#*sobs in GureShin*

[schneereggen]

Believe me when I say, this hits so much harder when you can turn the page 😍🫠

Also how good Shinya is looking here. Especially how old. He keeps getting younger throughout the chapter. But damn he looks hot.

[nayruwu]

hello ! i hope you’re doing well :)

i just wanted to ask what your thoughts are on the whole ‘shinya not being part of the official squad in vampire reign’ situation

also i absolutely adore your art, as well as your thoughts and opinions on everything ons, they’re so interesting to read :D <3

AHH THAT'S SO KIND thank you!! <3

funny that you ask, because i do actually have one thought on this! but before that, i assume shinya was eventually taken out of guren's squad because he was promoted and became too important, and vampire extermination squads were set to have only five members, not six. there's so many reasons i want a resurrection continuation, and one of them is that i would love to see the squad's reaction to this change. i'm sure it was hard on them - both because this meant that they could spend a lot less time with one of their own, and because they had to get used to goshi being their only support in battle, when before they had shinya covering everyone's backs from afar as well.

and my one thought is that i think it would be quite interesting (and painful) if guren was actually the one to ask for shinya to be taken out of his squad. since shinya being too close to guren could eventually lead to him finding out, especially when guren plans to make contact with accomplices such as ferid during missions.

imagine the drama! guren and shinya standing in front of kureto as he tells them of this new arrangement. shinya being appalled and looking over at guren expecting a similar reaction but guren can only look down at the floorboards in shame while kureto goes "why are you so surprised? ichinose was the one who asked me to do this, after all." the absolute hurt and confusion in his mind but guren avoids him until he drops it. haha! i love pain.

[t-mulxifandom]

i will never stop crying over this ;;

[kuroheishi]

Pre-Munday part 3 (cause I have always work on Mondays argh)

|| There is no Guren without his family and Shinya @littlxlamb

- @ kisshiichu & @ scpegoat

[noorio12]

BOYE

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEST BOY

[sxyraaaaa]

The number of fanarts on Pixiv for gureshin n guren squad got me sobbing why didnt i find them sooner

[nizawrites]

Walk back home (Gureshin oneshot)

Description: Shinya had always been good at expressing how he felt but if there was one thing he couldn’t express that well, it was the feeling of love.

Warning/s: angst-ish

Word count: 1.2k words

A/N: helloooo !! I tried making a oneshot about gureshin? because idk hehe :> anyways hope you guys like it !! forgive me for any grammatical mistakes though and am so sorry if it turns out to be a sloppy and bad oneshot :

Guren Ichinose wasn’t one to express himself. He didn’t like the thought of expressing how he felt about someone or something. Whatever he felt, whether it was bad or good, he kept it to himself, like always.

Shinya Hiiragi, the opposite of guren ichinose, was a boy who could freely express how he felt. He could easily express how he was feeling and express what he wanted. He had times when he wouldn’t tell anyone about how he felt but it was normal, people just want to keep some things to themselves.

It was quite funny to others that guren ichinose and shinya hiiragi were friends, well bestfriends to be exact. They’ve always thought that guren wouldn’t be able to have a friend, let alone make one. But, expect the unexpected from these two because they are something else. Shinya may have come from a well known family, even though he was adopted. Nobody dared to mess with shinya because of his status while guren, guren was an ichinose. Not really known to others so he wasn’t a hotshot in his school unlike shinya but that all changed when he had met the said boy.

Guren would’ve walked away that day but he found himself holding onto the other boy’s hand as they walked to the cafeteria.

“Guren, they have chicken stew today.” shinya had said as they made their way down the hall. Guren found it all to embarrassing, from the way shinya was holding onto his hand and from the way he wasn’t resisting shinya.

“So? I don’t like chicken stew.” Guren nonchalantly said as they entered the cafeteria. Shinya could only laugh and turn around to face guren, he softly smiled before leaning in, close enough to earn a blush from guren.

