#And i forgot to post it because the next lyrics didn't show up down there.

[zelena777]

Aah, aaahh! Aaaoooohhh...!

That's rather nice~!

[theflyingfeeling]

thoughts from last night's St. Aurora show 🖤

2 seconds into the warm-up act and suddenly I'm living in an alternate universe in which Joonas Porko is the lead singer of a rock band (more under the cut but I just need to share this first because I just can't get over this lol):

then he took his jacket off and I was like ??????? if not Porko, then why so Porko-shaped 😭

(I'll post one more video I took of their set so you can see it for yourselves, because he kinda also sounds a bit like Joonas at times 😂😭)

Joonas Porko doppelgängers aside, Delta Enigma was actually pretty good and I hope I'll remember to check out more of their stuff at some point! I had my picture taken with the lead singer but didn't get to chat with him properly as the last band of the evening just started to play when I got to him, so hopefully next time

St. Aurora was so much fun!! 😭 They were really just a group of friends playing some songs and having fun 🥺💕 although if I'm being completely honest it did feel a little weird to be there, as I only got into their music literally three weeks ago, and even though I have tried my best to do my homework and listen to their music a lot, I was not able to sing and jam along like I would at a BC show for example (and they didn't play the only song I already know the lyrics to 😔), but they were super fun to watch, both the music and the banter in between songs was top tier entertainment 👌

and then after the show they were hanging out by the merch stall. I've been looking for a cap to wear at summer festivals but none of the bands were selling any, so I asked Nile how much he wants for his own, but he wouldn't sell it lol, although he appreciated that I was brave enough to ask 😅 so I bought a totebag instead (the one they had on display, which apparently was the only one they had 😂), and I got to meet all the band members and have the totebag signed as @johnnyporko quite literally dragged me around and pushed me to them one by one like "Now there's Petja. Go!" and !!!!!!!! they were all so ridiculously sweet, gentlemen through and through, each and every one of them, from Nile who texted everyone backstage to come back so that I could get my totebag signed, to Eemi who seemed so grateful that we had come (as a side note the crowd was very sparse that night) and when we were saying our goodbyes and he and @johnnyporko were hugging, I was all prepared to be on my merry way when they'd be finished, but then Eemi turned to me and hugged me too, even though I hadn't even initiated a hug as I was feeling a bit shy 😭💗💕💞💖💗💘 honestly, already during the show I kept thinking Eemi seems like such a sweet person, because whereas Nile and the others were bantering away and talking "whatever their spit brings to their mouth" as we say in Finland lol, there was Eemi thanking everyone for coming and giving shout-outs to members of crew and just being an angel in general, and in person he's even a bigger sweetheart 🥺 my interactions with Vallu, Petja and Osku were somewhat briefer but I assure you they were all incredibly nice as well and seemed very down-to-earth. ngl I'm kinda bummed I forgot to show Osku some pictures of our old man Osku the dachshund lol, but maybe next time, because there definitely will be a next time!! 🖤

huge huge thanks to @johnnyporko for not only being my company last night but also for introducing me to St. Aurora, both to their music and to the individuals playing in the band 🫶

edit. oh, and Luna Kills was fun too! I listened to some of their songs earlier this week and really liked them 👍

[elmaxlys]

So like I kept waking up and going back to sleep so there was a lot more and I didn't note them down alas but here's another:

I went to an Italian music festival but Dan Reynolds was there. All the singers were dressed the same, in a stripped black and white shirt (mostly white with thin black stripes). (in a later frame, the ladies were dressed in extravagant dresses and later that night every guy was dressed the way he wanted it). So they apparently had been practicing for a song where one singer sings a line. The first three or four did it right and the next one messed it up and the coordinator was super mad and went and corrected the guy and so he sang it right (the event was live lmfao) and then the next one did it correctly but then it was a lady's turn and what did she do? She broke rank, went with a full sparkly and very colorful dress and sang the right words but in a completely different melody. Everyone cheered and that's how the "real" event started.

From there, basically, someone passed the top 75 songs (he ended up doing so but like. not in order or anything) and everyone went and did whatever, dancing or eating or stuff. There was only one screen where the lyrics were displayed so there were a lot of people all mushed together there. I went for a bit.

In a part of the dream I was hanging out with two girls and I had a suspicion they were dating but I didn't ask because that's rude. One of them was very enthusiastic. She had dark blonde hair in a ponytail and she was dressed urban sporty. So she fit right in lol. She's the one who dragged us everywhere she wanted. Then one of the songs + videos was a joke that had somehow made it 11th of the top (I checked the official list later in the dream) and in it the dancer went down some double stairs (stairs with a rampe in the middle therefore cutting it in half) and he arrived at the bottom, he made some slutty dance moves. I knew that video well because I had made it in a previous dream months or years ago and posted it on an alt of account.

So everyone was like is that a joke and all, how did that make it in the top, it's only a few seconds long. So the guy putting the vids found the full song used in the video and put it on. From there a bunch of guys tried the slutty dance at the bottom of the stairs but they didn't commit except for a trio of bnha cosplayer (one was kirishima, another was bakugou and the last one I think was midoriya but like he showed a lot of skin, so idk)

This went on for a bit, my mom who apparently was there too went home and at some point I noticed the weight of my phone in my pocket wasn't there anymore. Very unlike myself, I didn't panic and went oh well. After a bit, the music guy started reading the life of child singers. They all had died super young so this got depressing super fast and he quickly wondered if it was a good idea after all. He still read 5 biographies. And one of them was of a girl in the metal scene who was famous for having burned out and scribbled over nazi symbols and her whole thing was like instead of avoiding them let's show the the disrespect they deserve. This was very controversial at the time of her life and then everyone forgot her until that evening. And then the guy reading the life went "and at her death she was found with hair around her mouth" and basically he said it was everyone's assumption she had died giving or after a blowjob but turned out it was then proven not to be pubic hair and then proven to be her own hair and *gasp* she was actually a young boy shaving every day. He stopped after precising he had exhibed signs and symptoms of depression early on and his death was probably a suicide. But I wondered for a while after that I wondered if that singer was a guy who was forced to pretend to be a girl or a trans guy who took t secretly or a trans girl who was only allowed to appear as a girl in public but not in private, which was what ultimately killed her. I'll never know beczuse this singer doesn't exist + has been dead for over 10 years in dream realm.

I exited the room and my phone was back in my pocket. I had lost the two girls and didn't think about them for the rest of the dream. After that I met middle school classmate S and she was with someone but I can't remember. So we talked and stuff I don't remember much until she was asked by a guy if I was available and wanted to try giving him a chance. I said sure, if he doesn't mind that I'll always be more interested in a guy over 80yo (Donato. Btw. Interested but not in a sexual or romantic way, as we all know.) so S went and read the answer to him and it was of course shown on big screens (but not on live TV this time) and the guy decomposed and everyone laughed saying what is it with people being into older guys? Poor guy and stuff. And the guy went yeah but there's older and there's 80... But he was seriously considering it. And so the person S was with asked me if I really would date him if he decided he didn't mind and I said sure it's not like I have anyone else in mind, it'll be good experience to put on my CV (<-???) and they said sure whatever.

After that I went home and S tried to convince me to stay and I said I had a medical emergency.

After that the dream changed somewhat and I was with the guy that confessed, my older sister and a lady on the phone trying to scam people (? Or was she really) and turned out the guy confessed only to get my number for this lady

For the stats: regular me, Elmax.

There was another dream before that one I remembered as I was typing. It was about a young sheltered (sequestrated) boy and I met him a few times via social events where he had to be because I think he was a sort of experiment? Anyway I befriended him when we were both kids. We were on a sport field? Like the one with read soil people run on.

When we grew up I found him alone sitting along a wall, right next to the emergency door. So I went and he recognized me and stuff and he was happy to see me and I to see him and then he got a ? photographing device? and made me sit next to him so we could take one together. At some point we were three taking a pic idk. Then suddenly the adults noticed us and took their biiiig photographing device which was a large cardboard square on a easel. And the first time my eyes were closed + we couldn't see my smile bc of my mask so we took another and I managed to keep my eyes open the whole time and accentuated my smile for it to show on my eyes despite the mask. The result was pretty good.

For the stats: regular me but a bit to the left, no idea for the name

Inmy ddream i had a surprising ship: Breda and Winry from FMA. the important part was that I transed both their genders so Breda was a trans woman, taking e and all, and Winry was a trans guy, now back to taller than Ed, which pissed him off severely. They adopted... *drumroll for suspense* Me! I was a teenage leftover from Donato's orphanage (leave it to my brain to insert Donato everywhere lmao)

[fallingsunflower]

Okay besties, I need to sleep but an anon asked me to post a recap of the night before I logged off so here it is:

overall the night was underwhelming. Collectively, we agreed Harry seemed out of it, maybe even sick. Also didn't seem as enthused to be there. We're hoping it's just the first show jitters and he'll warm up soon!! Don't want to jump to conclusions too soon so let's see how the next few tour days go

The arena was crowded and I noticed people not wearing masks, or pulling them down. I'm not optimistic about it not getting cancelled

Harry wore a....questionable outfit. You can view it here

Supposedly he forgot the lyrics to Adore You and Woman

He also did the whale and splashed people with a water bottle he drank from which I find odd considering we're in a pandemic still. I'm assuming he's getting tested regularly but still

Olivia was there, making sure she was seen front and center. And she waved to fans - yikes

I ranted about my dislike for Olivia again. You can read about it here

I know I'm missing stuff but I'm so beyond tired right now and need to sleep lol

I won't be as active tomorrow when I wake up because I'm doing something with my grandma lol but I'll sort through my asks when I get a chance! I have an overwhelming amount in my inbox right now so come tomorrow, I apologize if I don't post yours!! It's not personal but my inbox is flooded at the moment.

