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trying to finish a two year old WIP but lowkey cringing at what i wrote back then isn't how i expected to spend my day off
#and it's already posted#like#people read that#that's on my actual profile for everyone to see#i'm not that same girl (gender neutral) anymore#the me myself and i tag#my process is 70% complaining about writing#10% research that i decide to discard#20% word vomiting
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I can't even take the chuunin exam argument seriously anymore because it's literally just two traumatised PTSD riddled men who are overprotective of the students taking one comment just a little too personally and blowing up about it. Kakashi happens to hear Iruka question the motives of the kids' teachers and is pretty obviously thinking "did this bitch just imply I don't care about the kids I literally almost died for?" and so reactively snaps back without thinking first with the cruelest thing he can (which is to say how it could be fun to break them in with pain) with the sole purpose of goading Iruka's infamous temper to which Iruka, who is also super protective of the kids and also just took this personally, rises to that goad and snaps back directly to Kakashi and then it becomes a fucking fire
And this all could've been avoided if even one of them had thought to calmly explain their perspectives in private but unfortunately they're both protective of the kids and tend to let their emotions take over in regards to said kids' safeties [such as: both of them being ready and willing to sacrifice themselves to protect their students] and it leads to this. All because they just happen to be a little too similar and all I can do is laugh at them for not seeing it at the time. The interactions they'd had prior to this were always good natured and friendly so you'd think they'd know not to get reactionary about this stuff but alas! They're only human and shit happens
#misc#I'm explaining this badly bc I can't put into words my full thoughts about it#despite me having gone on a two hour explanation of the nuances to my mum irl#and talked to lyre about this moment in DM's#but whatever that's what happens when a bitch is AuADHD and finally has to put said thoughts to paper#so yeah tldr: hope this makes sense I'm basically word vomiting here bc I can't accurately voice my full thoughts#but please know I have at least 20 pages worth of it in my head
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There is a universe in which i was caught up properly on CR whenever what the fuck went down and Imogen verbally and definitively declared that- after everything leading up to this and the back and forth and indecision- that she'd be willing to take down her mom if need be. and i would have been deeply insufferable and writing 20+ separate meta posts and liveblog yelling posts and shitposts. This is not that universe so instead we will put this post here where i can have wildly uninformed (aka 20 eps behind) Emotions about it until someday i actually catch up.
(I know. i accidentally wrote potentially wildly off base/deeply out of date meta again. what can i say. i like shaking the concept of An Imogen (even if it is Outdated Imogen) in a jar. sorry.)
Because i was watching long enough, I think, to see Imogen in the throes of the hope for something better, to understand that Imogen was viewing her mom was a figure and an idea and an answer, that would make things easier. Her mom was- gone, so early. And so her mom, in her mind, was not a person she was an idea, and there was so much hinged on that! Dogged determination and anger at her father and a deep seated dislike of the powers in her hands and head even as they gave her a guilty rush. There were promises there that maybe no one else had made, but Imogen believed. Things built up. Expectations made. Lore crafted, even unconsciously, around someone who was, yes, important to Imogen, but more importantly: Missing. Gone. A blank slate to be filled in. A promise of an answer guide to open questions.
And then she meets her mom, and Liliana Temult goes from a figure to a person- with all the bells and whistles and rough edges. She meets her mom and her mom turns her away. Tells her to run. Tells her she should go. Tells her to leave.
And Imogen doesn't. In the same way she kept visiting libraries, keps asking, kept pushing for answers when it was just about her magic and her headaches and the voices. Imogen always, always wants to know. She keeps digging, she keeps trying, she reaches out, over and over and keeps trying to touch this figure in mist until she's real under her hands, and. Evidence piles up- of deeds gone wrong, blood on her hands, a figure standing next to Otohan (her friends bodies scattered, lifeless, around Otohan). She keeps reaching out, keeps trying, and is rebuffed, over and over. Things get worse and the skies get redder and magic goes dead and she's still- unsure, because what if there's a better reason, what if there's a better way, there has to be a reason, why. There has to be, right- maybe if- maybe. Maybe-
Its just like- a person as an idea. As a symbol. As a promise. One you build yourself up around and towards. One you talk about, not talk to.
