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A/N: Whoops, this came out a little more angsty than I originally planned.
Perry hates having to go to HQ.
Oh, he's got nothing against the building itself, and his relationship with most of his coworkers is fairly amicable. Perry just hates having to go there, since he generally prefers spending his free time (spare enough as it were) around family, and other assorted loved ones. There's almost nothing he needs to do at HQ that he couldn't fulfil in the lair beneath his house, or the office in his room, anyway. And shit always, always goes down when he has to spend more than 5 consecutive hours in his assigned office cubicle.
Of course, they key word to the first statement was "almost."
And predictably, the aforementioned shit he was waiting for strolls into his space half an hour past lunchbreak, slapping a couple of polaroids on top of his desk by his elbow.
Pinky waits patiently for Perry to give a damn, and Perry looks up warily when Pinky Garcia-Shapiro stays suspiciously quiet for a whole minute. Pinky gestures to the photos, and Perry takes a look, goes back to his computer, before realization hits him upside the head like a steel pole and shoves itself down the back of his spine, sitting him ramrod straight in his crappy office chair as he picks the first photo off the top of the deck.
Pinky's waiting with his eyebrows raised when Perry swirls around to face him fully. It's not what it looks like, Perry signs, and flinches when the look he receives in return is less than impressed.
Does that matter? Pinky signs sharply in return, instead of speaking aloud, which was the biggest sign if ever that Perry's not only screwed up, but he's screwed up bad. It meant that they're keeping this conversation on the down lower than low, and he owes his Pinky big time. Clint found these on the carnival security footage two days ago, and I had to talk him down from reporting to HR. I made sure he knows you owe him your life, and then some. Pinky continues, uncharacteristically serious. It's the most off-putting thing in this entire scenario. He's not Carl, Perry, not every intern in this company's all too happy about keeping their mouths shut about your goddamned crush. You took him to the pop shop? What were you thinking?
I was thinking it was an accident. And it was barely a date. Perry retorts sharply, hands stuttering on that last little tidbit. Wait, screw that, it wasn't a date at all. We were just-we were technically stalking Vanessa on her outing-
I'm not the goddamned Colonel, Perry. Pinky interrupts sharply, slicing his hand through the air. You don't have to make your excuses to me. It doesn't matter what it was, unless you're standing by Francis' desk when he has to answer for the shit leaking up the grapevine. It matters how it looks like. Perry, you don't need me to tell you to be-to be careful.
Perry grunts, slumping into the back of his chair, hands slapped over his eyes as he attempts to calm himself down. I know, he signs, one handed. I know, Pinky, I'm sorry. Thank you.
And he is sorry. He is as much grateful that Pinky caught it first, being the Chief of OWCA's digital security division, as well as that he had enough weight to throw around to stop these photos from leaking onto Francis' desk. Pinky didn't have to, but of course he did, because they were friends, and Pinky cared about him.
These last few years have been...hard. Harder, knowing Heinz was getting so ready to hang up his labcoat (at least in the evil sense of the word), a growth in character proportional to this terrifying, unnameable thing growing between them, full of weight and wonder and meaning.
It's made him reckless. And everyday that passes them by without having Heinz in his arms, it's getting harder and harder for Perry to remember why that's a bad thing.
Pinky sighs, squeezing his shoulder. "Hey," he says, out loud this time, so that Perry takes his hand off of his eyes to peek. "On the plus side, I've never seen the guy look so happy."
Perry feels his ears burning in embarrassment, and Pinky laughs, low and sincere.
"You guys look cute together." Pinky teases, and laughs when Perry swats at him, shoo-ing him out of the cubicle. He does leave, eventually, and Perry knows he owes the man lunch for at least the next two weeks, and taking over his next spare mission, at least.
He leaves the photos behind, and Perry picks them up, his hand reaching for the lighter he keeps on his lowest desk drawer to burn them over his wastepaper basket. They are likely the very last trace of such damning evidence of Perry's...Perry's fraternizing, too risky to keep around, and he has to burn them. He has to.
Heinz was caught laughing, in one of them, his hair ashen-grey around the edges from the debris of his latest failed Inator, but there was no sign of bitterness and regret in his features. Perry remembers how the wrinkles by his eyes had started to curl down his cheeks, like paper folded down the same joy-filled routes. Laugh lines. The photo could not capture the light in his eyes then; The setting sun had painted the slant of the pier a blood orange, but looking into Heinz's darling blue eyes was like looking into an eternal summer, evergreen.
They shared one drink, because Perry wasn't hungry, but Heinz wanted something sweet, and there wasn't anything Heinz wanted Perry didn't want to pay for. The two straws were a compromise, and the bartender had given them both a sly, knowing look Heinz had not understood, but Perry had. It took him hours to cool down the blush from his cheeks.
Heinz had called him cute.
In another photo, their heads are bent together, conspiring over Vanessa's love life, and Perry does not mistake their fingertips over the tabletop, his palms curling over the back of Heinz's own.
I've never seen the guy look so happy.
Damnit.
DAMNIT.
Fuck. Damn. Shit.
