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untraumatized a few 0f my AU designs!!

[caepaecaesurae]

> CC + PC: Talk

> Cronus: Do the high equivalent of drunktexting

caepaecaesurae look, im sorry about y aec that i have one i mean *face shit i'msorry i'm making a mess of his αντιο σας palteringcecutiency y0u. n33dn'7. 317h3r, 1. wh1ch3v3r y0u 7h1nk n3c3554ry. 1, f33l 17 prud3n7, 70 m3n710n3d 7h47 y0u 4r3 qu173 4ll0w3d 70 h4v3 4 f4c3, 4nd y0ur5 5p3c1f1c4lly. ...1'm gl4d 70 533 y0u 4r0und.

caepaecaesurae but its mine palteringcecutiency 17 15, y35. 8u7, 17 15 4lr1gh7? 17 15 4 g00d 0n3, 4nd. 17 d035 n07 m34n wh47 17 d1d. caepaecaesurae but its mine and im the wvorst palteringcecutiency n0, n07 7h3 w0r57. 4nd r3g4rdl355, 1 n0 l0ng3r m1nd 17. caepaecaesurae but wvhy palteringcecutiency ...83c4u53 1 m37 k4nkr1, 4nd h3 h3lp3d m3 g37 p457 7h3 f34r. caepaecaesurae I'm sorry palteringcecutiency 1. c4n'7 54y 17'5 0k4y. 0r 7h47 1, f0rg1v3 y0u, 8u7. 17 m34n5 4 l07 70 h34r 17, fr0m y0u, 4nd 4p0l0gy 4cc3p73d. :) 7h3 5c4l35 4r3 84l4nc3d. 7h15 kn1f3 w1ll n3v3r 533 m00nl1gh7 4g41n, 1 pr0m153. caepaecaesurae are you sure palteringcecutiency y35. 7h47 w45 7h3 4gr33m3n7, 4nd y0u h4v3 g0n3 480v3 4nd 83y0nd. why w0uldn'7 1 83? caepaecaesurae because you dont owve me anything and you nevwer believwe me palteringcecutiency ...1 4m n07 50 8l1nd 70 m155 h0w y0u h4v3 833n 4ff3c73d. 83l13v1ng y0ur w0rd5 15 n07 n3c3554ry, 7h0ugh... 1 d0. 4nd 1 d0, 1 4m n07 50m3 fl4wl355 541n7. y0u w0uld n07 83 50... 5c4r3d, 0f m3, 1f 1 d1dn'7. caepaecaesurae *upset palteringcecutiency *up537 caepaecaesurae i dont know what to say but m glad you met kankri palteringcecutiency ...a5 4m 1. f0r 50 m4ny r3450n5. y0u d0n'7... n33d 70 kn0w, r1gh7 n0w. y0u n33dn'7 w0rry y0ur53lf 0v3r 7h47, 0r m3, 4lr1gh7? 7h47 c4n c0m3 l473r, 1f 17 d035 47 4ll. y0ur r3c0v3ry 5h0uld c0m3 f1r57. caepaecaesurae i'm okay i mean okay, i'm going to be i hope i mean its getting easier nadaya wvill tell you, im getting better palteringcecutiency h3 d035n'7 h4v3 70, 1'v3 533n y0u c0m1ng 84ck 4r0und. y0u'll 4850lu73ly g37 7h3r3. 8u7 1... kn0w, wh47 7h15 15 l1k3, 4nd 7h47 17 74k35 71m3. caepaecaesurae i didnt mean to palteringcecutiency ...1 kn0w. palteringcecutiency y0ur r34c710n 541d 45 much, 4nd... 7h3 w4y y0u... 5p0k3, 480u7 17. caepaecaesurae i dont want o make it wvorse is it bad i'm talking to you? palteringcecutiency n07 0n my h4lf, 17 15n'7. ...4nd wh47 0f y0u? 15. 74lk1ng 70 m3 50m37h1ng y0u w4n7, 0r 50m37h1ng y0u f33l... 08l1g473d, 70 d0? caepaecaesurae wvell theres a lot to talk about if its not bad palteringcecutiency 7h3r3 15, y35. 4... c0n51d3r48l3 4m0un7. 4nd 1... w3lc0m3 17, 1f y0u 4r3 4lr1gh7, d01ng 50. caepaecaesurae > You seriously consider asking for a rain check, so you can talk about those sorts of things Later, when you are more emotionally competent.  And biologically competent. > ... however this is going Significantly better than usual, and you can't overrule that. sure palteringcecutiency > Surprisingly, it's going very well on this end as well, save the constant nervousness and worry, but that's a distinctly you problem, or at least your emotions'. ...1f 7h47 ch4ng35, y0u c4n... 83 d157r4c73d, w17h n0 w0rry 0v3r 831ng c4ll3d 0u7. 1'll... und3r574nd. caepaecaesurae are you sure? thats a lot palteringcecutiency y0u'v3... 833n 7hr0ugh 4 l07 4lr34dy. 1 d0 n07 w15h 70 4dd 70 17, 1f 1 c4n h3lp 17.

