#ANYWAY CAN YOU TELL I LOVE MESSING WITH COLOR PALETTES? i feel like im not too good at it

[xheartachee]

hello tumblr ive returned and i present. stanley

[b4b3tte]

Hi! Dunno if you're taking request but if you are could I ask for a Robin Arellano w a fem! girly s/o? :³

♡ BOYFRIEND ♡

Pairing : Robin Arellano x Fem!Reader.

genre : Fluff | bit nsfw(as in staring)| head canons. | Oneshot

Summary : Head canons and a short oneshot for robin Arellano!!

Warning: Some parts are somewhat nsfw so I’m sorry!!! Babette/Vivica’s Note!!! : MY FIRST REQUEST IM EXCITED🤗!!!!! I am accepting requests so feel free to request anything!!

As much as he isn’t a big fan of the type of style, he does love all the bright colors and clothing on you. Sometimes he will make fun of you but if someone else does, boy aren’t they in for a treat. If any of the teachers try to tell you something or dress code you for “ distracting “ the guys robin will rock their shit. You probably encourage him not to cause fights or issues he still does it anyway, mainly to protect you(<3) even though he gets suspended or get weeks of detention he would do anything to protect,save and stand up for you, it’s kinda concerning how you would go meet him outside the bathrooms after a fight and he is so normal and calm

“ Oh my god! Robin (favorite pet name) are you alright?? Are you hurt badly? “

“ chill y/n, I’m okay but how about you what’s happening? “

If you are a fighter or get into fights ( even though your girly you can still kick ass because yes 😻) he loves watching you rock a girls shit for spilling food/drinks on your outfits, in lunch if he isn’t sitting next to you which is rare and some girl or guy drops their milk on you, it’s on sight. Robin will just sit back and smirk like a proud boyfriend he will only step in if a teacher comes in or the person your fighting brought some of there friends which won’t be needed because you can handle it.

Sometimes when you are getting ready for classes or just going out, he will mess with you and your items. Example, if you two are going on a date or party he will ruin your eye shadow palette,Put highlighter on his wrists, put a lip oil on his lips and maybe try to do your eyeliner!

For clothing, he would never look in your closet he would have a weird look on his face, but when you wear it or trying clothes out, he is DOWN BAD just the way the clothes enhances your different features and lighten your body is just breathtaking for him. Sometimes when he is in the mood for shopping( for things in general) he will go to some stores with you and help you pick out some things ( purposely picks revealing outfits but shush )

𖤐 Short oneshot 𖤐

( slightly nsfw )

It was a Friday, and of course it’s fun Friday and you wanted to look your best, for no reason but just to get ready but you lost track of time. School starts at 7:35 it’s 7:50!! You were barley finishing your makeup, you had to do your hair and pick out your outfit.Robin on the other hand was wondering what was taking you so long, your parent(s) went to work it’s not like they had to drive you and there was traffic and there’s no way you would walk to school without him and the bus should have dropped you off already, he guessed you were sleeping. After you finished curling/straightening your hair you quickly picked an outfit, A (your favorite color skirt) and long sleeved shirt but kinda short length wise and you picked fishnets along with (Your favorite pair of shoes). You grabbed your bag along with random rings.

As your speed walking to school you put the rings on and started running.,You walk into the office waiting for the counselor to give you a late slip and to let you in class, after that you head to period 2 English class, you open the door all out of breath while your teacher speaks up .

“ oh look who decides to show up, do I even wanna know your excuse this time? “

“ Look im so sorry! It was a fashion emergency!“

“ fashion emergency.. “

“ it’s still a emergency..? “

“ sit your ass down y/n and take out your notebook, your lucky I’m not calling your parent(s)! “

Meanwhile that, Robin was in candy land or something, Finn even noticed how no matter what robins eyes was stuck on you, I mean he hasn’t seen you since last night when you were in your Pjs and now he sees you in some hot outfit? Dude is staring bad like he has no shame in the world thinking about things he shouldn’t. You were embarrassed that the teacher called you out in front of the class so you didn’t even look back at your classmates or Robin so you just sat in the seat in front of him and boy what a perfect view of your back and neck.

Finn thought you were pretty but would never stare down at you like Robin is doing, he literally had to kick robins shoe to get him to snap out of it and not look at your waist and ass. Robin didn’t give no shits, it took for the teacher to call for his attention.

“ AY, ARELLANO! FOCUS! “

“..uh yeah I’m focusing “

“ So you call staring at y/n’s waist and hips focusing on the lesson?.. Pay attention or I’m sending you to the principals office “

“ fuck my life “

“ What was that? “

“ NOTHING “

I deeply apologize for making this so late! I hope this makes up for it! But I’m super happy that this was my first request and that it was one of the black phone characters!! And yes my requests are open! So please don’t be afraid to request tysm love you guys sm!!🫶

[simpingforakashi]

Witch and Her Knight

✓ hey guys ! for my first small story, i decided to do a cute halloween special. this is my first story, so if there are any errors, please tell me!! ill keep this short and simple, so enjoy the story!

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⤁ pairings: miya osamu x f!reader

⤁ warnings: none!

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   “L/N-chan!” yelled the calmer version of the Miya Twins.

“How many times have I told you to call me Y/N, ‘Samu?” The female said in a jokingly manner.

Osamu ignored what she said, and took her hand. As a result, Y/N blushed but successfully hid her flustered state from the male. 

   “What do you need anyway?”, asked the female.

She stared at her hand in his hand, and silently squealed. It’s not everyday your crush grabs your hand for no reason.

   “Can we match Halloween costumes, please? I’ll be the knight and you’ll be the witch!” 

“It’s a princess and a knight you dumbass!” “But you look like a wit-” Osamu couldn’t finish his sentence as Y/N hit the back of his head.

“Don’t even continue!”

   After a few hours of Osamu’s begging, Y/N finally gave in. When school ended, Osamu took her hand once again and led her to a costume shop. 

  “Do they even have my size?”, muttered the female of the pair, but Osamu just had to have heard it.

“I bet they don’t, you are fat anyway.”

“Do you want me to match with you or not?!”

“I’m sorry!”

