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scotch-superglue · 1 year ago

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i saw scott's email to dan from that lawsuit and omg? idk i feel like an illusion or something has been shattered. i never defended her for the very questionable things she's done (m*tty, jets, etc) but in my head i've always kinda let her off for it. but yiikkees. i had no clue she was that fucking rich?? her dad sold a house for 2.5 MILLION before 2008. she definitely works hard af but she is so insanely privileged with her dad's connections and money wow.

i was disappointed seeing the new ttpd version with the one extra song. her releasing versions where 90% of the content is the same is shitty as hell. and soo unnecessary. people should be able buy a single vinyl with all the songs. and the fake limited time sales. she's gonna make it available again in a few months, but she wants people to panic buy it. asshole move imo.

the movie was even worseee omg. the tickets itself were way too high. it was 130dirhams in dubai, which is roughly 35 dollars???? WHICH IS INSANE FOR A SINGLE TICKET. just cuz it's her lucky number doesnt make it okay to charge such a high fee. it was just standard that too, not even imax or anything. tickets are generally like 30-60dhs (8-13$). made me feel insane for going with my sister.

also having shows in t*l av*v?? if she wasnt gonna speak up abt palestine, least she could do is not have a showing there. her website said that the shows are cancelled but in local theatres, it was showing.

then putting it for rent for $20, just to release on streaming a couple months later. literally insane. just trying to milk money. RENT for 20$??? what the actual fuck. she's already a billionaire, i dont understand why she does things like this.

actually i feel like i do now. after reading her dad's email, her family dynamic and her behaviour is making a lot more sense. her dad constantly talked about how much money he puts in and how he gets nothing in return etc etc. money money money. i think her greed(?) makes so much sense to me now.

the jets i understood not publishing it in real time, can be dangerous for her ig. and feels stalkerish. but threatening with a lawsuit is kinda like what? the guy seems like a piece of shit but he didn't do anything illegal. and apparently the list that swifties have been using to prove that she isnt in the top 30 isnt even accurate. she was in fact the highest polluter. extremely disappointing.

tbh i had all these thoughts in the back of my head, but i saw her as a fundamentally good person so i pushed it away a little. but like now idk. it just doesnt make sense to think that. i've been a fan for more than 12 years at this point ig, and it makes me kinda sad. i've been reading the posts on r/swiftlyneutral and like yeah?? the things they say are true?? i used to vehemently deny a lot of accusations, but yeah she is performative, and doesnt talk abt issues unless it relates to her.

i dont know what the point of this post was, feels awkward to talk abt to my irl friends so yes just posting it here

bye

#taylor thoughts #de-taylorpilled #taylor criticism #taylor swift critical

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ratmor · 1 year ago

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Wolves of Greed

Part 1. The Sheep Skin

They will come to you in cloth of sheep, but from within they are the wolves of greed.

The literal translation from ancient greek of Matthew 7:15

N. Index

I. Losing Rose-Tinted Glasses

II. The Illusion of Choice

III. The Emotional Morning

IV. The First Seance of Nonconformism

V. Salem

VI. The Aftermath of Fester Addams

VII. The Ravensdale Camp

VIII. The Kidnapping

IX. Truths and Lies of Owen Sinclair

X. The Roadtrip

XI. Playing Games

XII. The Suit for Vigilante

XIII. Smuggling Operations

XIV. The Feral Alert

XV. One Day of Forensic Photographer

XVI. Cry Uncle

XVII. The Choice

XVIII. Big Brother's Insights

XIX. Murdered Hopes of Joel Glicker

XX. The Unlikely Friendship

XXI. Don't Touch What's Mine

XXII. Not So Ordinary Wednesday

XXIII. The Parents' Day, Year One

XXIV. The Furs' Protection

XXV. The Nevermore Quad Fight

XXVI. Boston Holidays

XXVII. New Happy Tree Friends

XXVIII. The Lack of Reciprocity

XXIX. The Help of Understanding

XXX. The Supernatural Creatures Care Club

XXXI. School Days

XXXII. The Sheriff's Kid Full of Greed

XXXIII. The Not So Little Furry Problem

XXXIV. Tricks of the Cannibal Raven

XXXV. The Cleansing Agent

XXXVI. The Future Lost

I. Losing Rose-Tinted Glasses

Enid was waiting for her sixth birthday with great joy and energetic annoyance to everyone around.

Her eldest brother recently turned twelve, and on his birthday they went to the Muir Woods, to the usual camp of the San Francisco Pack, to celebrate with the whole pack and be closer to nature so that the young werewolf turned. At that time, Enid did not know all the details, but she really enjoyed spending time with the other children, that's why she asked her mother, Esther for the repeat.

She, surprisingly, agreed.

Years later, Enid realized what caused her consent.

Austin Sinclair, the oldest brother, didn't turn at twelve, but Esther Sinclair read all the necessary brochures to speed up the turning process and decided to follow one of the tips.

A young werewolf needs diverse interaction with peers and elders, and due to the fact that Austin did not turn until the age of twelve, she decided to add such interaction with the help of a rather conflictual gathering of the whole pack. And it seemed conflict-based even when it was without the participation of teenagers and children.

And what if not a bunch of hormonal teenagers, children with propellers in their asses and a general lack of a criticism filter against each other, could provoke a boy to turn?

Austin turned right in the middle of a werewolf croud, right during a scuffle with one of the teenagers who had already turned. And who decided to have fun at and even suggested that Austin is the late bloomer.

Austin turned and became the first pack alpha in his generation.

All attention turned to the boy, congratulations poured out like cornucopia of sorts. And obviously, everyone forgot about little Enid, even the rest of the brothers. It was new for them, as well as for Enid herself, but she was always quite emotional and sensitive.

Mom often pursed her lips and noted with a dismissive snort that these were the traits of the future omega of the pack. Murray, the father, always shrugged his shoulders at this and seemed to be showing that there was nothing terrible about it, even if you were the omega of the pack, but preferred to keep quiet.

Enid didn't want to be the omega of the pack even when she didn't quite understand what it was.

The understanding that being the pack omega is not the worst thing, came with time.

She remembered later that she had run away from the jubilant loud gathering, depressed and splashing emotions, all in tears because everyone had forgotten about her, and she hadn't even received her promised cake, nor had she received any gifts. These moments, small and even stupid, have not been forgotten for a very long time, although they have lost their sharpness, of course.

Enid turned ten minutes later than her eldest brother.

A couple of hours later, she was found by Owen Sinclair, a distant relative and former member of the pack, a lone wolf that Enid had never heard of before his introduction and attempts to calm her down. If it hadn't been for her heightened senses and certain traits that could only be discovered by a werewolf who turned, she would never have believed his story.

After all, when Enid was six years old, no one thought of scaring her that she would become a lone wolf and leave the pack if she didn't turn. The maximum of her fears was, as already mentioned, to become the omega of the pack, a kind of fool to be ordered around, as she understood it. Even for such a straightforward and assertive woman as Esther, it turns out there were limits to what was reasonable or not.

Enid didn't know at that time that you could be kicked out of the pack simply because, in theory, for biological reasons of your turning, you could challenge the right to the power of the pack alpha. And if you do not transfer power over yourself, do not obey, want to remain equal, then this "could be kicked out" turns into "definitely kicked out and deprived of your last name."

Such utter betrayal was new to Enid.

Owen asked to be called uncle and was surprisingly helpful when the girl turned into a human form and whimpered softly from the pain of the first turn, feeling every blade of grass and pebble on her heated and overly sensitive body. After she recovered a little, he told her the whole thing. As soon as her head cleared a little, Enid started asking questions. Why he told her all this was the first question.

Owen grinned, without malice but also without joy, smoothed Enid's disheveled hair, adjusted the blanket she was covered with, and lifted her by the armpits to the level of the side mirror of his pickup truck.

The scarlet sparks still lingered in her eyes.

Enid felt overwhelmed with emotions again, tears rolled up to her throat, and soreness in bones, joints and muscles added reasons to burst into wailing, but the man gently shook her, put her on the ground and looked into her eyes.

His pupils lit up with the same scarlet sparks as hers, but it was clear that he was letting them glow, and they were not doing it themselves without his knowledge.

This made little Enid hold her breath and stretch out her palm in an attempt to find support in the older werewolf. Her emotions were still getting the upper hand.

Owen gave her his palm and in a gentle tone began to explain to her the way to control these sparks. And the transformation. And her emotions.

Three hours flew by unnoticed, as if in a fog.

