating.. it was obvious you were fucking dead.

Michael screamed. He fell to his knees immeaditly as tears quickly fell down his face and onto his clothes, and even onto your corpse. He held onto you and sobbed.

He couldn’t help but think how the hell he was going to carry on with this guilt; this grief for the rest of eternity. He was immortal after all.

He honestly had never wished to be a mortal, human more than he had in this moment. If only he was human, at least he would be comforted with the idea that at least one day the grief would end.

But for now; he was stuck with the truth that he had killed you in cold blood. And he would have to live with that. Forever.

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[nimsajlove]

Moments (V/VI)

I still have my problems with these two. After three new trys I am finally happy with Cutup, but Echo... idk, let me know what you think. When you have a good idea, I am here for it.

The Design for Cutup is extremly inspired by this artwork. The Idea came from “Dominoes” by @meridiansdominoes Its awsome, check it out

Brothers-AU  Ao3

Part IV , Part VI

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"Are you serious?", she asked amused and watched how the men in the hangar around her fiddled with the new paint. She knew how it worked, after major changes the clones were happy to adapt their appearance to the new situation. Still, she somehow got the feeling that Cutup had overdone it a little. She was sitting cross-legged on one of the crates, the clone's helmet in front of her. She picked it up gently and ran her thumb over the new markings, the paint had just dried and felt strangely rough under her finger. She stared into one of Cutup's faces and saw herself. In the new color, which was more bronze than orange, the markings on his helmet where similar to the ones, which also made her face unique. "Of course!", Cutup grinned and she looked up, he was leaning against the crate and watching her. There was something new about his look… more serious than she had expected. "Do you remember the incident two months ago?", he asked, his voice a little muffled. Ahsoka didn't had to ponder long, that tiny moment had been burned into her memory! "Yeah, never do that again!", she growled and her grip on the helmet tightened, before she carefully put it back in front of her. What exactly was he getting at? “I owe you my life. And then I thought, it's only fair if I show everyone who my loyalty belongs to.", Cutup announced with a small grin and watched, as a lump formed in Ahsoka's throat. She had expected many explanations, but not this one! She loved her brothers, but she had never thought that they would be willing to openly admit the same! She hastily wiped her cheeks and eyes, Cutup's hand landed on her shoulder and she hastily pulled him to her, hugging her brother as hard as she could and taking a deep breath.

"No need to get upset anymore.", He chuckled and Ahsoka released him from her grasp, her grin bright and wide. “Besides, I have something else. So save your strength.", Cutup laughed out loud and turned around, Hevy absently pressed something into his hands. She craned her head in curiosity, but dared not reach for the thing in Cutup's hand. Finally he put it in her fingers, a gentle smile spreading on her face. Very carefully she traced the writing on the bracer with her index finger. 'Vod'ika' was written there in big blue letters. "What do you think?", he asked softly and she looked up smiling. "This is everything to me!" 

"Oh Cutup.", she sighed, an amused smile on her face. It was the first time in over 4 days, that she found the time to wash herself and maybe change. They had only just got back on the cruiser, the new paint on the clones' uniforms now scratched and not quite as perfect as before. However, in the eyes of the clones, it only made it all more valuable.Her bracer had also been damaged, but not nearly as much as it would have been in one of the great battles. Tired but satisfied, she began to undress and took off the bracer, only to pause. There was, of course, a catch in the story with the present! There was fresh paint on the inside. "You called me?", Cutup laughed, sticking his head into the public refresher, a big grin on his face. Ahsoka's lekku turned dark, then she held her arm under Cutup's nose. "Really?", she asked softly, 'Vod’ika' shimmered blue on her skin. The clone hesitated, suddenly unsettled. "Too much? Wrong timing?”, he asked hastily and Ahsoka took her arm back and stared at the writing for a few heartbeats. Never before had her brothers so openly claimed her as sister. "I can help to get rid of this!", assured Cutup and Ahsoka gritted her teeth, looked at his hectic attempts to talk his way out and started to snort. Of course, this was the wrong time, but it was damn good that she had visual evidence of being loved! Cutup paused, then relaxed and sighed in relief. "I thought you hate me now.", he grinned and without hesitation, she pulled him, half-naked as she was, into a bone-crushing hug. Laughing, she released him and ran a finger over the dried paint on her skin. “Oh I absolutely hate you, you'd better sweep the hangar quickly. I'll be right there and check it.", she grinned, her brother laughed. Still, he took her seriously. "Yes ma’am." With that he was gone.

