#And sooo happy rn you wouldn't believe it

[duncanor]

That's it. I literally have nothing to complain about anymore. Everything is falling into places.

I am hyped beyond human comprehension and not just for the finale but also for season 2.

[httpiastri]

PERFECTLY FINE – CHAPTER TWO (JEDDAH)

genre: angst, fluff, comfort, etc.

word count: 6k

warnings: hmmm nothing except heartbreak in several scenes lol

author's note: guys im really sorry but im pretty mean to paul here..... like it got to the point where i rewatched jeddah videos of him and physically felt ill because i was mad at him LMAO 😭 but we'll get through this together!! this was supposed to include some other scenes but it was long enough as it was sooo 😶 summary for this chapter ig is yn feels very torn between her boys, and so do i. hope everyone has a good week (it's finally race week again aaaaa) !! 💗

also i think the next chapter might be shorter because i just wanna get it out already and i don't have a lot to write about in it hehe, fingers crossed that i can finish it soon<3

(alsoooo i proofread this a few days ago but i just cant find the energy or time to do it rn, praying that there are no big issues…. if there are, i would be so thankful if you could send me an ask or message etc 🙏)

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"i still can't believe i missed out on the top ten again. and by just three hundredths, even..."

pepe shakes his head as you both make your way out of the campos truck, dragging a frustrated hand through his hair before pulling on his red bull cap. you can't help but chuckle – he's been like this all day, and all evening yesterday. you understand it, though; finishing just outside the reverse grid pole once again must feel frustrating.

not that you can relate. with a much better qualifying session yesterday in your second-ever qualifying in formula 2, you managed to snatch an eight-place finish. in other words, you will be starting third in today's sprint race, and just the thought of the probability of getting some big points sends tingles through your entire body.

"you'll get it next time," you say with a pat on your friend's back. "i mean, look at ollie. from p-nowhere last week to pole yesterday. that can be you next time around."

you've just come out of your morning meeting – morning meaning starting at ten and ending around noon – and now you're finally getting some lunch in the red bull hospitality. even during a race weekend like this, with mostly evening and night sessions, you still managed to oversleep and almost didn't make it in time for your meeting. you didn't get to have any breakfast, you had to run all the way from the shuttle to the truck, and you even forgot one of your racing boots as well as your phone in your hotel room. thankfully, you'll still have time to go back to the hotel before the sprint race, but walking around without your phone feels like being naked.

"speaking of ollie," pepe starts as you turn left and head into the formula one paddock. "are things between you two... alright?"

your eyebrows furrow together at the pause in the middle of his sentence. "why wouldn't they be?"

"well, i..." he stops again, and it makes you want to shake him. "i heard something. but it doesn't matter."

"who are you to decide that it doesn't matter?" you scoff. "tell me."

pepe sighs – he knows fighting you over this is a losing battle. you're way too stubborn to let go of this. "i heard that you were having issues. that you aren't happy, or something along those lines..."

you stop in your tracks, brain working in overdrive to comprehend what your friend is telling you. not happy with ollie? why would you not be happy with him? "who told you this?"

pepe stops in front of you. "i heard it from kimi, who heard it from... paul."

"what?" your eyes squeeze shut as your hands interlace on top of your head. "why would kimi come to you? instead of asking ollie himself?"

"you know kimi," pepe starts instantly. "he's young and gullible. i think he wanted to go for the see-if-the-best-friend-knows-anything strategy instead of asking ollie straight out." his hands squeeze your shoulders softly and you look up at him, a hint of a pout on your lips. "i guess he was scared that ollie would get mad at him or something."

"it's just-" you sigh. "it doesn't make any sense, does it?" pepe is just about to say something more when you cut him off with a dismissive swat of your hand in the air, stepping away from him and continuing your walk down the paddock. "let's just forget about it. i need lunch."

pepe stands frozen for a few moments before hurrying up to you again. he can't quite read your mood – you look unbothered, but he can't help but notice the slight touch of redness of your ears and the way your eyes seemingly can't focus on one thing for long enough. there's no way you can be over it already.

with pepe shutting up for a little while for the first time ever, you're left all alone with your thoughts as you continue your stroll. you know you should've asked for more information; you should've asked for details, for exactly what kimi said and how he worded it. you probably should also ask kimi himself for what paul told him. but right now, it's like a shadow is clouding your vision.

how dare paul say something like that? he must've known that the rumors he made up would spread like wildfire, as they always do in the formula paddocks. the snowball effect can make something tiny become huge, which is why you're always cautious about rumors. but apparently, paul doesn't care about that.

you're far too enraged to think even straight, and that's why it takes pepe pulling your arm to make you stop walking. you frown – to be fair, your frown hasn't left since it appeared a few minutes ago – but when you realize what it is that he's pointing at, both your frown and your jaw drop.

there's a swarm of journalists and fans following a ferrari driver down the road in front of you, which isn't all that uncommon. both charles and carlos are always incredibly popular. but what blows your mind is the fact that when you finally catch a glimpse of the driver's face, it's neither of the team's main drivers.

it's ollie.

"ollie! mate!" pepe yells, his arm waving erratically over his head. it takes a moment for the brit to find the owner of the voice, but he's tall enough to look over everyone else, and he's soon making his way over to you both. "i know you're popular, but this all seems a little excessive, don't you think?"

"i don't know what happened, as soon as the news came out..." ollie lets out a chuckle before turning to you, eyebrows raised at your expression. "i've called you like a hundred times, what have you been up to?"

"i left my phone at the hotel-" you begin but cut yourself off and shake your head. "wait, what news?"

when ollie starts speaking, time slows down. the entire world around you goes dark, the only thing you can hear being ollie's explanation of how carlos needs surgery and the call he got as he was having lunch. you feel lightheaded, almost like you could faint, when he speaks his final words. "...and they said i will be the one to replace him. i'm driving the formula one grand prix tomorrow."

you don't waste any time before throwing yourself into his arms, a loud squeal passing through your lips. "are you kidding me?" you exclaim, hugging him even tighter. "this is incredible, ollie! oh my god, i..."

"i can't really believe it myself, to be honest," ollie says, shaking his head as you part from the hug. pepe slaps his shoulder, congratulating his friend. "i would love to stay and chat, but i need to be in the car for the last practice, and i have a lot to get done-"

"go! go!" you usher, softly shoving him away back towards the journalists and fans who are still waiting just a few meters away. "we will talk later, okay?"

"of course."

and then you watch him leave – your boyfriend, the soon-to-be formula one driver – with a much lighter heart. this definitely helps you forget about all of the things regarding paul.

at least for a little while.

but of course, pepe stops your train of thought. "does that mean i get the reverse grid pole?"

you've never ever been to the ferrari garage before, so as you stand in the middle of it, you have no idea where to go or what to do; this is completely new territory. thankfully, you got a vip-pass from ollie before he ran off for his pre-practice duties, so at least you have the privilege of looking like a fool inside of the garage instead of right outside the doors.

a fool dressed in a red bull race suit, even. great.

you were in the middle of preparations for your sprint race when ollie texted you, and since you still had some time before the race started, you made it over to the other side of the paddock as quickly as you could. but unfortunately, that meant that you didn't have time to change your outfit into something more discreet.

"you don't look like you belong here, miss," a voice rumbles from behind you. your heart stops in your chest, and you're ready to improvise an excuse or find an escape route when you turn around – but luckily, you're met with chris, ollie's manager, standing there.

"thank god you're here," you say, letting out a sigh of relief. "do you happen to know where ollie is?"

"he's borrowing carlos's room. it's right down the hall and to the left."

you quickly thank him, turning again and making your way down said hallway. the room is easy to find, the two big, red fives on the door sticking out among the white walls. you're glad to find it unlocked, but you still knock a few times before sticking your head inside.

"sweetheart? can i come in?"

ollie is sitting on a massaging table, elbows on top of his legs and head resting in his hands. his eyes are stuck on the floor, but you take his silence as a yes.

"i got your text," you say, tiptoeing inside and shutting the door behind you, careful to not make any loud sounds to scare him. "how are you doing?"

when he still doesn't answer, your heat rate picks up. is something really wrong?

you make your way over to him, hands finding his cheeks and softly tilting him up to look at you – and you swear you've never seen him look this wrecked before.

not after his worst crashes, not when he lost the rookie championship last year. once again, you've entered completely new territory, and your heart breaks at the sight of him.

"ollie, talk to me," you plead, biting back the pout that starts to form on your lips. it's so painful to look into his eyes, but you can't back down. not now, not when he needs you this much.

"i'm-" his voice cracks but he shakes his head, clearing his throat. "i'm so nervous, i don't know what to do."

it's like he's oozing anxiety, and his heavy sigh is like a stab in your chest. ollie, your usually so calm and collected boyfriend, is probably going crazy over this – you know him well enough by now to understand that he's definitely freaking out even more on the inside than what he shows or tells. "i get that. one hundred percent. but," your thumbs begin to stroke over the skin of his cheeks, along his jaw, and then finally across his eyebrows, to which his eyes flutter closed. "this is your dream. it's been your dream since forever, and now you finally have the chance."

ollie sighs, but nods. you're getting to him.

"and it's not just any car, it's a ferrari. do you realize how cool that is? do you realize how many people would kill for an opportunity like this?" you smile at the sight of him with his eyes still shut, eyelashes resting atop his cheeks, messy fringe covering his forehead. even like this, at his most stressed state, he's completely gorgeous. "you would've killed for an opportunity like this just 24 hours ago."

