#And I put 'chose' in quotes because just like many who find them selves in bad situations - the choice is an illusion.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Maybe we never had a chance.

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[therealvinelle]

I know this is like taking a bat to the beehive but... I really wanna hear your opinions on the whole... Imprinting thing

(Note before we go any further: this meta is written purely about the shapeshifting aspect of the Quileute characters, I don’t at all get into the racism in Twilight or any kind of social commentary. This is a purely watsonian meta. Others in this fandom have already addressed the racial dynamics at play, far more eloquently and knowledgeably than me. If I say something in here that’s in any way offensive, that’s not my intention and I’m open to criticism.)

Ooh imprinting.

I touch upon it here, basically I hate it.

The imprinting is part of this theme where the shapeshifters lose their free will and autonomy, and I find it tragic, cruel, and unnecessary.

First of, the fact that they have to phase at all.

They’re made warriors to protect their tribe. There’s no choice involved, only genetics and magic irrevocably changing their lives, and at a ridiculously young age, too. Sam is the oldest of them, and he is 19.

Violence is an inherent part of what they become. Their purpose is to protect the tribe, by fighting vampires. Not only is this insanely dangerous (we see Jake get so injured by a single vampire that he’s bedridden for weeks), but if they succeed, they will have killed. In the singularly brutal manner of tearing apart and burning someone who looks a lot like a human, who talks and might beg for their life, at that. And I remind you, most of these shapeshifters are literal children. They might not see vampires as people, but all the same, killing one can’t be good for their mental wellbeing. (Thought: Perhaps an argument can be made for Laurent’s death having a part in the turn Jake’s personality took? Some, though not many, of the symptoms for PTSD do fit. I don’t know enough about PTSD to pursue this train of thought, but it occurred to me just now, in particular he becomes quite aggressive and prone to outbursts after that incident, so into a parenthesis it goes)

Not to mention how inhumane that responsibility is. Vampires in the Twilight-verse are terrifying, and the shapeshifters might have the power to fight them. But (and this is where I plug one of my all-time favorite animes, Puella Magi Madoka Magica, as it asks the question “Is it okay to sacrifice yourself for others?” because that’s... well there’s a parallel to be made to the shapeshifters. It’s on Netflix!) does that mean they should? Is it really their responsibility? Again- they’re kids!

Then there’s the time Sam lost control, and accidentally mauled the girl he loved. And it’s so cruel to both him and Emily. Sam never chose to have to control himself in the first place, he never chose shapeshifting. He didn’t choose to imprint on Emily either, and he didn’t choose to lose control that day. At no point in the series of events that led to Emily being mauled did Sam have any real choice, and yet he will shoulder the guilt for what happened for the rest of his life.

These kids get superpowers, and several of them seem to enjoy being shapeshifters, but the fact remains that they now carry this huge responsibility to protect their families and homes, doing so is incredibly dangerous, they lose out on their regular lives, and they can’t opt out of it.

This all sucks, but then we get to the fact that they are deprived of their free will, as their alpha can issue an order they physically can’t break. The alpha becomes alpha because of bloodlines, not because of a democratic election. Jake got a mockery of a choice in that he could choose to become alpha himself, or let Sam continue, which was really just choosing between a rock and a hard place. There is no limitation to what this order can be, from “don’t say X to person Y” to “let’s kill someone you love”. Jake has to struggle to break that last one, and he’s only successful because of the bloodline thing letting him become his own alpha.

Oh, and there’s the massive invasion of privacy when they have a hive mind. Cool concept, less cool to have it be reality. Leah is the poster child for how a hive mind can backfire, and they can’t opt out of this.

I’m not good at gifs, but the shapeshifters just make me think of that gif of someone flicking a lightswitch on and off, “WELCOME TO HELL!”. Of course, Twilight in general is a pit of despair for everybody, so I suppose that gif really is... well it sums up all of canon.

So, we have these kids aged 19 or younger, as of Breaking Dawn they skew as young as thirteen, their lives are turned upside down by something they can’t opt out of, they must shoulder this huge responsibility to protect their homes and families from the terrifying threat of vampires, and on top of all of that, they must obey orders that are so irresistible, they can compel them to harm someone they care for.

With all of that in mind, you’d think that the shapeshifters had enough on their plate. That through all of this they would at least retain their selves, and be able to look forward to a future where they could stop phasing, and go on to live normal, human, lives.

Yeah, NOT IF THEY IMPRINT.

I’ll just quote Jake’s description:

Everything inside me came undone as I stared at the tiny porcelain face of the halfvampire, half-human baby. All the lines that held me to my life were sliced apart in swift cuts, like clipping the strings to a bunch of balloons. Everything that made me who I was—my love for the dead girl upstairs, my love for my father, my loyalty to my new pack, the love for my other brothers, my hatred for my enemies, my home, my name, my self—disconnected from me in that second—snip, snip, snip—and floated up into space. 

I was not left drifting. A new string held me where I was. 

Not one string, but a million. Not strings, but steel cables. A million steel cables all tying me to one thing—to the very center of the universe. 

I could see that now—how the universe swirled around this one point. I’d never seen the symmetry of the universe before, but now it was plain. 

The gravity of the earth no longer tied me to the place where I stood. (Breaking Dawn, page 237)

Everything that made me who I was disconnected from me.

Jake’s love for his father, his home, his very own self, it’s all gone now. And while I have thoughts on the authenticity of this imprint, whether it was organic, the description above is apparently how imprinting feels. It’s along the lines of what Sam, Jared, and Paul all describe.

I don’t think I can put into words just how devastating I find imprinting, I think the above quotation speaks for itself. And as with all other shapeshifter things, there is no choice involved.

We see its devastating effects in the Emily, Sam, and Leah debacle. Sam and Leah were serious together, so much so that they were engaged. Sam had fallen for and chosen to be with Leah. Perhaps they would have broken up eventually, but Leah was still the choice he made. Then he imprints on Emily, and all that is for naught. He had to break up with Leah, who if she hadn’t phased never would have learned why, Emily and Leah’s relationship is ruined, and Emily must forever live with the knowledge that if Sam had his free will intact he would be with another woman.

Then there’s Jared and Kim. Kim crushed on Jared, but Jared never noticed her. The fact that they were in the same class is damning: if a boy is attracted to a girl, he's gonna notice her. Jared never did.

Quil imprints on Claire, who is a toddler. That’s just a recipe for misery and disaster all around.

And I’ve only touched the shapeshifter side of things. They lose their autonomy and freedom, but the imprintées draw the short straw too. They’re now responsible for this other person’s happiness. Sure, having someone who’ll be whatever you need them to be sounds nice (well, it sounds horrifying, but I’m playing ball) on paper, but you can’t opt out of them being like that. The imprintée can’t say “Sorry, not interested,” and she certainly can’t shut the imprinter out of her life, not without irrevocably ruining the imprinter’s life. The imprinter needs her. She’s the center of his earth now, but she didn’t choose to be.

Imprinting is a liferuiner for everyone involved.

Then we have the question of what imprinting is even for. I’m afraid I agree with Billy, that it’s for procreation. We see Sam, who was dating a woman about to phase (even if Leah isn’t infertile, she’s a warrior now. She can’t run in the woods and fight vampires, and gestate and nurse a child at the same time) conveniently imprint on her cousin, who as cousin to Leah is from a shifter bloodline. Claire, as Emily’s cousin, has those same genetics. Paul imprints on a woman from the Black family line. Jake is the outlier, but either Renesmée’s gift helped that imprinting along, or he imprinted because of the offspring they could potentially have (I firmly believe it’s the former because the latter... NOPE. Also, I can’t imagine whatever magic drives imprinting would want vampiric progeny for the future generations. Regardless of Renesmée’s person, her biology is wired to desire human blood. That’s exactly what Jake is supposed to protect people from. Bad match.).

I just.... ughhh. God, I hate imprinting so much, and on every level.

To me, everything about the shapeshifters is about free will, autonomy, and the loss thereof. And it would have been beautiful if their story was about reclaiming that, but it isn’t. None of this, with the exception of the alpha orders, is even acknowledged.

So, in summation, yes I hate imprinting, but it’s only the horror cherry on top of a very sad and problematic cake.

[maxbegone]

AND WE ARE BACK! 

Part two of the Schitt’s Creek Community Fic Rec is here! This time, we focused on celebrating our favorite AU’s! Once again, this is dedicated with love to the the authors of this community! Every participant chose one AU (which was a little hard to do for some) to share and why they enjoyed it.

Thank you to everyone who submitted!

@bestwisheswarmestregards​ // @brighter-than-sunshine​ // @danieljradcliffe​ // @devilstelephone​ // @fishyspots​ // @imargaery​ // @justwaiting23​ // @patrickbrewsky​ // @rockinhamburger​ // @roguebabyinyourstore​ // @rosebuddsmotel​ // @stuck-on-your-heart​ // @the-13th-wheel​ // @thedidipickles​ // @thisbuildinghasfeelings​ // @yourbuttervoicedbeau​

And a very special thank you to anyone who has ever written anything in this community! 

Everything is posted below the cut, and you can check out part one here! 

**As always, if I missed an author’s tumblr handle, please let me know! 

@bestwisheswarmestregards​

Odd Man Rush by @samwhambam​

It’s David and Patrick and Hockey! Three of my favorite things! Also the ending is one of my favorite endings. It’s so sweet! It’s part of the series score and all of the stories are so cute but this one is my favorite!

@brighter-than-sunshine​

Thanks For Choosing Bagged! by dinnfameron

I love this one because the dialogue is so adorable, and true to David and Patrick! I can totally see the characters getting involved in something like this, like a different version of a rom-com.

@danieljradcliffe​

Going Down by concannonfodder

This is one of the best stories of NYC!David and recently out Patrick while they're both trying to find themselves. It's beautifully written and my favourite part is that each chapter switches between David and Patrick's POV. It does a great job of highlighting the aspects of their personalities that we know and love but shows them to us in a new light.

@devilstelephone​

sustineo by @rockinhamburger​

The contemporary art discussions between Patrick and David are interesting and important to the story. Patrick still cares for and emotionally connects with David In a world that is so different than Schitt’s Creek. I liked that Sebastian Raine was the evil force without being included as a character.

@fishyspots​

Welcome to Cabaret by @vivianblakesunrisebay​

It's lovely from start to finish! In this 'verse, Christmas World didn't pull out, so David didn't get the lease for the general store. Instead, he gets roped into helping Moira with Cabaret, and meets Patrick (kind of) through that. I love the way this author writes. The dialogue is in-character, and the plot is wonderful and pulls out moments from canon and reimagines them in some truly inspired ways. I'm such a fan of all of this author's works; this was the first one I read, and it remains my favorite.

@imargaery​

David.; or, a Tale of Misapplied Sense by Siria

A Jane Austen D&P AU and it is BRILLIANT. If you're an Austen fan, you will be able to immediately pick up on how well this author adapted Austen's style, wit, character descriptions, and ability to whack you over the head with romance when you're not even ready for it yet. Siria is a very experienced fanfic writer, but writes for many fandoms, so I think that's maybe why it doesn't have that many hits? I'm so glad I clicked on it. I want to wrap myself up in this story. I want to make a podfic out of it. I want to put it on a t-shirt and wear it every day. Also, it's in a regency AU where homophobia isn't a thing, so you don't even have to worry about that. I want to tell you more, but that would spoil it. Just read the damn thing and thank me later.

@justwaiting23​

You Were the Ocean, I Was Just a Stone by @al-ex-an-d-er-hamiltons​ 

The image of a curly haired fisherman Patrick is enough but this whole fic is such a sweet concept. Their interactions in this are so reminiscent of the show but also so different because they already know each other vaguely, and I come back to this fic over and over just because it's the perfect mix of angsty miscommunication and fluff.

@maxbegone​

Known and Be Known by ahurston

As someone who tends to lean toward canon/canon-divergent stories, this was a refreshing take on an AU. Beautifully written and wonderfully raw, ahurston conveyed the vulnerabilities between both David and Patrick so wonderfully. “The mortifying ordeal of being known,” personified in fanfiction format. With humor and some wonderfully hot scenes peppered throughout, this fic was just brilliant from start to finish. I love when authors explore Patrick's insecurities and vulnerabilities - they aren't written about as often as David's are. I implore you to read this, if you're able.

