#A trader of body parts! They find living beings so beautiful like we find crystals beautiful. The crystal body parts also come with cool

[pinks-wizards]

One day I'll share with the class

i need everyone that has a wizard101 oc to tell me about them in the notes. like now. im so infatuated give me every thought

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Avatar: The Last Airbender - Season 1 Starters - Part 1

Look, I'm just saying that if I had weird powers, I'd keep my weirdness to myself.

No, that's it! I'm done helping you! From now on, you're on your own!

It means my search is about to come to an end.

I think I got midnight sun madness. I'm going home, where things make sense.

Y'know, last time I checked, humans can't fly.

Show no fear!

If I go with you, will you promise to leave everyone alone?

I bet I could take you with both my hands tied behind my back.

Really? You must regale me with all the thrilling details.

How do I know if I'm ready for this?

It's just the natural order of things.

Well, let's not stick around to find out. Let's hit the road.

Are you going to finish that?

I was going to save it for later

He's just upset because a bunch of girls kicked his butt yesterday.

Hey, don't get too comfortable. It's risky for us to stay in one place for too long.

Maybe you'd be kind enough to give us a little demonstration?

I'm sorry if I insulted you earlier. I was... wrong.

I wanted to make sure you were safe. You really had me worried.

I let all the attention go to my head. I was being a jerk.

Well, get out of the water before you catch a cold, you big jerk!

Look what I brought to this place.

I know I know, that was stupid and dangerous.

Rotten cabbages? What kind of a slum do you think this is?!

Look around you! What do you see?

It sounded fun at first, but now that I'm here, I'm starting to have second thoughts.

My cabbages! You're going to pay for this!

Your majesty, these juveniles were arrested for vandalism, traveling under false pretenses, and malicious destruction of cabbages.

Is it just me, or is this guy's crown a little crooked?

You can't keep us here! Let us leave!

We're in serious trouble. This guy is nuts.

Other than the crystals slowly encasing my entire body, doing great!

We're going to keep trying, but that is a good back-up.

What's for dinner?

Please, there's no one around to see you. It's the only way!

Everyone should get some sleep, we're leaving at dawn.

How can you say that? You sound like you've already given up!

I admire your courage. And I envy your youth. But people's lives are at stake here.

Listen to him well, child. You're one mistake away from dying where you stand.

It is the greatest honor of a lifetime to be in your presence.

Nice to meet you too! So ... is there something I can help you with?

If only there were a way to repay you for what you've done.

You could give us some supplies. And some money.

This is exactly why I didn't want you to come! It's too dangerous!

And that's exactly why we're here.

The engines are damaged! We need to stop and make repairs!

We're on a collision course!

Wait. I think I heard something.

I don't want to fight you! I am a friend.

This might actually work.

Did the definition of genius change over the last hundred years?

It was a noble effort, but your little smokescreen didn't work.

What's bugging you anyway?

Calm down, it's going to be okay.

Remember the reason we're here.

Great. So what am I supposed to do?

You've changed our course for a stupid lotus tile?

Looks like I got the hang of that move! What else do you got?

You guys are pirates!

We prefer to think of ourselves as "high risk traders."

Go jump in the river!

I didn't steal it, if that's what you're wondering.

Are you so busy fighting you cannot see your own ship has set sail?

You're the leader? But your voice still cracks!

Why do boys always think someone has to be the leader?

You just took out a whole army almost single-handed.

It's beautiful up here!

He's not messed up, he's just got a different way of life, a really fun way of life.

We can't win without making some sacrifices.

I do understand. I understand that there's nothing you won't do to get what you want.

You lied to me, you're sick and I trusted you!

Who would be free? Everyone would be dead.

You traitor!

No, [NAME]. You became the traitor when you stopped protecting innocent people.

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Jeweler Richard Fanbook Short Story #3

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T/N: Okay, so, this is one of those chapters where the author makes mistakes in linguistics (but she’s trying, guys, she’s trying!). She writes “prasinon” as “prase” for some reason, and I took the liberty to fix it myself when translating.

Connecting Chrysoprase

Jewelry Etranger sat inconspicuously at Ginza 7-choume. The store owner, Richard, was the possessor of a beauty that you couldn’t think was from this world, but no matter how beautiful he was, once half a year had passed, you would get used to it. And as I got used to him, the questions also surfaced.

“Hey, Richard, don’t you have any favorite foods other than sweets? Do you eat ramen or anything like that?”

Mr. Richard Ranashinha de Vulpian looked at me with scrutinizing blue eyes. Sitting on the red sofa, he had been observing the contents of a large jewel box, holding them up over his head against the morning light shining in from the window.

“I find difficult to figure the aim of the question. Why ramen? I have had meals with you numerous times. I eat anything without likes or dislikes.”

“I know. It’s not like it’s limited to just ramen, but you don’t eat that kind of stuff much, do you?”

Like chives. Or garlic. Or grilled meat dripping with juices.

I knew that this didn’t suit his image. He was a man whose features seemed to have accidentally come out of a dream world. If he told me that he could live off eating department store sweets and pink roses, he could probably have me seriously convinced up to about 70%. That was exactly why I would feel like searching for a gap.

As I was about to ask if he understood this logic, Richard replied curtly with a clay doll-like face, “What ill intentions.”

That was true. I wasn’t some obsessive follower of an idol’s personal life or anything. Richard hit bull’s-eye with the deduction that I “probably ate ramen yesterday”. For some reason, things got awkward. I was in a position where it was better to retreat for a while. Time to change the subject.

“What stone is that? Looks like candy and it’s pretty cute.”

“A type of chalcedony. They are in the same category as crystals. In particular, this one with a milky apple-green color is called chrysoprase.

“Ah~...”

What Richard was pinching with his bare hands - because it was safer to touch it with bare skin rather than wearing gloves, he said, as it wouldn’t cause any damage - was a pale green, round stone. It had low transparency, was cut en cabochon and looked like an old-style candy.

“W-What was it again? The name. Chry...?”

“‘Chrysoprase’,” Richard repeated for me.

How many times had something like this happened? The stone’s name was in a Western language. Basically, all of them were in katakana. My ears did register it, but I couldn’t memorize it in one go at all. Richard was a helpful person, so there were times when he wrote down the names in romaji and explained them to me, but I honestly couldn’t keep up with him. There were countless stones in this world.

“Chryso... aah, no good. It’s hard to memorize.”

“‘Chrysoprase’. It is said to be a stone that helps to harmonize and integrate personalities. Medieval European literature also mentions it as a stone that Alexander the Great loved.”

Alexander the Great. A person I had learned about in high school. Even I knew that name. The fact that a stone adored by a warlord who had long passed away was still loved by people of the current times was thought-provoking. The range of the gemstone world was broad. But, well, leaving that as that.

“How d’you memorize stones’ names? It’s not like you’ve got some test to do like in a history class...”

“Do you think anyone would buy goods from a trader who cannot even say their names?”

“I don’t, but it doesn’t change the fact that it’s hard. There’s lots of types and they sound like magic spells. Like ‘Sri Jayawardenepura Kotte’. It wouldn’t be weird if you felt like cheating without a care in the world. You got any trick for memorizing them?”

“My compliments to you for being able to pronounce the official name of Sri Lanka’s capital. But I cannot praise the part about carelessly deceiving people. Once your reputation falls to earth, it does not recover so easily. To begin with, your perception of business in general is too lax for someone enrolled in the Faculty of Economics. I know you have the aspiration, but if you do not pair it to practical abilities and skills, you will be running idle. Shouldn’t you try to improve these skills once again so that you can avoid unnecessary hardships in the future? Instead of obsessing over finding out something unexpected about the shopkeeper from your part-time job.”