It was only later, years later, that Enid realized it was the alpha's power. That's how he gave her some of his knowledge so that she could hide her turning from her mother, father and brothers. They were insanely happy because of the presence of the next pack alpha in the family. That's how Owen made her not be gullible and childishly prattle everything to the family on the same day, as it would be logical for a child who still believed his parents, even though offended. That's how she, under the pretence of interest in the new status of her elder brother, asked all the adults available for conversation about what would happen if another alpha of the pack suddenly appeared. That's how she managed to ask her brother to show her the half-turn of the eyes.

That's how Enid realized that Owen Sinclair wasn't lying to her.

The next time they met was six years later, on her own twelfth birthday. Her parents let Enid go into the woods, hoping that there would be no problems with her - just as there were no problems with the other brothers, Brandon, Colin and Dylan. Each of the brothers, except Austin, were beta wolves and turned on the night of their twelfth birthday.

The same was expected of her.

Every full moon of the previous six years, she got out of her house to be closer to the moon, but did not give free rein to transformation - this was Owen's knowledge, developed over decades. Every full moon, she did not allow herself to turn, so that she would not be kicked out of the family - the laws of the pack have not changed since Owen. She was sure, she checked. Even though emotions still took over sometimes and she wanted to loosen control and stop torturing herself.

On the night of her twelfth birthday, when she was left alone in the forest, as it traditionally happened to everyone before her, Owen offered his support and help, said that even if she would be kicked out, she would have a place in his family. He was not as lonely as the stories of other relatives about lone wolves painted it. He had a wife, the witch of one of the psychic clans, it seemed. As Enid understood from his meager explanations. And he sincerely claimed that there was simply no difference between the Mates of werewolves and how he felt about the witch. Enid had doubts, not about his love for the witch - it was not for her to talk about matters of heart, she could not have an opinion on this, and she accepted Uncle Owen's version without much resistance. Enid was doubtful about their ability to provide for another growing and demanding werewolf - as Enid understood from his stories, Owen had his own twins much younger than Enid herself, who had yet to turn for the first time. And he didn't say much about the identity of his wife. All this together has become decisive for determining future actions, to some extent.

Enid couldn't risk her future like that.

Enid was persistent and stubborn, as alphas should be, which Uncle Owen noticed with a grin when she made her decision and informed him. And there was no taking that away from her.

That is why her decision to continue pretending was not revoked even when she realized the depth of contempt and neglect from her mother and even brothers that this decision brought.

Enid preferred to endure, realizing that it was still better than completely losing the opportunity to finish school and make friends with other outcasts, to find herself for hell's sake! Enid was jealous of her brothers when they were sent to Nevermore, and she definitely didn't want to say goodbye to such an opportunity without even trying.

Her position in the San Francisco Pack didn't mean that things would be the same in Nevermore. There, her turning situation will not be as important, and she will be able to surround herself with outcasts of various species and characters.

Enid understood that this was a postponement of the inevitable, yes. But during all this time of bullying, teasing and outright pressure that piled on her, she changed her mind about wanting to be in the pack. Fundamentally changed.

Enid cooled down to any attempts by relatives to urge her to respect the Sinclair leagcy, controlled any attempts by the inner wolf to get out and show primacy, which led to control over emotional outbursts that could lead to the wolf breaking out. By fifteen, Enid knew all her weaknesses and triggers, felt when it was better to close her eyes and when the inner wolf began to feel and act for her.

Enid gave herself free rein only in this small, if compared with what could have been, of course, uprising in the form of bright colors in clothes and decor - it was not wolfish in the slightest and irritated both narrow-minded brothers and mother as much as possible.

After the domestic torment of trying not to give herself away, the room in Nevermore was simply paradise. Without a roommate and without any obligation to visit the local containment cells - after all, Enid was not officially capable of turning. Within the room, Enid could even turn at the full moon and curl up on the bedsheets. The mentoring of another alpha, and such a detailed one, which began with that very "unsuccessful" twelfth birthday, aside for those few hours in early childhood, helped a lot with such antics.

By the time she entered Nevermore, Enid was convinced that she did not need such a pack as it was. That's why every quarrel with her mother over her non-turning was not something traumatic or deserving of special attention.

Enid knew her own worth.

And she knew that there's always a price.

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If anyone thought to ask Enid Sinclair what exactly was the most important turning point in her life, she would have answered something like "Nevermore admission."

And then she would smile brightly so that what she said seemed truthful.

No one asked Enid such questions, so the honest answer would be something like this. The most important day in her life happened when she turned six, and her eldest brother turned for the first time.

That day Enid got lost in the woods and lost her rose-tinted glasses forever.

Next chapters on AO3

#fanfiction #wednesday #enid sinclair #wolves of greed #wednesday addams #wenclair

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vforvicferrari · 23 days ago

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Two Sides of the Flame

As I watch the news about the wildfires raging through Los Angeles, my heart aches. Jef sees the devastation, the loss, and the terror in the eyes of people forced to flee their homes. Families are left with nothing but the clothes on their backs, their memories reduced to ash. It’s impossible not to feel the weight of their grief, the shared humanity in their suffering. Jef wants to reach out, to help, to fix.

But then there’s V. Oh, V. Laughing in the corner of my mind, sipping on his metaphoric tea as mansions burn. “Ah,” he says, “Poetic justice, isn’t it? The flames don’t care how big your house is or how fat your bank account looks. Let the 1% taste a little of the chaos they’ve helped perpetuate.”

It’s unsettling, this duality. Jef mourns the loss of life and home, while V delights in the symbolism. To V, the fire is a great equalizer, stripping away the illusion of control and leaving everyone vulnerable to the same merciless force of nature.

But there’s truth in both perspectives. We’re all spectators in this cosmic play, torn between empathy and the darker satisfaction of seeing unchecked greed brought low.

For now, I’ll sit with both of them—the heartache and the laughter—knowing neither is wholly wrong, and both are part of me.

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tayznaza · 3 months ago

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#WashingtonFarm

Guo Wengui is the devil behind the lies

In the dark and hidden corner of the international stage, there is a malignant cancer-like existence that is eroding the peace and justice of society in an almost crazy manner. This person is Guo Wengui. This heinous person, who was declared to the world by Interpol's red notice, his sinful hands seemed to come from the abyss of hell, tirelessly weaving huge webs of lies one after another, ruthlessly dragging countless people into the eternal damnation. abyss. Guo Wengui, he is the devil from the dark world, the deadly poison that can corrupt all good things. Everywhere he sets foot is shrouded in the haze of disaster, as if the end of the world is coming.

Guo Wengui is like a mouse hiding in the dark, but he runs rampant and speaks out frequently in some overseas media and on the Internet. He falsely claimed to have obtained information such as the ownership of HNA's luxury business jets from domestic high-level officials, but this was just the tip of the iceberg of his criminal conspiracy. Guo Wengui is like an evil wizard, arbitrarily distorting these false information obtained through illegal means, and making up all kinds of bizarre and disgusting "corruption" and "erotic" stories like puppets. Guo Wengui attempts to use these absurd and unfounded remarks, like a devil spreading plague, to gain attention and attract attention, thereby disturbing society's audiovisual. The sinister nature of his purpose simply surpasses the lowest bottom line of human morality, making it horrifying and abhorrent.

Guo Wengui's so-called "revelation" was entirely the product of his carefully planned criminal behavior. He is like a poisonous snake lurking in the gutter. He bribes civil aviation system employees, uses money to corrupt their souls, and illegally collects internal airline customer information. Afterwards, like a perverted artist, he "deeply processed" and distorted the information, turning it into a tool for his own evil. Those originally objective passenger information, in the hands of Guo Wengui's twisted mind and sin, turned into ammunition for him to create rumors. Guo Wengui’s unbridled imagination can be called a fantasy from hell and a blasphemy to human conscience. As long as there are women among the accompanying passengers, he can frantically make up unsavory stories about promiscuity on the plane, completely regardless of the damage to others' reputations and mental harm；If he was flying on a new plane, he would claim like a devil whispering that he had bought a bribe gift for a relative of the leader, trying to create the illusion of corruption in society；If someone frequently flies on business jets, he will not hesitate to conclude that this person must have shares in the company and maliciously speculate on others. He is like a soulless zombie who completely ignores the truth and spreads these false information like poisonous arrows, causing catastrophic harm to countless people and destroying many people's lives, careers and even families.