“But you like me right?” he asked softly as he looked guren dead in the eyes. Guren had obviously not expected shinya to say that at the moment but that’s shinya hiiragi for you.

“What the– stop joking around.” he said, turning his head away from the silver-white haired man. He should’ve seen this, he should’ve known shinya would tease him by flirting with him.

“Oh stop acting like you don’t love it.” Shinya playfully said as they went to claim their lunches and headed off to find a table for them.

“I don’t love it nor like it, so please stop.” Guren said as they sat down, shinya sitting opposite from him as they started eating.

“Mmm, whatever ichinose.” shinya mumbled as he took a spoonful of his stew.

Days had turned into months and months had finally turned into years. Guren and shinya were now high school seniors, they were graduating in a few weeks.

“You gonna miss me?” shinya asked the other man as they walked down the street, guren in front of shinya as they walked back home.

“Honeslty, no. I’ve spent my whole life with you so yeah no.” guren replied nonchalantly as he continued walking, his eyes looking ahead.

Shinya clicked his tongue as he watched guren from behind. His eyes trailed down guren’s back until he found guren’s shoes. He watched every step guren made on their way home, he watched guren’s foot move up in the air just a little to take a step forward. It was like this, everyday. Guren and shinya would walk home together, guren leading the way as shinya would walk behind him. They would talk about a few things before the conversation would eventually die and they would walk in silence, watching the sun set. It had been like this ever since their elementary days, the two would walk home together.

“I’ll miss you though.” shinya finally broke the silence. He had stopped walking when he had said this, his foot wouldn’t take a step further, he couldn’t keep up with guren anymore at this point.

“Hmm? But we’re always…” guren said as he stopped walking when he had realized shinya has stopped walking as well. He was about to face shinya when he felt firm but soft arms wrap around him. It was shinya, he was back hugging him.

“Yes, we’re always together. We’ll always be even after graduation…. that’s what you were going to say right?” shinya said as he buried his face into guren’s back. Slowly but surely, hot tears had formed in shinya’s eyes, they slid down his cheeks as he spoke. “I know I’ll see you again, ichinose. I know I will but…. I’ll miss spending this much time with you, I’ll miss holding your hand and I’ll miss being by your side, guren.” he finally said before letting out a soft sob.

Guren could only stand still as shinya cried, he didn’t know why but his heart felt like it was breaking, like piece by piece he was falling apart. “Shinya….” guren started as he tried to move and face shinya but to no avail.

“Don’t. I don’t want you to see me like this….” shinya softly said as he continued hugging the other. Shinya had always been good at expressing how he felt but if there was one thing he couldn’t express properly, it was the feeling of love.

Guren sighed softly as he stared at the road ahead, the sun had started to set and it was getting dark. He couldn’t move due to shinya and he didn’t dare to move, hearing shinya’s soft sobs. It was one of the few times shinya had cried and it was also the very first time he saw shinya cry because of him.

“I just wanted to tell you that, no matter what guren… I will always miss you and let alone love you.” shinya softly said as he sniffled, his heart was clenching and his body wanted to fall down and collapse. “I love you so much guren, ever since the first day of elementary school till our high school days and until this very day.” he said, his eyes shutting as he held back more tears “I loved you so much that it hurt and I didn’t know I was hurting until I realized my feelings for you.” shinya breathed out.

Guren felt his heart drop at shinya’s words. Shinya was crying because he loved him, loved in a romantic way. Guren swallowed the lump in his throat as he tried to break free but shinya held him in place.

“I know you like my fiance, mahiru.” shinya said as he softly smiled, his tears soaking guren’s school blazer. “I’m not asking you to stop liking her just because I confessed my feelings…. but I just wanted to let you know how I felt.” he continued on “and I just wanted to say that I wish you the best with mahiru, I really do hope you guys get together, guren.” and that was when shinya had let him go, the once tight arms that were holding him in place were suddenly gone.