The arguments were so spot-on that I was at a loss for words. Even so, still with a slightly exasperated face, Richard continued to speak. Most likely, it was his gentle side’s turn from here on out.

“Still, you are right, I do have a trick. If I were to use the capital as an example, ‘Sri Jayawardenepura Kotte’ had its original name ‘Kotte’ being embellished with the title of ‘President Jayawardene’s Sacred City’. When you know the origin of it, doesn’t this line-up of katakana letters that only appears in magic spells turn into meaningful words?”

“So it had that kind of meaning? I see...”

“Is this time to be impressed? Do the same and discover the relatedness of all kinds of matters in your daily life. If you direct your eyes to the depths of your history without sticking to the surface, I guarantee that your world will broaden much more richly.”

“Then what about the chrysoprase of just now?”

As I took a stab at arousing his enthusiasm, the volubly beautiful shop owner smiled gorgeously. I felt that this guy would stay in a good mood forever just as long as I gave him sweets and let him talk about gems. And I liked Richard’s face the most when he was in his best mood.

“This word is taken from the Greek language. It consists of two separate words, ‘chrysos’ and ‘prasinon’. The meaning of chrysos is ‘gold’. The bright golden that can be seen showing through within the green was associated with gold. Prasinon means...”

What happened? His enunciation suddenly got bad.

When I urged him to continue, Richard looked down at the stone in his hand with a dull look and sighed a little. “The meaning of prasinon... comes close to plants such as chives or green onions.”

“Ooh—!”

As I clapped my hands together with an “all paths lead to ramen”, Richard made a face like he had just woken up from a nightmare. What is it? Please laugh.

“In any case, the mental attitude of trying to master something is commendable. I pray that your efforts will bear fruit.”

“Thanks, thanks. Well, will you eat ramen after all?”

Mr. Richard, the jeweler, looked at me with an awfully sharp gaze. What was that face? His facial expression looked like the usual nuance that he was growing fond of my foolishness had increased to about 30%. Did he intend to poke fun on me?

“Yes, yes, I will.”

“What do you prefer? Like miso or soy sauce?”

“A large helping of green onions and garlic. And even then, it is good to grate raw garlic and put in it.”

“That’s a pretty hardcore taste for someone who works with close-contact service business.”

“Which is why this is not something I can eat whenever. I eat it carefully by myself when I do not have to meet anyone the next day.”

As my eyes widened, the beautiful storekeeper raised his chin arrogantly. Did he want to say that this didn’t suit his image or had it just unfolded anew?

“How was it, did you enjoy the so-called ‘gap’?”

“No, it’s not like that’s the main goal.”

“Hah?”

“I can’t invite anyone for a French cuisine restaurant or a high-class sweets store, but if it’s a ramen shop, there’s lots of them near my university. If you like, why don’t we go eat together next time? They’re mostly shops that seem better to drop by wearing a t-shirt rather than a suit, but I wanna try chatting with you while eating this kind of junky stuff every now and then.”

“For you to discover a new unexpected thing about me, you mean?”

“I just wanna get along with you better.”

For an instant, Richard’s facial expression strained hard. What was up? His face looked like he hadn’t known better and bit a sour pickled plum or something. As I furrowed my brows, his blue eyes narrowed, looking glum, while he closed the jewel box with a click and stood up.

“Ah, show me more. It wasn’t nearly enough—”

“The chrysoprase is said to have the power to put the balance of mind and body in order, as well as make it spring up comfortably. Perhaps because its fresh grass color is a reminder of spring. Isn’t this stone unnecessary for you, since you are always in a festive mood?”

“Why’re you angry?”

“I am not.”

“Shouldn’t you take a better look at the chrysoprase?”

“Thank you for the unnecessary meddling.”

Leaving me with things to say, Richard disappeared into the back room. Was it that bad to invite him to a ramen shop? It wasn’t a good idea to let him stay angry, so I voluntarily prepared two cups of royal milk tea in the kitchenette. Having come out into the reception room, Richard said nothing more than the expected as he drank a tea that had a little more sugar in it than usual.

After the customer of that morning had gone home, Richard showed me the chrysoprase once again. Upon a better look, I understood the meaning of that naming, which I couldn’t think of as anything more than a mystery at first. Didn’t the people of ancient times think that this was a plant born from gold? The uneven surface was smooth and wavy like an organic body. Chrysoprase. Gold and green onions. Even though there were several gems in this world, I would probably never forget the name of this one. If I ever got to eat ramen with Richard someday, I would definitely bring up this stone.

“Do you remember that talk?” I would ask.

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Heaven’s Vault - lore (in game order): Part 1 Hideout Moon, Maersi, Renaki and the digging site

My purpose is doing a chronological summary in historical order for the game, but to arrive to that I am also compiling an in game order (so the order you explore the game). This is of course my chronological order, as some things change based on your choices. This is also a game plus, and I know that some translations and scripts are longer and different from the first playthrough.

I mostly did this for myself, to be able to better recreate a chronological order, but here you go! Hopefully someone will find errors and help me fix it!

Spoilers! I will add comments from the whole game, so if you haven’t finished the game, there will be spoilers.

Renba disappeared. You have to find him, and your adoptive mother Myari and head professor of the University of Iox gives you a robot named Six. Six tells you that he was found buried in a wall, on Iox, and many robots are found on Iox.

In the first location (your University of Iox), you also talk with Huang and finds out that Mazwai wrote a book explaining how the empire was founded (three wolves fighting) and describing the Nebula. Mazwai was an adventurer (and a woman), and she is the first to describe the loop, from her the religion of the loop originated.

THE LOOP is the idea that all people come back to life, they are basically living in a loop where everything happened in the past. Every person gets reincarnated when their body is burnt and ashes scattered. Burying someone, or leaving their body somewhere, stops the reincarnation process. Everyone in the empire and after believed in the loop.

Myari, head professor of the University of Iox, and Renba both believe in the loop. Myari, in particular, believes she is the reincarnation of the last emperor of Iox. The last emperor of Iox lived during a great FALL and went in exile and isolation, to hide on the HIDEOUT MOON. Because Myari believes in the loop, she also thinks that the fall is about to start again. She sends Renba to investigate on that. (Myari also believes Aliya is her sick daughter reincarnated, as they both have a chronic sickness, so Myari adopted Aliya from Eboreth).

Aliya jumps on the Nightingale, a ship she found on Eboreth and is half a thousand years old. Eboreth is Aliya’s home moon, and one of the moons of the Protectorate, a mix of moons that are under the power of Iox.

Aliya and her robot (she calls him Six) leave for a moon called MAERSI. Maersi is beautiful and fertile and they have plenty of water. They worship KIBENYA, who they consider the WATER GODDESS. They have a statue dedicated to her, and they do not know that HOPPERS are probably hiding under the statue and redirecting the water/rivers around Maersi, this shows us that Maersi is probably a source of water for the Rivers. Maersi, like other moons, is exploited by Iox for their resources (mostly rice and food).

On Maersi, Aliya finds out that Renba was there but left to investigate a HIDEOUT MOON in the Cyclones. Aliya leaves for the moon and she finds a very ancient structure. The moon used to have water, but has now been dried (the rivers changes and moons can lose water and air with time) and abandoned. 

During the journey, Aliya finds some things that Renba decided to hide: the purple robe, the bound book of future knowledge and a fragment of water goddess, probably all found on the Hideout Moon. If you show Huang the robe, he shows you a funereal wrap from the early empire, and this confirms the robe being from a royal of the empire in the Hideout Moon. 

