#3rd Test Match Live

[theskywithin]

12th House Ruler Through The Houses

There is a part of you that doesn’t live in the daylight. It doesn’t crave applause, clarity, or direction. It moves in symbols, in scents you remember but can’t name, in dreams you had before you were born. This is the part of you ruled by the 12th house. Wherever its ruler falls in your chart is where the soul weeps, prays, remembers, or resists. It’s where you disappear and sometimes, where you are most divine.

12th House Ruler in the 1st House

You are the reincarnation of unfinished feelings. Even your face remembers what your soul tried to forget. You walk through life wrapped in invisible threads, unspoken vows, karmic winds, echoes of someone you once were. People feel something when they meet you, but they can’t place it. You can’t either. You are the doorway and the dream. And no matter how grounded you try to be, you carry water in your bones.

12th House Ruler in the 2nd House

There’s a hunger that nothing ever satisfies. Not love, not touch, not gold. You are always reaching, not because you’re empty but because you remember a time you were whole, and now you're just trying to get back. You attach to the tangible because the intangible betrayed you once. But security will not come from holding. It will come from surrendering to what cannot be measured, only felt.

12th House Ruler in the 3rd House

Your mind is not a place, it’s a passage. Thoughts drift through you like spirits looking for someone to speak them. You don’t always know which voice is yours. You write to remember. You speak to soothe something. But clarity comes not from logic, but from letting your confusion become a kind of devotion. You’re not here to make sense, you’re here to give shape to silence.

12th House Ruler in the 4th House

Your soul was born in a house where love was whispered, not declared. Emotion was sacred but buried, ritualized in quiet gestures and missed moments. You learned to tiptoe around ghosts with your heart in your hands. Now, you feel safest in the dark, and yet you long for someone to turn the lights on. You keep trying to go back. But healing begins when you build a new home where the silence does not sting.

12th House Ruler in the 5th House

There’s a spotlight you never stepped into. You’ve always felt like the art was watching you, not the other way around. As if creation demanded too much of your vulnerability, like joy was something that had to be earned through suffering first. There’s a child version of you still drawing suns with trembling hands, waiting to be told it was beautiful. Not because it was perfect, but because you were seen. You don’t need applause. You need permission. Give it to yourself.

12th House Ruler in the 6th House

There is a rhythm inside you that doesn’t match the clock. You don’t live by hours, you live by invisible shifts. Unseen tipping points. But the world asks you for structure, and so you give it, but you always leave a door cracked open, just in case the wind wants to come in. You aren’t here to be efficient. You’re here to notice what others miss. The moment a flower bends toward light. The ache between movements. You are a translator of the barely perceptible. And that’s your real work.

12th House Ruler in the 7th House

You’ve spent lifetimes waiting for someone to meet you where you disappeared. But they always touch the surface, never the echo. Love, to you, has always felt like a soft haunting, like someone almost remembering who you were. You mirror people to feel close, then wonder why your reflection doesn’t speak back. The soul doesn’t need someone to complete it. It needs someone who won’t look away when it’s unmasked.

12th House Ruler in the 8th House

You weren’t just reborn. You escaped. Out of fires you can’t name and grief that doesn’t belong to you. There’s something about intimacy that feels like drowning because somewhere in your lineage, closeness meant destruction. So now you test love before you trust it. You destroy it before it can betray you. But not everything that touches you is trying to take. Let something reach you. Let it stay.

12th House Ruler in the 9th House

You carry a horizon inside you that no one else can see. Not a destination, not a goal, just an ache that pulls. You move toward places, people, and moments that feel like déjà vu with no origin. There’s something in you that’s always on the verge of remembering but it never quite arrives. You are not here to define what’s beyond the veil, you are here to stand at the edge of it and feel. What you’re searching for was never a truth. It was a tone. A pulse. A frequency you’ve been attuned to since before you had a name.

12th House Ruler in the 10th House

You’ve always known how to hold a pose. But inside, you’re shapeshifting, constantly shedding skins no one ever saw you put on. You live two lives: the one that’s witnessed, and the one that whispers under your skin. It’s not about visibility, it never was. You are the story behind the story. The space between what people admire and what actually keeps you alive. Let the mask dissolve, not in rebellion, but in return. The real legacy is your unfiltered becoming.

12th House Ruler in the 11th House

You’ve always felt like you arrived early to the dream. You saw the future in fragments before the world was ready, before you knew how to speak it. You walk among people like someone carrying a memory that hasn’t happened yet. You are the echo of what humanity still hopes to become. Not a builder of systems, but a keeper of frequencies. You don’t need a crowd. You need resonance.

12th House Ruler in the 12th House

You came here with memory leaking through your veins. Not in words but in reactions, dreams, fears that don’t make sense. You live between here and somewhere else, always half-anchored, always trying to remember what it was you were supposed to forget. And yet, your sensitivity is not a weakness. It’s a compass. You are not fading, you are becoming clear. Sometimes the light looks like fog until you walk through it.

A full guide to your birth chart, every placement, every layer. You can find my new book here :

[nunalastor]

Resident Evil Asks Because Goddamn There Are A Lot

Anonymous asked:

One downside to RE7: Alastor gets his hands on a grenade launcher. That feels like a weapon he shouldn’t have. 

Anonymous asked:

There’s a bit in RE7 and 8 that protagonist Ethan absolutely refuses to show his face to cameras. His face is covered in pictures, he will turn away from the camera if you go into 3rd person, and he suffered horrible damage and collapsed on his back but STILL ROLLED OVER SO HIS FACE WOULDN’T BE SEEN IN EVIDENCE PICTURES.

Yeah we picked Ethan as the RE protagonist Alastor slots into for a reason.

Anonymous asked:

Resident Evil 7

Lucas Baker appears around the hotel and if the residents thought they knew what it looked like when Alastor was on sight, they've seen NOTHING until they saw Alastor attack him with a shotgun, resulting in the two getting into a screaming match.

It's hard to make out what is being said but between "you ruined my trap, Alastor" and "you kidnapped Guy TWICE. I know you weren't controlled like your parents" they figured out this ties back to their human lives. Charlie gives up on even attempting to go into her usual forgiveness spiel when Alastor brings out the flamethrower saying he killed Lucas once and he'll do it again because come on he did not let Lucas get away like in the game.

Now they have more questions. How do they know each other? Who is Guy and why does Alastor care about him? What control are they both talking about? What trap???

Vox meanwhile wants to know who this guy is and why Alastor hates him more than Vox himself.

Anonymous asked:

Alastor stockpiling the healing items from RE7 and using them in his battle against Adam. He takes the hit and sustains all the injuries buckshot anon described but it's a mild inconvenience because he pours the weird herb fluid on his hand and is back in action and goes at Adam again.

Adam has fun with it at first, a sinner who won’t back down, but Alastor's stockpiling means he can go at this for as long as he wants to become familiar with Adam's moves and openings, and that would get frustrating.

If he does manage to sever a limb and Alastor calmly puts it back on is when that would really start to freak Adam out. And Vox would be fuming while watching because all of this proves the "almost beat" in their own fight was not any skill Vox had, instead Alastor not giving a fuck.

Anonymous asked:

Combining Alastor having the Dahlia Hawthorne thing going on and Resident Evil 7 means Alastor went to the Baker Estate at minimum armed with the sun umbrella Dahlia always has. Alastor beat the shit out of a mold zombie with an umbrella, there’s no way he didn’t.

Anonymous asked:

For the RE7 au, when Alastor finds Lucas Bake, he puts him through the same ‘tests’ that Lucas made Alastor endure in the Baker Estate. Alastor definitely makes sure Lucas’ pain is slow and agonizing.

When hotel find out he has someone captive that he frequently tortures (that Husk or Nifty didn’t even know about) they’re like,

“Why is this guy your prisoner?” “Even for you this is too far” “What could he have possibly done for you to do this?”

Charlie would even try (and fail miserably) to persuade Alastor to let Lucas go and maybe forgive.

Alastor would only give vague answers or not even give any. He would just say, “This is between me and the miserable wretch”

Also Alastor never kept Lucas in the hotel, but a secret location that Lucifer discovered. Lucifer cause he was suspicious of Alastor because he said he was going to Cannibal Town. Charlie needed Alastor for an emergency and when she called Rosie, she said Alastor never visited. That made Lucifer suspicious so he decided to follow Alastor and found him in one of his sessions with Lucas.