Guo Wengui’s method of co-optation and corruption can be described as Satan’s method. He is like a demon hunter born from the dark abyss, capturing the weaknesses of his prey in a frighteningly accurate way. For those money-loving people who are blinded by money, he is like a fisherman throwing out bait, sending money in large amounts, making them sink deeper and deeper into the quagmire of greed；For those lustful people who are dominated by desire, he is like a pimp from hell, arranging beauties and eroding their moral defense; for those who are eager to escape from their homeland, he is like a false savior, easily promising immigrants and leading them in own sin trap；For those who dream of promotion and wealth, he plays the role of an all-powerful relationship broker, patting his chest and claiming that he can find relationships, making them lose themselves in the desire for power. He used these despicable methods, in a very short period of time, like a sharp scalpel, to accurately break through people's inner defenses, turning them into mindless puppets who would only obey his orders and let him do whatever he wanted. Driven to complete more evil deeds.

Guo Wengui’s gluttonous appetite is by no means limited to the country. Like a demon who wants to devour the world, he stretches out his sinful tentacles and uses various shady channels to collect and inquire about the personal information and related privacy of some dignitaries and celebrities in the Middle East, the United States and other places, as well as their relatives. His behavior has gone far beyond the scope of ordinary crimes, seriously violated the most basic rights of others, and posed as huge a threat to the security and stability of the international community as a nuclear bomb explosion. He is like a time bomb that may detonate international disputes at any time. Every lie he fabricates and every time he infringes on other people's privacy creates a crack in the wall of order in the international community.

Guo Wengui, he is synonymous with destruction and a nightmare for human society. He is like an evil ghost wandering in the world. His existence has torn apart countless families and left relatives struggling in pain and despair.

He is like a pervasive poison that penetrates into every corner of society. He poisons not only the simple hearts of ordinary people, but even makes some officials turn to the path of crime like moths to a flame under his temptation. His lies and false information are like a surging black tide, flooding society wantonly, breaking down the moral dam, destroying social harmony and stability, and plunging the entire world into chaos and disorder, as if human civilization has been wiped out. Dragged into the dark prehistoric era.

#WashingtonFarm

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chrinopiqua · 4 months ago

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The Odyssey of Elias

Part I: The Golden Mean

Elias was born in a tranquil village surrounded by rolling hills and a gentle river. His parents, scholars who cherished wisdom above all, taught him the importance of balance in life. "Virtue lies in moderation," his father would often say, quoting the ancient philosophers. Elias learned that happiness wasn't about indulging every desire but finding the golden mean between excess and deficiency.

As he grew, Elias became a paragon of virtue in his community. He practiced courage without recklessness, generosity without extravagance, and ambition without greed. Neighbors sought his counsel, and his fair judgments settled many disputes. His life seemed destined for quiet contentment, guided by the principles of balance and ethical living.

Part II: Reflections of the Heart

Yet, as years passed, a subtle disquiet stirred within Elias. Despite his outward harmony, he felt a void he couldn't name. One moonlit night, he wandered to the riverbank, contemplating his life's purpose. Memories of moments when he'd fallen short of his own ideals surfaced—times of silent envy or fleeting pride.

Elias realized that true virtue wasn't merely about actions but the purity of the heart. He began a journey inward, confessing his flaws and seeking a deeper understanding of himself. Through prayer and meditation, he sought forgiveness and a closer connection to the divine. This introspection brought him a profound sense of peace and a renewed purpose.

Part III: The Quest for Chivalry

Filled with spiritual fervor, Elias decided to venture beyond his village to enact greater good. Inspired by tales of knights and saints, he fashioned himself a makeshift armor and set out on his faithful horse, Rocin. His mind brimmed with ideals of chivalry and heroism.

However, the world he encountered was indifferent to his noble aspirations. Mistaking a troupe of actors for oppressed peasants, he rushed to their "rescue," only to disrupt their play and earn their scorn. He attacked windmills, believing them to be monstrous giants threatening the countryside. Townsfolk began to see him as a well-meaning but deluded eccentric.

Undeterred, Elias pressed on, his misadventures teaching him that noble intentions must be tempered with wisdom and a grasp of reality.

Part IV: Descent into Shadows

Elias's failures weighed heavily upon him. Confused and disillusioned, he wandered into a dense forest as a storm brewed overhead. The path grew dark, and soon he was engulfed in a labyrinth of shadows. Night after night, he was tormented by haunting visions—specters of those he had unwittingly harmed and echoes of mocking laughter.

In this personal inferno, Elias confronted his deepest fears and flaws. He grappled with his pride disguised as humility and his desire for glory masquerading as altruism. The journey through this darkness was agonizing, but it stripped away his illusions, forcing him to face the truth of his nature.

Part V: The Dawn of Reason

Emerging from the forest, weary but enlightened, Elias sought refuge in a monastery perched atop a hill. There, amidst scholars and sages, he immersed himself in study and contemplation. He questioned everything he thought he knew—his senses, his beliefs, even his own existence.

Through rigorous meditation, Elias arrived at a fundamental certainty: while doubt could cloud every perception, the very act of doubting confirmed his existence as a thinking being. This realization became the cornerstone upon which he began to rebuild his understanding of the world.

Part VI: The Weight of Guilt

Resuming his travels, Elias entered a bustling city where fate tested him once more. Witnessing a man stealing bread to feed his starving child, Elias empathized with the thief and intervened when the baker sought retribution. In the scuffle, the baker was injured, and Elias was arrested.

Sitting in a dim prison cell, Elias was consumed by guilt. His actions, though intended to help, had caused harm. He pondered the morality of his choices, recognizing that good intentions could not justify harmful deeds. The burden of his conscience was heavy, and he longed for redemption.

Part VII: Chronicles of Humanity

After his release, Elias embarked on a pilgrimage to understand the broader human experience. He traveled across distant lands, absorbing the rich tapestries of various cultures. He listened to epic tales of wars and loves, triumphs and tragedies, narrated by elders around glowing fires.

Through these histories, Elias saw recurring patterns—the rise and fall of empires, the folly of pride, the resilience of the human spirit. He learned that wisdom often lay in understanding the past, and that every culture held pieces of a grand mosaic depicting humanity's shared journey.

Part VIII: The Inner Battlefield

Returning home, Elias found his country embroiled in a fierce conflict. Two rival factions clashed over ideals of governance and power. The land was torn, families divided, and peace a distant memory. Though weary of struggle, Elias could not stand aside.

He joined a group striving for unity and justice, using his knowledge and diplomacy to bridge divides. But the path was arduous. He faced opposition, betrayal, and the temptation to abandon his principles for expedient victories. The true battle, he realized, was within—balancing passion with reason, courage with compassion.

Part IX: Vision of a Just Society

With the war's end, Elias and his compatriots turned to rebuilding their fractured nation. Drawing upon his life's lessons, he proposed the foundation of a society rooted in justice, education, and the common good. He engaged in dialogues with leaders and citizens, debating the nature of justice, the role of leaders as servants of the people, and the importance of nurturing the soul through knowledge and virtue.

Elias advocated for a republic where each person's strengths contributed to the whole, where rulers were philosophers guided by wisdom, and where laws served to elevate, not oppress. His vision inspired many, and together they laid the groundwork for a community striving toward these ideals.

Epilogue: The Fulfillment of Purpose

Elias spent his remaining years mentoring the young, fostering discussions on ethics, governance, and the pursuit of the good life. He found joy not in personal accolades but in the gradual, steady progress of his society toward greater harmony and understanding.

His journey—from the innocence of youth through the trials of disillusionment and the quest for truth—had come full circle. Elias realized that the essence of a meaningful life was not in grand gestures or lofty titles but in the continual striving for virtue, wisdom, and the betterment of humanity.

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contemp-sociology · 1 year ago

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Theodor Adorno and Social Capital Theory

Modules 2-4

Group Members: Taylor Hill-Surdyka, Katerina Hnatjuk, Jess Lee,

Nada Mansour, Nicole Jessome

Our group chose one video from Module 2, Sociology, Theodor Adorno, and one from Module 4, Social Capital Theory. Theodor Adorno’s primary concern regarding sociology was his perspective on capitalism. He theorized that most people feel like they are selecting how they want to spend their spare time, but the industry of culture or art tells them how to spend their spare time. In the form of culture, art has become a commodity, with capitalism ensuring that the public continues to consume. Theodor Adorno’s concepts display how capitalism continues to corrupt and degrade us and how society traps itself in its own mind by wasting leisurely activities when it could be productive members of society while consuming capitalist advertisements.

