#9 times out of 10 i have no clue what theyre talking about on this show

[darrenpillowscriss]

No, no. They have. He's right.

[foryouthegays]

spreading propaganda [Dream SMP] liveblog yall lets go. this is so long i am sorry but the end is an actual summary of what happens asldkfa

sellout timer pog: 00:30:20, 01:00:40, 01:31:35, 02:02:03 (for like a second), 02:03:00, 02:34:35

time spent reading donations: 10 minutes, 20ish seconds. 

fanart credit he puts up (all from twitter i think): snumkt, reinneart, lihnsu, sestqr, jester_u, Brigade_Lost, natonyy

also taggin @antarctic-empire-technoblade​ :) theres an actual summary at the end that isnt just me ramblin so,,,,,,ye. i am so sorry its so long a;dkfja i dont know how to condense things 

00:00:35 “i stole a lot of sand recently,” ah yes, a casual conversation starter, the admission of theft 

00:03:55 hE HAS A VILLAGER TRADING HALL CHAPEL IN THE VILLAGE SIR THAT IS ILLEGAL 

00:04:13 

tubbo: -..--...--- 

ranboo: that means beans right

no, ranboo, not it does not (i put it into a translator and it just. it doesnt mean anything. i didnt see any spaces so im just. what was mr tubbo trying to say

00:04:35: relationship advice with technoblade! [reading donation] “‘techno, my boyfriend said he’ll never sub to you, how do i handle this travesty?’ uh, clearly you need to break up with him, and send me more money, is the most- that’s the most unbiased opinion I can give you, it’s just a good life decision, alright? It’s just a good life decision.”

00:16:00 ranboo hi!!!! him garden :D 

HOUND ARMY HOUND ARMY 00:18:10

00:20:15 ‘i have not made a tier list [for dinosaurs] yet’ Y E T? ? ? ?? ? 

00:20:55

“‘Hey, are you uncomfortable with being part of the SBI family dynamic?’ Uh, I don’t really- it’s not a matter of being uncomfortable, it’s just a matter of people making massive revisions to my character and the lore three months into the story without telling me, and it’s like, ‘no, that doesn’t- the story doesn’t- so many things don’t make sense now! What?? What???’ but if you want to make like, fanart of it, it’s fine”

00:21:25 imagine believing in airplanes, couldnt be me

00:21:35 SKLDJFAK a dono is like, hey can u call my new cousin a nerd, and technos like [claps] yOUVE COME TO THE RIGHT MAN im all about bullying infant children 

lakjshdfl 00:26:15 ‘philza this does not sound lore at all please’ poor techno

00:27:30 HKJSFDL :crab: TUBBO IS GONE :crab: also i cant tell if techno says ‘KILL HIM DEAD’ or ‘KILL HIM, DAD’ 

00:30:20 ‘we should have a grinch episode, where i go around stealing presents from l’manburg’ DO IT

also i was in chat at 00:31:25ish and i said ‘subscribe to technoblade’ and RIGHT AFTER techno said ‘did i hear subscribe to technoblade?’ and i felt so heard 

00:33:25 why is his only response to being seen in enemy lines to just stay realllyyyyy still a;lkdfjasf 

00:39:45 ‘this is crucial information coming to you live from anarchy news’ A;LSDKFJA;LSDF

00:46:25 :CRAB: RANBOO IS GONE :CRAB: DEAD MEN TELL NO TALES 

alkdfja; 00:47:55 techno talks (sarcastically) abt how great it is when chat tells him where his stuff is

00:48:50 awww techno showin his not-dad his hound army!!! so cute 

00:55:30 techno specifies that theyre all characters/roleplayin!!!

techno talkin to phil is literally like a kid talkin to his dad after not seein him for a while. like yeah yeah family isnt canon in this but KSJDFLA hes like ‘phillll tommys being annoying also look at this new poster!!!!’ its so cute

01:09:20 A;SDJFADSL THE VILLAGER JUST. FALLS THROUGH THE FLOOR

techno nd phil reference smp earth at 01:19:50!!!!

(ik some people dont like enbyctechno so heres ur warnin, its just for this line tho) techno says ‘no one man should have this power’ but he HAS that power. therefore. mr c!blade is not a guy 01:35:00ish idk im not goin back to check

01:38:35 alright gang lets split up and look for clues 

01:45:20 ‘my chat’s sayin theres a 0% chance this is gonna work,,,,thATS A CHANCE I’M WILLING TO TAKE, CHAT’ skjdflasl;dfjaf (also, bit after, after readin the wiki say its 0% chance: ‘i like those odds’) 

01:48:15 [abt the zombie villager baby] 

Techno: on the bright side, we may have inflicted the optimal amount of trauma onto this child for it to become funny? 

Ranboo: ooooh yeah! it can become a minecraft youtuber!

techno: yeeeeeeah!!

pls get some therapy

a;ldkfassa the mental image of techno ownin an orphanage,,,,paldkfajslfasf 01:51:35

a;ldsifjasdklf ranboo is canonically a villager now, pog 01:56:50

01:57:50 ranboo: ‘they say that im built different, i am built different, in the fact that i have no moral backbone.’

01:58:30 BLOOD FOR THE BLOOD GOD also why is techno so good at the bow like WHAT he looks in third person and turns nd shoots in like a second and hits most of the time its scary literally look at ranboo a;ldsjkfadsf hes like a porcupine 

ASKLJDFASLDF RANBOOS ‘OH NO HE KNOWS HOW TO OPEN DOORS’ AT 02:02:25 JUST HAS SUCH TECHNO SKYBLOCK VID VIBES ADLKJFALSDFJA OH MY GOSH

02:06:35 “i feel there has been an attempt on my life,” "no thats just how we greet each other in our country” nether lore pog?

02:08:45 why does techno casually type at 120 wpm?????  god i hate him so much why is he like thisssss ugh (also it took ~3 seconds to type 7 words (34 characters) which is 140 wpm and 680 cpm if i know how to do math i hate it here) /lh

nd then he types ‘punz we’re all outside your house get over here’ which is 47 characters nd 9 words nd it took him 5 seconds to type which is 564 cpm and 108 wpm so his average (from these two samples which. isnt a lot. should i do a post abt this in the future?) is 124 wpm and 622 cpm. hes so fast. 

SDA;FKJASDF PHIL WHY R U SO VIOLENT 

02:17:00 PUNZ POG ALSO MANIFOLD KILLED IN THE HOLY LAND

technos complainin bout the fights bein boring,,,,,,,fight them all, techno. do it. 1v8. do it, coward. 

02:24:02 ‘maybe the real combat was the friends we made along the way’ 

02:25:16 i love that technos first instinct when someone dies is to check what sword/axe killed them nd what enchants r on it aldskfjads

i love how techno calls the manhunt music ‘dream music’ its so funny to me

right before he ends the stream he says ‘p e r h a p s’ to techno plushies and i just,,,, wa n t 

if ya just want an actual summary and not that MESS:

Technoblade starts the stream in his house. the first thing he does is put another piece of fanart in his house, this one by snumkt on twitter. he goes to l’manburg, where he sneaks around very sneakily (/s) and replaces anti-techno propaganda with pro-techno fanart, stating that “If they take it down, it’s ‘cause they hate fanartists.” (00:09:18). 

While placing posters, Techno checks in on his hound army, and reveals that he thinks someone had been in the area, because a wolf teleported to him while he was home. He thinks someone placed water, the dog stood up, and then teleported. (00:18:25)

After breeding the dogs, Techno reads donations and one of the questions is about the SBI family dynamics. Here’s what he says at 00:20:55 

“‘Hey, are you uncomfortable with being part of the SBI family dynamic?’ Uh, I don’t really- it’s not a matter of being uncomfortable, it’s just a matter of people making massive revisions to my character and the lore three months into the story without telling me, and it’s like, ‘no, that doesn’t- the story doesn’t- so many things don’t make sense now! What?? What???’ but if you want to make like, fanart of it, it’s fine”

He then meets up with Philza, who is being escorted by Tubbo. Techno goes to Philzas house, and hides in his new basement. He joins their VC and finds Phil, Wilbur, Tommy, and Tubbo. talking about birthdays. Tubbo goes to the basement and sees Technos invis particles, hits him, and he is revealed. Techno kills tubbo, and declares it canon as a joke. 

He goes back outside, deafened on Discord, and puts down more propaganda. Philza joins his call, and they meet up to try and find Technos stolen items. They don’t find the barrel, but they do find a hidden room under the podium. Techno puts a piece of propaganda in the room. (00:43:30)

While Phil is killing an enderman, Ranboo finds them, and is killed by Techno. (00:46:25) 

Techno takes Phil to see his Hound Army, but they’re stopped by Tubbo. Techno tries to pretend to be Ranboo, but Ranboo goes up to them, so his cover is blown. Techno’s chased to the portal. Phil and Techno meet again in the Nether, and they go back to the house. 

At the house, Phil and Techno talk about the SBI characters, the sellout timer goes off, and then they go downstairs to cure a zombie villager. While it’s curing, Techno gathers books to make a new bow, with Power V, Punch II, Unbreaking III, Flame, and Mending. 

Philza reveals that Ranboo is coming over to give Phil a present. Techno seems excited at this, mostly at the fact that Ranboo can be his new bows test subject. 

Before Ranboo arrives, the villager is cured, and they find out it is a nitwit, meaning it can’t trade or get a job. Techno and Phil start working on a tunnel to bring the villager to a lava pool, so the other villagers won’t gossip and raise their prices. 

Ranboo joins the call at 01:15:35, right before they’re going to bring the villager to the lava pool. He gifts Techno and Phil four Netherite ingots.

After struggling to get the villager to the right height, Techno forces Ranboo to boat the villager into the lava. Ranboo escapes by throwing a pearl, and the villager dies.

Ranboo, Techno, and Phil talk about duping Netherite, and the current plot, and then Techno finds a zombie baby villager. It’s caught in a boat, and Techno nametags it ‘Orphan.’ They talk about the cobblestone tower, Philzas’ death to a baby zombie, and how if you don’t see a child's parents, you should assume that they are an orphan and attack them. 

Techno talks to Jack Manifold through chat about his axe. Techno, Philza, and Ranboo go around and look for zombie villagers. Techno finds an igloo, with two villagers. Techno was going to try and turn them into zombie villagers, but decides to not when he finds out that theres a 0% chance of that happening on Easy mode. 

They all go back to Orphan, and bully it when they find out it still hasn’t grown up. Techno and Ranboo make a joke about how it’s traumatized, so it’ll be funny and can be come a minecraft youtuber. please get some help. (01:48:15)

After Orphan grows up, Techno trades and gets the Bottle of Enchanting trade for one emerald. They all joke about Techno owning an orphanage at 01:51:35.

Phil, Techno, and Ranboo decide go to the Hound Army, but Techno remembers that Ranboo is part of L’manburg, and tries to kill him (with his new bow) when they enter the nether. He doesn’t succeed, and he continues fighting until he drinks and invis pot on the Prime Path. Techno and Phil meet up in the Bee Dome, where Ranboo finds them. Techno tries to kill him, but runs out of arrows. 

After reading donations, Techno, Ranboo, and Phil are back together at the Bee Dome, and they decide to team up in case someone finds them. They go outside of the Dome, and chase Jack Manifold out of his own country.

Manifold joins the VC, and they try to blame Punz on his attempted murder. After Manifold says “i feel there has been an attempt on my life,” Techno says that that’s how he greets people in his country.

Manifold asks if they want to help him get revenge on Punz, and Techno agrees. They gather more people, and by the time they get to Punz’s tower, their party is Manifold, Techno, Phil, Ranboo, Fundy, and Antfrost. Punz is in the Nether, so they wait until he gets back. 

Ranboo and Techno have a whisper conversation:

Ranboo: are you just going to jump fundy

Techno: no im gonna make jack 1v1 LMAO

Ranboo: good plan

While Fundy is taking a screenshot of Techno for his thumbnail, Philza attacks Fundy with a crossbow and his sword. He claims it was because he was getting bored. 

