#AND THEN IT KEPT GOING!!! I CANT LIVE LIFE WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE. I REALIZED TOO LATE. ONLY DEATH CAN REND OUR LOVE APART.

[nyxofdemons]

i'm literally still not over the duet btw and i will never be over the duet, like i cannot tell you how absolutely SHOCKED i was when blitz started singing. the full moon duet had been REALLY built up by the time it happened, but i feel like i was totally blindsighted with this one. blitz softly started "what have you done?" and i nearly fell out of my chair

[literaila]

moving in

gojo satoru x fem!reader

summary: today’s the day

warnings: literally nothing so short it makes me want to cry

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*

year three

“you know that you’re supposed to be helping, right?”

your hands are sore from lugging bags in for the past hour. you feel a bit out of it—with this change, the shift in atmosphere.

and still, satoru doesn’t seem to care. he’s been sitting there for thirty minutes, watching you and the kids lug your things into the house.

(so maybe he’s finally convinced you. and maybe you’re settling into his guest room, ready to be a part of this daily life—this satoru-filled house. maybe it’s moving day, and you’re not even worried about it).

his feet are up on the couch, hands behind his head as he smiles idly. “i’m watching to make sure that you’re all doing it right.”

his voice echoes in the large room. a part of you is angry at him, and another part is amused. how you let him convince you of this, you’re not sure.

you would cross your arms, were it not for the box occupying them. “because there’s an incorrect way to carry in boxes?”

“i think i heard megumi drop at least three.”

“and yet you’re still sitting there. not helping.”

“i told him it was fine,” satoru argues, his grinning voice evident. “you probably didn’t need whatever was in those.”

“get up.”

“i cant,” he groans, tilting his head back.

“you said you would help,” you remind him—because he swore to you when you settled on today for moving things. because you know that satoru is a liar, but it’s not like you’re not going to call him out for it.

his hand waves and you pretend not to pay attention to the veins you can see on his wrist.

“i am helping,” he tells you. “moral support is very important.”

“so is physical help.”

“if you want some help physically,” he smirks, “you only have to ask.”

“im going to move back out.”

he laughs, moving his feet off of the coffee table. “too late,” he tells you.

“c’mon, satoru. we’re almost done.”

“see? you don’t need me.”

“i’m going to take the kids out for sushi without you if you don’t get up.”

“you wouldn’t,” he pours, very seriously.

“try me.”

he groans but doesn’t move.

“get up,” you repeat.

satoru turns his head to the side, and then back to you. he whines. “but i hate moving. it makes me all sweaty, and my hair gets messed up, and i already showered today.”

you roll your eyes. “you smell anyway.”

“why couldn’t we just hire someone to do this?” he asks, for probably the fifth time today.

“um, because we’re not losers,” you retort. “there’s four of us. we’d probably already be done if someone had helped out.”

not that you have a lot to move in. back at school there wasn’t a ton of room for anything, and you’ve kept the habit of an empty living space since.

unlike satoru, who decorates like his life depends on it. who’s house feels more like a museum, cluttered and spacious.

“yeah, megumi,” satoru adds, as the boy lugs in another box, his face covered completely.

megumi lowers the box to his waist, shaking his head at satoru.

unlike satoru, both of the kids have been very helpful. they’re both excited to have you there—according to all three of them. it’s probably the reason you haven’t started looking for another apartment.

megumi frowns at the man, turning to you with deflated hair. his face is a bit flushed from running around. “is he getting old?” he asks you, very seriously.

“what?” satoru gasps.

“is that why he can’t move boxes?” megumi continues, and tsumiki creeps up behind him, looking towards the three of you. “he hasn’t done anything.”

you snort.

tsumiki pouts, looking between the two of you. “will it hurt him?”

“well, kids,” you say, evil grinning towards the senior man. “satoru just needs to take it easy. i mean, look at him. see how his hair is already starting to grey?”

“it’s white,” satoru pouts, gaping at you.

“yeah, i saw him pluck some of it in the mirror the other day,” tsumiki frowns at satoru.

“and those wrinkles,” you nod, sadly. “yeah, we better make sure he doesn’t overdo it. maybe we can take turns chewing his food and feeding it—“

“enough,” satoru says, up in an instant and stealing the box from megumi’s arms. his face is bland, annoyed. “i am the youth here.”

you laugh as he trudges down the hall, double the speed any of you have moved, and storms back outside to get another box.

the three of you watch this for a moment, and then you look to megumi, winking. “thanks.”

he gives you a private smile and then follows satoru to the truck, your hand on his back to lead him.

and then the three of you watch as satoru drops the box he’s trying to juggle, the distinct sound of glass breaking through the air.

“it’s fine!” he calls, and he’s definitely lying.

*

satoru wakes up in the morning all alone.

actually, it’s not like it’s that unusual. except that megumi is usually flicking him awake, or tsumiki is kissing his cheek and asking him how he slept.

he never sets an alarm anymore. why would he?

but this morning, he’s all alone when he wakes up, drool covering his pillow, neck sore from the weird way he slept.

there are no children disturbing his dream, no smell of burnt breakfast coming from the kitchen.

he wakes up alone, and immediately he’s searching for the children with his eyes.

he gets up out of bed, stretching briefly, before he walks to megumi’s room, not bothering to knock as he opens the door.

but there’s no little boy cuddled in the blankets.

so he moves to tsumiki’s room, right next door—sometimes he wakes up and they’re already fighting with each other, probably plotting his demise.

but her room is empty too.

so, in a last-ditch effort, satoru walks to his old guest room—now yours—and again, doesn’t knock as he creaks open the door.

and as soon as his eyes set sight on your bed, he wonders if he’s dreaming again.

there you are, cuddled with megumi and tsumiki on either side of you, chest rising and falling.

and, god. satoru cant believe you’re here. all of you.

he can’t believe he gets to keep this family—this home he’s created—for as long as he can.

*

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[justastraymoa]

ADVENTURES WITH CHEESE EXTENDED EDITION PT 4

Life with the boys was an adventure. Now that they weren’t trying to get me to stay they had relaxed and really brought out their true selves. Too much of their true selves sometimes. They were a little too comfortable around me occasionally. I had seen way too much of some of them. I needed soap for my eyeballs.

Chan was specifically known for walking around in barely any clothes. Leaving very little to the imagination and giving me too much of a shock so early in the mornings.

However, I was still enjoying my new living situation. It was the first time since moving away from my birth home that I felt like I was in a home again. This apartment with these 4 men and Cheese was my home and my family as well.

Especially when they burst into my room in the early morning without knocking. As annoying as it was, it was still familiar. Familial.

Bin jumped on the bed next to me poking the top of my head where it peaked out from the blanket. “We are going to go out today, do you want to come?”

I grumbled. I did kind of want to go, but I also had been working extra hours at work and wanted to enjoy my day off. Starting with staying in bed late and sleeping in. “No, go without me. Ill do something with you guys later.” I promised.

With a loud whine Bin moved to drape his heavy frame over my smaller one dramatically. I let out a squeak as all the air in my lungs was forced out of me. “Binnie…cant…breathe!”

“You have been so busy we haven’t seen you in so long!” He whined still not moving off of me.

“I can see…the light.”

“Bin, she is actually starting to turn blue.” Lino came to my rescue finally.

I gasped in air dramatically when Bin finally rolled off me. It wasn’t that he was overly heavy, but I was laying on my side and my lungs were being crushed. “Drama Queen.” He grumbled.

“What did I do?” Hyune asked offended throwing his hands up.

“Not you, y/n!”

I slapped at Bins back playfully. “Next time let me roll over so I don’t die!”

Chan, ever the dad, stepped in before we could really start to argue with each other. “Alright, she has had a busy week. Lets leave her to get some rest.”

They filed out, making as much noise as possible. Lino and Chan each gave me a kiss on the top of my bedhead before my room was finally empty and quiet again. With a sigh I closed my eyes to hopefully catch up on some more sleep.

I woke up several hours later, groggy and bladder full. As I slowly woke up I was shocked that I was able to even sleep as long as I did. Usually, Cheese would have come in to find out why I was still in bed. Patting my face and back with a single sharp claw to see if I was still alive. Mewing in my ear and licking my hair into more of a knotted mess in worry when all I did was roll over instead of getting up. Seriously who needed alarm clocks when you had a cat?

