#*firmly grasps younger me shoulders* you. really fucking hate academia. you hate studying you are Not cut out as a chem major | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

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ive been working on my portfolio for art school applications for the past several months and the deadline for one of the colleges i wanna attend is coming up real quick and im not fucking done and im stressed and ive been So Stressed that ive had a persistent eyelid twitch for my right for like a week and its so fucking annoying i want to stab my eye with a fork when will FUCKING STOP DOING THAT. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THIS IS BASICALLY COLLEGE APPS *PEGGLE 2 JUMP* 2!!!!! I CANT BELIEVE IM RELIVING ONE OF THE MOST STRESSFUL TIMES OF MY LIFE AGAIN (SHRIEKS INTO A PILLOW) 4 YEARS LATER AND IM LITERALLY STARTING COMPLETELY OVER AGAIN

#I HOPE MY EYEBALL FUCKING EXPLODES FUCK MY SHITTY FUCKING EYE STOP IT!!!!!#IF I CAN GO BACK IN TIME AND WARN MY YOUNGER SELF ILL SAY #*firmly grasps younger me shoulders* you. really fucking hate academia. you hate studying you are Not cut out as a chem major #you ended up changing majors from chem eng bc Its Really Fucking Not Anything You Thought It Would Be Like Its Not Like Chemistry #and also turns out theres 4 types of chemistry beyond gen chem and you are really bad 2 of them #organic chemistry is fun maybe BUT INORGANIC CHEMISTRY IS NOTHING LIKE IT AND IT DOES NOT MAKE SENSE TURN BACK BEFORE ITS TOO LATE #dont go to ucsd dont do it. youll be so fucking depressed. youll have a fun roommate tho and thats the ONLY UPSIDE #younger me you definitely not in the right mindset to know what you want to do in your life but trust me you fucking hate academic work #you like art... go for it... start making a portfolio and draw more.. do some studies... youll save so my time and energy....#also fucking money.#well at least i have most of my GEs done considering i went for more than 3 years #but god im so behind my peers. all my friends have jobs probs.#meanwhile im gonna have to spend more money on tuition *cries*#AND ITLL BE EVEN MORE EXPENSIVE BC NO MORE GRANTS AND ALL THE GOOD ART COLLEGES ARE PRIVATE..... I HATE HIGHER EDUCATION TUITION #ITS FUCKED UP WHY IS IT SO EXPENSIVE WHY DO THEY NEED SO MUCH FUCKING MONEY!!!!!!!!#this post has been a long time coming But Thats My Life Update Yall.#dropped out of a UC like a fucking loser so fucking pursue something that im hoping ill actually be happy doing...#bc i couldnt see myself being happy doing stem work at all...#honestly i stopped being depressed when i dropped out it worked like a cure... stopping what made me so unhappy...#but im worried that i wont be cut out as an artist also but i hope not.... wish me luck yall...#jem's miscellany

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