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leejeann · 2 years ago

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Local craft place is doing a pottery wheel session (like you can go and they’ll teach you how to make something) that is in my budget, outside of my work hours, and 2 days before my birthday, so I’ve officially figured out what this year’s “birthday present to myself” is gonna be lol

Their art classes always look so fun but usually are either a few weeks long and therefore out of my budget, or it’s a one-off class I might be able to afford but it falls during my work hours. It’ll be so fun to finally attend one!

#there were a solid several years when my birthday made me really depressed #just had some various unrelated bad associations with it #so the past few years I kind of unofficially decided to do a nice thing for it each year #since i don't really organize a party or expect gifts from anyone #(though my mom almost always gets me something even if it's just money)#(and my best friend has gotten me gifts the past couple years which is really nice)#Kinda try to rewire the negative associations #And it's working so far! Really well actually!#I've bought a cookie cake for myself each year ever since like high school #but the past two years I got myself minecraft in 2021 and then a guitar last year #And it's helped the negative stuff a LOT #because those are like lasting things #playing Minecraft has become one of my favorite comforts #and learning guitar has been really fun #and both are ongoing parts of my life I will always associate with my birthday now #Sorry I'm rambling again lol #anyway I'm hacking my brain and it's fun #lee speaks

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givethispromptatry · 11 months ago

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#hey all #just wanted to remind you that this is a fun place to get writing ideas and i am literally just some rando on the internet #this means i am not always right and in fact am very often wrong #a lot of you are very kind and help me out when i get stuff wrong #i try to acknowledge those people and thank them for their help #however #if you choose to be rude or needlessly mean to me or a follower on a post and i see it i will block you #i have no time for negativity here (i get enough of that in my regular life)#shaming others for ignorance when they genuinely don't know something just makes you an enemy rather than a friend #no need to be judgy #this is a hobby blog by a public school teacher in some random city #not an international team of competant individuals #thank you for reading the tag rant! happy writing

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silvermoon424 · 4 months ago

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I was thinking about how I used to get in SO MUCH drama (fandom and otherwise) on Tumblr back in like 2011-2015. Like, it was constant. And now I don't really have any problems on here at all. It's so chill.

It then it occurred to me that I now have a college degree, a job, and a fully developed frontal lobe. Yep, that'll do it.

#it didn't help that back then I was a cringe anti-SJW and leaned pretty right lol #so naturally I attracted a lot of negative attention on here #I still love fandom stuff but I definitely avoid drama like the plague now lol #fandom drama #tumblr drama #personal

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aroaceleovaldez · 2 years ago

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I really like the idea that for the first few months of them hanging out post-HoO, Will had no idea Nico had stayed at CHB before. He was under the impression that Nico was more or less new to camp, since he had been a rogue demigod, and that he had just been an ally of CHB up until that point who had been to the camp but had never been a camper. The entire time Will just assumed he was the senior camper between the two of them, not knowing Nico had actually joined camp almost a whole two years prior to him and was instead returning.

Nico eventually realizes Will’s misconception and tries to explain it, but Will thinks Nico is messing with him until Nico explains the crack in the dining pavilion (which no one at camp besides Percy knows the origins of, save for maybe Annabeth, Grover, and Chiron) was from him the night he ran away (and maybe also shows Will his camp beads to further prove he’s not making it up, depending on if you believe he has one from BoTL or not). Will then gets to have the fun little journey of recontextualizing everything he knows about Nico.

#pjo #riordanverse #will solace #nico di angleo #solangelo #headcanons #headcanon #i think a lot about solangelo between HoO and TOA and their dynamic in that time #and how despite not thinking negatively of Nico Will still has plenty of misconceptions and assumptions about him #and they have some minor conflict surrounding that while they slowly build up to truly knowing each other #it's largely inconsequential conflict and it doesn't hinder them being friends at all #but the minute they clear it up Will realizes that Nico is a *very* different person than he initially realized #not in a bad way. just that he's seen a Lot More Shit than Will expected #bonus points if this coincides with Will learning Nico's from the 30s #so it goes from Will going ''oh you're just a really powerful son of the Big 3 who idk got trained by your father probably?''#''and then became an ally of Percy's and helped out in the wars and stuff and now you're finally joining camp a year later than most would''#to Will learning ''oh. OH. you've seen some shit. oh you've been in this business way longer than most. are you good?''#''you're 13. most demigods learn they're demigods when they're 12. what do you MEAN you've seen all this shit & been doing this since 10''#''*ARE YOU GOOD???*''