And then the fog clears, and they are a human.
(And she's your mom, and she's not what you imagined. She's done you wrong. She's done your loved ones wrong. She's hurt you. She's hurt others. She's going to keep hurting you. She is going to keep hurting everyone. She is too far gone to reason with. She is not listening to you. She is flawed. She is. dangerous. She looks so much like you. You look just like her. You are so similar. You have always known you were similar. You always hoped. You.
Are not her. You are not hers. She is not yours. She is not who you thought she was. She was always someone else. So are you.)
Imogen walks through the bases pretending to be her mother. Liliana is a known face- a powerful one, a figure people fear. A well known silhouette. Imogen slips into the shadows of it, sometimes, when it serves her, but we know- she knows- its all an act. All a lie.
Liliana, after all, is alive, and well, making choices that she believes in and fighting for things with a dogged determination maybe only matched by her daughter.
Imogen knows this. I think. There's a part of her that maybe wishes that wasn't the case.
"There is no loyalty with this blood." And after all- only living people bleed.
#im so sorry for yet again writing deeply uninformed. idk if this counts as meta. its more me going 'hey if this IS whats happening. WILD.'#critical role#cr spoilers#c3e88#imogen temult#spar speaks#liliana temult#this is REALLY just a word vomit based on gut assumptions from what i actually watched. my vague knowledge from posts ive seen. and now thi#im functionally playing connect the dots here which is. Not How Meta Should Be Written so take this more as fun speculation prose i guess??#no one take this too srs its mostly so if/when i finally watch everything i can reference how off my assumptions were#this is def based off where things were around when the solstice happened bc thats when i was last mostly caught up#so the odds of me fully MISSING some important imogen dev and character things since then are. actually its not odds. its like.definitive.#but maybe this is true for at least early campaign imogen to ep 50 imogen#and it would be VERY cool if it actually applied to her now#i kept saying 50 eps but looking at my last liveblogs it might he closer to 20-30. ... still.
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god i really hope that siobhan and jasper go all in on "yes and"-ing each other on more and more outlandish possibly fake british shit the whole season.
#gaslight gatekeep girlboss#dimension 20#burrow's end#d20 spoilers#omg i can't believe that I got Jasper's name wrong at first#i was full stream of consciousness word vomiting when I initially wrote it and meant to go look up everyone's names before posting#and then that thought fully left my head#if you saw this before I fixed it no you didn't#i can't believe I spelled Siobhan right and then fucked up jasper#i know who he is i swear he's great 😭
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coming out as someone who doesn't think dick grayson has eldest daughter syndrome, I'm sorry guys it's the truth
I actually think dick is the eldest son of a divorced single mother like— he learns to be self sufficient because he doesn't want to bother her, she's stressed enough as it is, working long hours trying to support the both of them and he asks "hey can I help?" constantly as if he's begging her to to tell him what she needs, he promises he can help carry whatever it is that's weighing on her, he can take it! he's the man of the house now, remember? they're in this together, please talk to him, he can push what ever pain he's feeling aside if she would just let him help again
it's easy to ignore the ache in his gut whenever she tells him about how the divorce proceedings are going, or how expensive rent is getting, or how jenny from HR has been up her ass again for one reason or another, it's just these are adult issues, and if he was an adult he could help her with them, that ache he learns, is helplessness
if he were actually 'her little man' like she calls him, he would be able to help her, but he's not, stuck in a malleable state after his childhood was sharply cut off at eight at twelve at sixteen
(if he were a man though, that would also mean he was someone now capable of hurting her like dad did, and he fears the look she gets when he does something that reminds her of what she has lost, he wants to stay young forever, tucked between her arm and rib cage, when she smiled at him before everything went wrong)
he gets protective, aggressive when she starts dating again because he saw how deeply she was hurt last time, bares his teeth and remembers how she told him that he was the only man she needed in her life, he tells his friends to lay off when they tease him, “momma’s boy” like loving her is something to be ashamed of, something he was supposed to grow out of a long time ago
