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Noah felt it the moment that Jax finally let go and allowed him to take his negative emotions away. It was like the clouds cleared and gave away to a light drizzle before finally dissipating altogether. He could feel Jax's relief as he sagged in his arms. If Noah hadn't been holding him as tightly as he was, Jax may have fallen into a puddle in the floor with his free he felt in that moment and Noah couldn't help the little smile that graced his features that he was able to give his love this type of peace.

Noah would never lie to Jax. He couldn't even if he had wanted to in that moment. He was nothing if not honest to the younger Far and in that moment, Jax needed to hear that he wasn't to blame. He needed to hear that he didn't need to feel the guilt that he was feeling about his decision to save Dax that day. Noah would have made the same decision to save the triplets the heartache of losing one of the only people they had left.

When Jax finally looked into his eyes, Noah could tell that he saw his true self in them and he saw all the love and devotion that the younger Far always had for him reflecting back, he could feel it to his very core. He had never touched him like this but Noah very much enjoyed touching and being touched by Jax. "I love you too. So much." He says, caressing his cheek "I am yours. I've always been yours." He adds before finally closing the distance and kissing Jax, pouring every single emotion he felt toward the younger man into the kiss.

Noah tried to take as much pain from Jax as he could, which was a hard feat since his soulmate hadn't accepted their bond because of his disbelief in soulmates. His heart broke for him as he felt his guilt. "Shhh Dax is happy now, he's safe. Jacob would never hurt him. He's one of my favorites, s good one." He says softly "Max will find his anchor too, I promise." He continues as he holds him, stroking his hair in a comforting manner as he takes his guilt into himself. It was moments like these he was glad he had the gift of empathy so that he could help. Jax was his soulmate, sure, and he could feel his emotions as if they were his own but until Jax accepted their bond, there wasn't much he could do to help him but his gift could help. "Jax, my love, it's not your fault." He says softly after a few moments of silence. "It wasn't. Your choice, Dax would have made the same choice if the tables were turned, Max would have as well, my love. You chose what you did to save your brother who wasn't ready to die. The baby... The baby was already gone and he was dying too. You did what you had to do and I'm sure Dax doesn't blame you. I don't think he meant to break your bond, he was just in a bad place. But its not your fault. Once again, it was all Malachi." He says kissing his head.

"I know you didn't, my love, but I only wanted what was best for you and your brothers." Noah says "Lady Fate is a mysterious mistress. She does sent good things to those who deserve it but sadly she also puts good people into horrible situations to make them stronger. Dax is stronger with Jacob, Ive seen it. The light is back in his eyes again, he is becoming whole again. And fear not, my love, Dax and their son will be just fine. Both are stronger than you think. The curse died when...." He trails off "Max will be alright once he finds his anchor. I have a feeling they are close." He hums softly as he holds him.

"You don't have to be alone anymore, my love." Noah says softly, rubbing his back as he held him tighter. "You never have to leave my side again, Jax. Never. I want you with me always. As my companion, my lover, my everything." He says "Please don't send me away. I only want to love you, Jax." He says, tilting his chin up to look at him in the eyes. "Let me love you, Jax, let me show you how much I love you."

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Noah tried to take as much pain from Jax as he could, which was a hard feat since his soulmate hadn't accepted their bond because of his disbelief in soulmates. His heart broke for him as he felt his guilt. "Shhh Dax is happy now, he's safe. Jacob would never hurt him. He's one of my favorites, s good one." He says softly "Max will find his anchor too, I promise." He continues as he holds him, stroking his hair in a comforting manner as he takes his guilt into himself. It was moments like these he was glad he had the gift of empathy so that he could help. Jax was his soulmate, sure, and he could feel his emotions as if they were his own but until Jax accepted their bond, there wasn't much he could do to help him but his gift could help. "Jax, my love, it's not your fault." He says softly after a few moments of silence. "It wasn't. Your choice, Dax would have made the same choice if the tables were turned, Max would have as well, my love. You chose what you did to save your brother who wasn't ready to die. The baby... The baby was already gone and he was dying too. You did what you had to do and I'm sure Dax doesn't blame you. I don't think he meant to break your bond, he was just in a bad place. But its not your fault. Once again, it was all Malachi." He says kissing his head.