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whatareyoudoingwithamaserati · 2 months ago

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I like Jepexx because I too am the type of person to not realize my clothes are on backwards for at least an entire day

#HELP #anyways lol I like him for a lot of reasons including the way all the negative parts of my disability he seems to wear with pride #yeah he does stupid stuff and he fucks up ajd he’s not as skilled as everyone else #in all the ways that i am thanks to my disability #but unlike me he is not one bit ashamed of it! he makes god awful villager setups with PRIDE and he says stupid shit on purpose and #I like him :]#she life on my steal till i

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an0nfr0mth3d3n · 9 months ago

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so the reset is good for players who felt behind and for players who like to grind more, but for the role players and some builders it has been DRAMATIC. I lowkey think that the admins should offer serious help to role players and builders to keep them interested and not feeling completely hopeless cause ahahaha

this kinda sucks for them!

#Talking about aypierre and bad but probably applies to a lot other people too #Qsmp #qsmp crit #not neg #I just think everyone and I mean EVERYONE should be helped if they were in the middle of something and or had big stuff they cared about

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seventh-district · 1 month ago

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again and again i find myself lamenting that audio roleplay isn't taken more seriously by some people. like yeah, they often have a romantic element, and by nature they usually directly involve/address the listener- and i totally get that those things aren't to everyone's taste. no art or entertainment is universally appealing, and that's okay! but.. it still makes me a lil sad that the "cringe" reputation of asmr/audio rp precedes it. there's a whole lot of talent and creativity being poured into these audios by so many people that i feel goes unrecognized and/or disrespected simply due to the medium that the stories are being told through.

#this post brought to you by: me bingeing Sam & Darlin's entire storyline over the past few days and having a Lot of feelings abt it #asmr #audio roleplay #rp audio stuff #redacted audio #anyways i don't have a conclusion to this post. and i'm not Mad or Upset or anything i'm just thinkin' out loud #and i mean it's not like it doesn't get plenty of praise within its respective audience bc it does. at least for the more popular creators #but i feel it'll still always have the shadow of its cringe reputation looming over it #which makes it hard for some ppl to openly appreciate or share with others that aren't already fans of the medium #like do u know how many comments i've seen along the lines of 'this is great but i'd die if anyone knew i liked this kinda stuff' ?? :(#idk maybe i feel strongly about it bc i'm a self-insert fanfic writer. and i feel like the two have a lot in common. including a bad rep.#like. not every audio will be well-written or produced and neither will every fanfic. but that doesn't mean it's a less legitimate artform #and i'm lucky to have never (yet) received negative comments on my work. but that doesn't mean that it doesn't make me sigh when people-#-say shit like 'this reads like fanfiction' as a way of calling something bad. or other similar sentiments that make the same implication #and i wouldn't be surprised if audio creators feel the same way when they encounter certain comments or statements #like. those YT videos where ppl will 'try bf asmr for the first time' or whatever and it's just 20 mins of cringing and over-reacting? eugh #tbf i haven't watched many bc why do that to myself. so Maybe there's some that are respectful but still. imagine getting roasted like that #and yes yes i know that by posting stuff online you're inadvertently sighing up to be criticized by Anyone but still. man. i dunno #i'm going on a tangent but my point is. i'm grateful for the creators that still make their art in spite of the public's perception of it #bc some of the most impactful emotional experiences i've ever gained from fiction took place in audio rp and i'm so serious abt that.#anyways. this post almost feels like i'm 'making up a person to be mad at' but i promise it's not that serious i'm just yapping. mostly.#certainly not trying to start any kind of debate or anything either i just have a lot of fixation-induced energy and nowhere to put it #this is Eric's fault (/lh) for cooking Sam up in a lab catered exactly to my taste and making Darlin' waaaaay too painfully relatable #but it's also My fault for bingeing the Inversion /and/ the Quinn arc /and/ the Summit all within a couple days. but i can't help myself #feels like i've run an emotional marathon. triathlon. The Emotional Olympics if u will. i'm feeling Everything #who knew that beating the shit out of ur fictional abuser could feel so goddamn cathartic! it's a nice replacement when u can't do it irl #anyways i'm off on a tangent again. thanks for coming to my TED Talk i'm gonna crawl back in my hole now #actually i'm gonna go relisten to a few audios. as Research for my Sam & Darlin' playlist as well as a post i'll be making about it soon #u Know i've got it bad when i not only make a playlist but start Posting on here about the songs that remind me of them. i'm cooked guys.