In the same spirit, Techno asks if they could kill Manifold to pass the time. The mob, which now includes Fundy, chases Manifold. He runs to the Holy Land, and the mob boos him.  Techno tells Antfrost to kill Manifold, and that the mob won’t tell that he was killed in the Holy Land. Manifold hands Antfrost his sword. 

While Antfrost debates killing Manifold or not, the mob chants ‘peer pressure!’ at him. Techno quickly realizes that Antfrost isn’t in the VC, and is extremely confused. The sword gets handed to Fundy, who gets into a battle with Manifold. Philza tells Fundy that he’s forgiven, if he can kill Manifold. The battle calms, and neither of the contestants die.

Techno convinces the mob to go to the pit trap, and tries to lure someone onto the trapped blocks using rotten flesh. Fundy takes the bait, but moves out of the way before the button is pressed. Antfrost sneaks up behind him and punches him into the pit. Fundy survives the fall, but is shot by Manifold to death. 

During the commotion, Punz makes his way back to his house, and the mob moves towards him to end his life. Manifold says that he’s going to kill Punz, and Techno says that the mob’ll have his back. He tells the mob to not have Manifold’s back. 

at 02:17:00, Punz joins the call, and is confused as to why Manifold wants to kill him. Manifold explains that Punz tried to kill him, siting his source as Technoblade. 

also, 2:17:15 technoswear!

Techno encourages Punz, saying “Punz, he actually dropped his sword by accident and now I have it, so it’d be really easy to beat him up,” and “he also just killed in the holy land, so you have a sort of...religious motivation to take him out.”

Punz tries to fight Manifold without armor (Manifold is wearing a full enchanted set of armor, with a Netherite chestplate and everything else Diamond), which fails miserably, and Manifold is killed. 

Techno decides to fight Manifold with his goons (the mob) for the audience retention, and Manifold’s quickly killed. The final hit was from CaptainPuffy. Ponk rushes in and grabs some of Manifold’s items. Puffy takes the rest.

Manifold complains about getting bullied, so Techno gives him his sword back and tells him to avenge himself. While looking for Ponk (or Punz? this is kinda unclear), Punz swoops in and kills Manifold in two hits. 

Manifold finds Ponk and chases after him, trying to kill him. The mob follows, and Ranboo kills Ponk with thorns. Manifold takes Ponks stuff. 

Right after respawning, Ponk was blown up by a creeper, and Techno claimed both as canon. 

The mini fights continue, and Manifold is killed by Punz. 

Ranboo changes the ‘Days since last war crime’ sign to 0.

Phil tells Techno that he’s going back to the base, and the L’manburgians question him as to what base he’s talking about. Phil tells Fundy that he ripped off his ankle shackles and left. While they talk, Techno starts running back to the base, and Ranboo whispers “lets run back” to him. Ranboo follows Techno, but quickly looses him.

Phil and Techno join a separate VC together and they go back to the base. 

At 02:29:15, Phil says “I trust you” to Techno and I am going to cry. 

Right before getting to the base, Phil drinks some honey, and Techno says “that’s the only thing we have honey for, now that we’ve uh...uh I guess you don’t know about that.” He’s referring to the Vault, I think, because the redstone required honey to work properly. 

Philza responds, “the honey- wait, what did you use the honey for?” 

“uhhh....food.” Techno, for some reason, doesn’t want to show Phil the vault. 

Ranboo whispers to Techno: “My alliance isnt with lmanburg, its with the people who help me. phil helped me.”

out loud, Techno laughs about it with phil, saying, “well, I’ve stabbed him like twelve times this week, so, I [laughs] I don’t know if that entirely qualifies here.”

Techno messages Ranboo back with “new phone who this” 

Ranboo replies, “no one,” and then, “:)”

Going back to the honey talk, Philza asked if Techno had been hiding anything diabolical from him, and Techno asks if he would do such a thing. Philza guesses several things he could use honey for, such as a flying machine, TNT dupers, and a door.

Techno takes him to the vault. 02:32:00. i LOVE peoples reactions to the vault, it’s always so good. Philza responds with a surprised ‘HOLY SHIT’ and some laughing. Techno also confirms my math of 55 withers. 

02:34:10 “i’ve seen this government, on the server, and everything to do with government is just bad. I’ve watched it completely destroy and tear down people’s wills and change people, I’ve seen it change the nicest people into complete and utter tyrants, so...I think it’s about time--”

“We need revenge. [sellout timer goes off] and more importantly, we neED SUBSCRIBERS ON YOUTUBE DOT COM” phil joinin anarchy pog? 

anyway that was it ;alskdfjas;f

[asherisimmortal-archive]

wandavision weekly ask, featuring some complaining and off-topic ranting.

firstly, while joss whedon is unfortunately a scumbag, his characterization of ultron and vision was very distinctive and helps analyze vision's short scene this episode. instead of making ultron this unfeeling, removed robot that fulfills his goal of "peace in our time" as soon as possible, he's actually the most human character. he talks about the "poetry" of destroying humanity with a meteor the same way the dinos got destroyed. he could have just yeeted everyone using his connection to the internet. but no. he grew, changing bodies, evolving from one vessel to another, becoming more and more human. his final vessel was supposed to be vision; it's no mistake that his body is so humanlike. (scarlet witch could only read ultron's mind from vision's body because his consciousness was finally entering a humanlike brain. remember she kills Ultron by pulling out his heart, unnecessary for a robot except to emulate the human body.) ultron, despite trying to be above humans, constantly strived to become one. vision is similar. he begins his existence with philosophical musing. trying to find his identity. trying to become more and more human. the magic happened in those 2 years between civil war and infinity war. wanda needed a shoulder to cry on; vision needed someone to be open with, to copy, to fake humanity until he "made it", to learn to love. by infinity war, paul bettany says he's the "most human" out of the avengers. he's not wrong. so when i saw vision in the civil war-era flashback of this episode, i thought of all that, of him trying to understand humans in order to be human, of "what is grief if not love persevering" 😭😭😭😭😭 his logic is impeccable. the quote kinda makes no sense out of context but once i heard him say it iwaslike bruh you're right. a common criticism of robots in sci-fi is that they're often just characterized as "ace ppl on the spectrum" which is. fair. and i kinda felt that in this episode. but i felt like it worked here? (asher as an nd ace person whaddya think of this?)

marvel has a reeeally wide audience. they have to cater to the lowest common denominator and go totally unsubtle with like, everything. that seems more present in the show's "mcu-wide" episodes than in the "sitcom-era" episodes. this ep i think the writers should have just let wanda's memories speak for themselves, but instead agatha just gives tons of sometimes informative but mostly unnecessary commentary. hayward too: his entire character is so on-the-nose. we're told every second what we're supposed to think of him ("hayward's a d--"), what he's planning ("he wants to make vision's body into a weapon"), and how he thinks of vision ("3 billion dollars of vibranium") with no subtlety whatsoever. i wasn't expecting much different but still. :(

speaking of hayward. he wanted vision online so bad. unlike her, he knew she had the power to bring him back ("you have the power to bring him 'online'" — how did he know? secretly mephisto?) then staged a disgusting desecration of his corpse to provoke her, told the soldiers to stand down so she could revive him, and when she couldn't, instead making a hex to regen him, he lied, said she had his corpse denying vision's last testament, and tried to take his new body outside the hex. unfortunately he realized when vision tried escaping that he couldn't make it out — he's part of the hex but only he knows that — so he made white vision to replace him and take out wanda (the only possible whistleblower). in conclusion, hayward can go screw a cactus (yes i read that phrase in the comments of a fanfic and i wont stop using it to describe ppl i hate)

i get super upset when people talk in english when their first language isn't english for like,,,no reason. so when the maximoffs spoke in english specifically to practice their english i found that refreshing.

agatha backstory why. and what. i suspect she's a scarlet witch too. i think the reason her magic starts out as purple is because she pushes back her coven's blue magic with her red magic. watch the clip again and you can see how she glows red, not purple, right before she pushes back against the witches. red scarlet witch magic + blue coven witch magic = purple agatha magic.

thanks erik voss from new rockstars for pointing this out: coven mother in the beginning of the episode gets a glowing blue crown right before she gets yeeted. the figure wanda sees in the golden glow of the mind stone is a silouhette of herself with the crown. erik says this is the crown of the dominant witch. but whatever the case it think the crown of agatha's "mother" is a hint to the origin of scarlet witch's comic book headdress.

i don't like what theyre doing with agatha's hair. something about it doesn't vibe with me.

im getting more and more convinced that the "mystery actor" paul bettany keeps talking about was himself. white vision vs westview vision battle royale.

speaking of him, paul needs to go to therapy. his constant self-deprecation in interviews started out charming but after a while it gives me the vibe of someone who has no self-esteem and therefore constantly downplays himself and his own accomplishments. (me projecting? what makes you think that? /s) but yeah. parasocial relationship with paul bettany go brrrrr

we need answers about fietro

and finally (before i remember the million things i forgot to say) the latin. sucks ass. like i know like 2 words in latin but the spells were probably written by someone's dummy thicc ass cheeks on a keyboard and setting the autocorrect to latin. the spell agatha does before going into wanda's memory-door is "memente memoria" which means "remember memory" like seriously marvel you could have spent 2 more brain cells on writing spells

1. I completely agree with you and I hate how I learn news on Tumblr (Why are the only celebrities that turn out to be assholes the ones that I slightly care about).

2. Marvel definitely needed to be at least a tad more subtle. I know that this is one of the last episodes of what has been the most confusing thing they have ever made but Agatha’s commentary was a bit too much.

3. Agreed this account is a Hayward hate zone.

4. I 100% agree with you, I always found Black Panther really weird because they were speaking in English even when Martin Freeman’s character wasn’t around (and I know why that was but I still hate it) so I’m glad that this episode actually made sense.

5. At this point I don’t have a clue what’s going on with Agatha and honestly at this point I think I’m just gonna hope they clear that up in the next episode.

6. That’s interesting. That’s another thing that I’m not smart enough to have a clue what the heck is happening, but that’s still really cool.

7. I have to disagree with you I think her hair is great.

8. If it’s literally just Paul Bettany that’s gonna be really anticlimactic and I’m going to be very upset (I want Magneto damn it).

9. I didn’t watch a lot of interviews for WandaVision for some reason so I’m just gonna take your word for it and agree with you.

10. I’m assuming we’re getting them in the next episode (I saw a theory that he might be Loki in disguise and that’s looking pretty much impossible but fuck it I’m gonna get my hopes up anyway)

11. I don’t know shit about Latin so this is another one where I’m gonna have to take your word for it.

[zalliafawn]

1. Zallia ! (usually my anon is 🍄, 🌺, or 👾)

2. A couple years? i use tumblr every now and then to read fanfiction or to interact with friends.

3. I have a taste deficit, but sushi or apples have been my go-to since i was a wee child.

4. strawberry kiwi ice sparkling water from schnucks.

5. I have a younger brother, and an older brother.

6. I have 2 cats, and a rabbit. Ive had a myriad of pets in my life.

7. 16

8. I speak english, german, and a little french

9. That's hard. I really like Bojack Horseman, Queens Gambit, Steven universe, Gravity Falls, adventure time/fionna and cake, bee and puppycat, the perks of being a wallflower, and more. i love tv, i've been searching for some good adult animation shows. i swear i don't just watch cartoons.

10. I'm a hobbyist. i garden, draw, crochet, sleep, watch tv, play games, sew, and more !

11. i have no clue. im on the spectrum, making friends is the worst, but im also really talkative and like people.

12. I like music that's good. there is no genre i like or dislike. i listen to anything and everything as long as i like it.

13. Washington state or Maine. i love traveling, ive always really wanted to go places. going out of country sounds scary though haha. Washington is so pretty, and i love coastal states, especially up north. the midwest is fine, but once you've lived here your whole life it gets kind of boring.

