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Columbo and the Knight (1984)
put me in the universe where Columbo ran through the 1980s and had a crossover episode with Knight Rider. I think they deserved it, and I am not just saying that because they're my two favorite Old Shows. @telebeast wrote a little fanfic blurb about it and I HAD to visualize it into a comic (which is also the longest comic I have finished thus far at five pages...), so writing credit goes to them.
Autism W!
#columbo#knight rider#art#michael knight#kitt#comic#highlight reel#crossover#telebeast#there are two small easter eggs here. can you find them. they were somehow not Entirely lost when i resized these for the public#this is what i mean when i say I Draw And It's Everyone Else's Problem. look at my INCREDIBLY niche crossover comic boy#if the knight rider fandom has like 12 people in it. how many of y'all have seen columbo#this comic is for like 4 people and me and phoenix are already two of them#niche is my specialty lets be real. weird niche obscure shit and ships nobody's paid attention to yet#not to suggest this is ship art. columbo has his wife and michael has his car lmfao#stylizing real people is EXTREMELY hard btw sorry for when they get off model. its partly a 'better imperfect than never finished' situatio#cant tell you how much i redrew some of these panels. weeps#this took me 2 weeks but i think i thumbnailed it all in may and the ideas been rollin around in my head since march#is anybody good at editing. please edit michael and columbo into an image together like its a screenshot. NOT generated. edited.#it would be so cool#ive drawn columbo a lot but i haven't drawn a lot of michaels. i was learning things about his outfit AS I WAS DOING THE DAMN#COLORS ON THIS. all the lines done. it was too late to change anything. i did all the lines and colored page by page#i realized my mistakes on like page 3. 1 and 2 were already done. it was Too Late.#imagine it though. them working a case together. switching between the more serious tone of columbo vs the goofier#action antics of michael and kitt. columbo being so impressed by Modern Technology. there's more i could say but phoenix may write#more of this crossover and i don't want to spoil it :'3#there's opportunity here though i swear. there's gold to be dug.#i like how kitt gets shading but columbo's junker peugeot doesn't. kitt looked wrong without any. columbo's car is matte and dirty#i also applied effects to this to make it look a little film-grainy and VHS like. some CRT TV vibes#the only question left is. did they put knight rider into columbo; or columbo into knight rider 🤔
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hii happy pride month, have a little 'you're a dog (i'm your man)' chapter four snippet as an apology for radio silence <33
“Did I wake you?” Gale asks, glancing at John apologetically, but John looks up from his effort to avoid muddy puddles to shake his head. Gale supposes it’s a silly question; John sleeps like a rock, dead to disturbances made by anything other than his own brain.
“Just my sixth sense,” John says, shrugging and shooting him a small smile. Gale snorts.
“You got a radar for me?” He teases, and John smiles wider, eyes crinkling.
“Built in,” he answers matter–of–factly, raising a hand and making a fist over the center of his chest before dropping it, returning his vigilant gaze to the uneven ground. Gale stares for a moment longer, floored not for the first time by John’s apparent obliviousness to the weight of his sentimentality.
Even knowing John how he does, it’s always unexpected coming from someone who a stranger might assume to be brazen and surface–level; John’s loud mouth and wandering hands do him no favours in that regard.
But Gale does know John, like an extension of himself half the time, and still he manages to render him speechless. The way his heart flutters as the sentiment hangs in the air makes Gale want to reach down his throat and squeeze it until it never beats again.
#slow progress but progress#dog coded bucky fic#still sick unfortunately lol i thought i was lucky enough for it to just be a week thing but i forget i am chronically ill!#(read: i gaslight myself into thinking i'm normal sometimes)#i'm trying to get this chapter done before i reply to asks/post other stuff#bc i rly only have the mental capacity for one or the other at once atm :( but i miss you guys and being deranged here SO BAD. so so bad#thank u for the endlessly kind messages and your boundless patience oh my word <3 it rly is so reassuring mwah hugs#i rly do feel so bad for not replying to @s and messages tho i just have so little energy rn so i am conserving it :(#but i read them all whenever the migraine brainfog subsides enough to scroll and i smile and weep simultaneously <33#so if i have not replied to ur msg. i promise it is nothing personal i'm just a walking corpse and will get back to u when i can <3#and that's my boring author's life behind the scenes update JSKGD my bad y'all#buckbucky
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#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#tw: blood#tw: self-harm#yeah... i am currently going insane if you couldn't already tell JSJSJ (nah i'm just kidding BUT seriously just the way that this scene-#is structured would be sooo good for a roleplay albeit a kind of sad and angsty one.) like idk if y'all remember as i did post-#something about this a while ago but barton has used self-harm as a way to try to get himself to feel something and this sometimes-#results in him walking around with bandages on his arms which he offers NO explanation for and will gloss over if someone asks-#about them. but just the idea of him having no choice but to show the other muse in this scenario his bandages bc he's got blood-#all over his hands and is trying to wash it off but it's not WORKING and so they try to step in to help him is just. GOD#plus barton saying sorry because the implications behind having something like that around your wrists is pretty clear and he-#doesn't know what else to say but to apologize bc they weren't supposed to see it is... yeah 😭 i'm weeping#i just like the idea of the vulnerability shown here you know bc it definitely isn't easy to show someone that and this person trying to-#help him like i said both because he's visibly upset + it's just a bad situation overall for barton to be in#barton is very much mentally ill y'all and i. idk what else to say but... what if i died
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good morning <2 <3 we're gonna post our Christmas gifts sometime today but we're sending yours a bit earlier so we don't forget! Merry (early) Christmas, I hope tomorrow goes well for y'all!
