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coyote-fawn · 1 year ago

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#so i have been looking at ancestral practices to add to my collection #(WHITE SUPREMACISTS AND NATIONALISTS THIS POST IS NOT FOR YOU KEEP FUCKING MOVING)#bc my heritage is mostly hungarian and slavic and germanic #i have been peeking into those areas #and everything seems to be leading back to the scythians as far as a practice/cosmology that resonates #but it is so difficult to find untainted info #obvs im not talking about christianity bc it just kind of syncretized its way in #and that’s fine #tho im most comfortable with a practice that is faaaar away from christianity for personal reasons #im talking about like. people made shit up and also white nationalism #ofc because i live in the US my main focus is my region #but i like what im finding and i wish i could find MORE #would scythian practice be closed??? is it weird for me to go so far back in history????#agh this is mostly just the result of me not having anybody to talk to about this IRL so im going insane #ALSO how much of this is closed???#i know there are potentially shamanic practices in some of this and i don’t want to take what’s not mine #even if some of my ancestry is held there i didnt grow up in it and i really do not want to take what i am not welcome to #these are practices that i respect so deeply and i do not want to do them an injustice.#ALSO of course the white american lack of identity leading to people saying ‘oh im x nationality’ when their family is generations removed #there’s a lot going on there that i can’t speak to eloquently #but i know that’s something to consider as well #(my recent ancestors mostly kind of suck so building a practice based on them isnt something i will do #just as an aside to why I’m doing this specific searching so far back)#but the lack of cultural identity (or more the ‘american identity is the default so much that we dont even see it anymore’#and ‘my ancestors squashed their heritage so they could assimilate but were still extremely privileged in many areas so #how do i reclaim that and still acknowledge my struggle is lesser than others’)#so im going insane. again.)#if anybody with perspective wants to chat about this please hmu!!!! i am begging you!!!!!

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ruporas · 8 months ago

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need to exist in your warmth (id in alt)

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #blood tw #ruporas art #love u when i get to cuddle u and love u when i get to feel ur blood soak into my hands #being this close to one another means the eternal suffering of trying to separate love and mission. love for one and love for humanity #i like to think of pre-vol8 vash as someone who struggles with his feelings for ww bc as equal and as trusted he is -#vash knows his responsibilities and he knows/expects ww wouldn't let him stray from it either. for that he can't take to any romantic incli #and i think itd make him view ww in a stricter non-personal way... If that makes ANY sense.#for ww - take someone who youv gotten close to and ended up liking more than you expected #someone who has a belief and follows it stubbornly - someone who'll get into more fights and trouble more than youv had your entire life #ww thinks of him as a monster but he knows theres a limit he himself can take - i feel like hes considered what might be the limit for vash #for Safety measures. just in case. yknow. whenever he himself might have to load the bullet < him hyping himself up as if he could do it #my point being that the thought of vash being dead crosses his mind more than he'd like. i think its a simultaneous dread drop in his stoma #for failure of the mission - but also an Ok? They can be killed? and also a disastrous gunning of his own heart. considering how much they #both live in their own heads some days are Just the worst ever for them in each others company. but also they lov each other :[ sooo much

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qoldenskies · 1 month ago

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i think its so funny when people take the way donnie acts at face value even though its a horrible lie because he's a horrible liar, while understanding leo is bullshitting very well despite him actually being GOOD at bullshitting. many such cases