Ahsoka leaned on the sink, still grinning, and looked at the thick letters again. It was okay, no one else would see it and when she was washing herself, she decided on the spot not to get rid of the color right away. It was nice to be loved, after all what had happened.

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"Okay, what about this?" She turned the datapad over to Echo. He eyed Ahsoka's new approach with furrowed eyebrows, and there was a moment of silence. They were alone in the large canteen, neither of them had gotten much sleep in the last few weeks. She clutched her cup of caf with both hands. Echo shook his head. ��We don't have a better version? More than half of it is missing.", he complained and pushed the plans for the newest battleship of the separatists back to her. The girl snorted and wiped the plans off the pad. "I just once entered one of these, of course my plans are incomplete.", she grumbled and Echo's hand went soothingly to her forearm, sighing deeply she switched off the datapad and put her head in her hands. "Sorry, I just want to be prepared.", she mumbled and got sick at the thought, that they would hijack such a ship in a few hours. But the jedi order needed this information and her men had simply refused, to let her go alone. "I know, I'll complete the data.", Echo said calmly, his hand not leaving her arm.

There was silence for a few minutes, Ahsoka tried to get her worry under control and she was so immensely grateful, that Echo just sat there and waited. After a while she raised her head and patted his hand gratefully, a small smile lighting her face. "May I?", asked Echo and reached for the datapad, she shrugged her shoulders. "I won't stop you." With a smile he took it and switched it on again, before placing the pad on the table between them. “Here, there it goes to the next level. It's just not as symmetrical as you suspect.", he began and drew an outline with one finger, it deviated greatly from Ahsoka's first plans. With every detail that Echo could reveal, the new ship turned out to be more and more of an endless labyrinth. Frustrated, she studied the new discoveries and then threw her hands in the air. "Great, I can throw my strategy overboard!", she growled and pulled the datapad over to her. She started planning the mission from the beginning, somehow she had to be able to get this! With clenched teeth, she mentally pushed her troops back and forth, Echo's gaze following her attempts. At some point her cup was empty, he took it and after a few moments came back with a full one. "Thanks.", she mumbled, how did she deserve this brother?

Sighing, she gave up, took a sip, and gave the datapad a disapproving look. "Echo, can you maybe...?" She saw the clone involuntarily pull up his shoulders, but still not refuse. She watched him alarmed, his fingers trembled. "Forget it, you don't have to do this.", she mumbled and reached for her datapad, she could have kicked herself. She herself was still struggling with the aftermath of her turbulent career, how could she have underestimated Echo's experiences. He had developed plans that had killed so many men. She swallowed convulsively at her feelings of guilt and looked down at her plans, a gentle hand holding her back from further work. "It's okay, I want to help.", he smiled and carefully took the datapad. Ahsoka's stomach knotted, Echo's fingers were still trembling, and he operated the pad with his new hand. "I don't want to force you to... Maybe you can just help me with the starfighters right away?", she protested, but he shook his head. “I have so much knowledge in here, that I could just use. Besides, we have to devise new tactics anyway. And I'll be damned, if I don't help you protect our brothers.” She returned his sad look and then nodded. In the end, they both put their brothers above themselves.

[morathicain]

My engineer - ep 13/3

The other parts are here (FrongThara, RamKing, BohnDuen) and you can find other reviews here

Sooooo, after two rather usual reviews, it’s time for a different one. This one is about Bohn mostly. I’ll separate it from the Bohn/Duen part, because I need to let go of all those emotions ... this will be chaotic probably, but bear with me please!