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WAHHH GOOD MORNING BY WHICH I MEAN EVENING NOW SORRY FOR THE WAIT!! MERRY (EARLY?) CHRISTMAS!! <333 <222 THANK YOU THANK YOU!!! OMG THIS IS SO CUTE!!! Daisy and Chrysanthemum, flower buddies~!! this is so delightful, they both look wonderful!! we're happy getting to see them hang out omg :3!!
we have gifts for y'all too!! we will post them when we can!! :D we love y'all so SO much, we hope the holidays are treating y'all well!!! hugs y'all happily!!! :3
#lilac and lavender letters#[frames this on our wall] weeps they are hanging out with the flowers... <333 <222#so like. we know y'all said not to draw the whole active roster.#...#...and i mean technically we didn't because we don't have three of the refs hjgljk but!! anyway hjglkj#thank you for both presents and for sending this one here :'] we'll reblog the other one soon!! we appreciate y'all so so so much <333 <222
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ART BY @4rachnophilia 🫶💖💕
POSTING THIS BC I NEED EVERYONE TO LOOK AT IT AS WELL.... this made me cry and I think everyone should know too /pos
#NERO SORRY IF U DON'T WANT ME TO POST THIS. JUST LMK AND I'LL TAKE IT DOWN#BUT IF UR WILLING THEN *SHOVES THIS INTO EVERYONE'S FACES* /lh /pos#P1COLARA DRAWN BY NERO REAL‼️‼️‼️ UTTERLY IN LOVE WITHBTHIFIBS UEUEUEU#the way u guys are drawing p1co giving me a kiss... I am going to cry and sob and weep at your feet#y'all rlly didn't have to but I appreciate the time you guys took to draw smth for me... 😭 I really REALLY do!!!!#anyway. still staring at this.#this ^ this drawing right here is what gave me motivation for today /srs /pos#UNEXPECTED MOTIVATION AFTER FEELING DROOPY BUT I'LL TAKE IT STILL WAAAA 😭😭#💝 tokens of love!#♥️ we're going overdrive!#🐷 nero!
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i'm stuck in limbo and i can't get out and i'm tired of being told i should just try harder
#text#yes i'm definitely suffering bc i want to!!!!#i just love suffering and i'm just too lazy to change that's what it is!!!#it's not like my life has been hell and all the odds have been stacked against me or anything#no it's my fault i should just try harder!!!#y'all would weep if you had to live like me#i'm up every day at 4 so i can leave at 5 and i get home at 8:30 every night for shit pay#what kind of life is this#what kind of time do i have to make a change?#what kind of energy do i have to try smth else?#and at my age?#i'm not young anymore and life only gets harder#i'm poor in a third world country that's going nowhere and i don't even have it half as bad as most of the population#that's how bleak this is#stop fucking telling people they're suffering because they want to#i've been suicidal on and off for a decade but it's all my fault i guess i just don't try hard enough#sick of this sick of everyone#life is fucking misery#and yet!!!!!!!! i still have hope what a fucking idiot i am#i never want to give up hope so i'm here still living a shit life i'm embarrassed of hoping it'll somehow get better#what a loser
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@msbuckzo @stolsas
i'm not crying,, y' are
#𐂃「ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏꜰ ʙᴜʟʟᴇᴛꜱ」 &&. * 𝐨𝐨𝐜.#( I cried earlier bc of my thread with Ruby#then fuckn Stols had to say smth nice right back#IM SRSLY BAWLING HERE#GODDAMMIT#yes i'm a sensitive 34 yr old bitch#LEMME WEEP THE NIGHT AWAY#THANKS )#( i love you two so much#I'm honoured to have#y'all in my life . I . CAN'T. EVEN )
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Okay so I'm gonna rant a little so if you love Sayama x Kiryu, please kindly see yourself out the door.
So that walkway scene is so infuriating to me like Sayama is a fucking cop, a really strong one at that. But you're telling me she cannot take down a few street thugs on her own!?? Of course she fucking can (in the gameplay she's does). But somehow in the cutscenes all it takes is one punch to the face to bring her down like what the actual fuck?
