#*that was supposed to say character interiority
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The new Legend of the Condor Heroes is great fun. But it is Not for newcomers, Iâm not even sure itâs a drama, they are going HAM with the pacing â absolutely speed running two generations of backstory, adoption, brotherhood, blinding, vendettas, poisonings, misunderstandings, master killing, revenge vows, invasion and wife snatchingâŠ400 miles per hour of story beats in like the first 5-10 mins â not even Guo Jinâs life in Mongolia was covered! They get to the mainland in 15 mins! Rongâer immediately lays her head on Guo Jinâs shoulder the second she revealed herself as a woman on the boat! This is the most bizarre pacing???!?! This is setting up zero relationships between key characters and not building up personal identity to be conflicted with upbringing v heritage so unable to juxtapose the protagâs loyalties between the Mongolian grasslands and Song China at a later juncture? There is simply no way for a normal person to follow the story at the rate of 30 characters being introduced within the first 30 mins? I am getting whiplashâ
#legend of the condor heroes#this is literally only watchable if you already like Condor Heroes and are insane enough to watch/ read every adaption since the 50s#plus side - MUCH better Guo Jin than 2017#down side - there is simply no way to even see Yang Kang as even a little bit sympathetic#like that man is unsalvageable - to think Mu Nianci could even consider him would make her appear utterly rancid as a person herself#without time and downtime to spend with these character makes key individuals appear shallow and really quite blaise about everything#Guo Jin himself works however!!!#really quite well!!!#I am not warming up to this Rongâer however#really despise whatever they did to Mu Nianci#in the books she was literally a prize to be won and yet that character had so much dimension and interiority#but in this version they failed that writing so she really is just this voiceless prize for a man to win#she literally just says nothing and stands around about her own life and marriage?#thatâs Not Nianci.#and since they skipped right up to the Yang Kang fight without seeing her in context she appears weak#instead of quite the talented fighter she is supposed to be
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i don't know if fishman island era sanji is genuine flanderization or im somehow giving him too much and too little credit at the same time. and maybe i was just frustrated that he regressed so bad after two years on Gender Island when i erroneously assumed (after watching iva + co at impel down express that queerness is as close to the ultimate ideal of freedom that one piece is about as you can get) that he would be better for the experience. and i know im going to turn around on him by the time i get to whole cake island but literally brother can we cut this shit out lmao
#its just very frustrating having a main character's transmisogyny be a major plot thing when 100 episodes ago ANOTHER mc#like thee mc like The Main Guy's LACK of transmisogyny equally moved the plot forward#and all this during an arc where we're supposed to see how much everyone has grown and matured#fishman island#there was that bit when he first showed up again when he was like 'say hi to iva btw' and i was like oh! ok so he got slightly more normal#and then he really really really didnt#one piece#how is it possible to have such complicated emotions about character who is literally french#and like i know that iva like. i KNOW about the trans characters in one piece to come and i know theyre not drawn#like the women on okama island but people have been talking abt how the writing doesnt match the art forever and i finally get it#how are you presenting characters with complicated interiority and heroic arcs as the worst stereotype ever#sure bon clay's design was a joke to start and he's the most universally beloved character in the whole series#and they wrap it around like iva in impel down does have that whole 'you dont have to conform we are who we are by kesha' speech#everyone who is there looks exactly how they want to look bc they have the option via iva of looking different#but that doesnt excuse it!!!!!!!! it doesnt make it better!!!!!!!!!!! on the doyle lens!!!!!!!!#and again i know that two more of the most beloved characters in the series are trans and are not drawn with a joking hand. so ill wait#i'll wait for wano. save me wano arc save me. save me kiku#im literally past fishman island btw im in punk hazard now it just really still bothers me
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Iâm gonna be honest itâs an extremely validating time to have always thought the bear was pretty mid
#IM SORRY#as a certified terrible taste haver this is SO out of pocket for me to say#I recognize that#and Iâm sorry to my bear moots I love you all and Iâm so sorry your season was bad#especially for Sydneyâs sake ugh#but also Iâve been scratching my head about this show for years#its approach to structure and tone and stakes and character inferiority and carmy have never worked for me#and now it sounds like all those issues are catching up with it#I am gonna watch the ep ayo directed though!#good for her!!!!#*that was supposed to say character interiority
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Hello! May I request an angsty toji fic where reader finds out she's pregnant (post megumi) and she knows toji doesn't want anymore children so she just kinda leaves with little to no explanation? Maybe just a small note saying things aren't working out. It's up to you if it will be a hurt/comfort. Idk you don't have to do this request I don't want to overload you! I seriously love your writing. The way you right the character just warms my heart. I especially love ur hiding an Injury fic it was SO SO SO GOOD. đ©¶đ€đ€
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toji fushiguro x reader
Synopsis: see above
to sum it up: you think itâs better to run away than to be the one to get hurt
WC: 5,668
Warning(s): angst, suggestive themes, yelling, pregnancy, mentions of abortion
You stare down at the plastic tube clutched in your trembling hands in awe, eyes blown with shocked grief as you peer closer to get a better look, as though those two bright pink lines could have been a trick of your vision.
Unfortunately, however, your vision remains just as crystal clear as it always has been. As you stand in your cramped apartment bathroom, illuminated by a flickering fluorescent gaze shining down from above, horror befalls you.
Youâre pregnant.
You should have known sooner when you began feeling queasy every morning, taking trips to either your or Tojiâs toilet to hurl out the contents of whatever swam inside your stomach. You always tried to be silent if Toji was around, for he slept like a dog that could not be woken even if a meteor struck earth, and you had been remarkably exhausted. You arenât even sure if there is a word to describe how sluggish your entire mind and body had been feeling, but you wanted to rule out the very obvious answer to your problems before exploring it.
You begin to panic, your heart pounding in your ears and throat and every inch of your body you could feel the pulse, eyes blurry over the positive test. Youâre conflicted. You donât know how to feel. On the one hand, you would have been jumping for joy to learn that you are starting a new life with your boyfriend, to step into a new chapter of your lives and to provide his children with another sibling.
But hell, the celebration is far too naive and implausible to be had. The sage eyed man has told you time and time again that he does not wish to have anymore kids, that the ones he has are enough and he is not equipped financially or mentally to care for another brat. In honor of those wishes, youâre on the pill, and consequently, Toji has taken the opportunity to plow his load inside of you time after time after time.
And you really, truly should have known that with Tojiâs uniquely abled body, what was meant to serve as a barrier and a means of contraception did not work.
You feel like throwing up. What would Toji say? What would he do? What are you supposed to do? Should you tell him, fill him in on whatâs going on to risk rejection and abandonment, a nasty habit that Toji had to work to rid himself of when he met you? Would he even care? Would he listen?
You know Toji to be a very tough man, despite the softened interior he attempts to hide in othersâ company that is only displayed for you and for his kids. If he has always been adamant about one thing, itâs been to never have kids again, to focus on where he fucked up before and to pour his attention into the little family heâs grown, the one that he has now.
His voice echoes through your head like the gong of a church bell striking upon the earâs of a sinner.
âHell, I already got my hands full tryna get Megumi through his teenage years. What the hell is another child gonna do for us?â
âThat shitâs fuckinâ expensive. Not to mention, Iâd have to baby proof the house again. Thatâs another expense.â
âIf I was capable of givinâ you yâer own, I would, doll. But I ainât cut out for it. You know that.â
You donât even know why he would stress the matter so often. You suppose heâs caught the way your eyes linger on a mother tossing their giggling baby up and down into the air, innocent pools of joy beaming down at her each time it reaches the air and lands in her secure hold. Or maybe heâs seen the way you care so deeply for Tojiâs kids as though they are your own, despite telling you when you first got involved with each other that he did not expect you to step into their lives in anyway - and yet, you have done that and more. You know how the kids must struggle each day with the trauma of losing their mother so early on, and you never wanted them to think that you were trying to step in as her replacement, but you love them so clearly, as much as you love the man who created them.
Which leads you to your next concern. How would the kids react?
Itâs one thing for you, as their fatherâs girlfriend, to wander into their lives and help navigate them their teenage hood alongside the dark haired man, but to introduce an entire other child only leaves a sour taste in your mouth.
They may be crushed. They me turn to hate you, to despise how you have contaminated the life they have worked so hard to rebuild after numerous tragedies. And would Toji agree with them? Would he turn his nose up to you, that scowl of his melting over his harsh features as he shuns you just as he shunned every other woman who came after his wife and before you. Would he leave you? Would he kick you out of the world that has become your own because you failed to live up to your promise, though it technically isnât your fault that you are pregnant now but it feels as though it is?
You can not stand the thought, of the man you love turning his once loving gaze stone upon the sight of you, of him pushing you further away, permanently, in the same manner that he tried to when he realized that he was falling in love with you, of watching Megumi and Tsumiki turn their backs to you as though the past four years of your lives had never happened, banning you from their acceptance forever more.
Tears well in your gaze, interfering with your vision. This can not be happening, you think to yourself, everything has been going so well, and now this? This is going to ruin your relationship with Toji for good. Even if you were not in a committed relationship with him, you assume that the idea of any woman getting impregnated by Toji would have been thrown away. You would be thrown away, just like all the others who gave Toji their bodies but not their hearts.
Not the way you have.
Your heart clenches thinking of just how much you love Toji and the kids, of how you would be willing to lay down your own life for the sake of them as Toji swears that he would for you all in return. Even so, despite the commitment to you that a man who swore never to be committed to accustomed, this would be going too far.
âŠYouâre not even sure if he would love you anymore.
Now that youâre pregnant with his child, a child he never meant to have with you, you assume you will mean nothing to him any longer. In his eyes, you will simply become the slut that he took a chance on by a whim, carrying something he would never call his own. You believe the old Toji will resurface, the one who claimed not to care, the one who shoved women out of his bedroom before the sun rose in the sky, the one who often failed to remember to pick his kids up from school, the one who would no longer meet you at eye level but look down upon you, frown upon you for being so clumsy.
You know Toji is the one who did this, but this still feels like it is your doing. Like somehow, you trapped him and he now has no choice but to break free from the steel cage you have barred around him with your conception.
Your fingers clutch over the plastic, your eyes scrunching closed to release a fresh set of tears that cascade over your cheeks and onto the test. You can feel yourself mourning your relationship already, you can feel it slipping through your fingers, see it fading in the distance until it becomes nothing but a bittersweet memory that you can not determine as reality or a figment of your imagination any longer.
You tilt your head, bringing the test to your forehead as you think, grieve, cry. You mull over your options; you could hide this from Toji, get an abortion and never think of it again or you could tell Toji and lose him forever.
You open your bleary eyes, lashes decked with dewy tears, as another idea dawns upon you. You could leave, leave before Toji and the kids have a chance to leave you.
Itâs a cruel thought, you think, especially abandoning those children without any proper explanation for them, but what else are you meant to do? Youâd be doing them all a favor if anything by taking your leave without them having to be plagued by the knowledge of your unplanned pregnancy, of what they may view as a scheme to destroy their family in your new babyâs wake.
The thought kills you to even entertain. You had promised those kids that you werenât going anywhere, that youâd stay with them for as long as they allowed you⊠but this is different. This is not what any of you had in your cards, how you believed your futures to go. Toji wants simplicity at home while he works through chaos through his occupation. He wants security, warmth, safety for you, Megumi, Tsumiki, and no one else. He would never welcome another child. You believe heâd be caught dead before approving of your pregnancy.
And therefore, you know what you have to do.
After taking a few more tests to ensure that the readings are accurate, which they are, you pledge to walk away. You pledge to leave the only man youâve ever truly loved, the strongest family youâve known, and the slim possibility that despite Tojiâs wishes, he may accept you.
But you donât want to take that chance and risk the humiliation and unplanned heartbreak. Youâd much rather take matters into your own hands, and plan the shattering of your soul yourself.
You donât sleep all night, for youâre too busy drafting about twenty different letters to Toji. Crumpled loosleaf paper litters the floor beside your bed as you try to think of how to best write down everything you want to say. You go through pages and pages until you are finally satisfied with the result, and the next morning, you slip the envelope into his mail slot and prepare to pack your life away.
It is late Sunday morning when Toji rises from his slumber. The first thing he does is lean over the sheets and drape his arm toward his nightstand to read your daily good morning text - only he finds there isnât one. With pinched brows, he takes his phone to unlock it and visit your contact. Nothing.
The time reads 12:35 pm. Normally, youâre up and at it or even banging down his door by then to wake him. Maybe youâre just sleeping in?
He goes to give your cell a call, but nothing. Not only that, but your phone is also on do not disturb mode. His gut immediately swells with the suspicion that something is wrong. The dark haired assassin supposes heâs going to pay you a visit this afternoon as soon as he checks on the kids to ensure that they are alright.
His bedroom door opens with a creak, and he calls out to the teens gruffly through a yawn. When they donât respond, heâs truly growing concerned.
He rounds the corner to prepare to head for their rooms when he finds Tsumiki and Megumi at the dining table. His brows furrow, his pace slowing as he takes in their faces. Tsumikiâs lips are pressed together tightly and the muscles in her face are scrunched as though she is about to cry, while Megumi stares ahead with empty eyes and a hardened exterior.
Toji frowns with quirked brows, approaching his kids. âWhatâs wrong with you two?â
His brunette daughter looks up at him with glassy eyes and wrinkled chin, lashes fluttering while Megumi does not bother to look at his father. Instead, he brings Tojiâs attention to a torn envelope and a thick packet of papers pressed beneath the sixteen year oldâs palm. Wordlessly, Megumi slides it toward him, brows slanting.
Toji, perplexed, looks between the papers and his childrenâs troubled faces. What is this letter? Overdue taxes? An eviction notice? That canât be possible, because you had ensured that Toji and the kidsâ place was secure long ago.
He crunches the papers in his hands and picks them up to read. The first thing that catches his eye is your scribbling handwriting, and the following words that send his heart plummeting to his ass:
This isnât working out.
Toji whips his head up, baffled, and when he meets Megumiâs gaze again, his eyes are ablaze with resentment.
âWhat the hell did you do?â he growls.
The green eyed man is not even thinking before heâs dialing Shiuâs number, asking him to watch the kids for the next hour or so, and running out of the apartment after throwing rather unconvincing words of assurance over his shoulder to his kids, who are still with disbelief - Tsumiki with devastation and Megumi with rage, for surely his father pushed you away.
Toji does not bother finding a ride, electing to run to your place which is only a few blocks away. You two were just discussing moving in with one another, combining households, and this is what you spring onto him? Not even for him to stumble across first, but his kids who look up to you and love you like their own mother?
Oh, heâs fuming, a rush of emotions taking over his mind as it fuels his speed. The letter you wrote is still crunched in his fist, whipping through the air as he makes his way to you.
Dear Toji,
This is not working out.
But before you rampage and get angry with me, please let me explain. Let me explain how much I love you, how much those kids mean to me, and how every day I wake up I want to be greeted by all of your smiling faces. For the rest of time, forever. You are undoubtedly the only man for me, and I truly believe that. I know you may think Iâm bullshitting because of how the beginning of this letter contradicts what im saying now, but itâs true. I have never loved another person the way I love you, and while it scared me at first when you were so stubborn and full of anger that you misdirected onto me, I stayed and I waited and I helped you and Iâve loved you through every single moment, ever week, every month, and every year. You brought purpose back into my life, and I can picture you scoffing because youâd say the same, but I mean it. You, Tsumiki, and Megumi are the best things that have ever happened to me. I love you all so much.
But in this case, that love is not enough.
I hate to be doing this to you, to the kids, but I have no other choice. Things arenât going the way they used to, and itâs not your fault but mine. Iâm the reason. And it is tearing me apart to know that and simultaneously know what I have to do in order to keep you and the kids happy. Stable. I wish I could explain to you more why I am doing this, but I canât. Not just because I am dying to picture you reading this, but because I truly can not say. I do not want to ruin you guysâ image of me. While I think thatâs a selfish thing to say because who knows how me leaving is going to hurt you all, you would not understand even if you knew the reason behind this.
By the time you are done reading this, I will be gone. Iâm going away because as long as I am not with you all, I canât stay here anymore. I am staying with my mother while I get my travel plans arranged, because I know how you worry when you do not know where I am or if im safe. I should be gone by Friday.
Please do not come see me. I have made my decision, and you will only be hurting us more by trying to stop me. I wonât be stopped.
Kiss and hug and apologize to Megumi and Tsumiki for me. I hope you find someone who fills the role of their mother, someone who knows how Megumi likes to do his homework in the silence of his room with no music or anything, completely isolated so he can focus. Someone who knows how to fix Tsumikiâs eggs properly - to add extra butter to the sides when you fry them so the edges get crispier. Someone who wonât try to feed Gumiâa demidogs because he hates when people assume they can coddle up to them upon first introduction. Someone who cares for the wholly the way I do and always will.
And you. I know how stubborn you are. I know how angry you probably are at me right now, and I will miss that about you, but please do not let that interfere with the possibility of falling in love again. Beneath the layers of grit, standoffishness, and indifference, you are a man with a big heart. For me. For your kids. For those you love and seek to protect.
You say you arenât a good man, and while that may be true to you, you are an amazing partner and youâve already become an amazing parent. Iâve seen you grow, and I am so in love with you and so proud of you. I know youâll be okay without me. It maybe take some time, but youâll adjust to whatâs best. I promise.
With all the love that could possibly be harbored in this world, you are everything to me and that is why I have to go. I wish you every happiness this planet can offer you, and I know that without me, you can begin to find joy again.
Love,
Your doll
You had believed to time this perfectly, for you know that Toji usually does not wake until one, so soon as you are finishing up packing, you are trudging down the stairs to the leasing office to inform them that you will be moving.
You push open the door to the first floor, the breeze hitting you gently, and you round the corner only to be blocked by the last person you wanted to run into during this time.
Your eyes widen as you look up, the burly figure you have grown oh so familiar with over the years heaving as though enraged, ivy eyes crowding over slim pupils as Toji glares down at you, an image of indescribable fury.
Your heart drops and your words die in your throat. âT-Toji?â you whisper, horrified of an outburst. You are rattled by fear, having been so unprepared to walk into this. You did not put it past him to chase you down. But you figured that youâd be at your parents by the time he woke. Then, you could have at least told them to tell him off at the door.
But no. Instead, here he is, six feet and then some of bulking mass as he takes quick, deep breaths that expand the entirety of his chest.
You shift. âWhat are you doing here-â
âWhat the fuck is this?â
Toji swiftly, yet aggressively, lifts the papers in his hands, now damaged by his travels and his grip, shaking it firmly with the question. You gulp, lowering your eyes.
âToji, I told you not to comeâŠâ
âDonât you fucking dare,â he swears firmly, and you jump, looking to see if anyone is around to hear you, as the two of you are standing outside your complex.
âWe shouldnât be- letâs just go inside,â you go to grab his arm, but he tears it away. He stares at you as though you have burned him, singed the heart in his chest from the inside out, and he is so unforgiving. So unforgiving before he hears directly from your mouth what this is about.
âIâm not doinâ shit until you tell me what the fuck this is, (Y/n),â he demands, his hand moving the papers about passionately with his speech, and you feel your heart hammering again. This is not how things were supposed to go. You are not supposed to be seeing him right now. âCause I refuse- I fuckinâ refuse to believe that youâre breaking up with me.â
Your eyes gloss over as you look down at your feet, unsure of what to do or how to handle this confrontation. You canât do this. You canât, itâs too much. Itâs too hard.
ââŠI am,â you mumble.
Toji steps forward, leaning down to get a peek of your face, his expression so angry that it worries you. âWhat?â
âI said⊠I am.â
âUh uh, you better say that shit with your chest if you can write a whole damn letter about it,â he growls, fucking further as you continue to turn away. âLook at me,â he barks, and you cringe.
âToji, donât yell at me!â you shout back.
