#AAAAA i've been waiting a good while to post this one!!!

[crescentfool]

my piece for the memories of you zine (@p3-zine)! thank you so much for having me, it was a ton of fun getting to draw my favorite trio~

🛒 leftovers sales are open from now to november 30th! https://p3zine.bigcartel.com/

[writingstoraes]

tour guide 🎥

pairing: charles leclerc/fem!actress!reader

type: instagram imagine, social media au

notes: saw the post abt apex filming at silverstone this week and got this idea lol lmk what u guys think! atp you already know who my fc is (it's hailee steinfeld 😝)

about: a well-known actress stars in a film that is set in the world of formula 1 and scuderia ferrari happens to be the leading team to guide the production team and its cast!

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yourusername Film prep starts now. Currently glad my parents forced me into getting my driver's license as early as I could as well as my brother introducing me to Formula 1 years ago 🏁

Beyond excited for this movie!

allhailyn WE LOVE U QUEEN WE CANT WAIT

filmthusiast this is such a new role for her im so excited

f1lover film + f1 is always going to be the biggest bestest combo ❤️

lecsluv LMAOOO NOT CHARLES LIKING THIS

zendayyn mans a fan norrisbaby Oh hes quick 😆

yourusername recently added to her instagram story!

yourusername recently added to her instagram story!

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yourusername 3/4 done with filming for First Gear 🤍 So much work has been done for this movie and it's been the good kind of overwhelming so far. I've learned so much and experienced so many new things.

Included the one and only charles_leclerc here because majority of the things I learned came from him. He's pretty nice except he was beyond nervous when I drove the car for the first time.

scuderiaferrari We're glad to know Charles was the best tour guide ever! ❤️

lecsmmylove NOT FERRARI STICKING WITH THE TOUR GUIDE DESCRIPTION???

hamilfilm charles leclerc making his way into y/n's official ig account is not something i have on my bingo card

popgirltay u guys r so cute <3 friendship goals!

livelovelecs no, dating announcement next LOLOL

charles_leclerc Why do I seem like the bad guy here, I taught you pretty well didn't I?

yourusername I didn't say you were a bad teacher 😕

charles_leclerc

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charles_leclerc Everyday's karting day 🚘

lecsferrari the red nails??? sir u aint slick who is that

sainzmclaren It's Y/N 😭 She posted karting pics today too

yourusername What do you have to say for yourself that you lost?

charles_leclerc I let you win, jolie 😁 Pretty. ferarrimercs HE CALLED HER PRETTY?????

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yourusername The student has become the teacher 😎

charles_leclerc Anyone would win if they were fighting kids on track

yourusername I sense sore loser 😝

leclercsyn TOO CUTE IM GONNA COMBUST

scuderiaferrari ❤️❤️❤️

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yourusername Feeling so emotional that filming for a movie that holds a special place in my heart has come to an end 🤍 I am so ecstatic for all of you to see First Gear because everyone involved put everything they had for this film. I hope you guys love this as much as I do, possibly more.

So many people to thank — the directors, producers, scriptwriters, my co-stars, everyone who's worked so hard to make this into reality, I owe you all so much.

But I also never thought I'd meet someone so special. Charles, this past year for us have been so crazy and I'm glad I got to spend it with you. If it helps, the moment they told me you would be giving me a tour of the paddock, I fell instantly 😝

leclercsyn MY PARENTS AAAAA IM SCREAMING

scuderiaferrari We are so proud of you, Y/N ❤️ The whole team is waiting for the movie!

charles_leclerc What do you mean if it helps, I was literally sweating while telling you what a pitwall is

lecslover HES SO FUNNYHTBHRHB

charles_leclerc

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charles_leclerc Most talented person I've come across. Watching you on set has become one of my favorite things to do; it reminds me of just how amazing you are. To more karting sessions with you ❤️

Sincerely,

Your paddock tour guide

lecshamilton hes owning the tour guide title, mad respect

sainzlove I AM MELTINGGGGG

f1luvr power couple me thinks?

yourusername Get ready to lose 🥱

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tagging: @slytherheign, @honethatty12, @siovhanroy

notes: why i take so much time making these ill never understand anyway i hope u guys like this hehehe thank you sm for reading <3

[nipuni]

Hello! Time for another blog post! I think my last one was two months ago and a lot has happened since 😊

We have been attending a ton of historical recreation events so I still have many photos to share, hope you don't hate those! It's been really fun! We are exhausted and all out of social battery however so we are taking it easy this month. Another thing that's been happening a lot is that even when we are not dressed in historical clothing we keep getting stopped by strangers on the street because of our everyday outfits, it's been like that for a couple of years now so we are no longer startled or nervous about it but it's happening more and more often now and it's so nice! we always end up chatting about the events we go to and our jobs and hobbies and exchanging contacts or they ask for photos and stuff! people are really kind and excited about it and I still find it so surprising in the best way. We grew up in a very hostile city and environment and that makes you paranoid and cynical so these interactions and response has been healing really. I know their words will stick with us for years to come 😭 Sadly the unbearable heat is starting though so that means our outings for the next three months will be limited to the crack of dawn and after sunset 😞 but at least the summer brings a lot of fruit with it so we can sit at home and eat pineapples and strawberries while we wait for autumn.

My family came to visit a few months ago too and we made them watch most of Doctor Who's season one to four and some of our favourite episodes from all the other seasons lmao. And much to our delight they really enjoyed it!! They both loved Ten the most and my step dad is now in love with Martha 🥰

We have also been watching the current season and it's been so fun keeping up with fandom theories in real time and talking about it and speculating with friends in person, it's the first time we get a chance to do it since we got into the series and we are enjoying it a lot!