#dick grayson#the parentification/spousification post broke containment and made me think about this again#i’m hesitantly tagging this#dick grayson analysis#but this is really a word vomit more than a character study but ok#cw emotional abuse#this is dick 8-14 Id need a few more pages to cover 14-20#how everything that was held together with duck tape fell apart lmao#*
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watched Logan (2017) for the first time after watching every single x-men/wolverine movie this week and lemme tell you-
I am NOT okay. what the FUCK
#a brown woman offering to pay a dangerous man thousands of dollars to get her child to a 'safe haven' is about where i lost my goddamn mind#basically i started crying and i am unable to stop#cant believe they made those movies for like 20 years and then ended it like that#so fucking depressing and for WHAT#god. if i had a therapist they would be hearing about this but instead im going to word vomit here#they really made wolverine a FATHER. they gave him a little girl! and then they fucking KILLED HIM OFF#200. YEARS OF ANGUISH?! THEY COULDNT LET HIM HAVE SOME HAPPINESS!!!!#anyways im going to keep crying about this poor fucker and my own fucking dad issues but can i just say that this movie was also hilarious??#like i would absolutely die for laura she's so weird and perfect and relatable i love her sm#also why did they even bother making more marvel films after this?? 98% of them have been trash they should be embarrassed!!#mkay imma shut up now i think. many more thoughts but im bad at english
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consider this a small starter call. if i have enough energy after work, i'll see what i can do!
#▸ lord rid me of my word vomit. / ooc#and if i can't think of a good starter to tag you in. i will slide into your dms to talk shop :)#pleased to say i've got my draft count under 20. turns out half of it is just hoarded memes OTL
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I've always loved the story of Matilda. I've only seen the musical once because of how musicals work, and how hard it is to see them not live, but the 90s movie was my favorite movie as a kid. As an adult, Matilda has given me really strong Jason-Todd-feelings. Especially in the song "Naughty," in just how Matilda really subscribes to the idea that if she wants things to be better, or at least to have things made 'right,' she has to do it herself. She can't and shouldn't just sit back and take abuse, she should fight back, no matter how little she is. That spirit in itself just always reminded me of Jason.
But now with the Netflix movie, I've watched the musical several times this week and it's really made me listen to the music (before I only listened to a couple of the songs with any repetition) and Wow do I have feelings. But this song in particular, at first I was thinking about how it would reflect on Jason & Bruce before I realized something...
This is exactly how Tim's story plays out. The song is the final song in the play, and it's called Still Holding my Hand. The lyrics go:
I believed that I would never be able to rely on anybody else. And I was sure that I would just have to learn to survive all by myself. And one day I opened my eyes, and looked to find that the sky had turned blindingly blue. And right by my side was you quietly taking a stand, and you were holding my hand.
And just. Think about that. Tim Drake was this tiny little child who inserted himself in Bruce's life because Batman needed help. He didn't go to Batman for help in anything, and while canon is kind of all over the place on Tim's own situation, he was a neglected child in basically every version. In the main one most people tend to use, he rarely had his parents around, and was instead raised by boarding schools and the housekeeper. But none of those people are parents. They aren't people you can rely on. They're all employees of someone or something. They aren't the same thing as nannies, and even then, nannies aren't replacements for parents. I say that as a former nanny. People who take care of you for a living aren't permanent fixtures in your life, no matter how wonderful, supporting, and loving they are. And that will cause a wall to be built between you, especially if you're used to being moved around or just don't have the same one your whole childhood.
So Tim, being 12 or 13, didn't have anyone in his life he could rely on. He relied on himself, and was fiercely independent as a result. It's certainly one of his strengths, and it was what made him approach Batman and save him over and over again. But even if it was a strength of his, everyone, everyone, but especially children need people they can rely on. And once the grieving-Bruce resigned himself to training this child they bonded. Bruce started noticing things about Tim, about Tim's parents. Or... lack of Tim's parents, and so he stepped up further. He became a father figure in Tim's life. Even if he was hesitant, because Tim wasn't his kid.
And one day.... Tim opened his eyes and saw. And he realized that Bruce was there for him. Bruce cared about him, loved him even, and Tim trusted him with his entire being. Something he never thought would happen. Kid-him relying on an adult so heavily.