On the HIDEOUT MOON, Aliya finds out that the last emperor hid there and probably died on the ground floor, alone, once too sick. The Hideout Moon was previously inhabited by a Hermit, who was suspicious of the newcomer as he wrote on his bed "Stranger arrived but I fear him" (translation not confirmed). The hermit was probably killed by the last emperor, or simply died in the house (upper floor). The emperor was in hiding, so he decided to bury the body of the hermit in the garden, so that the hermit could not return in the loop and reveal the hideout. The tomb in the garden has a seashell (probably more ancient, probably from the hermit), and is engraved with is engraved with "Stay under ground". The fact that the necklace of seashell was on the tomb seems to indicate that the emperor might have felt some remorse, so maybe he did not kill the hermit but just tried to stop his return in the loop after death.

Outside the house there is a shrine, build from rocks probably from another place, with the writing “Emperors live forever”. Inside there is a burial marker (like later found in the garden with the burials). The water goddess statue in it was probably taken from the emperor (owned by the hermit) and used to hide a REBESKE FOIL which seems very ancient. Not known yet if the emperor took the statue and used it for his foil, or if the statue already had the foil inside. The emperor had no robot collar with him to activate the foil, if he had wanted, but theories online seem to point to the fact that the person in the foil was the emperor’s sister. If shown to Oroi, she says that it is not made in the style of the Empire, but probably older.

A blade was also hidden in the house, this might suggest that the emperor tried to disguise himself? There was no blood on the blade.

Because of the water goddess statue, a script about "water goddess blesses the fire" at the fireplace, the hermit was a follower of the Water Goddess (probably from Maersi, as the statuette fragment found is recognized in Maersi as something given to hermits).

Inside the house, Aliya also finds that someone designed a map of rivers on the wall. The writing is “Home Stars” and it points to a site that Aliya calls SITE FROM THE MURALES, which could be the origin of the emperor, or where the emperor desires to end in.

In the house you will also find the CROWN. Six will inform Myari of it, as it is probably what Myari wants: the crown passed from emperor to emperor. It is also storage of a recording on foil, probably from an emperor.

On the roof there is a place for a telescope, showing that Renba might have come to the moon to find the telescope to triangulate Heaven’s Vault. On the moon he found the body of the last emperor, which never returned to the loop, revealing that Myari is lying about being the reincarnated last emperor. We later find out that the telescopes actually stored information and communicated.

Renba’s ship is burnt, destroyed on the ground of the Hideout Moon, and Renba managed to leave in Six a message saying that Myari is lying (probably about being the emperor) and to find the Observatory (probably Heaven’s Vault) to stop a big darkness (the rivers being drained).

I’ve seen some theories online pointing to the idea of Renba killing himself, by burning, alongside the body of the emperor, to cause the reincarnation of both. I tend to believe that Renba maybe burnt the emperor outside, and then tried to use the anti gravitational crystals to reach Heaven’s Vault/Observatory.

If you ask about an Observatory to Huang he points in the direction of RENAKI, a moon outside the control of Iox. Renaki is rich, and has a lot of water (maybe another source of water?). There Aliya can get more information about the Observatory from the trader Amadu. Amadu trades in servos, robots without the foil, so with no personality. The observatory is clearly not the one from Renba, but still an interesting site and Aliya gets a robot collar from it, to help locate it. 

Renba is definitely dead. If you attend his funeral you find out more about how strongly Myari believes in the loop. If you sneak into Myari’s office, you also find out that (and if you already have the crown to her, she has not it in the office) she believes herself to be the reincarnated last emperor.

Next journey: EBORETH. Eboreth is ancient, so ancient that there is a HOPPER at the gate and can be controlled with words of ancient language. Ancient language is peppered into everyone’s language, without them really knowing what was the original meaning. Furthermore, people on Eboreth knows some ancient script and use it for blessings (they wrote on some carts and tents in the DIGGING SITE), even if they don’t know the meaning. The GATE speaks in ancient and you can choose to enter with the word CATKIS (fortress, probably the entrance when the empire was on Eboreth, you cannot enter with weapons if you choose this word) or KIBENYA, the name of the goddess. If the word Kibenya is spoken, the gate seems to accept the person as a pilgrim, probably this is from before Eboreth became a fortress for the empire. 

There seems to be indications that Eboreth was one of the first sites of the ancients (just after arriving in the Nebula), as it’s one of the few places where a goddess statue has feet. We know that all the other gods statues are robots representations, while this one could have been maybe the original god of the first settlers. 

More about Eboreth being one of the most ancient settings is from the fact that the GATE can also HOPPER Aliya to Heaven’s Vault. So it was probably created when humans still were aware of their history.

On Eboreth you can give Oroi the crown and she will investigate it, explaining that there is a recording in it (foil, like the robots).

On Eboreth you can also sell the emperor’s knife and get a BOOK in return. The book is from emperor era and the script says WITHERING PALACE. If you bring the book to Huang he reads from the Annals: "and the lonely and the lost were pilgrims beyond the garden, where the best remained as mirrors of wise thoughts" (the best = emperors, into the foil)

On Eboreth you can interrogate and “hire” the worker (slave) Yazi. When you buy Yazi, you can follow him to the DIGGING SITE, where Renba was working. 

There you find that: - Renba was hiring workers and using cheap materials because he was keeping the operation a secret from Myari (he already found the body of the Emperor then) - Renba found a ship from an age before the empire. Later on we find out hat the first Empress (Eneki) destroyed all books and information from previous ages and gods, to be able to become a goddess herself. The existence of previous technology and culture is new to Aliya. The ship is bigger than anything she has ever seen, and Aliya decides to call the age of these items AGE OF SAIL. -  Aliya also finds a fragment of a map from the age of sail and the rivers were different, she doesn't recognize them. Iox is called "Palace of Princes" (confirmed by Huang), when given to Huang he gives you. - On the digging site Aliya also finds some mining carts from a MINE, with the writing "The robots' law is fair". This means that Renba probably found the MINE and moved the carts for the digging site.

Here you also get some more info on Six’s ethical core: Six dislikes pain, and his ethical core would stop him from harming any human and makes him prefer to see people happy than in pain.

After the discoveries, you can help Yazi and the laborer survivor Sya to move to Renaki and start a better life.

At the end of this section Aliya wants to locate:

* The Observatory from Amadu’s tale = confirmed to be an AGE OF SAIL site, which means that robots were around in the age of sail.

* The “Home Stars” in the Murales on the hideout

* The origin of the ship from the Age of Sail (and other items from the Digging Site)

* The Withering Palace

* The Observatory from Renba’s warning, probably Heaven’s Vault. No location yet.

* A Mine, from which the carts used by Renba came from. No location yet.

From what I know at the moment, Renba’s journey seems to be:

getting information from Six, by working on robots leaving message on Six about Myari cyclone (hermit house) = finding out about the emperor’s body will turn Renba suspicious of Myrai mine? elboreth digging site (Yazi says he disappeared and then came back a lot) then maersi cyclone again (hermit house) and here he died.

NEXT:

[sea-and-storm]

LFRP :  Nhia Molkoh (Crystal)

Below are just the most basic of Nhia’s character details in order to keep this post short and sweet. But if you’d like to see a more in-depth profile, please check out her carrd!

The Basics ––– –

Age: Twenty-four (24).

Birthday:  Twentieth sun of the first astral moon. (1/20)

Race:  Miqo’te, Keeper of the Moon.

Gender: Female, cisgender. (she/her)

Sexuality: Bisexual, male leaning. Demiromantic.

Marital Status: Single.

Server: Balmung (Crystal DC)

Physical Appearance ––– –

Hair:  A medium gray-brown color, long and thick in texture. Sometimes left down and untamed, other times pulled up or styled, but almost always decorated with some combination of braids, beads, and other baubles that catch her eyes. For a visual example of the sorts of hairstyles she tends to wear, take a look at this gallery.