"I know you didn't, my love, but I only wanted what was best for you and your brothers." Noah says "Lady Fate is a mysterious mistress. She does sent good things to those who deserve it but sadly she also puts good people into horrible situations to make them stronger. Dax is stronger with Jacob, Ive seen it. The light is back in his eyes again, he is becoming whole again. And fear not, my love, Dax and their son will be just fine. Both are stronger than you think. The curse died when...." He trails off "Max will be alright once he finds his anchor. I have a feeling they are close." He hums softly as he holds him.

"You don't have to be alone anymore, my love." Noah says softly, rubbing his back as he held him tighter. "You never have to leave my side again, Jax. Never. I want you with me always. As my companion, my lover, my everything." He says "Please don't send me away. I only want to love you, Jax." He says, tilting his chin up to look at him in the eyes. "Let me love you, Jax, let me show you how much I love you."

Noah ran a hand over his face as Jax let it all out, telling him of how his brother felt after what happened with Malachi, about how he still blamed him for Malachi even being allowed near them and all the loss theh suffered. "I did not allow him to do anything. And I am truly sorry for what happened with Dax but I am not to blame, he is. Malachi." He said "I did everything I could to protect all three of you from him. Everything. I had my knights on him around the clock because I knew how psychotic he was. What happened to Dax was neither his fault, his daughters fault, or mine." He said "To think.... " he starts as a few tears ran down his face. "The fact the you would think I had anything to do with it hurts. It truly hurts." He says emotionally.

"Skylar did what he had to do at the time and should not be judged by the lengths he went to survive." Noah says "Skylar was weak at the time, too weak to kill someone as powerful as Malachi. You may not owe him but at least respect him because he suffered too, as did Ezra." He adds before sighing. "But no, he is not mine to kill. While I could and would easily kill him with the snap of my finger, his death belongs to the people he's hurt and their loved ones. They deserve their vengeance and I am merely allowing them to get it. If they need my help, they know I'm in this realm. I'm staying with Daniel."

"I never threw you away, My love. I could never throw you away, you mean too much to me." Noah says softly as he continued to caress his cheek since Jax had yet to move away. "I gave you your freedom. I gave you the freedom to go if you wanted to, stay if you wanted to. I gave you the freedom to make your own decisions. I just want you to be happy and get everything you deserve out of this life."

Being told to go was like a punch to the gut, and yet Noah didn't move away from Jax like the younger Fae asked. "No." He says "I made the mistake of letting you go already and I'm not doing it again." He said as he pulls Jax into a tight hug, kissing his head. "Please don't send me awa, my love." He sniffles softly.

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Noah ran a hand over his face as Jax let it all out, telling him of how his brother felt after what happened with Malachi, about how he still blamed him for Malachi even being allowed near them and all the loss theh suffered. "I did not allow him to do anything. And I am truly sorry for what happened with Dax but I am not to blame, he is. Malachi." He said "I did everything I could to protect all three of you from him. Everything. I had my knights on him around the clock because I knew how psychotic he was. What happened to Dax was neither his fault, his daughters fault, or mine." He said "To think.... " he starts as a few tears ran down his face. "The fact the you would think I had anything to do with it hurts. It truly hurts." He says emotionally.

"Skylar did what he had to do at the time and should not be judged by the lengths he went to survive." Noah says "Skylar was weak at the time, too weak to kill someone as powerful as Malachi. You may not owe him but at least respect him because he suffered too, as did Ezra." He adds before sighing. "But no, he is not mine to kill. While I could and would easily kill him with the snap of my finger, his death belongs to the people he's hurt and their loved ones. They deserve their vengeance and I am merely allowing them to get it. If they need my help, they know I'm in this realm. I'm staying with Daniel."

"I never threw you away, My love. I could never throw you away, you mean too much to me." Noah says softly as he continued to caress his cheek since Jax had yet to move away. "I gave you your freedom. I gave you the freedom to go if you wanted to, stay if you wanted to. I gave you the freedom to make your own decisions. I just want you to be happy and get everything you deserve out of this life."