Anyway. Now listen to the song and cry with me about it.
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#tim drake#tim & bruce#basically my word vomit#ive been thinking about it so heavily today#too bad i dont have a traditional tim & bruce fic WIP right now because id been working on it so hard now 😅#i will say i have never read the book matilda#i know i should probably rectify that#but i havent read many childrens books because im dyslexic and i really couldn't read well until i was an older teenager#and i didnt even get super into reading until i was in my 20s#and so none of these childrens books everyone has as like a foundation have that nostalgia factor for me and theyre hard to read#because theyre written for children lmao#maybe one day ill have kids of my own and ill read them all these books
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Hi! Thank you for your Eternal Diva insights! Once again pulling my hair out due to offhand extremely accurate comments you make. I have a question. What do you think the puzzle is about? :D
Hello hello and thank you! Please don't pull your hair out 😨. (Now I wonder what among all those words you exactly mean WHAT DID I SAY)
As for your question, I don't really know but I do have some theories after thinking about it. As the guy in the top-hat likes to say, every puzzle has an answer. Questions and problems also have answers– now we can only work backwards with whatever we can glean from the clues the film gives us.
The machine is clearly serving a musical purpose, and after pondering, I realised it could be playing the Puzzle Theme (because we are in a puzzle it would make sense!!), which while not narratively useful, it is fanservice, and it would be fucking epic and awesome. I would scream if that were the case. Like imagine you're in this hellish nightmare and suddenly you hear The Ominous Puzzle Theme. The machine reminds me both of a music box device and a book music player (and well, puzzle themes use similar sounds to a music box). But, and here is the but, if it is indeed playing the Puzzle Theme, which it could not, what purpose does it serve for the puzzle itself? Why is such a big machine necessary for that? And the characters did take notice of the machine. They didn't notice the numbers that I saw, even when in that frame it seemed like they were projected over the castle, but they did notice the machine and ran away.
If the machine is just decoration, a way to set the puzzle mood (which I doubt) then its presence shouldn't matter for the puzzle itself. The puzzle does seem to be related to the situation at hand, the predicament they're in.
Thinking back on some puzzles 001, namely the first puzzles in Curious Village and Pandora's Box (and the second puzzle in Lost Future follows a similar theme) it could ask a very simple, introductory question: Where the fuck are we going?
That could be it, the destination of the ship. It is logical to wonder where could the ship go, if they're trapped in it. The crystal, the whale and the fossil might shed some clues as to its destination, but I don't fully know what that is? Maybe the place where they were found? The LSO went "A-ha, I know where these artifacts were found! I know where this ship is going!" Knowing's one relative geographical position when lost and in a dire situation is an useful asset.
Another theory I have is: What is the purpose of this ship? Of this theatre? What is its true nature? That does seem a little more complicated for a first puzzle, but it is a question they all must have. The artifacts do point to a purpose beyond opera performances, especially since 1) the LSO was invited and 2) he seems to recognise them. Maybe the ship is a exploratory vessel, maybe it's a contraband ship, maybe it's a government secret. Knowing the purpose of the ship might help them understand the reason why they were trapped and a clue as to who did that. The musical element can also play a part in this theory.
The musical machine, if I try to factor it in, does throw a wrench into my half-baked, uncooked, raw, mouldy theories. It could be playing an instrumental version of a song that everyone in-universe knows, a song that has lyrics that contain the crystal, the whale and the fossil. By analysing these lyrics, one could theoretically decode a message, the answer to the puzzle. It could be destination, it could be its purpose, it could be where the hell is the helm to stop this vehicle and turn it around. That's a really wild guess, though. Sort of like those logic puzzles where A, B, C and D have to arrange something between themselves, giving some conditions.
Stopping the ship and returning to dry land does seem like a pressing problem everyone might want to get onto solving. I don't know how the clues factor in it, though. Maybe a secret mechanism in the whale skeleton? Maybe the machine is connected to the engines? I have no idea. A secret password found when you combine the first letters of every clue, like in the first puzzle of Spectre's Call?