Warning: I’m forever soft for Bohn and angry at Duen. If you like Duen, please scroll further and don’t let me ruin your day/night/... ;)

So, we had Bohn almost crying last episode and obviously being still a bit sad about it. No wonder with him trying his best to get any affection and Duen pulling away all the time ... and then, when he waits for Duen like a good boyfriend, Duen comes back with the shirt he bought with Frong, asking Bohn if he’s looking GOOD! Bohn says yes, but he’s already a bit weary and probably tired of complimenting Duen all the time.

And THEN Frong comes over, wearing the same damn shirt and Duen telling Bohn why that’s the case.

Imagine your boyfriend, who’s friendly and cute to everyone else besides you, pulling away all the time and unable to read your mood in any way (and Bohn is no Ram, he’s an open book tbh) or react to it anyway goes away to change from the couple-/group-shirt into the shirt he bought with your RIVAL, a guy Duen has repeatedly invited to dates and this trip, who Duen SMILES at honestly. And Frong had an obvious crush on Duen, still doesn’t seem to be over it yet. This isn’t anyone and if Duen would treat Bohn the same way he treats Frong (not even better, just the SAME), it probably wouldn’t even be much of a problem. Hell, those couple-shirts weren’t even real couple-shirts, because the whole group had this theme. Duen would have blocked Bohn if he’d asked to wear a couple-shirt ... to be honest, I would go crazy as well! I’d be pissed and I understand Bohn being pissed. But instead of the aggressive one, he’s always painted by everyone, he sulks and is grumpy. Usually I’d say “talk”, but I’m not sure Duen would understand at all ... because HOW can he not understand in this situation why Bohn is irritated and angry? But Bohn just wants to be left alone then, not in the mood for anything anymore.

And again, Duen doesn’t understand and pushes him into the river. It could have been a funny moment, if Bohn wasn’t so extremly tired and exhausted. For Duen, his boyfriend to disregard his wish, to not be able to read his mood in any way, despite being so obvious, must have hurt a lot. I understand him walking away and getting his time alone, walking the frustration off.

Still, when Mind appears, Bohn tells him he’s not gonna break up with Duen and says all the right things, being the perfect bf when rejecting Mild. He coulnd’t prevent being kissed and he didn’t get violent, simply threatening it. Despite his frustration he’s ready to stay with Duen and to be faithful and to commit to his love. And on top of that he feels guilty. Guilty for being attacked by someone, even though he didn’t do anything wrong at all! He feels so guilty, he doesn’t even dare to tell Duen. It’s just on top of all this frustration.

After that he even disguises he actual frustration and exhaustion as “teasing”, not showing his true feelings once more. Which makes you wonder about the past times he’s used this line. Has he always been so hurt, but wanted no one to see it or to make peace with Duen despite still being hurt?

No one would sleep apart from their SO just for teasing, least of all Bohn, who would love nothing more than to be close to Duen. But the guilt and the frustration and pain make it impossible for him to do this.

But King kind of sees through it instantly (finally in his element again), knowing something isn’t right and proving why they are friends (gimme more of that!!).

What hit me most was Bohn saying Duen probably wouldn’t care anyway. This is such deep disappointment in this relationship, such little trust of being worthy enough, of his boyfriend caring enough to get jealous. This one damn sentence  showed how deeply fucked this relationship is. Bohn isn’t unsure anymore, he’s sure Duen wouldn’t care and he still wants to stay with him, being hurt when Duen avoids him. His expectations are by now the lowest of of all times. To think your bf wouldn’t care if you kissed anyone or if anyone molested you ... because yes, he feels guilty, but he was molested, damnit! He could have told Duen he got kissed by someone else even though he didn’t want to. But he fears Duen would blame him and not understand the problem. Because this is about the guy who was like: “What if I had raped you last night?”, being happy when Bohn answered “I would still love you”, for FUCK’S SAKE!!

