#AKO NLANG AKO NALANG KASI

[xiakiyama]

I WANT THISDSD SO BADD WHENS IT MY TURNN AKO NALANG KASI I WANTY THSIS WITH HERR

𝚂𝙿𝙴𝙰𝙺 𝙽𝙾𝚆 (𝙱𝙰𝙳𝙰 𝙻𝙴𝙴 𝚇 𝙰𝙲𝚃𝚁𝙴𝚂𝚂! 𝚁𝙴𝙰𝙳𝙴𝚁) 𝙲𝙷. 3

Synopsis: You stole Bada's first kiss while hanging out at the amusement park.

Warnings: cursing (they're playing the game of hiding their feelings)

(A/N: I literally can't with these two 😭😭 teenage/highschool romance is just sweet and everything 😩😩)

Series Master list

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Chapter Three

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"Hyejiiii you gotta be kidding me!? You're not coming?" you whined as you called Hyeji since you wanted to ask them to hang out at this recently opened amusement park and to also celebrate the fact that you made it through 8th grade without anyone failing any subjects.

"I mean, I'm coming but I can't hang out with you guys.. I kind of enrolled in this dance group and luckily got in. They asked if I wanted to go with them and I said yes.." Hyeji explained and you pouted. Hyeji won't be able to come, Haeun is on a vacation abroad and Bada is a bit busy since she's also training to be a dancer.

"Oh okay.. And congratulations by the way! I'll need your autograph when I see you so I can say to people that I got your autograph first before you got famous." you joked and you could hear Hyeji laugh. You miss your friends but then again, all of you are quite busy. Bada and Hyeji are training to be dancers, Haeun is enjoying her vacation and doing some modelling on the side while you're being enrolled in several acting classes not because your mom forced you to do it but because you really want to be an actress yourself like her.

"You're crazy.. See you whenever, bub. Gotta go!" and the call ended. You plopped down on your bed, thinking of who to invite. Well the only one left is Bada. Though you're hesitating if you should call her considering she's on the same path as Hyeji and you'd be extremely sad if she declines as well. Before you could even call her, Bada decided to barge inside your room, completely unannounced and plopping down next to you on the bed.

"Jesus! You scared me!" you complained and smacked her with a pillow and she laughed, ruffling your hair.

"Go get dressed! We're going to that amusement park since I don't have any dance classes today. Hurry or I'm dragging your ass." she says and you immediately get up, getting ready and soon you were racing with Bada to the car.

"Heyyy you didn't return that shirt to me. You have had that since your first day." Bada says as she noticed that you're wearing the shirt she lent you on your first day being transferred to her school.

"It's mine now even though it clearly says Lee 22 at the back." you laughed and made sure your seatbelt was on before your driver began driving to the amusement park.

"Can we go to the rollercoaster please? I've never been on one and I wanna try it so bad!" you asked Bada and she really wanted to say no because you might throw up but the way you looked so cute, eyes twinkling with much excitement had her caving in. How could she ever say no to your adorable face? How could she ever say no to you?

You spent the whole afternoon with Bada, trying on rides and games at the amusement park. You only stopped when it was around 7 in the evening and you're both getting hungry. After getting lost for quite some time, you finally got to the restaurant inside the park and shared a meal together. Bada knew it's just a casual hangout for you but deep in her heart, she wants to believe this is your first date together. She had realized months ago that she is in fact, falling in love with you but she didn't want to lose you and the bond she had created with you so she kept her feelings hidden.

"Badaaaa I really wanted that dog stuffed toy from that ring toss game.. But my aim is bad. And the stuffed toy is way too cute!" you rambled your little problem to her and she couldn't help but chuckle at how adorable you are.

"I'll get it for you but you have to ride the Ferris wheel with me right after. Deal?" she held out her hand towards you and you shook it without hesitation because you really wanted that stuffed toy.

Right after you destroyed the order of corn dogs, boneless chicken wings and some fries with Bada, you immediately dragged her to the ring toss booth where you saw the stuffed toy that you wanted and she immediately got to work. She failed a few times but she's not stopping until she gets that stuffed toy for you. And when she did, you were overjoyed that you weren't really thinking properly. You just turned to Bada, cup her cheeks and just kiss her. Not on the cheeks, but on the lips. You just kissed your best friend on the lips. You just kissed Bada on the lips.

"Shit, shit, shit.. I'm so sorry.. I didn't mean to do that. I was just--" you were rambling apologies to Bada while she just stood there, seemingly in a daze as she's still trying to process the fact that she just had her first kiss. That you just stole her first kiss. She would've freaked out if it was someone else who did that but she felt like she's on cloud nine because it's you who did that. It felt like she could pass away happily knowing that you kissed her. That her crush kissed her.

"No, no it's okay Y/N.. Don't sweat it out. It's all good, we're good." Bada reassured you when you looked like you were about to cry because of that kissing incident. She took you to the ferris wheel but you guys didn't talk about what just happened. Bada wanted to ease your mind so she didn't address it, waiting for you to talk about it if you wanted. You're internally freaking out yourself. You just kissed Bada and it was your first kiss.