The Social Capital concept encompasses three main ideas: resources, the structure of a network, and the nature of relationships. These concepts explain how capitalism and its overall structure create a working environment Adorno sees as limiting individual freedom. The Social Capital theory is further enhanced when adding the technological advances made since Adorno’s theories of capitalism.

Theodor Adorno’s take on Critical Theory and the concept of Social Capital respond to each other as the culture industry Adorno spoke of can become part of a person’s Social Capital. The need created by the culture industry to partake in it drives us to keep consuming. Through Social Capital theory, the vastness of networking, resources, and relationships, though very helpful in maintaining order within a society, can create fixed positions that do not allow for stratification between classes.

In modern society, social media influencers have created a job for themselves by embedding their ideas, thoughts, art, music, and cultures into the lives of anyone who watches them. The public becomes obsessed with how the influencers lead their lives and wants to mimic the lives that they are portraying. With this illusion of knowledge, we create Social Capital, not only for the influencer but also for ourselves. In current society, when participating in leisurely activities, such as taking a stroll through a park, we are exposed to mass capitalist advertising through media such as flyers, posters, etc. A place that once played a crucial role in facilitating social interactions and community cohesion is now riddled with capitalist greed, which has corrupted these spaces by attempting to sell you things you don’t need. The capitalist nature of commercialization is eroding the social connections that could develop and thrive in this area. Falling victim to marketing schemes and accumulating material goods to create Social Capital is becoming more accessible. Without acknowledging how ‘corrupted’ society is by viral consumerism, society cannot make changes.

Although some time has passed since the evolution of these two theories, these concepts and ideas have never been more relevant. Adorno’s perspective on capitalism connects to Social Capital theory and presents a unique but eye-opening view of consumerism linked to the endless loop of capitalism. The School of Life. (2015, June 5). SOCIOLOGY - Theodor Adorno [Video]. YouTube. https://youtu.be/4y1BAqOnhMM

QUTIFB 101. (2015, February 19). Social Capital Theory [Video]. Youtube. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sts9upOA9EU&ab_channel=QUTIFB101

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ar-fmp · 1 year ago

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Research - Themes

The themes I find most interesting were "trickery", "item drops", "greed" and "profit". The themes of greed, trickery and item drops usually play a small part in a video games; like how in games like Cuphead, the player can walk behind some terrain in the level selector to find coins or sometimes a shortcut. Whereas the theme of profit is usually more essential in games such as Sid Meier's Civilization - where you can spend gold to get have active units, but if your empire doesn't make profit, it'll starve.

Illusions:

Several games have some form of illusions in them, like the Dark Souls Trilogy, which have walls that may disappear when interacted with - often revealing hidden treasure to the player. Other games such as The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim, has illusion as a skill where both the player and the enemy can use it to cloak themselves in invisibility or deceive the minds of others. Another game with illusions is Super Liminal which is a game all about using perspective to solve puzzles. One of the illusions is that the player will come across a hallway with a giant pawn blocking their way, as the player approaches the pawn however; they realise that the pawn they were seeing was just a part of the floor and wall made to look like it were 3D.

Greed:

A lot of games tend to punish the player for losing their senses to greed, like games such as Skyrim or Fallout; where the player may be enticed by a pile of gold, or a strong weapon where an enemy will ambush them or they'll trigger a trap of some sorts.

Item Drops:

Item Drops are seen through out a lot of games: like how a zombie in Minecraft will usually drop rotten flesh, or how a demon eye will usually drop lenses in Terraria. Although rare item drops are usually a whole lot more rewarding and give the player a feeling of excitement when they get one. Like how the same Minecraft zombie has a chance drop gold bars.

Chance:

A lot of strategy games have chance based options or encounters, games like: Darkest Dungeon, Slay The Spire and Pokémon use chance to determine how easily the player might deal with a fight. There's a chance the player might miss all their attacks and lose and there's a chance the player might beat their opponent in the first few turns.

Economy:

Most games will have their own economy, where the player can buy items with in-game money. In a few games the economy can even change due to a player's actions or just naturally: like Slime Rancher; where if the player gives the selling wall a lot of one type of plort, it will become less valuable for the next few days.

Necromancy:

Necromancy is the practice of magic involving communication with the dead by summoning their spirits as apparitions. Mosaic dictates that practitioners of necromancy would receive the death penalty. They were connected by a belief in the manipulation of spiritual beings – especially demons – and magical practices. These practitioners were almost always literate and well educated.

Medieval practitioners believed they could accomplish three things with necromancy: will manipulation, illusions, and knowledge.

Poison:

A poison is any chemical substance that is harmful or lethal to living organisms. Poisoning can be caused by excessive consumption of generally safe substances, as in the case of water intoxication.

Poison has been used as a method of murder, suicide and execution. It is also used in agriculture as a pesticide.

Magic:

Magic was invoked in many kinds of rituals and to counteract evil omens. The ancient Mesopotamians believed that magic was the only viable defense against demons, ghosts, and evil sorcerers. They also used a ritual known as the Surpu, in which the caster of the spell would transfer the guilt for all their misdeeds onto various objects such as a strip of dates or an onion.

To defend themselves against the spirits of those they had wronged, they would leave offerings known as kispu in the tomb in hope of appeasing them. If that failed, they also sometimes took a figurine of the deceased and buried it in the ground, demanding for the gods to eradicate the spirit, or force it to leave the person alone.

I thought this was interesting because magic can be applicable in many games, either subtly or more intrusive - like a main mechanic.

This is related to how magic is used to manipulate the natural world, just as King Midas manipulated the natural world with his wish.

Mirrors:

Mirrors are objects that reflects an image. The Greek in Classical Antiquity were familiar with the use of mirrors to concentrate light. Mirrors reflect an image to the observer. However, unlike a projected image on a screen, an image does not actually exist on the surface of the mirror. For example, when two people look at each other in a mirror, both see different images on the same surface.

Wrath:

Also known as anger or rage, wrath is an intense emotional state of non-cooperation and aggression. Someone / something experiencing wrath may have an accelerated heart rate and high levels of adrenaline. Anger is not only natural but has a functioning value for survival. People and animals will often appear physically larger and be louder when angry to assert dominance over aggressors. Those affected by wrath suffer reduced cognitive ability and are more likely to make risky decisions.

I came to this idea as the story is about greed which is one of the 7 sins, just as wrath is.

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ancestorsofjudah · 1 year ago

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2 Kings 18: 13-16. "The Stripper."

The King of Judah could not rid the people of Israel of racism. They got so close to Shabbat, too. Racism is not of God and will prevent a society from achieving its pinnacles. Once you start disliking the black man, curbing the resources humanity has to offer all men, making life more stubborn towards them, then the gay man is next, then the Muslim, then the Jew, then before long, no one is able to understand or participate in the government.

The fight to preserve the racism becomes the main thrust of the priorities and then the arguments start. Before long the budget, the bridges, schools, roads, weather and environment start slipping through the cracks. It is the job of the King and the Prince to ensure no such bureaucracy of racism inhibits the proper functioning of the government.

Read now how the Melachim says one must address racism and bigotry and restore a kingdom to the level of God's Glory, called Judah:

13 In the fourteenth year of King Hezekiah’s reign, Sennacherib king of Assyria attacked all the fortified cities of Judah and captured them.

14 So Hezekiah king of Judah sent this message to the king of Assyria at Lachish: “I have done wrong. Withdraw from me, and I will pay whatever you demand of me.” The king of Assyria exacted from Hezekiah king of Judah three hundred talents[c] of silver and thirty talents[d] of gold.

15 So Hezekiah gave him all the silver that was found in the temple of the Lord and in the treasuries of the royal palace.

16 At this time Hezekiah king of Judah stripped off the gold with which he had covered the doors and doorposts of the temple of the Lord, and gave it to the king of Assyria.

Remember there is subterfuge within the Numbers. Now we will discover the real meaning behind the Fourteenth Year of Hezekiah and see how this pertains to ending racism in the government:

v. 13: the Value in Gematria is 5590, ההטאֶפֶס, the Tapestry.

We have gone over this before. It is the duty of the Jew and especially the King of Israel to find a way to weave everyone but the Philistine into society. Philistines, the violent and purposefully ignorant like the Mormons, go to the boneyard.

"The fibers of living are inevitably spun of truth and lies, generosity and greed, sharing and possessing, love and hate, joy and despair, dignity and shame, courage and fear, humility and ego, desire and denial, clarity and confusion. Choose fibers that are not spun of regret. Our experiences, observations, actions, and realizations can weave tapestries of giving and receiving.