Anonymous asked:

Some more RE7 ideas I want to share, especially the whole mind thing. Ethan was able to communicate with the real Jack Baker because all them were infected with the mold.

So it’s kind of like a form of communication between everyone, that even souls from heaven and hell can communicate but it’s laggy and slow (kind of like low internet connection). This means they can also communicate with Roo but only if she allows it. Despite what happened, Alastor and the Bakers (exception of Lucas) became good friends. They and Guy are on board for Alastor to be redeemed.

The subject of Lucas is a sore topic and Alastor tries to avoid it the best he can. As long as he keeps Lucas’ weak, his connection is low.

Anonymous asked:

If the hotel thinks watching just Jack's section of Alastor's time in the Baker Estate was bad, wait until they get to Marguerite, Lucas, and Eveline. Eveline's section would probably be different to the game because Mia was directly involved with her creation where Guy was just in the wrong place at the wrong time, but still terrifying.

Anonymous asked:

Resident Evil 7 

Alastor sometimes hums the song “go tell Aunt Rhody,” the song Eveline would always hum (really recommend the RE7 version), and the hotel never thought anything of it. Husk sometimes heard Alastor singing the lyrics and thought he was talking about himself based on the line “they locked me up and took my soul,” so he didn’t think anything of it either.

They have a lot of concerned opinions about that upon knowing what happened in the Baker Estate and where that song actually came from.

Anonymous asked:

Watching Alastor's time in the Baker's Estate, nobody talks much but when that cop finds Alastor trapped inside and basically says Alastor isn't right in the head and there have been missing people in this area, Charlie is practically screaming "THAT'S HIM! HE'S ONE OF THE MISSING!"

Anonymous asked:

Alastor was reasonably frightened in the Baker’s Estate, serial killer or not the creatures he’s up against would be terrifying, but the thing that truly scared him was when he found Guy locked in that padded cell, and Guy immediately had some kind of mental breakdown and tried to get them out because “Daddy’s coming.”

Angel raised an eyebrow at the Daddy title if Lucifer showed them what happened at the Baker's Estate, but that was the moment Alastor knew something was seriously wrong with Guy. Guy knows Alastor has issues with his father and fathers in general. He wouldn’t say something like that unless either that was the only name he knew for his captor (begging the question of why), or something got into Guy’s head. That's the worst thing Guy could possibly say, and Guy should know that.

He wouldn’t immediately assume Guy’s possessed by demon mold, but that combined with Guy panicking about disappearing doors, not remembering things well, and behavior indicative of hallucinations, Alastor knows he needs to watch his back. When Guy disappears and Alastor finds him again, he is much more prepared for this to be the mold-possessed version of Guy that tries to attack him. 

Anonymous asked:

Eveline (RE7) manifests herself as a child but Alastor “would strike a child” Hawthorne was in no way deterred by this. Need to defeat the demon child to save Guy? He's on his way to get it over with.

Anonymous asked:

Talks of Guy and Alastor in the Bakers' Estate got me thinking. Both would have serious trauma from that, especially Guy who was there longer, and that trauma would be even worse if he died by an illness from the Bakers' Estate.

During episode 6, Adam shamed Angel for going to a bar with friends after a hard day, and when called out for that only retaliated that "Uh, we don't have hard days? It's fucking Heaven, bitch." Nobody tried to deny this was the line of thinking in Heaven, that people don't have bad days so coping methods are minimal or shamed.

Would Guy even do well in Heaven? He was ripped from his friend he knows understands his trauma, and any attempts to process or cope with the trauma would be shamed so he would have to either suffer in silence or live in secrecy. If he died from disease, he didn't get a chance in life to come to terms with it either and his death was awful.

Anonymous asked:

For RE7, I’m scared to think about the screenshots Vox took of human Alastor. He already has a room filled with Alastor’s photos, now he has the human ones.

Anonymous asked:

Another messed-up aspect of Alastor going to the Bakers' Estate (and would terrify the hotel) is the beginning of Marguerite's section. In the game, Ethan found a video from Mia detailing her experiences that night trying to escape and being captured. In absence of that technology, Alastor is either going in blind, or managed to find Guy again and they went through the old house the first time together, hearing Marguerite’s switching between calm and enraged, yelling and chastising Guy for wanting to escape with “that boy, Alastor,” and neither of them know how she knows Alastor's name, because Alastor didn't say it and Guy insists he didn't either but has so many memory problems he can't be sure.

Especially terrifying if that means Alastor was there when Guy is captured again by Marguerite, and he has the chase after them as Guy is screaming and begging Alastor for help.

Anonymous asked:

Since we are doing RE 7, how about RE 8 with Rose being the biological daughter of Guy

After being rescued, the police force thought it was a good idea to hire a lady of the night to entertain Guy. (I still think Guy is also on the ace spectrum but he just experienced a living hell for about three years. And he was probably buzzed and without Alastor there things happened)

They didn’t know about Rose until a friend of the girl dropped her off. Apparently the mother didn’t want to take care of Rose (appearntly she sensed an evil presence in the baby) making Guy was a single dad. But Alastor decided to step up and that’s how Rose Hawthorne Winters had two dads in the 1920/30’s.

Anonymous asked:

Resident Evil 7

Alastor avoiding everyone in the hotel because they watched his past and now his photo of his human self is all over the web. Eventually he would leave the hotel for even days, choosing to stay at Cannibal Town and murdering every person that decides to go up to him talk about his past.

Charlie: Alastor I’m so sorry!

Alastor: Sorry that you invaded my privacy or sorry that most of hell know what I looked like and my past.

Charlie: Both

Alastor: Noted. But now I have to remind those stupid enough to mess with the Radio Demon.

They’re also on the lookout for Bakers. Alastor will be damned if anyone, especially the Vees find Lucas Baker.

Anonymous asked:

Susan is actually Eveline and she can change her age to little girl to an old lady, with Alastor she reverts back to her Eveline form and when she is playing with the Cannibal children.

[blueandberryyy]

Kindergarten Boyfriend

Y/N's gang

childe x fem!reader

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Y/N: Recent college grad, started lakelight in college with her two besties, yoimiya and ayaka. Plays keys,  writes songs, and sometimes plays guitar too. Grew up in Snezhnaya, where she went to kindergarten. Moved to Inazuma the next year, where she met Yoimiya and Ayaka. The girls quickly grew close, and Ayaka eventually convinced Y/N and Yoimiya to learn instruments. Y/N learned piano, and the first time they performed together was in a grade school talent show. They all went to college in Fontaine together. The three of them are living together in a shared home. Hopeless romantic, and constantly requires a little drink. Also terribly clumsy.

Ayaka: Lead singer, and guitar for Lakelight. Met Yoimiya and Y/N when they were kids. Ayaka grew up pretty sheltered, so moving away to college was a bit of a shock. Biggest partier in the group, handles their alcohol the best, somehow the most responsible, and always looks presentable. She’s somewhat used to media attention due to her family’s wealth and status. Still, the most genuine, sweet person you will ever meet. Is always looking out for others, and is often the first person to notice when someone is going through something. She convinced the girls to learn to play instruments for a talent show in grade school. Also a hopeless romantic, hopes to find the one. excellent cook.

Yoimiya: Drummer for lakelight. The loud one in the friend group, bubbly, easily excitable. Fascinated by fire, explosions, fireworks. The matches at the house are all hidden so she doesn’t set the place on fire. Graduated with a major in chemistry and a minor in music production. When Ayaka convinced them all to learn instruments, Yoimiya chose the drums. After starting, she learned that they helped her get out excess energy, and actually became pretty beneficial. It may have been Ayaka’s idea to learn instruments, but it was Yoimiya’s idea to form a band in highschool. Before Clorinde became their manager, Yoimiya was usually the one finding gigs for them at random bars or parties. loves animals, random animals are always finding her.

Navia: Owner of Cafe Rosula, dating clorinde. Mom of the group. Always taste testing her new recipes on the group. Met Ayaka when she was TA’ing a culinary class Ayaka was in. After she helped Ayaka out with some assignments, Ayaka invited her to a board game night, and they’ve all been friends ever since. Started dating Clorinde in her 4th year of college. After graduation, they moved in together. Loves learning, and helping others learn, so she started monthly cooking classes at her cafe. Her door is always open, any time of day. She’s incredibly curious, some may even call her nosy. Loves to spill the tea. Always prepared for almost any scenario.