Also please follow my backup if you'd like to continue the discussion if I hit my post limit (which I expect to happen). I'll probably turn off asks on my main account when that happens so then you can shoot on over to my backup. It's @sunflowerdiscussionbackup

Thanks loves and goodnight x

Also here's a real Harry smile for you:

[whatiwillsay]

Hi, I stumbled upon this blog only about a week ago, so sorry if you've already answered. I didn't end up watching glee until after it aired, so I missed most of the drama, could you explain ShirtGate? I know what happened, but not really the outcome of it

omg ANON OF ALL THE DAYS TO ASK USSSSS

but we don’t have anything to do but squirm and squeal fo like 8 more hours or w/e so...

shirtgate!

1.  you need to know there were huge rumors around dianna agron dating her costar lea michele.  achele was real, we’re certain. (like there’s more evidence for achele than kaylor and swiftgron put together)  search the achele tag in the blog i have some mini-posts on it or check out achele references on tumblr

2.  from the very first time they performed the song somebody to love they would hold hands during ambers solo.  they did it at the fox upfronts in may 2009 and did it on both glee live tours.

see below first somebody to love handhold

3.  they brought the handhold back for the 2011 tour and something funny seemed to happen.  click here for visual. they hold hands...then dianna has this weird twitter event:

4.  then they very clearly stop with lea even putting her arm behind her back to make sure everyone knows they’re not holding hands.

5.  but then on June 12, 2011 dianna wears not the shirt quinn is supposed to wear for the born this way number but instead this shirt she picked up at the merch stand!

 it’s a good look on her isn’t it!

twitter explodes and the l chat bursts into flames 

6.  a few hours later dianna posts her infamous “as a lesbian...supporter” essay on Tumblr. you can read the full thing here if you scroll down a beat to the picture of her in the likes girls shirt but essentially she says she was doing it as an ally...there’s one paragraph that always sticks out to us and high key breaks my heart and it’s this (emphasis mine):

“Raise your hand if you’ve spent nights crying yourself to sleep, raise your hand if you’ve felt as if you’d rather hide in bed all day than face the people that make you feel small or powerless! Raise your hand if you’ve felt as if you’d rather lie to people than tell them the truth about who you really are, because at least you wouldn’t be the victim of hateful behavior or prejudice! And raise your hand if lying feels almost as bad.”

7.  dianna misses the show in Detroit the next day (the official excuse now, years later is that she forgot her passport and was able to get out of the states into Canada but not back in, there were also rumors she was sick but she was papped out and about in toronto that day)

she tweets this:

8.  then she’s back in the next show after skipping the Detroit show. there’s no handhold during somebody to love, but the next show dianna reaches out and squeezes her arm and then finally the show after that the handhold is back!

lea also tweeted while backstage a show or two or three after shirtgate and said “born this way” and included some lyrics (some of the gayer ones, we don’t have a receipt for you we tried to find it but we’re kind of overwhelmed today)

it basically looks like achele was on, had a fight due to something happening on twitter, dianna outed herself as a grand romantic gesture and then...

i’m pretty sure the network and showrunners forced her back into the closet because they couldn’t have lea get outed and dianna was certainly just meant to be heterosexual eye candy.

very sad, very fucked up, and part of the reason i think dianna will never officially come out.

hope i managed to give you a decent picture of what happened!

and yes i’m working on an exhaustive achele timeline similar to the amazing swiftgron timeline that already exists but it’s gonna take time! achele is fascinating though!

[jjmaybanksblog]

The Book of You & I- Rafe Cameron

Summary: Based on The Book of You & I by Alec Benjamin

The Book of You & I- Rafe Cameron x fem reader

Summary: Based on

Word count: 2,900

Warnings: Angst, brief nudity mentioned, is kissing a warning?? all together sadness

Disclaimer: The female pronouns have been changed to male since this will be from a girls pov

Flashback in italics

Well, it all began in the back of his car

I was just sixteen, but I fell so hard

You and Rafe Cameron sat in the trunk of his jeep. Rafe had asked you on a date a few days before this, quickly realizing he was falling for you hard and fast. 

He drove you two up to the look-out hill, which gave you a beautiful view of the Outer Banks. He decorated the trunk with pillows and small fairy lights, playing music in the background. You were resting your head on his chest, feeling at peace as you listened to his calm heart beat.

It was when he kissed your forehead did you realize you were falling for him just as hard. Every moment you spent with him then you fell harder and harder. He never failed to make you smile and feel loved when you needed it most which you greatly appreciated.

Well, the years went by and he held my heart, but his love ran dry and we fell apart

You and Rafe had been dating for 3 years now. 3 years of going on dates, surprising each other with gifts, going to parties together, mind blowing sex, spending nights together. You thought everything was going beautifully.

However, as time went by everytime you tried to hang out with your boyfriend, he said he was always busy, coming up with excuses on why he couldn't go out when in reality he was partying with his friends and snorting coke.

I felt him growing distant, I knew his love was shifting

"Why are you constantly up my ass what the fuck is that about lately?!" Rafe screamed in your face. You two were in the middle of an argument after you asked him why he hasn't been around lately. He snapped at you as soon as you asked.

"Why are you yelling at me?" You raised your voice back, genuinely confused as to why he was acting so hostile towards you. "Because I'm not happy in our relationship anymore!" He screamed, red in the face. Your mouth fell open at his confession, a strong tension filling the room. Your eyes stung with tears, furrowing your eyebrows at him.

"What?" Your voice was barely audible as he kept his stare at the floor, rubbing his hands through his hair.

"I'm not happy anymore. I just- I don't know I'm not… in love with you anymore." A sob escaped your lips as you took in his words. You didn't say anything else to him as you walked out of his bedroom, slamming his door shut. You attempted to collect yourself at least until you were back in your car.

Accidentally bumping into Sarah, your head hung low as you apologized. "Y/N, you okay?" Your eyes met Sarah who softly gasped at your red eyes. Quickly shaking your head, you left the Cameron household, and entered your car. Your fingers gripped your steering wheel until your knuckles turned white. 

You inhaled sharply, wiping the tears out of your eyes you sped out of the driveway, your grip never ending up on the wheel.

And all that I could say was, don't tell me that it's over, the book of you and I. Now you've scribbled out my name and you've erased my favorite lines

You cried into your pillows for days on end, avoiding your friends calls and texts, not going to the dinner table to eat with your family, not leaving your bed in general. You sent countless nights, playing back memories in your head of the two of you. You questioned yourself so many times, wondering what you did wrong that made him fall out of love with you.

For the first time in a week you checked your social media. Your thumb hovered over Rafe's instagram account. Before you could stop yourself you scrolled through his posts, your grip tightening on your phone you saw all of his posts with you were deleted. Biting your tongue, you didn't hesitate to archive the pictures of you two on your account. Throwing your phone on the end of the bed, you sniffled before clutching onto your pillow.

There were so many chapters that we never got to write, like cereal for dinner and staying up all night. 

For your 1 year anniversary, Rafe had bought you tickets to see your favorite band, getting you front row seats. You were forever grateful that Rafe had done that for you, even when you told him he didn't have to do anything so big.

You and Rafe stood side by side, his arm around your shoulder, your hand resting on his chest. Chills were sent down your spine as the crowd screamed and cheered as the band appeared on stage. Rafe shifted you so you were in front of him, your back against his chest. 

You shut your eyes in happiness, listening to the crowd sing along to the lyrics. Letting the feeling of euphoria take over your body, you rested your head on his shoulder, holding his hands in place on your waist. 

The concert lasted almost 2 hours, making it 3 a.m. when you two returned back to his house. As soon as the both entered your house, Rafe threw himself on your couch, his body exhausted from all the adrenaline. You giggled at your boyfriend, entering the kitchen to make bowls of cereal. Pouring Fruit loops into two bowls, you added the milk and grabbed two spoons. 

Plopping yourself next to Rafe's head, you shook the cereal box, his head snapping up to look at which one you grabbed. A dorky grin appeared on his face, sitting up and tucking his legs underneath. "You know what to do." You handed him the remote. He shoved a spoonful of cereal into his mouth before turning the TV onto Spongebob.

I remember where we started, I remember how you looked

Before Rafe asked you on your first date, he asked you to senior prom. He knew you were a sucker for surprises so he gathered his friends to help lead you to the outside bus dock. There Rafe stood with a glass jar in his hands. You walked up to him and read the sign, 'be a smartie and take this dum dum to prom!' In the glass vase was the smarties candies on the bottom, and dum dumb lollipops on top.

Not being able to hold back your smile, you happily said yes to him, earning cheers and whoops from everyone around you. 

Once prom actually came around, you never forgot what he looked like. He showed up at your door in a light blue tux, a corsage the color of your dress in his hands. You could easily tell he was nervous, but as soon as he saw you all of his nerves left. "You look… stunning." He exhaled, truly at a loss for words.

"Thank you! You clean up well." You joked, your hand skimming across the hems of his tux. His hand delicately cupped the side of your waist. "You truly do look like a princess."

But now I'm missing bits and pieces from the pages that you took. You didn't give a reason, I'll forever wonder why, we never got to finish the book of you and I.

You snuggled into your blankets, letting out a loud sigh. A soft knock echoed from the outside of your door. "Go away mom." You called out, only to hear another knock and the door opening. You flipped around to see Sarah Cameron standing at the foot of your bed with a box of pizza and plate of cookies. 