"but what if i ruin it?" his voice is barely above a whisper when he speaks, shoulders slumping forward. "what if i go out there and i'm shit, and then they realize what a big mistake they've done by even putting me in the academy? what if-"

"it won't happen." his eyelids slowly open and he looks up at you, seemingly not even the slightest upset that you cut him off. "you're too good to do that. you'll get in that car and it will feel like your second home, just like it always does."

finally, a small smile makes its way onto his lips. it's only been a few minutes since you came in, but he seems much more relaxed now, leaning into your touch completely. "i'll try my best to make you proud."

you pout. "i'll be proud even if you end up with a slower lap than your pole lap from yesterday."

a laugh bubbles from his chest and he stands up from the table, opening his arms wide and pulling you in for a tight hug. his heart is still beating louder than a drum in his chest when your ear is pressed up against it, and you're almost worried it will jump out any second. but his breaths are much more controlled now, and his mind seems much lighter.

he presses a long kiss to the crown of your head, arms squeezing you tight. "i really need to go, because the sprint starts in..." you shoot a quick glance to the clock on the wall. "forty-five minutes. my team is going to kill me. but go out there and show them, baby."

and that's exactly what he did.

though, that's not the only thing you were correct about; your team was indeed furious when you finally made it back to the campos garage. your main engineer, who was supposed to help you get strapped in and fix all of the last details with the car over fifteen minutes ago, was apparently so angry he left you to do everything yourself. it's not that you didn't know about your schedule; you just needed to be there for ollie before his big debut.

everything works out in the end, at least according to you, and you're soon settled in your car on the grid, waiting to go on your formation lap. however, you've barely gotten as much as a glance from anyone on your team. you can't help but press the button to activate your radio. "i'm really sorry, guys. i just... had to do something."

"hope it was worth it." the voice of one of your engineers booms through your earpieces instantly, the sternness in his tone sending a shiver down your spine. "we got a huge fine because you were so late to get into the car, so..."

another of your engineers speaks up. "let's focus on the race instead now. no need to fight."

maybe it was because you got to visit ollie right before the race, or maybe it was just starting third and having a good car. either way, the sprint race was one of your best races in a long time. not only did you pass richard verschoor starting one place ahead of you into turn one; you also overtook paul, who started from pole, before the end of the first lap and got to lead your first laps in formula two ever.

dennis came around to steal the lead from you, but just landing yourself a spot on the podium was enough for you to celebrate. when you scored a second-place finish where the guy in first place was one of your former academy members, it didn't really matter that the guy on the third step of the podium was your ex-boyfriend.

going through all media duties is always exhausting, but it's usually never as dreadful as it is today. sitting in that press conference, knowing that your boyfriend is starting his first ever formula one qualifying in just a few moments. you have to literally bite your tongue not to pull a valtteri bottas and ask the journalists how q1 is going.

when you're this busy, you don't really have any time to think about paul's rumors. though, something about it continues to loom in the back of your mind all evening. especially when he speaks in the press conference, despite how hard you try to not even look at him, and especially when he's asked about ollie.

as the press conference finally comes to an end, you're not the only one who wants to hurry out of there to watch the rest of the qualifying session. you and the rest of the podium trio find a big screen that's showcasing the session, and you all insist that you should stay and watch, despite the f2 staff members' continuous attempts to squeeze the last drops of content from you.

they keep stuffing their phones and cameras in your face, throwing all kinds of questions about ollie your way, but you refuse to budge. you won't let them ruin this moment for you.

you're sure they've gotten quite a lot of embarrassing pictures of you teary-eyed while admiring your boyfriend's results, though.

you follow the timing board like a hawk, but something breaks you out of your trance. "who are you watching?" your head snaps to the direction of the voice – the f2 instagram admin with her phone pointed to paul.

as if you all haven't been watching and chatting about ollie for the last ten minutes.

you try not to, you really do, but you can't help but roll your eyes at the sight of paul. he's trying to look all innocent, hugging his trophy to his chest as his big, blue eyes blink up at the screen in the distance. a year ago, you would've just thought he was adorable – but today, this frustrates you more than anything. "i'm watching my dear friend ollie," he starts, eyes finding the camera so easily.

dear friend, huh? a dear friend is someone you spread rumors about?

the next time he speaks up, you have to physically bite your tongue to not yell at him. "the guy who gave me one position on tomorrow's grid."

you turn your head away in pure disgust. how could he say something like that? is that the only thing he cares about, places in his starting grid for tomorrow's feature race? is he serious?

you want to escape, to just storm off and never speak to him again. but instead, you force yourself to take a deep breath and focus back on the thing you're here for. ollie is doing so well; when q2 ends and he has driven his last lap, he misses out on q3 by just over a hundredth of a second. he almost even manages to knock out the legendary lewis hamilton, his fellow countryman whom he's been following for as long as he can remember, in his first-ever qualifying session.

you've never been prouder.

"honestly, as long as i can just bring the car home without wrecking it completely, i'm satisfied."

you give ollie's hand a soft squeeze at his words, fingers intertwining as your hands rest on top of the hotel cafeteria table. your other hand lifts your sandwich to your mouth and you take a bite, chewing it down quickly before giving him a nod.

you know his statement is meant as a joke, but you know it's just as much of a truth as a lie. driving an actual ferrari f1 car is his biggest dream, and even just making an alright race probably is enough to make him happy. there's no pressure on him, no one is expecting him to perform a miracle or even score some points.

but at the same time, you know he would never be satisfied with himself if he "just" brought it home safely. ollie isn't like that; he's way too stubborn, too determined, too much of a sore loser. it's what makes him. no matter what he says, there's always going to be something inside of him telling him that he needs to do better.

"i think you'll score your first points today," you tell him with a shrug. "i can feel it."

"don't say that, we don't know anything yet."

a shake of your head in combination with that smile of yours is enough to make some hope spark in him. "well, you have the car for it," you start. "and you have the skills."

ollie stays silent, letting the distant chatter of the other hotel guests having their breakfast fill the air. the cafeteria is emptying out by now, but new faces have been dropping in for a long time now, most of them walking by to give ollie a pat on his shoulder or a quick "good luck, mate".

you put down the last of your sandwich, leaving it behind with the fruit rinds and other scraps on your plate. "but don't think too much," you hum, eyes softening as they land on his. he's trying to contain his worries and anxiety as much as he can, but the slight tilt of his eyebrows and the way his gaze tends to dart away every once in a while tells a different story. "it's just driving. it's just what you always do, no problem."

you hold your glass of orange juice up to him and he gets the hint, clinging his own glass to yours before downing the last of its contents.

you're just about to speak up again with new words of affection, but an icy feeling spreads through your body at the sight of paul entering the cafeteria. the feeling soon turns into real nausea, and you can't even remember what you were supposed to say when you realize that he's making his way towards the two of you.

you want nothing more than to stay and keep encouraging ollie, but you can't take it at this moment. you stand up from your seat, giving ollie's fingers one last squeeze. "i forgot that i have a meeting soon," you make up. "so i need to go. i'll come see you before the race, okay?"

he doesn't even get to say bye before you've stormed off.

unfortunately, you have to pass paul in order to make it to the exit, but you make no effort to even recognize that he exists. you keep your gaze straight ahead.

karl, paul's physio, does a quick greeting from you though – as well as a confused look at the candle pressed into a pastry in one of the hotel's yogurt bowls – but then, you're off to hide in your hotel room until you're needed at the track for race preparations.

of course paul had to come by and ruin everything yet again.

with a good race from yesterday in the bag, you thought you could keep the momentum into today. however, that didn't turn out to be the case.

when a trident driver hit you from behind in the first lap, you lost a few positions instantly and after that, it was a bit too tough to recover. you had opportunities for overtakes, and the car was good enough to go through with them, but you never could. you kept slipping up, making rookie mistakes, and falling back even further. it even got to the point where your team came on the radio to remind you to focus on the road.

but no matter how hard you tried, it wouldn't work. the entire race, something else clouded your mind.

or, more specifically, someone.

every time you even caught a glimpse of paul's silver car, it was like something in your mind short-circuited. the memory of your conversation with pepe, the thought about paul running around and spreading rumors about you in the paddock… you couldn't push the thoughts, or the anger, away.

other times, back in the day, you were always good at turning your anger into something positive for your races. if you were upset with your father for something he said about red bull or the junior program, you went out there and proved him wrong. if you heard that another driver had complained about how you just got your seat because you were a girl, you made sure to dominate the race.

your stubbornness was always your biggest strength. but today, it was like your tank had run out. as much as you wanted to completely crush paul, you didn't have the capability.

at least paul didn't have that good of a race, either.

the second you get out of your car, you storm off towards your garage. you know you'll probably get a lot of shit for your performance your entire debrief, but if you can at least get over with it sooner, then you can forget about it and refocus on the next race weekend. plus, you really want to catch ollie before he's away for his f1 debut.

thankfully, you're not the only one getting criticized during the debrief; the team is not very happy with pepe's start, nor his DNF. after they've gone on and on about how costly this weekend has been for the team for an hour, you're finally released, but not without one last reminder to "think about what you're doing here and whose time you're wasting".

it's natural to lose all energy and confidence after a race like this. but the second you're back in ollie's arms, it's like the world around you just disappears. he's always been the best at keeping you grounded.

you've probably never hugged him this tightly before, but you can't help it. the second your arms wrap around his neck, you pour everything you have into the embrace.

he looks so good, so handsome and professional dressed up in his ferrari race suit. not just his prema suit with the ferrari logo on it, but an actual ferrari outfit. he looks like a real f1 driver – and the realization that he indeed is a formula one driver now brings tears to your eyes.

"hey," he says around a chuckle. "don't cry on me, woman."

"i won't..." you reach up to wipe away a drop from the corner of your eye as you pull away slightly from his embrace, shaking your head. "i won't. i'm just so proud of you."