But this morning my room was sans Cheese and my skin was cat scratch free. Suspicious I called for him.

Cheese always came right to me when I called for him. Even if he was with one of the boys. I was still and always will be his favorite. A subject of much jealousy in the apartment.

This time however, there was no patter of paws on the floor running to me. There was no questioning meow at the foot of my bed as Cheese asked to be lifted onto it instead of jumping because he was too lazy to at the moment. And he knew that I would lift him up every time.

Instead, there was silence. Not even the tv or music could be heard. This apartment was rarely quiet. Not even in the dead of night. Chan always had music going or way playing on his phone because he couldn’t sleep, and there was Cheeses snoring from whatever bed he chose to sleep in that night.

Throwing off the blankets I looked around the room, checking all his usual spots. “Cheese, baby, where are you?” I called moving to check the rest of the apartment.

Slowly as I kept looking I could feel my heartrate pick up and anxiety spike. Where was Cheese? I couldn’t find him anywhere in the apartment. I even filled his foot bowl, which always brought him running, belly pouch swinging side to side as he did.

I had to admit the picture they got was amazing. The cloudy sky and the barn with the field and Cheese being a black cat. Very witchy. Very Halloween. I saved the picture to my phone and took a deep breath.

My anxiety had ramped up pretty high while I was searching for Cheese, so now I was completely awake, full of anxiety, and a little jumpy as well. There went my relaxing day. Oh well. It was nice while it lasted.

They must have messaged me from the road because it was less than an hour later that the front door opened and four loud voices filled up the quiet I had been trying to enjoy. “Cheese!” I called holding my arms out for my baby.

With a loud meow Cheese ran into the room and jumped into my waiting arms, rubbing his head all over my face and purring loudly.

“Geez, we weren’t gone that long.” Chan said with a chuckle.

I glared playfully over at him, hugging Cheese closer and moving him away from them. “You were gone forever. I counted. And you stole my cat!”

“Our cat.” Lino corrected.

“I’m pretty sure Cheese is the one who owns us, not the other way around.” Hyune put in with a shrug like he knew this fact and did not care.

I shrugged back, it was pretty true, I had to give him that one.

Cheese refused to leave my side for the next several hours. Even doing his duty by following me into the bathroom for what I like to call toilet lovins. God forbid anyone in this apartment actually close the bathroom door all the way when Cheese wasn’t in the room with you. Cheese would yowl like you stepped on his tail and forgot to feed him until you opened it again.

Cooking dinner with Lino was a nightly thing now. We worked around each other like it was a highly trained dance. And we were even getting so good as not needing to ask each other for things, the other just kind of knew and had it all ready to go for the other.

The other 3 and even Cheese learned to stay out of our kitchen when we cooked. They only got in the way and ended up being stepped on or having something spilled on them. And then they had to deal with me or Lino or both of us being annoyed at them. Plus they had to clean up whatever mess they made.

It was during such time that both mine and Linos phone went off and I opened mine to find the scariest picture of Cheese I had ever seen in my life. And I took the picture of Cheese after he sneezed into the powdered sugar!

“What the fuck is that!” I asked mostly to myself, but it prompted Lino to check his own messages.

“I swear to god you guys are going to send me to an early grave! What is wrong with all of you?”

Lino scoffed and handed me a serving spoon. “Oh, please. You love us and you know it.”

I snatched the spoon from him and started stirring my stir fry, not responding to him. This caused him to chuckle as he passed behind me.

I whacked his arm.

I told the group over dinner that I would be heading out the following week for another overnight work trip. I felt a little odd. I didn’t wasn’t to assume that they would watch Cheese for me, but I also didn’t want to offend anyone by offering to find a cat sitter or something. It was a odd predicament to be in. Luckily Chan seemed to understand what I wasn’t saying.

“Don’t worry about Cheese. We got him.”

A released a breath in relief. “Are you sure though? I can try and find someone; I don’t want to leave it all on you.”

Hyune rolled his eyes. “Yes, y/n. We are sure.”

“Where are you heading this time?” Bin asked, smoothly moving the conversation on.

It turned out that my work trip was going to be very near Linos’s hometown. Something that perked him right up and got him animated.

“I should come with you. You can stay with me at my parents’ house, and I can visit for a couple of days. I haven’t been able to in a while and I miss everyone. Plus, my mother has been asking to meet you.”

I almost spit my mouthful of food out, instead forcing it and a lot of air painfully down my throat. “You told your mother about me?” I wheezed when I could talk again.

“We all have, im pretty sure. I know my parents ask after you and Cheese anytime I call now.” Bin shrugged.

Oh my god I was going to get murdered by their parents. At the very least they would give me a strange look wondering why a single woman was living with 4 grown men. This is the worst. This is it.

Lino laughed loudly. “You look ready to start crying, y/n. What do you think we have been talking badly about you?”

I flailed my arms in what I hoped properly conveyed my panic. “No, but your parents are going to think so badly of me and hate me!”

“Why?” Hyune asked furrowing his brows.

“Because I live with you! They will think I am some kind of slut or something! Oh lord, what have I done?”

“Relax, y/n! Its not like we are living in the 1900s. Men and woman live together all the time without being in a relationship.” Chan tried to soothe.

Truth was, I was full of anxiety the entire way there.

Even after the initial greetings and small talk, I was just waiting for the judgmental questioning to start. Not even meeting Linos cats helped.

Though Soonie seemed to know that I was feeling some type of way. Either that or he just took a good liking to me and wanted to be cuddled up to me a lot. It did help, so im not complaining.

Soonie, Doongie, and Dori were absolutely adorable, and Lino took such pride in introducing each of them to me. He had shown me pictures and videos of course, but nothing was like meeting them in person.

And he just kept telling me story after story about them. Even if I had already heard most of them. I let him tell me again, knowing that he had missed his babies and wanted to share his love for them with me. He wanted me to love them just as much. It was an easy ask. They were quite lovable.

It wasn’t until much later, when his mother was showing me where I would sleep that anything was actually brought up. “You seem a little nervous. My son said something earlier about you being worried I would look down on you for living with them?”

She said it like a question, but it was more of a statement of fact and we both knew it. “I don’t want any of the parents to think I am using them or taking advantage.” I simply explained instead.

Her smile was very soft and motherly. And I could see where Lino got his smile from. “From what the boys have told me-and yes I speak to all of them-you have been very good for them. Us parents worry about our kids being out there alone. And yes we worry that someone will take advantage of them. But you don’t seem like the type. If anything they are taking advantage of you.”

I balked at that. “Not at all! They have been very nice and welcoming!”

“Yes, I have no doubt about that. I raised my son well, he knows better. But people change when they move out. And they don’t always take care of themselves or their homes properly. But from what I’ve been told you keep them on their toes and in line.”

I chuckled almost humorlessly. “Yes, ive been told that I am too motherly. I smother mother people.”

This got a full laugh from the older woman. “That is not always a bad thing, dear. You just must find the right people to need and want that kind of person. And you found 4 of them.”

Compared to the last trip this one was smooth and easy. I got to spend time with Lino and his family when I wasn’t working instead of in a lonely hotel room or with people from work I barely know and liked even less. And it seemed to go by a lot faster too, though that was both good and bad. Especially for Lino who seemed to get sadder and sadder as the days went by.

There was also the fact that I did not need to worry about Cheese this time around. The others sent regular update and pictures in the chat and seemed to be having fun.

I laughed maniacally knowing that I now had a text chain going with his parents.

A/N: okay so like listen. I have no idea about anyones family/parents in Stray Kids. They don’t seem to talk about it much and I respect their privacy. Again this is all for fun and made up.

Thank you for reading, and thank you for interacting in any way if you do. And even if you don’t.