#personal #rottmnt #although tbf its probably because with leo its unpacked more thoroughly in the movie #donnie is not a morally ambiguous emotionally unavailable bad boy. he is very sensitive actually #he's a little crybaby /aff #and like this isnt hidden. he isnt SECRETLY sensitive or secretly caring its very out in the open actually #he's not hiding it well AT ALL AND THEY ALL KNOW IT LMAOOOOOOOO #i think donnie's perception of himself is somewhat earnest and somewhat. not? he DEFINITELY thinks he's more evil than he actually is #BGHFHDHGJFHG #i think what causes him to lash out and struggle to communicate is his inability to articulate his feelings #they are just too big for him. like its the exact opposite of robotic #he cant force himself to give a fuck but when he DOES its too much #so he yells and lashes out or he shuts down completely #honestly i think the perception of him being too sensitive being a problem makes way more sense than the perception of him being 'robotic'#when it comes to struggles in how his family sees him at least #even in little ways you can see him take it pretty personally when he's insulted #he struggles to blow things off #and i think it would also explain his tendency to like. visibly calm himself down when he gets upset? its a thing he does a lot in the show #he desperately wants to destroy that perception of him because he's trying so hard to close himself off #he doesn't want to be the sensitive one that cant take anything. it especially works in line with his shell #it was a big inspiration for canary continuity tbh. donnie should struggle with being the sensitive one in fic more #mikey is more empathetic and he's more emotional but donnie's quicker to feel offended or take things personally #BACKED UP HEAVILY BY CANON #that 'you can be honest with me! no hard feelings' - 'he's lyinggggggg'#like he's not upset with them babying him as much as he is with them genuinely finding it frustrating that he can fall behind like that #and just cannot take shit like that. so he tries to pull back and not seem as affected as he is #theyre a very cuddly family but mind you they can be actually mean to each other like that!!

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starry-bi-sky · 3 months ago

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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.

Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.

Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.

Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.

There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.

#svsss #luo binghe #svsss au #scum villain #scum villian self saving system #shen yuan #shen qingqiu #disciple shen yuan #lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops #im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either #had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him #when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi #hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th #sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his #back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's #face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is #INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and #the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of #his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so #unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face #and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc #he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]

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tiniest-hands-in-all-the-land · 2 months ago

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Carry me home

#final fantasy xiv #ffxiv #final fantasy 14 #ff14 #haurchefant greystone #haurchefant x wol #haurchewol #ffxiv wol #ffxiv spoilers #heavensward spoilers #final fantasy xiv spoilers #tinydraws #let me know if i’m missing any spoiler tags #tagging seems like it would be an easy and straightforward thing but also. i’m stupid.#anyway i choose to believe that Rowan carried him back to the manor #even if someone tells me otherwise i will not believe them #also i choose to believe that these two had it bad for each other #neither of them said anything but everyone could tell lol #haurche specifically was very Not Subtle in his displays of affection #and Rowan for the most part picked up on it #not everything cuz she's still in the midst of working on accepting any amount of companionship. but like. most.#and went ‘honestly.... if i told him i liked him it would probably go well. We just have so much stuff to deal with; now’s not a good time'#and then the time came and went :’)#and Rowan went ‘Did….. did he know? Did he Know how much I loved him? did he KNOW???????’#and then she grieved behind closed doors away from everyone #and also tried to replace said grief by focusing a lil too hard on her duties #idk i’m still working out WOL lore but this is what i got so far lol #or at least in regards to haurche

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kenny-404 · 4 months ago

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“he’s so insane for this” and it’s just a man looking at the love of his life 🤭

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ciderjacks · 5 months ago

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thinking again about how much trust he had to have in Laios to recommend his own daughter in case he dies

#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #chilaios #WHATEVRR #like #We see from his little nightmare snippet that his greatest fear is losing his kids #And we also know how much trauma he has around the dungeons and specifically other adventurers #How he basically lives in fight or flight mode and is constantly thinking of the worst case scenario #How unwilling he is to trust anyone or show vulnerability to anyone #And he recommended his daughter to Laios #Bc even though his years of knowing Laios means he sees him as reckless and oaf-like and maybe insane #His years of knowing Laios also mean he knows hes a good person who he can trust #And who he (secretly) genuinely cares about and sees as a close friend #So much so that he’d trust him with the lives of his kids #Though simultaneously i dont think he’d ever allow him to hold a baby