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deepseawave · 4 months ago

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obsessed w the tags on ur last reblog

Omgg, thank you haha, it was a quality post so I just had to appreciate it in full force 😂❤️

Can‘t believe someone would actually enjoy my yapping :,D

#guys help is it time for a rebranding?? am I just gonna post about f1 now??#I still can’t believe this has all started because bestie and I were watching Ted Lasso (because I’ve been obsessed with that show for a #while now too) and I paused the episode to talk about how I really like the way Jamie interacts with kids (I’m sorry people being good with #and nice to kids is one of my weaknesses I work with kids now and have been invested in treating kids well forever)#so me saying that apparently reminded her of max and she showed me a video of him with p and yeah it was very effective in making me like #him and then we left the episode on pause and she told me a lot about f1 and max specifically cause I was interested now lmao (funny thing #is that she also got roped into it by our other friends I swear it’s speeding lmao #she also compared him to Jamie from Ted lasso (if you know you know) and showed me some heart wrenching Taylor swift edits (i haven’t #emotionally recovered yet) and yeah that’s how I started consuming way too much f1 content on YouTube and got into this whole mess lmao #oh yeah our friends also made me and another friend make a Tier list for all the drivers based on vibes alone (cause I only knew a bit about #max at that time and the other one knew nothing really) which was very funny too #especially looking back at it (we did some of them so dirty lmao 😂)#I’ve also come to the conclusion that tumblr is still one of the least annoying platforms to engage with other people (still)#YouTube is full of hate comments about drivers and stuff it’s so annoying actually #not to mention Twitter but I don’t go there and probably never will 😂#I personally don’t enjoy fics and scenarios and shipping of real people cause it makes me a bit uncomfy (not judging people who do #you do you as long as it doesn’t negatively affect anyone #but yeah I’d much rather just scroll by those here than have to look away from all the mindless hate and which driver is better discussions #everywhere else like I’m not one to engage with stuff like that but it does upset me to some #degree so yeah tumblr making memes and being rather positive about their drivers (most of what I’ve seen here of course there are gonna be #annoying people everywhere) is much more tolerable and a lot more enjoyable for me #whoops this post got away from me again oh dear #I’ve had the idea for a meme stuck in my head for days now: Max verstappen but make it if you don’t love me at my *swearing on team radio #giving spicy replies and attitude to the media maxplaining and complaining going for risky overtakes* you don’t deserve me at my *precious #interactions with p talking about his cats being a goofball with other drivers and especially danny defending other drivers driving #beautifully in the rain* it’s a package deal you can’t just pick and choose and personally I don’t even get why people complain about some #of the other stuff I appreciate someone who’s passionate and honest and genuinely kind where it matters 🤷🏻‍♀️#I think I’ve seen someone else say that but the more people complain about and criticize max the more I feel the need to defend him #god forbid women have hobbies for real (can’t believe I’ve yapped so much I can’t put more tags 💀)#also shoutout to Oscar Piastri and Danny Ric (I was so happy Oscar won even tho McLaren where being very silly in a not so funny way)

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rexscanonwife · 4 months ago

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When I'm closing out at work and I've had a shitty day I blast MCR on the radio speakers. The louder it is the worse of a day I had 🙂

#jane journals #not self ship #vent #negative #BUDDY IT WAS PRETTY FUCKIN LOUD TONIGHT #zombie by the cranberries came on and i tried to sing it as loud as i could to relieve some tension ajfkgkg #but mannnn tonight suuuucked 😭#ok the way closing works ofc is we're slower in the late afternoon so i have time to get a head start on cleaning and stuff #but a BUNCH of old people came in and ordered a bunch of shit and we had steady people from that point on #not to mention some regulars coming in 10 MINUTES BEFORE CLOSING #i was SO BEHIND on the cleaning and i didn't lock those doors till 8!! im supposed to/usually leave at 7:20-7:30 #i guess half an hour doesnt seem like a lot but god it fucking felt like it #especially cause its ALL cleaning. sweeping and mopping and dishes and trash bags and vacuuming and then counting out the drawer 😮‍💨😮‍💨#honestly........sportacus helped me thru it 👉👈 again #its no wonder his actor was a motivational speaker ajfjgkg it was effective #and now im omw home!!#gonna have chicken and salad for dindin #and watch some lazytown ☺️☺️