After you thought you were out of tears, more tears swelled in your eyes at the sight of her. She joined next to you in your bed, holding you in her arms as you sobbed into her chest. Resting her chin on the top of your head, Sarah held you, her heartbreaking to hear your distressed sobs. "Shhh. It's okay, I got you." She mumbled. 

"He never told me why," you started as you pulled away from her, wiping your tears on your blankets. "I don't know what I did wrong." You mumbled, picking at your fingernails. "Y/N, you did nothing wrong. Rafe is just an asshole, and I am so, so sorry for everything he's put you through recently." 

Sarah slid the box of pizza towards you, a small smile on your face you took a slice and nibbled on the end. "Before I hug you more, I need you to take a shower." Sarah admitted before grabbing a slice for herself. You immediately dropped the pizza, apologizing before running into the bathroom.

 Well, I bought a pen and I turned the page. Then I wrote about how I wish you'd stayed. I said all the things that I never got to say. Maybe when it's done, I will feel okay.

You sat at your desk, you thumb anxiously clicking the top of the pen. Your mom had bought you a journal to write down everything that you had going on in your mind. She said it would help you at least organize some thoughts instead of having them jumbled together in your head.

You sighed loudly before writing a letter that you knew you'd never send.

Dear Rafe,

God, I never thought I'd be writing this letter. I never thought we would break up. I never expected you to fall out of love with me. Everything just feels… out of place. You were my safe zone, out of everything that was changing in my life you constantly stayed by my side through everything and  I loved that about you. I wish you were still with me. I don't know why after everything you've done to me recently, but I miss your touch. I miss the smell of your cologne. I miss your cute nicknames for me. I miss watching Disney movies with you. I miss staying up with you. I miss all of you. I never told you this, but I always pictured us getting married. I pictured you proposing to me after like our 5 year anniversary. We would have two kids, you would get to pick where we'd live. I'd get to change my name to Y/N Cameron. My bed feels empty without you. You were my first boyfriend, my first kiss, my first time, my first love, and as much as this hurts now, I am forever grateful you taught me how to love. I love you Rafe Cameron. No matter what.

Love,

Y/N

That he had grown so distant and that his love had shifted. I wish he felt the same.

Sarah finally convinced you to go to the beach with her due to you staying inside for nearly 3 months. You were about to meet Sarah's boyfriend and his friends for the first time. At first Sarah told you that she could cancel on John B, but you refused and insisted on meeting everyone.

You sat next to her on your towel, letting the sun hit your skin. You couldn't help but softly grin at the warm feeling. "Guys! Over here!" Sarah called out. A group of teens walked over to you two, welcoming smiles on everyone's faces. "Guys, this is Y/N. Y/N this is JJ, Kiara, Pope, and my boyfriend John B." 

You stood up from your spot and welcomed Sarah's friends with a smile. Kiara on the other hand pulled you into a tight hug. You let out a surprised laugh, hugging the girl back. Sarah had explained to them that you had just had a rough break up and to stay away from the topic. 

"You give really good hugs." You admitted, releasing the girl.

The day was going beautifully, everyone was swimming or surfing. You finally felt relaxed, like everything is okay. "Hey! Y/N look at this!" John B randomly shouted. Your head snapped towards him, looking at the shell he had in his hands. You observed it before a familiar voice echoed from further down the beach. Your hands dug into the sand, John B looking down at you with pity in his eyes.

"It's him isn't it?" He softly nodded his head. You squeezed your eyes shut and took a deep breath. JJ appeared by your side, "you want me to teach you how to surf?" Your heart felt warm at his offer. Nodding your head, you followed JJ into the ocean, your eyes not daring to look at Rafe.

Don't tell me that it's over, the book of you and I. Now you've scribbled out my name and you've erased my favorite lines.

After a long day of JJ teaching you how to surf, everybody agreed to get dinner at The Wreck. You jumped out of John B's van, holding the front door to the restaurant open for your friends. You stepped foot into the dining room, only to pause in your steps. 

You didn't care that you saw Rafe, you cared that you saw some girl under his arm. Your friends saw the color leave your face, all of them shoving back out the front door. You inhaled and exhaled harshly to prevent yourself from crying. "Hey. hey, come here." Sarah comforted you in her arms, trying your best to maintain your composure. You quickly stepped away from her, "no, no it's okay. I'm okay," you lied, shaking your hands out, "I think I just need to go home." 

Kiara nodded her head, "I'll take you home if you want." You shook your head, "no it's okay. I'm just gonna walk home." Sarah's eyebrows raised up. "Y/N that's like an 8 mile walk." You shrugged your shoulders. "I just want to be alone and walking is good. I'll text you when I get home, okay?" Everyone gave you a hug before watching you walk away from them. 

The moment you had your back turned on them, you broke down. How could he have moved on so quickly? Was she just a fling or a new relationship? So many questions in your mind, you knew could not be answered.

There were so many chapters that we never got to write, like cereal for dinner and staying up all night.

Rafe gently nudged your body, "psst. Baby, are you awake?" He whispered. You flipped around and faced him. "I haven't been able to sleep at all." You said, your hand immediately finding its place on the side of his face. "Wanna go skinny dipping?" He suggested. You jumped out of his bed as soon as he finished his sentence. He knew you had always wanted to try that, and since his parents were renovating a house that was 6 hours away staying a hotel, he knew this was a perfect time to do it.

You raced him down the stairwell and into his backyard. Quickly stripping, you were left in nothing. You jumped into the water, thankful that the pool lights were off. Rafe jumped in, joining you. You leaned your head back, letting the water sweep through your hair. 

Rafe swam up to you, his hands finding your butt as you wrapped your legs around his waist. "I don't know why we didn't do this sooner." You joked, pressing your chest against his. He swiped a stray piece of wet hair away from your eyes, his thumb shifting down to your lips. "Because we both know where this would lead." His thumb skimmed across your bottom lip, allowing you to open your mouth to kiss it. 

I remember where we started, I remember how you looked, but now I'm missing bits and pieces from the pages that you took. You never gave a reason, I'll forever wonder why, we never got to finish the book of you and I. Don't tell me, tell me that you're leaving me. My belly hurts and my heart is hardly beating right, I hate to beg, but I'll try one last time.

Dear Rafe,

It's been exactly one year since we broke up. I became friends with some Pogues. I know you'd flip on me if I told you that and we were still together, but they're treating me better than you have towards the end of our relationship. I'm not gonna lie, I still miss you sometimes, most of the time actually. I'm still confused on why things ended the way they did. You've avoided me the entire time, leaving me without a clue and I hate it. I picked at every flaw about myself, trying to figure out if that's why you left. Do you know how mentally draining that is? God, it fucking sucks. I stopped crying over you though. Yeah it hurts my heart when I see you, but I think I wasted all my tears on you. I really don't know why I'm even writing to you anymore, I feel like I told you everything I needed to. I used to beg every day and pray every single night to get you back, and it hasn't happened. But I get it now. You finished our story before I got the chance to finish it myself, and that's just how love works sometimes. I'll never forget you Rafe Cameron, but I'll also never forgive you.

Sincerely,

Y/N

[fiveisnumber1]

So I like to scroll down and read all the old H8 asks and I just remembered you mentioned Five singing Hamilton's part of Dear Theodosia for Penn and I cRI? I live for Dad!Five. Somehow I missed this/forgot about it.

The lyrics fit so well too! Song Analysis cuz it's been a while even tho it's obvious. I say analysis but what I really mean is that this is just my excuse to dump my Dad!Five headcanons at you:

Oh [Penn], when you smile I am undone. My son, look at my son.

Five is TOTALLY the type of Dad to obsess over every little thing his Penn does. When he's born, Five would probably cry so hard and then feel so overwhelmed that such a tiny precious perfect thing could be HIS son after all the hell he's been through and all the pain he's caused in the world. Perfection is not what he'd associate with himself aside from Reader and he'd consider himself so lucky he has her but then Penn is born and his toothless smile and his tiny hand wrapped around Five's giant finger would be enough to make the young man just explode with a wave of emotions.

Pride is not the word I'm looking for. There is so much more inside me now

I love this lyric so much. It's Five's pride that gets him stuck in the apocalypse and he's easily still the most prideful of the Hargreeves and H8. So the idea that his heart would have so much MORE than pride when Penn is born especially because pride is the most common feeling parents feel but then Five doesn't feel just pride. It's something so much more profound. Something he's never felt before and even the intelligent and witty Five can't put it into words but for once he doesn't care.

Oh Penn, you outshine the morning sun. My son When you smile, I fall apart. And I thought I was so smart.

Five really does treasure his intellect especially because it's what saved him after he got himself into trouble. Five values knowledge so much and I feel that he'd be the kind of dad who'd be so well prepared. He'd have read more baby books than Reader even and he 101% confident that he's ready to be a parent and cover everything he's really feeling with a calm facade because he'd be so afraid of being like Reginald he'd overcompensate by "studying" not realizing that parenthood isn't something he can study for.

The first time baby Penn laughs up at his Dad, Five is LITERALLY undone. All the parenting books in the world couldn't have prepared him for how he feels when he has his son in his arms and when baby Penn smiles up at him and Reader is just gigging in the corner and taking pictures, as tired as she is, because she KNEW this would happen. She put up with Five's crumbling facade of control and the ever growing stacks of baby books around their home for months just waiting for this moment and finally seeing Five's reaction of being caught totally off guard when Penn finally is in his arms is totally worth it.

My father wasn't around. My father wasn't around. I swear that I'll be around for you.