Ears:   Same color as her hair, and very soft to the touch. Pierced along the underside of the lobes, usually wearing some small, simple earrings.

Tail:   Very long, very plush, and very well-groomed. Extremely expressive, often moving along with her mood or as she speaks.

Eyes: Bright blue.

Height:  5′0″.

Build:  Petite pear, with a little extra weight carried around her hips and thighs. Pleasantly soft and curved.

Distinguishing Marks:  Light gray-white tribal paints across her face, and sometimes other places across her body depending on the occasion and her mood.

Personal ––– –

Profession:  Clan Trade Liaison. She brings her clans’ good to market in the cities to trade for coin and barter, and attempts to find those merchants and artisans willing to enter into more lasting and mutually beneficial supply agreements with them.

Hobbies:  Drawing and painting. Finding new places and new things to paint or draw. Foraging. Flower picking. Listening to other people's stories.

Languages: Common, Huntspeak.

Residence:  None in particular, outside of her clan's territory when she's home. She wanders wherever her feet carry her, and she tends to prefer making a camp for herself out in nature rather than spending gil on inn rooms.

Birthplace:  The Black Shroud, as a part of the Singing Dove Clan of Moon Keepers. Theirs is a small and peaceful gathering of families that mostly keeps to their own, but occasionally reaches out beyond the Shroud's borders to sell and trade for goods not readily found at home.

Religion: Devout follower of Menphina.

Fears:  Anything ill befalling her loved ones. Being trapped. Deep waters. Very large and fearsome beasts. Losing her ability to wander, whether by injury or by order of her clan.

Personality:  Cheerful, bright personality. Very sociable. Talkative. Curious. Empathetic. Generous. Understanding. Quite emotionally intelligent. Can handle her own in nature. Very naive. Too trusting. Sometimes too talkative or too curious. Not the most formally learned. Also not the most street smart.

Relationships ––– -

Spouse: None.

Children: None.

Parents: Emhi Molkoh (mother, npc) & Naih’a Epocan (father, npc).

Siblings: (Open to sibling / half-sibling connections!)

Other Relatives: (Open to other familial connections as well!)

Pets: No pets, per se. But she does have a chocobo by the name of Arrow.

Traits ––– -

Extroverted / In Between / Introverted Disorganized / In Between / Organized Close Minded / In Between / Open Minded Calm / In Between / Anxious Disagreeable / In Between / Agreeable Cautious / In Between / Reckless Patient / In Between /  Impatient Outspoken / In Between / Reserved Leader / In Between / Follower Empathetic / In Between / Apathetic Optimistic / In Between / Pessimistic Traditional / In Between / Modern Hard-working / In Between / Lazy Loyal / In Between / Disloyal Faithful / In Between / Unfaithful

Additional information ––– –

Smoking Habit: None.

Drugs: None.

Alcohol: Sometimes, but she doesn’t handle hard liquor well. Though chances are if you offer her a drink, she’d think it rude to turn it down.

Possible Hooks ––– –

◖SHROUD DWELLER◗ ⠀ Fellow dweller of the Shroud, or maybe just a passer-through? We could set up an interaction around this, easily! Nhia is often found within the forests of the Black Shroud whenever she's home from her traveling, whether she's hunting or just exploring.

◖KEEPERS OF THE MOON◗ I would love to meet some fellow Keepers, whether they've left home in search of a new life or keep the old ways! In the latter case, a connection would be quite easy to manage, as Nhia is regularly sent out to make contact with other clans of the Shroud to establish trade and goodwill with her own.

◖TRADERS AND MERCHANTS◗ This is technically what Nhia does for a living -- venturing out to establish trade connections for her clan. If your character is the buying and selling sort, perhaps they can speak and come to a mutually beneficial deal!

◖FELLOW HUNTERS◗ Nhia is something of a huntress herself, and so crossing paths with others is only to be expected! Perhaps a trail leads them to the same prey, or they team up to take down something neither can handle individually?

◖THE ARTIST & HER MUSE◗ The only thing that Nhia loves more than traveling is documenting it, most usually by way of paintings and drawings. Perhaps she might ask if it's alright if she adds you to her sketchbook while you regale her with stories of your travels, or maybe you know of a particularly beautiful, breathtaking sight that you could take her to see?

◖GULLIBLE WITH A CAPITAL ‘G’◗ For better or worse, Nhia tends to take everything that someone tells her at face value, believing it to be the absolute truth. I mean, what reason would they have to exaggerate or lie to her, right? .....right? Feel free to regale her with all your wildest tales, even if they aren’t exactly truthful.

OOC Rules of Engagement ––– –

I'll do no RP of any sort with real-life minors. Sorry, I just don't feel comfortable writing with anyone under eighteen!

I don't tolerate OOC romantic and/or sexual advances, or any OOC clinginess or possessiveness. Just… don’t. RP partners with reasonable and healthy OOC boundaries only, please!

All natural, slowburn ships only. I don't do the whole pre-arranged or love-at-first-RP ship deal. If it's meant to be between our brainchildren, it'll happen because of character chemistry and a lot of RP, or not at all.

Dark & mature themes are fine, but please ask before crossing too far over the line! Very little thematically tends to bother me in RP. However, if you plan on pushing further past the conventional boundaries than usual, I'd at least appreciate a heads up first in the off chance I'm not up for it!

ERP is something I could easily take or leave. It may be fun to write sometimes, but it gets repetitive and boring to me real quick. So if this is your sole or primary focus of RP, we aren’t gonna be suitable partners. If we are going to write the beast with two backs, at least give me some plot to make it interesting and/or meaningful. And don’t be salty about being asked to FTB more often than not.

Contact Information  ––– –

Discord:  Jaliqai#1327.

In Game:  Niah Molkoh.

Tumblr:  @jaliqai-and-company

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Project Nexus: Settings

-Overworld:    This area in the world is what we are more familiar with. This is where the huge chunk of life thrives. Humans rule this world alongside with millions of animals. The land is scattered with green, thriving plants,/ dry and lifeless deserts, almost never ending oceans, to long-winded plains and mountains. The area itself is almost as diverse as the creatures living on it!

-Ashenfall:

   This is a city located in the middle of a vast forest. The city is built like a classic center ring plan, but instead, the higher/middle class is closer to the center, rather than the outside of the ring. This is because the closer to the edge you are, the more dangerous it is for you. The surrounding forest is not very safe and is crawling with monsters and vicious wild animals. People went missing when they went near the place and only a few comeback, usually barely alive. As for the city itself, it thrives inside those walls they carefully built around the forest. They have all the necessities to function such as stores, schools, and everything in between. Even though a lot of those options are only easily available to the higher/middle class, while the lower class often is more "sacrificed" than the others. The lower class often have to "fight to survive". This area is also very diverse in its seasons. It blossoms into spring after a harsh winter, the summer days are long and often decently hot, and in the fall, the leaves are vibrant and full of color. Winter is often the harshest out of the other seasons. If you don't like winter, this place isn't a good place for you.

-The Forest of Ashenfall:  

   This is the forest that surrounds the city of Ashenfall. It has various types of large trees scattered about, it just depends on where you are in the forest for which kinds of trees you run into. The place is easy to get lost in, seeing how it is almost three times as large as the city itself. Then again, that would also make it good for hiding from anything/one from the city- if you even manage to stay alive. People often get lost and starve to death, fall into random cliffs, or worst case scenario; get mauled to death by the animals or monsters that lurk around the place. Even though it is a very dangerous, it actually is very beautiful in its own way. It has vast fields chock full of flowers, caves with various gems and crystals, rivers with sparkling water; some of which make waterfalls, and much more that any nature lover would appreciate. Too bad you'll probably die trying to go look.