âWhat else doâya want me to do, huh?â he throws his hands up. âHow else do you expect me to react to this bullshit?! Youâre leavinâ me? After everythinâ we been through, after everythinâ you and the kidsâve been through, youâre leavin? Are you fuckinâ serious?â
He takes a swift glance at the papers, the very sight sending him into a spiral, before heâs heatedly looking back down at you.
âI donât buy this shit for one second. No. Youâre not leavinâ. Not in this world, or the next.â
âI am, Toji, the quicker you accept that, the easier itâll be for everyone!â
âEasy?â he winces as though the prospect pains him. âYou call this shit easy? You call up and tryinâ to abandon me easy? You call the kids waking up to your letter and reading it at the table before I saw it easy?â
Your face falls. ââŠwhat?â
âYeah. You fuckinâ heard me,â he sneers. âMegumi and Tsumiki read this shit first. First thing in the morning, they see a letter about how the woman they love is leavinâ âem, just like their mom did, and for what?â
You close your eyes, his words stinging you as they cut through. âDonât say that.â
âWhy not? Itâs true, ainât it? Yâer leavinâ us, (Y/n), and you didnât even have the decency to say why!â
Guilt crowds you, like a blanket of darkness consuming you from overhead, and as Toji stands before you completely torn apart by your letter, you see the fear in his eyes, the sadness, the unspoken plea for you not to go.
You try your best to keep your composure as you turn away again. âI told you, I canât tell you.â
âFuck that,â he lifts the letter and tosses it to the ground with a thud. You gasp, watching it slam to the concrete pavement.
âToji!â you exclaim.
âYou think you can just leave without me cominâ to hunt you down and see your face so I can figure out what the hell is goinâ on? You must not know me at all.â
âWhy do you always have to be so aggressive about everything?!â
âOf all fuckinâ things, (Y/n), I think I got a right to be aggressive about this. You were gonna leave without sayinâ goodbye!â he tosses his arm out to the side with the exclamation, brows twisting and teeth bearing. âIs that what our relationship means tâya? You think you can just toss us aside?â
âThatâs not what Iâm doing,â you beg, a lump forming in your throat as the two of you stand face to face, arguing without a car about who will see you.
âThen tell me,â he shouts. âCause youâre not givinâ me shit to go off of!â
âI told you already, I canât,â your lips quiver.
âThen our relationship is nothing to you.â
âNo, Toji.â
âClearly it ainât, cause Iâd think itâd be worth an explanation if youâre runninâ away!â you frown and shake your head, turning to walk back into the complex when Toji cuts you off, moving in your way. âYou donât think I know you? You donât think I see it all over your face that somethinâs got you scared, and yâre takinâ off because of it? You think I donât know what that looks like, (Y/n)? I did that shit. I did it all the damn time before I met you, and hell, I tried to run then but you wouldnât let me, so what the hell makes you think Iâm gonna let you now?â
âThis is different,â you say shortly, afraid to reveal the tremble of your voice to the man before you. You keep your gaze down as you try to go around him again, but to no avail. He steps in your path. âStop!â
âI ainât stoppinâ,â he says gravely, keeping his eyes to yours though you try to avoid contact with them. âNot until you spit it out. Iâll be damned if I got another broken home cause yâre fuckinâ scared.â
âI said stop!â you try to find some bass in your voice, but against your will, it falters when you yell. Toji eyes you carefully, reaching his hand out to grip your shoulder and steady you into place.
You scoff, attempting to pull away, but itâs no use. The dark haired man is everywhere, keeping you from walking away.
âYou talk to me like the grown ass woman you are,â he tells you sternly, stepping in. âYou use that voice I know you have, and donât you ever let me catch you writinâ a letter to me about how you wanna break up instead of cominâ to talk to me. Yâunderstand?â
You exhale shakily, lips pressing together and brows curling. âI canât.â
âYâre still not tellinâ me why you think that.â
âBecause I canât, Toji. I canât tell you. Itâll- itâll fuck up everything!â you break, and Toji feels the pit in his stomach shift as he looks over your aggrieved expression, depicting the same exact things he feels.
â(Y/n),â he calls your name firmly, the sound of it on his tongue only inspiring the urge to cry more. You continue to shake your head though Toji isnât exactly speaking, and his green eyes wander you with frustrated concern. âYâscared of what Iâll do if you tell me?â
You freeze, slowly peeling your eyes to look at his, his face tense with grief. You stare at him for a moment, mouth gaping like a fish as all of your insecurities that talked you toward this ledge run through your mind once more.
âDonât look surprised,â he says. âI know you like the back of my hand, and I know that you knew Iâd be over here to stop ya.â
Your frown deepens, and this time as you look at him, you see every second of your future that you were quick to stomp dow. You see the unbridled, unfiltered love he holds for you as well as the blood curdling fear of letting you go.
âYou have to understand,â you whimper. âI know how youâll react, I- I canât do this to you. You have to let me go.â
âWhat the hell could be so horrifyinâ in that head of yours to make you think that I wonât stick with ya through hell and high water?â he grits out, searching your swollen hues of (e/c) hesitation. âYouâd do the same for me.â
âI know, but-â
âThereâs nothinâ else to say. I ainât leavinâ until you spill, and when you do, yâre cominâ with me.â
You look at him, pained. Itâs a trap, you think. If Toji only knew, heâd be running for the hills instead of trying to track you down.
âOut with it, now.â
You canât. You canât tell him. Heâll leave you, heâll reject you, heâll turn you away, heâll never let you see the kids again.
â(Y/n)!â
âIâm pregnant!â
The earth seems to freeze and time seems to slow. You scrunch your eyes, anticipating the worst to come as Toji takes in your words, his tensed expression melting slowly.
You donât open your eyes to see his reaction. You keep your head ducked and your fists closed as the white noise of nature flutters into relevance. Youâre trembling, terrified, and Toji can not move but instead proceeds to stare at you, stunned.
His words about not wanting any more kids run through your mind again as you await his response, and the suspense kills you as you do. You can feel his grip on your shoulder slacken before tightening again, and you are terrified.
Heâs going to leave you.
You are quick to step away when the sentiment arises once more, Tojiâs hand falling from you arm. âIâm sorry,â you whisper, still unable to look at him. âIâm sorry, I know that you donât want any more kids. I know, an I thought we were being careful, but- I took five tests. Theyâre all positive.â
âYouâre pregnant?â he echoes, and you still. You knew it. You knew this would happen.
âI told you, Toji,â you exhale. âI told you that I couldnât tell you, and now everythingâs a mess.â
He twitches. âHold on-â
âDonât tell me all of a sudden you want kids,â you snap. âI know how strongly you feel about it.â
âSo instead of talkinâ to me, you were gonna leave? Knocked up? That doesnât make any sense.â
âWhat other choice do I have?!â you cry. âYou donât want more kids, and if I kept it, it would only be a nuisance to you. And Megumi and Tsumiki?â
He scrunches his face. âWhat about âem?â
âHow do you think theyâd feel if the woman youâre dating after their mother died surprised them with a new baby? Theyâd be crushed!â you say shakily as salty tears well in your eyes again. âI canât overstep your boundaries. I just canât. Itâs easier for me to go.â
âAnd do what, (Y/n)? Raise a kid on your own without any help?â
âI canât bare you leaving me!â you suddenly confess, tear striking past your cheek.
Toji examines you and frowns. âWhat are yâtalkinâ about? Youâre tryinâ to leave me!â
âSo I can prevent the inevitable from happening,â you huff. âIâm okay with it. Iâve made peace with everything. Thatâs why you need to just let me go-â
âAfter everythinâ, you think Iâd throw you away because youâre pregnant with my kid?â Toji says incredulously. You falter, for you had been so sure of his reaction before. âYou think that low of me?â
âNo, but I want you to have what you want.â
âWhat I want is you, you fuckinâ idiot,â he hisses. âAll I ever wanted was you, and I canât fuckinâ believe youâre tryinâ to take that away from me.â
You furrow your brows, confused. ââŠYouâre not mad?â
âGirl, Iâm livid,â he scowls. âNot about the damn kid, but because you assumed what I would say before cominâ to me.â
âToji, you have to understand that I was trying to look out for you.â
âThereâs not lookinâ out for me or those kids or makinâ them happy if youâre gone, (Y/n),â he bites. âWho thâfuck put that idea in your head?â
You stammer, tears proceeding to flow down your face as you reel in the reality of the situation. âI⊠I just thought-â
âI donât wanna hear it.â
Before you can respond, his hand is gripping your wrist and heâs tugging you toward him into his chest. You shake when you fall into him, listening to the pace of his heart rapidly beating against your ear as he breaths quickly against you. Large palms smooth over your head and down to your waist as he holds you tightly, and you notice how desperate his grip is. Heâs holding you like heâs afraid youâll disappear, as though youâll fly away if his hold is not tight enough.
He tucks his head into your neck, fingers grasping into your shirt, and suddenly the animosity of the moment prior is gone. Youâre still trembling, leading Toji to hold you tighter to him.
âCanât believe you tried to leave,â he murmurs into your hair. âChrist, (Y/n) youâre tryinâ to gimme a heart attack. The fuck is goinâ on with you.â
âIâm sorry,â you mumble into his chest, looking off sadly. âI thought youâd be upset about it. I didnât want you to know.â
âI should know about any and every single thing thatâs goinâ on with you, yâhear me? This ainât no exception.â
A weight flutters from your shoulders as you sink into Tojiâs head, silent tears streaming for the life you almost sacrificed. âWhat are we gonna do?â
âI dunno,â he mumbles. âBut weâll figure it out. As a team. Alright?â
You nod meekly. âOkay.â
He groans, pressing himself impossibly further to you. âThat letter⊠fuck, donât do that shit. Donât fuckinâ scare me like that. Without you, I ainât shit- pregnant or not. And those kids would adore another sibling if you were bringing it into this world. Donât say that shit about them again either. They need ya. We need ya.â
âIâm sorry,â you whine again, Tojiâs hand stroking over your back soothingly.
âItâs okay,â he grumbles. âWeâll figure it out.â
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IN THE DARK (1.8k)
a/n. thought about taking a break from my 2k milestone event by writing something that felt very personal to me. i was supposed to rest today but this sort of just...happened. i hope y'all like it.
cw. afab!reader, pro-hero!katsuki, aged-up characters, themes of body image issues, mentions of weight gain, minor nsfw references, basically just some hurt/comfort goodness
youâre in the middle of re-scooping your boobs into what has become a tiny ass tank top when a soft array of knocks echoes from the door.
âbabe? are you almost done?â
alarmed, you quickly glance at the mirror. it only takes you one look at your reflection to decide that nopeâyouâre definitely not going with this oneâbefore you swiftly tug it off your body.
at least, you try to do so.
the fabric catches on the areas of your torso that have noticeably gotten fuller in the course of the past year and a half. you huff in frustration as you squirm, desperate to have what used to be your favorite halter top off you.
another round of knocks comes again.
âbabe? you okay in there?â
âyeah!â you manage to choke out, finally out of that damned material. âdonât come inâiâm not decent.â
the moment you say those words, you instantly know what the reaction would be.
âhah?â comes his incredulous, borderline offended reply. âthe fuck do you mean âyouâre not decentâ?â
scanning the interior of your small walk-in closet, you feel the panic rise in your throat until your eyes land on the pajamas and baggy t-shirt you were wearing before you started trying out outfits for the reunion you were having with the class of 1a tonight.
âiâm just in my underwear,â you retort, frantically putting back on the much more forgiving articles.
âi think iâve seen you with much less than that, dumbass.â
âokay,â you call out, ignoring his comment and slightly winded from your efforts, âyou can come in now!â
as if on cue, the door slowly opens, and in comes bakugou, whoâs already dressed in a crisp, black button-down and straight-legged pants, a suspicious glint in his eyes as they dart across the room before landing on you.
and when they do, his lips almost instantly form into a frown.
âi thought you were getting changed?â
you feel yourself flame in embarrassment despite yourself.
âyeah, wellâŠâ you wrack your brain for a not-so-incriminating excuse, ânone of the outfits i was envisioning are working.â
well, that is the truth, anyway.
itâs just not necessarily complete.
âokayâŠâ he drawls out, entirely unconvinced. âwhyâd you put your pajamas back on, though? itâs not like i havenât seen you naked or some shit.â
âuhââ you pause, before finally settling with: ââitâs just that iâm wearing ugly panties, is all. real granny, the-type-you-wear-on-your-period kinda stuff.â
bakugou only stares at you. âsince when have you cared about me seeing that?â
you are not about to say that was a shitty excuse you pulled from your ass just now.
so instead, you turn your back against him and start riffling through the racks of clothes. âhow âbout you help me pick out what to wear for tonight, huh, kats?â
a few moments of silence pass before you finally hear a quiet âsureââwhich is immediately followed by him stepping forward and occupying the space beside you.
he goes through the options himself before his hands land on the white, off-shoulder peplum blouse you got around a year ago. taking it by the hanger, he lifts it on display.
âhow âbout this?â
you immediately shake your head. âthose make my arms look extra big.â
at that, bakugouâs face contorts in confusion. âwhat? no, they donât.â
you chuckle dryly, wondering why youâre even having this conversation.
you coax the shirt from his grip and place it back where he pulled it from. âpick another one.â
bakugou doesnât say anything, but you can feel him side-eyeing you more than anything. still, he relents, and picks out a sky-blue sleeveless high-neck top you copped from your go-to store a few months ago.
âi remember you looked really good in this,â he offers.
you hum absentmindedly at his comment, studying the spandex-like material. ultimately, though, you shake your head.
âthat one hugs me in all the wrong places. really emphasizes my midriff.â
âbutââ
âcan you choose another one, please?â
the man huffs in what you think is disgruntlement but follows suit anyway. once again, he traces his hand along the articles of clothing for a minute until they finally stop at what used to be your favorite sleeveless, v-neck black crop top.
grinning, he pulls it out.
âyouâve got to wear this.â
at the sight of it, you pull your lips into a tight line. ââŠi donât know, babe.â
âseriously?â he asks, looking dangerously close to insulted. âthis one makes your boobs look absolutely incredible.â
âkatsuki!â
âwhat? iâm not wrong, am i?â
for a second, you let yourself imagine what you would look like in that rather skimpy top. and for a brief moment, you actually believe itâll work out.
that is until you remember youâre imagining the you from way back when, and the last time you put it on a few weeks ago, you thought you looked fucking horrendous.
with a heavy sigh and a shake of your head, you take the clothing from his hand so you can return it to the rack.
at least, you try to, because bakugou doesnât let you.
when you tug again and his grip tightens, you finally look up at the man, confused.
âwhaââ
âwe need to talk.â
almost instantly, your stomach drops in anticipatory dread.
âoh?â you try to answer nonchalantly, trying to take the item again from his hold. thankfully, this time he lets go, but his serious gaze thatâs fixed on you remains unyielding.
âoh? thatâs all you have to say?â
you turn away from him, moving to hang it back on the cabinet. âi donât think thereâs time for that right now, kats.â
to further emphasize your point, you glance down at your watch, which now reads 6:17 pm.
fuck.
youâre already going to be late.
you think about it for a beat before finally coming to a conclusion and shifting to face him again.
âi think you should just go ahead.â
bakugo gapes at you like you just told him the sky was green. âwhat?â
âweâre already running late and i havenât even done my makeup, let alone picked out what to wear,â you reason.
âyou really think i even want to go to this stupid party?â he retorts right back. âyouâre the only one who makes them bearable. to hell with this going alone shit.â
âbutââ
ânot happening, babe.â
you let out a heavy exhale, struggling to tamp down the disappointment at your failed attempt to get out of the situation.
neither of you says anything for what feels like minutes before bakugou finally breaks the monotonous quiet.
ââŠcan i ask you something?â
his voice is so uncharacteristically soft that you canât help but look up at him despite the visceral urge to avoid his gaze, anticipatory anxiety now churning in your gut at the question.
the man, though, apparently takes your silence as a yes, because he continues.
and you barely manage to stop yourself from choking on your spit when he does.
âwhy do we only have sex in the dark?â
that was not what you were expecting him to say.
âe-excuse me?â
bakugou moves to rub the back of his neck, perhaps feeling sheepish at his blunt query.
but he presses on.
âitâs just that i remember it wasnât always like this. when we first started getting intimate with each other, you didnât mind when the lights were on or if the curtains werenât drawn. but thenâŠâ
âmy preferences simply changed,â you interject, scared of letting him continue.
âreally?â he asks, but the question seems more rhetorical than not. âbecause if you were to ask me, iâm starting to thinkâŠmaybe, just maybeâand i could be wrong about thisâyou donât want to be perceived.â
a long pause.
âbaby?â comes bakugouâs worried voice when you donât reply. âdid i hurt you?â
you shake your head, although your eyes are trained downcast to your socked feet, unable to meet his gaze.
âsay something, please.â
at his request, you finally look up, trying to blink away the tears that are pooling in your eyes before he notices.
but itâs either you donât do it fast enough, or heâs just insanely perceptive, because bakugou manages to catch sight of it, eyes widening the second he does.
âshit, iâm soââ
âitâs okay!â you chuckle, waving him off. you take the hand that was just reaching out to wipe the tears away and encase it with yours. you chance a glance at the man, whoâs now peering at you guiltily.
âi really didnât mean to hurt you,â he starts again, âi just wanted to finally talk about it becauseââ
âi know, i know,â you cut him off before he can ramble any further. âdonât worry, babe. iâm not angry at you. itâs justâŠâ
you take a shaky inhale.
ââŠitâs just that itâs been so hard, you know? i really try not to dwell on it because most of it is beyond my control, butâŠwhenever i try on a dress that used to fit me so well, or when i look at my reflection, or especially when iâm bare for you to see and i feel your eyes roving over my bodyâit just hits me all over again.
âthe fact that this is how i look like now. and i hate it.â
you look at bakugou, whoâs staring at you so intently with a pained expression on his face.
âyou donât have to say anything,â you quickly add on. âi know this is kind of a lot to take in.â
âyeahâno, itâs just that iâm angry at myself for ever making you feel judged,â he huffs, and you can practically hear the frustration seeping out from his tone.
he tightens his hold on your hand.
âbelieve me, baby, when i say that when i look at you all so vulnerable like that, itâs never me fucking judging you. i canât evenâ
âi canât even begin to describe how much i love your body. every time i see even just a sliver of whatâs underneath your clothes i get so hard iââ
you snort.
ââlaugh all you want, but itâs true. itâs fucking embarrassing sometimes, how much my body reacts to seeing yours, but itâs true.â
you shoot him a sad, albeit grateful smile, to which he responds by squeezing your hand.
âlook, i know i canât change how you feel about your body, and i understand that you want to look differently. but i also do know that i canât just stand here and watch you tear yourself apart like that. you donât deserve any of that, you fucking hear me?â
you donât even know where to start with your reply, so you opt to just nod wordlessly instead.
âgood,â he grunts. âiâm just here to support you, whatever you wanna do. you already know that i think youâre beautiful the way you are right now, but if you want to do something or work towards a certain goal, iâll be here.
âi know a thing or two about fitness, if youâre interested in exploring that.â
âreally?â you beam at him, already feeling so light. âyouâll really help me with that?â
at that, bakugou scoffs. ââcourse i will, dummy. actuallyâŠâ
you peer at him curiously. âactually, what?â
he grins at you, the mood suddenly taking a mischievous turn.
ââŠi actually know of a certain cardio activity i wanna do right now, if youâre open to that.â
my replies, reblogs, and asks are open if you wanna talk about stuff <3 sending hugs to you!
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A Touch of Sweetness 4
Warnings: non/dubcon, mentions of crime, and other dark elements. My username actually says you never asked for any of this.
My warnings are not exhaustive but be aware this is a dark fic and may include potentially triggering topics. Please use your common sense when consuming content. I am not responsible for your decisions.