Being told to go was like a punch to the gut, and yet Noah didn't move away from Jax like the younger Fae asked. "No." He says "I made the mistake of letting you go already and I'm not doing it again." He said as he pulls Jax into a tight hug, kissing his head. "Please don't send me awa, my love." He sniffles softly.

Noah could feel everything that Jax was feeling, could see the hurt, anger and distrust in his this but there was still a hint of love buried under all the negative emotions that gave Noah just a little glimmer of hope as Jax told him how he felt. "I never meant for what happened to Dax to ever happen. After what happened to Skylar and Ezra, I had been trying to keep a close eye on him. My knights had been trying to keep a close eye on him. He slipped through our fingers and I am truly sorry for what happened to Dax. We should have kept a better eye on him. I should have killed him long ago but his death is not mine to give." He said honestly.

"I deserve that. I deserve your anger, hurt and distrust of me. I wronged you and it is well within your right to feel what you feel. Your feelings are valid too, Jax." He said with a sad nod of his head. "But you are wrong about one thing. You aren't nothing to me, Jax. You have always been more than just a courtier to me and most certainly never a pet. You are my entire world and always have been but I never allowed myself to have what I've always wanted. I've always wanted a life with you.. To marry and have children, to fight by your side." He says running a hand through his hair. "I didn't send you away when Dax... Because I wasn't ready to let you go. I'm still not ready, but if this, us, is not what you want then I will move on. It will be hard, because you are my soulmate, but I will find a way to move on." He said stepping closer to touch his cheek. "Jax you are the love of my life and I will do anything you ask of me to earn back your trust. I love toh, Jax, so very much." He says with a sigh. "I never gave Dax away, Fate did because they are soulmates. I merely gave him the chance to live freely and make his own choices, just like I did you and Max. I would never intentionally try to seperate any of you." He said calmly as he caressed his cheek. "You will never be alone and I will prove how much I love you, want you, need you. Jax without you it's like I cant breath. You are my reason for being at this point."

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Noah could feel everything that Jax was feeling, could see the hurt, anger and distrust in his this but there was still a hint of love buried under all the negative emotions that gave Noah just a little glimmer of hope as Jax told him how he felt. "I never meant for what happened to Dax to ever happen. After what happened to Skylar and Ezra, I had been trying to keep a close eye on him. My knights had been trying to keep a close eye on him. He slipped through our fingers and I am truly sorry for what happened to Dax. We should have kept a better eye on him. I should have killed him long ago but his death is not mine to give." He said honestly.

"I deserve that. I deserve your anger, hurt and distrust of me. I wronged you and it is well within your right to feel what you feel. Your feelings are valid too, Jax." He said with a sad nod of his head. "But you are wrong about one thing. You aren't nothing to me, Jax. You have always been more than just a courtier to me and most certainly never a pet. You are my entire world and always have been but I never allowed myself to have what I've always wanted. I've always wanted a life with you.. To marry and have children, to fight by your side." He says running a hand through his hair. "I didn't send you away when Dax... Because I wasn't ready to let you go. I'm still not ready, but if this, us, is not what you want then I will move on. It will be hard, because you are my soulmate, but I will find a way to move on." He said stepping closer to touch his cheek. "Jax you are the love of my life and I will do anything you ask of me to earn back your trust. I love toh, Jax, so very much." He says with a sigh. "I never gave Dax away, Fate did because they are soulmates. I merely gave him the chance to live freely and make his own choices, just like I did you and Max. I would never intentionally try to seperate any of you." He said calmly as he caressed his cheek. "You will never be alone and I will prove how much I love you, want you, need you. Jax without you it's like I cant breath. You are my reason for being at this point."

The Talk

Noah adjusted his clothes, getting used to being in his male form again after so long was a bit of an adjustment but he honestly missed it. No one but Danny and David had ever seen his male form so Nksb wasn't sure if Jax would believe it was really him. Still, he had to try to talk to him. Noah hated the way they left things when he set the triplets free. If he were honest, he had fallen in love with Jax during their time in the court but never got to tell him since his main focus had been leading his people. He never thought he would have a soulmate after spending over a thousand years without one but the pain he felt as Jax left from Faerie paired with his own anguish let Noah know that he was wrong.

