#Adam Angst

[redr0sewrites]

If Only... (Adam angst fic pt 2)

🥀Pt 2 to THIS post!!!

ive been in such a HUGE lute and adam phase its insane

🥀Cw: angst, major character death, hallucinations, dreaming, overall mourning

you weren't sure how long you had been aimlessly wandering the streets of heaven. the sky had long since lost its luster and the streets were barren and unoccupied. the moon glimmered above you, illuminating the familiar path ahead. each of your steps step echoed against the smooth, pearly marble floor. the air was brisk, and a soft thum of anticipation filled the air, brimming with something yet to come. each step forward was a grim reminder of the bleak reality that you so desperately needed to face. it had been nealry a week since the news, and the hole in your heart seemed to writhe and tear even deeper as the time passed. life was excruciating, just getting out of bed was just another task to complete. mornings without his arm resting over top of you, his stubble ticking you face as he pressed slow, sleepy kisses to your forhead to wake you. afternoons without him crashing at your apartment, bringing you a new cd of his favorite album and sharing a bag of chips and greasy pizza as you both watch shitty romcoms in the comfort of your home. evenings that weren't spent wrapped up in his arms, his soft wings engulfing you both as he tickled you, making you snort and wheeze with laughter until your sides ached and a smile was plastered across your face. you felt as though you had lost half of yourself, as though there was a gaping hole in your life that adam used to fill. 

the streets of heaven were rarely quiet during the day, but after nightfall, there were few who would leave the safety and comfort of their home to traverse the city. who in their right mind would walk around on a cold, lonely night when they could be at home, wrapped up in their lovers' wings? thats what you had told adam the first time he'd suggested it, but he had insisted that you came with him on an evening stroll. at first you were apprehensive, but you soon realized how beautiful the city was at night. ever since, it had become a shared tradition between the two of you to partake inn long walks late at night, with no responsibilities and no one to disturb you. you were alone together, and in a sense, it was the only time for you both to truly be yourselves. on these walks, you were no longer talking to the first man, nor gods favoured creation, but to adam, just adam. heavens' judgemental gaze prevented you both from being truly free during the day, but when you were alone with eachother, it was like a breath of fresh air after being suffocated for years.

mist furled across the edges of your vision, and water droplets formed on the back of your neck as you continued walking. a rush of cold wind made you shiver, curling into yourself. a sliver of gold catches your eye, and you whirl around only to be met with a wall of fog. apprehension soaked into your skin as you took a tentative step towards where you had seen the sliver of gold. you saw it again, a little flurry that shimmered just out of reach. a feather. you knew who that feather belonged to, it just had to be him. it had to. you took a step forward, then another, and then another, until you were running towards the feather. it always seemed just out of reach, and the fog only slowed you down and made your movements sluggish. the wind whistles in you ear, yet you barely seem to be moving at all. you could hear the rhythmic thump of your own heart, and you raced forward. the fog tightened around you, as though trying to pull you back, yet you push on. suddenly, a silhouette begins to form up ahead. your heart skips a beat when you recognize the looming wings and curved, horned mask. 

"adam!" your shout is swallowed by the fog around you, yet you refuse to give up. your joints are aching and you're panting for breath, yet you scream his name like theres no tomorrow. "adam!" your voice is shrill with anticipation, and the noises surrounding you reach a deafening climax. the fog tightens so much you can barely breath, your head is spinning yet you call out one last time. the world spins, and in the span of a few unclimatic seconds, everything dissipates. you gasp for breath, free of the excruciating fog, and the figure before you appears clear as day. you can see your surroundings, and it's quiet enough to hear a pin drop. "adam...?" you whisper, not daring to believe your own eyes. "is it really- i thought you were-" you struggle to form any words, and take a step forward. it has to be him, you think, internally begging for this to be real. for him to be alive, that his death was all just an accident, a wrong report, anything at all. soon, your face to face with the mask that you've memorized, each sharp feature and sculpted horn etched into your mind from when adam had mearly been courting you. his mouth opens, yet closes almost instantly, as though even he can't think of what to say. you reach out to cup his cheek with your left hand, tears welling in your eyes as you slowly remove the mask. fear coils in the pit of your stomach, yet dissolves twice as fast as it arrived. never before had you been happier to see his face- the rugged stubble and shimmering eyes you had grown to love. the grief and rage and pain you had felt in the past week reached a boiling point, and you let out a whimper as he cracked a genuine smile.