Even previously in the Emoto clinic fight the same shit happened. One of the Jingweon thugs ducked her in the face and she was out cold like TF IS THIS SHIT????? And all of this for WHAT? For Kiryu to come swoop in like some fuck all knight-in-shining-armour for her and "protect" her from the bad guys??? GOOD GOD this is so fucking frustrating like give me a fucking break.
This is what their so-called "romance" is built on??? By showing constantly how Sayama will always be somehow inferior to Kiryu and will ALWAYS need him to come rescue her because God forbid how can a woman ever hold her own in a fight against a bunch of guys, am I right?
Also the later scene is also fucking funny (NOT) to me like gurl you literally just showed those thugs your badge but when the cops show up you can't do the same fucking shit???? When you're literally in your jurisdiction too??? Like did you have to run off with Kiryu because that would just seem more fucking suspicious????????
And then Sayama just...asks him...on a date??? What? W H A T. And these fuckers have the sheer AUDACITY to show then getting Takoyaki. As if. AS FUCKING IF this bullshit would remind anyone of that iconic (and by iconic I mean absolutely heartwrenching) Majimako scene.
"I'm tougher than half the force." Sure could've fucking fooled me.
#SEGA fuck you a hundred ways to Sunday for making me witness such bullshit on my screen#i hate heterosexuality /j#and before y'all jump into here saying “oh but strong women don't always need to fight” yadda yadda YEAH I KNOW THAT#but Sayama's whole deal is that she's practically a supercop and she can damn well fight like one#but reducing her to a dainty ass heroine just to push this forced romance between her and Kiryu was OBJECTIVELY a shitty fucking choice#Sayama's character had so much potential good GOD my heart weeps for her#(look how they massacred my girl)#listen realistically Sayama would have no interest in Kiryu's repressed ass. she could see through him right at the beginning#but yeah whatever SEGA sure they loved each other 😒#ugh#god let this be over quickly UGH#yakuza kiwami 2#kaoru sayama#kazuma kiryu
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The more I get to know about totk's english localisation the more grateful I become that I did not play it in english
#what do you MEAN you named the creature whos original name is homonymous with 'delusion' - to contrast with it's partner creature that's#homonymous with 'understanding' - fucking. BUBBLE. FROG. except it's 'bubbul' because god forbid to straight up name it bubble?????????????#listen. i am really VERY used to having things sound cool in eng and their translatios sound VERY SILLY (comparatively) in the other#languages i speak. and now it's the reverse of that and i Hate It lmfao#why did y'all have to do my mayoi so dirty huh. just because they shoot bubbles as a defence mechanism#apparently they're called fantasmo in spanish which is a BANGER NAME. why did you name it BUBBLEFR-#like at least go all in. if we stretch 'bubble' far enough do you know what we get? THAT'S RIGHT. BIBBLE. BIBBLE FAIRYTOP-#dragonowlie's random texts#sorry it's the really small details that drive me up the wall here.#i understand i come at this from the lang. uniquely equipped to have godtier punnery like bautomatik but WHY DID YALL DISTRESPECT THE MAYOI#S LIKE THAT#(i ran out of space for the entire tag. WEEPING that we have a limit of 139 characters for ghe tags. anywAY)
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hi <3 saw ur post on the community and just wanted to say, i relate to you so hard right now. my midsems were so bad, they were probably the worst exams ive ever written. so from someone else in stem, i hope you feel better. like, i get the horrible thoughts and everything and just, you're not alone in this. we'll get through it one day at a time <3 sending you lots of love
first off, *hugs*. thank you for writing, thank you for letting me know.
I mean, I know that I'm not alone in this, that there's someone out there who's going through something similar, or the same, or maybe worse, even. but then, on my bad days, I look around and everyone's got it better than me, easier than me (some say that even I look like I've got it all together, but y'all know the Real Thing) and it does feel like I'm in this, alone and on my own.
thank you for reminding me that I'm not. I hope it gets better soon, for both of us. we'll get through this, one day at a time :') sending you lots of love, too
#inbox#i had a pretty Long post in my draft today#before your message#i guess i'll edit it a little and still post#sometimes i feel guilty about sharing my bad days on tumblr bc I don't want to be depressing or smth#but then i also think that it's somehow important that i do? that it's important to show that it's never all rainbows and sunshine#and that it's important to another person who might be going through the same and know that they aren't alone#there's also the tiny detail that I don't have a choice but to rant and whine and weep here so#guess y'all are stuck w me?#hmm. well anyways#we've got to take it one day at a time huh#sighs#studyblr
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Ah yes, the "expansionist" Israeli "regime"....that keeps giving up its land for peace. Yep. They're real threats all right, those Jews! Daring to mind their own business being the only democracy in the Middle East and the only safe haven for minorities (LGBTQ, etc.) and then having the unmitigated gall to defend themselves and their children from Hezbollah's, Hamas', Iran's, and Houthis' murderous attacks. Pfft. The nerve.
