#ANYWAYS. THIS WAS A RAMBLE BC I'M BORED AT WORK LOL

[atopvisenyashill]

#rightful#asoiaf#excellent analysis i am applauding your efforts#no but really i think the point is that no one is the  heir#it's all down to who enough people accept as the person in charge#and i can see them just saying screw the iron throne that was just some targaryen nonsense at the end of Everything 

lmao that is exactly my point in much less words. after the deaths of daenerys and aegon vi (which, no matter how you fall regarding their morality/heroism and legitimacy, it doesn’t seem likely either of them are living to the epilogue endgame. even putting the show aside, fans of both of them have been predicting their deaths since like, the 90s) and the deaths of all the legimtiate Baratheons, there is no clear heir to the Iron Throne left alive. You either have to acclaim a bastard line or a female line and even those are super far off houses and relations. 

edric storm seems like the natural heir for the stormlands but there’s a difference between making a castle raised bastard a Lord Paramount because there’s literally no heirs left and making that bastard the KING. and while some of the decisions regarding how the targs marry into other houses make no sense bc grrm doesn’t understand women’s roles in medieval era as well as he thinks he does (lol) i do think there’s a doylist reason for the targ women to constantly marry into nothingburger houses like the penroses or the plumms, as well as Distinguished But Not Super Powerful houses like Tarth or Velaryon and its to make it so there’s no obvious heir and the lords are all forced to reckon with the last 300 years of extreme bloodshed and their culpability in maintaining the systems that have frequently destroyed their houses, marched their sons off to useless wars, and eaten their daughters alive. its not about whose grandpa sat on that spikey chair, it’s about who is willing to step up and lead.

i have decided to break down all the wild potential female line claimants to the iron throne thru the targaryen line because why not let’s go:

obviously there's our "modern" targaryen daughters: daenerys, rhaella, shaera, and rhaelle. that one is easy to explain in part because it's mostly incest, lol. it goes like so (mind you, i'm cutting out male siblings that don't inherit for now) -

Aegon V + Betha Blackwood -> Jaehaerys II, Shaera, Rhaelle (also Duncan & Daeron)

Jaehaerys II + Shaera -> Aerys + Rhaella -> Daenerys

Rhaelle + Ormund Baratheon -> Steffon Baratheon. Steffon + Cassandra Eastermont = Robert, Stannis, and Renly.

so rhaella & shaera's lines are the same as their brothers, and rhaelle is the grandmother of the baratheon kings, which means like the targaryen main line, all of their lines will be dead or illegitimate as well (rip myrcella, tommen, shireen, aegon vi, and daenerys tho).

that leads you up from aegon v to maekar’s daughters, and since we are at a time period where no main character was alive, i made a little graphic to explain easier. let's start with daeron ii (since he's maekar's father anyway) and work backwards:

there’s several ladies in this grouping: rhae, daella, aelora, daenora, and vaella. we know ‘recently’ a targaryen married the evenstar, and timeline wise, it can only be Rhae or Daella, likely to selwyn’s grandfather. which means claimant number one is selwyn & brienne as king & princess of dragonstone claimant. hell yeah.

there’s two “dead end” branches next. maekar has a granddaughter, vaella, but given she’s described as “simple” it’s likely she never married. daeron & myriah, meanwhile, had no daughters but their son rhaegel had two, aelora and daenora. aelora married her brother aelor but aelora killed herself several years after aelor died (it’s a wild story but not relevant). no children. daenora married into maekar’s line tho, to aerion brightflame and had a son, maegor targaryen, who was passed over for aegon v. we do not know if he married or had kids bc it’s not listed and it’s not like there’s a cadet targaryen house anywhere so if he did marry, probably all daughters.

even further back is aegon the unworthy who had one daughter: daenerys. yes that’s right, our second claimant for king and princess of dragonstone is doran and arianne martell (and then, haha, elia and aegon vi AGAIN, love nobility family trees). and then technically, because the martells are normal and don’t die off every two generations, probably a few offshoot martell cousins. and a reminder that minus mysterious maegor, we have no living male line descendants potentially hanging around either. but back to the targ line.

viserys ii had naerys who married aegon iv so their line is the same. aegon iii, his brother, had three daughters.

daena has daemon blackfyre and given that he was legitimized, you could make the argument that the blackfyres have a claim lmao, so any female line daemon kids could be fair game. then you have elaena targaryen who had several legitimate children: viserys plumm, & robin, laena, jocelyn, and joy penrose. that’s right my esteemed readers our third claimant for king and prince of dragonstone is phillip & dennis plumm!

*loud boos bc they’re not even a great house or a house that used to be kings, they’re just some random nobles in the westerlands* shut up i’m not finished!!

through elaena, the only targ pulling her weight out here to populate the family tree, we have our fourth claimant as well: Old Penrose of the Parchments for King on the Iron Throne!

there’s no reason laena, jocelyn, and joy did not marry but we have no info on them so just know if they married some random landed knight, we also have some random dude walking around the stormlands who could be the next king of westeros.

then we get JAEHAERYS but to keep with ignoring men in this post, i entitled it “alyssa’s line.”

baby visenya, who was a stillbirth & jaehaera, who died before having children, are the two “dead end” lines from the dance. before them is viserys, who had helaena but helaena’s heirs are aegon ii’s heirs.

now, jaehaerys had daenerys, alyssa, saera, viserra, daella, and gael. daenerys died before having children as did viserra. gael & saera had no legitimate children. that leaves alyssa and daella. daella had aemma arryn, who married back into the targ family tree to have rhaenyra. alyssa also married back into the family tree and had three sons, viserys, daemon, and aegon. aegon died as a baby, we know viserys, but daemon had two daughters with laena velaryon: baela and rhaena. laena herself is also a distant claimant through the female line - aemon, jaehaerys’ first born son, and jocelyn baratheon had rhaenys, the queen that never was, who had laena. through baela we get our fifth claimant for king of westeros, the literal toddler montereys velaryon! rhaena is kinda tricky - she had no children in her first marriage, and six daughters in her second to garmund hightower but he was the third son and his oldest brother had six kids so it’s not likely the hightower line descends from rhaena however it would be really funny if it did so for the sake of making myself laugh i give you our sixth claimant to the seat of house targaryen, king leyton hightower and prince of dragonstone baelor breakwind. this puts a lot of people in the running tbh, bc leyton has a million kids. his daughters marry and have kids with an ambrose, a tyrell, a cupps, and a redwyne (and a mormont but jorah and lynesse have no children).

