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[ouatx5sos]

Luke Hemmings || secret relationship

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Pairing: Luke x Fem!reader

Summary: you and Luke have been in a secret relationship for 4 months until he accidentally reveals your secret during an interview.

Warnings: none

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“There was one time on tour Y/N got lost, it was the funniest thing” Luke laughed along with the boys, the whole interview was about their latest tour but the blonde struggled to talk about anything but you. The pair had been dating for 4 months, it was more of a secret relationship; not even the boys found out.

“We love having her join, Luke seems at his happiest when she’s around, you should see how moody he is when she’s not around!” Calum spoke up making all the others laugh and the embarrassed love smitten boy blush.

“Well it’s not my fault she’s so amazing; when you’re in love with someone who makes your heart race or someone who just makes you so happy and loved! Over the past 4 months I don’t think I’ve ever smiled so much- I just love her so much” my mouth dropped and the others including the interviewers eyes widened.

My phone started buzzing like crazy, my Twitter was going insane everyone tweeting about the interview that decided to be live today, of all days! “Uh Luke, you’re forgetting this is live” Michael awkwardly coughed.

Laughs erupted the room and Luke’s cheeks couldn’t be anymore red. “Well” he coughed. “I guess that’s out- uh yeah, Y/N and I have been dating and I’m surprised no one figured it out.” He shrugged making eye contact with me.

Once the interview was over they said their goodbyes and ran over to me pulling me into his arms. “I’m sorry about love; I know you weren’t ready yet” luke pouted kissing the top of my head.

“They would’ve found out eventually” I shrugged leaning up to kiss him. “At least it was you and not me” I teased.

“Great!” Ashton exclaimed with a disgusted look on his face. “Now we’ve got to endure the gross relationship and lovey dovey shit” he physically cringed and I rolled my eyes.

“You love it really-after all you’re the one who tried to set us up”

[let-the-bands-take-c0ntrol]

Watermelon Su-Flower Fields

A/N: ya girl might've been a bit inebriated while writing part of this. . .getting back into writing smuts are hard lol

Calum HoodXFemale Reader

Warning: smut smut smut, female oral receiving, fingering, foul language, doggy style, unprotected sex, illegal activity (public exposure), soft touches, abuse of food*

*If I missed anything please let me know

The blanket was soft to the touch, its dark blue color contrasting against the vibrant colors of the flowers. You had stumbled across the area. Well more so got lost and found yourselves in an abandoned flower field. You didn't mind though, a warm smile making its way onto your face as you watched him take things out of the picnic basket. "There's literally no one around," he laughed in awe, taking a glance at your surroundings. You could see a glint in his eye when his gaze landed on you. Something brewing in his head and you weren't sure what it was.

"I hope you like watermelon," you said, unboxing the fruit and holding the container out to him. He grabbed one of the cut up cubes, popping it into his mouth. Some of the juice spilled onto his chin and he swiped it away with his thumb. You watched intently as he picked up another piece, but this time held it towards your lips. You leaned forward, mouth opening slightly as you took the fruit into your mouth. Your tongue lightly grazed his thumb and you could see his eyes darken.

"Maybe we should eat this lunch backwards," he said, voice a bit rasp.

"Backwards?" you muttered in confusion. He nodded, cleared his throat, and moved his hand to rest at your uncovered thigh.

"Yea, you know. . .dessert first then the entrée." His thumb began to rub soft circles into your thigh and you found yourself becoming wet at the feeling.

"Oh," you chirped, catching onto what he was saying. You smiled then leaned in for a kiss. His grip on your thigh tightened as he deepened it. Your mouth opened to grant him access to your tongue. You hummed in comfort and your hand crept towards his crotch. it was when you palmed at his bulge that made him pull away from you.

"I thought we were going to eat dessert first?" He said confusedly. You eyebrows furrowed.

"W-Were were not doing that?" you asked, thinking dessert meant sex. You watched him reach into the picnic basket and pull out the strawberry shortcake you had baked, and suddenly you felt embarrassed at the miscommunication. "Oh shit-sorry, I had thought." Calum began to laugh at your flustered state, and he placed the dessert to the side and tugged you towards him.

"I'm just fucking with you," he laughed harder at the stunned look on your face. You rolled your eyes and tossed a piece of watermelon at his face.

"Ha ha. Not funny!" you grumbled, lips falling back on his. Calum smiled into the kiss, and his hands gripped at your waist as the two of you began to makeout. You straddled his lap, hands lacing into his hair and tugging at it. Your hips rolled into his and Calum moaned into your mouth. "I think you owe me," you grumbled against his lips, teeth lightly biting at his bottom lip and dragging it out. Calum pushed at your hips and you slid off him.

"I can think of a way to make it up," he smirked. Calum picked up another piece of watermelon and leaned in towards you. You met him halfway, taking the fruit into your mouth and biting half. "Lay on your back for me," he coaxed, taking the container of fruit. You did as he said, the hem of your dress slightly lifting up. Calum looked down at you with raised eyebrows and you nodded lightly. He lifted the rest of your dress to expose your abdomen and lace underwear. With one fruit already in his mouth, Calum placed a few pieces along your skin. The cold fruit felt ice cold against your hot skin.

"What're you doing?" you giggled, leaning up on your elbows to watch him.

"Adding some sweetness to an already tasty gal," he said, making you roll you eyes at how cheesy he sounded. You laid back down and closed your eyes, enjoying the feeling of Calum's fingers dancing across your skin. Soon you felt his lips on yours. Before you could kiss back Calum pulled away. He sent peck to your forehead then kissed all over your face making you laugh. Calum continued kissing you, and your breath became shallow when you felt him take the watermelon that was rested between your cleavage into his mouth. He kissed at the tops of your breasts then continued to eat and kiss down the rest of your body. Your breath hitched in your throat when he kissed at your clothed heat. Calum could see the affect he had on you and you jolted in your spot when he placed more pressure on your sensitive nub. You hips lifted when you felt him tug at the hem of your panties and soon your bottom half was exposed to the open air.

"Wait wait-what if we get caught?" you gasped in surprise, hands reaching down to cup Calum's chin in your hands before he could do any more. He looked up at you with a pout.

"We found this place because we got lost," Calum said, pointer finger brushing between your folds. "We're legit in the middle of nowhere." His thumb added pressure onto your clit and began to circle it. A small whimpered moan left you lips and your hands removed from his face and down to your sides. Calum smirked, lifting one of your legs so that your calf rested against his shoulder. Your vision blurred a bit when you felt his tongue take a long swipe from your hole to your clit. Your skin lit ablaze and your back arched as he sucked on your clit. A loud moan left your mouth.

