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I misread my mentor's message and thought i had a meeting at 7.30 am but turns out the meeting is tomorrow 😔
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I'm so alive and back on my dorym bullshit after orym's sending and dorian feeling like he's missing something he ran away from.
#I'm too awake to sleep now#i will work on 3 hours of sleep let's goooo#critical role#cr spoilers#cr3#dorym
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Blessings roll call!
#small group is back and i laughed and talked myself hoarse!! AND ANOTHER COUPLE IS PREGNANT!!#i'm soooo happy to be back with small group and my good buddy who's very intense about the Lord is a leader this year#it's gonna be lit#wow like. i'm so so glad we're back. this is how it should be. ah!! i love it!!!#i'm sleeping over at my cg mom & dad's house and i'm so tired i may actually sleep hard#on my way home from work i passed the farmer's market and i stopped and got flowers and sauerkraut and greens#and an award-winning pumpkin bar and some kale plants#it was so much smaller than the saturday market and they had this like kids' club happening and the lady playing guitar#was having the kids sing too it was so cute#i conquered a scary work task today and now i have only one more hanging over me that's scary and then things are chill for a while!#and i have felt very awake to beauty and goodness and the Lord this week
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There is no comic... yet. But perhaps one day there could be.
This took me an entire week to finish. 😵
#my art#animaniacs#anime-niacs comic#Yakko warner#Wakko Warner#Dot Warner#I was gonna add more but I'm tired of working on it plus the bg would have been too busy#I already don't really like the bg but eh#Dot is so fricken hard to draw for some reason#she alone took me several days#now it's 3:30am and I've been awake for 19 hours I need sleep#this is the most elaborate thing I've done in a while
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Hello darkness my old friend (literally)
#power just went out like 30 minutes ago#hurricane milton#I'm too anxious to go to sleep#I should've gone to bed earlier so I could've slept through this#but instead I'm a dumbass awake at 1 am in a hurricane#it's pitch black in here. the only light is coming from my phone.#I don't think the hurricane is strong enough to like. destroy the house. but. um. very scared.#my first hurricane lol#I lived in the Rockies for most of my life far from any beaches#but of course my family has to move to Florida 😒#I'm gonna try to get some sleep now. I'll try to update you all in the morning#hopefully everything will be fine#I think my anxiety is just. not helping. at all.#anyway. good night everyone. stay safe. if you don't see me post in the next 24 hours. well. um. never mind. I'll be fine.
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Oh fuck me fuckme fuck me
#I'm going to start killing people#I need SLEEPY TYLENOL NOWWWWWWW#Mfer laying in bed for 8 hours full awake 🫠 eyes shut. Brain. ACTIVE#IM TRYING SO HARD TO SLEEP JUST BE UNCONSCIOUS#Too late now#Fuck me I have to be aware enough to not kill everybody in this vehicle#Mfing murder nightmare too what the fuck#Set the scene: YouTuber wedding#The man in charge of filming is an asshole to the minimum wage people working there#Like real mean. And one meek guy tries to tell the groom but the groom is kinda a dismissive asshole about it bc he's already paid the guy#So it's too late now. Meek guy keeps getting disrespected and storms out to the parking lot to just leave#Woman who has been witnessing this apparently is gonna kill on meek guys behalf. He does not want this#Woman gets into a fucked up death machine car and drives it into the groom#But not like. Runs him over. There's a fucking saw blade on the front that starts cutting through the bottom of his torso#He was screaming a lot. I'm not sure if he survived or not. But the atmosphere was not fun#Very muddy desaturated colors. Very wet and musty feeling. It was like almost a parking garage#I don't think I'll ever have a dream as scary as the um time-looping cannibal beach dream#But this was just the delightful cherry of not being able to sleep at fucking. ALL .#Literally cried I'm so distressed about not being able to control anything about myself rn#Hhhhh :(((#3rd night in a row I've slept like shit
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If you've never heard an LRAD go off in person, I *genuinely* do not want to hear your opinion about methods of resistance in the US.
#i'm so fucking sick#wifey and i are pretty sure we got COVID so we've been isolating and trying to stay well#this is now at least my 2nd infection though#and you can tell too#wifey has been having trouble keeping me fed and hydrated and CONSCIOUS because I'm so tired I can barely function#this is despite sleeping for 12 hrs a day the past two days#and being fully medicated (or as fully medicated as I can be)#and on top of that my hypotension has been acting up severely since getting sick and I can barely walk 10ft b4 losing consciousness#i've haven't started throwing up my food and water yet but I've come pretty close especially early in the morning#anyway the point is that I am like. visibly being hit with an autoimmune aggravator not just a normal cold#and unfortunately#I'm taking it harder this time than the last#wifey is doing okay and mostly experienced it as a headcold with severe fatigue#she's pretty much better now a week or so out from starting to show symptoms#we....don't like when she gets hit that hard tho because it usually means I'm about to get bodied#pattern is holding so far regrettably lmao#anyway#my point is that I'm sick and angry and grieving and I really want to hit something or set it on fire#but i can't because i can barely move or even stay awake#and this is literally all my personal hell#as a result i am finding that I have a uhhhhhhhhhh unreasonably low threshhold for irritation recently
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*Decides to take up school at night to catch up since I'm homeschooled*
*Reaches a lesson explaining sleep*
*Gets curious and looks up which type I am between a long sleeper and short sleeper*
*Discovers I'm a part of 10% of the population and have the "Dolphin Chronotype"*
... Okay, that explains a lot.