"adam..?" you asked, voice cracking as you fought back the inevitable onslaught of tears that was welling up inside you. you reach out to cup his cheek with your other hand and he smiles at you, soft and loving. he rarely smiled so gently, even around you, but you cherished the slightly crooked, toothy grin with all your heart. "i'm here, doll. i'm home now." tears cascade down your face as you pull him in close. sobs erupt from the very core of your soul as you lurch forward, melting against him. "i missed you- i missed you so much!" your body shivers as he swallows you in an embrace. adam's golden wings seem to glow even brighter than usual as they envelop the two of you, yet he gently pulls your hands away from his face and presses a kiss to your fingers. "i know, i know. i love you, toots." he whispered, pulling away from your hands to press a gentle kiss to your lips. his eye hold a strange, uncharacteristic sadness that startles you. "i know", he repeats, his amber eyes focusing on you. "and because of that, i need you to wake up". confusion floods your body as you try to process his words, but the rushing in your ears is returning. "wha- what the fuck are you talking about? adam?" your voice grows higher and higher as the world around you begins to blur. the feeling of his hands in yours is slowly slipping away, like sand between your fingers. adam doesn't respond, still smiling sadly at you. "adam? ADAM?" 

you wake with a start, chest heaving as sweat dripped down your face. your blankets were tangled around your body, and the weight of your dream causes a dry sob to escape past your lips. tears bloom and soon become unstoppable as you gasp for breath. the feeling of his warmth against you was still so fresh in your mind, so close and yet so far. as you continue to sob, you lament on everything that had happened in the past week. just two weeks ago you had been deeply in love, enjoying the presence of your lover, your equal. now he was gone, the only thing that remained were his scattered belongings left around your shared home that you refused to remove, and the overwhelming dreams of him that plagued you every night. if only he had never gone to the extermination that day, if only, if only...

I DID NOT KNOW HOW TO END THIS PT IM SORRRYYYY😭 im prob gonna make a happy ending pt 3 so stay tuned!!!! ALSO PLEASE PLEASE PLEEEEEASEEEEE SEND IN MORE LUTE REQUESTS I LOVE HER SM!!

[hells-sins]

guys im feeling silly and whimsical and suddenly my writers block is gone

so guess what

Adam angst beneath the cut :3 (EPISODE 8 SPOILERS)

NSFW themes in the beginning but be ready to cry or smth idk i dont write angst usually

Don't imagine...

- Waiting at home for Adam to come back from the Extermination.

- Eagerly awaiting part two of your morning quicky, biting your lip as the fantasies of his pride-fueled fucks and excitement for the cuddles when you're exhausted after fill your mind.

- Laying in bed with your favorite candles lit and the skimpiest lingerie you could find in Heaven.

- Noon rolling around. Nothing. 1pm. 2pm.

- 3pm. He's always been home before now.

- A knock at the door. Odd. Adam wouldn't knock at his own house.

- Your heart sinking, then telling yourself there's no way. He's Adam, after all.

- Looking out the peephole, seeing Lute in blood stained clothes, her mask gone. Along with... her arm??

- Tears welling in your eyes as you realize, praying it's a cruel joke.

- Grabbing your robe and quickly tying it around your waist, swinging the door open with tears streaming down your cheeks.

- Begging her softly, "Don't say it," your voice barely even working.

- Lute looking down, her expression falling.

- Lute haking her head, your entire world falling apart in the blink of a tearful eye.

-Falling to your knees, sobbing into your hands as she stands there, unsure what to say.

Okay I'm done you can enjoy your day now :3

[adam-fuck-her-stan-wife]

Today’s gonna be one of the bad ones. I can’t stop thinking about that fucking bathroom. I’m all alone right now and I’m scared and I’m out of drugs. I wish I wasn’t such a fucking loser. I need a hug.

[lilacwriter07]

I need a mental breakdown moment for Adam, where he laughs so hard because he is just breaking down . Scratching his face as he pulls his hair, everyone looks horrified as the first man is just sufficating in his mad laughter .

Lucifer can barely hold the man, as he screams for him to stop .

[jiyuukaze]

New spoilers of my next Fancomic of Hazbin hotel's fanfic, Hope in Hell by @chiconisroc

[walkingcontradiction42]

Sänger Adam Angst gay. That's it that's the post.

[bloodyboi]

[thechaoticscenejester]

Stop. Why do I kin him!!! 😭😭

♡♡♡

[anika010397]

So lang hier keine Sirenen erklingen, keine Soldaten durch unsere Fenster springen, keine Nachbarn nachts über Grenzen fliehen und unsere Kinder nicht mit Splittern von Granaten spielen, ist das meilenweit weg, geht uns das gar nichts an.

Denn das Fernsehen spricht wie immer nicht von diesem Land.