"Look, I'm really sorry about earlier.. I really am." you finally spoke as you're both on the ferris wheel and she gives you a smile and a gentle squeeze on the hand.

"It's okay, Y/N. I swear. It's all good, no big deal. Plus, I'll gladly audition as your kiss partner while you're training to be an actress like your mom. You just gotta give me food and tutor me in return." Bada jokes and you finally crack up, laughing at the idea of you practicing a kissing scene with her then paying her with food afterwards. It's ridiculous but deep down, you wanted it just as bad as she does. The way her lips felt against yours is just perfect. It felt right like it was made to be.

"I'll have to think about it but keep your lines open." you told her in a playful manner and she just pinched your cheek, telling you as if you'd get roles with kissing scenes considering you're still a minor and that your dad will kill people if you get that kind of scene.

That night was memorable and it's what brings you comfort, especially when both you and Bada got busy. With you doing workshops for acting and Bada doing dance classes. You barely hang out anymore but would still text along with Hyeji and Haeun. You couldn't wait for the next school year to start so you could be with your friends again, so you could be with Bada again because you're missing her presence. You're missing her deeply.

Bada wanted to just leave her dance classes and go to your house, hang out with you and just be with you but ever since the kissing incident happened, she decided to distance herself a little bit just to regain control over her feelings. She didn't want you to think that she only befriended you because she wanted to date you. She doesn't want you to think that she's using her friendship with you as a leverage for you to love her. It pains her to be away from you for too long but she's got to do it. She's falling dangerously fast for you and she doesn't want you to avoid her if ever you find out about the feelings she's kept locked away. She values your friendship more than anything else, more than her feelings.

Bada: I'm sorry, Y/N but I don't know how I'll ever deal with losing you if you find out I'm so in love with you.. Maybe someday I'll find the courage to tell you all of this but for now, I'll just love you in secret..

Bada typed on her phone, just saving it on her drafts for now since she hasn't found the courage to confess to you yet. She's just hoping that when the day comes that she confesses to you, you're still available by then so she can shower you with all the love she has to give, she can show you how much she cares and cherishes you.

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[roastbbqrasil]

pagod na ako.

araw araw nakmg ganito, pumapasom sa trabaho ng 7 at uuwi ng mag 6, i-struggle ang metrics sa work na sobrang hirap maabot, kayanin ang sobrang atrasado na pag iisip mg mga tao sa paligid, tas uuwi na sobrang pagod, matutulog, tas mag-guilty kapag 2 magising or 1 kasi I should do my portfolio para sa art school.

Ang hirap din na araw araw bitbit ko yung thought na walang assurance ang art school kung makakapasok ako, pero ayaw ko naman makulong sa ganito na laging trabaho, nakakasawa, nakakapasok mg sobra.

tapos nag-guilty pa ako palagi sa pag kilos pag du nakakilos ng maayus, sovrang daminv atrasado na kaisipin nv kasama, kinakamusta lang pag kailangan, pag di ko mabigay il-leave ako on seen.

tas kay lance, pakiramdam ko bibulyaw nya sakin lahat ginagawa nya. natatakot na rin ako.

sa pamilya ko, nap-pressure ako kung di ako mag succeed sa buhay kasi alam ko madami sila sasabihin kahit na ni peso hindi nila ako sinusuportahan.

bakit ganito nalang palagi kabigat? pwede bang magpahinga nalang muna. bakit ganyan ang ugali ng pamilya ko? bakit ganyan pag iisip ng kolektib ko na parang excluded ako sa lahat at tatawagin lang pag may kailangan? bakit pakiramdam ko inbbulyaw sakin ni lance mga nagawa nya? bakit sobrang hirap maabot ng metrics sa work? bakit palagi nlang ganito ni minsan di ko matandaan kailan ako huling naging masaya.

tapos sira pa aircon sa dorm kaya sobrang init kasi nasa dulo ako at walang bintana. naka tatlong ayos na pero ganito pa rin.

bakit kilangan sunod sunod yung nangyayari na di maganda? bakit kailangan ko pa pumunta ng baguio at diliman kung pwede naman online nalang nila pagawin ang portfolio for art school?

bakit parang sobra at napaka hirap naman mabuhay?

[shiimeow]

Hi Tumblr 😊

Why kaya pag sad ako ikaw agad naalala ko like gusto ko nlang mag sulat, ikaw at si omegle :( kaso wala na si Omegle kea ikaw nalang 😔 ang sad noh? Ramdam mo ba ? Alam mo pinipilit ko naman maging masaya. I choose to be happy everyday pero bat ganun I still feel sad 🥹 ano ba hinahanap ko ? Ano ba kulang. Ano ba dapat gawin ? Ano ba ang tama? Wala na ako sa hulog. Im lost. 😔 I wanna run from reality. Ang hirap maging tao. Nakaka drain. Nakakasawa. Nakakpagod. 😩

Gusto ko muna magpahinga forever kea nga nakaka inggit sila tito pogi at bhessy kasi di na nila nraranasan un mga masasakit ung struggle ung pain ung sadness. Hays paano ka ba mahalin ang buhay ?. Ayoko na maging tao in next life. Kapagod.