#please just... look up what it is. I'm too tired to explain...#... No? Okay fine I will#The Dolphin chronotype basically means I'm more half awake like a dolphin while my other half sleeps#It also means my sleep schedule will always be a wreck and my conditions need to be in a goldilocks zone for me to fall asleep normally#its weird. Why am I so weird???#Why am I so rare actually? It's freaky. I'm like in the below 10% for a ton of things now that I'm realizing it#And yet I look like the most average human being ever#geez-#text post#random
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My Jance fic is slightly 👌🏻 getting out of hand, like
Random Jance enjoyer: How much do you want Jan to suffer in the first chapter?
Me: yes
As I said to my lovely @anxious-witch
#inspiration strikes at the worse hours#yeah it's 6 am and i'm still awake because i just stopped writing#good morning rio don't worry now I'm going to sleep#i eat angst at breakfast with my cereals#poor jan tho#jance#joker out#<- yeah putting it in the main tag too i'm bold#i'm not surviving while i'm writing it- people won't survive reading it#jan peteh#nace jordan
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i made my idv news sideblog victor-themed bc i thought it'd be cute and silly, oh haha look it's victor delivering the mail
but then one of my mutuals referred to me as victor when talking about the sideblog and made me realise i might(?????) kin him. gonna need 3 - 5 business days to figure this out please hold
#BC LIKE#idk i don't know him super well as a character#but a lot of stuff i do know i'm like. seeing in a different light of “oh shit me too”#i need to look more into him as a character before adding him to the kinlist but. yeah#rambling#silly circle#i wanna go back to bed but alas i have already filled my sleep quota (ten hours)#so my body has decided i must Awake now
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y'all ever feel so much love for your f/o that you just get moved to literal tears or am i just a mess
#art is making me feel things once again#marigoldshipping#<---- mima brainrot hours which is terrible timing because i need to be awake in like six hours#but i am over here. kicking my legs in bed every five seconds#i love him so much he's a literal safety hazard akjjhdsh :(#he's also just a huge nerd and literally just a big loser but/lh#aaaa stopp making me FEEL THINGS it's horrible#i need to be sleeping and not generating tears because my heart goes crazy over fictional characters#literally smiling like an idiot just thinking about him while typing this#he's just. >_<#oh terrible another moment where i can't convey what i'm thinking#he's just... he's such a nerddd aaaaa#his snarkiness his obvious need to dramaticize things even though he *claims* that's a thing that only marik does now (he's lying)#his attempts at seeming much more stoic than he actually is his poorly hidden attempts at trying not to seem like he cares too much#how he can be so arrogant and sharp one second and try so hard to be responsible and gentle the next#how he tries to act like he isn't as much as a wreck as the rest of us but he definitely is#i don't. even know what i'm trying to say. i don't think i ever really do when it comes to any of them#they make me so stupidly incoherent i can't even think correctly right now#i just... i love how i've managed to get past his walls. that i get to see more of him now#not just the scary and daunting part that he used to be. not just the level headed and intimidating part. not just the upset and angry part#i get to see the sides of him where he makes dumb and ignorant mistakes. i get to see him when he's calm. i get to see him when he's happy#i get to see him when he's sad and i get to see him when he's completely vulnerable#i get to see him in every mood and in every emotion. i get to see every part.#and i love all the parts of him. all the mess and fuss and the wrongs and the rights and the good and the bad#all of it is completely lovable to me. he's completely lovable to me.#i just. aaaa sobbing crying sniffling into my hands HE'S SOOOO#god damnit melvin you're making your girlfriend cry STOP BEING SO YOU PLEASE#he's. so pretty and handsome and bbdbfhfbjdffjdfd#i've been talking about my f/os so much recently i'm so sorry ><#gonna. try and fall asleep but my heart is literally beating so hard right now skjfkjds
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suicide mention tw //
the way i was sobbing earlier bc we buried my younger cousin today who died by suicide and i was like okay i cant breathe i need to distract myself so i went to watch my silly lil show haha cute isekai kbl played eps 5-7 everything is great i'm emotional but it's all good and then. episode 8. literally had to put my phone down i was like u have to be fucking kidding me. maybe everybody saw that coming but i didn't and i was not prepared and my chest hurts
#am i a joke?? WHAT ARE THE ODDS. WHAT#that the show i turn to for a distraction from suicide is PLOT TWIST about suicide.#anyway. idk what to now bc i cant sleep but if i stay awake i keep crying#suicide tw#suicide mention#it was suuuuch a fucking good show unfortunately this was the wrong time for me to see that bit bc i'm sick to my stomach#it just hit too close to home#that's my oversharing for tonight <3