@patrickbrewsky​

Bound by Symmetry by barelypink

They say write what you know. I instead read what I know. David is the accidentally fantastic teacher we all wished we'd had in high school, and some of us wish/hope we are or might be one day. This fic is a great exploration of combining everything David knows he is (creative, bright, v.knowledgeable about art) and all the things he thinks he's not (empathetic, a role model, great with kids, selfless, kind, & big hearted) The selling point quote: "And it feels good, David realizes, to have a job that means something, a purpose beyond himself. A place where he feels like he belongs, just like his students." (David Rose proves he is both a good and nice person).

@rockinhamburger​

Blackbird, Fly by distractivate 

This is a post-apocalyptic story about love, connection, and hope, with a central theme of growth from destruction. I could not put this one down; I read it feverishly in one sitting, desperate to soak up every word. I love this fic because it is what I like to think of as an exemplar for transformative works (one of ao3’s top values). I love the way the fic stretches toward the light in the dark. It makes me think: about the quintessential elements of these characters, what remains the same despite changed circumstance, and what inevitably shifts when these characters we know and love are faced with a situation far outside their experience or comfort. This story likely hits differently in 2020, when post-apocalyptic narratives feel much less distant than they might have just a year ago. And yet, all the more reason to read an incredible work about hope and resilience and transformation.

@roguebabyinyourstore​

Fifteen Hundred Miles by MoreHuman

Where do I even begin with this fic? I was at first skeptical about what reason David Rose would have to willingly subject himself to a trek through the wilderness out of his own volition. Well I’m so glad I ignored that admittedly stupid part of me because this is one of the mostly beautifully crafted stories I have ever read. Patrick and David are individually on their own journeys of self-discovery, but the way they help each other find what they sought... It’s breathtaking. Their feelings for each other bloom so organically over their time together that despite the circumstances laid out before them, the miles that they stumble and walk and run bring them miles closer to each other. Closer to the love that they both didn’t know they needed. The characters come alive and are identical to their canon selves. The dialogue and banter are spot on David and Patrick. The writing itself is superb. The tropes are incredible, the pining and *oh no there’s only one tent.* The slow burn is tantalizing but in a way that feels true to a genuine love story. The way the setting somehow breathes in tune with the characters, the way they leave messages behind in the trail register—conveying more than they can utter aloud— and the way their families communicate with them throughout their time on the trail through letters. All of the elements of this story ground it in universal truth, in feelings that are not only relatable, believable but demand to be felt. I can wax poetic until I am blue in the face, but really... Read this story. And then reread it a million times.

@rosebuddsmotel​

I Carry These Heart-Shapes Only to You by @ladyflowdi​ and @ships-to-sail​

There are over 180,000 words in this WWII AU, but not one of those words is wasted. It is gorgeous in its prose, and incredibly romantic without romanticizing the very real pain and tragedies of the era in which it exists. It's not an easy read by any means, but it's the kind of cathartic emotional journey that is more than worth it in the end.

@stuck-on-your-heart​ 

kiss from a rose by mihaly ( @davidroseshusband​ )

What can I say about this very special fic that would do it justice? In this story, Alexis stars in a Bachelorette-style dating show and it’s every bit as brilliant as it sounds. On top of the incredible characterization, there are little surprises at every turn, there’s pining, and of course, there’s love. Secret love, even. This fic is truly addicting – I promise you won’t be able to stop once you start reading, and it will leave you feeling so satisfied (and if you’re like me, a little misty)!!!

@the-13th-wheel​

Hold Me Like You’ll Never Let Me Go by @mooodlighting​

It is a wonderful short AU where Patrick and David where they meet at an airport after they get snowed in. It is cute, there is longing and pining that just make it a wonderful read!

@thedidipickles​

Beneath the Winter Snow by Distractivate

The writing is so utterly gorgeous all the way throughout that I frequently needed to take breaks to breathe. The author *perfectly* builds an Olympic world that I can totally see my favorite characters inhabiting, and the resolution is gorgeous. All of Distractivate's AUs are amazing, but this one still stands out.

@thisbuildinghasfeelings​

How Do We Get Back by @unfolded73​

This one deals with a literal alternate universe, which is the first thing I loved about it because I had never read a fic quite like it before. It's a beautifully written 60,000+ word masterpiece that definitely makes me feel ALL the feelings. In addition, it is absolutely riveting. I could not stop reading until I got to the end.

@yourbuttervoicedbeau​

Make It To Me by figmentof ( @rosesdavid )

Epistolatory fic is SO hard to pull off and the author does such an incredible job with the way the characters shine through even though we only see them interact via text message. This fic is my comfort food and I reread it regularly <3

Anonymous Recs:

Just Breathe by olivebranchesandredwine

I love this one because it's got Patrick as a yoga teacher (hot!) and shows David being proactive about anxiety and it's just such a lovely story.

Shall I Stay? by alladaydream ( @maybewecandreamalittle​​ )

This is so worth the 100k wordcount. 18-year-old David and Patrick sweetly leaning into first love, a lot of angst and pining in the middle that allow them both to heal and grow, and a heartfelt reconciliation. Plus, two bonus cherries on top with artist!David and a beautiful epilogue in which they (spoiler) live happily ever after. The tone and pacing of this fic is so good, and I always go back to it when I want to read something comforting.

Your Heart is Keeping Time with Me by @yourbuttervoicedbeau​

I haven't seen 50 First Dates, but this fic is better than the movie could ever be. The author's writing is so beautiful and her David who has amnesia and her Patrick who wants to help him are just PERFECT. I want more and more and more of this.

Once again, thank you to everyone who participated and thank you to every single person who has written something in this community! It would be wonderful to do a part three, but for now, enjoy some alternate universe fics! 

[hearthandhomemagick]

Cottage Witch Journal Entry - Post Yule & Christmas

Okay, so far this forum of mine has discussed some very off the wall topics that invade my head throughout the day. Some very self destructive thoughts, and some self awareness thoughts. Thoughts on religion, video games, spirituality. Hell, I may even choose to discuss sexual exploration in the future. Who knows? All I know is that after looking back at some of my posts, I’m starting to realize how chaotic one individuals thoughts can be. How genuinely complex a humans life and mind can truly be. 

Think about it, if you’ve read my posts in the past, regarding witchcraft, self care, self love, eating awareness, hyperawareness, overthinking, and so on and so forth, then you would think you’d be able to point me out in a crowd. 

The truth is, you wouldn’t. A great deal of my writing is simply the regurgitation of my persistent, sometimes unrelenting, thoughts. I’m noticing the complexities of humanity, and it’s beautiful and tragic all at once.

Last time we spoke, I discussed in a mini post that Judy Alvarez was mine for the taking a staple of independence and power to me and that getting my power back was of high priority to me. It’s been a few days, but this still remains a significant thought in my head. I find myself becoming more and more enthralled by her character and persona, drawn into why I relate to her as much as I do. Then, I noticed the underwater life she loves so much, and am reminded of the blue jellyfish behind my left ear. I see her whale tattoo and think of the same one I have under my left boob. I think of how I wanted to shave the right side of my head similar to Judy’s hair back in High School and my mom telling me it wouldn’t look good. And finally, I think of her selflessness, and her need to help a traumatized soul, and how I used to be a Sexual Violence Outreach Advocate, just trying to help a traumatized soul. I relate to her in more ways than one, as silly and stupid as it sounds, and these may be extremely minute to notice, but important for me. 

My boyfriend and I had a few conversations this weekend, all separate times, that really pinned me to myself. One conversation, he asked me what exactly I believed, in that moment, when it came to religion and spirituality. From there we got into a lengthy discussion (mostly my fault) where I explained my thoughts in detail. One quote I said stood out (I was also stoned so when I said it, it came out as a surprise to me as well), for I digress from the want to overexplain myself. 

As I told my boyfriend, Hyperawareness will destroy a man before it enlightens him. And this year, Hyperawareness seemed to be the proprietor of my mind, for it most definitely would have destroyed me had I continued.

Another conversation we had, which we both agreed to, was the power of our physical bodies directly correlating to past experiences we’ve had with other humans. Also, our relationship with unsustainable lifestyles.

Example, my body issues are founded on the idea that I wasn’t allowed to be a tomboy and play sports or take karate or MMA Fighting classes, but I also wasn’t perceived as delicate and pretty because of my weight/I was bigger than other girls. I was discouraged from doing the physical things I was interested in, and gave up as a result.

Those experiences have perpetuated in many areas of my life as well. In High School, I chose Shop as my number one elective and Weight Training as my second. They chose to put me in Theatre and Intensive Reading instead (Intensive Reading is a class kids take when they make below average on state wide tests). Now, my first choices were classes I felt would develop my character and reflect the life I wanted to live, and I was told it was a bit manly for me to choose those classes. Now, as an adult, I don’t go out of my way to work on mechanics, even though it’s an interest of mine and I haven’t done weight lifting because I thought I’d look like a man. False ideas.

When you are denied your own personality as a child, and don’t realize that is what is happening because it is still happening, it becomes a spiral of what options do you actually have? You become an open book for others influences to freely write in, because you want to be your own independent self but you don’t even know who or how that person is. So, for a while when I got out of High School I was clinging to others personalities in an attempt to find myself. That’s not a good way of doing it, either. 

I lived to please, so when people called me Sunshine, I figured the Sun didn’t wear a lot of black and didn’t act like a man. 

Reality check, I was overthinking it.

I should dress and live how I see fit, regardless of the typical aesthetic. Fuck the idea that I have to subscribe to one aesthetic anyways. If I want to own a Bee Hive, a Cottage in the Mountains by the river with a tiny self sustaining garden, all while wearing black alternative outfits that somewhat line the aesthetic of post apocalyptical,  then fuck yes I’m going to be a gentle, bright, motorcycle loving, knife wielding, MMA Fighting, Yoga and Meditation doing, soft spoken bad bitch. 

Here’s the thing, I haven’t even bought myself clothes this year, because people were literally buying clothes for me. WHICH I AM EXTREMELY GRATEFUL FOR!!!! But, over the weekend I got rid of a lot of those clothes because they restrict my personality, I never wear them or they don’t fit anymore.

After the lengthy conversations, we both agreed that our youthful selves are not finished being fully alive. We didn’t stop being young once we got out of High School, we stopped being young when we started saying we were too old. So, we are starting to set goals together. Getting rid of old clothes was the first step, and we took into consideration that we are still individuals just helping each other accomplish a common goal, so the next step is our physical selves. 

The plan is to clean out our storage room and transform it into a self-care/training area. Together, we will start the P90X after work on some days, while I try to keep up with yoga on my off days. This month, being aware of what I eat without the focus of losing weight has helped me actually lose weight. Now, focusing on my workout regime is the goal. Not to lose weight, but to be able to start MMA Fighting Classes. 

MMA Fighting is something I started in High School right before going to college, but never finished. It’s something I want to commit to so as to release anger while Yoga will help me process my anger. So, healthy eating to support energy, and healthy workouts! I have also been having more endometriosis pain than usual, so avoiding my health won’t help me!

Spiritual wise, I want to focus on my better self. I want to put more effort into me rather than letting myself go in a world of people who don’t care if my personality exists or not. I want to be open, strong and powerful in what I believe. I want to own my shit, and fuck anyone who wants to stop that type of Sunshine. In the words of Meghan Thee Stallion, “Fuck being good, I’m a bad bitch. I’m sick of motherfuckers tryna tell me how to live.”

I’m inconvenient, and I’m happy with that. I’m not perfect, but I’m a process. I’m not weak and quiet, I’m strong and silent. 

This specific post is a reclamation of my power. Somewhere along the road of this shitty adult life, I forgot the beauty in my own power. I’m equal, not less than.

Thank you for reading, if you did. This is, again, one of those things where I am journaling my thoughts, and trying to go over everything in my head without going crazy. If you thought this was annoying, just remember I deleted 5 paragraphs before posting, because I was overthinking and didn’t want to overexplain. (I do everything in copious quantities). If it bothered you, look past my post. If you related, let’s talk about it. All in all, thank you for being alive, darling. I’ll see you later!

[bladekindeyewear]

Boots reads Homestuck Epilogue part... one..??

Alright, let’s do this.  As I’ve said, the page after this one is all I’ve seen, I’m diving in unspoiled.  Also I gather from some of the non-spoilery chatter I’ve heard from my friends -- one of which warned me this sort of thing was coming a couple weeks ago, and I believed them (but didn’t want to) -- that this first epilogue-upd8 may not be the only epilogue-upd8, which isn’t surprising either given how Andrew works.

Alright, let’s go.  Hope my stomach can take it!

So, Page 1, the mock-AO3 page that’s the only thing I’ve seen before posting this.  The content warning is EXCELLENT, and gives me hope that this will be the usual Hussie-caliber and more humorous than heartwrenching.  :)

It also makes some serious sense that there would be multiple epilogues; from the sound of the summary, this one might focus more on John and then leave ample opportunity to discuss the others.