-The Averil’s domain:

   Now where you find a large forest, you most likely would find an Averil residing there. In this case, this is where the majority of the survivors remain. Including their royalty. A good portion of the forest they have claimed, while other monsters have made the rest of it their territory. The Averil mostly reside near the center of this forest, where it's one of the most unlikely places that anyone would dare to visit (It takes up roughly ⅓ of the ENTIRE forest). They are normally very compassionate and gentle creatures but are very wary of humans. They often hide if there is a rare occasion of one coming around. However, if you do pose a threat to them or their home, they will get aggressive and attack. Their territory consists of the forest, some fields, part of the mountains, and there’s even a swamp hidden around there somewhere. They live to take care of one of the environments around them along with the help of their little servants.  

Here's a little sneak peek at what they generally look like:

Art by http://koko-the-rabbit.deviantart.com/

-The Laboratory:

   Located in the middle of nowhere, the lab is a key place where a lot of wonderful things happen. This is the place where all the experiments are kept and confined. The place is fairly large and has many different wings to suit their needs. A medical wing, testing area, living quarters, etc. All sort of poor innocent souls is trapped here, only to suffer and live with the horrors that awaited them in this cold, dark place. It is also almost like a cemetery, due to all of the deaths that happen, but there would be no grave markers to be found anywhere. The bodies are to be disposed in a different place or used for something else entirely beside getting rid of. All in all, it's a place of horrors and it's not a place you'd want to be.

-The Rebel’s Base

   Located in another section of the forest, they are actually located near the town of Ruars Edge. Despite lack of government assistance, they have managed to build a small military town and no one outside is really aware of its existence somehow. It spans over a large area, having a training area, living quarters, storage, a large room to discuss battle strategies, you name it. They even have made their own farms and such to be able to sustain themselves for the most part. They do trade with the locals for some things though.They are surrounded by the forest itself, mountains, and there’s even a large lake nearby.

-Ruars Edge:

   This town is on the coast of the continent and is fairly large. They mainly consist of fishers, traders, and tourists. This city is bursting with life and is growing pretty steadily. It seems innocent enough, but they're constantly on alert near the coasts, as sharks occasionally end up there and sometimes attack the civilians wading in the water. They have taken precautions at this point and it doesn't happen as much as it used to. However, they still like to make sure to protect the people.It's a fairly old town and it's divided into two clear districts: The older side that has more culture and tradition, and the growing and more modern side. The older side is somewhat of a country-esque kind of place while the modern has the downtown area with all the businesses and tourist attractions. Most of the people who live in this town live in the more modern area.(Will add more when I have more ideas!)

-Oldbrook:

   Compared to the other towns, this one is fairly smaller and more rural than the other two. It's mostly a village of farmers and their livestock. Nothing much exciting happens here, occasionally monsters attack but it's very rare due to the lack of people or things to pillage. It's mostly Ashenfall that gets this, hence the fence. Anyways, overall it's very quiet. In fact, it's so quiet and remote that it's a decently popular place for fugitives and other sorts of people to change their identities and live a different life.(Will add more when I have more ideas!)

(Note to self, add more cities. Help with ideas will be appreciated!)

Spiritual Plane: This is the place where the dead usually end up, no matter what species you are. It mirrors the likeness of the overworld but looks and feels a bit different. Souls of the dead are given freedoms and limitations on what they can do here. So in short, there are rules somewhat, but they aren't as concrete and are much more bizarre than any of the other dimensions.

There is a place in which the souls of the unredeemable are kept. It's underneath the solid-but-not so solid ground. They are often mindless and their only goal is to drag unsuspecting souls and have them add to their form.

Often they are conjoined and grotesque looking

They are considered a kind of demon; they are just dead and are completely mindless (Like zombies)

There are cases in which a spirit does not stay here. They often have another purpose they must fulfill before they are allowed in permanently.Souls who are in the spirit realm permanently look normal, just more like a corpse in color. While spirits that stay in the overworld or any other place keep all-if any- wounds they had before they died.   If a spirit cannot fulfill their purpose they have in said place they are in, they will be stuck there forever.  

Another thing to mention is that they have a council. Their job is to go over individuals lives before they died and decide what their fate would be in this realm. There's one of the four choices they can pick:

You get off scot-free and basically get a free ticket to have a decent existence because they didn't do much wrong in their lives. They can be possibly reincarnated at some point.

You get a prisoner kind of existence, being forced into work or some kind of thing like that

You get fed to the unredeemables because you were so horrible and/or they would have no purpose for you

Or lastly, you have unfinished business and have to be sent back to wherever you came from.

Generally living people/creatures cannot step into this realm, only very few have gone in here and have not felt the horrible side effects in trying to do so.

There really isn't "weather" here

Somewhat surreal kind of place (Will add more when I have more ideas)

Elysian Isles: Now for Elysian Isles! This place is high above the clouds of the overworld. Humans have no access to the place usually, only a few have managed to, unfortunately, find themselves there. The inhabitants aren't too friendly to strangers… The main reason foreign beings usually cannot enter is that of the natural magic barriers that surround the edges of the bottom of the clouds. It protects the place as well as keep it invisible in foreign lands. Anyways, Elysian Isles are basically a bunch of natural floating islands above densely compacted clouds. There are no bridges that connect the islands, the Angels usually either fly, use the gondolas (The ones who are unable to fly. Usually this applies to children), or even the clouds when it's most convenient. Each island is bursting with life, various types animals and plants are strewn around and water is abundant thanks to the rivers. All the water in Elysian Isles is actually holy water believe it or not! It comes in the form of rain, lakes, or more commonly: rivers. These rivers often rush off the edges and create beautiful waterfalls. (The water evaporates before it touches the bottom portions of the clouds)

The various islands serve different purposes and are zoned for a certain thing. EX: Residential, schools, downtown, market, worship, etc. There is one large island that is chock full of materials and many different resources. The inhabitants get a lot of their resources here! There's also a couple of shrines set up around the big oak tree that sits in the middle of this particular island~ (It gives life to this part of the land, therefore they kind of worship it)

There are certain places on the islands in which you can see the overworld through gaps in the clouds

This society is ruled by a monarchy but has some democratic traits

(Architecture is going to be based on the Roman's style. Maybe with a little Steampunk?)

 -Gehenna: Next is Gehenna! This place is probably one of the more weird areas (besides the pocket dimension ofc). It has towns and cities scattered all around the land, but the capital is closer to the center. The closer you are to the center, the hotter it generally is. That's because that's where all the volcanoes, rivers of lava, and fire like to be-    The "volcanic" towns are more modern/advanced and highly populated than the outer cities/communities (Usually). The edges of the land contain large mountains and a MUCH COLDER climate than the center. Here is where you find the plant life that is most similar to the overworld; grass, trees, fruit bushes, etc.    At one point near the edge, there is this wasteland-esque/ desert area called The Outskirts. A lot of outcasts, exiles and "Crazies" live here, as well as the veterans from the previous war they had with the Angels (AKA Seraphs). The veterans don't really have a place to go, so they made do with what they had and managed to make a village in The Outskirts.    The area that is farthest away from most of the cities is a tar pit area, appropriately named the pit. Barely anything lives here since it's mostly a dead place. The climate determines the type of vegetation that's in that particular area. 

Cold:

Trees resemble Oak and Pine trees and other plants pretty much resemble overworld plants.

Hot:

Plants in the colder climate have adapted to the heat of the "volcanic" area and use lava as water

The sun has a different appearance in the different areas. It typically looks bigger and brighter in the hotter climate, while in the colder it's smaller and seems a bit dimmer. This is also true for the moon, except switched.

This dimension has two main monarchies: One for the cold area and the hot area. They have somewhat of a friendly rivalry.