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[iamthejam]

i need to rant about sam right quick.... more specifically the whole demon blood era cause OH MY GOSH.

 sam thought he was doing the right thing yet everything warned him against it: dean, bobby, catiel, angels, HIMSELF, yet his mindset was if he kept a level head he could keep going, but how can you tell if youre going insane?? youre not gonna be like "hey myself, yeah this is totally wrong." sam knew he was helping people. HOW could you stop helping people, doing your job??? he had so much trust in ruby, which saddens me HOW much trust. dean was dead. he wasnt coming back. how is sam supposed to cope with that normally?? the only person he loved more than anything, the person he'd been through everything with, the person that was the thing only grounding him in the insane life they live in. with that gone how are you supposed to go on? well after doing quite literally everything he thought of trying to get dean back, he had no hope. but he needed something to take the place of dean, which ruby had taken the chance in sams weakened state and slipped in. now tell me how sam wasnt going to trust her?? he was blinded, to everything. he did the one thing he knew to do: save people. when someone tells you can save more people, wouldnt you take the opportunity?? sam did.

like i said earlier, he was blinded, so he really couldnt see he was slowly turning himself into something he promised himself he wouldnt, all he saw was the people he saved. when dean finally came back he didnt stop, i mean why would he? he kept going, and going and going, at this point he had almost completely lost himself. it didnt matter that he had dean, he had already come to reality that dean was gone.

now DONT GET ME STARTED ON DEAN FINDING OUT. how could dean not freak? now its deans turn to come to reality: his little brother is addicted to demon blood. what? his sammy?? no, no his sammy wouldnt do that... right? i mean he would see that ruby is no good. right? he would see past the people he was saving and know he was turning himself into a freak. right!?! no. it wasnt his sam. now what is dean supposed to do? it obviously wasnt his brother, his brother wouldnt do that.

so he and bobby did what they thought was the best attempt to help him: cage him. like a violent animal, which was what sam was slowly becoming. 

now if you think that was hard for dean to do, think about sam. sam was being thrown into a panic room because his family thought he was a freak. he was helping people why couldnt they see that? and why couldnt sam see he was losing himself? everybody thought they knew what was best. they thought was right. 

i just cant see. how are you supposed to cage your brother without even talking? how are you supposed to think drinking demon blood was for the greater? i cant see a right here.

when sam was in the bunker room the demon blood threw the last punches it could. it made sam hallucinate, it made him think mary was on his side, that dean and bobby were only scared of his power, it made his younger self talk him down, it made dean say nasty things. it threw him around the room like a rag doll. it made him believe allister was torturing him in the worst ways possible. all this happened as he screamed and screamed; no one came. the people he loved left him to die it felt like.

so when he got free why wouldnt he run as far as he could? as far away from bobby and dean as he could get, mentally and physically.

[simplygyuu]

Nouvelle Crown - 003 : 7 eleven?

tweets and written!!

synopsis : choi beomgyu, the second prince of the royal choi family doesnt have much of a life outside of his duties. even then hes not allowed to do much, his brother is the crown prince after all. but when he meets you, a regular commoner girl, through his brothers friend soobin he cant help but be intrigued. commoner life is so different from what he knows and you are the only person to treat him like the normal teenager he always longed to be. with you he gets to experience the normal, teenager life behind the backs of his overbearing family.

The last way Beomgyu expected to be spending his night was walking down the dark streets, not one guard at his side and only being accompanied by Kai. Honestly he was pretty fucking freaked out simply by the fact that he snuck out. Never has he done anything rebellious, too worried about being perfect enough to finally get some praise from his family. Being anything but perfect had never even crossed his mind (even if he happened to make mistakes from time to time, which usually ended up in a breakdown).

Either way he couldn't help the curiosity coursing through him as well. He never went outside of the palace grounds if it wasn't for a public appearance and he definitely didn't go to this side of town. What was up with all the overgrown plants and flickering street lights? Why were the shops so run down looking and small? He didn't know this was simply the lower middle class, not even poverty. He was just that out of tune with his own nation since he's always been so sheltered.

"I promise nobodies gonna be outside at this time, especially not at a 7 Eleven." Kai reassured him, confidently leading the way. Kai had a lot more freedom than he did, Beomgyu often longed to live as a Huening instead of a Choi. "Speaking of 7 Eleven, how do you not know what that is?"

"You know how my father is, Kai. Hes so crazy about me leaving the palace and coming in contact with 'commoners' and all that. He doesn't even want me learning about anything in our nation outside of the rich people stuff. Im still surprised he even lets Soobin hyung and my brother be friends." Beomgyu mumbled, eyes big and curious as he took in the unfamiliar scenery. He had a mask on curtesy of Kai, just in case somebody saw them.

They lulled back into a comfortable silence before Kai pulled him into a building with the most atrocious green, red, and orange color scheme. A bell jingles above their heads as they walked in, catching Beomgyu off guard. Hes never even gone shopping before, so this was all new to him.

"Im gonna go look for some jellies, you should explore. Who knows when i'll be able to get you out here again." Kai gave Beomgyu a little shove towards a row of shelves before walking away. Thankfully, Kai was tall and easily spotted over most of the shelves which eased Beomgyus nerves.

Hesitantly Beomgyu glanced around, standing there awkwardly for a few beats of silence before finally walking down an isle. Immediately his attention was caught onto the shelves filled with snacks ranging from chips to things like pickles and other snack foods. It was the weirdest assortment of foods hes ever seen.

While walking he wasnt looking straight, eyes glued to scanning the isles before he found himself bumping into something. A high pitched yelp met his ears, causing him to whip his head around to see a girl falling. Without much of a thought he jumped forward to put one hand on her elbow and the other on her waist for a split second as he kept her from falling. As soon as she seemed to be balanced again he let go and took a step away, immediately bowing towards her.

Now when you said you wanted to restock on peanut butter you didnt think that would lead to you almost being bulldozed over by this tall guy with pretty eyes and nice clothes. You hadnt even noticed him in the isle until he full on ran into you.

"Im so, so very sorry! I didn't mean to bump into you, I apologize for my careless actions." The man spoke, his eyes on the floor as he avoided eye contact guiltily. The way he spoke was different thats for sure, weirdly formal for someone who looked so young.

"No, its okay dont worry about it." You reassured him, you could feel his guilt coming off him in waves and it made you feel a bit bad for him. "It was a honest mistake!"

"Ah, still.." He trailed off, fiddling with his shirt before perking up. "What are you buying? I can get it for you! That way I can make it up to you." He exclaimed, eyes crinkling into an eye smile which made you assume he must be smiling underneath his mask. You didn't want to make him buy you something but he seemed pretty adamant. This could also be a chance of friendship, maybe you could agree then ask for his number so you could treat him to coffee as 'pay back'.

"Alright, if you say so." You finally said after a while of silence, turning back towards the shelf where you carefully picked a jar of peanut butter. You could feel his eyes on your back but you didn't say anything.

"Cmon then, this is all I wanted." You piped up, beckoning him to follow you as you approached the cashier. Out of the corner of your eye you saw how he wouldn't stop looking around the store in awe, has he never been to a 7 Eleven or something? You huffed a bit at the thought, thats just impossible.

As you gave your peanut butter to the cashier and heard the girl recite back the price you felt a gentle tap on your shoulder. Turning around you saw him holding out his card hesitantly.

"I uh.. dont really know how to do this.." He mumbled, scratching his neck. You couldnt help but smile a bit even if it was pretty weird. Then, you actually noticed his card. Your eyes widened as you noticed he was holding out a black card towards you, how rich was this kid?

You took the card, making a conscious effort to not see the numbers since you didnt want to have some rich people on your back before inserting the card and stepping away to let him input his pin. A few minutes later you both were stopped in front of the exit as he bounced a bit on the balls of his heels and kept looking back towards the isles.

"Wow! You have a black card?! What are you doing out here then?" You couldnt help but ask once away from the cashier, eyes wide. Sheepishly he looked back at you and fiddled with his sleeves.

"My friend brought me along with him but I dont really know where he went.." He replied, glancing towards the isles again before focusing back on you.

"Hmm.. Hes probably getting a drink in the back. Its hard to see back there from here anyways." You informed him kindly, noticing how fidgety he seemed. "Oh, thats right! Do you think I could get your number? You seem cool and I think we could be good friends! Plus, I'll need to repay you for buying this for me."

For a few seconds he just looked at you with wide eyes and you couldn't tell what was going on inside that head of his. You assumed he was going to say no with how long he stared but you were pleasantly surprised when he finally took the phone from your hands to input his number. Once he handed it back to you, the contact 'Gyu' was added to your phone.