Let’s click page 2 -- oh, or contents: “Prologue”, this being a chapter list for this is another way to do it.  Clicking Prologue.......

Okay wow, this is novel format for the moment.  Good chance it won’t stay that way.

These first two paragraphs are well-written and ominous, sure -- describing stuff we pretty much already knew was happening, in different words -- but even though the writing isn’t really pretentious, there’s still a good chance Andrew *views* it as pretentious enough to find cutting away to art-style instead hilarious.  Onto the third paragraph...

Music and Calliopes the other Calliope is conducting, yeah... Oh, there’s a garbage disposal reference.  In regards to a black hole.  Like the one I kind of pointed to during Dave’s intro sequence in the Third Scratch theory and stuff in all those big theories.  The ones I was, er, wrong about... ahem.  Moving on.

“Your name is John Egbert, and you have just had a terrible, deeply pretentious nightmare.”

Pfffffffff  :D

I love you Andrew Hussie.  Reading on...

YES I see chat colors. Chat colors!!! I need chat colors.  Reading reading reading let me get down to them let me

Absolutely nothing of note has ever happened here in the entire history of the planet, which you would know, because you created it.

Baahahahahah.  :D

Okay yes I’m at the phone-sterlog.

Uh oh.

I am reading elevated levels of angst compared to usual pesterlogs in this log.  Which is to say, virtually any at all, really.  THAT doesn’t bode well for the outcome/overall tone of this epilogue.  :X  --Not to say it isn’t *appropriate*, given they still haven’t fixed/resewn Paradox Space together, but... yeah, *future feels* are popping up on the radar, that’s what I’m worried about.  I loved the tone of the snapchats and the feeling that everything was going to be fine, especially given how the ending “not being what I expected” shook me a fair bit, but to look forward to when that may end... D:

Yeah, Rose having some serious visions about some unfinished business they need to get around to instead of just fucking around and living their lives makes sense.  :X  --or at least some timeline version of them.  I’m imagining they’re living varied, excellent lives in a whole TON of timelines of promise that commit our imaginings of their potential futures to virtual canon, really, with the main thread that ties off Caliborn’s stage play almost irrelevant in comparison... that was kind of the whole point of the Ending of homestuck earlier, of that final anime flash, the fact that the victory and planet and *lives* they won meant a whole lot more than whatever Lord English’s irrelevant machinations were.

So... returning to the tail end of that main thread and seeing how *serious* it might be....... yeah. Kinda mildly panic-inducing. :XXX

You move the phone away from your ear and assume an expression you haven’t practiced in years. It is the look of a man who actually has something to do.

Okay that was good.

Ah, he’s twenty-three now!

Let’s click the next link. ==>

Fuck let’s not recount Rose’s substance abuse.

Oh, cool. Er, “cool”. Rose is getting some of Rosejaspersprite^2′s awareness of all her alternate-timeline doomed selves and their lives.  No wonder she’s worried about the substance abuse she technically mostly *avoided* in this timeline.

Light explicitly relating to knowledge, good.  That’s a nice aspect tidbit to have reiterated.

ROSE: There’s a different scale I’ve come to understand. Another dichotomy that’s less... emotional, I guess? ROSE: Consider, instead of the word “good,” using the word “essential.” ROSE: And what exists at the opposite polarity from essential is... ROSE: Something that is best not to contemplate.

ooh.  oooooh. holy shit.

okay NO, BOOTS/BKEW.  DON’T GET FUCKING EXCITED.

DON’T get excited.

It only SOUNDS like she’s learned to recontextualize the whole adventure in the rich context of the classpect system, that’s just your wild fanfic-y theoryimagination talking.  Shoosh.  (Even though she IS very, very, *very* clearly referencing the Light/Void dichotomy with the above quote.)  Just... tamp down your hopes, Boots.  Leave it at MILD hope.  Like cool porridge.

Reading on.

Alright, yeah, this universe exists beyond the timespan of the Green Sun’s influence.  Unsurprising, since it was heavily implied.  And she doesn’t have access to her expanded Green Sun powerset while *in* such a universe, which was also heavily implied by alt!Calliope or her denizen or I forget the exact conversation where it said she’d have to make the final journey without Green Sun powers or whatever.  That’s cool.  (Though having it spelled out more explicitly than usual does make it more awkward to have her use her powers for humorous purposes on MXRP in the future.)

OOOH DAVE KARKAT AND JADE ARE IN A PERPLEXING SOCIAL ARRANGEMENT YESSSSS  :D

Best news.  Okay reading on.

ROSE: You will need to travel back into canon and defeat Lord English.

Yeah I guess.

Again, the way the ending sort of put it was that..... our heroes did have to defeat Lord English eventually?  Or set right some prior stuff like doing the stage play?  But that part of the point of this whole story -- the Ultimate Reward -- was that it didn’t really matter, because they had earned nigh-infinite branching timelines of promise in a brand new universe where they could go YEARS AND YEARS living their lives in many of the ways they wished, richly enjoying themselves and starting civilizations that would last billions of years, loving and living and experiencing, only “needing” to go finally check off these other responsibilities in a single timeline of promise at the end of an extended period of vacation they chose with no particular urgency.  Branching years-and-years of essentially heaven as long as they EVENTUALLY fulfilled that particular endpoint, and they knew it.  More or less.

Rose phrases it pretty explicitly, though.  John’s powers are the only thing that can warp people through canon like that without restriction, so he was always to be involved, but... *he* needs to defeat him?  Does that mean alone?

JOHN: yeah, i had a feeling that was going to come up again someday. ROSE: I’m sure we all did. That is, even those of us without visions. JOHN: i was doing my best not to think about it. i guess we can’t put it off any longer then? ROSE: Now is the time. We are rapidly approaching a point of no return. If the decision isn’t made soon, it will be too late. The issue will no longer matter. JOHN: when exactly is the point of no return? ROSE: Today. JOHN: wow. JOHN: ok then.

Ouch.

That’s slightly more abrupt than the picture of branching bliss I just painted.

JOHN: fine? ROSE: Of course everything is fine here. ROSE: We’re outside of canon now. JOHN: yeah, i know. what does that actually MEAN though? JOHN: are you saying this isn’t really happening? ROSE: Of course it’s happening. ROSE: Just because certain events take place outside of canon, it doesn’t mean those events are non-canon. JOHN: oh. ROSE: In other words, there is an important distinction between events which can be considered to occur inside canon, outside canon, and those which are not canon at all. ROSE: The day we went through that door and claimed our reward, we passed a threshold between continua marked by differing degrees of relevance, truth, and essentiality.

Well okay then.  I was wondering why she used the word “canon”.  They literally DID escape the narrative literally as *well* as figuratively with that Juju, then, Neverending Story style.

Also, Light being highly tied to canon and Rose having spent so much time outside of it... yeah, I can understand the headaches more, too.

Alright, reading on, it seems Andrew is using Rose to more explicitly explain how he intends all the non-canon stuff he’s presented to us to “matter”, for those who didn’t quite get or fully believe the implied explanation from context towards the end of the story.

Heh, so the idea is that the urgency comes from “it’s been too fucking long since the story ended, and this epilogue needs to come out when an epilogue would still matter to anyone”.  That’s kind of brilliant.

ROSE: As long as we live outside canon, everything that happens will technically be “real,” but only conditionally. ROSE: There are certain crucial events inside canon which must happen in order to continue to prop up the legitimacy of events here on Earth C. ROSE: And you specifically, John, have a responsibility to make sure those events take place.

Closing threads closing threads CLOSING THREADS :D !!!!!!

FUCK is this epilogue going to be mostly devoted to TYING UP LOOSE ENDS and clarifying stuff??? :D  Like the HUNDREDS OF LOOSE ENDS that were left unanswered because the ending tried to paint it all as sidelined/irrelevant regardless of the fact that they hadn’t been answered/fulfilled, which had previously pretty much traumatized me around Homestuck’s end because I was (1) so used to Andrew expertly tying up almost every loose end eventually and (2) was a theorycrafter with explicit investment in the idea that Classes, Aspects, and most of these loose ends actually DID matter???  :D

Sign me the fuck up!!!  :DDDD

...I know it’s doubtfully going to be anything close to all I hoped for, but still.  Answers, contextualization, and John tying up loose threads.  Like that final frog warped in front of Jade as a child.  That’s good, that’s VERY good.  I’m excited instead of nauseous.  :D

--and yeah, reading on, Rose makes more explicit what I said earlier that the justification Andrew’s painting for this is “we have to wrap up all these loose ends before everyone forgets about Homestuck.”  That is hilarious.

Okay, so the juju is a big plothole. Heheh.  We’ve heard it called that earlier.

...Oh.  Oh huh.

Rose is pretty much explicitly talking about the stage play consisting of a bunch of non-canon ALTERNATE VERSIONS of themselves that mean the original versions of them living happily in the new universe won’t actually die.  Holy shit.  I mean we theorized that for a TIME with some of them but THOSE loose ends (like Roxy still having her mask on) were closed up toward the end...  So instead, having it put THIS way (preserving our ideas of them living full lives post-victory), and not only that but having John DO all this stuff RIGHT NOW to fix things retroactively with some really well-written contextual clarification we’re bound to get to help with the closure... god DAMN.  This is really good.  This is going to make a LOT of people feel a whole lot better about Homestuck.  Like me.  :D

...Pff, some other girl is getting punched by John in the face again.  :D  Don’t worry, Rose isn’t saying that this is the Vriska punch at the beginning of the whole Retcon arc and that this epilogue somehow happened in the middle.  (I hope.)

...Yeah Rose implies heavily that John is gonna die his heroic death if he does this?  Or it’s meant to make us THINK she’s implying that.  Yeah.  And she feels pretty fucking horrible about what she’s asking John to go through regardless, so.  (Yeah, everyone looked pretty genuinely dead but a few at the end of the stage play, but it was pretty uncertain.)  Either way, she’s acting like John isn’t going to “come back”, even if he lives through this.

Stupid feels.

Clicking the next link.  ==>

Hiiii roxy and callie!!! :D

Yes how polite of them.

“Ultimate self”?  Yeah, a sort of synthesizing of all the offshoots of her Heart and Mind, pulling it all together and realizing the full person she is and sum of her whole experience across all timelines, pasts and futures.  Yeesh.  Pretty uncomfortable for someone who ain’t a hypersprite.

...Roxy and Rose aren’t as close?  Is it because of the substance abuse, because of the Light/Void dichotomy literally-or-metaphorically distancing them (with how disparaging Rose just was about anything that isn’t relevant), or something else?

Ah, Kanaya hogged her until she got “sick”, that explains some of it too.

A bell tower? (DOOONNNNGGG)

Fffff interpersonal relationship mildangst.  Fuck

You and all your friends have dispositions affected by your classes and aspects. You think you know what that means in your case. But what about her? You can only speculate. Void is a place where things sink and disappear. Where they linger forever, but cease to exist. You aren’t actually sure if your feelings for Roxy ever really faded, or if they just grew numb with time and distance. Is it the same for her?

Holy fucking shit.  What a big middle finger to everyone who told me aspects didn’t matter to their personalities.  :D

...Though, I think he has it kind of backwards, since he still doesn’t totally understand all this business.  It’s easy for those in canon, introduced to this subject, to think that the classes and aspects affect their dispositions, to an extent where the reality (at least I contend) is that it was their natural dispositions in the first place that the classes and aspects were actually describing.  The power that was latent in their very personalities and tendencies to action all along.

Reading... Ah, yeah, a choice.  Was pretty sure this terminology would be important earlier.  It depends on what SORT of choice this is though... see, so far, Rose hasn’t given John a lot of really EXPLICIT motivation to go through with this, other than some mumbo-jumbo that would supposedly be “bad”.  And it doesn’t even address the black hole in his nightmares.  And here, we have Roxy and others explicitly encouraging him with regard to the fact that he can choose NOT to do this if he wants to.

The main question it brings up (to the future of this epilogue, how it’s going to be considered afterward, etc) is if this is the sort of Choice that John would always say yes to -- in which case it’s more canon than anything else -- or if he will end up being on the fence enough for a Terezi-style Mind-split.  Because this would be the PERFECT out to have him “die” in canon.  See, if he’s on the fence ENOUGH about going, then he creates two timelines that even both potentially have promise within the confines of this universe (since universes hold more than one timeline of promise, according to one of the Calliopes I think)--  One where he lives here, happily ever after with everyone, and another where he completes his Heroic death in canon to fix everything.  It would let Andrew kill John in this epilogue while still letting him live out eternity with everyone else outside “canon”.

