#15.03

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15.03 The Rupture

[spacedean]

DEAN WINCHESTER in one random episode per day ‣ 258/327 15.03 THE RUPTURE

[ardentpoop]

standing ovation

[the-bastard-of-the-universe]

[soft-pine]

as the strange combination of a bitter deangirl (gn) and a deancas shipper, i cannot overstate how much i appreciate everyone's thoughtful 15.09 The Trap takes. my only contribution to the conversation is that 15.03 kills me.

at the end of s14, everything happens so fast. cas finally admits to himself something's really wrong with jack. meanwhile jack's killed nick and mary. dean is devastated. rightfully angry. then jack's manipulated into fucking with the whole world. they don't know what to do. the plan dean and sam come up with seems like the only thing with anything close to jack's power. and even cas suggests locking jack away until they have more time to work things out. like i cannot overstate how dramatically quickly everything is unfolding. chuck shows up and says jack will end the world. dean was never gonna be okay with the world ending. was never gonna be okay with anyone but himself sacrificing to make that happen. instead they find out chuck is messing with them. he kills jack, opens hell, and they spend an awful horrible week trying to fight ghosts they thought they'd dealt with long ago, while trying to keep a whole town safe and calm, while grieving jack's death, while having to talk to a demon in his corpse, while reckoning with the fact that everything they've ever known is a lie and an elaborate set-up for a cosmic being's entertainment. like it is punch after punch for weeks and weeks with no breathing room. finally culminating in cas doing something which makes sense but is also very much a pattern where he just decides what to do. which results in rowena dying and sam being entirely torn up.

the conversation dean is having right before cas leaves in 15.03 is trying to take care of a broken up sam. based on what dean says it seems like they haven't even been home for a day. like they haven't even had a moment to try to decompress from the series of escalating, terrifying events which they've been dealing with for days and days pretty much nonstop.

it always strikes me then that what cas says is "You used to trust me, give me the benefit of the doubt. Now you can barely look at me..... I've tried to talk to you, over and over, and you just don't want to hear it. You don't care. I'm... dead to you." i recognize he's parroting back something dean said in 14.18 but i don't understand, i really don't, what the timeline he's working off is. like when is dean supposed to have enough space to work through the emotional ramifications of everything above. when is he supposed to have calmed down enough settle in to feeling any one kind of way.

"You still blame me for Mary." like it just happened, my guy. like where was he supposed to work in grieving for his mom (again) and working to move on from the grief and blame, into fighting off a ghost apocalypse and finding out god is basically jacking off to his pain.

i think patience and understanding has always been one of dean's strong suits. and i think cas tends toward impatience more. and it does make sense that when dean truly does get to the edge of his patience, that feels like a breaking point to cas because he has always had access to it before.

in response, i do think cas is allowed to be reactive and hurt and angry! after all he just went through all of the above as well!!!! but i think it's a grave mistake to think that cas doesn't also need to apologize for lashing out in anger.

[incesthemes]

if you think about it, rowena and ketch dying in 15.03 at the same time is an interesting parallel to 8.10: sam and dean both lose their "love interests" and thus return to each other. rowena, the girl who had enjoyed relationship development with sam, is thus sacrificed by him as foretold by prophecy; ketch, the hunter whom dean had grown fond of, is murdered because he got in the way. the obstacles that threaten to pull sam and dean out of their binary star system are removed and they have no choice but to snap back into each other's arms because once again they have no one else but each other. their perpetual isolation is ensured by the persistent demise of anyone who dares to step close to the black hole of their consumptive love. and so on and so forth

[saybiwithme]

Running scared, I was there. I remember it all too well

[trademarkstraggler]

MEAT MAN

It doesn't mean what you think it does.

yeah it does

MEAT MAN

[deancasforcutie]

#one of the absolute MOST scenes (via @ilarual)

15.03 - The Rupture - for #samwenaday

[aliusfrater]

he's so sweet lookin in season fifteen what is going on

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15.03 The Rupture

[deancasforcutie]

#prev - exactly #and them meeting Rowena in Hell after they thought she was gone was supposed to be paralleled by Dean meeting Cas in Heaven #also both Rowena and Cas knew 'how' they were going to die #and they both weaponized it to save the day #each of them alone with their Winchester (via @ironworked)

ok so i just realized while editing some samwena shots in 15x03 the physical parallels in the blocking between the samwena "it has to be you that kills me" scene and the confession. like both rowena and cas turn away and then turn back to reveal their hail mary self-sacrificing plan that will save the day. and then the tearful close-ups. both sam and dean in disbelief, asking rowena and cas respectively not to do this. rowena and cas both reaching out, putting a hand on their partner. (the way i knowwww destiel were meant to be shown as standing closer but they obscured that in post-production with the zoomed in shots) (cut destiel hug i mean paralleled with samwena hug, i mean what who said that) and thennnnn. "it has to be you that kills me" and just.......thinking abt how it's cas's love for dean that "kills" cas in the sense that the confession triggers his empty deal. dean, sitting there on the dungeon floor sobbing for hours, processing, and coming to the conclusion in his mind that this is somehow his fault. he killed cas. both brothers being the "reason" for their partner's death. aughhhhh. when the samwena destiel parallel feels HIT

[ardentpoop]

oof

[the-bastard-of-the-universe]

This year, inspired by tumblr love of March 15 I will be making my friends a candle light dinner with Italian food.

If you have any recommendations for food tell me please

[auptagzn]

Biri gitti bile ama şu an aşırı sıkılıyorum

[deancasforcutie]

#bel being the demon sent to earth to see if there’s married happiness #then he’s a little homewrecking shit #insane show for insane people (via @sio-lokistiel)

"Belphegor, why were you looking for this?" ↳ 15.03 - THE RUPTURE