> Approximately 12-16 hours pass

caepaecaesurae It's appreciated, chief Clear lines of retreat, to regroup, are wvorth their wveight caepaecaesurae .. Thanks for talking wvith me.  Sorry I wvas a mess palteringcecutiency ...17 w45 3xp3c73d, 4nd n0 7r0u8l3. 70d4y 15... 83773r, 7h3n? caepaecaesurae Yes. I wvas not in my clearest mind wvhen I elected to message you palteringcecutiency 7h47 c3r741nly... 3xpl41n5 4 f3w 7h1ng5. ...y0u n33dn'7 c0n71nu3, 1f 17 w45... un50und l0g1c 7h47 g07 y0u h3r3. caepaecaesurae It wvent wvell enough I'm debating if I should aim for the same evwery time wve talk palteringcecutiency wh1ch 54m3 1n p4r71cul4r? caepaecaesurae Suddenly hoping you wvon't be annoyed Arlequin brought something ovwer to smoke, and I had an amount palteringcecutiency ...4r3 y0u 1mply1ng y0u 4r3 c0n51d3r1ng g3771ng h1gh 34ch 71m3 y0u w15h 70 5p34k w17h m3? 7h47 533m5 4 70uch... dr4571c. caepaecaesurae It seemed to help I'm not sure wve'vwe evwer had a convwersation that peaceful since evwerything palteringcecutiency ...17 15 f0r y0ur 83n3f17, 7h3n? caepaecaesurae if it keeps my foot out of my mouth I don't knowv chief palteringcecutiency 1f y0u 4r3 53r10u5ly c0n51d3r1ng... 50m37h1ng l1k3 7h47, 70... pr3v3n7, 4ng3r, 7h3n p3rh4p5 u5 5p34k1ng 5h0uld... w417, un71l y0u 4r3 l355... up537. caepaecaesurae And nowv my foot's in my mouth agan... palteringcecutiency n0, 1'm n07 up537. ju57. p01n71ng 0u7... 4n 34513r po55181l17y. Yesterday at 10:32 PM caepaecaesurae ..I wvon't, then caepaecaesurae I'm sorry, I'm scattered still. palteringcecutiency 4nd c4g3y, n3rv0u5. 17'5 f1n3, 4nd 3xp3c73d. 1 ju57. d0 n07 kn0w h0w 70 3453 7h1ng5, 451d3 fr0m r3m1nd1ng y0u 7h47 5p34k1ng 70 m3 15 n07 4 r3qu1r3m3n7, 4nd 7h47 1gn0r1ng m3 w1ll 34rn y0u n0 5c0rn. caepaecaesurae ..Thanks, chief I like the idea of talking wvith you You seem so different palteringcecutiency ...y0u w3r3 n07 7h3 0nly 0n3... 4ff3c73d. Today at 12:21 AM caepaecaesurae I'm sorry. wvill you be going back to normal then? palteringcecutiency ...1 d0n'7 kn0w. 1 4m. v3ry un5ur3 0f... 4ny7h1ng 7h47 c4n 83 c0n51d3r3d... 4f73r. Today at 3:09 AM caepaecaesurae ... It's disorienting, isn't it caepaecaesurae I hope you find your center again, evwen if the lack of hostility is...nice. palteringcecutiency ...fr1gh73n1ng. kn0w1ng 7h3 l4nd5c4p3 0f 7h1ng5, 3v3n ju57 g3n3r4lly, 15... 4 c0mf0r7. 831ng c4ugh7 0ff gu4rd 15... d035 n07 u5u4lly 3nd w3ll. ...1. 17'5 4, 57up1d qu35710n, 0n 7h3 5urf4c3, 8u7... 15 7h47, 50m37h1ng y0u w4n7? caepaecaesurae Being off guard at random is more of a wvay of life to me.  It just happens.  You adapt, evwentually, as best you can. ...the lack of hostility is vwery reassuring honestly. palteringcecutiency ...1 h4d 7r0u8l3 pr3d1c71ng y0u. 4nd 1 c0uldn'7 pr3d1c7 )(3r. y0u c4n. und3r574nd, why 1 4m n07. f0nd. ...r3g4rdl355 wh47 15 h4pp3n1ng, 1'm n07 g01ng 70 k1ck y0u wh3n y0u'r3 4lr34dy d0wn, cr0nu5. y0u d0n'7 n33d 7h47. y0u d0n'7 d353rv3 7h47. caepaecaesurae Most of the things I can't predict come around to hurt me in the end.  I do understand, though if wve wvant to say that it's lesser I wvon't argue otherwvise. WVhat qualifies as dowvn? palteringcecutiency ...7h47 d3p3nd5. m057ly 0n wh47 5p3c1f1c4lly 15 c4u51ng y0u 70 83 45 v4gu3 45 p05518l3, 4nd h0w y0u w1ll r34c7 70 4 l4ck 0f 5uch 1n 4n 4n5w3r. caepaecaesurae VWaguery is a wvay of life I don't admit specifics often palteringcecutiency 1 w45n'7 3xp3c71ng y0u 70, 45 n1c3 45 7h47 w0uld 83, 8u7 y0u'r3 831ng v4gu3 f0r 3v3n y0u, murk1ng 7h3 w473r5 d4rk 3n0ugh 7h47 1 d0n'7... 1 c4nn07 f1nd 7h3m my53lf. caepaecaesurae WVell...being direct wvorked wvhen I wvas high I guess caepaecaesurae ...It hurts, not to be vwague. caepaecaesurae ... I appreciate not being kicked wvhile I'm dowvn.  I'm not sure wvhat makes me more 'dowvn' nowv than any other time. palteringcecutiency ...17'5 7h3 54m3 f0r m3. 1'm... n07 f0nd 0f 5pp1ll1ng 53cr375 70 7h053 wh0 c4n u53 7h3m 4g41n57 m3, 8u7. y0u kn0w 4 gr347 d34l 0f m1n3, 5udd3nly. why pr373nd 07h3rw153. ...1'v3 h4d my w0rld r477l3d 8y 7h053 m3m0r135... 