"Fuck, Cal," you huffed, eyes closing in bliss. Your wetness mixed in with his saliva gathered in a pool underneath you making the picnic blanket damp. Calum nipped at your clit and you felt him slide a finger into you. Another finger was added and he began to thrust his fingers, teeth lightly pulling at your clit. Loud obscene moans fell from your lips and you could feel Calum smile against you. His hand reached up to massage your breast and a thumb ghosted over your nipple. You shuddered at the feeling, your own hands gripping at his hair. His name tumbled from your lips and Calum stopped for a moment, pressing your clit harder.

"Tell me what you want, baby," he requested, lips puffy and sending featherlike kisses to your bikini line.

"I want you," you choked out, already feeling your orgasm bubble up inside you. You lifted onto your elbows to stare at him through hooded eyelids. Calum sat up, hands leaving your body and making you pout in response. He loved when you wore sundresses and the one you were wearing now was making him extremely hard. Your hands reached for the button of his pants and before Calum could even take a breath you had yanked the fabric down. Calum held in a moan when you grabbed his cock. As much as he wanted your lips around it, Calum wanted to be inside you more. You could tell just from the amount of precum that had gathered at the tip.

"You know what I wanna see?" he said, cupping your cheeks and leaning down to kiss you. You kissed back with passion, tasting yourself on his tongue. Calum pulled away and you nodded already knowing what he wanted. Calum stilled when you began to stroke his cock.

"Turn over for me, baby," he said against your lips. Teeth sinking into his bottom lip so he could concentrate on not trying to cum in your hands. You pulled away from him and turned over so that your ass was facing Calum. He smiled at the sight, hands immediately going towards his second favorite part of your body. Calum's hands rubbed over your ass, fingers brushing between your folds once again. You wiggled your ass closer towards his cock and he smiled.

"You just like to tease," you muttered, a small whimper leaving your lips when you felt the head of his cock push into your entrance for just a second and then out again. You frowned in response, balancing yourself on one hand while the other reached back to stroke his cock.

"Ya know I'm getting a bit peck-ish maybe we should eat," Calum teased even more, faking as if he was pulling away from you.

"Calum, I swear if yo-oh fuck," you grunted at the feeling of Calum pushing into you deeply. Your eyes squeezed shut as you felt yourself adjusting to him being inside you. Calum swallowed hard, his own eyes closed and breath shallow. When you stopped pulsating around him, Calum began a slow thrust. His hips snapped into yours at a steady pace and you started to push back against him to meet his pace. One hand gripped tightly at your hip while the other snaked its way up the side of your body. Calum leaned forward a little and sent a kiss to your spine. Loud moans tumbled from your lips and he held you close as you lifted up until your back was flush against his chest. Calum moaned into your ear making you wetter than before. He knew how much you loved to hear him moan. Knew you wanted to hear how good you made him feel.

"Just so wonderful," he whispered, peppering the side of your neck in kisses. You went back down to rest on your forearms and his pace increased. The sound of skin slapping against skin mixing into the songs of the birds. There had been so much sexual tension between the two of you since the day started. Small touches here and there, Calum sucking into the skin of your neck. He had been holding out for a while.

"I'm not gonna last long," Calum warned, fingers reaching down to rub at your clit. Electricity shot through you, your skin feeling a bit raw as your body moved against the fabric of the blanket. Your nipples were hard and you pinched at it. The two of you were loud, and Calum pulled out of you. You turned over to face him and Calum spread your legs open, curling his hips into yours until he was deep inside you again. His face rested in the crook of your neck, and your head turned to the side to capture his lips onto yours. You moaned into his mouth beginning to feel your orgasm approaching. Calum hiked your leg up higher, going in at a different angle and hitting at your g-spot. You squeezed yourself around his cock creating more friction. You knew what would happen, feeling him twitch inside you. "If you're not careful you gon-" swears flew from Calum's lips, when you repeated the action. Your hand reached between your bodies and you rubbed at your clit, hips rotating up to match Calum's pace. You were on the brink of a release and wanted Calum to come along with you. You sucked on Calum's sweet spot and clenched around his cock once again. His body stiffened above yours and your back arched off the ground as you reached your high. Calum quickly pulled out, one hand going down to finger you through your high, while the other pumped his cock as he came over your stomach. After a minute or so his fingers slowed within you. He was panting hard and rested his forehead against yours.

The two of you sat in silence, allowing your breaths to even out. Calum laid down next to you, a goofy grin on his face when you made eye contact with him.

"Well I've definitely worked up an appetite but now I'm sleepy," you laughed, looking down at his pool of cum on your stomach. Calum sat up to reach into the picnic basket. He pulled out some napkins and the macaroni salad you had packed. Your eyes lit up at the food and you hummed in happiness when he handed it over with a fork.

"You packed a feast," Calum said, beginning to clean his release off you. You glanced at your surroundings as you ate, mumbling a 'thank you' towards Calum for cleaning you up.

"Are these wildflowers?" you questioned with a smirk.

"Don't even dare!" Calum groaned out already know the joke that was brewing in your head. You started laughing, and before you could even get the joke out Calum tossed a piece of watermelon at your face. You gasped in surprise and stared at him in shock. "I won't hesitate to throw more at you," he warned. Your lips pursed and you decided not to tease him. Knowing good and well he got enough of those jokes from the boys and fans, but it still made you smile. You had found the perfect picnic spot. Your fantasies of being fucked in a flower field now satisfied.

[backtotheshitshow]

Funny Feeling (Ashton Irwin x Reader)

Warning: angst, tears, yelling,

Summary: Y/n and Ash need to stay in the same room, but it's digital if there not in the same page.

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Part2

It's was about 6pm and Y/n waited in the lobby of the hotel for the rooms to be sorted. 5sos had just landed in Toronto and naturally as the opening act, Y/n had travelled with them.

Being the opening act for 5 seconds of Summer was a pretty good gig, all the guys were great. Except Ashton, he was confusing. He'd acted normal for a while and just when Y/n would think they were becoming good friends, he'd be a dick for no reason.

Y/n couldn't understand what she would do wrong for him to be like this towards her. According to the other guys, they thought she was caring and kind all the time, accompanied by her sarcastic attitude, that is. Even when Ashton was being intolerable, Y/n tried her best to not be rude.

Sitting in the hotel chair was beginning to get uncomfortable and scrolling on her phone could only entertain Y/n for so long.

"Hey Y/n" Calum called getting her attention. "I'm so sorry but there was a mix-up with the rooms." He informed.

"Oh. Is there not enough rooms?" Y/n asked, there wasn't a problem if she had to stay somewhere else. She didn't mined.

"Well...No there is enough rooms. But you'd just have to share a room with Ash." Calum expressed an apologetic face.

Y/n thought for a second, she was never one to flip out over little mixups, Y/n understood that people make mistakes and that these things can happen.