"why are you so sappy?" the scene in front of him brings a huge grin to ollie's lips – he finds you equal parts adorable and hilarious. "i'm just going out there to drive a car. no biggie."

"no biggie," you repeat with a scoff, dabbing your other eye quickly before doing your best to blink down your other tears. earlier today, you were the one saying all of this was no problem. and yet, now he is the one who has to convince you of it. "right. it's just your passion, the thing you love. but i'm still proud."

an engineer catches ollie's attention above your head, sending him a certain look that has your boyfriend nodding before giving you one last squeeze. "i think i should-"

"of course, go," you usher him, retracting from his arms. "i'll be here after, no matter what happens." he nods, and he's about to leave when you speak up one last time. "have fun, okay?"

"always."

who would've imagined that ollie would not only score points in his first ever f1 race, but also win driver of the day, have the most overtakes, and score a seventh place as the second best british driver of the race?

well, you had imagined everything from him coming last to winning the race by horse lengths. and yet, this was all so unexpected. if someone had told you on wednesday that ollie would score six f1 points three days later, you would've laughed in their face. but now, it feels like it's been a long time coming.

you weren't allowed to stay in the ferrari garage for the actual race – it would've been a pr nightmare for everyone involved – so your nerves were all over the place since you weren't able to hear ollie's radio messages, info about the strategies, and so on. at least you get to wait right outside the garage with jamie, chris and his dad david, being the first to congratulate him after such a good debut race.

he looks completely worn out when he finally walks out through the door, but you can almost feel the pride and happiness radiating from him. his sweaty hair rests messily on top of his head, and an ice vest is draped over his body already to cool him down from the insane heat. and, most importantly, the smile on his lips is bigger than it's been all week.

ollie looks like he doesn't ever want to let go of his dad's hug, his face nuzzled in the crook of david's neck for a long time. you can only guess what things the father is whispering in his son's ear, but when the result is ollie pulling him even closer, your heart expands in your chest.

when they part, it's jamie's and chris's times to congratulate the point-scorer, and when he pulls away from his manager's arms, his eyes land on you. you're pulled into his embrace in just a second, a giggle slipping past your lips when he lifts you up into the air and spins you both around. his strong grip around you never eases, not when he sets you down on your feet again and not when he starts speaking.

"i knew it would be hard, but..." he shakes his head, a sweaty fringe brushing against the side of your head. "my entire body is ruined. like, it doesn't hurt because i have so much adrenaline, but i'm going to be in so much pain later. my neck and my shoulders and-"

another one of your waves of laughter cut off his ramblings, and he joins in once he realizes what he's been doing. when you finally pull apart slightly and your hands come up to cup his cheeks, you're just staring into his eyes for what feels like forever.

your boy, the f1 driver.

"this is from your mum," you whisper to him, leaning in to kiss his cheek. "and this is from your sister." a kiss to his other cheek. "and... this is from me."

ollie has to crouch down slightly because even when you get onto your tippy toes, you can't reach all the way up to his forehead. but once you press your lips against his skin, all of the hidden tension in his eyebrows disappears. he's like putty under your touch.

"i'm so proud."

ollie's groans are muffled by the pillow his face is pressed into, head twitching when your thumbs press into some tense areas of his neck. you shush him jokingly, like a mother comforting a crying baby, but your movements never halt.

ever since he got out of that car, he's been complaining about how sore he is. especially his neck and shoulders, and all of the muscles that were most affected by the g forces. you don't blame him, however – he's got a free pass for pretty much everything for the next week, you think – but you decided to be a nice girlfriend and help him out. the strings of whines and swearwords he keeps letting out don't seem to be stopping anytime soon, though.

the lotion on your hands is enough for you to be able to glide your fingers across his upper back, along his shoulder blades, all over his freckled skin. as you're straddling his lower back, you can reach pretty much all angles of his upper body, and the knots in his muscles seem to be disappearing despite how painful your massage seems to be.

eventually, ollie tilts his head to the side, his blushed cheeks decorated with lines from the pillow underneath him. his slight pout is on full display and his tired eyes flutter closed as he speaks. "hey, y/n?"

"yes, ollie?" you reply, your thumb pressing into one especially stubborn knot in his right shoulder. ollie stays quiet for a few moments and takes a deep breath, almost as if he's gathering courage for something.

"you know that i love you right?"

the world around you stops.

everything freezes.

he loves me?

your breath hitches in your throat at the words. it's the first time he's ever said them, and though it's not the most uncommon thing for someone to tell their girlfriend of over six months, they make your head spin.

a mishmash of thoughts clouds your mind. they won't shut up for even a second. but the loudest thought is the only one you shouldn't have; it's about the only person you can't be thinking about right now.

the way that your mind instantly wanders off to paul is frankly embarrassing, but you can't help it. he's the first boy you've ever loved, the first person you've ever uttered those three words to. the only one. and no matter how badly you wish you could just forget about that and move on, he's still a part of you. he's your only real experience of love.

and this just isn't the same.

you want to say it back to ollie, you truly do. but at the same time, you don't want to say it if it isn't true – it's not fair to him.

ollie senses that something is up. your signs aren't exactly subtle, anyway; your movements have stopped completely and he can't even hear you breathing anymore. "hey, i'm sorry-"

"don't apologize," you interject instantly, shaking your head as you start to climb off his body. "you did nothing wrong. i'm the one who's sorry."

"stop that, you shouldn't be." he turns around, staring up at you with those big, brown eyes of his. "i don't expect you to say it back if you don't want to. i just..." he lets out a low sigh. "i wanted you to know, i guess."

you sit still for a few moments, before leaning down to place a kiss on his rosy cheek. "thank you." another pause. "it means a lot, you know?"

"well, you mean a lot to me."

and he does to you, too.

but is that enough?

ollie loves me.

he actually loves me.

he told me today after the race, and... i didn't say anything. i just sat there like a complete moron.

i couldn't say it back. i just don't feel what i felt for paul yet.

what's wrong with me?

why don't i race like i used to? why can't i control my emotions? was the sprint race yesterday just luck? did i really deserve that podium?

why does paul still affect me this much? why is he always there in my thoughts – when i'm racing, when i'm with ollie, when i try to sleep...

i have a perfect boyfriend and a great car, so why do i feel like everything is falling apart?

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yourusername p2 in the sprint 🥈 big thanks to the team for the hard work!! and i got to witness the rb p1-2 up close, congrats redbullracing 💙 also check slide 4 for an appearance from me and my former family on f1tv <3

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user y/n and the prema staff during the driver's parade 😭 they're so cute

→ user her referring to them as her family, byeeee

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user why is no one talking about the last slide???

→ user because i can't talk while i'm crying, sorry

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user great job this weekend y/n !!! thank you for signing my cap 🥺

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user loved to see her celebrate the red bull double podium even after a hard feature race ❤️

→ user she had to balance out the post with that max and checo pic 😭 would've been just ollie & prema otherwise

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user ollie looks like a baby in the second pic 🥲

→ user just a little boy playing with his toy cars

→ yourusername i had to hold his little teddy bear during the race to make sure it wouldn't get dirty

→ user stopppp you're so real for sharing that

[draculagerard]

unacceptable. i ADORE talking to you and seeing your on my dash/in my inbox

You're SOOO funny. like a broad range of humor imo. you're sometimes a silly goofy little guy, sometimes you're my friend teasing me (in a way that's never hurt my feelings!), sometimes you're a tired babysitter (cough, cough, randy's sticks). you get the beat that goes with humor and ur jokes always at the very least make me smile

you're SOOOOOO nice. not just to me. it makes me SOOOO happy to see you interact with other mutuals (or ur mutuals sometimes) because you're always super fun and sweet. and then when i'm in that seat i'm always super at eas because yeah this guy's not gonna like. be a dick :3. he's super nice actually! also this is like, normal and expected, but i feel like i can talk to you and change the subject when talking to you (which why is this important? it's just one of my insecurities and my irls aren't the best at letting me talk so that fact i feel alright with talking to you is rlly nice :3)

small mention that you're like super creative and skilled and you get colors and pacing and all that super well. ur art, ur amvs, hell ur theme rn are always BANGERS and i'm so happy to see them

i love when you ramble to me about any of your interests! even if you're telling me something that isn't particularity wild. maybe it's just be i adore listening in general but your way of talking (well, typing but. blah specifies don't matter) keeps my attention well and makes me happy to see you in my dms. and while i may bully you a bit for your interests they're always pretty uhmmmm enthralling? feels weird to use "interesting" to describe and interest because like yeah that's the point

as far as i know you're such a good person!!! not only because i like..agree w/ u about everything. but just bringing back the point of "sweet" with this but you just seem so kind!!! and very smart! i think you can be very media literate but also have fun with fanon and shit which i admire (i wonder why.......[looks at block list])

uhmm i don't mean to like. repeat myself but really the fact that i don't feel judged by you is fantastic. i rlly struggle with the idea that i'm annoying or like. "cringe" but like even if i didn't think you were like. also weird i think i still wouldn't feel judged uhm. in summary ur rlly nice and kind and funny and smart and i love seeing you on my dash and there's plenty of other things i can list if i gave myself more time to think but i've been ignoring the fact i'm hungry rn so cutting it short to eat. yadda yadda your great and i think you deserve a lot more in this world and so stop being mean to urself that's my friend that i'm fond of. blah. uhmm uhh derri already claimed kuromi so this is us

also other ppl are fond of u btw. i find it hard to believe that you don't make a lot of other people smile. also a tip!! try looking at yourself like you're not yourself y'know? i'm under the belief we're all always so mean to ourselves because it's easy to not feel guilty about it. but like if you were someone else and you called that person a friendless burden then you'd feel bad because nobody's a friendless burden y did you do that. y'know??????? also this is rambley because i'm hunger personified rn, bye bye :3

LOVE YOU HAZ…..