He’d get to have his John-death and keep him too!  Seems plausible enough.

Anyway. Reading... it looks like they know more about this decision that Rose has told them, including the consequences Rose might have been dreading.  And likely know that IF John might die doing this, that it won’t be in a way that he regrets.

Oh wow, that whole Meat or Candy sequence is GREAT.  Silly to the core, and yet perfectly emphasizing the debate that... well, I mean, think about what Andrew’s been telling us all along.

He keeps TRYING to tell us that non-canon stuff is fine.  Trying to use that huge ending sequence of Homestuck to try and tell us that the fact that everyone is FREE from this story and its confines, free for everyone to imagine COUNTLESS ways things played out afterward for ALL these lovable characters in carefree futures, is almost MORE important than any of these stupid loose ends.  But some of us were really cut by that ending, the insistence that the actual final battle “didn’t matter” and that this escaped-from-canon existence was the true victory.  But if Andrew just upped and drew a bunch of bonus pages to start explaining more story, THAT would cheapen the escape-from-canon ending he wanted even as it satisfied those of us who wanted ends tied up, who wanted questions answered.  He had to find a very careful, very well done way to give us BOTH.  To write out the real “ending” of “canon” for those of us who needed it, without compromising the ESCAPE from the very necessity of it that was the essential point he WANTED to make with Homestuck’s story from the very beginning.  To carefully keep the endless branches of post-victory possibility and play intact while still, separately and with explicit hedging and qualifications, give us the potential results of one last canon thread to tie up the lingering questions that he so dearly wants us to recognize still “don’t matter” as much in the vast scheme of things.

And he’s doing it.  And it’s WORKING.

Holy SHIT.

I am excited for Homestuck.  I am excited for Homestuck for the first time in years, and my nausea is gone.

I’m not going to start theorizing again; that’s over.  But I’m definitely going to keep reading as the new Epilogue chapters come out, and do so with a spring in my step.

To Be Continued.  :D

[ahensfin]

✨Cult Making Tutorial🤪

Okay, so this isn't some quirky eDgY commentary on rejecting organised ancient religion and its impact on culture which an overtly politically aggressive teenager made in 2022 due to feeling suppressed/oppressed by a couple of old people and a book telling them how to behave because even if the book or the old people weren’t really saying anything that was too intolerable or anything but the teenager just hated being told how to behave in a world they happened to find themselves in okay? It's NOT THAT.

This is serious business!!1!1!!%2@!!!??!??

Step 1: Find something original to idolize/ convince your followers to idolize.

There’s just such a saturated market for religious beliefs these days. Why is your positive role model(s) always in the sky and negatives at the bottom? For so many schools of thought claiming to be radical, they sure are more of a middle school type than an art school type.

Since the author of this piece happens to believe in teaching through example, let’s make a religion together. This one will be based on the idea that one-half of our brains belong to our real selves and the other was attached at birth. The other half that was put in is more gullible and easily distracted, thus effectively allowing you to function in daily life, rather than being hopelessly paralysed by the absurdity of existence.

Most beginners make the mistake of choosing the name first. This is bad, mostly because names of religions reveal the core of the school of thought almost immediately which completely defeats the purpose. It allows those who didn't inherit your religion from their meek-minded parents to develop an opinion from the outside instead of trying it out first.

And every smart, budding prima donna (an umbrella term for religious thought entrepreneurs- we would just use entrepreneurs but the common person has a rather toxic relationship with money so lets not) knows that we get them when they try it out.

GET THEM IN THE 30 DAY FREE TRIAL THAT  AUTOMATICALLY CHARGES TO YOUR CARD DEAL GUYS!

Step 2: Find someone to hate together

Families that hate together, stay together. The Indians would never have agreed on anything if they didn’t have the British to hate. Many religions hate women. Even their own women hate other women. It’s pretty awesome and gets them to spend a lot of money which is what we want. Feminism is a cool experimental cult founded by Anais Nin, and she told me that the thing that they chose to unite and hate against is (obviously) injustice against people who identify as women, but any PD who’s been to Making a Cult Classic 101 knows that a religion is supposed to remain rigid and uncompromising or no one will take it seriously. But Anais was walking through tricky territory here because her project was all about progression, right? Of course, since this is totally never-been-done-before, feminism is pretty elastic and keeps moving ahead and adapting to the current environment. But what Nin really did well, was disguising the common enemy, because when the common enemy cannot be scrutinized, it can only be felt, not analysed. If it cannot be analysed, it cannot be broken down. The common enemy is bitterness. VERY COOL ANAIS! Bitterness keeps advocates and believers overtly human, and overtly human nature is to take three steps forward, one step back(ideal situation is one step forward one step back). For keeping this handy guide brief, I will not elaborate, but further for-fun type research is encouraged on this topic. Easy topics and suggestions for your first cult can be:

-Promiscuous women

-Anyone who doesn’t think your favourite quote from your main book is what you think it is

-people who don't wear your uniform (please pick something that's not white and/or black im begging you like any other colour would be cool)

-themselves (self-hatred keeps them angsty and spicy okay while self-assuredness makes them apathetic and not as free with their wallets) 

-i would say racism but if you pick that I will bump you down by three letter grades for lack of originality this is not a joke 

Taking our brain example into consideration, I will not be taking the common enemy as gynecologists or governments because the first has a gaping plothole- what about babies not born in hospitals?? And the second because it’s really really really overused. Let's take the common enemy to be oxygen, a hallucinogen that causes this tumorous growth in our skulls, which can only be prevented by going back to whatever planet we escaped from. Further lore such as why we escaped, who or what is preventing us from going back et cetera can be decided later. Left brainers can hate right brainers. That one guy who got a rod through his head and had fluctuating personalities can be That One Frequently Referenced Figure TM.  

Step 3: Pick a Book!

This is the fun part because it's the easiest. You might not even have to write the book yourself! The ones written in dead languages are the best though. Some interesting religious “books” have been walls, stones, boards, dashboards, and recently home screens. Not to geek out about Nin again, but she chose to NOT have any book! But every religion needs a template, and feminists got theirs from Tumblr. It is also believed that r/incel was founded by an overcompensating mom who was deprived of affection by her mom (*wow Anais really laid the groundwork for all this hereditary mother-daughter trauma dayum she did her homework what a pioneer) but you know, reddit megathreads became the new Bible.

* important note- previously established religions will always affect newer concepts it's impossible to escape it, so the best course of action is to either address it or bury it. Ignoring it wouldn’t bode well in the long run. 

Our books can be Pinterest (I just really like Pinterest) but it also makes sense because the home screen shows a pretty accurate summation of your personality and interests which can be psychoanalysed by followers. 

Step 4: Other Religious Paraphernalia

Such things come up over the course of time and have a lot to do with the economic conditions, other dominant religions, fashions, et cetera.

MUSIC!!!! MAKE IT EERIE!!! EVERY MEETING IS A  P A R T Y

For example, Astrology has newly incorporated gemstones, manifestation journals and Lana del Rey. Drugs are an important aspect of this subheading. Older religions used more crass, easily attainable drugs such as opiates, smoked leaves of any kind, fermented syrup on Fridays, that specific type of worm, and such. Harder, more chemically manufactured drugs must be studied before incorporation (fentanyl’s hard to make room for in the budget when you guys are trying to build a pyre in the desert on a regular basis).

For my brain example, I’d choose LSD. Safe-ish option, as psychedelics are kind of pushing their way into mainstream acceptance with all those mushroom documentaries with Nick Offerman. Plus they can help stay in the same environment but change it up so it's not like one brain is living in another dimension or anything its the same one but the perspective shift is important. Also, I would encourage long hippie skirt outfits and three-piece suits (not restricted to gender).

Step 5: Final Tips for the Charismatic Leader 

- cool haircut - be really loud or really soft - choose being skinny over being ripped ALWAYS you can get some loser to beat people up for you - im not kidding about the skinny okay nobody will listen if you have a beer belly and you cannot hide it with your beard

That brings us to the conclusion of the quick guide to beginner cult making. By this time coming September I want a 50-page thesis on your controlled environment project. IT BETTER BE ORIGINAL ALRIGHT THE INTERNET MAKES IT ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO GET AWAY WITH REBRANDING THESE DAYS SO IF YOU WANT TO MAKE IT IN THIS FIELD YOU BETTER START PRACTICING ORIGINALITY RIGHT NOW. Also double-check the address of your designated high school and the experiment subjects with their numbers and home addresses.

Have a great summer :)

[kylydian]

Listen to the Music You Want to Write, Write the Music You Want to Listen to.

Maybe it’s because I’m preparing for my first major talk, or maybe it’s because I’m stuck in a composers block right now, chasing that ever alluding idea we call “innovation,” or maybe it’s because I just can’t stop thinking. But whatever it is, right now I’ve been obsessed with the idea of our own original voice as composers.

There’s a mindset I hear frequently that states “Nothing is truly original anymore. Everything artistically is just an extension of what came before. If you think you’ve done something new, there’s someone somewhere who has already done it before.” Now, I don’t know if I agree with this in its purest form, but it’s important to recognize that there is some truth to this. I do believe that as composers we are a sum of those who came before us, and more importantly a sum of the music that we like.

If you’ve followed me on Tumblr, Twitter, or anywhere else, you probably know that I somewhat see video game music falling a bit flat right now, especially at the entry level. This is a product of oversaturation in my opinion since we see so many composers at all levels competing with each other for literally every job, paid or not. With this environment, there’s a ton of people who are playing to what the industry wants, and are losing their own voice because they’re forgetting about what music means to them. And this somewhat creates an issue of I need my music to be the best.

The music we remember is the music that we associate with, it’s not necessarily the best music, but it’s the music that sticks out to us the most. These are the OSTs that we often remember as soundtracks of the year. And the thing is, most of these did something just a tad different. Each one is almost like a window into the psyche of the game, or even the composer.

And the thing is, you could say that each of these soundtracks is representative of the composer’s voice.

People throw this term around a lot, we have our voice, our style, our…entire musical being. But what does that truly mean, how do we find it, and if we have our own voice, how do we develop it? Let’s explore that a bit.

In our individual voice, I find it best if we divide the voice into what I call (And other people too probably) your passive voice, and your active voice. Both of these are important, and both of them should not be overlooked in deciding what it is you want to write.

Our passive voice is our biggest influencer of our musical self, whether it be performance, composition, stylistic preferences or almost any factor, and is a direct result of passive listening. Passive listening is listening to music as a secondary activity, which…most likely is the way we listen to music most of the time. If you’re listening to music while studying, working, or cooking, these would all be examples of passive listening. And naturally, while you’re doing something else, you’re going to be listening to music that you want to listen to!

The thing though, is that our passive listening has direct results on our musical selves, and naturally will be representative of what we like to listen to. If you’re looking at a composer’s website, there’s probably a good chance their “musical inspirations” on their bio is going to be pretty representative of their passive voice.

Within the realm of passive voice though, I’ve heard the complaint that so many game composers sound the same, (again especially at the entry level), and you can see part of the reason for this if you were to compare “musical inspirations” between composers. You’re probably going to find a lot of the same names. Koji Kondo, Nobuo Uematsu, and Manami Matsume, one of these is likely to appear. And you should see that! They’re masters for a reason! They’re at the top of our world for a reason!

More of the issue lies in the fact that people often ignore their active voice, and the neat thing about our active voice? Well, it’s easier to change that.

For the record, I consider my passive voice to be representative of Koji Kondo, Grant Kirkhope, and a classical composer by the name of David Maslanka.

If a passive voice is representative of passive listening, an active voice is representative of active listening, or listening to music as a primary activity. Going to a concert of any type, studying music, or  playing music with friends all being examples. But honestly, in developing an active voice it’s important to go a bit deeper than that. Within active listening do we gain the ability to take ideas from others.

Within composition, the easiest way to explain this would be if you’re trying to learn a new genre. When you’re writing a genre you don’t know, you’re likely to spend a lot of time immersing yourself in the genre, listening passively and actively to try to pick up the nuances of said genre. What makes it tick, how you can write that genre yourself. This is active listening. But you can do it in almost any circumstance or for any reason as well.

Austin Kleon’s book “Steal Like an Artist” talks about this much more accurately than my garbled talking ever could. He states that in developing an artform, it’s important to put your own spin on what came before. Take ideas from others,transform ideas into something new, so that one day people can steal from you too. If you’ve read any of my previous posts (mostly on Tumblr) you’ll likely notice that this is how I’ve approached most of my soundtrack analyses. It’s always neat to read material that echoes what you’ve been doing for a short while!