"Thank you! Ill send you a text, yeah? See you around, Gyu!" You said happily, smiling as you waved goodbye and stepped out the door easily. He would be a nice addition to the friend group, you hummed.

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|Joel Miller|

○Death and me○

Warnings: thoughts about death, fear of death. ⚠️ (Joel Miller comforting reader. Reflection on death.)

You remembered having a moment in your life when these ideas didn't let you sleep, but over the years they disappeared and you simply thought it was something temporary.

But one night, after finding out about the death of one of the members of Jackson, that feeling, those thoughts came back.

Joel had fallen asleep hours ago, but you kept thinking and thinking... the pressure in your chest getting bigger and bigger.

What was next? Would you see your parents again? Could you see Joel again? Was it going to be all darkness? Were you going to reincarnate? have another life and forget this one? What would happen to your conscience? Would you realize that you were living another life? Or could you reunite with all those who had already left and be together for all eternity? was there anything else? or was it the end completely?

You didn't want to keep thinking about it, you didn't want to let those thoughts prohibit you from continuing, but it was too late.

The tears were already falling non-stop from your face, your hands were already shaking too much and it was impossible for you to hide your cries.

You couldn't even get up and go to the bathroom so as not to wake Joel. On the contrary, the only thing you could do was turn on your side, put your arm around Joel's waist and press your face to his back.

Joel had spent so much time outside, having to pay attention to everything, that the moment he felt you move, he woke up. He turned around with a smile on his face, loving the idea of having you by his side... but when he heard your desperate cry his smile faded completely.

Joel I don't need to ask you what was happening... he had his suspicions and upon hearing your words, he was able to confirm them.

"I-I dont...i-i do-dont want you to-to die...i dont want to die...i-i cant im s-scared...no...Joel no..." you repeated over and over again, the fear and desperation becoming greater and greater.

Joel just hugged you tight while trying to comfort you. A few years ago, you had told him about your fear, but he had never seen you like this.

"I know baby...I know you are scared...but there is nothing that we can do, you know?" His words only made you cry so hard, because he knew he was right.

"I dont know...what...wh-what happend after? I can't live without you joel..." You felt a desperation in your chest that only created more and more. There was no answer, or possible answer that would give you security, no one knew exactly what would happen... Joel couldn't promise you that he would see you again.

"I know, my girl, and I'm sorry for not having a scientific or religious answer that can ease your heart...But it will be of no use if you live thinking about that, if you do not enjoy the now because of something inevitable... not everything has an answer, not everything has a solution and we cannot know everything... in this case we only have to settle for what we have. ..and you know what we have? We have each other. We have Ellie, Tomy, Maria, we have days, months, years ahead, it doesn't matter how many but we have them, we have beautiful moments to remember...Don't let this stop you from living, don't let that keep you from us... live now, enjoy. When the time comes it will be what it has to be... okay?" The fear came from one moment to the next, but Joel's words always managed to make them leave as quickly as they arrived.

"Yeah...you're right..." you said as you caressed his face.

"Im here...I love you baby."

"I love you too Joel..."

Maybe they only had hours left, maybe days, months or if they were lucky years... but at the end of the day Joel was right. What's the point of worrying about something that was going to happen anyway? All that was left was to live in the now, enjoy it to the fullest and live as if there were no tomorrow.

The only thing left to do was keep looking for something to fight for.

SORRY I know it's a little sad and short...but it's something that happens to me often and I wanted to write to Joel comforting someone who has the same thing happen to them.

Also a little to reflect on that fear and try to move forward.

What do you think about the topic?

I promise to write something more fun next time (I'm preparing the second chapter that I promised you) 😭

Leave me ideas of stories you would like to read! 💫❤

LY💝

[notthestarwar]

for the WIP game, can you tell me more about ‘Fox gets a job- quin/ Fox’ 👀👀

thank you for asking!

OK so i know i've talked about this on here before but i love this au so i'm gonna repeat myself a bit probably.

so its set post war, no order 66. The idea is that the war opened everyones eyes to cloning, in a very bad way. loads of half bit criminals are like. free labour? people we can raise to do whatever we want? why don't we give it a try. theres a background of a lot of shitty gangs going about trying out cloning in a way that would horrify the kaminoans really. this is not good science, this is comic book-esque backstreet cloning in order to take advantage of people.

they are largely not successful. the problem isnt that there are loads of gang owned clones around. the problem is that they keep trying even tho they dont know shit about cloning and so vulnerable ppl are getting kidnapped off the streets for gennetic material and in a baby farm type way to grow clones in. its bad.

enter fox. he's drifting after the war. he doesnt really know what too do with his life. he is looking for a job and he says he wants a job but everytime he gets an interview he's overly honest and tells them things like 'yeah i killed my last boss' (palpatine) and 'my greatest flaw? i'm too competent. it makes my bosses feel inferior' and so understandably nobody will give him a job

he doesnt actually need a job. quin is paying all his bills cause theyre in a weird not relationship and wont admit they care about eachother. fox is deadly embarrased about whatever quin funding him and spending all his days off in fox's apartment might signify and so it is a MASSIVE SECRET that must be kept from fox's brothers.

so fox at this point in his life, stumbles on to one of these cloning ops and ends up helping someone. and it becomes kind of addictive. he wont admit it but helping these people, who are being hurt by cloning, settles something in him. maybe it settles the thing in him that he wont admit is so hurt by the cards he and his brothers have been dealt, by what was done to them.

so fox sets up as a private investigator. but because he's a weirdo who runs from intimacy he kind of. doesnt tell anyone (he cant. this is important to him) but of course, his brothers find out anyway and they also find out that he's running the worst business ever because he's not taking money from his clients. because he doesnt feel right doing it.

now where this is building to (and this is the part that i kinda got stuck on) is he stumbles on to a BIG criminall gang cloning conspiracy. one where they are actually succeeding in cloning people. he ends up investigating this one with Boba! which pretty much happens cause at the start before he knows how big this is, he walks in to this lab, and who has also broken in to the lab and is investigating the same conspiracy? BOBA. and its just like. fox and boba stood on either side of this illegal lab like. spiderman meme pointing. looking out of the window of a car as they drive past each other. that vibe.

and the rest of the story is boba and fox on this unwilling team up. neither of them wanting to admit to feelings but having to kind of both admit. yeah. bad things happened to us and i dont like the idea of anyone else being out there with similar stuff happening to them. they also unwillingly get close. then theres the side plot of fox having to admit his feelings when it comes too quin and admit that theyre kinda living like theyre in a committed relationship without the words. and then the other thing thats going on in the background is cody and obi wan, who are living together, in a happy relationship apart from the fact that they never have an empty house becuase one of them is aways inviting some wayward sibling or other to stay with them. cody and obi wan respectively have no shortage of family so its just constant and both of them act like theyre annoyed each time the others do it, but really, its why they love each other and theyre both so big brother coded and yeah.

so i know i've alread shared some bits of this here and here (and possibly theres a third one floating around here as welll? cant find it)

so here are some other snippets from other parts of the au:

and from a bit later on, a quin/fox bit

later on, fox being uncharactaristially honest (it's easier when the person doesnt matter to him)

and finally, fox's thoughts on the cloning problem

and i've shared loads sorry so i'll stop now, but yeah. this is an idea i am very excited about and i am very frustrated that i havent been able to form a conspiracy that fits right for him and boba to investigate

[moxxy-bunny]

Lico (Licorice) brings Bive back to the facility.

Regretevator oc shit

Lico dragging bive through a plains, to a cliffed area on the coast. Once there he picks her up by the back of the collar and sets her on her knees to look towards a deprecated and rubble'd science facility. "I brought you back as they ordered. You're finally back" bive still shaking and terrified from the kidnapping and likely the event that caused him to get ahold of her. Just stares switching back and forth from the rubble to him with his resting teethy grin, genetically ingrained into his body.

"I-its- Rubble…Theres nothing- Theres no…facility" It takes a solid few seconds for a response but he finally opens his mouth "Its Gone, Bive… Where i was made, where i trained, where i grew up, where i lived. My home is gone. All i had left was what they wanted me to do" Turning his head slowly his face is just as blank and manic with his broken spec's. "And you're finally home. My job- is done"

Reaching to his side he pulls out a revolver, Seeing it makes bive feel terrifyingly cold. Her back going into a cold sweat as she feels a monument of panic flood her brain thinking of what to do- Until the gun is aimed to the man's left temple. For whatever reason as she hears the hammer slowly creak as it pulls back she lunges knocking him just enough to turn a surefire suicide into a graze across his hair-flesh.