Character: mob!Loki Laufeyson
Sister series to mob!Thor
Summary: you make a new friend, but thatâs not all. (short reader)
As usual, I would appreciate any and all feedback. Iâm happy to once more go on this adventure with all of you! Thank you in advance for your comments and for reblogging â€ïž
You wait at the door. Youâre wearing winter clothes but you donât mind. The stuff in your closet are the only untouched by berry juice.Â
As you watch through the window, Jada scoffs and slurps loudly behind you.Â
âWhat are you doing?â She asks.Â
You know what she wants. She wants a reaction. Well, you might be sweating in this turtleneck but itâs not because of her.Â
âWaiting.âÂ
âFor?â She snips.Â
âMy ride.âÂ
âYou have a car.âÂ
âYeah, well, Iâm saving my gas,â you argue. âWhereâs Estelle?âÂ
âShe went home,â she chimes in a taunting tone. Oh yes, she went home after they destroyed your wardrobe. âThose berries were good. Fresh.âÂ
You sigh and shake your head. A sleek dark green car rolls slowly along the curb and stops, idling as a dark figure leans over in the driver seat. That must be them.Â
âGotta go,â you say as you hook your quilted bag over your shoulder.Â
âYou are such a spoil sport,â she pouts. You open the door but she catches it before you can close it. She huffs as she sees the car, âoh, I see. Another day of fun with criminals.âÂ
You slow as a figure emerges from the other side of the car. Loki squints over the roof with obvious disappointment. You give a sheepish wave as you approach. You donât think he knew to expect you, just as much as you donât expect him.Â
âYouâre such a loser,â Jada calls after you. âAnd youâre gonna get hurt.âÂ
You ignore her as Loki scowls. He doesnât say a word as he drops back down into the driverâs seat. You open the passengersâ door, âmay I?âÂ
âHm, havenât much of a choice in the matter,â he drones as his fingers tap on the ridge steering wheel.Â
âSorry, I... I couldâve driven but Thor--âÂ
âYes, he does demand all things happen upon his whim,â he slithers. âDo use your seat belt and close the door. I should hate to think of his whining should you get hurt upon my watch.âÂ
âOh, yeah, sure,â you shut the door and fumble to do up your belt. He pulls out just as you snap it into place.Â
âThat was a rather pleasant woman,â he remarks as he drives. âWhat was it she called you?âÂ
âHa, thatâs just my sister,â you say. âYou know, sister things.âÂ
âI do have one and sheâs just as endearing,â he turns lazily with his thumb.Â
âShe just woke up. Sheâs grouchy,â you explain and look around the interior of the car, trying to distract yourself from the tension. You can feel how much he doesnât want to be there. âThis is nice.âÂ
You run your hand over the wood finish of the dashboard.Â
âAuthentic. Vintage,â he assures you.Â
âOh,â you retract your hand, âI wouldnât want to... leave fingerprints. Sorry.âÂ
He grumbles but says nothing. You suppose thatâs better than rebuke. You sit back and watch the streets through the window. The silence is strangling.Â
You subtly glance over at him. Heâs an intimidating figure. Tall, lithe, unreadable like a feline. You want to apologise again, just for the fact heâs been sent on this errand.Â
âWhat?â He says, startling you.Â
âWhat? Uh, what what?â You murmur and turn your head straight.Â
âWhy are you staring at me?â He asks.Â
âIâm not, I just... looking through the windows,â you lie.Â
He huffs and rests his hand on the shifter lazily. You turn your face away, stewing in your embarrassment.Â
âThe forecast is rather positive. You will be overheated,â he girds.Â
You look down at the turtleneck with the ruffled collar and sleeves. Heâs right. Another shock of heat blazes in your cheek.Â
âI thought it was cute,â you shrug.Â
He hums again. He clucks his tongue and speeds up. He peers over at you.Â
âYouâre not a very convincing liar.âÂ
âIâm not--âÂ
âI wonder,â he interrupts, âwhy you would lie about a shirt.âÂ
âIâm not lying, it is cute.âÂ
âItâs... not unsightly,â he allows. âBut Iâm certain you have something more weather appropriate.âÂ
âMaybe I do but why do you care?â You blurt out before you can stop yourself.Â
âSuppose I donât,â he utters. âI am rather bored by this entire chore and thus I try to distract myself.âÂ
âMm, well, I am sorry you have to do this,â you say.Â
âIsnât your fault, isnât your apology to make,â he rebuffs.Â
You frown. There's nothing you can say to him thatâs right. Youâre used to that and yet he isnât so vicious as Jada or her friends. He is just blunt. A strangely respectable sort of honest.Â
Loki drives up to a grand house. Itâs like a fantasy or fairytale. A modern castle. Youâve never been anywhere so fancy. You gape up through the windshield as he rolls through the gates and along the stone drive. Wow.Â
âThe flies will get in,â he reproaches.Â
You snap your mouth shut and sit back. You sniff and twiddle your fingers impatiently. He draws up next to another luxurious vehicle and you undo your belt. Youâre out before him. Heâs probably just as eager to part ways.Â
âCome,â he beckons you as he gets out.Â
You obediently follow him. He takes you up the front steps and you stop to admire the stone lion statue. He opens the door and tuts to get you to carry on.Â
You enter and let out a âwoahâ as you take in the spacious entryway. He is unaffected by it all. Thereâs hardly anything that does impact him deeply.Â
âThis way,â he utters.Â
He takes you through a door and along a hallway. He points you through an open archway and you step inside. Itâs a large kitchen that matches the sheer exuberance of the rest of the place. The basket of berries is on the counter as Queenie flutters through the pages of a book.Â
âUh, hi,â you step through as Loki lingers in the hall. âIâm here.âÂ
âOh, hello,â she looks up with a smile, âI was just looking for a recipeâwhere are your berries?âÂ
You make a face. âYou know, I forgot them.âÂ
She tilts her head in disappointment, âthatâs okay. More than enough here.âÂ
âSorry, I... rushed out. Mustâve left them right there in the fridge.â Your voice piques but she just goes back to turning pages.Â
You near her and turn to face the counter. As you do, your eyes flick back to the door. Loki watches you through it, eyes narrowed, cheeks pinched with skepticism. He bows his chin.Â
âI will let my brother know all is in order,â he turns on his heel and struts off.Â
âWhat do you think?â Queenie asks, unbothered by the manâs departure, âtarts or trifle?âÂ
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HELLOOO! I hope your requests are open, if not take this as a (filthy) plot suggestion
you and price were alone in the middle of nowhere for a mission. It went pretty good and it ended quickly. the evac would not come until morning, so you found a safe house to settle for the night. you weren't an official couple yet, but it was obvious that there was something between you two. since there was nothing to do, you began joking around and laugh at stupid jokes, and jokingly you you sat on his lap, to jokingly flirt. he got immediately excited but he didn't want to admit it. so you show him that it was effectively like this đ€
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characters: john price
summary: you decide to take advantage of being alone with the captain for the night.
genre: general, explicit, fem!reader (no desc.)
warnings: semi-proofread, cursing, reader is shorter than price, grinding, fingering, riding, unprotected piv, lotsa praise
word count: 4.2k
note: sorry i didnât post for a month do you guys still like me
iâm also sososo sorry if the quality isnât up to par, i wrote this over like 4 weeksâ i hope the semi-longer chapter makes up for it <3
"come on, inside." priceâs gruff command guides you through the wooden door and into the apartment. while shaking off the grime and lingering adrenaline, you take in the interior. laswellâs description was spot on: modest, discreet, and unfit for long-term usage. as if reading your thoughts, price huffs out a laugh from next to you.
"itâs not much, but itâll do for the night," he says, stepping further into the space. the slightly rotted floorboards creaked under his heavy boots, as if rejecting your very presence. "weâve camped out in worse places, havenât we, lieutenant?"
you hum while considering your response. "suppose we have, this place at least has a bathroom." he follows your eyes as you nod towards the door at the other end of the room, left open to reveal a humble bathroom. "hope it has hot water, iâd murder for a warm shower right now."
price shrugs before motioning in the same direction. "feel free to try it out, then. just be sure to keep your voice down if youâre displeased."
"should i invite you to join if iâm pleased, captain?" you ask, blinking up at him with a small smile on your lips. the question is laced with faux curiosity - youâre already well aware of what his answer will be.
"perhaps a cold shower would be better for now." he responds, stepping closer to you. the distinct scent of cigar smoke and dry wood cologne invades your senses as he holds your chin in a gentle grip, angling your head upwards. "what d'you think, sweetheart?" the rough pad of his thumb runs across your bottom lip, forcing you to part them and effectively wiping the smile off your face.
"i thinkâŠ" you murmur, lifting your hands up to press them flat against his vest. "âŠthat iâll try to leave some hot water for you, since iâm so nice."
his eyes narrow as your palms slide upwards to his chest; a sensation he couldnât quite feel through the thick material separating the two of you, but it sent heat through his veins and pooling in his stomach nonetheless.
you step back and disappear into the bathroom without another word. priceâs eyes follow you the whole way, and a low sigh escapes him once the door is closed behind you. he shakes his head and tugs on the front of his vest, right above where your hands had rested just moments before.
"yeah, a fuckin' angelâs what you are." he mutters, sarcasm and fondness equally mixing in his tone.
the water felt like ice on your skin, much to your chagrin. the relaxing shower you had hoped for was instead a quick rinse followed by a grumbled string of curses as you toweled yourself off. despite your disappointment, you were just thankful to be clean.
priceâs voice, albeit slightly muffled, was audible through the door. youâd be lying if you said you werenât tempted to listen in on his conversation, so you do what any curious person would do: crack the door open just enough to hear him clearly.
"everythingâll be fine, kate. you donât need to worry about us." price says with a short chuckle. he starts to speak again, until a voice in the radio interrupts him. you push the door further open, desperately trying to make out what the other voice - laswell, you presume - says in response, but to no avail. whatever she says pulls a frustrated noise from his lips.
"weâve never had any problems before, have we?" the distinct sounds of old furniture groaning under unwelcome weight signals that heâs sitting now. "iâve heard this speech a hundred times already, you donât need to repeat it. weâre both adults perfectly capable of staying on-task for one night."
thoughts of what price could possibly be talking about swiftly flood your brain, pulling your attention from the ongoing conversation. ever since meeting the captain, it was obvious that there was something between you two; "fast friends" soon turned into a mutual attraction that neither of you were willing to firmly acknowledge or deny. innocent flirting had evolved into an agonizing tension, slowly driving you mad while simultaneously drawing you in deeper.
at this point, youâre ready to follow the man to his quarters and cut the tension yourself because, despite his straightforward nature in all other fields, price refuses to take the first step with you. leaving yourself to speculate on why only leads to more questions, so you choose to focus on ways to make him finally snap instead.
thereâs a knock against the doorframe, making you jolt and let out an embarrassing yelp. through the sizable crack in the door, you can see price eyeing you down with a sly smile adorning his face.
"have a good shower, lieutenant?" he asks with a tilt of his head. he knew you were listening, that much you could tell.
you open the door fully, allowing him to lift an arm to lean against the frame, his body cutting off your only escape route. still, you try to avoid his gaze. "it was cold," you concede with a grimace. "you and laswell having problems, captain?"
price chuckles to himself, shaking his head. "i wouldnât call it 'problems,'" he pulls back and straightens his stance, somehow making himself look even bigger than he did leaning over you. "she thinks weâre not to be trusted overnight."
you would be offended by the claim, if it wasnât completely true. standing in front of him only serves to flood your mind with things you could do while alone together, completely disregarding your training that commands you to stay on-guard. at this moment, you felt more like a hormonal teenager daydreaming about her crush than a soldier.
"i have no idea why sheâd think that." you scoff dramatically, feigning shock. "weâre professionals, we can handle ourselves for one night." you manage to shoulder past him and back into the main living space. with an innocent smile playing on your lips, you settle on one side of the couch.
"proving her wrong, eh? we can do that." price follows your example and takes up the other half. your eyes are practically glued to him as he shifts and gets comfortable, legs spreading while his arms settle on the back and the arm of the couch. the dark fabric of his uniform is slightly strained in his current position, perfectly showcasing his hulking, athletic physique under the layers of clothing.
you really wouldnât complain about being crushed under him.
"tell me a joke," you mutter after clearing your throat, thighs squeezing together as you attempt to get your thoughts back on track. "laswell never said anything about jokes being inappropriate, right?"
priceâs head lolls back against the cushion as he pretends to genuinely consider your question. "no, she didnât. suppose thereâs no harm in having a little fun, is there?" he says, sending you a cursory glance and a small smile. his tongue darts out to wet his bottom lip before he shifts again to face you.
"all right, i got one." he chuckles to himself and leans forward. "what do you call a shipment full of military-issued t-rexes?"
you give him a tight-lipped smile and a soft 'hmm?', already slightly regretting your decision. just slightly, though. the smile on his face morphs into a cheeky grin before he continues.
"small arms."
you groan and shake your head in disapproval. "that was awful, price. i think iâd rather listen to ghostâs puns over that." you complain amidst the occasional chuckles leaving your lips. despite the awfulness, he still managed to make you laugh.
"ah, donât be so quick to defend him. heâs who i stole the joke from." price confesses, crossing his arms over his chest and watching as your shoulders shake softly from subdued laughter.
"i shouldâve guessed, that has 'two goldfish in a tank' written all over it." you shake your head once more and look at him again. you blink in surprise when you realize that his gaze is already on you, practically burning against your skin. there was something there, swimming in his pale irises whenever he looked at you. the naivety inside you called it yearning, and the cynicism called it meaningless lust.
still, you wanted him. physically, and perhaps even more. you'd hate yourself for letting an opportunity like this slip by.
"since you're no comedian, sir, why don't we try something else?" you close the short distance between the two of you and toss your leg over his knee, settling yourself on his lap. "we're both professionals, so surely a little... closeness, wouldn't be an issue for us, right?" your hands come up to rest on his broad shoulders as you lean back, keeping a respectable distance despite your current position.
price stares at you wordlessly for a few seconds, his clenched jaw and softly furrowed brow being response enough. you decide to test the waters, shifting forward and back gently, playing it off as an adjustment for comfort. his hand immediately leaves the arm of the couch and lands on your hip, rendering you motionless above him.
"you wanna test me, is that it?" he asks. a shiver racks your spine from the low timbre of his voice, the question practically leaving his lips in a growl. "get yourself a win, so you can brag for a week about beating the captain?" the hand still resting atop the back cushion leaves it to join the other on your hips.
you shrug nonchalantly, fighting the urge to melt under his touch. "your words, not mine. all i want to do is be close to my dearly beloved commander - we are alone in foreign territory, after all." you fight against his hold, trying to move against his thighs.
you'd rather die than admit that you're already soaking through your underwear from just this. you don't need price to gloat about winning, you need him to fuck you stupid. unbeknownst to you, the man was currently fighting every urge to do exactly that. he could feel himself getting hard inside his slacks, his cock straining hard against the material.
he doesn't fight when you bend your upper body forward, hands sliding from his shoulders to his chest, as you speak softly next to his ear. "what if i get scared or cold, sir? won't you take care of me, since you're so kind to me?" your breath brushes against his skin as you whisper, earning a firm squeeze that most definitely leaves crescent-shaped marks on your skin.
it was a losing battle, anyway.
you let out a surprised yelp when he suddenly pulls your bodies flush, your chests pressed together with only your hands to separate them. his hips buck up into you, pulling a shameless moan from your lips. you respond in kind, hands fisting in his uniform as you grind against the imprint on his pants.
"priceâ"
"youâre a fuckin' tease, y'know that?" price huffs, a low noise escaping him while you rock back and forth. he starts pushing and pulling you along meanwhile, pressing you down harder against him and pulling stuttering breaths from the both of you.
"tell me what you want, love."
"want your cockâ"
"you havenât earned it yet."
you let out a frustrated groan at his response. price merely chuckles and holds you still again, preventing you from even trying to chase the high youâve been craving for what felt like an eternity.
"i want you to be a good girl, and get yourself off on my thigh." he ducks his head to press a kiss against your jaw, forcing you to tilt your head back to make room for him. "iâve seen you stare at them before, i know youâve thought about it, love."
he drags his lips upwards, his coarse beard prickly against your skin, until he reaches your ear. "go on. show me just how badly youâve been wanting this."
like a good soldier, you take orders well. you waste no time in lifting yourself up to straddle his large thigh, biting back a moan as you rub your clothed core against him. price groans and leans back to watch with hooded eyes as you buck your hips, enraptured with the sight.
"câmon, wanna hear youâ donât go quiet on me, now."
"fuck, captainâ"
"attagirl." his hands move from your hips to drag your shirt up and over your head. he tosses it somewhere across the room, his attention shifting to your newly-exposed skin. he moans, guttural and deep, at the sight, and the sound only adds to the arousal already dripping from your core.
you grind down hard against his thigh, soaking through your underwear onto your uniform pants. you're sure priceâs cargos are getting soaked as well, but you're not willing to get off him to check.
price moves with trained precision as he pulls your bra off, leaving your upper half completely bare under his hungry gaze. he draws one of your hardened nipples into his mouth and lets out a satisfied hum against your heated skin. one of your hands tangles in his short hair while the other clutches his shoulder for stability as you desperately rock back and forth, gasps and lewd moans spilling from your lips.
"wanna cumâ please, sirâ" you whine at the painful ache in your cunt, the layers of fabric only serving to block you from reaching your release. "need youâ need you to make me cum."
"i know, pretty girl. i'll take care of ya." he groans softly after releasing your nipple, moving to leave a trail of wet, sloppy kisses from your collarbone to your neck. he reaches for your waistband at the same time, popping the button open and unzipping your pants. his rough thumb pad presses against your clit through your underwear, rubbing small and quick circles around the sensitive bud. your hips stutter and jolt forward into his touch as his name and another whine falls from your lips.
"there you are, just like thatâ that's my girl, you're doing so good for your captain." price mumbles praise and leaves open-mouthed kisses against your pulse, his cock rock hard and dripping pre-cum that was surely staining his briefs.
you can feel your release building up, months of teasing and agonizing tension spurring you on as you grind into his leg and his touch. your hands tug at the fabric of his shirt, bunching it up as you whimper out complaints. he sucks dark marks into your feverish skin meanwhile, ignoring your complaints and pathetic attempts at removing his shirt yourself.
"off." you whine, successfully untucking his shirt from his slacks but failing to get any further. price bites down hard on your shoulder, laving over the indents with his tongue a few seconds after, before he travels up to your parted lips.
"patience, sweetheart."
you huff and lean in, brushing your lips against his and letting out a soft whimper of his name in an attempt to sway him. a moment passes, the only movement being your hips rocking back and forth, and you silently think that youâve convinced him.
his radio, which has sat on the table next to the couch silently until now, suddenly goes off and distracts you from your haze. priceâs hand squeezes your hip again, forcing you to sit still as he grabs the device. he sends you a quick look of "be quiet" before answering it.
"go for price." he clears his throat immediately after, his voice slightly strained and thick with frustration and lust. you sit as still as you can, willing yourself not to move despite being so fucking close before you were interrupted. you can hear a familiar voice on the other end, but paying attention to it wasnât even an option with how worked-up you were.
something about tomorrowâs exfil, you manage to piece together despite being wholly uninterested. you couldnât hope to focus, anyway, with priceâs eyes trained on your teary-eyed expression during the entire conversation. youâre so distracted with him that you donât notice his hand sliding past your waistband and into your underwear, until a finger starts circling your puffy clit.
before you can stop yourself, you gasp from the unexpected sensation. one of your hands flies up to cover your mouth, muffling the breathy moans that pour from your lips as price starts to rub harsh circles around your clit and bounce his thigh under you.
"what was that sound?" the person that he was talking to - laswell, of course - asks after a beat. price shushes you softly before responding.