Reginald was the WORST parent. He didn't care about Five when he was at home and didn't care when he left either and left a little boy to fend for himself and grow up all alone in the worst place imaginable because Reggie couldn't be bothered to show his children understanding and affection. Five's priority is that he make sure he's always around for Penn even if he can't succeed at anything else.

I'll do whatever it takes. I'll make a million mistakes. I'll make the world safe and sound for you

Five would totally promise Penn that he'll be around for him and I feel like the "I'll make a million mistakes" is so much more deeper because it would finally be Five realizing he won't be the Perfect Parent™ like he's been studying to be for so long.

Just the fact that his heart is overflowing with love and his resolve to be a good father would put his fears of being a copy of Reginald to rest because he knows that what he feels for Penn in one moment is something Reginald never felt for any of them.

He finally accepts that he'll make mistakes and that it won't be easy but goddammit he will TRY and he has Reader by his side so it'll be alright.

Penn finally falls asleep and Five's sitting next to Reader in the infirmary who's cuddled up next to him, watching their son from her head against his shoulder where she's using him as a pillow. They're this tiny little happy family and everything feels like it's all fallen into place. Like it was always meant to lead to this moment.

And then Five starts singing Alex's part in Dear Theodosia cuz of course he remembers the lyrics to all the Hamilton songs (all the H8 do).

It ends up becoming Penn's favorite lullaby.

Aw, this is so cute! I love it so much which is also why I mentioned it in an earlier post because it’s just so relatable and cute. But I’d just like to add that the lines “I'll do whatever it takes. I'll make a million mistakes. I'll make the world safe and sound for you” could also be Five reflecting on all the past stuff to get to this point. 

He made the mistake of jumping through time out of anger and the mistake of his last interaction with the reader being one out of anger. But he literally did whatever it took to change that. He joined the commission, he fought against the world ending, he finally admitted his feelings to the reader. He did whatever it took to make the world a safe place and now after all he’s done it’s a world that he can happily bring his son into.

[miraculousamara]

I got a story idea earlier today, I posted two chapters on my wattpad today. Basically it's a story idea where Chloe has a twin sister. But the twin is actually nicer than Chloe and only does what Chloe tells her because she makes her. This is Stoneheart Orgins Part 2.Because of text limit I'll add two parts. If anyone has any questions about missing plot points you can just comment or I might post the first chapter. Also Chloe and Cameron aren't identical twins, they have the same hair color, but they have different eye color, they are fraternal twins even though they are the same gender. (If I got any facts about twins wrong please tell me.my mother is an identical twin so I don't really know much about fraternal twins as I've only met one set)

Cameron's POV:

On the TV:

Nadja: (standing to the side of a picture of one of Stoneheart's minions, tablet in hand) The stone beings are scattered all over Paris, and for the time being, they are showing no signs of movement. (a variety of pictures is shown) Police have cordoned off the area.

Father: (on television alongside officer Roger) We won't stop until we find a way to get these people back to their normal selves, but for now, we're not making much headway.

(The camera flips backs to Nadja standing next to a photo of Ladybug and Cat Noir.)

Nadja: Paris is relying on our new guardian angels, Ladybug and Cat Noir, to save us all. Our lives depend on them.

I'm going to go to bed for the night.. I just hope tomorrow will be better.

Ladybug and Cat Noir.. I believe in you. I trust you. I know you can save us.

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Morning

I better get dressed before Chloe complains..

"Cameron! I set out your clothes!" I hear Chloe call out.

"Oh yay. What would I do without you?" I say sarcastically

"You would do nothing without me, because I always outshine you." Chloe says

"I'm just gonna get dressed." I groan

I rush downstairs to the hall and am the first to see father.

"Hey dad." I say

"Cameron. Are you okay? You're not scared about everything going on right?" He asks

"No father, I trust you, Ladybug and Cat Noir. I know they will save us." I say

"Thank you sweetie, I'll do everything in my power to keep you and your sister safe." He says

"I know you will." I say giving him a hug.

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A few minutes later..

Chloe comes downstairs.

"Hey is Jean whatever his name is ready with the car?" Chloe asks

"Yes, and remember to be safe dear." Dad says

"Yeah whatever. Come on Cameron!" Chloe says

I follow after Chloe and get in the limo.

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In the limo

"And you better remember what we talked about last night." Chloe says

"Of course Chloe." I say

I forgot to write in my diary about the whole Stoneheart thing last night, but I guess I can do it later today. When Chloe isn't bothering me.

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"Okay we're here." Chloe says

We exit the limo, greet Sabrina and enter the school.

"Woah look, it's Ivan." I say to Chloe.

"Let's go and see what the crowd around him wants." Chloe says with a suspicious looking smirk.

Oh no.. she's up to no good. She never is.

Especially when that look overtakes her facial expression.But I can't do anything no matter what she does... She warned me what will happen if I mess up again today. I just hope that she decides to be not so harsh for once, but the likelihood of that happening is slim to none unfortunately.

We walk over to the group.

"So you don't remember anything that happened? Alix asks Ivan.

"You were going ballistic! It was so cool!" Says Juleka.

"You were gonna crush me or something!" Says Kim

"I'm so sorry,  I wasn't myself." Ivan says

"I'm sure Ivan didn't mean to-" I start

Chloe Elbows me.

"What did we just talk about Cameron?" Chloe asks

"Oh right sorry. " I say sadly

"Once a monster, always a monster!" Chloe says

Ivan growls and storms off.

"Oh and don't let the door hit you on the way out!" Chloe says laughing

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Third Person POV:

(I TOOK THIS FROM THE TRANSCRIPT AGAIN)

Scene: Hawk Moth's lair.

Hawk Moth: Yes… feel the burn of those words. Lose your temper, Ivan! Your akuma awaits you. (taps on the cane that is holding the akuma)

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Cameron's POV:

"How could you say such horrible things to Ivan? You're the real Stoneheart!" Alya yells at Chloe

"Yeah, I'm the one who broke Sabrina's dad's arm.Back me up Cameron." Chloe says

"Just because you got that dumb footage of those superheroes doesn't mean you should get all high and mighty." I say

Chloe laughs and blows a bubble in Alya's face.

I do feel bad for what I said, but if Chloe ever catches me apologizing, it will be the end of me.

"Ugh! You little brats!" Alya starts

"Look everyone! She's angry! She's gonna split her underwear and turn into a huge muscly monster!" Chloe says

Alya growls and storms off.

Suddenly I see Adrien appear and wave to us.

"Hey Chloe, hey Cameron!" Adrien says

"Hi Adrien." I say

"Adrikins! You came!" Chloe says running over to him to hug him

I see a bunch of people who recognize him start to gush over him.

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"Isn't it amazing that you, me and my twin sister are all in the same class?!" Says Chloe

"Yeah, it is, I already have two people I know." Adrien says with a smile.

"Wow you look a lot like your mother." I say in awe.

"What?" He asks

"She said nothing." Chloe says while glaring at me.

"Cameron?" He asks

"Yeah, Chloe's right. I said nothing." I say

"One more slip up Cameron." She threatens

"I'm sorry, it won't happen again." I say

"Yeah, it better not." She says

I could've sworn Adrien passed a shocked look at Chloe, but that could be me just hoping someone heard her for once.

As we enter the classroom and Adrien finishes giving random people his autograph, Chloe rushes in front of us.

"Look Adrikins! I saved you a seat right in front of me!" Chloe says

"Thanks Chloe." Adrien says sitting next to Nino.

I sit in my seat behind Sabrina.

"Hi." Adrien says looking at Nino

"So you're friends with Chloe and Cameron?" Nino asks suspiciously

I feel bad for him anyway..

Suddenly I hear Adrien making an issue of something, I turn around and see Chloe and Sabrina putting gum on Marinette's seat.

"Woah, what are you doing?" Adrien asks

"The brats who sat here yesterday need some attitude adjustment, so I'm gonna teach it to them." Chloe says

Adrien gets up.

"I really don't think that's necessary." Adrien says

"Adrikins, no offense but you have a whole lot to learn about school culture." She says

"Didn't you already insult Alya in the hall?" I ask outloud on accident.

"Cameron what was that?" Chloe asks threateningly

"Nothing important." I say

"That's what I thought." She says

I look at the top of my desk sadly.

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Suddenly I hear the familiar voice of Marinette shout.

"Hey! What do you think you're doing?" I hear her say.

I look up and see Adrien picking at the gum on Marinette's seat.

Oh poor Adrien..

"Um-" he says

Chloe and Sabrina laugh.

Chloe glares at me for not laughing, so I just go along with it.

"Haha so funny you four." Marinette says

"Wait, I was just trying to get it off!" Adrien says

"Sure you were." Marinette says

Chloe and Sabrina keep laughing.

"Ugh, you're friends with the terrible two huh?" She asks

Honestly I don't blame her for that comment, but it still hurts everytime someone compares me to Chloe.

"Why do people keep saying that?" I hear Adrien quietly and sadly ask.

Marinette covers her seat with a tissue, and the two sit down

"See what I mean about respect?" Chloe asks

Adrien sadly sighs.

"Hey where's Ivan?" I ask

"How should I know where that brute is?" Chloe asks

"Why didn't you tell them that it was 'The Terrible Two's' idea?" I hear Nino ask

"I've known Chloe and Cameron since I was little... and while they may not be perfect, I can't throw them under the bus, they're my only friends. And I'm starting to think Cameron might not really have much to do with Chloe's plans.." I hear Adrien say.

He's the first person who has ever said anything nice like that about me..

"The terrible two are a package deal my man.. but I'm Nino, and it's about time you made some new friends." I hear him say

He deserves good friends. I wish I was allowed to have friends...