   As Osamu searched for a knight costume, Y/N came across a few witch costumes. There was a cute one, the color palette blue and white with a small black skirt. She ended up choosing that one. While she looked for the price, Osamu came up behind her and had to do a jumpscare. In result, Y/N screamed very loud.

   “L/N-chan! Relax, it’s only your knight, Osamu Miya,” he said and laughed.

“‘Samu, honestly, this is the last straw I swear!”

“Oh, here’s my costume I chose by the way!” Osamu showed Y/N his costume. He obviously chose the stupidest looking one. 

“Why am I even friends with you?”

   They both walked to the check-out counter and gave their costumes to the receptionist. 

“Oh, are you two love-birds matching? Why not a princess and knight?”

Before Y/N could say anything about them not dating, Osamu beat her to it.

   “We aren’t a cliche type of couple! Our love surpasses all.” As he said this, he glanced to Y/N’s direction to see her reaction.

Oh boy, was she blushing. 

The receptionist softly aw-ed the two, and handed both their costumes. Once they stepped out of the store, Y/N brought Osamu to a private alleyway. 

   “‘Samu, explain what you said to the lady?” She said, her flustered state clear as hell now.

“Y/N, we are a couple though, right?”

“What?!”

Osamu just softly laughed.

“Suna told me about your feelings.”

Y/N’s red face was not one of embarrassment, but of anger.

“Oh that damn Rintarou, I swear I’ll mess up his fa-”

The female was interrupted by a pair of lips on hers. Her face was completely red, but she eased in the sweet kiss. Once they pulled away, Y/N realized what they both did. 

‘Oh my god, oh my god, oh my go-’

Osamu coughed, and got on one knee. Y/N, still zoned out by her thoughts, did not notice what the male infront of her was doing.

“Y/N,” she now finally noticed, “will you be the witch to my knight?” 

Y/N teared up. Here she was. Her childhood crush, infront of her on one knee, basically asking her to be his girlfriend.

   “Yes I will ‘Samu, yes I will!”

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omg im dead bye. i CANNOT write ffs

[jidai]

Hi there! I really admire a lot of the graphics you do. If you're up to it and its not a bother, would you mind making a tutorial on how you did the Tifa Lockhart graphic set you made back in June? Particularly the last two graphics with the Seventh Heaven bar and Tifa on the swing in Nibelheim? Thanks for reading!

Hi, dear anon! Thank you for the kind words! I tried my best to explain things in details but if you need clarifications, feel free to reach out privately or on here. A wall of text, incoming!

the post anon is referring to

Note: the animation was all done in photoshop but if you have after effects, that will make this so much easier!

The first two is pretty straightforward so I’ll focus more on the last two, as you asked. This is assuming you have pretty good Photoshop knowledge!

7th Heaven bar panel

First, I scour the internet to see if I can get my hands on the full image of the bar from the OG game. Luckily I managed to find one on the FF wiki:

You can either keep the black bg or cut out the sprite if you’re using a color that’s not black. Anyways, I wasn’t satisfied at how dark and colorful it looked so I used Curves to turn up the brightness and Vibrance to decrease the vibrancy of the bar (I would love to keep the color but my color palette is mainly gray, so I wanted to match it). 

Tada! The panel felt empty, despite me wanting a minimalist look. So I used the font Axis and type “HOME’, size 10px right below the bar (not shown above). 

Next, I’ll talk about the animation portion of the edit. Two magic happens in this feature called ‘Timeline’. Photoshop toolbar > Window > Timeline. This is where a lot of gif-maker will spend their time in. 

And before we go any further, I want to explain to you some basics of timeline and keyframes. You need to understand this or else you’ll just be clicking things without knowing wtf is going on lol. Feel free to skip to the bottom ‘- - -’ if you know this and want to go straight to the action!

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Timeline is a place where you can turn your static layers into animated or dynamic GIFs. 

Keyframing is basically the simplest form of animating an object, as long as there is beginning condition and an end condition. EX:

Basically, keyframe holds information that tells the program what to do with an object (move it right, left, bring it around town, wiggle, etc.), using what are called properties. Using the example above, keyframe A starts the circle at (0,5) but keyframe B is telling the program to move the circle 5 pxl to the right over time.

Properties are just things you change to animate the object like, position, size, opacity, etc.

This is VERY basic things I’m telling you so I highly encourage you to do further research if you want a better & detailed explanation.

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Because we’re making an original composition/gif, and not from a video, you need to click on the middle button “Create Video Timeline” NOT “Create Frame Animation”. The latter is fine for gif but you can’t animate there. 

Anyways, once you click on that, it’ll take ALL of your layers on the right and turn it into a video-editing looking bar on the bottom. It’ll look something like this.

It looks really intimidating but as long as you focus only on the layer that you’re animating on, it’ll be ok! Here’s a quick guide on which part of the UI you need to worry about:

I used the same property for all 3 “flickering” animation so I’ll use only one example:

I wanted to make it seems like the TV is animated so I took a brush with soft edges and painted a blue circle that’s big enough to cover the TV a little bit. That will be my ‘blue tv light’ layer.

So here, we see that the TV lights are “flickering” (as well as the red cross in front of HOME) so it means I’m messing with the opacity somehow. Lucky for us, the timeline has an opacity property we can use!

(tip: if you click the tiny arrow on the left of the layer name, you can access properties there)

If you click on the stopwatch that’s next to Opacity, you’ll be setting a keyframe, which will be your starting condition in this context. 

Make sure your preview thingy (blue button with red line that’s sprawl across the timeline) is directly on top of the keyframe as you adjust anything because you will create a new keyframe if it’s slightly off to the right of left. 

To animate the flickering TV lights that’s looped, I set 3 keyframes: one for the beginning, middle and end. The beginning condition and ending condition must be identical in order for your animation to be looped! So if possble, set your gif length to a number that can be divided in half for even animation. Like this:

Unfortunately, it’s not After Effects so there’s no easy way to loop it except doing it yourself, not that I know of, anyway.

As long as you have your preview arrow over where you want the keyframe to be, you can just adjust the opacity and it will automatically create a new keyframe with desired opacity. No need to click the stopwatch many times!