But truthfully, I don't know what the puzzle could be, or what machine really is about. The frames don't give me enough information, and certainly, neither does the Layton-shaped Object. I very much doubt he picked out those three items at random, so there must be SOMETHING.
I hope you liked all these sentences. Thank you for the ask! And I'm sorry about the hair!
#this is what i like to call word vomit. or stream or consciousness? i am sorry for what is worth#without audio it's hard to know what exactly they're talking about. imagine they just said outright what the puzzle is. it would be so funny#A discovered a whale B carved a crystal and C got a fossil model. what did D get for their birthday?#a) a pat in the back b) a partridge in a pear tree c) one MILLION moneys d) another archeological artifact#and of course the LSO could recognise these artifacts because 1) he is friends with Schrader 2) he is an archaeology nerd he knows his shit#magpie ask#hourly eternal diva#tl;dr: i dont knowww 🥺#i hope it is worth at least 20 picarats tho
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I love my sister but dear God is she SO self centered sometimes
#jay word vomits#she has seen first hand how sick i am#and i still drove thirty minutes to come pick her up#got here over 20 minutes ago and she hasnt left the damn builidn g
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wait is this actually just withdrawal
#i wish i had more alcohol! cause i barely had any left#but it did immediately make it stop for like 20 min and then it wore off#wouldn’t wish it on anyone bro it’s actually unbearable#pink’s word vomiting
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you ask yourself what you're so afraid of.
you pry open your jaw like a dog that has eaten something it shouldn't, and try to see why you feel like you have too many teeth, why you think you will eat yourself from the inside out. you try to see what's causing your stomach to hurt so badly.
in the mornings, you can never get out of bed. the weight of the day consumes you. you go through it in your head fifteen times, thinking that just once more will make it weigh less. the clock continues to tick though, and you run out of time, water through your fingers.
your stomach hurts, and you don't know why. it's been like this for a week. maybe two. you've lost track, again, water through your fingers. stubbornly cold. not coming back.
you run your thumb over your molars, your hand getting slick with saliva. you wonder why it itches. then again, when has it not? you forget how long its been since your gums started to buzz. it's an overwhelming sensation. you wish you could wash out your mouth, but this is below the membrane. below the surface of the flesh. you think you would need a scalpel to pull out whatever this is.
your heart pounds, though you are tired. you're tired of this. you ask yourself, what are you so afraid of?
#ocean's poetry#idk i wrote this in like 20 minutes. word vomit. i've had a day.#ocean.mp3#anyways i have to go.
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Heyhey i love sweep swap AU but i feel your ideas for it have changed so wildly that it'd be good to make another big post explaining the events and concepts and stuff?? Only if you want to of course, it's just a bit hard to keep up with and remember what ideas are still canon and what aren't
I. Just finished responding to this ask but tumblr GOBBLED IT UP. So. It’s gone. Uhh here’s a shorter version of what I wrote plus a few drawings I made cause I got angry abt the missing post
Here’s the general ep.1&2 notes lol
-izuku wakes up from a nightmare that he quickly shakes off and heads off to school. His mom is already gone for work but there’s lunch and breakfast ready for him at the table. He briefly remarks how much better it is that his mom had let him to take the train to school instead of driving him there every morning despite the inconvenience to her work schedule.
-it’s the school day at aldera middle school where the teacher asks what they want to do when they grow up or whatever. Bakugou says something about it being difficult to save anyone when Izukus too busy fainting on them. bakugou provokes him at the end of class he can’t help but barking something back and he very much gets a punch to the face about it.
-izuku is irritated and he’s scratching at his neck letting his frustration out on a rock under a bridge. He kicks it but instead of hitting the concrete, it splats into some goo. He’s then attacked by said goo and almost drowns. Amidst his drowning he can feel that rolling sensation that happens every time he falls asleep. He can feel his stomach drop and quick images of an unfamiliar ceiling deposit themselves into his mind and he’s definitely about to pass out when suddenly he’s saved by All Might
-when saving bakugou from goo man he runs to his aid and throws his backpack which misses. Izuku finds his hand curling around the pencil he has stuck behind his ear and throws it with pin point accuracy into goo man’s eye ball
-same as canon yadayada yelled at by heroes all might offers to train him and whatever
-cue training montage but instead of overworking himself he begins to slip into diet and workout habits better tailored to himself that’s not detailed in all might’s regimen.