We also watched season one of Jessica Jones and we loved David's performance as Kilgrave!! He stole the show for real. Kilgrave is such an incredible villain, one of the best I've seen and DT does such an amazing job portraying every aspect of him. He's detestable and volatile and frighteningly powerful and has such an intimidating terrifying presence in the narrative while also being pathetic and vulnerable and ridiculous and childish and so human with all it's worrying implications. It was just so gripping and I wish he had stayed for the rest of the show honestly!! Now we have to pick our next David Tennant series to watch! 😊

Also!! Dragon Age is back!! AHHH I wanted to thank everyone that commented on my last DA pieces, it has made my month to read the comments, I didn't expect so many people to remember my art or my character after so many years and it's so touching and flattering you have no idea 😭💘 I look forward to making more and sharing them with you all, I'm truly grateful for the kindness you've shown me both back then and now I hope you know.

I feel so spoiled lately with all these franchises that I love releasing new content!! I've never been in these many fandoms at once!! I have so many ideas to draw and keep jumping back and forth between drawings from different shows and games AAAAA it's a good and welcome change honestly, keeps me busy and inspired!

Anyway that's all for now I think! I hope you are doing well and this summer/winter is kind to you all ❤️

[yandere--stuck]

nosramus's relationship headcanons, maybe? 🫶 idk if you write for them, but if not, ok!!

but speaking sincerely with all my heart; i've been following your blog for a while, and i'll tell you-- i sincerely love your writing, like really - very really !! i giggle and do 10 spins in my room when you post about my favorite characters (or characters i don't even know, 🤭🤭) maybe that sounds not honest ((i don't even know)), but i really mean it.

AND

hope you have a good night/or day (or whatever time is) !!!!!!!!!!

Thank you so so much!!! That's so sweet of you to say and I'm so glad you enjoy my works aaaaa ;w; it means a lot!!

I hope you have a great day/night yourself and that these are good <3

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🤍 Immortality is both a blessing and a curse, Nosramus has found. Though she finds enjoyment and purpose in her studies and in the mundanity of life, even within the dungeons of Fear and Hunger, this has also led her to a life of loneliness. Many days spent with only herself for company. Her guard is there, of course, but he's not really much for company. It's even manageable most days. But the longer the future stretches out in front of her, the more the chasm in her heart where others had once touched deepens and darkens further.

💛 Such isolation gives her cause to look into different areas of study - such as The Soul. Everyone is born under a specific Soul type that will shape who they are and how their life will play out. Less understood, however, is that concept of a Soul Mate. The idea of one Soul bearer having one (or more) Souls that are naturally attracted or drawn toward one particular Soul type or even particular individual that bears a particular Soul type that seems to inherently click with another's. Once, she had thought she found them. But, she was wrong. She was betrayed and forgotten. In the end, they were the worse for it and Nosramus, in the grand scheme of things, was far better off. Still, she was left scarred by deception. To be alone was better than being hurt again in such a way. It was better for a long, long time. But now, the darkness and isolation of the catacombs have become almost too much to bear. She can feel her Soul call out for the touch of another.

🤍 Brave adventurer, what is it you seek? Her, perhaps unknowingly…? Why else could Nosramus feel you within the halls? Your footfalls echoing through her head, the brightness of your spirit felt pulsing in her own Soul. A feel of giddiness makes her entire body shake. She can't concentrate on her studies. She can't even hold a cup of tea steady without shaking. She sees flashes of you in her enlightened mind's eye. So desperate is Nosramus to see you in the flesh. Is this what it feels like to meet your one and only? A part of Sylvian's design perhaps. The anticipation and impending doom of meeting who you are meant to be one with. Nosramus can't help to distract herself much longer, nearly running from her laboratory as she feels you enter the mines.

💛 Don't be afraid. She can see you from the shadows. She will wait as long as you need to step into the light and see her. Nosramus tries to keep her smile from widening too greatly. She introduces herself. Tries to ignore the burning sensation in her very being. Extends a hand out to you and tells you the kettles on. Care for a cup of tea? She smiles even as you hesitate. Of course you're hesitant, poor thing. All alone in such a place without her. How did you ever survive? When your hand slips into hers, Nosramus is nearly set ablaze from the inside-out. Oh, yes, she thinks she'll keep you.

🤍 As a show of good faith, Nosramus offers you to partake in her potions and peruse her tomes. Not like you'll be leaving with them. The home she's made feels so much more alive with you inside it. Like you were always meant to be here. Your voice is music to her ears. She implores you - why are you here, where are you from, who have you left behind, what do you love, what do you despise, what are your dreams and wishes. She sprawls down notes when she gets a moment between preparing your tea. Just the beginning of her study of you. When she sets your cup in front of you, she makes a show of giving her own a hearty sip. And by the time you've realized what's happened, you can barely keep your head up. Poor dear. 

💛 You must understand. Or, you will understand, eventually. Nosramus has been burned before. She wants to trust you, but can't quite yet. But, it's okay, pet. She will take care of you while you learn how much your meant to be. She can hardly be near you without touching you - holding your hand, stroking the top of your head, pressing soft kisses across your face. When she must rip herself away from you, her guard will watch over you. One day, you'll be free to be lucid when kept in her quarters, but not yet. She must show you that your Souls are meant to be one. She cannot wait for the day that Sylvian blesses your union and you finally do become One.

[manicplank]

The Color Pink (Part 15)

Aaaaa sorry this took so long. This piece has been written for a while so I decided to post it since I've been too busy to write more. Sorry if it sucks.

Theodore awoke in the morning to see that his room was spotless. All the laundry was put away, and his army of half empty water bottles was gone. He tried to sit up, but it was too painful. He never picked up his painkillers from the pharmacy, so he had no means of relief. He groaned as his shoulder throbbed. Hazel appeared in the doorway almost instantly. “Theo,” she spoke calmly even though she was very worried. “Are you okay?”

“No,” he mumbled. “I can’t get up. It hurts too much.”