(it would require all the hightower male heirs to die [not likely, there’s three of them] AND mad maid malora as well to get to alerie but king and queen mace and alerie tyrell with willas as prince of dragonstone is so fucking funny to me. hey daeron how olenna’s ass taste now.)

before jaehaerys, we have aenys, who had rhaena the boss bitch & alysanne. alysanne’s line is jaehaerys’ obviously, and rhaena married her brother aegon the uncrowned. they had two girls, aerea and rhaella, but neither lived to see adulthood. maegor never had living kids, which brings us back to aegon, who had only sons, and visenya and rhaenys, who married their brother.

i actually had a point to this which is that there is just no one sitting on that fucking chair at the ending because there is no one left alive to sit on it that the lords would choose. they’re not crowning a penrose or a plumm and they’re certainly not crowning my girls arianne and brienne however hilarious i think that would be. i think “westeros breaks up along weird new borders” makes sense just due to that alone - the north will push for independence (maybe parts of the riverlands will want to stick with the north), dorne isn’t likely to be thrilled about some random ass king, the iron islands is…the iron islands, so the only kingdoms that might actually want to stick together are the stormlands, the reach, the crownlands, the vale, and the westerlands, but also, all of these bitches hate each other right now & a lot of them are gonna bite it so who knows.

anyways tldr female line targaryen claimants include these wild choices for King & Heir:

Selwyn and Brienne of Tarth

Doran and Arianne Nymeros Martell of Dorne

Any female line Blackfyres

Phillip and Dennis Plumm of the Westerlands (so minor we don’t even know where their seat is lmao)

Old Penrose of the Parchments

Montereys Velaryon of Driftmark

Leyton and Baelor Hightower of Oldtown

Through Leyton, who has a whopping 10 children, we have House Ambrose, Cupps, Redwyne, and of course, the fat flower himself, House Tyrell as claimants eight thru like, fifty.

[cubezart]

Hi!! You totally don't know me at all, I'm a complete stranger >:) And I'd love to hear about Jim's mental world!!

HI ok so erm this is mostly just gonna be a mess of rambles and vague ideas smushed together barely in order but

(old/outdated concept sketch, but it's a good start)

for starters, the prime issue(s) to help resolve in his mental world (or this version at least) is jim's fear of burdening his friends and family, and his resistance to reaching out for help, as much as he really needs it. it doesn't get too deep into his trauma, it's just giving jim the push he needs to seek out help again

after jim's recent divorce with bettie, he's been trying to give his family "some space to process" ...which didn't take long to sink back into old self isolation habits. he's been putting his all into his job to repress and distract from everything else going on with him, and it doesn't seem like it'll work for very much longer

first area in his mind is a boring + extremely tiny office room, the other cubicles are all empty and open except for jim's, which has a big metal door attached to the entrance. you can try and talk to him or ask him things, but it won't get you much . he insists he's happier in there really !! its so nice and safe hes fine :) its ok :)

when asked why he's locked in, he'll insist it's for his own safety, saying some vague stuff while the clairvoyance hints become even more obvious. when you use clairvoyance on him, his POV shows the cubicle door and everywhere around it surrounded by nightmares clawing and staring at him from the other side. (something something these are all just his own perception of things and he's really not in danger)

afterwards, his dialogue tree gets pretty short and limited, leaving raz to explore !! there's a few doors you can interact with, one being just a simple archetype-required door with a little collectible or somethin. the other is an old n dusty storage closet filled with memory vaults piling up to the ceiling. you can't really interact with any of those individually, (maybe some raz line along the lines of "i can't punch through all those :( ") but there's one or two real ones that just seem to have completely mundane and normal memories inside. weird! cuz with cpstd n trauma memory loss/repression, it can repress a lot more than what's necessary

there's one last door to try, leading out into the next phase ! raz says goodbye to jim, and jim happily waves back as the door shuts n locks behind raz, and the hallway distorts and extends, distancing raz away too :( sorta like the effect in the pn2 office construct !! im taking a lot of inspo from that world tbh heehe except for the obvious yknow. dental stuff

the next phase is kind of a messy stub for now, still sorting n planning out everything in my head lol but it's called Jim's Judgement

it centers more around jim's trauma and Issues TM and a lot of it is more vague concepts than any real gameplay ideas for the more dark story elements bc i don't want raz to have to see that and like to think after raz gets him a head start, he gets into actual professional Psychonauts therapy (and for my own silly oc/canon interaction fun, its sasha and milla assigned to help him. perhaps. maybe. they almost assigned oleander but he yelled too much and scared him away /hj) ANYWAY!!

all that being said i honestly have 0 ideas how to tone shit down for raz and im still trying to plan out the smaller in-game per se variation on it so i will simply. wait to talk about it. there's a lot of cool symbolism and motifs i prommy i swear </3 but the main "boss fight" final moment thing surrounds his whole paranoia of being a horrible person who others only tolerate + he constantly has to "make up for it" by putting everything and everyone Before him. i really wanna end it back in the small office space with jim having the key on his desk this whole time, making it literally In His Hands to get himself out. he just needed the support! he's definitely scared and slow, but he opens the door and steps out of his cubicle. the room grows a little bit. its a start

i was gonna ramble more about the darker version of the second phase but this post is already gettin Long and kinda incoherent i think so ermm. ill split it off into a second post probably if anyones interested in hearing more . i hope this all made sense lol i have too many thoughts about him to keep together honestly

[rebelcracker-s]

What's up with your descendants rewrite?