-he gets to eat the hair a little earlier than canon.
-dreams get vivid and more disorienting
-at the entrance exam after he passes out from smashing the zero pointer he imma wakes up in his bed.
-except it’s. Not izuku’s bed. But it is certainly his bed. He falls out of bed.
-he barely has time to comprehend anything before his door slams open and his brother crows about how lovely it is of him to join them in the land of the living and shoves a video game controller in his hands
-izuku is slightly bewildered but can feel his memories playing backwards feeding him information on every question that pops into his head until the fog clears from his mind and he remembers.
-he’s at home. Next to him is his brother Tomura. He just woke up from what was definitively not a dream. And he fuckin rips at super smash bros.
… ough. I thought I could get the whole story down in this format but it’s getting. Long. I’ll post more probably if this was helpful (?)
[most of the changes to sleep swap were refining flavors to izuku’s personality and the specificities to the activation and dynamic of his quirk… I’ll explain more if anyone wants.. Later when it’s not 2:45 in the morning.]
#sleep swap au#midoriya izuku#akatani yukine#jackal shenanigans#skeh#3/20/23#barks#this is unedited word vomit. sorry in postscript lol
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Thoughts on ml movie below the cut (not really looking for any response, just to drop my thoughts somewhere, but y'know standard spoiler warning too)
Really mixed bag? Like genuinely and truly. There were parts of it that made me laugh! The humor was genuinely fun and I loved the use of cuts! There were parts that were really great! And the visuals are unquestionably stunning.
I'll abstain from an opinion on the musical numbers since that isn't really my cup of tea and I can't judge em
And I'm willing to let rest that this is a retelling, and it's a cool take on the story in terms of what got brought back (mime guy from the pv??? Amazing so glad that got given a proper use) and even the characterizations are fine in my book, especially given limited runtime.
But I think that this movie (and this seems like a common problem in the show too, at least to the point through s3 where I had stopped watching) (and the marketing too tbh) is that it tries to do too much with too little substance. It spreads itself too thin. What even IS the theme here? Is it the love over death thing? Is it self-acceptance? So much was stuffed in that it was all tell and almost no show.
It pays lip service to the original idea of trying to put another Real Girl Superhero into the spotlight and simply by virtue of the mechanism that the agreste family plays in the story, aka them as the driving force of the plot, it's hard to handle it and have Marinette still be clearly the main character. In retrospect, there's almost a bitter irony to Adrien cockily proclaiming that he's the main hero and Marinette is the sidekick. I think if Marinette had really had her growth focused clearly in one direction it wouldn't have been so bad, but the multiple themes really eat away at forming a cohesive picture about her and her growth and cementing for the audience that she's the star. I guess the "she-hero" bit just bugs me an exceeding amount.
As a result of the allotment of character complexity, it almost feels like Gabriel is the most compelling character, even though he's still sort of flattened into a two-dimensional version of himself. He's an asshole to Adrien at the beginning, like pretty blatantly, and then explains away everything at the end and boosh suddenly everything is ok. I didn't even pick up that he had any sort of atonement or one-on-one time with the French judicial system, outside of the implication of him going to jail by trusting Nathalie with the secret of Emilie. So like. I guess the things that make Gabriel most compelling are his longer hair when he was younger and his absolute scuzzy gutter dad look lmfao.
(side note, part of me lived in fear of being spoiled of the parts of the show I haven't watched, but I guess if there were such spoilers I missed em. It just surprised me that they were willing to play their hand on Gabriel=Hawkmoth with so little fanfare, but then again maybe I shouldn't be asking so much when it was already all spread so thin)
So like
Yeah
It didn't necessarily have me staring raptly at the screen, but most of my gripes are of the same flavor that I have for the show anyway.
