#2021 edit: why didnt i list what any of these songs are?!

[kitsure]

Happy Birthday Miku!! To celebrate, I doodled eleven of my favorite songs that came out in her 10th year!

[cibeewastaken]

TOP 5 OF 2020

Rules: It’s time to love yourselves! Choose your 5 (ish) favourite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc.) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you brought into the world in 2020. Tag as many writers/artists/etc. as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works!

thank you @dragontamerdame @caroll-in @sitp-recs @lazywonderlvnd @bluebutter-art @ohdrarry for tagging me omg....it makes me so warm!!

despite everything, 2020 is still the year when i truly got into drarry. it’s both melancholy and happy to see the differences on my tumblr dash from the end of 2019 and the end of 2020. melancholy bc a few familiar faces back then had left, happy because i have gotten to know so many incredible people, enough to get a tag!! I didn’t write as much as i would have liked in 2020, but still i wrote a lot of things i do genuinely love, which is something i didnt have in my previous fandoms.

So, here is my top five in 2020:

1.

Telling the Bees

this is the time i’ve written anything long and plotty. and one of the fics that gave me nothing but enjoyment during writing. i regret not working on it more because there was a lot I would like to add. But mostly I want to see Harry helping Draco through the grief of losing everything after trying so hard to be good.

2.

Prompts: I love you

the first prompt list i reblogged and was very prepared for people to not send me any lol. these are messy and unbeta’d but they are very raw in my opinion. I did not spend too much time agonizing over them. And there are some odd turn of phrases bc i was trying to experiment. Some of my favorite lines i written are from this series, such as “My poor love, born only after I saw you dead by Voldemort’s feet.” “Tomorrow after we say goodbye, just for a little while, would you miss me like I would miss you?” “I had allowed myself to finally fall in love, and after I did I wondered, oh god, god, why aren’t more people doing this?” “spent the rest of the night singing to a pub full of people who wanted to hear about love so they requested songs about love and loved how he sang about love thinking … thinking the singer must be in love, too.”

they were all very cheesy maybe but i think if i still like them this much after a year than it’s ok

3. 

Title of Their Sex Tape

omg first time trying to write something thats funny...it was so scary bc i didnt want to be obvious that i was trying hard to make people laugh but then didn’t. Also first time in an anon fest, was really nervous about messing it up. I remember being so scared about asking for a beta, but i couldn’t just yolo it bc beta was in the fest rules!! I sat in front of my computer petrified at sending the message on discord, was REALLY certain no one would take up my beta request and then i would have to drop out of the fest + the face of the earth. Thankfully @pineau-noir came to the rescue and I was so so so grateful it was someone so kind and patient and funny who eased my nerves so much. Plus, she was also a B99 fan, what are the chances?!

4.

To know the pain of too much tenderness

some of my fav fics came from mrpeg fest (*whisper* Expectant by @l0vegl0wsinthedark) so i really wanted to join. But also there were already so many wonderful mpreg/parents drarry, i was like, why bother?

but i wanted to explore biological bonds and how i fucking do not think it means anything. Like ofc it does, but growing up in east asia, the idea of bloodline is so fucking gross sometimes i have come to despise it. So i wanted to write about Draco getting pregnant with someone who doesn't want the baby, and Harry who loves Draco and and the baby. How Draco and Harry would be Scorpius’ fathers because love is what makes a family. And I wanted to write about Harry’s struggle as he see this baby being abandoned by one of his parent, being reminded of how the Dursleys never wanted him. idk i love it a lot.

5.

The Courting by the Pureblood Who Only Has Five Milligrams of Romantic Intelligence and Thinks He’s Real Smooth

because first, it has a really long name, second, it was written for @serpent-under-the-flower and this is the first time i wrote something as a gift to someone in mind. I really want to show my appreciation of all the support. And I really wanted to have Draco pursue Harry, who feels like he would never be loved the way he wants. I just really like to make characters who feels unwanted know that that is not the truth. It’s like my universal flavor.

i want to thank everyone for the support and encouragement this year, it really made me more motivated to write and try things. I know it’s almost 2021 everywhere but still i like to tag @nadiasna7 @fictional @laurisophi @alxmeg @samyistrying @tsauergrass @pauleonotis @veelawings @pineau-noir @fantalf