“Oh, okay, um…” She walked over to him in a hurry. She took the pillows out from underneath his right side. He winced in pain. “Sorry!” She was a little unsure of what to do. She went over to his other side and placed her hands underneath his neck and back. She slowly pulled up, but this only rolled him over. He cried out in pain again. She began to stress. She went to the foot of the bed. “Give me your hand.” She reached out and grabbed his left hand. “I’m gonna pull you up, and you’re gonna try and sit up at the same time, okay?”

“Mhm…”

“Okay, on three. One… Two… Three!” She strained as she pulled him up. He winced again, but he was sitting upward, so their mission was accomplished. She went over to him and held his face. “You okay?”

“No. I’m in pain.”

“Um… Okay, uh… I don’t know what to do.”

“They sent a script for painkillers over to the pharmacy. They should be ready by now. We need to go pick them up.”

“Oh, right! Good idea. Do you need help getting dressed?”

“No. I’ll just go like this.” He was dressed in sweatpants and an NTV t-shirt.

Hazel put her hands on her hips. “Really? Just like that?”

“Dude, I’m in too much pain to give a shit right now. I’m not walking down a red carpet. I was gonna send you to get them, anyways.”

“Wait, what?”

“Yeah. I was gonna wait here… Is that okay?”

“Isn’t your wallet still on set?”

“Shit, that’s right. Fuck, okay, um…” He sighed, “Ugh, I guess I’ll have to go with.”

“Plus, I need to pack a bag with some clothes. I’m going to stay here for a couple days to help you out.”

“Hazel, you don’t have to-”

She repeated herself in a firmer, more assertive tone, “I am going to stay here for a couple of days to help you out.”

He huffed. “Fine.”

“You don’t have to pity me, Theodore. I’m helping you because you need it. I’m helping you because I want to.” She went up to him and gently cupped his face in her hands. “Okay?”

He smiled. “Okay.”

She gave him a gentle peck on the lips. “You sure you don’t want to put any better pants on?”

“I’m sure. I’m comfortable.”

“Okay,” she rolled her eyes playfully, “whatever you say.” She stuck her hand out. “Come on, I’ll help you up.”

As she helped him to his feet, there was a knock at the door. He sighed, “Stay here, I’ll get it.” He dragged his feet as he walked. The entire right side of his body was stiff and sore. An ache radiated through his body with each step. The door knocked again. “SHUT UP!” He screamed in frustration as he walked up to the door. He opened it up; it was Dougie.

Theodore inhaled deeply and huffed with frustration. “What do you want?”

“Hi, boss. I have your keys and your wallet.” Dougie handed them to him.

“Oh… Cool… Thanks…”

“The set manager wants you to call him.”

Theo rolled his eyes. “What does he want?”

“He wants to know how you’re doing. We all do.”

“I’m in pain. Shout it through a megaphone and make sure everybody hears.”

“Yeah, but-”

Theo slammed the door in Dougie’s face. Hazel had come down the stairs to see that Noise had his wallet and keys in hand.

“Who was that?” She asked.

“It was Dougie. He dropped off my stuff.”

“Oh, okay, good. That’s one less stop we have to make.”

“Yep. Let’s go, I’m in a lot of pain and I want to go back to bed.”

Theo waddled behind Hazel as they headed out.

-

After everything was said and done, Theodore was completely exhausted. He had dozed off on the way back. He picked his head up once the car stopped. Hazel helped him up and out of his seat. She grabbed his hips from behind and guided him to the door.

“I’m not drunk,” he said, “you don’t have to lead me.”

“I just want to make sure you’re okay.”

“You don’t have to baby me.”

“Shush. Let’s just get you inside so you can take a painkiller and go to bed. You need all the rest you can get.”

Theodore rolled his eyes and walked up to the door. Hazel unlocked and opened it for him. He dragged his feet as he walked in, holding the door for her to walk in behind him. He plopped onto the couch and kicked his legs up. His body was too tired to move anymore. Hazel hurriedly grabbed a water bottle from the kitchen and gave him the painkiller. He swallowed it without hesitation. She twiddled her fingers together as he laid his head down.

“Do you want me to take you up to your room?” She asked.

“Mmph,” he mumbled. “No. I’ll stay down here. That way if I need anything, I can just get it myself. I won’t have to go up and down the stairs a million times.”

“Hmm… Oh! Hold on, stay here.”

“I wasn’t going anywhere anyways.”

She rushed up to his room and grabbed a pillow as well as his fuzzy pink “blankie”. She came back down to see him already dozing off. “Here,” she tucked the pillow under his head and spread the blanket across him. She gave him a kiss on the forehead and he smiled. “Will you be okay if I leave?”

“You’re leaving?” He whined.

“Yeah. I’m sorry, but I have to go home eventually.”

He chuckled softly. “I’m just teasing you.”

She rolled her eyes with a smile. She ran her fingers through his hair. “I’ll be back. I have to pack some clothes and such.”

“Okay.”

“Call me if you need me, okay?”

“Okay.”

She cuffed his cheek and pecked him on the lips as goodbye.

-

She had to go through The Slum as she headed home. While she did, she was stopped by someone calling to her. She turned around to see The Vigilante running up to her as fast as possible. He looked incredibly disheveled as if he had seen the devil. “Hazel,” he shouted in a huff. “Hazel, you’re alive!” He stopped hard enough to leave skid marks from his boots. He huffed and puffed as he tried to catch his breath.

“Oh, hi Vigi,” she greeted.

“Where…” He sighed. “Where have you been?! Is everything okay?!”

“Yeah, I’m fine. Are you okay?”

“I’m fine. I haven’t seen you in a couple days, and your cafe has been closed. I was worried sick!”

“Sorry. I should’ve left a note on the door or something. I ended up closing early once I was done with the NTV order the other day. Something came up.”

“What happened?”

“Well, um… I don’t think it’s any of your business, but… The Noise got injured at work. He needs some help taking care of himself.”

The Vigilante rolled his eyes. “Oh, sure, big celebrity man can’t take care of himself.”