(Architecture is going to be based on the gothic/victorian style)

-Airice's Pocket Dimension: Now this place is an anomaly compared to the rest of the places, as most beings that are not native to the place cannot see in there without help. It's as dark as a cave deep into the ground without lights- I will elaborate on this later. Here are a few descriptors of the place first.

It's the smallest in size; only coming up to being about as big as a small ocean with various islands. It's also "man-made", the being that calls itself Airice made it be it's home and escape the area if it needed to flee. It restricts whatever comes in and out by keeping it isolated from any other area in this universe. It’s completely closed off from anything else.

This "world" is pretty much a dark void with "Floating" islands. Within them, there are the main one and much smaller ones that surround it. (Insert name here) is the largest and the main island, it has the most "life" on it. There sits a temple that appears to overrun with plant life. In fact, the majority of the place looks in ruin- In the front of the temple, there's a river with a nearly broken bridge.

The interior of the temple is intricate, covered in mosaics and in the main room sits a large throne that looks in disrepair. A glass window sits behind it and filters colored light into the room.

Outside the temple lies a large garden and a gazebo. They look weirdly maintained compared to the rest of the place which looks to be in ruin.

There are also caverns and various ways to get near the bottom of the main island. Strange bodies of water can be found here.

   Now, what the islands are //ahem// "floating" on top of. This is what is called The Abyss. It can only be described as an inky blackness but no one is really sure what it is or what happens if you fall in. All we know is that nothing has ever come out of it.

There are only two ways of entering this plane:

Get assistance with the being's current host. They will have to grant you temporary vision to be able to see here

The host already trusts you enough to give you this special key. This key is able to be used on any door to be able to enter. You'll already have a permanent vision if this is the case. This way in is rare since it's picky about who it lets in. Usually, only the marked are let into here.  

Small little note: Time passes differently than the other areas. If it's an hour of time in here, then it'd be two hours in the other places. 1 month= 2months, etc

The Mythos Dimension:    This dimension lays somewhere off and isolated from the rest of the dimensions; kind of like the spiritual plane. This world is odd, as it inhabits lots of different kinds of creatures: Mythical creatures. Didn’t see that coming I bet-- Mermaids, Fairies, Elves, Dragons, etc. Weird creatures are the norm here.

There are various types of plants that are found here. Ex: Rainbow trees, magic-infused plants, etc

Their terrain has extreme biomes that can be pretty large

   Deserts, Oceans, forests, etc

Some areas have infrastructure, while a lot of the land does not. This is because most of the species just live off the land

The weather really depends on which area you’re in

Most of the species have allegiances with each other and generally are a very peaceful bunch. Some have had issues, however, and have deep rooted hatred for generations. It’s mainly just rivalries, nothing too violent.

Colors wise, the place has a softer and dream-like appearance to it.

Most of the creatures/people there haven’t had much contact with other beings from other dimensions.

They could have 2 suns and 1 large moon? Just an idea I have  

(Will add more once I have more ideas~)

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This is currently what I have so far! Any suggestions and/or questions would be immensely helpful! Please note that I'm still working on it, and things could possibly change. I will be adding more details about its inhabitants later on uvu Project: Nexus and its characters belong to me and http://koko-the-rabbit.deviantart.com/

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August 2nd. Holy shit. Summer always does that thing where it’s basically gone the second it arrives. Like an orgasm. Or a long weekend trip with your boyfriend. Or the last train home.

I’m sitting in the Potter’s House with a fresh cup of coffee that smells divine. I feel like my sense of smell has developed more as of late? Like I can smell the flowers in my bedroom so strongly sometimes that I have to move them to a different spot because their pungency keeps me awake. Maybe it’s me… but it’s most likely cheap ass Trader Joe’s flowers. ANYWHO, the coffee is inticing after a late night after a long day. I worked from 8-4:30 and then came home to watch Grey’s and curl my hair. Basically unwind for a few hours because I deserve it. I have been super stressed as of late. Just with the whole Ai Elo situation and then finding the apartment and then moving and then finding new tenants to occupy the space. I just need a huge exhale and a massage. I honestly might book one for myself. I definitely need a pedicure at the very, very least. I feel like I have aged 10 years in the past 2 weeks. It has been so stressful and I hate that I’m letting it get to me. But honestly, who wouldn’t let all of this affect them?

I had a lovely acupuncture appointment on Monday with Wendi (since Jim is away). She’s an acupuncturist and a reki healer and I loved her energy. She was so open to my experiences and just wanted to help me heal from the trauma. I told her about my waking up in the middle of the night and she noted that I was being too vigilant. She didn’t say it in a condescending way, just as an observation. And I think she’s right. Just being vigilant and listening in my apartment in the night convinced that someone is there. She told me that I should invite warm spirits and warm, happy presences and energies into my bed before I sleep as a way to feel more comforted. I liked that idea and it worked last night. I did mention that whenever I’m sleeping with someone in the bed, I don’t feel scared or wake up mid- night. I just wish I could be that comforting presence for myself but not right now.

I feel like I haven’t seen Stephen in a hot second. He’s been crazy busy with work and I guess the last time I saw him was Sunday evening. He was doing invoices and we had dinner and Jess from work dropped off boxes. That sweet angel. I need this vacation with Hayley ASAP and I know that Stephen’s mini vacations are coming up soon. He needs them too. We’re both stressed with moving and Ai Elo was traumatic for him as well. It’s just been a lot. I hate that this whole thing is defining my summer but what can I do? Wendi and I were also talking about the way in which grief and inspiration are the same energy, just channeled in different ways. Or that’s the way it is in Chinese medicine. But I agree with that. Makes a shit ton of sense to me. She had me sit in a chair and feel the weight and support of the chair on my legs and back and butt. It was so Marcia of her and I realized how much I missed having someone there to literally walk me through a savasna (essentially). The whole session was glorious and it makes me miss Jim and wish that I could still have Wendi too. I just want all the acupuncture and all the holistic medicine my body can handle! Maybe Snee and I can find a santucuary or something or the sort in Portland. That seems like the place to find a little bit of peace.

But you know, this whole experience has, in the most cliche of ways, inspired me in my own life. Because my life is drenched with beauty! I have amazing friends and a wonderful boyfriend and a great home. I am happy to have known Ai Elo because as much as I didn’t want a roommate, I loved having her as a friend. She was a little bit much at times but I do feel like she made an impact. She has this gorgeous lamp in her room. It’s made from a branch she found in the woods. She widdled it down and there are tiny little bulbs wound around the lamp that have succulents and spanish moss and crystals inside them. The whole thing is STUNNING and I remember that it was one of the first things I knew about her- that she made her own furniture. I always thought that was cool as shit and she even brought home an old cabinet/ table thing once that she found and sanded it down. It’s still in the living room. Not as beautiful as the lamp but I would never just take something off of the street. That’s what I loved about Ai Elo, she just had this determination that seemingly random things could be something. One time her friend’s mother or grandmother died and she took some dried lavender and put it in a mini satchel and gave it to her friend. I thought that was the kindest and most generous thing. What a sweet and simple gift for someone who is hurting. I also just fucking love lavender.

I’m over here (sorry for the jumping around of thoughts. I’m midway between this post and looking into classes for the fall and texting people and googling thrift stores in Portland) but I’m also over here looking up all the fun things to do in Takoma! It looks so cute and I can’t wait to check it out further. They have this place to get your hair cut and I may pop in their sometime soon. After I buy all of my textbooks… kill me over that. I’m definitely renting them because it’s so much cheaper, but it’s still expensive. Speaking of which, I just got a jolt of excitement about school starting back! I really can’t wait. I’ve been so focused on the negative aspects like the stresses of moving and having no free time. But I really am truly excited to be back in school! I realize it’s such a gift and a privilege. I can’t wait to do more learning and reading. Ha we’ll see what I’m like 4 weeks into the semester, but I can dream and make grand gestures NOW.