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 5 months ago

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Council of lovefools.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang yanli #jiang cheng #They don't have an actual sleepover in this scene but the vibes were so sleepover coded...I had to get them cozied up.#Late night talks with friends and family are some of the best conversations.#My siblings and I used to have room sleepovers with each other (Actually an excuse to stay up and talk about runescape)#Currently my flatmates and I also have really great heart to hearts late into the night.#Pondering shit like 'What defines confidence?“ and ”Why are people terrified of letting themselves fall in love?"#All that aside; There is a really great conversation between JC and WWX here. They are so close and yet so far way from each other!#Fundamentally they *agree* about many things - but JC now has to play the role of someone more 'mature'.#His temper is reigned in and he had to take a more nuanced approach. Whereas WWX can be far more reactionary.#JC has changed to become someone more mature (or at least he is trying).#Contrast this attitude with the scene *right* after where WWX literally goes baby mode with JYL. Rolling around going “I'm Fwee years old”.#When children are hurt we comfort them with hugs and warm food and a laugh. It's not enough when you're an adult. It's not simple anymore.#WWX is stuck in the past when everyone else is shifting and moving on! It's a depression allegory (and just...actual depression)#But we also get to see how some things have stayed the same. They still bicker about soup. They still tease. They are still together.#They all care for each other very much but they are struggling against trauma and are not equipped to talk about it.#You can't really blame WWX for being so protective over JYL. But JC is right: “You don't have a say in who she likes.”#It may have started as an arranged marriage but *she* is *choosing* what her heart wants. JC sees that. WWX cannot.#The final act of love is letting go after all.

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sparticus2000art · 8 months ago

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Here’s a bad guys line up!

I’ve been thinking about how I want to draw these guys recently, and I figure I may as well draw it out!

I’ll be using these designs for any projects I tackle with them going forward! (Unless I change my mind on things)

Nightmare by jokublog

Dust by askdusttale

Killer by rahafwabas

Horror by sourapplestudios

Cross by jakei

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shroomerr · 27 days ago

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Finally, my design for Mysterion!! this boy gave me so much heartache in the process of making this but its ok its all worth it for him <3

I also couldn't choose between the version with hair or without hair, so here's the one without under the cut (+ my initial drafts for his design):

#south park #south park fanart #south park the fractured but whole #tfbw #south park tfbw #mysterion #kenny mccormick #shroomer's archives: south park #shroomer's art !#time for me to yap about my design process in the tags again #so yea. MYSTERION!!! just another different flavor of kenny #are you sick of seeing me draw him yet #anyways. i made the poncho follow the shape of an M to recreate the M on his original design on his chest #but i also have green lines on his undershirt that travel up his arms and onto his chest to recreate the shape of an M #if the hood were to ever be ripped off #gave him the sort of police utility belts because he was close to the police in his first episode #and also just because theyre cool lol #ALSO I STOLE THE SPRAY PAINTED QUESTION MARK ON HIS HOOD i really like how it looks i think it was vicchaosz here on tumblr who inspired me #made the poncho ragged because. yknow. he dies a lot. that thing is not gonna walk away in tip top shape.#kept most of the colors the same with only a few changes like his boots and his underpants (which i changed to shorts)#OH AND MY FAVORITE HAPPY ACCIDENT!!! the underside of his hood was too dark in contrast to his shorts so i added some lilac to lighten it u #and it ended up looking like when mysterion goes into his ghost form in the game AND ITS JUST. UGH. SUCH A COOL HAPPY ACCIDENT.#so yea: not only did it help with the contrast its also THEMATIC!!#i swear he's not shorter in the lineup hes just slouching #i love this feral ass pose i put him in #ok i think thats it if you read this far ily and i smooch you #mwah #i hope this post does well lol i put so much effort into this

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meansevika · 3 months ago

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meljay + touch

ARCANE (2021—2024)

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commsroom · 8 months ago

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you're remembering this wrong. (by @hehearse)

#wolf 359 #w359 #hera wolf 359 #hera w359 #doug eiffel #renee minkowski #alexander hilbert #they're there also.#tumblr user hehearse you are so good to me.#the warmth of the first image and how out of place hera is in it. the almost nostalgic quality to the lighting #the contrast between how close and crowded it is vs. the oppressive isolation of the second #the way the screens are circling her and casting that cold blue light. oughhh.#if i think about the opening of memoria too long i go insane #and this captures the feeling i wanted perfectly. thank you so much.#art

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screwpinecaprice · 2 months ago

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Copying artstyle off of older Steven and Connie concept art for the heck of it. (And chibis. ┐⁠(⁠´⁠▾⁠｀⁠)⁠┌)