[hyuckmov]

hiii moon anon here i have a lot to say but first off: i've been analyzing the title song settle down and i've been listening to it over and over again and is the story gonna parallel the lyrics itself?? "and i don't seem to be having any effect now" like thats… oooh the angst is gonna be delicious. i hope you take this as a compliment when i say this but the whole fic takes me BACK to 2013-2015 YOU KNOW THAT ERA HAHAHA the tropes, the ambiance, the CHARACTERS!! side question: is mark or jisung gonna play bigger roles? or did they just act as plot devices for reader and haechans development. would not mind either way but given the concept of the story i can totally imagine reader coming back and just wreaking havoc on the band. sorry i love mess lol. maybe i'm delusional or maybe its the fact that it's haechan but it makes me more understanding of the character?? i trust you when you say that there's more to rockstar hc than meets the eye, and especially from his perspective it's pretty realistic that he has his guard up when it comes to really connecting with people, and we see his walls slowly crumbling down by the end too. and even in the earlier parts of the story i didn't expect him to have his sweet moments?? i honestly expected him to be worse but god him calling her PRINCESS has me on my knees i will defend reader's choices with my life because i'd do the same, i'd probably still go to the concert by the end she's so much stronger than me helppp (tho DISCLAIMER i would not be doing this for just any man its bc its haechan why i am easily swayed by the little things,,, just like reader), but i liked how she decided to take a step back this time, especially when at that point haechan is basically offering her what she has always wanted, but knowing his past actions it won't be truly easy to hang onto every word said. this is the culmination of every mixed signals and rejection that haechan gave her, and the build up to it is veryyy well done. also im still reeling from reading the fic i felt sooo many emotions and dk how to fully articulate it yet,, maybe i'll come back when i do. i even made a playlist of my own w songs that reminded me of the fic to help me move on (at least until pt 2 gets posted, cant wait tho!!)

MOON ANON.... when i say my jaw dropped.... my heart rate actually spiked i can't believe you wrote such a detailed review and theorized this makes me so happy especially since you basically inspired me with this idea !!!! giving you a huge hug rn 🫂🤍 

omg ngl this fic encouraging people to listen to settle down makes me so happy because it's one of my favorite songs 😭 it makes me feel so honoured to know that you are analysing the lyrics and anticipating the plot like that really means so much to me !!! i definitely picked it because it had themes i wanted to explore throughout the song...but the lines kind of contain both hyucks and readers pov hehe so i'm excited to explore that in part 2

i take that as a DEFINITE COMPLIMENT i was so invested in that era it was so formative for me... hence a lot of the song choice in my playlist too... i don't know if i genuinely nailed the idea of rockstar in rockstar haechan (because truly...what is a rockstar...) but i did want to give it that 2013 band on tumblr vibe lmfao so i'm so glad you brought that up !!!!

AAAA the band still definitely continues to play a role... they have stuff to work out but i've thought about their characters a lot and i definitely want to show more of their opinions on haechan and reader (it wouldn't be a rockstar au without that). someone else i want to add in is jaemin because ngl reader needs someone purely on her side

i hope i'm not promising too much with haechan HAHA i'm not someone who likes to give too much backstory to characters so i'm just putting it out there: i'm not going to explain that he's this way becaue he was cheated on before or he had family problems etc. i just want it to be genuine layers of his character and personality that's put to the test (love making it hard for myself LOL)

i'm so relieved to know you still managed to feel for his character and appreciate the softer sides of him and a bit of his struggle... i was worried i promised a super terrible character with the preview and people would be disappointed he ended up being so gentle with reader 😅

and her standing him up at the end!!! i'm glad you thought it was justified but at the same time recognise she probably was going to...it really could go both ways and idk if i'm still going through with my original plot arc !!! we will see :)

this was already so articulate omg once i appreciate it sooo so so so much that you shared such a detailed review with me, it literally blows my mind and i will reread your ask again and again !!!! omg and if u want please share your playlist with me too!!! i want to see what songs there are that give him vibes ~~

thank you sm again...you are too nice to me ily!!!!

[mebiselfandi]

Out of the league(s) you watch, are there any clubs other than your favourite club that you can tolerate/enjoy? Whether it’s the fanbase or the players or the club itself, I’m curious!

Hi anon!

This is a fantastic question cause now I can rant about Liverpool.

Well I support Liverpool in the prem but when I first started watching footy I actually watched arsenal quite a bit but idk I just never got into it but I do have such a soft spot for them. Like I'll rib my arsenal mates about them sometimes but honestly if they won the league I wouldn't be mad. But Liverpool stays on top. Those are my boys. My star players. Look at how they're all improving with each game. Sure we have a couple rough spots and we ended last season terribly but we are sooo back. I mean rn we're only 2 points away from winning the league. They're my broski's fr and if I feel like crying when I watch them play cause I love them we don't bring it up.

I also watch la liga kind of. Its complicated. I started out watching rma a whole lot more than I watched Liverpool and when they played each other last season I was literally giggling cackling over Liverpool's demise. But nowadays I almost never watch them. I just keep up with the scores but that's about it and atp I just say I follow madrid to vex my barca friends. Now considering I don't really watch them but they are my chosen team, I have no sense of rivalry especially in the Spanish league. I do like barca in a sense. Do I want them to win like I want arsenal to win? Goodness no. Not in any world. Couldn't care less about their footy and probably wouldn't defend them in am argument like I would arsenal. However, they're team is full of lil guys and I can't hate them really. If someone was just blatantly being mean and rude then yeah I'd probably be like shut up. But really I've never watched them outside of el classico and if el classico comes up you best believe I hate those guys strongly. But if I see them being gay on my dash, I'm just a girl and I will rb it 100%.

Also if someone invited me to watch arsenal I would cheer them on. If they lost to Liverpool if feel maybe 🤏 this bad cause I do love them but the happiness for my own team far outweighs whatever affair I have with arsenal

[taraxacum-vulpes]

YOU do all of them!!!!!!!

you can still ask a free question :eyeroll:

What is your nickname? I don't think I have any they're mostly like one-person-specific 😔 or like just my name my name is short enough

When is your birthday? i don't celebrate and i'm still trying to choose a date 😔 rn jan 01 but considering oct 22 (tartaglia anniversary day)

What was your longest relationship? like... 9 months... it's not going good for me chat

What is your favorite book? ermm for the blorbos Shadow of the Fox - Julie Kagawa, for worldbuilding/plot/literally everything else, The Finishing School or The Custard Protocol - Gail Carriger (what a surprise i don't shut up about them)

What is something you're insecure about? the lengths i will go to be accepted by people is EMBARRASSING!!!!!! i need to get a grip

5 Male/Female celebrity crushes i dreamt i was flirting with this one person i follow on ig a while back. i think i sent you his leon kennedy cosplay. still giggling a little. i wouldn't call it a crush though

What is your dream job? getting paid 500000 every day forever and ever for being cute

What do you consider your biggest accomplishment? enduring the horrors. also getting my cousin to like me.

What is a fact about you that nobody would believe? ermmm i think all of my ginfacts are pretty believable 😔 i love public speaking and presenting it's so fun. i peaked w my projective geometry presentation last year.

What were your highs and lows for this last month? my classmate and i met up for school but outside of class yesterday and i'm still riding that high. my math prof was happy w me i finished all of the hw for this exam 😋 but also The Horrors.

Where is somewhere you'd like to visit? i would kill to see a teamlab exhibition. but like. any interactive/immersive art exhibition. pleasepleasepleaseplease

How do you de-stress? I don't particularly get stressed? probably youtube. those 1-3hr lets plays yk.

What are your favorite apps besides tumblr? I probably use discord the most?? my mewts are in there.

Describe yourself in one sentence. the horrors persist but so must i

What do you think makes you attractive? ummm i hope my energy?? i'd like to be able to light up a room (one day i'll get there 😭) physically though i like my eyes

What is something you're really good at? ermmm baking 😋

What is something you're really bad at? i can't make pancakes to save my life. you put a pan and a stove and ingredients down in front of me and it's either burnt, misshapen, disgusting-tasting, or all three.

A time that you told a lie. "No, I didn't forget" i did. 100%

What's a totally random and useless fact that you know? there's about 4500-4600 species of cockroaches. about 30 of them are commonly known as pests, with the most common in the states being american, german, brown-banded, and oriental. they generally prefer dark and humid areas. bathroom roaches are pretty common.

Who knows you the best? ermm rex aside, probably rowan tbh.. 😭 maybe doll or tired

What is your most prized possession? the rowkitty plush. he comes with us everywhere. him or the saki tenma doll my irl crocheted for me for valentines day (also lives in my bag)

What is your longest friendship? i think irl 4 years? 4 and a half? online i think jake or lane. jesus christ the passage of time

When did you first feel like an adult? i am not and i do not feel anywhere close to it 😭 but maybe like Being Taken More Seriously when my parents/teachers started casually swearing around me.

Do you/ Have you played any sports? I did soccer for 3 years? spring and fall. i've been doing figure skating for the past 6, but not as much this past year bc of The Horrors 😔

How are you feeling right now? the horrors (eating cold overnight refrigerated rice) (it's so dry chat i can't do this) but i just got the THIRD batch of cakes out of the oven and this one finally looks good 😭 the horrors have been sooo mean to me today the other two recipes didn't turn out good. the first one had too many eggs the second one . felt like a hockey puck tbh. the second one i can probably assemble and give to the neighbors but idk what to do with the first one. it tastes. like something.