There were much worse uses of my afternoon 😂
#i think nino and alya and sabrina get the best shake outta this one#ml movie spoilers#ml#ml salt#(just in case!)#jello's word vomit#(maybe i shoulda dropped like 20 tags in to get this out of the search function)#(i really just want blog categorization)#please ignore this im sure my media literacy is so rusty it needs to be sandblasted
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Twenty Things I Have Learned Before Entering My 20s:
i. If it's good: Alhamdulillah. If it's bad: Alhamdulillah.
ii. Romanticize life! As cliché as it might sound, it indeed is very important! This is exactly how my coping mechanism works: this world is ruthless, it's evil most of the time, but the world can also be a very very pretty place! I am a simple human, I try to cling to the prettier side of things more.
iii. No matter how good things are between me and the people I have in my life, if there's something I would rather not share about myself, and if it's not affecting the relationships I have with them, then no, I am not obligated to do so. Not everything feels good to be shared, and it's a feeling I have come to know as very common. You can keep certain things to yourself and still be a good person and a good friend.
iv. Not to sound contradictory but opening up most of the times does feel good! Letting the thoughts floating in your mind to gently land before someone can be very relieving and not as dreadful as you might have thought. Do it more often with the right people and allow yourself some peace.
v. If life gives you cats, you! pet! them! Forever thinking about how in documentary 'Kedi', I heard a Turkish proverb that says — "A cat meowing at your feet, looking up at you is life smiling at you." :']
vi. Platonic love holds the same importance and place as romantic love does! Both are love, and both are supposed to be treated like one; gently, delicately, carefully, respectfully, and most importantly, with its sweet reciprocation.
vii. Never shy away from "I don't know"s! No one knows how to deal with everything, and it is alright! Let people know that this might or might not be your first life and there are still things you have no information about! And it's OKAY! If their reaction discourages you, then don't ponder over it much. I have come to know that the words "I don't know" are indeed very magical, and magic is all about courage. Not everyone loves magic, not everyone's okay with certain kinds of courage, but the world still goes on.
viii. The act of exploration is not always the one where you take a huge backpack with yourself all set to travel the oceans and wander around. It's also buying a drink you have never tried before, praying to God that it's decent enough. It's about listening to an album and leaving it midway because it's just not for you. It's also about finding out what color suits you best and what's just not meant to be. These little explorations are what make you an explorer. The word might weigh heavy on some tongues, but to me, I have always been an explorer.
ix. Try not to hold grudges. Honestly. Let things go and embrace yourself with the calmness it brings with it.
x. Please do not be rude to your parents. In most cases, they are indeed trying their best to be a parent. Be gentle with them.
xi. if no one got me, i know my siblings got me. (i love u two so much (never mention this to me, ever. please. thanks.))
xii. In most cases, actually go with your first instinct. Whether it's running away from a person or getting yourself a new, never-tried-before attire.
xiii. Sab ne aisa mehsoos karaya hoga ki you are always a part of some unheard competition: age wise, grades wise, taste wise etc. But to be very honest, if you don't want it that way, there's literally no need to bother yourself thinking about it. You are moving forward in this so-called race marathon at your own pace. Just try to have fun with it.
xiv. The behaviours towards you are mostly (not always, though!) reciprocated.
xv. Friends !!! Friendships !!! Jitna ho sake, hold on to them achche se !! They were strangers once, jinke life got intertwined with yours in either the most mundane way or the most insane way! how beautiful is that, honestly?
xvi. If you're putting in your efforts, don't berate yourself for expecting some in return. It's all selfless act but it also should be somewhat mutual.
xvii. Those people who preach about living in the moment are actually right. Live in the moment! Baad ka baad mein chordo if it's too much pain or overwhelming. Majority of what's bothering you actually is just in your head (i'm not good at convincing myself on this either but i am trying my best). Aur waise bhi, you gotta be present in the moment to cheer it as a sweet or a bittersweet memory aage. Imagine going through it all and not even remembering how good it felt back then before the consequences (that goes away as fast as they arrive, mostly) hit.
xviii. With utmost sincerity, expect good things to happen to you and watch the magic unfold. Be gentle to yourself and watch your life copy that trait for you.
xix. It’s never just black and white. Never just right and wrong. Never just "they hate me" and "they love me". There's always a grey area. Always an okay in-between. Always a coexistence just right. There is always a medium ground. Almost always a 3D view of a situation that looks 2D. Never be too quick to judge another creature or to jump to a conclusion.
xx. Everything passes. This too shall pass.