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#i doubt i'll be able to sleep now because i am full or rage right now and i want to go murder my father#that said... i am feeling better than last night when i couldn't pinpoint my emotions lol#last night i was worried i wasn't sad/worried enough and thus not normal#tonight i'm planning murder so i know i can still feel shit sjnfjsg#anyways my entire body is boiling hot and my head hurts now so that's not fun but whatever#i wish death upon my father and my uncle can go eat shit too (although I have no proof to justify those feelings lol)#i have no family... none#my aunt and uncle from one side are the shittiest people i have ever met and their son is a monster#my father is the most pathetic little worm on the face of the earth who sometimes manages to conjure up feelings in me#feelings of hate and rage#my uncle on that side is another pathetic little useless man who doesn't really conjure up any feelings in me#my grandma is dying but even when she was alive she had what i can only assume were mental health problems which made her push everyone away#the rest of the grandparents are dead#the only woman in my family who had some amount of kindness and love was my grandma from my stupid ass father's side#and i sadly didn't appreciate her enough while she was living :/#that's it... the only loving kind and understanding people left are my mom and my brother...#it's us three against the fucking world huh?#fuck that's depressing...#anyways...#i'm gonna try to distract myself with other shit until I can't be awake anymore#fingers crossed that happens soon (and that i die in my sleep)#angel talks#personal
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So I got a new phone bc i couldn't deal w the little storage anymore (thought "oh i just get a low option sd cards exist". alas. who thought getting rid of that was a good idea) and this comparison is so wild to me. wdym i can finally play (multiple) big games again and still have plenty of space while my prev one barely got any left. it feels so nice to not worry abt that anymore.
#a wild lux appears#i genuinely missed hsr it's fun to play again and I'm glad i checked zzz out i like the combat#also i assure you minus maybe some photos reg apps is there nothing on my prev one i could/wanted to rly delete i looked over that a lot#how could i afford that 1 new contract 2 i will be a money parasite to my mother until she drops dead. i didn't pay a penny#i will hopefully have this one until it's unsalvageable reg how storage was my primary issue#i think this is the first time i have a new phone before my prev one was already dead or v close to it#anyways I'm gonna pass out now and let the queue take over. i had. such bad sleep n other stuff this week n kinda the one prior too oof.#I'm awake since like yesterday evening and all i did was play zzz and then hsr it's so nice. fingers crossed reg gacha hn
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Me last night at 3am: I'm gonna wake up early tomorrow. Or at least earlier. I'm gonna get this sleep schedule somewhat under control!
Me at 10am: *Wakes up. Snoozes my alarm for 2 hours*
Me at 12pm: Well. Getting out of bed at 12 is better than 2 like yesterday.
Me from 5pm to about 7pm: *takes a nap in an armchair*
Me right now at 4am: God why am I not sleepy yet?
#once again. i know this is my fault. but still.#i'm going to bed now. i'm going to TRY to wake up at 10am. and like GET UP. out of bed.#i've said that many times this last week or so while lying awake while the sun comes up#that i'd get up after an hourish if i still hadn't slept and just dealt with the tiredness.#but every time i post that. i inevitably finally fall asleep. like the act of saying it makes me do the opposite.#but today. TODAY. i will get up by 10am. even if i barely sleep.#and i will force myself up and out of bed and even out of the house#i'll get some breakfast from a deli. maybe pick up a prescription that's waiting for me if it's not too hot to walk to the pharmacy.#and i will be up and awake#...but still watch me sleep till noon or later... i don't WANT to... but my body just does it#this is what happens when i don't have a regular work schedule. please someone hire me if only to help my sleep schedule.
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#it feels like at this moment i'm mourning the loss of someone who left this earth 15 years ago#the realisation of the severety of the situation is dawning on me only just now#i was 13 when it happened and i didn't have anyone to talk to about it so i didn't get to mourn#time has finally caught up with me. the loss hitting me at full force#and realising he's the reason i took up photography and my urge to capture as many moments as i can#i feel absolutely wrecked at the moment. i can't stop the tears from falling and memories from reliving#i feel so sad for the child in me who had to push this all down to cope too. that's heartbreaking in and of itself#i hope i can catch a breath soon and go to sleep before i'm still awake to watch the sun rise
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