This also shows something else: Bohn thinks of himself as the bad guy. Everyone else says it, so it must be true. He must be guilty for everything, being at fault. And he gets presented like this by other ppl as well, mostly Duen. But he isn’t. He tries his very best to be a good boyfriend and he defends Duen despite all the shit he’s pulled before!

Just so you know, Duen never defended Bohn when others painted him as an asshole. He never once said: “Stop saying this shit about him!”, but let them think it... sometimes it even seems as if he’s playing extra into the part, making Bohn sulk and pout with his behaviour in public, seeming innocent to everyone, but not behind closed doors.

This fits the narrative and I kind of thought this might happen ...

Bohn thinks he’s the bad guy until the end, apologising all the time as if he’d done anything especially wrong. He could have told Duen, but well he didn’t believe Duen would care or understand and he still felt guilty. Bc this must be somehow his fault as well, doesn’t it? ... I’ll discuss this in the next part, UGH!

In conclusion: I want to hug Bohn and tell him everything’s gonna be alright and Duen doesn’t deserve him and he’s good and amazing and worthy <3 this guy did a whole turn from being the supposed playboy to being soft and wonderful, but also soooo damn vulnerable in love ...

All you Bohn-needs-love-supporters, let’s UNITE! <3

[exodusmc]

Sinner

Genre: smut, Lucifer au 

Words: 2147 

Paring: Lucifer Taehyung x reader

Warning!: mentions of suicide and bullying, (selling your soul to lucifer?), oral (m receiving),  degrading language, dirty talk, choking, saliva, penetrativ sex, (demon cock?), Master kink, light bondage (chains, how fun), touching of cervix, overstimulation  (fainting because of it), brusing, hickeys, slight cock warming, a lot of cum. 

a/n: So this is the most extrem thing I have every written and I feel extremly dirty but oh well…and chains, how fun. 

Gif is not mine

Wings spread from his back like black thunder clouds. The hair on his head was brighter than the sun, contrasting everything about him. His eyes blue as kristals. It was not how you thought he would look. You had expected horns from his head and a tail from his back, but he was an angel from the beginning. A smirk graced his god like features, chin resting in his hand, skin glowing. The crown on his head was big, magnific. Gold almost blending into his hair. Clothed in black and red of blood, he looked beautiful. 

“So, human, how come you are here? In hell and still breathing?” his voice was deeper than the oceans, licking up your burning skin. Why were you here? To beg, to plead, to do anything. 

“I..I want to ask for a life..” he raised an eyebrow at you, interest showing in his dangerous eyes. 

“As in death or reborn?” he voiced the question with mock, sure that you were here with a polluted heart. Tears formed in your eyes, hair falling over your face, fear and regret growing into your soul. 

“As in someone to survive..” you whispered, meeting him again. Lucifer sat on his throne, looking down at you like he looked down at the world. “To live again”

Taehyung clicked his tongue, pondering about what you had done to be this desperate. He was sure you already knew that you wouldn’t leave this place alive. So why do it? No human can feel so much love, to give their own life to him for someones.

“Why?” the question rang in your ears, like the time you first realised what you had done, who you had killed because you were afraid, a coward. 

“Because she deserves to live and I don’t..”your voice broke, guilt like Taehyung never heard before. 

“Tell me, human, what did you do?” images played in your mind, every old wound ripping open again to bleed. 

Taehyung saw what was in your head, the story of friends and one who turned away. The girl you wanted to save was your old best friend and someone you made the mistake of losing because of the want to fit in. Your friend had been bullied by the people you called your new ones. She had tried to get your help, slowly falling to pieces everytime your turned your back. Time wasn’t your friend, nor hers, and she finally broke. Taehyung saw the suicide, he saw her leave for heaven and he saw your soul shattering the second she stopped breathing. When you looked at Taehyung again was his gaze darker than death itself. 

“You killed her. You have sinned” you cried silently, not denying anything because it was true. 

“And you want me to take your soul for hers?” you nodded, staring at him, pleading for him to accept. She had always wanted to be a doctor to save lives, she had always wanted to live, and you took it from her. That was what led you to your knees before Lucifer, selling yourself to him. 