Perry throws the lighter back into its drawer with a vengeance, clutching the stack of photos like a lifeline. He slumps over his desk, burying his face into the crook of elbow to muffle a frustrated scream. Is this really how he was going to repay Pinky's concern? By shutting his eyes and spelling out his own doom, tucking the evidence of his own sins into his fucking wallet? Was he stupid?
(Is Heinz worth it?)
Yes, Perry knows, because the one person Perry could never rightly lie to was himself. Yes, he is.
I got the inspiration from this post
#Perryshmirtz#Human Perry AU#human Perryshmirtz#forbidden fruit type shi#choice of fic#chio fic again ❤️🩹
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*~Thanks Give Me~* Pt 1
A/N: I'm excited to get this fic out that I'm posting the first part before the second is even done XD Enjoy the fic and look forward to part two! Word Count: 2.5K Warnings: Swearing, Glossing over the history of the Native Americans Part 2
Banging on Ramshackle's front door was easily the quickest way to get Yuu to answer. Banging on Ramshackle's door at 7am was easily the fastest way to get Yuu to murder whoever was at the door with reckless abandon.
Yuu had to give credit to whoever was on the other side, they did not let up on their knocking even at the sound of them stomping down the stairs nor the aggressive way they started to undo the locks more than likely broke one of their nails. Swinging open the door, hair wild from sleep and tired eyes glaring they started to yell, “What the fuck do you WANT-”
Ruggie barely missed a beat, stepping closer to squeeze himself under Yuu's arm and into the entry hall of the dormitory, “Hey Ramshackle! So…you told me about a holiday from your world last year and I wanna hear about it again.”
“...” Yuu slammed the door closed, “You were knocking on my door like you were the fucking police because you wanted me to info dump holidays?”
“Nah, nah, nah…Just the one you talked about happening in November…the food one…tell me about the food one again…”
“...Thanksgiving-?”
“Yeah, Thanks Give Me. Are you doing it…this year? Did you do it last year? You should do it this year…and invite your good friend Ruggie-”
“I should fucking kill you. You woke me up on a Saturday for this shit-”
“Come on, prefect!” Ruggie’s face had slipped into an almost pleading expression, “You told me that you'd host one if you had the money for it!”
He gestures around, the updated and safer Ramshackle a clear difference from the poor squatter Yuu used to emulate, “You can't even bullshit me and say you don't have money now!”
“...” Yuu stood with their hands pressed together, lips resting on their interlocked fingers as they tiredly glared at the floor, “Ruggie if I threw a fucking Thanksgiving dinner will you get the fuck out of my house and let me sleep?”
“Yes.”
“You are so lucky you did this shit on the 1st, we've got three weeks to plan this dumpsterfire-RUGGIE!?”
Ruggie had quickly hoisted Yuu over his shoulder, fireman carrying them out the door and into the early morning, “Sorry, Ramshackle! Just gettin’ some insurance from your boyfriend!”
Azul had been just as confused and startled when Ruggie banged on his bedroom door at 7am demanding he draft up a contract between him and Yuu regarding their promise. A conversation that led to a contract that was painfully vague. An issue Azul tried to bring up but Yuu simply stated wasn't worth the trouble of explaining and to just do what Ruggie asked.
(“Is this what I do to you guys? Is this What I'm like? Why do you love me?”
“For many reasons, please just tell me what's happening.”
“Naw, this is more fun.”
“Alright…”)
Only a week after that incident, during a housewarden meeting, did Yuu call everyone to attention. They stood, going around the table and passing out invitations tied close with golden ribbons to the other wardens and the vices that had managed to be in attendance.
Vil opened his invitation first, squinting his eyes at the ornate yet bold script and reading aloud, “You are formally invited to the first annual Ramshackle Thanksgiving Dinner…what is Thanksgiving?”
Yuu clicked a button on the room's master remote, calling down the screen and turning the projector on to show a PowerPoint. She moved the projector control panel to the front, putting their flashdrive into it.
Riddle sat up straighter in his seat, pointing toward the set up in anger, “You did not file a request to use the projector!”
“Riddle, let me cook. This is the only way I could think to explain this and I have a magically binding contract with Ruggie.”
Leona groaned, letting his invite fall to the ground, “Is this what Ruggie’s been yapping about for the past four days? He's been hounding my ass to just agree with whatever you propose and I have half a mind to say no out of spite.”
“...”, Yuu pressed a button on the panel, a slide coming up showcasing an obvious stock photo of a feast, “Thanksgiving is a holiday from my world where you come together and eat so much you pass out.”
“...You have my approval.”
Idia spoke up, giving Leona a side eye while he held his own invite like a wet rag, “Wow, folded that fast, huh?”
“I'm depressed, not suicidal, Shroud…”
Yuu clicks to a new slide, showing another clear stock photo of a family all gathered around a dinner table, “As stated, it's a family-based holiday. Immediate and extended family all come together to share a meal, catch up, and just have a general good time and maybe watch some football.”
Idia frowned, the very idea of his extended family all in his home being nothing closer to a waking nightmare.
