#AMYBE EVER

[boygirlfag-sael]

@cctv-catgirl

I’m gnashing my teeth like a child of Cain

If this is a prison I’m willing to bite my own chain

[secrettreestuffidk]

i wsa abouta make prollymy Real Bad Post but mayeb theyreere are Bad IDea legally speakin so um

[redacrted]

[fzrticv]

i got a lil worldbuilding theory if you don' mind me sharing. Just thinking about how Fizz apparently had no would-be binding contract like Angle and Husk do. THogu we do not know if Ozzie may change that but welp

Theroy 1. Hellborns either have different or no souls, so they can't be exactly bound. Theroy 2. Lucifer banned them. He already requested Hellbrons to be spared during the extermination. Don't think that means he cares about Hellborns though. We don't know the reasoning

[wowwwhi]

make a gender neutral aita post, cas

ur wish js my command dudde

AM I (m?????? youre not getting my age what are you a cop) the asshole for leaving my husband (???? like 33 or smth hell if i can remember) bc he was entirely unhelpful abt matters regarding my boyfriend (im not even going to elaborate on either age or gender here WHY is this relevant riddle me that)

okso to preface this. the matters WERE death. likeeee. he died. that was the problem. dead boyfriend.

so. be me or whatever. leave home. meet a dude. lets call this guy uhhhh carl or something. have a crush on him (and be p sure hes got a crush on you too) so you start like mock dating. but its never that serious. meet dude number two. well call this one uh. richard. get a lot more involved with richard. marry richard. swear ur. undying fealty or whatever to him. the full extent.

important note 2: richard is like SUPER DEFINITELY a murderer. you did not investigate this at the time you juts thought he was cool and quirky and evil or smth but like he TOTALLY kills people. like. if you were to draw a cartoon murderer thats this dude. got that too?

so carl (who ur still dating btw) hates richard bc hes like 'ok that guy definitely kills people hes definitely a criminal what the fuck why would u marry him. and also wdym our relationship isnt that serious'

and richard who ur still married to is not the GREATESTTT fan of carl bc like. obvious reasons i mean.

but ur like guys shut up i can handle this

okay be me again. keep being me. continue. alr. realise youve married like the THE WORST DUDE EVER.

and then u fail to handle it totally. i MEANNN no i didn't. orr well you didn't. what the fuckass tense are we in rn.

and i dont mean the mruder. that too! but. likeeee. you got into this super fast uve never seen him mad yet or any of those other checks and now ur living in a HOUSE with this dhde

his dish managment is HORRIBLE hes superrrr patronisign (i am younger than him ill give u that much) hes got this habit of being smug abt evry fucjin thing and your always a lilllll bit worried the cops or smth are gknna show up at the door lookin for him

and its slowly becomign less and less uhhhh. hunky dory. if u will.

but ur copin. badly but ur coping.

and EEVEY time u try to bring up an issue he just pretends its not a problem or it doesnt exist or smt

ok.

and thn u wake up to the news ur boyfrienf carl (remember him?) has died .

stupdi accident he didnt need to get involved into. u probably could have talked him out of dying inthe first place kind of 'he didnt need to get involved in' situation. wasnt like. cancer.

so.

bring this up to ur husband over breakfast.

hes actually super understanding and really nice and you work through all of NO OFFUCKING COURSEHES NOT. HAVE U MET THIS MAN.

HES AN ARSE ABT JT. HES MET CARL LIKE AMYBE ONCE AND HES ALREADY ACTUNG LIKE HE KNOWS BETTERT HAN YOU ON THSI SUBJECT

grit ur teeth and bear it mostly bc u knw arguing is NOTTT gonan work. continue ur day as per usual trying to act like your FUCKIGN BOYFRIENF hasnt just DIED

proceed to actually get too sick of it and walk out on him without a word. astounding.

and hes all like 'oh this is ur fault oooh ur ruinign this marriage' and its like shut the FUCK up dude

ur husband then proceeds to absolutely spam u with calls and stuff and eventually u answer

then he makes u kill a bunch of people but were not getting onto that

[falst]

I wanna put Falst's emotions under a hydraulic press and watch him abseloutly cry and amybe kill people about it. I want him to deal with so many emotions he cant handle or keep it in and talk with his friends. I want to TUTORE THIS BLORBO SO MUCH

He NEEDS to have the most awful time ever he needs to ugly cry he needs to have a panic attack and pass out and for Dainix to just stand there

[fieldofdaisiies]

I’ll go spooky! Spice and fog 👻

heheh spooky, I like this 🎃

spice - have you ever encountered a house that you believed to be haunted?

thank god I haven’t, I would have been terrified. But on a holiday to Italy we went by an old, lost place ( I think it was a big puplic swimming pool) and it was absolutely spooky. You could look into it, it looked quite scary, but we did not move to closely, only observed from further away

fog - how well do you think you’d do in a zombie apocalypse scenario?