#israel#gaza#palestine#pro israel#i stand with israel#sometimes i weep for this generation#no offense but y'all can be idiots#lebanon#israeli expansionism#can I put that in quotes or#israeli “expansionism”#...be more like Israeli “dear God can you just stop trying to burn us all alive in our homes? here have the Gaza Strip. Here have Sinai”#go israel#hamas is evil#hezbollah is evil#hamas is a terrorist organization#hezbollah is a terrorist organization#know your history#else you will be doomed to fall for Nazi propaganda#AGAIN
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Drabble: Yandere!older!male!colleague has been eyeing you for awhile now and finally saw his chance to make you his!
Yandere!older!male!colleaguexFeminine!malereader
Yandere!older!male!colleague has been eyeing you since the day you came in the company! he was smitten by almost everything you do and wear! Wearing short skirts that ride up your ass whenever you pick something up or js casually bowing to any superior people
Yandere!older!male!colleague who gets touchy with you as time went by, from patting shoulders to forehead kisses! the height difference acted as a barrier for the male to prevent to just straight up tongue fuck you
Yandere!older!male!colleague who offered for you to stay the night because your apartment was far from the company and he just happens to live nearby! (certainly not intentional to buy an apartment)
Yandere!older!male!colleague who surprised you by cooking you a big delicious meal! it was like he didn't plan it at all! you felt sorry for the man because he prepared everything and gave you almost anything! so you did what any sane good people do— you told the male that he could do anything to you!
Yandere!older!male!colleague who immediately plowed you on top of the kitchen isle! your skirt was ridden up your stomach, cock dejectedly weeping! moans was accompanied by occasional grunting of the older male, his thrust's resonating through the entire apartment, the delicious sound of plap plap plap was just music to the older's ears
Yandere!older!male!colleague who bedrudgingly stopped his 6 hour lovemaking with you because the sun slowly rose as the both of you had an important appointment today!
Yandere!older!male!colleague who gently washed off the thin layer of cum, sweat and tears on you as you slept peacefully— with the occasional twitching
Yandere!older!male!colleague who woke you up with a big delicious breakfast! you ate like a starved man, seeing how cute n messy you ate, the man infront of you could no longer restrain himself— and so on, both of your appointments were moved again
so um yeah, currently writing a fic anddd I'M HAVING WRITER'S BLOCK so yeah, i must feed y'all crumbs so here's a short drabble(?)
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anw, thnx for reading and have a nice day!!
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19. entry made talking about a simple / normal day.
'dear diary' prompts...
[TRANSCRIPTION: so, i'd like to start this off by saying that i sometimes crave a sense of normalcy more than ever in my life... though i know that people might not expect something like that out of me. you know, because i seem so devoted to my work, i guess. but i have to say that after getting a taste of it today, it's probably when i'm at my happiest. me and jack had spent the day together, which is something we actually rarely get to do. he had told me about this crepe place that had opened up a little while ago and he seemed really eager to go there. so i invited jack to do that this morning and i swear, i hadn't seen him smile that big in a while. which did something funny to my heart.
and by that, i mean you know that feeling you get when you can't contain the love you have for someone? yeah that was pretty much what ended up happening to me; a fuzziness had hit me in the chest. but after we went there, and jack ate an impressive amount of crepes (he was really fond of the nutella and strawberry ones), my son suggested that we see this new movie that came out recently. and it was hard to pass up so of course i said yes. we snuck in some candy and drinks because, honestly, who wants to pay for the overpriced candy they have? not us so we did that and just like i expected... the theater was pretty packed since it was for the new hunger games movie. it was good though!
anyhow, after that, jack wanted to spend some time just hanging out by the water when he did something that surprised me. jack hugged me. and it was really nice, because i can't remember the last time my son gave me one like that. he went on to tell me that he missed 'this part of me.' this got me to thinking that, yeah, i have been treating him not so well for a while. so maybe i ought to change that. jack deserves to have a father who doesn't switch up on him every day, from being mean to being nice.
maybe i'll call my therapist back and tell her i want to start seeing her again. she might've said some things that i didn't like the last time, one of those being that i exhibit behaviors that are typical of sociopaths — but i guess i can make an exception for jack, because he's my little bug.