Basically, I repeat the same things for all of the animated objects you see in that panel.

Tifa on a swing panel

I looked for a picture of Nibelheim:

(I couldn’t find the one that I used, I apologize.) I used the pen tool and cut a rough shape of the town out. Then, I tossed in a bunch of adjustments like curves, gradients, etc. to get the desired effect.

As for Tifa and the swing itself. I used the scene where Tifa went to the water tower to see Cloud and cut her out. The swing I created from scratch by using the pen tool to create the shape of the swing and the line tool for the chain. I tossed some wood textures on there but you can barely see it anyway lol. 

Animating her is pretty much identical how I animated the TV lights, but instead of changing the opacity, we will use the Transform property (Ctrl + T/Command + T) .

Similar to the 7th Heaven panel, you will set a starting condition, the in-between conditions, and the end condition (remember, it has to be identical to the beginning condition if you want it to loop!). 

(you will see this then you Transform (Ctrl + T/Command + T)

I don’t remember exactly why I did it but I think I had the neutral position in the middle because the animation was fast so I wanted to slow it down. I don’t remember exactly tho. Anyway, the bigger your rotation angle, the faster Tifa will swing unless you set your gif to long duration (mine was 6 seconds). Experiment with where your keyframe is but generally, if you want them to all have the same animation speed, space them out as evenly as you can.

As long as you have the basic of using the timeline in Photoshop, it’s pretty much the exact same things over and over but you just adjust the shape, size, opacity, position, etc.

And if you came of this learning nothing (if so im SORRY), I will link you to this: a YT tutorial that I watched when I needed to refresh my memory.

[survivor-mountmerapi]

Ep. 9&10: “I’m just--------peeing quite frankly” - Madi

Steven

Was I entertained by this tribal and Julia playing her idol? Yes I very much was. Was I about to simultaneously puke and cry at the same time? Yes. Yes I was. Can this game have one single ounce of something that wont make me go into tears.

Anastasia

We are so dumb and stupid and dumb and stupid. I dont know why we would all vote for one person?? ESPEVIALLU if the person knows they are going and especially if that person is julia and shes already rlly good at lying. we were all blinded by our mutual force to get her out and we didnt think it out heck frick. sorry moth this is so unfair. moth was trying to get julia out the most bcs julia targetted moth last season. why julia has a thing against moth in this game? i dont know!! anyway we have to get that girl out next round and we will split vote pls it has to happen we cant give up she has to go

Madi

im just--------peeing quite frankly

go off julia, you did that, props to you

Raffy

Julia playing that idol is the best and most iconic play in this game thus far. The dramatics of the fight to ensure that all the votes landed on her? Keeping the people who she knew would get skittish and snake-ish so she has a higher chance of staying next round? Literally, this all works in her favor. To be honest, I don't even want Julia gone at this point. I want someone like Ginnifer or Rachel gone for future security. Sure Julia will eventually snake me, but keep your enemies close and all that.

Ginnifer admitted ON CALL that she almost voted for Steven WHEN STEVEN WAS THERE. She also wanted an alliance with Julia, Madi, Steven, and I in the same call! Then, DeNara gets on call and Ginnifer ADMITS to wanting to create an alliance without her. I'm just kind of shook. Why would I want to work with Ginnifer anyways if she's been targeting me since the swap? There's no reason to other than being chaotic. Then, Julia transitions to pitching with working with her! And Madi is calling her out! This after-tribal call is a mess. But, now the target is fully off of me. Mwahahaha. These people???

Ginny

Moth was idoled out yikes but I tried to make a new alliance but it failed

Steven

Im trying to figure out what Ginny's logic is. First you say that you wanna target all the winners cause we are the biggest threats in the game. Then you tell me TO MY FACE after a wild tribal that you almost voted for me to leave tonight. Even after all that you then turn around and try to align yourself with the winners that you were just targeting to spice it up???????? Im sorry but Im not following this.

Julia

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1AxVD3qWAkVmL_7fWiHERvNIg9VkKFS1W/view?usp=drivesdk

Raffy

According to DeNara, Elle wants to create an alliance with DeNara, Steven, and I. This could be a good back up alliance for the time being. Additionally, it gives us more numbers on our side if we ever need to turn on Gian and Madi. However, I don't want to do that anytime soon. They are great allies to have. Plus, they are able to think and are going after Julia. So, it should all work in my favor. I love being able to slip by each tribal with my target not being shot. I am thinking of throwing this challenge so Ginny can get the yeet though.

Madi

hi its madi and im being messy did I just text DeNara and ask her to be in a tighter alliance with me bc its gonna get to the point where the winners have to go? have I been reinforcing since the merge to anastasia that we are working together and that shes my partner in this game? did I just say “partner to partner” to anastasia that we should start an all girls alliance? did I also ask denara? me, denara, anastasia, rachel, and elle? rachel wont talk to me tho:( bc I “lied” so thats a speed bump denara also thinks she is the only one I told ab this and when I asked if we should tell anastasia she said that anastasia is a “blabber mouth” so “not yet”??????? am I fucking up my game? idkkk come back tomorrow thank the lords I have an idol if this blows up in my face???

DeNara

That awkward moment when you don't remember what your confessionals say anymore and you are repeating yourself a lot lol

Steven

https://youtu.be/2NGxkNjrGdk

DeNara

Soooo after Moth got voted out and Ginnifer decided to go a little crazy and try and make new alliances without us, Elle and I have decided to jump ship on the Lucky Charms alliance. She suggested talking to Steven and Raffy which was a great idea. I talked to them and they said they would be down with that so we are going to make a new alliance when Elle brings it up.

TEA. Steven and Raffy want to stick with our alliance of 5 with Madi and Gian because they trust them but Madi messaged me today saying she wanted to make a tighter alliance with me so we can eventually take out the winners. I am not sure if I should tell Steven and Raffy this or not yet, as it could end up worse for me if I do....

DeNara

You know, I should give myself more credit in this game. I have played the middle so well this season so far. I have an alliance with literally everyone in this game except Julia and Anastasia and Anastasia tells me things when I ask her lol I think I can do well in this game if I play my cards right.