0f73n, 4nd 1 4m... u53d 70 7h47, 4f73r 50 m4ny 5w33p5 0f 17. y0u... 4r3 n07. y0u d1d n07 3v3n 533 17 c0m1ng. 17 h17 y0u d33p 3n0ugh 70 8r1ng y0u 70 734r5, f0rg37 wh0 y0u 4r3... l053 5p33ch. 1... h4v3 833n 7h3r3, 700 0f73n, 70 n07 c0n51d3r y0u 'd0wn.' caepaecaesurae ... It's getting better. I'm not sure apologies are conducivwe to convwersation.  WVould you prefer I mention them wvhen I get the urge to apologize, or let that go unspoken? palteringcecutiency y0u w0uld n07 83 0n 7h3 d45h 1f y0u w3r3n'7. 4nd... n4d4y4 4nd k4nkr1 h4v3 833n upd471ng m3, 0n r3qu357. ...5p34k 7h3m, pl3453. 1 541d 70 54v3 7h3m un71l 7h3y m34n7 50m37h1ng, 4nd... 7h3y c3r741nly d0 n0w. 1'd. l1k3 70 h34r 7h3m. caepaecaesurae I'm just sorry. I could try and put more wvords into it, but it alwvays sounds like explanations if I try. palteringcecutiency ...y0u h4v3 3xpl41n3d 83f0r3, wh3n w3'v3 5p0k3n pr3v10u5ly. y0ur 1n73n710n5, y0ur g04l5, y0ur... h1gh 574nd4rd5, h0w 17 w45... my 4c710n5, 7h47 m4d3 y0u d0 wh47 y0u d1d. 1 4m. n07 up537, 1f 17 15, 8u7. 15 17 7h47 r04d y0u w15h 70 g0 0v3r, 0r... h4v3 y0u f0und 4 d1ff3r3n7 0n3, w17h 7h15 n3w... p3r5p3c71v3? caepaecaesurae If I find anything that doesn't sound cheap I'll let you knowv. ....and I'll probably be running it past Kankri first. palteringcecutiency ...1'm w1ll1ng 70 5p34k 70 y0u 480u7 7h15, 45... m355y, 45 7h47 w1ll 83, 1n 7h3 83g1nn1ng. ...h3lp, 1f y0u w4n7 17, fr0m m3. 1f n07, k4nkr1 kn0w5 4ll 1 5h4r3d w17h y0u, 4nd n4d4y4... h45 l1v3d 7hr0ugh 51m1l4r. 7h3r3 4r3 pl4c35 70 l34rn 1n. caepaecaesurae It's hard to believwe they forgivwe me. ..I'm not as inclined to push it as I could be. palteringcecutiency ...17 h45 833n. h4rd 70 w47ch 7h3m d0 50. 8u7 7h3y 4r3. d3v073d, 70 y0u, 4nd h4v3 pr0v3n 7h3m53lv35 w1ll1ng 70... 455157 y0u, 1n y0ur 1mpr0v3m3n75, 50 1 d0 n07 533 why 17 w0uld 83 pu5h1ng 4ny7h1ng. caepaecaesurae The strawv that broke the camel's back It feels like they must not understand, and that if they did, they wvould turn. caepaecaesurae Disrupting wvhatevwer is keeping them fond of me is uncomfortable. palteringcecutiency ...cr0nu5. n4d4y4 und3r574nd5. h3 c4ll5 m3 m17un4 83c4u53 h3 c4nn07 8r1ng h1m53lf 70 c4ll m3 p511 n07 0u7 0f h473 8u7 0u7 0f f34r. h3'5 833n 7hr0ugh w0r53 7h4n y0u c0uld 3v3r d15h 0u7. h3 /kn0w5/. 4nd k4nkr1 f0und m3 1n 7h3 8u88l35, dr4gg3d m3 0u7 0f 7h3 r1g 0v3r 4nd 0v3r 4nd 0v3r 4g41n, w47ch3d m3 r3l1v3 y0u 4nd )(3r. h3 kn0w5. 7h3y kn3w fr0m 7h3 83g1nn1ng. 7h3y 571ll ch053 y0u, w3lc0m3d y0u. 17 w1ll 74k3 m0r3 7h4n y0u n071c1ng 700 70 m4k3 7h3m l34v3. 7h3r3 15 n0 d0u87. caepaecaesurae ..I'm trying to remember that. caepaecaesurae ..I deservwe this, so I'm going to try to wveather it. palteringcecutiency ...y0u d353rv3 wh47 w45 g1v3n. y0u n33dn'7 4dd 3x7r4 70 17. caepaecaesurae I hate the things Kurloz and I havwe in common. palteringcecutiency 4n 4nn0y4nc3, fr0m 317h3r 0f y0u. palteringcecutiency 57u880rn 4nd 53lf-r1gh730u5, 1gn0r1ng wh47 15 1n fr0n7 0f 7h3m f0r 50m3 f4n7451c4l m4r7yrd0m 7h47 h45 n07h1ng 70 d0 w17h 7h3 r3l3v4n7 pr08l3m. caepaecaesurae It hurts to be open, mit.  WVhy wvould it hurt any less wvith them? palteringcecutiency 83c4u53 7h3y'r3 y0ur qu4dr4n75. w0uld y0u r47h3r 83 0p3n 70 m3? 70 4 57r4ng3r? caepaecaesurae If I ruin things wvith strangers, it doesn't hurt. I'vwe picked up a fewv newv...things... since Kankri gavwe you that list.  WVhen you got here. palteringcecutiency ...0h? 1. 455um3 4 f3w 4r3 fr0m... m3, 4nd my 4c710n5. caepaecaesurae It wvas already starting before then That hit a fewv nervwes though palteringcecutiency ...y0u h4v3 4 5p3c1f1c 0n3 1n m1nd, 7h3n, 70 m3n710n h3r3. caepaecaesurae ... Clade make me uneasy. More than strangers. So, yes, I wvould havwe an easier time discussing most things wvith strangers.  