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Third Person POV:

(FROM THE TRANSCRIPT)

Scene: Hawk Moth's lair.

Hawk Moth: Yes. This is what I've been waiting for. You know the way, evil akuma. Track down your prey! Fly away and evilize him!

(The akuma held in Hawk Moth's cane exits it and flies out the window.)

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Scene: The locker room. Ivan is upset. The akuma flies in and infects Ivan's wadded-up song lyrics.

Hawk Moth: (from his lair) This is your second chance, Stoneheart, and this time you have extra help. No one will stop you from capturing the love of your life. Just remember, I'll need something in return.

(Ivan is akumatized into Stoneheart again. He opens his eyes and all the other stone beings across Paris start waking up.)

I'll link the rest of this chapter when I post the rest of it.

[shawn-mendes-post]

Chapter 3: The Post

A/N: I am sorry it took so long. Hope you like this chapter and maybe give me ideas you want the story to develop. Also the post I made are fake.

Shawn could only stare at the taxi leaving, not understanding what just happened. I lost her because I was scared. He slowly makes his way inside, keeping his head down as he sat on the couch. 

" What happen, dear?" 

" She left. Tomorrow was our anniversary and I forgot," he explained, running his fingers through his hair. He couldn't believe that he forgot, but then again he has been working more than before. 

" That can't be the only thing," Manny said, knowing there was more to the story. 

" She felt like I was ignoring her and she's right. I would be working or spending time with my friends. I forgot to love her like I should have. She wants to marry me and spend her life with me, but I couldn't tell her I felt the same. I'm not ready to settle down...I think."

" She's the one, " his father said simply, knowing his son wants to be with her forever but couldn't see it. 

He nods as he looks at his father. " I think so. She said she had to focus on herself and that she will wait for me," he mumbled, shaking his head. Dark thoughts running through his confused head. 

" Everything will work out in the end. Just have patience and enjoy this time. Honey, focus on you right now. " 

Shawn nods numbly as he says goodbye. He makes his way home, texting her as if she would respond. When he got home, he could feel the bitter air touching his skin. 

He felt his phone vibrating, looking to see numerous notifications on different social media platforms.He went on Instagram. His heart broke when he saw what she posted. Shawn wanted to respond, but knew she wanted to be alone. Like she said, no one knew they were together.

Sighing, he makes his way to bed. Rolling around in bed as he was having trouble sleeping. Somehow he was able to fall asleep,still worried about ( Name).  He slept in, feeling horrible knowing he wouldn't be able to see ( Name) smile in the morning. He wouldn't watch her make breakfast or wrap his arms around her waist to hug her. 

 He wasn't in the mood to sing or record his song. Sending a text to his manger, Andrew before closing his eyes. He replays what happened last night and couldn't believe he let her go. When you ready. Instantly he was inspired to write a song that could show  ( Name),he was ready. 

Sighing, he makes a sandwich without tomatoes. Sitting down on his comfy couch as he turns on the TV. 

Shawn would spend the next couple of hours writing the song. Stopping as he couldn't get the lyrics to flow before giving up.  I need to eat.  On the way to the kitchen he passed by pictures of them happy.

" Hello, and welcome our guests for today. They are in the upcoming Marvel movie Endgame. Please welcome  the mysterious Benedict Cumberbatch, the funny Tom Holland and the beautiful (Name) ( L/Name)!" 

Shawn couldn't believe his ears as he watches his girlfriend walk with the fellow named Tom. Quickly, he turned up the volume as he stared at ( Name). She looked more tired than normal and could tell she has been crying. But to Shawn, she still looked irresistible. 

" Welcome. I can't believe we have Dr. Strange, Spiderman and ( Hero Name)." The host said, fangirling a little making the three laugh. 

" Thank you for having us. I just can't believe I'm here with the one that cant keep a secret and with the babysitter," ( Name ) said, pretending to be annoyed as she lets out a small chuckle.Tom looks at her hurt as he placed a hand on his heart. 

" That is so cold. I thought we were friends. You know what? You aren't coming to my birthday party," he said making the audience laugh. ( Name) shakes her head as she looks away. 

" Fine. I didn't want to go any way. It sounds like it will be boring since I'm not there." Benedict sighs as he muttered " This is why I'm here because you act like children."

" No it's worst. We would have to retake scenes because of these two bickering like an old married couple," Benedict pointing to the two that were verbally insulting each other. 

" Is it always like this on set? " The interview asked not being able to stop smiling. 

" How did it feel, ( Name) to work with these two?" 

Hearing her name she looks at the interview, smiling fakely. " Well, I have already worked with Benny here. We were in the movie intimidation Game together. It was amazing to work with him again because I knew him so I wasn't as nervous. Also, it's been fun working with Tom because he was nice to me. He would give me tips on what to do if places I should eat at. Overall, it was a fun experience." 

Benedict sighs at the nickname and shakes his head. " Why must you call me that? No one calls me that." The audience is laughing as ( Name) shrugs pretedning she doesn't know.

Tom cheeks flushed, slightly looking at  (Name) to the point no one would have noticed. Before he mumbled something under his breath as he doesn't know how to answer. 

" Tom there have been rumors of you crushing on one of your female co stars. Is that true?"  The interview asked as the audience holler in agreement. 

" What was that Tommy?" ( Name) asked, scooting closer to him, poking his side. 

" I plead the fifth," Tom spoke up.

Shawn eyes squinted as he saw Tom Holland glancing at (Name) for a second. He doesn't like her right? That has to be impossible because he was way older than her. Tom was like 23 while ( Name) was barely 18. 

Not being able to watch any more he shuts the TV off. He goes onto twitter.

[theresaplatypuscontrollingme]

Lover Review (Long Post Warning)

Now that I’ve listened to the complete album six times today, I feel qualified enough to review it. Spoiler Alert: I FUCKING LOVE IT. 9.4/10

1. I Forgot That You Existed (10/10)

Favorite Lyric:  

And I would've stuck around for ya Would've fought the whole town, so yeah Would've been right there, front row Even if nobody came to your show

Favorite Vocals: I’m obssesed with how she sings “ And I thought that it would kill me, but it didn't” in the last chorus. Love it so much 13/10

Overall Thoughts: I love this song. It’s catchy and was the one that was stuck in my head after finally going to bed at 2:30. I get excited every time i realize it’s coming back on next.

2. Cruel Summer (10/10)

Favorite Lyric: “I don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you”

Favorite Vocals: When she shouts “he looks up grinning like a devil” is a religious experience. So into it.  

Overall Thoughts: It’s fun and sounds very 1989.

3. Lover (10/10)

Favorite Lyric: “Have I known you 20 seconds or 20 years”

Favorite Vocals: “Swear to be over dramatic and true to my lover And you'll save all your dirtiest jokes for me” my favorite lines to hear and sing.

Overall Thoughts: gorgeous song. If I ever get married I would play this at my wedding. very romantic

4. The Man (10/10)

Favorite Lyric:

“They'd say I hustled, put in the work They wouldn’t shake their heads and question how much of this I deserve” (YOU DESERVE ALL OF THIS TAYLOR ilysm)

Favorite Vocals:  

“What's it like to brag about raking in dollars And getting bitches and models? And it's all good if you're bad And it's okay if you're mad If I was out flashing my dollars I'd be a bitch, not a baller”

Overall Thoughts: I was kinda worried about this song before hearing it but I’m obsessed. Beat: amazing. Lyrics: fantastic and so truthful. vocals: fabulous.

5. The Archer (8/10)

Favorite Lyric:

“All the king's horses, all the king's men Couldn't put me together again 'Cause all of my enemies started out friends”

Favorite Vocals: “I say I don’t want that but what if I do”

Overall Thoughts: it’s pretty. I love synth pop so i’m very into the sound of it. It doesn’t strike me as a true track five though. Not enough of a story for me. All too Well was so descriptive and had such raw emotion that you can just feel listening to it. This definitely has the emotion but lacks to the description to really transport me somewhere.

6. I Think He Knows (10/10)

Favorite Lyric: “I am an architect, I'm drawing up the plans”

Favorite Vocals:  

“Lyrical smile, indigo eyes, hand on my thigh We could follow the sparks, I'll drive ‘So where we gonna go?’ I whisper in the dark”

Overall Thoughts: This is the other song that was stuck in my head from my first 2 listens. Dress was a sultry “sexy” song and this is playful af. Definitely gonna be dancing to this in my kitchen until to the end of time.

7. Miss America & The Heartbreak Prince (10/10)

Favorite Lyrics:

“ You play stupid games, you win stupid prizes”

American stories burning before me I'm feeling helpless, the damsels are depressed Boys will be boys then, where are the wise men? Darling, I'm scared (Ah)

Favorite Vocals:  

It's you and me, that's my whole world They whisper in the hallway, "She's a bad, bad girl"

and when she sings

“just thought you should know”

Overall Thoughts: WOW. this song is fantastic and every time i listen I find something else I love about it. also same to “darling I’m scared” because America is terrifying right now. The lyrics and vocals are both so strong. this song also reminds me of another song but i can’t put my finger on it yet. at first I thought it was a little gwen stefani(hollaback girl) and then i was thinking cher llyod and then i was like maybe it’s pink(the Truth About Love)? Still can’t think of the song it makes me think of but I’ll figure it out sometime.