"Oh that's fine, I don't mined a-"

"Can we go, I got the key card." Ashton interrupted, grumbling like a toddler who hadn't gotten his way.

"I was actually talking to Calum, can you just give me two seconds." Y/N excused.

"Yeah i'll give the time that it takes for me to get in the elevator and for the doors to close." The drummer spoke. "We only got one key, so we gotta go together. Unless you're good with sleeping in the lobby."

Y/n sighed, so he's in the being a dick stage again, fun. "Alright then." Y/n turned to Calum, bidding him goodbye before following Ashton.

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"Oh for fuck sake" Ashton huffed, seeing the room that he and Y/n would be sharing. A good view, Tv, nice bathroom, ONE bed.

"Oh, now I see why Cal seemed so sorry about telling me we had to share a room." Y/n thought out loud, setting her bags down so they would be out of the way.

"Why would he need to be sorry? What's wrong with having to share with me." The bit snapped a little offended.

"I don't know, mate. You're a real hoot to be around." Y/n sassed, causing Ashton to roll his eyes.

-

Although she travelled the world opening shows, Y/n was doing online university classes in physics. She was sat on the hotel room floor, laptop and textbooks in front of her, as she did her studies. Ashton sat on the be watching tv.

"Jesus Christ! Do you have to type so fucking loud?!" Ashton whined.

Everyone has a breaking point and Y/n had reached it.

"For fuck sake! It's typing Ashton, it's not that loud! And if it is that distracting, then fuck off!" Y/n snapped.

Truth be told, Ashton really liked Y/n. Yes, as cliche as is, there was something about how she managed to hold her own and present a witty comeback to anyone who pissed her off, while still being the sweetest person he'd ever met, that just made him feel all funny inside.

That funny feeling scared Ashton a bit, it wasn't something he knew how to deal with yet. And that made him angry that he could process his own emotions. As a result he'd just block it out. Just like he was now blocking out the odd hurtful feeling he got after Y/n had yelled at him.

"Why are you being a bitch for?!" Ashton shouted getting up off the bed, Y/n standing up from the floor.

"Because I'm sick of your shit Ashton." Y/n explained in a calmer voice compared to her previous tone. " you're mean to me all the time and I don't understand why. I try to be as nice as I can, I really do. But when you're mean all the time i-"

"Well maybe I just don't like you no matter what you 'try' to do" Ashton blurted, without thinking about the weight of his words.

Y/n stopped, her socks very quickly became her main focus. Filled with anger at himself the drummer left the room without a word.

"....it hurts" Y/n finished her sentence, letting a tear fall and soak into the carpet.

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[annawritesblog]

Rooftops (a.i.)

Pairing: Ashton Irwin x Reader

Summary: Y/N and Ashton have been dating for 3 years. Ashton takes Y/N to a rooftop restaurant where he plans to propose. 

Word Count: 1k 

A/N: This is my first story and my first language is not English so I apologize if there are any spelling mistakes. Also I got inspiration for this imagine from a Tumblr author, sadly I can’t remember their name. Anyway, if you were the one who wrote a similiar imagine, thank you for the inspo. Enjoy:)

You were just getting ready for an anniversary date with your long time boyfriend, Ashton. You guys have been dating for 3 years and you couldn’t be happier. You loved Ashton with your whole heart and he felt the same way.

You have just finished putting on a beautiful red dress and you only needed to put on some jewelry. You were upstairs in the bathroom when you heard Ashton yell.

“Y/N! Hurry up, we’re gonna be late.” He yelled from downstairs.

“Give a minute. I’m almost ready.” You yelled back.

5 minutes later you were all done and excited for your date. You grabbed your purse and walked downstairs. Ashton was sitting on the couch looking at his phone. As soon as he heard that you came downstairs, he put away his phone and stood up from his seat. He looked at you and a smirk appeared on his face.

“You look...just wow.” He tried to form sentences, but he was amazed by your beauty. He stepped closer to you and put his hands on your waist.

“Thank you.” You said and wrapped your hands around his neck. He leaned in to give you a kiss, but you pulled back. He gave you questioning look.”I have red lipstick on. You don’t want any of that.” You said and he sighed. 

As you guys went out the door, his hand now resting on your lower back, he whispered in your ear.

“Can’t wait until that dress is on the floor.” You never got used to these comments he made every once in a while. An even bigger smile appeared on your face as he opened the door of the car he had ordered.

You guys both sat in the car and Ashton gave the driver the address. 10 minutes later you have arrived at a beautiful restaurant. He opened the door that lead to a big area full of tables. You walked to a waiter who stood behind a table. The restaurant looked fancy and very expensive. 

“Good Evening. Do you have a reservation?” The waiter asked.

“Yes. Under Irwin, for two.” Ashton said and the waiter gestured towards the stairs. You guys went up the stairs which lead to a beautfiul and big rooftop. Weirdly no one was there even though you were sure that the restaurant is a really famous one.

“Here is your table, and the menu.” The waiter said and put the menus on the table.

You guys both thanked him and you grabbed the menu. As soon as you opened the menu, you saw that it is a very expensive restaurant. Ashton always did this. He liked to spoil you with beautiful things even though you always said you are not with him because of his money. Ashton saw the questioning look on your face.

“Babe, choose anything you want. Don’t look at the price.” He said and looked into your eyes.

“But everything is so pricey.” You said and he just laughed a little.

“Don’t worry about it. Today is special.” He said and took your hand.

You decided to go with it and eventually chose something from the menu. You went with salmon and salad, while Ashton went with shrimps. As you waited for your food, you couldn’t help, but notice that you guys were still the only one on the rooftop.

“How come we’re the only ones up here?” You asked and he looked up at you.

“I don’t know. Maybe, uhmm...maybe no one made a reservation for today.” He said and turned his attention back to his food that just have arrived. You did the same and a few minutes later you finished the food and ordered dessert.

“And also, we would like a bottle of champagne.” He said after you ordered dessert. 

The two of you had a good talk just about life in general and minutes later the waiter came back with the champagne. He poured it into your glass and turned around to your boyfriend. Ashton raised his eyebrow and the waiter nodded. You didn’t understand why he did that, but decided to ignore it. The waiter left and Ashton smiled at you. Suddenly a slow song started to play which was weird, considering when you arrived there was no music. 

Ashton grabbed his glass and stood up. Just when you wanted to ask what he’s doing, he grabbed your arm and gently pulled you up from your seat.

“There is a beautiful view from over there.” He said and pointed to the other end of the area. 

You walked there with the glass in your hand and looked at the beautiful city in front of you.

“It’s really pretty.” You said and Ashton nodded behind you. He had his arms around you and his face was so close to your neck that you could feel his hot breath. 