How does it differ from canon?

Thank you so much for sending in this ask so I can ramble, and I am so sorry because you have just opened a massive can of worms.

The original Descendants films have been lacking to me for a while. Especially in the context of Rise of Red, which has such a strong storyline and a very well-rounded protagonist (and a not-so-canon queer ship) at its core while the original trilogy does not. I love Mal, but she's so boring as a protagonist. As is Ben. Maybe I just need to read the books to see how they're fleshed out bc I love Melissa de la Cruz's work for the franchise lol.

ANYWAYS I mostly want to rewrite the OG trilogy into a new canon that's interesting to me. Also more queer rep because if conservatives don't shit their pants you didn't do a good enough job :D

So yeah, I'm basically trying to take everything that bugs me about the original trilogy and rewrite it. Like why would Belle, the most intelligent and insightful Dinsey princess, allow everything happening in the Isle of the Lost to continue? She's too sympathetic to let suffering happen and too smart to be ignorant to it. Why does Mal have better chemistry with a random side character than with the guy she canonically marries? Why is there so much misogyny in the trilogy, from Mal stealing Audrey's boyfriend (however awful Ben and Audrey's relationship was) to Mal getting married before she left high school? And so on.

I know this is really vague, but I do want to leave the main twists of the plotline a secret because! can't spill the whole plot before it's written! I think I'll do a series of oneshots bc longfics are too daunting. they let me go bit by bit :3

UNFORTUNATELY I'm in the throes of writer's block, so I haven't written anything for this au. However questions like these are really helpful in getting me to think about it :3 so thank you for asking!

[seokjinsonlyone]

hai bestie!

let’s feed into some delusional, shall we?

what do you think the members would be like if they hung out with armys individually on an off day? if that were you, how do u think u would feel? :}

babe... u had me at delusional <33333 let's DO IT

i think joon would be sooooo cool about it like he loves meeting new people and doing things and bc he knows you're a fan it really would be like hanging out with an old friend like you'd probably meet up around noon hit up a brunch spot chat over eggs and coffee and then ya know i don't think you'd end up at a museum bc that's his interest and he loves it soooo much that he would not be focusing on you so i think he'd do something more neutral like a bike ride or something and then sit and talk under a tree at some point get some ice cream or something and just walk around and talk and then get dinner like really the whole day would just be eating and talking tbh bc he the type that got something to say about everything and tbh i do too <333 so that'd be my ideal day we'd 100% be besties by the end of it and i'd probably be in love with him or something or maybe not if our core principles are diametrically opposed but bffs fo sho

hanging out with seokjin would NOT be an all day affair unless you convinced him to play games with you or let you watch him play games which would be hard to do he'd probably say it was boring for you and that y'all should do something more exciting and so i think if you was to hang out with seokjin you could like do a cooking class with him like he'd get chef baek or one of his other celeb chef friends to teach him a recipe and y'all could cook together and then eat and drink together it'd be cute bc he'd be rambling the whole time bc he get nervous like mouf moving a mile a minute talking nonsense until he gets comfortable with u and then his mouf would be moving two miles a minute either way i think it'd be really fun like you know he silly and got all the jokes and he'd be so caring worrying over you while you chopping telling you to be careful bc you the one that pay his bills it's true he just wants you to be safe so you can continue cutting his checks <\3

i have no idea what hanging out with yoongi would look like like what are his interests besides music LOL OH HE LIKES SPORTS but i'm not bout to sit and watch a game with him like i'm only willing to go so far for a man i mean if it was like an in person one with him maybe that'd be cool but i'd probably annoy him by asking the rules like don't get me wrong i know the basics of basketball bc of my dad and brother but all the fouls and this and that idk how that works SO THAT'S AN IDEA but tbh i'd probably just be drinks like it'd be fun to drink with him won't get drunk bc then i'd just be sleepy but have a enough so that my head gets that floaty feeling yes i'd be all rowdy and i know yoongi is good for conversation like suchwita a hit fr it'd be something lowkey like that drinks and food and he got that kinda dry sense of humor and he opinionated just like me my twin flame fr i wanna have some whiskey with him now

do i have to spend only a day with hobi? i can't marry him?? this has nothing to do with anything but i would marry hobi even if he didn't love me like i would be in a loveless marriage with him bc you know even if he didn't love me he would still care about me like we may not sleep in the same bed but he would still cook me breakfast in the morning we may not go on dates but we would still hang out and probably like watch tv together some nights we may not kiss but i know he'd give the best hugs when i wanted or need it and you may say why not just be his friend then and the answer is bc i'm toxic just bc he not mine doesn't mean i want him to be anyone else's 🥰 and you know i'm not sure what circumstances would lead to him marrying someone he doesn't love but i know he wouldn't cheat on me like ion think he got it in him BUT ANYWAY BACK ON TOPIC LOL i wanna go shopping with hobi so bad like not even necessarily for myself like even if i don't plan on buying anything or relying on him to pick up the check i just wanna walk into a fancy louis v store or prada store and be serviced like tbh i just wanna live the rich life with him for a day bc one thing about hobi is he is BOUJEE LOL like he is one of the most humble down to earth people ever but he obviously takes advantage of his wealth and i can't blame him for it bc i would too so i just wanna be rich and catered alongside him skskskssl i wanna go with him to one of them boujee restaurants and get a plate that got 3 ounces of food sitting in the middle of it wit some sauce circling it that cost like $40 and then we'll be in the middle of the joint cutting up bc hobi loud and then you get me riled up and i'm loud and all the other stuffy people gonna be annoyed that we rich and happy yeah <3