Another slide, hand-drawn images of two people; one dressed in an all-black traveler’s outfit of an olden Queendom citizen and a Republic Native in a large headdress*, “It started back when the pilgrims landing in America and had their first successful harvest with the help of the Native Americans. And now we just…don't talk about that.”
Trey tucked his invite into his jacket, raising an eyebrow, “Why?”
Yuu clicked to the next slide, showing the Native now scribbled out with red ink and the traveler smiling evilly as she mumbled, “Oh, the stealing of land, assaulting of women and children, the deliberate spread of disease, and erasure of culture-”
Riddle spoke for them all, eyes wide at the various horrors Yuu was seeming to brush past, “The what?”
Yuu clicked the button again, showing a new text slide that (annoyingly) used comic sans as the title font, “Anyway, your jobs. We're gonna do this fast because I have to beat Sebek into submission after this meeting. And just to explain, we're doing what is technically called a ‘FriendsGiving’. It acts more like a potluck instead of a traditional Thanksgiving.”
Jade raises his hand, “I think we'd like to hear more about the apparent deliberate spread of disease?”
Pulling out a collapsible pointer, Yuu smiled and clicked on a new slide to slap it against the screen, “Riddle, you're allowed to bring a store-bought dessert. But your main job will be to yell at everyone to behave and then call to the meal once it's prepared. Actually, Riddle, take notes, everyone will need it.”
Riddle sighed heavily, taking out his notebook and scribbling down notes that he would have to copy and deliver to the others.
The pointer hit against the screen more aggressively, Yuu glaring directly at Trey, “Trey…you bring dessert.”
“I'm not so sure I want to celebrate a holiday involving the desecration of a culture…”
“You bring a dessert or you will be hunted for sport.” Their pointer smacks against the screen again, “Cater: Gay Cousin.”
Idia looked at the screen in confusion, watching as even Riddle was tripped up before writing down what was said, “Is he… is he bringing a gay cousin or-”
SMACK “Deuce, he can bring an egg dish. I can't trust him with anything else. Ace, the family member that no one wants there but shows up anyway.”
Trey was already thinking of what dessert he wanted to bring, making a list in his mind of what the group would like the most, “Do…we invite Ace or do we just bring him with us-”
SMACK “Leona, your job is to hog the TV and watch sports. Just really manspread it on the couch; be even better if you fell asleep while watching it but won't let go of the remote.”
While he didn't agree nor disagree, Leona gave Yuu a look of annoyed bewilderment.
Vil spoke up, his own face pinched in confusion, “This is a food-based holiday, correct?”
Yuu was either willingly ignoring them or she actually was focused on dealing out her strange tasks. The pointer once again slapped at the fabric of the screen, “Jack, something…maybe a nice vegetable side or a pear-themed dish. No chicken…in fact, no meat. He can't be trusted. Ruggie.”
The room was silent as Yuu looked at the screen, a brief pulse of rage in her eyes before inhaling deep and releasing it, “Anyway. Azul, you're in charge of managing the drinks for the evening. We want a decently diverse but small selection of alcoholic and non-alcoholic to pick from.”
“I have no issue with that, though I'd like to know what the final menu will consist of to make a proper selection for wine…also. Is there a reason Jade and Floyd's names aren’t on this list?”
Jade spoke up, “I was also wondering. You are aware that my brother and I are in Mostro Lounge’s kitchen more than Azul is. We'd be best to bring dishes since most of the attendees are not so…culinarily inclined.”
Yuu had been poised to slap their pointer to Kalim’s name, pausing and looking over their shoulder to Jade, “Oh, You're not allowed to participate in prep.”
“...” Azul leaned forward in his seat, making a point to also scoot away from a now blank faced Jade, “You want us…namely me…to tell Floyd he isn't allowed to participate in a group activity that almost everyone else is allowed a hand in?”
“Yes.”
“...Do you not love me anymore?”
SMACK “Kalim-”
“Answer me?”
“-You will actually be securing a tableware set for the festivities. Nothing insane; simple but with a hint of fancy and lots of serving platters and bowls. Crystal or China is traditional, but I'll let you pick what you think would be nice within reason.”
Kalim had perked up, a story about how he had the perfect gold and gem-encrusted dish set dying on his tongue as he thought Yuu's request over, “Don't you…have a room in Ramshackle filled with tableware you found? It was some pretty nice stuff from what Cater told me…”
“Oh yeah. So after some further investigation, turns out all of that was just cursed and Sam has since confiscated it from my property. The cutlery was fine though, so we're good on that front, but if you find something to match the table set, get it.”
“...Okay!” Kalim quickly pulled out his phone, looking up tableware and just how many types of serving platters there were.
SMACK “Jamil.”
The look the vice gave them already showed how tired he was; a holiday based solely on hosting and seemingly meticulous planning of decorations and food prep sounded like an average day in the Asim household, making nothing new nor relaxing to Jamil.
“Do whatever the fuck you want.”
“Parden?”
“The actual task you'd normally be assigned is ‘Day-of Cooking’, but I'm not going to do that to you. So just…show up or don't. Take a nap the day of honestly, me or Kalim will bring you a plate.”