Slow songs were still playing in the background and the whole thing was like a movie. He put his glass on the table next to you and spun you around which almost made you fall.

“You look incredible.” He said and tugged a stray of hair behind your ear. You just let out a little giggle.

“You said that already today.” 

“I’m gonna say that until the day I die.” He said and stepped back a little. “Y/n.” He said and pulled something out his pocket. Before you could’ve said anything, he was on one knee. “You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I’m not the only one who thinks that. My family, the lads, everyone. You make me a better person and I want to wake up next to you every single morning. So, Y/N Y/L/N, will you make me the happiest man in this World and marry me?” He asked and revealed a beautiful diamond ring. Your eyes were full of tears and you just nodded. “Is that a yes?” He asked.

“Yes, yes. A hundread times yes.” You said and he stood up. You hugged him and his grip was stronger than ever. He pulled away and slid the ring on your finger. Without another word, you kissed him strongly, not caring about your lipstick anymore.

[mythemmings]

so since everyone’s quarantiningggg, and the boys have been doing lives and providing plenty of good gifs for this i thought i’d hop back on here and write some more for the time being! (:

imagine having a zoom meeting with your college professor, Mr.Hemmings, because your grades are getting worse and he wants to make sure all of his students are getting back on track with coursework, but you get distracted and lose track of what he’s saying when he bites his lip and can’t help but stare, making him laugh.

[preferredrealty]

Hope you guys enjoy! Here’s a few warnings below

❤️ fluff

💔angst

🥊violence

🔥 smut

🌻 personal favourite

ASHTON: (NONE YET)

CALUM:

Imagines:

“How could you do this?”💔

LUKE:

Imagines:

“I’m not pissed. I’m hurt.”💔

MICHAEL: (NONE YET)

[shittyfandomimagines]

Wedding Blues-CH

Been a hot minute since I’ve posted about this cutie 🥺

GIF creds to owner❤️

I did not edit or spell check this, so god pls forgive me😂

White laced gown, navy blue accents with a hint of maroon in the flower bouquet, champagne pink included into the reception hall and our gowns; I mean this wedding was like my dream come true.

I signed the guestlist for my friend's wedding, Adam and Alissa had been together for years, been my friends since college, so this was a long time coming.

“It’s beautiful here, isn’t it?” Calum’s voice shocked me, I turned around slowly to see him dressed in a white button up and black slacks. “It looks just as amazing as someone else does right now.” I look him up and down as he was standing in front of me. He rolls his eyes and reaches out for me.

I hug him the best I can without smearing my makeup on his shirt, him and Alissa would kill me both.

“Baby, you look just as amazing. This color makes you look... wow.” He sizes me up and I roll my eyes. “I’d love to stay and chit chat but the photos are about to start and I gotta go. Bridesmaids duties never end.” I joke and he rolls his eyes.

“Fine, but make sure to take some on a cell phone so I can update my lock-screen.” He winks and my heart melts. “I will, I love you.” I kiss his lips shortly and he smiles. “I love you more. See you inside, rockstar.”

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“Do you think you’re ever gonna walk down that aisle with Calum? It’s been like 5 years now, hasn’t it?” Melissa asks while we lined up in front of the doors. “We’ve talked about it, sure. We’re both too busy for that now.”

“I mean it’s been this long, if he hasn’t committed to it yet, then he never will.” She says and my heart drops. “I don’t believe that.” I say and Melissa shrugs.

“I agree, it’s been this long.” Kennedy says from behind me, I felt like throwing up. I don’t know why I let them affect me this much. I don’t know if it’s the slight jealousy of this being the 3rd wedding we’ve attended in the past 2 months or if I’m just an insecure piece of shit, but either way, my heart was dead.

“Enough of that, it’s time to start.” The wedding planner cut us short as the doors opened slowly.

Everyone looked back at the three of us as we walked together with the groomsmen, I caught a glimpse of Cal smiling and winking at me, but I quickly looked away before I accidentally cried.

Soon, Alissa came in and the ceremony started. I would sneak glances at Calum and he’d be staring solely at me, which made me look away or put my head down.

I loved the thought of marriage with Calum more than anything, but it just was always the thing on the back burner. We haven’t even talked about marriage in at least 7 months.

What if it was true, that if he was to commit he would’ve done it by now. But he’s a super star, marriage obviously isn’t something that sells.

Maybe my life will as be that saying “always the bridesmaid but never the bride.”

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The party really started when the mini bar opened up and I could get my hands on any type of liquor.

“You looked amazing up there.” I heard Calum’s voice before a hand wrapped around at my side.

“Thanks babe!” I tried to force a fake smile, but he saw right through me. “What’s wrong?” He asked and I shook my head. “Nothing I promise! I am just exhausted, I’ve been up doing this bridesmaid thing since 7 am. I’m sorry.” I pout slightly and he kissed my lips shortly.

“You sure?” He asks while moving my hair out of the way.

“Pinky promise.” I lie as I stick my pinky out to his while he connects.

“Do you want to catch a table together?” He asks and I shake my head. “Can’t, she put my placement card over at the head table.” I point and he frowns.

“She didn’t put you by Liam, did she?” He asks while winking at me, Liam was an old high school fling.

“No, he’s at the opposite end.” I smile softly and he just turns his head to the side a little, I saw so many wheels turning. “Okay well I’ll catch up with you at the first dance. Text me from up there, please. I miss you.” He kisses my forehead before walking over to an empty seat by our old friends.

I just felt like my life wasn’t as shiny as everyone else’s. I mean yeah I am dating the sweetest man on this planet, I have an amazing job, and I know he loves me but what if that’s just it? What if he doesn’t see a future with me and he is just blinded by it just being boring old us. What if he doesn’t want to marry me and that’s why he hasn’t asked by now? I’ve been to 3 weddings as the bridesmaid this year and I haven’t once considered that maybe I’m not good enough to be the bride.

I feel so happy for my friends because they just seem so happy, but what if I’m not cutting it for him anymore?

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“Now it’s time for the ladies to gather around for the bouquet toss, come on girls!” I hear the DJ announce, I hadn’t even moved out of my seat since I sat down. I skipped the whole dancing thing, I could see Calum’s disappointment but I guess he didn’t mind too much.

“C’mon y/n, that means you too.” Alissa yells and I move to stand behind her, the crowd of women intoxicatedly happy.

“3, 2, 1!” The crowd yells but Alissa doesn’t throw the bouquet, she turns around slowly to hand it to Kennedy who was front and center. Kennedy seemed confused before she turns around to see her boyfriend, Grayson, on one knee.

You’ve got to be fucking kidding me!!!

They’ve been together for a whole year and they’re getting married before me? Someone better call Ashton Kutcher and the camera crew out here before I fucking lose it.