"just the lieutenant. she got startled by a mouse." he chuckles, sounding completely unbothered whilst sending you to cloud nine. the conversation ends shortly thereafter, and he tosses the radio to the other side of the couch before turning his attention to you again.
"nearly got us caught there, love." price pulls your hand away from your mouth and captures your lips with his own, greedily drinking up your moans. "you want the team to find out about us, yeah? want them to know what you let your captain do to you?"
"'s your fault i made noiseâ" you pull back just enough to argue, rocking your hips in sync with his leg's movement, panting like a bitch in heat every time your cunt was rubbed just right. price revels in your debauched state, his lips curling into a self-satisfied smile as he pushes you closer and closer to the edge.
his finger leaves your clit and moves south, easily sliding through your folds before adding another. he groans when you grind against his fingers, coating them in your arousal as his name tumbles from your lips. he teases at your entrance for a bit, until he shoves the two fingers inside you without any warning. your jaw goes slack as he suddenly thrusts his thick fingers knuckle-deep, stretching you out and stopping your hips dead in their tracks.
"thought you needed me to make you cumâ changed your mind all of a sudden?" price cocks his head to the side. you try to respond, but can only release another moan as he curls his fingers upward, finding the spot that makes you see stars.
"noâ need more, need you," you can feel fat tears gathering at your waterline, threatening to spill over. his free hand guides you, forcing you to ride his fingers as they twisted, stretched, and thrusted into you at a brutal pace. "fuck, fuck, fuckâ gonna cumâ"
you clutch onto his shoulders for stability, holding his uniform tightly as you whine and moan freely. your orgasm hits you like a train, wave after wave of pleasure flooding through your body head to toe. his fingers keep thrusting into you, thumb circling your clit, effectively dragging your pleasure out as long as he could.
when you finally come back to earth, price is carefully pulling his fingers out of you. he brings them to his lips and eagerly sucks on them, cleaning your orgasm off with a pleased hum.
you shift in his lap and feel his cock fighting to escape his slacks, drenched and utterly ruined by you. slowly, your fingers glide down his chest and torso, coming to rest just above his belt. you fiddle with the buckle, the heel of your palm brushing against the sizable tent in his pants.
he immediately responds, a grunt escaping him and only serving to spur you on. you undo his button and zipper before shifting your attention to his hardened cock, massaging it through his layers of clothing.
"fuck, sweetheart," his gravelly moan is like music to your ears. his hips lift upwards, chasing your touch like a moth to a flame. "you gonna let me fill up that pretty little cunt of yours?" he asks, his eyes trained on you despite the pleasure washing over him.
you nod frantically, already reaching into his cargos and pulling his cock out. it comes to rest at your entrance as you line yourself up and start to rub your cunt against his length, dragging it through your dripping, sensitive folds. you moan in tandem, rocking your hips against his length while he drips pre-cum that mixes with your excess arousal. it makes even more of a mess, but you canât be bothered to care.
with a hoarse growl caught in his throat, price buries himself deep inside you, pulling your hips down to meet his. the air is knocked out of your lungs as you struggle to accommodate his size, feeling a slight burn despite your prep.
"fits like a fuckin' glove. knew you wouldâ my sweet girl, taking me so well. like you were made to take my cock."
you paw at his shoulders and moan when he starts with shallow thrusts, barely pulling out before slamming back in. the burn quickly fades into pure pleasure as he ruts into you, hands roaming all over your body, struggling to find purchase. you cling to him as you lift your hips and drop back down, trying to time your movements with his thrusts.
his shirt came off at some point, but you were too blissed-out to notice when. you happily admire the view as best as you can while bouncing on his cock, panting and moaning his name every time he hits that perfect spot - which, he does. often.
your head falls forward, forehead pressing into his and rapid breaths co-mingling. his hands circle your middle and hook around your thighs, using them as leverage to move you on his cock like a toy. your nails dig into his shoulders and create ugly red marks on his skin, nearly breaking it and making him bleed. his hands are holding your thighs in an iron grip, leaving behind similarly-shaped bruises for you to find in the morning.
all you can focus on is price and his cock bullying its way deeper inside you. you feel so full, stretched out on his length and struggling to catch your breath every time he thrusts up into you. the distinct sounds of skin slapping against skin fill the room, your cunt drooling around him and making wet noises that sound downright pornographic.
"loveâ ah, fuckâ y'feel so fucking good," he pulls back and drops his head to rest on your shoulder, muffling his throaty moan against it. "so good, so perfectâ wanna fuck you like this every day, feel this perfect cunt wrapped around my cockâ fucking hell, i want you, need everyone to know that you're mine."
your stomach tightens, burning with the rapid approach of your second orgasm. the noises coming out of price were animalistic, barely coherent after he buries his face in the crook of your neck while frantically fucking up into you.
"none of those boys deserve you, love. they can'tâ fucking christâ they can't please you, can't satisfy you. y'need a real man, someone who'll keep you nice and full."
"price, fuckâ" your head was spinning, dizzy from pleasure. your walls flutter and pulse around his cock, forcing a whine out of the captain. "'m yours, sir. please, i wanna cumâ want you to cum inside."
you feel yourself getting close, teetering on the edge. your pelvis aches from the force of price's sloppy thrusts as he loses rhythm, rutting into you like a man starved. despite the countless nights spent fantasizing about him, you never expected him to be so feral. it's like he's an animal trying to breed you, to stake his claim on you.
the thought sends you over the edge, cumming with a debauched moan of his name. price keeps fucking you through your orgasm, his cock hot and heavy inside your cunt. his thrusts were erratic, desperate, as he chased his own release. you try to ride him despite the overstimulation, practically going limp in his arms as he drags you along.
"gonna cum, loveâ inside? y'gonna let me fill you up like a good girl?"
you nod your head, sniffling and blinking back hot tears. "yesâ! want it inside, please, i've been so goodâ"
"agh, fuckâ" price grunts and presses his hips flush to yours. he cums a second later, burning liquid spilling into your fluttering cunt. he shallowly thrusts into you, making some spill out onto your glistening thighs and his ruined cargos. after a couple more thrusts, he falls back against the cushion, hands sliding up to rest on your hips.
you two sit in silence for a few moments, catching your breath. price presses chaste kisses to your shoulder and the side of your throat while his thumbs rub gentle circles into your sweaty skin. you lazily play with his short hair, dragging your fingers through it and massaging his scalp. he groans softly and shifts under you, making you whimper from the ache between your legs.
"guess we can't be trusted alone," you mumble and sigh, a satisfied smile playing on your lips.
price hums and chuckles softly. "i think we handled ourselves just fine. i had an eye on the door."
"i''ll take your word on it," you huff and lean against him, your heart skipping a beat when his arms wrap around you. "i won, by the way."
"sure you did, love."
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"Antique hearts"
Zhongli x reader
Sweet, cute, and domestic fluff with the former geo archon turned charming man. More re-uploads. As usual no beta no prof
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Hesitance was etched along his defined features when you suggested a trip to mondstat, nothing too long, simply a day away from the familiar mountains of liyue. "Are you sure my dear? " He inquired, you nodded smile painted on your face, "it'll just be for a day I promise, there's a place I'd love to take you"Â
How could he say no when you gave him such a hopeful expression. He let out a deep sigh, amber eyes closing gently. It was no secret that zhongli was not a fan of mondstat taverns, the oddities that they often served- it simply wasn't his cup of tea. Thankfully you had no intention of taking him somewhere like the cat tail or angel's share, no no, you were planning to take him somewhere you were certain he'd love. "Alright, I suppose a day's visit to the city of wind wouldn't hurt" He agreed, still slightly sceptical.Â
Holding his gloved hand in yours you lead the tall man through the stone streets of mondstat. Although the geo Lord stuck out quite a bit in his liyue attire, people still smiled nonetheless. "Dear, where exactly are you taking me? " His inquisitive gaze was locked upon you, the rich hues of his eyes holding a silent plea that it wasn't a tavern. "Well we're almost there! You'll see soon"Â
You were indeed right, you soon came to a quaint cafe, a hole in the wall that was almost never packed.Â
He took in the sight, a charming sign hung up above and the small chalkboard with a drawn cake and teacup, it gave a calm atmosphere he rather appreciated in a city such as the bustling mondstat. "Wait until you see the inside" You chirped, interlocking your fingers and leading the way.Â
The interior was plastered with a warm yellow wallpaper, murals of cities and gardens painted on the walls. It was as if each wall was a new place, straight from a story book's pages. But truly what caught. His eyes were the antiques. The front room was adorned in cute white shelves stacked with anything from porcelain birds to beautiful oak jewelry boxes. Elegant carvings in the dark wood drew his eyes to inspect them, a shimmer of curiosity lighting his dazzling face.Â
You smiled seeing him so happy, the gentle smile he now dawned warmed your heart and you chuckled. The lady at the front desk created you with a warm smile before leading you to a table in the further back of the cafey. Zhongli admired the walls, beautiful flower bushes and charming window shutters tying together in a landscape unfamiliar yet beautiful.Â
"This place is quite charming, hmm, even the cloth on the table holds much character, perhaps this place holds interesting stories" He mused holding his chin. He was delighted to learn they had a vast selection of tea, some blends even from liyue harbor, how curious that such a small cafe had such selection.Â
His gloved thumb traced the smooth porcelain cup, swirls of gold lining the rim with pale yellow flowers painted on the smooth surface.Â
"This is a common shape for tea cups, the design is wider and lends itself to the maximization of surface area" He began, eyes shifting subtlety from the hot liquid to your eyes. You happily listened as he went on, gently placing the cup down on the matching saucer as you intertwined your fingers atop the table. His voice was soothing and calm, the slight rasp lending itself well to his deep vocals. "The reason for this is to focus on the texture and feel of the tea, specifically teas with rich and velvet textures. Hence it is often used to serve black teas such as Sichuan Imperial Gongfu" He finished, a warm smile on his face as he sipped his tea.Â
He always loved when you listened to him, he adored how appreciated you made him feel. That twinkle of attentiveness in your eyes as he spoke, yes, he'd make sure to return that love ten fold.
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Wildest Dreams - Part Two
Word Count: 4.1k
Themes: fluff, pining, tension
Summary: Ten years have passed since the events of Hogwarts Legacy and Y/N is invited back as part of a reunion to celebrate.Â
Warnings: Potential spoilers for HL. All characters are aged up and around 25/26 years old
Find Part One here
Sebastian apparted them to a quiet hillside with a beautiful, large cottage resting at the top. Although it was dark out, the faint light coming from the full moon allowed Y/N to see the intricate stonework of the L-shaped house and the garden that lay outside that was obviously well taken care of. She couldnât see it, but she could hear the gentle swell of the ocean and smell the salt in the air.Â
âWhere are we?â
âOminis and Anneâs house.â He turned to hold his hand out for hers before guiding them forward slowly. âI moved in so I could help Anne with her pregnancy and the first few months with the baby. They live in that section of the house, but theyâre hopefully fast asleep.â
âTrying to sneak me in like a late night conquest?â
âFirst, you would never be a conquest to me.â The look Sebastian sent her sent a flash of heat through Y/Nâs body that warmed her all the way to her toes. âSecond, is it that bad I want you to myself for a while before my sister steals you from me?âÂ
âAh yes, the infamous Sallow charm,â she gave him a teasing smile as he led her inside, a hand on the small of her back as he guided her through the dark interior and into the kitchen. With a slight wave of his hand the lamps that were dotted around the room came to life, revealing a figure sitting at the table.Â
âFuck - Ominis!â Sebastian glared at his brother-in-law. âWhat have I told you about sitting around in the dark?â
âIs it dark?â Ominis tilted his head to the side. âI couldnât tell.â Y/N couldnât help but laugh quietly at his words despite her heart still racing and he turned his head in her direction curiously. âY/N? Is that you?â He stood up and made his way over to them, one hand skirting along the table to help him navigate.Â
âItâs good to see you again, Ominis.â Y/N pulled him into a tight hug before releasing him and taking a step back so she stood next to Sebastian again.Â
âIâd say the same butâŠâ He chucked at his own poor joke and held his hands out to her, a silent request to trace her features. Y/N took his hands and placed them on her face, her eyes slipping closed as his fingers moved over the scar on her temple. âStill starting fights?â
âDoes it really matter who started it as long as I finish them?â
âNo, I suppose not.â Ominis released her face and took a small step back. âWhy are you back so early?â
âIt got boring,â Sebastian shrugged and leant against the kitchen wall, his gaze not leaving Y/N.Â
âSo you decided to steal the guest of honour as you left?â
âIâve got to be a bad influence on her somehow for old times sake.â
âHm.â Ominis didnât exactly sound pleased, but Y/N could see the smile on his face. âIâm going to head to bed. I assume youâll be spending the night, so Iâll see you at breakfast, Y/N.â
âThatâs a bit presumptuous.â
âAm I wrong, though?â Ominis offered her a wry smile before making his way up the staircase located in the back corner of the kitchen. Y/N heard a soft click as a door closed and Sebastian came to stand behind her.Â
âDo you want to get out of this dress?â Y/N turned to look up at him with raised eyebrows and watched his face turn red. âI didnât - I mean, I wouldnât mind but thatâs notâŠâ He sighed and ran a hand through his hair. âWhat I meant was, do you want me to lend you something to wear?âÂ
âYes, please.â Sebastian stopped to grab a bottle of firewhiskey from the cupboard, as well as two glasses, before leading her out of the kitchen and to the right, through what Y/N assumed was the living room. There was another staircase on this side of the house and Sebastian ushered her up and pointed her in the direction of his room. Y/N closed the door behind them as he walked over to his dresser and set their drinks down before rummaging through one of the drawers.
âI canât give you anything of Anneâs without waking her up, is this alright?â Sebastian pulled out a long sleeved shirt and some pyjama bottoms for her.Â
âOnly if you help me out of this dress,â Y/N watched as Sebastian visibly gulped and his face and neck turned a brilliant shade of red. She turned her back to him and brushed her hair out of the way to show him the small buttons that ran up the back of the dress. âPlease?â
âYouâre going to be the death of me.â
âSave the theatrics for when Iâm in your clothes.â
âDarling,â Sebastian groaned, his hands coming to rest on her waist from behind. âWhen I asked you to flirt with me I didnât think it would be like this.â
âLike what?â Y/N brought her hands up to hold the bodice of her dress in place as Sebastian began to undo her buttons, his fingers brushing against every inch of exposed skin in a way that set Y/Nâs nerves on fire.Â
âDonât play coy, you know exactly what youâre doing to me.â
âI did warn you,â Y/N laughed quietly as she felt him undo the last of the buttons.
âYou did,â he agreed, voice low as he trailed a finger down her spine softly. âIs it later?â
âGive a girl the chance to get dressed first, Sallow.â
âOh right. Yes. Iâll - hallway?â Sebastian stammered, one finger pointing at the door behind them. Y/N bit her lower lip to hold back a smile as she took in how flustered he was. It was a rare sight (in fact, she didnât think she had ever seen it before) and it brought a sense of gratification knowing she was the one who had turned the charming man into a stuttering mess.
âJust turn around.â Sebastian nodded once before turning his back to her, resting his head on the wall gently. Y/N quickly shed the dress and pulled on Sebastianâs clothes, pulling a face as she tried to hitch the pants up as far as she could. âI feel like a child playing dress up.â Sebastian chuckled and turned back around to face her, his eyes darkening as they roamed over her. âI look ridiculous.â
âYou look ravishing.â
âOh shush,â Y/N turned her back to him so he couldnât see her blush and poured out two drinks for them while he quickly changed as well. She picked the pins out of her hair while she waited for him and took a sip of the firewhiskey to steady her hands as she listened to him shuffle out of his clothing. She didnât dare move until he came to stand behind her, his hand resting on her waist gently as he leant over to grab his glass. Y/N grabbed the bottle and her own glass before taking a seat on the bed and crossing her legs so she could face him.Â
âTo us,â Sebastian toasted.
âTo later,â Y/N clicked her glass against his and took another sip of the drink. The liquid burned the back of her throat, but warmed the rest of her body and gave her the surge of confidence she needed. âYou said earlier you always wanted to kiss me. How long have you felt that way?â
âSince fifth year.â
âSebastian, that was ten years ago!â
âWhat can I say? Iâve always known what I wanted.â The look he gave her offered more heat than the drink and Y/N found herself drinking a little more to calm her nerves.
âAm I just a want to you?â
âNo. Definitely not.â He brushed some hair from her eyes. âYou are everything to me.â
âWhy didnât you tell me sooner?â
âHow long have you felt the same?â
âSince fifth year,â Y/N murmured shyly. She had assumed all of the under-the-radar flirting he had done back in school was just a part of his charm and that he was the same with all the other girls, but that hadnât stopped her from thinking about him all the time. It had only gotten worse the more time she spent with him and she started to realise that not only was he charming to a fault, but he was also kind and smart and funny and flawed.Â
âWhy didnât you tell me sooner?â
âTouchĂ©.â They sat in a comfortable silence, both absorbed in their own thoughts. âI wouldnât mind either, by the way.â
âMind what?â he asked. Y/N gave him a look and waited for the sickle to drop. It took him a moment to recall the words he had said in the kitchen, how he wouldnât mind getting her out of her dress in a less than pure sense. âOh. Oh.â He tilted her chin up gently, his fingers brushing along her jaw in a way that made it feel like every inch of her was on fire. âWhile I would love nothing more, we have all the time in the world for that later, darling. Plus, it would probably be better to wait until we donât have to be quiet because my sister and best friend are sleeping a few doors down.â
âSilencing charms were invented for a reason.â
âAnd you call me the rake.â He took her empty glass and set it on the bedside table next to his, turning back around just in time to catch her stifling a yawn. âOh Iâm sorry, am I boring you?â Y/N nudged him and looked like she was about to snap back at him but instead let out another yawn before groaning dramatically and flopping onto the bed so she was laying down. Sebastian brushed some hair from her forehead, his fingers lingering on the mark on her temple gently. âDo you want me to leave you to sleep?â
âNo, stay. Please?â The look on her face melted his heart and he couldnât find it in him to say no. Instead he lay down himself and covered them both with the blanket before rolling over to face Y/N and placed a sweet kiss on her forehead.
âGet some sleep, darling. Iâm right here.â
*~*~*~*~*
Sebastian woke up to the sunlight streaming in through a small gap in his curtains and looked down at Y/N, who was still fast asleep beside him. At some point in the night she had curled up to his side, her head nearly resting on his shoulder as she slept peacefully. He gently brushed some hair from her face and tucked it behind her ear, his hand lingering on her cheek for longer than necessary. He watched as she began to stir and her eyes fluttered open to look at him.
âMorning.â
âMorning.â Y/N smiled shyly and Sebastian was delighted to notice a faint flush on her face. He brushed her cheek gently, a teasing smirk on his face as her blush deepened.
âI could get used to this,â Sebastian trailed his fingers up her jaw slowly, moving round to the back of her neck before lightly running down her back.Â
âGet used to what?â
âWaking up beside you.â He rested his hand on her lower back and gently pulled her closer. Y/N buried her face into the pillow and pulled the blanket up to cover her face. âWhere have you gone?â he laughed, trying to tug the duvet away from her.
