#2023Aug

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Aesthetic place to dine in South.

📍Windmill Lausanne At Crosswinds Tagaytay

8.19.2023 | 📸 @kristinemaeb

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2022 Aug 18

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2023Aug. ご近所で

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to get to know me,

i developed ed (bulimic anorexia, more of anorexia) in 2019, when my weight was 56kg and my height 174cm (the height is the same now, i stopped growing when i started to starve myself). I did instagram pro ana profile where i had my society in 2020. My weight was going up and down, between 2019 and 2022 it could be 62kg, but it also could be 45kg.

2022, 1st of January, around 49kg, my parents found out about everything - first was neurological treatment, then psychward, then private ed treatment, after which i relapsed and went to psychward again (all in poland, im polish).

2022, August, around 57kg, i got out of psychward and was all time controlled by my parents, they would control how much i eat, how often i eat etc. There was no place for cheating, no place for starving or purging.

2022, November-December, around 60kg, got really bad antideprestants and other "mental health meds" that werent ok for me so my weight got up to 73kg. (Still controlled by parents)

2023, april, around 69kg, i said i dont want meds or therapy anymore, i said i love myself and im all good now, i said that its definitely end of my recovery journey. I lied to everyone. I stopped going to therapy and psychodietitian and taking meds, but my parents were still controlling me. Somehow i managed to lost weight and at the end of summer 2023 i was around 60kg. Everyone was thiking im doing so well.

2023, august-december, I was really depressend about everything and wanted to kill myself more tyan ever so i started to drink and do drugs and whatever not to remember. I was missing my 45kg body, i loved it. I dont really remember much from 2023aug-dec., I know it was a crazy fucked up alcoholic season, I would go to school drunk or high, but my parents never found out about it.

2024, January to now, march.

January was bad, still depressed and started to cut myself again, I would starve for fun, lose 2-3kg, gain it back and starve again, just to feel something. I was really sick all february so I mostly spent it in home. Today, march 19th im sick again, still at home. My body is so sick after the august2023-January2024 period of time.

What I wrote here seems to be so long, but in reality its just a few things that happened so you can understand better what im doing here. The worst time was in 2019-2022 but i cant really even think of it, i always start crying and just generally fuckaround because i miss my sick times and sick body when parents didnt know, anyone didnt know. Sometimes when i think about i think that this period of time gave me a kind of trauma or ptsd. I almost lost my life. Fun time.

If anyone would want to, i can text here about the 2019-2022

Im here on tumblr to start again. To be 45kg again, to be less than 45kg. I dont have my IG pro ana society, I dont have my sick body but i can grow there.

Im not going to fuck around and do some kpop diets or mymelody stuff, im going to do it in old and my favorite way, to just starve. Tbh if you just skip breakfast and dont eat sweets - its fucking around to get attention, the same thing with all the kpop diets or fasting. Just starve yourself, do it until you cant breathe because of the little amount of power for living.

Health isnt really as important as your weight. I did so much things to my body and im still alive.

If someone even read this to this point please give me a sign!

Later im going to post more here.

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Quick getaway to Batangas for an amazing adventure and fun activities.

📍 Batangas Lakelands

8.19.2023 | 📸 @kristinemaeb

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2023 Aug 18

Marriagen of Convenience

Beem reading past few days finished 1am amazing!!!!

Zachery and his boys hahahaha

There was an age gap but actual relationship happenenings happened when Biance is older.

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Mango Yogurt

📍 Cafe JangGeum MET Live

8.13.2023 | 📸 @kristinemaeb

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Hershey's Hot Chocolate

📍 Makati City

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📍 7-11 AIA Tower

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Just because...

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Prize!

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8.02.2023 | 📸 @kristinemaeb

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Free snack!

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Free snack!

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