I roll my eyes before I march my happy ass back to my assigned seat. What the actual fuck?

——

“Baby?” Calum sounded upset behind me, I turn around to see him looking extremely exhausted. “Yeah!” I fake my happiness when I speak.

“I’m gonna head home, partying doesn’t feel like me tonight, so I’ll see you there. I know you’ve got a few more bridesmaid duties to do before you can go.” He sounded just as off as I did.

“Oh, yeah! I do. I’ll see you at home, don’t wait up for me.” I smile lightly and he nods.

He kisses my cheek softly before he walks out of the venue.

—

“Everyone, please give it up and say goodbye for a few days to the new mister and misses Adam Walker!” The DJ yells as the couple makes it to the venue doors. The 6 of us in the bridal party were lined up with them and their parents.

Alissa gave out hugs until she finally got to me. “You okay?” She asks and I nod shortly. “I am all bridesmaid out, I hope you have fun.” I give her a hug and she nods. “I will, tell Cal hi for us. Love y’all.” She said before turning away, was my pain that obvious or??

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I finally made it home and my feet were beyond dead.

“Baby, is that you?” Calum’s voice called out, fuck. Fuck.

“Yeah, it’s me.” I put my keys down and then my purse.

I turn the corner and almost run flat into him, I apologize quietly and move towards the stairs.

“Did I say something today? Or do something?” Calum asks from behind me, I could hear the pain in his voice.

“No, it wasn’t you. I’m just tired.” I lie and take the first stair. “I believed that for a few minutes and I’m sure you are tired, but that’s not it. You’re avoiding me and you didn’t even text or dance with me. You just seem pissed off at the world or me, if it’s me then I am sorry.” His voice stops me, I slack my shoulders.

“You didn’t do or say anything Cal. Sorry.” I say as I make my way up the stairs before he stops me again, but it didn’t matter because he was up the stairs shortly after me.

“I hear you but I don’t feel you.” He says as he grabs my arm loosely. “It’s not anything you’ll understand because I don’t even understand it myself.” I sigh and face him, he physically softened a little at that but it didn’t last long.

“Just talk to me baby, please. You know it won’t be stupid, we’ve been doing this for 5 years now, we’ve got this.” He soothes and I roll my eyes.

“Yeah, 5 fucking years. That’s the problem.” I grunt and move out of his grip and into the bathroom. I find the makeup wipes and start to scrub my face. “What does that mean!” He exclaims and I shake my head.

“We’ve been together for 5 years and you haven’t asked me.” I felt like a stupid bitch for even talking.

“Asked you what?” He sounded absolutely clueless.

“To marry you Cal! Marriage! Why are we even dating still, if you don’t plan on starting a family between us then what’s the point anymore!” I slightly raised my voice and he takes a step back.

“What? Of course there’s a point to us. How do you know I don’t want to marry you? We’ve talked about it before!” He was getting just as frustrated.

“If you haven’t committed to it now then you never will, and other people think that too! It’s been so long since we’ve ever spoke of marriage Calum.” I fold my arms across my chest.

“There’s more to love than a ceremony and a ring! If that’s all that matters instead of the 5 years of loving each other solely, then I’m not the problem here! I can’t believe marriage is so important to you as a sign of commitment, like I haven’t gave you all of me! You’ve got to be fucking kidding me!” He shouts and I jump slightly, taking a big step back.

He was right though, maybe right with his voice too damn loud, but nevertheless.

There was more to love than a ring or paper, I just felt like that’s what it should end up at, but it’s not. Paper doesn’t change commitment, it changes titles.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to yell at you like that or scare you.” He moved closer and I nodded.

“Please talk to me. I’m sorry and we can work it out.” I wasn’t avoiding talking because I was scared or upset that he yelled, I just knew he was right and I felt like a fucking idiot.

“Baby,” his voice was shaky and I grabbed ahold of his hand softly. “You shouldn’t be sorry, I’m the freaking idiot here. You were right, it’s not about a ring or paper. I’m sorry that I overreacted and ruined a nice time.” I admit and he lets out a sigh of relief.

“It’s okay, I understand. You do know that I want to marry the fuck out of you, right? Because I swear to God, I’ll fly us to Las Vegas right now.” He jokes and I nod, laughing a little.

“I don’t want to elope and I don’t want you to feel like you have to propose any time soon. You’re right and I can wait, because my commitment and love for you will stay the same regardless.” I hug him and he chuckles lightly.

“I love you.” He kisses my cheek and I smile warmly. “I love you more.”

“If someone ever gets proposed to at our wedding though, I swear I will go into labor at their wedding and die at their fucking funeral.” I joke and he laughs, eyes crinkling and all warm like.

“Note taken.”

[silenthearts]

Imagine living in a little cottage with a little farm and raising your kids in the middle of nature with Calum 😭😭😭😭

[5sosdrfluke]

OH MY GOSH I KNOW I JUST SENT AN ASK BUT HOW CRAZY WOULD IT BE IF YOU WERE STUCK WITH ALL FOUR OF THEM DURING QUARANTINE LIKE THEY'RE GREAT BOYS BUT THEY'RE CRAZY AND BEING STUCK WITH ALL FOUR OF THEM WITH NO ESCAPE, AMAZING BUT HORRIBLE

LISTEN THIS IS THE THIRD ASK THAT SAID THIS EXACT SAME THING AND I LOVE THIS CONCEPT.

The quarantine situation was kind of scary and weird to think about. The virus running rampant throughout the world and trying to keep yourselves and others healthy was a struggle. It was a good thing you were in a place with four of your best friends braving the social distancing from the rest of the world. It kept things from getting boring.

Luke, Michael, Ashton, and Calum were all in close quarters with you and they were always there for you. Helping you with projects and finding things to do when the days seemed to drag on and on. But as the days keep going on, the nerves and the personal space were running very thin.

"Calum you drank my beer!" Luke yelled from the kitchen and slammed the fridge door.

"You should've had it first dingus." Calum muttered from the living room with the infamous beer in his hand.

"Will you two stop fighting? I won't hesitate to lock you both out in the backyard." Michael chimed in and smacked Calum on the arm.

You sighed and rubbed your temples slowly "I have friends. I have food. I have water. I have a bed. I have friends. I have food. I have water. I have a bed."

"What is she talking about?" Ashton asked as he walked in the living room with coffee in hand.

"She's annoyed with Team Rocket over there." Michael motioned to Calum and Luke in the kitchen.

You looked over at Ashton and smiled. He was the only one that hadn't had a problem with one of the other guys since the quarantine began. He was the sanity in this crazy house.

"Ashton are you wearing my shirt?" Luke asked from the kitchen doorway.

"Maybe. Are you whining about everything today?" Ash quipped and sipped his coffee.