Shii

12/04/24

[kardelmundo]

Ang hirap pala kapag wala kang masasabi sa problema mo, yung feeling na hnde ka maintindihan ng lahat kahit pa sarili mong pamilya.. Yung tipong nalulunod ka na sa depression pero walang humihila sayo para sagipin ka.

Umiiyak nalang ako ng lihim dahil nahihiya akong sabihin na depressed ako. Gusto kong hingiin ang kaunting oras ng kung sino man tao dito samen para matulungan ako pero nagsisimula pa lang akong magsalita nilalamon na agad ako ng husga at mas nakakasakit na salita.

Gustong gusto ko ng makawala sa depressed na nararamdaman ko dahil ayokong mamuhay na parang nag iisa lang pero habang sinusubukan kung makipag usap mas lalo kung nararamdaman na wala akong karamay.

Ang hirap magpigil ng sari't saring emosyon para lang di ka makasakit ng iba pero kahit anong pigil ko sobrang bigat parin sa dibdib na tanggapin ang realidad na at the end ikaw at ikaw lng makakaintindi at makakatulong sa sarili mo at hinde ang ibang tao.

Ang hirap pala nito kapag lumala parang araw-araw hinihiling mo na Sana bigla ka nlang maglaho at hindi na maalala para naman kahit papaano nararamdaman nila na mahalaga ka pala.

Ayokong mag isip ng mga negatibong bagay dahil may pangarap ako sa buhay dami ko pang gustong gawin at ienjoy. pero hindi ko pa rin maiiwasang umiyak. Kasi ni isa sa pamilya mo walang interes makinig sayo. Magsusumbong man ako makikinig lang hanggang sa pamuka na naman na kasalanan ko kung bakit ako nag kakaganto ang sitwasyon ngayon.

Ang hirap nakakapagod na din, pero ayokong paramdam na bigat na bigat na ko sa sitwasyon ko ngayon, kasi alam kong kinakaya at mas may nilalabanan pang nararamdaman si Mama. 🥲

Bahala kana Ama, gabayan mo po ako at tulungan mas makayanan ko pa lahat. 🙏

[cessandee]

What's up?? A lot has happened since then and I'm only gonna talk about the things that are not serious, aka my lovelife. (Next time na yung other part of my life.)

So where do i start? I read all my last entries about him and I say feelings/emotions do change a lot. We've met 2 times already. On a weekday again, him from work and me it's my day off. I actually want to clear my mind from other things that's why I agreed that day. I actually want to eat kfc but then decided that he should be the one again to choose where we will eat. He chose Burger King, for the reaons, 1. I ordered onion rings last time & thought it was like BK's and got disappointed, 2. He believes that burger will make you gain wait haha. and maybe 3. He is naiilang to eat rice with me? HAHAHA.

Okay so dun palang sa BK dami nya ng ekis for me. Ayaw ko na isaisahin pero medyo bawas points sya sa labas namin na yun lol. Tho sya nagbubukas at naglalagay ng ketchup ko?? di ako kinikilig dun sorry hahaha gusto ko lang yung normal gentleman muna tutal we are getting to know each other right? And isa pa sa napansin ko. We are so not alike pagdating sa hobbies, likes, wants hahaha sobrang opposite namin. I feel like we dont have a common denominator eh. Isa din yun sa nagpabawas lalo ng points nya ngayon sakin haha to the point where I ask myself gusto ko ba sya? parang hindi. yikes. Like how can you like a person if you have no any mutual connection to begin with? Tapos lalong nagpainis pa sakin na gusto ko na itigil ko kasi parang nagllokohan nalang is the way sya magapproach sa mga sinasabi ko sa kanyang problems and stuff. Like, be honored that I'm opening up myself to you... tapos ganun lang response mo? Huhu so not giving! Super ekis. HAHAHA. Nacocompare ko tuloy sya kay HC pota hahahahaha he did way better at comforting me kaya nafall ako dun eh. Grabe this is his chance para makuha loob ko pero parang pinpapalayo nya lang lalo. Eto pa sobrang kainis kasi I stayed at the hospital until 4am before going home. I'm so tired from pm shift tas I can't go home until I know that lolo is okay na. I'm agitated, tired, dont know what to do and I didnt get the chance to tell him the whole detail of what happened because he never asks and I feel like he is not interested so why would I bother right? And I said that baka I'm gonna go home around 2-2:30am hoping he would fetch me because he's out with his cousin. He said edi sabay na tayo 2/2:30 bounce na daw sya dun. I was pabebe konti syempre sagot ko sige kung 2:30 ako uuwi which is a yes naman diba. But then he changed his mind saying he cant promise 2:30 daw lol he is the one who said that time kaya so funny feel ko pinigilan sya ng friends nya. Edi i said in a cold tone wag na keri ko naman magisa. Rereply pa sya want nya ko makita tas update nya nlang ako pag pauwe na sya at baka pede pa nya ako MASABAY. Like he really said that?? Baka pwede nya ako masabay? DUDE HUHU. Sobrang not givingggg he got me there. Super NO for me that time hahaha. Like he could just said "sunduin kita" "hatid kita" HAHAHAHHA. Masabay talaga? Like so i know we are just friends pero diba?? You want more something from me or am I just imagining things? HAHAHA i didnt replied to him after that and he updates me pa that they went to eat sa bf! the nerve. Tas pauwe na daw sya sabay ba daw ako tas yung sunod na chat nya na nakauwe sya is clearly he drive home agad and didn't wait for my text for at least 10mins. What if pala nagreply ako ng g sabay ako hahahah babalikan ba ko nun for sure hindi.