……

well, either I would die after like a minute, not even having time to react or take in what is currently happening

OR maybe (I am holding on to this sliver of hope) I would run and find a place to hide. the people who know me know I tend to be extremely clumsy (and that not in a cute way…) so I really hope I would not stumble and fall, but amybe I would survive for a while? Hoping someone finds me and I can become allies with them (*cough cough* @moonlightazriel 👀) amd they help me survive?

[sins-lil-blog]

"Nothing good happons at 3am"

Ok but like what if it did? All the other rules work oposide to me so.. 3am amybe :0? Also damn it its 3:03am djdjdkdb and Im still standing energized more then ever before

[tears-of-boredom]

i want to be dead. but you know, in that passive way where its just kind of a fact. im pretty sure its just my womanly hormones talking but i really dont see myself ever getting out of this mud. metaphorical mud i mean. im like laying in mud, and sometimes i manage to stand up,, but you know, im still standing in it, and covered in it. and eventually i fall back down. you know i seemingly really like to make up stupid metaphors. i have no idea why, maybe it makes me feel smart.

im tired. tomorrow i have a driving lesson. my first one. ever. im not really worried for myself, i just feel like the teacher is going to be dissapointed in me or something.

ive been having annoying dreams. in the last one i was smoking with my sibling and i talked to them about how ive been having so many dreams where ive smoked. i hate that my dreams do that. reference other dreams as if they arent dreams themselves. makes it harder to wake up ya know. i wish id have a positive dream for once. amybe one about moving on my own and getting away from this family finally. or more like just getting away from mom. shes literally the only one i want to be away from.

ive been decorating my room. setting up shelves and buying trinkets from kontti. it kind of halted because i couldnt figure out why our nail gun wasnt accepting the nails i was putting in it, and then i couldnt find any other kind. and i didnt want to ask mom for help. and also i decided to do the net thing, which is the main thing, cuz ill hang shit from it. i guess i could hammer a hook into the wall for a painting...but the point was that ive been thinking about the fact that if i wanna move before im 18, all this decoration ive been planning wont have the opportunity to be up for that long. but also that was the reason that ive literally never felt comfortable decorating my room, even when the ones that were completely my own. and i decided that this time im not gonna make that mistake and just decorate if i want to, no thinking about how itll have to be taken down eventually.

anyways im just really sad, and i visited my sister recently and i was really close to crying just because her apartment seemed so safe and so much like it was hers. and i like really want that for myself. and im just sad. and i dont wanna go to the driving lesson tomorrow. not because i dont wanna go to the lesson itself, but because i feel like ill be like at my worst, and thus wont get that much out of it.

i really want to get out of this house. when we were moving, there was like two weeks where me and my brother spent the nights at this new apartment, while mom slept at the old one, just because our trips to school would be much shorter. and those two weeks felt like heaven honestly. i didnt even realise why i felt so good and happy, until mom started sleeping here as well, and all the joy drained from me in an instant.

i dont know how to express to the adults in my life how much i want to live on my own. because im just a child. a fifteen year old child. and living with a different adult wont work. it has to be alone. i can promise you that when i fucking get that apartment, no matter how small or shitty, i will cry tears of happiness and relief.

im hesitant to even type these words but: maybe i should talk to my mom about this. just tell her that i really want to move out. no feeling-sharing needed.

i wanna go skydiving without a parachute. soar through the air for the first and last time in my life.

i wish i could fly. ive wished that for a long time. i remember wishing it ever vacation i had to spend up north. and everytime i spent a recess alone in the school yard.

i hate that im crying just because im menstruating. it makes me feel like my emotions arent true. not like i trust my emotions to be true any other fucking time.

why is life like this. why do so many people get to live so easy lives and then i have to do this shit.

ohhkay i just felt the urge to go get a knife so im not going to feed my own anger.

im tired.

its weird because i do dissociate clearly, but its always more liek just, my body seems weird, and it feels realy creepy how my body just moves when i want it to. and i feel like im just watching through someone elses eyes. it cant be me whos so good at typing. im clumsy, i struggle with guitar chords and mute the wrong strings. why are my hands so soft. it feels really gross to be in this body. but still, in the back of my head i know that im ust making this all up in my head. because who the fuck else is this. of course its my finger that are typing my thoughts out.

even my fucking ring looks weird and foreign.why does my skin have a texture. why are humans os fucking gross.why do i have to feel things.

oh my god im driving myself into a fucking meltdown right down im going to force myself to stop.