14. uh. everything? but i do really wish i was better at comprehending information, especially when it comes to history. im a huge history geek, but i literally know nothing about history. i have struggles with remembering information, and actually reading things, so history is difficult. i also wish i was better with tones, and getting out of bad situations.

15. I usually respond pretty quickly? i usually get a notification and immediately respond, i love talking to people, and people talking to me first is literally thr best.

16. I do not, but i might get one. i like having the option to change it though. if i did get one, it'd probably be a thigh one.

17. I'm omnisexual. I have a hard time with labels, and i feel like we shouldn't really *need* a label for every sexuality? i kind of wish i could just be like, "yeah, i like men and women" or, "i dont like" but i see why they are there. every day i discover a new sexuality, and i get even more confused.

18. I live reading. im terrible at picking favorites as we've seen in prior questions. I love the BMC book, and there was this other book i really liked, i believe it was called Eliza and her Monsters. i really liked it, it got me back into reading.

19. Tough question. do i even know what love is??? I've been in 4 relationships. one was in fifth grade, i don't really consider it a real relationship because he bribed me into dating him. my second relationship was with one of my best friends, found out i only liked them because they were nice to me and i only liked them platonically, we're still friends. my third relationship was an online relationship, lasted a couple months, found out i didnt like them romantically and couldn't do an online relationship. had a couple more crushed in between. my current, and fourth relationship is with a person i met in 5th grade, we were good friends for awhile, they dated a mutual friend, broke up with them, asked me out, and we've been dating for a couple years, theyre abusive. i really dont know what love is, but i'd like to think i have been in love, or else my whole life is based on a lie.

20. taken, but complicated(for me). I could be single in an hour, a day, never. i live my life teetering the edge of a mental breakdown.

21. I am both heart broken and in a relationship. and also every cute twink man with fluffy hair is taken, so if that counts too there's that.

22. I have a lot of best memories.

- dancing in the rain with my best friends on my birthday

- meeting my online friend for the first time

- my current boyfriend asking me out

- getting into chamber orchestra

- getting my rabbit adoption application approved

- rediscovering be more chill

- literally every time i get a package in the mail

- the first time i got a plant and i kept it alive

- my first interview for getting my florist shop job

- my brother being born

- my dad bringing me dinner for the first time

- my favorite person (jason tam) liking one of my instagram posts

- watching Bromance In Concert with my boyfriend

there are so many more too

23. there are a lot.

- my current boyfriend asking me out

- my online friends abandoning me

- my dad yelling at me on my birthday

- my dad going to jail

- getting in a fight with my best friend

- my best friend taking their life

- the time my boyfriend ran to hug one of their friends and completely ignored me

and more

24. i have a lot. i have a lot of phobias, but a staple fear of mine is being alone, and failing. as for phobias, my biggest are blood and storms

25. both

26. 1,321. moments mean a lot to me, i forget things easily. i also have a lot of art.

27. i had a lot.

- this guy named james who rejected me, and told the teacher

- the cat from The Cat Returns.

- the twins and the tall blonde dude from ouran highschool host club

- my female best friend

- varian from the tangled series

- steven from steven universe

- the squip

- all of the characters from the aphmau series'

- and many more. many many more.

28. i'd like to think im very romantic.

29. a picnic on a rocky beach during the fall bundled up in sweaters. or an arcade date / amusement park date

30. i think i mentioned before in Q.10

There you go! now you know everything about me! missed the chance to ask my bank info and home address

Let your followers get to know you asks <3

What's your name?

For how long you have this account?

Favourite food?

Favourite drink?

Do you have any siblings?

Do you have pets?

How old are you?

How many languages do you know?

What's your all time favourite movie/tv show?

What are you enjoying to do in your free time?

Are you an introvert or an extrovert?

Your favourite music genres?

Your dream place to visit?

Something you wish you were better at?

How long do you take to respond to texts?

Do you have any tattoos? If not, would like to?

What's your sexuality?

Do you like reading? If yes what's your favourite book?

Have you ever been in love?

What's your relationship status?

Have you ever been heartbroken?

Best memory you could think of?

Worst memory you can think of?

Do you have any fears?

Are you a morning or a night person?

How many pictures you have on your phone?

Who was your favourite childhood crush?

Are you a romantic?

What’s your dream date?

What are your hobbies?

[ts-unpopular-opinions]

Side Tracks opinions part 2: Virgil

(Here we go again! I think I may have less to say about Virgil’s than Janus’, so I’ll try to make this one shorter)

1) Sunrise, Sunset: This ones about Virgil when he was with the darksides. Virgil is beginning to get tired of his life as a darkside and the monotony of it (“sunrise, sunset, swiftly go the days. Sunrise, sunset you wake up then you undress, it always is the same”). He feels like something is changing in him, but doubts that he will ever be able to escape the routine that he’s been living in for so long (“Because you've changed, Yeah, you've changed” “from a cradle to a casket, there is no way to escape” “The sunrise, the sunsets, you're hopeful and then you regret, the circle never breaks”).

2) Let’s Kill Tonight: Some of Virgil songs can be very vague and it can be hard to pinpoint who the song is focused toward (this is one of them). My interpretation of the song is that this takes place during Virgil’s first appearance with the light sides (“Make room we're taking over here” “Show them all you're not the ordinary type”) Perhaps the dark sides were aware of Virgil leaving and so Virgil’s initial view of the light sides was a bit more spiteful and angry than we thought. With this interpretation I like to assume that it was Janus’ plan to let Virgil out, perhaps in an attempt to get all the dark sides accepted, but it backfired when Virgil realized that the light sides weren’t as bad as he was raised to believe.

3) Sally’s Song: After the last song, this song shows Virgil’s realization that perhaps he does want to be with the light sides. He really cares about Thomas and wants to be with him, but he’s worried about whether or not he’ll be helpful and worthy (“And though I'd like to stand by him, Can't shake this feeling that I have” “And will he see? How much he means to me. I think it's not to be” “All though I'd like to join the crowd, In their enthusiastic loud. Try as I may It doesn't last”)

4) It Ends Tonight: Virgil is starting to be accepted, woot woot (“When darkness turns to light, It ends tonight, it ends tonight” “A weight is lifted on this evening”). Virgil seems to start to feel a lot of anger towards the other dark sides at this point. He feels as if he’s been tricked by them and that Thomas needed him all along (“A falling star, at least I fall alone”). He’s now showing anger and frustration towards the dark sides that really hasn’t been prevalent in the playlist up until this point. I think he’s realized that they’ve either been using him, lying to him, or fooling him (“I look at you with such disdain” “Now I'm on my own side, It's better than being on your side”).

5) I’d Hate to be You When People find out What this Song is About: Now that Virgil is with the light sides, he’s worried that he may not be good enough or helpful enough for Thomas (“Well, I'm thinking of the worst things That I could say to you” “But I'm tongue tied and terrified of what I'll say” And I'm sorry that this wasn't easy, When I asked you believe me” “I could only sing you sad songs”). He’s so worried about hurting Thomas because of his dark side origins that he doesnt understand why Thomas is trying so hard to accept him (“You never let go, But I let go”). He also refrains from telling Thomas about his true past probably out of fear or worry that Thomas won’t want him anymore (“But I never told you everything, I'm losing hope and fading dreams”).

6) A Decade under the Influence: Virgil is anxious™️. Despite how worried he is about his ability to help Thomas, he knows that he has to try and that he has to protect Thomas from the other dark sides (“Well, I've got a bad feeling about this, I've got a bad feeling about this” “To hell with you and all your friends, To hell with you and all your friends” “I’m a nervous wreck”).

7) Thnks fr th Mmrs: HUGE, SASSY middle finger to Janus. Honestly, thats it. Virgil has been fully accepted by Thomas and the light side gang and he is LOVING it. This song is just Virgil rubbing it in Janus’ face how much better off he is without him and the dark sides (“Who does he think he is?” “Thanks for the memories even though they weren't so great”). He also flaunts the fact that Patton is a much better parent/authority figure than Janus ever was (“He tastes like you, only sweeter”).

8) Be Calm: This ones cuteeeee. Virgil has been with the light sides for some time now and has begun to understand that he can be helpful to thomas (“As I walk through the streets of my new city, My back feeling much better, I suppose”). The entire song just feels like Virgil helping Thomas through an anxiety attack or some panic of sorts. He relates to Thomas on the feeling and tries his best to help him relax (“I close my eyes, I tell myself to breathe” “And be calm. Be calm. I know you feel like you are breaking down. Oh I know that it gets so hard sometimes. Be calm.” “Take it from me, I've been there a thousand times.” “You hate your pulse because it thinks you're still alive” “It just gets so hard sometimes”). Theyre starting to bond and finally understand each other and that is just super sweet 💜💜💜.

9) I’m not Okay (I Promise): Honestly... I’m not super sure about this one. It’s another vague one as to who it is aimed toward, but I’m just gonna assume it’s either Thomas or Patton. Virgil is feeling like he isn’t being listened to and needs to be taken more seriously (“I never want to let you down or have you go” “I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means” “I held you close as we both shook for the last time” “You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed” “But you really need to listen to me, Because I'm telling you the truth”).

10) Imaginary: Despite now being a light side, Virgil still worries about the darker sides that are hidden within Thomas (“In my field of paper flowers And candy clouds of lullaby. I lie inside myself for hours And watch my purple sky fly over me”). He knows that they will try to get out at any moment and may be harmful to Thomas, so he has to keep his guard up. (“Don't say I'm out of touch, With this rampant chaos your reality” “I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge” “Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming, Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights”).

11) Soft Shock: Oof guys... I really, really don’t know here. This song is SO romantic that it’s hard to even imagine why it’s on Virgil’s playlist to begin with. There is also a vague “you” referenced like in most of Virgil’s songs and I frankly have no clue who it’s supposed to be. I’ll just list some lines that I think are important and maybe you all could help me figure it out. “Well it's a shock, shock to your soft side” “Summer moon (this is like a period of summer where its very warm and things are in bloom)” “Better, back together” “Catch your shut eyes in my room”.

12) The Good that Won’t Come out: Virgil is still worried about his dark past and how that will affect the others and Thomas. He knows that he needs to tell Thomas, but he’s worried that if he does, Thomas will only be able to see the bad things that Virgil brings with him (“I do this thing where I think I'm real sick, But I won't go to the doctor to find out about it 'Cause they make you stay real still in a real small space As they chart up your insides and put them on display. They'd see all of it, all of me, all of it” “All of the good that won't come out of me And all the stupid lies I hide behind. It's such a big mistake, Lying here in your warm embrace”). He finishes the song out by comparing himself to his past, dark side friends (“Let's talk about all our friends who lost the war” “It's all of the good that won't come out of them And all the stupid lies they hide behind”).

13) Sick Sad World: Again... I’m sorry guys but this song doesn’t seem that deep to me (at least nothing stood out. Basically, all I got is that Virgil knows he makes a lot of mistakes, but he does his best to fix them (“My head's a permanent mess And I can't think for the stress” “I close my eyes and pretend That the ground beneath me has disappeared” “Rewind and overwrite, Hope life begins at twenty-nine”). Virgil also still seems to think that he isn’t being listened to enough and that he isn’t helping as much as he wants to with the light sides (“So what, is this is as good as it gets?” “So won't you let me in”).

14) Ignorance: Another Janus song! Whose shocked? Anyone? Yeah, me neither 😂. But this one is SUPER interesting as it gives us some insight into what Janus and Virgil’s relationship was like before Virgil left. The two seemed to be very close and perhaps had similar pessimistic views on the world (“Yeah, the friends who stuck together. We wrote our names in blood”). Virgil knows that the change in him was for the better and he wants Janus to realize this too, but he isnt about to feel bad for Janus if he refuses to see the truth (“But I guess you can't accept that the change is good” “If I'm a bad person, you don't like me, Well, I guess I'll make my own way” “This is the best thing that could have happened. Any longer and I wouldn't have made it. It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture. I'm just a person, but you can't take it” “The same tricks that, that once fooled me, They won't get you anywhere. I'm not the same kid from your memory, Well, now I can fend for myself”). Now, a line that I’m sure people will see as confirmation of Ignorance being the next side, has a different meaning to me: “Ignorance is your new best friend”. To me, this proves that Ignorance is a part of Janus. Virgil believes that Janus will be stuck in the dark forever because he is ignorant to what the real world brings. Janus is so stuck in his hatred for society and his lack of trust for others that he ignores information that could prove his thoughts wrong. That is ignorance at it’s core, and Janus is being intentionally ignorant to the fact that Virgil becoming a light side was a good thing.