signed, barton. ]
#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#YOUR NEED GREW TEETH: character study.#tw: allusions to mistreatment of children.#sighs... y'all already know what i'm going to say here: barton's relationship with his kids really is complicated because he seems-#to love them in his own 'barton-like' way and this could mean various things from calling them things like 'his little bug' to being-#emotionally manipulative to them and it's like 😬 i just. the fact that barton could acknowledge here that he has treated him TERRIBLY-#in the past does imply that he does hold some sort of self-awareness about how he is severely lacking in the parent department-#but it's not enough for him to make any real changes unfortunately because barton is STILL like this to this day.#with him being super temperamental and hard to predict which is typical of emotionally manipulative / abusive people.#and although he is is pretty much a big ball of anger + unresolved trauma that has helped twist him into the man he is today-#AND it is also a fact that barton has experienced psychotic depression... that doesn't mean that he can blame his past for becoming-#a bad person. i just want to talk about the comment he made here about feeling a 'fuzziness in his chest' though because that is just.#it makes me want to WEEP alright because it makes it clear that barton does have the capacity to love his children in an actually-#healthy and understandable way but he doesn't most of the time and it's like... WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS GAHHH#tw: emotional manipulation.#tw: emotional abuse.#plus i honestly think that barton DID call his therapist at the time back and started to go back to her buttt being told by a mental health#professional that they noticed he lacks empathy is impulsive and seems to take enjoyment out of disrespecting people + breaking laws-#changed his relationship with them. so things were likely never the same again and barton didn't trust her anymore
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okay, hold my drink *hands u cursed ancient goblet full of mead* i gotta talk my shit for a second.
ive been seeing a lot of severus snape love recently. and this is fine, obviously, y'all can love whomever you want. but. i need to rant or i will explode. if we're talking about canon. severus snape spends his adult years, seven books of it in fact, abusing children. and his excuse for this is the girl he loved (tho not enough not to join a group actively trying to exterminate her) fell for the hot jock instead of him (a tragedy indeed, i weep 4 him, i really do). and also she died, which, admittedly is very sad.
it is simply crazy 2 me 2 look at that and think *romance* or *genuine care and affection*. LIKE. fo real. snape calls her a slur in public, apologizes in private, hangs out with dudes who commit hate crimes against her friends (CANONICALLY, she says "you've been hanging out with that douchebag Mulciber, how could you do that after what he did to Mary???" this is not a direct quote but like, it's close enough). lame. loser behaviour.
"Oh but what about regulus" i can hear you say "he loves James potter but snape doesn't love lily???" well. idk. maybe. bit different tho, innit? due to james not being the demographic regulus is attacking (which doesn't make regulus a better person but does make the dynamic between him and james different). ALSO. Regulus chooses to turn against voldemort without hope for anything in return. snape doesn't seem to give a shit about voldemort, he's just sad he's not gonna get to bang lily evans. he switches sides for that reason alone. also doesn't care about what happens to her husband or her son which like. considering lily would be pretty fucking destroyed if they died. once again points to my whole, he doesn't really give a shit about her, theory. lame. loser. behaviour.
also. im sorry. I"M SORRY. but what snape does to neville? to hermione? to harry? gross. a grown ass man out here telling an eleven year old neville he's worthless or hermione she's ugly and annoying. or spilling harry's potion and refusing to grade him for it???????????????
reg and draco are children when we see them at peak suckage and therefore they feel like they can be redeemed much more compellingly (CAN be, not SHOULD be, not HAVE to be, just narratively i think they are easier to turn into interesting, sympathetic characters). but snape? snape grows up into a garbage adult. like he doesn't get better. and again, the only real excuse we're given is his obsession with lily. not very demure. not very cutesy.
ALSO. yall remember that time he got a destitute, struggling Remus Lupin fired from the best job he ever had just because he felt like it? remember that time snape weaponized Remus's lycanthropy and people's prejudice against him just cause. like. literally just cause??? his ego was bruised after the shrieking shack incident so he was like "get wrecked Lupin I'm going to tell everyone your secret so you will be forced back out onto the streets" DO YALL REMEMBER THAT BITCH ASS MOVE????????? THAT HE DID AS A FULL ADULT.
IN CONCLUSION, this is silly and, of course, like i said at the start, everyone can have their own thoughts and feelings about characters, but i simply needed to interject here on behalf of snape haters everywhere because i feel like so much of snape's shitty behaviour as an adult during a time when he was really under no duress and was very safe and cozy, is ignored. and my hater heart just cannot let that stand.
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morning reblog + snippet <3 need to get in the habit of doing this but somehow once the chapter is actually posted i get nervous despite sharing bits and pieces the whole time i'm writing lol?? silly!
sappy but waking up to the ao3 comment emails had me giggling kicking my feet twirling my hair this morning, i rly do tear up reading them, i'm so so thankful for every interaction on this fic and ik i repeat myself every time i post a new chapter but i just. appreciate the love so much and i'm so grateful for the patience i've been shown as i navigate a proper long fic for the first time!! wowie
idk what i did to deserve stumbling into a fandom so kind and sweet and supportive and INSANELY creative and talented (simultaneously thanking barry and hating him for getting me attached to that precious little lieutenant and then ripping him away just as fast fml), i genuinely feel so lucky to have something to be excited about every day and as much as i love writing this fic, i can't wait to be done so i can lock in and pour over all my friends' fics and give back so much love :')))
You're A Dog (I'm Your Man)
Ch. 5/8 – 'I Count My Time In Dog Years'
[WC: 27K | Gale Cleven/John Egan, Pining, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Friends to Lovers, Slow Burn, Requited Unrequited Love]
John Egan loves like a dog.