Are you an early bird or a night owl? tired all the time avian. maybe slightly leaning night owl.

Do you believe in love at first sight? no but i'm definitely a victim of infatuation at first sight. it's so bad.

Favorite song lyrics right now? ummmmmmm i can't decide 😋 maybe carnivore starset or like the dawn the oh hellos

What does self care look like for you? takoyaki and forge labs

Describe yourself with 3 singers. MCR, Royal & the Serpent, Yunomi

What makes you nervous? ermmm the only thing i can think of is drinking around people/in public?? bc i don't like taking my mask off like at all at all i'll explode if someone sees me without it. or like having to do something new, even assisted

What’s a pet peeve you have? specifically bc of mermay but tails that fold like legs... like knees... i can't do it. that looks like it hurts so bad. anyways people that consider liking twilight style vampires as monsterfuckery. that's just a human with spice sorry.

What will always make you cry? EP 7 VIOLET EVERGARDEN it gets me every time man. also yuri on ice.

What kind of first impression do you think you make on people? ummm good natured, i hope 😭 but probably weird (/neg) at first

[laumera]

Good Morning Child ...

I have started the day with you.. it didn't happen for a long time ... sooo why did I dream about you?.. are you feeling sad? or is it just my sadness?.. because everything is a mess rn! -and again ...- and I might want to escape everything ... and you're my only place to escape from everything ... I don't care if you don't/won't hear me anymore.. if you would need me, you can find me! I'll be there for you! always!.. -I told you this before and it's a promise that will keep going till the end of the time!.. so no need to hesitate if you need me.. anytime ...- but as for me ... I'll never contact with you, child ... I'll not bother you anymore.. all I want is your happiness, forever ... you were like a god to me anyways.. you were there for me, I knew that but you would never show yourself.. so basically nothing changed for me at all.. you are my only god.. my only home.. my precious childhood friend.. love of my life... forever and ever ... no matter what! I really want to escape from everything rn ... I can't stand this anymore.. my fucking life is a mess that I can't never fix it up! I know you would be angry if you heard this but it's what it's!.. I didn't/couldn't fix my fucking life whatever I did! but believe me, I tried.. I really tried ... it's just my curse I guess ... people were saying that "The fate of the girls will be the same as that of the her mother" I wouldn't believe that but I guess it's true ... like everyone in her life destroyed her life, everyone in my life destroyed my life ... I thought that I'm not letting that happen but looks like I did.. maybe we can't fight against the fate.. maybe we just have to accept what will happen ... maybe I shouldn't even give you that notebook at the start ... then I wouldn't lost in your god colored eyes ... then again those eyes my everything ... Laume RA

[funny-fella-fantrolls]

Sooo, Shudao, thoughts on what happened so far? Seems like you had another eventful morning!

(no sprites rn, on phone but might edit to add later)

Oh, man, eventful is one way to describe it/. Seems to me you already know what went down, and dude, I don't think I've slept better in sweeps/! But enough on that for now, you said you want my thoughts on what's happened/?

Well, I'm gonna assume you're already aware of the fact that I have some... not so platonic feelings for her, so that's definitely gonna effect my thoughts here/.

But honestly, the times we've spent together have been some of the best times I've had in a long time, and even if there were the occasional bad parts, I'd happily go through those again if it meant reliving the good parts too/!

Obviously I'd love for something to happen eventually, but we've discussed it a couple times and so long as she isn't ready, I don't want to try and rush into anything/. I'm happy to wait for as long as she needs, even if nothing ends up happening/.

Biggest challenge is gonna be if Vex finds out about what's been goin' down/. Was hard enough explaining the handholding, but shit, he's never gonna believe me no matter what I tell him/.

But yeah, long story short, these have been some of the best times of my life, and I wouldn't trade them for anything/.

[zu-is-here]

ZUUUUU!!!

So sorry for the late reply heh, like I said, was working tonight, it was perfect timing really.

Still snowy? Ahh so jelly, we've been having the most boring weather, wind, clouds and rain. Basically the most British weather possible.

Oh! Even if you didn't wanna change, it was nice of them to give you the option! Just remember zu, even if the deal is off, please return everyone's lockets to the correct owners.

My work is going good, as I've said before it's not alot of hours rn, but what I do have is going nicely. Tonight was a 90s theme, which I was actually not told until 40 mins before I left!! Ahhg had to run around trying to find something to wear.

It was fun though, played a bunch of classic music, so spent the night cleaning tables and dancingggg.

You know.i searched up the song CPR cuz of that and bloody hell, a song has never made me blush so much, can't believe Sdream was dancing to that XD

I love the way you draw rain!!

Oh thank you!! I'm happy with how it turned out, was just in a lineless mood I guess. Loved drawing them all.

Ooo I'm sure it will be great! I'll miss you while you're away though, I can't wait to hear all about jt!

Heheh...the 'good' boy peed in my room in the door way -_- that's how he's doing. How's the good girl?

I'm actually doing great!! Being super productive on thr next part of my comic!! I'm so so so so soooo happy how it's coming along I'm so hyped! I took some inspiration from your lay outs and I've been moving around pannels for the normal format I use

Alsoooo the boyy

I'm.very happy with my work rn basically!! How's it going with yours?

Hii again! :'D

The 90s!! \(//∇//)\ Awww this sounds wonderful in every way, so nice to hear you had a good time mixing business with pleasure! ٩( ᐛ )و♪

The weather may be not the best, but it's good that the things are as right as rain ♪(๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)

Heheh fair enough! ;)

Guess he just doesn't know the lyrics while Cross does XD This is def not the safest thing to enjoy but the remix is awwwsome and I just couldn't resist cause the contrast between songs fits theim so well ♪ I liked how many recognized the meme without any words tho xp

Thanks again! (〃ω〃) The way you draw lineless art is so smooth and clean *^*

Knowing myself, no trip would be complete without drawing xp Hope so! Thank youuu <3

He didn't mean to! (ówò) The good girl's watching the snowfall through the window while sitting by the radiator <3

OHHH I'm so hyped! \(//∇//)\ I'm really glad to hear it inspired you, and the bois looks ssso good ☆ Keep up the great work! (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵) I'm looking forward to the next part ♪

I finished the comic over the weekend, aaand there's not much left for the Dark Cream week announcement ;)

How are you doing lately? ♡

UPD:

Oh that was an experience as well! You wouldn't know it without trying xp

Indeed XD

Awww yay! That's so sweet of you, Gayfish, I do appreciate it a lot (〃ω〃)

OMG— it's not here yet but I'm already curious about those deleted Nightkiller scenes :'D

Nooo but this looks quite sansational! :D We usually do it with cheese only (yummy!) but hmmm ♪

Awww that's so sweet! (ówò) Sooo many years later, childhood toys evoke special feelings <3 I do but in my parents' house, some of them are older than me omg *^*

Yep, today was a very productive day! ᕦ(òwó)ᕤ We had a staff meeting (a new year tradition) and it turned out to be much more fun (no diagrams/reports/suits XD)

Heheh (人 •͈ᴗ•͈)

Ohhh sounds delicious! *^* Gotta try—

I do heheh! Hope you're having a nice time too <3

[eileenbr]

SUPERGIRL 6X18

So I'm watching Supergirl 6x18 and I'll be writing the reactions I'm having.

Umm nothing really good or bad yet. Although William was right to get mad at Andrea, I don't blame him this time.

Nooo leave my Brainy bby alone😭

Ughh, the cgi hurts my eyes 😫

Alex telling Kara not to tell her how to raise her child??? The child she just adopted?? The child who's suffering the same things Kara did?? Girl, she didn't have bad intentions when she told you that, why would you get that mad?... Also, with that conversation it seems they gonna make Kara live as Kara Zor-El and not Danvers, It seems obvious now and I'm not sure how to feel about it.

Oh yes, the greatest love story Nyxly and Lex, pfff, glad the bad guys can find love but the main character doesn't 🙄

Aww Lena giving Andrea advice, growth!

Bad cgi again, really bad.

So no totems for Nyxly, okay.

Gooood, Alex apologized, they are in good terms, that's nice. Again the part of not hiding anything about their identity, seems they are setting Kara to be full Kara Zor-El on earth (which probably makes sense with the corage gauntlet).

Ugh, again Nyxly and Lex, too much. They are already in love, both, in just 2 episodes.

Bachelorette partyyy, how fancyyy haha. Nooo Brainy, don't cryyy... Wow Lena's dance, in love... Hahaha Kara's dance, goofy as always 😂... Whyyy, why can't brainia be happy together, why do they have to suffer :(

Oh no, Lex entered the tower, please don't do anything to Esme.... Okay so W chose to record a video instead of calling a superfriend?? Maybe a videocall to them?? Damn... Oh no, Nyxly found Esme... Okay Nyxly sexy voice, of course I would believe her as well... Sooo this is the way William will die:s

Nooo their Bachelorette party being ruined, damn these people can't be happy for a second.

Oh no, I have to say it kind of made me sad watching William die, I mean, I've never liked his character and many times he was just there doing nothing but hinder, and yes he should've called a superfriend now they are also his friends instead of recording a video, but killing him makes no sense, and he was kind of tender this episode with Esme (I appreciate it), and it's gonna be another trauma for them, specially my girl Kara who always blames herself for the bad things that happens in that city or the world.

Oh God, what was this episode?! This season?! I can't take this anymore, I've never been happier this show is ending as much as I am rn.