By the Seven, he loved this girl…
SMACK “Vil, you bring a salad. That is all I can trust you with.”
The Pomefiore head stopped looking at his nails with half-lidded eyes, glaring at Yuu's impassive expression, “Do you believe in my cooking skills so little!?”
“Yes. Though, I do have a secondary job for you. It’s to make sure, everyone is within dress code for the meal-”
Leona spoke up, folding his arms with a scowl, “Hold on, you never said there was a dress code-”
Vil raised his hand to Leona's face without looking, promptly silencing the other warden, “What's the dress code?”
“We wanna hover around the casual zone, but not informal. Best option is to be smart casual just tipping into business casual.
Vil had pulled out his own notebook without prompt, writing down notes and sketching out silhouettes of outfits, “Color scheme?”
“The holiday color scheme is fall theming, the warm tones with pops of purple and green. You don't need to follow color tones for the meal, though. Just make sure you're dressed for like…a nice dinner.
“My nice and your nice are two very different things, but noted.”
Rolling their eyes they slap the pointer to the screen, “Epel is allowed to bring anything apples are used in. Which is my way of saying he’s bringing pork tenderloin.”
Jade raised his hand, now fully glaring toward Yuu, “Funny how your friends are allowed to bring dishes.”
“Jade, you can’t be fucking trusted to not put poison in the food. So to be fair, Floyd isn’t allowed to help out either.” Yuu looks toward Rook, fluttering their eyelashes as they tapped his name gently multiple times, “My dear ex.”
Rook smiled back, leaning against the back of his hand and fluttering his eyelashes back, “Mon vieille amor?”
“You have the most important job of hunting down a massive turkey for us since that will be the centerpiece dish of the meal.”
“A hunt!?” Rook stood up so fast his chair slammed into the floor, “I shall make haste!” he raced out of the room, leaping from the window and disappearing around a corner outside.
Vil sighed, writing the last of his outfit ideas before packing up his items and walking out of the room, “Riddle, please forward your notes to me. I'll be free for style suggestions should anyone need them.”
Yuu calls out to him, “A salad! You're bringing a salad!”
Vil's middle finger was flashed just before the door closed behind him.
Rolling her eyes, Yuu turned back to the screen, “Idia, your job is to show up.”
“I'd rather not-”
“Too bad, it's mandatory. I already texted Ortho.”
Idias's tablet dinged from his hands. Looking at the screen his face pinched. Ortho was already sending him smiley emojis and rapid-fire messages on how excited he was to design a new shell and take photos of the upcoming group dinner. Sprinkled in were pleading and pensive faces begging that he agree to come and didn’t try to weasel his way out.
Glaring over his screen, already typing out a reply to Ortho's multiple messages, “You're a bitch.”
“Wear an actual outfit. Malleus.” SMACK.
The fae was still looking contently at his invitation, nodding as he already understood what Yuu was asking of him, “I'm aware of my job.”
“He can not know.”
“Lilia will only be made aware as we are dressing for the festivities.”
“You are one of the treasures of my life. Silver is tasked with making bread rolls for the dinner. Sebek is going to be helping me make the rest of the menu the night before/day of.” Yuu put the pointer back in its collapsible mode, putting the screen back up and clicking the projector off.
Leona raised an eyebrow but said nothing when Yuu had grabbed a stapler sitting beside him.
Riddle was too busy double-checking his notes, but Trey attempted to stop Yuu as she walked past, “What…what do you have there Yuu?”
“As stated at the beginning of my presentation, I have to go beat Sebek into submission and we have a rule now that I'm not allowed to use a brick anymore.” Yuu waved the stapler around, “So I’m going to use this instead.”
My take on Pilgrims and Native Americans in Twist
#twisted wonderland#twst#disney twst#twst wonderland#yuu oc#twst heartslabyul#twst savanaclaw#twst octavinelle#twst scarabia#twst pomefiore#twst ignihyde#twst diasomnia
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⚠️‼️ARCANE ACT SPOILERS⚠️‼️
i just finished act 2 & while yes I'm sobbing I KNOW OUR FIRST REACTION WILL BE TO COME FOR JAYCE BUT LET'S PUT ON OUR THINKING CAPS THIS WAS ALL AN act OF PURE MERCY ,JAYCE IS COMPLETING VICTORS FINAL WISHES FROM SEASON 1, AND EMBRACING THE ONE THING THAT TIES ALL OF HUMANITY TOGETHER DEATH
BECAUSE FRIENDLY REMINDER THIS SEASON STARTS WITH JAYCE GOING AGAINST VICTORS WISHES & RESURRECTING HIM WITH THE HEXTEC HE PROMISED VICTOR HE WOULD DESTROY & CAIT GOING AGAINST HER MOTHERS WISHES & USING HER TECHNOLOGY TO TAKE AWAY THE AIR OF ZAUN AFTER HER DEATH .