You hit that one on the head palteringcecutiency ...4h. ...7h3n. wh3r3 d035 50m30n3 l1k3 1 f4ll? 70w4rd5 57r4ng3r, 0r cl4d3? caepaecaesurae I guess it's situational palteringcecutiency 1n 0n3 wh3r3 y0u... w0rk 7hr0ugh 7h15. caepaecaesurae WVorrying that I'm about to ruin evwerything feels like a normal part of talking wvith you so I don't knowv. You're not at either extreme. palteringcecutiency ...7h3n 4 57r4ng3r 50und5 1d34l, 70 4v01d 5uch 4 f33l1ng. caepaecaesurae I spoke wvith Ringleader, some. He helped. palteringcecutiency ...d1d h3? caepaecaesurae He has experience trying to turn his life around, and no real reason to judge me. caepaecaesurae Evwen wvith this, nothing I'vwe done compares to his past, and I don't knowv that guilt is something that registers for him. It leavwes a fewv things out. It's simpler.  It's a start. caepaecaesurae He needs to mind his owvn business sometimes, but wvhen I wvas barely talking, he helped lure me out. palteringcecutiency ...1 h4v3 f0und h15... 481l17y, 70 455157... l4ck1ng. palteringcecutiency 8u7. 1f h3 15 wh0 y0u w15h 70 7urn 70, y0u 5h0uld d0 50. caepaecaesurae If you turn to someone too often they aren't a stranger anymore caepaecaesurae Distance is good palteringcecutiency 7h15 5173 15 n07 l4ck1ng 1n f0rm3r 5l4v35. 7h3r3 4r3 07h3r5 70 g0 70, wh3n 7h3 r15k 83c0m35 700 h1gh. palteringcecutiency m057 w1ll 4ppr3c1473 4 f0rm3r 5l4v3r 7ry1ng 70 l34rn fr0m h15... m1574k35. caepaecaesurae They havwe the most reason to judge It's former slavwers, unfortunately, that I'd seek ...but it may just be easier to wvork on my owvn.  Nadaya is a light in my heart, and I'm doing better. palteringcecutiency ...y0u 4r3 7h3 0nly 0n3 1 kn0w wh0 3v3n r3m073ly r3gr375. ...1. f34r. y0u w1ll. c0m3 70 7h3. 54m3 c0nclu510n5, y0u d1d 83f0r3, w17h0u7 gu1d4nc3. caepaecaesurae Arlequin regrets a fewv things he's done.  He's a bit high stakes in this case. palteringcecutiency ...1f y0u 5p34k 70 h1m 480u7 7h15, 45k f0r p3rm15510n f1r57, fr0m 4 d1574nc3. caepaecaesurae mmn. palteringcecutiency h3 d1d n07 35c4p3 3ff3c7 317h3r. caepaecaesurae If. ...Aye, let's not do that. ..but I'vwe regretted it all for a wvhile, chief.  This might be the last nail my beforan side needed to lock awvay the alternian vwiewv, but I don't see my opinions changing because of this. Maybe you didn't believwe I thought it wvas wvrong, maybe I nevwer got around to saying it, maybe I couldn't convwince myself to say it. But it wvas wvrong. I knowv it and I'vwe knowvn it for a wvhil. Nowv I knowv howv wvrong. palteringcecutiency ...why w45 17 wr0ng, 7h3n? caepaecaesurae That's hard to put into wvords.  There's slavwery in general, and there's wvhat I did. I wvas abusivwe, wvhich is torture, and not justified against anyone wvho did nothing wvrong.  Maybe not then either. caepaecaesurae Leavwing legal issues and gl'bgolyb's diet out of it, I'll go wvith "not justified in general". palteringcecutiency ...p3rh4p5 y0u 5h0uldn'7 74lk 480u7 7h15 70 n4d4y4, 7h3n, 1f 7h15 15 wh47 y0u'v3... d3c1d3d 0n. caepaecaesurae I don't havwe a convwenient wvord like torture to covwer wvhat slavwery wvould be, outside of ... that. I wvant to still use that wvord but I don't knowv. Nadaya's tried to tell me I couldn't possibly offend him, and I almost believwe him.  I still...don't...wvant to try. caepaecaesurae ...It's wvrong.  If I try to discuss it in any more detail than that, I get caught up in edge cases and it comes out badly. palteringcecutiency ...48u53 15 n07h1ng 4ny0n3 d353r3v3, 3v3r. 5)(3 d035 n07 d353rv3 17. y0u d0 n07. n0 0n3 d035. 5l4v3ry 15 70r7ur3, full 570p. 1f 4ny7h1ng 70 l3550n 7h3 70r7ur3 15 g1v3n, 17 c34535 831ng 5l4v3ry. 7h3r3 4r3 gr3y 4r345 wh3n 17 c0m35 70 wh47 15 48u53 4nd wh47 15n'7, 8u7 7h3y 4r3 l1gh7y34r5 4w4y fr0m 0wn1ng 4 p3r50n l1k3 7h3y w3r3 4 7h1ng. palteringcecutiency y0u w3r3 /k1nd/, cr0nu5. y0u c0uld h4v3 d0n3 much w0r53, 4nd y0u 571ll 5h4773r3d m3. caepaecaesurae I wvas kind Sometimes. I think that's wvorse than being consistant. palteringcecutiency 1 m34n 0v3r4ll, 45 4 5l4v3r. caepaecaesurae ...Fair. I'll accept that slavwery is tortue. palteringcecutiency ...th15 15 why 1 d0 n07 f33l c0nf1d3n7 w17h y0u 5u551ng 7h15 0u7 0n y0ur 0wn. y0u l1v3d 7hr0ugh 50m30n3 8r34k1ng y0ur ch1ldh00d, d357r0y1ng y0ur 53lf w0r7h, 4nd y0u 0nly /acc3p7/ 7h47 5l4v3ry 15 70r7ur3. palteringcecutiency 45 1f 17 15 4 d3b473 wh37h3r 0r n07 1 w45 8r0k3n 8y 17. caepaecaesurae Your upbringing wvas torture But wvas it the fault of slavwery, for putting us in that