8. Paper Rings 30/10 Just kidding that would throw off my scoring but (10/10)

Favorite Lyric: “ I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this”

Favorite Vocals:  “ In paper rings in picture frames in dirty dreams”

Overall Thoughts: I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE this song. I’ve listened to it 6 times and cried 3 out of the six. This song is so reminiscent of the fearless era to me that it just reminds me of being 15. I feel like I’m 15 again listening to this. it’s like I’m transported back before all the bad shit in my life really started to happen. Then it makes me think about all the teens who are 15 now and getting to experience this song and this feeling and then i cry for 10 minutes lol. I cried typing this.

9. Cornelia Street (10/10)

Favorite Lyric:  “We bless the rains on Cornelia Street”

Favorite Vocals:

I hope I never lose you, hope it never ends I'd never walk Cornelia Street again

Overall Thoughts: I was so happy to hear this song! this is the RED type of soundtrack that I spent months wishing for. (im very happy with what we got but red is my favorite album in existence so i’m hoping for more of that some day.) It gives me major RED vibes and reminds me of starlight a little bit. I love the imagery as well. I’ve never been to Cornelia St but i can picture it. I’m transported. MORE OF THIS PLEASE.

10. Death By a Thousand Cuts (10/10)

Favorite Lyric:

“I look through the windows of this love Even though we boarded them up”

Favorite Vocals:

“My heart, my hips, my body, my love Tryna find a part of me that you didn't touch”

“Our songs, our films, united we stand Our country, guess it was a lawless land”

Overall Thoughts: I loved it from the first time I heard it and I really love the arrangement of this song. I also just found a quote saying that she wrote it about Someone Great and that makes me love it even more because I’m totally obsessed with that movie. Whenever I have a conversation about Tv with someone, I’m alway like “HAVE YOU WATCHED SOMEONE GREAT????? Why not?/? What are you doing with your life because it’s perfect.” This song is also perfect.

11. London Boy (10/10)

Favorite Lyric:  

“They say home is where the heart is But that's not where mine lives”

Favorite Vocals:  “ Just wanna be with you Wanna be with you”

Overall Thoughts: This sweet. I know nothing about London geography but I’m rooting for Taylor and her London Boy. Their relationship is adorable and I’m glad they’re happy! This song is gonna be really fun at tour.

12. Soon You’ll Get Better (Featuring the Dixie Chicks) (10/10)

Favorite Heartbreaking Lyric:

“And I hate to make this all about me But who am I supposed to talk to? What am I supposed to do If there's no you?”

Favorite Melody:

“I'll paint the kitchen neon, I'll brighten up the sky I know I'll never get it, there's not a day that I won't try”

Overall Thoughts: so many emotions. When we got the Dixie Chicks easter egg, it was the song i was most excited for... until I realized that the song they would be featured on was this one. I was expecting Goodbye Earl and I got Traveling Soilder. OUCH. This breaks my heart and I really hope that Andrea does get better. losing someone is terrible and I’m praying it’s something Taylor and her family don’t have to experience for many many many years. I’m not religious but praying for you.

13. False God (4/10) oww sorry

Favorite Lyric: ?IAMCONFUSION.

Favorite Vocals: the whole thing sounds great.

Overall Thoughts: I don’t really like this song? it’s just kinda meh. it feels jarring to hear after Soon You’ll Get Better and I DON’T GET IT? like it makes me feel dumb. I’ve listened to it 6 times and still don’t know. When I heard it the second time I was like Oh I Forgot That You Existed. Then I was just confused.  What is the false god... is it her.. is it new york city, is the love? I don’t know. Why is she singing from the point of view of the city? This song stresses me out which is a really bummer because I love how the vocals sound but then i listen to the lyrics and get frustrated. Also the only song I wanted to skip all six times. I think part of it is just placement though. after soon you’ll get better i’m not in the mood for this especially when I know there are better songs coming up and I want to hear them now. Someone explain this to me if you get it because i’m lost.

14. You Need to Calm Down (10/10)

Favorite Lyric:  

“Say it in the street, that's a knock-out But you say it in a Tweet, that's a cop-out”

Favorite Vocals:  “Why are you mad when you could be GLAAD? (You could be GLAAD)”

Overall Thoughts: Love it. Such a jam. Loved the music video.

15. Afterglow (10/10)

Favorite Lyric: “Meet me in the afterglow”

Favorite Vocals:  

“This ultraviolet morning light below Tells me this love is worth the fight, oh”

Overall Thoughts: I love this. One of my favorites on the album. It’s like a more pop sounding Back to December with a possibility of a positive outcome. Back to December was like i’m sorry i wish i could take it back and this is like I’m sorry can we fix this and meet in the afterglow! Meeting in the afterglow sounds so poetic and light. It brings imagery and peace to my mind and I’m all about it.

16. ME! (Featuring Brendon Urie) (9/10)

Favorite Lyric: “Livin' in winter, I am your summer”

Favorite Vocals:

“I know that I went psycho on the phone I never leave well enough alone And trouble's gonna follow where I go”

Overall Thoughts: I liked Spelling Is FUN. fight me. still gonna yell it at tour. I would have liked a little more complexity in the lyrics though... while keeping spelling is fun.

17. It’s Nice To Have a Friend (9/10)

Favorite Lyric:

“Light pink sky, up on the roof Sun sinks down, no curfew”

Favorite Vocals: the whole song is my favorite vocal because it’s amazing and it sounds great. (I said this like how craig from parks and rec said this is my friend madison she amazing and SHE DROVE ME HERE. it’s very important that you read it like that because that’s how I meant it. IT’S GREAT)

Overall Thoughts: Apparently every one at secret sessions didn’t like this song but I love it. Also saw a couple people describe it as creepy sounding which WHAT? are we listening to the same song??? I think it sounds romantic and gives me the imagery I want. I can picture this love. it’s innocent and wonderful. Very light and very airy sounding. Kinda gives me a Marina vibe which I love. Only complaint is I wish it were longer.

18. Daylight (10/10)

Favorite Lyric:  

“I wounded the good and I trusted the wicked Clearing the air, I breathed in the smoke”

Favorite Vocals: I’m living for the entire bridge.

Overall Thoughts: YES YES YES. This should have been track 5 but I also understand having it at the end as a valid choice as well. ALSO SHE MENTIONED RED. okay je suis calme but this song is beautiful and i’m just so happy and so proud of you Taylor. I cried at the end. “You are what you love” I have loved her music since I was 12 and now at 25 it still means so much to me. it’s been a vital part of my life and honestly the only reason i’m alive right now.  Thank you.  

OVERALL THOUGHTS: if you’re still reading by now bless you because I’m rambling. I truly love this Album. it’s got some solid bops and some beautiful poetic songs. I think my favorite songs so far are

I Forgot that you existed #1BOP

Paper Rings #1emotioninvoking

Daylight #1lyrics

170 out 180 which means that this album is a 9.4 in my opinion!!!!

Taylor if you read this, I love you. Your music means so much to me. It’s gotten me through so much. I really hope your Mom does get better.  ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡  

[woozi]

henlo yza <3 ,

hdjdkd i don't really have much knowledge abt different techniques & kind of dances so when the steps match the lyrics i'm like '!!! wow yes i love it' fhdjdjskks also bc i've grown up watching these kind of dances only so my that's what i tend to notice first hdjdjddk it is also one of the reason why i decided to stan svt dwc, oh my, thanks & our dawn is hotter than day's choreo details really impressed me.

maybe vincenzo is your svt club & ur so valid for that <3 hddjdjekek also pls don't say sorry!! you can talk abt it as much as you want i like knowing what you think. i'll let you know how was it for me when i complete it. & no homecha hasn't ended yet (idk if there are 16 or 14 eps i haven't checked) it does come on weekends, counting this sunday's ep, we're at 12th rn.

i get that fjdjdkkd i used to be the same 😭 always waiting for dramas to end so i can binge watch because not knowing what happens next would kill me. but idk when this happened, my will to watch anything died down bc the eps are just there, available for me to watch anytime. im like 'i'll watch it next time' but next time never comes 💀. this year i've watched no-air ones only hdjssj very surprising for me ( also my wack memory & svt content supports me by forgetting abt it after weekend ends dhdjdkkd) anyway i'm very excited to see how you like homecha!

CHURCH BOY JOSH HDHDJDDKKSLSDJ church boy josh, cringe domestic boy, joshua numbers. we've come up with so many nicknames for him in few asks only 😭😭 dbdjksksk deserve actually. BUT SO TRUE I STILL HAVE NO WORDS FOR HIM. THAT WAS- JUST- WOW OKAY WE SEE YOU 😭😭and dino lip piercing and hoshi eyebrow slit..... so sexy of them. cb concept pictures haven't come out yet & they're already shinning!! love to see that. also now we have gyu and hoshi's wedding reception pictures & cottagecore hannie (with that collarbone picture right in middle >:( wth mister but also hbd ig <3) being added in the equation.