âItâs too early for you to be this charming.â
âIâm always charming.â He succeeded in getting the blanket away from her and was rewarded by her demure smile. âYou, on the other hand, could do with being a lot less gorgeous first thing in the morning. How is that fair?â Y/N couldnât help but laugh quietly at his response, her hand hesitantly trailing over his bicep. She watched his throat bob as she lightly traced her way over his collarbone and came to rest over his thundering heart.Â
âNervous?â she asked innocently, a coy smile playing on the edge of her mouth. âPretty woman in your bed, and all that?â
âDarling,â his voice was considerably lower and he reluctantly removed his hand from her back to hold hers against his chest. âI thought we cleared up last night that youâre the only woman I want in my bed.â
âAll you said was you wanted to kiss me since fifth year.â
âIâm pretty sure I followed that with telling you that you mean everything to me.â He narrowed his eyes at her playfully and tugged her closer, her body pressed against his in a way that set every nerve ending on edge. âWere you not listening to me?â
âMy mind was occupied.â
âWith what?â he asked. Her answering grin and raised eyebrow was nothing short of wicked and Sebastian felt his heart stutter in his chest. Y/N laughed quietly and wound her hand up his chest to play with the hair on the back of his head. âYouâre going to be the death of me.â
âIâd say Iâm sorry but - â
âSebastian, are you awake?â There was a gentle knock on his door. Y/N froze, her eyes going wide as Sebastian groaned quietly, his eyes sliding shut.
âIâm up, Anne. Iâll be out in a moment.â His forehead came to rest on her shoulder and she could hear him mutter about his sisterâs poor timing.Â
âIâm about to do the washing, do you need anything cleaned?â Anne tried to open his door. âWhy is your door locked?â Sebastian rolled out of bed, moving faster than Y/N had seen him before, waving his wand to unlock the door.
âMust have just been stuck,â he opened the door to greet his sister, his frame blocking her view of the room, and more importantly her still in his bed. âNothing needs cleaning, Iâll be down in a moment.â
âWhy are you being strange?â
âIâve not long woken up, Anne, give me a break.â
âIs there someone in your room, Sebastian?â
âWhat? No. Donât be ridiculous.â
âMorning everyone.â Y/N felt herself physically cringe as Ominis joined the twins in the hallway. âIs everything alright?â
âSebastian has someone in his room.â
âAnne,â he groaned and lightly banged his head on the doorframe, âno I donât.â Y/N didnât need to be able to see through doors to know Ominis was tilting his head to the side.Â
âGood morning, Y/N.â
âMorning,â she grimaced and climbed out of the bed to stand by Sebastian, attempting to tame her hair as she did so. Anne looked surprised to see her and although Ominis was looking slightly to her right, she could still see the smirk on his features that was meant for her. âItâs good to see you both again.â
âA bit presumptuous, was I?â Ominis chuckled and placed a hand on Anneâs shoulder. âCome, my love, Sebastian can show Y/N where she can freshen up for breakfast before we accost them.â He pulled her back down the hall gently, shooting a glance at the pair before they both went down the stairs.
âWell,â Sebastian let out a breath. âThere goes my plan to pretend I asked you round for breakfast this morning.â His face flushed and he rubbed the back of his neck nervously as he looked down at her. âIâm sorry, Y/N.â
âNo harm, no foul. Although, I feel like Anne is currently assuming the worst of me.â
âShe would never.â Sebastianâs voice was full of conviction, as if it was a ridiculous notion that Anne would ever think of her poorly. âBy the time we make it downstairs sheâll be over the shock and will probably be telling me I told you so over breakfast.â He led her down the hall, showing her where she could freshen up before shutting the door quietly behind her. Y/N moved as quick as she could, splashing water on her face to remove the traces of makeup she had forgotten to remove the night before and tying her hair in a simple braid. She made her way back to Sebastianâs room when she was done and walked in without knocking, her eyes going wide at the sight in front of her.
âSorry!â Y/Nâs face burned as she turned around and pressed her forehead to the cool wall as she covered her eyes. Sebastian laughed from behind her and stepped close, his finger running down her spine gently before he turned her back around.
âAll of those flirtatious remarks last night and you go the colour of a Gryffindorâs robes when you see me without a shirt on?â Sebastian teased, grasping her chin gently so he could angle her face towards his. âYouâve seen me like this before.â Y/N couldnât help but look back down at his bare torso, his shirt unbuttoned and hanging from his shoulders. The fluttering in her stomach that seemed to appear whenever Sebastian was around had turned into a full-fledged swarm as a kaleidoscope of butterflies ran amok within her.Â
âNo I havenât.â She made herself look back up and above his head so she wouldnât have to see the shit-eating grin on his face.
âYes you have,â Sebastian chuckled and tried to meet her eyes again. âOr do you not remember the day I saved your life in the lake?â The confidence he exuded with the sentence made Y/N eyes snap back to his, a glare on her features as she flicked him in the arm.Â
âI think we remember that day very differently, considering I wouldnât have needed saving if you had just trusted me.â
âYou were swimming into a whirlpool in the middle of the lake, youâre lucky you didnât drown.â
âThere was a cave there! If anything, what nearly made me drown was some buffoon clinging onto me as we both went under.â
âThis buffoon pulled you out into said cave.â
âAnd right into a spider den,â Y/N laughed as he shuddered at the memory and belatedly noticed that her hand was on Sebastianâs chest, her fingers tracing over a raised mark on his right pectoral. âWhatâs this?â
âOh,â Sebastian chuckled nervously and placed his hand over hers, hiding the mark from view. âYouâre going to laugh.â
âProbably.â She swatted his hand away and stood a little closer, her finger moving along the curved line slowly. âIs thisâŠ?â
âYes,â he sighed in defeat and gave her a sheepish smile. âOminis and I thought it would be fun to try and give each other tattoos when we turned eighteen after leaving school. You can probably tell we didnât do a very good job of it.â That was the understatement of the year. The mark held no ink, and if anything, it looked more like an old faded scar than a tattoo. Y/N tilted her head as she traced the shape again, a sly smile on her face.
âSo you both decided that out of all the things you wanted permanently etched to your skin you wanted the snake from the Slytherin crest?â Her lip twitched as Sebastian nodded bashfully and she repressed the urge to laugh.Â
âDoes Ominis have a matching one?â
âHis took a little better because of his pale skin - the prick - but yes, he does. Itâs faint, but itâs there.â
âWhat did Anne have to say about this?â
âOh, she was furious. Kept telling us how only criminals and people in the circus marked themselves like this.â Y/N finally let the laughter bubble out as she imagined Anne reprimanding the pair and they both more than likely stood there and took it like scolded school boys. Sebastianâs features softened at her laugh, his heartbeat picking up speed as Y/N began to subconsciously trace shapes between the freckles that covered his chest.Â
âYou know, Iâve always wondered how far that blush goes,â Y/N commented innocently, her finger winding its way down his chest slowly. Sebastian gulped as she came to a stop at the bottom of his sternum and gave him a demure smile. âI didnât think it would be here.â
âWhere did you think it would stop?â
âIâve always pictured you with a full-body blush.â
âYouâve pictured me?â
âMhm.â The light movement of her fingers on his bare skin burned as she slowly trailed between each freckle on his chest. He knew she could feel how embarrassingly fast his heart was beating in his chest but he didnât care. He was enamoured by her and he didnât care who knew it. He brought a hand up to rest on the back of her neck, gently pulling her forward until there was little space left between them as he tangled his fingers through her hair. âSeb?â
âYes, darling?â
âAre you ever going to kiss me?â
âWould you like it if I did?â
âIâm not going to dignify that with a response.â He laughed as she rolled her eyes at him and wound an arm around her waist to pull her closer. Y/N cocked her head to the side, remembering that smile on his face from their fifth year. More often than not it meant trouble, but sometimes, like right now, he paired it with the same look on his face that he had right now. One that was almost soft.Â
âUse your words, darling. What do you want?â He brushed his thumb across her lower lip as he leant towards her, his forehead resting on hers. Y/N narrowed her eyes at him and tried to close the gap between them to kiss him, but Sebastian pulled back fractionally, amusement sparkling in his eye as her frown deepened and a gorgeous pout fell on her lips. âHave I told you recently how beautiful you are?â
âApart from earlier when you had me in your bed?â
âI believe the word I used then was gorgeous.â
âWell, if you want to be pedantic about it. Not since last night.â
âYou did look beautiful last night,â Sebastian nodded thoughtfully, his nose bumping hers softly, âI think this version of you is my favourite, though.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âRight now, first thing in the morning. Barely awake and tucked to my sideâŠâ Y/N brought both of her hands up to rest on his chest as Sebastianâs grip tightened on her waist, her fingers brushing his collarbone delicately. âI meant what I said earlier. I could get used to waking up beside you. Every day.â
âFor how long?â
âFor the rest of our lives.â Y/Nâs breathing stilled at his words, at the raw emotion and sincerity on his face as he spoke. She felt the back of her eyes burn and tried to look away but he held her in place and kissed her cheek gently. âDo you know what you do to me? How completely and hopelessly you enrapture me? Youâre bewitching.â
âWas that a pun?âÂ
âShall I use a different word?â he murmured. His thumb stroked her cheeks gently, her skin burning in its path. âYouâre exquisite, flawless, downright ethereal.â
âSebâŠâÂ
âFrom that very first day you smiled at me, you had me. I fell for you harder and faster than anyone Iâve ever met before. My heart was yours before I knew nothing more than your name.â
âMy heart is yours too, you walnut. Itâs only ever been yours. From the very first moment.â
âI adore you, Y/N Y/L/N.â
He finally closed the gap between them and pressed his lips to hers so gently that Y/N thought her heart would burst out of her chest. She wound her hands up and into his hair, pulling him impossibly closer as she kissed him back and he nipped at her lower lip. His grip on her waist tightened pleasantly, holding her body against his so every inch of them was touching, and Sebastian swore he had died when she pushed his shirt off his shoulders and ran her fingers down his back. They broke away as Ominis called for them from downstairs, both of their faces tinged pink as they took in each otherâs swollen lips and tousled hair. Sebastian leant back in to press one more sweet, toe-curling kiss on her lips.
âIâm going to marry you one day,â he muttered against her lips, his mouth curling into a smile as he heard her breath hitch.
âIâll be the one in white.â
Epilogue
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Alhaitham in an Art Nouveau inspired style Here's a thread I wrote about this concept on Twitter, below the cut will be a copy of the text, sorry if it takes a weird format on tumblr since it was initially written as a twt thread
This might not make a lot of sense to some of you but before i talk about Alhaitham and Art Nouveau i'd like to talk about Kaveh and Romanticism The connection between Kaveh and Romanticism can be more easily done, specially with characters such as Faruzan calling him a romantic
The Romantic movement, as the name suggest, is very emotionally driven. Its a movement that values individualism ane subjectvism, it's objective is on evoking an emotional response, most comonly being feelings of sympathy, awe, fear, dread and wonder in relation to the world
Basically the artistic view of the Romantic is to represent the world while trying to say "we are hopeless in the grand scheme of things, little can we do to change the world yet the world is always changing us"
In Romantic pieces the man is always small compared to the setting they find themselves in, see the painting Wanderer Above the Sea of Fog by Caspar David Friedrich as an example, the human figure is central but relativelly insignificant to the world
Another thing about Romanticism is the importance of beauty, it's through it that the Romantic seeks to get in touch with their emotions and ituition and its through these lenses that they see the world. The Kaveh comparison should be easy to make with these descriptions
Kaveh's idle chat "The ability to ability to appreciat beauty is an important virtue" just cements to me the idea that his romanticism is closely connected to the artistic movement. He does have an argument agaisnt this connection but I'll bring it up later on the thread
Now that I used the opportunity to talk about my favorite character in a thread that wasn't supposed to be about him let's go back to Alhaitham and how to connect him to the Art Nouveau movement
But seriously, I brought up Kaveh's more obvious connection to Romanticism because the Nouveau movement was created as a direct mirrored response to the Romantic movement, and we all know how we feel about mirrored themes between these two characters
Art Nouveau is about rationality and logic, the movement was used more comonly on mass produced interior design pieces or architectural buildings, it's a movement much more focused on functionality than on art appreciation
They also had a big focus on the natural world but in a very different way, while Romantics saw nature as a power they couldnt contend with, artists from the Nouveau used the natural as an universal symbolical theme for broad mass appeal
Flowers, leaves, branches, complexes and organic shapes are the basis of this style, the logical side of it coming from the mathematics needed to create these shapes and themes in ways that were appealing and also structurally sound
To appreciate the Art Nouveau style is to understand it is a calculated artistic movement (another reason to be salty about an AI generated image trying to emulate it) In short, this style is less about the art and more about the rationality in the mathematics to make it
Another note I'd like to point out is that I love how both Alhaitham and Kaveh have dendro visions while both movements are so nature centric in different ways, Romanticism seeing it as a subjective power and Art Nouveau seeing it as recognizeable symbols
I mentioned an argument against the Kaveh comparison before: the one thing that bothers me about Romanticism is how negative it is in relation to humanity's position in the world and how that related back to Kaveh
In the Parade of Providence it was explicitely showed how much Kaveh dislikes the idea of people seeing themselves as helpless in relation to the problems of the world
People may suffer but there is something he can do to help them and he will do it
It doesn't feel right for me to say that Kaveh fits the Romantic themes because of his suffering, in a similar sense it also doesn't feel right to me to say Alhaitham fits Art Nouveau because of his rational behaviour while he as a character is a lot more complex than that
This thread was done all in fun and love for an artistic discussion, it's not a perfect argument to connect these characters and movements
+ I haven't studied art history in a year, if anyone knows more about these movements please tell me I love learning new things
++ Really sorry if my english is bad or I sound repetitive, it's not my first language and im trying my best here
Thanks for reading
I love you, have a nice day/evening/night
#my art#genshin impact#alhaitham#al haitham#i'll also tag#kaveh#because of the text#anyways uhm#in short i saw an ai generated image claiming to be alhaitham in an art nouveau style#because of that i felt the urge to not only redraw it so there was a human made piece resembling it#but also to erm actually it in general#it activated my art history autism so i had to
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Slow Ride - Part 1
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âȘthe one where you make a deal with hayden before youâre both set to race together.
PSA: strongly suggested to read the warnings before proceeding.
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The stands were supposed to be packed tonight.Â
The thought made a chill run through you, an excitement washing over your body at the many eyes that would be on you when you entered the pits.Â
You loved the attention and lived for the adrenaline that never failed to kick in whenever you got behind the wheel of your beloved Mustang.Â
It had seen better days, the front and sides having a few dents here and there, but it gave it character. Itâs been through a lot, seen some pretty wild races and has even helped you win more than a few during the three years youâve been participating in racing at the Speedway.
There wasnât much to the interior, a single seat next to various metal rods that helped with any impact you might come in contact with when on the track, as well as to keep the car as light as possible.Â
The exterior shined. One half of the car was a bright red while the other was a simple white, each side displaying the number 34 in opposite colors. The white was tinted brown and grey, dust and scratches littering both sides as you have had your fair share of bumps and close-calls. Luckily, the worst that has happened to you was a hard hit to the passenger side that sent you spinning but not to the point of causing any serious damage.Â
You were in the first heat for the Super Stocks and were usually always placed in the middle row. It was never long before you made your way to first place.
The gates werenât open yet and wouldnât be for another half hour, so you decide to get in a few extra minutes of practice. You stopped just as your friend, Mila, was pulling in from doing a bit of her own practicing. âHey,â she greeted you with a smile. You returned it as she nodded towards your car. âHowâs she feeling?â
âGood,â you answer loudly, hoping she could hear you over the loud engine. âAll fixed up.â You were referring to the last race you did, when you nearly lost control and ended up bumping into the barriers. It cost you the race, but the fans loved it whenever things like that happened, so you didnât mind much.
âGlad to hear it,â she says. âHey, I heard about the switch between Chase and some guy from the second heat. Have you met him yet?â
Despite racing here for over three years, you never really cared to become friends with your fellow drivers. You saw them all as competition, with the only exception being Mila since she was in the Bone Stock lineup.Â
âNo, not yet,â you reply and hear the sound of another engine from behind you.
âI think you might meet him soon,â she teased as a neon orange and black Chevy drove past you and sped out onto the track.Â
The driver looked over at you before picking up speed and leaving you behind, making you ask the question, âThatâs him?â
âThatâs him,â she confirmed before waving at one of the maintenance guys. âI gotta go get ready, but good luck! Hereâs to hoping he doesnât give you any trouble out there.â
You nod and give her a thumbs up, watching as she pulls into the pits before you follow in the direction of the new addition to the heat. Chase was a pretty aggressive driver, so you were happy to see him go, but you were also used to his erratic ways of the road and knew how he functioned behind the wheel.
The new guy was completely new territory for you, and you could only hope he wasnât as much of a hard-ass as Chase was.
You had a feeling you were wrong to hope that as you passed the Chevy, your mind in the clouds as you tried to get a feel for the track. He passed you again within seconds but slowed down considerably when he was in front of you. You tried to pass him by moving to the outer edge of the track, but he blocked you from doing so. You tried closer to the middle and inner edge but he didnât let you do that either.Â
Sitting back with a huff, you settle on trailing behind him for a bit before he takes off, the increasing volume of the engine being the only thing you could hear as you watch him pull into the pits.Â
You follow him in, letting the Mini Stocks practice a bit before they were set to race when the gates opened.Â
You stop near the back of the restricted area and pry back the red netting on your window before lifting yourself out of the car. Tossing your helmet onto the seat, you turn to face the new guy and watch as he does the same, his light brown hair looking almost blond in the setting sunlight.Â
He looked as cocky as he drove and you didnât have enough time to make up any more assumptions about him before he was making his way towards you, the neon orange helmet tucked under his right arm as he extended his left one out to you. âHey, itâs Y/n, right?âÂ
You narrow your eyes at his held out hand before crossing your arms. âThatâs right,â you answer and he laughs as he drops his arm back down to his side when he realized you werenât going to shake his hand. Youâd be lying if you said the black jumpsuit that was identical to yours, with the neon orange 05 on the right shoulder, didnât add to his overall attractive appearance. âYouâre the new guy?â
He raised a brow, his lips turning upwards in a smirk. âIf by ânew guyâ, you mean the same guy who has been racing here for the past two years,â his voice dripped in mockery and his eyes held a sense of mischief. âThen, yeah, Iâm the new guy. The name is Hayden. Iâm also the guy who was transferred to the first heat.â
You purse your lips and lean back against your car. âI can see that,â you nod towards the track. âThat was quite the show you put on out there. Youâre very efficient at blocking.â
âYeah, you liked that?â He didnât pay your annoyed tone any mind as he shrugged. âI just had to show the guys what theyâve been missing out on during the last two years. This transfer has been long overdue as I shouldnât have been in the second phase for as long as I was. Just wait until you see me later tonight, when the trackâs full.â
Cocky fucker.