situation, or me, for doing things that wvere wvrong? It puts people in that situation, and therefore can't be trusted palteringcecutiency 7h3 3mp1r3'5, f0r 73ach1ng y0u 7h47 1 w45n'7 w0r7hy 0f p3r50nh00d. 5l4v3ry, f0r m4k1ng 74k1ng 7h47 4w4y pr0f1748l3. caepaecaesurae I didn't think anyone had choices about wvhat they wvere to do wvith their livwes palteringcecutiency 7h3 3mp1r3 ru1n3d u5 4ll, cr0nu5, 8u7 y0ur h4nd5 4r3 n07 cl34n. g1v3n p0w3r, y0u c4n l00k 47 4 50881ng ch1ld 4nd 8l4m3 7h3m f0r y0u 8r34k1ng 7h31r f4c3, 4nd 5l33p cl34nly 7hr0ugh 7h3 d4y. 5l4v3ry 15 wr0ng 83c4u53 17 g1v35 p30pl3 l1k3 y0u 0pp0r7un17135 4nd p475 y0u 0n 7h3 84ck wh3n y0u 74k3 7h3m. palteringcecutiency 1n5734d 0f pr073c71ng 7h3 w34k fr0m 7h3m. 1 4m. 1 4m n07 4ngry 47 y0u. caepaecaesurae ..damn, a message didn't send.  I'd like to add that I realise I had far more choices than most. palteringcecutiency ...y0u d1d, y35. caepaecaesurae ..I should not havwe powver or control. This equality thing is better in literally evwery wvay. palteringcecutiency ...7h3r3 4r3 m4ny, wh0 5h0uldn'7. kurl0z 5h0uldn'7, 1 5h0uldn'7, k4nkr1 5h0uldn'7, 4ll f0r d1ff3r3n7 r3450n5. 8u7 y35, 7h47 15 4 w4y 4r0und 17. caepaecaesurae I can't think of anyone wvho should havwe That control. palteringcecutiency 83c4u53 7h3r3 15 n0 0n3. 7h3y c0uld 7r347 50m30n3 p3rf3c7ly, 8u7 1n 7h3 3nd, y0u'r3 571ll 73ll1ng 4 p3r50n 7h47 7h3y 4r3n'7 0n3, 4nd 7h47 y0u kn0w 83773r 7h3n 7h3y 3v3r w1ll, 50 y0u mu57 083y, 0r 3l53. palteringcecutiency ...0n 83f0ru5, 1 g07 7h47, 7h0ugh 1 w45 m0r3 fr33 70 und3rm1n3 17 4nd fl33 f0r 4 71m3, 8u7. 1 w45 7r3473d l1k3 1 w45n'7 48l3 70 d3c1d3 4ny7h1ng f0r my53lf, 17 w45 74k3n 4w4y fr0m m3 wh1l3 1 w45 1gn0r3d. ...17 571ll fuck3d m3 up. 1 8r0k3 y0ur f4c3 0v3r 17 h3r3. caepaecaesurae I try to leavwe you as many choices as I can palteringcecutiency ...17 15 4ppr3c1473d. ...4nd 1 4m 7ry1ng 70 d0 7h3 54m3 1n r37urn. caepaecaesurae Also appreciated palteringcecutiency ...y0u 5h0uld kn0w 7h47 r1ngl34d3r pr355ur3d m3 1n70 8r34k1ng 7h47, 70 54715fy h15 0wn 3m0710n4l d3m4nd5. 1 70ld h1m 70 57uff 17, 0f c0ur53, 8u7. d1574nc3 fr0m h1m m4y 83... 4dv1548l3. caepaecaesurae He needs to leavwe you alone caepaecaesurae I can handle him, he's actually intimidated by me if I put my foot dowvn, wvhich is.. I'm not sure howv to feel about that anymore. ...but I'd rather he left you be. If he's evwer fool enough to try again, accuse him of an ashen crush.  He'll fluster and run. He can't evwen handle the implication. palteringcecutiency 1f h3'5 f00l 3n0ugh 70 7ry 4g41n, h3'll h4v3 m0r3 7h4n 4n 4ccu54710n 70 d34l w17h, 4nd n07h1ng 1 c4n d0 70 570p 17. caepaecaesurae Yikes. Do I wvant to knowv? palteringcecutiency ...17 w45n'7 4 807h3r, 7h0ugh. h3 w45 4 gru8 7hr0w1ng 4 74n7rum 47 w0r57. caepaecaesurae He is that, generally. palteringcecutiency 4h, w3ll, 5p4rk5 4nd n4d4y4 d3c1d3d h15 f1r57 c0nv3r54710n w17h m3, 4nd 7h3 4n0n, w3r3 h4rr455m3n7, 7h0ugh my 0nly 08j3c710n w45 wh47 h3 r3v34l3d 480u7 y0u, 4nd... 70ld h1m 45 much. palteringcecutiency 7h3 53c0nd w45 f1n3 un71l h3 d3m4nd3d 1 f0rc3 my h3lp up0n y0u, 7h3n l4ugh3d 480u7 h15 7r347m3n7 0f y0u 831ng f1n3 83c4u53 y0u 70l3r473d 17. ...4nd 1 m4y h4v3 m3n710n3d 17 70 k4nkr1. caepaecaesurae tsk That explains wvhy Kankri told him to leavwe me be palteringcecutiency 70 54y h3 w45 4ngry w45 4n und3r57473m37. ...1 c4nn07 54y 1 w45n'7 317h3r. caepaecaesurae I wvish Kankri had told me directly, his anger is a rare treat to observwe palteringcecutiency 45k h1m 70 5h4r3 h15 c0nv3r54710n w17h r1ngl34d3r. 17'5 qu173 l0v3ly. c: palteringcecutiency ...7h47 w45 7h3 n1gh7 h3 f1r57 c4m3 up h3r3, 50 1. d0 n07 kn0w 1f y0u w0uld h4v3 g0773n 4 gl1mp53 r3g4rdl355. caepaecaesurae I wvas occupied as I recall palteringcecutiency ...my m00d plumm3773d 4nd 1 h4d, 4. m1n0r 8r34kd0wn, 1n 0ur w1nd0w, 4nd 1 c0uld n07 c0nv1nc3 h1m 70 574y w17h y0u. 1'd hop3d kurl0z 47 l3457 w0uld 74k3 50m3 0f h15 pl4c3. caepaecaesurae ..ah. I'm sorry, chief. palteringcecutiency 1'm 50rry. caepaecaesurae Aye, Kurloz helped palteringcecutiency ...1'm gl4d f0r 7h47, 47 l3457. caepaecaesurae I misread wvhich 'he' you meant, I thought you meant a night earlier palteringcecutiency ...wh47 h4pp3n3d? caepaecaesurae The first twvo nights I wvas less social.  