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corset · 6 months ago

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Our mental health has been in such an interestingly terrible place for the last month or so. Genuinely kind of fascinating to watch from different internal angles....like watching the ocean ebb and flow and change temperament at random sometimes based on weather or the moon or something. Like this shit is just terrible

#I can't even describe it #Like it isn't even just the basic stuff I've dealt with my whole life right #I've had some of this for well over a decade now right I've been very unwell for a long time #I'm a system so that tells you a lot already #Speaking of which that's been extremely hard on us lately too. Rapid switching and blending and worsening dissociative episodes #It makes it extremely....hard. I don't know how to put this for people reading this who don't just intuitively know what I'm talking about #Let me try though #Stress worsens the symptoms right. And we've been under a Lot of stress. When you have a system who not only experiences different levels #of emotion but also different emotional responses to certain things and then also expresses symptoms of your multiple mental illnesses to #different degrees and then on top of that your sense of time/cognition becomes nonlinear because you're blurry as hell in and out all the #time it becomes markedly more difficult to try and balance out/manage your other shit. Like I cannot even describe #It's like trying to climb a slippery incline #I feel truly. Crazy. Like a complete unstable fragmented freak lately it is So bad. And I feel like I'm becoming Worse /As A Person/ too #Like I just feel like I'm becoming so jaded and fucked up mentally our internal state right now is frankly very bad. If you think I've been #negative and difficult on this blog lately hoo boy is my posting on here not even scratching the surface #We're trying to do some things about stuff we can fix/control in our external surroundings but like #[Edit: in addition I have never been properly medicated or gotten help for Any of this since I was 14-15 and they weren't even helping us #for the right things.]

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shirogane-oushirou · 12 days ago

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no promises anymoooooreeeee i'll appear online when i appear online 😭 every time i say "ooh i think life is almost done being overwhelming!" it. becomes even more overwhelming in the dumbest ways. all i can manage rn when i'm not stressing myself into a shut-down state is staring at the wall while listening to youtube essays + mindlessly crocheting.

i might queue up ppls art and fics w/o commentary in the tags... i want other ppl to see what all of my cool friends have made, but i genuinely can't think right now with this monstrous brain fog. i'm really sorry, just. yeah. maybe i'll think of some way to make it up later!!! once the dust has settled!!!! but until then i wuv u and miss u. smiles.

[venting in tags including familial manipulation and ableism. i. didn't mean to write all of that, thiss was originally going to be a main blog post but. aaaaaAAAAAA!!!!!

also no need for replies or anything, i'd turn them off for just the one post if i could kjsndkn, i just needed to get things out and go eep jsjndsfdn ok bye bye bye bye!!!!]