Pressing his hand still gripping the gun against the graze in pain he uses his other arm to grab her shoulder about ready to push her into the ground "The hell do you think you're doing?! My job is done, theres no one to capture, no one to drag back to the facility, and no one to thank me for all i fucking did to get you back her" In the grasp of the little ladies arms around his waist she tries to think of what to say, and why she did this anyways.

"They- You..I-I-I You…Cant- do that. You need to..uhm…p-protect people? Y-yeah you're a…c-cop! Keep people…safe?" She looks up at him with confusion, pity, and fear. The man who has torn through many passengers without mercy, who has pried close the elevator door to keep her from escaping when he arrives, who has dragged her for miles by her coat through the grass as she kicked, cried, and screamed. Now seems like a dog abandoned- tied at a post for someone to take pity and take home.

He finally pushes her off, gently however, letting her arms unclasp from him. "I know, delusions are a thing for us "V1's" and "V2's". Im no cop….It just- kept me from thinking about it…like you and your damned "Clown government"…." her eyes dart across his face thinking for any response, she feels her legs aching to run away and let him do whatever he will alone with the debris but she cant help but feel a need to argue for his life "T-the elevator is dangerous, people get hurt all the time…a c-cop could keep people safe…Pl-…please?"

Hearing that pathethic plead is enough to make him let out a huff, In a relief- his gun returns to a comfy spot in a leather pouch. It feels like Bive's muscles have been strunged up and dried with how much they were tensed, and the feeling of them returning to relaxed is almost painfully unfamiliar "Ill help…I know theres a few who cant hope to protect themselves, that kid, bug…the lamp…" He turns around, and heads off back to where the elevator would be. "Where a-are you going? Y-you arent abandoning me here? A-ARE YOU?!". "Redball, Nothing like a burger after a case closed, ill get you one too- citizen…"

"O-oh….okay…." Hurrying along she power walks till she's behind him. Staring at the back of his head thinking about everything that's happened. And now- she's getting a meal with her kidnapper.

(This was just written based on a regretevator oc i have. in short form, a Bive V2 made to bring her back to the facility ever since she escaped. slightly based off of Uno's professor dingus OC)

[reddogf13]

Very interesting! What do you think would've happened with Val if she was the cult leader? (Headcannons and such? Maybe Knoth died.) What if the towers were never put up? What would've happened then if she was the leader?

if before the tower and Knoth died (also assuming by old age and or disease.), Temple Gate may have been a bit better. overall though she and all of Temple Gate were raised on messed up cult values with flimsy "rules for thee, not for me." that Knoth had and Val as new leader would have had to either accept them or sweep them under the rug as "prophet only business". Most likely the later as Val wouldn't have been allowed in any of that. Or could even do such as “spreading the holy seed” to “increase gods army”

it also comes down to how mellow Val is before the tower. following my mellow version, it really would have been business as usual after a long mourning/ Knoth funeral. Then would come the biggest issue -the end is near!- … sort of. Knoths been preaching it for forever. 40+ years of Temple Gate and his time preaching at the ranch/ on the streets etc. and it only became a big deal recently because the radio tower went wonky and gave waaaaay too strong a signal.

Without any of that, it really would have been just living life in solitude before their own issues started becoming too much. Such as the rampant STDs, STIs, plain old infections to inbreeding. The electric grid/ generator and overall town rotting over time with no body teaching basic skills to do maintenance. Let alone read/ write.

MAYBE their would have been a struggle for power. But Val would have a lot on her side as a holy leader even during Knoths rule. So someone butting heads with her would have gotten a whole lynching mob for “heretics”. (the irony)

and MAYBE, as their numbers dwindled, Val would turn desperate to keep the community strong and see that Knoths past inbreeding practices are not the best. To put it lightly. And would actually head to the outside to try and recruit.

I cant see that going well at all for obvious reasons. From culture shock, unknowing of basic laws/ social standards. Etc. and even if they kidnapped people, police would be all over that and arrest/ vacate the cult soon as their found.

IF the tower was around with Knoth gone and Val fully leader. She actually may have held it together far better. Maybe even a good chunk of them as they would've never killed the kids. Val wouldn't have that extreme guilt and perhaps Marta would have never been an enforcer at all either. (If you go by my head canon that she was only appointed a little before the cull)

maybe they could have suffered from other guilt, as shown through notes of people feeling extremely over accidents. Val may have struggled to handle the out of nowhere chaos, but it may have been less -kill each other-.

And again, because Val reacts differently then Knoth or the town. She may have still known its something else. With a good chance she may have denounced it as Satan approaching/ trying to torment the town. Taking a far more defensive and somewhat logical stance that somethings not right. (around the children's cull, she had a lot of loyal faith and kept wondering where god was. And going on to question who and what god was exactly. Making god in her eyes actually far more positive then the punisher Knoth kinda paraded.) taking god as a positive force, this negative one wouldn't have been so easily accepted. Maybe yes or no on getting the -kill kids- message. But with 40 of her own kids on the line I think it would have set the voice as a force of evil and to be rejected.

Shooing the messages away and getting people to come together rather then the aggressive separation Knoth went that drove up paranoia/ guilt/ aggression.

As mentioned in the Murkoff note, the signal expands upon itself. Keeping strong instead of dying off by the time it reaches the town. Because of the cults own issues feeding it.

Tower causes guilt, paranoia, visions, aggression.

Then Knoth repeats it in his sermons, thus creating guilt(gods will to kill the kids/ your family. The scalled with there disease of the soul) , paranoia(your children and the unborn could be the antichrist), visions(the devils visiting you in your dreams) and aggression. (kill all doubters.)

without that, it cant build at all and remains the same strength or dies off with nothing to grip into. (this is also why Knoth with his cult ideas was targeted. Murkoff mentions it in the note and why its not a surprise the signal stays.)

ultimately though, following canon, the radio signal gets too strong and pretty much melts brains. As what happened with Blake despite surviving it all. So with the haywire tower, Temple Gate would've become comatose zombies.

as for Val's gender through all of this, I don't think they'd ever get comfortable about coming out as a women in either situation. Because its such a big church no-no. Unless it came to Knoth, Rules for thee and all that.

[anakinskywalkerog]

hi olii!!! i feel like i havent popped in to say hello in ages, how are you? what do you think of my new icon? :D

i have been lurking on My Very Soul and i now remember the song i felt really represented anakin and (y/n) - Call You Mine by Bebe Rexha and the Chainsmokers (i think? i just remember the name of the song)

btw, i felt like i should share, but i made an anakin playlist! i keep adding more when i feel like it. i think some midnights belongs on here, so, soon!

i hope you dont mind me ranting to you about everything lmaoo, i cant wait for you to reply back *sheepish grin*

on the sw side: stoked for the ahsoka series soon! i made a new sw friend, she's awesome! we vibe to the prequels, and anakin, and the mandalorian! her leavers shirt was the anakin vs obi wan battle!

on the me side: things have been good! everything has picked up and got better since the whole diary fiasco, despite what i thought! i even made up with the girl who i said some awful thngs about. she's a swiftie, so it's easy XD (also she is machete's gf's bestie). she told me she got eras tour tickets, im so happy for her! her lit exam was literally on speak now tv. legend. i'm glad we're not fighting anymore. i made new friends, kept some of the old ones. if i could go back... i dont think i would change a single thing :") our finals are over, we're officially out for the summer (prom was amazing) ive been really really happy, and i hope you are, too ❤

on the sad beautiful tragic love life of sythe side: well, maybe not so sad or tragic, because... *drum roll* i have a boyfriend now! he is neither machete boy, or cranberry hehe. he's perfect and i adore him :D let's call him eli, but he sends me good morning messages, and has adorable nicknames for me, and makes me feel amazing ✨

it seems like machete and i have just magically cleared stuff up between us? he certainly doesnt seem to harbour any resentment towards me, or anything. we talk rarely when cranberry's with us, sort of like a mediator ? (cranberry is the unfortunate and accidental middleman lol, literally) although we do most of the talking without cranberry, sort of ignoring cranberry being there. we even have a snapstreak going. i've made peace with [the idea of] his girlfriend (she turns up in his snaps but it doesnt bother me anymore!) ; i found her tiktok and spotify a while back (not that i was looking for it). she has a playlist for machete with a bunch of swiftie songs too haha. it's different from mine. i think mine got really crazy because its sort of a mix between him and some other people, too, plus some songs are just there because i like them lmao

cranberry also has a girlfriend too now, i'm friends with her, but we're not close. it was sort of rocky between us for a while, and some weird stuff and some not cool stuff happened, but we stayed friends :) if i'm being honest, she's not the first person i would ship with him, but if he's happy, i'm happy!