“It will hurt, will be miserable for you” he watched you for any change but you just nodded, already knowing it. 

“Okay human..I’ll take your offer” something sinister grew in his eyes, a feeling of being suffocated with it.   

You gasped and thrashed on the floor, crying your eyes out. It hurt so much but Taehyung smiled, liking your pain a little more than others. He knew what he wanted from you and he knew you would fall for him, you were a mere human woman. They always fell for lust, and they fell hard. A scream ripped through you, tearing everything you were with it. You fell limp against the floor, only to see leather shoes before your burning eyes. 

“It’s done. She is alive, breathing” you smiled, eyes falling shut as if you were dying. You felt at peace for the first time in years but it didn’t last, it would never. 

“You are mine now. You are for me to do what I want” Taehyung yanked you by your hair, eyes glowing and staring at the pureness of your unmarked throat. Fear ran through your spine but you were his, and was to submit to his desires. 

“Yes master” Taehyung smirked at your words, already having broken you. The way you looked at him did things to him, you were under his complet control. 

“Good girl. Now come” you moved after him, staring at his broad shoulder, feeling oddly out of feelings. 

Taehyung sat down, you kneeling between his legs without him having to say it. He grinned down at you, at how good you listened. A hand patted your head, as if you were a dog, maybe you were one now. Lucifer dragged his fingers down to your chin, grabbing it with his thumb and index finger, making you look at his lusty gaze. 

“You have fallen, little hum-, I mean little slut..” he looked proudly at your glossy eyes, at the way he saw your body reacting from him.  “You will please me, right?”

You nodded, hands running over his muscular thighs, stopping over his semi hiding behind fabric. Taehyung kept his fingers laced in your hair, nodding for you to keep going. You listened to the silent command, grabbing his cock. It was big, textured. Your hands looked small around it but just the sight of it throbbing had you craving sins. 

“Go on slut..Make your master feel good” Taehyung whispered, dragging your lips closer to him. 

“Yes master” you moved your hands up and down his cock, feeling every bump, every vein. Taehyung groaned, gripping harder at you hair. You knew you should hurry up and suck him but couldn’t really make yourself do it. 

“Come on, put your pretty little lips around me” you hesitated for a second and in return felt a hard tug at your roots, making you hurry to enclose his cock with your mouth. 

Taehyung sighed happily at the feeling of you around him, sucking and moving up and down like it was your only call to please him. You sucked mostly at his tip, afraid to take all of him. He would definitely choke you but Taehyung didn’t care, only grabbed the sides of your hair and pushing all of himself deep down your throat. You had been right, his whole length made you choke and gag around him, saliva dripping around your whole chin and tears falling over your cheeks. Taehyung loved the mess you were, how you struggled to take him like a good slut. His own thoughts made him moan. He kept moving, giving you mere seconds to swallow, before moving back down your throat. Your sight blurred slightly when Taehyung let out a growl, shaking you to the core. His cum tasted bitter on your tongue but you didn’t mind, finally being able to breathe. 

“Swallow it all” you did, every last drop. Your throat felt dry and hurt but the air which flew down to your lungs was overpowering it. You coughed, teary eyes looking up at Taehyung, who could burst again at the sight.

Your hair was messy and saliva still dropped down your mouth. He dragged you up, placing you on his lap, eyes deep with lingering lust. 

“What a good slut you are” he caressed down your arms, taken by how your body moved for him. You weren’t like the others, you were better. 

“Thank you master” the voice which left you was hoarse and you cold feel its rawness. 

“Would you like an reward? For being so good?” wetness pooled in your panties, something you gasped at. Taehyung smiled dangerously and you shivered.  

“Yes master” he hummed pleased. Hands moving to the collar of your shirt, noting to get you a dog collar later. The fabric ripped easily, leaving your upper part exposed, the bra having been destroyed as well.  