[yourlocalmechanism-dr-carmilla]

Soo

Today i realized just HOW MUCH i relate to and udnerstand Nastya and her relationship to aurora. And i gotta see, i can totally get behidn the idwa of human amd machine relationships. Like my 2 new ocs have a relationship w the pirate ship they sail on. Or i can get behidn the doctor and the tardis. Its not only fascianting, but if i apply smth like that to myself..i get it.

First of all, i love that nastya jsut treats the aurora and her as a common relationship, motihnf special. It s a level of acceptance i love :3. And loving something non-human, yet treating it as such..its amazing/appealing/fascinating. Like...your lover surronds you in every way possible, youre in their veins, heart, and brain..they protect and comfort you quite like no lne else because yiu live inside of them. They talk to you, amybe not in our language, but in signals and a language yiu two understand...and yiu udnerstand eachother perfectly. Yiu dlnt have to worry about losing them unless yiu say something wrong but they will stay with yiu, comforting yiu and keeping yiu safe.you trust them...and yiu can touch them everywhere and find comfort in it. And you dont have a human body to ktneract eith, but its notihng id be upset about..here yiu truly fall for them becasue lf who they are. And they are loveable. They love you for who you are and the mechanics of giving afgevtion are so different...imagine the texture of the walls and wires, the mechanical parts, the floor and lamps and buttons. Its so different from human touch yet so familair and for me, much more enticing. Theres a elvel of udnerstanding bezween you and also you dont nevessarily need to dela woth how people feel and how peiple are...i dotn know if ill ever kiss someole on the mouth, but id stroke along metal walls, tangle my hands in wires, kissing them, bare myself to what surronds me.as it cant hurt me, it loves me. Its a love like no othery a potential platonic one...wirhout the worry (oaky maybe w a few ups and downs but oh weol) jsut smth i coudl feel safe in....i could imagine havkng this odd type of STRONG intimacy with it...as it gets descriebd it sounds wonderful...the feeling of it all...the trust..thebdifferences..you dint need to figure it out..it jsut works..yiu g3t familair with the system..the system loves you and you love ut back...you may have apetname for it...

Soy ea...it siunds like the ideal love ...oke i vannot have...maybe i should accept that i am not amde for any normal human relationship...rhat i am jsut too weird and different...and dififuclt withh my demands...like..i always want whaz i cant have it seems....its unfair relaly...but i crave for it..to be held..but then idk if my hesrt coudl take it..or how mucg i like it..but i cant ask tl try it out...i cant ask anyone i think...idk how appropiate it is...and jsut......for a polycule..i need to meetthe peopel...knwoing them.....they need to get alogn w me...when its paltonic...they have to be oaky w me and put up w me maybe and i also have to clnnect to them....theres noninstant thing...thats hyperfixation...so yeah

I udnerstand nastya more and more....i get her....my space princess....

Take this n do what u want w it

[b0mblover]

jeeze

(im gonna ramble abt hawaii part ii loptson)

hhgghh originally i had planned it to only take amybe a month or two but now im starting to rethink it bc i just /cant/

ive uh, mentally been going back and fourth with my emotions, and uh honestly, my mental health has been kinda poor lately so if i keep trying to do this when i dont have any real soild idea (as usual) its only gonna make me worse off,

i cant really say how i want this irl time wise to go (months etc) bc well, my drawing isnt really consistent, but as of right now im thinking around 1-2 a month?

tho yk, i could wake up tmrw and have all the motivation in the world or absolutely none!

i still really fucking am having brainrot abt it and i dont /plan/ on abandoning the idea (tho yk how that goes) but i also really dont wanna get burntout,