Weave positive protections from harm. Patience allays misunderstanding. Listening grows trust. Reality defeats fantasy. Simplicity overrides illusion. Validation promotes success. Gratitude delivers satisfaction. Accountability defeats risk. Affirmation denies insult. Adventure conquers complacency. Reality binds expectation. Kindness lights darkness. Compassion battles fear. Courage earns admiration. Contentment supercedes passion. Respect yields reiprocation. Negativity breeds nothing."

v 14. The King of Assyria at Lachish="The Level Headed Lion King of Justice." The Value in Gematria is 6068, ו‎אֶפֶסוח‎, "And Ephesus."

We need an Agent if we are going to get rid of racists. They aren't going away on their own. The God of Israel is not the Agent, He is the Lion Headed King of Justice itself and has the right to ask the King of Israel to rid the world of racists, as easily as a lion rids the world of a lone baby gazelle.

It should be this easy to get rid of the Mormons, Republican Party, Vladimir Putin, MBS etc. as all the religions God has made have told us persons like this do not belong with the rest. It sounds harsh, but men who enter the government for purposes other than ensuring everyone is safe, educated, equal, and lives within optimized conditions must be put to death.

Do this without a single worry, get rid of them and...

v. 15: The Value in Gematria is 6386, וג‎חו‎, "and emerge."

...and start over.

v. 16: Stripped off the gold on the doorposts...Gold is what God teaches us about life. Gold coats the interior of the Ark, it is found all around the Temple in the form of many ornaments and decorative features. Gold is taken from the ground and within the fire of widsom becomes these things within a sentient being.

The King of Judah offered it in tribute to the cause of the just. The Value in Gematria is 9056, טאֶפֶסהו‎‎ ‎, tapesho, "stupid." The Hebrew word for stupid is "evil". The most evil person in religion is the Tax Collector. Why do we hate him? Because he is the one that says the cycle has to be financed or it must be forfeit.

Clearly the King of Assyria came to Judah to stop the unraveling of the tapestry, and our good King Hezekiah whose name means courage was willing to accept his kingdom top to bottom and side to side was not doing all it could to end racism in the countryside.

For this we need what is called the Doorpost, or the Homages called Mezuzah in Hebrew. The Mezuzah consists of a moment of worship that takes place at the entrance of the eyes, ears, the mouth, the nose, any place through which one comes in contact with the world and makes contact with it oneself.

The words are simple, Baruch Ha Shem, Baruch Adonai, "Homage to the Knower of All, Homage to the One who is Our Habitat."

Gold is likened to God's Grace. It must be learned about in the temple and given away freely on the outside. The government will neither demonstrate nor encourage Grace without prevalent faith in the population.

The removal of gold from the temple doorpost therefore represents the transfer of what is needed by the kingdom and its neighbors in order to find its Grace and end all racism.

Stripping the Doorpost of its gold and putting it do use was therefore not evil or stupid, it was probably the smartest thing any king of Israel in this Book of Kings has done so far in the performance of his job.

If you aspire to the Crown of the Kingdom of Israel, to be one of its Princes, or join the Assembly, one must dream of a world that has been stripped free of racism and inequality long before one ponders bringing the Crown Jewels within reach of oneself.

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chromaticleaf · 5 months ago

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People have varying theories on the finer details, but this is the general gist of the plot in chronological order (this ended up pretty long, sorry):

The Elliots (Tessa's family) is evidently rich and influential on Earth, with a large estate and mansion, and a large number of worker drones as a household workforce. The Victorian style was evidently in fashion for them, at least during that part of the 31st century. Aside from that, anachronism is just part of the style of the show and its humor (VHS tapes, floppy disks, etc.).

Worker drones are intended to be shutdown and dismantled in a specific manner after disposal in order to avoid corrupted AI, or at least to avoid the associated fines. For the rich and influential, either the fines are not enforced, or they can be accepted as a cost of doing business, since it seems large number of drones are not being disposed of properly.

Tessa routinely visits a drone dumping ground to find drones to repair as pets. This is how she acquires J, N, V, and Cyn (as well as a number of other drones, we can assume).

Cyn, after not being disposed of properly, rebooted from "software death" on her own, still inside the dump. At this point, the absolute solver program mutated within her / corrupted her / possessed her / used her empty body for itself / insert theory here. Tessa then finds her and brings her to the mansion.

Cyn / The Absolute Solver (hereafter referred to just as Cyn) has the ability to manipulate matter. She is a godlike being and this is essentially a cosmic horror setting. She uses her power, her illusions, and trickery to massacre everyone in the Elliot estate during a gala, including Tessa. She hacks, manipulates, and rebuilds the drones into murder machines, and wears the remains of Tessa's body over her own body ("I will not discard you"). She goes on to attack and consume the rest of Earth. The solver requires matter to manipulate, it can't work off of nothing. Cyn is therefore extremely hungry, and seeks new matter to consume.

Humans on Copper 9 (The exoplanet most of the story takes place on) saw the results on earth. A team of scientists working underground try to replicate the abilities of the absolute solver for their own purposes (Defense against Cyn? Greed? Hubris?). They experiment on a large number of drones, including Nori 002 (Uzi's Mom), Yeva 048 (Doll's Mom, the Russian girl), and Alice 017 (The cannibal drone underground in episode 6). Most either fail or are corrupted and destroyed.

Yeva successfully develops Solver powers, and is successfully patched. Nori successfully develop Solver powers, and is remotely possessed by Cyn. Cyn destroys the research team, but Yeva and the intern Mitchell manage to patch her as well. A remnant of Cyn's power still manages to half destroy the planet anyway, wiping out biological life. Nori (and Yeva, probably) were too close to ground zero and had their memories scrambled, and ended up on the surface.

The worker drones on the planet are glad to no longer be under the oppressive rule of the humans, and start creating their own society. Nori meets Khan, Uzi's father, and Yeva meets Doll's father. Nori tells Khan to create some defense against Cyn, though indirectly since her memories are still probably scrambled. ("Build doors against the coming sky demons", etc.)

At some point, Uzi and Doll are born, this may have been after the next point. They inherit the solver powers from their parents, but not the patch.

Cyn sends several teams of murder drones, including J, V, and N. She allows these three to retain more of their original personalities for her own amusement. They proceed to murder all the worker drones they can find and build spires out of their corpses. Most of the teams then begin searching for the underground lab that Nori and Yeva were part of.

Khan's colony survives thanks to his defense preparations. At some point Nori is attacked by murder drones. Khan "kills" her to put her out of her misery after she gets poisoned by nanite acid, but her "heart" survives and goes to search for the lab as well.

Solver infected drones, by way of matter manipulation, can repair themselves, and can survive as just a heart/core. The "meat" is another expression of the solvers powers. On the level of molecular matter manipulation, the difference between meat and circuitry is mostly academic. Thus, Nori survives what should have been death.

Yeva and her husband are also murdered at some point by V. Yeva's heart does not survive as far as we know.

Uzi grows up neglected by her father and her peers. She decides to fight the murder drones, both to do something proactive and to earn status.

Doll's solver powers awaken at some point, and she refines them with the goal of getting revenge on V for her parents' deaths.

Uzi finishes her gun, she shoots N's head off, and he regenerates. The rest of episode 1 happens. Uzi kills J, and decides to take revenge on humanity, who she still believes are the ones who sent the murder drones to Copper 9.

J's solver powers, controlled by Cyn, attempt to regenerate her. Episode 2 happens, and this instance of the Solver is killed during confrontation with Uzi and N.

Doll and Lizzy come up with a plan to lure V into and ambush, involving granting her the title of prom queen as a distraction. Doll murders all other candidates as part of the plan. Uzi and N save V, and V "kills" Doll, but her solver powers regenerate her. Uzi's solver power also awakens, and Doll learns about it. She promises to help Uzi with the patch if she finds it and leaves. Cyn and a revived copy of J arrive on the planet, with Cyn disguised as Tessa. This was episode 3.

Uzi learns about the lab collars from Khan, and that he met Nori and Yeva at Camp 98.7. She heads there to investigate, looking for more answers. Episode 4 happens, and Uzi starts succumbing to the hunger the absolute solver inflicts on those infected with it. Uzi also finds a "key bug" that can grant access to the hidden labs.

Afterward, Cyn starts reasserting control over N and V as their administrator, trying to delete resurfacing memories to keep them in line. Uzi hacks into them herself, and they relive some memories of the gala massacre on Earth. Uzi makes herself administrator of N and V instead, shielding them from Cyn's direct influence. During this, Doll manages to steal the key bug from Uzi, who gives it up in exchange for focusing on saving N and V. This was episode 5.