15) The Ice is Getting Thinner: Another song that solidifies that Virgil and Janus were actually friends at one point (“We're not the same, dear, as we used to be. The seasons have changed and so have we”). Virgil knew that him and Janus were growing apart back when he split from the dark sides and he knew it was for the better, but it still hurt him (“There was little we could say, and even less we could do, To stop the ice from getting thinner under me and you” “And it saddens me to say, But we both know, well, it's true. That the ice was getting thinner Under me and you”). This perhaps shows that the ill-will between the two is not really due to Virgil hating Janus, but instead a sort of broken heart dynamic. Virgil knew he needed to leave, but Janus may not have been ready and may not have understood why someone he cared so much for would just leave him for the others.

16) Overkill: This one seems fairly straight forward to me. Virgil is scared of the dark sides and the implications their acceptance may have for Thomas. He can feel them lurking close by and is on edge because of it. He wants to protect Thomas from them, but at the same time thinks that he may be overreacting (“I can't get to sleep. I think about the implications” “Especially at night. I worry over situations. I know we'll be alright. Perhaps it's just imagination” “Day after day it reappears. Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear. Ghosts appear and fade away” “Especially at night I worry over situations that I know will be alright. It's just overkill.”

17) Under pressure: This ones a bit hard to decipher, but I’ve got an idea. Virgil really respects and values Patton as one of Thomas’ sides, but the other dark sides seem to disagree. Virgil wishes that they would be able to see Patton in the same way that he does and perhaps then they would be accepted by Thomas (“Watching some good friends screaming "Let me out!"” “Can't we give ourselves one more chance?” “Why can't we give love that one more chance?”). Basically, I think the reason that Virgil was accepted by the light sides was because he understood Patton (love and feelings) and what he means to Thomas. Janus has now shown after being accepted that this could be the case (seeing as he was accepted only when Patton accepted him, the other sides didnt really play a part).

18) Everything is Alright: When reading my thoughts on this song, keep in mind that it is connected to the next song. Virgil basically is very anxious about menial things in life that he shouldn’t be anxious about (“Because I hate the ocean, theme parks and airplanes, Talking with strangers, waiting in line..”). Virgil doesn’t feel like things are okay and he doesn’t feel safe, but he asks the person in the song to tell him that everything is okay anyways. Now a while back, I remembered Joan mentioning in a livestream that Janus would be the one to lie to Thomas about things being alright even when they’re not, so this got me thinking. Perhaps Janus and Virgil got along so well in the past because Janus would lie to Virgil whenever he was having a panic attack in order to calm him down. Virgil may have found comfort in this as lying to himself may have been the only way to escape his episodes (“‘Someday you'll be fine..’ Yes, I'll be just fine.” “Tell me that you're alright, everything is alright. Please tell me that you're alright, everything is alright.”). Idk It just feels like Janus trying to calm Virgil down to me.

19) The Middle: (remember how I said this was connected to the above song? Yep, keep that in mind) So right after the last song, this song began to play and at first I thought the two songs were basically about the same thing. Virgil is anxious and needs reassured that things are okay. This song seemed to have a different tone though. The speaker is reassuring Virgil, but in a different way. They’re not lying to Virgil and telling him just what he wants to hear, but they are feeling with Virgil and comforting Virgil with truth and honesty (“Hey, don't write yourself off yet. It's only in your head, you feel left out” “Don't you worry what they tell themselves When you're away.” “It just takes some time, Little girl you're in the middle of the ride. Everything, everything will be just fine. Everything, everything will be alright.” “You know you're doin' better on your own” “Live right now, just be yourself. It doesn't matter if it's good enough For someone else.” “Don't worry what their bitter hearts Are gonna say”) That’s right. This song is about Patton doing the exact same thing that Janus once did for Virgil only better. Not only that, but he’s reassuring Virgil about his worries regarding the dark sides. That must sting for Janus...

20) Vindicated: I think this song takes place right after Virgil confessed his past to Thomas. He’s scared that Thomas will reject him, but he explains that he’s trying his best to be better for Thomas despite the many flaws he may have (“I am selfish I am wrong. I am right, I swear I'm right. Swear I knew it all along And I am flawed, but I am cleaing up so well”). Despite his fear of rejection he has hope that Thomas will accept him as he’s begun to see things in himself that someone (probably Patton) has seen all along (“Hope dangles on a string, Like slow-spinning redemption” “I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself”).

(And there you have it guys! I realize this one is probably just as long as the last one, so I’m sorry about that 😂. Please let me know your thoughts 💜)

[sbawnmendes]

30 things i learned about shawn after 30 q&a’s:

i feel like i have learned a lot about shawn in the past few months of touring so im here to share those things with you all!!

1) he will & does give compliments out like they’re candy 

2) he wholeheartedly believes it is okay & it is good to cry & to let yourself feel - in fact, he encourages it 

3) he likes his hair played with 

4) don’t forget to add ‘the alchemist’ by paulo coelho to your summer reading list - our boy is a reader now 

5) he wants to eat a cricket?? for reasons not even he understands 

6) 2 words dry. humour. he is a COMEDIAN with an attitude 

7) he is really excited to go to argentina, he mentions it at least once a day - as he should

8) he is very easily distracted & sometimes misses the point of things kinda like a squirrel but we love him for it 

9) he thinks it is really important that if you love someone, you tell them...the second you find out. don’t be scared. 

10) he likes pineapple on pizza so do with that what you will 

11) he gets super nerdy when he talks about guitars but it is the cutest thing on this planet sooo make him talk about guitars!! 

12) suddenly he thinks he is stan twitter so “taste” & “periodt” are now part of his daily vocabulary 

13) he has a lot of really quality stories that he is holding back - exhibit a) the airport story where the girl that was talking to him didnt realize who he was, cracks me up everytime

14) his hate for tomatoes bring him to the point of growling - weird but i support, tomatoes are nasty

15) mocking fans is his favourite sport

16) he needs his gps while driving, even at home, because he doesnt have a clue where he is going or what he is doing  98% of the time

17) he falls a lot more than we think & he is super dramatic about it - in birimingham he hit his knee & thought he was dying & i quote, “i hit my knee so hard earlier i thought i was dying. i was like ‘there’s a show tonight, that’s not gonna happen..this knee is done! i can’t even walk’ but guess who was fine & did the show

18) sometimes he gets a little confused when it comes to interacting with people & whether theyre saying something to him because they mean it & are honest or saying something to him because he is shawn mendes 

19) he is really starting to learn that you cannot please everybody so you just have to make sure you are making yourself happy & thats what counts 

20) a lesson he would teach his future kids? “i would say, no matter how smart you are no matter how smart you think you are, no matter all the things that you know, you never know what it feels like to be somebody else until youre in their shoes” 

21) he is really loves to make fun of brian & loves to laugh at brian hurting himself 

22) he is really really good at picking up languages he has never spoken before. he can repeat a sentence back to someone in a different language almost perfectly the first time - pronunciation & all, linguistic scholar id you ask me

23) he believes in fate, he believes in second chances, & he maybe even soulmates

24) shawn trying to explain particular taste & making out in a “sexy way”, hand motions & all is rather entertaining & if he could maybe provide us with a youtube tutorial

25) he is such a leo it hurts 

26) he recognizes people by smell & is sure to point it out when someone smells good in a m&g during the q&a - moral of the story, always smell your best

27) he has “the tightest hamstrings in the world” but is super proud of himself for being able to sit cross legged now

28) he likes tequila, tea, & taking hikes (to keep his skin clear ofc) 

29) shawn is his name & vintage shirts are his game 

30) this kid eats, sleeps, & breathes meditation 

[musingsofadisastergay]

answer 30 questions and tag 20 people you’d like to know better

I was tagged by @6-and-out, thanks heaps this was fun

1. name: Mike

2. gender: Male

3. star sign: Libra

4. height: 5’3

5. time: 11.24

6. birthday: 30 sep

7. favourite bands: hhhh? Mother mother? Other bands, i dont know? I dont really listen to music by artist or anything?

8. favourite solo artists: Mika, Taylor swift i guess? But idk

9. song stuck in my head: believer by imagine dragons

10. last movie: Night at the museum (the og one)

11. last show: ?????? i cant remember? Might have been avatar the last airbender?

12. when did i create this blog: god fucking years ago, october 2017 apparently

13. what do i post: i talk about cricket sometimes, i complain a bit and sometimes i get drunk and tell people that i love them.

14. last thing i googled: what time are the fireworks in wellington?

15. other blogs: none that are active (and im not linking my blog from when i was like 15)

16. do i get asks: not often lmao

17. why i chose this url: im gay(ish), im a disaster, and i have thoughts (supposedly). nah like there was a legit reason but i cant remember it but the main part was that yaknow these my musings, theyre gay and im a disaster

18. following: 121

19. followers: 194 (half these are probably bots)

20. average hours of sleep: 8ish, i dont really function on low sleep

21. lucky number: 4

22. Instruments: hmmm no

23. what i’m wearing: pajama tshirt and shorts

24. dream job: ????????? ive only thought so far as uni and im (half) dropping out of that lmao (also i want to study linguistics, thats as far as ive got)

25. dream trip: going to visit my dad who just moved to the middle of nowhere in the south island

26. favorite food: ????? imma go with cheesy potato bake but honestly i dont have a clue

27. nationality: Kiwi/new zealander

28. favorite song: at the risk of sounding like im copying the person who tagged me, blinding lights by the weeknd

29. last book i read: no clue lmao

30. top three fictional universes i’d like to live in: im just going with the first three i remember lmao, so uh bbc merlin, harry potter but not with harry potter lmao and night at the museum?  

I'm going to tag nobody but like if you wanna do it, please do? Id love to see ur responses.

[shrimpathizer]

nine albums or songs I've been listening to lately x nine people I’d like to get to know better x tag game with no name

1. why did you choose your url? not a clue. i came up withe the phrase a while back and now its my thing. i like shrimp but i honestly didnt have any strong opinions on them before getting the url.

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them. @noodlecankilljod for tlt posting. @a-nice-place shared w tiger and bear for happy and nice thinggs when youre sad. @consonant-counter bc i wanted to run a gimmick (also co-run). @souroboruoss to post my og art since my seperate acc got nixed by google :(

3. how long have you been on tumblr? like since. uh. fall of 2021. i think.

4. do you have a queue tag? most of the time its #queue btw but sometimes i dont bother. like the pizza pasta post i queued till september.

5. why did you start your blog in the first place? tbh i was one of the pinterest girlies or whatever whose pinterest was essentially just tumblr posts and i figured why not.

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp? i found a duo set of icons in a post and sent it to tiger to share. then we found the og vid it came from and sent to bear and fish so they could also join. (yes im aware we are all animals. that was not intentional)

7. why did you choose your header? skixjsk ummm. i saw it once and i feel like it comes up every other week at least (in my kinds of convos) and i think its hilarious. i really wanna print it out and make it like a card that i can just pull out whenever relevant.

8. what’s your post with the most notes? my current posts georg is probably this post. (a dr who post). my highest posts georg though is from my art blog and its the ace explosion i believe.

9. how many mutuals do you have? honestly maybe around fifty (idk how :0). i interact or have interacted with most of them, but talk to about ten the most (i wish i talked to the others more)

10. how many followers do you have? uhh. 102? i believe.

11. how many people do you follow? 413.