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#dog coded bucky fic#buckbucky#i swear every time i post a new chapter i disappear for at least 12 hours bc i get that nervous and yet i yap 24/7 here why#it's not like i expect bad responses or anything like no one's ever been anything but kind but i still feel so vulnerable hitting publish#i've been writing fic on and off for at least a decade now and i don't Think i used to get this much stage fright??#i think maybe i just haven't cared this much about a project like. ever. it's scary putting ur soul into something even fanfic#anyway hashtag imposter syndrome hashtag morning musings hashtag does anyone else confidently post their fics or are we all anxious xoxo#as always had to be sappy under the read more i just feel like i can't ever adequately express my thanks#like i'll never get over how thankful i am to have found passion thru this fandom when i did. i needed it then/now more than ever <3#+ will always feel so lucky for the friends i've made here! genuinely never met so many mf cool people in a fandom n it makes my heart happ#nah bc if i get this sappy now i'm terrified for the fuckin dissertation i'm gonna be writing out at the end of this fic#sorry in advance hopefully y'all just smile and nod and move along it's probs gonna be disgusting xoxo#okay taking my tag privileges away and getting more writing done yippieeee insert dolphin and rainbows and sun pic#actually also. i've had my paypal hacked like 3 times this year (idk maybe i'm a dumb bitch but like i'm broke idk why they target me JSDGJ#so when i wake up to 10+ emails i immediately have flashbacks and think it's happened again and i'm gonna have to sit on call w support#and then turns out i've just forgotten i posted a fic before bed and instead i get to read cute comments and weep <3 yay
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Part 5
(Told y'all I was back!!!)
Content: Established BDSM Dynamics, Attempted Intimidation, Threats, Mild Violence and Injury
You suspect Konig gets off on watching you interact with others.
He’s an insecure man, there’s no doubt about that. He gets twitchy about other men interacting with you beyond brief, bland exchanges. A sleepy cashier at the grocery store? That’s fine. The waiter complimenting your choice of meal for some reason? Konig’s eyeing the steak knife.
That said, something about the way you are in a public setting has him constantly shifting. Practically squirming. And it’s not just social anxiety.
You smile at the employee that showed you where the towels are and Konig adjusts himself as soon as their back is turned. You politely brush off a mistake in your food order, his pupils spread like an oil spill.
You ask him about it one night, ever curious about this strange, obsessive creature clinging like remora.
“You are… very nice to people,” he explains slowly.
The two of you are doing a puzzle. You watch his big, calloused fingers fidget with a border piece. He’s forgotten to hand it to you while thinking, but you’re not in any rush.
“You are good at being… normal. No one knows that you are a killer. They can’t tell.”
You snort softly. “I am normal.”
He shoots you a skeptical look and you laugh. (Don’t miss how he flusters either.)
“Am I that different here than out there?” you wonder.
“Yes.”
You hum. Have never really considered that, but it makes sense. In privacy, you have nothing to react to. No faces to make or scripts to follow. You have Konig now but he’s different, there was never a reason to treat him like everyone else.
“So what about it arouses you?” you finally ask.
“That they don’t know.”
You don’t understand. You hardly ever do. You’re extra nice to the poor teenager that prepares your coffee next time you two go out. (You make Konig edge himself on the drive back home, then overstimulate him to near unconsciousness on the dining table.)
It’s not surprising, then, when he shyly asks if you’ll come meet some of his KorTac teammates.
He asks with his face smooshed between your thighs, nose crushed against your pubic mound. Just getting started, the taste of you already clouding his thoughts. The toe of your boot is nestled beneath his heavy balls; his voice pitches up proportional to the bend of your ankle.
“Why?” you ask, flat and emotionless. It makes him drool when you bleach the inflection from your voice, stripping it down to phonetics and fricatives. A drop of saliva trickles down your thigh. You twist your fingers in his hair, making him lick it up. (“Keep it tidy,” you’d told him. So far he’s barely managing, but he gets off on the struggle to please you.)
He mumbles something you can’t make out, so you force his head up and watch him blink. His swallows thickly, chin already glistening with slick, pink tongue lolling out across swollen lips.
“Again,” you command. Calm, even.
“I w-want them to meet you… if they can tell…”
You tilt your head. “If they can tell I’m a murderer?”
He whimpers, teeth sinking into his lip hard. You hitch your boot up, watch the tears collect in the corners of his eyes. Precum drip, drip, drips down his stomach from the vivid, weeping head of his straining cock.
“Is that all? You want me to meet your little friends with blood on my hands?” you coo.
He tries to nod, but your grip is far too tight. You click your tongue off the roof of your mouth. His hips jerk with the derisive sound.
“Or is it that you want to show off your owner?” you wonder. His eyes nearly roll into the back of his head. You huff in amusement as the pieces click into place.
“I see now.”
You cram his flushed face between your thighs again, grinding your pussy on the flat tongue he instantly presents.