And there goes the sanity. You cursed to yourself and waited for the arguing to start.

"I hope you wash it and put it back." Luke murmured and sat beside Calum and elbowed him in the ribs causing Cal to spit out his beer.

"I will. Don't worry." Ashton chuckled and watched Calum shoot daggers at Luke.

"So are you guys going to be fighting the whole time or are you going to calm down?" You chirped.

All four of them blinked at you.

"We're not fighting."

"Yeah we're just having banter."

You glanced at all of them and shrugged and turned on the TV to find Disney+.

"Ooh we should watch Frozen 2." Michael suggested.

"Hell no. We're watching Lion King." Calum scoffed.

"Why do you get to decide? We should watch Toy Story." Luke spoke.

"You're all idiots. We're watching Wreck It Ralph." Ashton sighed and ignored the eye rolls from the other guys.

You sucked in a breath and clicked on Inside Out. "Wrong. We're watching this. Now all of you shut up and watch."

The boys all shut their mouths and sat back to watch the Pixar movie.

Close to the end of the movie you heard sniffling coming from Luke and you gave him a concerned look.

"It's true. You're allowed to be sad. You shouldn't have to bury your feelings to make someone else happy." His voice cracked and you reached over to hold his hand.

"I know. It's a good story isn't it? Feelings are valid." You assured him.

Michael hid a laugh with a cough and he patted Luke's head. "It's okay Hemmings."

"Shut up Michael." Luke muttered and wiped his eyes.

Calum reached over and hugged Luke and smiled. "Don't hide your feelings man."

You beamed and watched all of the boys talking about feelings and how good the movie was. Thank god.

You felt relaxed and you snuggled into your blanket and listened to the sweet conversations they were having.

You started to drift off when you heard a loud smack.

"Shut up Michael!"

"No you shut up! I'm right and you know it!"

"Both of you! Enough!"

"I'm about to smack you."

You opened your eyes and grabbed your blanket. "Alright. Goodnight. Can you guys fight outside so I can sleep? Thanks."

They all stood up and took their fighting outside and the last word you heard as you went upstairs was "Assbucket."

You went to bed laughing.

Listen I feel like there are so many other things that would happen in a house with all of them. I could go on and on.

5SOS Blurbs

[calumbringbackthewatermelonshirt]

Hiraeth (Calum Hood x Reader) - Chapter 4   NEW CHAPTER OF HIRAETH UP NOW ON MY WATTPAD!!

[let-the-bands-take-c0ntrol]

Pre-Show Before Pre-Show

A/N: Man it's been a long time since I wrote one of these, so please bear with me. Anyway I sent this twitter post to @iknowyoufeelme and Lina said something about this particular picture which gave me all sorts of ideas, so without further ado. . .

AshtonXFemale Reader

Warning: smut smut smut, male oral receiving, fingering, nipple play, riding, dirty talk, foul language, lil' (legit) illegal activity (public exposure), soft words*

*If I missed anything please let me know

Your laughter echoed around the arena as the sounds of drums kept playing. It sounded terrible because Ashton was trying to teach you how to play. You sat in his lap, back pressed flush against his chest as you tried to repeat the rhythm he had just showed you. You could hear Ashton suck in a breath and wince when you had missed a note. "Ugh, I can't do this at all," you sighed, a chuckle leaving your lips at how atrocious you sounded.

"Practice makes perfect," Ashton told you. He grabbed your hands and began to guide them, tapping out a tiny beat. "Aaand there," he said, hitting a hi-hat. The sound rang out loud in the venue and Ashton's hands released from yours.

"You think you can do that on your own?" he asked. You had zoned out. Eyes glued to his large hands that were just holding yours. "Y/N?" Ashton sang, wiggling his fingers in front of your face. You blinked twice then came to.

"I didn't come out here to learn the drums," you grumbled, slumping into him. The thought had left you earlier when Ashton suggested you play with him. He had been trying to practice before the boys had to go to pre-show later in the day. No one was around which allowed him to concentrate on the task. He was a perfectionist at best and even though pre-show was more of an intimate thing where they answered fan questions and jammed out for a bit, Ashton wanted it to go perfectly. You on the other hand had been fantasizing about Ashton since last night. You had gone to bed horny and woke up as such. Touring with him was fun but you didn't get a lot of alone time.

No, your intensions of coming out to the stage was something you had been craving for a long while. "What did you want?" he questioned, sending a small kiss to your shoulder blade. The gesture set your skin on fire and Ashton quirked in eyebrow at you in amusement when a tiny moan left your lips.

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A swear flew from Ashton's lips the minute your tongue connected with his cock. An almost loud throaty moan following after. "Fuck, you wanted me bad huh?" he whimpered, eyes glazing over in lust and fighting to stay open to watch you take him down your mouth. The two of you could get caught at any moment. Ashton's head fell back and a louder moan left his lips. Your tongue laid flat on the shaft of his cock, licking as you sucked up, a popping sound echoing about when you came up. Your hand wrapped around him and began to twist up and down with your movements.

"Such a dirty girl for me," Ashton gasped, hands flying to grip at your hair. "You couldn't wait for me at all?" you moaned at his words the hum of it sending a vibration around his cock and making his grip on your hair tighten. Your head lifted and you looked at Ashton through batted eyelashes as your swirled your tongue around the tip. Luckily for him, your frame was hidden by his drum set, so the minute someone walked into the venue Ashton swallowed the moan he was about to let out and held your head down. "Hey! Just getting some practice in," he managed to say, discreetly fucking into your mouth. You didn't move in fear of the person spotting you.

"Just grabbing the trash," the person stated, beginning to go around the room and check all the trash bins. Ashton's eyes never left the person and he let out a hiss. You had gotten impatient and started to bob your head to continue sucking him off. One of his hands gripped at your hair while the other began to hit the drums trying to distract the cleaner from what was going on behind it. You deep throated him and in reaction his foot hit down hard on the peddle making the loudest noise ever. Your head lifted in shock, and Ashton's eyes squeezed shut. He peeked them open just as he heard the cleaner say goodbye.

Ashton looked down at you with a shit eating grin. His hand reached out to caress your cheek. "You wanna keep sucking or you wanna ride me?" he breathlessly asked, thumbing swiping over your bottom lip. You were panting and your core throbbed at his words. Ashton pouted when you didn't answer him, his hand traveling down to grab one of your breasts. "Use your words, Sweetheart," he said, hand dipping into your shirt and pinching at your nipple.

"Ride," you choked out, already feeling your panties get damp as he continued to play with your nipples.