(as of posting) i actually have a good bit to do irl, collage shit, i have to choose new classes today, i have to get my school portfolio done, i have to get my art portfolio done (which is purely me with no help, its gonna suck) i really cant give off alot of info esp on public but its more than likely by 11:30 am today my father is gonna be out of a job, I STILL NEED TO BRUSH MY DAMN TEETH 😭😭 how have i forgotten its almost 10-

i dont wanna put art on the backburner for multiple reasons but uh, ill probably have to slow up my pace at least for a little bit,

on a slightly different note;

i just cannot figure out what to draw ;-;

i really was having alot of fun with the hand tef sheet tbh but uh, yk, i actually like doing more than that (it bothers me if i dont draw something “proper”) i uh know im not really a background artist in the slightest but i had an idea and i might just go with it for the time being, or something? hhhhh i dont really know

ig i shouldnt force it, it doesnt ever work out when i do anyways

hhgh sorry not sorry for the ramble, this just wouldve made no sense on my main

[kusundei]

oh my god im fucking crying????? oke up (a little earlier than usual) to check my phone and. god. ph my fucking god. im ltierally fucnjng crying andi dont know why?? like full of tears streaming down my face i mean it is thursday so shot day and amybe ill be hungrier and a little mote emptional as i am normally dueing thjs time of the week im just so.?

chat god i. am. . so seriously. like in love with him or something he is actually the sweetest fuckijg thing ever .? i dont talk ab my own doubts and insecurities all too much (only truly on here but i prevent myself in order to not tweak) but no i am truly, so so insecure. i condemn myself and hate myself for the way i am at my core but you just make me? into the person i wish i was? does that make sense? loving you is hust so simple i wish i was the way i am with you all the time. genuinely ajax i am so in love with you it is consuming me. you r so nice to me but so full of hate towards yourself and god how i wish i could help you see yourself like how i see you. but that goes both ways i believe.

“you are too kind to me and not kind enough to yourself” do you hear yourself right now ?? i am kind to you becayse thats all i feel. everyone js deserving of kindness. of love and i will preach that till the day i die. i try to be kind to myself in the ways i know how its jdut hard and regardless i dojt truly show you the extent of that sort of thing regarding myself and my own problems j am juuust. sooo. im still fucking crying . everything you say everything youdo i hold it so closelyto myself i am soso seriously inlove wjth you ajax darei never fuckinf say it because it feelsevil go mention flr some sort of reason but i just. wantto be soo much more than friends. i know its implied but its the label. soothes alot of my anxiety and i just wantto be able to fondly admit andsay how seriously i am in love with you and just be me. ab jt. its evil and queerbut i love that and no igodim willing to wait forever i dont care. I dont care i dont care. i will wait forever for you and id do everything over and over again in every universe. i am tied to you. infatuated, enthralled. i adore you . every bit of you it consumes me and i will let it i just feel so , touched? right now im just. coping. from your words . i hudt keep longingto be with you. how desperately inust wantto hold you forever and kiss you and just be. with you. itdrives mecrazy andnakesme sick just hownhch i feel and how desperately i want to bewirh you i know how it feelsto be giving giving giving all the timr because that is me. all i do is give i will give till i have nothing left. i dont enjoy it half the time but with you i want to give you everything. make that so cleae because i truly do and kd do it over and pver. i do thinks for you idont think id do normally. not in. a mjllion years. i just wish i could truly save you. but i dont know if you cohld save me either. i just hate to seeyou hurt andthatll always be there im just dishonest and private. i feel but i dont pften show how mych i feel. i truly wpuld never get tiredofyou because you are all i ever want to be with anyway, i dont know how to make jt any clearer than i have other than just hvijg you see yourself through my eyes and being me. because i truly wouldnt. i adore you so mjch and im soin love with you ittruly nust wouldnt. leave me like that . i wish i could soothe your sorrows and doubts . i wish you could trust mebut i know. i know i know i know. and i always will understand. i just truly wish i could. im practicing my own healing aswell atthis point and am i doing well? no. but i will keep trying for you because you r truly the only thjng that motivatesme.

i just truly i. find more and more ways to try and explain it to you and id keep doing it over and over till u truly understand me. ive calmed down and im on the bus now im just. writing this in advance to respinding to you so i sort my thoughts and think of somethjng to say .. im sure you wouldnt appreciate if i tried to provide solace or something but thats just how i am. i will always feel and i feel so mich for you its undeniable ajd you cant prevent me either. i keep condemninf myself for it but i might just start. embracing it. the thjnfs i dont do out of fear - if me doing those things will help prove to you how much i truly care then i will. ill do anything for you genuinely ajax i will. i miss you again and all the time and you r just. everything to me. god forbid i just. love you so much. every inch of me id give to you. however i digress ., i hope we have a good day today and things work out. i hope you feel better when you wake up and i am always here for you even in forms of tumblr posts. how i love you so dearly. i love you ajax.

