#-> meant to hit 'save draft'

[spottedenchants]

Relationship: Jester & Essek

Additional Tags: POV Essek, Demisexual Essek, Character Study, Intimacy, poking boundaries is how they play, it's how essek figures out where his are, Touch-Averse Essek, Post-C2

Words: 827

Summary:

marion is putting on a show and jester thinks essek should go

(he doesn't)

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[missusruin]

outfit design bits for reallygoodcake @ patreon

[housecow]

WHOOPS i am gonna post that pic probs tomorrow 🫣🫣

[gratiae-mirabilia]

first of all Jesus Christ is risen 365 days a year so jot that down

[ratatatastic]

"And to follow up on Niko Mikkola...his sense of humour with him, like, maybe—lot of people don't talk—like, last night he was like, you know, he "woke Bobby up," or whatever. "Good thing Bob was awake—"

"He's a great personality and I've said this kinda during the year. And we've, you know, I mean we're always—...I was gonna say, "It'd be great if you guys could spend a lot of time with him," but then we spend a lot of time trying to make sure you guys don't spend too much time with our guys, so, there goes—so, forget that! But, he is an incredibly interesting guy. What's great is when he's coming to the bench... if there's something that's broken down, and I'm not sure if he's screaming in Finnish or it's in English, but it is funny as hell! And it's consistent. So, he plays really high-energy level. A lot of times these kinda big, lanky guys are... you don't really think they're moving that fast, but they are! He looks like he's getting across the ice, and, you know, he competes hard. That's what we like the most of him, but he talks at a high-energy level, too, on the bench. And that's great, right? We have some quiet players on our bench, and that's fine, that's who they are. But, those guys like Mikkola, who's got—nobody knows—Well there's four other Finnish guys knowing what he's saying, but nobody else knows what he's saying.

paul loves all his rascals and it is a joy to hear his takes on them its mikksys turn now!

media availability | 6.11.24 (x)

also if you want to see the moment mikksy is talking about in the interviews linked above because it is genuinely bonkers 10 or so seconds of hockey: here it is

[saccharine-dean]

We were young once /

You were my best friend and we had the world to lose /

It's a lonely town and I need you here with me.

Base by mellon_soup on tiktok/pinterest :]

[coureirsix]

i think everyone needs to take an edible and look through their drafts

[helianskies]

ugly maths.

i hate maths, right. i don't usually like numbers, and if i do like numbers it's gotta be an 8 or a 48 and nothing else.

thing is, i've recently caught myself doing maths again. ugly maths. the kind of maths that, really, i've been trying to avoid as much as possible because, well, it's ugly!

you... wanna see?

okay, fine... but don't say i didn't warn you!

ugly, see? look at all those numbers! not a 48 in sight!

huh? what's that? you don't see what i'm on about? oh... oh! hang on, lemme just—

better? yes? no? no? okay, what if i—

mmh, yes. ugly numbers. see it now? can you see why they're ugly?

here, i can make it worse.

these numbers are ugly. the maths they make me do is ugly.

now i'll level with you: the worst ones by far are the yellow numbers. the maths they make me do it the ugliest.

why ugly?

because it makes me ugly.

those numbers turn me into not only a suddenly number-obsessed fool, but a fool who also cannot understand these numbers and what they mean and why i feel like they reflect on me and my ability.

87, 75.

the thoughts are as follows:

• the orange numbers are big, so why are you being ugly about the yellow ones? you should be happy with what you have. so many nice big numbers! not everyone receives that.

• is it that there are two different audiences for these two different fics? perhaps. they are quite different works, with different appeals, and different themes. maybe you are reading too much into it.

• why are you obsessing over numbers anyway? you don't like maths! you left maths behind when you were 16, put it down!

okay, okay, fine! i'll put the maths down. right here, in fact!:

that 87 was an 83 at the start of the year. the 6161 it is attached to was a 5453.

4, 708.

ugly maths.

the 75 is a nice number. in fact, compared to 87, it is beautiful, radiant, enchanting. at the start of the year, 75 was 48. wow. now that is one sexy number!

27.

mmmm.

6161, 1061.

5100.

87, 75.

12.

mmmm.

you know, my most favourite comment left recently on a fic of mine was 2 characters long: :(

it made me :)

well, actually, it made me >:) because it was left in response, presumably, to one of the key scenes in a new chapter which left the exact impression on someone that i hoped it would.

they must be the only one who reacted like that, though.