You roll your eyes and cross your arms tighter. âSeeing as youâll be behind me the whole time, I donât think I will be able to see you, after all,â
He seemed impressed yet surprised by your words, his head dropping slightly as a deep laugh left his lips. âYou might want to raise your expectations,â he says as he leaned down so his head was closer to yours. It was then when you were able to see just how blue his eyes are and how they looked so bright in this lighting. He was beautiful, but really fucking annoying. âBecause Iâm going to win tonight.â
And cocky. Fuck, you missed Chase already.Â
You narrowed your eyes again. âIn your dreams,â
âAh, thatâs where Iâve seen you before,â he replied instantly, his tongue tracing the undersides of his teeth as he placed his hand flat against the roof of your car, partially trapping you against it. âI knew you looked familiar.â
You refrain from screaming out at his ability to quickly give back everything you threw out and lifted your head just slightly to come off as imitating. âYouâre going to lose tonight,âÂ
Haydenâs smirk just grew, the tip of his tongue running along his upper lip quickly. âAlright, letâs make a deal,â he said and stood back up to his natural height, his frame now blocking the sun from your view. You almost opened your mouth to thank him for unknowingly keeping the sun out of your eyes before you remembered that this guy was your competition. Instead, you raise one brow in silent question. âIf I win, you do something for me. Anything I want.â
You squint at him, your eyes flickering to the curve of his mouth without meaning to. âAnd when I win?â
âConfident, arenât you? Canât say I didnât expect that from a pretty girl like you,â he shrugs and the compliment wouldâve made you swoon if it werenât for the smugness that underlined it. âIf you win, Iâll do whatever you want.â
Dropping your shoulders, you feign being intrigued. âLike?âÂ
âLike,â he pretended he was in thought. âLet you pass me in the next one, purposely lose, rear end our competition, go down on you, whatever you want.â
The last offer caught you off guard and you reel back in surprise, hating how you felt your face heat up at his words. There was no way youâd let this guy get to you and turn you on before a race. No matter how attractive he is. âOnce again, in your dreams,â you say but add, âYouâre on.â
Hayden held his free hand out and you untangled your arms to be able to grab it. Once your hand was clasped in his, he tugged you forward a bit and you stumbled into his chest. He leans down so his mouth is hovering near your ear. âGood luck, princess,â he murmured and the way his breath hit your skin had you repressing a visible chill. âYouâre gonna need it.âÂ
He lets go and backs away, not bothering to give you a second glance while you were left staring at his retreating form. He quickly fell into a conversation with another driver from the Mini Stocks group and you took the time to look at his car.Â
The Chevy was in great shape, the neon orange damn near spotless, with the exception of dents and scratches here and there. The front half was covered in the bright color while the back faded into a jet black, the perfect contrast to the orange 05 that was painted on each side.Â
You held back a small grin when you caught sight of the gold Star Wars sticker close to the back of the car. He must have a strong fondness for the movies if he went as far as putting the large logo on a place that was in clear view to everyone who would be watching.Â
Questioning how you had failed to notice Hayden or his car during the past two years, you spare him one last glance before turning back around and beginning to prepare for the race.Â
As you let your eyes trail over to him, they widened slightly when they locked onto his. He had already been looking at you, his arm still draped over his helmet and a sly smirk on his lips as the other driver went on about whatever it was they were talking about.
You send him a sarcastic smile before breaking eye contact and trying to ignore the pool of heat settling in your bones.Â
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As much as you hated to admit it, Hayden was good.
Like, really good.Â
He had successfully secured his place in the finale, as did you, and had proven his previous claims of winning were not just him being a cocky guy. He came first in every single race and had even overlapped the poor souls who started at the back of the heat.Â
He intimidated you and you werenât sure why you felt the smallest bit intrigued by him.Â
He was very attractive, both his looks and personality adding to that fact. You werenât usually into the guys who were so full of themselves, but maybe that was because they usually never lived up to their claims, unlike how Hayden did.
He was good, and he knew he was good, and he used that to his advantage.Â
It was no wonder he was so overly confident. He had every right to be, but, with that being saidâŠyou, too, were confident with your own words.Â
Youâve won countless races now, and youâd be damned if you didnât at least give it a shot, even if Hayden was one of the best drivers you had ever seen. He was definitely one of the strongest ones in the heat now, but he was also the new guy.
And the new guy needed to know his place, no matter how undeniably fine he is.Â
So, as you wait behind the pace truck with Hayden a few cars behind you, you try your best to ignore the nervousness that was quickly beginning to settle in your bones.Â
Despite doing this well over a hundred times, you still get a bit nervous before each race. You couldnât help it, it was basic human instincts to become anxious before doing something that could possibly end with you being seriously injured or worse.Â
You tried to get him out of your head as the truck led you around the track a couple of times.Â
He was just another competitor. Thatâs all he will ever be to you. Heâs no different than the others.Â
At least thatâs what you kept telling yourself as the announcer waved the green flag.Â
As soon as the pace truck left the track, the fourteen cars were off. You were lucky enough to be placed in the second row on the outside, so you were able to go from fourth to third relatively quickly.Â
Seeing as Hayden was put close to the back, starting in twelfth place, you were expecting it to take him quite some time to catch up. Usually whenever a racer is doing super well, like he is, they get put close to the back to give the other racers a bit of a chance to prove themselves.Â
To say you were surprised to hear what the announcers narrated through the speakers as you passed by them would be an understatement. âNumber five, Hayden Christensen, easily makes his way from tenth to ninth and now ninth to eighth,â you refrained from taking your eyes off the track and peeking behind you to see it for yourself. âHeâs now passed two cars, taking the risky route on the outside of the track to land himself in sixth.â
âNo fucking way,â you mutter to yourself, gripping the wheel tighter as you take the same route Hayden did in order to pass the driver in second place.Â
This guy was something else.Â
Despite driving for quite some time now, you found yourself beyond nervous driving near the outside of the track, so the fact that Hayden could do it so effortlessly was mildly infuriating but also impressive.Â
You could only imagine the smirk he wore as he passed yet another driver and then another, now only two cars behind you. It was unbelievable that he had managed to go from twelfth to fourth in only three laps out of twenty.Â
You were seriously regretting being so confident when you were talking with him earlier as you were clearly in way over your head on this one. There was no doubt in your mind that the other drivers from the second heat were probably ecstatic that he switched. Now they actually have a decent chance at winning.Â
But you were still ahead of him for now, and fuck if you werenât determined to keep it that way.Â
Keeping closely behind the driver in first place, who you knew was a guy named Curtis based off of his car, you pick up speed the second youâre clear of the turn. You successfully pass him and are in first, but the excitement is short lived as you hear the speakers announce that Hayden did the same thing to the guy in third and that he is now in the top three.Â
You feel heat creeping up your body and were glad that both the front windows were required to be removed as it allowed somewhat of a cross breeze to pass through the thick material of your helmet. You were beginning to feel overwhelmed, something you hadnât felt since the first few races you did before that feeling turned into adrenaline. You lived for that sensation of your nerves fading away and being replaced by energy.
It was what you were holding onto now as you began your thirteenth lap with Hayden now in second, a mere few meters behind you.Â
He could pass you at any given moment, any time he seemed fit, really, and you hated that he held that power over you. Hated that he had proven he was a better driver than you and really fucking hated the way he made you feel inferior to him.Â
Borderline feeling a bit embarrassed now, you desperately tried to ignore the very real fact that there was a very little chance of you actually winning this race.Â
A very real chance that you would have to go through with the deal you had made with Hayden beforehand, back when you clearly had no idea what you were getting yourself into.Â
You knew you needed to stop thinking about it, you knew that you were currently driving distracted but you couldnât stop your wandering mind. Â
It was on the nineteenth lap when Hayden, who had been teasing you for the last few laps, finally pulled ahead of you and was now in first. It was on the last lap when Curtis decided that coming in third was not acceptable and had gotten a bit too aggressive on the last leg of the track.Â
It was then when he took over your position and successfully rammed you, causing you to spin out a few times. Luckily for you, and for everyone behind you, your skills and the fact that you were a really good driver didnât let you down.Â
You over correct multiple times before the side of your car slammed into the barrier. Thankfully when your head slammed against the frame of the window, your helmet took a good portion of the impact and you were only left slightly dizzy.Â
Blinking away the blurriness, you look to your right and watch as the last few cars speed around you and cross the finish line, the last one being Haydenâs as he had long since won and had caught up with the cars in the back.Â
As he makes his way to the designated area where he would indulge in a quick victory interview, you allow the tow truck driver to pull off the bright red netting on your window. You donât bother taking off the suddenly too heavy helmet as you take his outstretched hand and let him pull you out of your car.Â
The middle aged man leads you over to the awaiting ambulance, this being protocol after being involved in a crash of any kind. You sit in the back, your legs draped over the side as the paramedic gently takes your helmet off, the only background noise being Haydenâs cocky voice sounding through the various speakers around the track.
Due to your pounding head, you could only make out a few lines, âThat was a close call at the end there, how does it feel to have come out on top?â
âRewarding,â came his confident reply. You didnât bother to try to continue listening after that.
With your helmet off, it allowed you to have a clearer vision of what was going on around you, and your heart deflated at the sight of your car. It was dented all over, one from the impact of Curtisâ car, one from when you hit the barrier and one from when another driver rear ended you afterwards. Oddly enough, you never felt that last hit, unless that was what caused your head to hit the door frame.
Caught up in answering the countless questions that the paramedic, who went by the name of Troy, you failed to notice that Haydenâs interview had wrapped up and he was currently leaning against the open door of the ambulance, his own helmet discarded a long time ago. âHi, princess,âÂ
You glance up at him and scoff at the smirk he wears as Troy gently lifts your left arm, doing the standard check for any broken bones or strained muscles.Â
âThat was quite the show you put on at the end,â he continued when you didnât greet him back. âI almost wished I had stayed behind you so I couldâve had a front row seat of it.â
You glare at him and allow Troy to tilt your head to the side as he inspected your neck, not so secretly listening in on your and Haydenâs conversation. âMe too,â you give him a tight smile. âBecause then it wouldâve been you who spun out and not me.â
Hayden shakes his head at that. âNo,â he laughed. âI wouldnât have been so distracted and allowed that idiot to get so close to me.â âThat idiotâ being Curtis. You could tell he wanted to call the aggressive driver something else, a less PG name, but refrained from doing so as he was in the presence of the higher ups and refused to get written up over someone as pathetic as Curtis.Â
You ignore his words and sit up once Troy reaches for something further back in the ambulance. Over the speakers you hear the announcer say something along the lines of, âNumber thirty four, Y/n Y/l/n, is reportedly just suffering from a headache after that hard hit she endured on the last lap of the race,â you were still so surprised how fast information got spread around here, but you supposed that was how it was supposed to be, given the audience was more than likely curious as to how the racer was doing after crashing in the intense way like you just did.Â
âSo, have you figured out what you want me to do, yet?â
He had won fair and square, and you had lost. You werenât one to talk shit then not stay true to your word once everything blew up in your face.Â
Hayden looked you up and down, his eyes narrowing on the way your chest rose and fell under the black jumpsuit you wore. When you caught his gaze he looked away in thought. âI havenât quite decided yet,â he answers and you roll your eyes.
You didnât get the chance to respond as you heard someone else speak from their place against the other door of the ambulance.Â
âHey, Y/l/n,â you look over and see Josh, another racer who finished fourth and had a front row seat of your spin out. He tucked his helmet under his arm and sent you a sly grin. âThat was quite the crash. I honestly canât believe you walked away with only a headache.â
You shrug, glancing at Hayden and noting the way he glared at the other man, clearly pissed that he had interrupted your conversation. âWhat can I say?â You force out a smile, keeping your eyes on Josh. âIâm a professional.â
Josh looked you up and down before raising a brow and nodding. âI guess you are,â he sent Hayden a quick smile in a form of greeting before looking back at you. âEither way that was fucking epic. I hope we can see each other more often. It might be nice to have an ally on the track.â
You tighten your smile and nod once. âSure, thanks,â
He pats Hayden on the back before walking away, missing the way he shot daggers into his retreating form. Once Josh was out of sight, Hayden turned back to face you, his stance against the car never faltering as he says, âI think I know what I want you to do for me,â
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The way Hayden eye fucked you earlier shouldâve been enough of an answer.Â
The way he got so annoyed when Josh was openingly flirting with you in front of him shouldâve been enough.Â
The way he stood so close behind you as you both waited for the space to clear out shouldâve been more than enough.Â
It was still light out when you had first gone out on the track to begin racing, and it was well past being dark out when you finished, stuck in the back of the ambulance for a bit longer while the track cleared and the stands became empty.Â
An hour after your crash and you had been cleared for any further injuries, instead of switching to your everyday car and heading home to spend the rest of the night in bed, you find yourself in the small confinements of Haydenâs black and orange Chevy.
It was tucked away in the far corner of the set up area, hidden behind various shelves of tools and car parts and out of sight to anyone who was still around. Though you had been nearly one hundred percent sure that everyone had gone home for the night, there was a small possibility that in your haste to keep up with Haydenâs long strides you may have missed someone hiding out or getting ready to leave.
Still, if you were worried about someone still being around, you didnât show it as you rocked your body against Haydenâs, your kiss swollen lips begging for a break that he didnât grant as he kept you close to him. His hands ran up the length of the simple white tank top you wore under the suit, the same one that had been discarded and thrown somewhere off to the right where the passenger seat would normally be in a standard car.Â
You supposed what you were currently doing could be considered cock warming, with the way he was deep inside you, your tight walls wrapped around him in a way that left you breathless.Â
You couldnât even bring yourself to be embarrassed anymore at the fact that you had failed, quite epically, on the night when the stands were at their fullest. Hundreds of people had seen you spin out, and though you had your fair share of bumps and bruises, you had never been involved in something as severe as you were just over an hour ago.
Gone was your headache and you welcomed the feeling of lust and need as you gripped Haydenâs shoulders tightly. With his body firmly pressed to yours, you donât even need to move your hips yet as you were fully content with the way his tongue battled with yours. His was overpowering yours easily and youâd be lying if you were to say his dominance didnât turn you on.
Youâd also be lying to say that you didnât picture yourself in this exact situation way earlier in the day, back when the two of you were bickering back and forth before you were set to race. Sure, his cockiness was irritating, but add that to his overall appearance and he was just your type.Â
It was undeniable how good looking this guy is, and the sexual tension was apparent right from the start. It was clear this whole interaction would end in one of two ways; one, you would go on to be envious of one another for the rest of your racing careers and ignore the tension as best as you could, or two, you end the feud by sleeping together.Â
You couldnât be more glad that the second option was the one that came out on top.Â
And from the sound of his throaty grunts and groans, Hayden was equally as glad.Â
The way he sounded had you clenching tightly around him in an attempt to stop yourself from slamming your hips down against his. He was so unbelievably hot.
Hot in the way he kept you pressed firmly against him.
Hot in the way he wasnât shy or embarrassed to verbally express the way he was currently feeling. The way you were making him feel.Â
Hot in the way he took control of the heated kiss, angling your head so he could have full and complete access to your mouth.Â
Hot in the way he was in complete control on and off the track.Â
And thatâs without mentioning his appearance.Â
Needing to pull away for air, he allowed you to do so before tucking his head away in the space of your neck. His lips peppered kisses along your damp skin, the air flow in the car surprisingly bad.Â
Sure, the cross breeze was immaculate when he was driving, but that was because of his speed and atmosphere. Out there he was used to the way his eyes would become dry relatively quickly due to the air whipping past him, but when he was in his usual spot at the back of the set up location, the air was damn near non-existent.
His skin was heated before, when he had claimed his victory of finishing first place in all his races, and his skin was heated now, but for a completely different reason.Â
He was hot and bothered and unbelievably turned on, because of you.Â
Hayden couldnât deny the attraction he felt the second he saw you. He was used to girls falling at his feet and throwing themselves at him, so when you didnât do either of those things and instead returned his confident energy, he was pretty much done for right then and there.Â
He also couldnât deny that, despite how your race ended, you were a pretty good driver. You werenât throwing his words back at him earlier when he had made the deal with you just to get under his skin. No, you threw them back because you knew you had the potential to be as good as you said you were.Â
But he would never admit that he was nervous for a fraction of a second when trailing you as you did a decent job at blocking his attempts to pass. A decent job at preventing his inevitable win.Â
He knew right then and there that, given the opportunity, he would train you to be even better, possibly better than him, if you wanted the practice.Â
But that was for a later time.
Right now he was painfully hard and twitching with need from his place deep inside you. And the small whines and moans you were letting out didnât help his case in the slightest.Â
He pulled away from your neck, marveling at the fresh mark he had sucked onto your soft skin with a smirk. âYou have no idea how hard it was for me to concentrate out there,â he says, surprising you.
You open your eyes and tilt your chin to look down at him, this position making your form the smallest bit taller than his. âWhat?â You ask and ignore the way your voice sounded so breathless and overused already. âReally?â
âMhm,â he hummed against the thin skin of your throat before sucking another mark there. âYou had me turned on the whole time, since our first meeting. I was hard from the second you accepted that deal with me.â
âFuck,â you whine and thread your fingers through his sandy hair. âDonât tell me that, please.â
He smirked against your neck before pulling away to guide your lips to his in a bruising kiss, murmuring, âWhy not?â against your mouth.
âBecause,â you sighed heavily, twisting the fabric of his white tee in the fingers of your free hand. His jumpsuit had only been partly discarded, the article pulled halfway down his body so he was able to free himself and so you could sink down onto him without anything in the way. âI wonât be able to think about anything else after this when Iâm allowed to get back out there again.â
âGood,â was all he said and moved his hands down to tightly grip your waist. âI donât want you to think about anything else after this other than the fact that I won and you lost, quite brutally at that.â
âHayden,â you moan in surprise, giving him a look of warning that he quickly brushes off.
âDonât bother trying to argue,â he dismissed you before giving a sharp thrust of his hips. âWe both know who the real winner is. Now, stick to your promise and ride me.â
His words, so vulgar, send a shockwave of need through you.Â
How could you not oblige?
Your hands move to hold onto his shoulders as you lift your body up, the feeling of him dragging against your walls after having been wrapped around him for so long had you rolling your eyes.Â
A deep groan reverberated from his mouth as you sunk back onto him, repeating the action a few times slowly to create a steady motion. âJust like that, baby,â it came out more breathless than you expected him to sound, like he was getting the relief he had been needing all night. âYou feel so good, been thinking about this since you got out of that car.â
His words surprised you and they had your movements faltering just a bit as they sunk in. âReally?â You ask and the look he gives you has you shocked that he was single. He is single, right? The next words that leave your mouth werenât ones you were planning on asking, but you couldnât help it after thinking this through, âWait, are you single?â
Hayden laughed at that before he realized you were actually asking him that. What made you think about his relationship status in a situation like this, he had no idea, but he couldnât lie and say that the way you were suddenly so worried about it wasnât the smallest bit heart warming.Â
âAre you seriously asking me that after being wrapped around me for ten minutes?âÂ
Your face flushed at his words and he quickly decided that the sight of you being so flustered was one of the best things he has ever seen. âI donât know,â you trail off, slowing the grinding of your hips to a still. âI donât want this to just be one sidedâŠ.I donât want to think about you going home to someone else after this.â
You didnât mean to make things so serious, but you couldnât help it. You were undeniably attracted to this guy and hated to think that he belonged to someone else and was fine with sleeping with other people while in a relationship.Â
You were afraid that you had ruined the mood with that one, but Hayden didnât let you think that for too long as he gently ran his hands up the sides of your body. âOne sided?â He asked but not in a mocking or teasing way. âItâs going to be hard for me to think about anything other than this every time Iâm on the track.â
Heat rushed to your face again and you tucked your head away in the space between his neck and shoulder. âStop,â
âI mean it,â he pressed, reaching one hand up to press his fingers against the skin of your throat. âYou donât know how hot you looked out there. I donât know how these other guys can concentrate when they know youâre out there with them. You donât know how hard it was for me to finish that stupid race.â
âYouâre not the only one who was distracted,â you trail off when you lifted your hips again and slowly guided him back into you, your eyes narrowing on the way he harshly swallowed in an attempt to hold back his groan so you could continue. âI couldnât stop thinking about you. I donât think guys realize how attractive girls find it when a man knows how to drive like that. Itâs hot.â
âYeah?â He laughed breathlessly, his eyes narrowing as he began to guide your hips into a more firm movement. âDo you think Iâm hot?â
How could you not? The look you gave him when he asked that had him laughing and giving you a smug smirk. âHot?â You reiterate and reach a hand down to grip his wrist while your other one tangled into his hair. âYouâre damn near edible.â
He was slightly concerned when he had to hold himself back from coming when those words left your mouth as they werenât what he was expecting to hear. Gone was his cocky attitude and smirks and what replaced them was a fucked out expression. All he could bring himself to say was, âWeâll keep that in mind for next time,â
And just like that, your worried thoughts from before were gone and you were left feeling reassured that this would not be the first and last time you found yourself wrapped around him.Â
With a newfound confidence, you place your hands flat against his shoulders and begin to fuck yourself onto him faster than before. With each lift of your hips he inched deeper and deeper into you, exploring parts of you that you didnât even know you had.Â
He was stretching you out so good and was effectively ruining you for every other guy. He invaded your walls and was the first one to ever hit that sweet spot inside of you. The feeling of his tip pressing against that sensitive space deep within you had your eyes squeezing shut and your hands holding onto him tighter, your head falling into the crevice of his shoulder.