IM CRYINGGGGGG THEY LOOK SO CUTE THEY ARE SO CUTE NOO 😭😭💔 HOW HAVE I NEVER SEEN THESE COVERS WTH (being the ex-directioner and all dhdjkdsksk). I SMILED SO WIDE WATCHING THEM <///3 it's been so long since i heard one thing wow lol. but! this means they know who zayn is. thank you for this jdjssk this is going to keep me happy for some time hdjdke. SUNDAY MORNING EHJEJEKE 😭 thank you <3 dndjdj

IKR???? IM SO EXCITED FOR THIS CB I'M ALSO EXCITED TO EXPERIENCE IT WITH YOU. agreee truly bless svt for helping keeping us from losing it over life (by making us lose it over them) tbh sometimes it worries me too with the way contents keep dropping but just now in these unit interviews being released, perf unit shared how they have ppl who encourage them to be okay with their tiredness. things like that put me at ease. hope they rest well from time to time too. honestly just looking at their tour schedules i used to get tired because these dudes used to have more shows and less day offs and some of them being used to just move from one city to another. i hope in coming years pledis changes that lol.

sameee for the poster release hdjdkeek. also even though there was scheduler, i forgot abt the concept trailer 😭 it was raining & bcoz of that power was out as well & i don't use data dhdjdkdk. i think 5 minutes after 12 kst power came back (you can say joshu's sparkler brought it back hdjdjdks) it literally left me speechless. yk that meme ' everyone remembers what they were doing & where they were when it happened ' that's me & you with this cb hfjdkd honestly that's everyone with this cb me thinks.

seventeenies bringing the grass to you w their posts djdjkd ( btw you can always tell me if silly little jokes get out of hand i wouldn't ever like to make you uncomfy) but seriously i hope uni doesn't give you hard time. don't worry much just keep moving forward, at some point whatever is making you feel stuck will move away eventually.

is it that obvious? 😭😭😭😭 no i don't like rain at all dhjddk (i actually didn't dislike it as much during teens) mostly because road drainage system sucks here & we live in lower area so even moderate rain causes water logging. i'd give you some rain but this one's bad so i won't </3 ( as if i could if it were the good one 💀) stay hydrated!!! drink two sips of water everytime you hear dino laugh, i hope it cools a little soon.

that's what being on tumblr since 2012 does to you 😭 ALSO UR SO FUNNY PLS, SO ARE THE MEMES YOU USE FOR ASKS DJDJDKD. *hands you bunny headband dino* it's dangerous outside take this, you too stay safe out there 😭😭😭😭 love you too <3 and thank YOU for hanging out w me hehe :3, also dw tbh these asks have become one of the highlights for me now & i'm only using my free time excluding resting time, i hope you are too, no pressure at all! dw about being late - 🪂

ps - did i tell you i actually followed your svt blog around the time everyone was guessing your biases hddjkddj i sent mingyu & jeonghan dhdjdj that was my first ask :3 - 🪂

henlo, 🪂!! <3 <3 <3

honestly it doesnt matter to me tbh <3 if people enjoy the dance its all that matters!! and omg i can see that!! i love the svteenies always bring something fresh to the table

omg that means you're near the end 😭😭😭 i keep seeing gifs of it on my dash and it makes me feel a lil lovesick ngl HJFHJFHD why is it so TENDER????????????????

ok but that's so valid too bc that's me rn with in the soop.... i literally have not watched the 6th ep yet 😭 and i'm getting the feeling youre mentioning w swf now because i literally always look forward to tuesdays just for the next ep HJDHJDS also i am dumb what are no-airs HJDHJDHHD and ur not alone tbh <3 i have also been super forgetful lately and that is not like me fdhjdfjhdfhjdfhj we're rotting in this hellsite ig

love bullying him i just wanna know how he'd react if he gets upset <3 i dont think we've ever seen angry josh and i wanna make him angry sm HSDHJSDJ im glossing over dino lip piercing to directly go over hOSHI EYEBROW SLIT BC HELLO??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? ive never really liked eyebrow slits but he makes them look so- i want him to hurt me HJDSHJDHJDS ALSO THE LATEST SET OF PHOTOS OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD they're giving me what i've been asking for i love being here sm <3 soonyoung's so chummy w everyone have u seen his photos w jihoon last night 😭 he's literally tamed the actual tiger icb this. and no oh my god i do not Know what Collarbone Jeonghan is i have erased him from my memories thank u

HDSHDSJDSHJDS the ex-directioner is so funny to me 😭 i think we have all been there one way or another <3 and ofc omg <3 i'm glad my core svt memories make u happy HSDJHJDFHJHJDSF

they literally said escapism hELP ME 😭😭😭😭😭 i think they're also just workaholics in general. i would be too if i actually enjoyed what i did for a living 😭 and are we even gonna get tours in the near future.... this is so sad i havent even seen them irl </3

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OMG that's terrible, i hope u guys were okay though :/ AND NOT THE JOSH SPARKLER FDDHJFHDFHJFDHFDH now i have to think about him oh my god i think i passed out a little when eyebrow piercing josh came on screen and just full on blacked out when the match scene came on tbh 😭 JKSDJKDSKDS ITS LIKE THE PANDEMIC!!!!!!! WE WILL RMB!!!!!!!!!

ALSOO NOOO OMG i dont feel uncomf at all and u should also tell me if i do make u feel so <3 thank u for even mentioning that!! also love that they're Doing It All for us we dont even have to go out to touch grass anymore HJDSHJSDJ i've actually been v happy w uni omg!! just that i often feel stressed bc they give us sm things to do </3 thank u for ur kind words!!

that's the price of being an adult JDJSJKD now we gotta think of things like.. idk the effects of rain 😭😭😭 i used to even love it when it flooded as a kid HJDSHJSDHJ now i get anxious too!! i love all kinds of rain though so i wont mind JKKSDKJSDKJD just that other people might be affected </3 wish i had my own rain cloud on some kind of leash lmao. ALSO IF I DRINK WATER EVERY TIME I HEAR DINO LAUGH FDHFDHJDFHD gonna be bloated but hydrated af ngl

oh my gOD YOU WERE HERE SINCE 2012???? we're literally sick bestie <3 i genuinely think tumblr has changed something fundamental in me and my way of thinking has not been The Same as idk.. regular people ig JDSHJSDHJSD THE OFFLINE PEOPLE!! smth about tumblr is so <3 sick but also i love this hellsite so 😗 AND NOOO NOT THE MEMES FDHDFHJDF its my broken sense of humor and inability to convey emotions properly HHSDHJDSHJ

BUNNY HEADBAND DINO?????????????????????????????????????? honestly he'd bring me more harm than protection i'll say that much 😭

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 that genuinely made me feel so warm & fuzzy, i always look forward to your messages too <3 <3 <3 i hope u always have good days u deserve it for being such a sweetheart

WAIT HELLO???????????????????????? YOU'VE BEEN HERE FOR SO LONG THEN 😭😭😭😭😭 and im so impressed you didnt get weeded out ngl HFDHJFDHJFD icb you've been witnessing me going more ill everyday <3 ur a soldier

and u are partially correct abt mingyu & jh <3 at least during the time JSDJDSJKSDJK i think i've been desensitized to mingyu now but i still love him sm <3 he's just so cute and cutesy boys kinda infuriate me in an affectionate way so HJSDHJDSHJDSH

[5hfanfiction]

Now You Know (Camren) Chapter 5: Drive-In Booths

I wake up from my sleep, surprisingly not hungover, as moments from yesterday begin to come back to me. I lay in bed allowing it to sink in, then finally remembering that Camila slept beside me last night.

But when I turn my head towards it, it’s empty. I sit up from bed and reach for my phone on the nightstand to check if she texted me of her whereabouts.

“Good morning.” The figure from the doorway stops me just as the phone is in my hand. And I’d love to use it to take a picture of her right now.

Camila is standing in the doorway with a navy towel wrapped around her body. Her hair is dripping, another indicator that she just got out of the shower. The clothes she slept in last night are in her hand, which means that she’s probably naked under that towel…

“Good morning,” I run my hand through my hair, trying my best to hide my sudden nervousness. I study her face, which is clear of any makeup. I cannot think of a time where she has looked any more beautiful.

“I forgot to bring my clothes in the bathroom with me,” she says sheepishly, bending in front of her suitcase to find an outfit. I just nod, acknowledging what she has just said.

“How did you figure out how to use the shower, anyway? It was even complicated for me for the first few days of moving in here,” I state curiously.

“I’m a smart girl, I figured it out. Also, you told me how to.”

“When?” I don’t recall ever briefing her about the shower yesterday, or any of the common areas for that matter. Alright, I’m a terrible host.

“I asked you if it was cool if I showered, then you explained how to work it. By the way, you can be very good with your words when you’re sleep talking,” she giggles, “But don’t worry, you didn't completely embarrass yourself.” She ends with a wink and I’m ready to melt from a combination of her attractiveness and the uncertainty of what I possibly could have said to her subconsciously.

Our conversation ends at that, but it’s not awkward- she’s preoccupied with finding clothes and I settle with switching between my social media on my phone while I remain in bed.

I sneak glances at her while she is doing this, one hand clutching her towel to keep it from falling and the other moving her clothes around.

The occasional furrowing of her brows accompanied with her lip biting shows that choosing attire for today is an obstacle. One of my glances becomes a stare, its focus on her pink lips. Her bottom lip is tucked under her teeth and the sight causes me to lick my own. I know I’ve been staring for longer that I should because her lips curve into a toothless smile.

My eyes wander up her face and when they meet with hers, my mind immediately panics. My phone turns into the most interesting thing in the world and I keep my eyes glued to the screen, hoping that she didn’t notice. (Okay, of course she fucking noticed, she looked at you too, asshat.)

“Lauren?” she asks briefly after our little moment.

“What’s up?” I respond casually, still not looking at her.

“What are we doing?” If I thought my mind was panicking for getting caught looking at her, I am now drowning in complete hysteria.

I clear my throat, delaying my reply. “What… do you mean?” I turn to her anyway, although I am terrified of the words that she will say next.

“I mean, what are we doing today? I don’t want to over or under dress for whatever we’re gonna do.” I release a long sigh and when I realize it, I play it off as a yawn.

“Oh, right. It’s uh,” I look at the top of my phone screen, “Ten already, so it’s too late for a hike. We could walk around Hollywood. And there’s a neat diner along the walk of fame we could eat at, unless you wanna eat here,” I tell her.