After making sure that the Lee Moons were adjusted in their new roles, Noah switched his forms and followed the triplets through a portal to where Jax was. Rather than just portal inside, he settled for knocking on the door. "Hello lovely Jax. It's me, it's me... Your Queen."

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Noah stood his ground, keeping his gaze neutral as hr spoke with Max. "And if that is so, then I will make it as if I never existed in his life and wish him the best." He says with a bow of his head before he heard Jax behind his brother. He looked past Max, eyes only for Jax in that moment and hating that he caused him to have such a look. Noah allowed the brothers to have their moment, focusing on the floor until they were done speaking and Max stalked past him, giving him a murderous look which Noah accepted because he did deserve it.

"I understand why you are, my darling Jax. I hurt you, I broke your heart. I let my duty to our people come before you." Noah says, stepping closer. "I wasn't honest with you, I didn't tell you how much I love you because I was afraid that our people wouldn't accept our love. I only sent you away the first time to keep you safe from Malachi. I didn't like his interest in you and your brothers and when I set you free, it wasn't because I didn't want you it was because I wanted you to have the freedom to make your own choices. I knew when I saw the look on your face that I just couldn't stay in Faerie anymore. I needed to be here with you. So I left our land in the capable hands of the Lee Moons and came here to beg your forgiveness and ask for a chance to finally have a life together that we didn't have in Faerie."

The Talk

Noah adjusted his clothes, getting used to being in his male form again after so long was a bit of an adjustment but he honestly missed it. No one but Danny and David had ever seen his male form so Nksb wasn't sure if Jax would believe it was really him. Still, he had to try to talk to him. Noah hated the way they left things when he set the triplets free. If he were honest, he had fallen in love with Jax during their time in the court but never got to tell him since his main focus had been leading his people. He never thought he would have a soulmate after spending over a thousand years without one but the pain he felt as Jax left from Faerie paired with his own anguish let Noah know that he was wrong.

After making sure that the Lee Moons were adjusted in their new roles, Noah switched his forms and followed the triplets through a portal to where Jax was. Rather than just portal inside, he settled for knocking on the door. "Hello lovely Jax. It's me, it's me... Your Queen."

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Noah sighs, expecting Max to be angry for hurting his brother. "Max I admire your protectiveness but I came to see Jax. I want to apologize for hurting him." He says "I stepped down and left the kingdom of Faerie in the capable hands of the Lee Moons because I want to build a life here... With Jax. "

The Talk

Noah adjusted his clothes, getting used to being in his male form again after so long was a bit of an adjustment but he honestly missed it. No one but Danny and David had ever seen his male form so Nksb wasn't sure if Jax would believe it was really him. Still, he had to try to talk to him. Noah hated the way they left things when he set the triplets free. If he were honest, he had fallen in love with Jax during their time in the court but never got to tell him since his main focus had been leading his people. He never thought he would have a soulmate after spending over a thousand years without one but the pain he felt as Jax left from Faerie paired with his own anguish let Noah know that he was wrong.

After making sure that the Lee Moons were adjusted in their new roles, Noah switched his forms and followed the triplets through a portal to where Jax was. Rather than just portal inside, he settled for knocking on the door. "Hello lovely Jax. It's me, it's me... Your Queen."

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The Talk

Noah adjusted his clothes, getting used to being in his male form again after so long was a bit of an adjustment but he honestly missed it. No one but Danny and David had ever seen his male form so Nksb wasn't sure if Jax would believe it was really him. Still, he had to try to talk to him. Noah hated the way they left things when he set the triplets free. If he were honest, he had fallen in love with Jax during their time in the court but never got to tell him since his main focus had been leading his people. He never thought he would have a soulmate after spending over a thousand years without one but the pain he felt as Jax left from Faerie paired with his own anguish let Noah know that he was wrong.

After making sure that the Lee Moons were adjusted in their new roles, Noah switched his forms and followed the triplets through a portal to where Jax was. Rather than just portal inside, he settled for knocking on the door. "Hello lovely Jax. It's me, it's me... Your Queen."

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