DeNara

Oooooh so I made an alliance chat with Raffy, Steven and Elle. Sounds like we are gonna try and get Ginnifer out before Julia now. I did tell Julia I would try and spare her a round since she didn't vote me out o.O

Elle

✨A New Alliance Has Been Formed✨Me, DeNara, Steven, and Raffy ^_^ Which is great bc I trust DeNara, and I feel really good about Steven and Raf (I don't think?? they would betray us 😂but I am not sure of anything anymore lol ahhhh the post merge paranoia is real) I also feel really good about this challenge. I get to work on my layout designs for the magazine me and Madi are working on which is great! I don't know why I always worm in something I want to be practicing into these challenges lol, probs bc I'm prone to being like "I'll get right on that!" and then... not 😂 so the challenges are good excuses. I also would have Loved to make a tarot deck like the example ugh that seems so cool 😭

DeNara

So I told Raffy and Steven about Madi bringing up a potential tighter alliance and I regret it. I feel like that was something I should have kept to myself Stevenhttps://youtu.be/dWdKo0iuaV4

Raffy

DeNara created an alliance with Elle, Steven, and I. Steven and DeNara still don't want to tell Gian and Madi about it. Ok I guess. If they find out though, I am throwing DeNara under that bus so fast. Secondly, it seems Elle wants to target Ginnifer as well this round. I love ur impact. Now, we just need two more votes. One of them being Julia. The others possibly Gian and Madi if I can convince them. Rachel and Anatasia would probably still target Julia. I am trying to not obviously throw this challenge.

Gian

The way I ate Steven up on this lip sync. It was so fun to do! Im really happy we did this challenge :)

Elle

The judges are judging🎶 (to the tune of "The Lady's Improving" from The Prom) Anyway, I just want to preface that the first ad was supposed to be the only like, purposefully kinda bad layout in the magazine 😂 I was low on time and I regretted the color palette, it was way too saturated but Madi and I had agreed on it and I didn't want to be more annoying than I was already being about the magazine 😅. Also, I need to remember people read these afterward 😂 I'm incredibly bad at not just spewing whatever is in my mind sometimes, I feel like I might've overshared a couple of times but it happens! This probably counts as oversharing bc it's not about gameplay... yes okay back on topic I hope we win, if we don't I'll be okay I'll just be ticked at myself for staying up past 2AM but realistically if I didn't hyperfocus on that it'd be something else 🤷🏽‍♀️ atleast this was productive, I got to work on layouts a little (I mean technically I got quite a few layouts but so many are baddd 😭😭😭 like if a professor saw some of these they'd faint and then kick me out of graphic design lmao). But the point wasn't for it to be professional, so it's okay!!!!! I'm telling myself that so I don't go back and fix everything lol.

Raffy

The plan as of right now is to target both Ginnifer and Julia. Personally, I want Ginnifer out because she has been a very chaotic mess since the merge started. I would rather want that gone now rather than later when we no longer have the chance. I made the plan to split the vote 4-4 against Ginnifer and Julia. DeNara, Steven, Elle, and I (the secret alliance hidden from Gian's and Madi's view) will vote for Ginnifer. Gian and Madi know about this. They, along with Anastasia and Rachel, will vote for Julia. So, it should not matter who either of them vote for. However, it would be nice if they could vote each other. This plan does come with its risks though. I am willing to take those risks. And, if I get a bad smell, I will use my SWP to get out of the sticky situation.

DeNara

Well. Today is tribal day. I have been feeling worn down so much the past couple days and part of me just wants to be carried by others for a while. On the other hand, part of me feels like it might be time to make a big move soon because that is how you win. If Julia is still here after the vote tonight, then I feel like I just need to team up with her because clearly she needs to be blindsided. The lack of chatter has me worried.....like why is nobody talking??? Is it because they have all teamed up and are plotting against one of my alliances, or are they just tired and busy like me? I am not sure... I am suspicious that Julia hasn't really been talking. I know she said she had personal stuff going on but who knows if that is all of it, or just part of it. I am feeling the desire to flip on my alliance soon. Idk if I will because I feel tight with Steven and he plays loyal, but if I told him about Madi wanting to flip on the winners soon I may be able to do something... I kind of want to start actually lying to people, like... full blown lies... muahahaha! We shall see what happens if I am not blindsided tonight.

Raffy

DeNara is so paranoid. This is what she told me: "I am pretty nervous about Julia teaming up with some ppl and making a play tonight. Should we come up with some crazy lie just to scare her? I am not sure what we could say, but I am feeling nervous about her?" Like, do you want to become the target? Doing that is a surefire way of becoming one. Everyone is BUSY. They're DOING things. The situation only becomes dire later on in the day. There's no reason to be doing all this when there is still time to discuss tribal. I might just dip because I am not going to get punished for DeNara being paranoid. Like, if Julia wanted to target us, she would have already done so. DeNara is just... very taxing to work with because she thinks that everyone is against her. I feel like I needed to talk her down from making a move that would have certainly gotten her voted out.

Ginny

Ohhh girl I’m scared tonight I better not get blindsided because Lordy I got it when moth left and I wasn’t prepared whooo Jesus

DeNara

So I have been talking to Elle a bunch and someone told her about the split vote between Ginny and Julia. I am trying to play as though she is the one giving me this information, even though I helped plan it. I actually am feeling really close with Elle and hoping I can get far with her. I might make her my real number one with Steven. I like Steven a lot but I am worried he won't turn on Raffy when it is time. Raffy keeps getting a little frustrtaed with how hard I am trying to play this game (which is fair) so he may have to go after Julia and Ginny. I am getting concerned about these newbies though. We should take one of them out soon to even out the numbers. Also, I have been trying to get idol hunt information from as many people as I can and I remembered that Gian got an advantage during a game, so I am trying to get him to tell me what number it was since he didn't add it to our group chart

Anastasia

Me and Julia were paired together for the challenge. Since we're trying to get that girl out I didn't want to win. I was a little worried that somehow ours would win but we got second to last. Julia was sadly going through stuff in real life and struggled. It's good for me but I sympathize with her.. Anyway Julia is out of here tonight.