another friend i might have dated is still around haha. let's call him han solo, because thats who he reminds me of. he's also cranberry's best friend! (he and cranberry insisted i write a fanfic for them hehe it was hilarious and caused chaos but everything's good!) he probably knows about eli by now. my friend, let's call her luna, is the captain of the sythe x han ship, but eli exists, and she knows it. but, she'll always ship me and han, i guess. he's nice, too. we only became friends in the period after everything with mchete and cranberry, so i don't think you've ever heard of him? but we had a blast towards the end of the year. we might even go to school together next year? i don't particularly want to make major life decisions over a guy who isn't even my boyfriend, but if we do, i would be really happy :)

all in all, i suppose it is a lovely end to a chaotic but perfect year ❤ i hope everyone gets all the love they deserve and live up to their full potential! it's made me realize that life is full of ups and downs, highs and lows, heartbreaks and falling in love, but in the end, everything always works out! i don't believe in luck, just hard work 💪

lots of love,

sythe x

hi sythe omg sorry I missed this!!! good to hear from you ❤️ new icon is very cute

omg I’m so happy your life is going so well!! happy for u that you found a nice bf who and that you are getting along with those girls. hopefully some of your good luck will rub off on me 🤦‍♀️ glad to know there’s still a bit of intrigue with this han guy. but you should definitely not make life decisions for a guy…there will be plenty more guys 😂 trust me. but eli sounds super sweet

thank you for sharing your playlist and also, I am SO excited for the Ahsoka series!! also glad you made a star wars friend!

my life has been a bit of a mess this summer haha but such is LIFE sometimes we are chaotic girls and I am just weathering until the storm passes currently

check in again soon! ❤️

[buggyrpt]

this may be a depressing confession… but my very first friend from 2011/12 rp era unfollowed me on social media 😔 it made me realize that i’m really sad that i sucked at maintaining friendships ooc through the years, and that i didn’t really find my place in the dynamic when i tried to rejoin the community. however i do realize i had an angry and angsty presence when i was really active, so i’ve grown to realize it’s probably for the best that things ended up that way 🥲 but i think of everyone i’ve encountered so fondly, and i hope everyone is safe and healthy.

and i hope youre doing amazing too buggy!!! always sending love

aw bestie. i for one know how much that sucks!!! im about to get a bit too personal but tbh with u, my entire life ive struggled with loving and caring about people so much, but no one reciprocating that enough to call me their Best Friend, if that makes sense. ive always just been a good friend , but never the Best One, never the soulmate, never the one person the other cant live without, even though i personally have felt that way about others. quality time is one of my love languages, id rather be around friends than by myself most of the time. when i was in high school, i was going through difficult times but i had good friends by my side which makes me miss that time of my life so very much and hard for me to get over it. i felt like i had a community of people that i belonged with. after high school, they all kept in touch with each other, but i was left behind. they stopped reaching out to me, stopped checking in, stopped caring, just forgot about me. it was hard. and i just didnt know why. did i do something wrong? did i not do enough? it was hard for me to make friends after that and ive been so terribly lonely ever since. it's been really hard. i really do feel alone in life sometimes. i do have one good friend that i do consider my Best Friend (who coincidentally, i did meet in the rpc) that i dont know what i would do without!!! so trust me that i understand what its like to struggle to maintain friendships. its very very painful, especially when you dont know what it is about you that makes people not care enough or want to abandon you. i know all this is way deeper than just rpc friends but i thought id share either way and let you know that if you ever wanna talk and be friends i am here for u :)

[pizzatower60s]

Chapter 1

Mia arose from her bed grabbing her pink poodle dress and head band.

“First day of senior year i really cant believe it”

brushing her medium length brown hair she quickly bids her parents a-due and leaves off to her high school.

While she walks on the side walk of her neighbor hood she hears a voice

“Mia! Mia! wait up!”

Mia turns around to see her best friend Hazel and her boyfriend Theodore.

“Oh good morning Hazel!”

Just then Hazel grabs Theodores shirt sleeve and pulls him without warning closer to her “Me and Theo were walking to school want to join us”

Mia notices Theodores misery while around Hazel and cant help but feel a little distaste for the short man.

“of course i would love to!”

The three continue to walk silently before it was broken by Hazel.

“Mia! how was your summer i didn’t see you for almost the entirety of it!”

She says grasping the life outta Theodores hand.

“Oh yes apologize, I was caught up with my own things”

Hazel almost jumps up hearing this from Mia

“Caught up with a boy???”

She says excitedly. Mias skin crawls when the words “boy” come from Hazels mouth. Mias never been one for relationships she believes focusing on school will benefit her much more than any man could. She was much smarter than that to let desire take ahold of her emotions.

“Hazel…you know i don’t do…Boys”

She scoffs at the thought. Although more occasionally than she would like to admit she imagines what it would be like to be in love. To kiss to hug to- She quickly snaps back her thoughts.

“They are a waste of time. I can use all that time to move forward in my baking and my education”

the smaller women rolls her eyes

“Your no fun, How are u ever going to get a boyfriend or even get married! if you keep focusing on silly things such as education”

Theodore chimes in,

“Yeah, Dames like you don’t gotta worry about jobs and education when all you need is a husband, You dont need a degree to cook and clean”

Mia almost wanted to slap Theodore, but what can she do? Its true women aren’t exactly seen as the bread winners of the world, In fact the only time women had as many jobs as they did was during the war when all the men were away fighting. Infact hearing that story from her mother made her want to strive to have a higher education, Heck! maybe even be smarter than the men around her.

“Im not going to be victim of living my life for a man, Im going to live life for myself!”

The couple roll their eyes hearing a women say that in this day n age is unusual to say the least.

Really, its almost unheard of all of Mias friends seemed to have it all together. They all want to bare children for their husband and live life without making a single dime! Mia doesn’t see the appeal. If she were to ever be in a relationship she wants to be a team effort to make dough. Pun intended. Having her own bakery was mias dream. And she wouldn’t mind having someone to share it with. But school comes first.

speaking of school…

“Yes! senior years here we come!” Hazel giggles almost running into the school

“You must be calmer we are adults”

Mia chuckles rushing after Hazel

After Mia and Hazel depart to their lockers and to their classes. Mia takes a seat in her first period. Math class! Mia was partial to this class. The class that she had 5th period how ever was her all time favorite class, Culinary! Shes taken the class all four years and she adores it. First of all its an easy A. And second of all she just really likes to Bake.

She couldn’t wait for 5th period its what kept her going though out the day.

-Time Skip- (cuz i’m not a good writer)

“Finally 5th period”

Mia sighs and takes her seat.

An older women comes into the room.

“Good after noon class my name is Mrs Cassandra welcome to culinary class”

After the older women explains what they will be doing in culinary class she gets out a small sheet of paper.

“For our first assignment we will be working in groups of two, You will both be assigned a dish and its both your jobs to create it to the best of your ability”

The women begins to call names before she gets to Mias name.

“…..Jacob and Averie…Gustavo and john….and Mia and Peppino. Please work carefully and take your time”

“Peppino…?” Mia looks around and sees a man walking towards her. He was on the shorter side with long black hair that was slicked back with grease…”greaser…” Mia says to herself. She knows who greasers are and she knows that her father hates them. Mia being on the upper middle class side her parents and even friends try to stay away from that side of town. Its where the poorer kids lived.

This man was your average greaser except he was bigger than the ones she has seen. His arms were quite hairy and muscular yet he had quite the chubby torso. He was wearing the usual tight black T-shirt with baggier jeans. She would be intimidated if it wasn’t for the fact that he was fairly shorter than her.