HELL EVEN SEASON 1 WAS VICTOR & JAYCE GOING AGAINST NATURE TO DENY VICTOR'S DEATH REMEMBER HOW HORRIFIED HEMINDINGER WAS . IN THIS SEASON THE CHEMIST DUDES WHOLE THING IS TRYING TOO FIND GLORIOUS EVOLUTION SO THE GIRL DOESN'T DIE & the same thing as last season WITH THE CREATURE HIM & VICTOR WERE KEEPING ALIVE EVEN IF IT WAS SUFFERING BECAUSE “THE SPECIMEN MUST SURVIVE” DO YOU REMBER HOW HORRIFIED VICTOR WAS OF THAT SHELL OF CREATURE
THATS VICTOR & ALL OF HIS FOLLOWERS . HE IS THAT SPECIMEN !THAT SHELL THAT MUST SURVIVE FOR THE BETTER OF HUMANITY! DO YOU NOT SEE HOW TERRIBLE THAT IS(for victor) !
JUST LOOK AT ALL THE HARM NOT ACCEPTING DEATH THEREFORE NOT ACCEPTING OUR HUMANITY DOES ,BECAUSE THE CHEMIST WON'T LET THE GIRL DIE , VANDER IS NOT ALOUD TO DIE & MUST SUFFER IN THE SHELL OF A BEAST THAT IS NO LONGER HUMAN & THE GIRL IS VEGGITABLE , CAITS MOM DIES & SINCE SHE CANT LET GO OF AVENGING HER MOMS DEATH THE PEOPLE OF ZAUN SUFFER, AMBESSA & MELS CONSCIOUS WON'T LET HER BROTHER DIE
SO LITERALLY EVREYONE SUFFERS & SKY DIES BECAUSE VICTOR WOULDN'T ACCEPT HIS OWN DEATH . VICTOR HAS BECOME A SHELL ! JUST A VESSEL FOR HEXTEC . HES " NOT COLD" HES LOST WHAT MAKES HIM HUMAN ! JAYCE ASKED SALO IF WAS IN THERE(ALSO ASKING IF VICTOR WAS IN THERE) THEN IMMEDIATELY OFFED HIM OUT OF MERCY CAUSE SALO WASN'T IN THERE
HE HAD LOST ALL HIS PERSONHOOD , A WHITE POLISHED SLATE OBVI THATS BAD ! ALL THAT MADE HIM !HIM! OF HIS PAST! OF HIS HUMANITY!JUST LIKE VICTOR AND EVERYONE IN THE CULT LIKE ITS FILM 1.0.1 THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS PURELY GOOD SOCIETY ESPECIALLY IN ARCANE THAT TELLS US TO EMBRACE THE BEAUTIFUL CHAOS OF HUMANITY ! LIKE ZAUNS ,AND VICTORS DEATHS SPEECH WHOLE THING !
THERE IS NO GLORIOUS EVOLUTION ! VIKTOR ISN'T A GOD !VICTOR ISN'T JESUS !HE'S HUMAN ! AND HUMANS DIE! JAYCE WHO LOVED VICTOR AND WANTED NOTHING MORE THAN THAN TO SAVE HIM HAD TO LET GO OF HIS OWN DESIRES & LOVE HE HAD TO SET BOTH HIM & VICTOR FREE .TO TRULY SAVE VICTOR AND THE WORLD CAUSE LETS BE HONEST HEXTECH & HIS "UTOPIA" ARE SO SKETCHY . HE HAD TO EMBRACE THEIR HUMANITY THAT INCLUDES DEATH . AND OF COURSE HIS THICKHEAD WOULD FINALLY UNDERSTAND THAT AFTER BEING STUCK WITH HEMENDINGER WHO KNOWS THE PAIN OF NEVER DYING & EKKO THE TIME MANIPULATOR LIKE I GUARANTEE YOU ALL OF THEM WERE IN ON THIS PLAN THIS WAS A RANT BUT PLEEEEASE JUST WAIT TILL NEXT WEEK BEFORE YOU JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS
OK BYEEEEEEEE
#arcane spoilers#arcane act 2#arcane jayce#jayce talis#jayce defender#jayce talis defender#arcane victor#defending my latino king#arcane act 2 spoilers#jayvik
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what if... what if valeria tells you to call her Papí.....
#here be kink#valeria garza#vg#.......like i'm just thinking aloud........#okay okay i need to sleep (and dream of kate and valeria taking me to france with their straps) (i mean who said that????)
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can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024
#ramble#if you say unalive in front of me i will personally kill you with my hands#you just can't muffle and censor and hold someone's hand through some things#some things are horrible. and they should be spoken aloud and they should upset you. because they are horrible#the second we started kidzbopifying the world was the end of taking anything seriously i think#i'm not even joking i've spoken to people older than me who won't even say the world sex#this isn't the playground you're not going to get in trouble just let us say the word!!!!!!#how am i supposed to listen to you when you won't even say the thing you're supposed to be talking about#yes this is the fault of the platforms with their censorship rules but the fact that we all just go along with it like it's not dystopian#you do know it doesn't stop with cursing right. people are already having to censor queer terms because they get flagged as inappropriate
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stream of consciousness thoughts about jp>en translation as it pertains to closeness in demon society, etc.