I think Kankri vwisited you on night three or four, wvhich wvere better. palteringcecutiency ...4h. y35, 1. w45... 51m1l4r. 1 l37 p30pl3 kn0w y0u w3r3... 0ccup13d, and... w45 0nl1n3 70... d34l w17h 7h47 0nly. ...1 g07 4 gr347 d34l 0f c0nc3rn f0r m3, 1n5734d. caepaecaesurae I sawv the post A fewv people messaged me in concern Ovwer the fewv days palteringcecutiency ...1'm 50rry, 1 w45 7ry1ng 70 4v01d 7h47. caepaecaesurae Half of them knewv something wvas coming, though I hadn't told them wvhat wve wvere planning specifically palteringcecutiency ...1 g07 my f41r 5h4r3 0f up537 0v3r k33p1ng 17 fr0m... 3v3ry0n3. caepaecaesurae I think people are used to it from me palteringcecutiency ...7h3y w4n73d 70 h3lp, 83f0r3h4nd, 4nd... 1 d1d n07 l37 7h3m, f0r f34r 0f... m4ny 7h1ng5. caepaecaesurae I hope they helped after palteringcecutiency ...7h3y d1d. m0r3 7h4n 1... 83l13v3d, 7h3y w0uld. 1. 17 533m5. 7h47 7h3y c4n. p1ck. 807h. caepaecaesurae apparently they are inclined to caepaecaesurae You deservwe a better life palteringcecutiency 4ggr351v3ly 50. 1. d0 n07. 7h3y. 1'v3. 833n 70ld. 17'5. 833n l1k3 7h15. 4nd w1ll 574y. 1. 17'5. 1'm. wh3n 1. 541d. 1 d1dn'7. kn0w. wh47. w0uld c0m3, '4f73r,' 1. n07h1ng, 1 7h0ugh7, w0uld h4pp3n, d1d. 1'm l057. 1, h4v3 n0 pl4n. 1 d0n'7, kn0w wh47 1 d353rv3. 1. ...d0n'7 kn0w 4ny7h1ng, 4nym0r3. caepaecaesurae wvell...  Pick wvhat you wvant to be true, and check if it is? caepaecaesurae If it is, you wvin.  If it isn't, you get disappointed, and you knowv howv to handle that, so you also wvin. Either wvay, you gain information. ... Is that too simple to wvork? palteringcecutiency ...n0, 17'5. 17'5 n07. y0u'r3 n07. 7h3 f1r57. 70 54y 17. 8u7. 17'5. 1. d0 n07 l1k3. 7h3 p1c7ur3, wh47 1 h4v3 50 f4r, h45. p41n73d. 1. d0 n07 w15h 70. d0u87 /m0r3/. 0r my53lf. 17'5. fr1gh73n1ng. caepaecaesurae ... I givwe up and trust people sometimes, evwen wvhen my pan is yelling at me that there's a trap around the corner, that they're going to hurt or hate me, that I'm going to ruin it and lose evwerything. I gavwe up.  I don't understand anything. I muddle through.  I do wvhat I think wvhen I think I knowv wvhat's going on, and I just pick someone to trust wvhen I don't. Quadrants are usually right. palteringcecutiency ...17 15. h4rd, f0r m3 70 7ru57, l1k3 7h47. 8u7. ...34513r, 4f73r 7h15. caepaecaesurae If it's any easier, then this wvas wvorth it. palteringcecutiency ...15 17? caepaecaesurae Nothing else wvas helping wvas it? palteringcecutiency ...y0u. d1d 7h15, 70... h3lp? h3lp m3? caepaecaesurae I'd really like for you to be alright somenight ..wvhat else is justice supposed to be for? palteringcecutiency 1. 7h47'5. 17'5. 17'5 50m37h1ng h1gh8l00d5 p47 7h3m53lv35 0n 7h3 5h0uld3r w17h, 7h15. w45 f0r y0u? y0u w4n73d 17. y0u w4173d f0r 17. caepaecaesurae > ..his heart and stomach were starting to hurt, and his head was getting fuzzy, so Caesurae elected to go to the bathroom and hide in there for a bit. caepaecaesurae > If he corrected Mituna would it ruin things again?  More?  Or would it be fine? > He couldn't find an answer, so he didn't reply. palteringcecutiency > You know you said that he could run, and you'd let him go. You meant that, okay? You truly did. But. You were frazzled, scattered, questioning everything again. This had been mentioned before, as a motivation of his, and you brushed it aside, knowing the truth, and here you are, wrong yet again. Extenuating circumstances, alright? You can apologize when you feel sane again. caepaecaesurae > It had been nearly a day since his last cry break, he was probably due. palteringcecutiency 1 ju57. w4n73d, 70 h3lp. m4k3 y0u l355. 5c4r3d, 0f m3, 50 y0u c0uld... 4c7, m0r3 fr33ly. g1v3 y0u cl05ur3. m4k3 7h1ng5... m0v3, 4g41n. palteringcecutiency 1'm 50rry. caepaecaesurae > Mituna would be waiting a while for his response. palteringcecutiency> That's okay, you can wait, it'll give you time to cry too.> Emotions are bullshit, and you still hate them.