#goddd my family finds it sooooooo funny that i can't do basic tasks! it's soooo funny that i can't even think of a horror movie to watch #on halloween bc i genuinely can't remember a single one right now. it's soooo funny that i can't take cardboard boxes or #old furniture out of my room without help bc i've physically and mentally and emotionally burnt out for Months.#and me not being able to move shit out after two (2) days makes me a hoarder somehow. and ofc hoarding is a moral failing #and my mom has to give me a stern talking-to about hoarding things... that were. again. in my room for 2 days....#[tbc it isnt a moral failing no matter the reason. life is hard and things happen and it can be hard to get rid of things for Reasons.]#nevermind them making constant snide remarks about me using ugly 'mismatched' desk / storage furniture. bc it was free / cheap? no income??#AND!!!!! i have a couple of new diagnoses. which doesn't change much day to day but it does make my family making fun of me #even more dumbfounding. like. this explains a lot of really scary unexplained symptoms that constantly leave me #housebound for weeks but uhhh haha hehe hoho??? so silly so funny that i'm barely conscious for multiple weeks???#and you can see that i'm getting worse but that makes it funnier??? hmm!!!#also nevermind that i've told them the exact reason why i've been like this (read: them) but that ALSO makes it funnier somehow.#but i also can't say shit bc they're doing something ~nice~ for me (out of convenience + after almost a decade of 'don't get comfortable'#and 'don't decorate this room bc it isn't yours' and 'you need to be ready to move out by x date'#only for the date to arrive and them to pull the 'i never said that. and if i did say it i didn't mean it like that.#and if i did mean it like that i don't anymore.' card. + any big renovations are things they wanted anyway. hmmmm!!#and how i have to do all of the phys labor alone bc if i ask for help i get made fun of!!! and yelled at that i'm doing things Wrong #(hint: i'm following instructions to the letter but. my family knows better than those silly things!! ^^ ))#jfc i sure did rant. uh. yeah. things. are really weird and uncomfy and i feel thankful that i finally can have my own things on display #outside of closets and bins again after a decade?? but i'm also waiting for the other shoe to drop / them to tell me i owe them in #some way??? bc that's how it works. 'i'm doing a nice thing you didn't even ask me for so now you have to do whatever i tell you to.'#meanwhile i can't even maladaptive daydream my way through it bc my brain is soup right now. can't remember basic things abt #my interests bc i've been on negative battery / spoons for a couple of months straight and it's only getting worse.#OKAY TLDR i'm not in a state to do anything until everything irl gets settled. and i'm trying So Hard to get it all over with but there's #only so much i can do in a day before i completely shut down. i didn't even get into the insurance stuff i've been fighting too ughhhh.#so if i show up on here in short spurts -- hi! bye! hi!! i wuv and care u!!! hope youre well mwah mwah!!!!!!! i'll post what i can and then #disappear when i need to recharge. it is what it is. i need to try to sleep now... uh if this post disappears when i wake up.... yeah......#📌 [ my posts. ]#💭 [ my thoughts. ]#vent -

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arrietty-rune · 1 year ago

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Sometimes i feel useless and annoying

#//vent #my vent art is... normal sometimes like this one so okay to rb but idk might delete later or removing the tags #i use a lot the wilsons as confort ch actually #idk sometime i feel like i'm not that appreciated in the fandom idk despite my heart know it's wrong #i think it just bc i overthink about some tawog artists that i enjoyed giving support for months but they never interacted with me #and for one of them their art and cute doodles helped me in personal stuff + brought me back to tawog fandom #and i hoped to make them smile with my art but.. yeah they just... don't care after these months #I get sad and disappointed that now they art send just... /neg vibes so i unfollowed them #idk i just feel guit that i made them upset for... unknown reasons #sigh i should just don't care about that and keep to draw dor myself #cringy or not #i'm mostly an optimistic person but overthink a lot when i feel anxious haha #i'll be probably smile and enjoy life again tomorrow #if ppl wanna talk or sending cute ask ye you can #talking with ppl help me to confort so feel free

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pizzaqueen · 10 months ago

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holographicbutch · 2 months ago

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Why have I felt on the verge of crying all day literally nothing has happened

#woke up on the wrong side of the bed i guess #like ive been home alone all day and i actually got a lot of things done that i needed to #with no interruptions or setbacks or anything. nothing to make me upset #i just. have this weight in my chest and i cant find anything to distract me from it #trying to draw/practice piano/game/etc has done nothing #im really in that No Hyperfixation period where i dont have something to think about 24/7 to bring me joy i guess #and im so tired all of the time. my roommate wants help with stuff tomorrow but i genuinely dont know if i can do it #even though i have nothing else going on and i do want to help her but im just. so tired. and ive been doing things with her Every Weekend #i think i just need a break. idk. i dont feel like i deserve one #negative #skele says stuff

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emdotcom · 2 months ago

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Tbh, can't believe I'm cutting ties with Fnaf before Batim.