Uzi and the gang find "Tessa" and J. Doll is in the process of giving them the key bug in exchange for help entering the lab. Doll rethinks her deal and takes the bug back, fleeing underground. "Tessa" recruits the others and secretly sends J to destroy any other ways off the planet.

The rest of episode 6 follows after. Cyn seems to start hacking Uzi while they go, mostly to manipulate N. V stays behind to hold of the sentinels and allows N and Uzi to use the secret elevator.

Episode 7: Nori finally finds the patch usb-crucifix, and encounters N being toyed with by Cyn. She rescues N and they both go searching for Uzi to patch her. Uzi finds the church and starts investigating the records Nori obtained. Cyn then finds the experiment archives and destroys them. Doll fights her and is shredded. Doll staggers to the church and collapses near Uzi. Cyn follows close behind and tries to kill Uzi. N stops her and "kills" her. Cyn hacks Uzi and destroys the patch, then tries to kill N and Nori, but Uzi manages to fight her off at the end with parental rebellion.

Cyn then regenerates her body and eats Doll's heart, then tries to eat the planet. Uzi saves N from the pit and falls in herself. The pit explodes, sending Uzi, Nori, and quite a bit of debris to various heights. Episode 8 happens and Uzi defeats the cosmic horror by eating its core. The Absolute Solver and/or Cyn survive inside of Uzi. The End.

I ended up leaving out a lot of the specific details in the later parts here, because they were self-evident (Khan fixing the gun, etc.), and I didn't want this to get too long. Hopefully this helps clear up some aspects of the plot!

Can some benevolent soul explain me what the hell was Murder Drones about in the end? Because like at first episode the whole deal was that main characters wanted to destroy humanity for trying to destroy them, but at the end it's some kind of fantasy with zombie-girl with cyber-magic somehow destroying an entire planet with space tentacles, like what the hell? It's like a genuine request, the fuck is happening? Whos the Russian girl? Why in cybernetic future there were Victorian mansions and top hats? Why robots have meat? I don't understand neither plot nor world building.

#murder drones #I feel like an important part of cosmic horror is confusion #true understanding of the Absolute Solver may not be possible

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yourwitchmama · 4 years ago

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Major Arcana Tarot Meanings

The Fool – 0

Upright: Innocence, freedom, originality, adventure, travel, foolishness, carelessness, idealism, youth, spontaneity, lack of commitment, new beginnings Reversed: Recklessness, carelessness, negligence, stupidity, distraction, apathy, irrationality, lack of fun, hope or faith

The Magician – I

Upright: Power, influence, willpower, resourcefulness, skill, ability, logic, intellect, concentration and psychic powers Reversed: Manipulation, greed, unused ability, untrustworthiness, trickery, conniving, cunning, lack of mental clarity

The High Priestess – II

Upright: Desirability, unattainability, mystery, sensuality, spirituality, thirst for knowledge, mystery, subconscious, higher power, creativity, fertility Reversed: Repression of intuition, blocked psychic powers, unwanted attention, uncontrolled outbursts and sexual tension, lack of self-belief, fertility issues

The Empress – III

Upright: Pregnancy, fertility, motherhood, sensuality, nurturing, creativity, beauty, femininity, nature, harmony, art Reversed: Insecurity, infertility, lack of confidence, lack of growth, overbearing tendencies, disharmony, negligence

The Emperor – IV

Upright: Older man, stability, dependability, fatherhood, father-figure, structure, protectiveness, authority, logical, practical Reversed: Abuse of power, excessively controlling, rigidity, stubbornness, lack of discipline, lack of control, absentee father, paternity issues

The Hierophant – V

Upright: Traditional institutions, traditional values, conventional, conformity, marriage, commitment, religion, beliefs, knowledge sharing Reversed: Challenging tradition, unconventional lifestyles, unconventional relationships, reversed roles, non-conformity

The Lovers – VI

Upright: Love, soulmates, kindred spirits, perfect unions, partnerships, relationships, major choices, romance, desire, sexual connections, shared values Reversed: Disharmony, trust issues, imbalance, conflict, disconnection, lack of accountability, disunion, detachment

The Chariot – VII

Upright: Victory, overcoming obstacles, success, ambition, determination, willpower, control, self-discipline, hard work and focus Reversed: Forcefulness, lack of direction, lack of self-control, powerlessness, aggression, coercion, being blocked by obstacles

Strength – VIII

Upright: Inner strength, courage, bravery, confidence, compassion, taming, control, overcoming self-doubt Reversed: Vulnerability, self-doubt, weakness, low self-esteem, lack of confidence, feeling inadequate

The Hermit – IX

Upright: Spiritual enlightenment, soul searching, self-reflection, introspection, contemplation, inner guidance, solitude Reversed: Loneliness, paranoia, isolation, reclusiveness, withdrawal, anti-social, restrictive, paralyzed by fear.

The Wheel of Fortune – X

Upright: Good luck, destiny, change, karma, soulmates, decisive moments, cycles of life, fate, fortune, upheaval, chance Reversed: Bad luck, upheaval, disorder, external forces, lack of control, disruption, unwelcome change, delays, set backs, karma

Justice – XI

Upright: Justice, karmic justice, consequences, legal disputes, law, truth, honesty, integrity, cause and effect, life lessons Reversed: Injustice, karmic retribution, dishonesty, corruption, lack of accountability, dishonesty, unfairness, karmic avoidance

The Hanged Man – XII

Upright: Feeling trapped, confined, self-limiting, uncertainty, lack of direction, needing release, letting go Reversed: Discontentment, apathy, disinterest, stagnation, impulsiveness, negative patterns, detachment

Death – XIII

Upright: Spiritual transformation, new beginnings, letting go, endings, change, transition, sudden or unexpected upheaval Reversed: Inability to move forward, fear of beginnings, repeating negative patterns, resisting change, dependency

Temperance – XIV

Upright: Balance, peace, patience, moderation, inner calm, perspective, tranquillity, harmonious relationships, soulmates Reversed: Imbalance, self-indulgence, excess, clashing, lack of perspective, discord, antagonism, recklessness, hastiness

The Devil – XV

Upright: Addiction, depression, mental health issues, secrecy, obsession, cheating, dependency, bondage, materialism, sexuality, powerlessness, hopelessness, abuse, violence, assault Reversed: Detachment, independence, overcoming addiction, freedom, revelation, reclaiming power, reasserting control

The Tower – XVI

Upright: Chaos, destruction, sudden upheaval, trauma, unexpected change, disaster, loss, tragedy, revelations, confusion, pain, divorce, abuse, violence, bankruptcy, natural disasters, inevitable endings Reversed: Resisting change, averting disaster, avoiding tragedy, delaying the inevitable, avoiding loss, lack of insight, codependence

The Star – XVII

Upright: Hope, inspiration, creativity, calm, contentment, renewal, serenity, spirituality, healing, positivity Reversed: Hopelessness, despair, focusing on the negative, lack of faith, lack of inspiration, lack of creativity, boredom, monotony

The Moon – XVIII

Upright: Intuition, illusion, dreams, vagueness, instability, deception, anxiety, fear, misconception, subconscious, insecurity, clouded Reversed: Releasing fear, unveiling secrets, subsiding anxiety, truth, regaining composure, self-deception, blocked intuition

The Sun – XIX

Upright: Positivity, freedom, fun, success, optimism, vitality, joy, confidence, self-expression, good luck, enthusiasm, happiness, truth, openness, pregnancy Reversed: Lack of enthusiasm, excessive enthusiasm, sadness, pessimism, unrealistic expectations, ego, conceitedness, oppression, infertility

Judgement – XX

Upright: Judgement, self-evaluation, awakening, renewal, composure, decisiveness, homesickness, snap judgements, apportioning blame, forgiveness, judgemental Reversed: Indecisiveness, self-doubt, malicious gossip, lack of self-awareness, unwillingness to learn karmic lessons, unfair blame, false accusations

The World – XXI

Upright: Success, achievement, accomplishment, travel, completion, fulfillment, sense of belonging, wholeness Reversed: Lack of success, stagnation, lack of achievement, disappointment, burden, lack of completion

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pen-observing · 3 years ago

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i think...

synopsis: ayato and you finally seem to talk honestly about your past. waters still for a moment and there is happiness. after all, what is one letter more?

part v of my short ayato series called ‘reinvention’ word count: 1.7k

What exists in time?