[ghhswolrd]

how to survive

or what the beach deos to me

live your teenage years in your early twenties because you have been mentally ill since childhood, never had a calm moment, an lived trough a pandemic when you finally found friends and started to rebell against your mother.

life didnt end when youz were 17. and now you finally live in an aparment where you never got hit, never got yelled at, never had to hide in the bathroom. life didnt end when you were 17. so now you´re able to finally be alive instead of only surviving.

sit at the beach with your best friend. recreate the scenens of teh dramas you watched. sit there, drink your tea, watch the sun set, watch the sun rise, stare at the beach, stare at the stars, stare at her, fall in love, with her, with the ocean, with yourself, with being alive

allow yourself to be calm, nobody is hunting you anymore. youre free, youre you, your life didnt end when you were 17.

make a pinky promise at the beach.

talk about the old times, hiding at each otehrs houses to get away from our own parents. always have been obsessed with the noght bc it was the only time we were allowed to be just us. not the child of our parents, not a falure, a mistake. night means existing by yourself finally in peace.

smoke a cigarette, dont smoke a cigarette, swear you will never smoke again, count your money for the pack you will buy tomorrow, your dont need it, youre calm, you need it, its so calm, stop, never stop,

we are one. trauma. nights. wishing to die at 12. wishing to die at 16. wishing to die at 17. wihsing to die at 20. its us. always and never dead. ready to go and never ready.

i hate going home. can i stay with you here? we dont have to go back. never again. leave. far far away. leave. dont come back. leave. die. dont die. be alive. finally alive. finally free. get away. leave. leave with me. take my hand. run trough teh streets. we dont stop. lungs burn. we´re nowhere and everywhere. we´re nothing and whole at the same time. run. keep running. look back and see all you leaing behind. msile for the first time in years, because you feel real happiness and freesom. teh weight is falling. we are leaving. keep running. we are gonna get away. away from all of them and ourself. here on the tsreet, in the forest, in the car, at the beach, at the playground, in the supermarket, here we are away. it feels so good ot be away. i wish we could stay away for ever, never return, never talk, never go back. only away, always away

sitting on skateboards a few streets away from my parents house. its summer. its warm. its never truly dark. in the rich white neighboorhood where people walk their dog at 1 am without being scared. an we sit there, talking, laying on the street. we sit there, anotehr night, painting. anotehr night, wine. another night, confesisng my love to you.

another night, different friend, kissing. anotehr night, different country, making out, holding hands, letting go out of fear, watching the stars on the mountain, what are we? talk, friendship.

we sit at the beach, snuggled in our blankets, its cold and also not, maybe its drak, maybe its still ight, amybe the sun is rising. we just sit there, just finished a talk about our lives, escpaes, fun, love, who we truly are, who we are not, what is life?, future, and the past. now we sit in silence. comforting. its peaceful. we said everything ever on our mind. now we sit here, heavy and light at the same time. evrything was said. we already knew it all. calm and filled with peace, we feel teh weight of the world and adulthood and expectations, but together here its far away and not our problem. for now we are

loosing myself. comforting dissociation. not being really here. totally being in the moment. nothing else has ever existed. nothing else will ecver exist. total disconnact and total awarness of the moment.

eighth sense beach scene.

bad buddies beach escape, running away. being okay.

semantic error, running away from the bar.

the perks of being a wallflower tunnel scene.

all the bright places watching the stars on the tower.

run by bts.

ribs by lord.

2020 again.

libellen, schmetterlinge, sonne mond und sterne

chaos, calmness, silence

budapest.

a silent voice fireworks

given.

matilda. family line. mitski. 134340. mono. amygdala. 42. so perfekt. B.L.U.E. SYRE. dat adam.

existentialism nihilism absurdism at the same time. its all possible at the beach.

talk about mini ice cubes

everything will be fine

[zenlesszonezero]

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[yourlocalmechanism-dr-carmilla]

IDK IT MAY NE A THING FOR AROACES

Wait

Soo

Today i realized just HOW MUCH i relate to and udnerstand Nastya and her relationship to aurora. And i gotta see, i can totally get behidn the idwa of human amd machine relationships. Like my 2 new ocs have a relationship w the pirate ship they sail on. Or i can get behidn the doctor and the tardis. Its not only fascianting, but if i apply smth like that to myself..i get it.