“No, seriously! His shoulder is all messed up. It’s his right shoulder, and he’s right handed. He can’t do much.”

The Vigilante still looked doubtful. “Well,” he sighed disgruntledly. “I suppose your cafe will be closed for a while…”

“Hm… I never thought about that. That’s going to be an issue… I’m already a little behind on my rent.”

“Yeah, well, you know how Pizzaface is about money.”

Her shoulders tensed up as she imagined the giant floating pizza being angry at her. He was quite intimidating naturally. She didn’t want to know what he was like when he was angry. Closing the cafe to take care of The Noise was going to cost her in the long run, but he had no one else to depend on. She chewed on the tips of her fingers nervously. How was she going to make this work? She was worried about Theodore, but she was also worried about losing her career. Regardless, she wanted to take care of him. The Vigilante was snapping in her face as she came to.

“Hazel? You okay?”

“Oh! Yeah, sorry. I was lost in thought for a moment.” She chuckled nervously.

“You look like a deer in headlights.”

“I’m fine. I have to go.” She turned around and rushed off.

“Hazel, wait-” The Vigilante tried to catch her attention again, but she was already gone.

-

Once she got home, she was stuck. She was torn between taking care of The Noise or taking care of her cafe. She shook her head and went into her room to start packing clothes and accessories. She figured she would take care of him for one more night as she thought about how she could work things out. She tried to keep it out of her mind. She wanted to get back to Noise as soon as possible. Knowing him, she was afraid he might do something stupid. Once she was all packed up, she hustled back over to The Noise’s. She couldn’t shake off her anxiety, and she wanted to get there as soon as possible so she could talk to him about it.

-

Hazel used the spare key to go through the backdoor of Theodore’s home. She walked into the living room to see him still zonked out on the couch. Those painkillers knocked him out, she thought. She slowly walked up to him and gently nudged his arm. “Theo?” He was out cold. For a moment, she feared that he was dead, even though she knew how irrational that thought was. She nudged him a little harder. His eyes slowly peeled open.

“Oh,” he muttered, “you’re back.”

“Yeah, hey, um…” She spoke frantically.

He let out a groan as he stretched then picked his head up. “Are you okay? You seem… upset.”

“Yeah. I mean, no. Well, kind of.”

He slowly sat up on his own. “Come here, sit.”

Hazel sat on the couch and twiddled with her thumbs. “So, um… I have to talk to you about something.”

“What’s wrong?”

“Uh… So… I gave it some thought and-”

Theodore’s heart sank. He wasn’t sure what was going to happen. He was worried she had gotten overwhelmed and was going to leave him.

“- I’m not quite sure I’ll be able to take care of you.”

“What do you mean?”

“I can’t take care of you and run the cafe at the same time.”

He shrugged. His worry suddenly faded. “Then take care of the cafe.”

“But you can’t take care of yourself.”

“Right…”

They sat in silence for a moment. Hazel felt insanely guilty.

“Hey,” Theo broke the silence, “I have an idea.”

“Hm?” Hazel looked at him with an eyebrow raised in curiosity.

“What if, and hear me out here,” he put his free hand on her shoulder. “What if I took care of you, too?”

“What… What are you talking about?”

“What if I helped you out financially while you help me? Like, what if I paid you for taking care of me?”

“What?! Theodore, no! I’d feel so guilty!”

“Please. Let me help you.”

They made eye contact for a moment. Hazel took a deep breath. “Okay.”

Theo smiled and gave her a quick smooch. “Relax. We can make this work. Everything will be okay. Anything you need, I will take care of. Okay?”

“Okay.” Hazel’s eyes were glazed over with tears. She wasn’t expecting him to react in such a way.

“You look like you’re going to cry.”

Hazel’s lower lip quivered as she nodded.

“No,” he pulled her in for a gentle hug. He wrapped his left arm around her as tight as he could. “No tears.” He kissed her cheek as she whined and shed a few tears into his chest. She sat up and wiped her tears away with her sleeve.

“Sorry,” she apologized. “I don’t know why I’m crying. I’m just stressed.”

“I know. It’s okay. You can stay here as long as you need to.”

“Okay. I mean, I’ll have to grab more clothes and things. I only packed enough for a couple days.”

“That’s fine. Everything’s fine, okay? Stop worrying.”

“Okay.”

[ssa-dado]

Pre-exam IQIWIANQLQPL, Chapter 21 updates and a desperate writer begging for your opinións (Help me, I'm spiraling 🤌🤖)

Hi lovely humans!

Long post ahead with lots of updates, so buckle up 🏎🏎🏎🏎

I’m temporarily rising from the dead to drop some info bombs! 👯‍♀️👯‍♀️👯‍♀️👯‍♀️ This week is pre-exam chaos central for me (two major reviews: one on Wednesday and one on Thursday), so I’ll only be sporadically active for a few minutes here and there. Wish me luck hahahahahhaha (I want to di*)

Now, onto the fun stuff: I have an ask about philosophy that I’ve been dying to answer for weeks (seriously, I’m so exciteddddd AAAAA) I’ve been working on some notes and promise to carve out a bit of time for a detailed, exhaustive response...... it’s going to be so much fun (warning: I might get a little overly talkative and probably a bit technical but I'll do my best to make it user-friendly)

Chapter 21 Updates:

I’m actually more than halfway through the chapter! If all goes well, it should drop this weekend (lessons wrap up Thursday, so yay, more writing time!). No more waiting 71,718 days for a new chapter!!!! WE CAN START CELEBRATING YEEE HAWWW LET THE BANQUET BEGIN! 🍝🍷🧃🍅🥖🥗🧀🍽

When I say “halfway through,” I mean I’m halfway through the outline I had in mind 🙃

If I stick to it, we’re finally looking at a decently sized chapter (10k-12k words - bye bye 20k monstrosities). These chapters have been trickier to draft because as you've seen they’re so heavily focused on Hotch (we’ve been spending way more time in his POV than Teach's. I love doing it idk why)

Idk if I've said it before (probably I did) but in a way, these last Act 2 chapters are a love letter to him, as each one (Logic, Physics, Ethics, and Logos) is designed to dismantle the idea of him as a stoic, using events and narrative to challenge the principles of stoic philosophy. Some heavy character development going on (because poor man he gets a divorce and also the girl he fucks with fucking explodes lmao)

But enough philosophy rambling.......you’re probably here for plot details, right? 👁👁

Right?!