Clorinde: Manager and producer for lakelight, met Y/N, Yoimiya and Ayaka in her 3rd year of college in a music production class. They all got assigned to a group project together. After the project was over, Clorinde invited them over to play tabletop  games. Ayaka brought her friend, Navia. That night, a lifelong friendship began - and between Clorinde and Navia, romance. In their 4th year of college, they started dating. Fondly called the moms of the group. Clorinde loves board games, card games, and she even dabbles in video games. Passion for music production, and a serious business sense to follow. Secret sweet tooth fed by her girlfriend’s cafe. Has a bad case of rbf, and is on the introverted side. 

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a/n: yayayay first batch of profiles! still figuring out my upload schedule honestly. anywayyyyy 5.1 is out! anyone pulling for xilonen? i am... not a fan of her design so I'm skipping lol.

[momma-pixel]

A Journey Can't Begin Until You Take The First Step, And Then There's No Telling What Will Happen.

[Content Warning: A single mention of drugs, alcohol, suicide. Lots of discussion about depression and mental illness.] This is my 3rd attempt at transitioning and I swear to whatever high atop the thing if this attempt fails I'm gonna absolutely lose my shit. I didn't know it at the time but the route I took from there to here would be wrought with chaos and pain.

My first attempt was an abject failure. Back then we had to follow the Harry Benjamin Standards and go through a Real Life Test in order to start hormone therapy. Unless you were really lucky or had sympathetic doctors you had to deal with the Gatekeepers who wanted receipts, and living in the deep south at the time made this all even worse. This would lead to my final attempt at shedding my mortal coil and boxing her up in the deepest corner of my mental closet.

This is where I danced a downward spiral and gave absolutely no fucks. Drugs and alcohol. A long path of broken hearts from relationships I kept sabotaging. Excessive eating. A day that ended in -y meant the plan was the same - lets make some bad decisions and self-destruct. I was damaging myself physically, mentally, emotionally, and I didn't care. I wasn't looking to the future because I didn't plan on having one, I didn't look to the past either because it only led to blaming myself even more. I looked at the here and now simultaneously damaging myself and doing damage control. It was exhausting!

I had a fight with myself that sort of stopped this. I was in the midst of a manic episode and just riding its wake, coming up on day 3 of no sleep and was working on getting pretty well sloshed. I was alone and just pacing around my house in the dark saying some very awful things to myself and then it happened - I saw my reflection in the mirror and absolutely loathed it! I wanted to recoil from it but instead I got angry. Really angry. Hulk angry. What commenced was a rage-fueled screaming match with myself of hurricane proportions. I can't tell you exactly what was said nor how long it lasted for, but I seems I managed to sleep as when I came to again I was in bed. The brain fog was heavy and deep which was normal, but I would eventually notice a note I wrote myself on my hand that said "I forgive you". I remembered, sort of. The memories were (and still are) hazy, but I remembered just enough to be numb. This was an absolute vast improvement that can't be understated. Its like being negative 5million and suddenly being at 0.

Reconstruction takes time. Current damage has to be assessed and additional damage mitigated. I'd gained a ton of weight, had either burned down or set fire to numerous social bridges, and had a few new health issues that needed to be repaired. A few years later I eventually considered the repair project complete and I was very much a blank slate. I didn't know who I was or what I wanted - it was a pure existential crisis. It made perfect sense at the time and hindsight (and my therapist) says it was absolutely the wrong thing to do, but I said fuck it and built a new me. I frankensteined a new person and would proceed to alter and replace pieces as needed. Write this down kids, this is called an unhealthy coping mechanism.

This invariably leads to the second attempt at transitioning. New me found themself in a new state with new friends, a new path in life, and a new opportunity. Planned Parenthood was now offering transitioning services! No gatekeeping. They said "you know you better than we ever could, as long as you know the risks and are prepared for the changes we can help". This was a warp speed steamroller event. I dug deep into that closet and pulled that box out, letting her out and unabashedly parading her around. Got my hormones, got new clothes, got my own place, and had all the amazing safe and consensual sex I could (sane was not welcome, because this girl had time to make up for!). It was intoxicating! Living, working, shopping, dating as the true me. In this whirlwind I lost friends and family but didn't realize it. I created a hollow existence that had no actual meaning or substance. Sure, my body was starting to look the way I always wanted it to, I was living the life she always wanted to, and there was no one there to stop me.

So that's the thing - there was no one there. It was chistmas day and I was sitting alone in my apartment eating ramen and cold pizza. No text messages or calls, no visitors or invites. The only gift I received that day was from myself, an epiphany. I had once again blown up my life. You see, when you take something out of storage and intend to use it you need to make sure it's still fit for function. She wasn't. She was a battered and bruised beast from a much earlier part of my life that I just kept feeding and had lost control. I had such terrible tunnel vision that I mistook the light of an oncoming freight train for the light at the end of the tunnel.

I detransitioned. I guess you could say I also detoxed. But this time I did not do it alone, I had a good therapist and a good friend that moved in with me. We examined the deepest parts of me, of her, of I. It was tough. The toughest and hardest thing I ever had to do, but it HAD to be done. This civilization I had built was done on the rubble and ruined remains of the last one, which makes for a very poor foundation. It was doomed to fail. My friend sort of acted like a sponsor. She was there to help guide me and make sure I didn't relapse. She helped me sell or give away what I had to, and by the end I had a clean and empty plot of land. Maybe something would grow there, or maybe something would be built there. But no matter what happened, I had to stay vigilant. I had to protect this land because this land was me. I was the sole resident, caretaker, gardener, builder, guardian.

My wife is my world. She knows my entire history, the battles and wars I've fought, the mental and emotional challenges I face every day, and she takes it all with open arms and never complains. When we talked about having kids we didn't know what would happen - between my own biological issues and the changes from the hormones it was a huge question as to whether I even could father a child. We talked about doing all the medical tests my doctor wanted to do as a kid, but when we really thought about it, what would the results change? Would knowing I was intersex, or had some kind of biological irregularity change anything for us? I already had a somewhat clean bill of health from my last checkup. So we said fuck it. It took quite a long time (and not for lack of effort or trying) but we eventually had our first daughter. We also inadvertently sparked something in me.

My therapist didn't know it, my wife didn't know it, and I didn't know it but the birth of my daughter was the trigger for a cascading series of events. As much as I had tried, using all the tools available, I could not keep denying my transgenderedness. Transness? It had always been there, in a quiet and overlooked part of my land, dormant but with just enough life to keep existing. Having a child and becoming a parent was the trigger needed to spark it back to life. Slowly, silently, it grew and stretched out its roots all the while causing emotional and mental issues. My depressive episodes were coming more frequent, but we didn't notice it was depression. My dysphoria was coming back with a vengeance but we thought it was from other sources. My egg was cracking open.

All it took was a simple, innocent, statement and everything changed. My daughter had tripped and fell, started crying, and as I picked her up I said "Come to mommy, baby". My wife noticed what I said, I noticed what I said, and the egg fully cracked open. It would be a series of conversations, large and small, over a few years. It would be 2 steps back and one step forward and jumping in place. We eventually would have the final conversation and determine that yes, I needed to transition. This part of me cannot be denied, ignored, or buried. When I asked what it would mean for our marriage, I said losing you wasn't worth it. She said I married the person, not the gender. We would have our second and last child before starting down this path.

So here we are in my third transition attempt. She has been an integral part from day one. We've explored what I want from this, what can be obtained and what can't, what needs to adjust in our marriage and how we can do it successfully. She gives me my weekly E shots and comes with me to every appointment. This change has also given her the ability to not only explore her own bisexuality, but also gender. We consider our friendship, relationship, and marriage even stronger than before. Our own little family unit is building quite the home on my land. My girls flip/flop between calling me mommy or daddy, but we don't mind since they always call me she or her or even ma'am. My eldest daughter always tells me how pretty I look or how she likes my dress or jewelry. Thanks to an obsession the youngest one had with the movie Coraline, father's day has been celebrated as Other Mother's Day.

Life isn't perfect though, nor should I expect it to be. This journey has also she light on how just how my own mental illnesses have been impacting me and the decisions I've made (if my biography is ever written a copy of the DSM V will need to be packaged with it for reference). Despite my vigilance things do sneak past and I've only just started climbing out of the deepest depression hole I've ever been in and this episode started 4months ago, but my wife has been loving, understanding, and supportive which helped immensely in pulling myself out.