Kaya ngayon nag-aaya sya ulit after work na naman nya kasi dayoff ko. I'm not sure parang ayaw ko na muna hahaha. Di kasi ako nadadala sa words nya lang na ang ganda ko LOL aanuhin ko yan. I want effort, I want vinovoice out nya sakin hindi yung hanggang chat lang. Tsaka hayy ewan. Siguro ang gusto ko talaga sa lalake kahit di matalino is mataas naman ang EQ. At kayang kaya maghandle ng emotions ko. Grabe Lord yun pala susunod na ipagppray ko haha a guy who could handle my emotions and moodswings na sobrang patient. Sa ngayon hindi ko nakikita sa kanya yun traits na yan hahaha. If I'm gonna rate him from 1-10 kung gano sya possible maging bf ko ay 4 HAHAHAH sobrang na turnoff talaga ako sorry. Ayaw ko na nga sana replyan eh.

Yun lang hahahaha oh diba sobrang iba feels ko dito di na inlove huhu. Hayy. Everything is gonna be alright. Mag work na muna ko malapit na mag 6 haha.

10-19-2023 04:27 AM

[lovenregrets]

Sometimes all I want is to sleep and wake up without a guilt. A peaceful, quiet rest that you would be able to have a good dream. 😌🥲

Di ko na maalala kailangan ako huling nanaginip.

Lahat ng tulog ko, tulog ng pagod. Nakatulog nalang kakaisip.

Bukod sa mag kape na ako rin naman nag titimpla, di ko na maalala kailangan ko huling pinamper ang sarili ko.

Wala ka manlang safe haven.

Para bang nilalaban mo sarili mo sa lahat. 🥲

Baka dati akong soldier. Or pwede din boxer. 🤔

Anyway,

Happy Weekend!

Pahinga kayo, idamay nyo nlang ako. 😌

Or Bawi nlang ako next life?

PS: Masarap naman mag work from home. Sobra!

Minsan di mo lang maiwasan di mag grind ng mag grind without realize na you are doing it too much na pala kasi sobrang ambisosya mo, dami mong goal sa buhay 😁😌

#womenempoweringwomen #virtualassistantcommunity #multipassionatewomen #youngentrepreneur #goalgetter #femenist #blessedbeyoncessstory #freelancesuccessstory #blessedbeyondmeasuredmeasure #lifeofafreelancer

[palangiting-tahimik]

Moving out on my own!

Sariling uupang bahay! ito yung gusto ko last year pa and matagal ko ng gustong gawin, di ko kasi makita yung improvement ko sa sarili ko kung hanggang ngayon andito padin ako sa house ng parents ko, although okay dito madami foods lahat ihahain nlang sayo, laba na yung mga damit mo, magkukusa ka nalang maglinis ng kwarto mo. pero di ako masaya on my own, 31 yrs old na ko at minsan may sarili na kong desisyon sa buhay na gusto ko ng mangyare, at minsa may nasasabi padin sila. gusto ko ipush na umalis dito para maexperience ko naman ang buhay sa labas. alam ko mahirap pero siguro yung hirap na yun ang magpapatibay pa sayo para matupad mo yung dreams mo. naiisip ko na din mag buo ng sarili kong pamilya pero sa ngayon gusto ko paunti unti ang priority ko nalang muna ay mag ipon para pag down and deposit sa uupahan ko, mahirap pero kakayanin.

[sunb0rn]

some fridays ago, my mom reminded me sa mga "kalat" ko sa rooftop; ngayon naalala ko nang kunin para ilagay nalang muna sa unit dahil hindi ko pa maasikaso. bukod sa clothes for selling (na galing sa suppliers), ito yung iba pang hinakot ko:

sanitary pads na na-barter or nabili ko from selling my preloveds

Ive been wanting to be a part of this NGO, I Support the Girls- Manila , they collect sanitary pads and undergarments to be distributed sa ibat ibang communities and homeless girls' shelter.

but coz of work, school, and life in general hindi ko na natuloy. pandemic happened pa. but few months before 2020 ended I thought of bartering and/or selling my preloveds for their cause.

this was the first time I messaged the org to inquire ang preferences nila sa brand

I joined and posted sa barter groups here in LP. and most ng gusto kumuha sa items ko ay teenage girls; hindi rin naman kalakihan budget nila so may mga pagtawad na nangyare. I am okay with that, isa dim sa goal ko kasi is to spread awareness sa cause ng org.