Left?!

OK enough with those dad jokes

So, Chapter 21 follows the events of Criminal Minds episodes 3x09 through 3x11 (do with this information what you will). The title, Physics, is inspired by the Stoic’s highly deterministic view of the universe, where fate plays a central role.

(Hint: if you’re curious about this, check out the colors of Symposium moodboard... pay special attention to the color black 👹👹👹 Remember that both characters were involved in that case back then... just saying.)

The chapter will also include a flashback that ties directly into the present and impacts Hotch’s character. Most importantly, it will push SOMEONE toward figuring out how they really feel about a certain SOMEONE (yes, I mean Gissi or maybe not)

Help this poor lovely human being

As the story progresses, I’ve started to feel more pressure (in a good way don’t worry!!!!!) to deliver what you want to see. So, tell me, what parts interest you the most? What do you enjoy reading? This way, I can focus more on those elements and cut down on others.

Speaking of which, a while back, I wrote a scene set right after the last chapter where Aaron takes the reader out following their breakup with Peter. I was in a super fluffy, bantery mood, so naturally, I had him take them to a traditional Italian restaurant, complete with the classic nosey Italian staff 🤌🤌🤌🤌🤌 (I’m Italian, so I get a free pass on the stereotype, ty). Of course, the staff assumes they’re a couple (what a shame, really), and the two totally lean into it, turning it into one of their lawyer/philosopher-style challenges, only this time with some added hand touches and overly exaggerated flirts purely for the sake of the game (they’re still fun to read I swear)

It’s a trope I love reading, and I couldn’t resist writing it into this universe with these blind af characters.

But drumroll please 🎺🎺🎺🎺 I ended up cutting it because it was just cute fluff and didn’t really serve the plot. Typical me: I get so carried away with the pining and banter that even a "short" scene spirals into a 3k-word detour. Classic Phi.

I wanted to keep it to myself, but maybe you might want to read it as well! So I'm actually debating whether to put it back at the beginning of Chapter 21 (though the current opening feels right), or post it as a standalone one-shot preview, like a “Chapter 20.1.”

What do you think? Should I include it, or save it as a fun bonus chapter?

Also, while you’re waiting for the chapter, would you want to see any more WIPs, or would you rather experience everything as a whole when it’s done?

Alright, enough rambling and people-pleasing for today, I’m off to write 🏌‍♀️🏌‍♀️🏌‍♀️ Sending lots of love! 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

Phi (& Dado, the one and only chairman of the blog)

[lokiiri]

a rare traveling post appears! this is more of a journal-y personal post, so if that ain't your cup of tea, feel free to skip this one.

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hello world! I am currently sitting in an airport waiting for my flight home to start boarding. I'm stressed out of my mind, and while logically I know things are going to be okay, it's hard not to be scared of something big going wrong.

I'm not the most active on social media at the best of days, but I'm especially not so when I'm traveling. travel days are often so stressful for me that my body forgets it needs things like food and drink and sleep. for someone with as much sensory processing sensitivity and anxiety as I do, travel is overwhelming from the moment I step into the first car trip to when I finally crash in a safe, quiet place (hopefully home, but if not, then, aaaaa).

I also don't tend to be active when I'm away with family, because while I'm not exactly on bad terms with my family, but I have a long and well-established history of deep self-repression, and it's hard not to fall back into old habits when you're around the people those habits developed in connection with.

this repression has a consequence of sorts: I usually leave family trips - like I am today - feeling like I've gotten lost. I don't really know who I am, and there's an irrational fear that I've somehow slid back into the repression that dominated my early life. that I won't find the authentic version of myself ever again.

I'm not sure why this fear has persisted, because it proves wrong time and time again, but being constantly sensorily overwhelmed probably doesn't help in that regard. it also would probably help if I learned how to be more authentic with family, but it's hard, when we're in such close quarters, football games on constantly, lots of sensory data all the time, and having racked up quite a sleep debt from trying to sleep in a different bed than I'm used to.

but yeah. in situations like this the fear sure seems real all the same. this is honestly the first time I've... talked about it, publicly. usually I just deal with it, put my head down, pretend I don't exist and that no one remembers me (this hypothesis is surprisingly believable, surprisingly often, for me), or that if anyone does remember me, why should they, seriously, that makes no sense, what is it they might like about me, that's ridiculous, seriously, I'm not worth remembering, and, and, and

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it's not a good place to be. that's why I'm writing this post, sitting in an airport, anxious about what would happen if anyone around me saw it. I'm trying to change my own mindset, legitimize my own needs and remain in touch with them - if not in real time (overstimulation makes that *super* hard for me), then at least after the fact.