But one of my favorite quotes from the book that’s somewhat hidden in the pages says “Don’t just steal the style, steal the thinking behind the style.”

And even before reading this book this is how I’ve looked at active listening. Get behind their psyche, pick ideas that you want, and think of why they work. How they work, why the composer chose these things. Do research on them, find the implications they held to the original artist. And take those ideas and think of ways that you could make them a bit different. Maybe it’s blending genres, maybe it’s instrument selection, experimental sound design music, mode mixture, anything. Take ideas and find ways that you can make something stand out just a little differently.

Listen for things in music that you actively want to pursue, that you think can make your game music better. Really dive in, spend some time with the music until you know it like the back of your hand. And then think: What’s special about this? Why does it shine in a way nothing else can shine? And this can be done by developers too, find things that you think sound good, that your composer could improve on, it’s a two way street after all.

Most importantly though, remember:

Listen to the music you want to write. Write the music you want to listen to.

My revision process for music some have called intense. If I don’t like something I’ll change it. At any point. Once I’m completely happy with a track, I’ll loop it for an hour and if I get annoyed or something sticks out to me, I change it. Once I’m not annoyed for an hour, I don’t listen to it for 24 hours. Then I loop it again. If I get annoyed, I change it. Once I’m not annoyed after the 24 hour period, I throw it in my car and listen to it on loop while I’m driving over the course of several days. I get annoyed? I’ll change it.

Writing the music that you want to listen to is so important. If you truly like what you write, there’s a good chance that someone else will like it too.

This is the mentality that I wish more people approached music with starting out. If you’re writing music that you love and listening actively on how to improve, you’re using your voice to its fullest.

Use your passive voice, develop your active one, and love what you write.

[onisionhurtspeople]

Onision and his new channels.

I’ve been getting a lot of submissions recently from people asking me what’s been going on with all of Onision’s new channels, so instead of responding to all of them individually, I’ve decided to make one giant post about it to outline what my thoughts on the subject are.

A couple of days ago, I responded to a post in which somebody was asking why Onision keeps creating new channels even though his old ones are dying. In the past couple of months alone, Greg has doubled his channel count from Onision, OnisionSpeaks, and UhOhBro, to those three plus three more: OnisionEncore, OnionSon, and now Onichan (and there may be more that I’m not aware of). I responded to the post by writing that I believed he was creating all of those new channels because he was stuck in the past, trying to relive his glory days by repeating the same actions and circumstances that catapulted him to YouTube infamy to begin with; because, as we all know, Greg is the kind of person who has a very narrow comfort zone, and as such he has a tendency to repeat the same patterns over and over again - not just with his channels or his video content, but also with his behavior and especially with his relationships. The pattern of idealizing, devaluing, and then discarding that he puts his friends and romantic partners though, the pattern of attacking content creators and even fans who dare to criticize or disagree with him, the pattern of saying/doing offensive things, receiving backlash for those things, acting contrite and apologetic in order to win back the loyalty and forgiveness of his fans (”See, look! He’s trying so hard to change! He’s admitting to his mistakes! He’s really trying this time, and the effort is all that matters!”), and then doing the same thing all over again from the beginning. The patterns in his behavior that we’ve all noticed, and which brought us here in the first place.

But I was thinking about it today and realized that there’s another reason why he’s making all of these new channels, too. It’s not just because he engages in a lot of repetitious behavior (although he does), or because he’s desperately trying to hold on to what little fame, fortune, and influence he has left (although he is); but it’s also because creating all of those new channels gives him a “valid” excuse to re-upload the same videos that he already has published on his main channels, thus garnering extra views (and a little bit of extra money) when fans click to watch his “new” uploads. I wouldn’t go so far as to say that this is fraud, but he is representing his channels as being for new or previously unpublished material when really all he’s doing is using it as a dumping ground for all of his old videos so that he can double his profits. (I say “double”, but really he’s only making a fraction of what he used to off them, because the videos on his new channel are only getting like 16,000 views on average each.) 

Today, however, Onision announced that he was planning on doing something new with his channels. My understanding of what Greg is doing here is that it seems as though from now on (and if anybody knows more about this than I do, please correct me if I’m wrong), he will be releasing most of his videos through Patreon to paid fans only, except for what he publishes on Onichan. I suspect that he’s doing this in order to force their hand: he believes that if he makes it so that his fans have to choose between either never seeing his videos again, or paying a measly $0.49 per month (or else they’re a fake fan who lied about how much he meant to them, of course; and we all know how Onision feels about liars), then the ones who were previously unwilling to pay for it will pony up the cash to get access to his videos. We’ll have to wait and see how that works out for him, but I think he made a huge miscalculation here, for a couple of reasons. 1) He (again) chose to ignore the fact that his viewer demographic consists primarily of 14 to 17-year-old girls (most of whom do not have a job, let alone enough money to support him on a month-by-month basis), and 2) I think he has vastly over-estimated his popularity and the loyalty of his fans. This, combined with the fact that just earlier today he was trying to guilt trip his fans into giving him money (with his “If I really liked a YouTuber and claimed that they’d “saved my life”, then I’d be more than willing to spend $0.49 on them. The fact that you won’t proves that you’re not a real fan” bald-faced attempts at emotional manipulation on Twitter today), indicates to me that he’s desperate, is getting ready to privatize his content, and is pulling out every card in the book to try and get his viewers to pay him - even if that means he has to bully, manipulate, insult, and guilt-trip his own impressionable teenage fans in the process. On the plus side, at least this clearly proves one thing that people have been arguing about for years: he never cared about his fans, he was never doing YouTube just because he enjoyed it (despite the fact that he accused many other YouTubers of being in it only for the money), and he never cared about whether or not his videos helped people - even for all of his claims of being “pro-feminism” and “body positive”. 

But probably the biggest mistake that he’s made in doing this is, in my opinion, related to the fact that he refuses to admit that his viewers are primarily teenagers (though he has no problem with doubling that demographic as his dating pool) - and I believe that this miscalculation on his end may ultimately result in him permanently destroying his own channel within two or three years at best. Let me explain why I think this. 

In refusing to acknowledge that his fans are mostly teenagers, he is missing out on recognizing the reason why they’re so young to begin with: and that’s because as his fans grow older, they tend to grow out of finding his brand of juvenile, sophomoric humor amusing. What we found funny at 14 or 15 is not what we still find funny at 20 or 21 - for the most part, our sense of humor is developed and refined over time, and we begin to lose interest in the type of comedy that amused us when we were young. At this point you’re probably thinking, “Why is this information relevant, and what does it have to do with the success of his channels?” The problem here is that in his incredible arrogance, his black-and-white thinking, and his lack of foresight and lateral creativity of thought, he is only thinking of the short-term gains of forcing fans to give him money in order to view all of his content, but ignoring the broader implications and potential consequences of doing so. Since such a significant portion of his fan base is so young, and since they tend to outgrow his humor and the drama surrounding his private life, by removing his content from YouTube and making it available exclusively through Patreon or his website, he is essentially removing the free advertising of his channel that YouTube provides for him just by being a member of the website - effectively cutting off his supply of new, young fans coming on to YouTube and discovering his content. This is the reason why his demographics have consistently remained in the 14-17 range even though he’s been on YouTube for over ten years: because instead of his older, loyal fans aging alongside him, instead they are losing interest in his content as they mature, only to be replaced with newer and younger fans who likely discovered him either because one of their favorite content creators mentioned his name in one of their videos, or because his channel showed up in their “recommended” sidebar. Either way, the only reason they discovered him was because he was on YouTube. 

What will happen if he switches over to Patreon or his own website, rather than continuing to post on YouTube or even Facebook or Tumblr, is that the exact same cycle will continue, except that as his older fans age out of his content, they won’t be being replaced by younger fans discovering him as they are now (because he won’t be posting new content on YouTube anymore, only on Patreon). His fans will turn 18, 19, and 20, and stop watching his content. Slowly, they will realize that they’ve stopped quoting his jokes to their friends when they hang out, that it’s been ages since they’ve watched a new Onision video, or recommended his channel to a new friend. They will go to his channel, try to re-watch an old favorite that they used to find hilarious, and scrunch up their face in disappointment and confusion when they suddenly realize that they find his constant interruption of Lainey obnoxious and inappropriate rather than funny or charming. It will dawn upon them that they just don’t find him funny anymore, and that his sense of humor is juvenile and unappealing to their new and more mature selves. They will wake up one day and realize that now, as adults, they just can’t relate to him anymore, to his sophomoric locker room jokes, his black-and-white unrefined opinions lacking in complexity and nuance, or his ignorant, judgmental rants that just sounded so intelligent and logical and impressive when they were freshmen in high school and didn’t have enough life experience to challenge his point of view and form their own opinion. They will get a job, or have kids, or go to college, or move out, and one month while they’re drawing up their budget and trying to decide between ramen and donating to Onision’s Patreon, they will realize that they don’t really like him enough anymore to be spending money on him anyway, even if it’s only $0.49 per month; and suddenly they’ll think to themselves, why am I giving him that money, anyway? He makes $5000 per month off Patreon, he doesn’t need my money to keep his Tesla and two houses afloat, especially not when I’m the one who’s struggling here (and especially not if he’s going to make me feel guilty for not being able to afford it). Slowly but surely, his current fan base will age outside of the range of his influence, as they have always done in the cycle of Onision’s channel; except this time, there will be no younger fans to replace them, because he’ll have removed all of his content from YouTube in a desperate but short-sighted bid to manipulate his fans into giving him more money. And what he undoubtedly thought was a clever and inspired calculation on his part to make more money off his fans will ultimately end up contributing to his permanent demise. 

[lrosenthal11]

Here's to my start at @CollegeIsMyLife <3

Hi!! ♌

 My name is Laurunce Rosenthal and this is my first blog for my new job ayeeee. We have a loootttttt to cover so here we go. Wow I don’t think anyone, including myself, is ready for what’s about to be written. Here we fuckin go.

Okay let’s start from the start. I’m Laurunce, some know me as LJ some Laurunce, some call me names they make up like Lauren or Lawrence or LG or even shit like TJ like idk where we getting these letters from…but anyway that is me. I’m Laurunce. And you’ve probably never heard the name Laurunce before which is so lit for me because now I hope you never forget it. I’m the girl that’s going to make an impact on this world. Wanna know why? Because no one else is going to? “Oh LJ so many people are doing stuff for this world..” well my niqqa why aren’t you? Glad you just asked yourself that question I want you to ask yourself it again…and again… Ask yourself why you aren’t doing something for this world; some action to better this world. And if you are HELL YEAHHH glad you’re on the winning team. Now for people not doing anything positive for this world, or even worse doing stuff that NEGATIVELY IMPACTS our Earth, yuuuuuppp I’m calling you out bartards and litterers, and yep even you past LJ meanie gal. You were not a nice human in your past. Glad you woke up girl. Make some positive changes in this world people, we gotta do it not only for us, but for our children and grandchildren, and our grandchildren’s grandchildren. I’m doing this for you, my babies I hope to have. Obviously cannot predict the future, but my two beautiful baby girls, hopefully twins, if not the best of friend sisters: Summer Raine Rosenthal and Brooke Lynn Rosenthal. How cute omg cannot wait for these beautiful humans to enter the world Anyway back to start, we are going to stray off track a lot I feel like but it’s worth it to me because my ideas are all over the place but begging and pleading to be put onto this page, which will then transfer to your brains. This is my literal thought process running like a wild lion (where my Leos at?) through my brain, and leaving my fingertips to be available for your eyes to read and your soul to listen to. These are my lyrics on some platform, somewhere, wherever you are. And wherever you are I hope you are at home and at peace, because you are your own home. “You can’t make homes out of human beings, someone should have already told you that.” – Warsan Shire (my twitter bio for idk maybe the past 4 years), and as Porter Robinson said at the event that sparked this enlightenment of my soul, #OkeechobeeMusicFestival2017, “Every place you’ve ever imagined, it’s real. There is a fictional city in your mind and you know every corner of it. Your mind is a world, each of us is a place.” Do you understand why music is my new favorite drug? Lyrics and beats SPEAK TO ME.