it's no mystery that when iruma asks azz and clara if he can think of them as friends, the word he uses is 友達/tomodachi. it's a casual word that denotes... you know, a friend. someone you like to spend time with. very straightforward.
there's also a more formal word for friend, 友人/yuujin, but to the best of my knowledge this one doesn't get used in mairuma, and this may be because it seems to strictly avoid using the 人 kanji (hito/jin/nin/person). it's often said that the way 人 is written makes it look like the two strokes are supporting one another, implying that people are things that live with the support of others. to my understanding this isn't the actual origin of the glyph, but it is a fairly common saying - and so it fits the worldbuilding nicely that the highly egocentric demons don't have 人 in their language. they do use the word "hito" sometimes, but I can't recall seeing it written in kanji
speaking of words demons do have, we see 仲間/nakama quite a bit, but while there are plenty of situations where it's valid to translate nakama to "friend," you don't actually have to like someone to consider them thus. someone is your "nakama" when you're united under the same banner, so to speak. it could be a classmate or a teammate or a coworker - anyone you share circumstances and goals with. the fact that this is one of the most friend-adjacent words demons have is also very like them.
demons also have 仲良し/nakayoshi and 仲が良い/naka ga ii, both of which describe getting along with and having a good relationship with someone. so demons do clearly have the concept of friendship, even if they don't have the word for it.
anyway, soulmates. the word iruma uses to describe what azz is to him is 親友/shinyuu, which is... I mean, it's really hard to translate this as anything but "best friend." it's a very close friend and/or someone you've been friends with for a long time. however, there's two reasons it's hard to translate 親友 to "best friend" specifically in the context of mairuma, both of which are summed up in this exchange:
it's a word that azz doesn't recognize. demons have the word "best" and azz knows the word "friend," so why would he have to ask what a "best friend" is? shinyuu sounds completely unlike tomodachi, so to have the same effect, the english word used to translate it also has to sound completely unlike "friend"
iruma's kind of embarrassed about it. "best friend" is usually a rather light term in english and not one we'd typically get flustered talking about. your best friend might just be the person you like spending time with more than anyone else. you could be talking about the past and say someone "was your best friend back then" and it doesn't necessarily suggest that you had a falling out or anything, you might have just kind of drifted apart or met someone else you got even closer to or something similar. I don't know if I'm explaining this completely accurately but from what I gather, "shinyuu" is more of an intimate, time-tested friendship. there seems to be a certain level of emotional vulnerability associated with it that "best friend" doesn't always convey by default.
if absolutely pressed for an alternative translation, I might posit "kindred spirit," but that doesn't quite feel like as natural a thing to say as "soulmate." I do think it's a shame that it has that automatic romantic connotation, but honestly that's society's failure. embrace the concept of platonic soulmates, you cowards.
anyway, them's the thoughts.
#ah I just realized that there's a possibility to take that last part as a gripe about shipping. this isn't that.#you can interpret love trio's relationship however you want it's genuinely none of my business. I'm just here to think about jp translation#actually I have at least two more topics I might want to think aloud about eventually so I guess I'll make a tag for things like this#mairuma tl rambles#mairimashita! iruma kun
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collection of moth things i never posted all of varying quality and age
#i'm not giving context for the last two . if you know you know#clamart#cotl monch#the fox is there too but i'm not tagging him due to him being there only Vaguely#and I need a designated Lumi tag. will get back to u on that (<- she will forget)#mostly jus putting these up to ensure everyone I am still thinking about that moth I Promise . i am always thinking about that Moth#monch#fwct chapter 3 is moving at a fuckin snail's pace i'll tell u that much though . I AM writing it .I am jus havin a hell of a time with it#i got too caught up in the whole intro sequence i gotta cut to the chase where the Things actually happen. Unfortunately Monch loves#her internal monologues. So it's just like....... she won't shut the fuck up (in her brain) for two got damn minutes#she has so much to say and none of it will ever be said aloud. too much seething in her Mind. therefore she HATES IT when I try to WRITE#actually i feel like being funny.#cult of the lamb#maintags your moth . giggles an d runs away
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chat i think my friends might be gay
#chat like i'm for real#like all of us#maybe except for knox and cam#maybe they're just good at hiding it though chat#chat like seriously#chat#oh my god chat#thinking aloud#🎷#🍃#dead poets society#character blog#rp blog#charlie dalton
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#they need to be real so i can give em the sloppy gawk gawk hand twist 3000
TONI????
ITS THE TRUTH
me ASF
#i'm just saying aloud what a lot of people think ok#there isn't a single cell in my body that thinks of the boys in any sort of platonic sense#i can't even be like man i like reading soap as a good friend#i'd be fucking him ASAP ROCKY
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Do you think untitled-3 would ever confess to user!Alan "I am you"? It would probably take a lot for that to happen though.
depending on what happens in ava 6? i think it could.......... maybe.........