I want to stop feeling like whenever I'm overwhelmed, I'm instantly alone. that when I'm going through a difficult time, I still deserve help and accommodation and love. that I don't cease to matter in situations where it feels like it takes all I have just to stay alive.

because I know that notion has always come from me. my friends don't magically stop caring for me when I'm down, and I'm always so grateful, if a bit surprised, when they remind me of that.

the movie showing on the bus today was Gravity, a movie I'd seen a long time ago. I ended up tuning in, something I don't do often on bus movies. spoilers for the movie follow:

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the scene where Ryan hallucinates that Matt has returned got me to tear up all little, which is always super rare when I'm traveling. (if I had been watching it in the safety of my home, I'd probably be bawling my eyes out.) it's a scene where Ryan is not in immediate danger, but is stranded on a vessel without fuel and sees no way forward.

she's resigned herself to die. she turns out the lights and begins depressurizing the oxygen in the cabin, accepting her fate, when she hallucinates that Matt, a crew mate who saved her life earlier at the cost of his own, finds her vessel. he opens the airlock and swings in jovially, cracking jokes and even pulling out a drink.

after a bit, he tells her they'd better get going, in a casual way like you'd say let's go to the grocery store. Ryan says she can't, the vessel is out of fuel. Matt mentions another option for moving the vessel, the landing gear.

after that, his tone gets serious. he tells her it's easy to turn the lights off, depressurize the cabin, close her eyes, and wait to die. if she wants to do that, he couldn't blame her. just disassociate, disappear to a place where nothing truly can hurt her.

"it's nice up here," he says.

but there's another choice: to fight and to care and to try. a choice to accept the hurt and peril life has thrown at her and keep on fighting. she may still die, but at least it'll be a hell of a story to tell.

it's hard to overstate how personal this scene is to me. I spent the better part of the first thirty years of my time on this planet with the lights off. just surviving, getting through life, keeping the lights off. making sure I didn't fight, or care, or try, to keep me safe from a world I just didn't seem to fit into at all, and which seemed so hostile to me as a result.

remember how I said I fear losing myself after family vacations or other situations where I have to disassociate hard? I think that's very related to this.

I think my greatest fear isn't even death, but rather, giving up.

I'm scared of losing this drive I've finally discovered. I'm scared of something snuffing out this fire I've only just found. I'm scared of all this work and pain and suffering I've gone through just being worth nothing in the end, as though it might die when confronted with some inescapable reality of the world.

I think Gravity randomly playing in the bus at this particular time and place helped me realize that.

bad things can always happen to me, like they can to everyone. life can and often does force me to just disassociate to survive, and one of these days, I won't even be able to do that.

but I'm going to do whatever I can to keep feeding that fire. I'm going to stay with myself and care what happens to me.

that may very well be more important to me than surviving.

[blackhairedjjun]

BHJ😵‍💫 I'm not okay... I'm especially wooed with everyone like this concept- everyone aced it and I'm especially going through some problems.. like one moment it's Jun, the next it's Bin. Bin, the next is Gyu. Gyu, then next it's tyun. Tyun, then next it's Kai. Kai, then next it's Jun again. This is cycling. I can't—

Also, the under-eye Shadow of Gyu?? I'm so whipped and done—

Don't you think Jun is giving vibes of a whipped (Slight Yanderish/not) punk who's obsessed with Sweetheart you? Like in a college Au, the music and dance obsessed boy— unapproachable and slight bad boy... who hasn't yet confessed to you but is possessive over you? Yeah imagine him now singing a song for you in a college event😵‍💫 you know that's you because you, of course warned him to not meddle but obsessed poor guy.. can't help.. and You, of course! In no stance to reject his adoration and obsession with you. Waiting for him to claim you? Yes! That's it. The right moment has approached today. I'm sing this for the love of my life, he announces. Sings a perfect song suitable for him and you.

Accept me, claim me, have me!

He lastly says. Before he could depress down the stage... enamored you run onto the stage (thanks to the encouragement of people) and grab him by his collars and Kiss him passionately right there... YES! You claimed him officially.

Accepted, claimed and will have you, Yeonjun!

This started a good era in your life with your obsessed punk!

Hehe not delusional me just typing this down--

🦋!

butterfly anon they ALL look amazing 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 speaking of beomgyu have you SEEN his instagram posts?? he somehow looks even better aaaaa

OH MY rockstar!yeonjun is so.... wow slkfkdslfj admittedly i'm not the biggest yandere enthusiast but whipped yeonjun who is so down bad and also in a band?? maybe you've met a few times at parties or at the bar when his band is performing and always the two of you are drawn to each other, talking and flirting. your gazes linger from across the room, itching to be near each other, and when his band performs on stage his eyes always find yours no matter where you are in the crowd.

when your eyes meet, it all melts away - the crowd, the bar, everything, it's just you and him.

and while everyone tells you that it's a bad idea to go with a guy like him, you can't help it - the way he looks at you and flirts with you makes you feel like you're the only shining person in the world in his eyes. deep down you yearn to be his...

little do you know you're his muse and he's definitely spent hours and hours trying to write the perfect song about you. and when he finally performs his perfect song he never takes his gaze off you, pouring all his emotions into his voice -- he, too, yearns to be yours.

and when he staggers off the stage you run to him, your lips crashing against his, his arms finding your waist to pull you flush against him.

i've always been yours, and you've always been mine.

okay but why did i feel my stomach doing flips writing this lklsdflsdjkf

[kidsinsaturn]

shisui courting you

[🗼] first part of shisui general headcanons because he is my distinguished little gentleman

also I'm working with all your requests but they won't be posted until next week because I'm going out and also you guys have so many original ideas I don't wanna mess them up aaaaa

characters: shisui uchiha

genre: sfw; non massacre au

warnings: gn!reader; shisui courting reader; spying ??; minor obsessive traits

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-from the moment shisui laid his eyes on you, he was slightly becoming obsessed with you. not in the yendere-like way, but in an intense adoration kind of way

-so uchihas love very hard right? and since my baby boy is a rational uchiha, he knew that he had to use this newfound love in the right way

-i don't think he'd have many preferences when it comes to a s/o, but he definitely set for someone who shares his ideals about the village

-his devotion for his village is quite deep, so if he meets someone who would also give their life to save konoha (or their own village) then that would be a huge plus for him

-shisui would fall for someone who is protective of their ideals, someone kind and positive but not submissive. he wouldn't like to see you bottling up your thoughts or feelings because you feel inferior