How did this change all occur??? Well, I microdosed on LSD (microdosing is where you cut of a liiiitle piece and take that instead of dropping the whole tab) and my eyes were opened to the effects of drugs and how they can hinder such beautiful people and decided that is not the path I wish to be on anymore. If I can enjoy life without all the drugs and other influences I was under, why do I NEED them? That is not to say I am going to stop cold turkey, but I now know and trust my limits.  I was addicted to this fake feeling of satisfaction for however long my high lasted. Now I truthfully am high on life. I could sit here and type forever about the changes I am making in my life, but I will just show you all, and show myself, because it’s kinda counterproductive to brag (#NOMORENEGATIVITY) and try to explain how amazing it is to finally be happy in my own skin and with a new cleansed and refreshed soul. It’s the flesh I will be in for the rest of my years on this planet, so I should prob get comfy in it, and I encourage you to do the same, get comfy peeps it’s going to be a nice journey. And I am not here to scold you, because who am I to try and control your life, and who are you to try and control mine? I needed to take a drug to realize I don’t need them. I DROPPED a tab (tab = the acid for my family right now reading this going ‘huhhhh what’s a tab??!!!’) Anyway, I DROPPED a drug to realize I could DROP drugs, ahhhhh finally a big part of my life, “Double Entendre” which I hope to call this blog/the book I am going to write. There will be many of those DEs throughout this new blog. Wow I am excited. If you are reading this and it touches you in any way please share. I am just a New York girl trying to be successful, and there are many cliché stories like that, but who is to say I can’t be one of those cliché stories too? They usually have really awesome endings.

           So what am I going to do with this blog platform? I am going to change the world. Don’t believe me? Watch me. THE ONLY PERSONEVER STOPPING YOU, IS YOU. And I believe that about myself. At Okeechobee, a woman who looked JUST like my older sister Janeen, (Janeen you are one of my heroes, this one’s for you) approached me and said to me, “Watch who you hang out with.” and proceeded on her way. You will see throughout my blog I believe in Her, She, The Universe. She is Us it’s so weird and hard to explain but I’ll try…She is not a religion, She is not something we have to go praise every Sunday, or someone who we have to fear, She is within and among us, trying to guide us on our life’s journey so we can experience all the necessary experiences we have to go through in order to become our true selves. I believe in Astrology a crazy amount, and I’m no expert, but I am learning. And I believe She chose me to be a Leo, Leo, Aquarius, Scorpio for a reason. (Find your Natal Chart here, it will unlock so many secrets to your life. It very well may be exactly what you need to read in your life right now to start your enlightenment, http://astro.cafeastrology.com/natal.php. ) If you look up my signs you will learn a lot about me, which if you aren’t interested you don’t obviously have to but you’ll learn more about me than you could imagine. Here’s a video (https://youtu.be/ymmq1E37sJQ?list=PLGn9j5IRilElxuRGQz0Voy7JEHF9nQOqZ)  that literally is so scary spot on I laughed at Her because she has a humorous side I’m so serious. Anyway go look up your info wait lemme get this out first, most of us will be adults reading this…remember no one can tell you what to do but you. Others can influence your decision, but no one can MAKE you do anything. And if someone FORCES you to do something…drop that human out of your life, they have no place in it. That is what I did and look at me now. I listened to the woman in the #BOSS hat at Okeechobee, (she was on the security team not just some random) and holy shit did she remind me of my sister. I let her influence my decisions, and I reevaluated what I was doing with my nights and who I was spending it with. I will always have so much love for the people in my past, and I’m so grateful for all the lessons they have taught me, but some people just don’t have a place in my life anymore. I refuse to let anyone hold me back from pursuing my dreams. Please let these resonate, “BE FEARLESS IN THE PURSUIT OF WHAT SETS YOUR SOUL ON FIRE.” That is exactly what I am here doing, and I encourage you to do the same. That was my senior quote and I am realizing that She has guided me to do many things in my life (that She is still revealing it’s so dope) that have led me to exactly where I am, the happiest I have ever been while on this Earth. That quote was my senior quote, and at the time of choosing that quote I had so many others I was going to pick. (Thank you Universe and Margaret Grace for helping w the selection, YOU ARE MY PERSON. The Meredith to my Christina dude. More like my Froggies Windman to my F’real Pumpkin Cheesecake milkshake let’s be real here, omg I miss you my bff of how long…like 13 years lmao. I love you.) Can you believe I chose that one, and that it has fueled me to where I am today… Florida State University-the best school everrrrr, a working gal-just got hired to do what I love to do, spread positivity and write from the soul, and happy- something I have been striving for my whole life. Once you realize you are the only one in your own way you realize you can break the barricade and dance wild to the beat of your own journey. AHHH LIFE IS SO GOOD I’M SMILING WRITING THIS AHHHHH.

 On to another thing I am going to do with this blog, I have decided to take the initiative of #MAKINGFSUKINDAGAIN. Yes, boys and girls, or rather men and women since we should start to realize this is the beginning of our adult lives (let’s wake up and smell the roses people have your priorities right), and we need to start acting a little more like adults. I have taken it upon myself to start this trend and I won’t stop until FSU IS KIND AGAIN. And the best part is, once FSU is kind again, I’ll choose my next target audience (hello Mr. Solomon your class rocks and Advertising is definitely a part of my career path in the future. S/O to target audience, a term I learned in your class). But yes I have dreams of a world at peace filled with love and kindness and happy humans and pretty flowers and GOOD FUCKING MUSIC THANK GOODNESS. So how am I going to do this…? Lemme tell ya… I am going to pick up as many pieces of trash I see around campus hoping others see me and are inspired to do the same. I am going to spread the light I have within me everywhere and brighten others’ lives as much as humanly possible. Along with my light comes my positive vibes I believe myself to bring around, and if my positivity is bothering you, I hope you take a step back and realize POSITIVITY IS CAUSING YOU DISTRESS. CHANGE THAT.

 Anyways, I have a quick story and I hope you all listen up because you may be my next target (*insert Dracula laugh* harharhar) . I go to a school with a lot of frat boys and sorority gals. Greek life is huge here at FSU and that has many pros and many cons but that’s beside the point. Anyway, I don’t want my school to get in trouble so I won’t mention whatever group(?) these people are associated with, and I will be using different names. But pay attention to the first letters because I am a detail-oriented woman and you all will see that. ANYWAY story time, yesterday I went to a bar for Happy Hour (best day I love happy hour how you gonna be MAD at HAPPY hour lmk) and at HH I went to the clambox of a bar that FSU students will know exactly what bar I am talking about. At this bar a mean kid, let us call him AA because remember what I said earlier, this one’s even more specific but still so vague I love it..nevertheless, AA was A DOUUUUCHHHHEEEEEEE to me. We were at the bar and he would lower his glasses and say some rude shit. He fucking asked me if I was a prostitute like multiple times…. ME, LJ, a new woman of integrity, he asked me that. I was in a killer outfit too like it was honestly modest af and that bothers me even more because his comment wasn’t even relevant. Anyway, he was a douchebag stereotypical “frat boy” which has a negative connotation but wanna know why it has that connotation……. BECAUSE OF BOYS LIKE AA!!!!!!! So yeah he was so mean and so rude and here we go baby… Remember what I told you AA, you probably don’t because you black out every opportunity you get which is gross because you’re a senior with no goals and I’m not judging you I am spitting facts right now (Scorpio in me coming out oh boy) but yeah you need to WAKE.THE.FUCK.UP BOIIIIII because you will never get a job or a respectable woman in your life if you continue these habits. But anyway, do you remember what I told you, no?, okay I gotchu. I said these words right to your mean little face I said, “You’re fucking with the wrong girl.” And guess what everyone, I am a woman of my word so yaaaaaa AA, watch the fuck out who you’re fucking with because I’LL ROAST YOUR ASS IN MY NEW BLOG THAT’S GOING TO MAKE ME FAMOUS YAAA YEEEET BOIIII. And in all seriousness AA, I really do hope you wake up and change (omg Aquarius Rising LJ coming out [just googled Aquarius Rising Woman and found this on the link I put above “our personal destiny and soul function is ultimately related to the impulses toward progressive change, experimentation and innovative, creative thinking which reside in the collective psyche of your generation. You are a conduit for change, for awakening new thought.”] …. Holy shit like lmk if astrology isn’t real…kk wake up it is).  But seriously AA, awaken your soul my dude, you’re in my favorite frat, one I hope to be the first GDI gal to be Sweetheart for, and you’re giving my boys a bad name. Don’t black every time you go out, get happy drunk, and don’t be mean to women or anyone while we are at it, be niceeeee and pretty gals like me and all other gals who start with beauty from the inside will be attracted to you, we are the kind of girls you actually want to be with.

            So yeah, here we go, here is my blog, here is my soul on my sleeve, and I’m super excited to feature my friends and the stories I acquire on my journey, and I can’t wait to instill some positivity into the lives of the people around me and all the people who will see this because SHARESHARESHARE my friends!!!!! If you are my friend, or consider yourself my friend, or have spoken to me, or if I in any way have impacted your life, I am asking you please please share. I am ready to start my life, to put myself out there, and with your help I can. I plan to engulf everything on my path with the fire within me (FIRE SIGNSSSS WYAAAA) and I am ready to do that NOW. If not now….WHEN? Now that I have my attitude chosen, how I go about the next seconds/minutes/hours/days/months/years is what really matters. I am only 18 years of age, I am bound to make mistakes, hella mistakes, but if I’m starting at 18, where will I be at 19? I am ready to push my limits in success and respect my limits in life. That’s why I started this blog, so that it’s not a book just yet, so it won’t take as long to write (patience is a virtue which I am learning, but in the meantime, I’m not going to wait around when I can do something about my life). One of my new mottos is “Don’t complain about it if you aren’t doing anything about it.” Well Hi, I am Laurunce Rae (yupp no J we’ll get to that in another blog) Rosenthal and this is me doing something. I have confidence in myself and the people I have met on my journey, whether it be me just flashing you a smile or actually having touched your heart. Maybe I’ve improved your mood one day, or you were a victim of one of my random stranger conversations.  I am grateful for the people I have met and the places I have seen, and now I am ready to expand my horizons even more, see new lands meet new peeps. I hope you will join me on my journey. Spread the love my people and, of course, BE FEARLESS IN THE PURSUIT OF WHAT SETS YOUR SOUL ON FIRE.

Another thing before I end, Daddy, Mark Rosenthal, my huuuuummaaannnn. I adore you, you literally keep me going every.single.day. You are the funniest, most diligent, most resourceful, most reliable human in my life and I cannot wait to make you so so proud with what I do with my life. No one will ever top you my dude. NO ONE. I will never forget where I came from (peep the new back tattoo peeps, ROSENTHAL BABY… REMEMBER THAT NAME.) and I cannot wait to see where She leads me.

With so so so so much love,

Laurunce LJ Rosenthal ♌

[thetruthinlies]

( Flying at the speed of light, thoughts were spinning in my head. So many things were left unsaid, it’s hard to let you go. ) ( I just got a little bored, and wrote a little something about Mukuro's big brother Ian, and for my cute baby brother [lol, it sounds like a pun]. Another huge word splutter though, and I’m sure I forgot the main point. )

[ Word count: 1580 words ]

There was a curious thing that was considered by philosophers, by fools and sages, by the architects, even the scientists. Where logic had always come into clash with.

Then again, if logic is created by fellow human, what makes it any different? Aristotle had always said that human beings are social creations, this is only because they have a conscience, and that has pieces of unreasonable, indeterminable “facts”

If Merlin were to look with his magnified-lens that he had done as a hobby, even he would be in question as to what this is. Is it a feeling, something that is the reason of existence? Or is it something that serves as a hindrance, rendering you as a pathetic being.

Love.

When a child hears of this word, they always assume it has to do with physical contact with two older beings. The connection they have by means of fulfilling their physical attraction, generally “romantic”. When an adult hears it, he might be saying the same thing.

He, himself who was once a child so many times, repeating life over and over again, but with each time, falling into the dark of night, paraphrased love as something that was nothing more than a hindrance. Something that people think they need, but they do not. There is no need to fulfill “the void” because it will once more repeat, and the human soul would never be satisfied.

This being said, it almost made sense to why he thought so. For every instance he was chained by the threads of love with another person, within these simulations, within these lives he had lived, it ended with a guarantee of no survival. He couldn’t remember when was it a time where he had experienced love, and had not been slain later.

Short-lived.

That was how they describe the feelings of happiness. If that is the case, then why feel it to begin with? It is as if reaching Nirvana, only to realize another person has pushed you off, landing back into that miserable place.

What does a Seer of Heart view this as?

-o-

A seer is a clairvoyant person. A fortune-teller, the master of augury, effectively seeing through the things a “normal” person would not. Where opaque substances can be treated as something that is transparent. 