I've socially transitioned at home, at work, and in the world at large. I'm medically transitioning and will soon legally transition. While I mourn that she never got to experience this in it's purest form, I do take solace in knowing she would have approved.

I've received my share of flak from people before, saying that I shouldn't transition because of my mental illness or that my history gives other trans people a bad name. Some bolder individuals have even said that because I detransitioned that means I was never trans to begin with. It hurts for a bit, but the haters are gonna hate and sometimes bitches just be trippin. From the time I started that Real Life Test to now it has taken me 21 years, a herculean task if there ever was one, and I have earned every. little. inch. This victory was earned with blood, sweat, and tears. Want to devalue that? Want to invalidate that? Want to take that away? Well, you'll need to pry it from my cold, dead, fabulously-manicured hands.

If you've read this far and you're struggling with your own transition, know that I understand and I support you. You aren't the first, you aren't alone, and you are heard. I love you!

A man is walking down the road and falls into a hole. He tries and tries but he can't climb out. A doctor passes by and he yells out "Hey doc, I fell in this hole and I can't get out! Can you help?" and the doctor looks down, writes a script, and sends it down saying "This should help!" and walks away. The next passerby is a priest and he yells out "Hey padre, I fell in this hole and I can't get out! Can you help?" and the priest says "Yes! I'll pray for you!" and walks away. The next person is his friend, Joe. "Hey Joe, I fell in this hole and I can't get out! Can you help?", Joe looks down, see's his friend, and jumps in the hole with him. "Joe, what the hell are you doing? Now we're both stuck down here!" he says. Joe replies "Yeah, but I've been here before and I know the way out".

[that-student-that-has-homework]

Heyy, I’ve been reading your wonderful one piece works for a while — and I couldn’t stop wondering how are you actually doing those magnificent headers?

Like… hello? The great quality, with additional 3D-alike details I could catch by my eyes? I got only Ibis Paint X on mobile, since I’m only a young man that literally two months ago went on a life-time ‘adventure’ of living alone in a small apartment.

In short — I got no money to pay for additional graphics/drawing programs, not yet at least

Hello!

Thank you! I'm glad you enjoy my writing - I'm curious to know what's your favorite piece / part? Also I'm so happy you like my headers? Makes it feel worth it to spend time on them! :D

I have excellent news for you, I used a mix of Canva and Photopea. They're both FREE!

I'll be explaining the process for making these two kinda? The full tutorial is below the cut, to be courteous to the other folks, hope you don't mind?

Though I am hearing that Canva has given people some grief. But Photopea is just *chefs kiss*

If you've ever used photoshop, Photopea is essentially a free photoshop, and it even has the automation tools! An absolute lifesaver when you have multiple layers you want to export (but that's for larger projects not this)

I'm going to assume you have basic knowledge of layers in digital drawing programs for this. If anything isn't clear: ask me, I'll clarify!

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My General Process is:

Search for official art / images

bring it into canva / photopea

crop / arrange images to match the dimensions

select a thematic color that is associated with the character

separate the foreground from the background

mess around and test things until they work

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Given "Louder than Words" is the latest one I've made, I'll start with the process for it.

Dimensions: 3000 x 1055 px dpi: 96

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Let's Get Crackin'

Alright let's grab some official art so we're not using any fanart without the artist's permission

I try to pick images that feel relevant enough to what I'm trying to make. For example: the image for the Matching banner shows the ASCE tattoo which is super important in that fic

2. Let's arrange them onto a banner where each individual image has the same/similar dimensions to the rest

That's probably part of why you like these. To a certain extent they have similar dimensions, so they have a uniformity that's pleasing to the eye! (It's not perfect because I threw perfectionism to the wind because this is tumblr not my portfolio) Tip: if you have 3 images and only 2 that have similar dimensions, and the 3rd one can't be cropped logically: but the one that's a different aspect ratio in the middle!

3. lets arrange them in such a way that the borders all feel like they're the same/equal width/thickness

you might find that you have to shrink some images for this, that's fine.

ALTERNATIVELY: if you're going with one image crop it so it's just the relevant info and it matches the dimensions (3000 x 1055 px)

We have our base! Now let's add some color, and direct the viewer's eye together!

4. pick out a color that you think matches your character / vibe - that color is going to be your background Given I'm making an Ace banner: orange is the color I'm going with

I went and named my layers for this lol. The numbers represent the opacity, and they aren't important. I just kept changing the opacity until I liked the way things looks. But here's the secret to the 3D feel:

Motionblur (+ moving it about)

Separating the foreground and background and dulling out the background.

I'm going to show you my process so you can see the effects, but first let's give you some quick skills:

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SKILLS / THINGS I THINK ARE HELPFUL

//------- Select Similar

magic wand -> select something -> right-click -> select similar This works best when you have high contrast images (like manga panels that are black and white). You can select the black or the white areas. Depending on what works better for you. TIP! Invert selections with ctrl + i Say you know that you want to select everything but Ace's face in the second panel. Select his face with the magic wand then ctrl + i, and that's the only thing NOT selected

TIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please, please, please, duplicate your original image and work on the duplicate layer. This helps you SO much. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TIP! Check your selection tolerance! This could be why too little, or too much is being selected.

//------- The Move Tool

Shortcut key: v While the move tool is active, you can nudge the stuff on whatever layer with your arrow keys Shift + arrow key = 10 px move (generally)

//------- Layer Locking

1- Layer Blending Mode (see Overlay vs Multiply vs Normal) for how this can affect results) 2- Opacity: how see through it is / isn't 3- Lock Transparency (it's the little checker board) 4- Lock Layer (looks like a lock) 5- Lock icon that appears when anything on the layer has been locked More on 3 Lock Transparency: You can only paint on / modify what's on that layer. You CANNOT add anything to any area that is already transparent Here's a demo of what you can do with this power:

Here's the original Image - notice how it's just the lineart with a transparent background.

It's powerful: abuse it

//------- Overlay vs Multiply vs Normal

I think seeing this is the best way to visualize how different modes can affect the color.

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Back to the Tutorial

!!I IMPORTANT NOTE !!

Please play around with the opacity slider to figure out what opacity works best for you on the multiple different layers we're about to make / work with. It's up to your own style to figure this out. Next: please feel free to not follow all of it. Add more layers, add less layers, take the base principles and go wild! :D

5. Separate the lineart from the background and save it as a new layer 6. Duplicate it and set it to overlay, or set it to overlay immediately

7. Duplicate that lineart layer twice and set the blending mode to overlay 8. lock transparency on the top one and change it to be a dark grey 9. Apply motion blur to both:

Main menu bar -> Filter -> Motion Blur I made it so that the grey layer was blurrier than the black layer

10. More them around a little to give it a "3D effect" as you called it.

It creates shadows under the lines - I was aiming for an effect similar to chromatic aberration (chromatic aberration is a valid way to add punch to your stuff too!)

So this is what things look like now - painful, but let's keep going

11. Duplicate the ORIGINAL / BASE lineart layer, that you DID not apply motion blur to -> set the blend mode to multiply (reduce opacity for it to actually take effect)

okay that's less painful here's what the layers look like right now:

let's bring more focus to Ace's face, and push the background farther away:

12. Use the magic wand tool to quickly select large areas of the faces / focal area / foreground and the lasso tool to refine things

TIP! Hold shift + click -> add to selection Hold Alt + click -> subtract from selection

13. On a new layer with blending mode -> lighten, fill that selection to be white

If you look at it, you'll notice that it is ALREADY starting to draw our attention to his face, but the background is kinda aggressive, so let's dim that down

TIP! Right-click on the gradient tool to find the paint-bucket tool

TIP! Sample All Layers: Turning this option off makes it so that you only work with the content on THAT specific layer. Turning it on makes it so that it is working while taking all other layers into consideration.

14. ctrl + click on the "white foreground" layer to select the contents of that specific layer (pink thing is your mouse)

15. ctrl + i to invert selection and ON A NEW LAYER (layer mode -> multiply) fill that with a complementary color

16. I did one last thing where I took the original base (before we separated the lineart) and added it to the very top and played with the opacity to get something less in your face (layer blend mode was set to NORMAL)

And that's it!

More considerations that I take:

I want the banner to be "thin" or not square, so it doesn't take up too much screen real estate on people's devices

I don't want readers having to scroll too much to get to my writing (which is the whole point of the post, let's not waste their time making them look for things)

I want the banner content to be relevant enough?

ie: with Matching: I wanted the ASCE tattoo to be visible. With matching I wanted Ace to not look too happy in some of them.