12. have you ever made a shitpost? i have made a couple. my favorite one (off the top of my head) is the one about white people being the systematic problem. :) im very proud of it. though im not too great at shitposts

13. how often do you use tumblr each day? honestly. more than i should. idk how long though and i dont want to check .

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? no. i dont really get into arguments. (i dont start them and im not popular enough to have people just come up to me angry)

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts i think that those additions are unecessary. it just makes me feel bad. yes i know its important. however i dont want to and i dont like being made to believe that im a bad person for simply not wanting to reblog some random post on a social media website. its usually not that big of a deal. let me make my own choices without shoving them on me. it just makes me less likely to interact with that post.

16. do you like tag games? i think theyre fun. some times i dont have a lot to say but i like talking to people and learning about people. and i think its an interesting way that tumblr has cultivated to connect with each other especially in such a time of isolation on social media.

17. do you like ask games? yes! i love ask games. sadly i never really get asks from the ask games but i wish. theyre cool and another fun way to interact with people. the ones that say "if you get this you have to send this to 10 other people" or smth similar annoy me though. in the same vein as the posts about "you need to reblog this." i am doing this in my free time i dont need to be doing anything.

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? definitely @godmodebeginswithlesbians i have no idea how i scored such a famous mutual and i always forget cuz i see her in my notifs a lot. but yeah. Hi link ily you are very cool (also a little intimidating)

19. do you have a crush on a mutual? nope but theyre very cool and i really want to be friends with them but idk how to talk to them besides asking a bunch of...mundande questions (ive resorted to asking what their favorite dish was that theyve had recently)

20. what is the last song you listened to? ...the good omens theme. its on my everything playlist for some reason and i had it on shuffle.

21. what are you currently watching? uhh. i started Make Some Noise cuz i liked those episodes of game changer the best. and its very fun i would definitely recommend.

22. sweet/ savoury/ spicy? sweet or savory. i sadly have a very low spice tolerance.

23. what is your current relationship status? single and id like it to stay that way (aro)

24. what is your current obsession? uhh. circus? adhd? im not sure. i havent had an actual obsession in a long while. i dont have that many emotions so its hard to get excited about things. i end up having to find people/friends who are excited about things i like so they can freak out about it and i can then be excited through them.

25. what are nine albums/ songs you've been listening to lately?

The Show Must Go On by Queen (yeag. feelings from the freddie mercury post about this song)

Good Luck Babe by Chapell Roan (i dont know her music but id seen a lot about her and ppl liking her so i tried and so far this is the main one that i like. i dont have any strong opinions)

Not Like Us by Kendrick Lamar (awesome. im a bit late but thats per usual)

Withdrawl by Max Frost (my dad played this when we were working on a puzzle and i liked it)

From Eden by Hozier (i really want to write an essay about this. like. the lyrics. the music. And I know both music theory and literary theory. so yeah. but im busy and dont even know where i would start with that. but this song makes me insane i love it)

Giant by Django Django (the piano part is very interesting to me. specifically because its so simple)

Csikos Post by Czech Philharmonic String Quartet composed by Hermann Necke (@littlemissmedicalmalpractice i noticed there were two songs that i believe were from my playlists. hmm)

Country Song by Seether (i found it from a post and link said it was cool and also it was the music video and someone captioned it smth like "this is exactly how little kids play")

Oh No! by Marina (not really any comment for this one)

26. tagging (no pressure <3) ehm. @eepybubble @cloudydays69 @gayfraggle @winggy-wanggy-doobledoo @/ anyone who wants to

nine albums or songs I've been listening to lately x nine people I’d like to get to know better x tag game with no name

(thank you for the tag @lianhuajing !!)

1. why did you choose your url? uh. it was a play on "rose tinted glasses"

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them. nope!

3. how long have you been on tumblr? I think 2022? i knew about it before, just never bothered to make a blog

4. do you have a queue tag? don't kill me, what's a queue tag?

5. why did you start your blog in the first place? I had some Thoughts about Blue Lock and wanted to post meta for it

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp? uhh Flora.

7. why did you choose your header? Reo is one of my Blorbos and I just really liked that panel of him

8. what’s your post with the most notes? probably the "do you download fics" poll

9. how many mutuals do you have? about 20? i don't remember

10. how many followers do you have? 120?

11. how many people do you follow? 91

12. have you ever made a shitpost? yes. i think.

13. how often do you use tumblr each day? an hour?

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? nope

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts meh. some of them are funny i guess

16. do you like tag games? yep! it's nice interaction

17. do you like ask games? i do! but uh. it's a silent empty void here. an echo chamber, if you will.

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? i have no idea but i see @kingsandbastardz a lot in the mlc community

19. do you have a crush on a mutual? nope

20. what is the last song you listened to? 若梦 by 周深

21. what are you currently watching? i just finished The Double! probably starting on Dashing Youth next

22. sweet/ savoury/ spicy? savoury!

23. what is your current relationship status? single

24. what is your current obsession? The Double,,,,

25. what are nine albums/ songs you've been listening to lately?

若梦 by 周深

如故 by 张碧晨

如初 by 张碧晨

借过一下 by 周深

万物不如你 by 张杰

Our dawn is hotter than day by Seventeen

Hitorijana by Seventeen

my music taste is kinda...i tend to stick to a few artists...

26. tagging (no obligation to do this!) @randomingoftherandomness @good-vs-evo @chrysofightme @bbcphile

[wherearemyglassesbro]

@mandelene did this so I thought I would too! I’ve got nothing better to do and it looked like fun :)

1. What is the color of your hairbrush?

Black!

2. Name a food you never ever eat

Seafood, cereal or soup! Cereal and soup is a texture thing, and fish just….grosses me out

3. Are you typically too warm or too cold?

Too cold!!!! I’m always so cold in my house! All the time! There are never enough blankets on the couch!

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?

I was watching ‘Crazy Rich Asians’ with my mom! It was great, I cried lol

5. What’s your favorite candy bar?

Snickers or Kit Kats I cant decide!

6. Have you ever been to a professional sports game?

Yes! I’ve seen two or three Tigers games and I’ve seen one Red Wings game! Hockey is by far the most fun sports to watch, baseball is excruciatingly boring lmao

7. What’s the last thing you said out loud?

“Yeah!” My mom and I were talking about attractive actors lol

8. What’s your favorite ice cream?

Cookies and cream!!

9. What’s the last thing you had to drink?

Good ol’ water :)

10. Do you like your wallet?

Yes! It’s pink and it’s floral and it has a little plastic part where I can see my license picture

11. What’s the last thing you ate?

A purple peep :) my mom got peeps at the store for Easter :)

12. Did you buy new clothes last weekend?

The plan was to go prom dress shopping but all malls and stores are closed :’)

13. What’s the last sporting event you watched?

Two minutes of football reruns while I scrolled through channels on the tv

14. What’s your favorite flavor of popcorn?

Movie theater butter popcorn babey!! I miss going to the movie theater

15. Who is the last person you texted?

My cousin

16. Ever go camping?

Yes! With the cousin I just texted! It was so fun, we went fishing and did a night hike and got lost it was hilarious!

17. Do you take vitamins?

Yea, they’re ‘teen gummies’ lol my mom insists I take them. They’re good though, not gonna lie

18. Do you go to church every Sunday?

Every other Sunday to appease grandma

19. Do you have a tan?

I WISH!!! My Florida tan has worn off :(

20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza?

I’ve never had genuine Chinese food so pizza automatically wins

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw?

Of course!!

22. What socks do you usually wear?

I wear mismatching socks every day! My favorite ones are pink with weiner dogs on them :)

23. Do you ever drive above the speed limit?

Occasionally but that’s only if I’m late to school! If anything, I go under the speed limit more than I should oops

24. What terrifies you?

Needles, heights, never finding love oops

25. Look to your left, what do you see?

A fuzzy pillow

26. What chore do you hate the most?

Washing dishes!!! Touching old, soggy food makes me gag!!!

27. What do you think when you hear an Australian accent?

I think about how cool Australians are and how I want to travel there one day

28. What’s your favorite soda?

Sprite all the way!! NOT Sierra Mist!!!! It ISNT the same!!!!

29. Do you go in a fast food place or go through the drive through?

If I’m with friends, I go in! If it’s just me, I go through the drive through and eat in shame

30. What’s your favorite number?

13! I always did okay on math quizzes in elementary school when I used calculator #13 so 13 is my number :)

31. Who’s the last person you talked to?

My mom, shes watching tv with me

32. What’s your favorite cut of beef?

I have no clue

33. Last song you listened to?

Funky Town

34. Last book you read?

Lord of the rings! I haven’t finished it yet but it’s a work in progress

35. Favorite day of the week?

Friday!!!!!!!

36. Can you say the alphabet backwards?

Hell yeah I can! We learned to sing it backwards in choir!

37. How do you like your coffee?

Coffee is gross I don’t drink it

38. Favorite pair of shoes?

My chunky filas!! They’re a staple in my closet! They’re white so I have to wipe them off a lot

39. What time do you usually get up?

10:30, my sleep schedule is evening out finallyyyyy

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

Sunsets :’)

41. How many blankets are on your bed?

11!! It isn’t a joke, I sleep with the windows open so it’s cold!!

42. Describe your kitchen plates

Theyre beige with green rims!

43. Describe your kitchen at the moment

Pretty clean! The kitchen table has a bucket of Easter candy on it

44. Do you have a favorite alcoholic drink?

I’m underage ma’am!

45. Do you play cards?

When we have my extended family over

46. What color is your car?

Black! And his name is Pierre!

47. Can you change a tire?

…..no...

48. Favorite state?

Florida!! I live in Michigan but Florida is definitely my home away from home, I love it there very much

49. Favorite job you’ve ever had?

I babysit and that’s the only job I’ve ever had. I love kids!! So I have a blast!

50. How did you get your biggest scar?

I have a scar on my knee from when I repeatedly fell as a kid and picked the scab off

Do this if you want! It was fun! And it’s fun to read everyone else’s responses! :)

[thewritewolf]

Nino’s Quest Chapter 8: The Quest Begins Again

Adrien and Marinette are a stuttering mess for reasons unknown to the Lord DM, but that won't stop him from pushing this story forward. The party seeks out a dread enemy - The Necromancer!

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 (Final)

Enjoy!

Read on Ao3.  My ko-fi.

Nino knocked at the door to the familiar apartment and heard his girlfriend’s voice call, “Come in!”

Stepping inside, the first thing he noticed - after Alya, of course - was the bags of groceries on the table. A warm smile lit up his face as he recognized them as the ingredients for one of his favorite meals that he’d ever had at the Cesaire household.

“Is all this for me, babe?”

Alya quirked an eyebrow and put a hand on her hip. “Well, I was hoping that you’d share with the rest of the party…”

“Hm…” He tapped at his cheek, pretending to give it some thought. “I guess that’s a fair deal. Need a hand cooking it up?”

She scoffed. “No, but I wouldn’t turn down help if you’re offering.”

The sound of chopping vegetables and the sizzle of the meat on the stove was all the noise that passed between them for a few minutes. The two of them worked well together, especially when it came to the kitchen. As Nino was busy cutting the carrots, he finally broke the silence.

“So where is everyone today?”

“You probably guessed Nora is at a tournament. If you did, congrats - you were right.” Alya leaned back against the counter and crossed her arms. “Took awhile but she’s finally in a league that she doesn’t just completely wreck instantly.”

Nino nodded along. “That’s totally sweet. She needs to be challenged if she’s gonna get any better.”

“Her point exactly. Ella and Etta are with mom and dad. They were going to the park, then to a movie. We should be clear for the next few hours, at least.”

“That’s not far off from what our last couple dates have been like.” Nino chuckled. “Park, movies, although we did go out for dinner a few days ago…”

“It’s good exercise. Can’t be too out of shape when Ladybug calls us back into the fight.”

“Right on. And if we are already out and about, it's way easier for you to go charging into an akuma battle phone-first, yeah?”

Alya had the decency to blush at that. “So, ah, you noticed that, huh?”