-he loves seeing you passionate about the things you love–which he would slowly take an interest in–, so regardless of how many talents or hobbies you have, he loves seeing you doing them

-he doesn't really care about your physique, as long as you are healthy. he would love if you had any interest in physical activities since he loves corporal interactions, and he would love if you had any training/walks together

-before shisui even thinks of confessing to you, he will court you in the most gentleman yet flirty way he could come with. he is very original with everything he does, with every thing he gives you or any encounter you two have

-as I said before, shisui would become a little obsessed with you from the moment he met you; he felt these strange connection and attraction with you, and as you both were having more moments together, he fell for you, hard

-since he is a very skilled and agile ninja, regardless of your civil rank, he will silently observe you from afar; every time he has free time, he would spend it observing you, what you do, what you like, he would learn your schedule

-shisui is very attentive, it comes naturally since he's been involved in the shinobi world since childhood, so to him it isn't weird or creepy to watch someone in detail

-so before talking to you, shisui would like to know what you do, you like, so he doesn't come off as awkward

-he looks so confident talking to you that you can't help but find his good posture, lighthearted smile, and charming charisma so attractive

-shisui would be so alert for the littlest pinch of interest from you. that is enough to make him continue

-he doesn't give up though, if you want to act tough and hard to get, he will notice !! he doesn't fall into those traps, he is very good at reading people and seeing through them

-so it wouldn't take too long for you to be smitten with shisui's charms, he is just so lovable and hard to miss; you won't even notice when your harmless conversations turned into flirty comments at each other

-shisui would want to be the one to confess. ok he probably thinks too much about this instead of letting everything go smoothly, but he loves you already and he wants your relationship to be perfect

-he would wait for the perfect moment; he is certain you reciprocate his feelings and that you want something with him. he would probably confess in the most random moment

-you would think he would plan a very detailed date with a bunch of flowers, but not really. it would be at your regular trainings/walks, while you are at ease, he would suddenly go quiet and then look at you intensely, whispering a soft "I've liked you from a long time," then he would pause for a second, not waiting for your response, "would you give me the honor of calling you my girlfriend/boyfriend?"

-after you say yes–because why wouldn't you–then shisui would pick you up, spinning you around careful not to hurt you. he would ask you if you let him kiss you, then he would give you one long kiss in your lips, then he would pepper your face with so many kisses you can't help but giggle

-shisui would ask you to tell him you love him, and the second those words leave your mouth, he would never grow tired from hearing them, extremely happy and pleased when you repeat those words

-and now you have established a relationship with the most charming, lovely, gorgeous boy out there, who comes with first class attention, endless hours of fun, and just the best boyfriend material

[godbirdart]

Hi! I've found you on Tumblr and I'm extremely happy for that (a divine find!). I know your art from FA and I love your style.

The prompt suggests a question, so here's a small one. Do you enjoy much art outside of the one that's similar to yours?

Well, that's it. All good wishes. ^^

oh hell yes of course i do!!

when asked what my Favorite kind of art is my mind IMMEDIATELY goes to Northwest Coast art. ever since i was a kid i've been VERY obsessed with formline art and still very much so am.

[artist: trevor angus]

as a kid my first interaction with formline art was in the form of The Spirit of Haida Gwaii by Bill Reid - a sculpture formerly featured on the canadian 20 dollar note. there's a copy of it hanging out in the museum of national history and i really need to go back to appreciate it now that i'm not a kid with an obligation to stick with a tour group. i DID get to glimpse the Jade Canoe edition in the vancouver airport for a fleeting moment between late connections - needless to say i was very heartbroken that i couldn't stick around to appreciate its detail.

the thing i absolutely go feral for are orcas in formline art. nothing - i repeat - NOTHING can compare to the sheer grip this animal in this art style has on me. i do not really have words to explain it, how i came to love this or why, i am just very enthusiastic about orcas in this style and have been for as long as i can remember.

i have a tiny handful of pins and merch made by various Haisla, Namgis and Haida artists - though only a few artists offer orca art. i don't want to just impulse-buy whatever orca i can find [etsy for example is a hellhole of stolen / appropriated art and i ain't for it] so i'm just patiently waiting around until an artist from a pacific northwest community puts up an art piece for sale.

[artist: Cori Savard - this particular print is on my to-buy list i just need to save the coin for it hhhhh]

now, completely unrelated to formline art.

i am also a fan of The Voice of Fire by Barnett Newman; if only for the fact that the museum bought this piece for 1.8 million and then proceeded to display it in the most OMINOUSLY EMPTY ROOM THEY HAD IN THE WHOLE BUILDING. my love for this painting isn't necessarily in the painting itself, but the presentation. i have stood in this room. occasionally there are other sculptures in there, but for the most part it just lingers there, isolated, glaring at you.

if we're going more into fandom culture and independent artists online, while i cannot say I've a particular Art Idol, i am a huge fan of [for lack of a better word for it] the kemono art style. i don't want to go and repost other artist's work without permission here, or make this post Even Longer, so i'll just point you in the direction of a few artists that draw in the style i'm talking about. it's first thing in the morning and i'm just barely waking up so i'm only going to post a small handful

terenry / terenryrm

mochiri

ev-oo

moonagvaze

i have a character design by terenry so i can post him as an example since i own the oc now [this is the watermarked art i pulled from my Toyhouse. the watermark is there to deter oc / art thieves but the artwork itself is by terenry]

sorry this ended up being really long aAaAA don't get me started on my favorite art i will never shut up about it. i can and will ramble for Hours about it. to say art is a passion of mine is a criminal understatement.

[chibimyumi]

Hello chibi! I've been following your blog for a few months, I adore your work and all of the research you do for your posts!

I wanted to ask, is there any instance in the manga where someone refers to Sebastian as "Sebastian Michaelis"? I mean, does any character, including Sebas, ever use the surname?