Julia

Ok so last tribal was so sexy the looks on everyone’s faces are now burned into my brain

Julia

I’m really hoping it’s Ginny tonight. I’m going to try to pull out some shit and hope and pray put nothings in my hands tonight

Rachel

i am so happy to be playing with such nice people. i really do be getting in my own head sometimes, but it is so nice to be reassured that i am playing a fun game and no one feels ill will towards me in anyway. i feel awesome to be supported by this group. i had a tragic event happen in my life this week, but plan to move forward and try to have the most fun while playing in his honor.

Julia

I’m at tribal right now and I feel like I’m going to puke. It’s definitely me. It’s been a ride friends. Julia out

Madi

So I got immunity, Julia went home. Sad but necessary. I really respect her as a player and would love to work with her sometime but just not this game. Also kinda annoyed that raffy called me out at tribal during the revote..... like yeah I came up with the revote but why call my name out for it???? like what is the deal with that. He is my next target tho so like hehehehe raffy its time to go. I am thinking we convince him ginny is going home and blindside him instead??? idk just thoughts

goodnight!

DeNara

So we just voted Julia out and I am actually sad about it. I am glad the threat is gone, but she was fun for sure. Now my alliance of 5 is standing strong, if I stay loyal...

Raffy

R.I.P. Julia, Queen of the Idol. The plan went off without a hitch which is pretty boring, but it means I have a lot of control in this game. I am excited for Touchy Subjects as it will be a very revealing challenge. If I had my choice, a newbie or Ginnifer would get voted out next.

Gian

My game is borderline UTR/Goat at this point and idk if that’s something I’d want to change lol. I’ve been feeling lazy >-<

[ot5]

baby's breath to dandelion, so yes ALL of them because I'm evil and I couldn't choose, they're all so cute 🌹🌸🌻🌼🌺

baby’s breath: 5 things you associate yourself with:XL tea mugs, feather fans, cheap ebay jewellery, chaos and vanille

bleeding heart: what makes you heart go mushy?PUPPY’S, KITTENS AND LIAM MAKING HIS LAST 2017 MEMORY A 1D ONE!! also harry looking all Soft n Cozy in jumpers with a sleepy smile

bell flower: what’s the title of the song that makes you want to jump around out of joy?what makes you beautiful!! the cheesy bitch that i am (also shoutout to wolves & shut up and dance) 

evening primrose: what’s your sleeping playlist (give me 5 songs)?i cant sleep if i listen to songs lmao my go to is asmr paper and plastic crinkling

forget-me-not: who is your favorite blog who isn’t following you?i actually went to look for this lol bc im mostly mutuals with who i follow but i love @thisdayin1dhistory

daffodil: what is one plant that you want to have but can never get?lathyrus are so!! fucking!! pretty!!! i would sacrifice 3 fingers if it meant i could always have a bouquet

calla lily: are you more of a sunny day or a rainy evening?sunny day!

foxglove: what is your favorite color and in what shade?pink and blush

lavender: what is something that you’ve always wanted to be/have/get but can never have?i’ve always wanted to be rich and royal but dont see that happening anytime soon lmao

love in a mist: what is the latest dream that you remember?im at that annoying point where you’re trying to grasp it but you feel it slipping away, i vaguely remember it involved me being upset tho

daisy: what is your favorite flavor of cotton candy, ice cream, and juice?cotton candy has flavors??? ice cream: cookies and cream or some variation and i dont drink juice but i guess orange juice? lol

painter’s palette: are you more of a singer, dancer, painter, or instrumentalist?i mean i cant do any of those but i love to dance my ass off and throw some crazy shaped as harry would say to 1d bops in my dark room

tulip: what is your most favorite make-up product? do you like it more natural, dark, or etc?i only do my eyebrows so i’ll go with my anastasia dipbrow pomade and yeah for my i like natural just bc im lazy as fuck but i LOVE a good glam look on others

waxflower: are you a bee or a butterfly person? a dog or a cat person?butterfly and im not gonna choose because we have a dog and i want a cat so its 50/50 also im bi so its my right to not have to choose:)

sugarbush: do you have sweet tooth? if yes, what’s your favorite sweets? if no, why?yes god i cant go a day without chocolate lmao also cookies and black liquorice (if thats what you call it over there?) literally name anything sweet and i love it

sunflower: would you like to be a fairy or a mermaid?i used to LIVE for swimming so i’ll go with mermaid

sweet pea: what would you like to call your significant other?[trixie mattel voice] HoNEyYYYYY

sea lavender: can you swim? which strokes can you do?yes im gonna take a moment to Brag about my biggest succes in life: i used to do swimming for like 10 years and have 13 dimploma’s or something so i’d like to think i master them all, although i struggle with the butterfly thing. anyway that was the Peak of my existence lmao and that was years ago rip younger me she was so succesful

windflower: list 5 of your favorite blogs and explain why i like them@harrysdamnthighs is pretty cool idk if youve heard of her? also i feel bad for picking and im lowkey worried ill annoy ppl or it wont be mutual and ill embarrass myself sljdlfkadfjs

golden rod: are you more of a baker or a cook?def a baker i bake brownies everytime im sad (i suck at both tho)

bloom: what is something that you would like to tell your children?“santa isnt real” and watch them cry  

peony: what is something that you wish your parents could’ve told you?uhhh last october that our dog was dying bc i didnt find out untill 15 minutes before he passed when i had literally spend all day at home, which i couldve spend with him so yeah im still bitter about that

prairie gentian: do you have a significant other?earlier i read someone say; i dont need someone else to be significant, so ill steal that:) (im always single)

september flower: are you more of a sunshine or sunset person?i’ll take this meant to say ‘sunrise’ which i would love to see but its just not realistic.gif so ill go with sunset

bird of paradise: do you wake up early? do you sleep early?alksjdlksj i usually wake up somewhere from 10:30am to 2pm and going to sleep is a Mess

marigold: what’s your favorite tea?green tea with cranberry flavor i drink it All The Time

peruvian lily: what are the names of your pets?our dog’s is Beau, and my bunny is called Giggert (bc my brother is stupid and was somehow given that responsibility) but i call her ‘woman’ in dutch which isnt much better:’) ALSO bonus fact: i didnt get to name any of our last 4 pets so i have dibs on our future cat and im planning to call him/her coco for short, full name: conchobar….. do you hate me yet?:)

hyacinth: do you name your plants?i dont have any because i kill them anyway but no

lilac: would you rather sleep and be cozy or hang out with your friends?sleep and be cozy 75% of the time

poppy: do you like to dip your fries or do you like it as is?either no dip or mayonnaise is the only way to go

dandelion: any special talent that you have?i can make anything Dramatic. also i think im pretty good at recognizing perfumes since im lowkey obsessed. ALSO im the best at getting lost with public transportation, even if im familiar with it. and i have a talent for planning two or more things on the same date:’) looK at me being Talented!!!