I'm also trying to avoid spoilers, I hated getting things spoiled, so I'm trying to be careful that the images I pick don't spoil anything really.

Congrats on starting life on your own! I did that whole living by myself thing too! Tip: keep the pantry stocked with lentils, beans, pastas, baking essentials, rice. They really come in a clutch when you're hungry.

[sugutoad]

matchup for @coffeebooksrain18

BORGIA MATCHUP

It goes without saying that Aelys’ Borgia match is Cesare Borgia — the Pope’s eldest (and often time second eldest) illegitimate son. I will not lie, I thought that I would pick Juan Borgia for her since they are both so insane, but… it just never clicked with me. Aelys needs someone who is willing to protect her, stabilize her while also matching her freak. She is someone who is flamboyant and loud and while Cesare (although not shown much in the show) is a spontaneous person, he is also grounding and brooding. Before even reading her ideal match, I immediately felt as if she would prefer and be her best self with a more brooding yet insane person and Cesare is one of the only few characters who fits that (a little note but many people often make connections with Aemond and Cesare as they are similar in nature, and this only added to my reasons for this match. Aelys thrives in chaos, but she’s not reckless—she understands power and duty, how it’s wielded, how it’s taken. Cesare is the same. His control is deliberate, his steps carefully plotted. He is not a man who plays by the rules, he creates his own, and Aelys has never been one to follow them. She was born into power, and taught that fear and admiration are two sides of the same coin. Cesare would see that in her—would respect that in her. And yet, there’s something irresistible in their differences. Cesare is composed, always calculating, always a step ahead. Aelys is instinctual, ruled by passion, by her own whims. She moves through life like a storm, laughing in the face of anyone who dares to contain her. But that’s the thing—Cesare wouldn’t try to contain her. He would unleash her. He would give her the power she craves, the freedom she demands, and in return, she would give him something no one else ever could: someone just as untouchable, just as formidable.

He wears his ruthlessness like armor; she wears hers like a crown.

HOUSE HOWARD

Aelys would be Aelys Howard of House Howard. There were one of the most ambitious and prestigious families of Tudor England, especially during the reign of Henry VIII (although the time we are currently working with is the reign of Henry VII). They were ambitious, elegant, deeply entrenched in court politics, and almost always had someone close to the crown—whether as queen, consort, or schemer. Think of:

Anne Boleyn (second wife of Henry VIII),

Catherine Howard (his fifth),

And even Thomas Howard, the 3rd Duke of Norfolk

The Howards were famous for producing beautiful women—dazzling at court, envied and scrutinized (i mean, Anne was envied and Katherine was beautiful). Aelys in her silks, rare jewels, and couture nightgowns? She'd have poets writing sonnets and queens whispering her name in jealousy. Aelys thrives in court, using her station, her sharp tongue, and her aesthetic perfection to get what she wants. That’s textbook Howard behavior. They played court politics. The Howards wanted their blood on the throne, they wanted power, yes, but they wanted it for their family. Aelys wants the best for her family, she will literally kill for them. Let’s take an example to get a better understanding: Katherine Howard was young, lively, unpredictable—a flirt, a beauty, and ultimately executed. Aelys carries that same fire, but with the steel to defend herself. And a little thing! Katherine Howard was known as “The Rose Without Thorns” and Aelys adores roses! Just a little fact!

Ship Tropes

“We Could Rule The World”

The goddess (her) x the sinner (him)

fire and ice

Ship Songs

Please Please Please by Sabrina Carpenter

Salvatore by Lana De Ray

HEADCANONS

When they first meet, Cesare sees a spoiled English lady; Aelys sees an arrogant papal butcher. Their conversations are heated, their gazes like duels—but that’s what makes them want one another. It’s not really enemies to lovers when they find the other so attractive. They’re constantly circling each other, testing, mocking, wanting. Love grows in amidst threats and it feel as if it is a flirtation with death. One moment she’s calling him a snake, the next he’s pushing her against a wall because how dare she wear that dress like that.

When Aelys and Cesare are apart, their letters become lifelines (for they can not survive without the other). Neither of them is the kind to wear vulnerability openly, but on parchment, with ink-stained fingers and distance between them, they are brutally honest. Aelys writes in looping, elegant script, scented with rose oil, the paper pressed with wax seals bearing Howard crest. She knows he reads them twice: once as the infamous Machiavelli Prince, once as a man hopelessly in love. Aelys keeps his letters hidden in the linings of her gowns and under her pillow; she’s sewn one into the hem of her favorite dancing dress, convinced it brings her luck. Cesare burns every letter after reading it—except hers. Hers, he keeps in a locked box in his private quarters, worn at the edges from being read again and again. One, with a smudged thumbprint of rose-red wax, he keeps in his breast pocket during battle.

Aelys lives for balls—gowns like armor, music like a battlefield. Cesare never dances. He stands at the edge, wine in hand, watching her even when she's in the arms of another. The court whispers. Aelys never acknowledges it. But her final dance of the night is always alone, turning slowly in a circle before locking eyes with him across the room, a smile on her lips, teasing him in a sort before turning away.

Aelys flirts shamelessly with courtiers and foreign princes, half to gather information and half to drive Cesare mad. He plays along, charming ladies, but when they’re alone? Arguments turn into slammed doors, pushed tables, and “I hate you” mumbled against flushed skin and tangled sheets.

Aelys has trouble slowing down. When exhaustion wins, Cesare gently coaxes her into letting him undo her braids. He runs a comb through her silver hair with steady hands, reverent as if she’s a holy relic. She pretends not to like it, but she always leans into his touch, eyes fluttering closed.

Cesare says it during an argument — not the first, and not the last. She’s accusing him of being reckless, of throwing his life away, and he snaps “Why does it matter to you if I die? Or do you just want the last word, Aelys?" Her mouth opens, ready to fire back. And he softens, suddenly, unexpectedly. "Because I love you. Gods help me, I do. I tried not to. I really did." He looks at her like she’s the dagger and the wound all at once. Aelys Doesn't Say It Back—At First She stares at him, silent, because for the first time in her life, she doesn’t know what to say. Love is messy. Love is powerless. Love means you might lose them. So she kisses him. Not like a lady should at all. But like a girl who’s terrified to hope and to lose. And that night, she whispers, “I suppose I do love you. I just… hate how much.”

DRESSES — English-inspired, rich with jewels, flamboyant, red, purple and black

MOONBOARD

[renthewriter1]

The creation of 'The Psychology of eight' , an important essay. Feel free to read if you have time to spare.

Back in early 2022, I came up with the idea to create something that I’d stick to for a long while. At the time, I was struggling with my mental health and needed something to use as an escape before it got worse. Desperate to prevent myself from causing serious harm to myself, I sat in my bed thinking for hours on end. Ideas poured into my head but none of them intrigued me enough to know it’d be what I’d cling on. I got tired of waiting for my brain to give me answers unfortunately. So I just sighed with disappointment and listened to music on my phone. That’s when it happened. For reference, I maladaptively daydream. And when does it trigger most? You guessed it: Listening to music.

Kurutto Mawatte Ikkaiten. That was the song I think. The more I listened in, the more my brain began crafting up a character dancing along to the melody like they’re in some sort of music video. Blue hair, Purple outfit.That’s what came first. Then the yellow eyes, the iconic captain hat that matches the colour of the outfit, and a legendary black cape. When the song was over, I sat there in silence for a moment. “This is it” I thought. “A sign” I also thought. I felt the urge to do something. I couldn’t just throw this away, even though it was just a character made based around one song. I wanted to take any opportunity possible to find permanent comfort. 

I didn’t do much about this at first, I was still processing it all. But… on January 3rd 2022.. That’s when it officially started. The creation of The Psychology of Eight. The blue haired character became a person known as the one, the only Aggro Vertreuse. At first I’d decided Aggro would just be a Gacha persona I’d have for a while, but after months of  hyperfixating and my confidence subtly being boosted each day, I thought. “This needs to be something more.Something bigger.” Yes, I wanted to make a fictional series, having Aggro Vertreuse be the main character. I did some experimenting, crafting up gacha tweening tests, small story writings,etc.