Guren stood still, his heart was hurting but he didn’t know why. Was it because he loved someone else and he hurt his bestfriend? Was it because shinya was crying because of him? Was it because he was so damn confused? He really didn’t know.

“I will still and always be your bestfriend though, guren.” shinya softly said as he walked past guren, his hand in his pocket as he walked under the now dark sky.

Guren wanted to reach out and hold shinya’s hand and continue their walk home but he found himself standing still, watching shinya walk away into the darkness.

[ao3feed-yuumikayuu]

Never like before

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2X8ChC1

by 5eshoes

When Guren thought that Shinya was far away enough, he left the sobs out, but Shinya wasn’t that far away, he could hear him but still, he closed his eyes and kept on walking while hearing his best friend breaking down.

Words: 2118, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: 終わりのセラフ | Owari no Seraph | Seraph of the End

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M

Characters: Ichinose Guren, Hiiragi Shinya, Goshi Norito, Juujou Mito, Hanayori Sayuri, Yukimi Shigure, Ichinose Guren's Squad, Hyakuya Yuuichirou, Hyakuya Mikaela, Hiiragi Shinoa

Relationships: Hiiragi Shinya/Ichinose Guren, Hiiragi Shinya & Ichinose Guren, GureShin - Relationship, Hyakuya Mikaela/Hyakuya Yuuichirou, Hyakuya Mikaela & Hyakuya Yuuichirou, MikaYuu - Relationship

Additional Tags: guren ichinose - Freeform, Shinya Hiiragi - Freeform, gureshin

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2X8ChC1

[veroninya]

One might have thought it impossible but I finished the giveaway art for @tang-wei​!! Finally some GureShin again. Eh? eh??? 

Thanks for taking part and supporting me and being so patient. You’re too nice to me, sobs sobs.

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[miwagashi]

Fanfic Writer Appreciation <3

It’s Fanfiction Writer Appreciation Day~!

I’m not usually one for text posts but this is a special occasion so I’m going to spill my guts here and essentially write a love letter to all the fantastic writers out there. (fair warning this might get a tad very long)

Having read fanfiction since my early teenage years, the medium has always and will always have a special place in my heart. Truthfully, it was something I took for granted back then and I never really thought about the ‘face behind the writing’. But the last three years marked fanfic consumption like I’ve never seen before and it struck me one day there was someone out there, somewhere in the world, writing these amazing works and that blew my mind, even though it was something so obvious. 

The time you put into weaving stories that pull readers in and sharing them without asking for more than a kudo or a comment. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. Please continue to share your amazing talent so I can fawn over you and know that you are appreciated and endlessly loved. 

Over the course of the day (and beyond!), please drop your favourite authors a kudo or comment to show your love and support. 

Whether we’ve talked or not, whatever fandom your from, you’re all precious and I hope you know that <3 

(shoutouts under the cut)

Some of us have talked and some I lurk and fawn over in excitement (but would like to work up the courage to talk to someday!), but here are some writers that never fail to make my day and inspire me <3 (to those I’ve never spoken to... I really hope this doesn’t come across awkwardly ^^;;)

@chubbyhippo Vii~ What would I do without you. My dearest friend, we’ve been on this fanfic journey together almost from the very beginning. Your writing is so beautiful and eloquent, every word carefully chosen (or run through a thesaurus ;)) to deliver an emotion-filled piece every time. Thank you for dragging me into writing and I hope to see your WIPs in the near future!

@chom-raaa My first fandom friend! You have such an amazing way of conveying emotion and my heart is always swimming with feels after reading one of your fics <3 I hope you’ll continue to write more and thank you for never failing to bring a smile to my face when you comment!

@kurapls Back in the day when I read every soukoku fic that came out as they came out, To Ruination was one of the ones I found myself eagerly waiting for an update and giggling/sobbing under the covers over the amazing writing every chapter. Your world building and character development is truly mind-blowing and I have such respect for your ability to create such rich and magical worlds. Thank you for, well, everything! 