#tommy's foolery#we'll have to find out tbh. although i'm extremely interested in victim's potential thoughts on untitled#a project he didn't even care enough to name... likely not much more than a chew-toy for a much stronger being like them#and yet. and YET. he won't tell them a thing. despite seemingly knowing far too much about them#it'd be fun if he accidentally said their name aloud just because of the shock of seeing them i think#and of course victim immediately lashes out. because WHERE THE HELL DID YOU HEAR THAT NAME.#victim thinks he's very much a peculiarity#unfortunately their interest comes more from morbid curiosity than anything. more like 'i need to dissect him like a frog'. yk#tommy's stickmen tag#tommy's aus#tommy's stick!alan#untitled time travel au
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i think a lot of people don’t always realize the difference between “this is how i interpret canon” and “this is how i want to write it because that’s what’s fun to me”. a lot of times the latter is all headcanons or AUs are, not an indication of what the writer thinks “is” or “should be” canon
more power to those who are super tuned into actual canon and know these details like the back of their hand, but sometimes people just wanna use a series as a sandbox, not a ruleset. genuinely nothing but respect for people who ARE that knowledgeable, but i and a lot of other people are just here to have fun with characters we enjoy—and want to put them in more accessible settings
#this isn't meant to be grandstanding or anything i'm just thinking aloud. i know i've said stuff like this before it just hit me suddenly#thinking about those weird anons from a while back who were really getting on my case about this#and i could not wrap my head around what the problem was because it’s like. that’s why it’s an au?#why are you mad about details of an au not lining up with canon#that’s the whole point of it being. an au#like of course shadow would normally be able to visit certain places. of course he should already know omega.#but there is a deliberate reason why second chance shadow can't/doesn't#and now i realize it's probably because they were seeing my posts entirely out of context#but still don't go attacking people for out of context posts either??#i'm shocked no one's seriously gotten on my case about aruna's hive yet because it's a prime example of 'intentionally nowhere near canon'#and like overall just don't be a penders and you're fine#lord knows i've got plenty of 'characters who have strayed so far from canon they may as well be OCs' in my pocket#but i still acknowledge they're not by definition OCs yknow#sometimes you just wanna use a funny lil guy as groundwork and then do your own thing#sea talks
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hey. hey. has anybody made a They Are Just Animatronics au. like......... theme park/disneyland/state fair adjacent but they don't walk around the park. they stand at positions in rides and say lines or make poses as the ride goes past and then when the ride closes they just do whatever. has anybody done that yet. they're literally animatronics. Hello. is this thing on—
#muzz mumbles#I want to make it clear this is NOT me making a new au myself#i'm just thinking aloud#been watching too many of those ''TOP TEN THEME PARK ANIMATRONICS'' videos lately and had like. a brain spark#not sure what to do about it#wouldn't it be funny though??? wouldn't it be fucking hilarious?
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On the topic of How Do You Handle XYZ Comment, I've always wondered how you handle terrible responses on your toh takes. Like I know the toh fandom doesn't lack piss on the poor reading comprehension and they also really enjoy wildly out of touch takes, but I've never seen any comments on your princess luz stuff of that nature. I'm sure they must be there but maybe I'm too early? But anyway, how do you tend to deal with the "acktually shipping luz and Hunter is incest" and the "ur not a real lesbian because putting amity in a poly ship is lesbian erasure" and the "as a white person kinda sus you make the poc woman an empress" kind of responses? Ones that are technically not hate and maybe if you squint could be from people who aren't inherently trying to do bad but just lack the maturity needed to engage with the internet at large?
this ask made me giggle. honestly, i haven't received as much pushback as you might expect! way less pushback than i expected. in the princess AU, i've gotten a LOT more "this is actually too grotesque for me to stomach" comments than "this is problematic" comments, which is fine. horror-thriller isn't for everyone, those comments do not upset me.
i have had a Few run-ins with bad faith people, whom i mostly block. there's one prolific commenter in toh tumblr fandom who would repeatedly write angry essays on my humor meta posts -- essays that were all about how belos is too evil to be sympathetic and/or about how hunter is a soft gentle boy who shouldn't be jokingly referred to as evil. then they'd go "i can't help my active and conscious decision to type a bunch of rude fucking words and then my active and conscious decision to send those rude fucking words because i'm autistic :(((" around the fourth or fifth time this happened, i was fucking done with that nonsense and finally blocked them. shoulda done it after the first comment tbh!! no more autism exceptions.
as for the rest of it, my main management strategy is to simply.... preempt the bad faith comments?
i had a LOT more unpleasant and conflict-filled fandom experiences when i was in the raven cycle fandom. that was my first exposure to "you can't ship multi-gender polycules if anyone involved is gay" and "queerplatonic het relationships are just heteronormativity shipping that you're trying to get away with." having dealt with those takes before, i've found a few different ways to disarm bad faith readers before they get started.
first is to be super open and honest about my interests. i talk about what i find compelling in different relationships All The Damn Time. it's really hard for anyone to accuse me of only wanting hunter to fuck amity if they've seen, like.... anything i've said about hunter and amity.
same with hunter and luz. the only negative reactions i've really gotten to how they're written in the princess AU is like.... two people being squicked by camila thinking they're romantically involved. i REALLY expected more pushback on the touchyfeely bed sharing stuff, but from what i remember, there's never been Any....? not even from people who consider them siblings.