[elysianjeonghan]

Summer Jobs Series (svt) - retailworker!jeonghan

ok imma write about my favorite person in the entire world rn so I don’t even know if I can finish this without exploding with feels !!! i probably won’t check this after writing it so sorry for grammar and whatnot /// anyways, enjoy~

being a broke college student had its ups and downs

you’ve been to more job interviews than there are stars in the sky

and the jobs you’ve done have been absolute hell

serving rude families with crying babies at diners, being creepily hit on when you were a barista, being asked the most simple and obvious questions and having to answer them when you worked at a call center  

you’ve never had a job you truly liked ,,, you kinda just had to do them or else you would be worse off than you already were

until one day you noticed that a clothing store you pass by often had a help wanted sign

you couldn’t believe your luck

you were a fashion design major and have always dreamed about working in something even slightly related to your passion

you applied and were ecstatic when you got the job

like jumping around on the street happy after being told you got the job because !!! you don’t have to serve screaming children and low tippers anymore !!!

you came in the next day, literally skipping on your way there

you get to the clothing store, which is actually quite big for how it isn’t one of those corporate company owned stores

in fact it felt very cosy ,,, it felt like being in a really aesthetically pleasing thrift store

it offered a lot different styles of clothing, appealing to a lot of different customers /// the neutral color palette of the whole store also helped the whole feel ///

when you met the manager, she kindly welcomed you and helped you get acquainted with the store 

she then was like !!!! i forgot !!! i need to go check on the clothes being shipped in !!!! then she tells you to stay put while she finds another employee that can help train you

when she comes back she comes back with ,,, the most beautiful ,,, perfect looking guy you have ever seen ,,, he had the fluffiest and softest looking blonde hair you have ever seen, the prettiest facial structure that was enhanced by his thin rimmed glasses

he wore a simple white tee with black ripped jeans ,,,, and even if the look was incredibly normal ,,, you were just starstruck by his beauty

you had to internally scream at yourself to shut your gaping mouth and stop drooling over him 

he was smiling like crazy and was like !!!! hi!!! im jeonghan!!! you’re new yeah??!! 

you’re still in disbelief at your incredible luck as you stupidly just nod and introduce yourself ,, still in a daze he just laughs, keeping the situation light 

you both said goodbye to your manager as she runs around frantically  cause wHerE ArE mY KeYs???? 

jeonghan’s then like shall we start??? then he GRABS YOUR WRIST AND BRINGS YOU AROUND

and your hearts like !!!! while your brains like ???? why are you overreacting ??? right it’s because he’s someone you haven’t met before!!! yeah absolutely that’s exactly why your heart is pounding so loud people across the street would think a marching band is coming through the city

 and he’s just too nice ,,, he happily shows you where the inventory is and how they organize, how the cash register operates, what to do in some situations 

and you just kinda start to relax ,,, and actually start being like yourself cause you realize ,,, for someone as pretty as him he’s just like any other person

and then you start joking around with him

and that’s kinda how you guys became friends

your manager was swamped with work the rest of the week so jeonghan basically trained you

and since you pretty much got the gist of it from the first day its been pretty smooth sailing

you guys weren’t the only ones working at the store but you just always kinda ,,, gravitated towards each other and just always helped each other

it wasn’t like you guys weren’t friends with the other employees it just that it just felt really comfortable when you guys were working together

jeonghan will never admit it but having you around was like a blessing cause you never realized that you basically did like all the work while he did one thing in the past hour evil,evil angel

and even when things were hectic and all in the store you guys just always had each other’s backs

there was this one time where jeonghan was dealing with this guy who kept yelling about something no one understood and he just looked at you and mouthed help

you smirked at him and pretended you couldn’t understand what he was trying to tell you even though he knew you could

jeonghan’s pleading look got to you so you just sighed and decided to help as if you weren’t gonna sooner or later

you came over and sweetly asked what the problem was

and you just smoothed over the problem like it was no biggie and  jeonghan’s like you, you are my god

on days that were pretty slow cause the lack of customers, you guys would sneak some snacks in and eat them in the back room

you guys would play games and you were dying cause ??? he always won ?? how ?? he would just smile as sickly sweet as he could while saying that no one could beat the angel before laughing

he told you mindlessly before that he kinda nicknamed himself angel and you gave out the biggest laugh since he was far away from being angelic except from his looks wait i didn’t say that what

you guys would just play games when you were bored in the store ,,, like who could come up with the ugliest outfits and stuff

you always had a good time with each other whether there was nothing to do or when you both are literally dying because of all the work to be done 

you had just become so comfortable with each other ,,, talking about anything and everything and always enjoying each other’s company

one day on a particularly boring shift jeonghan was like y/n~ i’m so bored~~~

you laugh while you fold clothes and ask what he had in mind 

he then was like !!! we should try to make an outfit for each other !!! and whoever has the better one wins !!!

you’re like alright game on, but the loser has buy the winner ice cream after this shift

and he smirks and hes like you got yourself a deal

so you guys have 20 minutes to make an outfit for each other

you casually walk around the store ,,, pretending to be fixing stuff up at the mens area and secretly take the clothes you wanted

you took this white plain tee and paired it with a denim jacket that had a fur lined collar, then took some black ripped skinny jeans 

it was yet again another simple look but jeonghan didn’t usually wear something flashy

you thought it would suit him ,,, it was chic yet simple and very boyfriend

you met up with him at the third floor ,,, somewhere where your boss or coworkers wouldn’t find you guys goofing off even though they knew you guys would 

you both put the clothes in bags so the other wouldn’t see until you got into the dressing room 

once you both got in your separate stalls you both gasped softly

you opened the bag and saw this ///outfit///

it was a white shirt dress paired with a denim flannel 

he even got you accessories ,,,  a simple gold chained necklace with your name’s initial ,,, as well as a gorgeous charm bracelet with a charm of your favorite animal

and that really touched your heart ,, like he remembered you saying you loved that animal from a while ago

after you guys changed you came out of the stalls and looked at each other ,,, then looked at both of you in a mirror

“wow we are totally matching” jeonghan says, still gazing at the mirror

you guys started laughing as your outfits are eerily similar 

you kinda ,,, liked it ,,, liked that you were matching

“I gotta say that I won on this one though” he mentions with a confident smile 

“what! the outfit fits you wayyy more are you kidding me?”