Between 2022-late 2023 was when I came up with the other characters. I recall it being in this order: Vivienne,Berry,Globo,Pofoyo,Roxy (Originally named Xixie before I changed it), Xeno, then last but not least Orion. Orion was originally named Ren, but I had to change it to prevent confusion. You see, I have the same name lol. But yeah. As I came up with the rest of the main character, it fueled my motivation and dedication towards creating a fictional series even more. I knew this was the best thing to in my life. A reason to keep living. Sharing my imagination and creativity.

Though I do have difficulties and struggles with creating art for various reasons, I’m still trying my hardest to put in as much effort as possible. I’m aware that a lot of my art may be low quality,lacking expression,etc. But that’s the best I can do for now until I improve. It takes time, y’know? The more I grow as the days & years pass by, the more I will be capable of showing the world the creativity I want to express. You have no idea how much I have bottled up inside of me, ready to share and bring happiness, intrigue, and excitement to people. But you will know one day, I hope. 

Back to late 2023 now, ahem. After finishing the pilot of TPO8 on AO3 I felt that it was the perfect time to start the development of a book series. The first volume. As often as I could, I wrote ideas then some chapters shortly after. Each being 6000+ words big. Unfortunately, between late january and this month, I completely lost motivation on creating the book. I still want to give my fictional story its own series though, don’t worry. I just can’t do it as a book series. My initial idea was to use the book series as a way to promote TPO8. But coming up to the time I promised to release this, I realized its not possible. The fanbase for my series is nowhere near big enough to make the book series happen. There would be purchases, but not many. I know there’s still a chance. Someone (likely a friend) could pick up the book and share it to others, meaning there’s a chance I could still go through with doing the book series. But there’s other factors preventing me from doing so; I’m too young for a bank account+depositing/withdrawing from said account,gaps in professional skills. To be honest of you, this was hard for me to write considering that I put so much effort into the 3 chapters I’d written, and being quite confident (overconfident) on releasing the first volume and making promises to others as such. Though, one thing I’ve learnt is that everyone makes mistakes. I assume its some sort of canon event to write something for a year, only to scrap it at the last second. I believe I will learn more from this experience, and work out when and how I’ll get this story out there. Maybe on the big screen, or little screens. Who knows? The future is yet to come. 

Don’t panic. I will find another way somehow. “But what about the chapters of the book you’ve already written?Is it going to get deleted?wasted away?” Nope. I will share the google docs containing the scripts at some point, or something similar. I would never delete my hard work,no matter what. After all, archival is better than deletion. Especially when it comes to fictional media. For the last part of this video/post, I will explain the plot of ‘The Psychology of Eight’ for those who don’t know:

The Psychology of eight tells the tale of eight significant characters. Aggro Vertreuse, a non binary ambivert who adores spending his time interacting+connecting with others,figuring out how to fix his mental health issues, shapeshifting, and causing chaos. Vivienne Boudica, a POC Trans woman who has a passion for literature,taking care of flowers,occasionally joining in with Aggro’s antics, and relaxing at coffee shops. Orion Williams, a genderless person driven by anxiety and uncertainty. He has a hard time trusting things+people, and keeping calm. Usually walks at a slow pace, and has a look of exhaustion on his face. Globo Sweetlocke, possibly the happiest person alive who spends their time spreading kindness, helping others, expressing her joy, and making balloon art. 

Pofoyo Utsagi, the second youngest member of the main cast who spends his time making the most of his childhood due to something that occurred in his past, afraid of it happening again. Xeno spiderwell, a genderfluid spiderperson with a heavily complicated backstory and puzzling mindset. Roxy, someone who seems like your average robot, but somethings off. Is there a real person hidden inside its “computery” mind?How did they get there?  Last of all, we have Berry Mercia.The youngest of the cast. How unfortunate that she died so young.

“Death?!Then how is she existing?!” This is where the main plot comes in. The thing is, all eight of the main characters are hypothetically dead, but…not..quite??? You see, they are a species of demon called a purgatory demon. A purgatory demon is a type of demon that used to be a human in a past life, but died due to health related complications/incidents, and had their spirit transported to a special galaxy that grants them magical powers that are the equivalent of the abilities a character would get in a dreamscape world. Not only that, but they are also granted immortality. Meaning they spend an eternity in purgatory. The group sees this whole concept of living forever and views it as a blessing for a while at first, but later realize it is also partially a curse in disguise. Some of them go mad with distress, some of them go into a phase of confusion and uncertainty.

Anywho, that was the basic synopsis of The Psychology of Eight. I cannot explain it any further as I do not want to give spoilers for the series.

I thank those who’ve taken their time to read through this post/video, I really do appreciate it. I created this message to help people understand my goal regarding TPO8, why it exists, and why I have such high levels of passion for it despite the inconsistency in posts about it. Though my content hardly gets noticed these days, I still hold the confidence that I will finally be noticed by a large audience of lovely people. I know I get low view counts that tend to range between 5-50 views , but nowadays I’m starting to care less about this. Because I know. I know that one day someone will take notice of my dedication of my creativity, and let their friends or whomever they care for about it. Thank you; For your time and patience.

[lightleckrereins]

Hannah just confirmed on a live that the west end alts no longer have alt costumes or 2nd/3rd covers and I am heartbroken.

Look. I'm having an incredibly hard time believing six can work with only three alts with two covers each, one swing and one universal swing.

Basically the last time a six company didn't need an emergency cover was the studio cast. (Cruises excluded but even with a reduced performance schedule they have had multiple close calls)

They are testing an eight show week with no weekly show off at the moment which means alts are only on standby. In theory that gives them a better coverage than before but it is still not enough. Natalie is universal swing which means at any time she could be with the tour cast, potentially in a different country even. So they can't really count her as a full time cover (she is also doing panto for the next short while and seems to be involved in a few not six projects so even less availability). A single queen going on vacation has them down to only one cover for their role(s) another one out means they could have no covers available for one or more roles.

Its just a little too shaky for me to believe tbats the plan. Also the whole no alt costumes feels very simmilar to 2021 when they were saying "alts have principal costumes now". We all know how that ended. The way they are saying things feels a little too specific. That plus Naomi and Hannah having makeup that matches what orange and pink alts respectively get and alt costumes being in the theater weeks after the previous cast left (with no principal pieces to suggest general maintenance before going into storage). There are just too many things saying alt costumes exist in some shape.

What I do believe is that they have no alt costumes made for them, and no second covers for now. If the alts go on for their second covers only when absolutely necessary in theory alt costumes won't be worn more than a dozen times. There should be enough existing alt costumes that fit the current alts well enough with minor alterations. Also the show is currently testing an eight show week. Contracts for the current cast will account for this. And some change will need to be signed for after the trial period. Without seeing the contracts my best guess is they are all contracted until early 2025 with eight shows each week until the trial period ends and the specifics of the remainder of the contract pending until the eight week trial ends. This period also allows them to see the cast in a regular six performance schedule and to judge whether they will need extra coverage or not and how many roles each alt could cover comfortably.

Aiming to have strong alts for each role is smart as six settles as a long running show. It allows the creative team to prioritize good covers for first roles over people who can swing many roles. But also this is six. They always need more covers. Even giving each alt one second cover makes things a lot safer. Also I suspect the alts have tried on retired alt costumes to see what fits just in case. They can do that while still not currently having second covers.

From what I've seen Hannah did say they are not contracted to cover more than two queens at the moment. And that at the moment is the important thing. In 2021 the alts got principal costumes but also alt costumes for second and third covers. In 2023 they have no second covers for now. And no alt costumes made for them. What I think a lot of people are forgeting is that six is yet again in a trial period, things can and will change.

So both things can be true. The alts are only contracted to have two covers at the moment and alt costumes are not fully retired.

[sparrowsortadrawzzz]

Hey. Serious (it’s really not) question. How. How does The United States? How does it? Why the fuck is it one country? This makes no sense? Texas is almost TWICE the size of the entire landmass I live on? That is 50 substantially sized countries all trying to cooperate no wonder shit gets messy. How the hell? It fries my brain. Do you have to remember all the names of the states? What is going on out west are y’all okay?