I'm gonna be really objective here. I really hope they find a way to make Brainy stay in this time, I would love if Kara finds her perfect partner and no, I don't think that should be Mon bc I don't think they could ever have a healthy relationship, I know Mon has wroth (if Crisis didn't change that bc we really don't know yet), however he did it in the future and that's his place, he has a mission there as well as Kara has its own in the present, and her family that means everything to her, and tbh I don't think they are that compatible, it wouldn't make any sense now after everything Kara's been through and her personal growth, but do I think the writers would care about it? NO, at this point I feel they are capable of doing anything, (not in the good way).

Talking about Supercorp, I think any possibility is already dead. Let's be honest, for much that I want it to happen, the writers/show runners have shown 0 interest in it, so I have no faith (hope they prove me wrong but I don't think so).

Andrea Rojas aka Acrata aka a waste of a powerful character. I know it's not a big dc character but that doesn't mean she isn't powerful.

And Dansen, probably the only good thing lately. I hope there won't be any trouble or interruptions during their wedding, that'd be incredibly unfair.

After all, I really don't wanna to watch the finale, I'll wait to see ppl reactions and look for Dansen wedding, Idk, I guess I will see how I feel next week but ugh. I wouldn't be surprised if the make Lena and James a thing again bc as I said, I expect nothing good for this finale.

Thank you for reading this, I'm mad haha.

[maiverie]

hellooo 😆😆 i just wanted to tell you that open sesame is one of the best heeseung fics on here in my opinion and it audibly made me LAUGH which… has never happened before…??? i’m automatically a fan of yours if you can make me laugh i just think your writing is sooo admirable and i will definitely be checking out your works in the future!! i really look up to you as a writer as well your blog is one of the main reasons i decided to post my own writing on here AAAGHHH T_T but anyway. thanks for the amazing read i loved it so much <3

HIIII omgggg thank you so much for leaving this message!!! WHAATT NOOOO it really wouldn't be one of the best but im so so flattered thank you sm 😭😭 IM SO HAPPY IT MADE YOU LAUGHHHH hehe that makes me so ecstatic!! and holy crap i can't believe you're calling my writing admirable when i just had a quick stalk of ur blog and youre literally amazing wtf??? IM SO EMBARRASSED THAT SOMEONE THAT WRITES SO WELL COULD EVEN COMMENT ON MY WRITING PLS STOP IT RN!!! red snow looks so so so good, i can't wait to read it!! pls, i'm the one looking up to you and LKAJWFEO ONE OF THE REASONS???? NOOOO that's the best thing i've ever been told im crying that makes me so happy ;-; but pls your writing is so amazing and thank u sm for taking the time out to write such a supportive message, hope we can be moots 🥺💖

[dazaily]

todoroki bringing his s/o to an amusement part

my first bnha work... kinda nervous posting this cuz like bnha(?) idk,, but for my manz, i will pull through!! hope u enjoy ^^

description: you and todoroki have been dating for awhile now, but recently he realised he never initiates dates, and so he planned and invited u to an amusement park for a date. 

warnings: gender neutral! reader. fluff. clichéd. i wrote this at 4-5am.

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my manz is innocent, like lbr, he aint gonna know shiz abt dating..

sooo, the first few weeks into ur relationship(?) he was alr facing his first crisis.

he felt like nothing changed, despite having transitioned from a platonic to romantic relationship.

and so, being the sweet and clueless lil bean he is, he went to seek for advice from his one and only bestie bakugou, midoriya.

“hey, midoriya, what does one do in a relationship” why am i making him talk like someone from the shakespearean era tf

“oh, um todoroki?? are u asking for y/n? if so, i don't think im not the right person u should be asking,, i mean ive never even been in a rela--”

“well, u were my best choice” 

midoriya notices the absolute chaos they are surrounded by in the 1A dorm 

“ok i may be the best choice.” said in tiny.

so after a discussion that dragged for way longer than it had to be 2 days, todoroki settled on the idea of bringing u on a date to the amusement park.

cute idea right? yes. there's no twist, like i said this is a fluff. 

n e ways, he was an awkward lil bby asking u out, cuz he's not used to receiving or giving affection,,,, he's trying his best.

“um, y/n, are u free this sunday..?”

“sunday, hmm i think i alr have smtg planned..”

“oh, um, well then, its fine, its nothing important..”

if u weren't hit by a pang of guilt, idk what type of monster u are.

“nah, that was just jokes, so whats up?”

and that was how y'all ended up in universal studios japan. usj

endeavour’s bout to be big mad when he realises the missing money from his wallet.

“sHOUTOOOOO!!” >:[

n e ways..

so ur date started with u dragging shouto around the entire park, with the goal of riding every single ride 

ofc he was fine with it, he was happy as long as he got to spend time with u. a simp.

but since u guys went on a weekend, there were way more people than u guys originally expected, like wHOA,,, 

the park was basically filled with people from all over the world, even though it wasn't holiday season..

so ur dreams and hopes of riding eery single ride, may be impossible..

hAH, YOU THOUGHT, YOUR MANZ FATHER MAY BE THE WORST PERSON ON EARTH, BUT HES STILL TOP 2 HERO. 

ur manz got u the express pass.

the one time ur grateful for the existence of his father.

so yall spent the first 2-4 hours just riding every single ride u could possibly find. 

shouto’s probably the type that is willing to try anything, i don't think he’ll be scared of any rides in particular. 

in the contrary, i feel like there'll be rides that he's lowkey excited to ride on, since he never had the chance to enjoy these events and places as a child. cuz of his sh*tty father.

he would ofc try to hide his excitement, but after being by his side for awhile, uve learnt how to differentiate his different emotions, despite his general nonchalant self. 

him being excited, makes u happy, cuz its rare that u get to see these sides of him.

omg pls protect him at all costs,, he needs it,,, he's so precious,, shower him with all the love in the world.

so y'all be running all over the place, until hunger slaps u in the face like that isekai truck that ive been waiting for. 

and so its food time!

“hmm, since were in an amusement park, we should get some hot dogs, churros, oMG and cotton candy!!”

“..what? c-ch-churros?? what are those?”

“holy sh-- u don't kNOW WHAT CHURROS ARE!? we’re getting churros right now.”

“but, i want soba... the cold one”

u ended up getting both. cuz it isn't todoroki without cold soba.

and it was back to running around the entire park riding everything.

but instead of running yallz were walking hand in hand, as if u guys were an old couple taking a stroll in the local park

and instead of the entire park, y'all were just in the harry potter section..

don't judge, its cute. and the food did some numbers to ur stomachs, so u were avoiding some rides till u digest ur food. 

while walking around, the sun was setting creating a beautiful scenery. 

wanting this to be a lasting memory, u convinced todoroki to take a photo together. 

u wanted to take an aesthetic couple photo to show off to other people who were trying to steal ur hunk of a man. 

at first u had asked random passerby to help yalls take a photo,, but being the attention-starved lil bby he is, he felt awkward posing in front of random people. 

which led u guys to just set up the camera on a small ledge with a castle in the bg. 

it was then, todoroki had experience a flashback to the conversation that him and midoriya had. 

“hmm, wikihow says that every date has to end in a kiss, for it to be called successful..”

“is this website trustable??”

“it should be.. anyways just do it.”

coming back to reality, todoroki suddenly felt a sense of urgency, the date was coming to an end, and he hasn't kissed u yet,,,,

at that moment, as the timer of the phone camera was reaching 0, with u and ur wide smile posing for the camera

todoroki gently turned ur head to face his, and he had kissed u, for public display.

ur face immediately turned red, but u eventually returned the kiss, after getting over the shock. 

after separating, todoroki was silent, slightly scared and worried of ur reaction(?)

“why didn't u tell me u were going to kiss me~~ u should've told me so i can at least look good in the photo~~”

“..huh? well, um, i just had he sudden urge to do it?” kinda ooc

he was flustered, confused, embarrassed and giddy all at the same time

but the hugest wave of relief came over him, as he began to relax. 

“well we can just take another photo if u don't like it--”

“nO, i like this photo. but im always open for another kiss.” ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

getting over ur prior embarrassment, u tried flirting with him, returning the bold action he had pulled off earlier. 

“well, i wouldn't reject an offer like that would i..”

surprising u by picking up on the offer u suggested, todoroki gave u another kiss, easily taking ur breathe away.

well, ig this just confirms that wikihow is reliable. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i can't believe i ended a fic with a kiss,, this is the most cop out ending ive written but im way too tired to write properly rn,, 

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a/n: hihi, so im kinda nervous posting this, cuz thus far i have only done haikyuu works so like??? i feel like i have an overall better understanding of haikyuu characters and their dynamics, but i wanted to write something for my precious icyhot <3 if this piece does well, ill try and write more about bnha characters. hope it was good!!