[tabescentabasement]

> Chat with your rail (Log)

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-centurionAscendant [CA] has come online-

CA: Back CA: Yeah, sorry about all that negativve bs CA: I knoww I shouldn’t be doin it

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CA: i think wwhat started it off wwas that i wwanted to talk to someone, of couurse not expectin anyone to actually wwant to talk to me, and then wwhen someone did i just sorta CA: idk CA: crashed i guess? CA: like i had no idea wwhat to do wwith it CA: so crash and self destruct

TA: cr45h pr0mp73d fr0m 4 l4ck 0f c0n511573n7 c0mp4ny?

CA: like thats pretty much my default reaction to evverythin CA: uh CA: can i put this in slightly different terms? CA: like mechanized CA: easier than tryin to explain mental bs

TA: wh47?

CA: forget it CA: idk howw to explain it wwithout soundin stupid CA: crash wwasnt prompted from lack of consistent company

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CA: crash wwas prompted from the fact that i wwas unable to handle someone actually wwantin to talk to me and becauuse of that i wwas unable to think of anythin to talk about and then i sorta had that great big crash and noww ivve probably chased awway anyone wwhod evver wwant to talk to me CA: i dont evven knoww half of wwhats goin on CA: i just knoww that wwhen i initiate somethin but then cant actually do it i manage to feel pretty fuckin stupid

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CA: no its fine its confusin CA: sorry about that CA: i dont knoww howw to explain it CA: like CA: a program might crash wwhen it runs into unexpected obstacles CA: i do the same CA: except the programs usually havve diagnostics tools and use them and im too bsy self destructing to knoww if i havve any

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CA: ill try CA: the support newwork is gonna be a lot more difficult though and might resort in a great deal of crashes

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CA: okay CA: sometimes it feels like it wwould be easier if i didnt havve emotions

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CA: i suppose CA: can i ask somethin a bit CA: i guess not nice? intrusivve maybe??? CA: idk

TA: 5ur3.

CA: wwhat’s it like bein a helmsman

TA: n0w 7h47 11’m d34d, 0r d0 y0u m34n wh3n 11 w45 4c711v3ly h3lm11ng? 47 wh47 p011n7 11n 711m3?

