#*SOBS*

[rosy-crow]

not enough people are reveling in the horrors that is sephiroth having SEVERE CPTSD!!

HGGFJFHF YEAH

Also, on a few lists, “hyper-vigilance” was a symptom…which….bruh

I watched a documentary about kids with CPTSD and also one on attachment disorders in infants after maternal neglect a while ago, and basically, when they put well-adjusted kids in a room with each other and some adults, it was all smiles, trust, camaraderie, play, fun, etc.. Those babies were bright and looking at the adults all the time! They bonded really easily.

But the kids with either the attachment disorder or the CPTSD just sat there looking on high alert. They didn’t sleep or rest, they didn’t trust the adults. They looked anxious and they were babies :(

The kids with the maternal neglect issues were known to look around the room and at the doors like they were waiting for someone. Waiting for someone to come back. It made me cry at the time, dude.

Anyway, Sephiroth first reminded me of the kids with the attachment disorders when I was going through OG and he seemed like he was looking for…something. When he found Jenova, I was like…”OH! WAIT IS THIS MOTHER THING DELIBERATE…”

And when I got to Lucrecia, as soon as she said “I never even got to hold him,” it all clicked. That explained a LOT 💀

I could not find hardly any analysis videos or forums on him (outside of tumblr) that even bothered to mention it. It’s hopefully gonna change with FS!

But what’s also becoming more blatant aside from the attachment disorder is the CPTSD, I agree. He showed up in episode 1 already a mess around the adults, not sure how to interact after isolation, really apologetic when he messed up and he wilted whenever Glenn yelled. Then we had that whole speech he gave when they confronted him about his ruthlessness and he basically gave away that he was trained to be afraid as a warrior. Deathly fearful, paranoid and reactive on the battlefield even with children and elderly because he believed he’d surely die if he hesitated or showed any compassion.

That basically means they beat fear into his head for a long time and put him in situations where he perfected the “kill or be killed” mindset.

(I’m so happy he does THIS with the Wutai troops as an adult though. HE LEARNED TO HESITATE AND OFFER HIS ENEMIES A CHANCE BEFORE JUST GOING FOR THE KILL SJDHDH)

But as for his younger self, what kid would be trained like that (especially by fucking Hojo) and not develop all of the exact traits Sephiroth has in these stories, honestly…I can’t even imagine.

He has the other symptoms of CPTSD too. He feels disconnected and different, he has serious issues with engaging or starting relationships, he dehumanizes himself, he speaks like the world is hopeless and HIS life is worthless outside of his missions, and he is apparently gonna say to Angeal something about them not being able to understand each other because of how they were raised….which fits with the “feeling like nobody can understand you” symptom.

Ugh. This seems to be a big part of what he has and it’s at its worst right now in episode 2 because now it’s not just the isolated war machine childhood + the Hojo horrors fucking him up, but we got everything that happened in Rhadore too.

I mean yeah, no WONDER this kid is closed off and falling into the Alissa/Jenova/Masamune trap or whatever. I bet he’s gonna have a mini Nibelheim or some kind of breakdown, and my hopes are in Angeal’s intervention. If anyone can get through to Sephiroth, it’s him.

[sad-girl-hours23]

Fuck It Friday

Thank you for tagging me @jamieroyjamieroy :)

Here's some more of my untitled IKEA fic, previous posts can be found here

On the way to the living room section, Evan pauses at a kid’s playroom display. There’s a desk and an art easel in one corner. In another corner is the most realistic play kitchen Tommy’s ever seen. Evan walks over to it, opening doors and turning knobs, smiling to himself.

Tommy thinks about his spare room that’s collecting dust more than anything else; how it has plenty of room for a kitchen set, and a desk, and an art easel. 

Tommy walks over to Evan. “Jee would love that.”

“Huh? Oh. Yeah.” Evan sets down a tray of cinnamon rolls he’d pulled from the oven. And they’re just standing there, for what feels like a lifetime, in this room built for pretend. 

Tommy looks around and he imagines a few more kids running around. Except they look less like Howie and a lot more like, well, Evan.

Tommy didn’t know he even wanted kids until he was standing with his boyfriend in an IKEA display at 2 P.M on a Sunday afternoon.

And well, he shouldn’t be surprised. Evan had a way of uncovering hidden parts of him, dusting them off and offering them back as if they were new, as if he was saying: look, it’s you.

Evan was always introducing Tommy to himself.

Tommy clears his throat. “Do you want—”

Evan turns toward him. “Do I want…?”

“To show me the couch you found?”

Evan takes one more look around. Then he turns back to Tommy and smiles. “Yeah. C’mon.”

[ringostarrbignaturals]

when i'm in a "what are we" competition and my opponents are these mfs

[pinktrapped]

Wukong after S5 be like

[ruubesz-draws]

Wholesome brother moment :)

I literally have no idea what some of these words even mean and I don't want to know

Idea from:

[hannibal-is-my-comfort-show]

[burnt-venus]

This Armin from Levi's memory is so cute, his eyes shine so bright

[sofiaruelle]

Elliot and his emotional support crab burning the midnight oil.

[kitten4sannie]

CHOI SAN WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM???

(/＞□＜）/亠亠

[colorfulsmayles24]

I‘m coping with memes

[justanotherfangirlwup]

guys I had enough 💔

[idunnowhattowriteheretbh]

I've loved you from the start~

Soft King from Lovetale au belongs to @niko-aspin

I couldn't help myself and had to draw him lmao

Also he has a corset cuz my thought process was that there's no way this fruity man doesn't wear a corset /silly

[solarisquid]

The real aftermath of Full Moon

Fizz: Hey, how did it go? Did he like it? Blitz: * deafening silence * Fizz: You did WHAT!?

[inumbrapugnabimus-maybe]

Some older art of the best little guys themselves!!

I never posted this because I wanted to link the fic it was inspired by, but I couldn’t find it :(

(It was about four and Hyrule discovering each others… shrinking abilities, and then going off and having fun in the woods together. In the sequel Legend got suspicious and investigated in his bunny form XD)

edit: the wonderful @uncleskyrule found the fic! It’s Of Minish and Men by Seeking7 on Ao3!!

[gunsatthaphan]

if you think I will ever stop posting these you're wrong 🤷🏼‍♀️

[cutie-lumi]

Y2K inspired fem!natsume 💗 ⚡ 🌈