“Mhm. Don’t worry, babe. It’s all good to me, so long as we’re chillin’ together.”

“Aw, thanks babe.” She turned around to stir the rice some more. Still stirring, she asked over her shoulder, “By the way, have you seen the footage of the last akuma battle?”

He snorted. “Babe you say that as if you don’t have me read all your posts to edit them.”

“Okay, fair. So you’ve noticed that Ladybug and Chat Noir have been acting… kinda weird lately?”

“Understatement of the year. Stealing glances at each other, stutters when they actually manage to talk to each other, all those blushes. They’re the second biggest mess of all the couples in Paris.”

“And the biggest mess is our babies, right?”

“Yup.” Nino dumped the carrots in with what Alya was stirring. “All props to Ladybug and Chat Noir though - they’re giving our kids a run for their money, even though Marinette has had way more practice being awkward. And my boy Adrien is right there with the best of ‘em.”

Alya sighed. “It’s a mess. But I bet we can fix-”

“Babe.”

“What? I’m just saying if we-” Nino put a finger on her lips, silencing her despite the glare she shot his way.

“You gotta let them figure it out on their own. They’ll get there eventually.”

“Yeah? Well, let’s see how you feel after this session. You haven’t had to see them together nearly as much as I have.”

“Yeah, I really wish Ms. Bustier would start letting us do groups of four.” He paused. “Is it seriously that bad?”

Her eyes widened for a moment, remembered exasperation crossing her face. “You’ll see, cappy.”

Her phone went off. “Well, that’s them. Just in time for lunch, too.”

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As he’d expected, Marinette and Adrien were quiet and blushy as ever. This ultimately left the leadership of the party in Alya’s hands - a task that she was uniquely qualified for as they sought out leads for the Necromancer’s lair.

“Alright, dudes. We’ve all leveled up. You’ve just finished shopping in the marketplace and you’re ready to leave town on a moment’s notice. But you’ve got no clue on where to head out. What’re you going to do about it?”

Silence greeted him as Alya looked between their friends and the way they very deliberately avoided each other’s eyes while surreptitiously staring as much at each other as possible.

“Right, well…” Her eyes sparked as an idea occurred to her. “So we’re basically drumming up leads, right? Doing research, chasing down rumors of this bad guy?”

“Yeah, babe, you got it.”

She rubbed her hands together in excitement. “Now that is something I can do. What’s the marketplace look like? What sort of people do I see there?”

“Besides the locals? Rough mercenary types, travellers dusty from the road, wandering merchants, that sort of thing.”

There was a pause as she narrowed her eyes in thought. “Tell me more about the travellers. What do they look like?”

He rolled a perception check behind his DM screen. “You notice that a bunch of ‘em are sticking together and they’ve got kids with them. Their threads are pretty similar too, like they got ‘em from the same place. They seem pretty uneasy, casting suspicious looks around them.”

“It’s not normal for wanderers to take their children with them, yeah?”

“Not usually, no. Unless they’re nomads.”

She shook her head. “Nah. Nomads wouldn’t be that freaked out by new people. It sounds like they’re country folk that were driven into the city. Which means…”

“...Refugees?” Adrien supplied, frowning at the table.

“Only one way to find out. I’ll walk up to them.” Alya cleared her throat and adopted her character’s voice. “Excuse me, can I ask you where you’re from?”

Nino dropped his voice an octave. “Doesn’t matter much anymore, does it? Nothing left to go back to now.”

“What do you mean?”

“‘Strange happenings up in the mountains, lass. Smoke billowing out. Scared me to my bones, it did. We picked up and headed out.’ The dude gets a distant look, like he’s remembering the sight. ‘Been on that farm for six generations. But I hear we were the lucky ones.’”

“I thank him for his time. What do you guys think?”

Marinette and Adrien seemed to have forgotten their embarrassment for the moment. Adrien shuffled his character sheets again. “Do I know any legends about the mountains? Like, monsters that lived up there, or old forts? Maybe it’s not the Necromancer at all but something else.”

Nino took a long sip of his pop. “Roll it.”

A grin split Adrien’s face as the die landed high. “What’ve you got for me, bro?”

“You remember hearing stories about a lost dwarven city out there. It went quiet decades ago, though.”

“Dwarves…” Marinette cupped her chin, her eyebrows creased with worry. “Like, big forges, deep mines, strong doors? Enough space to arm and equip and army? That sort of dwarves?”

Nino finger gunned at her. “One and the same, my dude!”

Alya buried her face in her hands. “Fantastic. If the Necromancer isn’t there, I bet he wished he was. Let’s go.”

“Don’t we want to look for other clues?” Marinette asked.

“Y-yeah.” Adrien swallowed heavily, dragging his eyes away from Marinette to Alya. “He could be somewhere else.”

“Doubt it. And even if he isn’t, someone is driving honest people away from their homes. Necromancer or no, we’ve got to do something about it.”

Steely determination dawned on their faces. “All that is necessary for the triumph of evil…” Marinette began.

“...Is that good people do nothing,” Adrien finished. “Guess it’s settled then.”

With their goal in mind, the rest of the session was spent on travel. They met more people on the road - battered survivors and the usual wanderers alike. It put a strain on their supplies, but they helped out as best they could while approaching their destination. After a couple hours of social encounters and skill checks to help the displaced, they were close.

“Looming on the horizon are the great western mountains. While they’re usually supes gorgeous, something about ‘em feels off. Just like the farmer dude said, there are smoke plums coming from somewhere in the mountain range. And that…” Nino said as he closed his DM notebook, “Is where we’ll end today’s session. If you chose right, next session might totally be the end of the Necromancer, and this adventure.”

The tapping of Adrien’s pen came to a stop, Marinette’s packing finished, and even Alya looked up from her character sheet. All of them wore similar expressions of surprise.

“Wow, really? It doesn’t feel like its been that long…” Alya muttered.

Marinette frowned. “It can’t be almost over already, can it?”

“No way!” Adrien brushed the thought aside. “I’m sure we’ve got plenty of adventures still in us.”

“That’s up to you, my dudes. This campaign might be almost over, but there could be more.” Nino shrugged and chugged the last of his pop. “If you want to, I mean. But anyway, that’s a question for later.”

Slightly more somber, they finished packing up. Adrien took Marinette and Nino home

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Direct Message to Adrien

Nino: So Bro Wanna tell me whats goin on between you and M?

Adrien: There isn’t anything Which is half the problem But don’t worry about it

Nino: No can do We’re best buds Its my job to worry about you

Adrien: And I get that I really do! But you’ve gotta trust me There isn’t anything you can do Sorry :(

Nino: Well… okay. I’m here if you need me dude

Adrien: I know [heart emoji]

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Direct Message From Alya

Alya: Did he tell you anything?

Nino: Nah, babe Clammed up U?

Alya: dang No Mari is hiding something Not sure if it is a BAD something But def something

Nino: Not much we can do about it I guess Just let ‘em figure it out

Alya: Speak for yourself, cappy Theyre almost there They just need… ...a little push

Nino: Alya...

Alya: What? It won’t be much Just a gentle nudge Really

Nino: [eye roll emoji] Alright fine What did you have in mind?

Alya: heh heh heh Okay so! We get them into class early Like SUPER early Maybe like an hour

Nino: Alright… Tough to pull off Esp for Mari But doable

Alya: ...and then we lock the door behind them And we leave them alone We don’t open it until either they’re dating Or class starts Preferably the former

Nino: That’s What No Stop

Alya: Why not? It worked for us And it smells a whole lot nicer too

Nino: point You know what? Sure We’ll do it Otherwise we might be waiting on them for a g e s

Alya: I knew you’d see it my way. ;)

[1989deluxe]

i was tagged by @marysong​

50 questions you’ve never been asked

1. what is the colour of your hairbrush? light mint green

2. a food you never eat? meat bc im vegetarian babyyy

3. are you typically too warm or too cold? too cold

4. what were you doing 45 minutes ago? i was watching tik toks

5. what is your favourite candy bar? reeses cups

6. have you ever been to a professional sports event? yes!

7. what is the last thing you said out loud? i love you

8. what is your favourite ice cream? coffee (or mocha if its there)

9. what was the last thing you had to drink? water

10. do you like your wallet? yes im n love w mine bc i bought it for SO cheap and its the perfect size

11. what was the last thing you ate? enchiladas

12. did you buy any new clothes last weekend? nope

13. the last sporting event you watched? no clue

14. what is your favourite flavour of popcorn? i like it with white cheddar on top

15. who is the last person you sent a text message to? my two best friends

16. ever go camping? yes

17. do you take vitamins? no

18. do you go to church every sunday? i used to go to the temple every weekend up til i was about 13 but i havent been in years

19. do you have a tan? no

20. do you prefer chinese food or pizza? pizza

21. do you drink your soda with a straw? i dont drink soda

22. what colour socks do you usually wear? any color with little animals on them

23. do you ever drive above the speed limit? maybe

24. what terrifies you? horror movies which is why i wont buy them

25. look to your left, what do you see? my waterbottle

26. what chore do you hate? washing the dishes

27. what do you think of when you hear an australian accent? rise up lights

28. what’s your favourite soda? i dont drink soda

29. do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? drive thru ALWAYS

30. who’s the last person you talked to? my dad

31. favourite cut of beef? tf

32. last song you listened to? ivy by frank ocean

33. last book you read? harry potter oop

34. favourite day of the week? tuesday for some weird reason

35. can you say the alphabet backwards? nope

36. how do you like your coffee? milk but no sugar and always iced

37. favourite pair of shoes? my white nikes (theyre not air forces ok)

38. at what time do you normally go to bed? around 11 for school nights but recently 1 am

39. at what time do you normally get up? 8:30 naturally

40. what do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets? sunsets but i recently saw a REALLY pretty sunrise

41. how many blankets are on your bed? one

42. describe your kitchen plates. white

43. do you have a favourite alcoholic beverage? maybe

44. do you play cards? yes! ive been playing a lot w my mom

45. what colour is your car? white

46. can you change a tire? no

47. what is your favourite province? nope

48. favourite job you’ve ever had? my barista job...i want corona to be over so i can work i MISS it

49. how did you get your biggest scar? i dont have scars but i have at least 100 birthmarks

50. what did you do today that made someone else happy?  i lost to my mom in a card gamefjoweifwoei

tagging: @tayloralison @tonystark-s @jumpthensfall @thelasttime @screamingiminlovewithyou @backtoodecember and anyone else who wants to do it

[missjackil]

My 14x11 Opinion

Damaged Goods

I have so many feelings about this episode!! Its been the hardest one to wait for all season because we were teased all week about this mysterious hug!! I am trash for brohugs, I wont even lie. Any episode that includes a brohug gets bonus points from me!! But what was different about this brohug than others? It was a slip in from behind hug that Sam wasnt expecting. Gentle, and cautious, yet full off angst and despiration. 

The scene was set in a way that assured me this episode would be emotional. The library dimly lit while Sam while Sam researches for ways to help Dean. Dean wont even answer the question when Sam asks how hes feeling. Dean just doesnt want to talk about this. He makes it known though that he appreciates the effort Sam has been putting into trying to help, and Sam responds, “of course... always” . He’s not looking for praise or appreciation, its just something he is gonna do. He’s gona help Dean. Thats all. To him its like getting up in the morning and going to the bathroom. It doesnt matter what else is going on in the world, this is what’s gonna happen.now.Deans in trouble. Sam is gonna help.

Dean tells Sam he’s going to go spend time with Mom, Sam is gonna get packed up and go too but Dean wants to go alone. Sam looks hurt. This isnt surprizing. As much as Sam doesnt need to be, as we all know, he still gets insecure with his ploace in Dean’s world and he doesnt like to be left behind for anyone, even Mom. but in the traditional character of Sam Winchester, he isnt going to make a fuss, he’ll swallow it up and let Dean go if he feels he needs it. Dean isnt cold, nor blind to this. He wont tell Sam its a farewell tour, but he needs Sam to know hes loved. So he just comes around behind him and holds Sam’s head to his chest and face, and tells him to take care of himself. As sweet as this was, did Dean really think it wouldnt sound every alarm in Sam’s head? However, this hug will go down in my heart as a classic. One thing I love most about the brohugs, is that J2 deliver a fresh one every time that say their own things. Theyre never cheap, never lacking a message, and always packed with feeling. 