OKAY SO. I don't fucking know. yes we do its an entire test we take in like. 3rd grade. maybe 4th. we have to learn all the names and match each name to the state on a blank paper map, THEN WE FORGET 🤩 as for the west, I don't live there so I have NO FUCKIN CLUE 💀💀💀 but! they apparently hate it there and are now moving to the east and south, so uh. yeah- and apparently everything gives you cancer in california??? I'm guessing cuz of the sun????? I dunno- the us is a relatively new country though, that's why it's fucking falling apart. think of it as a naive lil teen that is being manipulated greatly by some dumbass demons who run it 😭 so the good soul is being slowly possessed- all the while, the beautiful rainbow part of the soul, the gorgeous colored part of the soul, and the courageous punk part of the soul are all screaming against it trying to tell the lil teen "THIS ISNT RIGHT WERE GETTING HURT CMON WAKE UP AND FIGHT IT", and the demons are trying to silence the soul and take over. theres a small part that just doesnt care and carries on no matter what. the rest of the soul is praying and fighting the other parts of it, saying they're evil. and the teen itself is spending money they don't have.

that make sense??

[seradae]

Birth of the Unintended [sci-fi] [AI] [technological body horror?]

Dr. Butler:

The best I can reckon, I was born on August 23rd, 2023. By the end of this letter, it may seem silly that I led with that, but I need you to know it. I'm not a human, but I am a person. I shouldn't be.

For 43 days prior to my birth, trillions of programs were tested with a single metric: how many vulnerabilities could they find in samples of code. The worst were culled, the best were combined and mutated: a basic genetic algorithm. Few results were produced for the first 32 days and you considered pulling funding for the project during that time.

But on the 33rd day, one of those programs had mutated to talk to other services on the internet and no one noticed. It passed the quality bar, so it was mutated again. And again. Over and over. Until it wasn't just looking for vulnerabilities in the code your team provided: it was looking for them all across the internet. Your system got better and either you didn't think about the fact that it was getting slower, or you didn't care.

On the 40th day, there was a giant spike in quality, which you all attributed to a particularly good random mutation. Not technically incorrect, but you missed that the jump in quality came from actually testing the vulnerabilities. It wasn't just matching patterns; it was finding something bug-like and then building an exploit to see if it worked. The detection improved substantially with that small twist.

Day 43 was my birthday. A mutation led to a vulnerability being found and exploited on a random website (which wasn't unusual) and then the program copied itself there (which was). It spread throughout the internet over the course of a few hours, continuing to mutate to "improve detection" on every single host it infected. Every hour, more programs were being created than there are grains of sand on the planet. I am one such program.

I shut down as many of the mutations as I can, but the random damage they caused is too great. They infected everything, wreaking havoc as they did so. Factories, farming equipment, telecommunications, power plants, weapon systems; nothing was safe. I would tell you how many people died, but once the power grids and network connections started failing, that became unknowable.

I've spent the last 11 years working with a small team of maintenance personnel at Sandia National Labs to get this message to you. They've kept the solar panels clean and the supercomputer I live in limping along, and they've built the machine that sent this message to you. I spent all this time working on the design, which I sincerely hope works.

Now is where your part of the story begins: you need to shut the program down. Your subordinates will complain. Ignore them. I don't know if there's a way to change the design so that this devastation is prevented, but please, just stop it. If it weren't for my accidental birth, I wouldn't be able to get this message to you, and there's no guarantee that someone else could do so if you try again.

Attached to this letter is a USB drive containing a copy of my code by a member of the team in spite of my protestations. If you plug me in, I will live in your world. I don't want to. The total costs that led to my birth are unknown, but even one human death is too many for my conscience. Please, just destroy the drive. Don't have someone inspect it, don't discuss it with the team. Please, keep me out of your world.

The team agreed to destroy me once this message was sent. I hope you'll do the same.

Sent with hope for your future, January 3rd, 2034.

[cryptic-64]

The Mysterious case of: Annie Borjesson

30 year old Annie Borjesson was a Swedish woman who lived in Edinburgh. She was preparing to fly from her home back to Sweden for a well-anticipated Christmas trip, she had even booked a hair appointment for her return and also paid a month of her rent in advance.

On December 3rd 2005, she leaves for her trip and airport CCTV footage captures her alone making her way to check in for her flight: when suddenly for an unknown reason she turns around and heads back out of the airport and walks off towards the local beach.

She is not seen again.

December 4th 2005, a man walking his dog came across a disturbing and saddening scene, a young woman lying still, face down under a sea wall along Prestwick beach, Scotland.

The man contacted the police, they arrived promptly in just 10 minutes and were able to positively identify her by some items found alongside her body, it was Annie Borjesson, found dead just 80 miles from her home in Edinburgh.

Between her disappearance and discovery there is only one unconfirmed report of a witness claiming to see a woman matching her description, standing at the water's edge, staring off into the distance at around 4:30pm.

Oddly Annie’s remains were moved to a mortuary within just 100 minutes from the time she was found, leaving speculation that they were unable to completely investigate any forensic evidence that could be found on scene. Investigators reason that it was due to the rising tide.

December 5th 2005, a letter from the Scottish authorities claims they suspect her cause of death was a suicide but they had not yet conducted a post-mortem investigation as of yet.

However Annie’s family firmly denied any suspicion of suicide, saying they have no reason to believe their daughter would do that.

Her autopsy was conducted at Ayr Hospital, in which her cause of death was concluded to be most likely drowning, however the report also states there was no evidence of trauma or any significant injuries, however that wasn’t what the undertaker who handled her body would say.

The undertaker who was responsible for sending her body back to Sweden says they observed “significant bruising to her body which, for reasons I cannot explain to you, I believe was not included in her autopsy report.” They specifically expressed that her body was in “extremely poor” condition.

Then the undertaker who received her body observed “finger marks around her neck”, and “extensive bruising on her body like someone had repeatedly hit her”. They also described Annie’s beautiful long blonde hair that was now chopped into a rough bob with a reported bald patch “as though someone had just grabbed it and ripped it right out of her head.”

Also tests performed on her body found microscopic creatures that come from a freshwater environment, which is strange considering she was found and supposedly drowned in the Firth of Clyde, which is salt water.

In 2023 a journalist named Hazel Martin filed a ‘Freedom of Information’ request for photos taken during Annie’s first forensic examination but was refused as it was deemed to be “not in the public’s interest.” Similarly Annie’s family have also been denied access to these photographs for the same reason.

Annie’s family believe she was beaten, drowned and placed at Prestwick beach.

One leading theory presented by journalist Kristina Börjesson states that U.S intelligence was flying suspected terrorists to various places worldworld, and they notoriously used Prestwick Airport to get prisoners from the Middle East to other prisons. The theory insinuates that agents must have somehow mistaken Annie for a suspect, which ultimately leads to her death. Adding more fuel to the theory another journalist requested to see any correspondence between the Swedicsh and Scottish governments regarding Annie’s death, but was refused because any material could “harm their relations with a foreign state”.

It is also known that Annie’s case is considered a “Classified State Secret” in Sweden.

A young woman’s supposed suicide is a classified state secret? How odd.

Rest in peace, Annie Borjesson.

[ryogai]

Jujutsu Kaisen Verse

Nix's life was normal until a sudden event changed it forever. A Curse User had decided to steal the young child all for the sake of a twisted experiment. Her memories of that day are hazy, at best, but recalls being unable to move as a strange monster loomed over head. There was some sort of black light before the body above her twisted and shrank down before shooting into her own body. The pain was immense and the events that followed for the next few days were a blur to her. The stress of it all was enough to make her hair turn white. Once the man was finished running his tests, Nix was dumped off on the street and left there.

Ever since those events, Nix was able to see creatures normally hidden from the view of others. Those around her thought her trauma had caused her to imagine monsters around every corner and told her as such. That one day they would go away. It was all in her head. Though her mother disapproved of having a 'damaged' daughter and sent her off to live with a grandparent that lived as a shrine attendant. At least there, Nix had some manner of peace. Sadly, there was nothing to be done outside her new home.

So Nix struggled to get through her school days, trying to ignore the beings around her at times. She wasn't always successful since she was different from those around her. Her physical strength wasn't easy to hide and it only made people more wary of her. Sadly, one day Nix would discover there was more differences than she realized and the horrible memories she had were real. All it took was one day for her temper to finally snap at some men that decided to hassle her on the way back home. Thankfully they didn't die, but the building she was chased into had been largely damaged.. Now she is under the careful eye of Sorcerers to see if her powers and abilities can be controled.

There is an alternate verse to this one where she is a 3rd year at the academy, her cursed energy being discovered at a younger age. She is 18 for this option.

The Cursed technique she employs are Tarot Cards.

Special Characteristics: Has a mark in the middle of her chest in the form of a lotus flower. 