"Come here," he whispered. Ashton wanted to feel more than just your mouth and he was happy you wanted to ride him just as much as he wanted you. You stood up and immediately his hands gripped at your waist. You leaned down and gave him a passionate kiss. Ashton slowly lifted your dress, your ass becoming exposed to the empty audience seats. Your tongues collided with one another, fighting each other for dominance. Ashton pulled away breathless and he held you at arms length to look at you.

"Stop playing around," you whined, guiding one of his hands towards where you needed him most. His eyes darkened at your words, gaze going towards the thong you were wearing. You really were on a mission this morning if you had put that on for the day. Ashton pushed aside your thong and his strong hand gripped your thigh for just a second before his fingertips brushed against your folds. Your knees nearly buckled under his touch.

"How are you already so wet?" he asked, thumb rubbing at your clit as he slipped a finger inside. "Hhm? All this just from giving me head," he commented, adding in another finger. Your hand reached out to grip at his shoulder, eyes closing shut as he continued fingering you, going deep to the knuckles.

"Ashton, please," you moaned out, as he applied more pressure to your clit.

"I know, baby. I want you too," he grunted, "Just getting you ready." Your teeth sunk into your bottom lip, head falling back in lust.

"I want you now," you demanded. Your voice had dropped in octave and your eyes opened looking down at Ashton with a fire in them.

"Yes ma'am," Ashton said, pulling his fingers from out of you. You were quick to take off your thong, straddling him, grabbing onto his cock and stroking it a few times. You rubbed the tip between your folds, teasing the both of you. Ashton sighed and grabbed your hips, slowly guiding you down. A whimpered moan came from you and you sat still for a second allowing yourself to adjust to him filling you up. "Baby, we don't have much time," Ashton whispered, kissing at your shoulder blade again. He gave you an innocent look, not wanting to move until you were ready.

"I love you," you replied, hands cupping his face. You rested your forehead against his for a second and then kissed him briefly before slowly lifting your hips up and sinking back down. Ashton shuddered beneath you.

"I love you too," he said after a moment, eyes opening to connect with yours. His body was buzzing with excitement and he knew he wasn't going to last long not after that blowjob. You sank down onto hm once again, picking up the pace. Ashton's arm had wrapped around your waist, holding you tightly to him. He tried his best to buck his hips up into you, but without a back to his seat it proved hard. "Fuck, just like that," he moaned, lips connecting with your neck to give you a love bite. You could feel his other arm brush against your stomach and soon his thumb connected with your clit. Ashton wasn't going to last long, but he didn't want to come to his release without you getting there first. Your pace picked up and you tried your best to hold in your moans so that no one outside the arena could hear.

"Ash," you cried out, eyes rolling to the back of your head. You began to figure eight your hips, nails digging into his bicep as you felt pleasure course through you. The pressure building up in your core was growing and it wasn't until Ashton quickly yanked the front of your dress down and take one of your nipples into his mouth that you began to unfold above him. Nipple play was always a surefire way to get you to orgasm. A low whine leaving your lips as your cunt pulsed in pleasure. You kept riding Ashton, squeezing around his cock. It all happened fast. Ashton nearly slipping off the stool as he reached his own high, your back hitting against the drum set making one of the hi-hats ring loud. After a moment your movements stopped. The only sound being heard were the panted breaths between the two of you. Your head rested on his shoulder and his hands wiped sweat from your forehead. He looked down at you with a goofy grin, fighting the urge to fall asleep.

"That was wonderful," he said, hugging you tightly. You nodded in response. Spontaneous sex was always your favorite and you knew that if you wanted to get your release on tour the two of you would have to do a lot of that.

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"Ashton!" the crowd yelled out, drawing the wavy haired man out of his daydream memory.

"Huh?" Ashton blurted into the mic. His eyes looked away from your thong that had found its way near his drum kit and out towards everyone. A blush formed on his cheeks and Ashton swiped the article of clothing from off the ground before heading closer towards the edge of the stage. "Sorry, I was just remembering something from-earlier," he told them, tucking your underwear into his back pocket.

"What was it?" someone had shouted. Ashton smirked at the question and his teeth sunk into his bottom lips.

"Just some before pre-show ritual Y/N and I are thinking about starting," he told them. He glanced at the side of the stage to see you standing there wearing a different dress from earlier. You winked at him in understanding then nodded your head back at the crowd in a signal to tell him to pay attention.

"Alright, Ashton's deep in his thoughts today. Any questions for me!?" Calum teased, bumping his shoulder into Ashton's. Laughter erupted from the group and Ashton smiled at them in happiness. He wasn't joking about his comment. He hoped that the two of you could make it a tradition to have a pre-show before the pre-show from here on out. Hopefully in a more private area next time.

[burnedxpoet]

5 Seconds of Summer Smut - exposed // a.i. (on Wattpad) https://my.w.tt/0wjVjox0M5 I'm going to upload some smut about 5seconds of summer. I published them on Tumblr already but I decided to publish them here as well. If you have any requests send me a message.

[squishyocalum]

Look at that I’m alive

[hardlyharringrove]

Y/N finds a random number on the bathroom stall at her friends party. Her friends signed her up for the open mic that they do at the bar and now she’s kinda scared.. wait... did the number just respond to her?

Pt. 1/?

Requests Come Here

[vintagebeauty93]

Just a Writer looking for Inspo

so i have decided that i want to start writing blurbs/ iamgines/daddy (kink or not) and smuts on here of 5SOS

so if any of my followers have any personal request let a girl know and i will get to them as fast as i can. if you don’t have an idea but want to send me a picture prompt i can work on idea from that

[shittyfandomimagines]

ocean eyes (l.h)

Word count: 1,868

Angst galore based off of ocean eyes (Billie Eilish)

GIF creds to owner,

Blue. I never was one to fall for that color of eyes, I was always fascinated by hazel eyes or brown eyes, something about the way light hit them. They held so many layers of beauty but then I saw his eyes, the ocean blue eyes that made me melt in a whole new way.

I hated those eyes though, only sometimes though. They made me angry when they held nothing but anger like they are right now. I can only see hostility and annoyance instead of the usual serenity and fun, I didn’t like it.

“Luke, I just want to talk about this, please.” I bit onto my lip harshly, I felt so weak under his stare. “You don’t have to be here if you don’t want to, I’m not forcing you to stay. I’m not going to beg you to be a supporter in my life if you don’t want to.” He snaps and I felt tears pool into my eyes as he just stared into mine blankly.

“I don’t want to lose you, I just don’t know why you can’t spend more time with me. I just wanted to ask you to be home more and support me for a change. You just party or have sessions with the boys, I want you to be happy and successful, but what about me?” My lips quivered as I tried not to let my voice waver.

“What about you? You live like a fucking happy and successful person too! You don’t have to pay for much and you get to stay in a fucking mansion in Los Angeles! I do a lot for you and I don’t have to, what else do you need from me?”