jimin <333 my babycakes my bias wrecker the current object of my affections i think as shown by his most recent lives that he’s good with us as long as he’s using his hands but at that same time he’s most likely to go along with whatever you wanted to do like frfr tbh thinking back looking at the data i’m like 87% sure that jimin has some kind of humiliation kink but that is NOT what we’re talking about so um anyway fortunately for him i like crafts so we’d probably build a couple lego sets together like i’d make him spring for them expensive ones like he gon spend some time with me that day mhm we gon be sitting there looking at the instructions with squinted eyes tryna figure out which part go where yessirrrr it’d be really fun and you know how our relationship with jimin is like we gon make sure each other is hydrated and fed so lots of snacks and stuff and he’d probably order a dinner in too and it’d just be a real nice meet cute situation the room would be filled with giggles

taehyung is so trusting that this man would let you into his home like if you’re army and you’ve been vetted by the company and allowed to spend some time with him you not gonna do nothing bad to him in his mind so he definitely talking you back to the crib like i can see him letting you in and introducing you to tannie and of course tannie’s gonna look at you like you’re something he stepped in and then walk away and tae gonna lie and say he like you even tho you know he doesn’t then he’s just gonna hand you a headset and walk you to his pc room and start playing some game and you’re gonna be like 🎧🧑‍💻👁️👄👁️ bc it’s gon be something you’re either bad at or never played before and you gonna be playing AGAINST him bc he not gon let you mess up his rank and then you’re gonna be yelling bc omg how could he just shoot you like that when you trying to figure out your controls like he’s soooo dirty for that and once he’s had his phone beating you y’all are gonna end up having a nice lil conversation about why you like bts and he gon hit up your bias (if it ain’t him) and force you to talk to him it’ll be embarrassing and then somehow y’all gonna end up like watching music videos and dance practices and dear lord don’t let you be handy with the footwork or good with the lyrics bc he’s gonna get so hyped up he’s gonna record you and dance and sing with you and just know that by the end of the day you finna end up in the group chat

it’d be a real classic time with jk like you’re gonna start off at a bbq restaurant gorging yourselves on samgyeopsal and galbi or whatever kinda meat he’s in the mood for and either beer or soju probably both tbh like y’all definitely leaving the establishment at least a lil inebriated and then y’all are headed straight for a noraebang room bc one thing about jk is he love a karaoke session like i feel like he’ll start off with some nice lil ballads so he can show off as if you don’t know that he’s one of this generation’s best vocalists and you just gonna sit there in awe for a bit hearing his voice so close in person and then me personally i can show off a bit too and so i’d do that but then also one thing about us is we looove to get hyped so it’d transform from nice lil slow songs to like pop kpop and rap anthems us jumping up and down around the room getting hyped and after a couple hours we gon be too tired to keep it going but the vibes gon be too good to end the night there and jungkook gon be like OJO i gotta feed bam and boom you ending up at his house too meeting the dog this one’s considerably nicer than tannie a lil weary of you bc you too chummy wit his daddy but at least you won’t feel like a street rat in comparison anyway so y’all would probably end up playing with bam he will have worked off whatever y’all ate at the beginning and order some chicken and get ramen going on the stove and then y’all will spend the rest of the night scrolling through tiktok

all in all good days me thinks 🥰

[sopebubbles]

Let me tell you something about me, I hate almost all the smut stories I’ve read so far I just think the moment the characters start all their personalities disappear because is all about sex and even use the same dialogues in all of the smut parts but reading the last chapter of LW was amazing, I could totally see that you made it about the characters experiencing mc’s first heat that just about sex and doing smut, I don’t know if I make sense

Anyways what I think I’m trying to say is that I read ff like I would read a book, and not just to be y/n so I really enjoy your story telling style and your ideas thank you for writing

A/n

I’m the same anon I told you I don’t like ABO ff and now smut so thanks for taking me out of my confort reading zone I guess lol

A/n2

As much as I love little pack, I’m patiently waiting for some Tae m/c moment and for him to tell her his story

I cannot tell you how much this ask means to me. I definitely agree with you about smut. I'm not big on it. I barely ever read it and if i do it's bc its in a story i love. I find sex, whether in writing or irl, to be tedious and boring most of the time, particularly if you do it often. (Jungkook was wrong and not having sex. No one wants to have sex seven days a week unless they arent having it. There i said it.) Anywho, i said early on that i wouldn't include smut in this story if i didnt think it served the plot, so I'm glad you thought it did that.

I ultimately decided it would be good to show in this chapter for several reasons. One was so that Yoongi could demonstrate his sincerity and establish trust with the mc while also showing how deeply he wants to be close and connect with her. Second was so that she could, as Hoseok suggested, stop seeing her body as an enemy but as something she could cope with. And third was to give hobi a little bit of a sexual awakening.

An interesting bit of commentary that i wanted to share with you all came from beastie. When she read the scene with hobi and yoongi she said it seemed like it wasn't really about them but about her, which is partially true. They are both using her as a proxy since neither one of them can have her in the way they want yet, even if Hobi is only just realizing that he wants that.

I think the important thing with something like this is that for sex to show character, it has to foster intimacy. I mean, that's basically just the requirement for good sex period.

Sorry for rambling on so long. I'm really pleased that you've enjoyed a/b/o and smut because of me. That's very touching. Thank you so much for reading. 💕

Ps i promise tae is coming within the next two chapters. Im working on it 😅

[melodygatesauthor]

Hi cutie <3 how are you doing?

idk why I'm here im kinda just bored and tryna distract myself ig so hi <3

tell me a cool thing you did today/plan on doing!!!!!!

I'm watching MK with my brother bc he's never watched it and I guess got tired of all my nonsense rambles and wanted to understand so <33

I MISS THEM SO MUCH. I MISS OSCAR :(

I miss Jakeeeeeeeeeeeee. Your Jake AIs have made me realise how much of a Jake girl I am. Like while I feel like I understand Marc a lot more, I'd 100000% be head over heels for Jake before anyone else (yes. even Steven.) I just hngggghgnghgn I LOOOOVEEE HIMMMM

anyway :D

-Clem

Clemmm

Hi bb <3

I'm about to go to bed, I worked ALL day, but I drew Blue while I was at work so I'll probably post this on @melodymakesart tomorrow if I can get over the self consciousness lol.