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Not Reverse Robins or Scrambled Birds but a secret third thing: A Step to the Left.
Not Dick > Jason > Tim > Steph > Damian,
but Jason > Tim > Steph > Damian > Dick*.
But not only them. Every sidekick with a legacy name gets shifted one spot. (No I’m not counting the Golden Age because I’m not combing through that ).
This means that Jason’s Titans team is him, Mia (Speedy), Jackson (Aqualad), Cassie (Wonder Girl), and Bart (Impulse but y’know he was KF II in the comics).
The NTT team including Starfire, Changeling, Raven, and Cyborg stays the same since they’re the only ones with those names. Cass gets lumped in here because Jason actually wants to do college/is becoming disillusioned about cape life and the idea of Kori learning Cass's body language is too good to pass up.
Tim gets one (1) cape friend (because Jason only got one) and it’s Zachary Zatara because it has to be a d-lister who deals with that disaster Teen Titans era.
Stephanie gets Jon (Superboy), Yara (Wonder Girl II now), and Irey (Because guess what it’s Impulse on the team and not KF which means we get Impulse II). Secret, Cissie, Anita, Slobo etc. all stay the same.
Damian doesn’t get anyone until he becomes Batgirl.
Duke literally gets Damian’s exact canon team but it’s Kon instead of Jon and probably won’t end with them committing war crimes.
If the character in that placement dies in canon then the new character in that placement also dies (i.e. Jason dies so Tim will die/ Kon dies so Jon will die).
But there will be changes because these are different characters so not all of them would react the same.
For example, Jason and Cass are the first Robin and Batgirl, but Cass becomes Nightwing while Jason becomes Oracle because I feel like Jason generally fits Barbara’s character better than Cass does (which is a fucking shame because Oracle being someone named Cassandra should be a no brainer but yeah).
Or how Barbara should be Batgirl number three, but it’s actually Damian because Cass would see their similarities between them and offer him Batgirl (which he refuses at first but after his disastrous run as Robin he sees how Batgirl would fit his strengths better).
Also I refuse to believe that Jason and Cass would let Dick out as Robin so young so he’s benched until later and his place is taken up by Duke and instead of Leviathan it’s Gnomon.
#I actually have a lot of thoughts about this but I didn't want to word vomit it all up like I normally do#No lie Damian becoming Batgirl III was not planned but because it started off with Cass it honestly felt right#So now him and Stephanie parallel each other so much more than I planned with the whole 3 identities cycle of Original > R > BG> OG#Also Robins 1 3 and 5 (the ones who were actually focused on for a time) are all Gotham natives with strong ties to the people#So that feels right#Also also Mia and Jason both being on the same team and having similar traumas while comics were finally starting to tackle these things#Tim has to deal with all the shit Jason did including starting off as a Blonde Jason clone (hey Timmy Todd)#Being victim blamed for his death for nearly 20 years and brought back as a villain#Then left with writers who hate him and made him ugly *and* stupid#then left with Lobdell and having the fans of his teammates blame him and his fans for things that they had no control over#other notes I didn't put in include Cass's cover is that she's Jason's cousin via Willis who was adopted and it turns out to be true#Stephanie 'Ambiguously Gay' Brown with her team full of Women who can crush her like a bug#Cass 'Are you sure she's straight' Wayne and her Gal Pal Koriand'r#Jason and Bart's wild 50 years where they surprise everyone including the writers and editors#since none of their love interests stuck but the chemistry they had with each other was off the charts#so their friendship read more as a slow-burn annoyances to friends to lovers that was totally on purpose guys and became canon p52#like right before the reboot because the writer was like "Fuck it we're rebooting anyways!#if you feel like it's unfair that Tim and Damian gets no friends remember that I didn't shift teams at all only the people in them#so they get dealt Jason and Stephanie's canon hands#Don't come at me with 'uhm Robin is DICK'S nam'e' that retcon happened 50 years after the character#I can do the exact same with any character#great another essay in the tags#azol's posts
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