Und wie jedes Jahr, am Sylvesterabend, trinken wir auf unser Leben unterm Tellerrand.

[letras2wi]

ADAM ANGST - "Die Lösung für deine Probleme" Lyrics

ADAM ANGST – “Die Lösung für deine Probleme” Lyrics Lyrics, Letra Grand Hotel van Cleef Dieses Kind vor dem Reichstag, es zetert und schreit. Sollte es nicht in der Schule sein? Für das Ende der Erde hab ich keine Zeit. Und wir schicken euch Panzer und gleich hinterher den Exportschlager G36-Gewehr. Dass ihr uns nur bitte keinen Quatsch damit macht. Bleibt fair. Und nur für den Fall, dass in der…

[redr0sewrites]

If it wouldn’t be too much to ask can we get an angst Adam x reader?

Where reader is a winner waiting in heaven for Adam to return from extermination only for him to never show and being told by Emily or lute directly he died.

Please and thank you!

NONNIE WHY WOULD U DO THIS TO MEEEEEEEE <\\3

🥀Pt 2 HERE

🥀Cw: major character death, angst

the soft tapping of your foot against the marble floors echoed rhythmically throughout your shared home. shared with your lover of course, who had just flown off to this year's extermination. pacing up and down the kitchen floor, worries were seeping into your mind. despite your lover's reassurance, you still had the nagging feeling that something was amiss. you knew that Adam would be up against some of hells greatest powers, and while he had confidently assured you that the battle would be easy, you were still uncertain.

"dont worry toots, i'll be fiiiiine. i always am, eh? i'm THE Adam, i fucking rock! trust me babe, this fight will be over in minutes~" your lover leaned in to kiss your cheek before donning his helmet and taking off into the sky. as you watched him fly away, you tried to calm the worries soaring in your chest. Adam was right, he would be fine. he always was... right?

you replayed the scene in your mind again and again, trying to force yourself to remain calm. everything would be fine, Adam would come home and tackle you in a hug, then demand that you listen to him rant for the next few hours about each of his kills. suddenly, the rustle of wings and a loud thump outside of your door caught your attention. you ran towards your front door, excitement filling your body as relief curled into your soul. he was fine, of course he was fine! you tore open the door, expecting your lover's bright eyes and boastful expression to greet you. but it wasn't Adam at the door. it was Lute, looking bedraggled and worse for wear.

"Lute? what the fuck happened to your arm?!" you exclaim, motioning for her to come inside. Lute just shakes her head, a miserable look on her usually stern face. "Lute... where is Adam?" you try to remain calm as she just stares at you, pain and pity in her gaze. "he... in the battle, there were some... complications. Adam didn't make it," she whispered, handing you a bloody halo. ice cold shock flooded through you, soon melting into a burning pain coiled in your chest. you felt as though your insides were trying to break free, and you took the halo from her with shaky hands.

"where... where is his body," you whisper, voice low and sharp. Lute turned, refusing to even look at you. "we lost it, we had to retreat quickly and didn't have time to retrieve it..." your heart broke at her remorseful tone, and tears began to stream down your face. "i'm sorry y/n. there was nothing i could do-" you raised a hand to shush her, taking a deep breath in an attempt to calm yourself. your lovers cold halo was still heavy in your hand, just like the heavy ache in your heart.

"its not your fault, Lute. i just- i need some alone time to process- i don't know." you sigh, defeated and exhausted. "i think we all do," she whispered, looking at you again. then, Lute nodded understandingly, and flew off without another word. for a second you stood there, looking out at the beautiful skies of heaven. people always claimed that there were never bad days in heaven, but you felt as though your very soul was splitting in half. pain and remorse and anger seemed to be filling the empty pit in your heart, the fresh wound of Adam's loss already stung enough. you slam your door shut, throwing the halo across the ground and collapsing into your shared bed- now just yours. there was nothing you could do, and tears overcame you as the sound of sobbing echoed throughout your lonely home.

AUGHHHHHJH this hurts. i might make a pt2 where adam returns as a sinner and reunites with reader (only if yall want ofc) bc i HATe unhappy endings 😭

[feuersturm97]

A quick sketch of this scene maybe I'm going to do a finished drawing tomorrow of it xD

[adam-fuck-her-stan-wife]

What the hell do I tell that kid?… I don’t want him losing anyone else. I didn’t ask to be a fucking apprentice. I didn’t ask to survive that fucking trap.