Jake crept up on me. I didn't think he was gonna be my number 1, I always thought it would be Steven, but literally over time he snuck up behind me and...and...

well you know, and now we're in love.

HE'S SO HOT FOR WHAT

I do plan on finishing a Blue Jones request tomorrow so that will be nice to get that off my plate!

Thanks for checking in bb, I need to do an MK rewatch hehe.

[whmp]

in case you're just here for the good stuff, i'll be tagging my personal ramblings as #whmpersonal so you can avoid em BUT this is tangentially related to the game project i'm working on, so stick around i guess? tl;dr: i'll probably make a more coherent post where I ask ppl for help (especially artists). also, i'll be more attentive and answer your asks faster, hopefully. : )

anyway, after a bit of a "review" of my creative process (and i guess my uhh way of living in general?) i've noticed that it's a huge clusterfuck. and that it has been since i was a kid. without some external pressure or an imposed structure (like deadlines, parents or strongly worded emails) i just sort of relied on random surges of productivity to carry me through life. on one hand, it's kinda fun: most of the time i'm not doing anything valuable and then all of a sudden i condense weeks worth of work into several sleepless days during which i feel like An Immortal Unstoppable God. lighting bolts shoot from my fingertips, my eyes glow in the dark, and my caffeine-to-blood volume ratio is hovering around 1.

unfortunately, it's not really sustainable. the "not doing anything valuable" stage that takes up most of my time is not me just chilling. it's me freaking the fuck out about not doing anything despite wanting to and finding myself just. not able to. not to mention that some things just need minor, but constant maintenance - at best i'd just forget about them and face the consequences later on. at worst i'd be acutely aware of them while procrastinating, clueless as to what's wrong with me.

couple that with a couple other unhealthy habits, a microscopic attention span and wow, i fit like all the criteria for adhd. i gotta admit i was super sceptical at first when doing any research, since, well. how the fuck am i even supposed to gain any unbiased insight into this. anyway, i spent a stupid amount of money on an official diagnosis (seriously why is this not covered by insurance gsygx), it took a million meetings and tests and i get a piece of paper that says i have add and deserve some medication.

this has also made me realize that i'm spread out super thin when it comes to projects. i love every single one of them, but im going to have to be a bit more realistic in terms of what can remain in "when it's done" limbo and what needs a bit of a push. the whump game is unique in that it's not just me who wants this to eventually get released. so! what this means is that it needs a proper, project structure. not a .txt on my desktop where i keep a backlog of missing features. but must important of all, it needs ~*people*~. this is the first time i took a step back and estimated how much time everything would take me and yeahhhh i was being very optimistic when i said "playable build in 2023" lol. i've been hesitant to ask for help bc 1. i'm stubborn : ) 2. im bad at coordinating stuff 3. i can't pay ppl - like seriously, there is one person making a model for me (if you're reading this sorry i didn't ask if you want a tag but this is just a personal post where i keep yapping) and it's looking so clean and professional,,, you gotta sell this as an asset.

HOWEVER im getting past the mentality of "i gotta do as much as i can by myself". and also taking meds so that im able to focus on tasks (both gamedev-related and others) and actually pay attention to what im doing. which is great news for development! and answering asks! ill be making a dev post where i tag all the ppl and will also ask for help.

that's it. im on a train rn and bored out of my mind so this is why this post exists, sorry. anyway check out this screenshot of a moment in clone high that i relate to deeply.

[berylgrace]

boring uni rambling below (me talking about sensitivity readers, identity, and other stuff)

one thing i love about my degree is the opportunites i have to academically critique and pick at pjo - the assignment i'm currently working on is about sensitivity readers (my topic choice), so i included reference to riordan's now deleted blog post from 2020 about piper, feathers and all of that controversy, which is super important to remember and i think an interesting case study into meaning well, but causing harm. he did say he would use sensitivity readers nowadays if he was writing it, but too little too late, yk?

anyway it's an interesting topic to read into in general. my assignment also has me talking about like - in that case, who is allowed to write what? so it's a lot of like, authors/actors being forced to out themselves bc of the heavy policing, and that just makes me INSANE

like. i don't talk about my sexuality. in fact i don't even think about it. i refuse to label myself bc i don't want or need to, nothing about me is concrete and i don't like wasting energy agonising. i barely even use umbrella terms like queer bc i don't want to invite questions or claim anything. and the thought that i could be publicly criticised for that is so??? like god forbid a character expresses realistic complex feelings about their identity and their life without the author themself being all of those things?

that's why a lot of my stuff is about the value of a sensitivity reader PLUS good faith writing. idk what it's like to be transgender but as i have so many people in my life that are that i'm close to, i could write a good faith interpretation based on what i know and yk, having empathy and an imagination. and then, for good measure, have a trans person look over it! and not to sanitise it, but to make sure nothing i'm doing is harmful, and that anything seemingly negative has a justification, a narrative reason, etc. it's not about perfection, which people who are against sensitivity readers don't seem to get

i think saying that X group can't write about Y group is just way too othering. do ur research, have your sensitivity readers, but erring too far on the side of caution just emphasises this stupid idea that we're fundamentally different. our experiences might be but our humanity isn't.

idk anyway that's enough lol

[fatuismooches]

Hello smooches, its been a while. I hope that you are doing well (also pls don't push urself too hard) 🙏 sorry for disappearing (again) and not answering ur question since i'm taking the past few weeks to recuperate from my illness, and now i feel a lot better! The doctors said that i can finally go back home around mid-April to early May after 6 more examinations (i really want to go back home, i'm dead bored staying in this glass room 💀 bcs i can't do anything besides watching doctors and nurses going back and forth, reading fics, watch yt videos and play games on my phone)

Okay, now back to ur question about "have i watch the theory about Capitano being the Bloodstained Knight" and the answer is yes, i watched and read a LOT of that theory around the internet. Its really fascinating! Also, there are some theories that Capitano is Imunlaukr from Sal Vindagnyr (iirc its from Dragonspine?) One of the founding clans of Mondstadt. And then there's "Menogias (the Geo Yaksa) = Capitano" Theory too. There are a lot of theories about him still going around to this day 😂 and i just consume all of it

Also //leaks\\

have u seen some Capitano crumbs on Mika's character story going around lately? When he saw Capitano, even with that helmet of his, it is described that Capitano have "eerily dark blue eyes that 'glows' with an uncanny aura". His EYES literally "GLOWS" 😶 at this point, is he even a human now?? 😭 mans got that "glow in the dark" eyes. That is REALLY cool but also very scary.