The proportions felt awkward to draw, I did end up stretching them a bit. Haha

#Their eyes are so close together. The neck (specially Connie's) so slim and their legs are short #Actually looks nice to be honest haha #I can't study and draw the style much though. That's absolutely going to disorient me when I get back to my own drawing style #them little guys are yippie-ing #connverse #Steven Universe #Connie Maheswaran #Steven Quartz Universe #SU #skedoobles #Actually I was distracting myself because this was such a big bummer of a day!#Like so gloomy literally. Like that Adventure time episode with the party bears being bummed out by a song #Energy sucked out by the bummness #I also overslept so I feel nauseous trying to lie down to sleep #PLUS I was adjusting a drawing and rendering the whole day but I had to scrap it all because the image looked better before I made all that #so it was super extra bummy if that's a word #I need to draw some connverse at least #I really like Connie's outfit in it. Plus with the sun hat? Simple yet extra fun design. I wished they kept it through the final.#*I mean Connie's legs are def longggg. Steven has short legs. Even shorter than how I draw em. It's their heads that are much larger.#SUF #Steven Universe Future #SU Future

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kens-ramblings · 3 months ago

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so ik it’s not cannon accurate but,,,

i need a fic of tim just crashing out.

like he gets so sick of like damian and jason talking about how weak he is and shit like that that he’s like “yall realize lady shiva was my one of my FIRST teachers, and i was the first robin she trained. i had to train under b AFTER he already lost a robin. you DONT think he was 10x harder on me than any of you guys???? there’s a reason my training videos are mainly redacted without bruce’s or my permission. i got ra’s al ghul BEGGING ME to join his league or have my children. i get gifts from him WEEKLY. do you KNOW how many of his little ninja i fight per DAY??? nahh im sick of this shit let’s take it to the mats” and just demolishing both of them at the same time.

i just think it’d be very funny. i just like fics of people who pretend to be weaker than they are(or they just never really have a reason to go full tilt so they just don’t) get sick of holding back and just losing it :D

#batfam #tim drake #red robin #jason todd #red hood #damian wayne #robin #unhinged tim drake #batfamily shitposts #i just need fics of tim losing his shit and crashing out #just because they are funny #and i sometimes feel like people would forget that just because he’s smart does not mean he doesn’t have hands #like bro all robins are certified villains only being held back by b’s rules #they all have insane hands and are all very smart #don’t get distracted by whichever one they choose to put at the forefront of their personality so you forget about the other #but basically yeah i just want it bc it’d make me giggle #also yes ik bruce never physically abused tim during training but i love the angst fics that use that so i added it anyways #i. don’t think it was like intentional on bryce’s part tho just that he was struggling so hard with his grief #he just never noticed how hard he was pushing tim until he pushed wayyyy too far #and yeah he and tim eventually resolved their issues and had a BIG talk about training boundaries #but only after he started getting a bit better and got it through his head that tim was just a kid and not a moving punching bag #i like to think it was only after like titans tower or some other time where he was very close to losing tim tho #bc as much as i want bruce to just be a good dad all the time he had struggles actually verbalizing his feelings #and apologizing for his mistakes

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katiekatdragon27 · 3 months ago

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✨✨✨Pulling baddies at the club✨✨✨

Shimpo is wasted off his ass currently btw. He’s a mega lightweight. Glisten has a high tolerance for alcohol and finds Shrimpo’s attempts at showing off (and unsuccessful flirting) incredibly amusing.

Shrimpo doing anything in his power to look taller than he actually is only for it to fail is one of my favorite personal headcanons <3 It tends to make him get hurt, but that's the cross to bear when searching for height.

Some Pebble doodles and progress pics below:

Also I love you Pebble, I wish you lots of chances to be violent and insane with no restraint or mercy in your heart<3

Thank you and have a lovely day^^

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tomahachi12 · 4 months ago

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Day 25 - Uzi

#I didn't forget #I fell asleep #lol #also for how much I hate drawing hands #I sure like to put them close to the front #murder drones #murder drones Uzi #inktober 2024 #toma art

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