i expected a lot of pushback on how mean hunter and amity are to each other, since it's taken So much farther than the canon. but it turns out that there's a very large overlap between people who like dark horror AUs and people who like hunter and amity murdering each other. (in a fluffy fic i don't think this characterization would fly Nearly as easily.)
i find that being funny really disarms people, too. when you look at any of my toh meta posts that could be controversial, they're basically all funny. people are a lot more willing to listen to what you have to say if you make them laugh, and it's harder for them to get angry at you.
and then the last thing is that i think i'm in sort of a privileged position in toh fandom. i've written a lot of controversial subjects and relationships and characterizations.... but i've also written some WILDLY popular mainstream fic. and people who like the mainstream fic don't really want to beef with me about differing niche opinions, bc there's a level of respect there. which they might not have for a writer they don't like.
but anyway. when things Do happen, i almost always just block and move on. there are so many people here who get what i'm talking about that there's no need for me to try to convert people who don't, you know??
#also the 'making a character of color an empress is problematic' thing made me laugh aloud#as for THAT... i don't think i've ever been accused of racism in how i write luz (or camila or raine or darius or hennessy for that matter)#i'm obviously imperfect and have blind spots as a white writer. but i also like to think i do my due diligence#at the Very Least i have Black and latine friends willing to sensitivity read for me & i've gone to native spanish speakers for camila's#dialogue. etc. if anyone has a take that's THAT bad faith about how i write women of color i'm just gonna uh.....#assume that what they really mean is that they want me to write white boys exclusively.#and well. i will not be doing that!#replies#toh#princess luz au#long post#if there are typos in this i apologize. i was out again all day and i am Le Tired
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anyway my second best option is to let my friends neighbours and colleagues here on tungle dot gov have a look at the tattoo sketch but I both want and don't want input, you know?
#it's a fox and i'm not 100% sold on the tail BUT at the same time it's realistic (could easily find the reference photo lmao)#and i think it's growing on me the more i look#ouuuhhh i need to reply to the email but i need to make my mind up first#somehow i don't feel like sending this to my non tumblr friends. idk i think for the same reason - dunno if i actually want input#just want to think aloud a bit
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Things To Make August (the Month of Existential Dread) Bearable
Pray. A lot.
Plan little summer adventures.
Write a fun little retelling (and hopefully finish it).
Read an Elizabeth Goudge book (Book 3 of the Elliot trilogy seems right, because Book 2 is coming to mind a lot as an appropriate summer book).
Remember that sunflowers exist. Find lots of them.
#random thought of the day#i had considered canceling august#just denying its existence and pretending it's july ii#because the whole month always feels like living beneath a guillotine blade that's about to drop#a downhill from summer and a dread of autumn and nothing actually good in and of itself#except for maybe sunsets when the melancholy at least feels a little right#but i've decided to embrace it and maybe find a better atmosphere for it#(yes i do have a specific retelling in mind)#(if you've been following the writing blog you know which one it is)#(but i'm not naming it because saying it aloud puts too much pressure on it)#(and this is supposed to be a pressure-free fun project)#(plus i recognize that i've not yet reached the one week mark)#(where i lose interest in most fun new projects)#(so i acknowledge the likelihood that in like 2-3 days i'll no longer want to write it)#(but for now i hold onto hope and think it has just the right vibe to make august something better)
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interesting how polin is all here for multishippers when it comes to penelope being shipped with literally everyone and their father, but the second someone ships colin with marina, it's suddenly controversial and bad and wrong and they should be totally fine with people talking shit about her and acting like she's the worst and how dare you post anything in the archives about it or in the tags, don't you know that he'd be miserable and the two of them would never work and I HATE HER AND AND AND.
this fandom will lose their shit over penelope with literally every bland whitebread man in her general vicinity and fics on fics on fics get written about her with OCs and his brothers and his sister and people she's never so much as shared a room with but heaven forbid you think Colin and Marina were cute during their canonical courtship
#y'all hate this woman so much for why???? like go OUTSIDE#marina has very understandable reasons for doing what she's done and in a lot of ways is more understandable than most of the characters#who have hurt others that the fandom idolizes and wants to strip of their bad choices#i said what i said#marina is SO EVIL apparently and anyone who likes her needs to be prepared for everyone to have a shitty opinion of her#that they feel justified in voicing aloud with their entire chest even on posts that are about positivity for her#her tag is a minefield of people who just want to talk down about her character or act as though she's the absolute worst ever#and we're all expected to just nod our heads and deal with it#well i fucking like her okay??? and the people who like her shouldn't have to deal with all the hate everywhere including in her tag#i think in an alternate universe her and colin could have worked things out and been happy#and it could have been a really beautiful narrative of growth and forgiveness and two people coming to understand one another#i think her pragmatism and his dreamer soul could get along and they could support one another#i think he would have made a great father to amanda and oliver and she could have fallen arse over elbow in love with him for it#and i know i'm alone in that canoe but damnit then just leave me alone in it???#i can ship polin AND molin#eat my shorts
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