[lesbiheon]

N! Can you tell me about some things you love about Jooheon? (I know I probs could've just messaged you this but keeping the Jooheon Love private wouldn't have been very cash money y'know)

oh goodness… where to begin… i was thinking of making a numerical list but honestly… idk how long or short it’ll be so i’m sticking w bullet points lol…

• a recent thing i realized i really love about him is the fact that he trusts mbb enough to let us know about his struggles w his mental health as of late… super fucking brave of him and i respect him so much for sharing this information when he really didn’t owe us an explanation or post or anything bc it can such a private and touchy subject (x)

• (i know this is one of your fav things about him too so i must mention it!) i love that he doesn’t gaf about what ppl think and said hell yes to gay rights not once but TWICE on vlive he supports lgbt+ mbb and that right there is true love to know that someone you admire so much loves you entirely regardless of who you love it’s such a wonderful feeling thank you jooheon for accepting me wholeheartedly and so many other mbb in this world (x, x)

• i love his laugh! it can be wheezy it can be super fucking loud and extra sometimes its a simple “pfft” i love when he pauses and thinks about what was said and then laughs it’s so cute and sometimes he sounds like an old man also he sometimes covers his mouth w his hand when he laughs… extra cute… it’s such a beautiful sound if i’m being real… (x, x) 

• i love how loved his is by EVERYONE! he meets someone and right away you can just see the heart eyes forming bc… 1) he’s cute af 2) he’s cute af and 3) he’s cute as fuck (i can’t even link anything bc i would need an entirely diff post for this lmao)

• i love that he’s a cat person bc HELL YES CATS! he’s such a sweet and kind “cat dad” to yoshi and gucci loves them sooo sooooo soooooo much buys them a lot of toys and cute clothes and cares for them and has taken them to a FANSIGNING! that one mtv news interview where he called yoshi and gucci his daughters and he’s called them his babies before… it’s too cute i constantly go through my yoshi and gucci tag and have an amazing time (x)

• i honest to god love how dramatic he is and how he can get soooooo sulky and pouty over the simplest thing said or done or ignored and i gain like 3 years of life every time i see it happen i think it’s cute and if i was around that every single day i think i’d explode from love overdose more specifically i love that he talks in pout (x)

• i love his music i absolutely love every single record he’s put out i think his sound is so true to him and that’s kind of weird to say bc he does play around w sounds a lot but i think he has a v specific sound… idk how to make this make sense tbh but… stream dwtd mixtape? ongshimi? he has over 100 copyrighted songs so he’s one of the most copyrighted artists in sk which is… incredible… joohunnit onehunnit… i’m tying in his musical ability as well bc apart from being an incredible amazing wonderful composer and producer and lyricist he can also play multiple instruments!! he can play the drums, piano, and a bit of guitar and there’s prob so many other sides to him w music that we’ve yet to see and also he has such a beautiful singing voice! he once said if he wasn’t a rapper or a part of monsta x he’d be a singer and i believe that 100% and i think it’s great that he’s gotten to the opportunity to showcase himself and his voice more w their recent english tracks truly love that for him

• i love his be happy stay happy motto i consider him a huge inspiration in my life to continue moving forward fighting for what i want and believing in myself and in my moments of reflecting on my happiness i think about this message bc he cares about not just his happiness but of others as well for ex. the vlive he did w shownu after their we are here in ny show where they talk about how jooheon constantly asks him if he’s happy bc he genuinely cares about him and wants him to genuinely be happy he also cares about the happiness of mbb and says these things bc they’re good things that he wants us to hear he’s an immensely busy person and this takes a toll and i mean he’s a human fucking being it hurts to know he’s going through a rough time rn but it’s also great to know he’s taking time to find that happiness again and find himself as well and i hope his message is helping him out rn i also heard it live during the we are here in atlanta show i went to and p much bawled my eyes out bc he performs and makes music and loves music bc it makes him happy but also bc it makes mbb happy and that’s one of the many ways in which he shows and gives out love (33:44-38:24) (x)

• i love how he wears his heart on his sleeve 100% of the time you know exactly how he’s feeling what he’s thinking bc he doesn’t hide it! i don’t even have a specific moment tbh he’s just 100% himself 100% real and that right there is admirable af

• this list can really go on and on and on and on and on and… there are so many reasons to love lee jooheon but i think i’m gonna end it w my favorite thing about him which is a quality… actually… multiple words to describe him ig but ok! i love how hardworking and dedicated and perseverant he is he’s one of the type of ppl that when he sets his mind to something he will stop at nothing (not in a bad way) to get there he constantly works to improve himself even tho he’s already at such a god tier level it amazes me every. single. time. he does something even more incredible to showcase himself ex. 2019 mama intro (need i say more?) and 2019 sbs gayo daejeon where he was rapping AND drumming at the same time whilst being sick physically and mentally (during mama too) and STILL putting on one hell of a fucking performance also him changing his name more than once bc he believed it would bring him more luck to debuting which honestly? i think is valid and not to mention how HARD he worked to be chosen to become a part of monsta x the years of training and fighting and believing to do that! and guess what? he did it! he did that! his goals and dreams became his reality!

[punkscowardschampions]

Grace & Ava

Grace: you okay babes???! Ava: The furthest from without actually being 💀 Grace: Oh my god what even?! aren't you at that uni thing? Ava: For a few more hours yet, give me strength Ava: Last night was Ava: nah Grace: last night was a sorority girl horror 📽🎞 or like ??? Ava: Allegedly a thing but I've yet to see anyone rocking a skinhead without it being a Choice™ Ava: So, everyone else did go to the 📽🎞 last night but I pulled a sickie 'cos Ava: well, that can do one as a concept but also Ava: Are you sure you even want this? It's a whole saga, like 🙄😫 Grace: duh x 10000 Grace: there's nothing anyone can tell me about mean girls 🔪💔 we can skip 📽🎞 when I've IRL lived it Grace: & obvs! talk to me I'm BEYOND concerned Ava: There are no mean girls Ava: and I think the shit I pulled is beyond a Regina level even Grace: UM no way are you casting yourself 👑 thanks! what happened?! Ava: Sorry but you can try and come for the 👑 after I tell you Ava: So they get current pupils to show you around, do the tour, answer questions, do the whole programme with you, right? Ava: Must be good extra credit or whatever, anyway Ava: There's this guy, and the whole time there's this total...vibe, you know? And I'm not delusional or sad like that, its an actual thing but I know him, know of him Ava: so I know why I should just ignore it, but instead when everyone is out, I DM him Grace: excuse you bitch I'm literally reformed but like putting that ASIDE cos this is so much more IMPORTANT!😱😱 Grace: so are we talking a phoneful of regret or IRL walk of shame? Ava: We talked for a while, so I have literal evidence it wasn't just one-sided but truly do not wanna be that girl but like, I swear Ava: anyway, we did go out, properly and it was Ava: so good Ava: but then he had to go and now I have to die Grace: duh it was 😍😍😍 I know what a vibe means Grace: he has a gf yeah? honey we've ALL done it don't even stress he's obvs not that into her Ava: No its Ava: more complex Ava: there's Ava: well, he's married Ava: but he's not as old as that makes him sound but yeah, clearly quite into her Grace: Ew! What's with everyone getting 💍👰 Grace: if Janis gets proposed to I'm kmsing Grace: it doesn't sound that complex though babes, don't let this family fool you, 💔💍 is such a thing™ Ava: Can't see it myself Ava: they are cute though Ava: of course but I'm not out here doing that myself, that's Buster's bread and butter, not mine Ava: they have kids as well, two Grace: 🙄🤢 Grace: totally but we literally NEVER have to tell her or them that shh Grace: well that explains it 🤰👰💍 he probs doesn't even love her Ava: My lips are sealed Ava: One of them is like...6 or something and the other is a baby so there's like no excuse Ava: It didn't come to anything more than a kiss but I'm mortified Grace: 6? How old is he?! Ava: Again, not as old as that makes him sound Ava: 22 ish, in his last year Grace: THANK GOD! I was literally picturing like a hot 40 Ava: Somehow that would be less complicated Ava: Unless he was a friend of my parents or something but not trying to hit every cliche before I even start Uni Grace: UGH! remember when I went to the fair with that lad who turned out to be 19 & everyone lost it like I was being groomed 🙄 Grace: such a drama Grace: this seriously doesn't sound that bad Grace: either he's bored of her or having his 🍰 & 😋 Grace: who stopped it at 😘😘? Ava: Well, he did turn out to be a creep didn't he Ava: but he could've been a 15 year old creep as easily, I see your point Ava: He did Ava: his phone kept going off Ava: it must've been her Grace: yeah & like I totally worked it out for myself from reading the vibe Grace: same as you last night Grace: 😱😱😱 Grace: did he answer? did you literally have to sit there 🤐!!! Ava: I think I might've got the vibe seriously wrong Ava: well, no Ava: I don't know Ava: we were in a club, he couldn't Ava: but we left real quick and he hasn't looked at me today so that's been fun Grace: oh girl please Grace: trust, as someone who has gotten the vibe wrong WAY more times than we need to admit outside of this convo, you so didn't Grace: he's having a freakout, we've ALL been there too, yeah? Ava: Clearly Ava: 😂 Ava: Oh God Ava: I just need to pretend this never happened and peace Grace: come over Grace: we'll go out & make some new drama happen Grace: soon as you do, you'll know if he's bothered Ava: Sounds good Ava: If I didn't have two other Unis to hit before Summer officially starts 🙄 Grace: OMG you're so extra Ava: Rude 😂 Ava: Not as if I can go here now, is it? Ava: I'm burning through options, girl Grace: ILY for it 💜 Grace: did you wanna go there for real? Ava: Not hugely Ava: it was in my top 5 but its definitely not 🥇 Grace: 🤷💅 Grace: it was obvs a 🏆💋 so Ava: seriously Ava: though I'm probably gonna find out that he's made time for every girl on this program Grace: did you pick up on any other vibes? Ava: I don't think so Ava: He did say other girls were flirting with him though Grace: 😂 boys always say that Grace: literally will have been hitting refresh waiting on you 💬 Ava: Or, they really were and that was a subtle dig that I just ignored Ava: 🤡🤡 Grace: ugh don't Grace: nobody's looked hotter the morning after babes Grace: he'd be the 🤡 Ava: Minus the HP🗲 scar Ava: idk where that came from, which doesn't bode well for how trashed I must've been Grace: if he was as wasted maybe he doesn't remember & that's why he blanked you cos everything is Grace: 👋 been there Ava: I wish Ava: like I said, we know each other Grace: do you know his 👰? Ava: 😶 Ava: Just kill me now Grace: has he posted anything? Ava: About how much he 💕 his wife and kids? Ava: Fuck knows Grace: well yeah or idk how wasted he was Grace: anything to go on Ava: His 👰 would not approve Grace: if he doesn't have like a private snap he's no 💔 Ava: Wasn't my first question Ava: Probably does but bit late to ask now Grace: you literally could Grace: cringe but no more cringe than running into him playing happy families when you go get coffee Ava: I'm just gonna leave it Ava: Not a moment too soon Grace: 👌👌💜 Ava: When the alcohol leaves my system my head will be less 🤯 Ava: Standard Grace: his too though Grace: maybe he'll come to you Grace: 🤞 yeah or 🤞 no? Ava: I don't know what I want Ava: or feel about any of it Ava: It's better to just assume nah, a pleasant surprise is always better than disappointment Grace: mhmm Ava: Shut up Ava: I'm confused and hungover, I don't know anything 🙄😏 Grace: no shade Ava: I know Ava: This is too extra Ava: even from me, right Grace: you can wear the 👑 until I earn it back Grace: cos duh who's more extra Grace: me, this hoe Ava: 😂 I'm ready for it Grace: you gotta let me have it there's no 😘💖😍 in my 🔮 Ava: Not even a little? Grace: there was a little but it got too much Grace: too close to being like Grace: I can't Grace: I'm out Ava: I don't think it's all it's cracked up to be, honestly Grace: makes me feel like I'm cracking up Grace: no thanks Ava: Preaching to the converted today Grace: 🙌 Ava: I'll definitely come over some point this Summer though Grace: YAY Grace: I so need you Ava: I think me and the 'rents are going the first two weeks, then I'm going with my friends the last two Ava: so sometime in the middle to play with Grace: ugh if only my mum and dad were organised about anything ever Grace: god knows when or where they'll spring a hol 🙄🙄 Ava: All fun and games Ava: least you get more space these days, I guess Grace: if they're gonna be annoying I'll just bring you with 🤷 Ava: Three holidays would be a record Grace: hot older lad who?! 😂 Grace: Brazil is on another level Ava: If there's sun and sea, I'm happy Grace: you'll be sooo 😊 Ava: 😘 Grace: 💜 Ava: I did not think that would be such a rant Ava: IOU a coffee, I'll ping you the funds rn forreal Grace: As if! like I've NEVER done you that way Grace: shhh Ava: It's done Ava: Consider it a reminder we need a proper catch up when my head is less fried Grace: 👌👌 fine Ava: Don't be mad, it is essential some good happens today Grace: It's fine babes, promise Ava: Good Ava: I better try and finish this essay thing Ava: Or at least make a better start Grace: or at least get yourself a coffee & put some lipstick on Ava: Cheers, I know I look clapped 😂 Grace: shut up Grace: you do not! Ava: I wouldn't wanna chat to me either tbh Grace: Girl, stop Grace: this convo has been wild & I'm living Ava: I meant him, not you 😉 Ava: Only subjected socials to one pic, like Grace: well duh he wants to kiss you again not have a chat Grace: if you wanna talk you'll have to Grace: there's only one kind of convo lads ever start Ava: Hmm Ava: Have better luck with this essay than thinking of something worth saying Grace: what do you wanna say? Grace: like if you could just Ava: Christ Ava: firstly, what the fuck? Grace: he can't shade you for starting there Ava: Though I initiated it so, ugh Grace: he didn't have to go along with any of it Grace: his wife & kids were literally waiting at home for him so Grace: you like deserve to know if there are other girls or not Ava: What's more insane though Ava: asking around every girl on this course, or asking him Ava: There are definite drawbacks either way from where I'm sitting Grace: you said you know him, how much does he lie? Grace: asking him will be more than cringe if you can't believe a word, it'll be pointless Ava: I don't know him like that but Ava: I suppose I've heard that he's a typical lad in most regards so Grace: yeah Ava: but that's from one source so Ava: who's to say they're 100% reliable Grace: right Grace: I'll stalk the other girls, obvs am insane so Ava: No Ava: 'cos then I'll have to tell you who he is Ava: and it'll all get out of hand Grace: OMG do I know him??! Ava: How would you? Ava: 'course not Grace: then why does it matter if you tell me or not? Ava: I'll sort it myself Grace: Ava Grace: is it already out of hand? Ava: That'd depend on who you asked too Grace: I'm asking you Ava: I've got this Grace: promise Ava: 🤞 Grace: 👌