CA: both, if thats okay CA: primarily the latter

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CA: okay CA: it wwas a good answwer CA: thank you

TA: 11f y0u 54y 50

CA: also please stop me from doin duumb shit in the future if i evver brin this up again

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CA: the wwhole helm thin CA: i do dumb shit a lot and im vvague as shit about evvery dumb thin i do CA: dumb shit such as doin thins i wwouldnt wwish on anyone else because im curious and also CA: because i sometimes think i desrvve to suffer

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CA: its okay sorta? CA: i guess? CA: idk CA: i do dumb shit but at least i try to see howw dumb the shit is before i do it

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CA: maybe

TA: 11d80n7…wyh?? TA: fuck 7h47 d11dn7 3v3n c0m3 0u7 45 w2rd5

CA: cause im an idiot and im curious and in the business of hurtin myself sometimes CA: but you should probably go relax for a bit, dear CA: youre gettin pretty jumbled

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CA: i wont do it in a wway thatll permanently damage myself and not until someones around o make sure shit doesnt go wwrong CA: is that good enough CA: iwwont do the pan fryin thin

TA: 7hy7 50udn5 57up11d 4 5fuck c3n

CA: i knoww

TA: 117 8c50und5 57up11d 45 4LL fuck TA: 4ll 7h3 fucjks

CA: wwould yo wwant to be around to make sure its not done stupidly? CA: i knoww

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CA: its fine CA: shoosh CA: do you need me to come ovver so wwe can talk about it in person instead?

TA: 1 d0n 7kn0w, n0? d0 y0u w4n7 70??

CA: I don’t havve to

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CA: okay

TA: y43h TA: 0k

CA: Wwould you be okay goin along wwhen I do it anywways? You don’t havve to, but you knoww a lot about it

TA: 11 7g11nk 11 w0uld fr34k 0u7 4nd 08l1173r4u73 7h 3 pl4c3 r3x 11 d0n 7 7h11nk 7h745 4 g00d 11d34. 11 d0n7 7hnk 1175 4 g00d 11d34. wh3n?? 11 d0n 7 knw0 w47 k11nd f h3lm 5747110n y0ur p11c7ur11ng 11n y0ur h34d nhr3 3117h3r. m057 c00m0n h3lm 5747u110n5 4r3 ju57 l1177l3 d00r w11d3 53c7u110n5 0f 8110w11r3 7h47 y0u j5y7 k11nd 0f 5117u41173 y0ur53lf 11n 4nd 7h3n rl3453 p511 11n70?? n0n3 0f 7115 3v3n r34lly d035 5h117 w117hu7 p511 h0n37ly

CA: I’m tryin to find a wway to see if the powwers I havve are close enough to psi that they wwould wwork in that wway CA: It’s still a maybe though

TA: wh57 p0w3r5 4r3 y08 r3f3r11ng 70

CA: Oh I havven’t told you about that?

TA: 11f 711yh c4n7 5p4rk 5p113l3c7r11c117y yjur n07 g11011nh 70 83 p0wr11g 4 5h11p TA: n0

CA: I’m not sure if it’s really psi, honestly CA: I can make electricity CA: I’m just not vvery good at it CA: Like

TA: ??

CA: My powwers are wweird as shit honestly CA: Manifests in wweird wways CA: Like CA: They interact wwith the wworld around me but I don’t knoww howw much

TA: 11 d0n7 7g4v3 7h3 c4p4pc117y 70 53r4ch 0u7 4 g00d c0nfu53d 3m0j11 11rhg7 n0w 8u7 rh375 54y 7h3 c0nfu5u110n 115 11mpl113d 4nyw4y

CA: Basically I'vve called it magic for a long time cause magic is shit that wworks but wwe don’t knoww wwhy so it’s accurate CA: I can make fire and ice from nothin wwith it, I can make illusions, I can change certain thins into other thins, I can heal and I can stop time CA: And also spark but not a lot CA: I’m not great at electricity

TA: m4gc11c d035n7 p0w3r h3lm 5747110n5. 11 nknw0 m4g11c 115 4 7hn11g 8u7 y0ur5 5u11fng5 un5u4yl 45 fukc

CA: Uh CA: Try again I don’t understand wwhat you’re saying

TA: ffffuck. TA: 11 kn0w m4gc11 115 4 7h11ng, 117 5 833n 11n my un11v3r5,3 8u7 1175’ n3v3r p0w3r3d 4 h3lm 5747110n 83fr03, d035n'7 qu4l11fy 45 p511, 4nd y0ur5 50ng5 v3ry unu5u4l TA: 50und5

CA: Okay. CA: I suppose it’s a bit unusual.

TA: 11 d0n7 kn0w 11f 7h475 un5u4l 0r n07h f0r 7h73 57473 lf m4gc11 11n y0ur un115v3r3

CA: I'vve nevver heard of anyone else havvin powwers like mine CA: Especially not seadwwellers CA: Other than my twwo seadwweller kids CA: They both havve powwers like mine

TA: my 7m3l11n35 prh4ph3r h4d m4g11c. k1111nd 0f. l11k3 7h3 p073n7114l f0r 117 4nyyw4y. TA: 7h3 d3m0n355 45l0 h4d m4g11c. 5h3 w45 pry37y h4ndy w117h 7h3 5h117, 8u7 117 w4n5'7 l11k3…m4n11f35747110n5 0f f11r3 4nd 11c3 4nd 5h117. TA: 0rph5 d3c3ndn47 4l50 h4d m4g11c 8u7 n07 y0ur k11nd?? ?11 7h11nk 117'5 4n 4mp0r4 g3n3 7hr0fugh0u7 7h3 mu7l11v3r53, l0wk3y, 8u7 y0ur5 533m5 d11ff3r3n7 0n 70p 0f 7h47. TA: 3l3m3n7 5h117 0r 50m3n711ng

CA: Huh CA: I guess

TA: 11m g011nh 70 p455 0u7, TA: 11’ll 74lk 70 y0u l473r r3x

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CA: Sleep wwell <><><>

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