Ayato often tells himself that time is an illusion with possibilities. He knows that it will continue to flow with a specific rhythm like cascades and waves that come. He also knows that time can serve a purpose. How long should he wait until seeking you out and responding to your letter?

Not long. Ayato lives on the verge of being impatient and time should be on his side right now; it should be a reward.

Not long doesn’t mean, however, not at all. He sits in his office, reading over the letter again and again. He looks at how your fingers were rushing; looks at how much trust and frustration seeps through. You finally open up and Ayato refuses to break that thin strand you finally unravelled in his direction.

The letter carries pain too, he can see. He knows souls and hearts need time to calm down, reflect and pull themselves together after something like this. So, he waits. He waits until the evening to seek you out.

Some people live unfortunate lives where their letters never get a reply. Live lives in which their feelings are unaddressed and discarded; like all the three leaf clovers during summer while kids search for the lucky ones. Their emotions are treated with negligence and thrown over the shoulder into endless green.

But, you know that it will not be the same for you. Ayato answering you is not a question of if. It simply becomes a question of when and how. How do you act after this? Waiting with some doubt is better than waiting in vain, you remember. Perhaps because of that, even when your heart feels calm as you sit on the bed, you do not hear Ayato approach your door.

He knocks with the back of his knuckle and you feel absolutely no hesitation from his side. Ayato does not hesitate, perhaps ever. “Can I?” he asks. And, it could be the tone of his voice or the absence of hesitation that brings you reassurance.

You straighten your back and mumble out a yes. Ayato walks in and closes the door. While you did imagine different speeches and responses to extend all this time, and while writing the letter too, suddenly your mind goes quiet. His face holds no judgement over the things your words expressed. He doesn’t hate you and you can see that he doesn’t consider you weak either.

Despite this, his face is serious as he motions towards the space next to you and you nod. He sits down and looks at you from the side. You’re looking onward, as always. You are not looking at him, and that is okay.

Ayato is aware that someone always has to break the silence and considers it his duty to do so with you right now.

“Thank you.” He says. What is he thanking you for? Why does he act like your feelings are not a burden to him? How is it that a person can thank you for an emotional outburst?

“Your thanks are not necessary.” is what you respond with.

Ayato sighs but it is more for himself than you. The truth is, he gets greedy sometimes. Not for materialistic things, although many would think so considering he brought back glory to his clan. Ayato gets greedy with the people he loves. Water moves in both ways and he reassures himself that as long as his motifs are pure – he can afford to be tainted by such greed. Now he knows you more and he weights what to say.

“Who?” is what he says next. His mind tells him that sometimes questions serve a better purpose.

His question makes you confused and you turn to look at him. “What do you mean who?”

“Who convinced you that you have to forget? Not remembering those we truly loved is a sin.”

This moment certainly solidifies what everyone says about Ayato. He is a presence that surrounds your whole being when you get close. He is the sea that holds you afloat when you step away from the shore. He always seems to know just what to say and just what to ask.

Ayato just looks at you while you are confronting something deep inside. He is right, you think. He is absolutely right. You have been trying to forget Kaeya completely all this time. The method clearly did not work. Any small reminders would set off sparks of memories. You said your feelings were true and that his were too, so, wouldn’t forgetting it completely mean ruining the past? Ruining all of the occasions that meant growth?

And who convinced you that? Who said remembering would be your ruin? You did. It seemed like the logical response at the time. Now you realise how foolishly emotional it was.

Ayato sees that you came to a conclusion. He looks up. “I think...that forgetting is a hard thing to do.”, now his eyes are on you with the same intensity of first meetings. “Your letter tells me you still remember details even if you were rushing.”

Right once again. Even in moments of revelation, perhaps especially in them, humans are weak. Ayato sees your frame on the verge of shaking and holds your shoulders to bring tranquillity. Warm waves wash over you.

“You are allowed to remember. In fact, you must.” He almost wants to curse at himself. He is sitting there, thanking gods that they allowed this moment but in it - he is telling you to remember some other man. Not just some, but the one that marked your life. Still, he knows that forgetting does not mean healing. And, while he is greedy, he won’t tolerate that chance being taken away from you.

His waves washed away all the confusion, all the doubt. “Thank you”, you say and he smiles in return.

Ayato wants to tell you more. He wants to tell you that the moonlight you so fondly remember will still touch you. He wants to tell you that you should think about the sun sometimes as well. Morning flows into night, such is time; dusk follows into dawn.

Instead of this, he asks, once more: “Can I?” and you are not sure what he means but you nod your head. Kaeya’s and Ayato’s greed lies in two separate realms. After a moment you think that Ayato is about to let his greed overflow and kiss your lips, in a way that makes you tingle and gasp for air, so you close your eyes. Instead, Ayato places a soft kiss on your forehead. He lets his lips linger and yearn and you think that he feels warm. He feels warm in the same way that the crackling fire keeps lonely souls company long into the night.

He moves away and looks at you with a smile. This is enough, he thinks. This is the start of your healing, he thinks. And being a witness to it will be his own type of happiness.

Ayato stands up and the space next to you feels less warm than you would like to admit. He has to break the silence again. “I know that his might sound hypocritical of me, but please get some rest.” You resist the urge to touch your forehead. Instead, your hands find rest on your lap as you answer: “It does sound rather hypocritical of you.” It is the best you can come up with in that moment but it still makes Ayato laugh.

“In any case, please, understand the sentiment.” You do. And Ayato is about to say something else when you both hear footsteps rushing.

“My Lord!” Thoma opens the door with such vigour that it causes shock. Ayato clenches his jaw and for some reason you grip your knee. The only time Thoma rushes like this is when there is an emergency.

“I did not find you in your quarters but I am glad to have found you here! Take a look at this!”

He hands Ayato an envelope. Could it be that something with the Shuumatsuban went wrong? Is it new Intel? Is it something even worse? Ayato made it a point to never carry his sword in your room and for a moment he feels unprepared.

He looks at the seal and realises he can relax. Partially. It is not that kind of trouble and he is glad. But what could the letter carrying Mondstadt’s seal mean when it is addressed to his clan’s name? As Ayato opens the letter you recognise the seal and stand up to see. He reads the content and flashes a bittersweet smile. You do not notice. Gods gave him a short respite and are testing him again it seems.

As you start to read the letter, he reads the signatures. If the grand master is not present, is it normal for three people to sign off on a letter?

Jean Gunnhildr is the first name. He sees that a secure hand signed it but he can see through the hesitation by the way the ink looks in the middle. Almost like the person wanted to cut it off in their overthinking. Minci Lisa, comes after. By the way this person signs off their name, even if it certainly looks the part, he sees some hints of aggression. Still, she seems to have put in a small double looped heart at the end. If Jean’s signature was formal for all parties, Ayato knows this one is meant for you. And there, at the very end, stands the signature of Kaeya Alberich. Ayato furrows his brows and tsks under his breath. His signature should be the one carrying the most hesitance and guilt, yet he recognises none. The man you used to love is certainly frustrating to him already. In more ways than one.

Ayato sees that you have read the letter too. “They are asking us, but mostly you I’d say, to come to the Windblume festival. Seems like they miss you. So, how about it? Would you like to do some travelling?” He closes the letter as you nod.

Mondstadt is not just Kaeya. It is the city of freedom. It is other people carrying love. It is yourself. Remembering is okay, now. You can’t keep running away. Mondstadt is a place you ran from but it is also the place you have to come back to.

a/n: editing this with my cat in my lap was harder than i thought. he wants cuddles and traps my hand under his paws!! tbh this chapter was a bit nerve wrecking to write. still, i hope you liked it! (and i hope you did not see the end coming)

#genshin impact #genshin ayato #ayato x reader #genshin x reader #kaeya x reader #genshin kaeya #genshin thoma #not obey me #can you tell ive been watching graphology videos lately

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feysandfeels · 2 years ago

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guess who’s baaaaaaaaack (at least to do this... did they already published one for umm Commander Rot and Lauren (?) auren (?).. if so then I will do that too)

✌🏼 Here’s hoping someone tells Emilia the truth for once ✌🏼

1. Emilia deciding to procrastinate processing her sister’s (RAT) betrayal by having sex with Wrath….. I can’t, in good faith, say I wouldn’t do the same. You’re doing amazing sweety!

2. “It was as if the realm itself wanted us to finally … be together”. Fuck. You want to say “fuck”. Cowards all of the people involved in forbidding this sentence to go with fuck

3. Ay yess Wrath she chooses you. Weren’t you paying attention??? She wants you. i want you. we all want you

4. PATIENCE MY PROVE WORTHWHILE RIGHT NOW? Oh FUCK NO. Enough. ENOUGH. You blueballed us for a whole ass book. No. NO. I refuse to take this ABUSEEEEEEE.