“what?? the outfit fits you beautifully ,,, and i even got you accessories!!!!”

you had to cave in and were like ugh fine you win i’ll get you some ice cream

you guys were about to change when jeonghan grabbed your wrist to stop you from changing back

“umm ,,, you don’t have to change,,”

and you’re like ??? jeonghan that’s stealing??? i need to change back lol

and jeonghan’s suddenly shy, which is rare, and starts looking down at the floor

“i kinda bought the outfit for you already ,,,, cause i knew you would look amazing in it ,,,”

and you are ///FLUSTERED/// and you’re intensly blushing as you’re like what??? no no no you didn’t need to ??? i can’t take this

and he holds onto your wrist a bit more firmly and looks into you eyes as he’s like please just take it ,,, you look beautiful in it ,,, if you really wanna pay me back for it ,,, you could go on a date wih ,e?

and here comes the butterflies in your stomach is it bad that my hearts beating hard for this??

and you’re like you wanna go on a date with me?

and hes like yeah,,, ever since you’re and i saw you checking me out LOL

at this point you’re a blushing mess but he makes you look at him and takes both of your hands

and he’s like i seriously like you and asked if that’s a yes and you’re like !!! yes, of course !!!

his smile looked so heavenly you thought you saw a halo above your head as he was like imma go change now, don’t you dare change out of that amazing outfit brought to you by yours truly

you laugh as you think that’s probably one of the last things you would think of doing right now

after he’s done you both giddly try to get out of work early by telling your manager you both have the flu and you both try to act sick 

but your manager just becomes giddy and is like YOU GUYS ARE GOING ON A DATE AREN’T YA

and you’re like what?!?! no!!! we’re both dying from sickness that’s all!!!

your manager wasn’t even listening to you as she was running around telling the other employees that the ship has sailed !!!! jeonghan finally did it !!!

you and jeonghan are like ,,, what have we done to her ,,,

your manager then pushes you both out of the store and tell you to take the whole damn weekend off 

while you guys are walking off you can hear the whistles and cheers of your co-workers and the occasional ‘don’t forget to invite me to your wedding’

and the date was perfect 

you guys just walked around the city, taking pictures of each other, buying all the street food you could then sitting at a nearby park

and the date felt so natural ,,, just like you were hanging out

except ,,, the hand holding, hugging and ,,, kissing hdkssk

you guys wouldn’t usually show pda but you both were just so happy and giddy you couldn’t get enough of each other

and before you said good bye you bought jeonghan his ice cream ,,, and maybe had the best goodbye kiss you’ve ever had sjdkdj

all you could think about that night was even if you lost the game that day ,,, getting your job, meeting jeonghan and falling for him made you the true winner 

[misterbitches]

Im not intelligent at all. In the conventional sense. The ramblings of a girl who just has sooo much going in in her head it's constant. But im not a genius. Or that confusing.

It just sounds like I am bc fandoms have this issue where they can JUSTSO point out the issues in soletiing. They can pick and prod and go oh problematic! But then you go to name the problems and the difficulties within society like for ex: the idea of representation in general. Salivating over it. How fucking sad that is. How we are trained to accept it. So in a BL and also RACE in the bl genre they exploit viewers naivete both domestically and internationally. Ive seen tons of people liken being asian to being a person of color. However, in their predominantly homogenous society (or intentionally publically homogenous society), they are not "poc" (also name the of color; i dont use bipoc idc if u do but it's called being asian guys cos yall aint talkin about black ppl lmao)

They as humans seeing other humans who look like them everywhere, engage with the world differently than an american in asia or asians living outside of their home country (like bae doo nanwhen she worksnin the US is not the same as the bae doo nanworking on a korean program) I dont complain about it in everything i see bc ppl say it ALL THE TIME. but it is NOT the same. Being a person of color is very distinctly an american concept. This is all stuff people will get to know on their own if they choose to dig more.

I do my best to underline what my ugly little eyes process. How i figure things out as a black female american artist too! Im hard on shit cos i should be. I take it seriously. And even if i dont take it seriously bc THEY dont then thats their problem.

I know this is a complaint that I am not alone in. I know it's the internet. I just don't get how people can write really heavy analysis but they refuse to actually probe the underlying issues. Not everyone is me, or like my friends, but if there's way fewer people talking about this stuff it seems absolutely glaring when theres few people engaging in the way i do. It seems like im the glitch but I am thinking just as much just differently.

I really loved where your eyes linger but there was little deep class analysis. I remember few convos a bout it. I know a lot about korea (sigh being a black ex kpop fan lol mess) and i love the history but all ofnit matters! Korea's relation to labor!

People bringing up thai actors snd actresses leaving the industry and doing acting as something quick. As an artist~ who went to film school with insanely wealthy ppl and isnin tons of debt you have to understand how shitty that is. People have monetary access and they just fucking do whatever just because they want to. Meanwhile you have young people being coerced into this bullshit mainstream life to LITERALY just make money bc they dont come from a rich background. The wealth gap in thailand is BAD, theres a dictatorship, they had a fucking coup. The governments like here do not respect their people. Their marginalized groups. Trans thai women, black thai ppl, poor thai ppl. And it LITERALLY CANNOT DO ANYTHING EFFECTIVELY IN CAPITALISM. No nothing can be perfect but if it's going into our eyeballs and we can view the worlld critically then why the fuck not!???

