#ARGH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[memser]

oh NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[etanesnil]

甄嬛传 (a.k.a. Empresses in the Palace, Legend of Zhen Huan) spoilers below (even though it’s been over a decade since it came out idk who’s watching)

bruh episode 29/30 😭😭😭😭 i’m cryinggggg nooooooooooooooo

when 甄嬛 woke up and the first thing she asked was “is my baby okay?” bro i burst into tears ahhhhhh

and the episode before, where she was already not feeling well but still insisted on going to see 华妃 i had a feeling grgrggrgrgrgggg

and then when she was kneeling in the courtyard, her servant and 眉姐姐 holding her up, still reciting the words argh my heart!!! it hurt!!! i was also begging 华妃 to let it go like damn >:(

i honestly hope 华妃 gets what she deserves 🙏🙏🙏 (though it does pain me to see her finally fall out of the emperor’s favor…) her apology to the emperor i feel like was genuine, where she didn’t actually mean to hurt the baby. but she did 😭😭😭😭😭😭 like you get what you had coming but also seeing you hurting doesn’t make me happy you know?

[mittensmorgul]

I just watched 6.11 (again) (for probably the 50th time) (I love this episode) but I’ve also succumbed to the Con Crud™ and have no brain for meta. So here have the rambling notes I typed at Lizbob instead. (mostly for my own personal reference when I get to 11.17 and 12.09 in this run through the rewatch, because I’ve probably posted every thought listed below the cut before, but my brain is currently awash in too many germs to just go find all those posts atm)

sorry 6.11 is on and I am heavily distracted :P Dean's dead. Again.

elizabethrobertajones oops :D compare and contrast to 11x17/12x09?

mittensmorgul nooooooooooooooo I've already got one long meta about Cas open in a tab that I'm trying to write.

elizabethrobertajones oops :D

mittensmorgul (or trying not to write, since I'm supposed to be writing my pinefest fic which is still stuck)

elizabethrobertajones I do think 6x11 is in the pro-dependency part of the show like woah there's almost no consequences >.> argh you've had a busy week you can't be blamed for that :P

mittensmorgul but it's the key to understanding how cosmic consequences work, with Dean's lessons about not killing the little girl

elizabethrobertajones yeah

mittensmorgul Back in s6, Death was more interested in teaching Dean a lesson about what Cas was up to than worrying about Sam and Dean's hijinks. Cas's business was much more urgent and... cosmic... in consequences

elizabethrobertajones A+ on the reapers and Dean side of the story D- on "this is a bad idea don't use them to fix Sammy" thing :P but I love it anyway and at this part of the show it's not a problem and they don't make it one, it's just a gesture that happens and the problems with the wall later get so messy but Dean is never blamed? It goes to Cas for BREAKING it, not really Dean for putting it in him >.>

mittensmorgul yeah, they never really pin all of that back on Dean. But then again, Sam is glad to have his soul back... once he has his soul back. Given the choice, I think he would (if he had his soul) choose to take it back and go through all that again I mean, it eventually WAS his choice in 6.22. He didn't have to reintegrate all those parts within himself, you know? He could've given up. His "other parts" did give him that alternative.

mittensmorgul So even if Dean and Death had shoved it back against his will, he did choose it for himself in the end.

mittensmorgul And to some degree, I think Sam running around soulless really was an abomination in the cosmic sort of way. I think it was offensive to Death, too. Against the natural order.

elizabethrobertajones yeah and Sam was dangerous on a cosmic level he knows all sorts of magic and secrets that could seriously fuck up the world if soulless Sam decided everyone was weak and would do better if he subjugated them ... I mean he could BMoL the whole thing

mittensmorgul yep. and he left behind a lot of "collateral damage" on his hunts... and that was while he'd been trying to be a good hunter. When he wasn't trying to be a good hunter, he was trying to murder Bobby in cold blood...

mittensmorgul And even when he WAS trying, he let Dean get turned by a vampire to have an "in" into that vamp nest, and basically using Dean, Ben, and Lisa as bait in 6.01, and lying about the Alphas to Dean, etc.

elizabethrobertajones Yeeeah In 6x01 I am convinced it's Sam's car that Dean has to stop for at the junction before he sees the claw marks in the garden

mittensmorgul And 6.09... oohhhhh

mittensmorgul Dean's letting the armed robbery guy suffer for an extra minute or two. He doesn't make heart attack guy suffer, but he's at least nice to the dude

mittensmorgul Yeah, and Tessa keeps leveling up the difficulty factor until Dean balks, and then has to kill a woman who died because of his refusal to do his job... And "fails" the test trying to save her husband and a busload of innocent people...

elizabethrobertajones she's an excellent teacher

mittensmorgul yep

elizabethrobertajones Tessa is one of the best characters on the show... I just love her so much she's neutral and powerful and never gives Dean the time of day

elizabethrobertajones I am a massive Dean fan but my favourite characters are the ones that completely stump/terrify him Cas... Death... Tessa... Cain...

mittensmorgul yeah

elizabethrobertajones (aaron :P)

mittensmorgul And yet each of them has a weird soft spot for him

elizabethrobertajones yeah

mittensmorgul Because he put the ring back on, learned the lesson, and went back and killed the little girl, and fixed the natural order... he won the bet.

elizabethrobertajones :D not that Death would just tell him :P mittensmorgul yeah

I don't think he can just outright explain that sorta stuff it would violate the natural order to do so