I also tried selling sa groups and marketplace and natutuwa na din ako kasi kahit may inquiries na hindi natutuloy sa pagbili, nagpasalamat sila sa akin for sharing the info tungkol sa org at possibly mag donate din sila. :)

two of my transactions, iaang barter and isang nabili

I only had four succesful transactions. super na jampacked kasi pagkatao ko ng madaming bagay until I broke down recently.

ngayon, hihintayin ko lang hazard pay (huhu. broke af talaga kung sa sa sahod eh. pero pag super tagal non, magtatabi nlang talaga ko for this) para dagdagan itong idodonate ko. yaaay, birthmonth checklist!!

I'm still hoping na ma-continue ko yung selling my preloveds for this and maging volunteer talaga nila. ieeeh. :)

[ugh-tsumu]

Sweets (Switch) || An Ushijima filo!smau

Nung umulan ng gayuma dahil masyadong bobo si Kuroo at napulot ito ni Tanaka, abala naman si Ushijima Wakatoshi - ang volleyball captain ng ABM volleyball team - sa pambibwisit sa binilhan niya ng secondhand na laptop. Dahil dito, na-uno reverse card siya ng online seller: bwinisit din siya gamit ang sumpa. Anong sumpa? Ang magpalit sila ng katawan ni Y/N Oikawa - kapatid ng volleyball captain ng STEM volleyball team.

Part 9: Ushijima vs. Oikawa (written + noods)

Ushijima prepared himself for the unknown. He took a deep breath before reaching for the knob. With cold skin, he twisted it open.

The door opened at nabuksan niya ang kwarto ni Oikawa (I mean, duh). And there Oikawa was, nakahiga sa kama niya pero nang nakitang binuksan ni Y/N ang pinto, kaagad siyang nagbackflip papunta sa pintuan.

"Y/N, may kailangan ka ba?" The doting brother he is, asked, "Ano? Nakapag-isip ka na ba kung kaninong tae gagamitin?"

Ushijima flinched. Nakakasuka talaga 'tong si Oikawa, "Oikawa- I mean...Kuya, I-"

"Pera ba? Bahay? Sabi ko na nga ba dapat nagdeposit na ako ng 1 million tapos binili ko na ang-"

"Kuya," Ushijima stopped Oikawa from speaking. Kung saan-saan na lumilipad utak ng tarantadong to nyeta, "Kuya, bakit galit na galit ka kay Ushijima?"

The smile on Oikawa's lips vanished. Naglakad ito papunta sa bintana at dinungaw ang buwan. Parang bida sa drama na series hahahaha.

"Y/N, nagsimula ang hidwaan ng pamilyang Ushijima at Oikawa noong pre-school ako..."

"Away pamilya pala 'to?" Ushijima asked. Magkagalit pala ang mga Ushijima at Oikawa?

Oikawa looked at Ushijima, confused as fuck, "Shunga ka ba, Y/N? Hindi ba ilang beses ko na nakwento 'to sa 'yo?"

"Ha?" <- Ushijima

"Hatdog," Oikawa dramatically sighed bago tumingin ulit sa bintana.

"Nagsimula ito noon..."

ROLL VTR

"Wow, Oikawa, ang galing mo naman mag-dive receive!" Manghang sinabi ng pre-school!Matsukawa.

Oikawa smirked arrogantly as he took the ball from the ground, "Sus, simple lang 'to lods."

"Sana kami rin maka-receive nang ganiyan..." Naiinggit na sabi ni Iwaizumi.

"Oo nga. Sana all may balls." <- Makki

"Tama-- teka, HA-"

"Alam niyo, pupunta na nga ako ng Nationals, eh," Oikawa bragged, "Pagkatapos manganak ni Mommy, pupunta akong Nationals."

"Saan ba 'yang Nationals? Diyan sa may kanto?" Troubled Matsukawa asked.

"Ewan. Pero basta, pupunta ako."

"Hindi ka makakapunta ng Nationals."

Matsukawa, Hanamaki, Iwaizumi, and Oikawa looked at the uninvited child. Naglalakad si Ushijima papunta sa kanila habang hila-hila ang stroller nito.

"Hindi ka makakapunta ng Nationals, Oikawa," Ushijima repeated the heart breaking statement that he said earlier.

Oikawa flinched, tears swelling at the corner of his eyes, "'Di 'yan totoo! Pupunta ako ng Nationals!" He said.

"Tama! Walking distance lang 'yon!" Matsukawa added kahit na di niya talaga alam saang lupalop 'yang Nationals.

"Hindi ka makakapunta ng Nationals," sirang plaka Ushijima?

"Paano mo nasabe?" Iwaizumi asked.

Ushijima stared at them one by one. Nanigas ang apat sa takot kasi potanginang titig 'yan, men. Nakakainlab nangangagat.

"Talagang 'di ka makakapunta. Bawal naman bata sa Nationals," Ushijima said as a matter of fact.

Oikawa's eyes widened as the dreams he has been building up for since birth is immediately shattered with Ushijima in front of him. Napaluhod si Oikawa sa sakit at inalalayan siya ng 3 kaibigan, sinasabihang oks lang daw, nxt tym nalang, ikain niya nlang yn.