1.

have i mentioned that that 87 and 75 include author responses?

i won't try to do more maths, there. it might not end well for me. the maths is making me tired enough as it is, and i have an early start tomorrow.

oh! but, that being said, i have another set of ugly numbers to show you, so keep 87 and 75 in mind.

ready?

838, 245.

(want a hint? the green numbers!)

838, 87. 245, 75.

9.6, 3.3.

ugly maths. it's ugly again, see? i don't like it. i'm seeing numbers within numbers within numbers, and i can't seem to stop!

the numbers make me ask new questions:

• why is it not good enough?

• people seem to engage more with one fic over the other, so shouldn't you prioritise?

• is all this maths this really good for you?

no, it isn't.

i want to avoid ugly maths. ugly maths makes me want to tear my hair out. it makes me want to start from scratch. it makes me want to grab someone and scream. it makes me want to cry and press a button that has tempted me many times before when the numbers become too ugly to bear.

ugly maths turn me into an ugly person.

ugly maths make me obsessive, paranoid, anxious, regretful, vindictive, spiteful, alone.

i hate maths. i hate numbers, just like, it feels, the numbers hate me.

[trentcrimmapologist]

Trent looking over at Ted every couple minutes as he reads an early draft of his book??? i’m losing it, bABY BOY WANTS TED TO LIKE HIS BOOK SO BAD

[stabbyfoxandrew]

lol if you saw that... you didn't

[rosylix]

HELP ME WHY DID IT POST I DIDNT MEAN TO YET....... okay well. 😬. LMFAO

[hamletphase]

silmarillion yuri

[ohmytyong]

new blog theme and new jaehyun timestamp just dropped :)

[gamerdraluc]

Me attempting writing on tumblr instead of any of the major fanfiction sites? It's more likely than you'd think. Anyways here's Handa struggling with the thoughts of mortality.

It was a well known fact that dhampires would sometimes live way longer than what humans did but only now had the vampire research center managed to find a connection between the amount of using vampiric abilities and the lenght of the life span.

Being an employee at the Vampire Countermeasure Division a younger dhampir, only around his late twenties, Handa Tou was informed about the new finds fairly soon. He actually was part of the research program himself but so far he hadn't had to be much involved beyond some polls. He didn't think much of the new information and just spent the day as if it was any other day. Finish work, go harass his "enemy" he met back in high school, help his mom with chores at home and eventually readying up for the bed.

Nothing seemed out of the ordinary until he actually fell asleep. Nightmare. He had the same nightmare three times in a row, only catching some hours of sleep between waking up covered in sweat. The worst part was that technically they weren't even nightmares but just something he would have to face one day. That being the mortality of his human friends and family. And himself too. He would have to go through a lot of grief, and he aknowledged that he too would be the cause of grief to the vampires he was close to.

There was a good chance he would be one of the longer living dhampires with how frequently he had boosted his abilities since being fairly young. The research pretty much confirmed that. As oblivious as he usually was he could not ignore the glooming future. He thought about his connections. He wanted to rip his Ronaldo posters off the walls.

[distant-velleity]

I'm glad you like her! ^^

:D !!! yuusonas are always neat to see

[pettyeti]

Etienne and Vrai (aka "Asmodeus")

Vrai is Eti's voidsent boyfriend. They officially met when Eti explored the Weeping City of Mhac (and cheese), but Vrai had been keeping tabs on Eti since the incident at the Void Ark.

They had a rocky beginning, as Eti held no love for Voidsent and Vrai saw mortals from the Source as mere playthings to watch. Eti's strength and ability to "destroy" Diabolos in Dun Scaith is what compelled Vrai to place his mark on him, granting him a front row seat to Eti's adventures.

Eti was not amused.

Obviously, Vrai didn't care. But he did provide Eti with an ultimatum:

“The Shadow Queen may be dead by your hand, but Diabolos yet lingers in this world. Defeat him once and for all, and perhaps I will free you from my watchful gaze."

This lingering shade would reveal itself within the Diablo Armament several years later.

They gradually get closer over the expansions, and once Endwalker rolls around they're more or less official. It's quite the slow burn.

Even though I meme about them sometimes, they are wholly dedicated to one another. Eti feels like he can be his most authentic self around Vrai, and Vrai sees Eti as his literal Moon and Stars (see Vrai's Lovemail.)

Vrai is a being who insists he is evil beyond the point of redemption. For a long time, soul crushing apathy was his only companion in the eons that followed the Thirteenth's fall into darkness. Eti entering his life helped him regain his lost humanity, bringing out that old sentimentality he once cast aside in favor of cruelty. Even so, Vrai is still very much "not nice." He's just unlikely to kill you or make your life a living hell these days.