#09/27/23

[themindelectricdemo4]

MY MONSTER HIGH DOLL ANATOMY

[rwpohl]

[baltharino]

@animangacreators ♡ Challenge 32 Hotel Challenge - Make An Edit About An Anime With 12+ Episodes

[to-be-enchanted]

today i almost had an anxiety attack at school for no reason. muscle emoji. but i didn't. muscal emoji. i just sat in the nurses office with a haeating pad until my mom picked me up. excied for tomorrow tho becaause i have good classes.

[dinasilvertongue]

[kyouka-supremacy]

I was reading the Akutagawa / Dazai interaction in chapter 9 again in order to answer to an ask, and seriously, I'm going to cry. That's the first time Akutagawa and Dazai meet alone since Dazai defected the pm and abandoned Akutagawa. Akutagawa went there down the dungeon to meet Dazai of his own volition. Like, can you imagine what he must have felt? Meeting the man that once held his reason to live in his hands, that disappeared without a trace four years ago. The one he feels enormously angry towards, and yet that he can't help but be endlessly devoted to, still, even after all those years. Just that very complex feeling of meeting someone you know has abandoned you, but that you just can't not love. Where Akutagawa himself doesn't even know why he's walking down the steps to meet him. Half of it, it's probably a sentiment of spite, a “look: even without you, I survived. Despite everything you did to me, I'm still my own. An abandoned dog was able to thrive even with no master.” The other half, a desire to be recognized and acknowledged; a feeling that has been suppressed for so long, Akutagawa wouldn't dare admit it's there still, and just as strong as it was four years ago. A “look at how far I've come” that is torn between wish of independence and desperate need for recognition. Maybe, Akutagawa secretly looked for an explanation on why Dazai abandoned him, I don't know. He doesn't know either. And he goes down, and he sees him, and Dazai completely ignores him. He sings, to himself, like no one else is there. And Akutagawa hits the wall at his side, close to his face. And Dazai keeps acting fully indifferent to his presence. Only then Akutagawa goes for his neck directly - doesn't hurt him, rather, simply pushes enough to demand acknowledgment -, and for the first time in four years Dazai speaks to Akutagwa directly and he tells him:

Oh, you were here? [I didn't notice you]

And GOD. GOD. I can't even???? Like that's the single most cruel thing Dazai could ever shoot at Akutagwa. My God. I'm surprised Akutagawa didn't fall down to his knees crying on the spot. And it's the same place where Dazai has hit Akutagawa at least once in the past. He must have felt so small. All of sudden, he must have felt 16 and weak and powerless all over again. Even though Dazai is the one chained. Even though Akutagawa is the one who gets to hit him, this time. And Dazai keeps mocking and insulting him, and he hurts Akutagawa, but Akutagawa doesn't retaliate, yet, because he's been suppressing his emotions for years now. And because, deep down, he agrees with Dazai's words of scorn. Akutagawa tells Dazai he will soon destroy everything that's precious to him, and in a way he wants that, he wants to take away everything that's important to Dazai so that he can feel as lost and abandoned as Akutagawa himself felt when he left; or because maybe only then, when nothing else is left, Dazai will finally notice his presence, that he's not invisible, that he can be capable of destruction beyond comprehension. Akutagawa acts detached, and distant, as indifferent and collected as Dazai is, forcing a feeling of independence he never truly mastered but that he wants to display nonetheless. And that's when Dazai tells him “Do you have it in you though? Because my new subordinate is far superior than you ever were.”; and that's when Akutagawa comes to his breaking point, and snaps, and hits Dazai in the face; not with his ability, but with his raw hands, feeling Dazai's flesh under his; the roles reversed, hitting Dazai like he did to him so many times in the past. Anyways I think Akutagawa should have one day of happiness in his life, actually

[jtl-fics]

Math nerd please!

Hope you have a lovely time on your cruise! :)

WIP Wednesday 12-27-23 (Closed) | Math Nerd AU

"Of course! What flavors do you boys want?" she asks.

Alex says he doesn't care and Andrew requests the blue flavor he knows that Alex likes. Cass leaves and Andrew waits for the door to click shut before he turns to Alex, "How are you feeling?" he asks.

"I'm fine." Alex says as if he hadn't just slept all morning and left an Alex-shaped sweat stain on Andrew's sheets.

[deiaiko]

Two Sides of the Same Coin - ToG Time Travel AU (Masterlist)

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[originalsuccubus]

heart's desire, body motion

[is-hinata-good-today]

september 27th, 2023

if you look up the word ‘perfect’ in the dictionary, you’ll find a photo of hinata!!!!

[egills-diary]

You look so pretty

Pretty like the sun

I could watch forever while you shine on everyone.

[themindelectricdemo4]

WTF I JUST SAW SOMEONE WHO LOOKED NEARLY IDENTICAL TO MY EX FRIEND & INSTEAD OF ACTUALLY THINKING IN THAT MOMENT THAT ITS ALMOST ENTIRELY IMPOSSIBLE THAT PERSON WOULD NOT DRIVE THAT FAR TO GO TO COLLEGE I JUST WENT INTO PANIC MODE & EVEN AFTER STARING AT A MAP FOR A STRAIGHT MINUTE MY PANIC HASNT SETTLED REALLY AT ALL BECAUSE ESCALATION IS ALWAYS MUCH QUICKER THAN DEESCALATION

[rwpohl]

siehe dazu auch: 09/11/23 rwpohl.tumblr.com

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boring postcards: washingtonplatz, hauptbahnhof 09/11/23

[lunasohma]

for my aunt — a wild party!

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[dinasilvertongue]