“You want me to be a pretty, sweet thing. You want to show me off in some frilly sundress and play helpless civilian. I’ll shake their hands and they won’t know I’ve ripped a man’s guts out. I’ll smile pretending I haven’t bit someone’s finger off.”
He’s whining high and needy, rocking himself on the laces of your boots. You continue, rambling in a way you never do outside these moments.
“And you want me to do all that with my collar around your throat.” You press his face in tighter and close your thighs. “Maybe I should stab someone, huh? I’m sure I can find someone worth the effort.”
You feel the hot pinpricks of tears on your skin, his voice uncontrolled and breaking with desperation. He’s now arching his hips away and you know it’s because he’s trying not to cum. It’s a new rule you just recently established - that if he’s allowed access to your cunt, he gives it his full attention. Treats it like the rare and fleeting privilege it is.
All that just from your little tease.
The image is an intriguing one. You’ve never taken any pleasure from hiding your actions from others. But there is something almost… quaint, you suppose, about meeting men who kill for a living as a killer yourself. They’ll look at you and see Konig’s quiet civilian girlfriend. This will be a secret just for you and Konig. You’ve never had someone else know while you play a part.
An unexpected wave of pleasure knocks the breath out of you. You didn’t expect to find the prospect so…
“Fuck,” you whisper, blinking through stars. “I’ll meet your friends if you make me cum in the next thirty seconds.”
It takes him thirty-two, but considering the intensity of it, you decide to be generous.
You show up to base in a floral-print dress and pretty sandals. The key to Konig’s collar shines in the hollow of your throat on a dainty chain, prominently displayed. (His eyes keep skipping down to it. You pinch his thigh when he nearly misses a red light, chastising to be more careful. That only results in a plump outline down the thigh of his pants. Your mistake.) Hair done, a bit of makeup, you make for a nice character.
The head of Konig’s squad meets you first. Declan O’Conor, a shorter man who introduces himself with a wide smile, a rough Irish accent, and - most favorably - no appreciative glances at your body. Off to a surprisingly commendable start. You smile back and let Konig introduce you, eyes roaming the private KorTac compound.
Sleek black vehicles, modern-looking buildings. Distant pods of joggers on what looks like a training field. Even more distant sounds of guns. Passing personnel. Some of the men doing double takes, a couple of nudge-nudges. There’s not much of interest to you.
Declan shoos the two of you off after some pleasantries and an idea of where to find other members of Konig’s main squad.
You meet Aksel, Roze, Horangi, and Stiletto playing cards in one of the rec rooms. Roze teases Konig about finally bringing you ‘round. Aksel takes the initiative to stand to greet you - unnecessary, but not offensive. While his back is turned, Horangi peeks at his cards. You make eye contact with Stiletto when she notices as well and twitch your lips in a tiny, knowing smirk. Neither of you say a word.
Only two of them (Horangi and Roze) are on Konig’s usual team, but he’s worked with the other two before. You’re more interested in watching Konig interact with them. Like you, he tends to let others lead conversation in public - though the reasoning is different. At home, though, he usually initiates and you enjoy letting him talk and talk, only chiming in when asked for your opinion or reaction (or lack thereof).
Though you’re not left completely unincluded - the other KorTac members ask polite surface questions that you respond to automatically. It’s all habit, a performance you’ve given a thousand times, a veteran actor. You’ve perfected volume, pitch, inflection, spaces, down to the shape of your mouth as you speak. Your face is easier. People are good at expressions - too good. You hardly have to do anything to express easy-calm-friendly. Relaxed brows, a slight curve at the corners of your mouth, loose jaw. There: Konig’s normal, if shy, girlfriend.
When the two of you leave the rec room, Konig pulls you down a little side hallway and kisses desperately along your jaw.
“You are so good…” he mumbles breathlessly, “...so good at pretending.”
You snort, bemused. “Is that what it is?”
This is just being a person, out in the world. No one is their true selves around strangers, you thought. Is it so different when it’s you doing it?
He groans softly into your throat, mouthing at your necklace. “This will be harder than I thought.”
“We’re not fucking here,” you say.
“Yes, miss.”
You let him hide there for a moment longer, then usher him along to the next thing. He does manage to give you a decent tour of the facilities, telling you stories and explaining how KorTac does things.
You meet Hutch along the way, just a brief greeting in one of the halls. Again, not a usual member of Konig’s team but they’ve worked together before and Konig is full of pride and enthusiasm to show you off. (Maybe you’d be annoyed if his presentation was more “look what I bagged” rather than “look at who found me worthy”.)
It’s as he’s showing you one of the briefing rooms that you meet Krueger.
And you know, instantly. From the slow, exaggerated twice-over, to the obvious way he shifts his lower half, eyes lidded. You feel the mask of the day slip.
“Is this the tail you’ve been chasing instead of your own, Bruder?” he asks, sauntering closer. He could say it in German - but he wanted you to hear it.