He had seen in one of those many simulations that his keeper loves to throw him into, that his friend is someone of that position. If he was someone who panicked about people getting to know him, he would’ve been terrified. Like a shrieking lamb, a scaredy cat, a dog who cannot face their master who they wronged against. A frightened child.

He’s probably seen eons worth of human emotion, the good, the bad, and the ugly. None of them would go out of the boy’s notice, for sure. This in comparison, put six past lives with every realm of hell as a child’s game.

This man sees through the exterior faces that people wear, the masks that everyone put on to secure their inner selves from being damaged, the one who makes a hole in the wall, piercing through. This was why he immediately found out Mukuro’s farce of an exterior. More than just hearing the heartbeats, and it wasn’t as though he was reading his mind, 

Did that mean he also pitied him? Looking at Mukuro as a lowly, broken and lonely being who needed someone who could snap the madness out of him. Maybe that was why he was looked on the brother standpoint. Mukuro was burdensome to him.

Well.. at least that was what the corpse would think. Assumptions.. assumptions.

-oo-

Read between the lines, of what’s (insert the f-word) up and everything’s alright. Even an idiot could tell there was something wrong with the expression the Seer, no Ian had. He pondered, questioned, worried, sinking deeper with every thought.

The human mind never ceases a thought, even if the person alive did not have any memories of the lives they lived before, it burdened them heavily. If thoughts were threads for a spindle, it would be a giant piece of cloth produced to show how thoughts constantly spun in people’s heads.

It wasn’t possible to never think. Even if it seems as you are not thinking, breathing alone is a decision made by the brain’s thought.

Ian’s knowledge was burying him alive. It gnawed at him. No matter how much he knew, it was not good enough to know the answer. More and more knowledge only brought question, more concern..

Maybe that was why they say ignorance is bliss. An irritating quote, but it seemed as though this fit the boy’s current state of mind.  The poor big brother of his probably couldn’t find the better choice of what he should do. Denying the roots that he was still a human, which would mean he would accept being the one who sees through all, unable to sit and create connections because it would interfere with carrying on his duty, keeping strong and perceptive.

Or was it better to succumb to human desire, lowering himself back to a weaker state that could be manipulated, hurt, maimed by the crutches of love.

“Emotions are scary, aren’t they, Mukuro?” the way he smiled, in effort of keeping the easy-going aura that had surrounded him for so long.. it was waning.  The falsehood that Mukuro didn’t bother picking at, because it kept Ian in a proper state of mind..

Almost like the smile and the misanthropy that Mukuro plasters to keep his sanity in check.

Ian was crying on the inside, he was bleeding, already harmed even though his knowledge exceeded any other human’s knowledge. Emotion was what kept a human to be a human, even the apathetic people had emotion, just lowered than a regular one. A psychotic man may not feel or comprehend it geniunely, but if he read a book, he’ll understand the way it goes. The process in it, while it may not strike the heart, it would make sense why it could strike another’s.

“You said it before too; they weigh you down” it was one of the first times that the blue haired man had ever seen a faltering expression on the Seer. He who always kept everything on the higher end of things.

It was irritating, teeth gritting to see even he fall. Even if Mukuro jested at him ever so often. 

“And you’re right. Kathy doesn’t.. she doesn’t deserve” if he looked enough, he would see Ian mouth out ‘me, a person like me’.  “It’s unfair isn’t it?” he questioned himself why was he so quiet, almost surprised by the sorrow that was evident, transparent, clear.

‘you hate me too, don’t you’

It wasn’t as though Ian had said that, Mukuro felt as though that was being implied. Clenching his fist, he raised it up. Ian’s glance shot up, with an expression unreadable.

Almost as if he was saying ‘even you think so..’

Though, as soon as it came down, it was unclenched, a tap on his head. Ian could’ve sworn that Mukuro looked frustrated, but the face he wore now was a troubled smile.

“Ortega, you’re overthinking”

His tone was a little higher than usual, like if he was caught a little in the bushes, and laughing at the same time.

“I’m flattered you take my word as serious as it could get, but..” now he was really laughing, moving his hand to Ian’s shoulder “you need to cease your insistent thoughts of being the only fool here”

‘maybe you were more unsuited for the realms of loneliness’

Ian glanced at him, a little questionable.

Mukuro though, continued “This is why she chose you. two sides of the same coin, two similar idiots.”

“You don’t want to witness her faltering, and she doesn’t want you to fall either. Those red herrings that you both seem to miss so often, I’ll smack to you, all day if I need to.” it was almost as if saying he was experimenting her conviction when he had Ian slain. A mistake, but an act he was willing to put up with, to reach a new conclusion.

Odd eh?

“Show her wonderful, as you share love” better than me, at least. 

It was Ian’s turn to smack him in the head, ruffling his rather flat hair, Mukuro tried swatting his hand away. 

“You know.. even if you have no idea what you could mean, it’s really great to have a brother like you”

“Breathren is a heavy word, Ortega”

Ian then laughed. Yeah.. that was definitely a better expression.

If Mukuro looked with the magnifying lens that Merlin possessed, he might just understand what the strong hold love truly has. Perhaps he really has mellowed down to such an extent, that he wanted to carry on this duty of a brother.

“Something you’re more than capable to carry, Mukuro”

Emotions, yes, were not the best to have, but it was a necessity to keep shards. A balance between the extremes, otherwise the human race would’ve ended eons ago.

He began to wonder.

Was there a possibility for the Seer to remain a Seer, but still be held in the loving arms of care?

He wanted to configure that, make a pavement for him to cross. It almost sounds benevolent. They never said a broken person cannot stretch their hand to help a plate that was breaking. And, that’s what brothers do.

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notes on "islands of the mind" by john gillis (ch. 7)

Ch. 7: "Worlds of Loss: Islands in the Nineteenth Century" 121: "It is difficult to imagine losing a mountain or a continent, but islands are forever going astray." "Today, despite the fact that the world is now mapped in the minutest detail, searches for "unknown" islands continue." 122: "Our obsession with getting on, with moving ahead, prompts us to draw up the bridges to our past. The measure of an "advanced" society is the degree to which it has left the past behind; modern maturity is equally dependent on the metaphor of growth, leaving behind a series of extinguished earlier selves. Yet precisely because the modern collective and individual sense of self is so reliant on distancing the past, both have become wholly dependent on tangible evidences of what has been lost to validate themselves. Never before has so much been memorialized, reconstructed, and preserved." "The story modern Western civilization has told itself about progress requires that it distance itself from the past in order to reassure itself of its forward movement. As Fritzsche puts it: "While nostalgia takes the past as its mournful subject, it holds it at arm's length. Nostalgia constitutes what it cannot possess and defines itself by its inability to approach its subject, a paradox that is the essence of nostalgia's melancholy." (quote from "Spectors of History: On Nostalgia, Exile, and modernity" by Peter Fritzsche, in American Historical Review, Dec. 2001) 123: "The modern sense of the passing of time depends on a series of bounded, discrete locations--home, school, workplace, retirement communities, cemeteries--which keep each age and era separate from another. In effect, the modern sense of self depends on the spatialization of the past, islanding it by keeping it neatly bounded and distant. Not all spaces are amenable to this function. Open, contiguous spaces do not readily maintain the aura of historicity. Urban life offers few refuges for the past. The period styles of suburbs offer only the illusion of tradition, propelling our quest for the bygone ever farther afield. Remote places seem so much better suited to the preservation of the past, and none better than islands, which have become, often despite themselves, a prime repository of pastness." "Community, something that modernity had torn apart, seems to have survived only on islands." "Once again islands were becoming symbols of something that had little to do with their own realities." "Indeed, over the course of the nineteenth century, the pace of change on most islands was as great, if not greater, than that in many parts of the mainlands. But this did not prevent them from being viewed as anachronisms, mired in the past, appearing as was the fate of the Hebrides, "as if in a rear-view mirror."" (reference here to The Western Isles Today by Judith Ennow, 1980) "Modern nostalgia is the product of the profound sense of historical rupture that came with the revolutions of the late eighteenth and early nineteenth centuries. At this critical moment, the past became a foreign country, all the more precious because it seemed so remote and inaccessible." 124: "Islands became important sites for the appreciation of the quaint and the primitive. If islands no longer provided a vision of the future, they were nevertheless ideal venues for time travel to bygone eras. They came to be associated with the infancy of mankind and with childhood itself. Reconfigured as places of origin, islands were no longer treated as gateways to the future but as access to a mythic past. Once the favored destination of male adventurers who left women and children at home, islands became the resort of families, identified with domestic pursuits and with home itself. What had once provided space for masculinist dreams of escape now nurtured fantasies of return to the womb." 125: "Mainlanders were intent on finding on islands peoples who were untouched by the rapid changes that they themselves were experiencing. Yet islands were anything but exempt from modernity's ceaseless creative/destructive

forces, arising first from commercial expansion and later from the industrial revolution." 126: "As genteel mainlanders came to be more frequent visitors to islands, the result was not a diminution but a magnification of differences between them and islanders. Even as physical isolation was being overcome, the illusion of insularity was being cultivated for the benefit of the newly developed tourist industry." 131: "Islands had come to be seen by mainlanders as living museums where what had been sacrificed to modernity elsewhere miraculously survived in a purer, more authentic form."

133: regarding the Hebrides: "Islanders had come to live in a time warp not of their own making. They saw themselves through the eyes of outsiders who were bent on preserving crofting as tradition no matter how recent its origins. In many instances it was the visitors who stood in the way of sensible changes, conserving outmoded ways that the islanders themselves would rather have turned their backs on."

136: regarding Inishbofen: "Islanders preferred canned food to fresh, ignoring the harvest of berries and shellfish that so delighted the tourists. For the people of Inishbofen "the industriousness of years past is now a symbol of poverty, humiliation." They told Tall that they would not eat mussels because it reminded them of famine times when shellfish was all that was to be had on the island." (reference here to The Island of the White Cow: Memories of an Irish Island by Deborah Tall, 1986)

138: "By the middle of the nineteenth century, Britain had lost nearly all the original wild places that the first generations of romantics had so glored in. ... Lacking wild lands, the British chose this moment to make the sea their wilderness. It was then that Englishmen began to return to the sea, not as an occupation, but as avocation. It became for them their last frontier, the place where, in small sailing boats, they would test themselves against the elements, proving their manhood to themselves and to the women waiting on shore. "England's only untamed wilderness, where men might still be small and alone in the vastness of Creation, was the sea," writes Raban. "To go to sea was to escape from the city and the machine." (reference here to two books by Jonathan Raban: Coasting (1986) and The Oxford Book of the Sea (1992))

138-139: "Though the sea offered the ultimate escape from stifling civilization, the great adventure for Victorian men seeking to prove their masculinity in an increasingly effeminized domesticated world, the island was a retreat where they could preserve something of their innocence in an otherwise cruel and unforgiving world. There were still plenty of Crusoes, men who viewed islands as their own private kingdoms and a projection of their own inflated egos, but there were also males like Pastor Wyss, the author of Swiss Family Robinson, for whom the island was the setting for family romance, where the instinct for adventure gave way to that yearning for security and comfort that was also a feature of the Victorian era. On land, time moved relentlessly forward, but on the island it moved backward to a more innocent age, toward the beginnings of the human species or to the childhood of the individual. As the fantasy of returning to the innocence of childhood became more powerful among middle-class men in the nineteenth century, the appeal of Crusoe's island gave way to that of Swiss Family Robinson and finally to that of Peter Pan. Ad as islands grew less valuable politically and economically, their reputation for happy domesticity grew proportionally. Islands became ever more associated with the kind of virtuous life that was becoming harder to come by on the mainlands. Occupying a place between the overcivilized land and the wildness of sea, islands were increasingly attractive to a Western middle class yearning for personal freedom but not at the expense of moral respectability. Islands came to be seen as the preeminent "happy Prelapsarian Place." (reference here to The Echafed Flood, or, The Romantic Iconograpjy of the Sea by W.H. Auden, 1950)

139: "By the twentieth century, islands ceased to be thought of as destinations and became places of return, fixed points where an increasingly mobile mainland urban population eager for seasonal respite could savor a sense of stability and continuity."

139-140: "Already in the nineteenth century, people on the mainland were experiencing the erasure of place produced by increased mobility and speed of communication. The resulting sense of rootlessness triggered the uniquely modern quest for place in a placeless world, for home in the vast, featureless landscapes of urban industrial society. The search was not just for residence but for that elusive sense of being at home in the world, as much a mental as a physical endeavor, more likely to be achieved at a distance in the absense of that which was called home. In a world of temporal and spatial movement, where for many there was no long a place to return to, home became a state of mind, "something to be taken along wherever one decamps."" (reference here to the Introduction to Migrants of Identity: Perceptions of Home in a World of Movement, eds. Nigel Rappaport and Andrew Dawson, 1998) (i would also add that the movement of populations & widespead dislocation is also related to and created by the needs of capital.)