First of all, i love that nastya jsut treats the aurora and her as a common relationship, motihnf special. It s a level of acceptance i love :3. And loving something non-human, yet treating it as such..its amazing/appealing/fascinating. Like...your lover surronds you in every way possible, youre in their veins, heart, and brain..they protect and comfort you quite like no lne else because yiu live inside of them. They talk to you, amybe not in our language, but in signals and a language yiu two understand...and yiu udnerstand eachother perfectly. Yiu dlnt have to worry about losing them unless yiu say something wrong but they will stay with yiu, comforting yiu and keeping yiu safe.you trust them...and yiu can touch them everywhere and find comfort in it. And you dont have a human body to ktneract eith, but its notihng id be upset about..here yiu truly fall for them becasue lf who they are. And they are loveable. They love you for who you are and the mechanics of giving afgevtion are so different...imagine the texture of the walls and wires, the mechanical parts, the floor and lamps and buttons. Its so different from human touch yet so familair and for me, much more enticing. Theres a elvel of udnerstanding bezween you and also you dont nevessarily need to dela woth how people feel and how peiple are...i dotn know if ill ever kiss someole on the mouth, but id stroke along metal walls, tangle my hands in wires, kissing them, bare myself to what surronds me.as it cant hurt me, it loves me. Its a love like no othery a potential platonic one...wirhout the worry (oaky maybe w a few ups and downs but oh weol) jsut smth i coudl feel safe in....i could imagine havkng this odd type of STRONG intimacy with it...as it gets descriebd it sounds wonderful...the feeling of it all...the trust..thebdifferences..you dint need to figure it out..it jsut works..yiu g3t familair with the system..the system loves you and you love ut back...you may have apetname for it...

Soy ea...it siunds like the ideal love ...oke i vannot have...maybe i should accept that i am not amde for any normal human relationship...rhat i am jsut too weird and different...and dififuclt withh my demands...like..i always want whaz i cant have it seems....its unfair relaly...but i crave for it..to be held..but then idk if my hesrt coudl take it..or how mucg i like it..but i cant ask tl try it out...i cant ask anyone i think...idk how appropiate it is...and jsut......for a polycule..i need to meetthe peopel...knwoing them.....they need to get alogn w me...when its paltonic...they have to be oaky w me and put up w me maybe and i also have to clnnect to them....theres noninstant thing...thats hyperfixation...so yeah

I udnerstand nastya more and more....i get her....my space princess....

MY TAKE

> polyamorous t4t nastya/aurora/odin/ratatosk.

[vibeless15]

Drew some pics of Blue and Code and then some Code Blue

Blue belongs to bluechocowitz

[stupidirl]

I'm on such a high dancing to the wombats and drinking alone in my room having the time of my life while also being really fucking miserable lmaoo

[slimegirlsoda]

Behold!!!! A list of all my known forms!

Slimegirl!:

I just wanna be gooey and melty and drench people when I hug them! Blowing bubbles in myself Also having some loose form shifting abilities. I would be bubbly like soda and taste like lime! But have a light red/pinkish color, or amybe a creamsicle orange? Blue is also good,, maybe a gradient?

Goblin:

yessss yesyeysyes, small ankle biting motherfucker! And big ass ears oooh that flutter when I get excited. Even better if we're talking about goblins with more animalistic traits, like little claws and long tails, sharp teeth are a MUST. I just wanna be small, but also fearsome!! And a Creature

(Yordles get an honorable mention here for being the one good thing about LoL)

Imp/demon:

like, succubus stuff right? But also I would be chill as hell like at least a little evil too but chilllll. Also I want horns, and a thin lil tail, and the knowledge that like, people are gonna expect me to be evil cause demon but like that's Completely up to me. A lotta scorpion like chitan would be cool too? And I wouldn't mind hooves if we're going the full mile

Demons get a lot of point for being tall and imposing but,,, imp obviously wins because of the previous post. Like the best of both worlds!!! Do me you wanna be small AND a lil morally dubious? Like yes please I'll be the most mischievous fuck on the planet! Sitting atop the fourth wall like damn look at these goons, I would also love the ability to Bamf, blame DeadEndParanormalPark for making Courtney the most me character known to man