Pero wala ni isa sa mga comforting words ng mga kaibigan niya ang pumasok sa tenga niya. His eyes are only at Ushijima and Ushijima alone, tinitignan ang katawan nitong papalayo na sa kanilang apat.

END VTR

"Doon nagsimula ang away namin ni Ushijima..." Oikawa exhaled with a heavy heart as he reached for Y/N's hand. Hinila niya ang nakababatang kapatid para yakapin ito for moral support.

Si Ushijima naman naaasiwa na pero sige lang.

"Ano nga ulit ang kailangan mo, Y/N?" Oikawa said as he caressed Y/N's hair.

"Pahiram cellphone."

"Ge."

Masterlist • Part 10 >>

A/N: I trieeeed to make it as petty as possible HAHAHAHAHA

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[euphorickiddo]

16, 59, 69, 74, 134 anon ko nlang kuya shy pu ako sayo xD

16: Kahit gala ako eh there’s no place like home talaga huhuhu 🥺

59: Ewan ko kung considered as phobia ‘to pero takot ako sa sobrang laking crowd/maraming tao kaya di ako pumupunta ng concerts

69: HAHAHAHAH bogart po nickname ko jk haha marami eh Chris, Nico, Nic, Boss Nic, at Nicolas

74: Doggo huhuhu syempre biased ako kasi aso si baby girl ko lol.

134: Actually nagawa ko na nung 21st ko lahat ng gusto kong mangyari hehe pero this 22nd eh gusto ko nalang mag-organize ng event para sa mga bata hahaha. Gusto ko magpasaya n kids!!!!

Hello, grabe siya sa nahiya hahahaha thanks po 😅

[onewordenglish]

Tinanong nya ako, “ganyan kaba talaga kaclingy?”  tapos nag isip pa ako kasi di ko alam kung clingy ba ako. Hahaha. So ayun sabi ko “hindi, sayo lang ata” kasi parang di naman talaga ako clingy sa mga past ko. Hahaha. Or hindi ganon gaya ng sakanya. Sobrang clingy ko daw kasi. Sabi ko naman pag kaming dalawa lang naman, tapos sabi nya kahit may iba kaming kasama. Hahaha. Hindi ko naman napapansin talaga.

Feeling ko lang, mas naeexpress ko lang ngayon yung feelings, tapos inaallow nya pa ako kahit ano gawin ko sakanya kahit may mga tao sa paliigid. De, basta ibang iba lang talaga ngayon. Mahiyain kasi talaga ako lalo na pag kasama mga kakilala namin. Hahaha

Pero nung Friday nung nasa gig kami, edi ang dami namin nakatayo lang kami tas sobrang init don sa bar grabiiii. Nasa unahan ako, kung kani kanino ako nakikipagchikahan, may inaasar kasi akong mga kasama namin tas bigla ko sya naisip so hinanap ko medyo nasa likuran ko lang sya, mga isang dipa ang layo. Hahaha tas sabi ko “tara nga dito namimiss na kita eh” hahahaha gulat din ako bat ko sinabi yon tapos gulat din sya eh. Hahaha. Ayun tinukso kami nung mga nakarinig hahahaha ala kinilig ako e. Di ko alam kung anong alam nila samin pero bahala sila. Hahaha namiss ko talaga e. 

Sabi ko nga sakanya pag nasa gig kami at kapag madaming tao gusto ko nakikipag usap pa din kami sa iba, yun naman talaga ginagawa ko. Pero ako kasi yung parang ilan minutes na hindi sya yung kakwentuhan ko, bigla bigla ko nlang sya maaalala. Baka wala syang kausap ganon. Bukod sa namimiss ko agad sya, e ayoko lang mafeel nya ulit yung dati na palagi nalang sya hinahayaan mag isa pag may ibang tao na kausap yung ano nya. Tapos pag nahanap ko na sya ng tingin, nakatingin din sya sakin. Hahaha sabi nya nakabantay lang daw sya sakin. Ayieeee. 

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siguro nga our group of friends are so fucked up, like yeah you can call us na hindi real friends pero kasi ang hirap e. may isa kasi kaming friend actually dalawa sila ang mema nila ganon parang girl anong purpose nyo bakit need nyo sabihin yung mga ganong bagay, yung parang puro yabang nalang na kesyo mayaman sila, na nakakaangat sila and so what?? di naman tayo nagpapaangatan eh, kasi naasa pa din tayo sa mga magulang natin. kung ano ka tatanggapin ka naming buo. Pero kasi parang ang point nila e, nakikipagpataasan na mayaman sila parang ganun ba ang korni lang. So yuuun, dahil don we have a lots of gc. Ang toxic no ewan ko ba pero kasi how can you confront them like uy nagsisinungaling kaba sempre dedeny nila yun. Di naman sa judger or what kasi example may sasabihin silang bagay na pinuntahan or meron sila or nakapunta na daw sa concert kuno like wtf where's the proof, kahit isang picture man lang. Kasi kung ako nasa concert girl puno na gallery ko pero diba puro lang kwento hanggang dun lang. so yun na nga ang dami naming gc, sguro mga 5 yun. Isang gc ng lahatan, isang gc na wala yung isa, yung isa naman wala ulit isa, isang gc na wala silang dalawa and gc naming apat na tunay well ksama din si diane don sempre. Basta yun, ang toxic lang ng friendship namin.