Just imagine u were walking in Snezhnaya's forest at night trying to find some wood for ur kitchen fuel and then u accidentally came across this man, looking straight into ur soul with his glowing dark blue eyes 💀💀

I think i'll have a massive brainrot over this newfound info about him omg u give me a small 🤏 crumb about him, i'll go feral and unable to sleep at night and will thinking about him non-stop for WEEKS 😭 (i think i understand why my siblings wanted me to stop playing Genshin until i fully recover lol 😅)

Anyways, i really hope u have a very nice day and don't forget to take care of yourself smooches 🛐💞 i can't wait to see more of ur works and random rambles with other anons and users!

-🥝

HI MY LOVE!!

I’m so glad to see you in my messages again💕🙏 And don’t even worry about it, I’m very happy you’re doing better and don’t push yourself either☺️☺️

Hehe I should have known you watched it, you are literally the Capitano connoisseur 😅!! I never heard of those over two theories until now, I read a bit up on them and I would have never thought of that… I still like the Bloodstained Knight one the best. It sounds the most possible to me…

*Mika Character story leaks below (it’s just one detail abt Capitano tho😭)

I actually didn’t know until you told me😭😭 I’m surprised no one is really talking about it BECAUSE IT’S LITERALLY AMAZING???!! CAPITANO CRUMB HELLOOO? I’m so glad we know his eye color now, it’s only a little piece of info but I still devoured it🙏 I genuinely cannot wait for an official art/cutscene with the glowing eyes, he’ll look so majestic! And tbh, I’m not sure, I think he may be human but with an extended lifespan? Either way he’s so…😍😍 But yes you’re so right I’d be panicking so hard if I just saw him staring at me like that.

But ahem… imagine those eerie eyes become soft when he looks at you 🥺 I can’t help but think about his normally narrowed analyzing eyes that usually scares everyone become gentle with you. At first he didn’t even know he did that until you pointed it out 💞 He gets embarrassed about the things he does unconsciously around you 💞I also have this random hc that when he gets shy he clears his throat embarrassedly 

I’ll definitely be brainrotting with you over this 🥝 anon omg he’s so cute🥺. But WAIT MAKE SURE TO GET YOUR SLEEP OKAY YOU NEED THAT!!😭💗💗ILYYYY I HOPE YOU HAVE A NICE DAY TOOOOO <33

[cephaloprincess]

1 and 8 for ocverse ask ^_^

WOOOO thank u for asking omg.. :D

1. (how would you describe the world your story takes place in?)

Most of my stories take place in the same world, that just kinda being,, Earth I guess! Kind of a boring answer but at the same time, I don't like to rely too much on realism so if I need weird tech or supernatural shit then I'm okay with anything! I actually work on most of my stories with my best friend so it kinda depends what we both agree on though LOL... I have other stories with their own worlds but admittedly I don't work on them as much and/or theyre usually just an extension of Earth anyways, I'd like to work on something more original someday though

8. (what inspired your worldbuilding, if anything?)

This is kinda hard to answer because the world is kind of just Earth but a lot of my inspiration for storytelling, character building and just, inspiration in general is Kotaro Uchikoshi's work! Particularly Zero Escape: 999 and Ai: The Somnium Files, some of my favorite works of all time really..! A lot of the themes and tones of his stories have really inspired mine, in particular I really like writing about familial themes bc of it... one of my favorite stories, Olympus is also like, basically just an ace attorney fangame LOL... sorry I'm a visual novel type of guy

THANK U FOR ASKING I got a little rambly... hehehe

[earlysunshines]

HEELLOOU! ☀️

(firstly finally finishing this one cause I was BORED without power at home for hoouurs jesus incridible birthday present anyway I remembered this on my drafts so review of light camera action 👇)

ok I HAVE to say this dani was stuck in my head for like a whole day since I read it hhh yeaahh mo dani,,

actually this is like most real yn ever, just a girlll fangirling about danielle marsh wherever <3 hmmyeah if someone gave me the chance I would surely talk about her nonstop

also loved the little detail abt dani doing the eggs different for each member... she's so 😿 all the members teasing her tooo the menace always being hanni but found it so cute that danielle was a fan already like yesyes for the plot but she being all flustered??hehehhihi

and them MEETING oh such a movie scene they just matched immediately

ykw wait, so its kind funny when two people in specific are starting a connection cause like sometimes the people around them notice it first? so hanni/the members teasing dani I felt that is just right, the thing about dani figuring out her feelings too ahhh man😮‍💨

anyway date scene cutecute BUT arhrgtgth im SMILING at the thought abt dani just casually calling after the interview like??? she being slightly bolder by call is just soo her oh she is such a tease anD THEM NOT WANTING TO HANG UPPAAAAHRHGH😭😭😭

ngl let out a laugh at yn texting soobin we have a straight allegation JHHGHjHKK like

and dani being the one who rambles when nervous and the little the detail of yn shifting the weight on her feet makes it all so lovesick. all the end scene of realization and the kiss scene hehhihiheh reaaally cute

ok wait so closing thoughts the thing i have this feeling that I appreciate so much mo dani enjoyers, as yourself, cause when I see her receiving love (? not actually the word I was going for is more like, her being seen and appreciated) makes me so happy like?? she deserves it aaalll !! //I didn't remembered actually writing this thought, man im fire

anywayyy late yes but I wouldn't never miss a dani review 🫶loved this work truly, funny how I had to read it again in times but it is worth it!! as always have a good day babes !!