“I only needed you, needed you home maybe. Needed your comfort when you decided to stay at Calum’s house instead so you could finish a riff. Or when I had a cold and you didn’t even want to be near a sick person so you stayed in a hotel. I guess I’m just conceded and needed you.” I stared back into his eyes with just as much anger. I didn’t like looking at him when I was angry, it was like I lost a little love when I did.

“I guess you are just conceded.” He picked his keys up from the bar and made his way to the door. “If you walk out Luke, then it’s done. I’ll be gone too and I won’t be back.” I yelled when his hand met the handle.

“Yeah, I’ve heard that one before.” He yelled back before walking out of the door, he slammed it shut to the point where I jumped at the rattling of the picture frames. One hit the floor and glass shattered, I walked around the bar to investigate which picture it was. I knew the frame was in the shape of dog paws and it must’ve been the one of Petunia, Luke, and I when we first moved in. Easier times.

I pick up the glass to ensure Petunias safety, hers mattered more than mine. “Do you think he still loves me, Piggy?” I pet her soft skin and she whines a little. I had tears hitting her skin when I hugged her, my heart broke as she whined more, I knew she missed Luke too.

I made my way upstairs and to our designated storage room, I wanted nothing more to drag my suitcase out of the closet but I couldn’t. So instead I drug the shoebox of pictures out of the cabinet, at least I could look back at better times.

I flipped through some, most of them so far had been out individual pictures of our childhood. I found the 5sos pictures of their first venue and I smiled at the fetus look, my heart warmed because of their success, something I’d always support of Luke.

I flipped through different ones until I found our first picture from their whole family gathering, the Hemmings Barbecue Party, something they had every year and I was invited when we had been together around 5 months. I had known his immediate family for so long but to get to see his cousins and aunts was so fun.

I remember them swimming in the backyard, he had come out of the water and his cousin joked about how his eyes almost matched the color of the pool. His baby cousin saying mine matched the grass instead. Oh, how those eyes hurt you.

“Piggy, you would love Australia.” I rub her eyes and I put the picture back, I turn over a few more individual pictures before getting to the day we first moved in here. I remember looking into those eyes as he kissed my cheeks softly, he was grinning ear to ear with the happiness of being here with Piggy and me.

A teardrop hit the picture slowly, my eyes heavier and heart sadder than it has been in forever. I wiped it off the picture with my shirt, I had to put the box up before I had a mental breakdown.

I wonder if I’d ever make him as happy as I did when we first moved into this house or even when we confessed our love to each other while being drunk off our asses. I didn’t think love was real until I looked into the depths of his eyes as he said it, we were holding hands as we were about to exit out of the car for an award show, he was nervous and shaky. He said it with fear and hope, his eyes twinkled when they made my happy ones, oh to be back to that day.

I finally grab the suitcase when my heart decided it was time to pack up, it was just too far along to replace all of the hurt. Too many slammed doors and raised voices. Too many jumps without being caught, knowing I had a fear of falling.

I fold my favorite comfy clothes into the suitcase as I knew I wouldn’t need fancy clothes during this type of heartache.

Once all of my sweat pants and tops were folded neatly, I zipped up the bag and put the wheels onto the floor. Piggy and I made our way downstairs to the kitchen, I pulled out a puppy pad and filled up both of her bowls.

“Petunia, I love you more than life itself. I’m going to miss and I’ll text your daddy that you’re home alone. I don’t want you starving or peeing everywhere. You’re amazing.” I kiss all over her face and I heard her whines, I knew her doggy intuitions we’re kicking in. Something is wrong. Very wrong.

I turned the main lights off as I made my way to the door, leaving a note by the key holder. I always left the lamps on for Luke to have a path whenever he came home, or if he even would come home. The note explained that I was out of his hair and that there wasn’t an apparent reason to fight for me anymore. I wasn’t worthy of a fight anyways.

Just as my hand went to reach the handle when it started to turn on its own, Luke’s lanky body busted through the door, my face only an inch from getting the shit knocked out of it.

I tried to bypass by him with my suitcase, but he yanked it out of my hands. “Where are going?” He asks and I laugh. “I told you it was the last time Luke, I’m leaving.” I surprisingly stood my ground.

“Not without a fight from me.” He crossed his arms, I took that opportunity to yank my suitcase back. “A fight is what got us here, so I’m leaving Luke. I fed Piggy and I’m headed out now. I’ll come back for any other items of mine.” I open the door once again and he slammed it shut. He took my suitcase from my hand, walked to the living room and dumped its contents onto the couch, and then walked back to me. “Luke! You’re being fucking childish.” I push his chest and move past him to my now dumped clothes.

“You’re the one leaving!” He yells back and I found myself laughing at that. “You fucking walked out when I told you I would leave if you did!” I screamed and he slumped slightly. “But I didn’t even leave the driveway! So technically I didn’t leave the house completely. I saw you turn the lights off but leave the lamps on, so I figured you were going to bed. I didn’t want you going to sleep angry so I came in to talk to you.” He was crossing his arms and huffing loudly.

“You’re not going to miss much when I’m gone, just a punching bag really.” I folded the things neatly, I was beyond annoyed and above hurt. “You’re not my punching bag.” He uncrosses his arms and I stop my movements abruptly.

When I finally look up at him I saw the tears in those ocean eyes, the ones who hurt me the most earlier. “The way you so effortlessly hurt me, looked me in the eyes knowing I was going to cry as you told me I was conceded. You walked out of that door knowing I wanted to leave and you didn’t stop there. You’re done using me.” I start to stack the clothes back into the suitcase.

“I do use you and I can’t even deny that. I don’t use you as a punching bag but I use you as a crutch, friend, lover, roommate, potential wife, and everything I need. You are my life and I know I’ve been an ass but I still love you.”

“Sorries don’t fix my sorrows, Luke. You ask me to jump and I say how high, well once you come up you only have a straight way down and you know I have a fear of falling. I fell for you and fall for you every day yet I actually thought you’d catch me. I’m done, Luke. I’m done jumping.” I zip the case up and stick it on the ground.

“I don’t want you to leave, I said hurtful things but that doesn’t mean I don’t love you anymore. You’re my girlfriend and I’m beyond in love with you. I can’t lose you.” He was bawling at this point, I hated that I wanted to punch myself for making those pretty blue eyes cry. Then again, he deserved the pain I’ve felt for a while now.

“I need space.”

I walk past him and out to my car, I couldn’t handle looking into those ocean eyes. They were more than just a color, they were a current. They were the waves crashing on the shore, showing the serenity of the oceans natural power. They held all the love and emotion for humans to see. They were riptides that sucked you up when you were trying to have fun, they fight to get to shore and to breath on your own. They weren’t a color, they were a force of earths control.