I feel like sometimes I’m not enjoying and relishing in my life enough. Last night felt like me enjoying life a lot. I was with friends eating the most divine food (fucking T Bone steak with pine nuts and thyme and garlic cloves cooked on top and a Chilean Sea bass with a celergy root glaze and the most amazing chive and sour cream mashed potatoes. Glasses of gorgeous and delicious rose and breads and cheeses and pork belly. I’m still not over it and if Hayley comes back here, we’re going there ASAP. This restaurant is like the opposite of vegan friendly and I couldn’t be happier about it.) Also, I did karaoke last night! For the first time ever. I know, I know. I wish Hayley could have been a part of it. But now my fear is gone and I’m just loving it and seeing it for the fun that it is. I sang “Man I feel like a woman” and it’s just a fucking classic. We were there as the place was closing and I watched Tesia freak out so much about what song to chose and what was in her range. She really wanted to sound amazing and as fucking obvious as it sounds, that’s not the point of karaoke. But I thought that was the point/ that was my fear until last night. And then I suddenly realized how fun and freeing it is. I should just listen to Hayley more. First the tattoos and now the karaoke. This bitch knows what’s up.

Stephen and I sign the lease for our new apartment tomorrow. OUR apartment. I feel much less nervous that I felt like I would. It’s gonna be a test and I’m gonna give him his space and I know he’ll give me mine. I’m just excited to have something that it is purely ours.

Let’s see what else I can say… Just trying to find a place for Mom, Dad, Char and I to have dinner when they’re in town. It’s proving difficult (as always) to find a casual place that isn’t too expensive and it’s loud as shit so that my Dad can hear). Honestly, I may just do a Founding Farmers Restaurant. Not mine personally but one of our restaurants… get that discount, you know!

Alright, I’ve rambled on enough. As always, thankful for the outlet!

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10 Simple-minded Ways To Heal A Broken Heart

I cant do this anymore.

The terms still reverberating in your ears, ricochetting around until they land like a punch in the gut. Youre instantly transported to a new world, one you didnt know existed before this moment. A world-wide and life without your beloved.

It doesnt feel real. You pinch yourself to wake up from this nightmare, but youre still here, still revolving from this declaration, this revocation of love.

Warm snaps stream down your face until you begin to sob, that terrifying uncontrollable sobbing that leaves you gasping for air. You want to hide away, cry yourself to sleep, and somehow magically feel better tomorrow.

Weve all been here. Or some modification of it. Weve all had our centers cracked and stomped on. Weve all diverted over every moment of our relations in our headings and wondered, What could I have done differently?

But we are now transported into a macrocosm where the love we seemed is grasped away from the americans and dont know what to do with ourselves other than suffers and sorrow our loss.

I recently read a work that briefly touched upon anguish and its advice mostly amounted to go out with your lovers as far as possible. WTF? Thats it? Thats how Im going to heal my mettle? Most of my lovers are scattered in all regions of the world. Becoming out with them every night isnt even a viable option.

How on globe do you turn off those kinds of impressions? What happens to affection lost? How do you mend a broken heart? I decided to investigate how to mend my own shattered heart.

In previous breakups, Ive simply idly fallen into my personal motifs of desire lost. For me, I exclaim, I stay in bed, watch bad tv, chew cookie dough, and hide away from the people who love me. I mainly dont DO anything. I sit and wait.

Because time heals all winds, right? Or does it? If occasion is a construct of our attentions, do “weve been” have to wait for the occur of period, something illusory to mend ourselves? Can we speed up the process of healing our wraps? How much is impossible to ensure our healing through our wars and blueprints?

So, instead of blindly falling into my decorations, I started to ask myself some questions about my habits. Im looking at my structures with enjoying interest, playing with them a little bit, realise what is actually acting me and determining what patterns are there exclusively because of economy, because my memory, form, and nerve are too tired for anything but pattern. And heres what Ive learned

1. Lean Into Sensation

Essentially, everything we know as physical beings comes down to sensation that we name good or bad. When I began to lean into the wizard in my body, requesting what it had to tell me, thoughts began to transform. I asked where the ache lives in my torso. I closed my eyes and supposed symbolizing my excitement. I described what it felt like in writing, how I had to remind myself to breathe and how fascinating the absence of a act- breath and love feels so heavy.

I examined the tightening in my chest, trying not to label it good or bad, just simply as superstar. Human tolerating is predominantly an expression of the results of labeling event as good or bad and right or wrong.

The thing about perception is, its ever changing. It doesnt stay forever. When we change our perspective of know-how merely being a temporary district of existence, it takes service charges out of it, simply through the simple-minded number of observation. In my own experience, the sensation itself tend to change faster the closer I look at it.

By noticing how heavy the fact that there is breath felt, I began to fill my lungs with slower, deeper breaths and learnt my entire being become a bit lighter.

2. Frankie Says Relax

Remember those t-shirts from the 80 s from Frankie goes to Hollywood? Passes out those guys had a good idea.

While this might seem a little bit self-contradictory to simply discovering perception, this practice of tightening your body has slightly different merits. We support so much better tension in our mass on a daily basis, and its even more amplified in times of high-pitched stress.

Make a practice of checking each part of your mas for tension. I like to start out lying down on my back and closing my gazes like I would for savasana. Take a couple of deep sighs, then try to contract and tense up every single muscle in your organization at once. Hold this for got a couple of seconds, then liberate the tension in your whole mas. Repeat a couple of times. I find it helpful to see the comparison in how my person tones between the tension and the relaxation.

Then take it further by slowly checking each part of your form from leader to toe. Tense up an individual muscle group for a moment, then exhaust it. Crinkle your forehead, and handout. Squeeze your eyes tight, and handout. Clench your jaw, and handout. Press your tongue to the ceiling of your opening, then make it hang loose in your mouth.

You get the picture. We all know we view so much friction and stress in our shoulders and backs, but also pay attention to the little neighbourhoods. Tightening the smallest muscle radicals, particularly in my appearance, often prepare the most difficult difference in how I seem afterwards.

3. Move It

Rest is important in mending a middle. But I often situate too much emphasis on it. Yes, I need to take care of myself with sleep and the blessing of stillness. But I now believe it is equally important to move your torso very. The medium of shift isnt important. Just move.

On day one I went to a yin yoga class. While technically moving my body, the needs of the of yin yoga are much less than read a spin class. Yin allowed me to extend my form while still allowing me to appear introverted and my existence internalized which was all I could handle.

On day two I croaked for a four mile walk in the common. I remained my headphones on and didnt talk to anyone, but extended my legs and got plenty of oxygen into my lungs.

This movement is facilitating me hinder some momentum and vigour for other aspects of “peoples lives” I dont want to placed on hold while my centre heals.

4. Reach For A Better Feeling Thought

This one can feel a bit tricky. For starters, the thought of exuberance can feel so far removed from where you are right now. So, start where you are.

If you are depressed, what next best happen can you contact for? Depression is experiencing hopeless, disheartened, retiring. There isnt even any energy around depression. Happiness and desire can feel like a world away from depression.

Can you reach for something that seems slightly better than this powerless desperation? Perhaps hope? Or wrath or storm? Most passions have more vitality behind them than hollow. While temper isnt a situate you want to stay in, it can also stimulus some movement.

What if every day you worked towards an spirit merely one step in future directions you wish to move? Take a look at the Emotional Guidance System scale I formed from Ask and it is Given below. Moving up by one spirit a daylight will put you in a pretty good region in not so long a time.

There is something else to watch out for here. In the midst of my profound bereavement, I have minutes of genuine laugh when I hear something funny. The first few meters it happened, I immediately experienced guilty.