[maiseui]

** btw app i tried to reblgo this all in once but dumblr wouldn't let me.... so this is part 1 hehe read this reblog first tyt ty fav

OH. MY. GOD.

!@#$%^&* OKAY IM GNA TRY KEEP THE KEYBOARD SMASHING TO A MINIMUM CAUSE I GENUINELY WANNA GIVE U PROPER FEEDBACK BUT IM SCREAMIGN HOW JWOEIFJWEO IM LITERALLY FUCKING SCREAMING I CANT BELIEVE RECALL IS OVER AND I CANT BELEIVE THIS IS THE FUCKING EDNIGN ARE U GJOKING RIGHT??? NOW????? NAU R NAUR NAUR COS ITS NOT LIKE ID DINT EXPECT THIS BC THIS IS LITERALLY WHAT I ANTICIPATED BUT SOMEONE TELL ME WHY THIS HURTS OS MUCH IM FUCKING YELLING 😭😭😭 BRUHHH BYE I HATE THIS APP????????

LMFAOOOO FUCK JFOWEIJOIJ32 ok keep reading but BEWARE this is v long and im sorry

SEIIIIIIIIIII BESTAYYYY YOU FREAKIGN DID ITTTT 😭😭 GIRLLL words cannot describe how happy i am for u that you've finally finished recall???? like yes uve got ur epilogue to go but UGH RECALL IS FINALLY OVER HELLO???? CONGRATSSSSS UGHH LOWKEY i wish i were u rn like ooft finishing a fic must feel SO GOOD esp one as long as recall 😫 BUT ANYWAYY HELLOOOO MORE WRITTEN FICS??? HECK YEA im so excited for that??! can't wait for ur new era 😻 i feel like u really underestimate your writing (like A LOT) so im so happy that you're gna venture more into writing fics <333 ure gna slay no matter what sooo 🤤

OK. MOVING ONTO RECALL. HIGHKEY ALL I WANNA DO IS SMASH MY KEYBOARD AND SCREAM SO THAT U CAN MF HEAR ME FROM ACROSS THE WORLD BUT I JUST NEED A MOMENT TO BREATHE ???????? ugh SEI i fucking loved recall so so so so so much 😭 the way it had everything needed in an smau??? like where do i even start wtf... ok lets like talk ab the characters bc that's such a strength of urs??? honestly for me, i dont mind reading a fic whose plot is comparatively tame so long as i enjoy the characters?? w recall i literally got the best of both worlds... insane plot aside, i fucking LOVED all the characters sm 😭 u really created so many standout characters?? like,,, YN?? WONYOUNG?? YUNA??? YURI??? MOST IMPORTANTLY... JUNGWON?? FUCKKKKK he was literally my fav... i have such a soft sucker spot for "broken" characters and won mf ANNIHILATED my heart 😭😭 being able to follow the entire trajectory of his character development was so insanely satisfying??? like i loved the way u introduced him as this super stoic, aloof, standoffish, lowkey mf aggro ass dude ??? it was super perplexing and intriguing at first, given the fact that he was literally the goody two shoes student president??? like naur THE GOOD TURNED BAD BOY TROPE IS FUCKING SUPERIOR IDGAFFFF UGHH the execution of the trope was so fucking GOOD THO. SEI THE FIRST FEW CHAPTERS OF RECALL WERE LITERALLY INSANELY GOOD. i loved loved loved the way you sustained plot suspense the entire time and always kept us readers on the edge of our seats??? like i was honestly ALWAYS questioning what would happen next - jungwon was such a fucking mystery and super unpredictable WHICH MADE READING THE SMAU SO SO SO FUCKIGN FUN?? also the way you were conscientious enough to incorporate various red herrings or "fake villains" like yuri and jeongwoo was so so so GOOD too?? BC YANNO AT THE END OF THE DAY THE ACCIDENT WAS LOWKEY JUST JW'S FAULT. BUT ANYWAY THE REST OF THE STORY DID NOT DISAPPOINT AT ALL,, LIKE FUCKKKK just thinking about the whole smau across 40 chapters and how everything unravelled is insane ?? GIRLL you did such a good job w ur story pacing by including just enough every single chapter so that you could answer a few questions and also create a thousand more 😭 literally ADDICTIVE. it honestly made the whole experience of reading SAUR GOOD

i actually really really really the way you unfolded won's character too?? like i could NOT figure him out the entire time. he was so hot and cold with yn and while it was CONFUSING, i feel like it was all part of the fun trying to figure him out? the same w all the other characters like rei and yuri -- you never make anything definitive and i love that sm about ur characters,, I ALWAYS ALWAYS doubt my first judgements/impressions of some of them bc i know ure very detailed and thoughtful and are batshit crazy enough to make them flip entirely??

RECALL FINALE 𐀔 40 THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY

wc: 950

⸻ [ 章 40 ] 。 ❛❛ I love you. ❜❜

Right, the letter. How could Yn forget? Jungwon had made such a big fuss about opening it on graduation.

But somehow…

Somehow it felt wrong — opening it without him.

But still, with tears welling up in her eyes, Yn slowly unsealed the navy blue letter, pulling out the neatly folded paper that was sealed with a cherry blossom sticker.

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[calig0-verne]

YEEEEEEESSS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I AM BEGGING

That's it. I literally have nothing to complain about anymore. Everything is falling into places.

I am hyped beyond human comprehension and not just for the finale but also for season 2.