140: ""Under conditions of modernity, place becomes increasingly phantasmagoric," writes Anthony Giddens. (reference here to The Consequences of Modernity by Anthony Giddens, 1990) Home became detached from residence, less a physical location than a mental construct, a think of dreams as well as memories, no less real even if it is rarely, sometimes never, actually inhabited."

"Over time the dream house and memory palace moved out, transferring ever farther afield to weekend and summer places. These became locations of "the lost origin and the future dream, both vanishing points where we imagine ourselves at peace, surrounded by comfort and harmony." (reference here to Sex and Real Estate: Why We Love Houses by Marjorie Garber, 2000) It provided easier to animate meaningful, habitable worlds at a distance, with the result that for those who can afford them, the dearest homeplaces are often those they visited only occasionally, sometimes never returned to, however frequently they are visited mentally. Island houses, rarely occupied year-round, were already becoming in the late nineteenth century the quintessential family places where generations, scattered throughout the mainlands, could share time and space, if only occasionally. In Amy Cross's view, the summer place is "not real estate, it is more a state of mind that can be packed and moved to any woods or seaside. And many of us travel through life with a memory of a perfect place waiting for our return." (reference here to The Summer House: A Tradition of Leisure by Amy Willard Cross, 1992)

141: "Modern maturity has been particularly demanding on men, requiring that they distance themselves from domestic, childish things, producing in them a yearning for childhood that has characterized middle-class male culture ever since. In the resulting quest for childhood lost, summer islands became the favored place for retrospection and recuperation. The isles allowed a brief sojourn in childishness that did not threaten the adulthood associated with mainland existence."

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How you can Develop Additional Meaningful Relationships

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Certain areas coming from CCDA documentations acquired through HealthVault off Meaningful Use-enabled uses are actually made use of for the objective of producing and also inquiring HealthVault Meaningful Use documents. The moment you've started routinely sending an email e-newsletter, look at posting out occasional physical e-newsletters, cards or small presents to present your admiration to your customers and calls.

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An Overview To Usual Redaction Errors.

Coming from Center English mistaken, to misconstrue, from Old Norse mistaka, to take in error: mis-, incorrectly; see mei-1 in the Appendix from Indo-European roots + taka, to have. That's not about our mistakes in life that determines who our experts are actually, this concerns the character that is actually created due to all of them, the wisdom that our company obtain off them and also the expertise that when our team perform make oversights our team are going to acquire beyond them as well as still stay a great life. . Slang), slip up (casual), misjudge, goof (laid-back), fall a clanger (casual), place your feet in this (casual), be vast from or even be off the spot I thought I had miscalculated, so I redid it. While your mistake might have influenced many other individuals, that's still approximately you to elbow most the after effects. Considering that of the higher amount from counterfeiting that was being actually driven at him, I ensured him that this was not usual; that the listing manager had perhaps produced an oversight. Nonetheless, many homeowners make a collection from mistakes when this concerns installing this type as well as acquiring from home windows and also several of these errors are actually likewise below. This are going to alarm the medical center or surgery to the process in question and they will certainly be able to guarantee that the exact same blunders to certainly not take place again. They sought it, discovered just what will make it much better the next opportunity, made the remodelings and kept practicing. If you are coming from a specialized history or certainly not, syntactic errors give a really bad perception and it performs not matter. . The 1st step in blunder proofing is actually to calculate the kind of mistake, or mistakes, that resulted in the issue. 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It is necessary to know the way that oversights can easily taking place agreements to make sure that your business is actually not become associated with agreements which could be made void or even voidable as a result of a blunder entering into the contract. BLUNDER 4: Too many photos as well as Flash computer animations- Pictures and animation make your internet site look attractive to the guests. If you have any thoughts with regards to where and how to use yellow pages uk jobs (perderopesooggi1.it), you can make contact with us at the web site. Spend some time to exercise the response to these 2 questions, as well as mention them to your manager when you state the error. I am actually describing business errors that were created by accident, whether it was actually something your staff carried out (or even didn't) carry out, or even it was actually one thing under your firm's obligation. Jenna was actually speaking with Pharrell Williams at the Golden Globes on Sunday when she suggested to inquire him about his election for the film Hidden Bodies. Most people photo identification fraud as something that occurs when an individual search your garbage can searching for bank card claims or exactly what have you. Utilizing words such as go here" or even find out more" in interior links is actually a big oversight given that the online search engine cannot comprehend just what the webpage being connected is all about. I have expanded to think that our team are actually all ideal merely the way our experts are actually which includes our errors. Amount of money errors are actually infamously surviving in individuals's minds, as well as usually they locate this complicated to forgive on their own or even others for oversights long past. For handling over a million package deals, packages, bags, pouches as well as various other things a year, these primary freight firms slip up under one per-cent from the moment. The necessary point in my view is actually not to affix the blame for an oversight on someone, yet instead to determine exactly what caused the mistake. When you slip up you can utilize the Sedona Strategy in order to help you discharge the negative psychological charge that associateds making a mistake. They aim to play the prey job, intend to seem ideal, as well as fully deny any engagement in creating the error. The ones that never discovered or even recognized their faux never ever produced this into the business field as well as never created a difference in their personal life, or the realm. If all you must recognize was certainly not available to you at the time you chose that made an outcome you were not looking for, you have at the very least found out one technique certainly not to accomplish something later on. James Joyce named them, gateways of breakthrough." Regardless of how large or little you perceive your mistake to become, once you realize that you have actually been incorrect; this just asks for modification, nothing at all else. As a professional in the POP Culture, the best interesting aspect of people can be summarized in one term: oversights. The only error that could genuinely injure you is preferring to not do anything just given that you are actually also scared to earn an oversight. If you may handle to prevent bring in any of these 5 oversights outlined above, you'll be properly installed to win back your ex lover partner's soul ... and rebuild a pleased, loving partnership that is going to stand up the examination of your time. However, some of the biggest causes our experts limit our own selves coming from new knowledges is because-- although we've all made and come through many from them-- we hate blunders. . Then there are the exclusive oversights that some folks carry all around for a lifetime; their filthy little bit of secrets. Yet our team performed certainly not accomplish just what our experts preferred, and also significant mistakes were created in attempting to do this. We will certainly obtain to the base from this, and also I will take whatever activity is actually required A business owner will in fact have to function more challenging due to the lack from a company identity. Anybody that possesses ever before had the courage to walk out in to the planet and carry out one thing recognizes there are actually only pair of sort of errors: ones our experts can recoup off and also ones our team can easily certainly not recuperate off. To locate the best options to oversights when setting up marble floor tiles mentioned in this particular post, you can do so right here. As well as without fail, ONE HUNDRED% from the moment, I created the examination costs back in renegotiations with the homeowner. It is consistently smart to figure out as well as rectify the mistakes right before the last represent the year are made. The details errors we will certainly check out within this article are actually: They don't correctly put together their Gig, They say they'll blog about everything, They over assurance as well as under deliver, They don't write the very best they can, and also They just think they're earning money $4. Recognize that everyone which effectively travels a gratifying occupation road creates errors at one time or even yet another.

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MANIFEST THE VISION!

The beginning of a new year is an opportunity to redefine yourself and your life. We often use the beginning of the year as a time of reflection and planning. This past weekend I was invited to a Vision Board party by a dear friend who also happens to be the most fabulous hostess!   She had 12 amazing women over to her home for an evening full of fabulous food, cocktails, laughter, great conversation and vision planning. Our question was simple, what do you want for yourself in the New Year?  We were surrounded by magazines, poster board, glue and other embellishments to help carve out our individual visions and then we presented our boards to the group.  I absolutely love being in a room full of goal driven and ambitious women. There is nothing more inspiring to me then to be in the presence of like-minded women sharing stories.  Our stories are powerful and have the ability to inspire and heal others if we choose to tell them with vulnerability, openness and honesty.  I love being amongst women who are confident enough to strip themselves down the truth about where they are in life, who they are and who they want to be. 

I’m a firm believer in the power of visualization, the power of words and the idea of manifesting one’s own destiny.  I’ve seen the power of words through my years participating in the “One Word Challenge”.    I knew what I wanted my vision board to contain.  I spoke in a previous blog about the “One Word Challenge”.   My word for 2017 was Heal and I chose to make that word the central theme of my vision board.  The definition of heal is “to  Become sound or healthy again; Alleviate (a person's distress or anguish); Correct or put right; To make sound or whole; To cause to be overcome; mend; To restore to original purity or integrity; To return to a sound state”.   This definition completely encompassed what I wanted for my life and I began to look for photos, quotes and images that perfectly described how I wanted “healing” in every area of my life.  Not every area of my life was broken but they needed some mending, restoring or just some TLC.  I chose quotes about starting over, healing a broken heart, entrepreneurship and sisterhood. I included images of the relationships I cherish the most, my friends, my family and my children.  I included my websites and my upcoming book because I desire growth as a songwriter and author this year. I was ready to learn more this year.  I added butterflies to signify the stage of my life that I felt I was in right now.  I feel like I’m emerging from the cocoon I was in last year and I’m ready to re-emerge this year, bold, beautiful and flying high.  White flowers decorated my board to signify healing, a heart stitched back together to signify the mending that I was currently going through.  Images claiming financial freedom and creating multiple streams of income were also included on my vision board.  One of the ladies in our group even bought mirrors for each of us to glue to our boards so when we looked at our vision boards daily, we saw our reflections surrounded by our plans.   I wanted to accomplish so much this year; a healthier lifestyle, a more profitable business, the desire to create art that I loved, stronger friendships, deeper family bonds and a greater love of self and clear purpose.    The process of choosing items for my vision board also forced me to really take a more in depth look at the goals I was hoping to achieve in the New Year. It was a perfect, self-reflecting exercise for me.

As I sat on the floor in my friend’s house, surrounded by women who openly spoke about their goals and dreams I was inspired by each of them.  I was in a room full of such amazing and diverse women.  Each of them focused on becoming better, growing, learning more and becoming more fulfilled in their personal and professional lives but also recognizing the need to take better care of themselves and to take the time to devote to self-care.   We were so different, yet we had some of the same issues, problems, concerns, dreams and goals.   It was confirmation for me that this website and upcoming book perfectly describes the spaces so many  women are in right now…we are juggling it all, we are wearing so many hats yet we do not want to be defined by just one of our many roles.   We are truly the “Sum of Many Things”.    Entrepreneurs from diverse backgrounds who were ready to grow their business to the next level, stay at home moms who were determined to make time for themselves in addition to tending to their families,  divorced women who were beginning the beautiful journey of starting over in a brand new space in life, soon to be divorced women who were facing the idea of starting this year in a different place and reconciling what that meant for them and their new family structure,  single women who were focused on themselves while still believing in love.  Working mothers, stay at home mothers, single mothers, all wanting to provide the absolute best lives and opportunities for their children.   I was surrounded by women who simply wanted more out of life and I found commonality amongst our diversity.   Women who wanted to enjoy their lives to the fullest and become versions of their best selves.  These women were truly awe inspiring and I was so happy to be in their presence and listen to the stories, their dreams and the goals they had.  I found myself excited for them…excited for us.  In this safe space of sisterhood, were some extraordinary women who were ready for the “GLOW UP”!   We agreed to follow-up with one another in a few months to see how far we had come from this chilly evening in January.   One of the beautiful things about sisterhood is agreeing to hold one another accountable as we strive to reach individual goals yet encouraging one another as they strive to reach theirs. 

It’s been a few days since that evening and each and every morning I get up and look at my vision staring right back at me.  Each day I wake up with a plan and a goal and I put one foot in front of the other and attempt to make progress towards them.  I’ve spent so many mornings focused on my problems and my struggles but my vision board reminds me that something better is coming.   My future is brighter than my present. I just have to do the work.   It’s the best way to start my day and my journey with a positive mindset and a spirit of gratitude. 

What’s your vision for your life this year? What do you want to achieve or accomplish? When was the last time you wrote it down and put it somewhere you can see each and every day?  Whether it’s creating a vision board, choosing a word, or just finding a quote to stick on your mirror, find something to look at every day to remind you of your goals, hopes, and dreams.  Visualize it, write it down, look at it daily, speak positive affirmations to yourself and watch it manifest…there is power in the words we speak over our lives.