Has Yana ever said anything about where the surname comes from in-universe? (I know that irl it's a reference to a real person, but has she said anything about where Sebas got "Michaelis" from or if he just invented it?)

Aaaaa sorry this is super long, I hope you can understand!! Best of luck and lots of love!

Dear Anon,

Thank you very much for your compliment!

Off the top of my head (and double checking of moments I remember), I also have a hard time coming up with an instance where Sebas introduces himself by his full (temporary) name. (Sorry, I realise that even though my memory for Kuro is fairly good, it is still not perfect... but I also don’t really have time time to reread 175 chapters just to check one trivia. Anyone who does have a more complete picture, please do share!)

The only one I remember is when he introduces himself as ProfMika (ミカせん(MikaSen), the Nickname the JP fandom has for him (≽ω≼)). But then Sebas is never referred to by his first name in the arc, except by his master in private.

There are no other instances I happen to remember or to have stumbled across where Sebas’ full name is being used.

As explained in this post, Yana doesn’t really attach importance to names, so it also surprises me very little that in 10+ years, so few names have been dropped. I mean...what other series has THREE main characters without their real names known after a decade??? Yana cares about names so little a lot of characters aren’t even introduced to other characters on page. So yeah, anyone waiting for the revelation of O!Ciel, Sebas' or UT's true name, don't hold your breath. I judge the chance of never ever learning their true names higher.

Chapter 15-16 for example, are the ones wherein Agni and Soma newly meet Sebas and O!Ciel. Without the main duo having introduced themselves to the strangers, the next chapter Agni already showed that he learned of their names, calling the master "Lord Ciel", and referring to the butler as "Mr. Sebastian."

It is possible that the self-introduction did happen, we just didn't see it. (Yes, I checked).

For Sebas though, it is actually really logical that his name or full name is hardly used. He is a servant, and servants were supposed to be little more than tools and furniture, after all.

In chapter 88 when our protagonists first meet Sieglinde, she asks for the boy's name. Ciel replied, but Sebastian didn't say anything, because it was not his place to talk. What proper servant would introduce himself unasked for, in the same spotlights as his master?

And indeed it wasn't until later that Sieglinde asked Ciel, that the boy dropped his butler's first name. In West-European culture I believe, people's surnames are not commonly mentioned unless it is specifically to distinguish someone's identity, or because the name hold some weight. A mere servant though? Nah.

As for a potential explanation for the name "Michaelis", well, we are fairly certain Yana was inspired by the historical Sébastien Michaëlis, but when I try to search Yana's twitter, there are no results to be found. I think at the time Yana didn't really expect her tiny, silly, one-shot manga to come from the ground, so she just went for something quick and edgy.

I am not sure whether you are open to roleplay interpretations, but my favourite Sebas roleplayer @akumadeshitsumon wrote:

If the man himself were still around to observe, I sincerely hope that he would be bothered by my actions while wearing his name. (source)

This roleplayer suggested in the post that Sebas as a demon chose the name "Michaelis" to spite Michaëlis for his classification of demons. I also assume the real Sebas would have found a 17th century inquisitor's work about demons highly offensive.

[neo-shitty]

i would do exactly the same, seungmin got bolder in each era now 😭 i can't refrain myself to go around being crazy on how he looked on that outfit and his expressions is so 🔥🔥

once you get close with han i'm sure you had to deal with everything he has in mind 😌

i will if i do have some time (if my uni gives me a break) i saw a few cuts but i don't remember any of them, i have a bad memory though 🥺 i haven't read the webtoon you've showed me though but that character gives me yoshi vibes in jikjin! man that kid deserves a lot of love and i'll wait for you to write something about it 💕

yeah! it's like representing a young love which a couple would spend their date on an amusement park or somewhere fun and take polaroid pictures later, jeez, that kind of feeling though 😭 ahh yes definitely agree with it, wonpil and seungmin can pass as brothers, then there's jake too and then sunghoon and minho really do sound like each other as well 👀 just that they have different personalities.

have you seen the teasers? man everyone looks so good! i can't wait to listen to their new album, it's been a quite while since "i know i love you" though. ahh yes! i started stanning day6 around 2016 i've listened to every song too just like how seungmin does, and yes! they're the most successful mydays and aghases 😭 you should check them out sometime 😇

i felt comfortable talking with you about it 🥺 yeah i do, especially when it's like e.g. 4.4 (april 4) sale, they give discounts, i don't know if it's applicable to the other countries but sellers on twitter and shopee would do that so i can buy them cheap, they're actually legit though

same here though, i have a lot of school works to do 😭

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HELP???? OH MY GOD. i’m so sorry, i thought i posted this but it got saved to my drafts instead :(( sorry for the long wait!! on the topic of seungsung, i saw this on twt the other day. also, i’m sorry if my response here is pretty bad and incoherent. i don’t really know what to say nor how to communicate T_T

lately, i’ve been seeing a lot of the concert clips of skz and AAAAA i love seeing them literally glow on stage. i really want to see them live someday :((

i actually haven’t read that webtoon i just happened to see that character a lot on tiktok i think. also, i haven’t read the lyrics of polaroid love, i just assume what the song means through the vibe. on the topic of polaroids, they’re still mad expensive to me. but i do admit, they’re cute to look at.

i haven’t had the time to see the teasers. i have been sooooo busy with school. i’ll check it out maybe later. i don’t even know if it already released. i loved the recent comeback songs so much without me knowing?? bc i can’t say i didn’t love them when i wrote fics inspired fr them. 

oh!!! i thought they were discounts for the photocards themselves instead of just the checkout. i think my friend uses them a lot. i’ll keep it in mind to make my purchases on dates like that. ON THE TOPIC OF PHOTOCARDS, MY BESTFRIEND GAVE ME SEUNGCHAN PCS T___T nearly cried my eyes out over these, esp the seung pc literally one of the cutest ones i’ve ever seen.

i finished uni yesterday AAAA good luck with yours tho!!