Moans were freely leaving your lips at this point, your care about someone who hadnât left yet possibly hearing you non-existent. You had never felt this way before, despite being pretty well experienced in this kind of thing. Hayden was hitting all the spots inside you that had you seeing stars behind your eyelids, and his own sounds were ones you found yourself desperate to keep hearing.Â
His hands held you in a tight grip by your waist, his own hips lifting to meet you halfway. He sets a brutal pace that has you whining loudly, your hands sliding up to grip the sides of his jaw as you lift your head from his neck.Â
After being impaled on him for so long, the build up to your release was creeping up on you without warning. You already felt sensitive and stretched beyond belief, but you also couldnât deny how well your body fit with his and how well you took him.
It was something you tried to ignore as you knew it would boost his already overfilled confidence, but it seemed as though he was thinking the same thing, âYouâre taking me so well. So good. Like you were made for me,â he breathed out, his eyes closing tightly as he felt his own release steadily approaching. âJust for me.â
Yeah, it was safe to say that Hayden was successfully ruining any and all future endeavors with potential lovers.Â
âI need to feel it,â he mumbled, referring to your inevitable high youâve been feeling all night. Your legs began to shake and burn due to overexertion while your core begged for release. It seemed as though you werenât the only one begging, as he opened his mouth to plead a quiet, hushed, âPlease.â
 To hear him beg for you like that had your eyes rolling back and your mouth falling open in a desperate whine of his name, your body stilling its movements while his hips continued to thrust into you.Â
He chases his own release while you try to recover from yours, the slick movement of him nudging against your walls making you shake from the sensitivity. A few more deep thrusts later and he was there, his deep, throaty groans being the only sounds you were met with.Â
You both were struggling to catch your breath and you were briefly reminded of the very first time you ever got behind the wheel before a race. Your heart was racing and you were sweating, your chest rising and falling quickly in an attempt to regulate your breathing.Â
Almost unwillingly, you lift yourself up and allow him to tuck himself away again before he reaches behind him to tug his shirt off. He hands it to you with a sheepish smile and pulls his jumpsuit back up while you use his shirt to clean yourself up.Â
Once he was covered back up, with the exception of the zipper not being pulled up all the way, and you had tossed the shirt aside and tugged your underwear back on, he turned your body around and pulled you against him.
With your back now pressed against his chest he wraps his arms around you in a surprise embrace as you didnât expect him to be so gentle or for him to feel the need to take care of you afterwards.Â
You lean further back and rest your head on his shoulder, your hands resting over his. âSo, did I live up to my end of the deal?â You asked after a few minutes.Â
Hayden laughs from behind you, the sound breathless despite him being able to regain control over his breathing. âI forgot that thatâs what started all this,â he muttered and you donât bother hiding the small smile that formed on your lips as you knew he wouldnât see it. âYou were perfect.â
You roll your eyes. âShut up,â
âI mean it,â he protests and leans down to press a kiss to the side of your head. He watched as you pressed the heels of your palms against your closed eyes and suddenly felt guilt beginning to chip away at him. âIs your head hurting again?â
He hated to think that your accident from earlier was still very much affecting you and you hid it from him during the whole thing. Despite his overall attitude, he found himself caring deeply for you and wanted to make sure you didnât regret what happened now that it was over.Â
You shake your head and press your body closer to his. âNo,â you answer and brush your nose along the underside of his jaw. âI feel perfectly fine.âÂ
Hayden nods at that and tightens his hold on you after realizing that it had loosened while he was lost in his own head. âAre you sure?â He asks again, needing reassurance that you were okay now that you had come back down from your high. âThat was quite the hit you took earlier.â
Your heart swelled at his concern and you lifted your head so you were able to look into his eyes. âIâm fine,â you say again and continue when he gave you a look that said he didnât believe you, âTrust me, the only part of me that hurts right now are my legs, and I have you to thank for that.â
Your words successfully put him at ease and it was then when you saw the return of his smirk. âThereâs no need to thank me, princess. It was bound to happen, anyway,â he shrugged and you just shook your head. âWith that being said, I hope you donât think that this was just a way to sleep with you then leave it at that. Believe it or not, Iâm not a hookup kinda guy.â
His confession surprised you and you were beginning to believe that this guy was full of surprises. You debated on teasing him, but decided not to when you realized that his prior tough guy persona was just a facade. You felt reassured as you remembered the pang of sadness you felt earlier when you thought this was just going to be a one time thing. âI believe it,â you murmured and leaned up to press a chaste kiss to his lips. âBecause Iâm not a hookup kinda girl, either.â
Hayden smiled at that and you took pride in the fact that you were able to wipe off that smirk he wore so proudly. âGood,â was all he said and pressed another kiss to your mouth, this one a bit longer than the first one.Â
You smile as you pull away and turn to face the front again, ignoring the cramp beginning to form in your legs due to the lack of space as you ask the dreaded question, âSo, how screwed do you think my car is?â
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Nearly two days had passed until you were able to see the aftermath of your accident.
Your car was fucked, for lack of better words.Â
While you were normally out on the track three times a week, you would have to sit out the next two races for this week while your team worked on fixing up the exterior of your car.Â
The state of your beloved Mustang had your heart breaking just a bit as you watched the guys smooth out the dents and fix up loose bars. You watched them work for a bit before deciding that you had seen enough.Â
You exit the garage and bump into someone as you did so. They steady you and when you hear the deep laugh of Hayden your face heats up quickly. âWhere are you going in such a rush?â He asks and keeps his hands on your arms.Â
You sigh and look up at his annoyingly pretty eyes. It had been a day since you had seen him and you were embarrassed to say you missed him. You had never felt this way before and having him standing here in front of you in casual clothing instead of work clothing was not helping. âIâm running away from my responsibilities,â you muttered.Â
He laughed again and peered into the garage behind you. âHow bad is it?âÂ
Sighing, you tug him closer to you and press your head against his chest. âReally bad,âÂ
Hayden wraps his arms around you and you breathe in the scent of his woodsy cologne. He was wearing a simple white tee and black jeans, his usual jumpsuit nowhere to be found as he wasnât set to race until a few hours from now. You were convinced that he could make even the most unflattering clothing look good. âIâm sorry,â he offered and you rolled your eyes, pulling away to look up at him. His height was one of the things that had initially caught your attention, so to see him up close like this was a bit intimidating.
âAre you?â You ask and place your hands flat against his back. âThat crash was how I found myself having to pay up my end of our deal.â
He smirks at that and looks to the side and easily ignores the stares of the other drivers as they watch the two most competitive racers intimately embrace. No one ever expected you to get close to another driver, let alone be seen wrapped up in their arms. It was unheard of. âSo, Iâm assuming you wonât be on the tracks tonight?â He ignores your attempt at riling him up and looks back down at you.
You sigh again, âNope,â
Hayden shakes his head and presses a kiss to your temple. âI got something that will make you feel better,â he murmurs. âDo you want to see it?â
You pull away from him and raise a brow, your curiosity getting the better of you as you take his hand and allow him to lead you towards the pits. There you were met with the sight of his car, and your face immediately heats up when you remember the events that took place the last time you saw it. The last time you were in it, you should say. The thought had you holding back a smirk, âA quickie before youâre set to race?â You ask as he pulls you towards the Chevy. âThatâs a bit risky with all these people around, even for you.â
Hayden just laughs and shakes his head again. âThat wasnât what I had in mind,â he says and guides you towards the left side of the car. He stands back and lets you look at the smooth metal and at first you were confused, but then you looked closer.Â
Next to the large Star Wars sticker was a new one, though much smaller. Tucked away just above the tire was a bright red 34 and it took you no time at all to realize that was your racing number, as well as your color.Â
You step away from the car but keep your back to Hayden, a dumb grin seeming to be stuck on your lips. The fact that he had put your number and trademark color on his car meant he was serious about whatever it was between you, despite only knowing you for a very short period of time. You were glad that he was also feeling the same way you were.Â
At your lack of response, Hayden felt his heart begin to beat quicker and he quickly tried thinking of a way to talk himself out of this, but ultimately ended up with nothing. âIs it too much?â He asked instead.Â
Shaking your head, you turn to face him. âNo,â you answer and step towards him. âNo, I like it.âÂ
He breathes out a sigh of relief when you tuck yourself under his arm.Â
âDoes this mean weâre dating now?âÂ
He raised a brow at that. âI thought we already were,â he said back and that was all the confirmation you needed. The hot guy whose arm you were safely under was yours and you were his. âSince you canât race tonight, can I count on you to cheer me on?âÂ
âOf course,â you answer and add, âCan I count on you to put on a good show?â
âAlways,â he grins. âBut it might be tough for me to concentrate on driving since we fucked in the front seat only a day ago.â
âSo, youâll be thinking of me? Perfect,â you stand on the tips of your toes to kiss him quickly. A kiss that was far too short for his liking as he pouted when you pulled away. âYou better go get ready. If you win tonight, I promise youâll like your reward.âÂ
You wiggle your brows as you turn and walk back to the garage, leaving Hayden to stand by himself with a semi-hard on.
If he had any doubts before, they were all put to rest by your teasing promise. He was going to win tonight. He had to.Â
You knew Hayden was a good driver when you were competing against him, but here in the stands it was undeniable. He was always quick to correct, over-correct and dodge when he needed to and was unbelievably good at passing people, even on the risky turns.Â
Saying you werenât hot and bothered would be a massive lie and you were praying to anyone listening that he would win. You didnât have any doubts, though, as he was the best one on the track by far.Â
That was proven as the night went on and his place in first never faltered. You werenât surprised when he finished the night at the top of the leaderboard, and as he gave his winning speech while he looked towards the stands with a wild glint in his eyes, you had a feeling you knew exactly who he was searching for.
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Part 2
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I feel like an interesting prompt for Lando would be being with/meeting a girl he likes who isnât an influencer or popular, just a regular girl who stays more private. (Me for example, a girl who lives in the middle of no where Texas, with a regular business office 9-5 job) lol
You Are in Love
Lando Norris x Interior Designer!Reader
socmed au
summary: seems like mclaren's driver is not available in the market anymore but the real question is, to whom?
warning/s: none
author's note: hello! I am so sorry for taking so long to respond to this request đ I didn't know how I would create this and I am still quite scared to take requests but here we are and I hope you enjoy it! A little warning I'm not very knowledgeable about America so I might have overlooked some things and I am sorry for that đ and also lmk~ I also chose interior designer as the career for the reader I hope you don't mind >< 𫶠Please request more!
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yourusername another tiring week but at least i get to be a passenger princess hehe :)
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yourbestfriend tell him to watch his back i CAN take you back đ
yourusername dont worry bae im all yours đ
yourfriend is this the london boy đ«ą
yourusername well...
yourfriend when will we meet himđ
yourusername he's a little shyđ
yoursibling mom says she miss him more than u
yourusername i guess i have been replaced in the family now
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landonorris another normal but lovely week
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user1 this is so out of character of himđ
user2 fr why is this kinda lowkey of him to do thoughđ
user3 am i thinking what you're thinking
user4 is he yknow the d word đ
user7 okay pack it up people he can have a life that does not concern us at all
danielricciardo đ€
user9 what's with the emoji
maxfewtrell when will u be back here
user5 oh OH
user6 since when are you interested in architecture đ§
user6 trying to connect shit...
user7 no you're not go get a life
user8 baes take all your delusional asses elsewhere đ
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yourusername golf isn't as bad as i thought
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yourbestfriend am i really about to lose you to some guy who drives in circles???
yourusername nah still urs babe đđ
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landonorris golf kinda day
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maxfewtrell you got beaten up bad...
landonorris she was just lucky
maxfewtrell sure...
carlossainz55 i guess ill replace you as my golf buddy
user1 why are his pictures so boyfriend coded lately?
yourbestfriend that's really a nice pic i wonder who took it? đ«ą
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user2 the comments from max and carlosđ who's able to beat this man in golfđ i need to pay my respect
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yourusername fun week in canada :)
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yourbestfriend I should've went with you!
yourusername definitely! đ It will be so much more fun with u around luv :'(
lilymhe hope to see you again !
yourusername looking forward as well! I miss u alr đ«¶
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user1 DID HE JUST HARD LAUNCH?!
user2 I AM NOT SO READY FOR THIS
user3 i genuinely think he has no idea what he posted....
user4 LANDO WHO'S THAT IN THE 3RD PHOTO
danielricciardo mate I think you're not supposed to post the 3rd photo...
carlossainz55 she will definitely kill him
maxverstappen1 im here for it
maxfewtrell so much for being lowkey
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user1 no way you're trying to gaslight us
user2 man really said nope not today
danielricciardo i saw nothing
carlossainz55 me too
maxverstappen1 me three
user3 twitter fans gonna have a field day with this đ
to be continued...
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àŒ*Â·Ë Until I Say So
CHARACTERS: John Price x M! Reader (F! Reader here)
RATING: NSFW
CONTENTS: Military reader, canon typical violence, Price thinks reader needs a little extra training after they get compromised during a mission, may be inaccuracies in the fighting, porn with plot because I canât write it without, established relationship, relationship with a superior <3, sparring as foreplay, unprotected sex, semi-public sex, voyeurism (?), multiple orgasms, nicknames used: muppet, darling, love
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â--How copy?â Priceâs voice crackled through the comms, rough in all the right places and with just the slightest bit of worry buried deep beneath his impassive tone. It couldnât be helped, worrying about you came naturally to him, like donning a second skin he couldnât seem to shed no matter how hard he tried. He really did try. In his line of work, he couldnât afford to worry, it was a distraction when he needed to be anything but. Distractions could cost a life.
Subconsciously, Price tightened the grip he had on his rifle, trying to convince himself the sudden tension in his body was from the mission itself and not you. Although he really shouldnât have been tense over that either. The operation was a simple two-person job with him acting as overwatch while you mapped out the interior of a warehouse suspected to be owned by a high-profile cartel. During debriefing Laswell had confirmed that the warehouse would be empty until the following week when shipments would first start arriving.
Meaning it should have been an easy in and out. Childs play really, and yet the silence seemed to stretch eons as he continued to scan the windows of the warehouse, searching for any sign of movement. For any sign of you. The sound of static filtered through the air, startling him, and then your voice came through, low and slightly breathy.
âAll good so far Captain. Warehouse appears empty.â
Your voice was like a shot of comfort directly to his nervous system. The tension in his body seemed to fade. His grip slackened but remained steady as he continued searching the windows. âGood. Map the layout and get out. Quickly yeah?â There was the sound of static again and then your hushed laughter- more an exhale than an actual laugh.
âSounds like youâre worried sir.â
He was. Of course, he was.
âFocus Sergeant.â It wasnât a direct command but it had the same effect regardless. On the other side of the comms, you fell silent returning your attention back to the objective youâd been given. Eventually, finally, he caught sight of you, moving with the efficiency that had been drilled into you as a rookie.
Price watched as you dipped in and out of side rooms his heart seeming to still until you came back into the focus of his scope standing just in his line of sight. Your head was tilted up towards the window as if you could see him and the thought sent a secret thrill up his spine.
âAll finished here sir, heading back your way.â
âGood work, Sergeant.â The praise fell from his lips easily. Like a secret only you were privy to. His words hung briefly between you two disappearing like mist on a summer day as something flashed behind you, a streak of silver turned a blinding white by the moonlight cast through the cracking windows.Â
The warehouse was supposed to be empty.
The shadowy figure behind you crumpled to the ground, dead by the silent bullet Price had put through his brain. A moment too late. Just a moment. You looked up through the shattered glass one hand around your neck attempting to stop the blood that leaked through your shaking fingers.
⥠ă ă
Price loomed above you his legs bracketing your hips, keeping you pinned firmly to the floor in a position that was vaguely familiar. He smelled of cigar smoke and sweat, a combination you would have found comfort in had you not been wrestling with him for some semblance of control. You thrashed in his grip fists coming up to connect harshly against his chest. The force of it drew a small wheeze from him that morphed into a growl as he dug the blunt edge of a knife unceremoniously against your neck. It rested just above the jagged scar splitting your throat and when he pressed down just a bit more you felt the warning behind it, gaze finding his in defeat.
He shook his head at the look withdrawing from you, watching as you rolled over, panting from exertion and the vaguest hint of something else. Sweat collected near your hairline and dripped slowly down your nose leaving a dark stain on the mat below you.
âGet up muppet.â The words fell from him, in a harsh bark that had your mind dizzy with the possibilities of what else he could command you to do. Weakly, every bone in your body aching with the movement, you pulled yourself to your feet, stumbling slightly to the side.
âCanât we take a break Captain?â You wiped the sweat from your brow with the edge of your shirt, the movement revealing a strip of scarred skin. His gaze flickered to it unthinkingly. âI just got dismissed from medical you know.â Your shirt dropped back in place and he frowned simultaneously at the loss of such a sight and your words.
âAnd why were you put there in the first place Sergeant?â Price challenged. You sighed through your nose and he took that as a sign of defeat gesturing with the plastic knife in a âcome onâ motion. âAgain.â His gaze remained steady on yours as you circled the mat together, each waiting for the other to make the first move.
Taking initiative you lunged for him, your dominant hand swinging out in a messy hook. Price ducked easily beneath the arm you had thrown out, pivoting so he could slam his foot into the back of your knee. You crumpled to the ground hands coming out to catch you, but he dragged you back with his forearm secured around your chest and the knife flat against your throat.
âCompromised again Sergeant.â His voice was a whisper against the shell of your ear. âYouâre getting sloppy.â
You squeezed your eyes tightly together trying to fight off the arousal you felt aching between your legs. Itâd been there since heâd first walked through the training room doors wearing a compression shirt that showed everything off in just the right way and sweatpants that hung dangerously low. With each press of your bodies together- each struggle for control itâd only intensified turning into a burning heat you needed so desperately to satisfy.
âIâm tired.â You offered in weak defence. The hard muscle of his thigh sat temptingly between your legs and you slowly let yourself relax in his grip, allowing you to subtly grind against his leg.
âTired eh?â Price brought his thigh up pressing harder into your semi-hard cock and drawing a whimper from your lips as you met him halfway. Maybe not so subtle then. The knife tumbled to the floor as he settled his hands on your hips helping assist in the slow grind of you against him. Your chin dropped towards your chest at the sensation, thighs burning with the effort of keeping you upright. Price slid a hand beneath your jaw forcing your head up and turning it towards him so he could bring your mouth to his in a heated kiss. It was lazy on your part, your body sluggish from the training youâd gone through, and when you pulled back your eyes remained half-lidded.
Price smiled at the look. âYou truly are a sight for sore eyes darlinâ.â
The compliment did nothing but fuel your desperation. You arched further into him, nose brushing the skin of his throat. âI need you.â It was a quiet plea. A beg for him to relieve you of your own painful arousal. His hand slid beneath the band of your sweatpants teasingly and you thought for a moment he just might, but his fingers skimmed across your clothed cock with barely-there touches.
âNow?â He applied the slightest bit of pressure and you squirmed, hips rocking against his hand desperately. âWhere anyone could see you?â You nodded pathetically, grinding yourself downwards in search of something more but it wasnât enough.
âFuckinâ tease.â Price chuckled as he hauled you off his lap, repositioning you so you were laid out flat on your back. He slid your sweatpants and underwear down to your ankles, revealing more of you to his hungry gaze. Every inch of your skin was intoxicating, each scar and blemish stirring something in him.
His cock was heavy in his hands and unsurprisingly hard as he angled it against your entrance. You grabbed for the back of his neck nails scraping against the short hair there as he entered you. It wasnât slow by any means and it burned with every inch he forced forward but it was good. So good. Your eyes fluttered closed nails digging into his scalp as he rocked against you. It was rough, needy almost. His fingers dug into your sides pulling you in, each thrust opening you further.