Mia is snapped out of her thoughts by a heavy italian accent.

“hey~ names-a Peppino.”

The man extends his large hand for her to shake

“its very nice to meet you peppino. My name is Mia”

she gladly takes his hand. Mias never mind greasers. Well she never even talked to a greaser before let alone shake hands with one. But she tries her best to be open minded even if they are a little scary.

She tries to believe theres good in everyone.

Peppino pulls away his hand before looking her up and down.

Women to peppino were nothing but something he could flirt and toy with. Hes never had to much respect for them. Oh only if his mother knew how he treated women. He only saw Mia as just another toy to add to his collection of things he can flirt and have the occasional hook up with.

Theres two things that could happen here, Two things that usually happen. Mia could A. Swoon for him immediately or B. Slap the man or be at least disgusted in him. After all she does look like a women with taste.

“Well…aren’t you gorgeous~”

Peppino says with his usual flirtatious tone

Mias seen this before its nothing new for a greaser to flirt with every woman they meet.

“Why thank you Mr peppino…and i must say your mustache is adorable~”

she jokingly flirts back. She knows better than to fall for his games. She chuckles and peppino kinda covers his upper lip. Obviously she was mocking his…less than impressive stache.

She notices his embarrassment and gives a rather confused look. Shes never seen a greaser with an ego that small. Usually they would play it off or make a snarky comeback but here he is embarrassingly covering his mouth to hide his couple scraggily hairs trying to hide his shame.

“Oh my apologies Mr Peppino…I was only joking”

She looks at him with the most sincere look (one which Peppinos never seen before)

“You don’t need to apologize-a a comment-a from a dame like your self means-a nothing to me”

Mia just smiles at him. Shes not offended and she doesn’t look in anyway love struck (some chicks do like being talked down to) she just looks friendly…?

“Well okay i was just making sure that i didnt hurt your feelings”

with her saying that she opens the recipe book to the page number that was given

“Lets begin shall we”

She gives him another warm smile before beginning to gather the needed ingredients.

Mia stirs and works quickly. She has plenty of experience and peppino notices given the experience that he also has.

He feels his face warm up slightly when she tells him what to do and guides him through the baking process. Shes quite the leader not like any women peppinos met before. She has no problem telling him whats what and when hes doing something wrong. Which he was surprisingly doing more wrong than he usually does. His mind just seems in a different place at the moment.

Finally after the two complete the dish they hand it into the teacher and pack up for next period.

Peppino cant help but feel weird about his strange encounter.

Hes kind of curious to find out what gets her going.

[jackienautism]

update on the fire emblem playthrough! i've just started part two and let me just say. absolute ROLLERCOASTER of emotions since my last ask omg. i did manage to recruit the non-eagle characters i was most interested in (marianne, ingrid and felix. also i forgot to mention in my first ask but sylvain is also there since he was. easy to get). sadly i didn't manage to get raphael who was my next pick, probably because i kept accidentally skipping time (skipped a whole month by accident, and then later skipped a day of exploration without training bc edelgard asked me to come with her. and if i'd had that one day of training i would've gotten him too!! im so salty..) </3 living a sad raphael-less life now.

currently my absolute favorite is dorothea and it's kind of killing me that i'm not gonna romance her this playthrough (because i've gotta go with edie.) next playthrough however.....

i also still really love bernie and caspar those are my besties. i never disliked hubert but he's really grown on me. OH and i didn't even MENTION petra in my first ask which should qualify as a crime. i love her so much.

as for the other eagles, i still like them! i feel like i've already listed most of the eagles hang on who's even left.... linhardt and ferdinand. yeah they're chill! not on the same level as the rest of the eagles to me, but i do still like them.

and as for the recruits from other houses, marianne is definitely up there! although i feel like you have to work a little more to get to know the characters you've recruited from other houses, and the only one i've really gotten to know is sylvain. who i do like, honestly, but he just can't compare to the majority of the eagles lmao.

even though it's like... abundantly obvious by the rest of my ask. i did end up siding with edelgard. uhhhh other story related thoughts hmm.. OH jeralt's death was really sad.

idk i'm having fun!! still enjoying the combat, still enjoying the life sim, and still enjoying the overall plot. excited to see what happens next! LMAO this ask is mostly just me listing all of the characters i like and not much else whoops.

you have no idea how happy your updates and asks have made me <3 thank u so much for sending these in!

SO GLAD YOU'VE MADE IT TO THE SECOND HAAAALF... you got there quite quickly WOW good for you! but yeah dfgjndfg and don't worry things are absolutely going to heat up even more <3 esp if you werent able ot recruit raphael <33 atleast i think so? i havent played crimson flower without recruiting him so i cant remember exactly what happesn... but yeah. AND SYLVAIN YEAH DFJGDFG he was also there for me my veeeery first run. i assume you chose f!byleth right? i think its so funny how he immediately says yes if youre a girl. glad you were able to get the non eagle characters though! youre def gonna be happy that you did 😭 i tend to recruit like everyone. even the characters i dont find myself attached to. just cause. well actually theres a reason but i wont say anything jsut yet

SORRY THAT YOURE LIVING A RAPH-LESS LIFE THOUGH ): glad you were able to get the other 4 but <//3 you have my condolences. did you accidentally skip the whole month when you had to explore jertiza's room? bc i did that during my current run djfjdfg i just. totally forgot abt it. i read the message that appeared and did not comprehend a single word. BUT AGUGGH THAT SUUUCKS MAN, IM SO SORRY THAT YOU WERE THAT CLOSE TO GETTING HIM. BUT ALAS.....

DOROTHEA<333333333 YOU HAVE SPLENDID TASTE. CAN YOU BELIEVE SOME PEOPLE HATE HER? STUPIDITY... anyway byleth and you and i (i assume) have 2 hands so why can't we romance both edie and dorothea? yk? have fun romancing them though i love them both so much<3 such lovely choices you are so cool

BERNIE AND CASPAR!!!!!! SO REAL AND TRUE IM HAPPY YOU FOUND YOUR PEOPLE... and the same thign happened w/ me and hubie fdkgjnf i didnt hate him perse but i just didnt reallly care and then i got his A support and justt.... oughhh. AND PETRA THE BELOVED!!!!!! SHES SO AWESOME.... she deserves all the llove in the world

fair enough! ferdie had to grow on me... but yeah his development regarding edelgard and whatnot got 2 me i guess. i love him dearly. plus his timeskip design rocks. and linhardt my boy linhardt.... i just think hsi disdain for fighting / war and his desire to just chill under a tree due to all the trauma and pain he's gone through is cool. hes gone through and is going throuhg a lot and he deserves a moment of complete and utter. tranquility

MARIANNE MY GIRL<33 but no youre absolutely right. you def have to go the extra mile to learn more abt characters who arent in the house youre teaching. which really sucks, but atleast you get a little insight into them and their characters before diving deeper in their respective route? sylvain is def a good choice, hes absolutely a very interesting character to me. but the black eagles my beloveds

glad you sided w/ her <3 wont even lie i was extremely afraid you wouldnt like her after what happens in part one and whatnot. bc i dont blame anyone who does. i just think most of the common reasoning against her is dumb. BUT YEAH. VERY HAPPY TO HEAR THAT LOL first impressions are super important ofc but things could sooo easily change.... esp in edie's case..... bc shes such a morally grey character. and also a girl so . and we know how fandom reacts to morally grey girls. ANYWAY/ RIGHT ? HIS DEATH MADE ME SO SAD. GOING THROUGH IT FOR EVEN THE SECOND OR THIRD TIME ... hes a great faather and i think his voice is cool

DW IM SO GLAD THAT YOU SPENT THE ASK TALKING ABT YOUR FAVES..... and im so happy that you seem to be really enjoying it so farrr ouguh... hope the rest of crimson flower and the other routes dont disappoint! feel free to chat whenever :D im always free to do so!

[warishaaa]

Home is a feeling I haven't felt in a while. Now I do have a home but it's not the same. It doesn't have stories spiralling around that I could write about.

Sometimes I step out and it feels like a foreign land, and all the faces are so alien, smiles so formal like I am the astronaut finally finding life on a distant planet.