-🤟 anon

YAYYY IM GLAD U READ!!!

no yeah if i were an actor id def fangirl over my girly like cmon who wouldnt... and the egg part was intentional i love small details idk LOL and im glad u notice all of them! i try my best and i rly appreciate your attentiveness

no yeah the phone call scene and really every interaction they had, i tried to make it sooo cheesy and like middle schoolers in love i mean cmon dani is such a woman and i think everything would be cliche

straight allegation yasss i fear reader is nothing like me in this i do NOT get straight allegations... but yeah soob always number one bff

YESSS that little detail was rly important to me like shifting weight on feet i always do that when i'm like at ease or nervous i think body language tells a lot

DANI ALWAYS DESERVES LOVEEE i love her so bad... like omfg.. i love writing for her SO much even if its shortand mundane and i strive to be one of the bigger/biggestmo dani enjoyers on here bc she does notttt get enough love <///3

thank u for stopping by and reading!! have a good one lovely

[gappan]

Big Ramble about my art, style & other things

I struggle with creating things sometimes, mostly due to the feeling of being tugged in different directions.

Theres the issue of creating something out of my range, but it likely being more popular than what I usually like to create.

I'm obsessed with breaking anatomy and making my art be a reflection of my emotions. Its hard for me to draw for other people, point blank. I think its terrible but thats why i'm so bad at wanting to take commissions. I technically do but, only my friends ever commission me. 😐

I try and offer commissions for my most marketable styles, and sure I can repeat it but fuck it gets so boring after a while. I want to say fuck it and draw in whatever style I like and not be locked down to one. MASSIVE ISSUE FOR CONSISTENCY LOL....

I also feel its something of an issue that I almost never finish anything, getting bored of a drawing right before the finishing touches. That sucks man, that really sucks. So maybe I should just post things i'll probably never finish here because i'm on an endless cycle of. 😑 draw something -> it looks good -> want to add more details -> it gets overwhelming and I never finish it -> repeat

There are sometimes I break the cycle or do rare fast drawings that I like (see the first real art on this blog of Declan) ¿but? ??huhhhh how do I keep up the pace. I know the answer is probably "go on adhd medication" and yeah thats probably true but i'm terrified of it because when I used to take it, no matter how low the dose it'd fuck with my heart.

I already have a really weird ass heart, its probably tilted on an axis since thats my mom's issue too (my vitriol for her is unending.) She never tells me about health issues she has until oops wow this is in effect for me. That sucks!!!! So with the option of adhd meds out the way wtf do I do to improve my productivity without totally fucking with my neuropathy or triggering my heart to go all wonky.

I literally would be unstoppable if whatever divine force is out there didn't decide to give me Stupid Body Syndrome, I could be knocked over by a gentle breeze or perhaps a gentle gust of wind.

Anyways, i'll work to my dreams of sharing my stories with everyone. I was thinking of starting with a gag comic thats a spinoff of the main story i'm working on just to put the characters out there. That might be hard but 4komas are easy to draw (but difficult to master!)

As for my art, I aim to create a "style" that is noticable as my work while still being diverse enough that I don't get bored. I love strong and interesting shapes, so you can view my strokes and know its made by me. This is especially an issue because of AI. Finding an identity can be tough!! But human-made love always beats out souless craps.

I love line tangents and want to encorperate them into my work more, I always see people going "umm but it doesn't look good" theres the issue. If its unintentional it can look bad, but if you know wtf you're doing it can create a striking piece.

Whenever I see an art tip that is like point blank "ahhh don't do this!!" I like to say fuck you and do it anyways. Theres no point in limiting creativity just bc its the standard.

And...! I want to post more work using body horror. Its one of my favorite things to encorperate an odd series of spines or a leaking hole in someones chest. I mostly experiment using some of my ocs which i'll post later.. they aren't really a story but they're a series of art.

They are "the bird, the beast, the bug" three characters specifically following the bird, Lich. An angel who was tempted by the bug, Beez, to Fall. Its unknown exactly how he did fall, but he was punished by reincarnating as a phoenix. Which sounds pretty cool but its not, because he now lives on an endless cycle of time in which loops. Being immortal, and being forced to live until everythings gone each time. Whether its by his own hands or not.

At some point, they all become the same person but also kind of not. Its hard to explain and mostly left up to interpretation to the viewer. I made Lich when I was in highschool still, like one of my first years.

Anyways. Thats a short explanation of that! Its a lot, but i'll keep cooking.

I'll try to reach my goal, and hopefully people will just care for my art the way I like it. I'd love to interact with more people based on my art, and i'm not shy to admit its apart of being an artist to want feedback; but I guess overall I just do it for myself. I want others to enjoy my work. But if its just for my own enjoyment; hey thats fine.

I appreciate if you got this far. I want to create... its the most important thing in the world for me. If I don't draw or create I get viscerally dissociative, i've been struggling with it as of late but I don't want to let this get in the way of my worlds and stories I want to tell.

Goodnight 🫡

[showyoumyfavoriteobsession]

shoutout to my past self for leaving good notes in abandoned fics

[kuiinncedes]

i’m like almost done with ep 1 of this ,,,, “kurt and the phantoms” lmaooo (this will probably never see the light of day fyiiii 🤪) and i’ve finally hit a point where i cannot remember the lines kdshglkdf i know the general direction of the conversation but it’s like one point that i don’t know how to make it work and i don’t really remember exactly how it goes in the show whereas for a lot of the previous scenes i’ve been able to like basically just recite the whole thing from memory sdkhgjksfj

[vermillionmars]

BUSINESS — !!

michael afton x reader

cw/tw ; legit just profanity

a/n ; i wanted to uh,, try writing dialogue first and writing around it. i don't think it went that well, but eh. the dialogue by itself has been in my drafts for months,, i wrote it on the bus lol. i have no clue what to name this </3,, OH ALSO misery business bc...fnaf...misery...businesses...child death...