“I can go for eating out,” she chirps. Her choice of words cause my mind to wander to places that they shouldn’t. Get your head out of the gutter, Jauregui.

Camila has noticed the sexual innuendo as well because she becomes a giggling mess. “Oh god,” she pants between giggles, “You know what I mean.”

“Sure, Camila,” I joke back, the tension in the room resolving. I get up from my space in the bed and the effects of the alcohol from last night finally emerge. I black out for a minute and I scold myself for getting up so quickly. My arms lean on the bed as the blackout passes.

“Lauren, are you okay?”

“Yeah, I’m fine. I’m gonna shower it off.” I swing my bedroom door close behind me and step into the bathroom. There is still steam from when Camila showered earlier. The aux cord from the speaker on top of the cabinet is dangling on the side, reminding me that I forgot my phone, which is most likely on the bed. And I need my songs for the shower. I start running the water before walking back to my room, but the door to it is ajar. Come to think of it, I didn’t hear it slam when I exited.

I stop at the door and peek into it, checking if it’s fine for me to step in.

Knocking would have been the appropriate way to go, I realize after I see a glimpse of a half-naked Camila. The navy towel that was once wrapped around her body is laying at the foot of the bed. Her back is facing me, which is good- because she’s fucking topless, but the view I have of her black, lacy underwear- that's far from good.

I make my way to the bathroom as quickly and quietly as possible before she can see me, releasing a long breath when I’m in the shower. I think I can live without my music in the shower for one day.

///

After a thirty minute drive, we’re sitting in the booth of Mel’s Drive-In. The brunette opposite of me is wearing a black, graphic crop top that spells out EPIC WEEKEND along with high waisted jean shorts and high top back converse. I look down at my own outfit, consisting of a white Metallica shirt and ripped, grey jeans. Wearing sandals has become a habit of mine since moving out here to California- a habit I didn’t plan on breaking today.

A waitress that looks a little over fifty years old asks us what beverages we’d like to start off with and she disappears again, giving us the chance to look at our menus. I see movement from the opposite side of me while I’m surveying the menu. After deciding what I want, I place it on the table in front of me. Camila still has the menu in her hands, but the bobbing of her head, in sync with the music playing in the diner, tells me she’s distracted.

“Do you know what you’re getting?” I pull her from the jam session currently happening in her head.

“Huh?” She processes my question before I get the chance to repeat it, putting the menu down. “Probably the Sunset burger. What about you?”

“Well, the Avocado burger sounds promising,” I tell her as she nods in agreement. She continues to move her head to the music, but now her fingers are tapping the table with the beat. It’s cute, really. I look at her hands, finally noticing how gentle they look as she makes a beat complementing the music.

“You’re really digging this place, aren’t you?” I observed.

“They’re playing More Than A Feeling right now. How can I not?” Just as she says that the song comes to an end. “A classic,” she sighs.

The waitress comes back to take our orders and leaves us alone again. By now, a different song is playing. There is a mini juke machine on the end of our booth, and I take the time to go through the list of songs.

“What are you gonna play?”

“You’ll see.”

I get a quarter from my wallet and put it in the machine after finding a song worth listening to. The track plays throughout the restaurant and the sound of the familiar notes of the electric piano causes the smile on Camila’s to widen.

“I get up!” she exclaims as she sings along to the lyrics. If people are staring, I don’t notice, because the girl in front of me is absorbing all of my attention. I find myself bopping with her as she turns the table into her personal drums. When the song finishes, the on her face is still very much present.

“Alright, Jump by Van Halen is easily one of my favorite songs in the world,” she remarks.

“I know,” I mirror her smile.

“I remember this was the first song that came on after I asked you out to my hoco. Do you remember that?” Yes, I do. How can I not?

I nod and she continues, “I’m surprised I remember that, it’s been a minute.”

///

Camila and I have maintained a friendship for a couple of months now and established it through hanging out whenever we had the time. Or should I say, whenever I had the time.

She was constantly pushing us to hang out, which made it sound like she had a lot of time on her hands. I was a bit envious of that- she was captain of the varsity soccer team and was still working. Her carefree spirit was not weighed down by the schedule she had- And I was the complete opposite.

I was drowning in my studies that most of the time, was the reason why I had to hold off of Camila’s request to spend time together.

On one particular October night, she sends me a screenshot of a contest that her school is holding. The rules are simple:

1.Take a video of your homecoming proposal

2. Submit the video onto the school website (Journalism will put it under review before posting it)

3. Most likes on the video wins two free tickets to HOCO

Attached to the screenshot is a text from Camila saying Homecoming?, along with a string of hilarious emojis. I’m not sure if she’s serious or not, so that’s exactly what I ask her.

Are you serious??

Camila: I will totally ask you

Ok, yes! When?

Camila: November 3rd!

Okay!

Camila: So is that a yes?

Yes!

Camila: This was my proposal by the way, take it or leave it. ;)

I’ll take it, haha. I’ll see you soon Camila. :)

She ends up asking me again. We meet up at a coffee shop that is a reasonable spot between us. We catch up for a while and I hand her paperwork that guests that attend a different school have to fill out.

Our cars are parked beside each other and before I say goodbye, she opens the trunk of her car, an arrangement of colored balloons soaring into the sky. She manages to catch one that has the words HC? written with permanent marker. She looks at me, expecting an answer.

“Camila, I already said yes,” I blush at the gesture and I hug her in gratitude. When we pull away, she rushes to her back seat, holding out a bouquet of tulips.

“And these are also for you. I’m surprised they survived in the car.” Her cheeks become red and I hug her again, longer this time. “Thank you, this is one of the nicest things anyone has ever done for me.

We get into our respective cars and before I pull out of my space, she waves at me through her window. I roll down my window and so does she. Eighties music seeps from her car when her window is open.

She belts out the lyrics to the song blasting in her car, humoring me with her serenade. It’s more of a pump up song, rather than a serenade, which makes it all funnier. The tune is super catchy, making me bob my head as she makes a show with her air electric piano and guitar, all while pointing at me.

"Camila, you’re amazing!” I jokingly bow down to her.

She winks in return, shifting her car in reverse. “Text me when you get home!” is the last thing she says before leaving. I pull out of my parking space and drive back home, periodically glancing at the bouquet of tulips laying on my passenger seat. When I get back home, I put the tulips in a vase, transporting them to the desk in my room. I allow the HC? balloon to float to the ceiling, thankful that the popcorn ceiling didn’t pop it.

I open my laptop and immediately click on the Spotify app. After a few minutes, I find the song that Camila was belting earlier. Van Halen’s song, Jump, blasts in the speakers connected to my laptop. I send a quick text to Camila telling her I’m home, as well as a photo of the tulips in the vase. I post the picture on Instagram and throw my phone on my bed. I bounce from website to website, and Jump is the only thing I listen to for the rest of the day.

///

Our burgers are placed in front of us and Camila doesn’t waste any time. She is practically inhaling the food. I’d usually be bothered by the eating habits, but anything that Camila does automatically becomes a bit.. charming? For a lack of words. However, that doesn’t stop me from teasing her.

“Slow down tiger, you might choke.” I sip on my sprite before taking a bit into my burger again. She gives me a death glare and finishes chewing her food. Her eyes stay on me as she puts her straw to her lips. My eyes follow hers, and the devious look in her eye tells me she’s up to no good. I catch on when her cheeks become bigger, filled with water in her mouth. She is not going to spit on me in public.

“You won’t,” I challenge. I may have played the wrong move because her response to this is raising one of her eyebrows. She fills air into her lungs and I wince at the sight, trying to prepare myself for what’s to come. When I open my eyes, she’s no longer holding the water in her cheeks.

“You’re lucky you’re pretty,” is all she says, which I assume is the reason why she didn’t go through with it. That, and we’d definitely get kicked out of the establishment.

“I said you wouldn’t,” I mumble into my burger.

“I’m starting to have second thoughts,” Camila reaches out for her drink again and I wave her off. “I’m kidding, I’m kidding!” I urge, laughing in the process.

We continue to eat and I know we’ve reached our finish point because our arms are sprawled out on top of the seats, as if it’s going to help digest the food. The waitress comes back with a check that I grab immediately, leaving Camila looking at me with puppy eyes.

“You can pay for the next meal,” I assure her when we walk to the front counter to pay for our lunch.

“You and I both know you’re not going to let me.”

“Yeah, I know.”

It’s around two in the afternoon when we’re out of the diner. “Wanna walk around for a bit?”

“Yeah, sure. But I have to return a phone call really quick.” While she makes her phone call, I’m a few feet away, scrolling down my Instagram feed. I look at the photo of the tulips that was posted years ago, smiling to myself.

The doe eyed brunette is at my side, a few minutes later. “Who’d you have to talk to?”

“Keana. She asked me out. Sober and everything.” I completely forgot she existed. But what a better way to remind me of her existence than by asking out the girl I may possibly have feelings for?

“We don’t have anything planned for Monday night, do we?” I shake my head and she beams. “Okay, perfect.” Oh, so perfect (that’s completely sarcastic).

A/N: Sometimes I forget how seriously Americans take asking out people to dances. (Well I am American) (And the way Camila asked Lauren to HOCO is basically how I asked out my crush, but imagine a failing version of the whole thing, where the balloons are too deflated to even float up (It was pretty bad)) Alright, what would you like to see in this fic? Thoughts? Suggestions? Concerns? Let me know. Thank you for the lovely comments, y'all. I see you again soon. :) By the way, Camila’s new singles are amazing. I literally tear up every time I hear I Have Questions. #whohurtyoubaby