âI was worried about you.â Price confessed on a particularly hard thrust that had your eyes rolling back into your head. âBloody bastard should have never touched you.â His voice was thick with emotion, a sound so rare it had your eyes blearily finding his.
âWasnât your fault-â You whined attempting to lift your head up but failing miserably as he fucked you harshly into the mat. Clumsily you sought out his hand squeezing it reassuringly, the touch the best you could offer when he was filling you so completely. Price seemed to understand though. He leaned down and pressed a kiss to your temple, his beard scraping against your skin.
âWonât happen again yeah?â
There was a sureness to his words, a casual confidence that left no room for argument. Although- you certainly were in no position to argue as it was. Price somehow sensing your impending orgasm soothed a hand down your sweaty face, eyes crinkling at the corners as he smiled down at you. âGo on love, I know youâre close.â His words and the look on his face were horribly tender, a startling contrast to the way his hips snapped against yours, rough and without mercy.
Your legs tightened around his waist drawing him closer to you as you came. Price didnât slow in the slightest bit. If anything he picked up in pace watching the way your eyes flew open. Overstimulation drew you up onto your forearms, one hand shooting out to steady yourself on his shoulder.
âJohn!â
He chuckled the sound lost in the skin of your neck. Each drag of his cock felt like heaven and hell all at once. The overstimulation was bringing you back up to that previous peak quicker than you could form the words for. It didnât help either the way he continued to stroke your cock, drawing his thumb in lazy circles across the leaking tip and delighting at the pitiful sounds it drew from you. You were already hard again. Painfully so.
âYou gonna come again, love?â You nodded chest heaving with the effort of drawing air into your poor lungs. Price nipped at the junction between your neck and shoulder smiling. âGood.â He continued rutting into you, the slick sounds of his hand around your cock obscene in the empty training room. At this point, you were halfway into his lap and each thrust imprinted the shape of his cock to your insides leaving you a stuttering mess of his name.
Exactly how he liked you.
Your second orgasm was stronger than the first and had you clenching around his cock almost painfully. Price cursed lowly slowing his thrusts to help draw it out, until you finally collapsed against him, legs twitching and breaths coming in short puffs. He lifted you slowly off him and you sighed in relief. His cock brushed against your stomach still leaking precum. Lazily you reached between your bodies intent on finishing him off with your hand but he swatted it away.
âOn your stomach love. Ass up.â
The fucked out haze of your mind swirled curiously trying to process his words. You lifted your head searching his eyes in confusion. âSir?â You asked voice shaky, looking every bit the fucked out mess you were.
Price couldnât help the sick satisfaction he felt at being able to reduce you to such a state. âCâmon Sergeant,â He eased you up and then pushed you onto your stomach, your face pressed uncomfortably to the mat. âIâm not done with you yet.â
A/N: Iâm honestly not too happy with how this turned out but itâs been sitting in my draft for like a month lmao. As always though thank you so much for taking the time to read this mess- have a lovely lovely day
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imagine...
characters : simon âghostâ riley, john âsoapâ mactavish, alejandro vargas, captain john price, phillip graves, kyle âgazâ garrick fandom : call of duty modern warfare ii rating :  m for suggestive themes, minors donât interact (mdni!), not safe for work (nsfw!) tags & warnings : cursing & mentions of sex, female body parts, not proofreadÂ
imagine price coming home at the same time as his ( extremely successful ) missus and leaning against the doorway to watch her undress in their walk-in closet. the mere sight of her under the gentle, orange glow of the lights, slightly bent over the table to take off her ( south sea, celine ) pearl earrings across the mirror enough to make him drop everything and just watch. silent, focused, entranced: price's eyes moved slowly, roaming down the bra and her sheer black pantyhose. when she stops at the realization of being watched, he only fondly tells her to continue, voice low and gruff â don't stop now, love.
imagine graves crossing his arms together and tilting his head to get a better view of his babygirl applying lipstick: laser-focused on how she rubs her lips together â rogue red (charlotte tilbury)Â staining the tip of her thumb as she swipes to fix it. graves only chuckles against her neck when she scolds him for ruining her hard work, his hands already hiking up her dress to palm her ass.
imagine soap melting against the soft and warm lap of his bonnie as she runs her hand across his hair, fingers grazing the scalp and turning his head into mush. his mind still heady from the lazy makeout session against the couch. she thanks him for taking her out on a pedicure, hands already trailing down his chest and down his abdomen to unbuckle his pants, eager to show him just how pretty her fingers look around his â
imagine gaz gawking at the set of wheels his love got him for his birthday, only recovering from the shock when she twiddled her fingers nervously, face crumbling at the thought of him disliking it. he immediately hopped behind the wheel to reassure her, fingers tentatively touching the leather interior. when the engine purred to life, he let out an excited cheer, eyes lighting up like a childâs on christmas. he canât wait anymore, locking the door to push the passenger seat of his new aston martin v8 all the way to the backseat â pinning her under him, hands running down her sides. he wanted to thank his darling, in more ways than one. imagine alejandro having to yell at one of his men for jogging straight into a pole because he was distracted by his cariño â eyes in front, cabrĂłn! she can't help but let out a bewildered laugh at his sudden outburst, running her hands down his shoulders to soothe his temper: reminding him that he's supposed to be lenient with rookies. flustered, alejandro had dragged her inside one of the tents, zipping the entrance up before trapping her against a table. she mentioned how silly it was for him to compliment her sundress only to rip it off. he says heâll get her a new one. imagine ghost pinning both her hands against the wall, a scowl under his balaclava as he snarls â you fucking brat. she lifts her chin in defiance to retort with a snarky comment. a moment later, she's weeping, sobbing, begging against his chest: three of his fingers barely pushing past her entrance. he stares at how her mascara stains her cheeks, lips trembling and legs shaking, clenching down his wrist as they try to balance themselves on sleek, black stilettos. not satisfied, he flips her so that she has her palms flat against the window ledge, ass bare for him to discipline some obedience into her.
a/n : i donât know what would be a good title for this but these are just my midnight thoughts... i love the army couple trope , where reader fights side by side with the men, those are really chefâs kiss because it means the characters understand each other ( e.g : when itâs an afab! reader and it touches up on their struggles as a female officer in the army ) but i also need a benefactress or old money heiress or fashionable human rights lawyer or cia informant f!reader [ i used her instead of âyouâ in the imagine above to test the waters but feel free to make it a self insert! ] who sucks with a gun in her hand but excels in other fields of counter-terrorism or even as a housewife/work wife/civilian. i know it sounds less realistic or even impossible, but to be fair, considering how military operations often need help from external divisions such as law, humanitarian aid, medicine, etc. it is more than possible + God forbid these women have military husbands who work covert and dangerous operations as if they also don't have hounds nipping their heels and praying on their downfall by playing dirty with the kind of money and information they carry. Although distinctly different, they can definitely relate to each other in more ways than one and maintain a form of mutual respect, understanding and even love.
 ( i just don't have the depth and writing skills to explain my thoughts and this very specific trope that itches my brain yet, but just wait babes i'll get back to my point in the future i swear đ) additional hcs for imagine above : â i can see gaz as a long time james bond fan, so the car referenced was from the most recent bond movie starring daniel craig : no time to die â i always see price and his dynamic with the missus ( wife ) as a george & amal clooney kind of vibe, except george in this case is jonathan and not an award winning silver fox but rather a medal decorated war hero silver fox. she would be a human rights lawyer ( and iâm sure she treats gaz like her own son and has met simon a few times due to how many missions he used to run with her husband back in the day ) â soap + a bimbo gf, he would adore her.... â graves wants to live that lana del rey national anthem life so bad itâs embarrassing ( me too ) where he owns a holiday home by the lake + he dreams of having a son when he retires so he can make him wear expensive khaki shorts and teach him how to fish ( highkey enjoys golf ) â alejandro falls victim to his girl showing up to base in a cute sundress only to find out sheâs not wearing any underwear. he simultaneously loves and hates it. â ghost has a crying kink, donât get me wrong, he has been through a lot and his trauma probably wonât make him enjoy any sadistic kinks. but he does like manhandling you and is not afraid of being a little rough, and seeing you all vulnerable and crying ( out of pleasure ) just drives him feral. plus, it turns him on to fuck you when you look so dolled up and pretty ( gives him a reason to mess you up ) + likes the fact that youâre bratty too
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I have a question. Where did you draw from to get as kind, seeing, thoughtful and loving and such a good-hearted character as Harriet in your stories? It blows my mind. She was good for people. How do you write a character like that?
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Background: Canon Harry is supposed to possess an "extraordinary ability to love," right? To me, it felt like canon harry was... not deficient in that area, precisely? But the series hinged upon his ability to love, and in some ways, this "ability to love" seemed to be "ability to not choose evil." I don't think those things are the same, although you could argue that they grow on the same vine. To quote Sir Terry Pratchett, "Evil starts when you treat people like things." Harry knows that people aren't things, and he never treats anyone like a thing.
Harry is certainly capable of kindness and compassion -- but his abilities aren't particularly extraordinary if you take them at face value. However, if you set them in the context of the way the Dursleys treated him, the way the wizarding world treated him -- the violence that was done against him all his life, the way that he was routinely treated like a thing without feelings -- then Harry's ability to be incredibly decent is downright amazing.
HP isn't a novel about Cycles of Abuse in a tradition of realism, although cycles of abuse are represented in various characters; rather, it's about innate goodness and innate evil. These are dressed up as "choices" (Harry chooses Gryffindor, he chooses goodness, as opposed to other characters who choose Slytherin, who choose evil) but the truth is that Voldemort was born from an act of evil and Harry was protected by an act of true love. Voldemort treats people like things. Harry treats people like people.
But, aside from this basic upright decency and literal ability to love others, I felt that Harry's Extraordinary Ability -- in a story about innate goodness and innate evil -- could be augmented.
How I Approached it: An important consideration in writing a character is not only to define their important traits, it's also to demonstrate those traits through their actions. Pretty basic observation, right?
But sometimes we get told "the character is smart" while they don't do anything especially smart, or "the character is so special" while they just don't seem to be particularly special in any way at all. It's like the author gives us a grocery list of traits, but when we get to the store, the shelves haven't been stocked, and we're just left holding the list and an empty basket.
So we can't just tell the audience the character possesses these traits and expect them to buy it if the character doesn't reveal those qualities in the things they do. It was therefore important to me to create a character that could demonstrate some empathy/compassion/kindness/extraordinary ability to love, rather than just, like, saying "Harriet has a good heart" and leaving it there.
Defining Traits: In order to write a character who's kind, we have to have an understanding what kindness looks like in the first place. We can't write -- or recognize -- a character who's kind unless we have some definition for that, some shape it takes in our mind. Only then can we start showing it through actions.
So, what does a kind action look like? To some extent, this depends on how the specific author defines kindness, or at least chooses to express it. Is it compassion? Selfless acts? Consideration for other people, in word and deed? An awareness that other people have interior lives? A willingness to love them, warts and all? An understanding that it feels good to be treated like you matter and feels awful to be treated like you don't? There are so many things it could be; we just have to define it for ourselves.
Kindness in real life involves some measure of self awareness and an ability to tune in to other people, but it also involves an understanding that kindness matters. We also have to acknowledge the ways that other people's unkindness affects us, and to seek ways to avoid perpetuating that (to the best of our ability -- everyone is angry, hurt, mean, or uncaring sometimes).
Harriet in particular: She does understand a lot of this, even if she might not be able to articulate it to herself. She recognizes that people around her have feelings, and that she has the power to affect those feelings through her actions. She knows that you don't treat people like things. She has the temperament of, "I don't like being treated that way, so I'm going to treat people better."
By contrast, Snape doesn't comprehend, well, any of this. As a result, he's mean, belittling, and frequently cruel. He first of all refuses to acknowledge that he can be hurt, while at the same time he wants to hurt other people in an effort to protect himself from pain and fear that he won't even admit live inside him. He sees emotions as a weakness (Canon Snape says this to Harry in OotP), and as a result he ignores his own while trying to provoke others' constantly.
But kindness to others starts with the self. Harriet has the ability to say, "Hey, that hurts and I don't like it, so I won't do it. I'll do this instead." Snape starts off the story unable to do this, and even at this point his ability is still extremely stunted. But Harriet's consideration towards him affects his consideration towards her; and because kindness ripples outward, it also starts to seep into the way Snape responds to others.
On a Practical Level: Designing your character approach can involve looking at things and seeing what didn't work for you. I'll give you an example:
In HBP, when Ron makes fun off Hermione in class and she runs off, Harry accurately and clearly determines that Hermione needs his support; he follows her. He finds her with Luna, who's attempting to comfort her. Harry doesn't know what to say to Hermione and, iirc, feels kind of awkward, so he just hands her stuff over, and she's embarrassed, so she runs off.
What Harry did was kind, and it shows more awareness of someone's needs and ability to act to meet them than a lot of characters would show. Where he fell short in this scene was in being able to actually comfort Hermione. However, we wouldn't say he was at fault for this -- she wouldn't wait to be comforted, either by him or by Luna, and he's also a teenage boy. If he'd been able to flawlessly support her, it would've felt weird. There's a whole lot of baggage surrounding the way men are often taught/allowed to express emotions, which frequently boils down to, "they aren't." He has the impulse to comfort her but not the skills.
When I was writing Harriet, I wanted to retain that impulse while augmenting her skills. Some of this can happen purely because she's a girl. It's not that she's innately better at comfort because she's a girl; it's that she gets more opportunity to practice. For one thing, Hermione in such a situation would be less likely to run off from Harriet than from Harry.
What I'm trying to say is that Canon Harry had a sweet moment there. He just had some perfectly natural limitations. I can take those away from Harriet and give her more opportunities to develop this skill.
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Damage Control 3
Warnings: non/dubcon, violence, and other dark elements. My username actually says you never asked for any of this.
My warnings are not exhaustive but be aware this is a dark fic and may include potentially triggering topics. Please use your common sense when consuming content. I am not responsible for your decisions.
Character: Jonathan Pine, Lloyd Hansen
Summary: youâre sent to work intel on a mission with two very combative men.
As usual, I would appreciate any and all feedback. Iâm happy to once more go on this adventure with all of you! Thank you in advance for your comments and for reblogging â€ïž
You slow as you approach the tall and ominous gates of the fortress which appears more a country house. You lean forward to peer through the bars and search the pillars beyond. You see dark specks milling about. A man like Hansen can never be too cautious.Â
âMm, you think the council would tend the lawns,â you mutter.Â
âAh, here, a place like this is hardly a century old. Not worth the funding,â Pine retorts.Â
âFair. I forget how shiny and new everything is here,â you muse. âDo you think we should buzz?âÂ
You look pointedly to the speakerbox near the door.Â
âDonât. Stay in the car,â he girds.Â
You do as he says. He would know better than you. Youâre intel, not an agent. You better behind the scenes than in the midst of one.Â
You wait. You squint through the windshield then reach behind the seat where you put your satchel. You dig out your glasses case and put them on.Â
âAh, I see movement.âÂ
âPatience,â Pine says as he glances over at you.Â
âI never wear these things. Doc says I should when I drive but they just get in my way,â you adjust them as you peer past the bars of the gate.Â
He hums but doesnât remark. A car drives down the stone way that winds up to the immense estate. It slows and single man gets out. You watch curiously. You know as well as the man next to you that there are others watching. Those behind long barrels and scopes.Â
The man has a handgun read. You donât doubt his willingness to use it. Pine sniffs and puts his palms out.Â
âSuppose we need to go through the motions. Keep your hands visible and get out,â he instructs you under your breath.Â
You quickly undo your seat belt and let it repel. He does the same but much calmer than yourself. You pull the door handle and let yourself out, hitting your foot on the interior as you do. You stand and hold your hands clearly by your head.Â
âPine,â the man approaches the gate as he aims.Â
âShould I say a prayer?â Pine asks.Â
âMagenta,â he turns the gun toward you. âDespite the name, I expected some slimy little chump.âÂ
âI recommend you put that down or use it. I do not like to speak over a barrel.â Pine says.Â
âOi, govâna,â the man snorts. âCalm yer horses.â The man holsters the gun and shakes his head. âShe already knows who I am. Sheâs been running checks for months.âÂ
You narrow your eyes at him. As much as you know about him, he must know as much about you. Both of you.Â
âRight, my men will do a search then you can come in. Get a lay of the land. I know you must be dying for a fucking drink,â he snickers and backs up, signaling with his left hand. You notice the two stubs that were once his pinky and ring fingers.Â
He retreats to the car as the gates roll open. Men in black tactical gear emerge and near. Youâre jostled as one pats you down. His hand runs between your thighs and he cups your pelvis. His fingers wiggle in a not too proper motion.Â
âEh, what dâya mean, mate?â You try to pull away and hit the man stand behind you.Â
âWe did not consent to a cavity search,â Pine tries to move around the car but is stopped by the nose of a rifle.Â
âDoing our job,â the man jiggles his hand and you swat him away.Â
âOi, thatâs not your job,â you unthinkingly slap his shoulder next. âFuck yerself.âÂ
He chortles and shakes his head, reaching around you to grope your ass. You yipe and shove him away.Â
âI got nothing in there, mate,â you elbow the one behind you. âMy firearm's in my suitcase. Cut the lining out, you nonce.âÂ
Another man is already in the trunk. You hear him picking apart your luggage. Pine growls and a man hooks his arms from behind.Â
âYou shouldnât treat a lady as such,â he reprimands them as youâre once more fondled.Â
âNo ladies here.â The man sneers.Â
âSure as shit isnât if ya keep touchinâ me like that,â you warn and ball your fists.Â
âClear,â the man shuts the trunk as another pops his head up from the back seat.Â
âThey can walk in,â the man in front of you says. âRichards, drive.âÂ
He points into the drive seat and pulls you out of the way. You twist away from and snarl, âall clear, ya said. No more.âÂ
âI recommend you keep those hands to yourself,â Pine catches his fingers and bends them back before he can reach for you again. âElse you might lose them.âÂ
âBold words for a man with no gun,â the man touches his holster.Â
âIâm not one to hide behind bullets,â Pine retorts and lets him go. âCome on, I donât think your boss would appreciate you keeping him waiting.âÂ
Pine waves you along with him as he starts toward the gates. You keep afoot with hip as best you can. You cross your arms, skin crawling as your cheeks burn. Youâve dealt with similar before but it never gets easier.Â
âAmericans,â he sniffs.Â
âMen,â you correct him then wince. âNot all, you know.âÂ
âToo many,â he shakes his head. âThey seem to follow Hansenâs lead.âÂ
âMust,â you agree.Â
You come up to the front of the house after a long hike up the stoned drive. Hansen sits on the steps, grooming his mustache with a small comb. He smirks but doesnât stop.Â
âFigure you could stand to stretch your legs after all that sitting,â he scoffs. âWelcome to Paradise.âÂ
You squint and push your glasses up into your hair. Pine shifts and tilts his head, âlovely house.âÂ
âIsnât it?â Hansen stands and tramps down the steps. He nears you as he tucks away the comb in his front pocket. âWhat do you like to drink, sugar cookie?âÂ
You peek at Pine from the corner of your eyes. Heâs being nice, for now. May as well enjoy that while it lasts.Â
âYou got lager? Cheers.â You say.Â
âCheers,â he echoes in delight, âcute. Would like biscuits and tea, eh?âÂ
He mocks your accent but you donât flinch. âIf itâs on offer, I wonât say no.âÂ
âIâll have tea, if itâs on the menu,â Pine intones as he sidesteps closer.Â
Hansen pulls back and looks at the taller man. He smirks. Â
âOf course, chap, Iâm sure I can find you a tea bag,â he grins as he claps the other manâs shoulder. Pine gives his hand a detestable glare before it falls away. âAlright, pardon my fucking manners.â Hansen spins on his heel, âletâs go.âÂ
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