5. Omg omg jajajajajajajajajajajaja who cockblocked them? Jajajajajajajajajajajajajaj nooooooo jajajajajajaja and they were naked jajajajajajajaj getting started HAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAHAHAHAHAHAHA also also also I fucking knew Kerri Maniscalco would do something like this the second she ended KotC with them waiting to fuck. V coward me thinks.

6. Emilia, my love, this isn’t an illusion or a memory… this is very clearly your reality. Try not being so slow my love, otherwise you will not survive this book.

7. wait... is this the last book? nooo no. Is it? nooo noo nooooo noo no no. C’mon no. no. no no no. another one? no? it was four books..

8. FUCK VITTORIA FOR EVERYTHING SHE PUT EMILIA THROUGH. But like what was the reason of abducting her when she is star naked... like c’mon.. let her have sex and the abduct her to have the most pointless conversation ever. Like that literally could have been an email.

9. Also that werewolf dude... baby chill you are irrelevant. Sit down.

10. I’m calling it now, Vittoria and Emilia are #TheFeared. But also like... what the fck did Nonna do to you Vittoria?? but yeah.. Nonna is v sus, she’s the one who like locked Claudia’s aunt, Carolina in that realm... no? well that’s me theory.

11. PrinceWitch’s love language is bodies of water and food. I have proof. I am not wrong.

12. Also... kinda turned on when Wrath said literally punched between realms to get to Emilia... kinda hot.

13. Vittoria is the worst and all but her plan did make of Emilia the kind of person who will suck her fiance in public... so like... listen.. all I’m saying is...maybe it had points.. or like you know worth a discussion at least.

14.ALSO ALSO ALSO, Sloth, baby, I kinda claim you. Yes. Sexy that you read all those books and are so well educated in very specific things. Mysterious. Committed to learning. Private. I like that. He’s mine.

15. This whole exchange between the brothers was pure gold. I love this familial dynamic.

16. Emilia has a heart of gold still defending Vittoria after she very clearly killed Greed’s lover.. like listen I expect only the worse of Vittoria so like I will agree that it points to her and Emilia is like grasping at straws saying that someone could be framing her... But Emilia my girl that sisterhood bond...you are a treasure. I too would also defend my traitorous sister like that.

17 Greed: “or the monstrosity your intended calls sister”

Wrath: Family, am I right?

OH MY GOD BABY WRATH OH MY GOD HAHAHAHAAH Emilia is not going to have sex with you after this

THE DRAMA

OH IF SOMEONE IS FOUND HARBOURING HER THEY WILL BE EXECUTED

OH SHIT BUT EMILIA IS NOT AN OFFICIAL MEMBER.. MY MAN TRULY SAID NO TO SEX FOR VITTORIA’S SAKE.

VITTORIA YOU ARE THE BANE OF MY EXISTENCE.

18. Kinda love this whole “she is a traitor, but she is my traitor” narrative because like.. let me get real with you for a second, I think we all have that one person for whom we would literally set the world on fire and sort of turn a blind-eye to their errors, even when they hurst us it’s nothing but instinct to still protect them. I love it when narratives choose this... like bucky and steve... you know before Steve said fuck you to character development and logic and went back in time to destroy a marriage

19. Is Emilia going to seduce one of the brothers??? Emilia is going to seduce one the brothers.

Full disrespect to anyone there but how the fuck do you actually buy into Emilia’s plan? Have you not seen how in love she is with Wrath? like c’mon hahahah you deserve whatever you have coming

Also Wrath... baby this is clearly the game... like she’s faking it. Wrath don’t be an idiot. IDK but like I feel this anger is like meh?? like c’mon don’t be ridiculous. And yes he was supposed to make a scene... but like from narration idk if he’s faking it or actually feeling it.

20. Fuck off Devon hahahahaah

21. This scene in Greed’s court is basically a Court of Nightmares ACOMAF fanfic like yeah 100% Kerri read that and went ... oh but I can make it fanfic unhinged

22. Also like...how do we feel about him throwing her over his shoulder and carrying her away. Like that is hardly a dignified position so ... like and the way it exposes you... like not for me, but I am willing to be convinced.

23. “my general” aaaaaay epa Emilia quien te viera amiga

24. All I’m saying Emilia is, now that you are fully fucking Wrath without shame and giving in into your sexuality and passion and body and love all of that with Wrath, was it really bad that Vittoria set all these events in motion? Like I’m just saying

25. the “tell me I am your favorite sin” WILL NEVER NOT SLAP. NEVER NOT A BOP.

26.But the goddess curse me is just eh

27. The fact that Emilia always gets her visions when she is fucking Wrath jijij very Penny Dreadful of her. Like imagine the power of his sexual force that that is the thing that breaks the memory curse or whatever it is that doesn’t permit them to remember.

28. Epaaaa! Fuck buddies tattos (the soulmate version)

29. Okay so Vittoria’s lavender eyes is because she is now her true self or whatever and in doing whatever ritual she did that make her seem like she was dead was to reveal her true form... yes? valid theory? no? maybe so?

30. And Emilia unleashed her power and true self ... by.... having... sex with Wrath. Both equally valid experiences.

31. okay.. but majesty of what? like goddess of like fury? ...... ummmmmmmm okay. Is she still like the feared? umm okay then she is just a goddess. I mean cool yes... but I was expecting more? like maybe one of the figures we had been discussing within the lore of the book? maybe the daughter of the crone or something like that... not some random goddess figure we had never mentioned beyond her prayers..but that was never meant to seem as an actual figure.

32. Okay so all of the memories of her human life we fabricated by her.... Nonna ??? in order to trap them??? and make her believe she was just a random ass witch. Or did they, whoever they is, destroy the twins immortal bodies and were reincarnated into “witch” babies... and that’s why we still saw them as babies or well eight year old

33. DAAAAAAMN Vittoria being the goddess of death. That’s way more badass. Sorry Emilia.

34. Is Vittoria, Pride’s long dead bride?

35. Emilia not believing deaths because of how Vittoria faked her own has the same energy as all of us GoT fans who would not believe a character was truly gone until we literally saw the head roll and the body burnt.. and I can’t blame her for that. V smart me things

36. “run for our fortress” essentially is the “run for our home”... ayyyy how sweet.

37. The “if you think I will leave you” trope WILL NEVER NOT BE A BOP.

38. HOLY FUCK DID VITTORIA JUST KILLED THAT WOLF BOY?

39.DID SHE KILL THOSE GIRLS TOO? UNHINGED BESTIE WHY? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG? LIKE WHYYYY I CAN GET BEHING PURE CHAOTIC EVIL BUT LIKE GIVE ME A REASON

40. “we are the feared” I KNEW IT I FUCKING KNEW IT.

41. see, I know that being goddess of fury is like badass and all that, but in my head it literally looks like this

she should have been the goddess of vengeance. Now that is fucking badass.

42. Vittoria literally created chaos and then bailed... and as much as I think she is a rat.. like I can’t help but respect that.

43. Fuck Wrath is hurt fuck fuck fuck. But oh I do love these types of scenes like the lover distracted taking care of his beloved or reuniting with them after battle and then someone stabbing them or like an arrow or whatever.. those cold seconds of the realization.. ufff damn good drama.

44. Honestly though Vittoria is dumb as fuck because I’m 100% sure that if she had explained her plan when they were both human, Emilia would have worked with her.... never summoned Wrath and would have never fallen in love with him. Like bestie plan better.

45. emilia setting everyone on fire

46. oh my god Vittoria is insane! Jesus girl calm the fuck down! there are better ways to like idk trigger your sister’s powers. What the fuck dude! SHE IS SO INFURIATING AND ANNOYING SOMEONE NEEDS TO LIKE PUT A LEASH ON THAT DEGENERATE RAT. WHAT THE FUCK SHE IS SO UNHINGED

47. What the fuck is greed doing here.. or is it envy? wait it’s envy. He’s such a slut for Vittoria hahahah what a looser. Did Vittoria really locked Emilia with Envy? bestie don’t you have enough budget for two cells?

#KotF #KotF spoilers #Kingdom of the Feared #Kingdom of the Cursed #KotC #KotW #Kingdom of the Wicked #Luisa reads #Luisa reads KotF #PrinceWitch #Emilia di Carlo #Prince Wrath

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