It was as if my feeling good in any way was a disloyalty to my broken heart. My mentality was telling me that if I feel good, its as if I didnt appreciate such relationships as much as I felt I did. Well, that is hogwash. That is my hurt ego talking. My relationship mean and still signifies “the worlds” to me. Tell me be really clear on this point…

If youre having a hard time contacting for a better sensitive conception, try some visualizations. Stay away from thinks about your relationship and cherish. They are very charged topics, so start somewhere easy.

Close your eyes, thought the sentiments of the warm sunlight on your look, and cool breeze on bare shoulders. Dream the flavor of your favorite dinner on your tongue. Dream your abs hurting after a good belly laugh. Improve on this feeling with knowledge from our lives you can draw from. What in your life is full of ease and joy?

5. Surround Yourself With Reminders Of Truth, Beauty, And Love

I have a tattoo on my left forearm that enunciates Love Inspired by a blog upright called the Beauty of the Ellipsis, it serves as a reminder that ardour isnt a finished thinking. It is always in motion, ever deriving. Adoration for myself, my family, your best friend, and those Ive lost.

I have a maple seed necklace to remind me that in every moment Im planting the seeds of my future. I have prisms hanging from my windows for an extra perforate of coloring and rainbows on sunny epoches. I am gradually building a jungle in my house. I fill empty spaces with plants that remind me of life and vitality even on the grayest of days.

Fill your encircles and life with little bits that remind you of what you know to be true, beautiful, and joyful. These neednt be grandiose or expensive, just simply concepts that reverberate with you. Here are some ideas to get you started.

Flowers from Traders Joes. Pinterest board filled with beauty. Follow an inspiring Instagram or Tumblr account. Make or find a mantra. Use Canva to build and print out invigorating paraphrases to embellish your room. Croak for a step and find the perfect stone to bring home. Find a brand-new favorite aroma and spread it around your mansion liberally. Buy new stationary. Treat yourself to a book from Etsy. Draw portrait or stimulating mentions with sidewalk chalk in your vicinity. Find a neighbourhood neighbourhood to make a coffee or tea mug. Alternately, find one that impresses your imagination at Society6. Create an altar or sacred cavity and crowd it with crystals, palo santo, and offerings. Spend day with children. Find reminders of your truism and joy.

These may seem to be insignificant things that are only on the surface, but I find the more I border myself with items that experience whimsical and magical in some small-scale acces, the more Im able to remind myself of how I want to feel in each time. They help me choose to feel glee and magical when I might otherwise choose grief.

6. Self-Care Saturday( Or any era. Or every day !)

We can be quite penalize to ourselves in times of conflict and stress, so take some time to really take care of yourself in some way.

Were all busy and charged with the responsibility, but if you dont take care of yourself first, the main responsibilities can begin to suffer as a result. Im more focused and productive when Ive taken care of my necessities first. I attend to my responsibilities in a bigger and better behavior when my goblet is full , not empty.

Theres a lot of area for reading here as to what self-care consider this to be for each person. While technically, all the suggestions in this article are a species of self-care, I miss “youve got to” block off some time specifically for self-care, mining deeper into what that means for you.

Maybe its taking a long, palatial shower and spending duration pampering yourself with tinctures for your skin that move you feel radiant. It might be spending a duo hours in live animals shelter fondling with puppies and kittens. Perhaps its planning a hot stone rub. Maybe its nourishing your form with vibrant healthy food youve cooked yourself. It might be taking a couple hours to read a book thats been sitting on your nightstand for months.

Tailor your self-care and rotate it into a weekly or even daily ritual.

7. Invest in Yourself

Im willing to bet everyone has something new theyd like to try if merely they had the time, coin, or excuse.

Here is your allow stumble to try that something new.

Did you want to pick up knitting, or perhaps learn to play the guitar? Maybe memorized some bayonet abilities to hoist your prepare? Rock climbing, sky diving, paint, memorizing another language, the possibilities are interminable. You can find a class on just about whatever it is you like online these days.

As progenies, we try brand-new occasions all the time. Its how we discover and change at an exceptional charge. But this slows down as we grow up and our visual field becomes smaller as we narrow down our athletic field. So expand your compass, invest in yourself in some way, and learn something new.

The cognitive requirements of memorizing something new are also welcome to serve as a great pattern of distraction when you need a distraction. Perhaps youll be brought to an end picking up a brand-new hobby, check off another carton on your pail listing, or have a good story to tell.

8. The F wordForgiveness

Ahh, a big creepy one! The topic of forgiveness can be a fiction in itself. Perhaps there is a requirement forgive the actions of your ex, or maybe forgive yourself for your own. Or a combination of both.

We dont always like to forgive people for actions we deem incorrect or unkind because it can feel like we are giving them a free pass. But Ive became aware that maintaining onto exasperation and resentment is always worse. Its a tremendous force suck and you cant find joyful as the same duration “you think youre” feeling justified in your fury. So, I select my own gaiety over my resentment.

Its a choice to make over and over again. Its not easy to forgive in one large-hearted sweeping action. It generally happens in increments. Its helpful to practice radical rapport, vividly dreaming how it feels to be the person who did you wrong. You know most people are essentially doing the best they can with the information they have at each minute. It becomes easier to suppose why they did what they did when you put yourself in their shoes. You begin to feel more empathy for them.

You recognize that the indignation youre accommodating acts no one. And you gradually begin to let it go, piece by piece.

Because forgiveness is not for them, its for YOU.

9. Afford what you wish to receive

I was walking around, detecting like no one loves me, which is totally and completely untrue, but when youre heartbroken, your subconsciou does all kinds of irrational thoughts. I received a pal of mine berth about writing a note of encouragement to a pal, and I wished to be that friend with every fiber of my being. I wanted to open up my mailbox and receive letters of cherish, a validation of the adoration that exists for me.

I expected myself what could I do to feel that adoration? I decided to Pay what I wished to RECEIVE. I started writing words of encouragement and love to pals and strangers alike. All I had to do was write what I wanted to hear, for myself. It was that easy.

This did two things for me.

One, the brain doesnt is the difference between handing, receiving, or even witnessing magnanimity. When you perform an act of kindness, the pleasure and rewards cores light up, releasing feel good chemicals as if you were the recipient, which some psychologists have dubbed the helpers high.

Two, it demo me that we live in a macrocosm of abundance. I dont is a requirement to accumulation away love and kindness to keep it. It actually thrives when I open it away. Its generative. And often, when you demonstrate adore and kindness away, others are inspired to mirror your enjoy and kindness back to you as well as fee it forward to others.

We cannot presume to understand the dominance of the extent of what a few kind words can do for someone and its ripple effect on the world. Win win triumph!

10. Investigate Your Own Patterns

This is by no means a complete list. Merely recommendations of the start of opportunities for your own healing. The biggest occasion you can do for yourself is to get curious, examine your own personal decorations in its own experience of sorrow, and doubt each one.

Hold each one up as they sound and question Does this suffice me?

If the answer is truly yes, keep it. If the answer is no, try something new or the opposite of that first inclination. Play with the brand-new reaction, see if that one provides you better, prepares you feel better both in the present and the long term.

And most important, be gentle with yourself. There are epoch to push your borders, to peruse, and to experiment. But i still have a meter for rest and a is necessary to give. Dedicate yourself the grace to know you are where you need to be when you need to be.

Know that you wont always feel like your centre has been rent out of your chest. Lessen the distance between a shattered heart and a mended middle by experimenting with these alternatives to your motifs. One day youll open your middle again and feel the rushing of falling in love. Youll look into attentions that truly see you and reflect your feeling back to you. And youll be ready for large-scale ardour because youve already done their efforts to heal your middle.

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