Sa mga cases kasi na ganyan ewan ko ba ang hirap inconfront kasi masisira kami eh, pipito nlang kami mabawasan pa. parang makigo with the flow nalang pero kasi minsan ang pangit din na kahit alam mong puro katalkshitan lang kinukwento nila kailangan mo makinsangayon minsan nga nakakarindi na sobra eh. kasi what's the point? bakit kailangan mo pa magsinungaling kung pwede naman magpakatotoo nalang kung ano ka dibaaaa.

[pleasegetout]

Happy Pill :(

PART I

Nakakalungkot pala talaga na dati ang close close niyo tas bigla nalang may nagbago.Bigla na lang nag bago at para bang wala lang ako sakanya. Ang hirap pala magadjustsa mga bagay na nakasanayan mo na :( . Kaso hindi mo naman masabi na nagbago na yung turing niya sayo..

Ginawa ko naman lahat eh :(

Pakiramdam ko ginamit lang ako . Pakiramdam ko laruan lang ako na ginamit pagkatpos iniwan na lang (temporary happiness).Iniwan ako sa rason na deserved ko daw maging masaya pero paano kapag sila ang reason ng happiness ko.Paano naman yung happiness ko? Deserved ko din naman maramdaman yon diba? Deserved ko pero ikaw yung happiness ko eh.

Pinaka worst na feeling ko na ata to.Yung hindi ko kayang magmahal pa ng iba dahil yung puso ko pa para pa din sa taong mahal ko na sinaktan ako.

Hi Happy Pill ko :D na happy pill na ng iba hahaha . It's been a month simula ng hiniwalayan mo ko sa text. Kinain ako ng kalungkutan non at sobrang nalunod na, akala ko hindi na ko makaka ahon pa. Gigising na lang ako na pagod na ko sa buhay or gigising na lang ako at marerealize ko na di worth it lahat nang nangyari.Atsaka possible pala talaga yung mga pangyayari sayo na gigising ka nalang ng isang araw na di mo na ko mahal. Wala ng rason rason basta ayaw mo nalang bigla.Akala ko nga sa movies lang nangyayari yun haha sa totoong buhay lang din pala. Sabi mo saakin hindi mo alam pero iba nalang bigla yung gusto mo atsaka ng sorry ka kasi ganun ang nangyari . Dahil nagsorry ka bigla nung sinabi mo yon hindi ko alam kung ano masasabi ko sayo, wala kasi akong masabi at hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko. Tsk. Everytime na gigising ako hindi pa din ako adjusted sa sistema ng buhay ko ngayon. It's always "Putangina, eto na naman." Everyday is a battle na walang feedback if you did well o hindi. Clueless ako sa lahat dahil wala ka na. Tinanong kita dati

Me: Bakit bigla mo na lang ako iniwan?

You: Para sayo , Kasi pagod na

Bakit kasi ang saket pa din ? 1 month na still the pain kills me bad. Kahit sabihin na natin magpakabusy ako pero pag oras na dumating ang gabi matatahimik ako at

mapapaisip na bakit ganito ang nangyari sakin? at bigla ko nlng maalala yung tao na iniwan ka at mapapatanong ka ulit sa sarili mo na "hindi ba talaga ako ka keep keep?" hahaha. Yung taong ko kasama ko sa halos buong buhay ko , dami nating plano, dami nating gusto , bigla nlang ako iniwan. Gago diba? Hahahha. Sabi mo dati magstay lang ako sa life mo, anong ginawa ko? Umalis ba ako? Iniwan kita? Hindi diba, nagstay ako pero ikaw anong ginawa mo? Ikaw pala yung di kayang magstay tas bigla nalang ng iwan .

Ikaw yung parte ng buhay ko na ayaw ko mawala pero ako yung parte ng buhay mo na iniwan mo nalang bigla .Sobra akong nadurog sa lahat ng snbi mo sakin,.Ang tagal na pero yung sakit nandito pa din.Wala akong magawa kasi malayo ka at di ko alam kung nasaang lupalop ka na, no choice kundi mag isip.

It's hurt on my side as always, but we're talking 'bout your sake, it always goes to set aside my feeling to you just to make sure you'll be ok.

Wala akong magawa kundi iiyak nalang ang sakit.Wala akong magawa para mabago pa lahat.

kapag ayaw mo ayaw mo talaga atsaka di naman kita napapilit sa mga bagay na ayaw mo kasi ayaw mo talaga haha. Eto ako naalala minsan lahat ng mga snbi mo sakin kht ayaw ko maalala haha na pinagsabihan mo ako na 

"tama na, tumigil na ko,

tigilan na kita,

Bakit hindi mo maintindihan?,

Bakit hindi mo matanggap,

Ayaw ko na.,  

Di ko alam louise pero bakit hindi mo matanggap,

Inexplain ko na sayo bakit ayaw mo?, Ayaw ko na talaga e " ...