#em.txt #negative #all thr fnaf stuff that's come outta my rbs since the anniversary have just been queued. my queue is huge it takes a bit #anyways #bendy has given me pounds of grief & a lot of it is my fault for like. falling in love with a proof lf concept #& not waiting for the game to come out in full & rushing in to each chapter looking for hints #to a conclusion i made up in my mind & was never ever coming. the ending to game one is quite trash #& while the sequel tries to make the ending in 1 worthwhile it's too little too late #because while a sequel can recontectualize its prequel it cannot erase how it was when it first was released #yeah so like. i figured between how shit the studio heads were & how I didn't like the first game ot the second game #or really the spinoff which i played i am like the only bendy fan i know that played that thing #& I'm not like. super stoked for any of the 3 games they teased in secrets of the machine #which i think is fine btw secrets of the machine is okay but i refuse to judge it as a game because it's an advertisement #i think some of the secrets in that game like the poster one are stupid but most of it is fine kinda cool. glad they got to reuse #all those assets from previous games & also cameo the car from the mobile game #ANYWAYS i figured all this would pile up to mean i would cut off batim. but I haven't. when the next games come out i will #probably at least check out a playthrough maybe play them myself if they seem interesting #meanwhile. like. the fnaf 10th anniversary happened #they dropped a sequel to help wanted. they dropped 2 more fnaf games. & I don't give a shiiiiittt #i woke up the day after the anniversary & realized like. I don't like the games. I don't give a fuck about the books.#the movie has practical effects & was cute but nothing i will think about deeply. the lore is a industrial sized dumpster fire #I don't like the community i only play ONE fan game & i just don't care about this series that used to eat my brain whole on the daily #so i gave it a month. maybe this was just a depressive spike. but no it seems like something shifted in my brain permanently #I don't like fnaf anymore which sucks #but what sucks more is i still like this other piece of shit that has easily given me worse times

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mad-hunts · 3 months ago

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send me a ✧ and i’ll bold all that apply to your muse! (with italics as a 'sometimes' option because i'm a rule-breaker and things may depend on the situation).

i would kill you. ✧ i would physically hurt you. ✧ i would attack you unprovoked. ✧ i would manipulate you. ✧ i dislike you. ✧ you annoy me. ✧ you scare me. ✧ you intimidate me. ✧ i hope i intimidate you. ✧ i pity you. ✧ you disgust me. ✧ i hate you. ✧ i’m indifferent toward you. ✧ i’d like to get to know you better. ✧ i’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ i’d like to be friends with you. ✧ i’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ i’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ you are my friend. ✧ you are my best friend. ✧ you are my mentor. ✧ i look up to you. ✧ i respect you. ✧ you are my hero. ✧ you inspire me. ✧ you are my enemy. ✧ you make me happy. ✧ i want to protect you. ✧ i would fight by your side. ✧ i consider you an equal. ✧ i think you are beneath me. ✧ i think you are above me. ✧ i would lie for you. ✧ i would lie to you. ✧ i would sleep with you. ✧ i would sleep by your side. ✧ i would hug you. ✧ i would kiss you. ✧ you are family to me. ✧ i would die for you. ✧ i would kill for you. ✧ i would trust you with my life. ✧ i would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ i would trust you with a secret. ✧ i would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ i love you (platonically). ✧ i love you (romantically).

#sifonie #OOH BOYYY. the mixed nature of this is... JSJSJ i'm sorry about barton ramone he is justtt. Not the best person even around people-#he likes / cares about sometimes NGL and a lot of his relationships if not all of them are (unfortunately) unstable to at least a small-#degree. though of course i'm not trying to justify his behavior at all here... i just think that barton literally Cannot Help himself-#whenever it comes to manipulating people to the point where he may even do it unconsciously sometimes as terrible as that might sound 💀#and as for the whole 'you scare me' thing i think this just applies in the context of sibyl technically having the power to like. Kill him-#if they wanted to even if they wouldn't considering that they are like siblings to each other you know? and barton is naturally a-#distrustful person SO that also adds to him feeling a bit scared of them at times i think ahahhh.#but that's enough of talking about the negative stuff!! let's talk about how barton sees sibyl as an equal and would die for them...#because i honestly that serves as SUCH a dichotomy to the first thing's that i highlighted here and normally those thing's-#probably wouldn't coexist within the same person but if there is one thing that barton is - it's surprising in regards to how complex-#he can make his relationships with people JSJSJ LMAO but barton wanting to protect them is also? kind of sweet as well?? like OMG #plus the fact that they make him happy is 😭 it's really kind of touching in my humble opinion.#now if only barton didn't feel the need to LIE and still manipulate people sometimes even when he likes them...#then we'd be golden but i guess that would be asking for too much from him JSJSJ #not me talking as if he's real 😂 nooo but this was seriously really fun to fill out so thank you for sending this prompt to me ramone!!#and i hope i was able to shed a little more light on their relationship from barton's side of thing's bc i feel like it can be hard to tell #what barton truly thinks about someone even when i'm writing him in the 'stream of consciousness' style haha #also the italics is a 'maybe' in this case so it doesn't apply all the time!!

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