Sam was pretty adorable when he tried to tell mom about the hug.I know he said they dont hug unless its literally the end of the world. but how was he really gonna tell him mom that they hug for many reasons, but this one was very different? Im sure she understands that theyre close, but does she even have a clue at how close and co-dependant they are? I dont think so. Sam gives her fair warning, and shes gonna keep an eye on Dean. 

Meanwhile, Nick is being a dick, and has a run in with Donna. Now I know many of you all dont like Donna and Jody, mainly for the Wayward crap, but I still like THEM, I just hate that story. I really like this new, tougher Donna that came to be last season in Breakdown. The bubbly silly blonde from The Purge and Hibbing 911 got on my nerves and served no purpose but comic releif. I cant stand those characters. Thats why I dont like Garth, and never liked Ghost Facers, because all they did was assure that the episode wouldnt get very serious.But lets move on. 

Mary makes Dean something he loved as a kid, Winchester Surprize. This is the first time we heard of this dish, and I would call “bullshit” on Deans ability to remember something like that from being no older than 4 the last time she made it, had he not mentioned how Dad apparently made it also, but when he and Sam tried, they messed it up and Dad got pissed and tossed it out. Dean laughed about it, but Mom was uncomfortable, and so was I. Im not a John hater as y’all know, so new negative information makes me sad. I guess before John comes back in 2 weeks, Mary will need to know that he changed a lot after she died and wasnt the greatest father to the boys.And to assure us that the reuinion wont be all rainbows and butterflies. There’s gonna be some angst.

Now Im gonna talk about how HOT Dean was while welding. the flipping of the face shield. the sparks flying around his feet, the leather apron.... mmmm Magic Mike moment y’all?? It was a great music montage, something we dont get a lot of. No Time Left For You is a good song, and for any of my readers under 40, that was an 8 track tape Dean was playing.😉 we also see that Michael is still pounding on the door in Deans head. Jensen is really doing a great job of showing us in his expressions and posture that he’s barely holding him in.

Now Sam has looked around the bunker and noticed things missing. Okay... Dean is definitely up to something. Mary waited till Dean was asleep and went to see what he was doing in the shed, she sees he’s built this box with the plan to lock himself in it and be dropped at the bottom of the ocean so Michael cant escape the box once he gets out of Deans head. Mom calls Sam, but he’s already on his way. and during this time Nick kidnaps Mary. 

Now, I think Mary was just being stupid for most of this, she had no reason really not to comply with Nick. Theres a time to be tough and a time to just be practical. A big part of being a hero includes not trying to get yourself killed for no good reason. But hey, its ok because your sons are fucking suoer heros and they’ll come save your ass! So Abraxus gets released and reveals Lucifer had him kill Ncks family. This leaves me with wonder. Will Lucifer come find Nick but Nick say no to him now that he knows Lucifer had his family killed? Leaving Luci without a vessel and heading to mess with Sam again? Possibly even Jack? Hmmmm

So Donna shoots Nick in the leg, he’s arrested. Sam goes to talk to him. I didnt like that Dean bitched at Sam for letting Nick go, though Im glad Sam got to tell him why. though he’s feeling guilty about everything that happened now. Im also pretty sure that Dean was telling Sam when people cant be saved, you just walk away, more for himself than anything. So Dean barked, but he didnt stay angry and thats good. 

Sam confronts Nick and apologizes for not being able to help him which is so very Sam, but, my boy is getting harder around the edges, he’s really 1000% done with the bull shit. He tells Nick he doesnt feel sorry for him, he feels sorry for the people he killed, HE can burn. 

Meanwhle mom confronts Dean and tells him he knows what hes up to... and if he doesnt tell Sam, she will. Im so glad it didnt become some secret between Dean and Mom being kept from Sam. That never ends pretty. 

Now, this scene, is my favorite scene so far of the season. Sam just not holding back at how horrible he thinks it was for Dean to plan to kill himself and not tell him. “Not tell me?? ME??” Do you realize how messed up that is? How unfair??” it took me back to when Dean sold his soul for Sam and Sam figured it out. Sam knows first hand how awful being trapped forever with a crazy archangel. You could see it in Sam’s eyes when he said it, he knew what Dean would be up against for eternity. “Do you know how INSANE this is?”

Dean is set in his choice and tells Sam he couldnt tell him because hes the only person who could talk him out of it💖💖and he loves hm for trying to help. Thats a very big statement in this show. So he gives Sam a choice, either he helps him, or he does it alone. Of curse Sam agrees to help. He cant save Dean if he walks away, and he wont let Dean die alone 💔💔💔💔💔💔😭😭😭😭😭

Thats gonna kill me all week!! Next weeks trailer looks like a real kick in the balls, but, Im fairly sure the brutality will be over early in the episode because Donatello’s issue is the headliner. Its hard to see Dean freak out when his phone dies when hes in the box, but Im thinking maybe he’s testing it and gets a dose of what being trapped feels like, and maybe that changes his mind. So I dont think the whole episode is going to be super heavy, but we’ll have some good brofeels anyway. In conclusion I loved this episode. It could have used more Sam but Sams parts were all great! So on a scale of Bloodlines to Who We Are, this gets a 9. the heavy brolove got it massive points and more Sam COULD have taken it to a 10. See y’all next week :)

[sonq-minqi]

50 questions tag

tagged by: @whoayoung thanks dude!

1. What takes up too much of your time? drawing

2. What makes your day better?

3. What’s the best thing that happened you today?

4. What fictional place would you like to go? Hmmmm idk

5. Are you good at giving advice? I like giving it but its probably pretty bad

6. Do you have any mental illness? Not that i know of

7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? nope

8. What musician inspired you the most? Mingi because 1: i just wanna draw him all day and 2: honestly falling in love with him so completely during kq fellaz era and seeing him barefaced really made me realize that if i  can think hes a beautiful angel with his acne scars that i can think the same thing about myself and yeah. Self confidence i guess lmao

9. Have you ever fallen in love? Hm maybe lowkey

10. What’s your dream date? If it was first date maybe something like going to a movie or lunch kind of thing. If it was after ive been in the relationship for a while just chilling together and cuddling would be nice lol

11. What do others notice about you? Maybe that i read a lot? That i have no filter? idk

12. What is the annoying habit you have? Picking at the skin on my fingers

13. Do you still talk to your first love? Yeah theyre still one of my best friends

14. How many ex’s do you have? 0

15. How many songs are on your playlist? 375

16. What instruments can you play? I used to do piano

17. Who do you have the most pictures of? Ravi. i used to have 3000+ photos of him save don my phone but now i only have around 1500

18. Where would you like to go before you die? antartica

19. What is your zodiac? aries

20. Do you relate to it? Generally yes

21. What is happiness to you? Not really sure what this question is asking exactly, but for me, what makes me happy is art and when ur chilling with ur friend and they make some innocuous comment and you say something vaguely funny back and they just absolutely piss themselves laughing

22. Are you going through anything right now? Not really

23. What’s the worst decision you’ve ever made? Idk ive made many bad decisions in my life but none so hideous that they immediately stand out

24. What’s your favorite store? The produce store near my house because oreos are 3 dollars and instant noodles are seventy cents

25. What’s your opinion on abortion? Do what you want folks

26. Do you keep a bucket list? nope

27. Do you have a favorite album at the moment? Hmm maybe The Dream Chapter : Star?

28. What do you want for your birthday? My birthday just passed so i know what im getting but a carbon fibre dragon boat paddle!

29. What are most peoples first impressions of you? A lot of my friends say they thought i was kind of intimidating and mean?? Im pretty blunt most of the time so i can kind of see it

30. What age do you seem according to most people? Idk people dont generally comment on my age

31. Where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping? Under my pillow because i want brain cancer if my tenth grade science teacher has accurate information

32. What word do you say the most? Probably like

33. What’s the oldest age you would date? I dont think i would date someone who’s not the same age at this point tbh

34. What’s the youngest age you would date? ^^

35. What job/career do most people say would suit you? artist

36. What’s your favorite music genre? Ill be honest i still dont know what kinds of music go into which genres

37. If you could live in any country in the world where would it be? If i knew japanese, japan. As it is though, probably amsterdam or the usa

38. What is your current favorite song? Whenever by SBFive

39. How long have you had this blog for? 1 year

40. What are you excited for? To hang out with my friend tmrw

41. Are you a better talker or listener? Talker maybe? Neither is the correct answer probably though

42. What is the last productive thing you did? Working on an art project for school as i type this

43. What do you want for Christmas? Some pants cause i only have one pair that i wear outside the house at this point

44. What class do you get the best grades in? animation

45. On a scale from 1-10, how are you feeling right now? 8 not bad but not awesome

46. What can you see yourself doing in 10 years? No fucking clue

47. When did you get your first heart broken? never

48. At what age do you want to get married? I cant really imagine myself being married tbh

49. What career did you want to have as a child? veterinarian

50. What do you crave now? Some milk but the milk at my house right now is a month old so i m scared to drink it

tagging: @ateezartblog @emotiadouche @softmingis @gothicmingi @hongjooong @sug-er

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tagged by @lovekuramas ! ty :-)

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 15 people

1. drink - tea :~)

2. 📱 call -  my mom probably

3. text - a couple of friends! (about hanging out i think)

4. song you listened to - no clue what the eng title is but its a vocaloid song cover by eve

5. time you 😢 - like this morning because the wind was blowing in my face

HAVE YOU EVER

6. dated someone twice - no 7. 😘 someone and regretted it - :-) 8. been cheated on - no

9. lost someone special - not really

10. been depressed - mmmm not really

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - underage drinking is bad!

FAVORITE COLORS

12. any sort of. dark-ish red

13. uhh??? purples

14. jade? green

15. h i dont know!

in the last year have you

16. made new friends - yes sir

17. fallen out of 💛 - :-)

18. 😂 until you 😢 - oh yes 19. found out someone was talking about you - no

20. met someone who changed you - not really hm

21. found out who your friends are - like my friends are secretly vampires or something? :~) 22. 😘 someone on your facebook friends list - No One Uses Facebook Anymore

GENERAL

23. how many friends from your fb friends list do you know irl - No One Uses Facebook Anymore

24. do you have any pets - i sure do! i have one of those black and white cats (he has a big fat mole on his nose) and his name is zorro bc the pattern on his face resembles zorro’s (the old movie character) mask

25. do you want to change your middle name - dont have one

26. what did you do for your last 🎂 - well . i played some pokemon bc my dad bought me x as my present and he made a cheesecake that he thought failed but tasted pretty good to me

27. what time did you wake up today - 7:30 :-) thank god for later school times, i usually wake up at 6:30

28. what were you doing last night at midnight - listening to some cronchy asmr 29. what is something you can’t wait for - uh?!? getting my history final/ap exam over with

30. what are you listening to right now - world.search(you) by mili ! its a banger

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - perhaps i have

32. something that gets on your nerves - when people like.......walk really slowly and in the middle of a narrow sidewalk/path/whatever, especially if theyre walking side by side god i hate that so much

33. most visited website - tumblr(?)