I dont say the things i see are wrong always. I reply when i think i need to. I try and engage with others but not to kuch avail. I just want to rb stuff and tdhink lajfhhdjwhjej.

But like yea theres a lot of just wrong or misguided stuff. A lot of the times it is just historical inaccuracy in framing or idk. A refusal to think outside the box. I dont care. Theres more to life than just sort of looking and not thinking especially for othrr artists.

Idk im sorry. I dont see how i can change how i view things. I really wish people would expand their palettes too and go deeper into other means of art from places! Things not in the mainstream! Theres a lot of good thai artists and a lot of them critical as fuck about their country as they should be. Authority, austerity, patriarchy, capital, racism etc like that is central to a power thats interested in growing gains and fiscal and social power. Theres rly radical or left leaning etc ppl out there in the world and these countries in these communities. So they exist. No people in these countries dont have NO clue whats going on. Cultural relativism is alsos something people should understand. I had a good talk with ppl on here a while ago about that. Talking about shit, critiquing, but being respectful to a group. Part of thay is realizing these groups CLEARLY know their own issues and all our cultures share the same goal. Guess what it is. It rhymes with acquiring wealth. Money means you hurt people. In the post, we talked about use of "wife" and "husband" which is a stupid joke that has been "explained" a billion times and yet the explanations still dont seem to answer or justify a minor problem (it's very funny to me that a language that doesnt have gendered pronouns is now very specific about two men. Hmmm wonder why. It is annoying.)

So im not the only person on the planet doing this. Or the few ppl ive seen that do. Im not new my thoughts arent new. Ive gotten to see another side to a culture i knew not much about and that means i can put the context of my beliefs and life and try and understand thheirs. For ex i learned from ITSAY because of a sign that said 'french food' that they were the only country to not be colonized back then. Do you know how integral that history is to their region? That was an interesting detail (i didnt finish itsay bc ihad a lot going on and i was rly upset that i would see hownrich they are and i hate that.)

Anyways thats my complaint. It used to feel like a sting of rejection. I left online for months in 2019, i started organizing more, joined a union, trying to do some panther work shit like that. I learned a lot in those months and it changed my life! But when I came back, I felt so isolated. It wasnt my true friends tho sometimes theyre ANNOYINGGGGG (love u) but it was me being like "if we are going to complain guys then lets put our money where our mouth is" lets be fucking serious about it then. No say it with your chest dude. It isnt difficult. Go with the fucking flow, talk about it, critique it, think. You can still fucking like itnor love it.

I am BLACK ok and i love rap. I am a black woman. I will continue to clown black men that cant seem to not clown themselves and listen. No i wont support monetarily: drake is a creep and i hate him but i bump that niggas song. Thats fucking LIFE. I got so sick of hiding myself and it became clear that it wasnt that i wasntthinking well or hard enough. They just didnt like that i said we need to commit class suicide and inspect out middle class sensibilities and middle class wealth hoarding (google it) if thats what we engaged with. Every part of you, antagonize it. I still have my privileges; class, skin color, even my father being a nigerian immigrant, me being cis, im not str8 but not a lesbian and those are differences.

Insecurities in general but some shallow thoughts (?) on discussion in "fandom" space. FYI, this will most likely stay the same. I tend to stay in my own bubble socially IE me and my friends are similar in our views. During this awful year while running my union's account, im surrounded by like minds. Me and my friends? We changed together. We grew up and saw what we didnt like and what we want. We do our best.And i CHOOSE my life to be that way bc it should be. There is no solution. I dont believe in solutions because the solution is to abolish capital or just divest. Abolishing capital and labor are a huge one and i will die before that happens (but so help me as long as im alive? Black women to FREEDOMMMM is my motto!) so making your own path in life is the best thing an artist can do IN MY OPINION.

However with technology and stuff this puts another layer onto things. Tech, social media, this shit....it THRIIIIIIIVESSSSSSS off of conflict and shallow readings of the world. We are literally primed for it. Engagement in bites. Impossible for me with my brain; i got used to it and i paid for it by limiting my scope. Not being encouraged to THINK AND READ before just speaking

(For ex i am in iww, i helped form a branch here. It is a radical union. Unionism is imprative to me-if ur interested u should read up on some. Look up peter cole! Google inthesetimes Ilwu. Gives you some understanding. Ive always been progressive and now i am....very left idk ic ant label myself. But even in my progrssiveness i had the gall to tell my white friend, whoa has her privileges but i had mine with our class disparity, that we dont need unions, i have WORKED retail. Ive done barista work for sonoing and i do gig work. So i wasnt out of touch. I had been stiffed even with a shoot i was working on by rich kids. So i had a frame of reference . But i didnt know what the FUCKa union was and why it is imperative. Then learning about anarcho syndicalism and all these other things. It changed my fucking life but two years earlier i was this idiot spouting shit like that making one of my best friends fucking upset. We DO AND CAN CHANGE. Think!!!!)

So were i a creator for tv id just constantly try and push the buttons if i need big money. Make them sell into me (thank you sonic youth!) theres Endless possibilities guys which means theres SO MUCH TK EXPLORE!!!! When i wanna have fun with it i just have fun. When i want to think i do. I dont understand why we are so dedicated to upholding things and doing mental gymnastics to end up in a space you dont need mental gymnastics for. What about these critiques makes you uncomfortable? Saying we're all part of the problem as spectators? Im sorry but we will always be. Thats LIFE. God fuck. Fuck me. I feel so fucking worthless and stupid sometimes. I know I am not. I know i am talented and intelligent. I know my friends and family. I know how to approach ppl. I know how to tell people if they are rich but want to be progressive whatsup. I choose how i live part of that is being ok to say what i want.

Ironically consrrvatives say this shit alot. But they arent ever alone bc their ideology is default. But yea it does feel shitty. It even feels shitty when ur in left circles but people STILL dont even wanna do that. These perspectives really arent ss many as they should be. I dont want to feel so alone with it. I know there are more. I just love art and the world so fucking much, endless possibility. Endless pain but endless good.