“ — IN THE BUSINESS OF MISERY ! ”

"[Y/N], I love you, but there is no way in Hell you're convincing me to buy that." Michael frowned behind his white bear mask.

"Why not? He's only $5!" You retorted, crossing your arms at your lover and business partner (sort of, he did most of the work, you were just along for the ride).

"Do you even know the damage he could cause? That thing is probably the most dangerous animatronic I could possibly buy." Michael was clearly not going to be convinced, and rightfully so, as the robot was such a danger he was sure to cause a lawsuit or two (or three or four). Still, you tried.

"But—but Mikey! He's so cute!" He was! In your mind, at least.

"'Cute?' He's a bear with, like, one eye." He sighed. He would never understand you, or your weird love for nightmare fuel or just down-right ugly animatronics. Then again, Michael wasn't the most 'normal' person either.

"Aww, is someone jealous of ol' Lefty? Don't worry, Mikey, I love you more!" You cooed, and though you couldn't see his expression through his mask, you figured by his tone he was feeling cocky.

"You better."

"Well, if you're not gonna buy Lefty, how about, uhm...Pigpatch...?" You tried compromising with him. The cute pig played on his banjo all day, and you quite liked his songs! Even if, while not playing, he mumbled some disturbing things, you thought he was sweet.

"No, that thing is ugly." His reply was instant.

"Hey! Stop making fun of the animatronics I like!" You weren't legitimately upset, but you did wish he would let you have a little more say in the pizzeria's management. Yes, it wasn't technically yours, but it would've been nice for him to listen! Even if, uh, you were very, very bad with making good decisions...

"Well, stop liking the clearly ugly ones." Michael retorted.

"You have zero right to talk, you like Mr. Hippo!" Mr. Hippo was your sworn enemy (not that the hippo knew that). From the moment Michael had ordered him, you had decided he was the worst thing you had ever set your eyes on. Your poor ears were subjected to his long ramblings about his outings with his friend, Oliver the Elephant...

Wait...was it Oliver, or Orville?

"Mr. Hippo is *not* ugly! And his stories are interesting!"

"Nuh-uh! They bore me to death! And the children too!" What person, let alone kid, wanted to hear the purple hippo go on and on about his friend almost killing a couple of ducks?

"You just have no taste."

"You watch that stupid show all day, can it!"

"Hey, The Immortal and The Restless is not stupid! It's very thought provoking and engaging!" It was a story about a human and her vampire lover, who kept denying his paternity. Yeah, quality content right there.

"Oh, just say you like cheesy soap operas and move on!"

"Well, uh—you—you like...!"

"I like...?"

"You-you like stupid things!"

"But...I like you. Are you calling yourself stupid, Mikey~?" You laughed.

"N-no...I like you too, though..."

"Hehe, as you should!" You'd be quite heartbroken if he told you after all this time that he didn't actually like you romantically. And pissed. "Anyways, look—Lefty's discounted! $1!"

"I'm still not buying him."

"Damnit."

[split-n-splice]

Where did you get the idea for your story? A partnership before the show is unique.

Hey, anon, thanks for asking! Mostly I wanted to explore possibilities and curiosities I had, finding any detail from the show to support theories. Given all the parallels with Kim and Ron, I also like the idea that they technically knew each other just as long. Even in early episodes, they don't seem like strangers to me. The tells were mostly in Shego.

Shego makes a leap of faith in one of the first episodes, trusting Drakken to catch her. (Would just a hired lackey really trust an evil scientist to not just let her fall once he'd gotten what he needed? Probably not!)

Shego literally puts up with so much nonsense lol and never really leaves to find a better gig, Drakken right there to back her up even that one time she took a side job to tutor Junior.

She "quit" but came back when she got irritated at him for wanting to break the contract protecting her DNA, Drakken having the gall to suck up to her and call her sweet pet names like "dumpling."

wasn't even all that mad when he put her under mind control (mostly inconvenienced and annoyed by being bored to death) which I would think would be grounds to quit on

seems to have been out of the hero game long enough for kids like Kim to not recognize, and a criminal long enough to be wanted in 11 countries at her introduction.

in Go Team Go said "After I quit the team, I went to work for a guy who wants to take over the world!" seeming to imply to me that she went straight from Team Go to Drakken

she basically blamed him in Stop Team Go when she approached Kim about being nervous about going on a date with Mr. Barkin, claiming, "I'm weak on the whole dating thing. All that Drakken business didn't leave a lot of time for socializing." (lol, she's green on dating. wonder why.) (also Barkin's a creep, fite me. but i love him)

Drakken seemed just perturbed and inconvenienced by her erratic behavior in Emotion Sickness episode. Uneasy by the mood swings yes, but not really too flustered or nervous by the love-struck focus of the episode. And maybe I live in the gutter, but I'm gonna take that almost prideful little "I never fit into a size 6" comment as a very subtle dick joke bc that's how i heard it when it aired, and that's how I STILL hear it. lol

Other things that drive me are factors like Team Go’s enemies, GJ and WEE, Shego with her one-piece bathing suits and never showing certain parts of her body COUGH, Shego’s adjustment to the glow that seems most volatile of all, why Shego would continue to call him Doctor even if they were a couple lol, explaining Hego’s dimwittedness (hello, concussion lol), Aviarius because aw snap i love birds and also that guy, why does everyone call Kim Possible by her full name? Was there another “Kim”?, exploring the whole henchperson thing, and just. Origins in general.

All that to say I can and will cling to every small detail to uphold my belief that they were long-standing partners by the time the show began, if not already a couple. And anyway I could probably ramble on forever about all the little things that give me the feeling they knew each other quite a long time but I'll leave it at that.