34. hair color - a solid black 35. long hair or short hair - short?? its like. at my armpits

36. do you have a crush on someone - hm

37. what do you like about yourself - idk? there’s nothing that i particularly like but ig........i can read music??? lmao

38. want any piercings - i might get more on my ears?? i dont think anything else would look good on me

39. blood type - cool question? uh a+

40. nicknames - i. dont know! lets say anri is a nickname since its not my real name

41. relationship status - :-)

42. zodiac - aquarius

43. pronouns - she/her

44. favorite 📺 show - uhhh no clue, i dont really watch shows these days

45. tattoos - maybe. just maybe. but i already know my parents (or mom, at least) arent into that 46. right handed or left - left

47. ever had surgery - i have had teeth surgery, if that counts

48. piercings - just the standard one on each earlobe 49. sports - oh man i used to do tennis but then i Stopped lol im lazy

50. vacation - like where i want to go? south america :D

51. trainers - you mean the shoes??? no sir i dont wear them

MORE GENERAL

52. eating - just ate some yum dinner

53. drinking - none ;-)

54. i’m about to watch - fnljsdljnflgjsd idk 

55. waiting for - uh spring break

56. want - those little moss ball things??? i Want

57. get married - that sure is a lot of commitment 

58. career - graphic designer hehe

WHICH IS BETTER

59. kisses or hugs - hugs!

60. 👄 or eyes - eyes!

61. shorter or taller - no preference!

62. older or younger - just. literally anything that isnt too much of a gap

63. nice arms or stomach - i dont care about either one?

64. hookup or relationship - relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant - troublemaker is cool but like, dont die

HAVE YOU EVER

66. 😘 a stranger - no  

67. drank hard liquor - underage drinking is bad!

68. lost glasses - no

69. turned someone down - mnjlh? maybe not sure

70. sex on first date - no

71. broken someone’s ❤️- i have no clue.?

72. had your 💔 - again i have. no clue fjkgbfkd

73. been arrested - no

74. 😢 when someone died - never experienced someone i know dying

75. fallen for a friend - hm

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

76. yourself - when im eating Good? sure

77. miracles - i suppose

78. 💛 at first sight - yes? maybe? like how do u know its Love but then again, i only know how i feel about things

79. 🎅 - no

80. 😘 on a first date - no

81. angels - no

other

82. best friend’s name - uh! idk man

83. eye color - very dark brown. like on the verge of black

84. favorite movie - princess mononoke! and also coco kshkfdsf

85. favorite actor - no clue! probably no one :-)

tagging @malmaratus bc she complained about me tagging all her mutuals 

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––answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people (lmao idk 20 people on here heh)

––tagged by @hob1love ty love x

––tagging: @royaltae @gukmul @hercosmoscomplex @taejinszn  @theshyauthor @yoongisuschrist  (if u dont want to be tagged in the future just let me know lovelies)

LAST

1. drink - water stay hydrated kids

2. 📱call - friend called thea 

3. text - main hoe

4. song you listened to - Drake - Don’t matter to me (ughhh its so good k)

4. time you 😢- last night lol i miss people

HAVE YOU EVER

6. dated someone twice - nop

7. 😘 someone & regretted it - u have no idea yikes

8. been cheated on - nope

9. lost someone special - yes

10. been depressed - yepo

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - actually surprisingly no (be proud of me ellie)

FAVORITE COLORS

12. yellaaaaa

13. pastel pink

14. black

15. burnt orange lol

in the last year have you

16. made new friends - yes and theyre gorgeous people x

17. fallen out of love - working on it pal

18. 😂 until you 😢- yes when my friend ate tzatziki in a fucking sandwich 

19. found out someone was talking about you - yes

20. met someone who changed you - definitely 

21. found out who your friends were - yes for the better tbh 

22. 😘 someone on your facebook friends list - nah

GENERAL

23. how many friends from your facebook friends list do you know irl - ive met them all at least once lol

24. do you have any pets - 1 cat who only likes women and 2 cats in england who are angels

25. do you want to change your middle name - i mean “gammelgaard” is weird as fuck to try and explain to foreigners so yes why not 

26. what did you do for your last birthday - cried lol (tragiicccccccc)

27. what time did you wake up today - 5am >:(

28. what were you doing last night at midnight - listening to music and literally doing nothing 

29. what is something you can’t wait for - winning the lottery so i can quit my job ty 

30. what are you listening to right now - a shane dawson video, i like watch 2 videos when i get home from work every day as a way to like chill before i gotta study or something 

31. have you every talked to a person named tom - like a billion 

32. something that gets on your nerves - when people older than me at work act like they are my boss when in reality i know more than they do because i work more it pisses me riiiiight off oh and when danish people make fun of my accent :))) 

33. most visited website - tumblr and youtube lets be real

34. hair color - CUTE AS HECK PINK

35. long hair or short hair - long 

36. do you have a crush on someone - :)

37. what do you like about yourself - my eyebrows 

38. want any piercings - got 11 i think my mom would be disappointed if i got any more lol but i sorta wouldnt mind a double nose piercing instead of my single?? and maybe another helix

39. blood type -noooo clue i probably should find out

40. nicknames - lun, luna mou, lunaki, moonhead, moonie, mulfred 

41. relationship status - single n sad

42. zodiac - is that the same as starsign???? cause then sagittarius 

43. pronouns - she

44. favorite 📺 show - mmmm im a sucker for friends tbh and idk i love simple shows??? not so much drama and just all jolly 

45. tattoos - nah not my cup of tea 

46. right handed or left - right handed

47. ever had surgery - nose surgery 

48. piercings - 6 left ear, 4 right ear, 1 nose 

49. sports - badminton bitch 

50. vacation - i generally only go to the uk and greece to visit my family but im going to japan in feb!! 

51. trainers - faves??? or??? new balance is mint for all day walking jobs fyi 

MORE GENERAL

52. eating - now? or like? eating nothing ??

53. drinking - water

54. i’m about to watch - ryland adams vid hheh

55. waiting for -bed dude today was exhausting 

56. want - happiness O O oO  

57. get married - i hope so 

58. career - dear lord who knows but the goal i have is highly unachievable 

WHICH IS BETTER

59. kisses or hugs - hugs

60. 👄 or eyes - eyes

61. shorter or taller - taller

62. older or younger - older

63. nice arms or stomach - ha thighs (tbh u are me meara lmao) also hands heh

64. hookup or relationship - relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant - hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER

66. 😘 a stranger - no

67. drank hard liquor - :)

68. lost glasses - yes 

69. (oof). turned someone down - yes and boy do u feel bad 

70. sex on a first date - nope 

71. broken someone’s ❤️- yes and he turned into a stalker so theres that

72. had your 💔- yeppo

73. been arrested - no

74. 😢 when someone died - ofc

75. fallen for a friend - yes yikes (dont do it )

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

76. yourself - no

77. miracles - not really 

78. 💛at first sight - yes

79. 🎅- no

80. 😘on a first date - yeah

81. angels - no

other

82. best friends name - i dont really have a best friend i just have some close friends but shout out to my main hoe siah

83. eye color - green

84. favorite movie -  lord knows

85. favorite actor - D:

[housewarmth]

All of those soft asks

amandaaaaaaaa i love u thank u sweet child of mine

1. cherry - what is your sexuality?

gay! very gay!

2. lollipop - favorite makeup products?

i don’t know. i like my eyebrownssss makeup

3. daydreams - if you could be anything or anyone, who would you be?

if i could be anything! i’d wanna be an angelhair fern! so sweet and delicate and airy. i wanna be airy

4. october - what month were you born in?

july! big crabby cancer 🦀

7. golden - favorite stationary product?

i really like sticky notes n stickers like that, but i never use them. i just like looking at them. i don’t know what requires their use so i hardly justify them

8. freckles - most-worn article of clothing?

my lil boy pants. easy to move around in when im in the studio. plus, easy access when you’re in desperate need to get laid

9. twilight - best friend?

my studio wife! we’re very different actually, but since were always together people think we’re one in the same

10. silk - do you like k-pop?

uh, not really. my boss is getting into kpop because she wants to embrace her korean-ness so i hear it a lot at work

11. poppy - favorite pastel color?

pastel orange!

12. dimples - most attractive features of a person’s face?

jaw! and their nose. every person i’ve been with i’ve been sooo into their nose. theyre so cute

13. sunkissed - autumn or spring?

autumn! spring is usually a ruff time for me

14. buttery - favorite snack?

OH okay i have a favorite snack that i treat myself with (not because its just so great even though i love it, but because its a process to do and i love the task it gives me). its herb goat cheese with fig butter on pita crackers with half a baby gherkin pickle. it looks adorable really and i like making them one by one as i eat it so i have something to do with my hands. also, just anything with chocolate generally is a real good time 

15. whisper - how much sleep do you get?

hahaha well if you asked me over summer, i’d say 8-9 hours. now i’m getting close to 3-5 hours a night? i’m really feelin the effects of that

16. pencil - do you own a journal?

i guess so! my sketchbooks you could say are my journals, but i sort of journal wherever i can, like on scraps of homework, notes, newspaper, on my phone. i try to compile them but i’m to all over the place to do that

17. cupcake - are you a good cook?

i would say so! my partner likes to cook more but i think i’m more of a better cook. i tend to be a lil bossy in the kitchen

18. honey - favorite term of endearment?

i love callin people luvbug n baby angel. i say luv of my life quite a lot, i’ve got a lot of those

19. clouds - describe one of your favorite dreams?

i wouldn’t say i really remember good dreams, just like recent ones or ones that hit me the most. a lot of scary ones stick more. i haven’t been dreaming much so i got nothin

20. velvet - who was your first crush?

oh this boy named josh. i was around 5 and he was a few years older. we were dating i guess and his mom loved me. she’d buy me huge stuffed animals and hide them in our daycare. he was so sweet with me and i think we were pretty cute together. weird im not into boys anymore after that. or blondes?

21. paper - favorite children’s book?

dr. seuss’s whacky wednesday! i used to make my mom read it to me almost every night. when she got sick of the same thing, instead of making her read something else, i started to learn to read it myself since i knew what it would say

29. skin - what distant relative are you closest to?

i’m not close to any of my relatives. i guess my cousin in germany but i never talk to her really directly

30. aphrodite - favorite actress/actor?

anne hathaway used to be my all time favorite actress since i was a kid. watching oceans 8 sparked it back up again

31. cuddles - do you have any pets?

lots of pets! a lot of fish, a cat my partner and i have, my parents’ cats, and my big baby turtle

32. lace - if you own any dresses, which is your favorite?

i don’t own any real dresses except this babydoll thing i wear out of the shower sometimes

33. sheets - sanrio or san-x characters?

i have no fucking clue what this says

34. cream - frozen yogurt flavor?

my studio wife and this older woman in the studio love going to yogurtland. i got a churro flavor and its so fucking good. i still have some in the studio fridge somewhere.

35. watermelon - do films ever make you cry?

yes all the time. trailers make me cry. i cry at a lot of things for no reason. or maybe a reason but i just don’t notice it. i start to tear up maybe once a day? is that something related to my depression? anxiety? i don’t know. i started to cry last night talking to my partner about drugs and stuff and my family’s history with stuff like that. it’s never affected me before but something about it made me cry and i didn’t know how to make it go away. lol?

36. sapphos - favorite poet?

im not much of a poetry person but my friend writes some good stuff. shes doing a poetry reading soon at a wine bar oooouuu

37. plush - how many stuffed animals do you still own?

a lot! a lot still at my parents’ house from when i was a kid. some of my mom’s when she was a kid. i have a few here down at my place too. i got this octopus that’s pretty cool

38. roses - what flower do you find most beautiful?

ohhhhh man okay so there’s this big vine plant at my studio job that’s in the middle of the concrete jungle that i swear has all the butterflies in all of la attracted to it. today i got to work and there were 10 butterflies and no joke hundreds of caterpillars at all stages of their cycled in the yard. there’s hardly anything left of the plant now but there are these beautiful flowers on it called a bluecrown passionflower. how sexy is that

39. sweetheart - favorite mug/cup?

my favorite mug! is one my friend made me! it’s blue and sad and everyone comments on it! i love getting to say my friend made me it! i think hes making me another one because he asked me for my address. i don’t wanna get my hopes up but i really…..hope there’s some pottery in that package

40. sunset - what are your pronouns?

she/her! they/them! i’m cool with anything!

ou wow this is so fucking long im so sorry to everyone that has to scroll past this