Nobody looks anyone in the eyes trying to read them, they are all just murmuring tales of dismay in exasperation and I miss going out and people looking me in the eye and smiling and asking about my day.

The tiled floor lacks the coarseness that could scrape my knee and I miss scraping my knee sometimes. It would be nice to bleed a little, giving a break to my heart that bleeds every day and a little, letting go of things stabbed in and now it smells of those things, people, and places like when sometimes you cut fruit with a steel knife the fruit carries the metallic taste of it.

I miss falling effortlessly sometimes and crying over what hurt without this facade of "Oh it doesn't matter, I am fine." before it becomes like a heavy rag that tears and falls apart because of the weight.

I haven't been home since the summer of 2020. I lost it on a hazy Saturday that smelt like rain for the last time and the ceiling dripped with conversations that could make my heart fill with sunshine and drizzle and I can't figure out

if I am lost or have I been robbed

The last time I heard of my old quarter, a new family had shifted there, a lady stood near the balcony looking outside and I wondered if she looked at the same things I looked at. Did she notice the arch of the gate in front is asymmetrical and that when it rains the part right in front of the urinal never gets flooded even if the whole road does, did she realize the tree by the side would always look like it would enter through the window but it never does and the position of the potted plant kept looks like it's smiling and sometimes at night if you stare over the canopy of that mango tree you may find two fireflies playing around

I miss saying bye and expecting to see them that very day. Now every goodbye feels like an ending, not knowing if it would be months or years, or a lifetime this time

I dream of things that were my daily hassle once and I dream of them like they were the only things I lived for. I read somewhere "You never stop moving once you move out" and I realized

there will always be places calling us for their unfinished business and I tell you a call from the city is the one cant decline

Growing up snatches everything and everyone you hold tightly except parts of you practice unconsciously. You would still look at them after hearing something amusing except this time they would be looking somewhere else

I think the last of home I felt was when I frowned going to school in one of those tiny pull cars loaded with students like the last cookie being forced to fit in an already full jar and also when I was wrapped in the arms of a person I can't remember to face of anymore.

I often dream of those pieces of my past life. I often dream of home; you know.

[not-the-seelie-queen]

Noah could feel everything that Jax was feeling, could see the hurt, anger and distrust in his this but there was still a hint of love buried under all the negative emotions that gave Noah just a little glimmer of hope as Jax told him how he felt. "I never meant for what happened to Dax to ever happen. After what happened to Skylar and Ezra, I had been trying to keep a close eye on him. My knights had been trying to keep a close eye on him. He slipped through our fingers and I am truly sorry for what happened to Dax. We should have kept a better eye on him. I should have killed him long ago but his death is not mine to give." He said honestly.

"I deserve that. I deserve your anger, hurt and distrust of me. I wronged you and it is well within your right to feel what you feel. Your feelings are valid too, Jax." He said with a sad nod of his head. "But you are wrong about one thing. You aren't nothing to me, Jax. You have always been more than just a courtier to me and most certainly never a pet. You are my entire world and always have been but I never allowed myself to have what I've always wanted. I've always wanted a life with you.. To marry and have children, to fight by your side." He says running a hand through his hair. "I didn't send you away when Dax... Because I wasn't ready to let you go. I'm still not ready, but if this, us, is not what you want then I will move on. It will be hard, because you are my soulmate, but I will find a way to move on." He said stepping closer to touch his cheek. "Jax you are the love of my life and I will do anything you ask of me to earn back your trust. I love toh, Jax, so very much." He says with a sigh. "I never gave Dax away, Fate did because they are soulmates. I merely gave him the chance to live freely and make his own choices, just like I did you and Max. I would never intentionally try to seperate any of you." He said calmly as he caressed his cheek. "You will never be alone and I will prove how much I love you, want you, need you. Jax without you it's like I cant breath. You are my reason for being at this point."

The Talk

Noah adjusted his clothes, getting used to being in his male form again after so long was a bit of an adjustment but he honestly missed it. No one but Danny and David had ever seen his male form so Nksb wasn't sure if Jax would believe it was really him. Still, he had to try to talk to him. Noah hated the way they left things when he set the triplets free. If he were honest, he had fallen in love with Jax during their time in the court but never got to tell him since his main focus had been leading his people. He never thought he would have a soulmate after spending over a thousand years without one but the pain he felt as Jax left from Faerie paired with his own anguish let Noah know that he was wrong.

After making sure that the Lee Moons were adjusted in their new roles, Noah switched his forms and followed the triplets through a portal to where Jax was. Rather than just portal inside, he settled for knocking on the door. "Hello lovely Jax. It's me, it's me... Your Queen."

@jax-likes-to-simmer

[bridgyrose]

Prompt: Maidens can see the spirits of those struggling to move on. While raven usually just ignores them, in the ruins of a destroyed town, she finds the one spirit she hoped to never see; Summer. (Rosebird optional)

Maidens were meant to be protectors of humanity, both the living and the dead. Protect those who needed them and to be a last defense against the relics, and to guide those who had fallen to the afterlife when they had trouble moving on. While most were able to move on without trouble, those that were killed by grimm or bandits seemed to have the most trouble with moving on, their spirits wandering the ruins or forests where they were killed, or silently watching over family that survived. And while Raven had little difficulty ignoring most, she found herself unable to ignore the spirit that stood in front of her. A white cloak that seemed to flutter in the breeze hung off the shoulders of a familiar face, silver eyes staring back at her. Then, the voice that echoed off the wind as the spirit spoke nearly pierced her heart. 

“Its been a long time, Raven.” 

“You werent supposed to be dead!” Raven tried to turn around and walk away like she had with every other spirit, but this time, things were different. Her body felt locked in place as she watched the faint glow around her long past lover, her heart ached as it pounded in her chest. “You were supposed to find me after your mission. To have a life with me.” 

Summer smiled at Raven and walked to her. “I’ve been looking for you so we could start again. To go home, to raise Ruby and Yang together.” She put a gentle hand to Raven’s arm and pressed in close to her. “To be together once more.” 

Raven shakily put a hand to Summer’s and gently pulled her hand away. A tear ran down her cheek as she straightened herself up and kept herself steady. “We… cant. You’re dead and I…I need to help you move on.” 

“You dont have to. You can see me, feel my touch. We can watch over our daughters together and make sure they grow up-” 

“You know I cant!” Raven paused as she heard her tone, her arm shook as she took a step back and looked over Summer. The spirit had flickered and a geist mask could be seen hanging from the side of her face, bone armor covered her arms and legs. Summer’s spirit had been hanging around too long, tainted by the grimm that inhabited the forest around. “I… left, remember? I had no intention of coming back.” 

Summer nodded and put a hand to Raven’s check and wiped away a tear that had started to well up in her eye. “Then we can fix things. Just you, me, our daughters. Find a new place to live and you can be free from the bandits.” 

“You dont understand, its too late to go back.” Without a second thought, Raven unsheathed her blade and sliced through Summer’s spirit as her eyes glowed and ice grew along the blade of her sword. “Its time for you to rest now.” 

Summer paused for a moment as she felt her grip on Raven start to fade, silver eyes shining brightly in the light of the moon. “Raven…” 

Raven pulled out a small pouch and took a small dust crystal from it and pressed it to Summer’s chest. A tear welled up in her left eye as the flames in her eyes started to disappear as the crystal glowed. “I’ll help you move on, but I cant see you anymore, Summer. This will only feel like minutes have passed for you, but I’m not sure how long this will take.” 

Summer nodded as she started to fade, her smile gone. “I love you, Raven.” 

The fire crystal Raven had pulled out turned silver as Summer faded away and became locked to the crystal. She tucked it away inside her jacket pocket, keeping it close to her heart as she let out a heavy sigh and sliced her sword into the air to create a portal. Her heart skipped a beat when a portal didnt form, her stomach tying knots in itself when she realized Yang couldnt be reached. Desperately, she sliced in the air over and over again, hoping she had done something wrong, hoping she was tired and a portal would finally open. Seconds turned to minutes as Raven stared into the forest in front of her, no portals forming for Ruby or Yang. Her arms shook as she took one more chance to open a portal, her heart dropping to the pit of her stomach as a portal opened for Taiyang. With a deep breath, she transformed and flew straight through the portal, knowing she could never put her lost love to rest.