Taehyung leaned forward, taking a deep breath of your scent. You tensed in his lap, a wet feeling dragging up the side of your neck. Lucifer licked over your whole throat, leaving mark after mark, having you gasping every time. His hands grabbed your nipples, hard. You arched your back, pushing your chest deeper into his hands. Taehyung chuckled against your collarbone, your fingers grabbing his hair. He growled into your skin, pinching a nipple as a warning.

“Behave you slut or burn” you dropped your hands, clutching the fabric of your skirt. You panted, desperate for more, already burning. 

Taehyung kept going on your nipples while you did everything you could to sit still and not move against his rugged thighs. 

“P-please master…Please touch me”you mewled out, dripping in sweat and arousal. Taehyung chuckled, leaving your chest to stare at the pain you were in.

“What a needy slut, who just talks back. Why would I make you feel good? You’re my slut” you lowered your gaze, shaking , trying to behave but it was hard, your pussy spasming around nothing. You could see his cock and it was hard, he wanted this too but had more control. 

“I-I’m sorry master, please forgive me” Taehyung chuckled at your voice, it was practically dripping cum already. 

“Are you really?”

“Yes master. I’m truly sorry” he pushed you of, laughing at the way you stumbled before finding your balance.

“Well then, strip” you did, dropping the last pieces of clothing and standing before his dark gaze. Taehyung could see how you were dripping wet.

“Come here” he couldn’t help but to chuckle at how fast you moved, eager to get pleased.

Taehyung grabbed both your wrist, trying them with chains. You stared wide eyed at him, suddenly feeling your arms raise over your head, a new chain from the roof keeping your hands over your head. You felt so naked before, even more than just being naked. He saw right through you. Taehyung smirked at you, the restraints adding to his pleasure. 

“Master..What is this?” you asked so innocently, Taehyung hardened all the way. His fingers captured your face again.

“I can’t have you touching me slut..” you whimpered, everything tingling to touch him. 

Taehyung pulled you closer until you sat in his lap again, straddling his hips, cock tip against your wet folds. You bit your lips, tears spilling from your eyes in pure despair. Your body had betrayed you, now only wanting to be touch my his sinful body. 

“I understand master. I’m sorry”Taehyung smiled, gripping your hips. You wouldn’t be able to touch him but the restrains shouldn’t hurt too much. 

“You’re mine right?”

“Yes master, I’m yours to whatever with” you gasped at the feeling of his tip pushing closer to the neglected hole. 

You threw your head backwards at the feeling of his whole cock deep in your cunt. Every bump adding uncountable amount of pleasure. You saw white the second he was seated in you. Taehyung felt you pulsate around him, mouth hanging open. He couldn’t see your eye because they had rolled back into your head. You felt like you could die from all the pleasure.

“Come on slut..I haven’t even moved yet” you shock at the powerful thrust, a scream in pleasure and pain staging through you when he hit your cervix. 

You gripped at the chains as Taehyung pounded into you, always kissing your cervix and g-spot. You came mere seconds after he had begun moving but he didn’t stop, Taehyung would cum in you and you just had to take it. You screamed and moaned, falling slack against the chains just to tense for another orgasm ripping through your body. 

“P-please master!” you screamed, pleading for Taehyung to spare you only to feel him cum in the depths of you. 

You opened your mouth to scream but nothing came out. Taehyung moan loud for you, bucking his hips against yours as he came so much your stomach swelled lightly. You felt it penetrating your cervix, white shining before your eyes once again. Shock waves went through you, clamping on his cock until his last drops of cum was inside you. You grugled out a last moan before fainting. 

Taehyung stared at you body, still deep in you, cum dripping down your thighs. You were bruised and worn out, body on its breaking point, and he loved it. He stayed in you, glad you came so selflessly to him because now that you were in his grasp, would you never escape. He felt his cock growing in you but you stayed out of it, which weren’t fun at all. Taehyung caressed your body, even if you weren’t something special, couldn’t he help but lust for you, his slut to do what he please with, his sinner to corrupt beyond saving. 

“Oh you’re my sinner”