[ambrosiagoldfish]

I've never sent a request before, but I'm fiending for more adam, like anything, anything at all

Benefit of the doubt

Adam x 3rd Spouse! Reader

Viewer discretion is advised

Warnings: Angst(?), Not exactly fluff at the end but it gets better, typical Adam TW’s, reader low-key high-key has a complex about being loved, this is set way before the show, and Gn! Reader. (Also Y/n isn’t used, which also surprised me, the author, LMAO)

Part 2 Part 3 Part 4

Request Box: Open

Word count: 1760

A/N: Hi! Thanks for the request! I haven’t had a chance to write something that was originally my own idea in a while, so this was very refreshing! I’ve had this idea since I’ve watched the show so I hope you enjoy it!

I’m entirely up for making a small series from this oneshot, but I would need to know y’all’s opinion on it! (So don’t feel scared to let me know if you want some more of this idea in my Request box/the replies on this post!!)

Also Adam may be slightly OOC but please just chalk it up to him not yet getting his ego’s dick sucked 24/7

Anyways, I hope you all enjoy, let me know if you do!

Proofread but of course could have left mistakes!

You’ve existed for almost all of human existence, Almost.

You were the 4th being to be created during the time of Eden. But unlike the other 3, you weren’t human. In fact, you technically never lived before. An honestly hopeless existence, yet it was so beautiful in every way. But for what purpose? Well…

You were created shortly after Eve ate the apple, before she and eventually Adam committed the first act of sin that caused evil to latch onto humanity like a leech.

The reason for your existence was simple. To be Adam’s new spouse, except for when after he died. From the very moment Eve bit the fruit of temptation, it was already decided she would hold no place in heaven. Adam was given mercy due to him not possessing any knowledge of the fruit Eve had shared with him, he trusted her wholeheartedly. Which is exactly why heaven gave him mercy… no, pity would be a better choice of words.

Upon your creation you learned immediately of the happenings before your existence. About Lilith and Eve, and about Lucifer

And so, after Adam and Eve were casted away from the Garden, they continued to live their lives, fostering the existence of mankind for the rest of time. And when they eventually died, Adam was given pity while Eve was thrown to the wayside, the vast unknown.

You thought it was finally your time to experience existence with the one you loved, the one you were made for. Of course you never would know life as he did but surely your life never-after life could be just as meaningful as his.

How excited you were, how completely enamored by the thought of it. But there was a problem with that, Adam had grown into a new person, he was meant to of course, he was human. But he had grown selfish, abhorrent… insecure.

You understood why, to be betrayed by not one but two of his wives for the same person. You couldn’t possibly imagine what he could be feeling. Before you were to meet your future husband, Sera informed you that he had asked for a mask, and once on, he has refused to take it off.

That didn’t bother you, it’s irrelevant to your love for him. You've only heard descriptions of his features. Short Brown hair, gold eyes, bushy eyebrows, some scruff on his chin. All in all, he sounded perfectly fine, ordinary even. But even then it’s his choice to wear the mask, so you’ll respect it.

Finally, the time he arrived in heaven, and when Sera finally introduced you, his new spouse, the one to whom would be by his side for the rest of forever.

He rejected you outright.

“What?” Your breath hitched as you stuttered over the word, the sharp inhale of your lungs through your mouth flicked through the air.

Sera looked just as shocked as you but she quickly regained her composure “What is the meaning of this Adam?”

“If you think I’m going to let my life get fucked over by another one of your “gifts” well, you’ve got another thing coming!” He crossed his arms and shook his head defyingly. “I’ve already learned my lesson with those last 2 bitches.”

“Adam I’m sorry that happened to you but I would never-“ almost like lightning his finger shot to your mouth, shushing you.

“Save it, Sweetcheeks, I really don’t care what you have to say, so just stay there and look pretty, k?” His hand fell and grabbed the sides of your face, squishing your cheeks together, his LED mask flashing a sharp smile.

You saddeningly looked down at the clouds below you.

“Adam!” Sera’s voice sounded through the air, still soft but firm, she continued, placing a hand on your shoulder, “Divine judgment allowed you to be the first human soul in heaven, so I gave you the benefit of the doubt. I expect you to give your new spouse that same grace.”

Slowly your eyes looked up at Sera with a soft smile. Adam only groaned “Ugh, Fine but don’t be fuxking annoying, capiche?” You nod your head quickly.

“Very good, glad we have it settled.” Sera gives a quick smile, “now, I have some business to take care of so I’ll leave you two alone to get to know one another” With that, Sera flew away leaving the both of you alone.

The silence was thick in the air, the only sound being the occasional wind breeze blowing past. The sunlight creeps in through the clouds painting an orange sky above you both. In every sense of the word, it was perfect.