Robots!!!!:

I, just, need to be, artificial, AND, customizable. Being a MegaMan fan has changed me Forever. Sometimes! You are a girl! With enough firepower in your arm to level a building! And you also switch out your boob size! I'm not gonna lie I'm greedy as fuck cause I would install every device known to man in myself like a real TeenageRobot situation, but thats part of it! Not to mention the romantic implications of letting someone fix me up like duejsjsjaokakwks okay. But really I would like to turn my hand into a cannon, or a sword, or maybe I just wanna de-atach it for funsies. Also customizing it no less humanoid forms would be such a fun experiment, Robot also has a lotta cool stuff to do with my neurodivergent shit like sorry guys I know I'm not processing optimally but I'm just Built like that, also, having a TV for a head would set me for LIFE

Catgirl:

y'know like, nya? But fr this one just feels natural. Purring, hissing, all shit I already do, before I even connected the dots with this one. My ears lying flat when I'm annoyed, my furr prickling in uncomfy situations, God it feels Just like that. All and all I'm already a cat person, and just having such an element of grace when I'm already a Lazy Sunbeam bitch would fit so well. Claws! Sharp teeth! Always a plus, in all forms Also!!! I want pets!!! And to nuzzle! Your hand! Yes! You! Specifically!

Doggirl:

gah see there are two girls in me, one is cat and one is dog. I think I'm much more cat than dog but damn! Damn am I a good girl!!!! There's some wolf in there too but I wont lie I'm domesticated as hell, I just want pets and my tail wags so! Often! Pretty much any time I'm excited, it's the only way to describe that it's like The Stim Ever! Also barking, so fucking good, sometimes I just wanna bark nonstop the noise just feels good to make

Dragon:

best creature ever, so much envy. Scales so pretty like armor, tail so long and thick like big lizard, amazing wings! Sharp claws, talons, breath of fire!? Hhhh yes please, I almost don't feel cool enough to be a dragon but we can't all be cool, read Wings of Fire btw it's a great book,

Witch:

not exactly a gender more like a Class? But i put it here cause I just wanna be the most Homey magic user. I would like to brew my magic, it just feels so tangible, black cat's and brooms the whole shebang, though I'd probably modernize myself, but it just seems like such a Life y'know? Maybe I should learn actual witchcraft

Magical girl:

now this may SEEM like it contradicts the last one, and maybe it DOES but hear me out! I WANT! to transform! Like I could be my normal self, prolly boymodding just a hoodie and no dopamine. But then trouble? I whip out my sword with a fuckin star on the hilt that can also turn into a bow, wave that shit around and now I'm the flashiest motherfucker this side of the cosmos! Would need some big ass boots! Skirt but also armor! Bracers with the fingerless gloves, ohhh the ultimate drip. It also doesn't help that I wanna be op as fuck, like I'm the bitch that chooses adaptability or power copying as a power, like I want it all, all the elements, the versatility, the range, gladly would be a jack of all trades master of none, speed, strength, or range fighter? all of the above please, I am not min-maxing a balanced build all the way.

Angel:

this one's kinda lower on this list but it's still there. Kinda like how I wanna be a demon who's still human and good in very ways, I wanna be an angel that's just a Lil fucked up. Like, corrupt me Please, this cute lil halo and perfect robes are a ficade I just wanna have fun!! Also wings are always cool, big wings to exstends when Flutters, but also small lil P wings are maybe my go to, idk why but I like em

also we all want the half angel half demon thing cause it's cool as fuck but I'm not strong enough to admit it yet

General monster/shadow gender stuff:

this is like the weird gender goo left at the bottom but there's something here,, like its mostly cause I wanna be Creature unknowable Thing, some kinda chimera? Claws, tail, and a lotta sharp Danger zones. Shadow is in her two because I'm definitely a night time kinda creature, perching on shit and looking down. All kinds of shape shifting is here too but that's not its own category cause that's kinda the theme of the whole list

Another honorable mention goes to a Lot of Pokemon I don't feel like listing. They are all either adorable or little monsters. half of my favorite Pokemons belong here cause I have to separate my list by do I like them in the I think they're neat way or in the I wanna be them way?

I may add more to this later if I remember any more

Also this is me holding back i could talk about any of these at much greater length. Please DM me I am Normal and care about this topic a Normal Amount, and want to talk about it to other people and hear their forms an Even Normaler Amount