You blink once, slow.
Konig, at your side, hisses an embarrassed correction. Even with that ridiculous hood on, you know his face must be burning. You take a single, small step forward, meeting Krueger as he sidles up too close to be appropriate. You introduce yourself without offering a hand.
“Do you know what it is we do here, little girl?” he taunts. “What your boyfriend does?”
“Yes,” you answer.
“You know he is a sadistic fuck, eh? Can break a man’s spine over his knee.”
“It’s impressive,” you admit, shrugging.
He narrows his eyes, but it seems more mocking than challenging. He doesn’t think you are anything to take seriously. An interesting bauble to bat at and toy with, to see if you’ll jump or squeak for his entertainment. He cracks his neck and takes another step, the netting that hides his face playing shadows across what little skin is visible.
“Has he told you about me?” he asks, voice dipping.
He has. “Only some.”
He looms in closer, radiating menace. He’s a broad man, makes up for height with presence alone. Objectively intimidating, you suppose.
“Trying not to frighten you,” he coos, “what a sweet boyfriend.”
You hum, noncommittal. Not even sure if you can feel fear while conscious. In your nightmares, it’s visceral enough to taste - but it only ever lingers on the back of your tongue once you wake. After all, there’s nothing to fear among the living. Not anymore.
“Is there something to be frightened of?” you ask.
“I could tell you such tales,” he croons, bending his head to speak low and intimate. “Maybe even a demonstration… of the things they accuse me of…”
You see the flicker of his hand in the corner of your eye.
“Don’t touch me,” you warn.
He laughs, rust and dried blood. “Or what, little mouse?”
“You’ll regret it.”
You hear Konig shift behind you, though you can’t tell if it’s in preparation to intervene or out of pure arousal. Perhaps both.
“Is that a threat?” Krueger mocks.
You are under no delusions that you’re better equipped for a fight than him. He has more experience and training, he’ll win in an altercation, that’s just a fact. But you don’t have to win, that’s not what you’ve promised. You’ll just make him regret starting it in the first place.
You look him in the eye.
“Yes.”
His fingertips skim the strap of your dress. You lunge, slamming your forehead into his nose. It crunches. He jerks his hand back, instinctively reaching for his face, folding a bit. Point made, step back, adjusting your necklace into place again.
And then Konig reaches past you, snatching the shoulder of Krueger’s shirt and shaking him hard. He snarls out something in German, sending Krueger to his knees.
“I am sorry, miss,” he says to you fervently, “I am so sorry. I did not think - he is an asshole. I am sorry.”
You pat his arm, lean past his hulking form, still gripping Krueger now on his knees. You curl your fingers in the netted mask and jerk his head forward.
“This is the best way to stop the bleeding,” you say. “Don’t be rude again.”
He gurgles something out, you can’t even tell if it’s English or German. You release him and turn on your heel.
“The range is next, right?”
Konig is at your side instantly. “Yes, miss.”
You meet the last of Konig’s regular teammates outside the range. (You had to cut that little excursion short. Even seeing you with a gun in your hands had his knees shaky. You got through one magazine before he was making noises in the back of his throat. It took fifteen minutes for his erection to deflate a reasonable amount.)
He’s a big man, covered from head to toe in black tactical gear - again, with a mask. Coming in with a sniper rifle over his shoulder as you and Konig are leaving. His name is Nikto. You meet his eyes as you smile and nod in greeting, Konig introducing you like before.
Maybe you haven’t quite sunk back into your Normalness yet, or perhaps Not Quite People recognize each other. But he takes one look at you and knows. You know too.
Apropos nothing, he offers you a wicked knife, hilt first. Your fingers don’t touch as you take it.
“For your next hunt,” he rumbles. “Konig is lucky.”
You blink as he walks off, glance at the blade in your hand. “It’s nice.”
Konig fidgets, staring after Nikto. “How did he know?”
You shrug.
Konig turns back to you, nervousness swirling. “Are you worried?”
You snort. “No.”
Why would a bear bother a mountain lion?
That night, you lay Konig down and grind your dripping pussy along the rigid length of his cock. He twists his fingers tight in the bed sheets (you already hear them tearing; you have spares for this) and cries while you recount every part of the day as if he wasn’t there with you. He’s stark naked, vulnerable, trembling while your dress drapes over your thighs, obscuring the obscene view of his cockhead rubbing your puffy clit.
He begs in intervals but you just keep speaking over him, recounting needless details like building names and the food served in the cafeteria. When you reach the end of the visit, you lean down. Propping yourself on his chest, you speak soft and syrupy warm into his ear.
“You did so well handling Krueger today. Such a good boy, keeping him down for me. I’m proud of you for knowing to wait. My good guard dog.”
He dissolves into a puddle in seconds, weakly asking permission to please, please, please let him cum early just this once.
You let him.
In gratitude, he eats you out until you fall asleep.
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