@likeshining Star, star, star. I’ve spilled my love to you already but there’s never enough so here’s some more. I envy your ability to throw me right into the middle of a universe or scene and immediately have me engrossed in the story. Thank you for the amazing dead Chuuyas and angst and for talking with me about the randomest things <3 

@catsbythegreat You have such a way with words that I honestly cannot explain. Your writing is filled with such unspoken emotion that I often find myself sitting there contemplating what I’ve just read. Thank you for your amazing contribution to the fandom!

@blackandorange To this day FLAR still pops into my head randomly and whispers feels to me. The raw emotion spills out from every word and it’s amazing. I can’t wait to read the prequel and sequel and experience the roller coaster that is sure to come along with it! Thank you so much~

@shizuos I’m not sure what to say because you are one of the writers I look up to so much. I found you through your skk drabbles and let me tell you that are all golden and I didn’t know something so short could make me feel so many things before finding your works. Thank you for your amazing writing and I hope we’ll see more soukoku from you? owo I’m not ready to dive into Iwaoi hell (or back into Shizaya hell) just yet but know that when I am, april 23th and tongue tied are the first things on my list to read! 

@firecrotchette So uh... I read ‘all was golden in the sky’ early this morning and... I’m ready to binge Fair Ankles and The Yielding Air in one go as soon as I find the time. This universe is stunning and the I’m so excited to read an amazing Gods and Goddesses AU for BSD. The dynamic and emotions between Akutagawa and Atsushi were so vivid and real I can’t wait to really dive into that world! Thank you for such an amazing piece of writing!

@rimacchii found you through A Eulogy of Tragedies and slowly died/am dying from it and then discover you also write for BSD! I can’t wait to sink myself in your BSD fic, I’ve been resisting for fear of my sanity if the burn is like that of eulogy ovo;; but I fear I may succumb to the temptation soon. Thank you so much for the amazing writing!

AnonLearnsToWrite has the most amazing ideas and executes them so beautifully. And seredemia sunk me right into Gureshin hell with no hope of return. Thank you both so much. And also thank you to all the writers of sarumi, gureshin, soukoku, and other fandoms I’ve read but have unfortunately forgotten ;w;  If you’ve made it this far, yay! I basically just word-vomitted everything that came to mind and the extent of my vocabulary (of lack thereof) is astounding me (how many times did I use ‘amazing’...?) Please check these authors out if you get the chance and spread the love and appreciation! <3

*crawls back into my shell in embarrassment* =w=

[tang-wei]

I cannot thank you enough for your translations, esp the Guren LNs!!!! *throws confetti and medals at you* MY HERO!! :D THANK YOU♡♡♡♡♡♡ (ALSO I AM CRYING OVER THE GUREN SQUAD AND GURESHIN FEELS *SOBS* SHINYA MY BABY N O)

I K R T H E N E X T V O L U M E W I L L K I L L M E 

the thought scares me ;-;

[yuzukimist]

*flails in tremendous joy* You liked it! I'm so glad you liked it, you gave me like the best feedback ever (I was so moved by your comments that I actually started to tear up and someone I was sitting with was like “...Are you okay?” and I was just “ Y-yeah. *sniffles*” XD).

The birthday fights and the flashback parts were really hard for me to write about, because my heart was just breaking into painful little pieces for Shinya the entire time. Like, I had to actually step away from writing the chapter at various points because I was just a little too overwhelmed by the emotions I was putting into it. (That ridiculous GureShin fanvid happened during one of those breaks, actually; I was trying to distract myself from all the angst. XD).