It was almost funny. You had waited so long to finally meet him, your true love, the one you were made for. All the things you dreamed about, the laughs you’d have together, the warm embrace of the person who you loved. But now… you didn’t know what to say…

“I’m… happy to finally meet you.” Your voice is quiet, almost non-audible. “I’ve been waiting for you since… well, forever…”

He doesn’t respond. He seems to be transfixed on something below you both. You train your eyes on whatever he’s watching only to see the dark cavernous abyss below you. Finally he breaks his silence.

“The fuck is that?” He asked pointing down, a sound of genuine intrigue hidden behind his abrasive voice

“That’s hell?” You stated confused “where would-be sinners will go to be punished, didnt you k-“ you suddenly realized that perhaps Adam really didn’t know what hell was. It was only created relatively recently, after Eve and Him ate the apple, of course he wouldn’t know. “it’s also where Lucifer-“

“Don’t fucking say his name.” Adam spoke, his voice rough in his speech. LED mask putting a harsh frown on his face. “Let’s get one thing straight M”Kay babe, if you’re my “new spouse” that’s something you should remember.” The “new spouse” was said with a tone clearly meant to mock you.

“Sorry…”

“Ugh, It’s fine, just don’t do it again.” He groaned before a wicked smile crept onto his mask “Sooo, that means he’s going to be stuck with all the wasteful beings of existence, HA fuxkin’ hilarious. Guess that makes them the losers and us the Winners!”

His laugh filled the air, the sound was like music to your ears, sure maybe it wasn’t really what you’d hoped he’d fine funny, but you loved it all the same but eventually his laugh died down

Silence again… in admits of all of it you suddenly was sparked with a thought “oh!” Adam looked confused at the random exclamation. “I had almost forgotten… I brought you something, as a welcome gift or was it a nice to meet you gift? Both? Eh, it doesn’t matter but the point is-“ you suddenly snap your fingers.

Golden light began shining, the light seemed like liquid hot magma as it moved and molded slowly into a shape. Light seemed to be overlapping and churning into itself, forming your desired outcome. With one final snap of your fingers, the gleaming gold liquid took hold, and quickly hardened to a solid.

The object that had formed quickly fell down, landing in your arms with a light thud.

“I’m still learning this creation stuff, so I’m sorry if it’s not perfect but-“ you hold out the object in your arms as an invitation to grab it “I learned from Sera that you liked to play guitar when you were alive, so I thought you might like to have one here…”

Adam looked at the instrument in your hands. The base color was gold, the neck was pearly white with gold strings. To be honest it looked more like a harp then anything, like if a guitar and a harp had a baby.

Silence again. Did he not like it? Did he hate it? You go to pull it back to you and apologize when suddenly it’s ripped out from your hands.

“Holyshit, this is sick as Fuck!” Adam immediately started playing some rifts on the new guitar. The sound wasn’t what you were expecting but you guess Sera was right about his talent with the instrument. The whole time his mask had a wide and sharp smile as he mimicked guitar sounds with his voice, the occasional laugh leaving his mouth.

“I’m really glad you like it” you say, a sigh of relief leaving your body.

Adam looked at you, one you missed. He saw how relieved you were, how nice you were being. No person who supposedly loved him ever gifted him something, well, one other did. Someone he trusted and loved more than everyone, anyone. But look how that ended, with them being removed from the garden, away from an eternity of happiness until he died. All from someone giving him what he thought was nothing but love, a gift.

But he could see that this was different, you were different. When Eve gave him the apple, she didn’t explain what it was or why she wanted him to eat it, even when he asked her she didn’t explain. But with you, you had not only given him something you knew he liked but also expressed the reason behind it. Yes, you were different, even Adam could see it.

“Anyways, thanks for the axe, I guess…” Adam for the first time was stunned, but quickly he continued “What was the thing that Sera chick said about me and “divine judgment” or whatever the fuck? That she gave me the “benefit of the doubt…”

You were a bit confused but continued listening, “I guess I should at least try to give you a chance, since you got me this sick ass guitar an’ shit.” Your face lit up, you about began to speak before you were, once again, shushed “B-B-But-” his finger tapped your lips with each repeated syllable ”-only a chance. If you betray me like those last 2 bitches then you’re done, got it?”

To say you were overjoyed would be an understatement, a smile quickly plastered across your face as you quickly nodded your head

“Alright good, so uh, what do ya say about showing me the best places to get a bite to eat around here, I could really go for some ribs right about now.”

“ I’d… love to, thank you Adam”

“Yeah don’t mention it Sweetcheeks” Adam quickly wrapped his arm around your shoulder and you two began walking.

Maybe you will get your eternity of happiness.you can only pray you do.

[avocadoraisin]

hits the Saw characters with my shrink ray