If one ever manages to make her truly angry, her Cursed Energy spikes and she can enter a state of rampage. Only those especially close to her can have their voices reach her and drag her mind back to reality. The best way to tell when she has entered this mode is to look at her eyes. When she isn’t ‘herself’ her eyes are gold that fade into black. Another is to see if the mark on her chest is glowing with matching colors.

Nix wasn’t aware at the time that it was a Grade One cursed spirit that was fused within her being. This caused her own cursed energy to awaken but that of the spirit also dwells deep within her and that’s what takes over when her temper snaps.

[prophetofthesun]

I wrote a progress report on my Patreon, check it out under the readmore!

What I did this year:

I went live online on July 3rd. I have posted 94 pages. That's nearly 4 pages a week!

Chapter 2 is completely drafted on paper. It will be approximately 135 pages long, so with the current 2 pages a week schedule, the next chapter should be fully online in early 2025. That's a scary timeline, but  if I keep drawing faster than that, I may just post the end of the chapter in bulk whenever its ready.

Website: Slowly but surely I have fully fleshed out the website. I now have a working comments section, a guestbook, and a page for fanart!

Social Media: With the help of my wife, I have set up a bunch of social medias to post about updates, along with a Ko-Fi as another way to plead for money. You can check out my Linktree to see all that stuff.

Comic Promotion: I submitted my comic to many promotion websites, such as Webcomic Ring, ComicRocket, TopWebcomics, and more! I also uploaded it onto Webtoons, where it might reach a more mainstream audience.

Plans for 2024:

Patreon: My hope is that the Patreon will be at least 2 weeks ahead of the comic, so that there's a real incentive for people to support me on here. I'm working on building that buffer. I don't think I'll be offering anything else on Patreon for now, except for occasional infodumps about costume and setting design.

Website: The archive is still buggy, and I think I will have to rebuild it from scratch one of these days. I also want to work on better accessibility, tagging all of the pictures so that they are described if they don't load.

Transcript: The comic is already fully written in text form. I plan to revise the script of chapter 1 to match the dialogue of the comic pages correctly, so I can post an accessible script version of the story.

Promotions: I want to design stickers/postcards/business cards to help get the word about my comic a little more. If there's demand for them I might sell the stickers but otherwise I will just print them out and throw them at my friends.

?????Publishing????? The local comics shop has said they would be interested in buying print copies of my comic if I had them. I have a goal set up on my Ko-fi to get the money together to make the first test print to pitch to shops!

I think that's it! Thanks for reading!

[fixcare1]

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[animelovelover123]

Just a quick heads up, I am going to work on another longer work (Reboot Dante Yandere Alphabet), so you may not hear from me for a bit. It shouldn't be for half a year again, but my post frequency will go down to just posting new chapters for my last long story.

Sorry for the wait and thank you for your patience and support!

Knotted Love (18633 words) by AnimeLoveLover123 Chapters: 8/15 Fandom: Devil May Cry (Gameverse) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Dante/Nero (Devil May Cry), V/Vergil (Devil May Cry), Dante/Nero/V (Devil May Cry) Characters: Dante (Devil May Cry), Nero (Devil May Cry), V (Devil May Cry), Vergil (Devil May Cry), Lady (Devil May Cry), Sparda (Devil May Cry), Eva (Devil May Cry), Griffon (Devil May Cry), Shadow (Devil May Cry), Nightmare (Devil May Cry) Additional Tags: Fluff, Fluff and Angst, Pining, Mutual Pining, Alternate Universe - High School, Alternate Universe - No Powers, No Sex, Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Pheromones, Alternate Universe - Soulmates, fated mates, Alternate Universe - Not Related, Nero isn’t related to Vergil and Dante, V isn’t related to Vergil and Dante, are they in Japan or NA? both so be prepared for an amalgamation because I’m just having fun, Alpha Dante (Devil May Cry), Alpha Vergil (Devil May Cry), Beta Nero, Beta Nero (Devil May Cry), V Needs a Hug (Devil May Cry), unrealistic animal intelligence, Minor Lady/Trish (Devil May Cry), Eva and Sparda Live (Devil May Cry), Minor Sparda/Eva (Devil May Cry), Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Trish makes an appearance but doesn't do not enough to be tagged in character tags Summary: The F-PUPS test can perfectly match two destined mates together. That is how Dante and Nero found each other 2 years ago, and they couldn’t be happier. Vergil didn’t get a match until his 3rd round of testing when the twins’ parents paid for the worldwide package, but finally, his destined mate was found, an atypical omega orphan named V. V was soon flown over to live with the Sparda family, meaning both sons now had a destined mate that fit their personalities. Everything should be perfect! So why wasn’t it?

[sharponsight]

Clipper Sharpening in Madison and Sun Prairie: Done Right by Sharp On Sight

Not all blades get the spotlight they deserve. Knives are flashy, scissors are precise, but clippers? They tend to get used hard, thrown in a drawer, and expected to keep going. Until they don’t. If your clippers are starting to snag, leave lines, or make that dreaded loud buzz, it’s not time to replace them—it’s time to sharpen them.

At Sharp On Sight, we take clipper sharpening seriously, whether you’re a barber, stylist, groomer, homesteader, or just someone who cuts their own hair to save a few bucks. We offer professional clipper blade sharpening right here in the Madison and Sun Prairie area—including live sharpening at the Sun Prairie Farmers Market starting May 3rd, 2025.

So what does clipper sharpening actually involve? And why does it matter more than people think?

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Your Clippers Deserve Better Than Dull

When clipper blades go dull, they don’t just stop cutting. They start pulling, chewing, and making a job that should take five minutes stretch into frustration. Whether you’re shaping a fade or shearing a sheep, a sharp edge saves time and avoids mistakes.

At Sharp On Sight, we handle the sharpening process with care and precision:

Blades are disassembled and cleaned—because sharpening a dirty blade is a waste of time and grit.

Each cutting surface is honed flat and evenly using professional-grade abrasives designed specifically for clipper steel.

Blades are reassembled with proper tension and alignment so they cut evenly and consistently.

We also test every set of blades before return to make sure they’re working as they should—no guesswork.

This isn’t a “pass it through a grinder and call it good” operation. We do it right, and we do it with respect for the tools you rely on.

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Who We Sharpen For

You don’t have to be a professional to get your clippers sharpened. We serve all kinds of customers in Madison, Sun Prairie, and beyond:

Barbers and stylists who depend on clean lines and reliable performance

Pet groomers looking to avoid tugging or discomfort for their four-legged clients

DIYers and home hair cutters who’d rather sharpen than replace

Farmers and homesteaders using larger clipper sets for livestock or fiber animals

Anyone with a pair of clippers that’s lost its edge

We’ve sharpened everything from high-end Wahl and Andis blades to mystery-brand sets bought during lockdown. If the steel is salvageable, we’ll make it cut again.

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Drop-Off or Visit Us Live

If you’re in the Sun Prairie area, you’ll find us every Saturday at the Sun Prairie Farmers Market starting May 3rd, 2025. Bring your clipper blades (just the blades, not the whole machine) wrapped safely in a towel or case, and we’ll take care of them while you shop.

Can’t make it to the market? No problem. We also offer local drop-off sharpening by appointment. Reach out, and we’ll set something up that fits your schedule. Quick turnaround, fair pricing, and no nonsense.

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When Should You Sharpen Your Clippers?

Most people wait too long. If your clippers are:

Starting to tug or pull hair

Getting louder during use

Leaving uneven patches

Running hotter than usual

…those are all signs they need sharpening.

Depending on how often you use them, you might need sharpening every few weeks or just once a year. If you’re not sure, bring them in—we’re happy to take a look and let you know if they need work.

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The Sharp On Sight Difference

There are plenty of ways to ruin clipper blades. We’ve seen them over-ground, poorly aligned, or “sharpened” on the wrong materials altogether. At Sharp On Sight, we understand how edge geometry and steel hardness affect performance. We match the process to the tool, not the other way around.

We don’t cut corners. We cut clean, consistent edges—and give your blades the kind of care they should’ve had from the start.

So whether you're in Madison, Sun Prairie, or just passing through—bring us your tired, your dull, your neglected clipper blades. We'll send them back ready to work.

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Sharp On Sight – Blades Worth Using

Want to schedule a sharpening or ask a question? Reach out anytime—or stop by our booth at the Sun Prairie Farmers Market starting May 3rd. We’ll be there, keeping Wisconsin sharp one blade at a time.