And Kureto, jeez. I just...can't stand him! Or any of Shinya's family other than Shinoa, really. They are all just horrible and awful. I wanted some ambiguity here, though, because there are occasional hints in the light novels and the manga that maybe Kureto's not a complete and total asshole...but to me he will always be at least 98% asshole no matter what, so when I had Kureto give Shinya mandatory leave from duty, I left it open to interpretation as to whether he's doing it purely for Shinya's well-being or not (Shinya for his part, is probably inclined to believe Kureto was being underhandedly malicious and who can blame him, since Kureto's such a jerk to him?). In any case, in hindsight, it did turn out to be very beneficial for Shinya's, because if Kureto hadn't forced him to take time off, Guren never would've come looking for him and comforted him. ;D  

I can also relate to Shinya working himself so hard to try and forget his problems, though; like you, I have a tendency to do things like clean my house or do yardwork (or wash my truck, or re-organize my books, or...you get the idea XD) when I'm upset or need to not think about certain things. Shinya seems like the sort of person who would do that, too, so it felt very natural to write that in.

And Guren showed up at precisely the right time! I had a lot of trouble trying to figure out when, exactly, he would turn up, and also how. But then I was writing and suddenly it was like “He's going to knock on the door and find Shinya on the floor, duh” and while I'm sure Shinya didn't agree, it felt like the perfect moment to me, too. XD

And I am SO GLAD you like how Guren handled it. I was so terrified of making him seem out of character, so I was second-guessing like every single thing he said.  I swear the parts with Guren took me the longest of the entire fic, just because I really wanted to get it right; like, this was what the whole story was building up to, it had to be perfect. XD In the end, I just tried to remember that Guren's, like, emotionally repressed and just not good at expressing concern like 99% of the time, so whenever he's worried, the initial emotional reaction is going to be “anger born of worry”, hence the “Shinya, what the hell is wrong, why didn't you tell me?!” moments, which later mellowed into him being more comforting and just...saying exactly what Shinya needed to hear, I think. :) And yeah, Guren has a pretty solid zero tolerance policy for bullshit, so I definitely liked being able to have him glare at Shinya and be like “Cut the crap, I know something's wrong” and Shinya just caves and explains because he knows that Guren is not going to let it go. XD

Honestly, you picked up on all the things I was thinking of when I wrote this, even the little things that I was worried about no one noticing because I might've been too subtle. You're the best~

((ahhh...kind of? *guilty smile* it's okay, though, we'll suffer together! Seriously, though, as soon as I saw that gif of little adorable kiddie Shinya [with a heart no less!!!] I just had to add it because...LOOK AT HOW ADORABLE AND PRECIOUS HE IS!!! And he's like, actually smiling and means it and he's too cute and little, I can't stand it. *hysterical sobbing*))

Anyway, thank you again SO MUCH  for all your wonderful and amazing comments, they literally made my day! :D 

So...I have a sudden desire to write a 5+1 Things one-shot about Shinya...

Specifically five times Shinya had a serious panic attack and had to deal with it alone, and one time he had someone help him through it (it’ll be Guren, of course, because I’m GureShin trash). 

So….yeah, that’s a thing that might happen. XD

[yuzukimist]

@gettinprowly (also @allieyy, in case you wanted to see some of my most recent writing ;D) @owarinosyrup, @gureshin-trash...as always, I am forgetting to tag a ton of people, but I know you all lurk the shinya & gureshin tags like I do, so I trust you’ll find this post eventually. XD

Guess who posted the third chapter of Five Times Shinya Suffered Through a Panic Attack Alone (and One Time Someone Showed up to Help)? Me, right here! XD

I meant to take the day and do something adult-like and productive, but Adult Responsibilities just did not seem appealing today, lol. XD So instead, I smashed my poor Shinya-loving heart to pieces again and churned out the third installment! (After much ugly sobbing, I might add.)

It’s available here on ao3, and here on fffnet. As always any and all feedback would be most welcome! :D 

So...I have a sudden desire to write a 5+1 Things one-shot about Shinya...

Specifically five times Shinya had a serious panic attack and had to deal with it alone, and one time he had someone help him through it (it’ll be Guren, of course, because I’m GureShin trash). 

So….yeah, that’s a thing that might happen. XD