Kahit ayaw ko maalala yan pmasok nlng bigla sa isip ko.. Di ko din kasi magets na laruan lang ako sayo. sobrang sakit feels.

Hindi naman ako laruan eh na kpg magpapalam ka lang at papayagan agad kita. Hindi naman ako ganun ehh.  

Hindi naman ako laruan na iiwan lang bsta basta boi may pakiramdam din ako. May pakiramdam din ako..

to be continue....

[szn1292]

Hello RR miss na miss na kita..tama nga sabi nila pag nawala un tao dun mo lang marerealize kung gaano mo siya kamahal💔 Ayaw ko magsisi na binitawan kita kasi yun nman yung tama at alam ko na masaya ang diyos sa ginawa ko para sa atin yung nlang iisipin ko para tuluyan ng magpatuloy ng wala ka. Di ko alam nararamdaman mo ngayon kung naiisip mo pa ba ako kung naalala mo pa ba ako. Minsan nasa isip ko wala ka ng pakialam at galit ka sa akin pero sana wag naman. Ayaw ko na kc maging bitter pa at magkaroon ng sama ng loob sayo.Ok naman na ko wala ng galit sayo pero maramin tanong sa isip ko na gusto ko na masagot mo, never mo kasi ako binigyan ng closure never ka nagpaalam basta bigla ka nlang din nawala po. Mahal na mahal kita at wala ako iba minahal hanggang ngayon kung hindi ikaw lang napagod lang talaga ko sa sitwasyon natin at sa mga pinagdaan ko mula sayo. Mamahalin nalang kita sa paraan ko yung tahimik lang yunh nasa malayo lang ako. Sana palagi kang masaya at malusog. Sana dumating yung tamang time maging ok na din ang lahat para sa ating dalawa sana mangyari pa yun di nman ako nagsisi na minahal tlga kita isang lang nman pinanghihinayangan ko un nawala natin pagkakaibigan kc sobra na un tiwala natin sa isat isa. Sa tamang panahon pag nagkita tyo uli sana makaya na ntin ngumiti sa isat isa yung tipong masaya narin ako at ksama ko na yung taong magmamahal sa akin ng totoo.

[dailydoseofmehj]

May 16

Hello, alam ko need ko magsulat pero tinatamad ako hand written..

I feel blank, inoover analyze ko masyado ung hindi na nya pag tatag sakin or pag memention nya sakin these days.

Pero tama nga ko, galit sya nung nkaraan kaya di na nya ko tinatag. I wonder kung kasama rito ung hindi nya pag mamyday at puro sya nlang ang laman ng fb nya. Hindi ko din alam.

Napansin ko nawawala ko na ung individuality ko. Parang ako as gf nlang parati. Wla na bang sariling gusto kasi na compromise. Dati want ko tahimik na buhay probinsya, pero dahil want nya city life at maingay medyo isinantabi ko na yon.

Sa totoo, habang tinatype ko to iniisip ko, oo nga no ano na nga ba ung mga gusto ko? Dati mas importante sakin ung matutunan ko. Ngaun naman, iniisip ko na din kikita ba ko ng pera diyan? Kelangan ko n pera para maging masaya. As you can see, hindi ko narin sure kung anong gusto ko sa buhay. :"((

Ano ba magandang gawin? Puro bayarin nlang kasi .. parang need kumita kasi may mga bayarin. Puro ganon nalang.

Nsabi ko narin sakanya na parang gusto ko narin mag apply pa japan. Parang gusto ko ng hanapin ung sarili ko. Parang gusto ko naman tuparin pangarap ko. Tatlong taon, i wonder kung mabuo ko ba ung sarili ko non.

[lilkillua]

03/14/2022 6:15pm

I'm happy sa lahat ng na achieve niya from work, this the day na promte siya sa work as a Branch Manger masaya ko para sayo babe. you did your best para sa kung anu ang meron ka ngayon alam ko nman na kaya mo yan. kaso half of my side sad kasi baka mawalan na siya ng oras sakin at hindi ko na siya gaanung makausap dahil sa sobrang magging busy siya sa trabho niya.andto nanamn ako sa sitwasyon na yun na mag aadjst nnman ako dahil sa busy siya. sana lang tlaga hindi siya mawlan ng oras sakin. sna maalala parin niya ko noh!.kahit gaanu siya ka busy kasi nung c joyce nag ka trabho ni ndi nku naalala dahil sa trabho prang wlang breaktime ung trabho nia kahit good morning message nalang nun prang tmad na tmad na kaya prang nwlan nrin ako ng gana nun time na un. sna ndi ganun.yung mngyri smin ni babe na sana kahit sbrang bc niya sana imessage niya ko or twgan kahit saglit lang dku nman hnihngi buong oras e ung maalala lang sana ko un lang msya nku na alam ko nag eexsist prin ako sknia. pro ndi ko hwak ang bukas o ang pnhon mag hhntay nlang ulit ako sa kng anu mngyyri.